Multifandom || Pretend, pretend, pretend.
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- Опубліковано 22 лют 2022
- «The biggest mistake I made was believing that if I cast a beautiful net I would catch only beautiful things.»
I could write an essay about this video, let's just say it's personal. I actually started it three years ago, I had the idea but I didn't know how to execute it properly. Apparently what I needed was time and most importantly the right motivation, in this case: anger. Someone made me really angry one day and I got angry with the whole world, because I'm so tired of everything, and so, that very same day I basically put together the whole voiceover structure of the video.
The video pretty much started focusing on how I feel I have to bend backwards and mold myself into everybody's opinion of what I should be and how I get paid dust anyway, cause nothing is ever enough. So yeah, this video kind of started like a "scr*w you!" to everybody that has ever made me feel like shit for just being myself and liking what I like.
But then I realised that even tho this video felt pretty much like I was only screaming at people I have encountered throughout my whole life, it was not. Because it got to a point where I saw most of it felt like I was arguing with myself. The person I was, with the person I've become.
I regret so many things, mostly things I've done to myself by pretending to be someone I'm not. It has gotten to a point where "pretend" is like a shield in which I feel safe behind, and I've been really trying to put myself out there again but it's hard.
Pretend has been my fortress, it started as a way of protecting who I was from the world... little did I know that would cause me to lose so many parts of myself instead. Now the "shield of pretend" jumps out all of the sudden and most of the time I feel like I'm no longer in control, I just answer things that aren't true to protect myself and I don't even realise it, it just happens automatically. I'm so inside my own head now, my true self is I guess, and it's so difficult to get out.
I only truly feel like myelf when I'm alone.
So a lot of those questions on the video have double meaning, I could be asking someone else or I could be asking myself: "do you even like me?" and honestly, I have no idea.
At the end of the day the person I'm angry with and that I hate the most is me.
... I am sorry. That got way too deep but I just wanted to give a bit of context to this video. Like I said this one is personal. Hope you all are doing better than me at being yourselves and if not, let's hope we can get out of our shells little by little.
Anyway, even if you can relate to it or not, I hope you'll be able to enjoy the video. Thank you so much for watching :)
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• Coloring: dominoesrising.
• Song: at the end of the video.
• Software: Sony Vegas Pro 15.
• Fandoms: The Queen's Gambit, Euphoria, Yellowjackets, Stranger Things, Looking for Alaska, Anne with an e, The Tudors, Love 101, The Haunting of Hill House, Sense8, TUA, Sweet Home, The Great, Young Royals, Sex Education, The Wilds, Selah and the spades, The Magicians, Wandavision.
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ohh this is so beautiful and heartbreaking!! the colouring is so gorgeous, makes it feel like you're looking back at an old sepia photograph. stunning work as always!! x
thank you soo much!! this gorgeous coloring it's by dominoesrising, it added so much to the vibe of the video :D
Sara, this is so much more than an edit. Left me numb. It portrays the emotional turmoil so effing well - the pretending, the outer shell, the cast that we create to fit into the world people around us have created and eventually it gets to the point that we feel lost in the world, we feel lost when the shell is taken off, we feel empty - like we never really belong - be it with or without the shell.
I am sending you so much love and strength. I relate to the video in unimaginable ways - I hope we get through this someday. 💛
thank you soo much! I'm glad the video made you feel something. I'm working on my issies, I've doing it for a while now but it's a long process. anyway, thank you!
this is so beautiful and so sad, i relate to this in many levels..the shield that we build on our own are probably our worst enemy; we just truly need to find people that doesn't make us put the shield in front of us but instead just let us be who we are without feeling judg
thank you!! we are indeed our own worst enemy, let's hope we can find nice people to be around with :')
Don’t want to make any offence to the other beautiful and so good editors, but to me, you are the greatest of us. The best in every single thing. Your edits just leave me speechless every single time. Don’t ever stop because you are so rare and we’re so lucky to see your stories through your edits. I really think they’re gifts and for that, I thank you a lot.
... I don't know what to say. Thank you so much, really. I'm so happy my videos make you feel stuff :')
OH MY GOD SARA. You seriously went off with this one. I love your fandom/ship videos but something about your mutifandom videos takes your already amazing editing skills to another level. I really love the vibe you created with this one. With the song, coloring (😭), voiceovers, clips, etc. your ability to find parallels and commonalities between characters is so unmatched.
As for the story behind the video. Watching it felt just as cathartic as i’m sure it felt making it. Hearing your story really made this video even deeper seeing it as a sort of journal entry to your innermost thoughts and emotions. I hope making this brought you some peace and healing.
Love you and your beautiful soul 💕
hdaslfhadklfh Thank you sooo much!! It means a lot :')
my god, this theme combined with your editing 😭😭 beautiful work as always 😭
thank you lady!! :')
You truly excel in multifandoms from your choice of music to the way you layer the voiceovers and scenes to portray a specific theme or message. That feeling of guilt and regret to the point where you question who you are or what you even want/need anymore is one that I can sadly relate to. When you live with a 'mask' for so long, it's hard to break free and explore who you truly are underneath it all. I only hope that it gets easier with time.
Thank you so much!! glad you could relate to the video, and let's hope we both get better at leaving that "mask" behind :')
AHHHH I CANT BELIEVE YOU USED MY COLORING IM CRYINF SKCJSIXBA
well, believe it!! your coloring really brought this project to life, thank you so much for sharing it
even if i don't know a lot of the media in this video, the message comes across perfectly. this is amazing
side-note, though, i absolutely love the decision of adding those scenes of hyunsu, it fits perfectly with the concept of this video
thank you so much :')
Sara no se ni que decir, esto es tan personal que a veces me siento una intrusa viendo tus vídeos porque reflejas tan bien las emociones que es como si nos estuvieras dejando entrar a ver una parte de ti. Has reflejado tan bien la rabia, esa lucha con nosotros mismos de seguir fingiendo o ser nosotros que nos asusta tanto... o como odiamos ser como somos a veces, no se ni que decir, me has dejado sin palabras, con esto, no es sólo la edición que es magnífica y todos los personajes / escenas están al detalle, es que esto es otro nivel de sentimiento y significado y solo te digo que maldita maravilla y que te abrazaría fuerte si te viera? Eso 💛
n'aaaawwww muchas gracias Silvia!! :')
I won't pretend this hasn't got deep into my psyche❤️ I resonate with every word on the description, but the fragile the heart, the beautiful the art, so you need that shield when your inside and your outside doesn't match, that's what I believe 🙂
PS: If that's what your 'scream' looks like, you should scream more often:))
wow, thank you soo much! It means a lot :')
I've been watching your edits for ages. So glad you are still doing these masterpieces.
n'aaaw thank you :')
So I watched this before reading the description and let me just state yet again what a genius you are with voiceovers and storytelling. I could literally *see* that anger coming out throughout the video and the frustration of feeling like you've been performing a version of yourself to the rest of the world that will be acceptable to those around you is very familiar to me too, and that just knocked all the air right out of me by the end of the video because I really think you just captured that feeling entirely here. This is just ART and I will not get tired of watching all of your multifandoms and the depth you give to every one of them. ❤
hfdalkfhdg thank you so much lady :')
this is so beautiful. thank you for your work and inspiration! i don't know all the fandoms, but i just felt how nellie pretended that she was okay and then tried to save her sanity pretending that her loved ones is here. and she is safe. how q pretended that he was okay because he got magic. because even dean said that he does not need his medications. and how сatherine had to hide herself all the time.
i loved it, thank you!
thank you soo much :')
HELLO? OH MY GOD? the coloring the pacing the voice overs the parallels i'm. speechless this was so stunning
thank you so much :D
SARA, THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND EMOTIONAL IN THE SAME TIME, I LOVE IT SO MUCH BABE.
SENDING YOU ALL MY LOVE AND HOPING YOU CAN FEEL BETTER BABE, LOVE U SO MUCH💜
thank you so much regi! :DD
OMG I'M BLOWN AWAY BY THIS!!
You really embodied all the emotions into this video, I could feel it myself! This really pulled out all the strings here...
And I really love how vidding allows us to put all these emotions out!
Sending you love and I hope we all get the strength to overcome and live through it all! 🖤
thank you so much lady! it means a lot! editing truly is an outlet for my feels, I have to let them out somehow :')
WHAT WAS THAT ? Absolutely marveouls video once again........... Im just stunned, your editing style is so unique and so different from what I am used to seeing.. Your videos are always entertaining !
hdashflkadhg thank you soo much!!
I don’t have the words. This is stunning
thank you!
I relate to this one a lot. Sometimes it feels so hard to understand my emotions and my true self. Sometimes I don’t even know who I am and who I wanna be. And the only thing is left is to pretend, it feels easier. Hopefully we all can stop doing this and just except ourselves as we really are, with all the flaws. Because it’s okay not to be perfect, make mistakes and learn from them.
Thank you for a beautiful video. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. I know you can overcome this and I hope you will.
Ps: being following you for ages, have no idea why didn’t comment on videos before, sorry 👽
THANK YOU!!! let's hoep we both get better at being ourselves :')
and you have nothing to be sorry about, comment when you feel like it :D
This is simply a masterpiece
thank you!
This is incredibly beautiful, Sara! I love how deep the concept of this video really is.
I don't know if i have said this before, but i will: your talent doesn't know any type of limits.
hfdlakhdaklgh thank you soo much! :')
What you did, and especially with this song... *s p e e c h l e s s*
hdlghsf THANK YOU!
This is so freaking good, you just never disappoint. The intensity of this video is everything.
And I relate way too much with what you said in your description/what you portrayed here. It gets to a point where we adapt so much to the image we think people want, it gets hard to know who we are anymore. Hopefully, we will get more clarity and feel more like an actual individual in the future ♥
You're a creator of beauty
thank you!! djfhadlhkaklghd ^_______^
the beat of this is soo good :)
thanks! :)
wow, this is so amazing, i have no words.
thank you!
this is beautiful and heartbreaking and true. it touched me deeply, and some moments just squeezed my heart. as someone else said, i watched it before reading the description but perfectly felt everything you were trying to convey. it's a wonderful edit, and so much more. (also, was that a "the fall"(2006) quote?? the perfect final nail in my coffin)
thank you soo much!! and yes! that was a quote from "the fall" it was one of the first placed on the video :)
i love how you always pick the perfect lines and scenes to match with the theme you're going for, and the perfect build up of emotions as the edit progresses!! 😍😍
thank you so much!!
that’s so beautiful!!
thanks :')
So good!!!! I'm going to need to see a Lexi tribute now though :)
thanks! :DD
hahaha I can't make any promises I do can say I would love to make a video about Lexi but I need the right inspirational spark.
woah. Just discovered your account, this was absolutely beautiful. Brilliant job
thank you soo much ^___^
it is so beautifully edited 💖
thank you!
this is.... yeah, can't even find the words
:')
Brilliant as usual !
thank you! :)
Wow this is so stunning! The emotions come across so well
thanks! that means a lot :')
**sending virtual hug**
I'm so happy to hear you're doing better :D I'm working on myself, I've been for a couple of years now. I got used to being alone but maybe even too much. i feel like I have to reintroduce myself to society again but it's hard to put myself out there... I'll keep trying tho :)
@@Shainira hugs to you too
Thank you very much for such deep and emotional video! It's real masterpiece!
You are wonderful person and deserve only better 💙
fgadjkfhadjlg THANK YOU!
Such a amazing edit. Masterpiece
thanks! :D
wowee amazing job! Your editing is outstanding!
fkldhgld thank you!!
This is so beautiful! Thank you for this ❤️
thanks :')
this is amazing!!
thank you!
woa .. wait so long of a new one for you and then this beauty
thank you!! :')
This is perfect💖
thank you!
I love this
thank you!
such a good video
thank you! :D
Amazing!
thank you! :)
🥺oh my...
OMG OMG Love This video
Amazing scenes and song
Woooooow ❤️😘😍🥰
thanks!! :DD
wow ❤️
^^
Its soo nice!!! Would you mind maybe write the names of the movies 🥺👉👈 they looked all beautiful
thank you! i added the lst on the description :)