I feel this sooo much. I'm 29 and im not where I want to be. All you said is how I feel. And this pandemic is not helping either. Wake up everyday not achieving my goals 😪😪😪
I was where you were, now 36 with autistic kid, alone, his father is narcissist, no family or other support. Cannot get into any relationship because kid alone is very challenging and I'm not attracting right people, but very bad ones. I really wish I could stay childless until I figured out my life, really doesn't enjoying motherhood most times. Just exhausting, tiring. But I hope I will make it to joyful life
Hey, the positive side is that you know what you wanna do. I don't really have any goals yet so this whole lockdown situation has been a non-stop anxiety trip about what I wish to do with my life.
It's another video I feel so similar. Finished law school with great grades, but didn't do much about it. Being around people is too much stressful. Also got a kid at 31 and I wouldn't do that if I knew what I know now about myself. I just organize my life as single mother of autistic 4 yrs old. Decorating our house feels great, I don't have to take worry about finances for now, but I would like to earn money, i have so much potential but day to day life is still hard. Appretiate yourself for everything.
Hi I just discovered your channel. I saw two old videos, one was about being high functioning and having bipolar and bpd and the other was a very serious bpd episode as you were having it. I just need to say that I have bipolar 2 and BPD I was diagnosed late in life I am 50 and I was diagnosed 6 years ago. I can't believe how much I can relate to what you said in those videos and your most recent one. I feel like I have no one that understands what suffering, frustration, fear, anxiety, depression, anger and hopelessness that I have been through and still go through even though I have had treatment I really feel like because even when I am really struggling or are hypomanic no one realized the amount of mental torture I go through. I too am very self aware, very put together externally people in my life and my doctor's don't see the real me no matter how much I try to explain because I have never been hospitalized I have never been psychotic and just going completely mental externally no one cares. I often feel invinsible. Yes i know my mom loves me but she makes no effort to try and understand what I go through. She can't deal with emotions at all and my dad was even worse. Now I have to live with my mom I am on disability I am seeking treatment but because of side effects of mood stabilizers I can't take the necessary meds at the right dosage so I actually stopped the mood stabilizers in July and I slowly started going down hill. The whole month of December I was all over the place and still people around me missed it. I have to see new psychiatrist in February and haven't had one since November. In between psychologist I just wanted to say when I saw your videos I felt like you were reading my thoughts because everything you said I feel exactly the same. I like the fact you are Australian because I live in Ballarat Victoria. Sorry this is so long just wanted to say thanks for making those videos it really helped me feel not so alone.
Happy belated birthday, take things lightly, in life sometimes it not about what to do but what not to do to succeed, so any setbacks can be used for positive momentum in the future.
Hello 40yr old here... it’s never to late to restart. I’ll say that just doing one little achievement a day is enough. Clean a closet, do a yoga session, reach out to a friend. There is an app called “fabulous” that helps you set tiny goals... like brushing your teeth... helps for those days you struggle to get up.
🖐Hi, I wish you much health for your life and peace to your heart. Similar feeling you explain I had in my twenties, and sometimes still have but less with time. The uncertainty of the future gives me so much anxiety, and my thoughts seek to stress me. Now I am 30. But what I realised is that I am considering more basic needs now, what I really really (trully) need, and try to find the way to persevere liking it. Where I live just main shops are opened and still they have to follow new protocols to prevent risks in people. It is like we are forced to be careful with each other. Sometimes looks funny. The good side of this and the effects from pandemia of this year just reassured my priorities. Before I used to do what was trendy, or what I was forced to do. What you comment about your mom is something that happened to me multiple times, and she joined with family. I used to feel so abandoned, susceptible and carried away by every feeling! But I met a friend who accompanied me in my way to the Doctor and I to him. The doctors I visited were from the state (between psychologists and psychiatrists). They recommended me to write, one told me they could send special persons to speak with my family because Bipolarity is something medical that they are experienced in to talk with people. I really was pleased because I had too much anger and stress trying to communicate with family. While searching for information I thankfully could find a forum, and begun to write in this forum called Quora. This page also gives one the tool to have a space and people joining. I recommend it. A forum is about questions and answers. There are different kinds of people and everybody shares posts. It gives options to report if there is a problem with someone too. At your back I see nice artwork and so beautiful furniture designs. I wish you well. Cheers. Claudia😊
You said i get up, i do nothing, and i go to sleep.. (you do nothing!) I don't believe you :) just thinking is something.. see (A Serious Man) the trailer at minute 0:55 :) y2u.be/mDKHWRbK2_Q, Other thing which i don't agree with is, people's lives are not what we see or heard, it took me a while to accept it, reality ALWAYS is "not as it looks like".. from my own experience, and experiences of many other relatives, friends, celebrities.. always the same story, what we see is just an interface.. Yourself if someone is depressed sees you outside laughing, he or she will think that your life is better than theirs.. if someone say to me do you want to leave the bill gates life, i will certainly say NO, I want the same money as his :) (money helps), but not his life.. even though i know nothing about his real life, i'm sure that he has so many difficulties and problems that i can't handle or imagine.. This is a standard.. Long-term Project : I remember a teacher saying to us, that an ant ate an elephant, How ? By eating it bit by bit during an amount of time :), "The first" Long-term Project could be very stressful, and will cost you a lot (relationships, financial hardship..), but it worth it when you will see the fruits (the external manifestation).. "The first" Long-term Project, it starts with you trying to share your ideas with others, but it means nothing to them.. either they know nothing about the subject, and they will respect your thoughts when they will see the results.. or they know what you are talking about but they are in a bad mood, things are not going well in their lives at that moment, and they hate and envy seeing someone with enthusiasm, they pick at the weak portion of your thoughts which maybe you are admitting your wrongness, and they start attacking it, and maybe with mokering as a bonus :) in order to disprove the whole project, kind of (The West Wing - Just be wrong, Just stand there in your wrongness and be wrong and get used to it! :)) y2u.be/FGDBExKA3jA, That kind of person and his/her opinion will haunt you, especially if the project takes years, i experienced the same thing, i know what i'm talking about :), Yes you will find contributers (real helpers), but you will differ in the long run..
The second "Long-term" project won't be long at all :) you have the tools now, you are very experienced, how to manage a big project, prioritization, quick decision making, when and how the goal and objectives should be shifted or erased, planning and replanning.. I remember watching a tv-program in the early 2000's it talks about people whom have endure troubles and difficulties in their lives, and how that contributes immensely to their success in personal and professional lives.. how a smallest thing may be perceived insignificant plays a major role in a critical situation.. You will never regret learning, even if the goals are not reached, you win, you are aware of so many things, and you are prepared for things to come.. and don't blame yourself, don't forget that anyone's circumstances plays a big role in their actual situation, but with time you will be grateful of so many things that hurts you in the past, but prevents you and your loved ones from a bigger harm in the future, and how it will contribute in your future stability and happiness.. And yes i agree, having a partner helps a lot, but not always :), hope that you'll find a good partner, a supporter.. and hope that you'll start harvesting the fruits of your work sooner..
I feel this sooo much. I'm 29 and im not where I want to be. All you said is how I feel. And this pandemic is not helping either.
Wake up everyday not achieving my goals 😪😪😪
I was where you were, now 36 with autistic kid, alone, his father is narcissist, no family or other support. Cannot get into any relationship because kid alone is very challenging and I'm not attracting right people, but very bad ones. I really wish I could stay childless until I figured out my life, really doesn't enjoying motherhood most times. Just exhausting, tiring. But I hope I will make it to joyful life
Hey, the positive side is that you know what you wanna do. I don't really have any goals yet so this whole lockdown situation has been a non-stop anxiety trip about what I wish to do with my life.
OMG! Good to see you again! Happy Birthday!
It's another video I feel so similar. Finished law school with great grades, but didn't do much about it. Being around people is too much stressful. Also got a kid at 31 and I wouldn't do that if I knew what I know now about myself. I just organize my life as single mother of autistic 4 yrs old. Decorating our house feels great, I don't have to take worry about finances for now, but I would like to earn money, i have so much potential but day to day life is still hard. Appretiate yourself for everything.
Happy birthday from México!!!! Thanks for existing!!
Bipolar Barbie 🙂🙏🏼
Hi I just discovered your channel. I saw two old videos, one was about being high functioning and having bipolar and bpd and the other was a very serious bpd episode as you were having it. I just need to say that I have bipolar 2 and BPD I was diagnosed late in life I am 50 and I was diagnosed 6 years ago. I can't believe how much I can relate to what you said in those videos and your most recent one. I feel like I have no one that understands what suffering, frustration, fear, anxiety, depression, anger and hopelessness that I have been through and still go through even though I have had treatment I really feel like because even when I am really struggling or are hypomanic no one realized the amount of mental torture I go through. I too am very self aware, very put together externally people in my life and my doctor's don't see the real me no matter how much I try to explain because I have never been hospitalized I have never been psychotic and just going completely mental externally no one cares. I often feel invinsible. Yes i know my mom loves me but she makes no effort to try and understand what I go through. She can't deal with emotions at all and my dad was even worse. Now I have to live with my mom I am on disability I am seeking treatment but because of side effects of mood stabilizers I can't take the necessary meds at the right dosage so I actually stopped the mood stabilizers in July and I slowly started going down hill. The whole month of December I was all over the place and still people around me missed it. I have to see new psychiatrist in February and haven't had one since November. In between psychologist I just wanted to say when I saw your videos I felt like you were reading my thoughts because everything you said I feel exactly the same. I like the fact you are Australian because I live in Ballarat Victoria. Sorry this is so long just wanted to say thanks for making those videos it really helped me feel not so alone.
Happy birthday G'day wishing you the best in mental health
Happy belated birthday, take things lightly, in life sometimes it not about what to do but what not to do to succeed, so any setbacks can be used for positive momentum in the future.
Hello 40yr old here... it’s never to late to restart. I’ll say that just doing one little achievement a day is enough. Clean a closet, do a yoga session, reach out to a friend. There is an app called “fabulous” that helps you set tiny goals... like brushing your teeth... helps for those days you struggle to get up.
Can you share what medications you are on if any
Im 28 too totally feel u.. not anywhere NEAR where I thought I was supposed to be.. everyone else around me is thought.. and damn it hurts..
Yay BOOKS omg! Will follow u somewheeere to hear about the booook (but pls take your time
Are you still taking seroquel ?
Happy Belated Birthday! I LOVE your artwork, it's really good!!!
Please give northy a kiss from me on the head ♡Love ya..and you will reach your dreams..when not all..(maybe)..but all the others. You are a fighter!☆
🖐Hi, I wish you much health for your life and peace to your heart.
Similar feeling you explain I had in my twenties, and sometimes still have but less with time. The uncertainty of the future gives me so much anxiety, and my thoughts seek to stress me. Now I am 30. But what I realised is that I am considering more basic needs now, what I really really (trully) need, and try to find the way to persevere liking it.
Where I live just main shops are opened and still they have to follow new protocols to prevent risks in people. It is like we are forced to be careful with each other. Sometimes looks funny. The good side of this and the effects from pandemia of this year just reassured my priorities. Before I used to do what was trendy, or what I was forced to do.
What you comment about your mom is something that happened to me multiple times, and she joined with family. I used to feel so abandoned, susceptible and carried away by every feeling!
But I met a friend who accompanied me in my way to the Doctor and I to him. The doctors I visited were from the state (between psychologists and psychiatrists). They recommended me to write, one told me they could send special persons to speak with my family because Bipolarity is something medical that they are experienced in to talk with people. I really was pleased because I had too much anger and stress trying to communicate with family.
While searching for information I thankfully could find a forum, and begun to write in this forum called Quora. This page also gives one the tool to have a space and people joining. I recommend it. A forum is about questions and answers. There are different kinds of people and everybody shares posts. It gives options to report if there is a problem with someone too.
At your back I see nice artwork and so beautiful furniture designs. I wish you well. Cheers.
Claudia😊
You said i get up, i do nothing, and i go to sleep.. (you do nothing!) I don't believe you :) just thinking is something.. see (A Serious Man) the trailer at minute 0:55 :) y2u.be/mDKHWRbK2_Q, Other thing which i don't agree with is, people's lives are not what we see or heard, it took me a while to accept it, reality ALWAYS is "not as it looks like".. from my own experience, and experiences of many other relatives, friends, celebrities.. always the same story, what we see is just an interface.. Yourself if someone is depressed sees you outside laughing, he or she will think that your life is better than theirs.. if someone say to me do you want to leave the bill gates life, i will certainly say NO, I want the same money as his :) (money helps), but not his life.. even though i know nothing about his real life, i'm sure that he has so many difficulties and problems that i can't handle or imagine.. This is a standard..
Long-term Project : I remember a teacher saying to us, that an ant ate an elephant, How ? By eating it bit by bit during an amount of time :), "The first" Long-term Project could be very stressful, and will cost you a lot (relationships, financial hardship..), but it worth it when you will see the fruits (the external manifestation)..
"The first" Long-term Project, it starts with you trying to share your ideas with others, but it means nothing to them.. either they know nothing about the subject, and they will respect your thoughts when they will see the results.. or they know what you are talking about but they are in a bad mood, things are not going well in their lives at that moment, and they hate and envy seeing someone with enthusiasm, they pick at the weak portion of your thoughts which maybe you are admitting your wrongness, and they start attacking it, and maybe with mokering as a bonus :) in order to disprove the whole project, kind of (The West Wing - Just be wrong, Just stand there in your wrongness and be wrong and get used to it! :)) y2u.be/FGDBExKA3jA, That kind of person and his/her opinion will haunt you, especially if the project takes years, i experienced the same thing, i know what i'm talking about :), Yes you will find contributers (real helpers), but you will differ in the long run..
The second "Long-term" project won't be long at all :) you have the tools now, you are very experienced, how to manage a big project, prioritization, quick decision making, when and how the goal and objectives should be shifted or erased, planning and replanning..
I remember watching a tv-program in the early 2000's it talks about people whom have endure troubles and difficulties in their lives, and how that contributes immensely to their success in personal and professional lives.. how a smallest thing may be perceived insignificant plays a major role in a critical situation.. You will never regret learning, even if the goals are not reached, you win, you are aware of so many things, and you are prepared for things to come.. and don't blame yourself, don't forget that anyone's circumstances plays a big role in their actual situation, but with time you will be grateful of so many things that hurts you in the past, but prevents you and your loved ones from a bigger harm in the future, and how it will contribute in your future stability and happiness..
And yes i agree, having a partner helps a lot, but not always :), hope that you'll find a good partner, a supporter.. and hope that you'll start harvesting the fruits of your work sooner..