Thank you so much for sharing this 💜 Now I see a bit more of my way of coping and why. Food is like knowing that poison is the only option to survive. I've had a wide spectrum of eating disorders and it only got worse when I tried to deal with it and get help. But I see that I have been treated for bits and pieces of everything that has happened instead of getting real help. I was separated from my mother at the age of two and taken to a different country by my father and well there he had no one to care for me and my two year older brother so he used to drop us of by a beach in the morning and go to work. He ended up marrying a woman that did not treat us well and in the midst of it all the country turned into a warzone. We lived there for seven years and eventually had to flee. Fortunate in a way cause we ended up back in Sweden where my mom was. But I never got to have a good relationship to her. I grew up in so much fear and trauma and it really hurts to look back at life. The hard part is seeing it and being in a constant situation of not being able to get the help that is needed. I don't know if it is a curse or a blessing sometimes, but it has forced me to really look at the deepest parts of myself, life and others. Thank you for shining light on this subject 🙏💜
My mother bought very little food and she would hide it around the house and not tell us where it was. She didn’t really cook dinner and I was responsible for finding random things like rice in the cupboard. I bought my own lunch from age 13 up because she wouldn’t pack me lunch, buy lunch food or give me money for lunch. Most the time I took all the extra things my friends brought. My relationship with food is so messed up and I’m 29 now. I hardly eat and when I do, its small things every 6 hours or so. I’m still in scavenger mode and I didn’t even realize it until now.
My home life got very stressful at 9yrs old and mealtimes were filled with yelling and being told I had to eat things I didn't like. Going to somebody else's house for dinner, or going to a restaurant or even lunch at school was a welcome respite. I think I overeat to get back to that funness.
thank you❣️🙏❤️ for sharing your love and compassion with us as tears roll over my cheeks allowing me to maybe consider truly loving from inside out. Your courage and vulnerability touch my inner being. I have also struggled with disordered eating for decades. Your incredibly kind and gentle approach to nourishment has increased my understanding and has fueled a strength in me and sparked a new compassion towards my body and really my entire me. You are loved💕
Karuna... You and your channel are truly miracles!! I just found you tonight, watched two videos, and I feel breakthroughs, understanding, and waves of emotion more healing than months of "therapy". You truly are a Godsend and have facilitated the "prophesized breakthrough" that I have been hoping for. Making connections, increasing awareness, beginning the REAL healing journey for myself. I feel like I've been treading water and getting nowhere, making no real progress (and even falling back) until finding you tonight. Thank you (does not express it enough)!!! Your understanding of my trauma and pain bridges the loneliness of my isolation. I have been crying (good, active crying) through the last two videos. It's like you're the one who has best reached my inner child and connected to my adult psyche. Time to get to work.... Let the healing begin!!! Love & Light... ❤🌞Lynn
Oh, goodness, my heart is so very warmed to hear this! This is exactly why I do this channel. I am so so happy that you have had insights-from the inside out-and that I could help facilitate an uprising of your inner wisdom in some small way. Keep at it! Sending massive respect for your journey and feel free to keep those comments coming! xKaruna
You’re such an inspiration and have such a calming beam about you! I’ve just found your channel. Im from New Zealand and complex PTSD is not yet diagnosable but my psych has been teaching me a bit about it and thinks it fits everything I’ve been through. I’ve had anorexia for 10 years now. I’ve finally reached being out of hospital for one year! Things have started to get worse again and I’m in the understanding stage, as you talked about. Thankyou for helping me understand how my eating relates to my trauma x I’ll keep watching your videos
This is such a dear sharing from you, Keira. I'm so glad to have you on the channel. Yes, keep educating yourself; keep gaining awareness! Eating patterns are indeed related to trauma. And in the future, if you are so inspired from the inside out: Feel free to reach out for online sessions. It is my greatest heart's joy to support people such as yourself and help untie the knots so that we can settle within our authentic self and true voice. You've got this, Keira! Sending massive respect and support to you.
Complex PTSD Made Simple thank you for replying ☺️ I would love to do an online session with you. My psych is good but not experienced in eating disorders and there are no specialists where I live.
I understand, Keira. Glad you have a good psych. I'm happy to additionally support with an understanding of eating patterns as related to early trauma and as seen through from the perspective of transformation. You can reach me via email at info@hubfortheheart.com. Chat soon. Massive respect, Keira, for standing with courage in your body over these years.
So incredibly brave & beautiful 💜 I could really feel your heart. Thanks so much for sharing Karuna. So much to unpack here - you break things down so simply. In my personal experience I’ve noticed that eating disorders are often treated through a very clinical/medical lens. This approach tends to focus on the symptom and ignore the cause - which can make recovery very confusing & leave one spinning. I love your approach and insight around this topic. It’s not really an eating issue - it stems from early wounds and a heart that is in pain 💜 Once we are able to go deep, mend, and soothe our little hearts symptoms naturally dissipate💡🤯
I don't understand why so many people who have trauma and CPTSD DON'T go to food. How is that? If it's so basic and so fundamental, why didn't anyone else in my dungeon of origin collapse into that? My father's family were literally starving poor when he was a child. Only his oldest brother had a food problem. All the other uncles and my aunt did not have that problem. My brother was an orphan for 6 months before we adopted him and he used to store food in his busy box and go back and eat it later. He never developed a food problem. I was his primary caretaker and I was terrible at it being only 5 years older than he was. I just don't get it.
Thank you for your sharing. I so sorry to hear about these many years, lowpressure. The majority of we dear humans move through life without a singular experience of deeply unconditional love. That is: The love for, simply, BE-ing (rather than do-ing, attaining, being perfect, acting a certain way, etc.). Alas, truly unconditional love is an anomaly, rather than the "norm." If it were a "norm," our collective would be much healthier emotionally, mentally and physically. And, while a person may be "with" a partner, this by no means indicates that they are experiencing unconditional love and acceptance. So so many people are with partners and have more emptiness than being alone! People can only meet us to the depth of being they have personally explored and experienced. Some of us may open up for 5 extraordinary minutes and shift again.....others of us for 5 days....5 months.....then revert. It's highly unusual, and also the greatest of joys, to meet someone (usually an extraordinary teacher rather than an idealised partner) who is stabilised in the field and understanding unconditional love. That's why/how we are inspired by these certain teachers; they are just a bit more stabilised than we are.....we entrain and are inspired and uplifted. The great hope is that we each are inspired to take this journey to unconditional love in our our unique, meandering way.
Food is actually just a huge trigger for me in general. I hate cooking it, I hate eating it, I love the taste of it, I hate processing it, I hate everything about the human exsitence that everyone else longs for lol
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Thank you so much for sharing this 💜
Now I see a bit more of my way of coping and why.
Food is like knowing that poison is the only option to survive.
I've had a wide spectrum of eating disorders and it only got worse when I tried to deal with it and get help. But I see that I have been treated for bits and pieces of everything that has happened instead of getting real help.
I was separated from my mother at the age of two and taken to a different country by my father and well there he had no one to care for me and my two year older brother so he used to drop us of by a beach in the morning and go to work.
He ended up marrying a woman that did not treat us well and in the midst of it all the country turned into a warzone. We lived there for seven years and eventually had to flee. Fortunate in a way cause we ended up back in Sweden where my mom was.
But I never got to have a good relationship to her.
I grew up in so much fear and trauma and it really hurts to look back at life.
The hard part is seeing it and being in a constant situation of not being able to get the help that is needed. I don't know if it is a curse or a blessing sometimes, but it has forced me to really look at the deepest parts of myself, life and others.
Thank you for shining light on this subject 🙏💜
My mother bought very little food and she would hide it around the house and not tell us where it was.
She didn’t really cook dinner and I was responsible for finding random things like rice in the cupboard.
I bought my own lunch from age 13 up because she wouldn’t pack me lunch, buy lunch food or give me money for lunch.
Most the time I took all the extra things my friends brought.
My relationship with food is so messed up and I’m 29 now.
I hardly eat and when I do, its small things every 6 hours or so.
I’m still in scavenger mode and I didn’t even realize it until now.
So do your siblings have food disorders?
My home life got very stressful at 9yrs old and mealtimes were filled with yelling and being told I had to eat things I didn't like. Going to somebody else's house for dinner, or going to a restaurant or even lunch at school was a welcome respite. I think I overeat to get back to that funness.
thank you❣️🙏❤️ for sharing your love and compassion with us as tears roll over my cheeks allowing me to maybe consider truly loving from inside out. Your courage and vulnerability touch my inner being. I have also struggled with disordered eating for decades. Your incredibly kind and gentle approach to nourishment has increased my understanding and has fueled a strength in me and sparked a new compassion towards my body and really my entire me. You are loved💕
Karuna... You and your channel are truly miracles!! I just found you tonight, watched two videos, and I feel breakthroughs, understanding, and waves of emotion more healing than months of "therapy". You truly are a Godsend and have facilitated the "prophesized breakthrough" that I have been hoping for. Making connections, increasing awareness, beginning the REAL healing journey for myself. I feel like I've been treading water and getting nowhere, making no real progress (and even falling back) until finding you tonight.
Thank you (does not express it enough)!!! Your understanding of my trauma and pain bridges the loneliness of my isolation. I have been crying (good, active crying) through the last two videos. It's like you're the one who has best reached my inner child and connected to my adult psyche. Time to get to work.... Let the healing begin!!!
Love & Light... ❤🌞Lynn
Oh, goodness, my heart is so very warmed to hear this! This is exactly why I do this channel. I am so so happy that you have had insights-from the inside out-and that I could help facilitate an uprising of your inner wisdom in some small way. Keep at it! Sending massive respect for your journey and feel free to keep those comments coming! xKaruna
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You’re such an inspiration and have such a calming beam about you! I’ve just found your channel. Im from New Zealand and complex PTSD is not yet diagnosable but my psych has been teaching me a bit about it and thinks it fits everything I’ve been through. I’ve had anorexia for 10 years now. I’ve finally reached being out of hospital for one year! Things have started to get worse again and I’m in the understanding stage, as you talked about. Thankyou for helping me understand how my eating relates to my trauma x I’ll keep watching your videos
This is such a dear sharing from you, Keira. I'm so glad to have you on the channel. Yes, keep educating yourself; keep gaining awareness! Eating patterns are indeed related to trauma. And in the future, if you are so inspired from the inside out: Feel free to reach out for online sessions. It is my greatest heart's joy to support people such as yourself and help untie the knots so that we can settle within our authentic self and true voice. You've got this, Keira! Sending massive respect and support to you.
Complex PTSD Made Simple thank you for replying ☺️ I would love to do an online session with you. My psych is good but not experienced in eating disorders and there are no specialists where I live.
I understand, Keira. Glad you have a good psych. I'm happy to additionally support with an understanding of eating patterns as related to early trauma and as seen through from the perspective of transformation. You can reach me via email at info@hubfortheheart.com. Chat soon. Massive respect, Keira, for standing with courage in your body over these years.
So incredibly brave & beautiful 💜
I could really feel your heart. Thanks so much for sharing Karuna. So much to unpack here - you break things down so simply. In my personal experience I’ve noticed that eating disorders are often treated through a very clinical/medical lens. This approach tends to focus on the symptom and ignore the cause - which can make recovery very confusing & leave one spinning. I love your approach and insight around this topic. It’s not really an eating issue - it stems from early wounds and a heart that is in pain 💜
Once we are able to go deep, mend, and soothe our little hearts symptoms naturally dissipate💡🤯
I love and appreciate this very much.
I don't understand why so many people who have trauma and CPTSD DON'T go to food. How is that? If it's so basic and so fundamental, why didn't anyone else in my dungeon of origin collapse into that? My father's family were literally starving poor when he was a child. Only his oldest brother had a food problem. All the other uncles and my aunt did not have that problem. My brother was an orphan for 6 months before we adopted him and he used to store food in his busy box and go back and eat it later. He never developed a food problem. I was his primary caretaker and I was terrible at it being only 5 years older than he was. I just don't get it.
Thank you for sharing your healing story. It resonated with me.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart🤗 I almost cried when you talked about the insulation.
wish i could find a partner to show me love. that part of your story made me feel really bad. i'm 25 years of disordered eating.
Thank you for your sharing. I so sorry to hear about these many years, lowpressure.
The majority of we dear humans move through life without a singular experience of deeply unconditional love. That is: The love for, simply, BE-ing (rather than do-ing, attaining, being perfect, acting a certain way, etc.).
Alas, truly unconditional love is an anomaly, rather than the "norm." If it were a "norm," our collective would be much healthier emotionally, mentally and physically.
And, while a person may be "with" a partner, this by no means indicates that they are experiencing unconditional love and acceptance. So so many people are with partners and have more emptiness than being alone!
People can only meet us to the depth of being they have personally explored and experienced. Some of us may open up for 5 extraordinary minutes and shift again.....others of us for 5 days....5 months.....then revert. It's highly unusual, and also the greatest of joys, to meet someone (usually an extraordinary teacher rather than an idealised partner) who is stabilised in the field and understanding unconditional love. That's why/how we are inspired by these certain teachers; they are just a bit more stabilised than we are.....we entrain and are inspired and uplifted.
The great hope is that we each are inspired to take this journey to unconditional love in our our unique, meandering way.
Food is actually just a huge trigger for me in general. I hate cooking it, I hate eating it, I love the taste of it, I hate processing it, I hate everything about the human exsitence that everyone else longs for lol
Great video thank you!
I noticed in adulthood that collecting animals was part of my trauma response
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Same with animals I am vegetarian and an empath
Great video
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do you take clients? If so do you take some without insurance?
Thank you for viewing. Yes, I do private online sessions with clients from throughout the globe. Payment is via either PayPal or Venmo. I do not accept insurance. Please send an email to: info@hubfortheheart.com and let me know your time zone as well as a brief bit of your background. Also, my web site is: www.hubfortheheart.com.
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I am finding your videos helpful.
However having difficult time hearing you and am missing a lot of what your saying
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