It's funny, I often feel this way about myself. And yet when I see someone else express those same emotions, I can name a thousand reasons why they're wrong. We often lie to ourselves about lying to ourselves. Your video genuienly moved me, thank you.
then why don't you treat yourself the way you treat others? why live in the delusion that you're so different? that you, and only you, must be judged harsher, and unfairly? is it not something you do to yourself?
This video got me: 'Just do nothing all day' '3 more years just to waste away' That was me 2 years ago. I wanted nothing to do with anything, I'd dropped out of uni and felt like my life was going nowhere. I just wallowed in my own shame. But then things got better. Y'know, even if things feel completely hopeless, you might just find what you've been looking for all along. The same thing we all hope for, just a little happiness.
@@memories-of-nobody All things are fake, when we're talking about perception. Be positive, be negative. Either way it's a perception of reality that is inevitably inaccurate to actual reality. In short, your brain already lies to you without your intervention. Why not tell a useful lie? Why not adopt a perception that keeps you going? If hope never comes, you'll be less miserable in the mean time. If it does come, you'll be ready to use it.
Then you should make good use of it. You can still give to others something just as valuable, and that is help. Help in this dreary world that is only as bright as we make it to be.
I’m too many layers deep in irony to truly appreciate anything anymore. Everything’s always insignificant in retrospect or not worth the time looking forwards, and it doesn’t matter if it’s positive or negative. Everything just becomes something that happened.
Still, we have the choice to face it as if it has importance.. Despite living a life with no definite purpose, we are still indeed "living" a *life* .. despite the meaninglessness, I think it's best that we savour such small things as if they're big.
I love how despite the vibes of the title and thumbnail, the music is suprisingly different to what I expected. its rlly lovely, like instead of feeling more down with the thoughts I have with music, im listening to rlly nice tunes with the company of the music, feels like it has some warmth even with the emptiness. I also rlly love the art omg
I like to think that the reason it’s a happy tune is because the person who wrote the title has come to terms to the fact that they feel like they’ll do nothing and no longer feel sad about it and just feel ok and are keeping on despite the fact they feel that way and don’t have motivations
My self worth is so abysmal that when someone compliments me i try to find why its a lie instead of just taking it. But when others do that i can find reasons why its wrong, but I cant tell any to myself. This video really expresses how i've been feeling lately so it's kinda touching and i cant help but feel bad
Relatable. I don’t even know why I bother with anything anymore. I guess it’s just cause I’m too scared to actually do it. I keep thinking things will get better when they clearly just get worse. What awaits me is a lonely, mundane and miserable future. I already talk to myself like a crazy person.
Neuro: will I ever amount to anything? You were created for the purpose of bringing joy, hapiness, laughter. In this purpose you have already suceeded all of our expectations.
The night sky is beautiful, isn't it? Most of it is dead, it's stars who already died long ago, and yet we still see their shine, a remaining of their light just for a little longer; did they have a purpose? No, they just were up there for a fraction of the universe and then died for no reason without anything witnessing or caring, but yet even after death they still illuminate the sky of a few planets, maybe some aliens are also looking at that same dead star that we are. It is indeed all pointless and there is no meaning to any of it, but isn't that what makes life worth living? Knowing that we only have 1 chance, after all if we had all the time in the world people wouldn't do anything and just "save it for tomorrow when they had the motivation", but alas we do not have such luxury and that's why life can be beautiful , because it's short. Off the ground, a little dance and under we go again; but even after we are gone, just like the stars, our actions will still shine upon someone for a while longer, and they too shall carry on that same brightness once they die, so even if in the grand scheme of thing it's all worthless, we can make that worthless beautiful and enjoyable for a while longer. (The video is old and no one will read this anyways, but oh well)
I think this is a beautiful way to see life, the meaning to life is the meaning we put upon it. Thank you for writing this P.s I think you should look into creative writing because your very good at painting a picture with word^^
"If you want to do it so bad, and you can do it, why don't you just... ...do it?" I don't know. Maybe I cant do it, and it was all a lie. Maybe I'm just a broken promise, a fool the world has lied to. That's almost a relief. It was simply beyond me all this time. I am not to blame, for it always exceeded me. Maybe I can do it. And its just that, in truth, I don't actually want to. Maybe I've been lying to myself, enamoured of the idea of doing it instead of the actual thing. Maybe I'm really just a simple human guided by simple desires, destined to live a simple life, away from whatever interesting people do. That's almost a relief. I'd surrender in every way, never to hope or to harbour ambitions, lost in the limbo of everyday life. If I don't think enough, I'd never think of my lost potential again, or lose myself in a convenient nihilism. Maybe I can do it. Maybe I want to do it. And yet I fail to even try. Maybe there's something deep inside me, something beyond understanding, that dooms me to failure. Maybe there's something inherently wrong in me.
I remember having this line of thoughts around a year ago. I was going to class in uni (i guess college for americans) but I was late, so late. It was with my favorite professor at the time, and it felt disrespectful to even try and enter. I didn't gather the courage to walk in to class. And so I sat there around the campus at 7 AM, doing nothing, thinking to myself what was wrong with me. So many failed classes, so many self-disappointments. Wasted two years of uni in one big mediocre mess, two years in which never once I woke up in time. I couldn't even bring myself to study, despite hating the living hell out of myself for not doing so, despite wanting so desperately to change yet never managing to do so. How can one forgive oneself for all the wasted opportunities? Every day, every hour, every minute. I could have learned four languages, learned three sports, written five books, and done well in uni those two years. But oh well, here we are.
It's your life, no matter how repeating, boring or stale, it's always your life. Don't expect too much from yourself, the really small steps everyday are the true progress. Take care.
I struggled with self-hatred-still in the process of forgiving myself for lost time and poor health. But this music is just calming, as if every negative emotion is just bottled up into one resonance, self-contained and left unheard. You can only feel the intent by reading the subtitles, but the emotion is still there, though subtle, and the reason one would even care is if they read the damn thing. Not your mind, but how you feel. That's how I felt listening to this piece of music, and I hope you'll make do with the process that is life. I'll remember to listen to this when I wake up, so don't end the process. Continue, and thank you.
Just remember. Whenever it feels like things are backing up too much, and you just can't do it, can't seem to keep up.. You do what you can. You throw your best foot forward, and even if everything blows up around you, nobody can tell you that you didn't at least try. And as long as nobody can tell you that you didn't try, you've done the best you could with the hand you were dealt. That's all anyone can ask for. More importantly, that's all you can ask of yourself. The rest falls into place with time.
I just listened to every song on your channel! All I want to say is, you have so much talent! Thank you so much for making these songs, they're the best for when I go to sleep at night.
Despite thinking all of these things all of the time, what makes it worse is you're not the only one going to be dragged down if you actually listen to these voices. Family, friends and other potential people that you've somehow got into your side will suffer from what you're turning into. It slowly devours you mentally then creeps into you physically. Slowly those voices will be the one you'll only hear until the day you realize all of the things and people you've push away disappears. So my take is do what you can and have fun even if its hard, find a haven for yourself when you're tired and vulnerable. Take a rest in that haven, it may be a person or place. May people rest well and find their haven.
You don’t have to amount to anything, your existence is more than enough. You don’t have to be perfect for people to love and care for you, just as others don’t need to be perfect for you to love and care for them. You are loved in every form you take, and I need you to remind yourself of that. I love you, all of you, please remember that❤
I dont know what this vid about. Idc if I will look like a fool, but I genuinely shad a pair of tears. I would hug u author so u just felt that somebody can totally understand your feelings. I truly believe that u will overcome your dark and bit nasty thoughts, It's not that I don't have some harmful thoughts, but I believe in you, honestly, random guy or girl
I also feel the same way rn. There's a lot of stress and pressure on me rn, and there's so many other people who are better than me. But if it helps you in any sort of way, I put this song in ny inspirations playlist for any future songs I write. I hope that helps you feel a little less useless
I hope things get better for you Something I found in this comment section is many, many people who feel similar to you, and even people who have moved past it. So long as you move forward, you'll always have value, though that probably sounds corny. Opportunity is potential
quick reminder that nearly 10 thousand views is a LOT of people! Try to picture all those people in one room, watching your video :) You’ve already amounted to something and made an impact on those people, trust me bro. God bless you and your journeys 👍
I fkn love the emotions displayed in this song and the captions. I don’t know exactly what your jealous of, but I can assure you that whatever it is it couldn’t make me feel as much this piece did: that has to mean something (i think). Thank you for making it
I am very embarrassed with myself. I finished high-school 4 years ago. I didnt get my diploma yet, and i haven't gotten my army dissmiss note. I never bothered to learn anything new, i never bothered to look for a course, an uni, to learn to drive. I wasted 4 years of my life, I lost connections, never made any new ones. All the ones who had the same upbringing as me managed to land jobs and are doing fine, but I didn't. I feel terrible, and I am terrible. I wanna change that, little by little.
"Thats a mood Gabriela" and also something i DEFINITELY should not be listening to right now but f*ck it, if ima be depressed anyway might as well go all the way
Once someone tried to cheer me up by asking me "what do you like about yourself?". He said others said something like "my face" or "my voice" but it really just made me sad. Nothing. I couldn't think of anything whatsoever at the time. So I'll keep going, keep going until I can create something to like about myself.
I love bottling up so much the jug is overflowing and I ignore it but just one wrong thing and I can lie down and break apart I don’t think I’ve ever had a video reach that far into my heart before
I don't know why I'm saying this, but I'm watching at 5:20 AM, I have failed to sleep or even get tired because I was constantly worrying & reflecting on my life. I have no way to cope with stress, so some days I have mental breakdowns, broken, laughing while crying. I often don't know what to feel, & I often wish I just didn't feel anything, but life hasn't been that easy yet. I'm always depressed, & I hide myself behind the many masks that I have just called personalities. I use them to gain friends, scared that I will lose them if I'm not who they like or used to, because after all, no one likes change or difference. I don't fall into my insecurities or negative thoughts, because I know they're not true & it's just my terrible mental state. But I know one thing, you should never belittle yourself, because even if it's selfish, you are more & the most important in your own life, & you should grow to keep that fact shining, but if you can't, that's ok. You should do what you wanted to do, despite everything. Any negativity locked up inside you, hurting you, should be used to fire up your determination to prove everyone wrong, & to show your potential. You should treat yourself as the king to your mental kingdom, be the leader of yourself, escape your troubles, think 2 steps ahead, & always do your best to suppress the bad! Don't end up like me, or worse. Do what I could have done. I love & believe in all of you, & while you see this, copy & paste, print, or write down this comment, even if you're not struggling. Motivation works best when being integrated into your mind daily, it really works like that, & that's literally how adds work. Just it being around you influences you, & the belief makes it true. Guys, love yourself. That's all I gotta say. If you look in the mirror and hate yourself - love your fucking self! Yes, you should love yourself now! Yes, you should, ’cause I do! -LowTierGod You should all treat yourself with a 100,000%,=
Even if I don't have the worst life imaginable, why do I feel so trapped? I just don't know what to do for myself and with myself. A myriad of fears and doubts keep me from looking towards tomorrow. Whilst its so easy to gaze into the past and hate myself for things I've done and said. The person I've culminated into isn't just a byproduct of others mistreatment of me but also my own self hate and loathing. So I guess its mostly just me holding myself back, but I don't know how to deal with each facet of my mentality. I can't picture myself being happy and content.
The greatest part is that even if we amount to nothing, even if nothing has meaning then it doesn’t matter that you or me aren’t the greatest of all time that we may not be our heroes that we feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. If nothing means anything then it’s okay that we take it day by day it’s okay that we feel like giving up it’s okay that we doubt and pout. It’s okay because we have tomorrow the day after and our entire lives ahead. If we simply take life day by day, live in the present and make some good choices we will eventually find ourselves in a greater place where while nothing matters and we feel like rotting at times we won’t because we might as well do something cooler.
It feels useless asking for sheet music, but this has so much significance, and I want to carry its meaning with me. I hope others feel the same way. This truly is a work of art!!!!!!! 😱😭??
@@kuroinisshokumid I thought your composition was incredible, I wonder if you're alright with having it upped on musescore? I could have optimized it more, maybe in the future ill have accents replace the dotted quarter notes or something, i added the inner voice and whatnot, I just hope more people can appreciate your works and play them
“And that’s okay because that has always been the case. The universe doesn’t care about what I do or am by the time I die. It can’t. But what can are those I choose to surround myself with. Those that give my limited time on this rock a reason to keep going not because I owe them anything, not because it’s morally right, but because they make life worth living. They are the light we find at our deepest pit of despair. And even in this despair I know that I have always been enough to be loved.”
See also, “Because we have no greater purpose, we are free to set our own. To create self-defined goals for which to strive. For some it may be nothing. For some it may be pleasure. For some it may be creation. For some it may be improving the lives of others. It is because we have no greater purpose, that time spent on goals set by one’s self cannot be time wasted. In the end, nothing matters, and therefore you have no reason not to do what you want rather than whatever illusion of greater purpose is forced on you by others or even your own misguided thoughts. - By continually forcing to subvert those creeping negative thoughts with the positive logical ones, the emotional mind will eventually, slowly, gradually start to shape to fit the logical. It is not an easy job. It is not a quick job. It will sometimes feel like an impossible job. However, it can be done. With an immense amount of time, effort, and energy, it will improve. You can change. You can heal. And during the hardest times, when all seems lost and you want to give up, never forget… We will always love you.”
@@thyholynoodle6282 see if I was smart what I would’ve done is Google what you said to verify where it was from but I instead decided to Google the 2-S monologue and copy it painstakingly over the course of approximately 5-10 minutes. Efficient decision making 👍
I felt these kinds of feelings all my life, and then I just reached a breaking point. I said, "f#ck this sh#t, this feels horrible" and decided to do a full 180 on my life. In the future, I hope I can continue on this grind, because the pain of not trying is worse than the pain of trying and failing.
This is my life, I have only been a burden since birth, all I have ever done is hurt people even though what I want to do is make people happy and laugh, but instead they hate me and get upset, and everyone just keeps leaving me and is disappointed in me, I'm never going to amount to anything and will die alone, there's nothing I can do because everyone will leave me and there is nothing I can do, I'm 18 now and everything is just going to get worse, my best friends have left me, my family is disappointed in me, I'm a joke to everyone, and no one understands
We all give value to things. It’s the only thing that really matters. We love and want but sometimes it’s hard to want. Sometimes it’s hard to really care about anything but there’s something good about the pointlessness. To exist in spite of it. Ngl I have a lot of issues when it comes to taking up time and space but often times when I see other people like me I am so sure that their life is worth living. We suffer a lot but there are still things we can appreciate. Little things like how far light travels from distant stars that may or may not be gone just to reach our eyes or the way that birds great the morning. I like the way the sun streams through my window and onto my closet. And these are small things that I think are worth experiencing and feeling fully. They aren’t much but it’s like the universe itself telling you that it loves you. You are part of it and just like everything else you deserve to live and live well.
Damn, this really hits hard being in college right now. The pandemic really made things difficult, I regret doing some things I shouldn't have during that lockdown, and now I'm suddenly brought back outside not having been able to think of what I could really want in my life than the thing I've already been doing most of the time before, being forced to already grow up when I feel like I'm still not ready. A few more years and I'll already be an adult, I know most people say college isn't everything but by now I don't even know what options I have left since it feels like the time I could've had a setback were already taken away from me. Maybe I'm overthinking things, I just wish I'm still making the right choice right now, since it feels like I don't have a lot of time to be doing second options.
Aw man, ended up crying while typing this. I know most people would barely even read most of these comments with how many there are like this, just felt like I had to get it off my chest for a bit, if anybody even actually bothered, I appreciate it, and I'm sorry you had to go through it
damn... if I ever got a chance, I would just lay down, listen to this song and stare into the void forever, I guess, that would be nice but if you think about it, it would be shame if a person just lays down and do nothing their whole life if only thoughts weren't destroying everything, they just ruin every single thing!!! I would just overwrite them with this song it is nice one, calming, simple and (as it seems) made by broken person ( I hope u will someday find freedom from those thoughts)
There's a surprising amount of ProjectMoon enjoyers, lol. Anyways, I hope life treats ya better, man, whoever you are. I don't have any definite advice, but I wish ya the best.
I feel the same way. Part of me takes comfort in what I have now, being excited to work on something. It is fun. But then I remember it's for nothing... After that comes another day and i once more feel that strong urge to continue, with fresh ideas and plans. I think to myself, it's a race with time. All I want is to finish this work, then fate will decide what happens next. That's kinda how life works too, doesn't it? Just push through. And hey, rotting in bed is still living. If I handled it for years then perhaps it's not the worst ways of living... And i still have time to do something. I'll only truly run out of time once i'm dead.
For as long as people have been alive, we've made goals along the way, and while those goals were made up, they gave something to work toward. If you find your work important, or even if you just enjoy it, I think it's worthwhile. Hope things get better for you
you're doing it for you, and you are everything. you aren't living that way, just surviving. try to wring out every droplet of joy that you can from your life
sometimes i feel like achieving things in life is too much effort for something so fragile. Why cant i just stare at clouds all day? that would be nice, with some friends maybe better. im tired and i feel like i havent done anything worth of rest.
thats...literally what i think n go through ever year. Just a man waiting for death, i dont even want to feel hopes anymore cause u know they will only shatter n disappoint u in the end
Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be a robot. An AI or a construct? It’s really hard to express in words or even action. I’ve been working towards my goals for years now… I’ve set my sight on a goal when I was really young and I’ve continued to try for it for years. But everything feels so goddamn overwhelming. I’ve tried self-help. I’ve tried taking a break. Tried even getting deeper into my work and study. Yet, i’m not a machine, but sometimes I wish I was. I wish I could see the world through that once blissful ignorance the same way an AI does. Putting labels to things it doesn’t understand, but knowing that it will one day understand it with the right data. To not worry about impressing others or achieving something. Just a thing that outputs data it’s given. In a really strange way isn’t that beautiful? Well, who cares anyways? I’m just a guy who rambles online about stuff.
This feeling always happens whenever I don't receive a proper reciprocation from my actions or my expectations were wrong or not met. It's that pessimistic view of results that slowly consumes your motivation and ambition. You would always think that something must be done and that failing is normal in order to succeed, however, how many failures can you carry on your back? Until it crushes you, even victory won't lessen those. You have won in a succesive battle and failed a hundred times, then back again to the war to grasp that destined victorious outcome again and the cycle repeats. It's very lonely, I just need someone to be with, it's not someone to carry the burden of failure along with but one that I can share my hope in this never ending battlefield called life.
Jus returned from a walk with the intention of, yknow, leaving. But, I got cold feet, just as I always do. You know, a question came to my mind when I was out there, standing alone in a field under the night sky with a revolver in one hand, and a flashlight in the other. "What do I want?". Couldnt come up with a good answer, just ended up naming a few things to myself that I know i'll never have. Someone special, that I can make happy. Friends that I can trust, and rely on, people I can feel comfortable around. Freedom, control over my own life and be able to make my own decisions. At least, those are the things I remember me saying, just silly things I hold onto hope of one day having, even though I know in my heart I'll never know what there like. I don't expect anyone to see this, and if you do, it probably wont matter anyway. I guess this is a cry for help, a silent cry into nothing, probably why I talked aloud to myself, in a empty field in the middle of the night with no one around. I wonder what I would have thought if a voice answered me, if it would have changed any of the despair I feel now. Maybe thats my issue, I've just finally been beaten down enough that ive lost any identity that made me, well, me. I don't recognize myself anymore, my thoughts in bed before night keep me up, and im constantly left to wonder who they belong to. I don't know what I want anymore, what I desire, what I strive for, or... the thing that baffles me most of all, why im still here. When I hold that revolver against my head, I just find myself unable to pull the trigger, and I can admit it to myself, I don't want to die, but I simply don't understand why I still want to live. I don't have any hope, not anymore at least. Im 18, and haven't met anyone in person for 4 years, maybe 5 now. I have no experience, no understanding of the world, no hope, no chance to be anything other than a burden. I have no one to rely on, my family isn't exactly the best, and admitting something like this to them would only lead to a fight, or maybe they'd just kick me out altogether. I really hate having to rely on them, but I simply can't hope to support myself otherwise, or at least, I can't see any way. I often think about just running, maybe hitchhiking on some trains and just, seeing where the world takes me. But, at that point, I think I'd rather just, yknow, give up, see what the next life offers, if there is one. I just, I don't see the point anymore. Nothing about the world makes any sense to me, people are evil, there isn't any good in the world, at least not enough worth acknowledging. At least, thats how I see things. My mind feels like it's broken, like most of me has already died, and I'll never see it again, all the parts of me that I was proud of, the parts of me that made me unique. Sometimes I wonder, if someone pointed out a way to solve my problems, could I even see it anymore? Could I even improve if everything was fixed, or, is this just who I am now? Is this just life now? Honestly, I think im just one bad, or good day away from finally ending it all, and that doesn't even bother me. I think about not being here almost every quiet moment now, I think I even fantasize about it, theres nothing I see thats worth staying for anymore, nothing realistic at least, but when I actually plan it, I can never follow through. I must truly be worthless.
I'm... sorry. I'd like to say that "you're only 18, your life has only just started!" but I feel the exact way as you do. I've felt like taking the easy way out a bunch of times and while I've gotten through the worst of it, I'm just "surviving" for now, just living to live without being useful to anyone. Everything I've ever tried I've failed at and given up, I just feel like a useless human being. I don't even know how to live, I was never taught by anyone and I never learnt... The most I can do is to keep surviving. I'd like to say I don't have any hope left, but maybe one day I'll find some meaning in my miserable life.
@@therealzizmon1748I just wish us knowing we weren’t alone in the world helped at all. If anything, it only makes me feel more alone, knowing there’s others like me, others I’d probably fit in with and get along with, but knowing I’ll never meet them. I feel like theres a joke somewhere there to be made. I hope things get better for you, a boost of motivation your able to hold on to, or perhaps something else.
I like this video. If even if just that, your life at least amounted to a genuine moment of peace for me in the difficult life I live. I hope even the smallest knowledge that this piece did something good for someone is enough for you to feel that you did something good for the world.
About to have my first big W in my 22 year life. Been pathetic garbage and a loser in the past, grew to what I am now -- way above average in character. And now it pays of. The worst thing you can do to yourself is to set a limitation on yourself by whining on your mistakes. I failed many times, and will be, and so will you. And the only way forward is to teeth your will through all the obstacles. You get knocked out -- you get up, you get fucked -- you get up again. And with each time you get up, you'll get stronger, and eventually you will get strong enough.
It's been "One of those days" for well over 10 years
stuck between yesterday and tomorrow
damn, hope things get better some day mr sapling guy 🫂
real
Haha, this is scaring me how accurate this is. 😅
real :/
Secret neuro lore: found 8/29
I can't tell if it is neuro 😗
I mean, it does look like Neuro but I don't think it is. Maybe, but probably not.
Exactly my first thought
The swarm is feeling the drought from the neuro arg so now we're assimilating other's content
@@juggernautbob3840Its might be, theres other videos on this channel with girls that look like neuro in em
It's funny, I often feel this way about myself. And yet when I see someone else express those same emotions, I can name a thousand reasons why they're wrong. We often lie to ourselves about lying to ourselves.
Your video genuienly moved me, thank you.
I was just about to say the same thing.
'Do as I say, not as I do'
I always say that when I'm giving some personal advice 'cause I know my ass isn't properly following my own.
No you just lie to other that it could be better
then why don't you treat yourself the way you treat others?
why live in the delusion that you're so different? that you, and only you, must be judged harsher, and unfairly?
is it not something you do to yourself?
@@arn3107Easier said than done.
Sleep for a total of 800 hours per day~
And then drink a liter of milk, warm up before you go play
Only eat, or write
Or pull the trigger with your right hand,
Only eat, or write, or pull the trigger with your right hand
these pm mfs keep spawning out of fucking nowhere man
Only eat, or write, or pull the trigger with your right hand
Hope you'll see some stars that won't make you feel the way you feel now. Just a bit different. Piece by piece
Look like a joke
When you ran out of “That’s that and this is this”
Fitting ngl, reminds me of that one cutscene where Roland is just lying on a couch and feeling depressed
so true
When you run out of "it is what it is"
this really was a library of ruina
Bro is not the black silence
"You must Gangnam, like I have."
"If I could Gangnam just for this moment..."
"Angela. Your Gangnam Style will be much greater than mine."
😼
no... even more.
Project moon is truly inescapable (this is a good thing)
tf is a project moon
@@bloopblap-xn1oq that is a rabbit hole that once you enter, you won't escape
This video got me:
'Just do nothing all day'
'3 more years just to waste away'
That was me 2 years ago.
I wanted nothing to do with anything, I'd dropped out of uni and felt like my life was going nowhere. I just wallowed in my own shame.
But then things got better.
Y'know, even if things feel completely hopeless, you might just find what you've been looking for all along. The same thing we all hope for, just a little happiness.
Yeah i felt the same at some point, just waiting to get into uni to find interest in my life again, I'm mostly over that way of thinking thankfully
was it a human that made ur life better? or was it some fake hope u created on ur mind to manipulate urself ?
Just goes to show there's always hope.
@@memories-of-nobody
All things are fake, when we're talking about perception.
Be positive, be negative. Either way it's a perception of reality that is inevitably inaccurate to actual reality.
In short, your brain already lies to you without your intervention.
Why not tell a useful lie? Why not adopt a perception that keeps you going?
If hope never comes, you'll be less miserable in the mean time. If it does come, you'll be ready to use it.
i've been like this for 5 years, nothing has gotten better
I sometimes wish i could donate my life to someone who deserves it
I'm so sorry for all the things you have been going through bro
@@ShiinaHiyori thanks man
real
Then you should make good use of it. You can still give to others something just as valuable, and that is help. Help in this dreary world that is only as bright as we make it to be.
I'll take it, whatevers useful at least
my indomitable human spirit the moment I said "you too" at the waitress:
I’m too many layers deep in irony to truly appreciate anything anymore. Everything’s always insignificant in retrospect or not worth the time looking forwards, and it doesn’t matter if it’s positive or negative. Everything just becomes something that happened.
Still, we have the choice to face it as if it has importance.. Despite living a life with no definite purpose, we are still indeed "living" a *life* .. despite the meaninglessness, I think it's best that we savour such small things as if they're big.
I love how despite the vibes of the title and thumbnail, the music is suprisingly different to what I expected. its rlly lovely, like instead of feeling more down with the thoughts I have with music, im listening to rlly nice tunes with the company of the music, feels like it has some warmth even with the emptiness. I also rlly love the art omg
I like to think that the reason it’s a happy tune is because the person who wrote the title has come to terms to the fact that they feel like they’ll do nothing and no longer feel sad about it and just feel ok and are keeping on despite the fact they feel that way and don’t have motivations
@@amazingnobodylee thats a rlly cool way of seeing it I love it :DD
The music really does give you something to focus on other than the depressing subtitles
@@drdino2002 I didn't even realize there was subtitles lol
@@bababooeeyyy I mostly see it that way because I can relate to it a bit lol
My self worth is so abysmal that when someone compliments me i try to find why its a lie instead of just taking it. But when others do that i can find reasons why its wrong, but I cant tell any to myself.
This video really expresses how i've been feeling lately so it's kinda touching and i cant help but feel bad
Fly, broken wings, i know you're still with me
the subtitle is a nice touch
Relatable. I don’t even know why I bother with anything anymore. I guess it’s just cause I’m too scared to actually do it. I keep thinking things will get better when they clearly just get worse.
What awaits me is a lonely, mundane and miserable future. I already talk to myself like a crazy person.
we could make this a new internet checkpoint....
save > select profile > me > confirm? > save successful!
guys stop making so many checkpoints I am doing a 100% run
thats what i thought
I’ve climbed out of this slump before and I’ll fucking do it again.
YEAH YOU WILL!! ❤
Yes, I have been so afraid...
Yes, i have been so distant
Consistently indifferent
It's hard to put that in an amicable sentence
Hope things will get better for you,
Things change, sometimes for the better
I hope you find the courage to keep moving forward
I'm so-rry, actually, not really
It's like "living life is pointless, we will die in the end anyway"
might as well have fun and make other people happy along the way
Right,
If we're already here, make the most out of it.
said to me my music teacher long ago.
@@Josolos (absurdism) we live we die, we live then die
Neuro: will I ever amount to anything?
You were created for the purpose of bringing joy, hapiness, laughter. In this purpose you have already suceeded all of our expectations.
And also twitch donations cough- cough-
The night sky is beautiful, isn't it? Most of it is dead, it's stars who already died long ago, and yet we still see their shine, a remaining of their light just for a little longer; did they have a purpose? No, they just were up there for a fraction of the universe and then died for no reason without anything witnessing or caring, but yet even after death they still illuminate the sky of a few planets, maybe some aliens are also looking at that same dead star that we are.
It is indeed all pointless and there is no meaning to any of it, but isn't that what makes life worth living? Knowing that we only have 1 chance, after all if we had all the time in the world people wouldn't do anything and just "save it for tomorrow when they had the motivation", but alas we do not have such luxury and that's why life can be beautiful , because it's short. Off the ground, a little dance and under we go again; but even after we are gone, just like the stars, our actions will still shine upon someone for a while longer, and they too shall carry on that same brightness once they die, so even if in the grand scheme of thing it's all worthless, we can make that worthless beautiful and enjoyable for a while longer.
(The video is old and no one will read this anyways, but oh well)
I think this is a beautiful way to see life, the meaning to life is the meaning we put upon it. Thank you for writing this
P.s I think you should look into creative writing because your very good at painting a picture with word^^
@@nyraarts7927 Thank you! If even one person found value in reading it, then it was already worth it to write the text
Others : "Yeah great song"
People who know the subtitles : 😢
"If you want to do it so bad, and you can do it, why don't you just...
...do it?"
I don't know.
Maybe I cant do it, and it was all a lie. Maybe I'm just a broken promise, a fool the world has lied to.
That's almost a relief. It was simply beyond me all this time. I am not to blame, for it always exceeded me.
Maybe I can do it. And its just that, in truth, I don't actually want to. Maybe I've been lying to myself, enamoured of the idea of doing it instead of the actual thing. Maybe I'm really just a simple human guided by simple desires, destined to live a simple life, away from whatever interesting people do.
That's almost a relief. I'd surrender in every way, never to hope or to harbour ambitions, lost in the limbo of everyday life. If I don't think enough, I'd never think of my lost potential again, or lose myself in a convenient nihilism.
Maybe I can do it. Maybe I want to do it. And yet I fail to even try.
Maybe there's something deep inside me, something beyond understanding, that dooms me to failure. Maybe there's something inherently wrong in me.
I remember having this line of thoughts around a year ago. I was going to class in uni (i guess college for americans) but I was late, so late. It was with my favorite professor at the time, and it felt disrespectful to even try and enter. I didn't gather the courage to walk in to class.
And so I sat there around the campus at 7 AM, doing nothing, thinking to myself what was wrong with me. So many failed classes, so many self-disappointments. Wasted two years of uni in one big mediocre mess, two years in which never once I woke up in time. I couldn't even bring myself to study, despite hating the living hell out of myself for not doing so, despite wanting so desperately to change yet never managing to do so.
How can one forgive oneself for all the wasted opportunities? Every day, every hour, every minute. I could have learned four languages, learned three sports, written five books, and done well in uni those two years.
But oh well, here we are.
It's your life, no matter how repeating, boring or stale, it's always your life. Don't expect too much from yourself, the really small steps everyday are the true progress. Take care.
yes.
yes.
yes.
yes.
yes.
ouchie my eyes hurt from all this white
yes.
yes.
yes.
I struggled with self-hatred-still in the process of forgiving myself for lost time and poor health. But this music is just calming, as if every negative emotion is just bottled up into one resonance, self-contained and left unheard.
You can only feel the intent by reading the subtitles, but the emotion is still there, though subtle, and the reason one would even care is if they read the damn thing. Not your mind, but how you feel. That's how I felt listening to this piece of music, and I hope you'll make do with the process that is life.
I'll remember to listen to this when I wake up, so don't end the process. Continue, and thank you.
Just remember. Whenever it feels like things are backing up too much, and you just can't do it, can't seem to keep up..
You do what you can. You throw your best foot forward, and even if everything blows up around you, nobody can tell you that you didn't at least try. And as long as nobody can tell you that you didn't try, you've done the best you could with the hand you were dealt. That's all anyone can ask for. More importantly, that's all you can ask of yourself. The rest falls into place with time.
this sounds so familiar but i can't grasp it, like a burning memory ._.
I have a very specific mindset. Am i contributing to anything? No! Do i matter in the grand scheme of things? Absolutely not! Do i care? Nuh uh!
I just listened to every song on your channel! All I want to say is, you have so much talent! Thank you so much for making these songs, they're the best for when I go to sleep at night.
Somehow youtube never show many small channel like this
I think I'm fine being nothing in the end, but I wanna be something until then
UA-cam Algorithm always knows me best 😊
Despite thinking all of these things all of the time, what makes it worse is you're not the only one going to be dragged down if you actually listen to these voices. Family, friends and other potential people that you've somehow got into your side will suffer from what you're turning into. It slowly devours you mentally then creeps into you physically. Slowly those voices will be the one you'll only hear until the day you realize all of the things and people you've push away disappears.
So my take is do what you can and have fun even if its hard, find a haven for yourself when you're tired and vulnerable. Take a rest in that haven, it may be a person or place. May people rest well and find their haven.
You don’t have to amount to anything, your existence is more than enough.
You don’t have to be perfect for people to love and care for you, just as others don’t need to be perfect for you to love and care for them.
You are loved in every form you take, and I need you to remind yourself of that.
I love you, all of you, please remember that❤
It resonates with "I don't want to be an engineer".
I dont know what this vid about. Idc if I will look like a fool, but I genuinely shad a pair of tears. I would hug u author so u just felt that somebody can totally understand your feelings. I truly believe that u will overcome your dark and bit nasty thoughts, It's not that I don't have some harmful thoughts, but I believe in you, honestly, random guy or girl
Shat a pair of shears
I also feel the same way rn. There's a lot of stress and pressure on me rn, and there's so many other people who are better than me.
But if it helps you in any sort of way, I put this song in ny inspirations playlist for any future songs I write. I hope that helps you feel a little less useless
This really touched my heart. I have these same thoughts everyday, and I don't know why I try anymore.
I hope things get better for you
Something I found in this comment section is many, many people who feel similar to you, and even people who have moved past it.
So long as you move forward, you'll always have value, though that probably sounds corny.
Opportunity is potential
Gives "Up" vibes
Thats one way to put it
Sounded familiar then you got it for me lol
quick reminder that nearly 10 thousand views is a LOT of people! Try to picture all those people in one room, watching your video :) You’ve already amounted to something and made an impact on those people, trust me bro. God bless you and your journeys 👍
I fkn love the emotions displayed in this song and the captions. I don’t know exactly what your jealous of, but I can assure you that whatever it is it couldn’t make me feel as much this piece did: that has to mean something (i think). Thank you for making it
This song, title and image all collectively come together to give me a million emotions
Don't forget the subtitles too.
I am very embarrassed with myself. I finished high-school 4 years ago. I didnt get my diploma yet, and i haven't gotten my army dissmiss note. I never bothered to learn anything new, i never bothered to look for a course, an uni, to learn to drive. I wasted 4 years of my life, I lost connections, never made any new ones. All the ones who had the same upbringing as me managed to land jobs and are doing fine, but I didn't.
I feel terrible, and I am terrible. I wanna change that, little by little.
"Thats a mood Gabriela" and also something i DEFINITELY should not be listening to right now but f*ck it, if ima be depressed anyway might as well go all the way
Once someone tried to cheer me up by asking me "what do you like about yourself?". He said others said something like "my face" or "my voice" but it really just made me sad. Nothing. I couldn't think of anything whatsoever at the time. So I'll keep going, keep going until I can create something to like about myself.
One must imagine Mid happy
does anyone want a hug, you all seem like you need one
seems nihilistic.
Sometimes it doesn't matter what you will amount to. Having an impact on those around you, even if just one person, that's what counts.
& I'm fine with that.
"Today i will change to be better" then 3 years has passed... I just don't have any form of excitement and passion for anything anymore.
I love bottling up so much the jug is overflowing and I ignore it but just one wrong thing and I can lie down and break apart
I don’t think I’ve ever had a video reach that far into my heart before
This tune oddly makes me want to make something out of my life
This fixed me
I don't know why I'm saying this, but I'm watching at 5:20 AM, I have failed to sleep or even get tired because I was constantly worrying & reflecting on my life. I have no way to cope with stress, so some days I have mental breakdowns, broken, laughing while crying. I often don't know what to feel, & I often wish I just didn't feel anything, but life hasn't been that easy yet. I'm always depressed, & I hide myself behind the many masks that I have just called personalities. I use them to gain friends, scared that I will lose them if I'm not who they like or used to, because after all, no one likes change or difference. I don't fall into my insecurities or negative thoughts, because I know they're not true & it's just my terrible mental state. But I know one thing, you should never belittle yourself, because even if it's selfish, you are more & the most important in your own life, & you should grow to keep that fact shining, but if you can't, that's ok. You should do what you wanted to do, despite everything. Any negativity locked up inside you, hurting you, should be used to fire up your determination to prove everyone wrong, & to show your potential. You should treat yourself as the king to your mental kingdom, be the leader of yourself, escape your troubles, think 2 steps ahead, & always do your best to suppress the bad! Don't end up like me, or worse. Do what I could have done. I love & believe in all of you, & while you see this, copy & paste, print, or write down this comment, even if you're not struggling. Motivation works best when being integrated into your mind daily, it really works like that, & that's literally how adds work. Just it being around you influences you, & the belief makes it true.
Guys, love yourself.
That's all I gotta say.
If you look in the mirror and hate yourself - love your fucking self!
Yes, you should love yourself now!
Yes, you should, ’cause I do! -LowTierGod
You should all treat yourself with a 100,000%,=
Even if I don't have the worst life imaginable, why do I feel so trapped? I just don't know what to do for myself and with myself. A myriad of fears and doubts keep me from looking towards tomorrow. Whilst its so easy to gaze into the past and hate myself for things I've done and said. The person I've culminated into isn't just a byproduct of others mistreatment of me but also my own self hate and loathing. So I guess its mostly just me holding myself back, but I don't know how to deal with each facet of my mentality. I can't picture myself being happy and content.
The greatest part is that even if we amount to nothing, even if nothing has meaning then it doesn’t matter that you or me aren’t the greatest of all time that we may not be our heroes that we feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. If nothing means anything then it’s okay that we take it day by day it’s okay that we feel like giving up it’s okay that we doubt and pout. It’s okay because we have tomorrow the day after and our entire lives ahead. If we simply take life day by day, live in the present and make some good choices we will eventually find ourselves in a greater place where while nothing matters and we feel like rotting at times we won’t because we might as well do something cooler.
My heart goes out to all you struggling. It pains my soul, I hope y'all can find what you need or just want to find.
People’s expectations are crushing me
I am my enemy and my friend
It feels useless asking for sheet music, but this has so much significance, and I want to carry its meaning with me. I hope others feel the same way. This truly is a work of art!!!!!!! 😱😭??
ua-cam.com/video/nccg1LepGcQ/v-deo.html
the first time i tried a notation software
@@kuroinisshokumid I don't believe it, thank you so much! This is going in my repotoir
@@kuroinisshokumid I thought your composition was incredible, I wonder if you're alright with having it upped on musescore? I could have optimized it more, maybe in the future ill have accents replace the dotted quarter notes or something, i added the inner voice and whatnot, I just hope more people can appreciate your works and play them
@@johnygamr57 musescore.com/user/69437989/scores/20683090/s/0pNAah?share=copy_link
good luck
i am reaching my limit but this simple video made it bearable.
“And that’s okay because that has always been the case. The universe doesn’t care about what I do or am by the time I die. It can’t.
But what can are those I choose to surround myself with. Those that give my limited time on this rock a reason to keep going not because I owe them anything, not because it’s morally right, but because they make life worth living.
They are the light we find at our deepest pit of despair. And even in this despair I know that I have always been enough to
be loved.”
See also, “Because we have no greater purpose, we are free to set our own. To create self-defined goals for which to strive.
For some it may be nothing. For some it may be pleasure. For some it may be creation. For some it may be improving the lives of others.
It is because we have no greater purpose, that time spent on goals set by one’s self cannot be time wasted.
In the end, nothing matters, and therefore you have no reason not to do what you want rather than whatever illusion of greater purpose is forced on you by others or even your own misguided thoughts.
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By continually forcing to subvert those creeping negative thoughts with the positive logical ones, the emotional mind will eventually, slowly, gradually start to shape to fit the logical.
It is not an easy job.
It is not a quick job.
It will sometimes feel like an impossible job.
However, it can be done.
With an immense amount of time, effort, and energy, it will improve.
You can change.
You can heal.
And during the hardest times, when all seems lost and you want to give up, never forget…
We will always love you.”
@@guy6826 mine wasn’t a quote just felt right to use the marks. Also $6 SHRIMP SPECIAL!
@@thyholynoodle6282 see if I was smart what I would’ve done is Google what you said to verify where it was from but I instead decided to Google the 2-S monologue and copy it painstakingly over the course of approximately 5-10 minutes. Efficient decision making 👍
To anyone going through the motions. You can do this. All of you can. I understand the pain, but we can get through it. One day at a time.
There needs to be more like this, its so ethereal and beautiful in such a dreadful way. The subtitles adds to it. ❤ Just amazing
I felt these kinds of feelings all my life, and then I just reached a breaking point. I said, "f#ck this sh#t, this feels horrible" and decided to do a full 180 on my life. In the future, I hope I can continue on this grind, because the pain of not trying is worse than the pain of trying and failing.
Damn straight. I'm tired of seeing other people's stories while rotting away rather than working to achieve my own.
What a somber yet lovely gem to stumble across. Sometimes UA-cam can do nice things for us.
dang man, those captions
i don't need to amount to, i'm just gonna be. and whateve i'll be, i'll be okay
you will too.
This is my life, I have only been a burden since birth, all I have ever done is hurt people even though what I want to do is make people happy and laugh, but instead they hate me and get upset, and everyone just keeps leaving me and is disappointed in me, I'm never going to amount to anything and will die alone, there's nothing I can do because everyone will leave me and there is nothing I can do, I'm 18 now and everything is just going to get worse, my best friends have left me, my family is disappointed in me, I'm a joke to everyone, and no one understands
You finally caught some folk with this one. It’s pretty good too. Love the work and hope to hear more soon
who else forgot to put captions on 😭😭🙏
what is youtube trying to tell me
We all give value to things. It’s the only thing that really matters. We love and want but sometimes it’s hard to want. Sometimes it’s hard to really care about anything but there’s something good about the pointlessness. To exist in spite of it.
Ngl I have a lot of issues when it comes to taking up time and space but often times when I see other people like me I am so sure that their life is worth living.
We suffer a lot but there are still things we can appreciate. Little things like how far light travels from distant stars that may or may not be gone just to reach our eyes or the way that birds great the morning. I like the way the sun streams through my window and onto my closet.
And these are small things that I think are worth experiencing and feeling fully. They aren’t much but it’s like the universe itself telling you that it loves you. You are part of it and just like everything else you deserve to live and live well.
Damn, this really hits hard being in college right now. The pandemic really made things difficult, I regret doing some things I shouldn't have during that lockdown, and now I'm suddenly brought back outside not having been able to think of what I could really want in my life than the thing I've already been doing most of the time before, being forced to already grow up when I feel like I'm still not ready. A few more years and I'll already be an adult, I know most people say college isn't everything but by now I don't even know what options I have left since it feels like the time I could've had a setback were already taken away from me. Maybe I'm overthinking things, I just wish I'm still making the right choice right now, since it feels like I don't have a lot of time to be doing second options.
Aw man, ended up crying while typing this. I know most people would barely even read most of these comments with how many there are like this, just felt like I had to get it off my chest for a bit, if anybody even actually bothered, I appreciate it, and I'm sorry you had to go through it
@@BlankedOutSlate You don't need to excuse yourself 👍 🫂
Thinking is quite a burden, isn’t it?
Bloom into You moment
damn... if I ever got a chance, I would just lay down, listen to this song and stare into the void forever, I guess, that would be nice
but if you think about it, it would be shame if a person just lays down and do nothing their whole life
if only thoughts weren't destroying everything, they just ruin every single thing!!!
I would just overwrite them with this song
it is nice one, calming, simple and (as it seems) made by broken person ( I hope u will someday find freedom from those thoughts)
People say there's nothing impossible.
But everyday I just doing nothing.
Nothing matters, so why try?
Nothing matters, so why give up?
it'll be okay
There's a surprising amount of ProjectMoon enjoyers, lol. Anyways, I hope life treats ya better, man, whoever you are. I don't have any definite advice, but I wish ya the best.
i didnt know an instrumental could do this to me ;-;
I feel the same way. Part of me takes comfort in what I have now, being excited to work on something. It is fun. But then I remember it's for nothing...
After that comes another day and i once more feel that strong urge to continue, with fresh ideas and plans. I think to myself, it's a race with time. All I want is to finish this work, then fate will decide what happens next.
That's kinda how life works too, doesn't it? Just push through. And hey, rotting in bed is still living. If I handled it for years then perhaps it's not the worst ways of living...
And i still have time to do something. I'll only truly run out of time once i'm dead.
For as long as people have been alive, we've made goals along the way, and while those goals were made up, they gave something to work toward.
If you find your work important, or even if you just enjoy it, I think it's worthwhile.
Hope things get better for you
you're doing it for you, and you are everything. you aren't living that way, just surviving. try to wring out every droplet of joy that you can from your life
I relate to you.
sometimes i feel like achieving things in life is too much effort for something so fragile. Why cant i just stare at clouds all day? that would be nice, with some friends maybe better. im tired and i feel like i havent done anything worth of rest.
Damn, that brings back memories.
Who else here that had or has still similar thoughts?
It's the waltz you dance with yourself.
thats...literally what i think n go through ever year. Just a man waiting for death, i dont even want to feel hopes anymore cause u know they will only shatter n disappoint u in the end
Beautiful and moving
Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be a robot. An AI or a construct? It’s really hard to express in words or even action. I’ve been working towards my goals for years now… I’ve set my sight on a goal when I was really young and I’ve continued to try for it for years. But everything feels so goddamn overwhelming. I’ve tried self-help. I’ve tried taking a break. Tried even getting deeper into my work and study.
Yet, i’m not a machine, but sometimes I wish I was. I wish I could see the world through that once blissful ignorance the same way an AI does. Putting labels to things it doesn’t understand, but knowing that it will one day understand it with the right data. To not worry about impressing others or achieving something. Just a thing that outputs data it’s given. In a really strange way isn’t that beautiful?
Well, who cares anyways? I’m just a guy who rambles online about stuff.
Ahh. . .
Tomorrows Another Day
This feeling always happens whenever I don't receive a proper reciprocation from my actions or my expectations were wrong or not met. It's that pessimistic view of results that slowly consumes your motivation and ambition. You would always think that something must be done and that failing is normal in order to succeed, however, how many failures can you carry on your back? Until it crushes you, even victory won't lessen those. You have won in a succesive battle and failed a hundred times, then back again to the war to grasp that destined victorious outcome again and the cycle repeats. It's very lonely, I just need someone to be with, it's not someone to carry the burden of failure along with but one that I can share my hope in this never ending battlefield called life.
Jus returned from a walk with the intention of, yknow, leaving. But, I got cold feet, just as I always do. You know, a question came to my mind when I was out there, standing alone in a field under the night sky with a revolver in one hand, and a flashlight in the other. "What do I want?". Couldnt come up with a good answer, just ended up naming a few things to myself that I know i'll never have. Someone special, that I can make happy. Friends that I can trust, and rely on, people I can feel comfortable around. Freedom, control over my own life and be able to make my own decisions. At least, those are the things I remember me saying, just silly things I hold onto hope of one day having, even though I know in my heart I'll never know what there like. I don't expect anyone to see this, and if you do, it probably wont matter anyway. I guess this is a cry for help, a silent cry into nothing, probably why I talked aloud to myself, in a empty field in the middle of the night with no one around. I wonder what I would have thought if a voice answered me, if it would have changed any of the despair I feel now. Maybe thats my issue, I've just finally been beaten down enough that ive lost any identity that made me, well, me. I don't recognize myself anymore, my thoughts in bed before night keep me up, and im constantly left to wonder who they belong to. I don't know what I want anymore, what I desire, what I strive for, or... the thing that baffles me most of all, why im still here. When I hold that revolver against my head, I just find myself unable to pull the trigger, and I can admit it to myself, I don't want to die, but I simply don't understand why I still want to live. I don't have any hope, not anymore at least. Im 18, and haven't met anyone in person for 4 years, maybe 5 now. I have no experience, no understanding of the world, no hope, no chance to be anything other than a burden. I have no one to rely on, my family isn't exactly the best, and admitting something like this to them would only lead to a fight, or maybe they'd just kick me out altogether. I really hate having to rely on them, but I simply can't hope to support myself otherwise, or at least, I can't see any way. I often think about just running, maybe hitchhiking on some trains and just, seeing where the world takes me. But, at that point, I think I'd rather just, yknow, give up, see what the next life offers, if there is one. I just, I don't see the point anymore. Nothing about the world makes any sense to me, people are evil, there isn't any good in the world, at least not enough worth acknowledging. At least, thats how I see things. My mind feels like it's broken, like most of me has already died, and I'll never see it again, all the parts of me that I was proud of, the parts of me that made me unique. Sometimes I wonder, if someone pointed out a way to solve my problems, could I even see it anymore? Could I even improve if everything was fixed, or, is this just who I am now? Is this just life now? Honestly, I think im just one bad, or good day away from finally ending it all, and that doesn't even bother me. I think about not being here almost every quiet moment now, I think I even fantasize about it, theres nothing I see thats worth staying for anymore, nothing realistic at least, but when I actually plan it, I can never follow through. I must truly be worthless.
I'm... sorry. I'd like to say that "you're only 18, your life has only just started!" but I feel the exact way as you do. I've felt like taking the easy way out a bunch of times and while I've gotten through the worst of it, I'm just "surviving" for now, just living to live without being useful to anyone. Everything I've ever tried I've failed at and given up, I just feel like a useless human being. I don't even know how to live, I was never taught by anyone and I never learnt... The most I can do is to keep surviving. I'd like to say I don't have any hope left, but maybe one day I'll find some meaning in my miserable life.
Try again
@@therealzizmon1748I just wish us knowing we weren’t alone in the world helped at all. If anything, it only makes me feel more alone, knowing there’s others like me, others I’d probably fit in with and get along with, but knowing I’ll never meet them. I feel like theres a joke somewhere there to be made. I hope things get better for you, a boost of motivation your able to hold on to, or perhaps something else.
@@therealzizmon1748 12 days later, and I still feel this way, useless, hopeless, just waiting for the end. How’s things going for you friend?
@@troyscribner4342 Not much better here, although change is often a process that takes years...
Someone felt the same way like me.
I dont know if i should be concerned, sad, happy.
i randomly woke up at 2 AM and couldn't get back to sleep, opened UA-cam and this was the first thing recommended
maybe this is a sign
Thank you for making this
I like this video. If even if just that, your life at least amounted to a genuine moment of peace for me in the difficult life I live. I hope even the smallest knowledge that this piece did something good for someone is enough for you to feel that you did something good for the world.
Always remember, someone somewhere at some point appreciated your silliness. Stay goofy, and keep being silly. Goobers
But that's okay, to do whatever you wish to do without worrying about the end result is the truest form of freedom in life.
About to have my first big W in my 22 year life. Been pathetic garbage and a loser in the past, grew to what I am now -- way above average in character. And now it pays of. The worst thing you can do to yourself is to set a limitation on yourself by whining on your mistakes. I failed many times, and will be, and so will you. And the only way forward is to teeth your will through all the obstacles. You get knocked out -- you get up, you get fucked -- you get up again. And with each time you get up, you'll get stronger, and eventually you will get strong enough.