Addicted to meth for 7 years, coke for 2 years before that amd multiple relapses, homeless, traphouses, walking the streets all night. September 1st is my clean date. Almost 7 months clean, got a truck, full time job a camper im living in and a loving gf who i put thru hell and a beautiful 8 month old Son. God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference. 2:13
Seeing the serenity prayer in your comment tonight really helped me be reminded, and motivated to look back towards God. It's been a while but that little reminder, so simple and good, was dearly appreciated. Thank you brother. All the best to you, all the way from Australia.
Good man. Keep it up. I know it's hard. Baby needs a daddy❤ .I'm a fan. Just found you again. Grateful for the Lord. Learn to give him the things you cannot change. I am learning to do this. It's very hard. But the more I let go of the more blessings can enter my life. Stay blessed 🎶🎶 keep making your great music !! Congratulations on your gf and son. You are blessed 🎶🎶💖
Keep going. It's not the same but so much better, the worst moments out here in the sun n light are better than the best down there in that dark hell... I'm pulling for you brother
Beautiful 😢😢 just quit drinking January somethingth and while sometimes it calls me back, I don't want to look back. My life is better without it. My intuition is alive for the first time ever.
I was never gonna live to see 30, and I existed in the world with that intention. Im somehow turning 50 this summer with almost a decade clean from heroin, cocaine, alcohol and meth. So grateful i got out before fentanyl took over. Almost everyone i know who didn't is dead. The music of Benjamin Tod carries me through some dark times and that message of redemption and hope has been my only life preserver. I am eternally grateful for this mans art.
My son took me to see Lost Dog Street a couple yrs ago and I wanted to hug each one. Im an old lady now but I can relate to almost every song ive heard. Those kids touch my soul in a way nothing else has❤
My daughter’s dad took his life on the 8th of September. We got tickets to see Lost Dog Street Band for the 6th of November. He loved this band and played all the songs on repeat. I wish he survived to see them as he really looked up to Benjamin Tod. I miss him so much, he was the love of my life.
Damn, small word, day before my birthday, was the 8th of Sept, I almost did the same but thinking of my daughter kept me here. I'm very sorry. I hope you both heal. I wish he would've healed. We just don't talk about what's inside.
God delivered me from a 25 year addiction/nightmare. Man’s world has no real cures for addiction. To those of you out there who are still struggling to escape those hellish deeps of despair and pain, there is hope. Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be amazed at what he can do in your life. Thanks for another song LDSB. It’s a blessing to see another new song up.
A legit tear came to my eye when he pulled out nicks bible for anyone who’s been fallowing Ben for a while knows that nick had a huge impact on Ben’s music and life in general it’s so sad people are dying left and right and there are more addicts now then ever, do to the state of our world right now. Idk where I would be without Ben’s music all the way back to spit shine he’s helped me through my addiction and he doesn’t even know how big of a help he is to addicts and just people in general I may be still shooting up if not for Ben and his music. We need to get Ben much more money and fame he deserves it. We make all these dumb people famous for once can we make someone famous who deserves it and will use his platform to help people. Much love goes out to anyone in addiction believe in yourself you can get out of it I thought I would never be able to do it and here I am.
Who is Nick? I’ve been following Ben and Lost Dog for some years now but not too closely to their personal lives. I still need to hear the rest of this album as well.
Been a fan for years and years. Me and all my brothers. I quit heavy drinking as a hardcore functioning alcoholic on the 22-11-22. And it was a long long process. But I haven’t touched a drop. It was attempt 1,000 but finally got there 👍🏻.
I’m still struggling. I hide my drinking from my wife. She thinks I quit in the new year. I did…..did a week. I want to but every day I’m sucked back in. Hoping I’ll get there.
you’ll get there brother. But not without getting her on board. There will be a war on your emotions so you will need her understanding of where it’s coming from. But I’m going to tell you now. If I can do it. Anyone can let’s just say that. And honestly it is a freedom like no other 👍🏻. Don’t be hard on yourself. It’ll happen when you are ready.
@@T.JP-co8zx I am confident that you will man 👍🏻.These things take time. Just be prepared to accept and try to find peace in the chaos. It passes and you come out the other end twice the man you are now I promise you. Im routing for you 💪🏻
In all seriousness, this song is breathtaking. It is extremely hard for an addict to be THIS vulnerable and open about our struggles. No matter how hard life gets, I am so grateful I made it another day not drinking or using. God is so good.
This is the comment❤ much love fam Ashley and Ben hae become a part of my life forever. Went from downing quarts of mountain water to their songs every day to gaining a little hope from each listen in my road to recovery. The raw honesty and authenticity of self expression in their music is unmatched in this day and age.
Thank you for this. I drove down home last night to be at church for communion. I hadn't realized there was an addiction recovery group there too. They had the group share the service with the rest of the fellowship. They asked if anyone had multiple years and asked me to speak. I told them faith and that I couldn't have done it alone. That they can do it too, they can make it. Growing up, coming from southern Ohio and northeast Kentucky, that small town Appalachia, it's par for the course. Thank you for all that you do, your music helps.
@@nikistevenson1550 Nicolas Ridout was a fellow traveling musician, hobo, and user with Ben. But unlike Ben, he never got clean and sadly he doesn't walk with us anymore. A lot of the songs from his solo album "Songs I Swore I'd Never Sing" are about Nicolas. Check out 'The Paper and the Ink' and 'Still Search For You.' Both of them about Nicolas. 'The Paper and the Ink' mentions this journal specifically.
@@nikistevenson1550 I tried replying to this once but the youtube overlords decided against it. Check out "The paper and the ink" and "Still Search for You" by Benjamin Tod. "This journal ain't mine but its filled with my misery. Passed down by a friend who was taken too soon to complete."
Glad to see so many folks trying to get it together. I landed with a cirrhosis diagnosis at 34 but nevertheless, I have survived. Good luck everybody ✌️❤️
They can gloss over what you said, my wife is 36 with cirrhosis but I’m still an alcoholic. I will, most likely, live to be 90 drinking, I hope not, but it is true. Enjoy yourself and know there are worse things than death.
I have lost all my family members due to addiction….. your music helps me get threw life knowing they could have made it but one day I will see them again… Thank you Lost dog street band can’t wait to see you April 21st ❤❤🔥🔥
Amazing as always. Seeing the name on the Bible brought tears to my eyes along with this spectacular emotion inducing piece of art. May your song bless many.
Thank you for this song Ben. As a fellow “survivor” possessed by the demons of pharmakia, I somehow walked out of hell, sober for 12 years now through the love and grace of Christ. Amen 🙏 God Bless you for your honesty and strength!
As somebody in active addiction, Benjamin Todd is the only person I can listen to and connect with both sober and under the influence. I won’t stop fighting, I only lost today. Pick up the pieces and try again tomorrow. Thank you Mr. Todd
Lost so many friends an family yet I'm still here an don't know how I survived... I'm happier now but I still wish sometimes I joined them. It never gets easier
Just in case anyone needs to hear this and has no one to say it to their face in person, I am so proud of you for making it out ♡ Ben, i only know you through your music, but I'm proud of you for making it out ♡ Addiction is a deep hole to climb out of. Yet, here you are, at the top and using your music as a rope to throw down to help others. So much love for you guys♡
Just finished rehab today feeling lost in life right now, not sure what the future holds but I’m on my way to something better this upload has gave me the strength to keep holding on Thankyou❤
I can’t stress enough how much Benjamin Tod has related in song to my struggles with my daughters mother. Believe it or not, we are going on a year back together and my daughter couldn’t be happier. Addiction, stress, and a bad path… all related. Thank you Benjamin Tod. Listening from Bauxite Arkansas!
You're a living saint Ben, walking the path of his own redemption and preaching the good word of pain and recovery to the people. I'm not a christian man, but someone once said your words would be remembered as hymns, and this is the best way I can contextualise his words! You're an inspiration brother, big love!
Thank you for pouring your all into this one. Shooting this video must have been challenging. Getting all that “weight”off your back hit home. Thank you for bearing the burden of a role model. Prayers love and thoughts to those who did and didn’t make it through.
Got divorced with no help with my kids, their mom left completely for drugs, oh lord how close I was to the bottom again and relapsing. I didnt though thanks to this man, im still here for my babies 4 years later.
I often think of the ones that left us to soon and all the crazy situations i put my self in and how i survived .i think thats a ? We ? A lot in our survival to be where we are now . Your voice is raw and your music tells a story that we can feel to our core . Your voice is needed in this world you are a earth angel for us your strength and determination with your music gives us strength to know that we must carry the torch with you . Thank you Benjamin Todd for being your true self . 👍
Gee-zus Ben. You make me cry too much. This is one of the most powerful videos I have ever seen on any platform. For anyone that faced the struggle in one form or another. This video and song harpoon the heart. I just don't have the words. Thank you Ben. May you have a long life and safe travels.
great song. hope it helps someone! im in my 60s and the struggles go on. nice to hear lyrics like this so you don't feel alone and lost. Imon the better side of things these days but the embers still burn.
You two could literally release anything and it would be awesome! The poetically penned perfection that tells a story, conveys a message, a feeling, only supported with the composition of the music and cadence of you voice and the tune that sometimes Trai in a different direction than one expects. Truly amazing music
Same. One of VERY VERY few famous people I'd like to meet in person. There has to be two things for me to want to even breathe in the same space as a famous person: 1. Potential for a conversation in which I learn something new. A stimulating convo. 2. The possibility that I, myself, might contribute something of the same to them in our conversation.
Excellent video my friend. ...this video takes me to a place and time...that I'm too ashamed to share with anybody...ant the people that were there...are already dead...and by the grace of god...my buddies daddy was a preacher...and he never missed a moment to share the gospels with me. Hallelujah Lord I thank you for my deliverance.
This cuts deep. I discovered Lost Dog Street band as I got sober in 2017. The lyrics always hit home because Ben is one of us. All the love in the world from Montreal. Thank you for this. ❤️
In an age where country music is on life support and barely any "True" country music is even made it's such a blessing that an Artist like Ben still exist
I appreciate the video. My experience was a lot of the same. I had a special “set up”-a place to go, songs to listen to, everything had to be a certain way, like a ritual, or the high just wasn’t the same. Don’t get me wrong, I’d get high or drunk anywhere, any time. But those times were “special” (they weren’t-it could’ve been just another Tuesday afternoon, but to a junkie every high is a big life changing experience). No booze for 9 years, and clean off pills (except for medical emergencies) since December of 17. Then I relapsed in about November of last year. I’m clean again. Lost two friends last year alone to OD’s and went through two of my own in my heyday. Don’t know how I made it through. The one thing I don’t agree w is that a drunk or junkie has any responsibility to be a role model or leader. It’s just my own experience, but for me, all we can be is examples of mistakes not to make, and that has just as much power. If my mistakes can keep my niece away from drugs and booze, I’m glad to be the example.
Dear Ben and gang, I recently got into your music last summer during a dark period in my sobriety. Your music helped me ACCEPT who I AM as an addict, and alcoholic. It helped me relax and start making things simple again. By the grace of God I’m 2 years sober.. and I find so much comfort in your music. This video was very vivid, as per the warning.. it made me feel the discomfort and actual pain of using. I never want to feel that again. Y’all make incredible music, and as a recovered alcoholic, I must thank you. And as a lowdown drunk who liked doing drugs, I must thank you. Hoping to see you guys play live some day.. I used to be a big live music junkie, from reggae, to jam bands to bluegrass, to whatever real music you and other artists like Matt Heckler and Jason Dea West create. Wishing you all a happy and healthy fulfilling life by God’s mercy. ❤
I first heard this song live just two and half days ago, with no idea of the video or that it was so visceral and vivid. I don't usually come lookin for new Ben Tod or Lost Dog songs, and even when I see them, I don't always listen right away. Sometimes in fear of how hard they may hit me, and not wanting or having the time, at times, to allow the emotions to come thru as they, and deservingly to myself, need to.. no, the new ones usually just tend to come to me exactly when they need to. My only question, Ben... how tf did that feel to put a needle in your arm after so long!? Geeze oh man.. even tho it was just water inside it, that can't have been a pleasant experience. If you're anything like me, you were also addicted to the needle, not just it's contents. Nickolas' book really struck a nerve for me. I'd give anything to have my best friend, Josh, back, and im sure you would too. We'll see them again someday, souls like theirs can only end up in one place, let's hope we haven't worn our welcome up there and make it as well🙏🏽 I thank you, Ben, for everything you are, everything you've been, the good, bad, and the ugly, and making it back to share your experiences and shepherd others thru and to the light - and hopefully keep some others from losing it. I said it to a friend just tonight - another rubber trampin train kidd like us, that you're the most important musician of my lifetime. I'm forever endebted to you and your enduring work. I can't very much thank you without also thanking Ashley Mae, wouldn't be just. The one that kept you together when you couldn't yourself, the one harmonizing so beautifully with you on so many songs, and laying down some of the meanest fiddle licks to ever grace the airwaves. Cheers to the both of you, and to many more years, songs, and memories🫡❤️
Another incredible song from you. Your lyrics are always something special. Thanks for doing what you do and putting this out into the world. Your music is a big part of my life. Thank you for the ride
My name is also Benjamin and I’ve been clean for 2 years plus but I only have today! Grateful that you’re still making music you got something for every vibe
We need the harshness and rawness. We need you to keep it real more than the label companies need you to clean up your content for a few extra dollars. Always amazing man thanks.
I have yet to find a song from yall that hasn't spoken to me in some form or another, rather through my empathy for situations my dear loved ones are in and the hardships of their lives, or to me personally and my struggles. Even if you took the lyrics away, the music itself carries a deep sorrow that forces me to reflect, but in combination with the never missing lyrics, man it's just something else. I guess this is just a long winnded thank you, for your vulnerability and the depth you pour into your work. ❤️🔥
I know these guys are incredible the way the music plays and his voice such passion it's truly awesome. I hope you have an incredible evening peace love hope ❤
This song is honest, beautiful and raw, relatable in many ways ♥️ and honestlyyyy all these comments of warriors here, keep on fighting seeing this made me cry and reading all these comments made me so hopeful in a sadhappy way. Sending love 🤍🤍🤍
Absolutely beautiful. The fact that you put something so personal into the world is deeply appreciated. I can't imagine the fear and abject catharsis that came along for that journey. Thank you for being genuine and forthcoming. Sharing experiences like these helps so many who have been or are on that long road of recovery and relapse.
Going to see him in Charlotte next month. My beautiful daughter bought tickets for my birthday. She's a big fan too. So excited. 😊 one of the best songwriters I've ever heard. I feel liked I've live every lyric. Thanks Ben! Blessed soul.
Yall have gotten me through hard times for years now... I got tickets to see you in May for the first time, and it's one thing to help carry me through
Wow. Just wow. So good. I hope this will touch much more than me. Folks what ever your crutch is I hope you or others can help you to loose it. Thanks LDSB for another epic tune. This new album is gonna be awesome. Love yall.
I dont know know how many nights ive stumbled around my garage belting your music, which was one of the only things that i had to hold onto in some of the toughest times of my life. Hell i named my son after you. Thankyou for making music man!
Know you speak truth. Love every song you write and keep a hopeful eye for the next one as I pray for the Lord to give you strengh as you give voice to a dark and lonely journey so many of us often face alone. Your continued honestly and deep music has been a light to me. I don't pretend to know you, and yet I don't think it wrong to say deep calls out to deep. Your music is trully inspired and appreciated, keep it up. Thank you.
Amazing With the words and video for this song. Just proves what his grandad said in "we ain't even kin". Benjamin Todd isn't in prison and songs are his pulpit.
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Addicted to meth for 7 years, coke for 2 years before that amd multiple relapses, homeless, traphouses, walking the streets all night. September 1st is my clean date. Almost 7 months clean, got a truck, full time job a camper im living in and a loving gf who i put thru hell and a beautiful 8 month old Son. God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference. 2:13
❤ keep it up brother , for the devil is still lurking , but the sprit of Jesus Christ has survived !
@@PBAM702 Amen. The devil is doing pushups! But I just have to keep going!
Seeing the serenity prayer in your comment tonight really helped me be reminded, and motivated to look back towards God. It's been a while but that little reminder, so simple and good, was dearly appreciated.
Thank you brother. All the best to you, all the way from Australia.
Good man. Keep it up. I know it's hard. Baby needs a daddy❤ .I'm a fan. Just found you again. Grateful for the Lord. Learn to give him the things you cannot change. I am learning to do this. It's very hard. But the more I let go of the more blessings can enter my life. Stay blessed 🎶🎶 keep making your great music !! Congratulations on your gf and son. You are blessed 🎶🎶💖
Keep going. It's not the same but so much better, the worst moments out here in the sun n light are better than the best down there in that dark hell... I'm pulling for you brother
Benjamin Tod apologizing for showing drug use and afraid of being a bad role model when hes literally the one that saved me
Amen
Heard dat
Absolutely. I'm a recovering meth addict. His music has helped me so much. It still does.
I'm genuinely fearful he has no idea how many idoit like me he got to wake up and start living. I owe my life to benjamin todd
You speak for us all
Beautiful 😢😢 just quit drinking January somethingth and while sometimes it calls me back, I don't want to look back. My life is better without it. My intuition is alive for the first time ever.
❤u got this
Don't look back, you're not going that way
I celebrated 2 years alcohol free on March 3rd 🙏 one of the best decisions I've ever made ❤️
7 months!!
done 10 yrs gets easier every day i don’t miss it one bit keep up good work life only gets better and make better friends
R.I.P. Nick
I was never gonna live to see 30, and I existed in the world with that intention. Im somehow turning 50 this summer with almost a decade clean from heroin, cocaine, alcohol and meth. So grateful i got out before fentanyl took over. Almost everyone i know who didn't is dead. The music of Benjamin Tod carries me through some dark times and that message of redemption and hope has been my only life preserver. I am eternally grateful for this mans art.
im trying to kick the booze right now. Wish me luck, man. Its been tough.
@@NOTrootscalhoun You got this, man. We believe in you
@@taniwha5441 i really hope so.
How?!?! I'm at 11 years with meth and being in colorado. I'm afraid to stay, I'm afraid to go, despite going to New Zealand 6years ago
Survivors..... Mount Up.....We Ride At Dawn♠️............🕊
My son took me to see Lost Dog Street a couple yrs ago and I wanted to hug each one. Im an old lady now but I can relate to almost every song ive heard. Those kids touch my soul in a way nothing else has❤
My daughter’s dad took his life on the 8th of September. We got tickets to see Lost Dog Street Band for the 6th of November. He loved this band and played all the songs on repeat. I wish he survived to see them as he really looked up to Benjamin Tod. I miss him so much, he was the love of my life.
Damn, small word, day before my birthday, was the 8th of Sept, I almost did the same but thinking of my daughter kept me here. I'm very sorry. I hope you both heal. I wish he would've healed. We just don't talk about what's inside.
I stopped drinking and doing hard drugs when I heard what keeps me up now. YOU saved more lives than you know
What keeps me up is my anthem
I don’t know how God has kept me living. But I will continue to live for the brothers who haven’t.
@Beefy
Simple, but deep and profound. Thank you for sharing. 🇨🇦
I wonder the same thing. Too many, too soon. Live for those who aren’t here and those who need us here.
Live for yourself as well, you deserve it
Live while your alive.
@@macklee9275 - well said.
1 yr off cocaine, meth, Xanax, n blues n 2 months off the bottle. Another beautiful song brother.
Keep up the good work no one can live your life for you! Random strangers in Alaska believe in you! Stay strong
Keep it up
i'm off booze but still self meding aka lying to my self about the above... still feels a bit better
Proud of you brother.
Those are goals for some of us.
God delivered me from a 25 year addiction/nightmare. Man’s world has no real cures for addiction. To those of you out there who are still struggling to escape those hellish deeps of despair and pain, there is hope. Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be amazed at what he can do in your life. Thanks for another song LDSB. It’s a blessing to see another new song up.
amen
Praise the Lord!
Amen brother
Being in rehab and sober for 5 months these songs hit the heart. Trying to get my family back. Thank you Benjamin
Hoping you make it, wishing you the best. Keep trying, you've got this.
5 months is solid, hope your good Josh.
It's a long serious hard road.im proud of all of us for not giving up
That feeling when, its much more to you, than just a song/music video.
A legit tear came to my eye when he pulled out nicks bible for anyone who’s been fallowing Ben for a while knows that nick had a huge impact on Ben’s music and life in general it’s so sad people are dying left and right and there are more addicts now then ever, do to the state of our world right now. Idk where I would be without Ben’s music all the way back to spit shine he’s helped me through my addiction and he doesn’t even know how big of a help he is to addicts and just people in general I may be still shooting up if not for Ben and his music. We need to get Ben much more money and fame he deserves it. We make all these dumb people famous for once can we make someone famous who deserves it and will use his platform to help people. Much love goes out to anyone in addiction believe in yourself you can get out of it I thought I would never be able to do it and here I am.
Who is Nick? I’ve been following Ben and Lost Dog for some years now but not too closely to their personal lives. I still need to hear the rest of this album as well.
If some A hole from Philly (myself) heard of Ben, then he is famous enough
Been a fan for years and years. Me and all my brothers. I quit heavy drinking as a hardcore functioning alcoholic on the 22-11-22. And it was a long long process. But I haven’t touched a drop. It was attempt 1,000 but finally got there 👍🏻.
I’m still struggling. I hide my drinking from my wife. She thinks I quit in the new year. I did…..did a week. I want to but every day I’m sucked back in. Hoping I’ll get there.
you’ll get there brother. But not without getting her on board. There will be a war on your emotions so you will need her understanding of where it’s coming from. But I’m going to tell you now. If I can do it. Anyone can let’s just say that. And honestly it is a freedom like no other 👍🏻. Don’t be hard on yourself. It’ll happen when you are ready.
@@MrHenry366 thank you for the advice my friend. I’ll talk to her. I need to beat this.
@@T.JP-co8zx I am confident that you will man 👍🏻.These things take time. Just be prepared to accept and try to find peace in the chaos. It passes and you come out the other end twice the man you are now I promise you. Im routing for you 💪🏻
In all seriousness, this song is breathtaking. It is extremely hard for an addict to be THIS vulnerable and open about our struggles. No matter how hard life gets, I am so grateful I made it another day not drinking or using. God is so good.
A champion for hurt souls. I appreciate your honesty in your music, it's carried me a long way.
This is the comment❤ much love fam Ashley and Ben hae become a part of my life forever. Went from downing quarts of mountain water to their songs every day to gaining a little hope from each listen in my road to recovery. The raw honesty and authenticity of self expression in their music is unmatched in this day and age.
@@brandoncollums2797 here’s to your recovery my friend ❤️
Thank you for this. I drove down home last night to be at church for communion. I hadn't realized there was an addiction recovery group there too. They had the group share the service with the rest of the fellowship. They asked if anyone had multiple years and asked me to speak. I told them faith and that I couldn't have done it alone. That they can do it too, they can make it. Growing up, coming from southern Ohio and northeast Kentucky, that small town Appalachia, it's par for the course. Thank you for all that you do, your music helps.
Broke into tears when he found Nicolas' journal.
What is the significance? I am new.
@@nikistevenson1550 Nicolas Ridout was a fellow traveling musician, hobo, and user with Ben. But unlike Ben, he never got clean and sadly he doesn't walk with us anymore. A lot of the songs from his solo album "Songs I Swore I'd Never Sing" are about Nicolas. Check out 'The Paper and the Ink' and 'Still Search For You.' Both of them about Nicolas. 'The Paper and the Ink' mentions this journal specifically.
@@nikistevenson1550 I tried replying to this once but the youtube overlords decided against it. Check out "The paper and the ink" and "Still Search for You" by Benjamin Tod. "This journal ain't mine but its filled with my misery. Passed down by a friend who was taken too soon to complete."
@@nikistevenson1550 3rd time attempted reply. Listen to the Paper and the Ink by Benjamin Tod
@@nikistevenson1550 listen to the paper and the ink. 4th time attempted reply.
Glad to see so many folks trying to get it together. I landed with a cirrhosis diagnosis at 34 but nevertheless, I have survived. Good luck everybody ✌️❤️
They can gloss over what you said, my wife is 36 with cirrhosis but I’m still an alcoholic. I will, most likely, live to be 90 drinking, I hope not, but it is true. Enjoy yourself and know there are worse things than death.
As humans we all have highs and lows. It’s how we survive in the end that truly makes a difference
Heavy. Raw. Beautiful. Painful. Salute, Ben. Great art.
RIP to all the people we loved that were lost to soon, and keep kicking ass to all those that have survived.
Authenticity at its finest.10/10
I have lost all my family members due to addiction….. your music helps me get threw life knowing they could have made it but one day I will see them again… Thank you Lost dog street band can’t wait to see you April 21st ❤❤🔥🔥
Amazing as always. Seeing the name on the Bible brought tears to my eyes along with this spectacular emotion inducing piece of art. May your song bless many.
Thank you for this song Ben. As a fellow “survivor” possessed by the demons of pharmakia, I somehow walked out of hell, sober for 12 years now through the love and grace of Christ. Amen 🙏 God Bless you for your honesty and strength!
Their music speaks to my soul. Beautiful.
Yeah! It’s gonna be a good day. Waking up to new Benjamin/Lost Dog music.
Too sad. It will only end one way for us all
@@222rich- we live every day, but only die once.
As somebody in active addiction, Benjamin Todd is the only person I can listen to and connect with both sober and under the influence. I won’t stop fighting, I only lost today. Pick up the pieces and try again tomorrow. Thank you Mr. Todd
Keep trying brother, relapse is normal, we keep going to meetings and asking for help to learn how to be abnormal.
This song has touched my soul. I am weeping. ✝️❤️✌️🇺🇸
Me too.
Lost so many friends an family yet I'm still here an don't know how I survived... I'm happier now but I still wish sometimes I joined them. It never gets easier
This is why I love this bands songs and music
Just in case anyone needs to hear this and has no one to say it to their face in person, I am so proud of you for making it out ♡
Ben, i only know you through your music, but I'm proud of you for making it out ♡ Addiction is a deep hole to climb out of. Yet, here you are, at the top and using your music as a rope to throw down to help others.
So much love for you guys♡
Just finished rehab today feeling lost in life right now, not sure what the future holds but I’m on my way to something better this upload has gave me the strength to keep holding on Thankyou❤
Hang in there, you got this.
If my dumbass can get 10 years clean, you can too. Jesus loves you, right where you are.
I can’t stress enough how much Benjamin Tod has related in song to my struggles with my daughters mother. Believe it or not, we are going on a year back together and my daughter couldn’t be happier.
Addiction, stress, and a bad path… all related. Thank you Benjamin Tod.
Listening from Bauxite Arkansas!
You're a living saint Ben, walking the path of his own redemption and preaching the good word of pain and recovery to the people. I'm not a christian man, but someone once said your words would be remembered as hymns, and this is the best way I can contextualise his words! You're an inspiration brother, big love!
Thank you for pouring your all into this one. Shooting this video must have been challenging.
Getting all that “weight”off your back hit home. Thank you for bearing the burden of a role model.
Prayers love and thoughts to those who did and didn’t make it through.
It definitely took a lot out of him.
Got divorced with no help with my kids, their mom left completely for drugs, oh lord how close I was to the bottom again and relapsing. I didnt though thanks to this man, im still here for my babies 4 years later.
Everyone walking or have walked there in the dark, I'm pulling for all of ya, Ben you did it again soo beautiful brother.
Wow! I've always been impressed by LDSB music, this blew me away! Song and video are beyond outstanding!
FIre .... My god that fiddle and voice gets me every time, you are blessed together.
❤❤❤ Lord, we thank You for reaching down into the pit to pull us out!!!
Amen❤
Amen
15 months sober and his music has got me through it along with AA and a higher power. We stay sober.
I often think of the ones that left us to soon and all the crazy situations i put my self in and how i survived .i think thats a ? We ? A lot in our survival to be where we are now . Your voice is raw and your music tells a story that we can feel to our core . Your voice is needed in this world you are a earth angel for us your strength and determination with your music gives us strength to know that we must carry the torch with you . Thank you Benjamin Todd for being your true self . 👍
I’m in recovery right now and you and your music has been a big topic for us. Thank you for your transparency. You guys are the best!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻
Lord we have survived.
Gee-zus Ben. You make me cry too much. This is one of the most powerful videos I have ever seen on any platform. For anyone that faced the struggle in one form or another. This video and song harpoon the heart. I just don't have the words. Thank you Ben. May you have a long life and safe travels.
great song. hope it helps someone! im in my 60s and the struggles go on. nice to hear lyrics like this so you don't feel alone and lost. Imon the better side of things these days but the embers still burn.
Benjamin has a way of breaking my heart and putting it back together in the same song every time. I imagine this was very difficult for him to film
You two could literally release anything and it would be awesome! The poetically penned perfection that tells a story, conveys a message, a feeling, only supported with the composition of the music and cadence of you voice and the tune that sometimes Trai in a different direction than one expects. Truly amazing music
I wonder sometimes how I've survived. Overwhelmed with gratitude right now.
I’ve listened to this song over 30 times today and I can’t get enough of it.
ben the only famous person id like to see, just hang out an listen to him sing i wana hear every song he plays
Same. One of VERY VERY few famous people I'd like to meet in person. There has to be two things for me to want to even breathe in the same space as a famous person:
1. Potential for a conversation in which I learn something new. A stimulating convo.
2. The possibility that I, myself, might contribute something of the same to them in our conversation.
A deep soulful folk country tune about deliverance from the dammed state we created.
A beautiful tune just such depth
Excellent video my friend.
...this video takes me to a place and time...that I'm too ashamed to share with anybody...ant the people that were there...are already dead...and by the grace of god...my buddies daddy was a preacher...and he never missed a moment to share the gospels with me. Hallelujah Lord I thank you for my deliverance.
Praise the Lord
This cuts deep. I discovered Lost Dog Street band as I got sober in 2017. The lyrics always hit home because Ben is one of us. All the love in the world from Montreal. Thank you for this. ❤️
His music is a huge force in my life I cat believe how amazing he is and what he has done for me in my recovery
In an age where country music is on life support and barely any "True" country music is even made it's such a blessing that an Artist like Ben still exist
I appreciate the video. My experience was a lot of the same. I had a special “set up”-a place to go, songs to listen to, everything had to be a certain way, like a ritual, or the high just wasn’t the same. Don’t get me wrong, I’d get high or drunk anywhere, any time. But those times were “special” (they weren’t-it could’ve been just another Tuesday afternoon, but to a junkie every high is a big life changing experience). No booze for 9 years, and clean off pills (except for medical emergencies) since December of 17. Then I relapsed in about November of last year. I’m clean again. Lost two friends last year alone to OD’s and went through two of my own in my heyday. Don’t know how I made it through. The one thing I don’t agree w is that a drunk or junkie has any responsibility to be a role model or leader. It’s just my own experience, but for me, all we can be is examples of mistakes not to make, and that has just as much power. If my mistakes can keep my niece away from drugs and booze, I’m glad to be the example.
Dear Ben and gang,
I recently got into your music last summer during a dark period in my sobriety. Your music helped me ACCEPT who I AM as an addict, and alcoholic. It helped me relax and start making things simple again. By the grace of God I’m 2 years sober.. and I find so much comfort in your music. This video was very vivid, as per the warning.. it made me feel the discomfort and actual pain of using. I never want to feel that again. Y’all make incredible music, and as a recovered alcoholic, I must thank you. And as a lowdown drunk who liked doing drugs, I must thank you. Hoping to see you guys play live some day.. I used to be a big live music junkie, from reggae, to jam bands to bluegrass, to whatever real music you and other artists like Matt Heckler and Jason Dea West create. Wishing you all a happy and healthy fulfilling life by God’s mercy. ❤
Tears and truth. Thank you 💝
I can’t begin to thank you for being so open and vulnerable, it’s helped me more than I can express
Fuckin love it man. Fuckin love your music. You have helped me through some very dark times. 8 years into recovery now.
Masterpiece as usual
I first heard this song live just two and half days ago, with no idea of the video or that it was so visceral and vivid. I don't usually come lookin for new Ben Tod or Lost Dog songs, and even when I see them, I don't always listen right away. Sometimes in fear of how hard they may hit me, and not wanting or having the time, at times, to allow the emotions to come thru as they, and deservingly to myself, need to.. no, the new ones usually just tend to come to me exactly when they need to. My only question, Ben... how tf did that feel to put a needle in your arm after so long!? Geeze oh man.. even tho it was just water inside it, that can't have been a pleasant experience. If you're anything like me, you were also addicted to the needle, not just it's contents. Nickolas' book really struck a nerve for me. I'd give anything to have my best friend, Josh, back, and im sure you would too. We'll see them again someday, souls like theirs can only end up in one place, let's hope we haven't worn our welcome up there and make it as well🙏🏽 I thank you, Ben, for everything you are, everything you've been, the good, bad, and the ugly, and making it back to share your experiences and shepherd others thru and to the light - and hopefully keep some others from losing it. I said it to a friend just tonight - another rubber trampin train kidd like us, that you're the most important musician of my lifetime. I'm forever endebted to you and your enduring work. I can't very much thank you without also thanking Ashley Mae, wouldn't be just. The one that kept you together when you couldn't yourself, the one harmonizing so beautifully with you on so many songs, and laying down some of the meanest fiddle licks to ever grace the airwaves. Cheers to the both of you, and to many more years, songs, and memories🫡❤️
Another incredible song from you. Your lyrics are always something special. Thanks for doing what you do and putting this out into the world. Your music is a big part of my life. Thank you for the ride
Love the official music videos, looking forward to the full album's release and seeing you on tour.
Your songs keep making me look at my inner self and why am I still on this earth ❤
My name is also Benjamin and I’ve been clean for 2 years plus but I only have today! Grateful that you’re still making music you got something for every vibe
His voice, soul and he is so beautiful. I've never been into country type til I found his music like 7 years ago. Beautiful.
We need the harshness and rawness. We need you to keep it real more than the label companies need you to clean up your content for a few extra dollars. Always amazing man thanks.
My favorite artist. Great video. When Ben finally found Nick’s journal, as a 40 yr old man, I found a tear rolling down my face.
Powerful!
This is a beautifully composed piece of art. Keep on going, Ben and Ashley!!!
brutal and beautiful
I have yet to find a song from yall that hasn't spoken to me in some form or another, rather through my empathy for situations my dear loved ones are in and the hardships of their lives, or to me personally and my struggles. Even if you took the lyrics away, the music itself carries a deep sorrow that forces me to reflect, but in combination with the never missing lyrics, man it's just something else. I guess this is just a long winnded thank you, for your vulnerability and the depth you pour into your work. ❤️🔥
I know these guys are incredible the way the music plays and his voice such passion it's truly awesome. I hope you have an incredible evening peace love hope ❤
This song is honest, beautiful and raw, relatable in many ways ♥️ and honestlyyyy all these comments of warriors here, keep on fighting seeing this made me cry and reading all these comments made me so hopeful in a sadhappy way. Sending love 🤍🤍🤍
Love you, youve grown so much since I started listening. We both have, Glory be to God! So happy for you
Right there with u brother clean now a days still don’t know how I’m not dead
Another banger! Thanks, LDSB.
Tell that story Ben, it helps you and it helps all of us. Love you man
Glad you survived Mr. Tod. You’ve saved quite a few folks as well
Absolutely beautiful. The fact that you put something so personal into the world is deeply appreciated. I can't imagine the fear and abject catharsis that came along for that journey. Thank you for being genuine and forthcoming. Sharing experiences like these helps so many who have been or are on that long road of recovery and relapse.
Going to see him in Charlotte next month. My beautiful daughter bought tickets for my birthday. She's a big fan too. So excited. 😊 one of the best songwriters I've ever heard. I feel liked I've live every lyric. Thanks Ben! Blessed soul.
Incredible. My New Anthem!
Let’s go. Great video. Amazing music. real Americana, live and direct. Much love from AppleGate,Oregon. More🔥
Wow Ben the songs just keep getting better and better.. can't wait to see you guys
New look and reinventing yourself brother...dig it sir!!!
Yall have gotten me through hard times for years now... I got tickets to see you in May for the first time, and it's one thing to help carry me through
Well damn...idk how I have survived. Pretty graphic video with a beautiful ending, I see the sign
Beautiful song and video. I loved the ending. Sobriety, faith, and redemption is the road less traved. Excellent and my God bless you on your journey.
Wow. Just wow. So good. I hope this will touch much more than me. Folks what ever your crutch is I hope you or others can help you to loose it. Thanks LDSB for another epic tune. This new album is gonna be awesome. Love yall.
Your Music has saved me my Friend for many years.
Can't wait to see you in May.. thank you
I dont know know how many nights ive stumbled around my garage belting your music, which was one of the only things that i had to hold onto in some of the toughest times of my life. Hell i named my son after you. Thankyou for making music man!
Know you speak truth.
Love every song you write and keep a hopeful eye for the next one as I pray for the Lord to give you strengh as you give voice to a dark and lonely journey so many of us often face alone.
Your continued honestly and deep music has been a light to me. I don't pretend to know you, and yet I don't think it wrong to say deep calls out to deep.
Your music is trully inspired and appreciated, keep it up.
Thank you.
Amazing
With the words and video for this song. Just proves what his grandad said in "we ain't even kin". Benjamin Todd isn't in prison and songs are his pulpit.
Love you guys. Thanks for being brutally honest and showing a vulnerable side most people are terrified of showing.
Videos as deep as the lyrics. Can’t wait for 4/26!