I can’t respond to all comments, but thank you for giving time out your day to watch my video and thank you for creating such a beautiful and supportive community in the comments. We’ve all found each-other and we see each other 🫀
I just turned 23 and I have been dealing with ground that is completely foreign to me just a year ago I was stuck in a camper wasting away after being betrayed by the people I thought I could trust the most after I was discharged from army BCT for a severe injury
I had to leave everything I had ever known into this changing world that no one knew how to traverse and embarked on my quest to discover who I really am and whenever I look in the mirror I see a different face that I am used to no more am I that child that was used and manipulated the kid who was bullied in highschool no more was I small and weak or riddled with acne
My point is we will always change and so will our circumstances everyone has a different starting point and we will have to adjust to the coming changes of our lives with the dramatic shifts happening in our world hand in hand simultaneously same as countless generations before us
no girl ... jajaja I born and living in Third world country I believe in God too , and we have hard life and we are not hate us self also do not worry about understand why we are living and born here... with all violence to supply the US drugs yunkie b..astard asses... lol you are pretty and living well so just keep out from emptyness and vanals things... your country is blessed by God but there so many people do not believe in God... the problem is your society that has all easy and you lost their surprise and the grace to enjoy the things and the simple things of the life. that the reason you need go to third world to appreciate that you have in america loser. Just go to believe in God and Jesus and try to pray for grace to enjoy the life. I´m enjoying my life so good here down without many things and bad things everyday. . saludos desde México.
I'm tired of doubting myself. I’m tired of micro-analyzing my thoughts and actions. I’m tired of consuming self improvement content. I’m tired of sharing my problems, my thoughts, my depressive episodes. I’m tired of smiling a little longer to make people happy. I’m tired of sounding a little nicer even when people hurt me. I’m tired of trying to impress. I’m tired of trying to improve. I’m tired of running away. I’m tired of staying the same. I’m tired of being myself. I’m tired of trying to be someone else… someone happier, healthier, livelier. I’m tired. So I’m going to be myself. It might hurt others or offend them because I’m no longer trying to please them but I’m suffocating and I can’t see any other way out. I’m going to talk like me, act like me, dress like me, post like me, accept me both good days and bad, both sad days and happy. I’m going to be myself in March and I hope it works. I’ve spent too many nights thinking “what if I’m not here anymore”. I’ve reached the end and gotten better and reached the end and gotten better and reached the end and tried to get better again and again and again. I want to be myself in March Hey everyone. Thank you for all the likes and kind words!🩷 Realistic update here(6 days after the original comment): It’s hard and I’m so heartbroken from all the hurt I’ve held and tried to process towards others and myself. I really don’t want to give up and I’m afraid of continuing the persistent cruel swing between okay and not okay. I’m not really sure of where to go from here. I don’t want to give up nonetheless
It’s ok to feel uncomfortable during this time of change. Have acceptance & forgiveness for yourself and embrace YOUR journey. In everything you’re saying there is no right or wrong answer because the process your going through is Taylor made specifically for you. We often search for answers that already there it’s just a matter of acceptance & although it’s simple, it’s not easy. What your doing is exactly what you’re supposed to be doing which is taking it step by step. Yesterday and tomorrow can’t affect today, you have to take one step before you reach 2. You’re doing great and exactly what you’re supposed to do. Take the energy your using to question yourself & embrace yourself. You’re limitless good luck on your journey & keep winning 🤝
control is just another illusion. it’s time for us to let go of the illusion of control. i’m listening, i’m hearing you, i’m resonating with you. the more mistakes, the more adventures, the more learning, the more life you live! yes by trying to control it all, you lose it all. by frantically trying to avoid your fears coming true, you actually hinder yourself from enjoying that which you fear losing. I wrote, “If you don’t believe you deserve it, you will desert it..” maybe that resonates for you?
i don’t believe we’re doing life for this first time per se. we are spirits in a human experience. we are here to live, to just be, to experience. not to “do”. society, and so much associated with it has taught us to hustle, bustle, achieve, strive, to DO. but we’ve been here before, in some form, in some sense, in some time, we will be here or somewhere in some form again. but right now - this moment - despite all the hardship, especially given the privileges many of us have that we often take for granted of - we are so blessed just to exist. im glad i found you!
“live to mourn..” yes and no. destruction is a form of creation. limiting beliefs are created within us and then a beautiful process unfolds as we heal and discover and learn to BE. Don’t hold onto the idea of “staying the same” too much. change is so good. it is so part of transformation. you’re going to mourn your past self, it’ll be bittersweet but it is evidence that you are growing and transforming. allow yourself to cry babe, this is heAAAAVY energy. just sit in it, be with it, “invite mara to tea” (look up the concept), prioritize time with nature more, time with yourself, stillness, intentional doing nothing… i’m practicing this right now too, needing more stillness. i have such a full beautiful blessed life but have deprived myself of accepting, receiving or fully integrating with it yet have continued to strive to become, achieve and EARN more and more “worthiness” but we are already worthy and whole. we are in a beautiful process of life and all that comes with it. a beautiful process of recognizing ALL the many false beliefs, narratives about the world, money, love, ourselves, we have to learn and unlearn from so much - and we don’t change until we’re made uncomfortable enough. so we must be grateful for the hardships and difficulties that move us; that we learn from and develop through. ahh you’ve inspired me! activated! i’d love to connect. it is so nourishing and reassuring to be reminded that there are like minds, aware, conscious, intentional, intuitive beings out there to connect with. 💓
I remember having a conversation with my friend about how we miss and mourn our previous versions of ourselves, yet we try so hard to bring that version of ourselves back. We're stuck at trying to reignite the old us, even when we have to move past that and accept ourselves as we are. The current life we're living needs this version of ourselves
sitting with depression feels impossible bc its easiest to stay busy or do whatever so you never face it but even when you stare at it it just seems to consume me and idk if tolerating it is enough it doesnt really seem healing
i think many people are under the impression that depression is something you "just" heal from. it's a commitment every day to go against yourself for your best interest and slowly rehabilitating yourself into enjoying living. even if you're tolerating it for the moment, i'm very proud of you.
i relate so much to constantly trying to make sense of why things happened in my life. it is so exhausting. i really just wanna learn how to just live. how to just make decisions without overthinking. and to let things happen to me without overanalyzing why it happened or how it got that way.
You just made me cry, it’s a crazy feeling seeing random people online going through the exact same stuff. Not even my therapist understands what I‘m going through. You made me feel a lot better today. Thanks love
Attaching to outcome can lead to disappointment I lack patience and I want to control every outcome in my life but when things didn’t go my way it would negatively affect me and my relationship. Advice from my perspective is to let go, set the intention in your heart of the things that you want, and let God, higherself, divinity, whatever you call it to lead the way.
I haven’t been finding the messages i truly want on UA-cam in the past few weeks. A whole lot of “do this better and you’ll be better!”. This video has been absolutely wonderful in just validating the experience I’ve been having. I love the direction you are heading in and you got a new subscriber. Thank you for spreading the peace!!
Wow, you remind me much of myself in my mid twenties and I just want to let you know that because of your self awareness at this stage in your life. Life will continue to evolve and unravel for YOUR greatest good. Its ok to cry-release. Stay true to who you are and literally you will see your path. Much love queen, we are all facing the beautiful uncertainties of life.
Turning 20 this year, I’m ready for change, but also don’t know what I’m doing and living day by day with full faith in myself and my ability to fulfill my goals. Not easy, but I keep telling myself it’s possible as long as I believe in me
woah im in my 20s and you just articulated so many things i'm feeling too. almost every point you made, i've thought or felt too. thank you for being vulnerable and sharing
I have felt and occasionally feel the exact same way. I've found solace in the philosophy of Daoism, it has really helped me to truly let go and live. Chaos comes with the calm. There can't be one without the other. Let go and live, detachment from forced perceptions and expectations is key to simply living, and that is a goal within itself.
i saw this video on my for you and i usually don’t just click on videos but this one i chose to watch and i’m glad i did! i love your calm energy and just wanted to tell you ur very pretty! i relate so much to this. i try to stop myself from negative feelings, because i want everything to be perfect. but this made me realize it’s not supposed to be
yeah as soon as you said leo skepi i knew this was going to be gooooood! I am currently 22 and struggling with the concept of adulting is forever and it will never end, bills are forever they will never end, and there is no gold star or good grade for doing everything correctly. You honestly get nothing out of 'doing good' in life because there are no correct answers except for the obvious extremes that you shouldn't do, and im really struggling with it because for 16 years in academics you are always given feedback for things, and then all of a sudden you graduate and that all ends. Its super hard all while juggling friends, life, bills, debt, and work. I'm simply tired already. im tired of controlling everything too. I'm so over it. I got off socials because i just don't care anymore, and im just going to let everything roll at this point! This was such a good video i wish it was longer 😭
i’m 20 and i feel so similarly. i can’t remember the last time i heard someone speak so honestly. wanna hug you so hard. ur so beautiful and articulate and wise
love from the uk, bout to turn 19 n im feeling this struggle hard like its like im losing all my progress, my home everything over it, your rawness honestly hits me n makes me feel validated as a black woman with cptsd igy with entering adulthood n placing high expectations on ourselves to succeed
I felt this entire video especially the part where you said I’m tired of criticizing every little thing that I do. Me too sis like why can’t we just be 😂😂 we’ll get through this and live in this life. ✨💜 also, you’re really beautiful
This past year has been one of the most challenging for myself. I changed so much and though it was a good thing it also was very hard. I still had to go to work, I still had to do the things you are supposed to do even when I didn't want to. I felt like I was under construction and I had construction tape on what was going on inside of me with all the changes and such. I am finding that that is how life is, and like you I am trying to let go and just live. That's all I want to do is just live. Thank you for your video, it helped more than you know. Change is scary but also a good thing.
So excited about the amount of black youtubers I'm been yearning to see on this platform and now finally getting recommended. The titles of your videos alone are very assuring and I love how you discuss these subjects. Please keep it up!
About controlling our actions and maybe other people’s, I feel like we’re being aware and newly intentional about how we talk to our selves and others so we want to make it just right, perfect even. But to let yourself grow as flower dropping leaves and blooming new ones is when we will see how magical we are.
I think it’s absolutely beautiful and confirming that your realizations are coming now than later. Take it from me, being in my 30s feeling this way..but yet you found and vocalized the words to what has been scattered within me for awhile. Thank you for sharing this and we must definitely give ourselves grace navigating this realm of life, enjoy it, feel it - for this is where we will cultivate the most fulfillment and ultimately indirectly make it all make sense 😅💕✨
Everything you said resonated deeply. It was calming to see my thoughts reflected in someone else, it was beautiful to witness. Thank you for building the courage to share your experience of life
Wishing you the best. Sounds like you may be a perfectionist like I was for many years. Everyone's situation is different, but learning to be ok with making mistakes and changing the perspective to see them as learning opportunities helps. Didn't happen overnight for me, took maybe 5 years of trying to change through therapy and self-work and failing until it all finally clicked. Life is a gift. Everyone has a place in this world, and everyones' experience is unique. I pray you find your peace ❤
I feel the same except I’ve lived with this feeling my entire life and it’s made me frustrated thinking I just have to live life like this . Sometimes I feel like I was better off before I had hope things could get better. In a way that ignorance gave me some sense of normalcy. But girl you are saying everything I’ve been feeling. I’m just exhausted. I’m 33 so it’s honestly something that can happen at any age to anyone. I feel like I’ve been grieving for who I thought I was and I still haven’t let go because everytime I think ok this is who I am I just struggle to accept it. Like I can’t live up to my best self. I’m just going thru the motions but idk I wanna feel like it’s gonna be okay but then I think we’ll what if that’s not enough to just be ok and things actually work out. I’ve been trying hard to find meaning in life so I could just feel like I’m living up to something but idk what I’m reaching for
This resonated to me so deeply at where I am right now. I am painfully aware about how much I criticise every move I make instead of letting go and just living. Im 21 and I feel you with the expectations of the progress I am supposed to be making. I just want to allow myself to be and accept where I am and how far I’ve come, even with coping with low emotion and stress.
you’re literally saying everything i’ve been feeling for the past few months & it’s crazy bc i was thinking about you this morning randomly. and i love that i saw this video today and thank you for posting it🩷
You are so brave to bear your soul in this way. You are so strong. You are so aligned right now. Follow what makes your heart feel. Life wasn’t meant to fought for it was meant to be experienced. ❤️
Girl this is scary! I was just thinking this in my head scrolling and your video pops up!! You are sooo necessary! I neeeeded this! I am literally dying! I have no traces of old self to keep me up anymore and it issss soo tiring!! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I truly appreciate you! I too will be letting go and letting in! ❤❤❤
So Emotional listening to this. For the first time ever I can relate to someone soooooo deeply. Everything you said I needed to hear right now at this moment in my life !!!!!!!. thank youuuu sooooo much for this Video.
you have so much heart and it shines despite how hard things have been. i clicked on this bc I have had a hard time. everything you said, everything is exactly how I feel. especially what you said about having good intentions but it comes across as wanting to control things and others. I feel like I lost my mind trying to talk sense into others. it’s exhausting, I’m trying to learn to stop taking everything so personally when it comes to friends and family. it’s hard. I’m so hard on myself for everything. Grief is so heavy, loss in general. I see you, I really see myself in you and I resonate so heavily in your words. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet and I never comment on videos but you really touched me. I know it’s hard but one day your future self will thank you for the decisions you made. So much clarity will come. Time is so weird. You want to stop it and also make it go faster. But they say time is the answer to most things, so while you go about your days remember that we can’t control what happened only how to move forward and grow. Thank you for your video, I’m rooting for you.
I am so grateful that this video gave us the opportunity to connect on something we thought we were experiencing alone. Thank you so much for your time and your kind words🫀
What spoke to me the most in your video is about not desiring control of anything in life anymore. Im also becoming a young adult now and its been hard the last two years. I've been feeling like im not doing anything right even though I believe in LOA etc. etc. I've been thinking that im not very spiritually connected to myself. I have came to the point in my life where I don't want to desire anything anymore and just live with the flow. I have lost so many friendships over the past 3 years, so many people have disappointed me and I literally have nobody close to talk to. its so hard. I keep thinking that "Oh, this is apart of your life, people aren't in your life anymore because you have to work on yourself" But at the same time I hate this loneliness. Ive tried getting " my life together " by being " productive " But it doesn't seem natural, because I feel like a robot. I just want to be happy dude. I know I will be happy but right now im not in the happiest phase of my life if im being honest. I also feel like nothing is ever going right. New subscriber btw, I really resonated with your thoughts.
4:04 heavy on not wanting to control life anymore. i try to control all things as well, with the belief that if i put a bandaid on a “bad habit” the end result will happiness. but it’s just my shadow at the end of the day that im trying to get rid of (which is not possible) you can’t have light without darkness so i might as well just embrace it all
It’s normal 💚 everyone’s path is not the same. But one thing I noticed I will say is very profound, at 20, a lot becomes revealed. But it feels so difficult to path it out and navigate especially with all the challenges life seems to unfairly have presented. Just live! Be ! Experience! Be free. Completely. You don’t need to act as a narrator your whole life. Let the universe narrate and enjoy the things you enjoy. Because that’s what’s most important and those are the things that stay with you. Take the lessons you learn from other people, and your daily life or connections. Take them and use them to grow. Trust yourself always. That’s the most important. I want the best for my 20 somethings. I’ve made a lot of music from that time that’s deeply profound now that I listen back and it will truly help every single soul of this age and smaller. Be easy on you💚 change constantly. Constantly and constantly. It is THE best form of growth you will experience. Criticism of yourself is completely not the way. The 3D matrix is not as important as the 5D. You will be fine. I’m here to profess this to you. So know that. And enjoy that. And don’t worry. “Mourn for her, you could mourn for her, you could mourn”- the literal chorus of this amazing track I have in file.
When you said "sometimes I want to cry and idk why" I felt that because literally yesterday I spent the day with my friend and we were checking up on each other and I told her I was okay but on my way home my chest felt so heavy like I needed to cry so badly and I couldn't figure out why because I literally had a good day and nothing triggered me I was so confused
I’m 22 and so painfully aware. I don’t wanna be a ‘this sucks’ kind of person but honestly depression is so all-consuming and excruciating. Thank you for sharing your perspective as it helps me to feel seen. False positivity (stoicism) just isn’t it anymore; I’d simply like to be able to admit when things are shitty, y’know? It’s hard not to see the bleakness of this experience because it’s so perpetual and relentless, while simultaneously ‘just is’. 🌚😌
I feel you. I’ve really been trying to wrap my head around being open to the unknown. I feel like I’ve made it this far to be here now and feel this tiring transition out. I’ve never undergone such an intense evolution in my life. A lot like a werewolf seeing the full moon for the first time. Feeling all my bones and tendons crack and brake not truly knowing what could possibly be on the other side. It’s fascinating, really, even through the pain I’ve been filled with this overwhelming sense of gratitude for life itself. The glow of the moonlight itself is the most impactful reassurance I could ever receive. Locking everything in existence into what I’ve known all along.
I really appreciate your vulnerability on these topics, I feel seen and less upset with myself and more aware and just glad that I’m not alone in this feeling
I try to control certain aspects of my life to avoid repetition of certain mistakes. I am very selective (or ‘controlling’) in terms of what people I let in, for instance. It is difficult and stressful having and enforcing certain standards, but I think there comes a time when it starts to feel natural and when you start to break even. Once the new habits take hold and you become more adept at forming and maintaining healthy relationships with people around you. Having no standards, no boundaries or priorities is the best recipe for failure and disaster. That is completely letting go of the steering wheel.
You are so very wise. I see so much of myself in you. I honor you for sharing so honestly. I’m sending blessings over your entire life and lifetime. 🙌🏾 Your intuition, your heart and ideas are gold. Your path is blessed. So much love. 🙏🏾❤️
i get exactly, in my own way, what you're talking about. i wanted to write a heatfelt comment but instead just wrote what came to mind watching this. you're so cool. there's no need to explain yourself, your life, emotions, anything really. the more mistakes i make the more alive i feel. we're living life for the first time, there's no need to be perfect, as we're ever-changing, imo, we're the change. i really love what you said in this video, and your make up :))
Hi beautiful! All your answers are in you! You’re tired of controlling, so stop. You’re tired of keeping up… don’t keep up. They’re not “mistakes”, that’s just what the 3d world calls it. You always on times you’re already perfect as you are, your meant to live and have experiences, embrace it love!! You’re literally there but far, but while your far you’re so close. You’re so young, so just start now with being mindful and intentional in the way that you speak. Speak what you’re grateful for. Self awareness is powerful, you got this! And yes let the shift happen. Don’t feel like you’ll be okay but know you’ll be okay. Don’t know if you’ll be better than before so then just know that because you’re you.. that YOU WILL always be better than before. You’ll have many cycles you’ll rebirth from, so embrace the changes and be one with you’re higher self! Stay beautiful✨👑✨
i definitely also feel that “nothing feels right but nothing feels wrong”. just trying to understand what’s it’s all about and learn who i really am instead of who i thought i wanted to be
I am thankful that you came up on my feed. You truly said some real meaningful things. You had a conversation of substance because there are so many who feel exactly how you described. Including myself and I am in my 50s. Dealing with the realness of life and how to navigate the ups and downs without self medicating. Just know this content was greatly appreciated this morning. You were a blessing to me.
Your Absolutely Beautiful with a beautiful soul i most definitely understand every word and every feeling u just put out in this videos every last bit touched me 🥺🖤
Hi Zion. Your videos popped up on my feed and I decided to listen (these days I avoid being distracted by youtube videos, but your originality made me curious.) I resonate a lot with your whole approach to this, not just what you're saying... and you remind me of myself on my early 20's. It is a wonderful path that we walk, but it's a difficult one! I feel you like a fellow old soul, it is remarkable how we recognize each other. Keep grinding, the sweet oil will come :) - HigherDanMyself
i just wanna mention how relatable this video is, and how you articulate exactly how im feeling so well, being in your 20's is so hard. so thankyou for this and you're so pretty!!🤍🫶🏽 def a new subscriber.
Omg i feel the exact same… something feels wrong but at the same time it’s right? idk either if its a 20s thing but you have really inspired me. You are life, you are light, you are intelligent and your message has reached many people. i am grateful for you, it has helped me tremendously ❤
I can’t respond to all comments, but thank you for giving time out your day to watch my video and thank you for creating such a beautiful and supportive community in the comments. We’ve all found each-other and we see each other 🫀
I just turned 23 and I have been dealing with ground that is completely foreign to me just a year ago I was stuck in a camper wasting away after being betrayed by the people I thought I could trust the most after I was discharged from army BCT for a severe injury
I had to leave everything I had ever known into this changing world that no one knew how to traverse and embarked on my quest to discover who I really am and whenever I look in the mirror I see a different face that I am used to no more am I that child that was used and manipulated the kid who was bullied in highschool no more was I small and weak or riddled with acne
My point is we will always change and so will our circumstances everyone has a different starting point and we will have to adjust to the coming changes of our lives with the dramatic shifts happening in our world hand in hand simultaneously same as countless generations before us
I know it sounds like I'm rambling but you're words spoke to me guess you could say you're video resonated 😅
no girl ... jajaja I born and living in Third world country I believe in God too , and we have hard life and we are not hate us self also do not worry about understand why we are living and born here... with all violence to supply the US drugs yunkie b..astard asses... lol you are pretty and living well so just keep out from emptyness and vanals things...
your country is blessed by God but there so many people do not believe in God...
the problem is your society that has all easy and you lost their surprise and the grace to enjoy the things and the simple things of the life. that the reason you need go to third world to appreciate that you have in america loser.
Just go to believe in God and Jesus and try to pray for grace to enjoy the life. I´m enjoying my life so good here down without many things and bad things everyday.
. saludos desde México.
I'm tired of doubting myself. I’m tired of micro-analyzing my thoughts and actions. I’m tired of consuming self improvement content. I’m tired of sharing my problems, my thoughts, my depressive episodes. I’m tired of smiling a little longer to make people happy. I’m tired of sounding a little nicer even when people hurt me. I’m tired of trying to impress. I’m tired of trying to improve. I’m tired of running away. I’m tired of staying the same. I’m tired of being myself. I’m tired of trying to be someone else… someone happier, healthier, livelier. I’m tired.
So I’m going to be myself. It might hurt others or offend them because I’m no longer trying to please them but I’m suffocating and I can’t see any other way out. I’m going to talk like me, act like me, dress like me, post like me, accept me both good days and bad, both sad days and happy.
I’m going to be myself in March and I hope it works. I’ve spent too many nights thinking “what if I’m not here anymore”. I’ve reached the end and gotten better and reached the end and gotten better and reached the end and tried to get better again and again and again.
I want to be myself in March
Hey everyone. Thank you for all the likes and kind words!🩷
Realistic update here(6 days after the original comment):
It’s hard and I’m so heartbroken from all the hurt I’ve held and tried to process towards others and myself. I really don’t want to give up and I’m afraid of continuing the persistent cruel swing between okay and not okay. I’m not really sure of where to go from here. I don’t want to give up nonetheless
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This is soo beautiful!❤
I can't wait to for your transformation ❤🎉
as you should! sending you luck and love on your new journey 🤍
"right now i am at a stage where nothing feels right" i felt that
camera quality is top tier
Thank you boo !
What camera do you use? ✨🙏
@@LilianajmusicI use my iPhone 12 and I put the video setting on 4K !
@@LilianajmusicI use my iPhone 12 and I put the video setting on 4K !
I’m 33, and just now having these revelations…. shout out to you for allowing yourself to feel this early
Big love to you
It’s ok to feel uncomfortable during this time of change. Have acceptance & forgiveness for yourself and embrace YOUR journey. In everything you’re saying there is no right or wrong answer because the process your going through is Taylor made specifically for you. We often search for answers that already there it’s just a matter of acceptance & although it’s simple, it’s not easy. What your doing is exactly what you’re supposed to be doing which is taking it step by step. Yesterday and tomorrow can’t affect today, you have to take one step before you reach 2. You’re doing great and exactly what you’re supposed to do. Take the energy your using to question yourself & embrace yourself. You’re limitless good luck on your journey & keep winning 🤝
Thank you so much 🫀
when we release control we surrender and are more open to receiving the healing from the divine 🌟
control is just another illusion. it’s time for us to let go of the illusion of control. i’m listening, i’m hearing you, i’m resonating with you. the more mistakes, the more adventures, the more learning, the more life you live! yes by trying to control it all, you lose it all. by frantically trying to avoid your fears coming true, you actually hinder yourself from enjoying that which you fear losing. I wrote, “If you don’t believe you deserve it, you will desert it..” maybe that resonates for you?
i don’t believe we’re doing life for this first time per se. we are spirits in a human experience. we are here to live, to just be, to experience. not to “do”. society, and so much associated with it has taught us to hustle, bustle, achieve, strive, to DO. but we’ve been here before, in some form, in some sense, in some time, we will be here or somewhere in some form again. but right now - this moment - despite all the hardship, especially given the privileges many of us have that we often take for granted of - we are so blessed just to exist. im glad i found you!
“live to mourn..” yes and no. destruction is a form of creation. limiting beliefs are created within us and then a beautiful process unfolds as we heal and discover and learn to BE. Don’t hold onto the idea of “staying the same” too much. change is so good. it is so part of transformation. you’re going to mourn your past self, it’ll be bittersweet but it is evidence that you are growing and transforming. allow yourself to cry babe, this is heAAAAVY energy. just sit in it, be with it, “invite mara to tea” (look up the concept), prioritize time with nature more, time with yourself, stillness, intentional doing nothing… i’m practicing this right now too, needing more stillness. i have such a full beautiful blessed life but have deprived myself of accepting, receiving or fully integrating with it yet have continued to strive to become, achieve and EARN more and more “worthiness” but we are already worthy and whole. we are in a beautiful process of life and all that comes with it. a beautiful process of recognizing ALL the many false beliefs, narratives about the world, money, love, ourselves, we have to learn and unlearn from so much - and we don’t change until we’re made uncomfortable enough. so we must be grateful for the hardships and difficulties that move us; that we learn from and develop through.
ahh you’ve inspired me! activated! i’d love to connect. it is so nourishing and reassuring to be reminded that there are like minds, aware, conscious, intentional, intuitive beings out there to connect with. 💓
I remember having a conversation with my friend about how we miss and mourn our previous versions of ourselves, yet we try so hard to bring that version of ourselves back. We're stuck at trying to reignite the old us, even when we have to move past that and accept ourselves as we are. The current life we're living needs this version of ourselves
sitting with depression feels impossible bc its easiest to stay busy or do whatever so you never face it but even when you stare at it it just seems to consume me and idk if tolerating it is enough it doesnt really seem healing
i think many people are under the impression that depression is something you "just" heal from. it's a commitment every day to go against yourself for your best interest and slowly rehabilitating yourself into enjoying living. even if you're tolerating it for the moment, i'm very proud of you.
i relate so much to constantly trying to make sense of why things happened in my life. it is so exhausting. i really just wanna learn how to just live. how to just make decisions without overthinking. and to let things happen to me without overanalyzing why it happened or how it got that way.
You just made me cry, it’s a crazy feeling seeing random people online going through the exact same stuff. Not even my therapist understands what I‘m going through. You made me feel a lot better today. Thanks love
It's so beautiful to see someone else going through life, it makes one feel connected to others in humanity
I relate to this sooo much. It’s like mourning everything & nothing seems to “fit”
my favourite affirmation for when i feel like this is "i surrender to the flow of life"
Attaching to outcome can lead to disappointment I lack patience and I want to control every outcome in my life but when things didn’t go my way it would negatively affect me and my relationship. Advice from my perspective is to let go, set the intention in your heart of the things that you want, and let God, higherself, divinity, whatever you call it to lead the way.
I haven’t been finding the messages i truly want on UA-cam in the past few weeks. A whole lot of “do this better and you’ll be better!”. This video has been absolutely wonderful in just validating the experience I’ve been having. I love the direction you are heading in and you got a new subscriber. Thank you for spreading the peace!!
Wow, you remind me much of myself in my mid twenties and I just want to let you know that because of your self awareness at this stage in your life. Life will continue to evolve and unravel for YOUR greatest good. Its ok to cry-release. Stay true to who you are and literally you will see your path. Much love queen, we are all facing the beautiful uncertainties of life.
Turning 20 this year, I’m ready for change, but also don’t know what I’m doing and living day by day with full faith in myself and my ability to fulfill my goals. Not easy, but I keep telling myself it’s possible as long as I believe in me
woah im in my 20s and you just articulated so many things i'm feeling too. almost every point you made, i've thought or felt too. thank you for being vulnerable and sharing
Thank you for giving my video a watch !🫀
It’s ok to just exist.
You’re such an old soul, doll. You are meant for so much abundance
I have felt and occasionally feel the exact same way. I've found solace in the philosophy of Daoism, it has really helped me to truly let go and live. Chaos comes with the calm. There can't be one without the other. Let go and live, detachment from forced perceptions and expectations is key to simply living, and that is a goal within itself.
i saw this video on my for you and i usually don’t just click on videos but this one i chose to watch and i’m glad i did! i love your calm energy and just wanted to tell you ur very pretty! i relate so much to this. i try to stop myself from negative feelings, because i want everything to be perfect. but this made me realize it’s not supposed to be
Thank you so much love and thank you for watching ❤️
I resonate a lot with what you said. I feel like i’m going through a shift as well instead of intellectualizing it I have to just let it flow
yeah as soon as you said leo skepi i knew this was going to be gooooood! I am currently 22 and struggling with the concept of adulting is forever and it will never end, bills are forever they will never end, and there is no gold star or good grade for doing everything correctly. You honestly get nothing out of 'doing good' in life because there are no correct answers except for the obvious extremes that you shouldn't do, and im really struggling with it because for 16 years in academics you are always given feedback for things, and then all of a sudden you graduate and that all ends. Its super hard all while juggling friends, life, bills, debt, and work. I'm simply tired already. im tired of controlling everything too. I'm so over it. I got off socials because i just don't care anymore, and im just going to let everything roll at this point! This was such a good video i wish it was longer 😭
yk what, I was sooooo depressed in college and I couldn't understand why but this comment just put it into words for me
You just randomly came across my home page and you stopped me in my tracks. You are gorgeous!
i’m 20 and i feel so similarly. i can’t remember the last time i heard someone speak so honestly. wanna hug you so hard. ur so beautiful and articulate and wise
Go out party have fun,life is only get more complex dont try to decipher it all things will fall in place.u have time on your side😊
i don't know either how to live life "properly" but i'll accept everything that comes my way. there is no other choice in the end. much love to you
love from the uk, bout to turn 19 n im feeling this struggle hard like its like im losing all my progress, my home everything over it, your rawness honestly hits me n makes me feel validated as a black woman with cptsd igy with entering adulthood n placing high expectations on ourselves to succeed
I felt this entire video especially the part where you said I’m tired of criticizing every little thing that I do. Me too sis like why can’t we just be 😂😂 we’ll get through this and live in this life. ✨💜 also, you’re really beautiful
This past year has been one of the most challenging for myself. I changed so much and though it was a good thing it also was very hard. I still had to go to work, I still had to do the things you are supposed to do even when I didn't want to. I felt like I was under construction and I had construction tape on what was going on inside of me with all the changes and such. I am finding that that is how life is, and like you I am trying to let go and just live. That's all I want to do is just live. Thank you for your video, it helped more than you know. Change is scary but also a good thing.
So excited about the amount of black youtubers I'm been yearning to see on this platform and now finally getting recommended. The titles of your videos alone are very assuring and I love how you discuss these subjects. Please keep it up!
About controlling our actions and maybe other people’s, I feel like we’re being aware and newly intentional about how we talk to our selves and others so we want to make it just right, perfect even. But to let yourself grow as flower dropping leaves and blooming new ones is when we will see how magical we are.
I feel so connected to you girl. It's the night before my 21st birthday and every word you spoke could have come from my brain.
happy birthday :)
I think it’s absolutely beautiful and confirming that your realizations are coming now than later. Take it from me, being in my 30s feeling this way..but yet you found and vocalized the words to what has been scattered within me for awhile. Thank you for sharing this and we must definitely give ourselves grace navigating this realm of life, enjoy it, feel it - for this is where we will cultivate the most fulfillment and ultimately indirectly make it all make sense 😅💕✨
Everything you said resonated deeply. It was calming to see my thoughts reflected in someone else, it was beautiful to witness. Thank you for building the courage to share your experience of life
Wishing you the best. Sounds like you may be a perfectionist like I was for many years. Everyone's situation is different, but learning to be ok with making mistakes and changing the perspective to see them as learning opportunities helps. Didn't happen overnight for me, took maybe 5 years of trying to change through therapy and self-work and failing until it all finally clicked.
Life is a gift. Everyone has a place in this world, and everyones' experience is unique. I pray you find your peace ❤
I feel the same except I’ve lived with this feeling my entire life and it’s made me frustrated thinking I just have to live life like this . Sometimes I feel like I was better off before I had hope things could get better. In a way that ignorance gave me some sense of normalcy. But girl you are saying everything I’ve been feeling. I’m just exhausted. I’m 33 so it’s honestly something that can happen at any age to anyone. I feel like I’ve been grieving for who I thought I was and I still haven’t let go because everytime I think ok this is who I am I just struggle to accept it. Like I can’t live up to my best self. I’m just going thru the motions but idk I wanna feel like it’s gonna be okay but then I think we’ll what if that’s not enough to just be ok and things actually work out.
I’ve been trying hard to find meaning in life so I could just feel like I’m living up to something but idk what I’m reaching for
Ouu girl I’m gonna cry I finally found someone on UA-cam who is going through what I’m going through😭 I’m literally about to watch all of ur videos
This resonated to me so deeply at where I am right now. I am painfully aware about how much I criticise every move I make instead of letting go and just living. Im 21 and I feel you with the expectations of the progress I am supposed to be making. I just want to allow myself to be and accept where I am and how far I’ve come, even with coping with low emotion and stress.
you’re literally saying everything i’ve been feeling for the past few months & it’s crazy bc i was thinking about you this morning randomly. and i love that i saw this video today and thank you for posting it🩷
I cannot stress how relatable this is rn. Thank you for sharing. ❤
Keep spreading great energy!!!
thank you, i definitely will ! :)
This caption is everything ❣️
You are so brave to bear your soul in this way. You are so strong. You are so aligned right now. Follow what makes your heart feel. Life wasn’t meant to fought for it was meant to be experienced. ❤️
Girl this is scary! I was just thinking this in my head scrolling and your video pops up!! You are sooo necessary! I neeeeded this! I am literally dying! I have no traces of old self to keep me up anymore and it issss soo tiring!! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I truly appreciate you! I too will be letting go and letting in! ❤❤❤
im so divinely grateful to have found u. this is wording a lot of my feelings so well. i see u. i see u. we got this. 💫🤞🏻🧿
We are all doing this for the first time 💯💯🔮
So Emotional listening to this. For the first time ever I can relate to someone soooooo deeply. Everything you said I needed to hear right now at this moment in my life !!!!!!!. thank youuuu sooooo much for this Video.
you have so much heart and it shines despite how hard things have been. i clicked on this bc I have had a hard time. everything you said, everything is exactly how I feel. especially what you said about having good intentions but it comes across as wanting to control things and others. I feel like I lost my mind trying to talk sense into others. it’s exhausting, I’m trying to learn to stop taking everything so personally when it comes to friends and family. it’s hard. I’m so hard on myself for everything. Grief is so heavy, loss in general. I see you, I really see myself in you and I resonate so heavily in your words. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet and I never comment on videos but you really touched me. I know it’s hard but one day your future self will thank you for the decisions you made. So much clarity will come. Time is so weird. You want to stop it and also make it go faster. But they say time is the answer to most things, so while you go about your days remember that we can’t control what happened only how to move forward and grow. Thank you for your video, I’m rooting for you.
I am so grateful that this video gave us the opportunity to connect on something we thought we were experiencing alone. Thank you so much for your time and your kind words🫀
What spoke to me the most in your video is about not desiring control of anything in life anymore. Im also becoming a young adult now and its been hard the last two years. I've been feeling like im not doing anything right even though I believe in LOA etc. etc. I've been thinking that im not very spiritually connected to myself. I have came to the point in my life where I don't want to desire anything anymore and just live with the flow. I have lost so many friendships over the past 3 years, so many people have disappointed me and I literally have nobody close to talk to. its so hard. I keep thinking that "Oh, this is apart of your life, people aren't in your life anymore because you have to work on yourself" But at the same time I hate this loneliness. Ive tried getting " my life together " by being " productive " But it doesn't seem natural, because I feel like a robot. I just want to be happy dude. I know I will be happy but right now im not in the happiest phase of my life if im being honest. I also feel like nothing is ever going right. New subscriber btw, I really resonated with your thoughts.
I agree. Sounds corny but "Going with the flow" is how I live it.
4:04 heavy on not wanting to control life anymore. i try to control all things as well, with the belief that if i put a bandaid on a “bad habit” the end result will happiness. but it’s just my shadow at the end of the day that im trying to get rid of (which is not possible) you can’t have light without darkness so i might as well just embrace it all
It’s normal 💚 everyone’s path is not the same. But one thing I noticed I will say is very profound, at 20, a lot becomes revealed. But it feels so difficult to path it out and navigate especially with all the challenges life seems to unfairly have presented. Just live! Be ! Experience! Be free. Completely. You don’t need to act as a narrator your whole life. Let the universe narrate and enjoy the things you enjoy. Because that’s what’s most important and those are the things that stay with you. Take the lessons you learn from other people, and your daily life or connections. Take them and use them to grow. Trust yourself always. That’s the most important. I want the best for my 20 somethings. I’ve made a lot of music from that time that’s deeply profound now that I listen back and it will truly help every single soul of this age and smaller. Be easy on you💚 change constantly. Constantly and constantly. It is THE best form of growth you will experience. Criticism of yourself is completely not the way. The 3D matrix is not as important as the 5D. You will be fine. I’m here to profess this to you. So know that. And enjoy that. And don’t worry. “Mourn for her, you could mourn for her, you could mourn”- the literal chorus of this amazing track I have in file.
Let’s be more compassionate and remember it every day. I feel you ❤, it is not fair to be this hard on ourselves.
When you said "sometimes I want to cry and idk why" I felt that because literally yesterday I spent the day with my friend and we were checking up on each other and I told her I was okay but on my way home my chest felt so heavy like I needed to cry so badly and I couldn't figure out why because I literally had a good day and nothing triggered me I was so confused
I’m 22 and so painfully aware. I don’t wanna be a ‘this sucks’ kind of person but honestly depression is so all-consuming and excruciating. Thank you for sharing your perspective as it helps me to feel seen. False positivity (stoicism) just isn’t it anymore; I’d simply like to be able to admit when things are shitty, y’know? It’s hard not to see the bleakness of this experience because it’s so perpetual and relentless, while simultaneously ‘just is’. 🌚😌
Feel you 🫡
@@gerryadams9868 ppreciate!
5:40 you're not being left behind.
You're going beyond the rest.
The transition of being an adult is hard, but it gets better. Just find people to help you carry it with you
u put the feelings and thought in my head into words beautifully. thank you I feel ready
I needed this sooo bad ❤️
I wish you well & thank you for sharing!
Thank you for watching !🫀
beautiful beautiful thoughts, your honesty will move people
your voice is so soothing and your words are so insightful…. i’m so glad i was recommended your channel !!
I feel you. I’ve really been trying to wrap my head around being open to the unknown. I feel like I’ve made it this far to be here now and feel this tiring transition out. I’ve never undergone such an intense evolution in my life. A lot like a werewolf seeing the full moon for the first time. Feeling all my bones and tendons crack and brake not truly knowing what could possibly be on the other side. It’s fascinating, really, even through the pain I’ve been filled with this overwhelming sense of gratitude for life itself. The glow of the moonlight itself is the most impactful reassurance I could ever receive. Locking everything in existence into what I’ve known all along.
I really appreciate your vulnerability on these topics, I feel seen and less upset with myself and more aware and just glad that I’m not alone in this feeling
I feel you, deeply and im exhausted.
Its difficult to keep up when expectations are so high im done fighting for control just breathing its enough
Everything you said is empowering and makes me feel like we’re gonna be alright.
Just know you at least have people here that are listening, and you are not alone ❤
I try to control certain aspects of my life to avoid repetition of certain mistakes. I am very selective (or ‘controlling’) in terms of what people I let in, for instance.
It is difficult and stressful having and enforcing certain standards, but I think there comes a time when it starts to feel natural and when you start to break even. Once the new habits take hold and you become more adept at forming and maintaining healthy relationships with people around you.
Having no standards, no boundaries or priorities is the best recipe for failure and disaster. That is completely letting go of the steering wheel.
I could feel your energy, it’s so peaceful and calming.
I’ve been feeling the same way. I don’t want to mess up or regret things. But I’m so exhausted
thank you for inspiring me today
heavy on i'm tired of being hard on myself
I feel like life is waiting for me behind a closed door and I can't find the key to open it
You are so very wise. I see so much of myself in you. I honor you for sharing so honestly. I’m sending blessings over your entire life and lifetime. 🙌🏾 Your intuition, your heart and ideas are gold. Your path is blessed. So much love. 🙏🏾❤️
no control is true control
Your makeup is spectacular omg
i get exactly, in my own way, what you're talking about. i wanted to write a heatfelt comment but instead just wrote what came to mind watching this. you're so cool. there's no need to explain yourself, your life, emotions, anything really. the more mistakes i make the more alive i feel. we're living life for the first time, there's no need to be perfect, as we're ever-changing, imo, we're the change. i really love what you said in this video, and your make up :))
Hi beautiful!
All your answers are in you!
You’re tired of controlling, so stop.
You’re tired of keeping up… don’t keep up.
They’re not “mistakes”, that’s just what the 3d world calls it. You always on times you’re already perfect as you are, your meant to live and have experiences, embrace it love!!
You’re literally there but far, but while your far you’re so close.
You’re so young, so just start now with being mindful and intentional in the way that you speak. Speak what you’re grateful for. Self awareness is powerful, you got this! And yes let the shift happen. Don’t feel like you’ll be okay but know you’ll be okay. Don’t know if you’ll be better than before so then just know that because you’re you.. that YOU WILL always be better than before. You’ll have many cycles you’ll rebirth from, so embrace the changes and be one with you’re higher self!
Stay beautiful✨👑✨
i definitely also feel that “nothing feels right but nothing feels wrong”. just trying to understand what’s it’s all about and learn who i really am instead of who i thought i wanted to be
i love leo too and its so crazy seeing you on my youtube feed. at he beginning of your video but i’m feeling it already
Allyouhaveisabodywithfeelings,nothingmattersgoconnectwithhumansandmakemistakesandsmileandcry
Girlllll sameee I feel like I’m going through the abyss
I feel you on this so much 😮💨
I felt that a lot nothing feels right I feel completely lost and stressed also I feel so much of what you saying
The” Dark Nite of the Sol”!! A deep depression , some call it melancholy.
I am thankful that you came up on my feed. You truly said some real meaningful things. You had a conversation of substance because there are so many who feel exactly how you described. Including myself and I am in my 50s. Dealing with the realness of life and how to navigate the ups and downs without self medicating. Just know this content was greatly appreciated this morning. You were a blessing to me.
centered attention resolves depression, its a temporary state which you will move out of, not struggling while struggling is achieved through balance
It looks so good outsideeee IM SO EXCITED FOR SUMMER CAUSE ITS STILL WINTER FOR US😭
I think it was chilly the day I recorded this 😭 but we’ve been having warmer days for sure
You’re so real for this thank you
This Is One Of The Most Relatable Videos I've Watched In A Long Time!!! I'll Watch This Multiple Times Daily!! Thank You 💜
Your Absolutely Beautiful with a beautiful soul i most definitely understand every word and every feeling u just put out in this videos every last bit touched me 🥺🖤
Hi Zion. Your videos popped up on my feed and I decided to listen (these days I avoid being distracted by youtube videos, but your originality made me curious.)
I resonate a lot with your whole approach to this, not just what you're saying... and you remind me of myself on my early 20's. It is a wonderful path that we walk, but it's a difficult one!
I feel you like a fellow old soul, it is remarkable how we recognize each other. Keep grinding, the sweet oil will come :)
- HigherDanMyself
i just wanna mention how relatable this video is, and how you articulate exactly how im feeling
so well, being in your 20's is so hard. so thankyou for this and you're so pretty!!🤍🫶🏽 def a new subscriber.
That was kinda fucking phenomenally beautiful❤ what a treasure of a video. Beautiful 🌷
You are gorgeous, love the head scarf, looks so good on you
Thank you love 🫀
Thankyou so much, you’re words come from my heart the I do not listen to, we are one
Omg i feel the exact same… something feels wrong but at the same time it’s right? idk either if its a 20s thing but you have really inspired me. You are life, you are light, you are intelligent and your message has reached many people. i am grateful for you, it has helped me tremendously ❤