I was roommates with Josh in a drug facility in south Florida sad to see him like this. I’m in Los Angeles area now too but been clean for almost 3 years. Hope you can get yourself back on track bro.
Genuinely, why do you feel the need to comment this at all but specifically in a way that frames it like you know better than the person commenting AND shitting on current addicts.@@JohnathanDavidson-xy4uk
I haven't watched the whole interview yet so maybe he says something about meth in it. But as of right not it just says crack+fent. So what I was going to say was do you see now that it wasn't even the meth doing it to you? It was the lack of sleep/ nutrition that causes all the nonsense. Not saying meth is good. It's horrible. I've been free from it for almost 7 years. Been free from crack just over s year. And fentanyl about 75 days
Going back and watching the other videos of Josh is eye-opening. This young man doesn't know anything else; how can he know what to aim for if he's never experienced it? He's in a goldfish bowl, and someone's blacked out the glass. This is why 12 Steps gives you a mentor to signpost the way. Good luck to you, young man. I hope you experience something more satisfying and that it changes your mindset. You deserve that at least.
Addiction and mental illness are a much more complex problem than kids not knowing drugs are bad. Ive seen terrible videos of lung cancers as a kid and still smoked for 10 years
Clean off Fentanyl now for 12 months. used everyday for over 2 years ...Started with a shoulder injury I suffered at my local gym. The most difficult thing I have ever tried to do is quit. I have never experienced anything like it.....The pain.The Discomfort.The depression. But I did it and I will NEVER go back.
Mark out of all the people you've had on there was no-one I wanted to see more again than Josh - he really is a good kid and I hope so dearly that his sobriety will come, he has suffered so much. Thank you so much for having him on a third time and for everything you have done for all of these people.
I went back to see Josh’s previous interviews and this is so hard to see as he seems worse. He seems like such a kind intelligent young man with so much potential but sadly this is the life he’s known from such a young age that I’m afraid he may not ever pull himself out. Josh if you read this, there’s so much more out there for you. You are worthy of a different lifestyle and can do whatever you put your mind to ❤
Sometimes after being seen on these videos, people give these addicts money. Worst thing you could do. An addict will buy drugs, not food or clothes. So buy them a coat or a sandwich. But never give them cash.
He is so child like and his portrait so lovely it is odd even the twitches look choreographed - he really pulls at the poignancy and difficulty of this portrait - it is beautiful and leaves you feeling responsible for this child - beautiful portrait Mark , another heartbreaking a truthful piece - good morning america ....
Addictions = waste of human life. I wish they start talking about addictions to middle and high schoolers a lot and show your kind of videos to them…. Give infos to kids so they can avoid this. Plus mental health services are needed too ….
Bro THIS IS MY. MFF HOMEBOY RIGHT HERE! lookout lil brother, this is an old friend of yours. You saved my life when i was 24 years old. It was me you and kasey. Ive wondered what happened to you for years bro. Reach out to me. If you need that favor returned. Msg me and ill tell you who this really is. Love you kid. Keep your head up
Normal SWU rhetoric: As long as they do not express an opinion or something in their background I disagree with, they are perfect angels who are misunderstood and just need love 😂
@@anonymousanonymous6796 I don't think it does, but you see a lot of people with criminal tendencies being interviewed and the viewers will just leave comments about how the subject has been abused and that's the reason they're screwed up. A lot of people have been abused but haven't gone on to become criminals, so that's where I'm coming from. Empathy is good, but it doesn't address the problem.
The thing about your statement is. Yes he is someone’s child but he is not a child physically anymore. He is a man and if he as a man doesn’t want to get clean and healthy then it doesn’t matter what his father or mother does. If he wants to go back to the drug abuse and the streets then he will because it’s a choice he is making as a grown man. And for anyone that is gonna come at me and say that addiction isn’t a choice. I will say that they are right, being an addict isn’t a choice but it is a choice to use again after you have been detoxed and clean.
People end up like this because parents didn't come get their kid when they needed to. They never cared enough. Some people don't deserve to have kids.
I met him about 4 years ago I’d say. Very nice guy. He came into treatment with his then fiancé. She wanted to leave immediately to go get loaded, and he said bye 🤣. He definitely had somewhat of a desire to get clean. Then, he orchestrated a big relapse in the sober living & a bunch of people relapsed on ecstasy and got kicked out. He’s a nice guy, but unfortunately, I don’t think he will get clean any time soon. Hoping he does though! Good luck Josh!
I wish people would stop talking about how hard it is to get clean! Do you know what’s harder than withdrawing for fentanyl? Loving on the streets homeless, stealing, no friends or family. Enough excuses! It sucks yes but it’s not impossible and a lot better than being in active addiction!
@@AmberJane1990x not fentanyl but in my addiction I have done it, I quit methadone and benzodiazepines, oxys all that BS . It doesn’t do an addicted any good to discourage them to quit! What good comes from complaining about how hard it is to stop ?! Withdrawing is awful yes but a lot better than ending up dead! At some point you have to ask your self am I going to quit or do I want to die .
I don't mean weed. I mean hard street drugs. I watched my husband and stepson suffer with addiction and eventually overdose on fentanyl. It's tragic and sad. 😪
Why do people think that "drug users" aren't intelligent? Is it really just the whole "you gotta be dumb, you're using!" Or is it ego, and such? Yes of course, there are unintelligent people in the drug scene, but there are dumb crap people in every trade, job, ect. Dr Alexander shulgin self experimented with everything he synthesized. Every phenethylamine, every tryptamine, and others like various plants, chems ect. And he kept his lucid mind pretty well till the end. And there are a lot of people like that. McKenna, Allan Watts, Huckly, and look at the art/music scene as a whole, throughout history. It makes me mad as all get out. I'm "in total" 7years clean. Had 1 major relapse that lasted about a week, and now I'm almost 600days clean from that point. Not even gonna try and glorify what all I have done in regards to "number of drugs". But yeah, I have certifications to run any tow motor(fork lift) up to 10 tons, single/dual overhead cranes, serve safe certification, can run a small foundry with one other man, play several instruments well, built my smithing shop from the ground up.... Loads of people can do many things... It comes down to want. Drs are at fault for thousands of addiction cases... Man. Have a good day op. 🍻
@@AlanKelly-nm9lx Here in Australia the word 'rooting' has totally different meaning btw. Always makes Me giggle when I see it being used, childish aye. You would think so I guess.
His honesty is really beautiful. He is so self aware and his way of talking makes it easier for outsiders to understand what he is going through because he is so genuine and not fearful of judgement. I wish the best for your future, my dude.
Self awareness would he reflecting on how his behaviour is affecting the people who care about him, the EMTs who have to revive him etc but he's locked in and committed to staying sick.
@@BulkernatorKerb I didn’t say he was repentant or full of regret. Or that he is thoughtful for the pain he causes others. I simply observed that to tell his tale so directly and clearly while in the throws of addiction must take a lot of self awareness.
@@BulkernatorKerb YES! Because of this, it is very challenging for people outside of addiction issues to understand the mind and actions of an addict. I just meant that he did a good job through honesty and being able to identify some of his own actions causing his own situation.
It is always a pleasure to see an update of people that were previously interviewed ! Even if it is sad to see Josh has relapsed, you can see he was clean for a while, he put on some weight. At least he was out of this lifestyle for a while, but apparently he is a "serial relapser", the sad thing is he seems to be addicted to the lifestyle as much as to the drugs... maybe because he had no better exemple in childhood, and grew up in chaos, so that he cannot even imagine any other type of life. As Mark said, what is the solution to the problem except for a better childhood? Once the child is "broken" it becomes really difficult to fix the adult, though it is absolutely possible but it takes so much energy and ressources that it is daunting, however it seems to me that a lot of people eventually manage to get out of the drugs, often in later life, they eventually manage to figure it out, as they become more mature and maybe become too tired / old for the this lifestyle. However they need to stay alive long enough for that. Wishing Josh all the best, and that he can eventually find his way to the sober, meaningful and beautiful life that he deserves.
J'espère que ce jeune homme va réussir a se sortir de ces addictions, je suis une nouvelle abonnée j'apprécie beaucoup vos interviews et merci aux personnes qui témoignent car se n'est pas facile merci beaucoup bisous de France ❤
Hi mark don’t know if you’ll see this but I was just watching a podcast episode from Theo Von and he had on a trauma expert. When I was watching it I thought about SWU and wondered if you ever had a trauma expert on. I don’t think you do. I think it would be great if you could get one on. Since this channel has a lot of peoples trauma on here.
Omg..I was commenting that Fentanyl is the crack of opiates when he said that exact same thing..that's why they started to cut heroin with Fentanyl, it's not only more potent but also wears off faster so the addict needs more & more. Josh's incarceration was an opportunity to stay sober...he seems resigned to remain in addiction..sad.
He is all over the place and don't think he wants to change anytime soon or ever yet I pray he does! He still has a quick mind and knowledge so here's to better days!
He once was a little boy with dreams and hopes. It's so sad to see them taking the wrong path in life, such a waste😔. I hope he sees there is more to life than drugs and he kicks the habit.
I think people who don't have addictions to drugs should still be able to understand addiction if they have any addictions of their own and many people do. It's any obsession with something, could be eating, collecting things, certain behaviors, addiction to watching porn, shopping, spending money, and the addiction doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing. What they should be able to see in themselves is that they cannot control the impulse to do the thing. The drug addict gets an emotional connection with the drug, sometimes a physical one as well (alcohol, smoking for example) that will give them physical suffering when they try to stop. Addictions in general tend to take control of some aspect of the person's life.
these are so eye opening. it's interesting to hear peoples back stories and reason for their addictions. i hope he's able to get help. he's so young and has so much life to live
This makes me sad. I hope he accepts help. There's more to life than getting high. He is still young and has no idea there is a whole sober life out there waiting for him.
My oldest brother died right around Christmas. He acted just like Josh he was always jumping around and flinging his arms around. I knew he was on drugs but I did not know what kind now I know. Josh I hope you can get clean before you end up like my brother.
@@BubblesHughes Thank you for your condolence. I am still in deep mourning over my brother. It was so painful to watch this particular show because it reminded me so much of him.
One time I'd been strung out for like 3/4 days and when I finally went to bed I shut my eyes but opened them again and saw a shadow person on top of me it was probably the scariest thing that's ever happened in my life.
I have a friend on the East Coast here that when I saw this pop-up in my feet, I actually thought it was him because genetically the facial structure and the look is almost identical, and then when I played it and heard the voice, it was also the same it’s just a different person’s name and different tattoos. it makes you really wonder about the similarities and predispositions that happen and then you throw in the economical and different family structures and it starts getting really complicated. Anyways, it was just something interesting that I observed, and there could be zero correlation, but this guy is very smart and, there is hope for him as long as he doesn’t give up and he can see the Hope himself. Keep doing the work that you do.
honestly, for someone that has a lot of shortcomings with doing drugs, he clearly has a great head on his shoulders, reconizes his issues, and has lots of potential to turn his life around. of course, if he chose to. prayers !
As someone who was on heroin for 12+ yrs, the physical dependency comes back much faster than it would for someone who's never been dependent. Be careful, my man. Be so careful. Ayahuasca is what set me free. No rehabs. Ever.
@@newsouthwalesuploads.7509 I personally think since the Whit---taker and Rebe--cca situation, Ma--rks pretty much done. He hasn't said it but I think he's just about done with this project and will probably move on to something else. I think now he's just unloading most of his backlogged videos , whether or not it makes the interviewees look bad, whereas in the past, he would hold videos if it casted doubt in the audience. That's just my analysis based on the fact that I see a lot of myself in Mar--k, minus the extraordinary photography skills lol
@@AlanKelly-nm9lxwhat makes you say this kind of stuff. You realize you sound like the crazy uncle who hasn’t be in touch with reality since the 70s, right?
As someone who has cold turkeyed heroin while lying on a couch, having access to hot showers and a toilet, I cannot even fathom how terrible kicking fentanyl while restrained is!
It’s terrible. I went through benzo and fentanyl withdrawals having seizures on a jail floor with no mat or blanket for 3 weeks. I’ve been clean since. I’ll never go through that again.
Recovering fentanyl and meth addict kicking fentanyl cold turkey was the worst pain I’ve ever been in hands down , made it through 6 months clean on June 17th there’s a way out of the addiction life you just have to want it❤
He's so intelligent and well mannered, I hope the best for him. It can happen to the best of us. It refreshing to hear someone take responsibility for their own actions and just be so real about thier issues. Not making excuses or blaming everyone else. I truly hope he's doing okay!!
Josh please your worth much much more than this you still have a life of potential you have time to find ways to change. the first step in the mind is to hate the gear and the damage it does around us and the second step is to love yourself. We love you. Please
Hope the best for you man. I know this struggle all too well. The horrid thought of going through insane withdrawals from strong opiates is why soo many dont ever get help. I went through full blown withdrawals in county off fent. Worst experience ive had to endure. Was offered no help. I was throwing up all over the cell. Filled up the plastic bin they gave me with vomit. Could barily make it to court. My opiate addiction led me to a downward spiral to rock bottom. Multiple overdoses where i was lucky to even have been found to get narcan. I Had enough. And this is what it takes for most to get clean. I went close to 20 years battling this. I was blessed to get a state bed for detox. I then decided to go to in patient program & also went str8 to a recovery home & then sober living house. Also NA meetings and being able to relate to other addicts for support helped majorly. I have been clean for over 4 years now. I will never have to put a needle in my veins again. This is possible for anybody struggling with addiction. I just had enough.
Josh, the devil loves us sick! I'm a poly addict and an alcoholic in recovery since 8/12/22. I hope you have a psychic change lad, God could and would if He was sought!!!
Ive been watching SWU for aa long time & this is the first time im really starting to hear how tired Mark is starting to get. 😞 they wearing my boy heart down.
Relapsing doesn’t have to be part of your story bud you’re making it part of your story. You know what’s right and wrong. Addiction sucks I hope you find sobriety.
That’s crazy to hear him say that, he accidentally used fentanyl the other day. Because I just said the same thing yesterday, I went to the store bought a Reese cup, and accidentally ate my favorite candy bar. Can you believe it
Thank the good lord took over my life 12/29/15 I used to be this guy little bit of this little bit of that ! Man super grateful for my life today married living on the beach living beautiful life
He is walking on the edge, very dangerous. so many people are dying from fenatanyl overdoses all over. So sad that these young people just don't get it.
I wonder what resources would've been available of him when he got out of jail to not go back to the street. It's one thing if you're literally kicking you out with nowhere to go other than Skid Row and it's another willingly chose to leave jail chose to help and went back.
I’m surprised he’s even be able to talk straight cus I know he’s not thinking right this breaks my heart and worries me sick I have a son his age addicted to the same stuff he is some times I pray he goes to jail just so I know he’s alive I hate these drug and the people who have let them in our country 😢
Prison helped him put weight on. He looks healthier. The crack will cause issues mentally. Fentynal did nothing for me. Waste of time as I was only asleep for 40 minutes. I wish josh the best.
I was roommates with Josh in a drug facility in south Florida sad to see him like this. I’m in Los Angeles area now too but been clean for almost 3 years. Hope you can get yourself back on track bro.
Congrats and please don't link up with him your doing awesome and it's only you from here no set backs needed from old addicts k🎉🎉
Sadly, the man doesn't want to change, he was just ordered to and had no choice. This is what he wants.
Genuinely, why do you feel the need to comment this at all but specifically in a way that frames it like you know better than the person commenting AND shitting on current addicts.@@JohnathanDavidson-xy4uk
When you think about him him say a prayer 🙏 glad you have overcome
I met him at Easy Does It in palm Spings FL
Damn this wore me out just watching...so glad I've kicked the meth. One year clean on January 18th of this year❤
🙏🏽👋🏽 Congratulations Heather. ✌🏼❤️🍷
Congratulations!
Well done 😊
I haven't watched the whole interview yet so maybe he says something about meth in it. But as of right not it just says crack+fent.
So what I was going to say was do you see now that it wasn't even the meth doing it to you? It was the lack of sleep/ nutrition that causes all the nonsense. Not saying meth is good. It's horrible. I've been free from it for almost 7 years. Been free from crack just over s year. And fentanyl about 75 days
Congrats keep it up
Going back and watching the other videos of Josh is eye-opening. This young man doesn't know anything else; how can he know what to aim for if he's never experienced it? He's in a goldfish bowl, and someone's blacked out the glass. This is why 12 Steps gives you a mentor to signpost the way. Good luck to you, young man. I hope you experience something more satisfying and that it changes your mindset. You deserve that at least.
If you’re struggling with addiction, please reach out for help. You are loved and worth it!
This should be shown in Health classes in schools at an early age.
Seriously one hundred percent agree
@@JosedeJezeus me too.
Addiction and mental illness are a much more complex problem than kids not knowing drugs are bad. Ive seen terrible videos of lung cancers as a kid and still smoked for 10 years
Yes
That sigh from Mark at the end says it all.
Clean off Fentanyl now for 12 months.
used everyday for over 2 years ...Started with a shoulder injury I suffered at my local gym.
The most difficult thing I have ever tried to do is quit.
I have never experienced anything like it.....The pain.The Discomfort.The depression.
But I did it and I will NEVER go back.
It beats selling ass lollll Mark too legit to quit.
Omg...now I have that song in my mind lol
Encouraging and making light of shoplifting. Pathetic. He likes to justify their actions at times
"Oh fer sure" haha
@@richard9970 i mean its kinda hard to argue with a crackhead about their actions when they can't sit still for literally two seconds
@ri😊chard9970
Surprisingly articulate considering how long he's been awake.
Wait till the comedown😂
Mark out of all the people you've had on there was no-one I wanted to see more again than Josh - he really is a good kid and I hope so dearly that his sobriety will come, he has suffered so much. Thank you so much for having him on a third time and for everything you have done for all of these people.
Wow his eyes are absolutely beautiful- rooting for him and all others battling with addiction and or mental health
Yuck!!!!
😝
I went back to see Josh’s previous interviews and this is so hard to see as he seems worse. He seems like such a kind intelligent young man with so much potential but sadly this is the life he’s known from such a young age that I’m afraid he may not ever pull himself out. Josh if you read this, there’s so much more out there for you. You are worthy of a different lifestyle and can do whatever you put your mind to ❤
Sometimes after being seen on these videos, people give these addicts money. Worst thing you could do. An addict will buy drugs, not food or clothes. So buy them a coat or a sandwich. But never give them cash.
More from this guy please. He is so desperately trying to be present but his addiction is running his life.
He's precious
To see this guy in this fucked up situation is terrifying because he won't be around long,hope he sees the light and turns his life around.
Watch his other 2 videos he's been around along time... he'll be around for a bit more😉
@@lisafrederick8870 well that makes me happy 😊
I hope he gets treatment and lives a long happy life.
He is so child like and his portrait so lovely it is odd even the twitches look choreographed - he really pulls at the poignancy and difficulty of this portrait - it is beautiful and leaves you feeling responsible for this child - beautiful portrait Mark , another heartbreaking a truthful piece - good morning america ....
He's a great photographer!
This young man is so handsome!
Addictions = waste of human life. I wish they start talking about addictions to middle and high schoolers a lot and show your kind of videos to them…. Give infos to kids so they can avoid this. Plus mental health services are needed too ….
It's so sad, some of these people start under the age of 10. They're just babies.
Bro THIS IS MY. MFF HOMEBOY RIGHT HERE! lookout lil brother, this is an old friend of yours. You saved my life when i was 24 years old. It was me you and kasey. Ive wondered what happened to you for years bro. Reach out to me. If you need that favor returned. Msg me and ill tell you who this really is. Love you kid. Keep your head up
Thank you for the first comment not being about how he's such a sweet soul or some crap.
Normal SWU rhetoric: As long as they do not express an opinion or something in their background I disagree with, they are perfect angels who are misunderstood and just need love 😂
being an addict doesn't make you a bad person
@@anonymousanonymous6796 I don't think it does, but you see a lot of people with criminal tendencies being interviewed and the viewers will just leave comments about how the subject has been abused and that's the reason they're screwed up. A lot of people have been abused but haven't gone on to become criminals, so that's where I'm coming from. Empathy is good, but it doesn't address the problem.
Whose child is this? Come get him, this is extremely sad.
The thing about your statement is. Yes he is someone’s child but he is not a child physically anymore. He is a man and if he as a man doesn’t want to get clean and healthy then it doesn’t matter what his father or mother does. If he wants to go back to the drug abuse and the streets then he will because it’s a choice he is making as a grown man. And for anyone that is gonna come at me and say that addiction isn’t a choice. I will say that they are right, being an addict isn’t a choice but it is a choice to use again after you have been detoxed and clean.
Oh I hope his mom doesn't see this, it'd break her heart.
@@alicedyment4219well maybe she should … I don’t know his story but maybe his childhood has
Smght to do with this … maybe not.
They have probably tried as long as they could. He said he's been to 60+ treatment centers- that tells me someone was trying to help him.
People end up like this because parents didn't come get their kid when they needed to. They never cared enough. Some people don't deserve to have kids.
Good Morning!! Hope everyone has a kind and relaxing day!
you too
Pretty sure Josh here is having another horrible day. It's cool though, heather wishes all of us not only a kind day but a relaxing one too...
Good Morning from Ireland! Have a lovely day !
Cyber Hug from Australia... just past midnite, always a day ahead too btw.
Thank you. I wish you the same.
I met him about 4 years ago I’d say. Very nice guy. He came into treatment with his then fiancé. She wanted to leave immediately to go get loaded, and he said bye 🤣. He definitely had somewhat of a desire to get clean. Then, he orchestrated a big relapse in the sober living & a bunch of people relapsed on ecstasy and got kicked out. He’s a nice guy, but unfortunately, I don’t think he will get clean any time soon. Hoping he does though! Good luck Josh!
Sounds like Josh 2 me
Omg I went to school with him, I wonder how he ended up in cali ….I hope he recovers, he was always a nice person 🙏🏽
I wish people would stop talking about how hard it is to get clean! Do you know what’s harder than withdrawing for fentanyl? Loving on the streets homeless, stealing, no friends or family. Enough excuses! It sucks yes but it’s not impossible and a lot better than being in active addiction!
Have you ever withdrawn from fentanyl it's agony x and however much you want to stop sometimes the pain is to much that you give in.
@@AmberJane1990x not fentanyl but in my addiction I have done it, I quit methadone and benzodiazepines, oxys all that BS . It doesn’t do an addicted any good to discourage them to quit! What good comes from complaining about how hard it is to stop ?! Withdrawing is awful yes but a lot better than ending up dead! At some point you have to ask your self am I going to quit or do I want to die .
@@AmberJane1990x drug addicts look for any reason not to stop people saying it’s impossible or so awful to withdrawal. Does no one any good
@@alyssamary7132 Fent wd is 1000x times worse than heroin and methadone wd combined. You can die from fent wd.
Josh is clearly intelligent and worthy of so much more than the life he's living, drugs destroy everything.
No one deserves a life on drugs 😢
Abuse and trauma destroy everything. The drugs are just a coping mechanism
uh, no one does this from weed or caffeine, lol. some drugs are different than others.
Drugs are bad mmmmkay?
I don't mean weed. I mean hard street drugs. I watched my husband and stepson suffer with addiction and eventually overdose on fentanyl. It's tragic and sad. 😪
He's actually very intelligent and introspective. He could get out of this if he really put his mind to it. Rooting for you dude!
Why do people think that "drug users" aren't intelligent? Is it really just the whole "you gotta be dumb, you're using!" Or is it ego, and such?
Yes of course, there are unintelligent people in the drug scene, but there are dumb crap people in every trade, job, ect. Dr Alexander shulgin self experimented with everything he synthesized. Every phenethylamine, every tryptamine, and others like various plants, chems ect. And he kept his lucid mind pretty well till the end. And there are a lot of people like that. McKenna, Allan Watts, Huckly, and look at the art/music scene as a whole, throughout history. It makes me mad as all get out. I'm "in total" 7years clean. Had 1 major relapse that lasted about a week, and now I'm almost 600days clean from that point. Not even gonna try and glorify what all I have done in regards to "number of drugs". But yeah, I have certifications to run any tow motor(fork lift) up to 10 tons, single/dual overhead cranes, serve safe certification, can run a small foundry with one other man, play several instruments well, built my smithing shop from the ground up.... Loads of people can do many things...
It comes down to want. Drs are at fault for thousands of addiction cases... Man. Have a good day op. 🍻
@@AlanKelly-nm9lx Here in Australia the word 'rooting' has totally different meaning btw. Always makes Me giggle when I see it being used, childish aye. You would think so I guess.
@@pop-4567 I googled, and I giggled. 😂 Ya learn something new every day!
@onehandwashestheother what did he say that led you to believe he would just go and commit murder 😂
@onehandwashestheother 🙄🙄🙄
His honesty is really beautiful. He is so self aware and his way of talking makes it easier for outsiders to understand what he is going through because he is so genuine and not fearful of judgement. I wish the best for your future, my dude.
Addicts by nature are not self aware they are living in a delusion. Speaking from experience.
Self awareness would he reflecting on how his behaviour is affecting the people who care about him, the EMTs who have to revive him etc but he's locked in and committed to staying sick.
@@BulkernatorKerb I didn’t say he was repentant or full of regret. Or that he is thoughtful for the pain he causes others. I simply observed that to tell his tale so directly and clearly while in the throws of addiction must take a lot of self awareness.
@@BulkernatorKerb YES! Because of this, it is very challenging for people outside of addiction issues to understand the mind and actions of an addict. I just meant that he did a good job through honesty and being able to identify some of his own actions causing his own situation.
If he was aware he wouldn't justify shoplifting. @@bight1802
"Crack talks to you, it calls you" how terrifying
I think that was a flowery way of saying you can't stop thinking about it. That kind of addiction sounds horrible.
“Hey man, come pick me up! Whatever you gotta do to get here, do it fast!”- Crack
It's demonic that's why.
I remember watching his first interview. It’s sad to see updates where they must get worse.
This dude is so intelligent, I hope he is arrested again and given the opportunity to clean up again.
It is always a pleasure to see an update of people that were previously interviewed ! Even if it is sad to see Josh has relapsed, you can see he was clean for a while, he put on some weight. At least he was out of this lifestyle for a while, but apparently he is a "serial relapser", the sad thing is he seems to be addicted to the lifestyle as much as to the drugs... maybe because he had no better exemple in childhood, and grew up in chaos, so that he cannot even imagine any other type of life. As Mark said, what is the solution to the problem except for a better childhood? Once the child is "broken" it becomes really difficult to fix the adult, though it is absolutely possible but it takes so much energy and ressources that it is daunting, however it seems to me that a lot of people eventually manage to get out of the drugs, often in later life, they eventually manage to figure it out, as they become more mature and maybe become too tired / old for the this lifestyle. However they need to stay alive long enough for that. Wishing Josh all the best, and that he can eventually find his way to the sober, meaningful and beautiful life that he deserves.
I hate saying this… But I really don’t think he’ll want to get clean for a while. Seems like a great soul though
J'espère que ce jeune homme va réussir a se sortir de ces addictions, je suis une nouvelle abonnée j'apprécie beaucoup vos interviews et merci aux personnes qui témoignent car se n'est pas facile merci beaucoup bisous de France ❤
“Not having to abide by human society laws” is why the world is having problems!
EXACTLY!!! You are spot on!!
What a ridiculous and absurd comment.
@@drkdrumzJosh admitted that in this interview.
Hi mark don’t know if you’ll see this but I was just watching a podcast episode from Theo Von and he had on a trauma expert. When I was watching it I thought about SWU and wondered if you ever had a trauma expert on. I don’t think you do. I think it would be great if you could get one on. Since this channel has a lot of peoples trauma on here.
Omg..I was commenting that Fentanyl is the crack of opiates when he said that exact same thing..that's why they started to cut heroin with Fentanyl, it's not only more potent but also wears off faster so the addict needs more & more.
Josh's incarceration was an opportunity to stay sober...he seems resigned to remain in addiction..sad.
Addiction is so sad. What a waste of a young life 😢😢
Not a waste. He’s young, he definitely could bounce back and become a part of society, he could help people.
I think this is more serious than alcoholism or Warhammer 40k, this guy's brain is fried.
Man, this gives me anxiety..
If he was non verbal or even less verbal ( and not oon drugs) , it almost mimics a psychotic episode.
@@JosedeJezeusI had to start doing that with the Rebecca interviews.
He is all over the place and don't think he wants to change anytime soon or ever yet I pray he does! He still has a quick mind and knowledge so here's to better days!
He has the best dance moves. "Falling off chair" is one of my go to's.
he actually did look choreographed sadly but true
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No thats real.
Your family in Kentucky is praying for you and hope you choose recovery
He once was a little boy with dreams and hopes. It's so sad to see them taking the wrong path in life, such a waste😔. I hope he sees there is more to life than drugs and he kicks the habit.
I think people who don't have addictions to drugs should still be able to understand addiction if they have any addictions of their own and many people do. It's any obsession with something, could be eating, collecting things, certain behaviors, addiction to watching porn, shopping, spending money, and the addiction doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing.
What they should be able to see in themselves is that they cannot control the impulse to do the thing.
The drug addict gets an emotional connection with the drug, sometimes a physical one as well (alcohol, smoking for example) that will give them physical suffering when they try to stop.
Addictions in general tend to take control of some aspect of the person's life.
This is so sad. He has such potential to do something great, he seems like a great guy. I hope he finds the light and gets sober.
It takes like 2 or 3 days in a row to catch habit again
Id forgotten how much energy it takes to be around addicted people, or be an addicted person. Its got to be harder on your body to keep relapsing.
Amazing how much the body can take
At least he gets his exercise for the day, even if he's just sitting in a chair.
I stayed up 5 days straight a few times when I was messed up. You start to go insane
Dangerous 😳
The spiders start falling from the wells. Its a bad trip. Shadows whispering and helicopters circling, knowing they are looking for you.
You need a holiday Mark. Queensland is nice this time of year 😊
You need a Holliday 3 feet under ground ⚰️👆🏻
these are so eye opening. it's interesting to hear peoples back stories and reason for their addictions. i hope he's able to get help. he's so young and has so much life to live
Awww this guy is breaking my heart. I wish him the best
This makes me sad. I hope he accepts help. There's more to life than getting high. He is still young and has no idea there is a whole sober life out there waiting for him.
Believe in yourself Josh., be kind to yourself, remember you deserve a healthy loving life.
I can't believe this guy is still alive 😮 saw a guy come in the ER once that had been speedballing he was purple then they called the chaplain 😞
Yes i had a stroke from a speedball at 25 . And was in a wheel chair for 2 years
How is this person still alive?!?! So sad. Universe please help this human. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
My oldest brother died right around Christmas. He acted just like Josh he was always jumping around and flinging his arms around. I knew he was on drugs but I did not know what kind now I know. Josh I hope you can get clean before you end up like my brother.
@@lisafrequency55 oh Lisa I’m so sorry! Thank you for sharing your trauma. Drugs are a horrible thing in a humans life
@@BubblesHughes Thank you for your condolence. I am still in deep mourning over my brother. It was so painful to watch this particular show because it reminded me so much of him.
My condolences
@@debradavis9589 thank you it does help to get condolaences
So sad to see him like this. I hope he can get his life together. 💔😕 He's a young guy...
Good morning Mark 🩵 frustrating to see …. Sending you lots of love Josh
Clean date 2-6-2021. The gift of desperation saved my life. Prayers to you buddy
Up 7 days congratulations 🎈🎉🍾 don’t do drugs kids
Man he is clearly very intelligent, so sad to see this, I do hope he gets clean one day.
this dude definitely seeing shadow people
And they are all plotting on him. He is incredibly lucid given all the physical ticks presenting themselves.
@@samd9830yeah it’s crazy how some people go into psychosis after 2 nights no sleep and others can remain lucid after like a week
😂😂😂peek-a-boooooo😂😂😂
One time I'd been strung out for like 3/4 days and when I finally went to bed I shut my eyes but opened them again and saw a shadow person on top of me it was probably the scariest thing that's ever happened in my life.
Before I got clean one month I literally only slept 7 days out of the entire month it was wild. Was up for like 5-7 even more days at a time
I have a friend on the East Coast here that when I saw this pop-up in my feet, I actually thought it was him because genetically the facial structure and the look is almost identical, and then when I played it and heard the voice, it was also the same it’s just a different person’s name and different tattoos. it makes you really wonder about the similarities and predispositions that happen and then you throw in the economical and different family structures and it starts getting really complicated. Anyways, it was just something interesting that I observed, and there could be zero correlation, but this guy is very smart and, there is hope for him as long as he doesn’t give up and he can see the Hope himself. Keep doing the work that you do.
Huge fan all the way from New Zealand, I really enjoy your inteviews and the stories we hear. Thank you.
honestly, for someone that has a lot of shortcomings with doing drugs, he clearly has a great head on his shoulders, reconizes his issues, and has lots of potential to turn his life around. of course, if he chose to.
prayers !
As someone who was on heroin for 12+ yrs, the physical dependency comes back much faster than it would for someone who's never been dependent. Be careful, my man. Be so careful.
Ayahuasca is what set me free. No rehabs. Ever.
The worst feeling ever is detoxing
It really is. Something I'd only wish on my worst enemy.
Detoxing from 120 mg of Methodone is truly definitely Hell on Earth from experience
💯💯💯💯
@@breezyncjwhy wish it on your enemy if you know what it feels like to??? don’t be evil remember KARMA
@@Noahtells okay calm down pal lol it's called a turnaphrase.
Hoping Josh stays alive long enough to beat his addictions, obviously will power alone isn’t enough as addiction itself is a disease.
Sadly there is no will power for him. With that absent, there's no hope for him.
Mark is so fed up at this point lmao
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I personally think since the Whit---taker and Rebe--cca situation, Ma--rks pretty much done. He hasn't said it but I think he's just about done with this project and will probably move on to something else.
I think now he's just unloading most of his backlogged videos , whether or not it makes the interviewees look bad, whereas in the past, he would hold videos if it casted doubt in the audience.
That's just my analysis based on the fact that I see a lot of myself in Mar--k, minus the extraordinary photography skills lol
...at what point????
@@AlanKelly-nm9lxwhat makes you say this kind of stuff. You realize you sound like the crazy uncle who hasn’t be in touch with reality since the 70s, right?
@@AlanKelly-nm9lx Let's hear your hypothesis...
@@AlanKelly-nm9lx So no theory just "trust me bro." Got it.
As someone who has cold turkeyed heroin while lying on a couch, having access to hot showers and a toilet, I cannot even fathom how terrible kicking fentanyl while restrained is!
It’s terrible. I went through benzo and fentanyl withdrawals having seizures on a jail floor with no mat or blanket for 3 weeks. I’ve been clean since. I’ll never go through that again.
It’s sad to see anyone like this. Hope he can get the help he deserves before it’s too late.
Love ya Mark…thank you.
Is this closer to life or closer to death? Not sure
Recovering fentanyl and meth addict kicking fentanyl cold turkey was the worst pain I’ve ever been in hands down , made it through 6 months clean on June 17th there’s a way out of the addiction life you just have to want it❤
That feeling of wanting to crawl out of your own skin so tired and exhausted but can’t keep still or stop thinking fuck that shit
Sixty or seventy? This guy defines, "Drain on Society".
He's so intelligent and well mannered, I hope the best for him. It can happen to the best of us. It refreshing to hear someone take responsibility for their own actions and just be so real about thier issues. Not making excuses or blaming everyone else. I truly hope he's doing okay!!
I’m one year clean on k and Mary Jane 👊
$90k? LA County has the worst DA in our history. George Gascon. I'm surprised he went to jail at all.
Josh please your worth much much more than this you still have a life of potential you have time to find ways to change. the first step in the mind is to hate the gear and the damage it does around us and the second step is to love yourself. We love you. Please
Hope the best for you man. I know this struggle all too well. The horrid thought of going through insane withdrawals from strong opiates is why soo many dont ever get help. I went through full blown withdrawals in county off fent. Worst experience ive had to endure. Was offered no help. I was throwing up all over the cell. Filled up the plastic bin they gave me with vomit. Could barily make it to court. My opiate addiction led me to a downward spiral to rock bottom. Multiple overdoses where i was lucky to even have been found to get narcan. I Had enough. And this is what it takes for most to get clean. I went close to 20 years battling this. I was blessed to get a state bed for detox. I then decided to go to in patient program & also went str8 to a recovery home & then sober living house. Also NA meetings and being able to relate to other addicts for support helped majorly. I have been clean for over 4 years now. I will never have to put a needle in my veins again. This is possible for anybody struggling with addiction. I just had enough.
Josh, the devil loves us sick! I'm a poly addict and an alcoholic in recovery since 8/12/22. I hope you have a psychic change lad, God could and would if He was sought!!!
Ive been watching SWU for aa long time & this is the first time im really starting to hear how tired Mark is starting to get. 😞 they wearing my boy heart down.
He's pretty well articulated, seems like a smart dude, hope he gets the help he needs...
Mark just a suggestion. Have someone monitoring the audio from the interviewees mic.
I’ve heard crinkling in a few as their mic rubs on their clothes.
Relapsing doesn’t have to be part of your story bud you’re making it part of your story. You know what’s right and wrong. Addiction sucks I hope you find sobriety.
That’s crazy to hear him say that, he accidentally used fentanyl the other day. Because I just said the same thing yesterday, I went to the store bought a Reese cup, and accidentally ate my favorite candy bar. Can you believe it
Thank the good lord took over my life 12/29/15 I used to be this guy little bit of this little bit of that ! Man super grateful for my life today married living on the beach living beautiful life
I have noticed that everyone on this drug has the same mannerisms. It's exhausting how this can be good or inviting to people.
Its to bad he knows better but dosnt want to be clean right back into the life of addiction. Been there got the shirt. Its a rough road
He is walking on the edge, very dangerous. so many people are dying from fenatanyl overdoses all over. So sad that these young people just don't get it.
Rumor has it he’s still awake
I pray Joshua, gets clean and succeeds in life. God Bless.
Mark was shady when he said “You think he’s taking care of her nicely?” 🤔
Who cares dudes like this sell their girl for a bag/bundle constantly
Good initiative to better himself.
Blokes choice of hairstyles is excellent!
Such a handsome young man, life ruined by choosing drugs. What a crying shame.
I wonder what resources would've been available of him when he got out of jail to not go back to the street. It's one thing if you're literally kicking you out with nowhere to go other than Skid Row and it's another willingly chose to leave jail chose to help and went back.
In the end, he chooses this over doing better with his life. He loves drugs more than sobriety.
Old boys life is going nowhere . He definitely needs a night’s sleep
I’m surprised he’s even be able to talk straight cus I know he’s not thinking right this breaks my heart and worries me sick I have a son his age addicted to the same stuff he is some times I pray he goes to jail just so I know he’s alive I hate these drug and the people who have let them in our country 😢
So sad. Difficult to watch and such a pity. 😞 For some, this world is nothing only hell.
Don't blame the World... We make our own Hell.
hell
@@davidpalmer7175
You took the words right outta my mouth
Prison helped him put weight on. He looks healthier. The crack will cause issues mentally. Fentynal did nothing for me. Waste of time as I was only asleep for 40 minutes. I wish josh the best.