I forgive myself but others it is a different story. I may joke about bearing grudges to the grave, is more truth than humor. Why? Because what I have suffered at the hands of others with no apologies is unforgivable. I am a joke in my own life. Sometimes I wish I had that imaginary button that could make people disappear. So, I could make all the people who have hurt me cease to exist. Since such a device doesn't exist so the public is safe. My pain is still in me and relations with others is strained. I have not been with a woman on a date or other in 30 years. I don't care for God because he is just another evil in my life. Believing in God neither gives or takes from your life. It is meaningless. Good or bad just happen but in my life there is no good. You could say living is good and I would say no. Living without happiness is just existing and that is all God has left me with. I hate God and reality has proven to me God is just like Satan just lies and evil.
Forgiveness is for you. Otherwise the pain will eat you up inside. Light your path forward with the light from the bridges they burned behind you.
Except for the contrived "inheritance" at the end, a very nice and believable story.
I forgive myself but others it is a different story. I may joke about bearing grudges to the grave, is more truth than humor. Why? Because what I have suffered at the hands of others with no apologies is unforgivable. I am a joke in my own life. Sometimes I wish I had that imaginary button that could make people disappear. So, I could make all the people who have hurt me cease to exist. Since such a device doesn't exist so the public is safe. My pain is still in me and relations with others is strained. I have not been with a woman on a date or other in 30 years. I don't care for God because he is just another evil in my life. Believing in God neither gives or takes from your life. It is meaningless. Good or bad just happen but in my life there is no good. You could say living is good and I would say no. Living without happiness is just existing and that is all God has left me with. I hate God and reality has proven to me God is just like Satan just lies and evil.