you cannot pour from an empty cup ☁ studio vlog
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- Опубліковано 28 вер 2024
- hello friends! it's another studio vlog~ featuring some patreon work, a long monologue on some personal revelations i've had recently, and a trip to the farmer's market! i hope you enjoy ♡♡♡
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I really appreciate you talking about how the state of the world has been affecting you. It's been affecting me too. I'm also in a position where I have a lot of privilages, but I also lack specific privilages that mean that i'm basically completely drowning in mental illness and can't really get myself out of it because I don't have the tools I need to do that. And i've been feeling really burnt out and resentful - because the intense effort I put into being alive and getting better feels meaningless; because of how aware I am of my suffering, other people's suffering, and the boundless nature of suffering in general; and because I feel like I have such a limited ability to create positive change. It's hard to fully recognize people's pain and feel like you're a drop in the bucket to undoing it. It's hard to recognize that about your own pain too. I truly feel like my cup is empty but feel angry at myself that I'm not pouring enough out. I feel guilty for the ways I struggle, and for the ways I don't.
One thing that's been helping is a video It's Radish Time made called 'on helplessness' - and in it she talks about thinking about how we spend our energy. Not just the things we could be doing that we aren't (like ways to support our community) but also the things we are spending energy on that we don't _need_ to be. And I think for me, I've also been spending energy on a lot of self-loathing behaviours that just exacerbate suffering in my life. Instead of being compassionate towards my struggles, and using that compassion as a way to create more empathy for people who have greater struggles, I beat myself up, I invalidate my pain, and I decrease my ability to validate and understand other people's pain because i'm so caught up in my own.
I'm starting to realize that minimizing my issues doesn't really help others, and in fact giving myself room to struggle allows me the ability to do that for others. Because the issues and bad feelings don't go away, even if you believe they shouldn't exist or you're too privilaged to have them. They just sit there and fester the more you beat yourself up over them, or punish yourself with them, the more they weigh you down, and the more they decrease your ability to support others. It's much more productive to care for yourself and use that as a model for how to care for others.
I would also say in regards to the quote you gave - who I consider my Community are not necessarily the people who are directly around or in front of me, because those people are for the most part toxic, bigoted, and have a direct negative effect on my wellbeing (and I can't leave because ~mental illness~). And the only way I have found to positively interact with them is to minimize contact and put up boundaries. That's my personal caveat that I thought i'd add lol. Sometimes being mindful is supporting community that you align with to have a positive effect on society, and surviving the toxic people directly around you when mutual support is not possible with them.
Thanks for sharing, this is helpful
LOVE!!! I left my job 6 months ago (in mental health) and told management 'I can't pour from an empty cup'. I've been working part time and doing lots of art. I think you are the same type of person as I am. Deeply empathetic. Too caring for this world. I feel everything. I cry for people I don't even know. I have terribly anxiety and blood pressure issues as a result lol but people like us, Cheyenne, the world needs more of!!! At the end of the day, misery has always existed. We are here to add light, and a way, into existence for those that need help creating that light for themselves.
I've always been told I care too much. And maybe I do. But I'd rather care too much than not at all. We just gotta focus that love onto where it's needed
Your "stupid little pictures" that you make (and they're not stupid btw) sparks joy and helps distract us from the craziness of the world around us. Your drawings bring a lot of love and joy to the world right now Cheyenne. You help people out more than you really know and I hope this can help remind you of the sheer tiny fraction of how much your community loves and supports you.
I've also been feeling so overwhelmed at the state of the world recently, the nihilism you described, I can totally relate too, but I still have hope ♥️ I'm glad you do too! Loved this vlog, you inspire me!😌
I have been struggling quite a bit lately, feeling weighed down and kind of lost, struggling with creativity and trying to be hopeful about every day life and the future. This really helped me feel like I could still get things sorted out. I'm probably going to rewatch this later and let it sink in again, and hopefully I can unravel the knots and tangles of my thoughts. Thank you for making this
As a person that is currently living in Ukraine 🇺🇦I have exactly the same thoughts! I am in Kyiv and it really goes back to normal life as much as it is possible in these circumstances, we get bombed just once or twice a month (I know it sounds silly😂). And we are constantly being blamed for forgetting about the war. But like, how can I work and donate to the army, how can I contribute to rebuilding our beautiful strong country if I am constantly stressed and “my cup is empty” now?
i cried when you cried. this felt so safe to watch. thank you for creating a space on the internet for hope.
Everything you said about the world lately and how you’re feeling resonated with me so much. You said it so beautifully that you need to maximize your own joy, I love that. Thank you for talking about this, it has really made me feel less alone and given me a new way to think about my own difficult feelings about the world lately. So glad I found your channel!!
I have never been more happy seeing a vid in my UA-cam feed, you ooze good vibes and joy, thanks for existing, may you always find happiness and joy because you deserve all what's good and sweet in the world.
I really needed to hear this today. I'm constantly feeling my hope dwindle and motivation dim. I want to be full again, and I think loving people sounds so simple, but goes so far. I feel a little aimless right now, but if I can do things that wake my heart and soul up a bit I think I'll be ok. Thank you for sharing how you're doing
This was such a great little bit bc it’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I have a lot of privileges and yet my brain still freaks out on an almost-daily basis. I have to put down my phone and physically enter into another activity just to avoid doom-scrolling and force myself to engage with things I love doing.
As someone who works freelance and is currently in a weird hiatus-like state, the conversation about maximizing one's own joy and nourishing your spirit and community really hit home with me.
Thank you so much for this video - specifically the bit where you talk about how immobilizing it can be to want to do so much to help others, but have so little mental space to do so. This is something I’ve been trying to verbalize for so long, and I really appreciate you talking about it. “Why am I manufacturing my own misery?” I needed to hear that so bad. Thank you thank you thank you ❤️
Not sure why, but Connor’s update made me giggle. I love how he is always just ready to share with the vlog instead of hiding 😂
My dad always reminds me of the flight rule 'you put the mask on first before putting them on others'. (when there is pressure issue and the oxigen masks drop down) So true and I keep reminding myself of that!
And I feel you on the overwhelmed feelings. Altough I think we creatives should keep creating in these dark times because for many out there, art was always a little island of light. We can stop for a moment to admire something that touches our soul. Whether it is a huge detailed oil painting or a silly little sketch.
Just began binge watching your videos. They've been giving me comfort and I love the talks and how you process your emotions and your creativity. Just living life. I want to pick up on that energy. Thank you for this! ❤️
You’re so sweet! Sending you hugs, thanks for being so vulnerable… you inspire me 💜
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, your worries and your joys. I’ve felt the ‘empty cup’ dilemma ever since my partner died last year (and also being bombarded by bad news because of my current job). I’m going to try and keep my own focus on moving forward, and somehow refilling my cup so I can have a better influence on those people whose lives still touch mine. Your videos always help me find calm, and some clarity, and just like your sticker I keep on my steering wheel, some direction back to the sunlight.
I really really appreciate you sharing your “breakthrough moment” of the sort of quote about there being too much stuff happening to be putting more stuff on yourself and creating your own misery. I like that. It shed some light on my mentality for the day as well. Thank you. 🤩
thank you for sharing your moment of revelation with us! About the thought of "you cannot pour from an empty cup," i agree wholeheartedly! :-) I also like to remind myself that my cup deserves to be as full as I want others' cups to be! In other words, all the wonderful things you wish to give people are things you also deserve. You are part of the world you wish to give to
Thank you Cheyenne for telling us about your breakthrough with thoughts on world doom. As others have already mentioned, this really gets to me too, but hearing you talk through it is very helpful. There is only so much we can do, but there is also so much we can do! Like you said, when we are in a healthy place ourselves, we can be a greater help to others. Xx
me too... the state of the world has been putting a huge "but why" over everything for me lately. even making my own art. but then i see other people's art and i am within a moment of relief from it all, and that's what i've realised i'm giving to the world while i give to myself as well. i'm giving a place to rest your tired eyes for a moment. somewhere soft, sparkly, comfortable, and welcoming. somewhere warm, and gentle, and at ease. amongst the disturbance and destruction on your news feed. and when i realise how badly i'm needing that from others at the moment, it makes me want to make more. draw more, paint more, take photos of more. because i can't, in a world with over 8 billion people, be the only one longing for more space between the noise. love to you + connor + kitties. your little family brightens my world a little every time you post. and i'm so grateful for that. xo
This video convinced me to finally try out Persona 5, also a mug warmer is an essential tool for those with ADHD (like me), keep it!!
So lovely to sit down for a good ol Cheyenne vlog 💖 Died at Connor's "I threw up today," teared up with you about your phantom thief moment. The gallery wall is stunning!
heyu chey! just gotta letchu know that you are legit a huge joy bringer in my life, ever since I first found and started watching your UA-cam vids, my heart always bursts and melts whenever you share anything! I rly love and appreciate you and your art and your sensi gentleness and the way you see the world and express yourself is v inspiring and YA! always mighty dig your company!!! thanks for being buddy. excited for what's to come and sending you so so much SQUISH!!!
Ugh, I definitely started crying when you started crying and didn't stop for a while. This is exactly what I needed to hear too. Thank you for sharing.
When you said you're full of new vigor now, my eyes filled up with happiness, just as you started to cry...I really felt that, and we all need it xx
I like your content 'cause you're one of the few creators who's not constantly showing clips of you receiveing packages, Amazon shopping, Aliexpress hauls or whatsoever. At first it's entertaining, but that kind of videos I believe (in a certain level) they cause more irrepsonsible consumption...
I appreciate the fact you took some time to talk about the reality we're living right now in terms of enviromental issues. And you're acting in consequence, by re-thinking the way you consume, and the way you create.
You're such a talented and inspiring woman 💕✨
Thanks
Hi Cheyenne! I have been following you for like several years now and watching you talk about mutual aid and the importance of caring for yourself to be able to contribute to your community really stuck with me and also made me realize how much impact you've had on my life. You have influenced me so much as an artist and I missed your content! happy to see you're feeling better :)
Instead of using a mug warmer, when you get your tea pop it in a thermos or other insulated bottle. It will be the perfect temp for much longer, even if you forget!
I have a thermos-coffee cup hybrid and it is wonderful, has the typical lid you would expect to see on a to-go cup but it seals, fits in a cup holder and has a handle 😍
i just wanted to say how comforting i find your videos!! 💛 thank you for being so wonderful, i know it’s rlly hard existing with how the world is going right now and i just wanted you to know your presence and art are greatly appreciated! i know i’m commenting a month late but i hope you are still doing well and that you, connor and the kitties are having a wonderful day! 💫
You posting something always brightens my day, so you’re already making a difference ❤️❤️
I have been felling the same way. I left art school in 2019 and I have not done anything creative since. I have constantly had this feeling of was that time and effort worth it.
And 3 years later I'm still lost and still asking myself what's the point? I'm stuck in this horrible and draining mindset and I don't know how to get back in to drawing
for myself and feeling proud of what I create. You have triggered something in my brain that's made me think that I am the empty cup and I'm pouring my heart out in wanting to create
but nothing is coming out. And not only that you have made me realise I am a cup that is worth filling ( if you get me). Now I just need to figure out how to fill my cup. hopefully this is the beginning of creative success? Sorry for the waffling on, I hope I make sense.
Just wanted to say I really relate to this! I went to school for creative writing (and other things) but haven't done anything related to that professionally or personally for like 3 years, partially due to mental illness. I don't necessarily want to write professionally but it really hurts knowing how much I struggle even doing it personally, like the joy I had for writing was wrung out of me to finish my degree, and I have nothing left. I've been trying to jump start some projects and validating that they're just for me and can be as messy and bad as I need them to be because the point is to engage with my creativity and just allow myself to explore without pressure or expectations. But i've realized that's really hard to do, and I have a huge self-critic that hates on me every time I try to have fun and create that makes it literally painful for me to write even a couple of paragraphs. Still trying to make baby steps in that department, but I wish you luck in the same! We can do this. It only has to be a step at a time. I'm also still trying to figure out how to fill my cup, and that can be challenging as well.
@@Lisa_Flowers we got this!!!!
420 BLAZE IT lol but I wanted to say that I haven't watched one of our videos in a second and im glad I watched this one. community is key and I hope you keep this energy because taking care of yourself is really the first step to taking care of community. love ya and hope you been doing good and had a good birthday and pride
thanks chey for coming back and saving this year🥹🥹 i look up to you soo muchh and you are such and icon😌
Drinking boba and watching Cheyenne
AHHHHHH, I get so excited for new videos on your channel!! Thank you for posting them. It always make me feel warm and happy. Love you content!!
thanks for your little chat I've been feeling the same way too it was nice to see that its possible to get outta that funk thanks for sharing
I have been on a what I call "art purgatory" for a while where I don't know what to do with my art and how to move forward, I'm midway through your video as well as your monologue relevant to this and would just like to say thank you so much because most of what you vocalized resonated with me and sort of shifted something in my mindset. I don't know what to do with this energy yet but I feel like I at least have a place to start!
I swear, it’s your video notifications that make my heart kick flip summersault high five into a happy place 🌞
That sweater you had on throughout the video is just fantastic
i think this is the first time i've ever watched a video of yours and I'm already in love with the chaos ahah
Your monologue was so relatable! And helpful. Thank you for sharing!
THE WAY I IMMEDIATELY SCREAMED WHEN YOU MENTIONED TXT, GOT7, AND PH1 HELL YES! We love it hehe 💓💓
Someone once told me that just like how doctors, lawyers and engineers feed the "body" of society by literally fixing/amending/maintaining things that are often tangible, artists, musicians, designers and story tellers feed the society's soul. Without art & culture, we'd die as a society. And I found much comfort in pursuing my career because I just wanted to be of use to the people around me with what I can do best / the calling in life I was given. I hope you feel the same because you nourish a lot of viewers and art appreciators who go through a bad day and don't know how to express it. You do more than you think! sending lots of love and warm wishes.
love this video, chey! I like watching parts of the vlog throughout the week when i have the time. Brightens my day!
side note - connor types so fast!!
This was so lovely it warmed my heart. I literally sat here smiling the whole time:)
I clicked on this video and instantly breathed a sigh of relief. Thank you for making my days better!
I feel the same way about the gloomy weather! It makes me feel ok about being a lump inside.
Thanks foor poosting - you were a huge inspiration to starting my practice again
Sooo excited to watch this while I’m working! A five star video as always ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Always love watching your videos, makes me smile and giggle and overall good vibes 💕
This video was SO GOOD to watch! Sending lots of love 💕
If it makes you feel any better.... when it's a patron sticker, I like having the date.
That was sooooo nice to watch. Wow love it
I've been feeling the same way. Thank you for sharing your realizations!
Dude I was a full time artist pre covid and I so deeply relate to the wtf am I doing when x is happening and it was heavyyy. I had to step out and be a part time barista so I could press the release button on my pressure cooker heart. im grateful to witness your process as it helps me figure out mine too
AAA SO EXCITED U STARTED LISTENING TO P1H!!
We need that kpop playlist! I'm googling them as you mention them 👀❤️ thanks for the recs!
Lovely vlog as always💕
Happy Birthday Gemini! I am one too! Communnty-wise I am organizing an event that I dreamt up last year in my town. It is an Upcycled Planter Challenge where over 30 people including myself create planters from recycled objects. The planters are place all around town and on our town green for two weeks. People vote on their favorite, AND can bid on one to buy in our online auction. The funds raised go to upgrade Monarch habitats that were planted in our town in 2016. A lot of the planters are amazing!
I’ve also been dealing with the same feelings this past year and idk if this is true for you too but I’ve struggled with guilt over being privileged and yet still wanting more for myself and my family (I’m not rich by any means, I’m actually on welfare lol but I just mean in comparison to most humans on earth today!) But I realized that the feelings of guilt and shame can’t absolve me of my privilege and I can’t atone for being able to live a comfortable life by torturing myself with the horrible realities of others. I’m not saying I want to stick my head in the sand but there’s a difference between being informed/not ignorant and being overwhelmed and debilitated by negative news. All this is to say, I get what you mean and I’m also trying to fill my own cup so I can lift up my loved ones and my community! Yay for self care 🥰
“i wanna contribute to the chaos. i don’t wanna watch & then complain, ‘cause i am through finding blame that is a decision that i have made.”
Could definitely relate to the adhd brainworms vs autistic brainworms 😆 I’m autistic and my brother has ADHD and he complained to me about how he had to spend 4 hours packing bags for his job and I was just like “that sounds great where to I sign up”
Bo burnham playing in the background? OK I subbed to the right channel 💛
BTW love these vlogs and you art is beautiful!
loveliest vlog as always!! so excited that i've just started a new job so i can finally join your patreon !!
Thank you for this, it's what I needed to hear 💖
wow thankful for bo burnham in this vlog 🥺
I felt the same despair recently and doubted the value of this existence with the war being an immediate threat and climate change being pushed back in my brain a bit, tho I still recycle lol. And honestly I'm glad you had this breakthrough and keep pushing and doing your personal best. For me personally your, as you called them "stupid lil pictures", bring a lot of joy and watching this vlog calmed me down. Gave me this necessary feeling of normalcy I lack so much in times of immediate danger and constant stress. It's a bridge that connects me to life I lost because of cruelty of some and passiveness of others, but life I will have enough mental capacity and agency to take back. Partially thanks to art I consider mental health boosting haha. Your brain worms is the only reality you have and I'm happy you keep fighting your inner battles and I'll try my best to keep fighting mine.
Thank you for reminding us of mindfully consider our present circumstances and do what we can with the resources that we have. It's nice to see this comment coming from someone living the lifestyle I want. May I ask what BMI Personality Type you have?
And I have a mug warmer - best thing ever. Get one!! lolol It's not about forgetting - sometimes I'm in the zone and I dare not break that creative streak by taking a sip of a beverage, however small 🤣🤣
we love you so much chey :(
Love your artwork wall background so pretty
Thanks I had actually forgotten my meds :D
its so fun to hear your opinion on love death and robots, I'm surprised Zema Blue didn't make your top favorites.
OH I LOVED THAT EPISODE TOO
I feel the same.
You cat is so cute. I had to take my cat to the vet a little bit ago and because she is such a thoughtful cat ( I say in the most sarcastic way possible) she pooped in her carrier on the way there to save us from having get a sample fom her. But I still love her :)
YOU TALKING ABOUT GOT7 AND HARRY STYLES DFSKJDJSFKHDSJ
If I could, I'd rather be nocturnal: stay up during the night and sleep during the day. Sunny days are eh... it just brings me down since I also dwell in my house. When it's rainy or cloudy, then my mood goes up - it gives me a reason to stay inside.
Be the change, Chey. 😎✌🏻
(Glad you finally realize that. As heart singers - artists, musicians, dancers - our natural talent allows others to let their own hearts sing. So we MUST sing, so they can sing. Never ever minimize what you do. 💛)
Edit: I’m back to say that I feel the same way about stranger things this season. It’s not nearly as charming and it’s just…they got too obsessed with 80’s horror flicks. I watched that stuff when I was a kid and it was one part of entertainment that I’d hoped would stay in the 80’s. What’s next, pinhead working at the pizza shop? 😒
Pllllllleeeease does anyone know where she got her mousepad
Any time someone wants to make plans and get out of the house I tell them PH-1 has a song titled Homebody and that it really speaks to me.
that sunny day guilt is very swedish of you (i am the same) 😅
Cheyenne I will think that the patreon problems is also kind of related to the downth of the economy do people start cutting expenses. my theory.
what mic do you use for podcast? do you like it ? :)
Hey! Cheyenne where is your mousepad from???
Ooh, when did you get your tattoo?🤗 Good Saturday morning from Berlin ✨
oh it’s a temporary tattoo!!! one day it’ll be real hopefully 🤧
@@cheyennebarton it's very cute! 🌷I like the spot. (I actually have a little Dala horse tattooed there ;))
I deal with existential dread but mine stems from how I was raised. That being said it has stolen my enjoyment of drawing and art which used to be my favourite thing to do...like I couldn't wait to get home so I could draw. I'm getting back into it without any pressure on myself. Once I start pressuring myself or feeling pressured the enjoyment vanishes. So things are delicate right now. But I'm a conservative leaning libertarian and some of my other worries are the opposite to yours lol.
Just watched your movie Maysville i love your beauty so inocent.. what else movie did you make..
Such pretty nails!😃
it's good to change your business! but just make sure you remind yourself that the economy is so bad rn, so don't doubt what you're offering! a lot decline is probably due to budgeting :) your art is amazing and people love receiving it!
I like your 420 reaction. Nice. 😂
you are so awesome.
I am now stealing the phrase "autistic brain worms" 🙏
Id wear that bag as a dress
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As you are speaking, I am looking at this beautiful girl sitting in front of this wall filled with beautiful art that gives happiness to all who view it. Do you realize that?
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As an ancient GOT7 stan, you saying you were listening to their comeback made my heart do little flip flops!!!!! 💚
We've got similar brain worms 🪱