I appreciate your perspective, and although I'm not detrans it feels like a breath of fresh air. Thank you for giving hope and an amazing example of what people like you need!
I've been following you through your journey and yes, your transparency and vulnerability is very much needed. I always say there are so many angles to a topic, and people tend to focus on what they want to see and hear. But there is equal value in understanding all sides and perspectives. You sharing your journey gives others a chance to see a different perspective and have an understanding of what goes into transitioning and de-transitioning. You look amazing, and I really hope that you are doing well and are happy.
I just clicked back on one of your old videos and your voice is definitely softer! I've been following you since the beginning and I'm so glad to see you looking so happy and beautiful!
THE HAIR 👏🏼 We stopped T at the same exact time and I’m also 29! I’m genderless so I haven’t done laser (want to) or breast reconstruction (don’t think I ever will also I don’t have enough fat). Mistaken for a gay man mostly or a mtf. Either way- what matters is I feel confident. I play up the male role some days still but that’s bc I am a bisexual butch underneath all this transition
Im super happy for you and its so so sweet that that first doctor really took care of you and sorted things out with the insurance. Your chest looks super natural at least from what we can see, i thought to myself like huh i thought she had done a mastectomy but guess she detransitioned before doing it. Also your hair looks so beautiful truly ur curls look so hidrated and defined. Kudos to you, good luck with your journey!
You look so happy and at peace with yourself. Thank you for being a positive voice for those of us who have transitioned and then detransitioned. Many of us cannot be out. Much, much love.
I appreciate your honesty and transparency, i currently am 7 months into my De-transition and I couldn’t understand why after living my life as a female for 10 years I no longer identified as Trans and wanted to be male all over again. I’m much happier now and mentally stable and i can’t wait to complete my detransition. Seeing your page as well as a few others gave me soo much more comfort when in society detransitioners get heavily judged by the LGBT
I appreciate the statement that it doesn’t have to be all consuming. I’m personally just trying to live day by day and see how things evolve. Have you mentioned previously anything about your hairline? It seems you weren’t too affected on testosterone? Got the good genetics! 😅. I know there is likely solutions, but the receding hairline is probably the thing that affects me the most.
I do have a little bit of a receding hairline but the hair is super short! I’ve noticed recently it’s been growing, but VERY little. I’m saving some money to try PRP soon 😊
@@aliaxismail awesome. I’ve only been off T for 6mo, so hoping it’ll just take time as well, haven’t found that many examples of hair regrowth. Thanks for the reply!
Desculpa a pergunta, mas como você eliminou seus pelos do rosto definitivamente? Você ainda sofre com os pelos no rosto depois desse tempo? Amei o seu cabelo😊
Hi thanks for your video I am really interested in your hair loss/removal journey. not having any success with laser, still moustache and beard after about 8 sessions. heavy shadow the day after shaving LOVE to hear more detail how many sessions you had and what else you may have used
@@andreabolding5281 hi there! So I went for about 10-12 sessions. The spa I went to had a high quality laser and it was probably set pretty high. I did do some electrolysis maybe like 2-4 sessions at most on my chin. I do still have soft hair around those areas, so now I just wax.
I wanna detransition too 😢 but I don’t know if I will ever look like a guy again. I’m tired of being lonely gay men don’t want to me and straight men are there to explore 😢😢
Duh that is what you get into when you do it. It’s the reality and the fact people don’t realize it is absurd. Many trans will be a secret but it’s on each individual
Sometimes we don’t think about those aspects of our identity within dating, we think oh hey I’m confident and enjoying this expression so dating will obviously be easier, but sadly that isn’t the case as much in our society. I definitely have felt this way but opposite in a lot of moments. I felt like maybe a relationship with a woman wouldn’t have long term commitment, but that’s just my experience. It doesn’t happen to everyone and there’s someone out there for each person. You have to make a decision based on what you want though, not others perception of you.
I'm a Conservative Christian and many assume my intentions as soon as I say that, but just know that you're a human being and I love you as a person. Unfortunately, not enough strangers share a positive message to each other, so I'll happily fill the role. Honestly, I'd recommend going to another country (like Japan for example) and volunteer at a matcha farm or any farm for that matter. I was absolutely lost with my life last year and impulsively booked a trip to Japan for 3 months and volunteered at a matcha farm who gave me free accomodation and food in exchange for fun volunteer work. I really think that just escaping for a bit to somewhere else helped me find myself and I'd encourage you the same. Also, watch the stories of DT and listen to former MTF. I'm certain that if a current FTM can look like a man, a former MTF could also look like a man. Love all of you.
I don't agree with Medicaid paying for anything but hey use it if you can why not :D. Dropping in the 65k range for my SRS on July 9th its paid in full surgery 39,800 and12,000 for 2 days in hospital then 2 months lost wages while on FMLA. Private employer PPO Cigna is dog chit insurance they deny everything trans / gender related blows. Thanks for sharing, for me there is no going back. Wish you well! Avita
the million dollar tuestion indeed. Unfortunately the psychologists and gender clinics are just rubber stamping anyone that has dysphoria. Transitioning isnt the only solution or appropriate solution in every case. Needs to be a review of who actually fis the lifelong impact of hormone therapy, gender eassignment. Some people its what is perfect but some sadly finding out 4-5 years down the track it wasn't the answer to their issues. There is a LOT of money to be made by surgeons, psycholigist, drs and big pharma in the transitioning industry. Unfortunately that can bias their opinion
I love how you detransiton, but your voice is ruined, same with what happened to your chest, and you're not at all upset and still support the people who got you into this mess and these doctors. It seems self defeating however Dwelling on any of this stuff is after you get off the hrt and realize what you are. Do as I say not as I do. I just question where your logic is at.
@@raydean897 I would if I had ruined my voice, infact my voice didn't sound normal for several months after detransion from voice practice, I sounded not like a man which in my definition Is ruined or abnormal and should be told that way because most people sound like their gender. If she voice trained I think she could do it, she's already trying to fix her chest but that's not really possible after a double mastectomy because it will never work the same. I total feel her.
@@Lemonadebro relating to her gives you the right to be rude to her in her comments? i also relate to her, but im not going to say cruel things in her comments bc ~i~ feel she must present/sound a particular way. there are plenty of women who sound like her naturally.
@@Lemonadebro "you ruined your body" is obviously a hurtful thing to say to someone. i have a hard time believing a grown ass man cant see how hurtful commenting something like that is.
I appreciate your perspective, and although I'm not detrans it feels like a breath of fresh air. Thank you for giving hope and an amazing example of what people like you need!
thank you so much for watching 💗
I've been following you through your journey and yes, your transparency and vulnerability is very much needed. I always say there are so many angles to a topic, and people tend to focus on what they want to see and hear. But there is equal value in understanding all sides and perspectives. You sharing your journey gives others a chance to see a different perspective and have an understanding of what goes into transitioning and de-transitioning. You look amazing, and I really hope that you are doing well and are happy.
thank you! ❤ I appreciate the support.
@@aliaxismaildo you lift weights
@aliaxismail how much for feet pics
Glad you are back...
I just clicked back on one of your old videos and your voice is definitely softer! I've been following you since the beginning and I'm so glad to see you looking so happy and beautiful!
THE HAIR 👏🏼 We stopped T at the same exact time and I’m also 29! I’m genderless so I haven’t done laser (want to) or breast reconstruction (don’t think I ever will also I don’t have enough fat). Mistaken for a gay man mostly or a mtf. Either way- what matters is I feel confident. I play up the male role some days still but that’s bc I am a bisexual butch underneath all this transition
You are doing and looking AMAZING Alia! Also would LOVE to read your book! Please continue to keep us posted :) huge supporter of yours :)
Im super happy for you and its so so sweet that that first doctor really took care of you and sorted things out with the insurance. Your chest looks super natural at least from what we can see, i thought to myself like huh i thought she had done a mastectomy but guess she detransitioned before doing it. Also your hair looks so beautiful truly ur curls look so hidrated and defined. Kudos to you, good luck with your journey!
So good to hear from you! I’m glad to hear you are doing well and your reconstruction process is underway. ❤
ALIAAAA I missed your wonderful presence and your videos
i dont plan on ever detransitioning but your story lets me know that if i ever decide to, its okay! thank you for being so open about your journey.
Been following you for many years happy to see you doing well and looking 🔥
i am so glad to hear you are doing well. 🙂
Thank you so much for sharing this
So nice to hear from you. Glad your doing well. And you're looking great.
You look so happy and at peace with yourself. Thank you for being a positive voice for those of us who have transitioned and then detransitioned. Many of us cannot be out. Much, much love.
I appreciate your honesty and transparency, i currently am 7 months into my De-transition and I couldn’t understand why after living my life as a female for 10 years I no longer identified as Trans and wanted to be male all over again. I’m much happier now and mentally stable and i can’t wait to complete my detransition. Seeing your page as well as a few others gave me soo much more comfort when in society detransitioners get heavily judged by the LGBT
I appreciate the statement that it doesn’t have to be all consuming. I’m personally just trying to live day by day and see how things evolve.
Have you mentioned previously anything about your hairline? It seems you weren’t too affected on testosterone? Got the good genetics! 😅. I know there is likely solutions, but the receding hairline is probably the thing that affects me the most.
I do have a little bit of a receding hairline but the hair is super short! I’ve noticed recently it’s been growing, but VERY little. I’m saving some money to try PRP soon 😊
@@aliaxismail awesome. I’ve only been off T for 6mo, so hoping it’ll just take time as well, haven’t found that many examples of hair regrowth. Thanks for the reply!
It's great to see you girl! You are stunning ❤
I think it would be very interesting and useful if you wrote that book! I'd certainly read it
You are beautiful. I hope you feel like your true self
Desculpa a pergunta, mas como você eliminou seus pelos do rosto definitivamente? Você ainda sofre com os pelos no rosto depois desse tempo?
Amei o seu cabelo😊
I am so happy for you habibti
Lemme tell u! Your hair is gorgeous
❤you are so beautiful. It is shocking that you had to go thru the journey that you went thru. ❤
Hi thanks for your video
I am really interested in your hair loss/removal journey.
not having any success with laser, still moustache and beard after about 8 sessions.
heavy shadow the day after shaving
LOVE to hear more detail how many sessions you had and what else you may have used
@@andreabolding5281 hi there! So I went for about 10-12 sessions. The spa I went to had a high quality laser and it was probably set pretty high. I did do some electrolysis maybe like 2-4 sessions at most on my chin. I do still have soft hair around those areas, so now I just wax.
Nothing about the after effects of terminating testosterone. I was on TRT for a while and it did nothing for me.
I wanna detransition too 😢 but I don’t know if I will ever look like a guy again. I’m tired of being lonely gay men don’t want to me and straight men are there to explore 😢😢
Duh that is what you get into when you do it. It’s the reality and the fact people don’t realize it is absurd. Many trans will be a secret but it’s on each individual
Sometimes we don’t think about those aspects of our identity within dating, we think oh hey I’m confident and enjoying this expression so dating will obviously be easier, but sadly that isn’t the case as much in our society. I definitely have felt this way but opposite in a lot of moments. I felt like maybe a relationship with a woman wouldn’t have long term commitment, but that’s just my experience. It doesn’t happen to everyone and there’s someone out there for each person. You have to make a decision based on what you want though, not others perception of you.
I'm a Conservative Christian and many assume my intentions as soon as I say that, but just know that you're a human being and I love you as a person. Unfortunately, not enough strangers share a positive message to each other, so I'll happily fill the role. Honestly, I'd recommend going to another country (like Japan for example) and volunteer at a matcha farm or any farm for that matter. I was absolutely lost with my life last year and impulsively booked a trip to Japan for 3 months and volunteered at a matcha farm who gave me free accomodation and food in exchange for fun volunteer work. I really think that just escaping for a bit to somewhere else helped me find myself and I'd encourage you the same. Also, watch the stories of DT and listen to former MTF. I'm certain that if a current FTM can look like a man, a former MTF could also look like a man. Love all of you.
You look very pretty ☺️ Your voice is okay, go check Lauren Bacall, she was a great movie star and sounded deeper than you. Or Kathleen Turner!!
They are men.
I don't agree with Medicaid paying for anything but hey use it if you can why not :D. Dropping in the 65k range for my SRS on July 9th its paid in full surgery 39,800 and12,000 for 2 days in hospital then 2 months lost wages while on FMLA. Private employer PPO Cigna is dog chit insurance they deny everything trans / gender related blows. Thanks for sharing, for me there is no going back. Wish you well! Avita
Each to their own, but I’m so happy that it’s covered for her .
Is your orientation still queer or is it straight or bi?
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My cat is named juice ahhhhh
Do you lift weights?
Make more shorts
Do speak arabic
No I do not, but can understand very little.
You look pretty as a girl. I’m glad you got off that stuff.
This is why u don’t transition just anyone
the million dollar tuestion indeed.
Unfortunately the psychologists and gender clinics are just rubber stamping anyone that has dysphoria.
Transitioning isnt the only solution or appropriate solution in every case.
Needs to be a review of who actually fis the lifelong impact of hormone therapy, gender eassignment.
Some people its what is perfect but some sadly finding out 4-5 years down the track it wasn't the answer to their issues.
There is a LOT of money to be made by surgeons, psycholigist, drs and big pharma in the transitioning industry.
Unfortunately that can bias their opinion
اللهم آنصر إخواننا في فلسطين. حرة فلسطين 🇵🇸
I love how you detransiton, but your voice is ruined, same with what happened to your chest, and you're not at all upset and still support the people who got you into this mess and these doctors. It seems self defeating however Dwelling on any of this stuff is after you get off the hrt and realize what you are. Do as I say not as I do. I just question where your logic is at.
why would you say that to someone? do you ~want~ her to feel insecure about her voice? the lack of respect is astounding
@@raydean897 I would if I had ruined my voice, infact my voice didn't sound normal for several months after detransion from voice practice, I sounded not like a man which in my definition Is ruined or abnormal and should be told that way because most people sound like their gender. If she voice trained I think she could do it, she's already trying to fix her chest but that's not really possible after a double mastectomy because it will never work the same. I total feel her.
@@raydean897 lack of respect, whatever man, if you think me being able to realate Is disrespect I guess I'm disrespectful.
@@Lemonadebro relating to her gives you the right to be rude to her in her comments? i also relate to her, but im not going to say cruel things in her comments bc ~i~ feel she must present/sound a particular way. there are plenty of women who sound like her naturally.
@@Lemonadebro "you ruined your body" is obviously a hurtful thing to say to someone. i have a hard time believing a grown ass man cant see how hurtful commenting something like that is.