Black Sheep - Oscars 2019 Short Documentary Nominee

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  • Опубліковано 25 жов 2018
  • Everything changed for Cornelius Walker on 27 November 2000 when Damilola Taylor was killed. Damilola was 11, the same age as Cornelius. He lived five minutes away. He had the same skin colour. Cornelius’s mother, scared for her son’s safety, moved their family out of London. Cornelius suddenly found himself living on a white estate run by racists. But rather than fight them, Cornelius decided to become more like the people who hated him. They became his family and kept him safe. And in return, Cornelius became submerged in a culture of violence and hatred. But as the violence and racism against other black people continued, Cornelius struggled to marry his real identity with the one he had acquired.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 658

  • @theGuardian
    @theGuardian  5 років тому +231

    Black Sheep has just been nominated for an Oscar! True story ► www.theguardian.com/film/2019/jan/22/black-sheep-guardian-film-nominated-for-best-short-documentary-oscar

    • @JohnMoseley
      @JohnMoseley 5 років тому +6

      Congratulations! Well deserved, it seems to me.

    • @BeefBronson
      @BeefBronson 5 років тому +2

      Definitely deserved. Poignant and beautiful in all the right ways.

    • @faebalina7786
      @faebalina7786 5 років тому +6

      There are so many working class estates and towns in England where this is still happening.

    • @christopherlenz1927
      @christopherlenz1927 5 років тому +2

      Congratulations! Stunning and deeply moving film. Well deserves an Oscar !

    • @terrylovesenegal
      @terrylovesenegal 5 років тому

      Unfortunately I simply could not watch, racism scares and repulses me, it makes me ill.

  • @banana8hannah650
    @banana8hannah650 5 років тому +470

    It's someone's life story and people are actually getting mad in the comment section. Grow up

    • @jordanloux3883
      @jordanloux3883 5 років тому +4

      Yes, but the Guardian is not telling HIS story the way THEY want it to be told.

    • @eprahs1
      @eprahs1 5 років тому +20

      It's called WHITE FRAGILITY

    • @eprahs1
      @eprahs1 5 років тому +5

      @@jordanloux3883 you work there. Do you know him personally???

    • @kierah6087
      @kierah6087 5 років тому +2

      @@jordanloux3883 SMH if it is HIS story then why does he need to tell it the way THEY want it to be told?!!?

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Kiera H frr

  • @ricflomusic
    @ricflomusic 5 років тому +675

    How do I see more Black British film like this? I’m fed up with just seeing London centric hood stories, theirs more stories to tell for the Black British experience.

    • @ricflomusic
      @ricflomusic 5 років тому +35

      For the person that told me "So have a Google, see what the Black British population is outside of London." Thank you because I did. Black people are 1.8million, 3.3% of the total UK population. Outside of London thats about 864,890, of that 245,556 in major cities leaving 619,334 outside of that.
      Either way you want to see it, I still find it perfectly valid to hear more stories of the Black British experience outside of the usual London story.

    • @VoiceOfReason579
      @VoiceOfReason579 5 років тому +7

      Then tell 'em, bro... We're listening

    • @crazycrackinchick
      @crazycrackinchick 5 років тому +8

      Seyi Rhodes is a black British reporter, while his segments aren’t about London per-sey, he does explore a lot of different cultures around the world

    • @ricflomusic
      @ricflomusic 5 років тому +6

      ​@@crazycrackinchick Thank you, I will look into him

    • @oknovokght
      @oknovokght 5 років тому +7

      Have a search for: John Akomfrah, Stuart Hall, The Black Audio Film Collective, Smoking Dogs Films, The Otolith Group.

  • @shadiyousefian
    @shadiyousefian 5 років тому +378

    What a sad story. I'm sorry he had to go through this :( And two thumbs up to the Guardian for this amazing, well made film.

    • @planetdustbowl4825
      @planetdustbowl4825 5 років тому +3

      sad for the kid who got his head kicked in for no reason, but im glad he was accepted by the chav gang, very moving.

    • @jpj9589
      @jpj9589 5 років тому +2

      Who killed the kid in the beginning, white supremacists or black people? So the guy attacked another kid for no reason and that's different? I like the story but it's one sided and there are trillions of similar stories with all kinds of "races", religions and other groups so I wouldn't use this to define my political standpoints.
      However, moving and well told.

  • @faebalina7786
    @faebalina7786 5 років тому +302

    If you feel triggered,offended or slightly attacked by this short documentary than you need to ask yourself why!

    • @sackmajik
      @sackmajik 5 років тому +37

      @stephen Krik Racism is a social construct and the easiest way to define it is as a power dynamic. So no, a black person cannot be racist in this part of the world. They can definitely discriminate or be prejudiced but we need to understand words before using them.

    • @JB-le9cd
      @JB-le9cd 5 років тому +2

      @@sackmajik I agree but think black people in the UK who say offensive things about other BAME people, different to themselves are also keeping a socially constructive narrative alive which negatively effects those people. If you look at Gavanta's Power Cube conceptual framework this could be described as hidden power or invisible power depending on the context.

    • @solecurious1448
      @solecurious1448 5 років тому

      Amen to that 🙏

    • @PeteS_1994
      @PeteS_1994 5 років тому +1

      stephen Krik No

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому +1

      sack majik wow

  • @Bigmama415
    @Bigmama415 5 років тому +127

    You want to be like them , But in reality their anger stems from wanting to be you🤦🏽‍♀️

  • @fanninana
    @fanninana 5 років тому +377

    I could feel his pain. Its sad that he had to change himself. This reminds me of a conversation I had with a friend about how africans move abroad. And the main reason for leaving our african countries is for oppertunity, better jobs, better life. And I get that, but most times we dont realize the mental hurt we'll get when we move to these predominantly white countries. You end up questioning yourself, because white people can't understand who you are or 'what' you are as a black person. which is really sad to think about. No black child should have to go through this anywhere. Come on white people, when are y'all gonna stop the hate and realize we are people too.

    • @marcushudson6528
      @marcushudson6528 5 років тому +18

      Dissirama L it would be good to see our own care more about “us”

    • @planetdustbowl4825
      @planetdustbowl4825 5 років тому +23

      "Come on white people, when are y'all gonna stop the hate and realize we are people too." Growing up in south london I saw plenty of racism from all sides, plenty of whites getting beaten down for the colour of their skin. Most white people arent racist but its easier to believe they are and judge everybody by the colour of their skin, something you would claim to be against, yet you have done exactly that here. The you end up with the guy above who take it one step further. Is it any surprise that racism persists?

    • @SARUJAN5
      @SARUJAN5 5 років тому

      Sounds like my childhood..

    • @minervasucicorbegoso2097
      @minervasucicorbegoso2097 5 років тому +4

      @@planetdustbowl4825 Exactly, it's always the other guys' fault. Ugh.

    • @dirkbogarde44
      @dirkbogarde44 5 років тому +1

      You don't have to move here. Seriously. Don't.

  • @mitsiejc1077
    @mitsiejc1077 5 років тому +112

    Being Black is hard, but when we stand together and prosper it's worth the reward.

    • @dragisakrgovic582
      @dragisakrgovic582 3 роки тому +1

      I wish some of you 'black people' were there for young Damilola Taylor when he was brutally murdered by two teenage BLACK kids.

    • @cruxmind
      @cruxmind 3 роки тому +2

      @@dragisakrgovic582 I wish you would shut up.

    • @artofficial2010
      @artofficial2010 3 роки тому +3

      @@dragisakrgovic582 👀. 👀. 😂. 🧾🧾🧾 🤦🏿‍♂️
      I wish you were there to help..with all your wisdom.

    • @bossman7828
      @bossman7828 3 роки тому

      @@dragisakrgovic582 I wasn’t born yet

    • @RyomenAyeni225
      @RyomenAyeni225 2 роки тому

      @@cruxmind thanks

  • @liamio7152
    @liamio7152 5 років тому +211

    I'm sorry for all the things that happened to you Cornelius.
    To anyone who watches this and feels hatred or anything other than sorrow, i also feel sorry for you.

    • @planetdustbowl4825
      @planetdustbowl4825 5 років тому +6

      I feel sad for the poor kid who was assaulted so he could 'fit in' and feel better

    • @jordanloux3883
      @jordanloux3883 5 років тому +15

      @@planetdustbowl4825 That's some nice deflecting you have going there.

    • @planetdustbowl4825
      @planetdustbowl4825 5 років тому +2

      @@jordanloux3883 I dont see any deflecting, just calling it as I see it. We cant all be bleeding hearts.

    • @samnass
      @samnass 5 років тому +8

      @@planetdustbowl4825
      "We can't all be bleeding hearts."
      then why you feel sad for the poor kid who was assaulted?

    • @planetdustbowl4825
      @planetdustbowl4825 5 років тому

      @@samnass because he was an actual victim, not some emo fuckboy playing at being a thug.

  • @dia.6213
    @dia.6213 5 років тому +96

    This man's honesty is very brave and reveals perfectly the details ( and the devil is in the detail ) of living in a racist society. I felt anxious and disturbed watching it.

    • @YahkiYah_Yisrael
      @YahkiYah_Yisrael 5 років тому +1

      You are absolutely right!!! It was hard for me to watch as it made me feel the same way.

  • @desean3402
    @desean3402 5 років тому +92

    I’m shocked at how callous people are. Why can’t we just understand each other? Show a little empathy. It doesn’t make me weak to understand your perspective and doesn’t make you weak to understand mine.

    • @desean3402
      @desean3402 5 років тому

      Catostrophic21 I’ve never heard of them. Link me up

    • @chuckc7815
      @chuckc7815 5 років тому +4

      Because the elite rulers of this world have indoctrinated the sheep to react with violence, don't look for it to get better, it's gonna get worse. Social indoctrination is something that's been used on people since tv

    • @inkoalawetrust
      @inkoalawetrust 5 років тому

      @@chuckc7815 And let me guess, Israel has something to do with this ? If not then is it Islam instead ?

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Tuco you speaking facts

  • @benign2859
    @benign2859 5 років тому +198

    Goddamn. Beautiful documentary, well directed. It captivated so much from beginning to end. His story is just one of the other thousands and thousands of black teenagers in the UK. Hope they see the light earlier and not only that but for society to also cooperate.

    • @JB-le9cd
      @JB-le9cd 5 років тому +3

      We really do need to change but change so far has been painfully slow. We need to look at our education system and teach about empathy and racism while also tackling structural violence. We need to admit our past and how that effects neo colonialism today to then really tackle it.

    • @miminotbovered2857
      @miminotbovered2857 5 років тому

      @@JB-le9cd The reason why England is soo slow to change is because it still lives in denial. Simply making it illegal for people to voice their racist backward thoughts is not enough, more needs to be done in investigating why people are racist in the first place and that means taking a look at WHITE BRITISH PEOPLE!... No point taking minorities aside to talk and solve racism, we cant because we aren't the perpetrators of racism!!!!

    • @msconstruded
      @msconstruded 5 років тому

      Its the world.

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      THANOS oof

  • @jackdavidson11
    @jackdavidson11 5 років тому +156

    I'm glad I clicked on this, such a great video!

  • @immanuelharice7086
    @immanuelharice7086 5 років тому +53

    This reminds me of Moonlight. Lighting that enhances is black skin and classical music in the background.

    • @maboclark5797
      @maboclark5797 5 років тому +2

      That was the same thing I was thinking. Especially when Cornelius goes to wash his face after seeing how his face looked after the fight. That was the same thing Chiron did after Kevin and the bullies beat him up.

    • @Truth2power5848
      @Truth2power5848 5 років тому

      Black people are children of the sun bun the moon & they demoons

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому +2

      Flo Otus what...?

  • @kayayy
    @kayayy 5 років тому +46

    I'd like to hear the rest of his story and how he got to this point in his life.. Bless him man ♥

  • @ilove2929
    @ilove2929 5 років тому +121

    This story telling (technique) is so sick ❤😍👏

  • @dexternyikayaramba7498
    @dexternyikayaramba7498 5 років тому +22

    You will never understand this experience unless you're black, being a minority or being discriminated outcasted for whatever reason can help you understand. If you dont like to talk about racism it's because you dont care it's not happening to you and your friends so why should you care right

  • @mazzoanV2
    @mazzoanV2 5 років тому +80

    That's the thing with us Nigerians we're so keen and anxious to get away from people who look like us we sleepwalk into cannibal factories like this.

  • @flowerchild7250
    @flowerchild7250 5 років тому +26

    I’m black and will say that this started really good but towards the end it gets bizarre. Like wtf. He’s is/was deep in the sunken place.

  • @sarafrost3578
    @sarafrost3578 5 років тому +29

    It’s so sad, the need for the kids to fit in and they will do anything to achieve that. Kids are so unbelievably cruel with taunting and offensive racist comments . Also the strained father son relationship negatively shaped his behaviour. This was such a powerful documentary and brutally honest account from him. He is so articulate and bright, I hope he has the opportunity to change and get a better life for himself.

  • @chatshd
    @chatshd 5 років тому +51

    There is such desperation in his story, desperation to survive, to be accepted, to be loved just like any other human being. It can only come when a person is pushed all the way to the edge. He has had to fight for the basic right to have a regular life and to achieve that he hangs his head in shame and exclaims loudly that I became best mates with racists.

  • @AJo-wd2ni
    @AJo-wd2ni 5 років тому +35

    "I just wanted my dad to love me." - so many layers of trauma to this story, and to the stories of so many others fueled by racism, the societal refusal to let boys be sad, the conflation of human emotions with weakness- great doc.

  • @TabethaAurochs
    @TabethaAurochs 5 років тому +16

    Thank you to everyone involved in making this happen. I will share it with as many other people as possible; there's so many conversations we're not having that need to be had.

  • @goratanemaorani5290
    @goratanemaorani5290 5 років тому +79

    He is so fine.

  • @hughiedavies6069
    @hughiedavies6069 5 років тому +45

    It's a shame that he needed to do what he did to fit in , but I appreciate his honesty and understand why he felt he had to do those things. It's just a sad reflection on our society.

  • @littlewriter2808
    @littlewriter2808 5 років тому +8

    For this man to open himself up and be honest about everything that happened to him, what he did as well... is just in a way beautiful to see. He might have done some things wrong when he was younger, but he is grown up enough to admit that, which most people do not have the courage to do. That's something that is worthy of respect. This was so beautifully made and I am glad that I got to hear and see his story. Thank you very much

  • @KoreSusie
    @KoreSusie 5 років тому +63

    Did he hurt you?
    Every black man in the UK: YES, BUT IT'S COOL!

  • @danielpauldixon
    @danielpauldixon 5 років тому +20

    This was painful to watch, but thank you for sharing your story. I think we all do things we never think we would to feel loved.

  • @VanessaKanbi
    @VanessaKanbi 5 років тому +2

    this reveals so much about so many topics which are rarely discussed. thank you for being so open Cornelius

  • @rugbyfan2128
    @rugbyfan2128 5 років тому +10

    This is really. Really.. this is so relatable. Growing up in Ottawa, Ontario my experience was so similar. Thank you for sharing this story.

  • @hatfar1
    @hatfar1 5 років тому +5

    When he said he got blue contacts I had to scream. NO! It was like something out of that Toni Morrison book "The Bluest Eye."

  • @BLULUEL
    @BLULUEL 5 років тому +23

    And this just proves once again that just bc you have black friends that doesn´t mean you´re not racist!!

  • @estadje
    @estadje 5 років тому +10

    Yup sounds like my childhood in 80s/90s rural Wales/England.

  •  5 років тому +57

    Great story and very well produced film about Cornelius. I was awaiting the reason
    behind the liberation of his "MIND" to isolate himself from the turbulent group which
    he had befriended. What aided Cornelius to break away in search of his REAL IDENTITY ?

    • @xzclaire
      @xzclaire 5 років тому +13

      yeah I'm interested in what made him dissociate from that group

    • @MsAppassionata
      @MsAppassionata 5 років тому

      Aquarian Aged7 Me too.

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Aquarian Aged7 True

  • @margaretdevine1650
    @margaretdevine1650 5 років тому +17

    Poor working class areas and not well educated people .It's a horrible cycle were the kids learn from parents and they learn this vulgarity from there parents and so on it's sad to see and still gos on in small towns .but this story was deep and thank him for sharing this .this should be played in schools I think this would make kids think .

    • @margaretdevine1650
      @margaretdevine1650 5 років тому +2

      @@kipwonder2233 your so right in that situation it is the case . I Totally agree with u there

  • @ndiekwere6027
    @ndiekwere6027 5 років тому +12

    Am crying. This hurts my soul.

  • @bassekaman8315
    @bassekaman8315 5 років тому +70

    brilliant, cant personally relate to a lot of this. my mum moved us out of london around the same time and faced a lot of similar issues as this man growing up in white areas of britain

    • @isobel64
      @isobel64 5 років тому +2

      cant or can?

    • @chimcham6762
      @chimcham6762 5 років тому +1

      isobel64 Can, I think they misspelled.

  • @LetsDoBetterNow
    @LetsDoBetterNow 5 років тому +36

    Such a sad story.

    • @thehoneyeffect
      @thehoneyeffect 5 років тому +2

      Let's Do Better Now such a common story.

  • @Ruloathesome
    @Ruloathesome 5 років тому +77

    I hope there will come a time when racism is just a pigment of the imagination. A good short film.

    • @jordanloux3883
      @jordanloux3883 5 років тому +3

      Both actually work

    • @wetdewlap8741
      @wetdewlap8741 5 років тому +2

      Ditch capitalism, and racism will fall.

    • @kimedison6677
      @kimedison6677 5 років тому +3

      Love your turn of phrase, I also appreciate and agree with your sentiment.

    • @Ruloathesome
      @Ruloathesome 5 років тому

      @@kimedison6677 cheers Kim

    • @91toinfinity
      @91toinfinity 5 років тому

      @@wetdewlap8741 no it won't. Unfortunately there always has been and will be a hierarchy between humans.

  • @tylonkosi861
    @tylonkosi861 5 років тому +14

    Sad how he literally changed himself to fit in 😔😔😔😔

  • @babyboiyesha7757
    @babyboiyesha7757 5 років тому +7

    Trying to see more of this representation because it is very real. I had to pause quite some time because of how impactful the truth is and especially having very similar experiences. 🙏🏽 this director 👌🏽

  • @maroonhorizon1693
    @maroonhorizon1693 5 років тому +8

    As someone who has faced domestic violence the events in the video are very triggering. I know this man is still dealing with the pain as I am

  • @gemmanana2414
    @gemmanana2414 5 років тому +13

    Props to the sound guy in this, the sounds were beautiful and accentuated the video.

  • @ChannetteCarleoTV
    @ChannetteCarleoTV 5 років тому +10

    Such an amazing common and touching story. Thank you for sharing and good luck

  • @emmathornton4711
    @emmathornton4711 5 років тому +8

    Excellent documentary and direction, showing the complexities of growing up, anger and racism and how some young people struggle with identity and belonging ... Im going to to use as a training resource for people wanting to work with young people and also young people to encourage debate and discussion.

  • @hils1015
    @hils1015 5 років тому +4

    Every time he sighs I feel his pain and sadness when remembering these awful things that happened to him and that he participated in. I'm glad he spoke about it.

  • @AbujaYummyMummy
    @AbujaYummyMummy 5 років тому +62

    i feel like this ended abruptly, like how did he grow up and what he doing now?

    • @Victoria-bo9xk
      @Victoria-bo9xk 5 років тому +2

      Prolly traumatized

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Victoria xdd

    • @arifmeighan3162
      @arifmeighan3162 4 роки тому +6

      Met him at a bounce cinema club, He's doing okay but the surprising thing is he is still friends with all of the people that abused and were racist towards him. Its a weird experience talking about it to him and it was interesting to see how he had changed from the depiction of him in the film.

    • @retr0170
      @retr0170 4 роки тому +5

      Arif Meighan I had a college trip to a cinema where we watched this and saw and had a q&a with him
      He said the ending was deliberate since he’s making a part two

    • @giselle283
      @giselle283 3 роки тому

      @@retr0170 do you know if there’s a part 2 yet?

  • @ChristinaAaliyah
    @ChristinaAaliyah 5 років тому +5

    24:42 "I wanted love. I wanted to feel love. So I just made friends with monsters ... " wow! I've literally been so moved by this film. I've had a similar experience growing up in the North East and never thought I could have had my thoughts and feelings expressed any better than it has been in this film
    Massive well done and thank you to Cornelius and The Guardian.

  • @cuffa09
    @cuffa09 5 років тому +10

    Wow...such a well made short doc.

  • @nocountry4oldfreeman
    @nocountry4oldfreeman Рік тому +1

    I used to be one of those that thought the Oscars should cut the shorts from their presentation. But seeing stuff like this, I'm so glad they haven't. What a (short) picture!

  • @KagisoMako
    @KagisoMako 5 років тому +5

    The cinematography is DOPE

  • @jordiblu2131
    @jordiblu2131 5 років тому +14

    This was extremely hard for me to watch but told perfectly because this was and no doubt still is Britain for a lot of young black people living outside of London

  • @christianek.963
    @christianek.963 3 роки тому

    Very interesting documentary! And I love how it was directed, it gives me a 'Moonlight' vibe with the background music!!

  • @KingofgraceSARA
    @KingofgraceSARA 5 років тому +8

    Just was in Berlin. I saw one black couple in two weeks, the rest were with white counterparts.
    My bf and I were the only other black couple.
    This is also a response to racism and wanting to fit in- washing away your "blackness" and integrating for reasons beneath love.

  • @gieytherealest2017
    @gieytherealest2017 5 років тому +2

    Be Happy Of who You are & Don't let Anything Change You.
    Am A Black Man Born In Kenya,Nairobi and am So Happy Of Who i am

  • @faym3606
    @faym3606 5 років тому +2

    An amazing touching story, my heart hurts, as I feel his pain, beautifully told, this deserves an award.

  • @johnneils9084
    @johnneils9084 5 років тому +4

    I have never wanted to reach through a screen and hug someone so badly!!!

  • @joserochapinto500
    @joserochapinto500 5 років тому +1

    Powerfull. Thank you for sharing!

  • @Kaykay-jh1zu
    @Kaykay-jh1zu 5 років тому +7

    Awwwww poor baby 😭😭😭 I just wanna hug him ❤❤

  • @user-mq3ts7lr9l
    @user-mq3ts7lr9l 5 років тому +13

    Like having church friends when you're gay.

  • @paledolary
    @paledolary 5 років тому +1

    Really touching story and such a great documentary. Good look at the Oscars! Greetings from Poland

  • @Auramology
    @Auramology 5 років тому +1

    This is powerful. Our story is being told, shared, remembered. Rewriting history with what really happened. Thank you and keep them coming!

  • @isabulose
    @isabulose 5 років тому +17

    For all those who need some clarity:
    Your skin can revert after you've stopped using bleaching products. He addressed his dad not being able to get work because he was black, hence his anger and therefore abuse. As time goes on obviously population in areas change, as much as the racial make up was once white it changed because of other families looking for better too.
    Just listen to the story a few times before you denounce someone's story about THEIR OWN LIFE.
    And if you're looking for stories about white people and their accounts of their own lives, open the TV, go onto Netflix etc...

  • @janeharris9019
    @janeharris9019 2 роки тому

    How very moving and an honest account of how most people if not young feel
    Thank you for sharing and I hope you have become successful and found your peace - I would love to hear how you are now

  • @sugaz2099
    @sugaz2099 5 років тому +2

    a very sad story. I'm really sorry you had to go trough this! It's actualy heartbreaking😥

  • @dannsherstone1037
    @dannsherstone1037 4 роки тому +3

    I think Cornelius is a very courageous young man. I hope that he is doing well now.

  • @adamlucy1993
    @adamlucy1993 5 років тому +18

    A stunning and poignant documentary, well done for telling this story.

  • @fiorarosa1090
    @fiorarosa1090 5 років тому +14

    I see that u regret about what you did. And when a man regret - he earn a chance to redeem his life. Cornelius was put in a flawed world and he flawed himself so he can survive. That's what I see.

  • @_-_julie_-_7834
    @_-_julie_-_7834 5 років тому

    Such an amazing video, just wish they'd turn up the volume on the monolauge

  • @_-_julie_-_7834
    @_-_julie_-_7834 5 років тому +30

    I like that guy, I just wanna give him a hug and give him a kiss on his forehead
    -my mom

    • @_-_julie_-_7834
      @_-_julie_-_7834 5 років тому +13

      She meant cause he seemed so sincere and told his story even though he was ashamed of what he did to spread awereness.

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Julie Stenberg Andersen aw :)

  • @ayebareofgod
    @ayebareofgod 5 років тому +11

    Just wanted to feel loved... So yeah... Just became friends with monsters.

  • @NewLeafProgramme
    @NewLeafProgramme 5 років тому +11

    Superb Film. Bless him x

  • @c7walker7
    @c7walker7 5 років тому +13

    😭😭😭. Great job 👏🏽👏🏾👏🏿

  • @igorknown8608
    @igorknown8608 5 років тому

    thank you for this video 💕

  • @davidcrowley4904
    @davidcrowley4904 5 років тому +2

    Gripping. Growing up in Essex it’s not changed really. Keep up the good work. Love it.

  • @LiveLoveSour
    @LiveLoveSour 5 років тому

    Really well done. Touching story

  • @angeleyes3396
    @angeleyes3396 5 років тому +9

    The pathology that this film depicts is sadly all too real.

  • @safurasalam
    @safurasalam 5 років тому +17

    The fear of physical violence often drives ppl to subject their kids to a damaging type of psychological violence in exchange for the presumption of physical safety. As a parent it often feels like a no win situation. Do I try to save them from death knowing that they may very well be murdered spiritually, or do I protect their spirit knowing that they might be harmed?

    • @XQN-R
      @XQN-R 5 років тому +3

      Safura Salam it’s better to protect the spirit as that’s what keeps u going. Once u murder the spirit u are truly weak. That why u have to protect the mind. Murdering the mind stop the journey to the next stage of being. People with mental health can tell u when the mind is weak the body feels so weak almost in a death like state. Cause they cannot control the mind.

    • @jesusisthetruth4497
      @jesusisthetruth4497 5 років тому

      Safura Salam o wow

  • @mariagoranova7923
    @mariagoranova7923 3 роки тому

    Very well done! Hearth-breaking and thought-provoking.

  • @themarclevy
    @themarclevy 5 років тому +1

    Amazing! Cornelius, kudos to you for telling your story. I hope you have found healing.

  • @amapparatistkwabena
    @amapparatistkwabena 5 років тому +1

    Brilliant! Kudos to all who made this beautiful film. Well-deserved nomination, AND win! Let's keep our fingers crossed. :)

  • @equinox95
    @equinox95 5 років тому +8

    Im glad i grew up in SOUTH LONDON ✊🏿🇯🇲.

  • @jehmemaedwards
    @jehmemaedwards 5 років тому +4

    I’m so sorry this man had to experience this. He seems such a grounded intelligent man. I hope this process helped him to heal even just a little bit, to put his story out there and show he wasn’t beaten by racist people

  • @_roseanevieira
    @_roseanevieira 5 років тому +1

    Great doc ⭐

  • @saskiademoor8400
    @saskiademoor8400 5 років тому

    this a jewel of a docu. brilliant. touches me deeply and scares me to bits. When do we heal from all this suffering?

  • @jobione3620
    @jobione3620 5 років тому +3

    An 11 year old child has to make decisions to exist in an environment of survival and no safe place to fall or fail, Cornelius I’m sorry you had to make those choices you were failed by society and I feel shame & admire you for seeing your own faults and owning them, I hope you are in a better place.

  • @desean3402
    @desean3402 5 років тому +4

    This is specifically why I raise my son to be strong. Strengthen your body, mind, and spirit so no one can harm you. You’d be a fool to think people in this world won’t try to harm you and destroy you at every turn.

    • @TightLoli
      @TightLoli 5 років тому +1

      Remember the part of the video where he described how his father was? Remember the part of the video where he said he wanted to be strong too? Remember the part of the video where he couldn't confide in his father because of the need to live up to this instilled "strength" so he couldn't seek help?
      I agree with your later statement but strength is a funny concept when you've got nothing left to prove.

    • @desean3402
      @desean3402 5 років тому +3

      Nicholas Siewert strength isn’t all about physical. It’s about being confident and comfortable in who you are so nothing shakes you. At least that’s how I teach my son

    • @rosammajoseph755
      @rosammajoseph755 5 років тому

      @@desean3402 '''

  • @seventeenjunhao
    @seventeenjunhao 5 років тому +2

    wow this was really heartbreaking

  • @Myegoisdead
    @Myegoisdead 5 років тому +4

    this is tooooo deep, toooo relatable as a black kid growing up. its like these things are forced upon us.

  • @lilydablasian779
    @lilydablasian779 5 років тому +4

    It’s broke My Heart ..

  • @calebvilla246
    @calebvilla246 5 років тому +1

    the cinematography here is some of the best I've seen all year

  • @SA-xc9hz
    @SA-xc9hz 5 років тому +1

    Wow what an interesting doc. There's so much trauma in this and I don't think Cornelius has truly healed from his experience. I'm glad he shared his story (it must be really hard to expose yourself) and hope he finds some peace in life.

  • @jlewis122
    @jlewis122 5 років тому

    This is sad and it’s really hard to watch but it’s so honest that I can’t turn away.
    And it explains a lot.

  • @LifeisEnergy2
    @LifeisEnergy2 5 років тому +24

    I hope you break the cycle and love your children. Show them the love you wanted from your dad and you did not get. teach your children to be leaders not followers. You did not make friends with monsters you were just a follower of monsters... You have to know this, your dad did not get love from his father and he's doing the same thing to you. African fathers they are just providers they don't give love. Our culture was interrupted by colonies, from there on it's only been survival. I'm very sorry your parents did not give you the proper guidance so you wouldn't get involved with those people. But I think you should have shared it with your mother at least. ✌🌎🌏🌍💚

  • @dauntlesswarrior7565
    @dauntlesswarrior7565 5 років тому

    Powerful & humble, very moving. So sad he went through society's ill intentions of hate due to ignorance and fear of unknown. thank you for sharing your story! Congratulations on the nomination!! 💖

  • @santanagonsalves6461
    @santanagonsalves6461 5 років тому

    Wow, that touched home.

  • @ericme4767
    @ericme4767 5 років тому +3

    POWERFUL FILM!

  • @ladyfightsoctopus8166
    @ladyfightsoctopus8166 5 років тому +5

    I couldn't finish the documentary the first time. I had to rewatch it again 😭

  • @arsxnavlt
    @arsxnavlt 2 роки тому +1

    This is an extremely difficult story to hear, but it's important to listen.

  • @sheruns8579
    @sheruns8579 5 років тому +4

    We need to set up a program for African immigrants in other countries to understand what it’s like growing up as the lesser minority. I believe our parents have only the best intentions and highest of hopes when they migrate but they don’t know what they do when they isolate us and raise us with people who knowingly or not adopt generational racism. It motivates a self identity crisis which takes years to undo. It seems like the trauma of never really fitting in still finds a way to manifest even as I get more comfortable with myself.

    • @Truth2power5848
      @Truth2power5848 5 років тому +1

      Mohola Chepkoech I fully understand as a Yoruba girl born in London grew up in Richmond twickenham & Hampton areas lots of racism NF on the walls I’m 31 now it’s quite deep to have always felt you don’t belong

    • @Truth2power5848
      @Truth2power5848 5 років тому

      I would love to set something like this up it’s so needed even to understand the systems in the country

    • @sheruns8579
      @sheruns8579 5 років тому

      Flo Otus thank you so much for feeling my pain