What it's like Living with DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER with AnnaLynne McCord

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  • @LivingWellAfterSchizophrenia
    @LivingWellAfterSchizophrenia  Рік тому +6

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    • @zen7309
      @zen7309 Рік тому

      There was a moment during the filming of excision... Idk really spooky stuff, be careful, cuz her personalities may split in half, but 'you', ur entire reality can unravel.

    • @anshepburn8530
      @anshepburn8530 Рік тому

      633

    • @NathanMorton-i2t
      @NathanMorton-i2t 11 місяців тому

      I have had schizophrenia affective disorder since 20 and just got diagnosed with dependent personality disorder with major depression

    • @NathanMorton-i2t
      @NathanMorton-i2t 11 місяців тому

      Also anxiety

  • @JV-eh3lh
    @JV-eh3lh 2 роки тому +531

    Imagine having DID and no money to do therapy, let alone do it 3 times a week. There should be more public and free, high-quality mental support

    • @fembot521
      @fembot521 2 роки тому +37

      ABSOLUTELY! Therapy is only available to really rich people. I make a good income but can’t afford therapy more than once a month. My therapy costs $230 for an hour session. You can’t get anything from therapy going once a month.

    • @a-girl-and-her-cat
      @a-girl-and-her-cat 2 роки тому +14

      I "only" have ADHD, and at 34 have been misdiagnosed and just brushed off my whole life. If only people knew what my day to day life was like at this point. I am not living, and if there was a torture made specifically for me, I think this would be it.

    • @annemorrissey7372
      @annemorrissey7372 2 роки тому +15

      We are experiencing ever- shrinking access to quality mental health services. EMDR, The therapy she describes, is very difficult to find in my area… And while I have been fortunate to connect with an excellent therapist for my DID treatment, I truly have compassion for the scores of people that are waiting for this life affirming, life-saving in many cases support. At 61 years old, I have found the me that I have known has been in there all along… Too scared to come out before this diagnosis and EMDR treatment.

    • @noddygirl
      @noddygirl 2 роки тому +16

      THIS!!! DID requires specialist care. 99% of counselors, psychiatrists that accept medicare/medicaid are NOT qualified to treat this. This leaves many unfortunate sufferers with little to no treatment options 😞

    • @rattlesthecrewmate
      @rattlesthecrewmate 2 роки тому +9

      Currently struggling to find affordable options, and I don’t even have insurance for the rest of 2022. This shit is hard 😢

  • @TowerJunkie
    @TowerJunkie 2 роки тому +338

    I have DID. I urge anyone to PLEASE find the right professionals to help process any aspects of this disorder. Though it can feel very affirming to hear another person talk about their experience, this disorder is VASTLY different for every single person. When I see a good interview I add it to my arsenal but I don’t always agree with some parts (there were many times during this interview in fact) but that doesn’t mean that either party is right or wrong. It’s just such a personal experience. It’s not just breath work / somatic experience / inner child work / EMDR / DBT … but maybe one of those or all of them. I just feel strongly about being cautious. People who have DID have undergone untold histories of horrific abuses and none of this should be taken in stride. To any others out there: you are so strong, you are here looking for connection and validation.. you have it! Be proud! You survived!

    • @Angelsdaydreams
      @Angelsdaydreams 2 роки тому +10

      Thank you for your caution and sharing your experience with us

    • @zackallain4849
      @zackallain4849 2 роки тому +9

      Survived? I'm barely surviving. I just lost a friend of 10 years over this disorder. Never felt more alone in my life

    • @a-girl-and-her-cat
      @a-girl-and-her-cat 2 роки тому +4

      @@zackallain4849 I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do for you. I have learned myself recently that hope is a luxury or privilege. I wish there was hope I could offer to you. I will pray that you can find peace somewhere soon. xo

    • @zackallain4849
      @zackallain4849 2 роки тому +6

      @@a-girl-and-her-cat thank you. Knowing there's people out there who will go out of their way to even just reply to a comment on UA-cam gives me hope. I met a friend on a lyric video. We've been talking for a month now. It's nice

    • @BlueMiaou
      @BlueMiaou Рік тому +1

      @@zackallain4849 Man, hope you're doing okay now, hope you found someone who sticks around

  • @2222ela
    @2222ela 3 роки тому +204

    I had no idea what DID was and lived with it and suffered until I finally started seeing a therapist and was diagnosed with Dissociative disorder at the age of 35. I always knew that something was very wrong with me but had no idea what exactly it was . I had very difficult childhood but blocked out a lot of things and could not put it all together until I learned about DID

    • @TheNewMailLady
      @TheNewMailLady 3 роки тому +11

      I’m so sorry. I can imagine how frightened you had to have felt until that diagnosis. ❤️

    • @rattlesthecrewmate
      @rattlesthecrewmate 2 роки тому +3

      It really does feel like putting pieces together or like they all start to come together once I’ve learned about DID!!! So much started to make sense that never did before. I’m glad you found healing on your journey ❤

    • @rosieleat6868
      @rosieleat6868 2 роки тому +8

      Similar here - got diagnosed at 38 - are 61 now and the happiest i have ever been xx

    • @kevinbissinger
      @kevinbissinger Рік тому +5

      There was nothing wrong with y'all, y'all did the right thing to survive your situation. Y'all did the right thing. There were other people were in your life who were the ones who were horribly wrong, and you all did what you had to do to survive. Have grace and compassion for yourselves.

  • @shannonnicollechannel5884
    @shannonnicollechannel5884 Рік тому +22

    I have been diagnosed with both schizophrenia and multiple personality disorder/DID since I was 19 years old. I am now 48 and just barely beginning to cope with these conditions. These abnormalities have ruined my life in so many ways, I am just now starting to get a foothold on what it feels like to lead a normal life. Life. Like many others suffering from mental disorders, I would go off of my meds every time I felt better and that only led me further down the rabbit hole of insanity. I feel very empathetic for the both of you as I can understand each illness intimately having been dealing with them for my entire life. Myself. Hats off to you both, and God bless you

  • @shannonnicollechannel5884
    @shannonnicollechannel5884 Рік тому +20

    DID caused me to be homeless and on the street.... Thank God I reached out and got help .. there is hope ... Don't let go of that

  • @karime6704
    @karime6704 Рік тому +28

    Each Time I hear from DID my soul hurts. As a society we have completely failed un proctecting minors from abusive adultos, who un some cases we're also abused.
    No child deserves to live in fear for their life, no mind deserves that level of stress to survive...
    I am not an english native speaker, I dont have enough words to say I am sorry for those horrorific experiences.., I respect you, you are amazing human beings and deserve a good quality life, healing and love.

  • @melodypanek448
    @melodypanek448 3 роки тому +66

    Lauren,
    Your interviewing techniques were warm and supportive and I appreciated your compassion towards AnnaLynn. You were terrific in that you didn't sensationalize her illness but treated her with respect. What a wonderful person you are! Thanks so much, Lauren!

  • @Adanishmagahat
    @Adanishmagahat Рік тому +12

    It took me 35 years to realize, what was different in me.
    It took me additional 4 years to go to the doctor.
    You explain it perfectly.
    Thank you. ❤️

  • @sourgummiez
    @sourgummiez 3 роки тому +56

    The brain is so damn amazing! It will do ANYTHING to preserve itself and survive. Truly incredible

  • @brittanywilcox7377
    @brittanywilcox7377 Рік тому +33

    I am diagnosed with DID/OSDD and this is the absolute BEST representation I have seen. I always become so bitter and resentful because I see so many people clearly faking it on platforms like TikTok and UA-cam. This is EXACTLY what it's like. It isn't "catching switches on camera" and wearing wigs when someone new is fronting. It's needing that external reaction from others to know you've changed. It's becoming a totally different person, not just a version of yourself.

    • @metaphoricallyspeaking45
      @metaphoricallyspeaking45 10 місяців тому +5

      100% true. I like WHY would you want this? It’s so hard and so devastating at times. Only less than 7 people know of my diagnosis. And I was diagnosed in 1994.

    • @ihaveseensuchthings
      @ihaveseensuchthings 5 місяців тому

      I’m watching this because I’ve long suspected my mother as having some form along the spectrum of DID/OSDD. And this particular video has been the most representative, only in the sense that if I were to ask my mother directly whether she felt she may have different alters or personalities, she would emphatically reject the idea. But I know absolutely that the question alone would feel so emotionally confronting-so frightening and exposing-that she would suddenly transform into a terrifying and rage filled person. That person is her protector, and not at all like her usual self. Later, she would wake up from a nap as though nothing at all had happened. She wouldn’t remember a thing, despite having said or done terrible things in “defense of herself” (despite the fact that there was never a need).

    • @brittanywilcox7377
      @brittanywilcox7377 5 місяців тому +2

      @@ihaveseensuchthings it's actually part of the diagnosis, being in denial about it. Even though I am formally diagnosed and I have had some experiences that drive it all home as fact, I still try to convince myself it's something else.
      I'm so sorry you and your mother are facing something so devastating and misunderstood. Make sure you protect yourself. It sounds like she is not dealt with her trauma and you do not need to be collateral damage to her mental health problems.

    • @ihaveseensuchthings
      @ihaveseensuchthings 5 місяців тому +1

      @@brittanywilcox7377 Thank you for your compassion, Brittany. Your words suggest someone who is well on the way to healing themselves-I hope that is true for you. 💗
      I’m 48 and my mother is 68, so it’s been a long time coming for us. In recent years, I’ve done quite a bit of healing integration myself and consider it a privilege simply to be a presence of love and groundedness for her. My mother’s shifts no longer trigger me. (I also have excellent boundaries and she has learned to honor them, if begrudgingly.) So often I just think about her littles and how present they were all my life. I want them to feel safe and seen. So I try to give her that.

    • @brittanywilcox7377
      @brittanywilcox7377 5 місяців тому +1

      @@ihaveseensuchthings thank you! I have been in trauma therapy for many years and I am in the most stable place I've ever been in my life. I am extremely happy. I love that you can be there for your mother and that you have such compassion towards her. My mother was my main abuser growing up and she told my older brother to abuse me as well. I try to have a relationship with her but it has to be on my terms and it is very hard.

  • @wired4933
    @wired4933 3 роки тому +42

    Thank you for making this video. AnnaLynne, I am completely with you. I'm 33 now and 5 years ago I was (to my surprise) diagnosed with DID, CPTSD and chronic insomnia. After that, also with FND and psychosis. All stemming from early and long lasting childhood abuse. As a public and known person having a mental condition like this and coming out with it publicly is so incredibly wonderful of you. The mental health community isn't heard enough. Thank you and many hugs from us to you

  • @mialouisem7596
    @mialouisem7596 Рік тому +5

    This inspired me to finally get the help I need. Amen

  • @cookie_dough_hangover
    @cookie_dough_hangover 3 роки тому +47

    I really can't imagine what people with DID are going through, especially knowing that it is caused by severe childhood trauma. It's so sad, yet enlightening, because I must admit that this the first time I actually understood what DID is. You are both so eloquent and intelligent, the interview was very informative and eye-opening. I wish you both all the best. 🙏

    • @Ohkeh640
      @Ohkeh640 Рік тому

      I have it and I’m depressed but thing is we don’t think about the trauma it’s blocked off.. I’m depressed because I wish I was normal like everyone else 😢😢😢😢

    • @metaphoricallyspeaking45
      @metaphoricallyspeaking45 10 місяців тому

      It is excruciating

  • @summer7529
    @summer7529 3 роки тому +43

    Lauren can you please bring more people with schizoaffective diagnosis and share some success stories and how to deal with the diagnosis and still keep on moving in life. How others do it. Please share . The more the better so we have more talk, conversation and see others and talk and share more

    • @tumbleweeduk7479
      @tumbleweeduk7479 8 місяців тому

      My friend got off 47 years Schizophrenia drugs and recovered his life with Keto diet and intermittent fasting plus 500 mg Niacin and 1800 NAC and Lithium OROTATE, Vit D3 with K2, Omega 3 etc.. Namaste 🙏

  • @vicecanguru7766
    @vicecanguru7766 Рік тому +9

    to all survivers of childhood abuse - having developed DID or not - be proud of yourselves!
    We are strong personalities/people, we survived... and just as AnnaLynne said - survival ist not equal to quality of life, that's what we have to learn and it's hard work to get there.

  • @markuscameron6958
    @markuscameron6958 Рік тому +7

    Thank you so much for this video, I have enjoyed a six year remission from DID. My first split was at six years old when I was molested. The trauma continued through-out my life until about seven years ago when I decided it was better to be alone. I went into treatment and my alters started coming to me one-by-one asking if I still needed them. I said no and one-by one they all re-integrated.

  • @crystalhearteddragon4197
    @crystalhearteddragon4197 3 роки тому +59

    I'm bawling. It's nice to have someone speak up about this in an open and honest way. Thank you.

  • @bluesky902
    @bluesky902 3 роки тому +34

    Thank you for this. DID is such a complex and confusing topic, which is all too often over dramatised. This felt like a frank and real conversation. Props to AnnaLynne for her explanations and manner.

  • @zenseed75
    @zenseed75 3 роки тому +35

    It is wonderful seeing people discuss mental health so openly. Def learned some things to help manage my MDD/GAD. Understand DID so much better now also. Thank you!!

  • @qryptid
    @qryptid Рік тому +36

    It's so interesting to hear from someone who's DID has manifested and affected their life so differently than myself and others I've known with the disorder. I certainly can't imagine what it's like to be able to do intense therapy 3-4 days a week and actually center your life around healing, and I had the privilege of being diagnosed and treated by a top specialist in DID for a short while. But could only afford once a week and even that was a strain financially.
    It's wonderful that she was able to access such help for herself but frustrating to hear her tout herself as an unheard success story in integration when of course she found success, she has physical, emotional, and financial safety and access to resources most of us in the US never will. Yes love is a huge part of healing but if you don't feel safe in your own home or haven't even gotten out of unsafe environments or your housing is threatened, you're not going to be able to replicate her experience in a million years and it feels cruel to tell people "just do soundbaths and take these meditations courses and spend hours and hours every day on just healing" when we have to work every moment to still be unable to afford said courses.

    • @AmethystWoman
      @AmethystWoman 8 місяців тому +2

      Or eat? Make ourselves bathe? Wash clothes. Change the bed. There are many degrees of depression esp when parts carry anxiety, depression etc. I have good insurance I am privileged enough to decide that I have to afford it, priority in life. Physically disabled tho added, well adds.

    • @curiouslyme524
      @curiouslyme524 6 місяців тому +5

      I agree. God bless her, but I don't think she's representative of the average DID. She doesn't mention any memory gaps when alters come out, which is a criteria for being diagnosed with DID. By the way, I do like the older term Multiple Personality Disorder because my alters & what they experienced is "not" me.

    • @lovejustifiesexistence
      @lovejustifiesexistence 2 місяці тому

      @@curiouslyme524I totally appreciate this. Super lucid and I also did not appreciate her defining it for everyone, while each person has their own experience and hers was clearly not the best representation of the condition that is multiple personality disorder. Maybe MPD and DID are two different things ad both exist? Like, you have MPD while she may have DID where you don’t switch alters but character, not personalities but identities... like, everybody has different roles in life which could be said to be identities as she explained in different situations, but not everybody has multiple personalities. I also experience my alter coconsciously as not myself and he is not me, because I am always myself. Thank you for sharing and making me realize the differences

    • @tiredko-hi-
      @tiredko-hi- Місяць тому

      ​@@curiouslyme524 The thing with calling it a personality disorder, is that it does not represent the fact that the entire identity is involved. Identity encompasses things like self image, preferences, personality, memories, etc. Anyways it's more than just the personality, it's like there's a completely different person with a different personality, not just a different personality change. Like I have multiple alters that are basically hurt kids that see themselves (so we also see them that way) as non-humanoid monsters, because their self-image and self-worth is that destroyed. And I also have alters that see themselves as the gender my body isn't, with varying degrees of disconnect with the body's gender. MPD makes it seem like I might just have a bubbly personality one day and an angry one the other, it doesn't even encompass one of the biggest issues, the dissociative amnesia.

  • @ellemarr7234
    @ellemarr7234 3 роки тому +23

    Thank you for holding space for this masterclass in mutual compassion, respect, love and so much more 💜

  • @shoonyah
    @shoonyah 2 роки тому +7

    What a beautiful conversation between two women healing in their journeys! ! Unconditional love is key to mental wellbeing.

  • @otpglobal
    @otpglobal Рік тому +15

    The wall sculpture behind Anna is pretty symbolic. It's like her "mirror selves" looking over her shoulder ... Anna is telling their story.

  • @dianeaishamonday9125
    @dianeaishamonday9125 3 роки тому +51

    She kinda looked familiar, and apparently she was on an episode of Lucifer! So glad she is working on healing from the childhood trauma that causes this disorder, and I hope she continues to prosper in the future!

    • @Blackcomanche
      @Blackcomanche 3 роки тому +6

      Yes, she played a character on the Lucifer pilot!

    • @jessicawagner2326
      @jessicawagner2326 2 роки тому +3

      Is she in another show as well? She looks super familiar. I feel like her name on a show was Naomi, but I really can’t remember the show!

    • @gothboithick
      @gothboithick 2 роки тому +4

      @@jessicawagner2326 the show was called “90210” i believe, it was on the CW

  • @LK-tp2le
    @LK-tp2le 3 роки тому +85

    Really enjoyed this video. This explanation of DID seems so different to many of the DID channels on UA-cam that dress and outwardly act as completely different alters. Interesting to hear different experiences within the same diagnosis

    • @amandasummers7881
      @amandasummers7881 2 роки тому +21

      Yes, It's very different. I'm not trying to be too cynical, but I can't help but think that some of them are so totally over the top, and it kind of leaves a weird feeling in myself. I just always hope that ppl or psychiatrists who are curious about learning more about D.I.D. don't see those channels and get turned off and think it's a joke. I might be thinking too much into it, but just my thoughts.

    • @meliko
      @meliko 2 роки тому +22

      From what i know about it, it can manifest in many ways. For some people it really splits off into different people and for others, it splits off into different parts of the same person. Maybe some make it over the top to clickbait people into the video and use that to educate them subtly, while some only display the base truth behind their disorder. Also, remember that mental illnesses and disorders manifest differently for everyone! So just because AnnaLynne experiences it in this way, doesn't mean that other people sensationalize it.

    • @slowfire2
      @slowfire2 2 роки тому +14

      @@amandasummers7881 it seems like it can manifest in different ways. Some like the person in this video, apparently, and some go from being completely different people to even fantasy creatures.
      Every mind is different, every trauma or series of traumas are different and have different impact at different stages of life and the mind is very capable of making or breaking in so many ways.
      Not even body trauma is the same from case to case, so why would psychological trauma have identical results?
      Especially when you have very young children as the starting point, I'm very open to accepting that some can break rather profoundly into so different pieces and even that their brains can use fantastical identities and traits as a means to survival. And some break and survive in other ways.

    • @user-wi3yx3gy2o
      @user-wi3yx3gy2o 2 роки тому

      Look there is no “genuine” way for alters to act. They can be very different or not. They can be very different but pretend that they are you to others.

    • @randzopyr1038
      @randzopyr1038 2 роки тому +1

      Mental illness is greatly effected by the individual's culture. That's why you tend to see over-the-top stereotyped behaviors associated with certain mental illnesses.

  • @Mf7d89
    @Mf7d89 3 роки тому +34

    Thanks for this interview lauren. Many of us have dual diagnosis of schizophrenia and DiD, so this is really helpful.

  • @kimberlycarr2590
    @kimberlycarr2590 4 місяці тому +1

    😢 I have DID and I love to meet her. I partially integrated 2 years ago. I’m finally in a loving relationship with my soulmate. A tremendous amount of healing is taking place now.

  • @Nikkers8
    @Nikkers8 3 роки тому +26

    I was shocked when I realized you were talking to THE AnnaLynne. Lauren you are a wonderfully gifted listener and interviewer- thank-you for bringing this to us. I find it so dismaying when writers get lazy and use their version of DID as an aha! twist. This goes a long way in correcting so many misconceptions. Thank-you as always for what you do.

  • @ashleybee7188
    @ashleybee7188 3 роки тому +8

    I didn't know who this woman was actress wise but she described the DID condition so eloquently. The mirror analogy was so beautiful. All the love to you both.

    • @archangecamilien1879
      @archangecamilien1879 Рік тому

      I would have thought she would have forgotten her lines...I mean, an alter learned them, or the host, and then another alter is actually filming and doesn't remember, etc...I suppose I hardly know anything about DID...

  • @suzywolf5143
    @suzywolf5143 3 роки тому +30

    This conversation was incredible. Thank you so much for the work you do Lauren.
    I learned so much from this and really did feel a lot of love coming from AnnaLynne. 💜

  • @hiimpercy
    @hiimpercy 2 роки тому +5

    The friendly talks with protective mechanisms mentioned at 45:00 - that is SO GOOD. It helps immensely.

  • @Marc16180
    @Marc16180 3 роки тому +17

    38:50 This is the first time I’ve ever heard someone else describe a kind of autotherapy like I seemed to discover last year while working through traumas. I felt the same… after adjusting the memory, I felt something like a “time quake” through me as my history was being rewritten. Thank you for this interview. It’s wonderfully validating of my own DID journey so far.

  • @leeluudallas
    @leeluudallas 3 роки тому +22

    Lauren, thank you so much for shedding light on DID. I work in mental health and it worries me that some mental health professionals do not think that DID is a 'real' mental health condition. It's great to see you talking about it as a disorder that people really do live with, as well as addressing how it can be confused with schizophrenia spectrum disorders. It was really heartening to see your thoughtful approach to this topic in this video, displaying the respect and kindness that you always have towards others. Thanks so much!

  • @Lasagna498
    @Lasagna498 2 роки тому +7

    DID person here! Thank you for talking about this, I wondered if you were going to at some point.

  • @Lasagna498
    @Lasagna498 2 роки тому +5

    from personal experience, she describes it so well, like the best I’ve heard it described, especially explaining how it forms. And the room in her head with the partner story. The way she describes the room and they it works resonated so hard.

  • @alma.blackhawk
    @alma.blackhawk 3 роки тому +7

    I'm so overjoyed she mentioned holotropic breathwork! ❤️ I facilitate breathwork sessions and have had profound transformation as a breather and facilitator. Integration...vital. Great Convo.

  • @IsabelleJoline
    @IsabelleJoline 3 роки тому +3

    I'm just 7 minutes into the video but I already can say I LOOOVE this video especially! Because schizophrenia and DiD are so often mistaken for each other. And it's so special that two people with those diagnoses talk about this! And you're both so charming and I love listening to you both! ❤

  • @marlenebtagelman2451
    @marlenebtagelman2451 3 роки тому +11

    Thank you! I am happy that you are teaching us@

  • @gracelove2774
    @gracelove2774 3 роки тому +16

    Was hoping this topic would be brought up as it is confused often. Glad you had AnnaLynne to help describe. Seen her talk at Oxford Union on youtube. Very smart, kind person or "body" with many personalities. Just the "crazy" word being used to define herself at the moment at the table with the director.. she can hold it up to herself and how she describes, but for others it might be hurtful to think some will call them crazy or already have.

  • @Sim0sama
    @Sim0sama 2 роки тому +2

    I’m glad you could find that doctor who could help you so much and you found the love you needed so much.
    Everyone deserves love. ♥️

  • @gwyllymsuter4551
    @gwyllymsuter4551 3 роки тому +10

    Fabulous video. It helps understand my daughter so much better. Since adopting her 5 years ago its been a long learning process

  • @jennycobigo5818
    @jennycobigo5818 2 роки тому +2

    I have not washed my hair for 2 weeks. they are so long. I want to get the same haircut as you. just not sure it will look good on me. but the more I watch your videos, the more I am ready!!! i love it.

  • @homeschoolmom441
    @homeschoolmom441 2 роки тому +2

    Thank you so much for this. As a dissociative system, it was incredibly helpful to hear such a clear and concise explanation of how the healing process might unfold, , and what specific somatic healing steps to pursue outside of the therapeutic treatment relationship. Every recourse we have come across describes treatment as “a combination of talk therapy, trauma work, and body work” which leaves massive gaps in our understanding of how to prepare ourselves mentally for the process. Thank you and thank you again for such a phenomenal and illuminating conversation.

  • @robertl8198
    @robertl8198 3 роки тому +3

    The strength, insight and awareness AnnaLynne displays is amazing and I commend her for her resilience. There are many mental illnesses and people with them are so often viewed in such a negative light when they are the victims of both the illness and of the ignorance of society. Thank you for further educating me

  • @Michellebrite
    @Michellebrite 3 роки тому +5

    Thank you SO MUCH Lauren and AnnaLynne!

  • @banjara101
    @banjara101 3 роки тому +3

    Wow, she's amazing, very intelligent, honest and so articulate. Thank you both for sharing....helps me with my daughter's disorder. Love

  • @gracegotthis3704
    @gracegotthis3704 Рік тому +7

    One thing my therapist said was * you are not mentally Ill. God designed the brain to do that( split in to alters) to protect the child/ infant to survive what that child didn’t think they could. I LOVE HER for saying that! You are strong, loved and a survivor. I love you.. you did not deserve anything that happened to you. ❤️🙏❤️😘

  • @DeadJack57
    @DeadJack57 3 роки тому +8

    As you brought up visiting yourself in your mind at various times, I tried (its kind of hard to explain) looking at each traumatic experience more lovingly, and it was like un-freezing or thawing ice and a narrow-thought/view of my history. Then all these other experiences around the same time (more positive ones) popped up in the new light.

  • @Pixielocks
    @Pixielocks 3 роки тому +47

    Omg!! Excited to watch this 🥰🌈🌷

    • @pockies7446
      @pockies7446 3 роки тому +1

      Confetti friend here

    • @elviram3360
      @elviram3360 3 роки тому

      Trying not to be the bitch that everyone makes me out to be . People hate me. I’m trying not to hurt them. People should try being nice. Even if I did something dumb, they have no right to be a jerk!

    • @elviram3360
      @elviram3360 3 роки тому

      Must’ve done something stupid or may’ve been set up. Nobody cares. I wouldn’t wish the way I was treated on my worst enemy! People hate me and say I’m stupid and talk about stuff that isn’t their damn business! I really try to stay quiet or be nice. It’s hard when I want to get revenge. I think there’s a conspiracy and that things are edited or deleted when it comes to certain posts. How would you like it if everyone called you stupid and stalked you. If I hurt someone I can understand, but I’d like to know who and with what proof because people want to believe the worst. It almost makes me want to be the person everyone made me out to be, but while I’m in a good mood I beg you for answers of what’s going on and you should know I’d never intentionally hurt someone. If you guys are trying to make someone feel bad for being or acting stupid then you shouldn’t. That’s like beating up a baby. It’s something they can’t help

  • @mackm1094
    @mackm1094 3 роки тому +71

    I thought BPD and DID were the same thing. I also thought that Dissociation was the same thing as DID and I got really confused between it all. And I thought just because Schizophrenia meant split mind that it was DID but I know the difference between them all now. Thanks for this video it was really educational and I understand DID more than I did before.

    • @CarNerd
      @CarNerd 2 роки тому +1

      They are both symptoms of the same disease. Side effects of stuffing everything down deep, which causes thousands of side effects. It just easier for you people to label separate symptom clusters than get to the bottom of it.

    • @saramilena.
      @saramilena. 2 роки тому +3

      Yeah actually BPD and DID have more things in common than the BPD with bipolar disorder. There's some professionals that diagnose BPD on someone who has DID.

  • @rachelbreen6963
    @rachelbreen6963 3 роки тому +12

    You raise awareness around such important topics Lauren, I absolutely love you and your channel ♥️ wishing you and your family a lovely Christmas 🥰

  • @MrHappy3feet
    @MrHappy3feet 2 роки тому

    This woman is truly amazing, beyond her illness she is so self aware and brave and honest. I wish I could be more like her, at the very least be her friend 🤎♥️

  • @novascotiahomesteading455
    @novascotiahomesteading455 3 роки тому +3

    I had an epiphany that led to an intense disassociation earlier when she describes the body part description aspect of her therapy. Ive done that kind if work before but had not finished that treatment. SO when Annalynne is talking about it I followed along and did the body focussing and found something that connected and voila a perfect storm of emotions and realisations. I used every tool in my book and now Im able to finally comment. This video has answered so many questions ty ty ty.

  • @IamLosingitagain
    @IamLosingitagain 7 місяців тому

    As a person who just got diagnosed with DID last year and have been struggling with accepting that ever since this was a very validating interview to watch. There is so much misrepresentation in DID and it was really nice to hear about someone else’s experience that actually is similar to mine. Also to hear someone explain integration in a way that I can actually understand what the end goal is was very helpful. I am fortunate enough to have access to weekly therapy with a trauma specialist but where I live there isn’t anyone who specializes in DID. My therapist has a little bit of experience with it from the past and does validate my experience well. I can’t imagine how much smoother this process would be with that kind of access to a specialist.

  • @lisah.3070
    @lisah.3070 3 роки тому +1

    So happy about this video! I’m diagnosed w schizoaffective and DID (and a bunch of other stuff) and this interview rly helped me understand and differentiate more of what is what and how to start the healing process as well as seeing how far I’ve come as well! Tysm!

  • @mustachedmalarkey8838
    @mustachedmalarkey8838 Рік тому +30

    What she explained is actually called OSDD-1; not all of us with DID have alters that are our exact copies at different ages. Some of us have very different parts of different ages, genders, even species. This is a tiny bit misrepresentative of DID.

    • @unoriginaluid
      @unoriginaluid Рік тому +10

      I agree that it sounds a lot like OSDD-1. However, the distinction between OSDD-1 and DID is a bit muddy. There are plenty of people who don't perfectly fit the labels of OSDD-1A, OSDD-1B, or DID, but are clearly somewhere on that spectrum. Also, after integration and with better internal communication, DID begins to look a lot like OSDD-1.

    • @systemindigo
      @systemindigo Рік тому +2

      This is their experience, it will be different than others. They're representing themselves.

    • @curiouslyme524
      @curiouslyme524 6 місяців тому +2

      ​​​@@unoriginaluidTrue. But she doesn't mention any amnesia when her alters are out. So, I'd say partial/incomplete DID, i.e., OSDD-1a. Blank spells have to be present when others are out fir DID to be diagnosed.

  • @ojbolalo
    @ojbolalo 2 роки тому +2

    I feel so safe watching this. Thank you

  • @ericagoehring1089
    @ericagoehring1089 3 роки тому +4

    The mirror illustration was helpful!

  • @manicantsettleonausername6789
    @manicantsettleonausername6789 3 роки тому +3

    I've been learning more about DID for a while now and this was such an interesting and great interview, thank you so much Lauren and AnnaLynne for sharing!

  • @nicolefaith9972
    @nicolefaith9972 3 роки тому +7

    This was an amazing conversation to witness. Thank you both! I learned so much.

  • @brittneylyntalks
    @brittneylyntalks 3 роки тому +2

    I could listen to her talk forever!

  • @maripolonini7227
    @maripolonini7227 2 роки тому +16

    I'm surprised they dont talk about HEARING VOICES, because it's the symptom that confuses DID and schizofrenia most of times...
    When an alter is "fronting" (controlling the body), they can hear sometimes the other alters talking inside their head (not necessarily intrusive thoughts, may be opinions or reminders). AnnaLynne may hear Little Anna, for example.
    When people dont know they have DID, a lot of times they end up associating the voices they first hear to schizofrenia, when it's only the other alters trying some communication lol
    Some other things worth clarifying:
    - The treatment for DID isnt necessarily integration (afterall, the split exists to help the body survive in the first place). Sometimes just helping the system (the group of alters) to cope better is enough for them.
    - What creates the division of these "parts of self" called alters (short for "alternative state of mind") is a barrier of AMNESIA (so a certain alter cant remember a traumatic event and can keep living "normally", as she explained).
    - That said, it's not uncommon for alters to have amnesia on things that happened when they werent fronting. It's like they didnt actually live that body's experience because they werent the ones "in control" (you may be fronting, have a switch, and just "wake up" in the body days later, for example, not knowing what happened in between).
    - Because of that, each alter end up having it's own experience with the body (that it's not 24/7). As a consequence, they may develop so independently to the point they have their own names (not only "little Anna"), ages, TASTES and even physical things like ALLERGIES lol So they're basically a bunch of equal "people" sharing the same body, not ~ personalities ~ of an "original" person.
    To learn more about DID:
    - Antony Padilla's video about DID
    - Channel Dissociadid
    - Channel Multiplicity and Me
    - Channel The Entropy System

    • @elin_
      @elin_ 2 роки тому

      DisociaDID isn't a reliable source

    • @Shayne_T
      @Shayne_T 2 роки тому +3

      You named a channel that is very very fake, she’s acting! DissociaDID is a fake.

    • @hxpnxs
      @hxpnxs 2 роки тому +1

      @@Shayne_T they aren't. aboslutely not.

    • @queeng508
      @queeng508 Рік тому +2

      @@Shayne_Teven if they were to fake, which they aren’t, that absolutely does not make the information on the dissociadid channel less helpful or instructive

  • @sachab6098
    @sachab6098 2 роки тому +1

    This is a really interesting interview. It seems like DID is such a range, from almost solidly different people in one body to different versions of the person in one body. As she was sharing her journey and experience, i was trying to imagine what it must've been it for her. I think it's so interesting that she shared her story in a way that seems very relatable, like she really connects with the audience. She skimmed over all the rough parts like spacing out and constant insomnia and exhaustion. 😂 I loved the sentiment she shared that, essentially you can get a ton of love from the outside, but the love that fixes comes from within. It's so true and so hard. I've had many times where I've received love from others and it's like it fills up my happiness battery, but drains out just as fast. Adding your own love from yourself kinda reduces the amount of love you need from others to replenish your battery. And I think that's really great.

  • @thomasgregson13
    @thomasgregson13 3 роки тому +6

    Such a valuable conversation. Thank y’all for sharing ❤️💛❤️

  • @kazukog4274
    @kazukog4274 Рік тому +1

    Huge applauds to both of you! So touched. 🥲 Love heals. ❤

  • @WolfWhite-kj1nr
    @WolfWhite-kj1nr Рік тому +1

    Thank you both for this very insightful interview. Humans are very resilient creatures and you two are an example of this, much blessing to both ....there's hope!💟

  • @TheLunaPulvia
    @TheLunaPulvia 2 роки тому +2

    What an amazing woman she is so positive and inspiring 😊

  • @tracystoutbehunin9303
    @tracystoutbehunin9303 2 роки тому +1

    Oh my goodness this is soooo beautiful. What special people you both are. Thanks both for your vulnerability and honesty. The good you are doing is immeasurable.

  • @olivermakower2479
    @olivermakower2479 3 роки тому +5

    There is also two differences between the mood component of schizoaffective Bipolar type, and DID, in that DiD can transfer mood quickly, and is enviromentally stimulated. For instance the little girl who came out at the park, and the one who was abused.

  • @brookesbestlife4918
    @brookesbestlife4918 3 роки тому +13

    I love annalynne McCord!!! How did you two get connected?!!!!! She’s amazing!!!!!!

  • @sygilloux-v2
    @sygilloux-v2 3 роки тому +6

    This was such a beautiful integration story and its soo similar to how we started integrating. Its wild how healing simple love and care can be.

  • @theresajones3431
    @theresajones3431 2 роки тому +1

    This interviews are amazming I injoy watching. I deal with a illness and this channel helps me to see its not the end of the world. I like to see other people reach high goals and live a healthy life.

  • @dmcsunshine1
    @dmcsunshine1 2 роки тому

    Here I am, called to say for us, “We” all want to say thank you for sharing. I would love to get the help as you have. I want to be free to have all of me out. It can be fun in a safe place or it can be hell hiding us. The hardest part of this is dealing with the unaware people whose cruelty treat us as crazy when we are truly hurt and suffering.

  • @onemanmayhem
    @onemanmayhem 3 роки тому +5

    This was such a wonderful interview, thank you both! I'm amazed....

  • @ashleyboots3386
    @ashleyboots3386 Рік тому

    Fantastic video! As someone who has been in treatment for DID (as well as multiple comorbidities) for years, I was very impressed with your guest. Especially the point about self-love was so, so important.
    Ironically, I found this video because I'm struggling with if we also have schizophrenia (there are a lot of reasons to wonder).

  • @fembot521
    @fembot521 2 роки тому

    Great info aside, the quality of this video is OUTSTANDING!! I can hear and see everyone clearly which is so great for important videos like this.

  • @goodtoGoNow1956
    @goodtoGoNow1956 2 роки тому

    I admire her for her willingness to be open and forgiving toward others. Forgiveness is so missing in our society and it is so desperately needed. I do not have full confidence in recovered memories, but I accept and believe that she had difficult traumas as a child that required her to take mental steps for protection.

  • @mikewysko2268
    @mikewysko2268 3 роки тому +6

    Fantastic interview, I learned so much.

  • @juliathefast
    @juliathefast 6 місяців тому

    This puts into perspective what my sister might be going through. 🤔 It's usually hard to trust sources & find anyone to reliably talk about it. Thanks for this. 👍🏼

  • @brittneylyntalks
    @brittneylyntalks 3 роки тому +6

    Wow! She’s so amazing and learned a lot!

  • @jhors7777
    @jhors7777 Рік тому

    Thank you AnnaLynne for telling your story. My best wishes to you!!

  • @werhatdanamegesagt4158
    @werhatdanamegesagt4158 3 роки тому +7

    an extremely important video!!

  • @NaughtOverAll
    @NaughtOverAll 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you so much for this video. I've had DID for some many years now, which looking back has been extremely beneficial in dealing with and processing the process of being diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type & the difficult and bewildering experiences that came along with getting to where I am now. I always suspected that I had DID for YEARS, but because of my negligence to deep dive into researching the reality of the diagnosis, up until early this year I just believed that I wasn't accurate in thinking that because of the depictions and descriptions I'd heard and seen over the years both in the entertainment industry and the general populations understanding of the disorder. I knew that my experience was similar to many things but vastly different in others from what I'd seen or heard people talk about before. It wasn't until I finally came across a documented case around February of this year when there was more research being conducted on DID that I was able to actually get the real deal information on what DID is and know for certain that what most people thought they knew about it wasn't even accurate and that every single thing that I thought didn't fit into the mold of what most people thought it was is what people who actually have the diagnosis experience. I was confused and lost for so long, grasping at straws trying to get an answer for what was going on with me, when the answer I thought was wrong was actually right all along. I feel that anyone who has this diagnosis has been done a huge disservice by the general population just by the simple fact that it's been ignorantly presented for so long in a way that's just been accepted as fact for so long, all the while hardly having any real effort put into ensuring the information actually reflects the reality and truth of what they're trying to tell us. Sadly this seems to be a reccuring theme amongst mental health issues. I hope this finds you all in wellness and bid you adieu 🖤🤍🖤

  • @seabee5695
    @seabee5695 2 роки тому

    Thank you Lauren.
    AnnaLynne speaks gently and brilliantly of many facets of DID from an inner-personal perspective that is unique amongst videos I have viewed on the subject.
    Her dedication to inner focus and building a relationship with those within, through Love and acceptance is not only inspirational but comforting as well.
    Thank you for speaking on the importance of inclusion of somatic experiences as part of our healing.

  • @theWaywithWayne
    @theWaywithWayne 3 роки тому +2

    Thanks Lauren and AnnaLynne, you are both amazing and generous in sharing your personal stories with us. I have started to learn something called IFS - Internal Family Systems. Fascinating. One of the best things about it is that it comes from a calm compassionate core and is very non-pathologising. Developed by Richard Schwarz. It's helped my wife and I relate much more supportively to our son. Fascinating.

  • @Kelly-gz5ju
    @Kelly-gz5ju 3 роки тому +2

    Really great video, very interesting! Lauren, you did such a great job helping to guide the conversation without pulling focus or making AnnaLynne feel like she was off topic or anything when she was a bit all over the place. The way AnnaLynne spoke was a little manic/jumbled, but so insightful and genuine; it's nice to see someone else verbalize how they feel while trying to organize distressing/disorganized thoughts/feelings/memories the way I do at times. You can tell AnnaLynne hasn't spoken about this much, but has endless potential to educate on a larger scale in the future.
    Thank you, ladies for a wonderful and educational interview

  • @deborajh0917
    @deborajh0917 2 роки тому +2

    Thank you to 2 very strong women...thank you for sharing...I really needed to see this today!!!
    Love&Hugs to both of you 💜🤗🤗

  • @Singfortheking33
    @Singfortheking33 Рік тому

    This is the first time hearing someone explain how i feel and how i have a hard time explaining or recognizing that i have it.

  • @ChumpkinPumpkin
    @ChumpkinPumpkin 2 роки тому +2

    That's so interesting to hear her experience with DID. I also have DID and i experience things similarly to her, while other alters in our system don't really relate to her, which i find really interesting. Every system is soooo different. DID is formed according to what the child needed to survive and how their brain works. Singlets have created this fantastical element to DID, treating alters like the only "symptom", like theyre this freakshow on display at a circus. But DID is so much more than that. Every system works differently and has different experiences with the disorder.

  • @shaylarayb932
    @shaylarayb932 3 роки тому +1

    When I seen this video pop up in my recommended I literally got so happy. I’m even happier now that I watched it! :) It feels good to have someone clear up some of the stigma and misconceptions around DID. Thank you for this video!!!

  • @kyky1869
    @kyky1869 2 роки тому +1

    this was the most life changing and eye opening video i have ever come across on youtube. thank you so much

  • @oliwiapaterka2756
    @oliwiapaterka2756 2 місяці тому +1

    U just actually saved my life

  • @PostTraumaticVictory
    @PostTraumaticVictory 3 роки тому +3

    What an important, interesting and informative conversation!!

  • @sew_i_did5257
    @sew_i_did5257 3 роки тому +4

    Thank you thank you thank you for doing this video! Fantastic as always. I have DID (hence my UA-cam name) and it's frustrating when people don't know it but do know it as multiple personality disorder or confuse it with schizophrenia. Thank you for this amazing video collab!! ~Catt&

  • @Sophie-db1ko
    @Sophie-db1ko 2 роки тому +1

    Very interesting, Lauren 🌸 Would love to hear more interviews made by you.

  • @judithbogner3222
    @judithbogner3222 Рік тому

    Most importantly, love yourself first! Great interview! ❤

  • @nataliegarson1381
    @nataliegarson1381 11 місяців тому

    Thank you so much for helping to explain some things that many of us needed to hear and feel a little less alone ❤

  • @MrLisarn2
    @MrLisarn2 4 місяці тому

    Love her acting. Shes so talented! Excision is the one that made me start following things she was in. I don’t think that movie would’ve been near as good without her.

  • @jparsons1974
    @jparsons1974 3 роки тому +2

    The topic is important. Listening to individual experiences is worthwhile. Can you follow up with a professional who treats patients with the disorder? I'd like to here their perspective on both dissociative disorder and schizoaffective disorder depressive type.