Since we can't comment on your latest video I wanted to comment here and say thank you for sharing. I know it was hard to come out and share what happened. Just know you are saving people from a lifetime of severe mental illness. This is a blind spot in non-duality teaching that everyone needs to be aware of.
I will share what I said on reddit. He is also part of the problem, David. I have watched that whole video and I do agree with him and I have a similar take on all of this. But, until this video, he was charging sessions 1 on 1, 70-100€ per hour if I remember correctly. I can find a physical therapist who went to school for 7-8 years to specialize in that field, for the same price. UA-cam is full of people like that, who are trying to cash on people who feel without direction, and who are curious about themselves and the reality, in an honest and a genuine way. I do hope karma is real, because just like David, I am angry at all those people, those "teachers", including him. If you are not 110% sure, how can you let yourself preach these things on an online platform with 10k+ subscribers, and to also charge people that much money per hour to hear your ignorance talk.
The fear of the fear is often really the fear of bearing scary situations alone. Your example of seeking comfort after nightmares brought up similar memories for me. After I was turned away, I still felt scared but then also deeply lonely and abandoned. Over time it became too much and I developed ways to shut it all down. This got the gears turning, thank you. IFS has been quite a ride so far.
I was not tended to and was given the cry it out form of parenting. Often I wouldn't know what to do with myself, the tears never stopped. I longed for their love and they never came. Eventually my dad would come and I felt I was teaching him how to love and I'm so glad he had an ounce of care to come... to finally come check on my inconsolable self. I remember being so lonely as a baby. As a toddler. As a child. Now in my 30s and I now am sick and exhausted because I just can't or haven't found a way to release this loneliness and pain. I've been solo living for 4 years after being in codependent relationships since I was 17. I need to find my way. I've been running and chasing and achieving for so long. But I just need to rest and finally let this all come up and go. My body feels everything so deeply
Loved your last video. Everything needs to be done with balance, that includes religions, meditation, exercise, and whatever believe sistem you have. If it doesn't feel right its your instinct warning you. Dogmas are terrible, be free my friend ❤.
Yes, I'm exploring similar things at the moment; such as who decides which emotions are right or wrong to feel/emotional validation. This really resonates. Thanks for sharing x
Hang in there dude . I had a friend who said he never felt quite right, he tried cognitive behavioral therapy, all these anti-anxiety techniques, it turned out he had a severe B12 deficiency, once he got that squared away he was able to feel relaxed and most of his racing thoughts and despair disappeared. There are hundreds of Health reasons why a person just doesn't feel right and has nothing to do with the correct Dogma or non-duality Etc. Imagine a person who never exercises, has low vitamin d, is low in so many minerals, doesn't do any meditation, in a very stressful job and has Financial pressures......... but he does ifs perfectly and still he's not feeling quite right. Ifs will greatly help people, but there's so much more in order to obtain this Blissful state of peace
I got 80% through your latest video today (Sep 22) before it disappeared. You were the first "non-dual" person I found online about 18? months ago. I have been on that train since then, convinced that a "first awakening" was imminent. I'm so very grateful to have heard your post-non-duality experience and perspective. IMHO the deleted video came at the right time, and I hope you reconsider putting it back online so that many others can learn from your insight.
@@parrotlover9035 not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
Take care David. You went against the grain. Respect for that. Would be great to hear more from you about this ‘controversy’. I watched the video too. You raised some really important points including the ‘end of suffering’ carrot that is dangled by so many teachers. I don’t believe any human alive never suffers.
Amazing video I'm sure I will be saving and listening over and over. Could totally resonate. Coming out of 12 years of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and have a lot of anxiety to hold. What comes up for me when I ask the question is I'm scared it will never stop...fear on fear....the fear is valid 💯.
Glad you've managed to get some help with your dissociation. They key to happiness isn't to escape being human, it's to fully embrace and accept it with all its ups and downs with total humility. All the best.
Wishing you well on you trauma work. I’m 68 yo and started therapy on my own at 17yo. Since awakening I’m still doing it. I’m realizing it’s all about feeling the stuck energy. The awakening is the right way for me now. I kinda do my own therapy at this point, always have. I got real sick 2 years ago long Covid and learned from UA-cam because I could barely leave the house. Tons of journaling and releasing. It’s all good I think. 😊
I saw your video posted on reddit and am sad I didnt get a chance to watch before it disappeared. Regardless if people are characterizing your experience and perspective as a "misunderstanding" or "immature", its your honest valid perspective and im sure it resonates with a lot of suffering people. Even the most beloved and 'nuanced" teachers masks slip and they display behavior and traits that they claim (or heavily insinuate) to have transcended. The social construct of "realization" and its purported attributes becomes a dangling carrot, with its own dogma and social pressures to conform to beliefs, models and vocabulary, frequently creating harm and suffering and mental illness, no matter how many disclaimers a teacher may make. Views that dont align become suppressed, either through fear or censorship, perpetuating the impression that the dogma is correct and effective for all people, and the belief that those who don't respond well are either doing or understandng something incorrectly, are mentally ill, or projecting, or speaking from a "trauma" (none of this as a result of the teaher or teachings, of course!). The responses you've received to your experience is a perfect example. I am documenting some of these phenomena closely 🧐🔎 and would love to talk to you more and hear you perspective and experience with teachers and community. If you're willing to share an email address again please let me know.
Hi, your last video on non duality and emotional repression/the dangers of it was really eye opening for me and for many others I’m sure. I know people in this community can be all or nothing on such topics. I myself got caught up in emotional repression via spirituality before I hit rock bottom and finally got emotional/psychological help through a trauma informed therapist. Turns out I had PTSD and all the philosophy and ideology was just trying to mask it. There are some that say realizing your true nature/awakening can help resolve trauma but the process of awakening or sudden realization can cause nervous system dysregulation itself not to mention the mind contracting and questioning everything. Therefore leading to the trauma symptoms escalating. I’ve found it can lead to dissociation, psychosis or suicidal ideation. Spiritual communities and teachers tend to be lacking in the trauma and shadow work department and it doesn’t help that many believe that non duality will somehow absolve you from the human condition. I admire your resolve and confidence to bring light to this. Anyway, I hope you are doing well!!
Anytime anyone says anything about not feeling a feeling you have, red flag to not listen to what they're saying. "Get over it, don't let that affect you, move on", etc. no no no. I'm even surprised by the amount of people who use mushrooms that say not to fear. As if we can just snap and not have any feeling anymore in an instant. Phobia of feelings, I call it, and the opposite of what is healing. Besides, it's really resistance to try to avoid on trips, but even if you do resist, you'll be ok after the trip and still learn and have breakthroughs. Can't be perfect at it. Brilliant video and I will be learning more about IFS. I'd heard of it but haven't explored it. At least not by knowing that's the name of it. I've definitely done work between different parts of myself and visiting my child self in meditation and especially on trips. Grateful to find your channel!
I know you haven’t allowed comments on your last video, but I really wanted to take the opportunity to say how much of what you said is what I have also come to realise recently, and not just about this aspect of non-duality, but certain new age concepts also such as manifesting etc. Authenticity is so important. I am so glad to hear you are feeling happier and well done for sharing your experience. Best wishes!
I am commenting on this video because you turned your comments of on the other video about depersonalization. I just want to say thank you. This is exactly what I have experienced 5 months ago maybe not at your level but I had exactly the same insights. Luckily I also turned away from spirituality for a bit because like you said some of the spiritual teachers say this is how it should be. But I feels absolutely horrible and is just dumb in my opinion. I had people (mostly girlfriends) in my life that helped me and understood this (it seems like women are more in touch with their intuition and emotions so they realize this better, just my experience. Males are more hardcore and tell you, you don't exist and if you don't believe it, it is because of your fear or something like that). Anyway thank you. And I want to tell you this is the right way you are on. Love you and take care!
I really appreciated your new video even if it is currently deleted. I watched the whole thing and I think you made a very valid point for non-duality. You have a very intelligent mind. I don't think non-duality works for everyone but it is an interesting concept nonetheless.
Feel the fear and do it anyway. I just moved to a new city. I felt fear. I have no idea if it will work out, but I knew I had to go... and do it anyway.
Hey David, i also went through a depersonalization/dissociative experience through angelos teachings. I think a video posted about your experience and why you are turning back would be helpful for the community. Please share and don’t make it private. Thank you
@@johntayor9511 not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
@@kebobscat not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
I really appreciate the video. I also read the post from a few days ago, or was it yesterday. I think it's really insightful. I have had similar experiences of relief, though fear is the one thing which I never really seemed to get a clear understanding of.
I'm more here for the IFS. However, i'm definitely low level into buddhism and meditation. I'd love if you'd repost your last non duality video and just let people debate. Yes, there will be a few toxic threads, however, the majority of it will be civil and informative for us who are new. We do not need to be afraid of discourse or even mean words. There is too much censorship going on at the moment and its getting worse.
Hey David. Excellent vids. I work for a radio station which focuses on mental health. Any chance of you doing some inspirational audio clips that we can put out in between the tunes.
Its a good way of dealing with it. What also helped me was realizing that fear is just fear. If you dive deeper there is no real monster under the bed. So as an adult you can say to yourself: Yeah I experience fear now but its just fear, I am not really in danger. My Body feels excitement and so I can explain to myself that I am kinda overexcited.
i have a fear of working and progressing in external life. and all that work was driven internallyy. i thought i was smarter than all the people who work on external results, because i thought 'the internal feelings is all there is in life'. something interesting how the effort that goes external gets more direct results but when put internally and trying to fix it made it just fumble even more, its like the effort ruins the process.
as a child we are conditioned do that or dont do this there was a lot of thing not to do one of them was dont afraid dont worry dont hate dont get angry etc etc 😭
Hey David, not sure if you will read this. I somehow managed to just watch your criticism of nonduality, even though the video isn’t up, not sure how I managed, but it was a link from Reddit I think. Anyways, I really thought it was an amazing critique of non duality. I’ve noticed in recent times and increased number of young nondual teachers popping up of UA-cam. It’s always just seemed off to me. I’ve practiced Zazen for a number of years. I’ve been lucky to wind up in the ordinary mind tradition under the guidance of Barry Magid who is a psychologist. He’s totally against all this nonduality stuff. I hope you are doing well my friend and I hope you can share more in the future. Dr Willobhy is doing great work at helping people, im all for meditation but think it’s unhealthy to not face the facts. I would love to talk to you more in private about this one day ❤
What does Self do in duality in experimentation of emotions of fear? Beyond mind there seems a Mind prodding perfect. Be, being, because one is the Knower of the entire space, (universal). This mirror reflects presence of Source
Hey man, just want to let you know that I relate a lot to the video you uploaded and deleted. Every human being has parasites living within them and the agenda is to get you to give up your body so the parasites can completely take over, giving the illusion of "not being the doer". Look at all the "spiritual teachers", most of them are overweight. They want us to give ourselves over to them under the guise of "spirituality". We are the body, we are the mind, we are more than we have taken ourselves to be. Giving it up is suicide. I can teach you how to cleanse the parasites if you like. You will see clearly like I do.
Since we can't comment on your latest video I wanted to comment here and say thank you for sharing. I know it was hard to come out and share what happened. Just know you are saving people from a lifetime of severe mental illness. This is a blind spot in non-duality teaching that everyone needs to be aware of.
I will share what I said on reddit. He is also part of the problem, David. I have watched that whole video and I do agree with him and I have a similar take on all of this.
But, until this video, he was charging sessions 1 on 1, 70-100€ per hour if I remember correctly. I can find a physical therapist who went to school for 7-8 years to specialize in that field, for the same price.
UA-cam is full of people like that, who are trying to cash on people who feel without direction, and who are curious about themselves and the reality, in an honest and a genuine way.
I do hope karma is real, because just like David, I am angry at all those people, those "teachers", including him. If you are not 110% sure, how can you let yourself preach these things on an online platform with 10k+ subscribers, and to also charge people that much money per hour to hear your ignorance talk.
The fear of the fear is often really the fear of bearing scary situations alone. Your example of seeking comfort after nightmares brought up similar memories for me. After I was turned away, I still felt scared but then also deeply lonely and abandoned. Over time it became too much and I developed ways to shut it all down.
This got the gears turning, thank you. IFS has been quite a ride so far.
I was not tended to and was given the cry it out form of parenting. Often I wouldn't know what to do with myself, the tears never stopped. I longed for their love and they never came. Eventually my dad would come and I felt I was teaching him how to love and I'm so glad he had an ounce of care to come... to finally come check on my inconsolable self. I remember being so lonely as a baby. As a toddler. As a child. Now in my 30s and I now am sick and exhausted because I just can't or haven't found a way to release this loneliness and pain. I've been solo living for 4 years after being in codependent relationships since I was 17. I need to find my way. I've been running and chasing and achieving for so long. But I just need to rest and finally let this all come up and go. My body feels everything so deeply
@@Viafupayou’re a sweet soul.
Loved your last video. Everything needs to be done with balance, that includes religions, meditation, exercise, and whatever believe sistem you have. If it doesn't feel right its your instinct warning you. Dogmas are terrible, be free my friend ❤.
I have unfounded fear of everything. I now have many autoimmune diseases. I need this fear to go away. Deep meditation is definitely helping.
I have so much fear about everything, too. I take L-Theanine, which is an amino acid that helps a lot! Maybe it could help you?
Yes, I'm exploring similar things at the moment; such as who decides which emotions are right or wrong to feel/emotional validation. This really resonates. Thanks for sharing x
Hang in there dude . I had a friend who said he never felt quite right, he tried cognitive behavioral therapy, all these anti-anxiety techniques, it turned out he had a severe B12 deficiency, once he got that squared away he was able to feel relaxed and most of his racing thoughts and despair disappeared. There are hundreds of Health reasons why a person just doesn't feel right and has nothing to do with the correct Dogma or non-duality Etc. Imagine a person who never exercises, has low vitamin d, is low in so many minerals, doesn't do any meditation, in a very stressful job and has Financial pressures......... but he does ifs perfectly and still he's not feeling quite right. Ifs will greatly help people, but there's so much more in order to obtain this Blissful state of peace
I got 80% through your latest video today (Sep 22) before it disappeared. You were the first "non-dual" person I found online about 18? months ago. I have been on that train since then, convinced that a "first awakening" was imminent. I'm so very grateful to have heard your post-non-duality experience and perspective. IMHO the deleted video came at the right time, and I hope you reconsider putting it back online so that many others can learn from your insight.
@@parrotlover9035 not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
Take care David. You went against the grain. Respect for that. Would be great to hear more from you about this ‘controversy’. I watched the video too. You raised some really important points including the ‘end of suffering’ carrot that is dangled by so many teachers. I don’t believe any human alive never suffers.
I can't react under your recent video.
Thank you for telling what is on your heart
I wish I could give you a hug❤
You are loved. Thank you ❤
where is it? dp/dr person here
Amazing video I'm sure I will be saving and listening over and over. Could totally resonate. Coming out of 12 years of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and have a lot of anxiety to hold. What comes up for me when I ask the question is I'm scared it will never stop...fear on fear....the fear is valid 💯.
Glad you've managed to get some help with your dissociation. They key to happiness isn't to escape being human, it's to fully embrace and accept it with all its ups and downs with total humility. All the best.
where is the dissociation video? i cant find it!
@@DJ_Duck_SickSeems he took it down, I wonder why.
My goodness, we are so similar in so many ways. Thank you for doing these videos.
Wishing you well on you trauma work. I’m 68 yo and started therapy on my own at 17yo. Since awakening I’m still doing it. I’m realizing it’s all about feeling the stuck energy. The awakening is the right way for me now. I kinda do my own therapy at this point, always have. I got real sick 2 years ago long Covid and learned from UA-cam because I could barely leave the house. Tons of journaling and releasing. It’s all good I think. 😊
I saw your video posted on reddit and am sad I didnt get a chance to watch before it disappeared. Regardless if people are characterizing your experience and perspective as a "misunderstanding" or "immature", its your honest valid perspective and im sure it resonates with a lot of suffering people. Even the most beloved and 'nuanced" teachers masks slip and they display behavior and traits that they claim (or heavily insinuate) to have transcended. The social construct of "realization" and its purported attributes becomes a dangling carrot, with its own dogma and social pressures to conform to beliefs, models and vocabulary, frequently creating harm and suffering and mental illness, no matter how many disclaimers a teacher may make. Views that dont align become suppressed, either through fear or censorship, perpetuating the impression that the dogma is correct and effective for all people, and the belief that those who don't respond well are either doing or understandng something incorrectly, are mentally ill, or projecting, or speaking from a "trauma" (none of this as a result of the teaher or teachings, of course!). The responses you've received to your experience is a perfect example. I am documenting some of these phenomena closely 🧐🔎 and would love to talk to you more and hear you perspective and experience with teachers and community. If you're willing to share an email address again please let me know.
you are thinking deeply & speaking well my friend ... doing the work & bringing back juicy nuggets .... cheers from california
Hi, your last video on non duality and emotional repression/the dangers of it was really eye opening for me and for many others I’m sure. I know people in this community can be all or nothing on such topics. I myself got caught up in emotional repression via spirituality before I hit rock bottom and finally got emotional/psychological help through a trauma informed therapist. Turns out I had PTSD and all the philosophy and ideology was just trying to mask it. There are some that say realizing your true nature/awakening can help resolve trauma but the process of awakening or sudden realization can cause nervous system dysregulation itself not to mention the mind contracting and questioning everything. Therefore leading to the trauma symptoms escalating. I’ve found it can lead to dissociation, psychosis or suicidal ideation. Spiritual communities and teachers tend to be lacking in the trauma and shadow work department and it doesn’t help that many believe that non duality will somehow absolve you from the human condition. I admire your resolve and confidence to bring light to this. Anyway, I hope you are doing well!!
Anytime anyone says anything about not feeling a feeling you have, red flag to not listen to what they're saying. "Get over it, don't let that affect you, move on", etc. no no no.
I'm even surprised by the amount of people who use mushrooms that say not to fear. As if we can just snap and not have any feeling anymore in an instant. Phobia of feelings, I call it, and the opposite of what is healing. Besides, it's really resistance to try to avoid on trips, but even if you do resist, you'll be ok after the trip and still learn and have breakthroughs. Can't be perfect at it.
Brilliant video and I will be learning more about IFS. I'd heard of it but haven't explored it. At least not by knowing that's the name of it. I've definitely done work between different parts of myself and visiting my child self in meditation and especially on trips. Grateful to find your channel!
Another great video! Do you have a website - or how do we get in touch with you? Haven‘t found any working link. Thank you 🙏☺️
I know you haven’t allowed comments on your last video, but I really wanted to take the opportunity to say how much of what you said is what I have also come to realise recently, and not just about this aspect of non-duality, but certain new age concepts also such as manifesting etc. Authenticity is so important. I am so glad to hear you are feeling happier and well done for sharing your experience. Best wishes!
whats this newest video called? i can't find it !
Excellent work my friend. Keep going and doing what you do here with these messages.
I am commenting on this video because you turned your comments of on the other video about depersonalization. I just want to say thank you. This is exactly what I have experienced 5 months ago maybe not at your level but I had exactly the same insights. Luckily I also turned away from spirituality for a bit because like you said some of the spiritual teachers say this is how it should be. But I feels absolutely horrible and is just dumb in my opinion. I had people (mostly girlfriends) in my life that helped me and understood this (it seems like women are more in touch with their intuition and emotions so they realize this better, just my experience. Males are more hardcore and tell you, you don't exist and if you don't believe it, it is because of your fear or something like that). Anyway thank you. And I want to tell you this is the right way you are on. Love you and take care!
Excactly the same! Thank you
I really appreciated your new video even if it is currently deleted. I watched the whole thing and I think you made a very valid point for non-duality. You have a very intelligent mind. I don't think non-duality works for everyone but it is an interesting concept nonetheless.
Feel the fear and do it anyway. I just moved to a new city. I felt fear. I have no idea if it will work out, but I knew I had to go... and do it anyway.
Hey David, i also went through a depersonalization/dissociative experience through angelos teachings. I think a video posted about your experience and why you are turning back would be helpful for the community.
Please share and don’t make it private. Thank you
@@johntayor9511 not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
thank you, David, I just love you, you always know exactly what I need 😊😅❤
I watched the video you deleted. What you expressed was genuine and I appreciated it. I'm curious as to why you deleted it. Much love to you.
@@kebobscat not deleted, just paused. Re uploading next week. This kind of controversy takes a toll, I’m just looking after myself for a bit. It will be back up soon
@@Davidmcdonald1very understandable… but thank you for making that video, it’s a very important topic, not talked about nearly enough.
censorship and vulnerable people cannot handle debate or counter viewpoints.......you can feel their egos and inability to entertain different beliefs
@@rawfoodphilosophy7061 goes to show how these teachers very still have big egos…
It's really cool to see your benefiting from IFS.
Wow 😯. U definitely made me question so much !!! About myself. Ur better than any therapist I’ve talked too
Thank you 🙏
I really appreciate the video. I also read the post from a few days ago, or was it yesterday. I think it's really insightful. I have had similar experiences of relief, though fear is the one thing which I never really seemed to get a clear understanding of.
I'm more here for the IFS.
However, i'm definitely low level into buddhism and meditation.
I'd love if you'd repost your last non duality video and just let people debate.
Yes, there will be a few toxic threads, however, the majority of it will be civil and informative for us who are new.
We do not need to be afraid of discourse or even mean words.
There is too much censorship going on at the moment and its getting worse.
Hey David. Excellent vids. I work for a radio station which focuses on mental health. Any chance of you doing some inspirational audio clips that we can put out in between the tunes.
It really resonates in me as well. Thank you for this video 👌
Its a good way of dealing with it. What also helped me was realizing that fear is just fear. If you dive deeper there is no real monster under the bed. So as an adult you can say to yourself: Yeah I experience fear now but its just fear, I am not really in danger. My Body feels excitement and so I can explain to myself that I am kinda overexcited.
I always tell myself - whatever happened did so for a reason, which is ultimately for my highest good.
i have a fear of working and progressing in external life. and all that work was driven internallyy.
i thought i was smarter than all the people who work on external results, because i thought 'the internal feelings is all there is in life'.
something interesting how the effort that goes external gets more direct results but when put internally and trying to fix it made it just fumble even more, its like the effort ruins the process.
as a child we are conditioned do that or dont do this there was a lot of thing not to do one of them was dont afraid dont worry dont hate dont get angry etc etc 😭
4:07 😭💔
Where is your last video?
Nice video man
What microphone do you use? It seems really good
@@Ciskuss iPhone 15 mic 😂😂😂
@@Davidmcdonald1 wow
🙏
I can get behind this!
Would you ever be able to do a video on procrastination please.
Hey David, not sure if you will read this. I somehow managed to just watch your criticism of nonduality, even though the video isn’t up, not sure how I managed, but it was a link from Reddit I think. Anyways, I really thought it was an amazing critique of non duality. I’ve noticed in recent times and increased number of young nondual teachers popping up of UA-cam. It’s always just seemed off to me. I’ve practiced Zazen for a number of years. I’ve been lucky to wind up in the ordinary mind tradition under the guidance of Barry Magid who is a psychologist. He’s totally against all this nonduality stuff. I hope you are doing well my friend and I hope you can share more in the future. Dr Willobhy is doing great work at helping people, im all for meditation but think it’s unhealthy to not face the facts. I would love to talk to you more in private about this one day ❤
What does Self do in duality in experimentation of emotions of fear? Beyond mind there seems a Mind prodding perfect. Be, being, because one is the Knower of the entire space, (universal). This mirror reflects presence of Source
Very handsome 😍
i like you a lot
Hey man, just want to let you know that I relate a lot to the video you uploaded and deleted. Every human being has parasites living within them and the agenda is to get you to give up your body so the parasites can completely take over, giving the illusion of "not being the doer".
Look at all the "spiritual teachers", most of them are overweight. They want us to give ourselves over to them under the guise of "spirituality".
We are the body, we are the mind, we are more than we have taken ourselves to be. Giving it up is suicide.
I can teach you how to cleanse the parasites if you like. You will see clearly like I do.
Holy projection