Well just don't kill yourself, there's alot more things waiting for you, despite everything that happens to you, there are still some people that love you. But tell me : What exactly is the problem?
I cry when I think about what could have been if just changed who I was and my personality and my friends wouldn't have all gone away one by one. I wouldn't have impulsive thoughts all the time either.
I’ve been listening to this video for a while now, and it inspired me to write a poem about my dead cat, and the poem is called “he smelled of fresh rain” :)
I hope you are doing well now, I know that is hard to recover from. Just remember all the things he has granted you, all the moments you two had and that was all he could give.
I’m glad that you, like me, find joy in these precious moments that make up life. However rare they may be at times, they are always there to reward you after a hard time/accomplishment, whether that be have a meaningful conversation or just getting through the day. Remember that these little moments are always there, waiting for you. One day, your hard work will be paid off and your life will be filled with nothing but these if you simply don’t give up.
sometimes it's better to think about what you're doing. if you feel like dying, take a short break and look outdoors for a little while. if that doesn't help, look for a wholesome video or photo on your phone that isn't about success or doing better than everyone else. you can just distract yourself until the pain fades. you'll be okay. i know you will.
My best friend’s nickname growing up was “Frost crow”. One day, he was locked out of his house (on purpose) in a blizzard. I snuck in and let him into the basement. His mother was not too happy with me. I had his back. He had mine. Years tore us apart… until recent. My brother by water, not blood, had become someone I no longer knew. Treated me like a stranger, tried to get all his friends to date me, to each I said “no thank you”. One day, like old times, we watched a movie together. He pulled me close, and I felt like I was near a warm soul again. Until he tried telling me, that my intentions of getting near him, were something else (despite him being the one who pulled me closer). I looked at the kind, scared boy I once knew and realized instead, there was a deceitful, clever man in front of me. I was not his friend. I was nothing more than “another chick”. I was not his sister by water anymore. I left, safe, but crying. He smells of de@d flowers to me. All nostalgia plagued by melancholy. I had his back. He had mine. I had his back………… that’s it.
i still cant forget the song of their voice echoing throught my mind at dawn knowing i was a spawn of hell i miss them i wish they could see me now i miss them
I can’t stop sobbing I just want to end it all and this song is making me take it all in There’s not anything especially happy about it, it’s just getting me to recollect trauma I don’t know if I could even go through with killing myself considering that there’s so many people who have told me not to but the want is stronger than anything I’m sorry if this isn’t grammatically correct, I don’t care about structuring my sentences right now
cro🖤 (team crow ftw. anyways im mentally exhausted and this morning's 5am phighting grinding session somehow drained me bc i was doing so poorly, might be partially bc my old mouse broke and the new one is a lil heavier and harder to move but idk)
3 months later. I'm scared. I'm scared to text my friends. Not an intense-immediate feeling, (bringing out the 4 quadrants, it is neither immediate nor important). Rather it's in the column we are not evolved for. long term. I never wanted to grow up fast. My life, my decisions have often been ruled by fear. Fear of failure. Knowing my base stats suck, that i can only succeed by choosing to persevere where others quit but could easily continue. God of the gaps, that's where opportunity rests. To become the top expert, make up your own field. And opportunity requires preparation. Preparation x Opportunity = What people call Luck. Saying "if only" is the same as "i wish", nothing can be done. You can only keep walking in a field of shit until you make it... to some predefined and measurable but ultimately arbitrary goal based on emotions you can't hope to predict or control the initial formation of. Why must all these things sound so negative? They aren't. It's life, there will be highs and lows, and you will "carry on and carry on though it's painful" (from an extended version of this song). Don't worry, you will survive. Heh. Life finds a way. Even after every homosapien and our descendants are gone, life will carry on. We were so lucky to be around, these last few what... millions of years? 4.8 billion years? Maybe one civilization will meet another. Maybe only the electromagnetic radiation from the start of one civilization will ever reach the end of another civilization. But we still have Milkdromeda. Life can exist within 1 civilization's time of eachother. What is left but gratitude now. Hope i guess is also there. I am content.
If anyone among you may have chosen to end yourselves to this, I hope this song brought you peace in your final or near-final moments, if you stopped. I still pay homage to the place where a stranger leapt when nobody can see me, I have remembered you (plural). You shall not fade away entirely, whether you remain or not, for this will remind me of you. When the final time I am here comes, and I am unaware of the finality of my decision to leave, I am thinking of you. I offer you one song, Life hates us now. / Mafumafu【Sang It】 Or the translyrics, translating the meaning behind the song, Hated by life itself. english ver. 【Oktavia】
music like this always sparks some feeling in me, I hope this sparks some feeling in you... "painful heart my eyes are rotting staring at the ceiling with sadness and pain but no tears to be seen all I wish is to be fine I lay lonely it's dark and hopeless depression only to keep please let me cry oh god my soul cries rivers but my face is dry you smell of a life long gone I smell of the shit I am rotting away doing nothing only staring at a screen to numb the pain oh please go away all I am is pain you say that I smell of a life long gone but we can still be me even if you have gone moldy It smells like your tears so unholy please find the hope so I can come back to our body perhaps this doesn't have to end so badly your ashamed of all you are now sunlight bleached and hidden away but I believe we can pull through before we are buried deep together we can be" it's meant to represent my depression, my body rotting as I can't take care of it and mind poisoned by the screens that are meant to distract me from life but only make things worse. there is a twing of hope but it's false, muted, wrong and greatly exaggerated for these lyrics. it only seems that this is my fate and there is nothing to do about it... "painful heart my eyes are rotting staring at the ceiling with sadness and pain but no tears to be seen all I wish is to be fine I lay lonely it's dark and hopeless depression only to keep please let me cry oh god my soul cries rivers but my face is dry you smell of a life long gone I smell of the shit I am rotting away doing nothing only staring at a screen to numb the pain oh please go away all I am is pain you say that I smell of a life long gone and you are completely right broken beyond repair and only false hope It smells like your tears so unholy please just give up and die there's no use in trying perhaps this doesn't have to end so badly your ashamed of all you are now sunlight bleached and hidden away but if you really think you can recover your dead wrong we can only rot as the world passes us by" now it really is a glimpse into my heart, sad, pessimistic, depressing, and self hating. gods am I not ok
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its almost midnight and i just finished my tea been listening to this on loop for hours, maybe i wont kill myself
❤ I'm here with you
You got this.
Well just don't kill yourself, there's alot more things waiting for you, despite everything that happens to you, there are still some people that love you. But tell me : What exactly is the problem?
Didn't know you were chill like that
I need to know if they're still alive 😭
Don't you miss the past? It goes so fast, and you lose the ones you love the most because of it.
I cry when I think about what could have been if just changed who I was and my personality and my friends wouldn't have all gone away one by one. I wouldn't have impulsive thoughts all the time either.
the beauty of existential dread. we are all animals. we know too much.
Basically what i was thinking along the lines of.
Yeah.
I’ve been listening to this video for a while now, and it inspired me to write a poem about my dead cat, and the poem is called “he smelled of fresh rain” :)
my cat died too
I hope you are doing well now, I know that is hard to recover from. Just remember all the things he has granted you, all the moments you two had and that was all he could give.
For some reason, this just explains/compliments my sadness. I don't know to explain it.
For me, this song is liberating. It’s like getting OVER sadness, and letting your mind be at peace, finally.
“in order to find peace, one must confront nothingness and find fulfillment in it” -me
DUDE.. that was really profound
WRITE MORE
Yeah
yo, that bird looks tasty.
i like it.
you looks tasty.
i like it.
@@Speed001 😏
the rain makes it so atmospheric this is fantastic
high asf rn and this hit the spot
I love the way this art tickles my brain
Maybe I won’t kill my self.
Please don't. I'm sure you are a very strong person and I believe in you
I’m glad that you, like me, find joy in these precious moments that make up life. However rare they may be at times, they are always there to reward you after a hard time/accomplishment, whether that be have a meaningful conversation or just getting through the day. Remember that these little moments are always there, waiting for you. One day, your hard work will be paid off and your life will be filled with nothing but these if you simply don’t give up.
sometimes it's better to think about what you're doing. if you feel like dying, take a short break and look outdoors for a little while. if that doesn't help, look for a wholesome video or photo on your phone that isn't about success or doing better than everyone else. you can just distract yourself until the pain fades. you'll be okay. i know you will.
My best friend’s nickname growing up was “Frost crow”. One day, he was locked out of his house (on purpose) in a blizzard. I snuck in and let him into the basement. His mother was not too happy with me.
I had his back. He had mine.
Years tore us apart… until recent.
My brother by water, not blood, had become someone I no longer knew.
Treated me like a stranger, tried to get all his friends to date me, to each I said “no thank you”.
One day, like old times, we watched a movie together. He pulled me close, and I felt like I was near a warm soul again. Until he tried telling me, that my intentions of getting near him, were something else (despite him being the one who pulled me closer).
I looked at the kind, scared boy I once knew and realized instead, there was a deceitful, clever man in front of me.
I was not his friend. I was nothing more than “another chick”.
I was not his sister by water anymore.
I left, safe, but crying.
He smells of de@d flowers to me.
All nostalgia plagued by melancholy.
I had his back. He had mine.
I had his back………… that’s it.
Thank you for your story, I shall water it in my garden.
The comments make me sad, please don't kill yourself. Reminder that there are people who love you.
Thank you
did you draw the background? the style is very yummy
yup, i have a main channel for art related stuff and im posting music edits here for fun.
I LOVE YOU FOR THIS GORGEOUS ART.@@CorvidMediaProduction
@@CorvidMediaProduction That's co cool!!
what do you mean by yummy
This is a really nice song and the rain makes it even better. Thank you
A piercing chill strikes... yet it is not unpleasant, only unexpected...
I miss her. She was my everything. My reason to live.
Thank you for making this
wish this was longer
u can put it on loop :D
i still cant forget the song of their voice echoing throught my mind at dawn knowing i was a spawn of hell i miss them i wish they could see me now i miss them
very relaxing
I can’t stop sobbing
I just want to end it all and this song is making me take it all in
There’s not anything especially happy about it, it’s just getting me to recollect trauma
I don’t know if I could even go through with killing myself considering that there’s so many people who have told me not to but the want is stronger than anything
I’m sorry if this isn’t grammatically correct, I don’t care about structuring my sentences right now
I'm so sorry for what you going through, I hope you can heal.
@@Bonnieslullabybox I’m surprised I’m still here but I don’t know if I’ll ever heal
@@omniscientbarebones healing takes time. it's good that your still here.
I really do wonder how I'll be remembered, though
gonna end it with this sound in 3 days. im feeling tired, is it just me? goodbye
Please don't do this, you will feel warm again
You still here, mate?
goodbye
You there? Please?
Okay good night
Absolutely brilliant
cro🖤
(team crow ftw. anyways im mentally exhausted and this morning's 5am phighting grinding session somehow drained me bc i was doing so poorly, might be partially bc my old mouse broke and the new one is a lil heavier and harder to move but idk)
Stunning
Seeing people here say they will kill themselves to this song, part of it makes me sad, part of it makes me angry.
3 months later.
I'm scared. I'm scared to text my friends.
Not an intense-immediate feeling, (bringing out the 4 quadrants, it is neither immediate nor important).
Rather it's in the column we are not evolved for. long term.
I never wanted to grow up fast.
My life, my decisions have often been ruled by fear.
Fear of failure. Knowing my base stats suck, that i can only succeed by choosing to persevere where others quit but could easily continue.
God of the gaps, that's where opportunity rests. To become the top expert, make up your own field. And opportunity requires preparation.
Preparation x Opportunity = What people call Luck.
Saying "if only" is the same as "i wish", nothing can be done. You can only keep walking in a field of shit until you make it... to some predefined and measurable but ultimately arbitrary goal based on emotions you can't hope to predict or control the initial formation of.
Why must all these things sound so negative? They aren't. It's life, there will be highs and lows, and you will "carry on and carry on though it's painful" (from an extended version of this song).
Don't worry, you will survive. Heh. Life finds a way. Even after every homosapien and our descendants are gone, life will carry on.
We were so lucky to be around, these last few what... millions of years? 4.8 billion years?
Maybe one civilization will meet another. Maybe only the electromagnetic radiation from the start of one civilization will ever reach the end of another civilization.
But we still have Milkdromeda. Life can exist within 1 civilization's time of eachother.
What is left but gratitude now. Hope i guess is also there. I am content.
Спасибо тебе
Me relaja esta cancion
If anyone among you may have chosen to end yourselves to this, I hope this song brought you peace in your final or near-final moments, if you stopped.
I still pay homage to the place where a stranger leapt when nobody can see me, I have remembered you (plural).
You shall not fade away entirely, whether you remain or not, for this will remind me of you.
When the final time I am here comes, and I am unaware of the finality of my decision to leave, I am thinking of you.
I offer you one song, Life hates us now. / Mafumafu【Sang It】
Or the translyrics, translating the meaning behind the song, Hated by life itself. english ver. 【Oktavia】
music like this always sparks some feeling in me, I hope this sparks some feeling in you...
"painful heart
my eyes are rotting
staring at the ceiling with sadness
and pain but no tears to be seen
all I wish is to be fine
I lay lonely
it's dark and hopeless
depression only to keep
please let me cry oh god
my soul cries rivers
but my face is dry
you smell of a life long gone
I smell of the shit I am
rotting away doing nothing
only staring at a screen
to numb the pain
oh please go away
all I am is pain
you say that I smell of a life long gone
but we can still be me
even if you have gone moldy
It smells like your tears so unholy
please find the hope so I can
come back to our body
perhaps this doesn't have to end so badly
your ashamed of all you are now
sunlight bleached and hidden away
but I believe we can pull through
before we are buried deep
together we can be"
it's meant to represent my depression, my body rotting as I can't take care of it and mind poisoned by the screens that are meant to distract me from life but only make things worse. there is a twing of hope but it's false, muted, wrong and greatly exaggerated for these lyrics. it only seems that this is my fate and there is nothing to do about it...
"painful heart
my eyes are rotting
staring at the ceiling with sadness
and pain but no tears to be seen
all I wish is to be fine
I lay lonely
it's dark and hopeless
depression only to keep
please let me cry oh god
my soul cries rivers
but my face is dry
you smell of a life long gone
I smell of the shit I am
rotting away doing nothing
only staring at a screen
to numb the pain
oh please go away
all I am is pain
you say that I smell of a life long gone
and you are completely right
broken beyond repair and only false hope
It smells like your tears so unholy
please just give up and die
there's no use in trying
perhaps this doesn't have to end so badly
your ashamed of all you are now
sunlight bleached and hidden away
but if you really think you can recover
your dead wrong
we can only rot as the world passes us by"
now it really is a glimpse into my heart, sad, pessimistic, depressing, and self hating.
gods am I not ok
Why peoples scared of death?