The story of John Candy switching trailers with Maureen O'Hara just goes to show Candy’s kindness and generosity towards others around him. He was such a kind soul that was too pure for this world. Candy truly was one of a kind!
I believe the rest of that story is that the producers were so embarrassed to have a big star like John Candy in such a small trailer that they quickly found money in the budget to get him a new trailer as big as the one he gave to her.
Hey man thank you for this. Seriously. I’ve long thought about what could have been for Candy’s career as a dramatic actor and this video really does amazing job of showcasing how he was about to break out as such. I don’t know how you wrote and compiled this video without crying several times, because I shed a tear just watching it. This was a family favorite in my house growing up, and I’m glad someone shed light on it. It was long overdue, and you did a spectacular job of it. Thanks again.
That Tonight Show clip of Maureen O'Hara declaring "He's too young now..." really stands out now as both sweet and sad. All I could think was: Yeah, he sure was.
I remember it depressed me and I took a long walk around my neighborhood when I heard, just got a little depressed again hearing Maureen’s kind words about Candy’s future roles with Johnny Carson😢
Not a single dud from this channel. I saw Planes, Trains and Automobiles two months ago. Your infectious enthusiasm played a huge part in giving it a watch at last. It's a great and hilarious movie with a wholesome and sweet ending. Pretty much every time you talk about John Candy you always make me think "I've really gotta see this one".
@@hattorihanzo2275 No. It's just one of those movies I knew I've got to see, but just never found the right opportunity at first. I came close 2022, but it didn't happen. Then finally around Thanksgiving last year I thought it was about time for me to check it out, so I ordered a John Hughes box set (Where it was included with 4 other films he's written and/or directed). And now after seeing it I'm even more eager to watch whatever I haven't seen from Candy or Hughes yet.
Fun fact: according to Maureen O’Hara’s memoir, her longtime friend and “How Green Was My Valley” costar Roddy McDowall supposedly appeared in a scene in this movie that was left on the cutting room floor.
This movie brought together three generations of my family. My grandpa loved Maureen O'Hara from old John Wayne movies. I loved John Candy for his comedies and my mom loved a romantic comedy. We were all Catholic, hence riddled with guilt. Always has been one of my favorite movies.
It's a shame that this movie isn't more well known. John Candy gave his most likable performance, in my opinion, Ally Sheedy is sweet as his love interest, and Maureen O'Hara is also superb, having been persuaded to come out of a twenty year retirement thanks to Candy's persuasion.
Thank you for mentioning this movie! It's criminally underrated. John Candy and Maureen O'Hara had amazing chemistry together. RIP to both of these legends.
Absolutely. Such a great scene. Supposedly, he was very, very nervous during the filming as he was pictured with so many other great actors. Also, the portion of that scene where they cut from the present (in the restaurant) to the past (with Tommy Lee Jones) while he's smoking a cigarette is editing genius. Check it out.
I always love the kind of interactions between older stars who have retired or gone “out of style” and newer stars that are so mutually respectful and supportive like what’s shown in this video.
I miss John Candy so much. There's just something about...how his heart and soul just bust through in every performance, my own heart aches to remember how he left us so soon.
Candy's love interest, Ally Sheedy, had people doubting her acting abilities but not if they saw her movie "Maid to Order" She was great in the staring role. She is wonderful here, opposite John Candy. John as an actor was such a force of nature as was Maureen O'Hara. I need to get a copy of this movie.
I first saw this in the theater with my mom when I was little. I loved it then and still love it today. It's an underrated romantic comedy and underrated John Candy film.
This is one of my favorites John Candy movies. I think it was a great collaboration with John Hughes and Chris Columbus. An all around underrated movie.
Theres nothing that turns around my day more than seeing one of your videos drop. Especially a John Candy/John Hughes film. Youre a youtube gem and bless you for your service
I absolutely love this movie. It is one of my favorites. When I lived in Chicago I went to St. John Cantius--the church that the characters go to and get married in--every week for mass; not because it was in the movie, but I just thought that was a cool fact. John Candy is such a great counterpart to Maureen O'Hara in this picture. I am so happy it exists. I also love how they have old Comiskey in the movie too.
I took my mom to see this movie when it originally hit the cinema. She used to show me old Maureen O'Hara films when I was younger and we both loved John Candy, so it was a nice fit for us to see together. We both loved it.
How am I just hearing about this?? Thank you very much for featuring it. Cheese and rice, I'm almost in tears. As if I couldn't love John Candy any more, here I am. One DVD on "that auction site" is $40. I would love to purchase it digitally (hopefully for a little less than $40).
I hope this film gets a nice bluray release. It’s at the top of my physical media wishlist. I mean, somehow Paramount heard you with your awesome Planes, Trains and Automobiles video and brought out the lost footage along with the 4K of that film. Hoping this video does the trick for Only the Lonely :) Except it’s a 20th Century property… which makes it wishful thinking.
It's pretty much a tale as old as time: almost all comedic actors never get the credit they deserve for their acting chops until they do more dramatic roles. It usually takes films like this one or something like Jim Carrey in "The Truman Show" to go "wow, that dude is a good actor!"
I've always loved John Candy, especially in films such as this. I have spent several months trying to find this on DVD, and finally had succeeded in doing so! I feel that this is one of John Candy's best films! He and the rest of the cast did a fantastic job, especially the legendary Maureen O'Hara and Anthony Quinn. Thanks for sharing this video! 😎👍
I'm a 90s kid and used to be obsessed with Siskel & Ebert and remember the rave they gave this movie, and especially Maureen O'Hara's performance saying she deserved an Oscar nomination. I miss them, John Candy and Ms. O'Hara. The movie is a big cup of cocoa!
I got a DVD copy of the movie during my Jim Belushi kick cause I’m a big Jim Belushi fan and John candy is great in the movie John and Maureen seem to have great chemistry cause it feels thst got along well on set in their performance as mother and son
Something that surprised me several years back was how hard it could be to find John Candy movies after the VHS era. You'd think it would be as easy as buying a few Bluray collections. Not only do those collections not exist, it feels like only a handful of his movies even made it to Bluray, and I'm not sure if some even made it to (what would now anyway be long out of print) DVD?
You had my like even before I saw a frame of this video. Only the Lonely is a fantastically underrated romantic comedy. I know the chemistry between Candy and O’Hara is always singled out but I think what really makes the movie transcend is also the chemistry between Candy and Ally Sheedy. The fact that it has it both ways is the real reason the movie works so well. You believe O’Hara can be Candy’s mom and you can believe that Sheedy would fall in love with Candy.
I remember watching this movie when I was a kid in 1991 and loving it, recently while helping my mom sort out her video cabinet, I found this movie on DVD and decided to borrow it. Can’t wait to actually watch it again. Sucks that it’s out of print ( didn’t know that )and I can’t find one of my own, so I’m happy she still had a copy laying around.
John Candy's four greatest performances, in order: PTaA. Only the lonely. Uncle Buck. JFK. The first three, because they perfectly married his strengths, both as a fantastic comedian, and a serious dramatic actor who wore his heart on his sleeve and could effortlessly bring you to tears. Although his role in JFK was brief, it was fucking spectacular, and stands as the closest we will ever get to witnessing Candy's skill in a full blown dramatic performance.
I haven’t even heard of this- it’s like finding out one of your fav bands had another album you never knew about. John hughes and Chris Columbus….what a pair of artists. Their movies feel like novels, they take their time, they never lose sight of where they’re going even though it feels like we’re just meandering through life. I love the way I feel when movies like this end. Life feels manageable
John Candy will always be one of the greats. It's sad watching that interview on Carson that we didn't get to see him in more dramatic roles. Nevertheless, this movie is a gem and, like you, I am glad to have a DVD copy in my own collection.
Some trivia not noted: the baseball field date was filmed at the original Comiskey Park, and was one of the very last things done there before it was demolished.
I absolutely adore this film. John Candy really taps into something unguarded and great in this performance. I could not find it for a few years on DVD or streaming before starz got the rights. Luckily I found a laserdisk bundle of this and Heavenly Creatures. It's well worth the watch for any John Candy fan. :)
A word of caution to those of you seeking out this lovely film. There are two cuts of it, the shorter of which edits out some scenes where Maureen O'Hara's character is saying some pretty objectionable stuff, but in doing so, it undercuts the character growth and ending of the film. The superior, uncut, theatrical version of the film is out there, if you know where to look, hint hint. I’ll also say that what O’Hara said about Candy’s dramatic chops is true. One of the sad things about John Candy’s passing away so young, is that he had the potential to go on and not only make some really great comedy films but also dramatic ones too… he could have had a career like Robin Williams.
This movie is so good, definitely in my top 3 of John Candy movies (the others being Uncle Buck and Planes, Trains and Automobiles). I loved seeing John Candy with Ally Sheedy. Very underrated movie, it was a very pleasant surprise and I felt stupid for not watching it sooner.
It's such a shame that this isn't available to stream, because after your review, I REALLY want to watch it! It looks like exactly the kind of movie I would enjoy!
As an editor of film myself, I realize the fade to black pause behind John's trailer story was lengthened on the emphasis of the power of story. Just to let you know *someone* appreciated it. 😉
'Only The Lonely' has John Candy in it, so I'm going to see it irregardless of what the critics may or may not think of it. That man is a fond memory of my childhood, so even in his absence I owe it to him to see his finest dramatic role 👍 Im hunting this one down!
Thank you. They could represent Marueen O'Hara's charcter's legs. Another film's poster shows John Candy facing two pair of legs. The added one represents Ally's legs with a shorter skit.
Hearing Maureen O’Hara talk about Candy becoming ready to take on the great roles makes me sad that we never got to see him play the role he might have been born for: Shakespeare’s Falstaff.
The story of John Candy switching trailers with Maureen O'Hara just goes to show Candy’s kindness and generosity towards others around him. He was such a kind soul that was too pure for this world. Candy truly was one of a kind!
I believe the rest of that story is that the producers were so embarrassed to have a big star like John Candy in such a small trailer that they quickly found money in the budget to get him a new trailer as big as the one he gave to her.
John Candy was the truth! He is deeply missed......
Hey man thank you for this. Seriously. I’ve long thought about what could have been for Candy’s career as a dramatic actor and this video really does amazing job of showcasing how he was about to break out as such. I don’t know how you wrote and compiled this video without crying several times, because I shed a tear just watching it. This was a family favorite in my house growing up, and I’m glad someone shed light on it. It was long overdue, and you did a spectacular job of it. Thanks again.
He died making dinner for his assistants.
That Tonight Show clip of Maureen O'Hara declaring "He's too young now..." really stands out now as both sweet and sad. All I could think was: Yeah, he sure was.
Same
Cant believe it'll be 30 years this March since John left us, still very much missed.
I remember it depressed me and I took a long walk around my neighborhood when I heard, just got a little depressed again hearing Maureen’s kind words about Candy’s future roles with Johnny Carson😢
He was like a fun Uncle for us 80's babies. He left us way too young.
Rip John Candy John Belushi, and Chris Farley, three childhood goats
John Belushi, Jim is John’s brother
Not a single dud from this channel. I saw Planes, Trains and Automobiles two months ago. Your infectious enthusiasm played a huge part in giving it a watch at last. It's a great and hilarious movie with a wholesome and sweet ending. Pretty much every time you talk about John Candy you always make me think "I've really gotta see this one".
I'd argue his video on Your Highness could have been left off, but maybe that's more just that movie being so obscene and literally nothing else.
Wow. It's a classic. Is there a reason you never watched it?
@@hattorihanzo2275 No. It's just one of those movies I knew I've got to see, but just never found the right opportunity at first. I came close 2022, but it didn't happen. Then finally around Thanksgiving last year I thought it was about time for me to check it out, so I ordered a John Hughes box set (Where it was included with 4 other films he's written and/or directed). And now after seeing it I'm even more eager to watch whatever I haven't seen from Candy or Hughes yet.
@@AlkisenSuper Enjoy the journey. Candy's oeuvre, Hughes associated or not, is well worth your time.
@@hattorihanzo2275 Thanks. I got The Great Outdoors on DVD a month ago 👍
RIP John Candy, Maureen O'Hara, AND Comiskey Park, all stars of this movie 😢
Comiskey Park!
Fun fact: according to Maureen O’Hara’s memoir, her longtime friend and “How Green Was My Valley” costar Roddy McDowall supposedly appeared in a scene in this movie that was left on the cutting room floor.
Good old Cornelius/Caesar. He'd be a welcome addition as always if they let him in.
This movie brought together three generations of my family. My grandpa loved Maureen O'Hara from old John Wayne movies. I loved John Candy for his comedies and my mom loved a romantic comedy. We were all Catholic, hence riddled with guilt. Always has been one of my favorite movies.
I love Candys performance in this film, it’s so sweet and genuine
It's a shame that this movie isn't more well known. John Candy gave his most likable performance, in my opinion, Ally Sheedy is sweet as his love interest, and Maureen O'Hara is also superb, having been persuaded to come out of a twenty year retirement thanks to Candy's persuasion.
Yeah and of course you are here
Thank you for mentioning this movie! It's criminally underrated. John Candy and Maureen O'Hara had amazing chemistry together. RIP to both of these legends.
His cameo in JFK is spectacular!!
That's right, daddy-o!
Absolutely. Such a great scene. Supposedly, he was very, very nervous during the filming as he was pictured with so many other great actors. Also, the portion of that scene where they cut from the present (in the restaurant) to the past (with Tommy Lee Jones) while he's smoking a cigarette is editing genius. Check it out.
John Candy is such a likable and down to earth guy, he’s like a big teddy bear
I always love the kind of interactions between older stars who have retired or gone “out of style” and newer stars that are so mutually respectful and supportive like what’s shown in this video.
I miss John Candy so much. There's just something about...how his heart and soul just bust through in every performance, my own heart aches to remember how he left us so soon.
This, Uncle Buck, and Planes Trains & Automobiles are legendary for me. John Candy is to this day my favorite actor of all time.
i love this film, it's more of a different role for John Candy, more subdued and serious, and also heartbreaking
Hearing Maureen say: 'yeah, I'll be his mom' melted me ❤
Candy's love interest, Ally Sheedy, had people doubting her acting abilities but not if they saw her movie "Maid to Order" She was great in the staring role. She is wonderful here, opposite John Candy. John as an actor was such a force of nature as was Maureen O'Hara. I need to get a copy of this movie.
I first saw this in the theater with my mom when I was little. I loved it then and still love it today. It's an underrated romantic comedy and underrated John Candy film.
This is one of my favorites John Candy movies. I think it was a great collaboration with John Hughes and Chris Columbus. An all around underrated movie.
Theres nothing that turns around my day more than seeing one of your videos drop. Especially a John Candy/John Hughes film. Youre a youtube gem and bless you for your service
I absolutely love this movie. It is one of my favorites. When I lived in Chicago I went to St. John Cantius--the church that the characters go to and get married in--every week for mass; not because it was in the movie, but I just thought that was a cool fact. John Candy is such a great counterpart to Maureen O'Hara in this picture. I am so happy it exists. I also love how they have old Comiskey in the movie too.
I tell everyone about this movie and emphasize that they need to stick for the ending- and I refuse to spoil it. Maureen O'Hara went out swinging.
I’m a simple man. I see a new Hats Off Entertainment video, I click.
I took my mom to see this movie when it originally hit the cinema. She used to show me old Maureen O'Hara films when I was younger and we both loved John Candy, so it was a nice fit for us to see together. We both loved it.
man, he was so amazing as a actor and as a human being
How am I just hearing about this?? Thank you very much for featuring it. Cheese and rice, I'm almost in tears. As if I couldn't love John Candy any more, here I am. One DVD on "that auction site" is $40. I would love to purchase it digitally (hopefully for a little less than $40).
Great movie! John candy is missed 😢
Only the lonely is a classic movie John Candy is a legend
If it wasn’t for 80scommercialvault and this channel, I wouldn’t have heard of these gems.
John Candy was a national treasure.
If John Candy can't bring a smile to your face then you are soulless.
I absolutely love this film. It's a shame it is so hard to watch now because it truly shows John Candy's versatility
I hope this film gets a nice bluray release. It’s at the top of my physical media wishlist. I mean, somehow Paramount heard you with your awesome Planes, Trains and Automobiles video and brought out the lost footage along with the 4K of that film. Hoping this video does the trick for Only the Lonely :) Except it’s a 20th Century property… which makes it wishful thinking.
Marine O’Hara also worked with Charles Laughton in the late 30s hence why in the Tonight Show interview she mentions Charles Laughton
Whenever I see the “mutiny on the bounty” poster with Charles laughton and Clark gable, I always think it’s John Candy at first!
@@oliviamarr6476 I mean this movie also has an actress who worked with him
It is a really good movie. I’m shocked it’s out of print, and now I’m reading that there’s never even been a Blu-ray release!
this film used to be on TBS back in the early 90's all the time. such a fantastic film, and classic john candy.
The DVD of this IS available! I can buy it right now on both Amazon and eBay!
He was referring to it being available in circulation. Of course you can buy old copies, but they haven't made new copies of it for almost 2 decades.
"Oh, Danny. I hope you enjoy your date !" *BLAM*
It's pretty much a tale as old as time: almost all comedic actors never get the credit they deserve for their acting chops until they do more dramatic roles. It usually takes films like this one or something like Jim Carrey in "The Truman Show" to go "wow, that dude is a good actor!"
I used to love this movie when it played on cable around 1990. Casting was spot on with Candy, Sheedy, and the mom.
One of favorite John Candy movies!
We lost John Candy far too soon. 😢
Very underrated movie! Need to be recognized more then what it's getting now!
I watched this movie as a child and loved it. John Candy was always one of my favorite actors. He just always brings something so sincere and special
I've always loved John Candy, especially in films such as this. I have spent several months trying to find this on DVD, and finally had succeeded in doing so! I feel that this is one of John Candy's best films! He and the rest of the cast did a fantastic job, especially the legendary Maureen O'Hara and Anthony Quinn. Thanks for sharing this video! 😎👍
John Candy cameoed in Home Alone in 1990
Then Macaulay Culkin cameoed in Only the Lonely in 1991
Then Ally Sheedy cameoed in Home Alone 2 in 1992
My grandma had this movie in her tape collection and I remember seating in her living room more than once watching it.
John candy was the greatest. Maureen was amazing at being reprehensible and lovable, alternatingly
I'm a 90s kid and used to be obsessed with Siskel & Ebert and remember the rave they gave this movie, and especially Maureen O'Hara's performance saying she deserved an Oscar nomination. I miss them, John Candy and Ms. O'Hara. The movie is a big cup of cocoa!
I loved this movie. Even when I was 12. Candy was a treasure.
My dad and I both really liked this movie. As an Irish American, it hits close to home. A really solid flick.
I got a DVD copy of the movie during my Jim Belushi kick cause I’m a big Jim Belushi fan and John candy is great in the movie John and Maureen seem to have great chemistry cause it feels thst got along well on set in their performance as mother and son
I'm glad this movie is getting some attention. This is one great Rom Com.
Something that surprised me several years back was how hard it could be to find John Candy movies after the VHS era. You'd think it would be as easy as buying a few Bluray collections. Not only do those collections not exist, it feels like only a handful of his movies even made it to Bluray, and I'm not sure if some even made it to (what would now anyway be long out of print) DVD?
My mom showed me this movie when I was young, and her and I couldn't stop laughing throughout the whole thing.
You had my like even before I saw a frame of this video. Only the Lonely is a fantastically underrated romantic comedy. I know the chemistry between Candy and O’Hara is always singled out but I think what really makes the movie transcend is also the chemistry between Candy and Ally Sheedy. The fact that it has it both ways is the real reason the movie works so well. You believe O’Hara can be Candy’s mom and you can believe that Sheedy would fall in love with Candy.
I remember watching this movie when I was a kid in 1991 and loving it, recently while helping my mom sort out her video cabinet, I found this movie on DVD and decided to borrow it. Can’t wait to actually watch it again. Sucks that it’s out of print ( didn’t know that )and I can’t find one of my own, so I’m happy she still had a copy laying around.
Saw this just last week. Have always loved this movie. John Candy was just a treasure.
Jim Belushi's best Almost Cult Classic is Taking Care of Business.
Real John Candy fans have seen this movie and own it in their film library. I have it
John Candy's four greatest performances, in order:
PTaA. Only the lonely. Uncle Buck.
JFK. The first three, because they perfectly married his strengths, both as a fantastic comedian, and a serious dramatic actor who wore his heart on his sleeve and could effortlessly bring you to tears. Although his role in JFK was brief, it was fucking spectacular, and stands as the closest we will ever get to witnessing Candy's skill in a full blown dramatic performance.
I've been waiting for this day that you get to talk about Only the Lonely as an Almost Cult Classic! 😁
I haven’t even heard of this- it’s like finding out one of your fav bands had another album you never knew about. John hughes and Chris Columbus….what a pair of artists. Their movies feel like novels, they take their time, they never lose sight of where they’re going even though it feels like we’re just meandering through life. I love the way I feel when movies like this end. Life feels manageable
John Candy will always be one of the greats. It's sad watching that interview on Carson that we didn't get to see him in more dramatic roles. Nevertheless, this movie is a gem and, like you, I am glad to have a DVD copy in my own collection.
Maureen’s Charles Laughton comparison was spot on. “Witness for the Prosecution” with Candy would have ruled.
John Candy was wonderful in this with mousy gf and bossy mom .A MUST SEE FILM
John Candy never misses!
“Protestants and Jews go to the psychiatrist. We go to the priest!” Epic line 😂
This was such a lovely movie and its box office earnings was a poor indicator of how much its main stars made this film memorable.
Some trivia not noted: the baseball field date was filmed at the original Comiskey Park, and was one of the very last things done there before it was demolished.
I absolutely adore this film. John Candy really taps into something unguarded and great in this performance. I could not find it for a few years on DVD or streaming before starz got the rights. Luckily I found a laserdisk bundle of this and Heavenly Creatures. It's well worth the watch for any John Candy fan. :)
Ever sense I first saw this I have loved it , very underrated masterpiece
A word of caution to those of you seeking out this lovely film. There are two cuts of it, the shorter of which edits out some scenes where Maureen O'Hara's character is saying some pretty objectionable stuff, but in doing so, it undercuts the character growth and ending of the film. The superior, uncut, theatrical version of the film is out there, if you know where to look, hint hint.
I’ll also say that what O’Hara said about Candy’s dramatic chops is true. One of the sad things about John Candy’s passing away so young, is that he had the potential to go on and not only make some really great comedy films but also dramatic ones too… he could have had a career like Robin Williams.
I loved this movie as a kid. It's soooooo underrated
John candy was and still is a gift. Dude can't be replicated or replaced! A true legend! 🤘
I saw this movie recently and fell in love with it.
John did a great job here. John also appeared in another Hughes project this year: Career Opportunities.
A great movie to watch on Valentine's Day.❤
This movie is so good, definitely in my top 3 of John Candy movies (the others being Uncle Buck and Planes, Trains and Automobiles). I loved seeing John Candy with Ally Sheedy. Very underrated movie, it was a very pleasant surprise and I felt stupid for not watching it sooner.
It's such a shame that this isn't available to stream, because after your review, I REALLY want to watch it! It looks like exactly the kind of movie I would enjoy!
I rented this movie from my library growing up several times!
Such an underrated gem! I had it on tape as a kid.
I have seen a lot of john candy movies but never this one! Looks like I know what I am watching this next week!
This is the only almost cult I've never actually heard of
This is easily my favorite John Candy movie.
As an editor of film myself, I realize the fade to black pause behind John's trailer story was lengthened on the emphasis of the power of story. Just to let you know *someone* appreciated it. 😉
I watched this a bunch of times as a kid, it's a good film!
I think if candy never died he probably would’ve ended up being in more serious roles like how we saw robin Williams transition to in the mid 90’s
I think he would have been great, judging from his cameo in the movie JFK.😢
I could see an alternate 1 Hour Photo with John Candy instead, I could also see Candy as the Walter Sobcheck character in The Big Lebowski.
Maureen O'Hara, what a classy lady, really a representation of old Hollywood. A time now long gone.
I miss John Candy. He is and always be such a treasure.
'Only The Lonely' has John Candy in it, so I'm going to see it irregardless of what the critics may or may not think of it. That man is a fond memory of my childhood, so even in his absence I owe it to him to see his finest dramatic role 👍
Im hunting this one down!
I absolutely adore this movie.
Thank you.
They could represent Marueen O'Hara's charcter's legs. Another film's poster shows John Candy facing two pair of legs. The added one represents Ally's legs with a shorter skit.
I love this movie. I used to watch it with my parents and my grandma and I still have the vhs copy.
Hearing Maureen O’Hara talk about Candy becoming ready to take on the great roles makes me sad that we never got to see him play the role he might have been born for: Shakespeare’s Falstaff.
I'm watching right now. The bar scene in the beginning is hilarious. There's a dead body in the bar and it's like no big deal.
Wow. What a trip down memory lane this was.
I loved this movie even as a little kid