This is so true. I remember on my honeymoon eating and drinking so much I mean 5 courses in the evening where I once had to lie down because I ate so much but the memories were so special to me, and I remember how happy I was. Keep going absolutely love your videos. X
You are my favorite! I look forward to your videos so much. I live in comfy clothes. Thankfully they are really in style now and cute. Volunteering with the elderly has helped me a lot. They are so open and accepting.helps me get out of my own head and to see how short life really is. People who have lost their spouses-makes me want to live with my husband now while i can-not just obsess about food and exercise and isolate. Since finding your channel, the last couple of days I’ve had increased courage with eating. I think of you doing this too. Its not easy but just have to do it. Anorexia is such a mind trip with happiness. Misery = happiness. Takes a lot of reprogramming and daily self practice.
Joy Cooper volunteering is amazing isn’t it. Anorexia is so consuming & getting out of your head & helping other people can be so brilliant! & yeh if it can give you some perspective & realisation that we only get one go at life then that’s great! I just posted another vid about 5 minutes ago 🙌
You are so real... I love that you share EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE. Sometimes it means you don't love your body or call it fat and sometimes you are really into recovery. I cannot appreciate you more in this point in time in my journey. Also, love your cats~!
I totally love the you shaped concept. I mean it shouldn’t be a concept, but it is the shape we each should be. I’m grateful for you talking about all this today. I’m struggling with the idea of increasing my intake again and I should be doing that from now but finding myself hanging back on taking that step. But, I know really I need to in order to find ME, and the shape of me that allows me to be truly myself rather than this restricted, constrained, tiny version of me. Anyway, this was to say thanks. Hope you have a good day xx
Exactlyyyyy, I love everything you just said there. We just need to be us, not the x, y, z that our eating disorders order us to be. It's so weird, they're in your head saying they're going to make everything better for you and make you happy, and really they just make you miserable and isolate. Take the step to increase! Break the cycle that keeps you trapped in miserable AN life. YOU CAN DO IT!!
Megsy Recovery ED is so full of crap!!! Today is hard, but recovery is worth all the ups and downs. Just have to stick with it even on the tough days. Thanks again for this video. Hope you’ve had a good day so far xx
I have IBS, so can NEVER eat "meals"", only small portions multiple times a day. I never feel hungry (never have), and also suffer from chronic pain, so rarely enjoy eating. I'm 62, and weigh 32kg
I am so happy I have stumbled across your channel!! I am gaining weight after my second relapse in anorexia and I'm honestly so so grateful to be able to listen to your advice! ❤️
It’s never a straight forward journey. But I think you learn from a relapse & if nothing else it reminds you what hell life is with eating issues, & none of us deserve that. Good luck in your journey!
I still struggle because I tell myself you can be chubby and pretty bht if you arent pretty you need to be skinny. My face just doesnt suit the extra weight even though the body isnt huge. I just wish being unattractive didnt make me feel so unvalid and unfunny and uncute
you are beautiful in those photos! because you are beautiful, beautiful soul and smile and such a lovely bubbly personality and a kind strong spirit and so personable! you have so much to recover for you can see why your boyf and friends love you so much! xxx
Lucy Strutton bless your heart this is so nice. Yes I’m very lucky, it’s exactly why I want to kick it for good now!! It’s just such a stubborn little thing to go! Hope you have a good weekend 😚
Love your videos. I agree i have had an ed for 15 years. I did have a little bit of recovery and gained weight and remembered having so much fun even though I didn’t like my body. Such a good reminder
Yuuuuuuum!! Absolutely love how you say that😄😄 Jen Brett is another favorite of mine!!! Wish she would upload more tho lol I feel like I can’t go so long without her content hehe... kinda like yours now! Been binge watching your videos and you are a staple in my day now too!!!! Love love love ya and send internet hugs 🤗🤗🤗 from California☀️🌴
Thanks for your honest contribution! Unfortunately my mom always makes comment about my cheeks (she says hey are round) and it’s a major trigger to my body image and self esteem. I don’t know how to cope with her insensitive words anymore...
Kim Lau ahhh that can be so so hard to hear. I’m literally recording a vlog now do address your mums comments & how not to let them throw you off. You need a bit of a comment wall, whatever some one says it doesn’t change what YOU need to do. I really do have quite a round “chubby” face & that’s just that. I’m just going to have to accept it & I can still be an awesome person with a round face ☺️
Hey Meg, another brilliant vid!! Know it's an old one but I'm working my way through.. Love them, they're really helping me! You talk about feeling comfy and wearing the right thing when you're gaining weight - I'm struggling with that at the mo. LIVING in leggings and jumpers. But it's getting hot in London and I need to think differently. Do you have summer clothes tips?! xxxx
I’m sooooo glad I found your channel. Bless your heart. You’re absolutely amazing and a great inspiration. Keep them videos coming 😬😍 also where do u live? I can’t figure it out
Your face was so so beautifull! I recognise alot of thoughts you have! When i look at pics of my healthy weight I think the same way! Like i want to turn back time, but also I don't :o So confusing! You are so so so amasing, and just let me point out, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ONLY HAVE 339 SUBSCRIBERS? when I discovered your channel and was binge watching your video's I thought you would have god 30 000 subs :o You are so positive, pretty, honest, fun personallity! I was so suprised you didn't have more vieuws, cause you totally deserve it! I think, in 3 months, when people find your channel, you will grow so so big! I love you, you help me so much!
Liesl Corremans that’s amazing to hear, I’m so glad they’re helpful for you, hun. & it’s up to 342 now. I think that’s loads!! 🙀 I really love making them, & I’m actually quite shy I think it’s really good for my confidence ☺️ thanks for watching. Hope you have a good week too x
Wow, that's amazing! You're channel grows so so fast! To me 343 is so much, but for someone so amazing and talented (I actually think you could make a living from TV or youtube) Is it so little! I feel like you are going to grow grow and grow whilst getting more confident, healthy and beautifull! Also, i love that you are a bit older (like i am) because i sometimes feel 'to old' to have an ed! (seeing all the 16 year old girls in this community) Thanks for the quick reaction! I wish you the best!!!!!
Hahahaha I just literally LOL'd, in the literal sense. Haha. I'm really really quite shy. & yes agree on the older thing, it's a little gap in the market haha. But no, in all seriousness, I don't know about you but I got ill when I was a teenage and I really cannot believe I am still facing these same issues. Just goes to show if you don't break the cycles it will literally go on forever! Are you on Instagram?
Just love your positive energy and I relate to everything you say. I also am one of those people who need to eat right away, or at least I think I am Ha! It's so hard to know what one is really like when you've had any eating disorder for so long. I seriously can't stand seeing pics of myself at a "normal" weight. I just think I look too big. Our minds must get so warped! :(
Penny McDonald yeh they definitely do. I told Brendan about this vlog & the fact that I’d shown a photo of Mexico. I said how much I didn’t like my body in it & he got really upset. He was like you looked amazing, & also beyond that - regardless of looks you were free. So I know it’s more than looks, but yes I think we do get warped thinking we looked gross at a normal weight, no one else would ever think that
Penny McDonald one thing I do which helps me.... I look at a photo of myself at a healthy weight which I don’t like, & then imagine it with some one else’s head on. Do I still think it looks fat? Probably not! Maybe try it, see if it works for you
OH good god. I'm a massive breakfast person. I remember when I was in inpatient and starting recovery, my tummy growling would wake me up. I'd want to sleep in, but my body was like "Get food in mah belleh!!!" (PS: also a huge fan of Jenn Brett. Love that channel.)
Me too, lying awake from 5am thinking "I can't wait til breakfast" and then immediately thinking "oh my god I don't want breakfast!".... What a confusing illness. Anyway, breakfast rocks, let's all eat amazing breakfasts and enjoy our food :)
Hi.. came across ur channel... relate to everything ur saying... I am a 47 year old women who has struggled for many years... overexcersise, restricting , chew and spitting... feel lost, isolated and alone with this illness..can u help me
Spencer Gruis so sorry to hear that! Hope the videos can help. Stephanie Marie & Jen Brett do really good videos too if you subscribe to their channels. Big hug for you 🤗
Ahhhh honestly so bad. I don’t talk about it that much do i. Sometimes my stomach does mental shit & I literally have to lie down. Just really hoping it’ll get better with consistency & being a healthy weight 😘
I have three topics I'd like to ask you about:: do you have a night-time routine? As nights, evenings can be difficult and awkward (and so much night sanity depends on excellent daytime eating) or how your sleep patterns are changing. Second, dealing with food disappointment, in the relearning process. On one hand, it is pure joy to be able to not like a food (and recognize the difference, when it is just a food and not a moral decision, or a trauma, since we now eat all the time, like humans), but it can feel so big. What is your learning curve? Lastly, how about beer and wine? Big cheers and deep love to you. It's such a big, bright world, and we get to participate!!
LOVE what you wrote at the end of that. We miss out on so much of life because of ED crap! Ok sleep I hope I answered in my latest vlog. The 2nd thing, do you mean wanting food to be perfect all the time. This is something I actively remind myself out loud all the time. Because I am recovering for life to come first, not food. So it doesn’t matter if it’s not perfect. & thirdly, I love wine & cider. I struggle to have them on top of normal food, but it is something I try to challenge because alcohol is a bit part of my family’s life at weekends / holidays etc. So I want to be able to enjoy it with them. Hope that helps 🤗
no, not being perfect (oh, such a frustrating and confusing term that gets thrown around in ED-land...) but dealing with mini-frustrations that do but DON'T matter, and seeing how they are a waterfall to being aware of the world as a whole. I suppose, moving from all the silly sad little things, with acceptance and adventure, into the bigger and big ones! Thank you for covering all the bits, and for really opening with the rest and sleep issue. Rest is the best:) May you have a weekend of curiosity and goodness, Dear You. Loved the photos video. I like to see photos of me as a younger kid, jolly and pink. We can practice that sparkle of newness in all we do today
Diza Luciano yes. It’s good to look back on photos. Also when you see yourself as a child you’re so innocent & sweet, & I feel so guilty about what I have done to myself & to that little girl. Know what I mean? That helps me sometimes
I live in East Sussex we have a roly’s fudge pantry, my mum is obsessed with it lol, every November we go and buy the Christmas pudding one , 😋😘, awesome video as always x
Great video. Like you, I am lucky that I have a husband who likes a little heft on his woman. Lol! I will probably never be as cushion-y as he would like, but he has always loved me no matter what, and has been my biggest cheerleader for recovery. It's very true that as you let go of food obsessions, and allow your body to do it's thing, life expands and gets so much brighter!
Can you talk about exercise addiction. I need help with this. I have trouble even sitting until a certain time at night. While I did finally reach a BMI of 18.5 and learning to eat better, I cannot break the exercise cycle. Love your videos. Thank you for them. I know my friends have gotten throw away cameras for their wedding and placed them on tables and gotten people to take candid pictures during the reception party. You'll get some pics that the photographer never did.
Dorothy Irwin thanks so much for the idea!!! I don’t know if I could trust my friends... or Brendan’s friends more to the point hahaha. & I don’t hugely struggle with exercise I’m afraid. I’m always sat down haha & I kind of cut off any thoughts before they become obsessive. As with food, I think you probably just need to challenge yourself & sit with being uncomfortable for a while. It will pass!! You just need to relearn these rules
Lau Lau oooh yes i do plan to do a story video. It’s just such a long story to think through 😂 I’ll need a mini series to cover it hahahaha. No I will do one, maybe next weekend
Aileen H I did when I was a low weight & when I was restricting, & this week for some reason I haven’t been able to sleep. But it’s because my stomachs flipping about & being weird. Sleeping properly again is one of the lovely parts of recovery though
I am glad you are sleeping better! I have sleeping issues and probably because of restricting/over exercising! But I am a normal weight which is odd ... Keep it up I am with you!! Lots of love!!!
Aileen H yes I’m sure you will have sleep issues in that case, regardless of weight your body won’t be having a good time. I used to be awake for hours when I was restricting because I was hungry
Still beautiful in those Mexico pics. Would you consider weight lifting to build muscle instead of being “squishy” or have you had issues with over working in the gym? I have definitely had the issue of thinking one day off from the gym would ruin me
Yeh my personal opinion in ED recovery is you should avoid too much gym, because it just transfers your obsession. I’d rather find acceptance in myself regardless... squishy or whatever. Rather than need to be skinny or need to be super toned. That’s the goal anyway 😝
A few reasons, move to NY was hard on my own, I stopped treatment “cold turkey” because I was doing so well, my step dad died last year & I didn’t know how to process that, fitting in a wedding dress this summer, I joined a gym. Literally a load of things came together & led to it. I’ll do a vlog on it one day, like piercing together the whys of a relapse & making sure you learn from them
lena jazuk yes I see an incredible psychologist & dietician. I am really very lucky. My dietician gives me a rough meal plan so that I don’t need to make as many decisions & also she works out all the calories. I don’t count any more. I’ve actually recorded a vlog called “do I need a meal plan?”, where I talk about this 😚
So much inspiration and and truth in your words!!! You are doing so well!! Keep it up😘
Stephanie Marie thanks pal, right back at ya 😘
Your face doesn't look fat at all in them photos you look absolutely stunning xxx
Marie Beach thank you, I have a kindddd of round chubby face. I’ve just got to get used to it & accept it I think 😜
oh nooooosuch a beauty on those pictures xxx
This is so true. I remember on my honeymoon eating and drinking so much I mean 5 courses in the evening where I once had to lie down because I ate so much but the memories were so special to me, and I remember how happy I was. Keep going absolutely love your videos. X
You are my favorite! I look forward to your videos so much. I live in comfy clothes. Thankfully they are really in style now and cute. Volunteering with the elderly has helped me a lot. They are so open and accepting.helps me get out of my own head and to see how short life really is. People who have lost their spouses-makes me want to live with my husband now while i can-not just obsess about food and exercise and isolate. Since finding your channel, the last couple of days I’ve had increased courage with eating. I think of you doing this too. Its not easy but just have to do it. Anorexia is such a mind trip with happiness. Misery = happiness. Takes a lot of reprogramming and daily self practice.
Joy Cooper volunteering is amazing isn’t it. Anorexia is so consuming & getting out of your head & helping other people can be so brilliant! & yeh if it can give you some perspective & realisation that we only get one go at life then that’s great! I just posted another vid about 5 minutes ago 🙌
Keep em coming girl!!! :) We love them!!!!
love it when you add recipes so i can make them too, your food is always ON POINT!!!
You are so real... I love that you share EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE. Sometimes it means you don't love your body or call it fat and sometimes you are really into recovery. I cannot appreciate you more in this point in time in my journey. Also, love your cats~!
Don't you think instead of that being you not liking that body it's anorexia not liking that body/picture?
There you go again, laughing despite the pain:) It's a gift. What relief you bring with that hungry dear swagger...
You are MY role model❤ I'm in my recovery too and your Videos are SO SO SO helpful❤ Keep going💪
I totally love the you shaped concept. I mean it shouldn’t be a concept, but it is the shape we each should be. I’m grateful for you talking about all this today. I’m struggling with the idea of increasing my intake again and I should be doing that from now but finding myself hanging back on taking that step. But, I know really I need to in order to find ME, and the shape of me that allows me to be truly myself rather than this restricted, constrained, tiny version of me. Anyway, this was to say thanks. Hope you have a good day xx
Exactlyyyyy, I love everything you just said there. We just need to be us, not the x, y, z that our eating disorders order us to be. It's so weird, they're in your head saying they're going to make everything better for you and make you happy, and really they just make you miserable and isolate. Take the step to increase! Break the cycle that keeps you trapped in miserable AN life. YOU CAN DO IT!!
Megsy Recovery ED is so full of crap!!! Today is hard, but recovery is worth all the ups and downs. Just have to stick with it even on the tough days. Thanks again for this video. Hope you’ve had a good day so far xx
You’re doing so good! These videos are going to help so so many people! Keep going! You’re so strong! Praying for complete recovery for you!!!
Allyson Majeski thanks so much 😘😘 I wish it for everyone watching too!!
I have IBS, so can NEVER eat "meals"", only small portions multiple times a day. I never feel hungry (never have), and also suffer from chronic pain, so rarely enjoy eating. I'm 62, and weigh 32kg
I am so happy I have stumbled across your channel!! I am gaining weight after my second relapse in anorexia and I'm honestly so so grateful to be able to listen to your advice! ❤️
It’s never a straight forward journey. But I think you learn from a relapse & if nothing else it reminds you what hell life is with eating issues, & none of us deserve that. Good luck in your journey!
I still struggle because I tell myself you can be chubby and pretty bht if you arent pretty you need to be skinny. My face just doesnt suit the extra weight even though the body isnt huge. I just wish being unattractive didnt make me feel so unvalid and unfunny and uncute
you are beautiful in those photos! because you are beautiful, beautiful soul and smile and such a lovely bubbly personality and a kind strong spirit and so personable! you have so much to recover for you can see why your boyf and friends love you so much! xxx
Lucy Strutton bless your heart this is so nice. Yes I’m very lucky, it’s exactly why I want to kick it for good now!! It’s just such a stubborn little thing to go! Hope you have a good weekend 😚
Ahhh my two favorite UA-camrs!! You and Jen!
You’re adorable, I love your videos ❤️
Love your videos. I agree i have had an ed for 15 years. I did have a little bit of recovery and gained weight and remembered having so much fun even though I didn’t like my body. Such a good reminder
Wild Self Love Mama love what your body allows you to do!!
I had just decided to give up food for lent, and I watched your vids and it made me so recovery positive. and nothing else has
Amazing! We should never be cutting out any types of food! We’re not in a position to do that! Ever!
It's funny, I do the same thing..watch great videos while I eat. Your amazing and inspiring. Ooh body image...it is tough. Yes, comfy clothes.🖤🌟
Deyanira Ramos thanks for watching. Big hugs 😘
Yuuuuuuum!!
Absolutely love how you say that😄😄
Jen Brett is another favorite of mine!!! Wish she would upload more tho lol I feel like I can’t go so long without her content hehe... kinda like yours now! Been binge watching your videos and you are a staple in my day now too!!!! Love love love ya and send internet hugs 🤗🤗🤗 from California☀️🌴
Ana R oh bless you! Have you watched Tabitha farrar, damn the diets, follow the intuition. They’re all brilliant
Megsy Recovery I have not😮. Will deff be today tho :) thank you🤗🤗
Thanks for your honest contribution! Unfortunately my mom always makes comment about my cheeks (she says hey are round) and it’s a major trigger to my body image and self esteem. I don’t know how to cope with her insensitive words anymore...
Kim Lau ahhh that can be so so hard to hear. I’m literally recording a vlog now do address your mums comments & how not to let them throw you off. You need a bit of a comment wall, whatever some one says it doesn’t change what YOU need to do. I really do have quite a round “chubby” face & that’s just that. I’m just going to have to accept it & I can still be an awesome person with a round face ☺️
Hey Meg, another brilliant vid!! Know it's an old one but I'm working my way through.. Love them, they're really helping me! You talk about feeling comfy and wearing the right thing when you're gaining weight - I'm struggling with that at the mo. LIVING in leggings and jumpers. But it's getting hot in London and I need to think differently. Do you have summer clothes tips?! xxxx
I’m sooooo glad I found your channel. Bless your heart. You’re absolutely amazing and a great inspiration. Keep them videos coming 😬😍 also where do u live? I can’t figure it out
Did you regain your period on your previous recovery attempt?
Your face was so so beautifull! I recognise alot of thoughts you have! When i look at pics of my healthy weight I think the same way! Like i want to turn back time, but also I don't :o So confusing!
You are so so so amasing, and just let me point out, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ONLY HAVE 339 SUBSCRIBERS? when I discovered your channel and was binge watching your video's I thought you would have god 30 000 subs :o You are so positive, pretty, honest, fun personallity! I was so suprised you didn't have more vieuws, cause you totally deserve it! I think, in 3 months, when people find your channel, you will grow so so big!
I love you, you help me so much!
Liesl Corremans that’s amazing to hear, I’m so glad they’re helpful for you, hun. & it’s up to 342 now. I think that’s loads!! 🙀 I really love making them, & I’m actually quite shy I think it’s really good for my confidence ☺️ thanks for watching. Hope you have a good week too x
Wow, that's amazing! You're channel grows so so fast! To me 343 is so much, but for someone so amazing and talented (I actually think you could make a living from TV or youtube) Is it so little! I feel like you are going to grow grow and grow whilst getting more confident, healthy and beautifull!
Also, i love that you are a bit older (like i am) because i sometimes feel 'to old' to have an ed! (seeing all the 16 year old girls in this community)
Thanks for the quick reaction! I wish you the best!!!!!
Hahahaha I just literally LOL'd, in the literal sense. Haha. I'm really really quite shy. & yes agree on the older thing, it's a little gap in the market haha. But no, in all seriousness, I don't know about you but I got ill when I was a teenage and I really cannot believe I am still facing these same issues. Just goes to show if you don't break the cycles it will literally go on forever! Are you on Instagram?
Just love your positive energy and I relate to everything you say. I also am one of those people who need to eat right away, or at least I think I am Ha! It's so hard to know what one is really like when you've had any eating disorder for so long. I seriously can't stand seeing pics of myself at a "normal" weight. I just think I look too big. Our minds must get so warped! :(
Penny McDonald yeh they definitely do. I told Brendan about this vlog & the fact that I’d shown a photo of Mexico. I said how much I didn’t like my body in it & he got really upset. He was like you looked amazing, & also beyond that - regardless of looks you were free. So I know it’s more than looks, but yes I think we do get warped thinking we looked gross at a normal weight, no one else would ever think that
Penny McDonald one thing I do which helps me.... I look at a photo of myself at a healthy weight which I don’t like, & then imagine it with some one else’s head on. Do I still think it looks fat? Probably not! Maybe try it, see if it works for you
Good idea, but sometimes it's my face that is looking too big to me. I think you said "puffy" and I feel the same
OH good god. I'm a massive breakfast person. I remember when I was in inpatient and starting recovery, my tummy growling would wake me up. I'd want to sleep in, but my body was like "Get food in mah belleh!!!" (PS: also a huge fan of Jenn Brett. Love that channel.)
Me too, lying awake from 5am thinking "I can't wait til breakfast" and then immediately thinking "oh my god I don't want breakfast!".... What a confusing illness. Anyway, breakfast rocks, let's all eat amazing breakfasts and enjoy our food :)
I love your videos so much your so positive 💙💙
Hi.. came across ur channel... relate to everything ur saying... I am a 47 year old women who has struggled for many years... overexcersise, restricting , chew and spitting... feel lost, isolated and alone with this illness..can u help me
Spencer Gruis so sorry to hear that! Hope the videos can help. Stephanie Marie & Jen Brett do really good videos too if you subscribe to their channels. Big hug for you 🤗
How do you deal with bloating? Im also trying to gain weight but bloating is such a pain
Ahhhh honestly so bad. I don’t talk about it that much do i. Sometimes my stomach does mental shit & I literally have to lie down. Just really hoping it’ll get better with consistency & being a healthy weight 😘
I have three topics I'd like to ask you about:: do you have a night-time routine? As nights, evenings can be difficult and awkward (and so much night sanity depends on excellent daytime eating) or how your sleep patterns are changing. Second, dealing with food disappointment, in the relearning process. On one hand, it is pure joy to be able to not like a food (and recognize the difference, when it is just a food and not a moral decision, or a trauma, since we now eat all the time, like humans), but it can feel so big. What is your learning curve? Lastly, how about beer and wine? Big cheers and deep love to you. It's such a big, bright world, and we get to participate!!
LOVE what you wrote at the end of that. We miss out on so much of life because of ED crap!
Ok sleep I hope I answered in my latest vlog. The 2nd thing, do you mean wanting food to be perfect all the time. This is something I actively remind myself out loud all the time. Because I am recovering for life to come first, not food. So it doesn’t matter if it’s not perfect. & thirdly, I love wine & cider. I struggle to have them on top of normal food, but it is something I try to challenge because alcohol is a bit part of my family’s life at weekends / holidays etc. So I want to be able to enjoy it with them. Hope that helps 🤗
no, not being perfect (oh, such a frustrating and confusing term that gets thrown around in ED-land...) but dealing with mini-frustrations that do but DON'T matter, and seeing how they are a waterfall to being aware of the world as a whole. I suppose, moving from all the silly sad little things, with acceptance and adventure, into the bigger and big ones! Thank you for covering all the bits, and for really opening with the rest and sleep issue. Rest is the best:) May you have a weekend of curiosity and goodness, Dear You. Loved the photos video. I like to see photos of me as a younger kid, jolly and pink. We can practice that sparkle of newness in all we do today
Diza Luciano yes. It’s good to look back on photos. Also when you see yourself as a child you’re so innocent & sweet, & I feel so guilty about what I have done to myself & to that little girl. Know what I mean? That helps me sometimes
I live in East Sussex we have a roly’s fudge pantry, my mum is obsessed with it lol, every November we go and buy the Christmas pudding one , 😋😘, awesome video as always x
Abigail Mitchell ahhhhh really? That makes me so happy! Go Roly’s 🙌🙌
Great video. Like you, I am lucky that I have a husband who likes a little heft on his woman. Lol! I will probably never be as cushion-y as he would like, but he has always loved me no matter what, and has been my biggest cheerleader for recovery. It's very true that as you let go of food obsessions, and allow your body to do it's thing, life expands and gets so much brighter!
friendoftherese1 love this. So well said. Also your husband sounds lovely. Yay to the rock star partners 🕺
No way are you from Devon?! I live so super close to totnes. Ps, adore you SO much already x x x
alyshalauren woooooo Devon pals! Nice chatting to you on insta 😘
the leggings are for figure skating!!!! we should go!
Victoria Roper-Bahari oh reallyyyyy? Hahaha I was like whaaaaat?! That clears that up, thanks! Also, I would suck at figure skating haha
Can you talk about exercise addiction. I need help with this. I have trouble even sitting until a certain time at night. While I did finally reach a BMI of 18.5 and learning to eat better, I cannot break the exercise cycle. Love your videos. Thank you for them. I know my friends have gotten throw away cameras for their wedding and placed them on tables and gotten people to take candid pictures during the reception party. You'll get some pics that the photographer never did.
Dorothy Irwin thanks so much for the idea!!! I don’t know if I could trust my friends... or Brendan’s friends more to the point hahaha. & I don’t hugely struggle with exercise I’m afraid. I’m always sat down haha & I kind of cut off any thoughts before they become obsessive. As with food, I think you probably just need to challenge yourself & sit with being uncomfortable for a while. It will pass!! You just need to relearn these rules
Megsy Recovery thank you!! I am definitely going to try these scary foods this week on my break and am going to continue weekly.
I got some rolys fridge in lymington on holidays last year....yum!!!! Xxx
do a video about your anorexia story with photos please
Lau Lau oooh yes i do plan to do a story video. It’s just such a long story to think through 😂 I’ll need a mini series to cover it hahahaha. No I will do one, maybe next weekend
The only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning is breakfast 🤣 - it's the first thing I think of once I wake up lol 👌
THANK YOU
Well done honey!! Have you ever had sleeping problems? Insomnia while restricting/recovery?
Aileen H I did when I was a low weight & when I was restricting, & this week for some reason I haven’t been able to sleep. But it’s because my stomachs flipping about & being weird. Sleeping properly again is one of the lovely parts of recovery though
I am glad you are sleeping better! I have sleeping issues and probably because of restricting/over exercising! But I am a normal weight which is odd ... Keep it up I am with you!! Lots of love!!!
Aileen H yes I’m sure you will have sleep issues in that case, regardless of weight your body won’t be having a good time. I used to be awake for hours when I was restricting because I was hungry
I didn't know you're from Devon, I'm in Somerset so not far from where you're from :)
Personally I think you look just as beautiful in those old pictures as you do now
Lissa Caputo awww so sweet, thank you! Just going to have to get used to little porky cheeks again haha
Still beautiful in those Mexico pics. Would you consider weight lifting to build muscle instead of being “squishy” or have you had issues with over working in the gym? I have definitely had the issue of thinking one day off from the gym would ruin me
Yeh my personal opinion in ED recovery is you should avoid too much gym, because it just transfers your obsession. I’d rather find acceptance in myself regardless... squishy or whatever. Rather than need to be skinny or need to be super toned. That’s the goal anyway 😝
Can totally relate to the fiancé comment 😂😂 my fiancé is the same and will want me to eat anything and everything at anytime 😂😂
zeba patel goooood!!! Haha. It’s good to have a supportive / enjoying food / free person in your life 😘
Why did you relapsed?
A few reasons, move to NY was hard on my own, I stopped treatment “cold turkey” because I was doing so well, my step dad died last year & I didn’t know how to process that, fitting in a wedding dress this summer, I joined a gym. Literally a load of things came together & led to it. I’ll do a vlog on it one day, like piercing together the whys of a relapse & making sure you learn from them
I can relate to you so much xxx😘
Do you have any help/support besides your boyfriend?
Are you following a meal plan or counting calories?
lena jazuk yes I see an incredible psychologist & dietician. I am really very lucky. My dietician gives me a rough meal plan so that I don’t need to make as many decisions & also she works out all the calories. I don’t count any more. I’ve actually recorded a vlog called “do I need a meal plan?”, where I talk about this 😚