You inspired me to get sober. I used to watch you while I was in active addiction 2 or 3 years ago. Now I have 11 months sober ❤️ Love you girl! Hope you and your family have a great rest of the year ❤️
How you were describing how emotional people are in prison reminded me of something I was taught when I was in training for childcare. HALT, Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired, any one or combination of those is a very reasonable cause for a child, or anyone to act out in any capacity.
And anger usually comes after other emotions, even if you don't recognize them consciously. Like being hurt, being helpless or a combination of the two, like when you're shamed in front of others. It's there to protect you. I suppose in prison, where you can't show weakness, it can go out of hand quickly.
Solitary confinement is abuse and I know this from experience. I was in a psychiatric hospital and when I said I was suicidal I was put in the closest thing to solitary confinement that the staff could legally do for 48 hours. This contributed to my PTSD. Solitary confinement is abuse and evil.
Jess, like so many other viewers, I would watch you during my active addiction, especially when I was withdrawing (I’d play your videos in the background while I slept through my dope sick days). I’d feel inspired by your stories but always thought death was the only way out. Now that I’m completely sober (off maintenance even) and working the steps, watching your videos is like visiting an old friend for lunch and reminiscing about those God awful years. You really held my hand and got me through the darkest times, you don’t even know. Thank you.
When I got incarcerated I made the huge mistake of telling the intake people I had nothing to live for. Granted I was upset but I didn’t realize my saying that would put me in the constant watch cell. It was traumatizing.
I love your content. I was a herion addict in my 20's. I just happened to be lucky and never get arrested. But only because I was lucky. Nothing more. I am now a happy mother to 2 little girls with an amazing partner. I own my home and have a wonderful government job. I love that you are sharing your stories. We all need to see thru other people's eyes. I am also 420 friendly. In fact I couldn't manage my pain without it. But I am clean! So I love that you can see that 420 isn't the same for everyone. Without it I wouldn't be the functional person I am today.
As a stubborn addict, I need to start seeking proper support. Mental and physical health is a great issue . I need to work on my eating disorder, as well. Solitare is no solution to a crisis.
I Did 120 days in the Hole 🕳️... And can very much confirm the level of mental anguish that comes with it.... It literally breaks a person. Keep up the good work Rockstar you inspire the masses... 🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻
Jessica watching your videos is really helping me to stay clean. I've been clean for over four years and you keep reminding me of what could happen if I go back to that lifestyle. You are amazing and an inspiration. Thank you so much for all your content and love watching your videos💜🤍💜🤍
My 1 year sobriety is coming up March 19 2022 and you have been the sole reason for me staying sober for so long. I’ve been in recovery for 4 years and have never made it past 5 months sober. And now I’m almost at 1 year. You inspire me so so much and I’m so greatful for your videos and support. You’re amazing ❤️
i’m honestly impressed by all the minor details you remember but at the same time sad since it’s probably because it was so traumatic. would you say most former inmates also remember these details? (people who spent 5+ years in prison)
I’ve never even been to prison only county jails and for a collective total of 6 months lol And I remember ALL of these details too, 😆 It is definitely from the trauma but also too because you just HAVE to learn quickly and a lot of things in order to survive.
@@weezie168 I don't know if you mean you're praying or struggling but either way, I'm thinking of you. I know it's hard. Don't feel bad if you struggle.
My cousin was arrested at 16 for armed robbery and was sentenced as an adult. They wanted to give him 25 years, but thankfully his attorney was able to get it down to 9-10 years. He ended up spending 7 FUCKING YEARS in complete seg, also known as solitary confinement. He was only allowed out for one hour a day, and even then, it was an outdoor cage, no contact with other humans. The visitation rules were extremely strict and had to be planned very far in advance, and you could only go if you were on the approved list. He did not kill anyone, he was not selling or doing drugs, he was defending himself when he got jumped and had also had a minor scuffle with a guard that was continually harassing him. I agree that you have to have consequences for your actions, but I'm sorry, 7 FUCKING YEARS is unequivocally torture. Every time he tried to get out of seg or get parole, he was denied. He wasn't able to hug his son for the first 9 years of the child's life because he only got to have visits through the glass. He also served his time here in Texas, where we have some of the harshest prisons in the entire country. I'm not saying my cousin didn't deserve to serve time for what he did. From day damn one, he ALWAYS stood up and said "I did it, no one forced me, and I'm sorry. And I know I have to pay for my actions." Even at 16, he didn't try to weasel his way out, or deny it was him. He didn't harm anyone and for most of the robberies, the gun was not loaded. A store clerk who testified actually said he was as kind as respectful as a robber could be. Even then, he didn't try to use her statement or the fact that the gun wasn't usually loaded to diminish his responsibility. Studies have proven time and time again how detrimental solitary is. It has its place, but 7 YEARS is cruel and unusual punishment, and some prisons are FINALLY trying to change their rules and not allow solitary confinement with undetermined time frames. I thank you Jess for shining a light on how desperately we need prison reform in the US. And I applaud you for how you've turned your life around. For anyone wondering, my cousin got out on April 29th of 2015. He has held steady jobs from the first month he was released, and even got an associates degree. He now manages a store and works 7 days a week nearly every week, usually 10-12 hour days. He has his own place and is a fantastic father. But I know most people who spend long times in prison don't have the love and support he has with our family, and have an INCREDIBLY hard time reintegrating into society because they've been so thoroughly institutionalized. I pray in my lifetime we can see some big changes within the prison system, and start truly trying to reform people and not just punish them. Anyone who's been incarcerated that's willing to try hard enough deserves a second chance.
So sorry. Every state is different all those times denied I would have asked for another judge or whatever. I'm glad that he was ok and is ok. I would be so screwed up mentally with already mental issues now. Especially being so young. Now that we all know what it does and how bad it is the next thing we have to do is figure out how to fight
Jess, you inspired me to get sober. I would watch you in active addiction and pray that one day i would be able to inspire others like you do. Today I am 47 days clean off of fetnyal. Thanks for being such a light to lose who watch you❤️
I've been arrested, & detained, etc...but fortunately, I've never been "booked" (well, I did in Germany, but it's completely different there & I was released after about 3 hours, since I was a minor & my dad had to come get my friend & I) & I really don't think I'd survive in prison...haven't ever been much of a physical fighter, I've gotten in a few of them but wouldn't consider myself a "good" fighter. I would just be really really scared. Not to mention, along with my severe anxiety & panic disorder, BPD, depression, substance abuse disorder, OCD & PTSD, I would be absolutely terrified that I'd get all my medications taken away. I am prescribed Clonazepam & Seroquel every night....I don't know how that works for inmates, but I can only imagine they don't give a shit about what medications you need.
@@kim3295 I figured. When my house was raised & I was almost taken to jail, the sheriff deputy looked me straight in the face & said I wouldn't get any of my medications in jail....which the meds I'm on can literally cause terrible seizures stopping like that. Prison is fucked.
I’ve only been to jail once for 3 days and I have Adhd I take Adderall for it and so did another inmate and she told me they wouldn’t let her have her Adderall in there so idk if they would let u have even that in jail I doubt they would let u have the other stuff u take but idk it might depend on the prison
This chick is pretty cool with dope content! I was too quick to judge her in one of her shorts before realizing what she was doing / sharing. Stay strong !!
I recently watched a special (interview or whatever it’s called) with Diane Sawyer on Rikers, it’s a few years old, but an interesting watch. One of the things they discussed was the amount of people that were there for non violent crimes but have had to learn to fight to survive because they are place with people who are extremely violent.
I have just found your page. I am in active addiction... It seems no matter how much I try I can't seem to get sober for longer than a few weeks. Thankyou for sharing your stories, they are inspiring ❤️
Just keep trying and one time it may THE time...the stats show it takes soooo many trys before most people are able to be successful in their recovery journey ♡
Love everything you do! Thank you for putting yourself out there and being such an inspiration to me and so many others!! I had one foot in and one foot out of recovery for a long time. Happy to say that as of 6.26.21 I've been clean. I still have a long long journey ahead of me but I'm doing it one day at a time. Your videos help me so so much, especially on my rougher days. Keep being AMAZING and don't forget to take care of yourself and those amazing girls! And Reece too I guess. Lol. 💕🥰😍😊💚💜💛💙
Solitary or even prison in general is a fight or die mentality if you don't fight you can win if you don't win you can't live and if you don't live you can't be free the only way to live is to fight so fight just fight
I did a year in seg. Much preferred it because now I wasn't getting harassed or dealing with the different personalities. I was okay in seg can't say the same for some of the others. They would hurt themselves to get out of seg or just talk with another person.
I did read that giving the imates only healthy food, really makes a big difference in increasing their behaviour and mental stability. Plus, clean water is clean water. Humans need it to survive. If you don't have access to clean drinking water, then I don't know to say, besides look honestly intonwhy that isn't the case. And I mean honestly. Flint Michigan doesn't have clean water because the water supply is run by the local government, who divert funds that should go to fixing the problem, into other things. If they where a private company, you could sue them, for not providing a service that you paid for. Instead, they just take your money via taxes, and still jot solve the problem, year after year. So find out honestly, if a prison doesn't have clean drinking water, and if not, why not, and if it does, what is different to ones that doesn't.
Yep I went in solitary for 7 days in jail certain words when you are angry you learn very quickly you don't say. I blacked out didn't know I had mental health issues and said something I don't believe in and shouldn't have and guard yelled lock down everyone then came and got me and went straight to solitary. Spoke with psychiatrist 2 days later I was diagnosed with c-ptsd, and borderline personality disorder. I was put on meds in jail and was fine. Also learned once you go to solitary they normally take you to a different pod
Your the first person to do this that I've seen and it's a wonderful thing. I've seen in comments that your videos have deterred ppl from that life. But you are right, when you are in jail o to prison it's a whole different world with a with whole different set of rules. The things you do in prison to survive doesn't mean that is who you are. Your only trying to survive.
Just ordered off of you recently. I love your merch! Recovery is never easy. Keep up the amazing and inspiring work! You never know how many people you're helping1
I honestly don’t know why I’m not incarcerated, with drugs I have had possession of and my addiction. I have been clean and sober for the longest time in years, 9 months. You are inspiring and give me enough knowledge about prison that makes me want to stay out of trouble
I really enjoy watching your videos. I have family who works in our local jail (not prison) and I hear there stories. It's interesting to hear your side as well!
I've never been on prison, and I had this stereotypical thought that to be so harshly treated in prison and have a very rough life in it you needed to be a nasty criminal, like a murderer or rapist. It's actually heartbreaking to know now what people go through in prison, no matter what they did. I mean, sure, you might have committed a crime like stealing or selling drugs and needs to be stopped, but seeing how the conditions in prison are inhumane it makes me wonder how many people can actually come back to society as a "reformed" person, rather than a way more bitter person who wants to do worse. Also, what the hell, you can't kiss your partner during visitation? YOUR PARTNER? LIKE BRO. WHY CAN'T YOU KISS YOUR PARTNER????? And the story you told about the girl who exchanged letters for money, how is that illegal? Do prison systems just hate inmates so much that they can't let them do their own thing that is not hurting anybody? Was it that they just didn't want the girl getting money? Why?
Hold I’m dumb I m 12 now but mom start when I was first born and I have been through Tao much but for other kids like me out there stay strong you have to have a lot of bravery
It is easy to say until they are happy until one of these guys is unhappy and brings a lawsuit up against the prison because he feels scammed. Consequences for most of these are reasonable. However, I grant you that long term solitary confinement, after several days, is psychological torture, and an overreaction.
pffft! why does that sound suspiciously like my time in med school? no sleep for 30+ hours (only naps, usually on a chair), no bathroom breaks, no food, you feel like a zombie, emotions just boiling beneath the surface, no payment, got yelled at by both patients and other doctors, if you're lucky you get the occasional patient chart chucked at your head, etc. at some point you become numb and you feel so dead inside. in fact you're so tired, that you barely react to witnessing and taking part in some pretty disturbing events (for a normal person, not for medics), and you start feeling like you should go to therapy, but you can't go to therapy coz you gotta keep working. you're just in this constant state of numb despair. but a simple smile from a patient or some kind words really helped alleviate a bit of that sadness too. to anyone who read this far, please be nice to your healthcare workers and student-nurses/doctors, coz they're literally going through a lot.
Watching you get so fired up at the end there, defending against the haters (that lurk in the shadows..FUCK EM Jess!!!) LMFAO! I am soooo happy you are going to do that follow-up video about the psychological torture that IS solitary!!!
I think that the tactics people use to make prison life easier (if that’s even possible) would make them excellent employees. Being able to work at a disadvantage/improvise is an extremely valuable skill. It just goes to show that not hiring a person based on their criminal history really misses a chance for a company to have a really valuable resource, and a missed chance for a person to become a big success. My entitled ass might appear more valuable, but I’m certain that 90% of people who come out of prison would be better employee than I am.
Can you talk on the differences in conditions between punitive seg, admin seg, and PC? Or do people in PC also have to go through their entire sentences with light deprivation etc?
2:48 Anyone that knows the mental manipulation and bullying, particularly with unhappy in life women, knows that that can be a lot worse then a physical fight. Female self harm from bullying by other women, is a serious problem in society. In prison , I'm presuming it gets way worse, because of the increase in angry, unhappy people wanting to take their troubles out on someone. I've had unhappy in life women take out their frustrations about uow unhappy they are in themselves, out by hating me, over a long period of time. It's really not nice. I've gotten into school fights as a kid, with other boys. I would prefer just to get into a fight in school and be done with it, then be drained of my mental health over a long period of time, by a woman or girl taking out her unhappiness on me over a long period of time. Anyone that's had an unhappy in her life female boss can relate to time. At least with a fight, it's way easier to report it to the police or kill them in self defence.
Yeah. You don’t get fresh food. My father in law worked in a factory while in prison that canned vegetables for the prison and according to him they would scoop food that fell on the floor and can it and on top of that the place would flood a lot so they would walk through toilet water. So unsanitary.
What can I do as a person that's never been to prison but my brother that was murdered was in and out how can I get involved it to help start a change where I live I'm in Tennessee
Hey Jessica. A friend just told me to check out your channel. Love what your doing !! I just started out a UA-cam channel where I talk about My fentanyl addiction and how I’ve stayed clean for almost 6 years now !!!! Hope I can one day do it as a career too :)
Yes I understood what you meant by stuff I done in prison I wouldn’t on outside world I get that .its survival sometimes I think some of the stuff people will do till release date.i haven’t been in prison but I know some who have and they have said this before that they done some stuff they would never do outside
QUESTION: Hi Jess. Well there were many different scenarios and it was hard to understand each individual one. But what I do want to ask is, when somebody says I'm doing 23 and 1 in my own private cell, is that the same as being in solitary confinement. When in solitary confinement don't you get one hour to go and exercise or is it a straight 24 hours a day in solitary?
@@kavitadeva they differ from facility to facility and state to federal which is why is it hard to give a simple answer as well protective seg/ad seg/ punitive seg-the hole or shoe. Some have a cellmate most don't, but they all have torture as in lights always on or the opposite lights always out, screaming from the others, take mattresses away, no clocks or windows. Some have the little adjacent shower most you have to be cuffed and take to a shower.
Why is it that with every video of yours, I relate to your experiences so much just by having been in an inpatient program for eating disorders? America needs to do better on so many levels
Whether or not his account is true or made-up is debatable, but I thought about Papillon and his brutal time - years? - spent in solitary. Informative video, thank you Jessica 🙏
If its so stressful, don't do things to go back. I've spent about a grand total of about 18 hours in jail. I don't want to go back. I try not break the law to keep from going back.
I'm in Arkansas and I'm the Vice-Chair of the Arkansas Behavioral health planning and advisory council. We have a dude who is a representative of the Arkansas Community Corrections department on the board as well. sooo my questions to you or anyone is how can I help? I don't know much about prison reform but after having both friends and family be incarcerated and also after watching you for years now I want to do something! I know we need better prisons and better mental health in our prisons. I'm also an ordained minister so I've visited jails and prisons as clergy. I'm an addict in recovery too so I have a heart and a deep love for people who need rehabilitation and not punishment. Anyways Jess I'd Love any suggestions you have. Oh and PS it's hard to get reform here because it's all run by old white men who like to punish.
Can you talk more about the pc process. How you prove yourself, what privileges you have, how long you are or can be in there for. Can the prison impose pc on you even if you don’t want to?
It seems to me that if I ever went into prison, I rather suspect that I might quite like solitary confinement. I tend to enjoy my own company, my safety would be assured, on-suit showers and one might get a rare good nights sleep.
I've heard for protective confinement certain charges can get you in there because that charge can put you at higher risk. The one I usually hear about is Child SA. Does anyone know if that is accurate? Is it something that varies based on location?
Question, if people are prescribed medication the prison gives those people the medication they need (sometimes of course) so does that mean if you have a marijuana medical card and you are prescribed marijuana are you allowed to have that in prison?
As a trans woman,I was placed in pc in a women's prison. If I would have had full SRS I would have been allowed in general population, but only had orchiectomy at that time,so it wasn't allowed. It is VERY long and difficult time to serve in pc!
Can you explain what housing units are and how do you get to these different units? How are divided up? I always thought there was gp, the hole, mental ward, and then death row. I thought that everyone who was allowed in gp were all as 1 big group together I didn’t know there were different housing units.
I was in county one time and this girl got like a dollop of hair gel from me and she had it in a little container and got two weeks solitary for having a substance not in its correct container that should’ve been illegal
You inspired me to get sober. I used to watch you while I was in active addiction 2 or 3 years ago. Now I have 11 months sober ❤️ Love you girl! Hope you and your family have a great rest of the year ❤️
You are doing amazing ! Keep going strong 💪
May God give u victory
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Stay strong buddy, don't even know you but your post put a wide smile on face. Much love from Scotland 🏴❤🏴
That’s amazing!!!! Keep going!!!! 💜💜💜
How you were describing how emotional people are in prison reminded me of something I was taught when I was in training for childcare. HALT, Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired, any one or combination of those is a very reasonable cause for a child, or anyone to act out in any capacity.
i’m perpetually all 4 no wonder😃
And anger usually comes after other emotions, even if you don't recognize them consciously. Like being hurt, being helpless or a combination of the two, like when you're shamed in front of others. It's there to protect you. I suppose in prison, where you can't show weakness, it can go out of hand quickly.
Solitary confinement is abuse and I know this from experience. I was in a psychiatric hospital and when I said I was suicidal I was put in the closest thing to solitary confinement that the staff could legally do for 48 hours. This contributed to my PTSD. Solitary confinement is abuse and evil.
Jess, like so many other viewers, I would watch you during my active addiction, especially when I was withdrawing (I’d play your videos in the background while I slept through my dope sick days). I’d feel inspired by your stories but always thought death was the only way out. Now that I’m completely sober (off maintenance even) and working the steps, watching your videos is like visiting an old friend for lunch and reminiscing about those God awful years. You really held my hand and got me through the darkest times, you don’t even know. Thank you.
I am so happy for you, congrats!! May (if or whatever religion you follow) give you glory and praise!
Amazing I hope to get off maintenance one day. Congrats
I'm very proud of you. Hope you're doing well still. 💗
When I got incarcerated I made the huge mistake of telling the intake people I had nothing to live for. Granted I was upset but I didn’t realize my saying that would put me in the constant watch cell.
It was traumatizing.
That happened to my sister! She was withdrawling and they tied her up to a chair and had to go to the bathroom on herself
Thank God I got arrested with someone who told me the basics
I love your content. I was a herion addict in my 20's. I just happened to be lucky and never get arrested. But only because I was lucky. Nothing more. I am now a happy mother to 2 little girls with an amazing partner. I own my home and have a wonderful government job. I love that you are sharing your stories. We all need to see thru other people's eyes. I am also 420 friendly. In fact I couldn't manage my pain without it. But I am clean! So I love that you can see that 420 isn't the same for everyone. Without it I wouldn't be the functional person I am today.
As a stubborn addict, I need to start seeking proper support. Mental and physical health is a great issue . I need to work on my eating disorder, as well. Solitare is no solution to a crisis.
You can do this most of us here did!
You can do it!!
I Did 120 days in the Hole 🕳️...
And can very much confirm the level of mental anguish that comes with it.... It literally breaks a person. Keep up the good work Rockstar you inspire the masses... 🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻
Wow 120 days that is torture. I hope you’re doing well
120 days sounds honestly cruel. I’m sorry you went though that. I hope you’re doing alright.
I couldn’t imagine. 4 months w/o human contact essentially
Three months sober after a relapse, before that I was two years sober
Seeing you talk about what you’ve been through and staying in recovery is great
Jessica watching your videos is really helping me to stay clean. I've been clean for over four years and you keep reminding me of what could happen if I go back to that lifestyle. You are amazing and an inspiration. Thank you so much for all your content and love watching your videos💜🤍💜🤍
Proud of u
My 1 year sobriety is coming up March 19 2022 and you have been the sole reason for me staying sober for so long. I’ve been in recovery for 4 years and have never made it past 5 months sober. And now I’m almost at 1 year. You inspire me so so much and I’m so greatful for your videos and support. You’re amazing ❤️
I love that you are educating people about what actually happens in jail or prison.
i’m honestly impressed by all the minor details you remember but at the same time sad since it’s probably because it was so traumatic. would you say most former inmates also remember these details? (people who spent 5+ years in prison)
I’ve never even been to prison only county jails and for a collective total of 6 months lol
And I remember ALL of these details too, 😆
It is definitely from the trauma but also too because you just HAVE to learn quickly and a lot of things in order to survive.
I remember it all, over 13 yrs later. Names, rules, events, smells, etc. I still carry many traits I had to learn to live in there.
I only spent a month and remember ever detail
Working on almost 3 yrs clean! Thanks for all you do here on YT. God bless you and your family.
Amazing - congratulations on staying clean. One day at a time, as they say!
@@hazelangus ~Thank you so much, sweety! I am on my knees quite a bit,too.💜
@@weezie168 I don't know if you mean you're praying or struggling but either way, I'm thinking of you. I know it's hard. Don't feel bad if you struggle.
@@hazelangus ~praying 🙏 more than struggling (praise The Lord)! Thank you for the kind words. 💜👍
@@weezie168 That's wonderful! We all need support to stay well, and I'm so thankful that the Lord is helping you.
My cousin was arrested at 16 for armed robbery and was sentenced as an adult. They wanted to give him 25 years, but thankfully his attorney was able to get it down to 9-10 years. He ended up spending 7 FUCKING YEARS in complete seg, also known as solitary confinement. He was only allowed out for one hour a day, and even then, it was an outdoor cage, no contact with other humans. The visitation rules were extremely strict and had to be planned very far in advance, and you could only go if you were on the approved list. He did not kill anyone, he was not selling or doing drugs, he was defending himself when he got jumped and had also had a minor scuffle with a guard that was continually harassing him. I agree that you have to have consequences for your actions, but I'm sorry, 7 FUCKING YEARS is unequivocally torture. Every time he tried to get out of seg or get parole, he was denied. He wasn't able to hug his son for the first 9 years of the child's life because he only got to have visits through the glass. He also served his time here in Texas, where we have some of the harshest prisons in the entire country. I'm not saying my cousin didn't deserve to serve time for what he did. From day damn one, he ALWAYS stood up and said "I did it, no one forced me, and I'm sorry. And I know I have to pay for my actions." Even at 16, he didn't try to weasel his way out, or deny it was him. He didn't harm anyone and for most of the robberies, the gun was not loaded. A store clerk who testified actually said he was as kind as respectful as a robber could be. Even then, he didn't try to use her statement or the fact that the gun wasn't usually loaded to diminish his responsibility. Studies have proven time and time again how detrimental solitary is. It has its place, but 7 YEARS is cruel and unusual punishment, and some prisons are FINALLY trying to change their rules and not allow solitary confinement with undetermined time frames. I thank you Jess for shining a light on how desperately we need prison reform in the US. And I applaud you for how you've turned your life around. For anyone wondering, my cousin got out on April 29th of 2015. He has held steady jobs from the first month he was released, and even got an associates degree. He now manages a store and works 7 days a week nearly every week, usually 10-12 hour days. He has his own place and is a fantastic father. But I know most people who spend long times in prison don't have the love and support he has with our family, and have an INCREDIBLY hard time reintegrating into society because they've been so thoroughly institutionalized. I pray in my lifetime we can see some big changes within the prison system, and start truly trying to reform people and not just punish them. Anyone who's been incarcerated that's willing to try hard enough deserves a second chance.
So sorry. Every state is different all those times denied I would have asked for another judge or whatever. I'm glad that he was ok and is ok. I would be so screwed up mentally with already mental issues now. Especially being so young.
Now that we all know what it does and how bad it is the next thing we have to do is figure out how to fight
Always my highlight of my day when I see you upload a new video. Thanks for doing all that you do. XoXo
Jess, you inspired me to get sober. I would watch you in active addiction and pray that one day i would be able to inspire others like you do. Today I am 47 days clean off of fetnyal. Thanks for being such a light to lose who watch you❤️
Praying you are still sober and clean
I've been arrested, & detained, etc...but fortunately, I've never been "booked" (well, I did in Germany, but it's completely different there & I was released after about 3 hours, since I was a minor & my dad had to come get my friend & I) & I really don't think I'd survive in prison...haven't ever been much of a physical fighter, I've gotten in a few of them but wouldn't consider myself a "good" fighter. I would just be really really scared. Not to mention, along with my severe anxiety & panic disorder, BPD, depression, substance abuse disorder, OCD & PTSD, I would be absolutely terrified that I'd get all my medications taken away. I am prescribed Clonazepam & Seroquel every night....I don't know how that works for inmates, but I can only imagine they don't give a shit about what medications you need.
They don’t.
It depends on the prison and the guards
@@kim3295 I figured. When my house was raised & I was almost taken to jail, the sheriff deputy looked me straight in the face & said I wouldn't get any of my medications in jail....which the meds I'm on can literally cause terrible seizures stopping like that. Prison is fucked.
I’ve only been to jail once for 3 days and I have Adhd I take Adderall for it and so did another inmate and she told me they wouldn’t let her have her Adderall in there so idk if they would let u have even that in jail I doubt they would let u have the other stuff u take but idk it might depend on the prison
Yesssssss, plz do more on solitary! This was so informative. I'm so grateful for all you do!! XO
“Tik Ta- 😑” 😂 made me chuckle. Love your videos and really appreciate all the real life experiences you share ❤️
This chick is pretty cool with dope content! I was too quick to judge her in one of her shorts before realizing what she was doing / sharing. Stay strong !!
I recently watched a special (interview or whatever it’s called) with Diane Sawyer on Rikers, it’s a few years old, but an interesting watch. One of the things they discussed was the amount of people that were there for non violent crimes but have had to learn to fight to survive because they are place with people who are extremely violent.
Amazing video Jes!
Solitary confinement needs to not be a thing. 💜💜💜
I have just found your page. I am in active addiction... It seems no matter how much I try I can't seem to get sober for longer than a few weeks. Thankyou for sharing your stories, they are inspiring ❤️
Just keep trying and one time it may THE time...the stats show it takes soooo many trys before most people are able to be successful in their recovery journey ♡
@@denisepace3229 Thankyou beautiful ❤️❤️❤️ I'll never stop trying
I believe in you!! It’s never easy, just don’t stop trying! ❤️
Happy holidays love your videos!!!
Love everything you do! Thank you for putting yourself out there and being such an inspiration to me and so many others!!
I had one foot in and one foot out of recovery for a long time. Happy to say that as of 6.26.21 I've been clean. I still have a long long journey ahead of me but I'm doing it one day at a time. Your videos help me so so much, especially on my rougher days. Keep being AMAZING and don't forget to take care of yourself and those amazing girls! And Reece too I guess. Lol. 💕🥰😍😊💚💜💛💙
Love your videos Jess!!! Happy holidays
Solitary or even prison in general is a fight or die mentality if you don't fight you can win if you don't win you can't live and if you don't live you can't be free the only way to live is to fight so fight just fight
Love the video. Could you do top ten reasons people go to jail?
I did a year in seg. Much preferred it because now I wasn't getting harassed or dealing with the different personalities. I was okay in seg can't say the same for some of the others. They would hurt themselves to get out of seg or just talk with another person.
I did read that giving the imates only healthy food, really makes a big difference in increasing their behaviour and mental stability.
Plus, clean water is clean water. Humans need it to survive. If you don't have access to clean drinking water, then I don't know to say, besides look honestly intonwhy that isn't the case. And I mean honestly. Flint Michigan doesn't have clean water because the water supply is run by the local government, who divert funds that should go to fixing the problem, into other things. If they where a private company, you could sue them, for not providing a service that you paid for. Instead, they just take your money via taxes, and still jot solve the problem, year after year.
So find out honestly, if a prison doesn't have clean drinking water, and if not, why not, and if it does, what is different to ones that doesn't.
9 years 9 months in HSU Ad Seg. I'm still not right after 6 years free.
absolutely cruel.💔i’m so sorry joe. i hope you’re able to get better every day.
@@meowzy2439 I'm not good in crowds, so the COVID thing had a silver lining. Lol.
Yep I went in solitary for 7 days in jail certain words when you are angry you learn very quickly you don't say. I blacked out didn't know I had mental health issues and said something I don't believe in and shouldn't have and guard yelled lock down everyone then came and got me and went straight to solitary. Spoke with psychiatrist 2 days later I was diagnosed with c-ptsd, and borderline personality disorder. I was put on meds in jail and was fine. Also learned once you go to solitary they normally take you to a different pod
thank u for sharing this. just topic very interesting to know this! some of these crazy reasons
Your the first person to do this that I've seen and it's a wonderful thing. I've seen in comments that your videos have deterred ppl from that life. But you are right, when you are in jail o to prison it's a whole different world with a with whole different set of rules. The things you do in prison to survive doesn't mean that is who you are. Your only trying to survive.
You're so dope Jess, I love hearing you share your experiences and knowledge ❤
This channel is informational, and inspiring!
Just ordered off of you recently. I love your merch!
Recovery is never easy. Keep up the amazing and inspiring work! You never know how many people you're helping1
I honestly don’t know why I’m not incarcerated, with drugs I have had possession of and my addiction. I have been clean and sober for the longest time in years, 9 months. You are inspiring and give me enough knowledge about prison that makes me want to stay out of trouble
The pill thing in the throat… Whenever I take pills they get stuck below my Adams apple and it’s so painful and uncomfortable…
I'm looking forward to the psychological breakdown of solitary confinement 👍
I wouldn't last a day in prison, honestly. I hate dealing with strangers and I need my privacy and peace and quiet. My mental health wouldn't survive
I’m absolutely in love with your content keep it up girl
Could you please do a whole video about visitation? I think that would be very interesting!
I might be able to answer at least some questions as I’ve visited a friend in a few different prisons (:
Could you please make a video about chronic illness and disability in prison? Gods bless you and your work
usually warm water that alone is yuk esp when tastes nasty
I really enjoy watching your videos. I have family who works in our local jail (not prison) and I hear there stories. It's interesting to hear your side as well!
Cheers for the video 👍👍
I’m looking forward to your video on the psychological elements of solitary and that it’s torture.
I've never been on prison, and I had this stereotypical thought that to be so harshly treated in prison and have a very rough life in it you needed to be a nasty criminal, like a murderer or rapist.
It's actually heartbreaking to know now what people go through in prison, no matter what they did.
I mean, sure, you might have committed a crime like stealing or selling drugs and needs to be stopped, but seeing how the conditions in prison are inhumane it makes me wonder how many people can actually come back to society as a "reformed" person, rather than a way more bitter person who wants to do worse.
Also, what the hell, you can't kiss your partner during visitation? YOUR PARTNER? LIKE BRO. WHY CAN'T YOU KISS YOUR PARTNER?????
And the story you told about the girl who exchanged letters for money, how is that illegal? Do prison systems just hate inmates so much that they can't let them do their own thing that is not hurting anybody? Was it that they just didn't want the girl getting money? Why?
90 days is FOREVER. Im waiting 90 days to get to 12 weeks. And it's so nerve wracking til then too many losses 😢 praying for a sticky baby
Yay a video! Love you Jess!
looking forward to ur next solitary confinement video !
Hello I’m 11 and mom has a past just like you and we are still try to help her get better but you inspire me to try even harder
Hold I’m dumb I m 12 now but mom start when I was first born and I have been through Tao much but for other kids like me out there stay strong you have to have a lot of bravery
She does such a good job.
It is easy to say until they are happy until one of these guys is unhappy and brings a lawsuit up against the prison because he feels scammed. Consequences for most of these are reasonable. However, I grant you that long term solitary confinement, after several days, is psychological torture, and an overreaction.
pffft! why does that sound suspiciously like my time in med school? no sleep for 30+ hours (only naps, usually on a chair), no bathroom breaks, no food, you feel like a zombie, emotions just boiling beneath the surface, no payment, got yelled at by both patients and other doctors, if you're lucky you get the occasional patient chart chucked at your head, etc. at some point you become numb and you feel so dead inside. in fact you're so tired, that you barely react to witnessing and taking part in some pretty disturbing events (for a normal person, not for medics), and you start feeling like you should go to therapy, but you can't go to therapy coz you gotta keep working. you're just in this constant state of numb despair. but a simple smile from a patient or some kind words really helped alleviate a bit of that sadness too. to anyone who read this far, please be nice to your healthcare workers and student-nurses/doctors, coz they're literally going through a lot.
First like and comment babyyyyyy!! Love you Jess! Happy holidays❤️
Love you Jess!
Yes please do the solitary video!!
Keep up the amazing videos love you ❤️❤️
Watching you get so fired up at the end there, defending against the haters (that lurk in the shadows..FUCK EM Jess!!!)
LMFAO! I am soooo happy you are going to do that follow-up video about the psychological torture that IS solitary!!!
You’re so inspirational!
I think that the tactics people use to make prison life easier (if that’s even possible) would make them excellent employees. Being able to work at a disadvantage/improvise is an extremely valuable skill. It just goes to show that not hiring a person based on their criminal history really misses a chance for a company to have a really valuable resource, and a missed chance for a person to become a big success. My entitled ass might appear more valuable, but I’m certain that 90% of people who come out of prison would be better employee than I am.
Jess this is just a content suggestion but if you were locked up in juvenile facility what is it like
This is a much more positive video if watched directly after your Josh Duggar video.
✨Perspective✨
Can you talk on the differences in conditions between punitive seg, admin seg, and PC? Or do people in PC also have to go through their entire sentences with light deprivation etc?
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Anyone that knows the mental manipulation and bullying, particularly with unhappy in life women, knows that that can be a lot worse then a physical fight. Female self harm from bullying by other women, is a serious problem in society. In prison , I'm presuming it gets way worse, because of the increase in angry, unhappy people wanting to take their troubles out on someone. I've had unhappy in life women take out their frustrations about uow unhappy they are in themselves, out by hating me, over a long period of time. It's really not nice.
I've gotten into school fights as a kid, with other boys.
I would prefer just to get into a fight in school and be done with it, then be drained of my mental health over a long period of time, by a woman or girl taking out her unhappiness on me over a long period of time.
Anyone that's had an unhappy in her life female boss can relate to time.
At least with a fight, it's way easier to report it to the police or kill them in self defence.
I look forward to the 2.00 - please keep singing it.
Yeah. You don’t get fresh food. My father in law worked in a factory while in prison that canned vegetables for the prison and according to him they would scoop food that fell on the floor and can it and on top of that the place would flood a lot so they would walk through toilet water. So unsanitary.
Yes Jess. You made sense
What can I do as a person that's never been to prison but my brother that was murdered was in and out how can I get involved it to help start a change where I live I'm in Tennessee
Hey Jessica. A friend just told me to check out your channel. Love what your doing !! I just started out a UA-cam channel where I talk about
My fentanyl addiction and how I’ve stayed clean for almost 6 years now !!!! Hope I can one day do it as a career too :)
Yes I understood what you meant by stuff I done in prison I wouldn’t on outside world I get that .its survival sometimes I think some of the stuff people will do till release date.i haven’t been in prison but I know some who have and they have said this before that they done some stuff they would never do outside
QUESTION: Hi Jess. Well there were many different scenarios and it was hard to understand each individual one. But what I do want to ask is, when somebody says I'm doing 23 and 1 in my own private cell, is that the same as being in solitary confinement. When in solitary confinement don't you get one hour to go and exercise or is it a straight 24 hours a day in solitary?
Most of the time even though you are doing 23/1 you have a cell mate but if you in solitary you are by yourself
@@kellysmith1883 is it a different kind of cell? Thanks!
Many did 23 in 1 in their regular cells during covid lockdown
@@denisepace3229 hi Denise. Are Solitary confinement cells different from a one man cell? Thanks
@@kavitadeva they differ from facility to facility and state to federal which is why is it hard to give a simple answer as well protective seg/ad seg/ punitive seg-the hole or shoe. Some have a cellmate most don't, but they all have torture as in lights always on or the opposite lights always out, screaming from the others, take mattresses away, no clocks or windows. Some have the little adjacent shower most you have to be cuffed and take to a shower.
Officers should respect their inmates and honor their wishes
Why is it that with every video of yours, I relate to your experiences so much just by having been in an inpatient program for eating disorders? America needs to do better on so many levels
The sleeping thing is kinda like hospital it’s so loud and hard to sleep and it’s not ok to put ppl in a tiny room alone
Love your new nail color!!
Whether or not his account is true or made-up is debatable, but I thought about Papillon and his brutal time - years? - spent in solitary.
Informative video, thank you Jessica 🙏
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If its so stressful, don't do things to go back. I've spent about a grand total of about 18 hours in jail. I don't want to go back. I try not break the law to keep from going back.
I'm in Arkansas and I'm the Vice-Chair of the Arkansas Behavioral health planning and advisory council. We have a dude who is a representative of the Arkansas Community Corrections department on the board as well. sooo my questions to you or anyone is how can I help? I don't know much about prison reform but after having both friends and family be incarcerated and also after watching you for years now I want to do something! I know we need better prisons and better mental health in our prisons. I'm also an ordained minister so I've visited jails and prisons as clergy. I'm an addict in recovery too so I have a heart and a deep love for people who need rehabilitation and not punishment. Anyways Jess I'd Love any suggestions you have. Oh and PS it's hard to get reform here because it's all run by old white men who like to punish.
Respect, got to say that cause I made fun of Arkansas previously in jest.
@@ericpirillo2326 Heck I make fun of Arkansas and I'm born and raised here. Lol. I understand we are kinda backwards and easy to make fun of.
@@StephaniePifer lol thanks for being a good sport. Respect your offering a hand to try to help with positive reform.
Research on why it's torture would be awesome!
In other countries solitary confinement is limited to 24-48 hours. It's a violation of basic human rights.
What if you obey the guards and other rules as best as you can? What does that do to your time??
My absolute worst nightmare
Let’s go im early
How do you occupy your time in solitary confinement?
Can you talk more about the pc process. How you prove yourself, what privileges you have, how long you are or can be in there for. Can the prison impose pc on you even if you don’t want to?
4:50 that reminded me of Christina's storytime!
It seems to me that if I ever went into prison, I rather suspect that I might quite like solitary confinement. I tend to enjoy my own company, my safety would be assured, on-suit showers and one might get a rare good nights sleep.
It’s still loud as hell and you can hear everyone else in the hole. There’s nothing at all to do but sit and think
@@alliesteph6274 Allie, it sounds unpleasant. Now I know. Thank you 🙏🏾
I've heard for protective confinement certain charges can get you in there because that charge can put you at higher risk. The one I usually hear about is Child SA. Does anyone know if that is accurate? Is it something that varies based on location?
Question, if people are prescribed medication the prison gives those people the medication they need (sometimes of course) so does that mean if you have a marijuana medical card and you are prescribed marijuana are you allowed to have that in prison?
As a trans woman,I was placed in pc in a women's prison. If I would have had full SRS I would have been allowed in general population, but only had orchiectomy at that time,so it wasn't allowed. It is VERY long and difficult time to serve in pc!
I love her voice!!!!!
Hey could you do a video on your opinions on interventions? In general and/or the show Intervention
Can you explain what housing units are and how do you get to these different units? How are divided up? I always thought there was gp, the hole, mental ward, and then death row. I thought that everyone who was allowed in gp were all as 1 big group together I didn’t know there were different housing units.
I was in county one time and this girl got like a dollop of hair gel from me and she had it in a little container and got two weeks solitary for having a substance not in its correct container that should’ve been illegal