@@_quixoteme too, it’s exhausting day in day out. it’s especially terrifying when even sleep isn’t a good escape if you become lucid or have vivid dreams. for all in this comment reply section (and original comment), hang in there.
@@_quixote same here, try going for a run or doing some exercise that helps or better yet sometimes I treat it as a game of detective and I make a list of reasons and facts weather it could be true or not, 9/10 I win and the facts and evidence always wins.. you're bigger than your thoughts ✌🏼🤘🏼
I like to call this disorder the ‘gaslighting disorder’ cause thats what it does - it makes you question your sanity. It’ll convince you there was another meaning to your actions and that you’re secret a monster. “You hugged your partner? Oh you didn’t really do that because you meant to. You are just manipulating them into thinking you love them so they won’t realize what a piece of trash you really are.”
Very that. I seem normal to everyone, I became very good at hiding it. The thing is, my husband doesn't see it or know about it, and when I'm down I have to pretend that I'm not. It's exausting
my friends said ‘u dont have ocd’ and so did another one say that but they dont realise u cant just say that bc its not noticeable whether u have it or not and i do and its horrible i cant get away from it its always bothering me and never leaving me alone its really hard.
The worst situation to be in because its like being in quick sand. The more you try the worse it gets. Thanks again for this video, it helps knowing there are people who have these similar thoughts. It gives me relief that its not just me. God bless 🙏
My OCD always made me feel like everyone got a manual on how to be a person but me. I cant stop overthinking the most simplest of things that always seemed obvious to everyone else. Its isolating
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Having OCD and a narcissistic abuser who tells you that you’re a horrible person who doesn’t deserve to be loved. I can’t breathe or sleep from this anxiety. Sending love to everyone who is also suffering🤍keep fighting
Had this. My best friend made me feel like the worst things i fear about myself were true. He completely shattered my sense of self but im finally getting it back.
Please distance yourself from the narcissistic abuser..doesn't matter who he is..nothing is more important than your mental health. It happened to me..getting rid of him as quickly as I could was the best thing to ever happen to me, at the same time I don't wish it didn't happen to me. It was a brilliant learning curve
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To anyone reading this. You can get through it and live a fulfilling and happy life. Beleive me, for years I was stuck in an un ending cycle of thoughts about my existence. What is death? What is life? Who am I? Is this real? And the worse : ocd thoughts about ocd. It was unberable and I became severly depressed and anxious as I also suffer from panic attacks. I took antidepressants and got a proper diagnosis and my psychologist told me I had « existencial ocd ». We began an exposure and reponse therapy to those thoughts. It took me a couple of months to get back on my feets and now I’ve been free for the last 4 years. The ocd response and thoughts still come back from time to time but it’s managable and don’t stick very long.
Omg I cannot express how fucking grateful I am I found this.. I've always thought I had some tendencies but also did not understand these aspects of the condition.. I've been losing my fucking mind recently thinking all of these exact thoughts and worrying myself into the ground.. This video, and a few others of yours I found now, feels like someone understands my brain 🥹😭 thank you so much for sharing your life/story with us, it's giving me so much hope to keep going!! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
THANK YOU!!!! I HATE hearing all the comments about people confusing OCD and perfectionism!!! I get all these same thoughts and it’s so comforting to see that others have these thoughts too!
So true. The OCD jokes are played out. For I it sucks even more though because tho I have the fuckery of ocd intrusive thoughts I also suffer from hand asking and other repetitive compulsions. Argh OCD sucks. But we all need to stay strong, it’s hard work but relief is there
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It makes me feel like I did something that I would never ever do. It convinces me that I did that thing and I always ruminate and it’s a constant vicious cycle. I really need a therapist so I can enjoy my one and only life.
Really loved the video. Jesus. The shame is unreal. Truly unreal. Always convincing myself I’m evil and don’t deserve to live. Fuck it will hit you so hard sometimes.
Stay strong bro. I’ve lived with OCD and by my standards I would call extreme OCD for most my life, since before I was 12 to present. I’m now 51 and it has been a lifetime of mental stuff. I’ve learned so much about OCD tho and I’ve worked very hard to control it as best I can do it doesn’t effect my everyday life. Bless up and Jah guidance , most of all stay strong
we're you able to overcome them? I'm still young I think my level is lower than extreme I'm 21 and now I'm just starting to learn how to control them I use my own strategies and it's working fine.
@@user-bz4jp6ek7h your situation sounds as though it may not be as extreme as mine , so even today I struggle on bad days. But like you I have learned self control and research a lot to overstand the condition better. I wish I could say it was totally gone but I can’t, I can say tho it’s gotten better in a sense that I’ve come to a better overstanding that I can’t let it interfere with my living a happy successful livity.
@@jimnewt2138 yes they have changed and sometimes ho back. I’ve been dealing with this for the better part of 40 years. Still hard days but most are better because all the worries or episodes are similar is some way. Ruminating only fuels it to grown and become worst. Yes they have changed but they are still kind of similar if you overstand what I mean. There’s always some kind of doubt that after so long starts to seem familiar even if situations seem different. Meditation helps too. Helps mellow the anxiety
@@jimnewt2138 too many different situations or themes in my life go count. OCD is definitely not what people joke about like numbers and washing hands and lining things up. That’s the stuff we do that is dumb nonsense, but the worries, rumination, and doubt that we feel inside is not a joke in any way that’s for sure. I wouldn’t wish OCD on my enemy. Stay strong
My thoughts come in images, my ruminations are mixed with images. I obsess over conveyng exactly what I mean or intend/ being truthful. I get stuck on a particular situation and worry (obsessively) that someone has got the wrong idea of my beliefs. I replay the situation over and over like a movie in my head. If I could go back and change my body language to let them know that I did not agree with the other person next to them I would feel comfortable again, but I can't. It is TORTURE!
I feel that my theme changes all the time. Once I conquer one theme it changed to another theme. Real Event OCD is such a hard one to overcome as is all themes
Don't give up hope, friends! With therapy, a little medication, and a lot of patience/prayer, it DOES get manageable, you can live a normal life! Just remember it takes time! Took me a long time to get to a pretty normal state, and I still have moments, but I am still improving, and after considerable practice and professional help, I can say I'm generally more often happy or content rather than stressed!
I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder and OCD recently. Somehow, it felt like a relief that now I know why I feel and think things a certain way. I felt seen in this video and now I know I'm not alone. I pray for healing to everyone, God bless.
Me too bro.. harm relationship existential ocd..daily falling into a same circle of thoughts.. interesting how when one theme hit me other two doesn't exist..it makes me feel like I'm going crazy..
I suffer horribly from ocd, and I’ve never met anyone who can relate to me in person with it. Not the “cleaning ocd” the ocd rumination like this one. I would never wish this on anyone, but I don’t deserve it either.
Exactly the same for me. I never asked for the thoughts, subject of the thoughts or the hours upon hours of anxiety and feelings of dread and being a horrible person. OCD has just shifted over the last 30 years of my life and in my early twenties kicked up just like you show in this video. You are not alone.
@@jimnewt2138 OCD has changed themes at least hundreds of times throughout my life. There is no limit to what uncertainty can make you fear or doubt. Usually the next scariest fear takes over from the previous one. Sometimes several at once. It feels like you can’t live your life in the moment no matter how hard you try. Your mind just worries and obsesses in the background at the same time you are trying to live and be you. No matter where you go who your with the OCD is active. Im Super thankful for therapy and meds.
@@will523 For me it started when i was 18 i had harm OCD for 4 years sometimes i wished i died or a car hit me so i could be free..then i won it! I felt grateful to god for giving me a second chance i was good for 2 years but it came back with a thematic content that disgusts me to my core and was always against who i am i would rather die than be what it told me i'll become! I won this also (not fully it is still there but i doesnt feel real anymore)! But now it attached itself to something else..i feel so tired man going from monster to monster it is like slaying dragon to dragon! And it is so creative this thing OCD like a parasite it knows you, what is important to you and it attacks it tries to twist it etc etc Even if it isnt active it is like it waits and when the chance presents itself it attacks! Something else i have noticed its because of OCD i am prone to manipulation from evil people! They try to manipulate me or gaslight me, i know they arent telling the truth but i have my OCD in the background and it attacks it makes itself known through their evil suggestions and it creates new themes based on them! I have two questions for you: 1) Have meds help you? 2) Can you recognize new OCD attacks or it may still fool you for sometime till you realize it is your OCD and when did you get so much experience with the illness that now you recognize it even if it finds something new to scare you with that isnt the common classic themes
This is very educational. I, like a lot of people, literally just thought OCD was like the obsessively cleaning or tap your toe 17 times because that's how media protrays OCD. This seems so much more horrible. Recently I've found out what it actually is, and I'm really disappointed such misconceptions are so prevalent. Thank you (and other OCD related channels on the internet) for educating me, someone who doesn't have OCD, on the subject better.
I feel you... mine starts the minute my brain wakes up, even before I've opened my eyes sometimes... its awful.. I almost considered not having children because of the thoughts I might get in response... I've had it since I was a little girl, I remember the thoughts of wishing my new born sister dead over and over and screaming and crying that I didn't mean it and then feeling that I was possessed by something because I couldn't control these bad thoughts... its still my number 1 trigger that I worry I am possessed by evil and that is why I think like I do... every day is such a struggle and a battle... I've tried to pray but my intrusive thoughts like to say that I'm praying to Satan and not God. I've heard exposure therapy but I really don't think I could do it with the possession thingy. Anyways thanks for posting and letting me know that I'm not completely alone in this ❤
I'm so so sorry. I promise you're not alone. It really is so hard but I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. ERP is awesome, and I have some book recommendations if you're interested.
Try having existential OCD and worry about everything you will never have an answer too 24/7 you have to be careful of what movies you watch certain phrases you here...... it's like a loop of terror.
For me I’m an A student with ocd. From the second I wake up, I have to go through each one of my classes thinking if I have anything to do for hw or studying. Then I do that over and over. Probably 200 times a day. It’s exhausting, debilitating and it just takes over. And nobody understands it. I go to therapy but it can only do so much. I can’t focus on anything expect it, even when I’m trying to relax. It’s rough
I also have ocd . I knew I had it but got medically diagnosed recently. This is exactly what my day looks like and the thing that hurts the most is that my parents think its not that big of a deal but I still love them becoz they are getting me medical help
Thanks my friend. This video gives me a bit of a relief. I was aware of that I have OCD but never diagnosed. This is exactly what my day is. And as you mentioned everybody thinks it's about repetative actions and that always kept me believimg I have OCD. However even my job choice is because of OCD now I understand.
I’ve been thinking I have some onset of OCD for a while now because this is exactly me. I spend hours wondering if I’m secretly a horrible person who’s pretending to be good.
I thought everyone was like this until my sister suggested that i may have ocd lol What you described is how ive been thinking since i was a kid. I cant express how debilitating and ruinous it has been to my life/self worth. thanks for making this!
I have been living with severe OCD that’s debilitated me and cut me off from society for nearly 8 years. I’m only 23 and I feel like I’m never going to get better. I’ve been in countless meds, been in therapy for years. I have countless intrusive thoughts every single moment that I’m awake and also do mental compulsions to “deal” with those thoughts all day every day. I also suffer from depression and PTSD. I am exhausted and don’t know how much fight I have left in me.
I don’t want to self diagnose because obviously that’s wrong and not healthy, but the more I look into this, the more I realize, I do a lot of these things. I’m constantly in a state of fear that I’ve done something wrong, I’m doing something wrong, am about to do something wrong. I feel constantly emotionally drained which makes me feel especially terrible around friends because I feel like I’m just faking my reactions when they tell me things and it makes it harder to relate to what they’re telling me. Even personally I feel this. Recently I lost both my childhood pets and I didn’t even cry or feel anything really. And realizing that scared me because I thought “I just lost a huge part of my life. Why do I not feel anything? Am I a bad person for not feeling upset? Am I crazy for not feeling anything?” I have diagnosed ADD and I thought maybe the thoughts just overlapped, but I’m kinda worried. Can anyone possibly tell me why I might feel this way?
I know nothing about ADD but OCD will sneak its ass into pretty much everything you do from home to school to work. The thoughts will appear in mainly everything, if left uncontrolled. I… can’t relate as much, since I was lucky enough to have a loving family, but even so I feel like some days I’m a horrible person. I won’t go to into detail, but the point is that no matter the situation, if you feel these thoughts, seek professional aid. I was stupid enough to not do so immediately and now I’m in this weird dilemma where if I tell my parents “hey I’ve had OCD for almost two years” I would never feel the same. Yea, it’s hard, it’s proven to be a side effect of the fucking disorder to want to do it yourself, and it’s so much easier to type than do, but please, do it for your own good before you kick yourself for it later.
This. Im so emotionally and mentally exhausted and in turn im always thinking "can they tell im interested? What if they don't think im listening? What if they think i dont care or im faking? How can i make sure i let them know i am listening and engaged in this convo" LIKE UGH @@meo-qx2sn
I was an OCD sufferer. My OCD may get started when I was 12 years old. I might had many kinds of OCD. I cured my OCD by myself completly. Believe me its possible. I have recently started a UA-cam channel and I am going to shere my personal experience and tips on how you can cure it by yourself without taking anyone's help. I promise u that it will be helpful you u. So stay tune with my channel because many useful content is yet to come. ❤
For me it gets worse with stress/depression. I had and still have (sometimes now) severe anxiety. Also when it's bad I usually get intrusive thoughts about doing bad things to people or having bad things done to me, and my worst enemy, extreme obsession with death. It cripples me and I always get anxiety attacks everytime I get the death obsessions. I'm glad I'm doing way better now. I'm medicated on GAD meds and SSRIs which definitely helps but it's still not 100%. When I'm off medication, I pretty much relapse into my anxiety/depression. I used to have such severe compulsions when I was younger I would literally spend every second I my day counting and recounting and not being able to stop doing things over and over because I would have anxiety. And over time now it's been way better, sometimes I still count things over and over, I would get severe intrusive thoughts and anxiety about doing bad things to others.
I have OCD and insomnia and it feels unbearable a lot of the time like my brain is putting me through hell and not even letting me rest through it and the sleep deprivation makes it even worse
I have opposite thing going on, the moment I fell asleep, I feel better but the moment I wake up, all the ocd thoughts stars acting up, its like they are waiting for me to just wake up.
How many times have I washed clothes unnecessarily, how many times have I thrown things out, and how many times have I ruminated and obsessed over some that bothers me. Ocd is truly hideous when it gets extreme
I feel for you, dude, I still struggle with this stuff all the time. Thankfully, I got some help through NOCD and it low key changed my life (my buddy’s too). I still deal with intrusive thoughts, but the way I deal with them is night and day now. I implore whoever’s reading this, and is struggling like I was, to give NOCD a shot. This shit doesn’t have to own you!
I’ve been having HORRIBLE ones. What if I’m a murderer and I forgot? What if I traumatized someone and didn’t know??? I have literally had all of these. My greatest fear is doing horrible heinous crimes, going to prison, or becoming one of the things he said in this video. It’s agony.
Do you experience this with your ocd? You see trigger words everywhere or watch a show and something in it triggers you or the show has a theme of something you obsess about and you just think hmm is it my ocd or is God telling me something? I go through this all day long. It’s a nightmare.
this helped me feel less alone during my very very lonely walk through this hell. You captured this perfectly, thank you so, so, so much. I would love to be friends with more people who have ocd
I have struggled with ocd. It’s very true. You’re bombarded with negative and debilitating thoughts and emotions, and the more you try to resolve them, the more panicked and anxious you get. This is truly from the devil. I pray that anyone who has struggled with this truly comes to their wits end and clings desperately to Jesus Christ. He literally HAS SAVED ME from my sins and an eternity in hell. And He has freed my mind. Not to say that I don’t still stumble and fall into those times. But He is my God, and He has dealt kindly and mercifully with me. I pray that all will be sold out for Him for their salvation from this sin-corrupted world. His kingdom is coming soon- praise GOD that He has made me a citizen if His kingdom. But while on this earth, I must choose His Way in everything- I thank Him for His Word, the Bible. His Holy Spirit dwells within me so that I can carry out His good works, WORRY FREE! So yes, I pray that all will follow Christ, and that those who struggle with any sort of darkness will seek godly council!! Lord bless!
This video says so much about people who have OCD and have to live with obsessive intrusive thoughts. When I get the diagnost of OCD from my doctor, I felt like for the first time in my life I understood that the pain from those thoughts wasnt my fault, and it's has medical treatment that can make me live my life without feeling guilty or shame for things that aren't even real. I know it's in my mind but, It doesnt define who I am.
I didn't even know it was top 10.. I've been diagnosed with ocd and I can't catch a break at all.. im finally learning way more than ever and I still feel very shitty..
must have done somethings horrible in my past lives that I got this as a punishment. I have accepted it as my reality. I let it take over and believe what it says. At least with this it stops for 2 minutes . Accepting that yes , I'm indeed the person my thoughts tells me is satisfying. This is my truth.
That is a lying accusation from the devil, there’s no need to allow demons to torment us. Each person is appointed to die once. Faith in Christ sets us free from all guilt through the atoning sacrifice He made for mankind.
thank you for being so vulnerable about your hurt and your experiences. i hope that you are supported so honestly and wholly by loving and authentic souls
I have spent years working on recovering from this, it does get better, you can beat it. I can tell when something is my pure o and know how to stop it from getting out of hand. You'll find your answers someday too. Dont be afraid to talk with other people and share your story talking helped me a lot
Even if some OCD haver isn't very or just not compulsive/do rituals at all like what people assume, having intrusive thoughts sure is still very disabling. Being temporarily freezed because of having to deal with things you never asked for but your brain insist on. It really is a genuine disorder.
Embracing whatever feelings your pushing off helps a lot. Your thoughts are connected to feelings so feel them even IF their weird. Then move on… hope this helps
Thank you for making this video. My boyfriend mental health as been declining alot and we were both trying to look on what could be going on. And this... this is spot on.
I was diagnosed with ocd when I was nine years old. It’s gotten better since then but I still have intrusive thoughts every day of my life. Thank you for making the disorder more understood ❤️
Anyone on here that suffers from OCD ever get so obsessed about whatever your theme is like Real event ocd or whatever that you start seeing things everywhere that pertain to what your obsessing about and that just triggers you more and you start obsessing if it’s God telling you something or wonder if it’s just that you think about it so much that your mind just subconsciously recognizes the things you obsess about out in the world.
When I was a child, I thought I was going insane. It took me until I was 22 to be brave enough to search up why I was having these intrusive thoughts. I still have never told anyone about it. Now I'm 31. It's mostly okay, but there are lapses and ups and downs.
OCD manifests in many forms. Unfortunately I found out the hard way, suffering years of traumatizing thoughts, where I thought there was something seriously wrong with me. I did not have the answer to anything and lived in this state for a very, very long time. Intrusive thoughts are esp. Disturbing and uncomfortable.
This one short video explains mu life perfectly, especially the thoughts that come in your head all at once! I hate ocd, knowing I can never get rid of it, when I have it under control all I've got to do is relax just a tiny but, forget about it and all the tools to deal with it and boom it hits hard! OCD is debilitating at times and so tiring to deal with even when it's not the bad! It's a constant battle with your own mind!
What people need to understand is that just because someone's OCD theme revolves around whether they're a terrible person or not, that doesn't mean they should be reassured that they're not one. That fuels the OCD. All you have to do is accept the uncertainty.
Bro, tears... I've felt so bad for a long time thinking I'm horrible - the worst... I heavenly identify myself with the intrusive thoughts in the morning. Thank You! Thank you for making me feel like I'm not a freak.
Anyone here gets offended by people who say they are so OCD whwnever they try to align stuff or make things in order? I hate it when people say this to me. They dont have even the slightest clue on what we go through
I have OCD, was diagnosed. I am a frequent hand washer (It is a ritual for me and I panic if I can't do it) but I also scratch until I bleed and have to go back and do things again if it wasn't even numbers (Like walking or cracking joints or bumping into things.) I also have these same type of thoughts every day and it is exhausting. I don't have the energy to be nice to people because I feel like I'm a horrible person, and then not being nice reinforces this belief and it hurts so much.
Ya, recently I’m really reflecting on whether I’ve traumatized some people. Since I’ve been traumatized myself (if not by my OCD at least) I hate the thought that I might have traumatized others as well and they experience what I have experienced.
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but this pretty much sums up my life. I don’t know why but it makes life really hard and I convince myself that by “warning” myself 24/7 of all the bad things that I could do, it makes me “safer”? Even though it makes me live with constant guilt and stress. And I tell myself that all the intrusive thoughts could so easily become reality and it’s really scary and I become a monster in my eyes because by having all these what if scenarios in my head, I convince myself that they sum up what I am as a person and therefore I’m a horrible person. I try to write them down, (my therapist said that would work) but I physically couldn’t the words couldn’t be written. I don’t want to diagnose myself though as I’m not a medical professional but if I even think or suggest to myself that I could maybe have it, my head tells me I’m a horrible liar who only wants attention and is the worst person alive. Being the way I am (OCD or not) can be exhausting but I am grateful for my life and recently I’ve been having more good days than bad days so that’s good 🫶
yea i feel that i can never just tell myself itll be fine cus then my brain thinks well now it won’t be. so i just convince myself that it’s gonna happen.
My OCD had me convinced that I'm a terrible person for liking Fantasy and listening to songs about vikings. I sat in my room waiting for it to go away for months. I've just recently started to pick my hobbies back up, but the intrusive thoughts are making it hard to get back into it.
I listen to metal alot, and i fantasize battles to the music with my favorite characters of comics, anime, or characters in books. I instantly stop the moment someone walks by because im convinced they can read my mind and i often jump subjects when this happens. And i always think im fucking weird with these things like, its nothing even anything gross or that weird its just how my mind thinks and i fucking hate having to limit my own creativity (especially at work) because of it. I know its impossible for people to read minds its just i cant get over it, really annoying.
As somebody without OCD I made a Percy Jackson character who didn’t find either camps but rather ran away from people he cared about because Apollo accidentally referenced him to Zephyrs(killed Hyacinth, apollos boyfriend, out of jealousy in a myth) and said person became terrified he would eventually give his best friend the same fate. Ended up devoting himself to the gods but continuously started giving more and more after convincing himself it wasn’t enough and that he wasn’t doing enough for the gods and that he was messing up somehow. Still incredibly terrified of making new friends because of his powers and asking ‘what if I accidentally hurt them?’ Using the Greek myths of Heracles and other hero’s to convince himself these thoughts are rational Then I come across these videos after a google search and realize I accidentally gave him OCD 💀
I believe I struggle w/ religious ocd the 4th one. I get inappropriate lustful thoughts, cussing in my head, saying mean things about people, even lustful thoughts towards God 😖 n tons of what ifs tons of im i sinning? It’s so stressful and depleting and it’s so hard not to focus on them the thoughts makes me feel sooo dirty. Jesus please save me.
Very apt. I tried to end things in 2022 but i failed fortunately but Yeah...describes me. I found psych helped. I also moved house. I stopped functioning for year due to severe depression and drank to oblivion. All stopped now. Ocd still a pill at times though. I notice some of my intrusive thoughts repeat, call them spin cycles.
Trigger warning! :The thought about what if I’m the only one alive and everyone else is my imagination hit me close to home. Those thoughts of bigger than reality intrusive thoughts I’ve always struggled with but knowing it’d not just me helps. Thank you
I dont have that exact thought but some of my reality bending ones would be constantly feeling like invisible people are watching my every move and judging me, everyone able to read my thoughts including dead people up in heaven or hell 😂 like part of me laughs cause it sounds stupid outloud but in my head its like my worst fear
I have a fear sometimes when I'm in my room alone that everyone has disappeared there's a movie called the langoliers. Very scary. I do check that people are still there. I'm in care but I've mobility issues. I do feel a bit silly doing it but I do check.
@@soniczforever5470 what you gotta do is stop checking. when you check it reinforces the idea in your brain that you "need to check" that means your brain will start telling you to check more often. when you stop checking it will hurt for a bit but your brain will begin to realise it doesn't need to check anymore and you wont get reminded as much
I suffered from it, in my opinion we should stop saying stuff about brain not letting us live peacefully. Im almost fully recovered, i dont suffer from it at all already, just have thoughts popping up sometime. What I found myself it was me that wasn't letting me enjoy my life and just chill. I think it is some form of mental self harm to distract yourself from something internal, from some conflict inside of you. It's just learned at some time in out luves and we forget that life is okay without control to begin with. At least thats what its been in my case, and I'm fully recovered w/o medication and just with some introspection and minor help from psychologist.
I want us all to know one thing, our content of intrusive thoughts may differ greatly but the pattern of our compulsions remain the same - we have different triggers but we all either exhaustingly ruminate, clean, avoid/postpone things we love, problem solve, ask for assurance, repeat, redo, check, punish, etc THE CONTENT of our thoughts do not matter, the intervention point is at the compulsion. Getting lost on the content is the main trap we fall into, think of the compulsion, tolerate anxiety, let anxiety eat you up but you stay away from compulsions. Short term dread for long term benefits.
it’s the worst thing ever, it repeats 24/7 im never at peace
Yep
Mine is absolutely 24/7, but watching movies or UA-cam videos is annoying because I keep having to pause the video to do mental compulsions
@@_quixoteme too, it’s exhausting day in day out. it’s especially terrifying when even sleep isn’t a good escape if you become lucid or have vivid dreams. for all in this comment reply section (and original comment), hang in there.
@@user-oz2vr1qt7rexactly
@@_quixote same here, try going for a run or doing some exercise that helps or better yet sometimes I treat it as a game of detective and I make a list of reasons and facts weather it could be true or not, 9/10 I win and the facts and evidence always wins.. you're bigger than your thoughts ✌🏼🤘🏼
OCD is truly one of the most terrifying illnesses in existence- the worst part is that no one can see what you are suffering from.
True until we observe your habits and what you do
I like to call this disorder the ‘gaslighting disorder’ cause thats what it does - it makes you question your sanity. It’ll convince you there was another meaning to your actions and that you’re secret a monster.
“You hugged your partner? Oh you didn’t really do that because you meant to. You are just manipulating them into thinking you love them so they won’t realize what a piece of trash you really are.”
No it's not because this isn't a competition god dammit.
Very that. I seem normal to everyone, I became very good at hiding it. The thing is, my husband doesn't see it or know about it, and when I'm down I have to pretend that I'm not. It's exausting
my friends said ‘u dont have ocd’ and so did another one say that but they dont realise u cant just say that bc its not noticeable whether u have it or not and i do and its horrible i cant get away from it its always bothering me and never leaving me alone its really hard.
The worst situation to be in because its like being in quick sand. The more you try the worse it gets. Thanks again for this video, it helps knowing there are people who have these similar thoughts. It gives me relief that its not just me. God bless 🙏
Wow. It really is like quick sand. I hope you’re doing well brother.
Yes. It truly is awful
My OCD always made me feel like everyone got a manual on how to be a person but me. I cant stop overthinking the most simplest of things that always seemed obvious to everyone else. Its isolating
god yea i feel that
that was the perfect description...i felt exactly the same!
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Having OCD and a narcissistic abuser who tells you that you’re a horrible person who doesn’t deserve to be loved. I can’t breathe or sleep from this anxiety. Sending love to everyone who is also suffering🤍keep fighting
Had this. My best friend made me feel like the worst things i fear about myself were true. He completely shattered my sense of self but im finally getting it back.
@@blondie3743bro how can I help my brother plsss 😢😢😢explain how ?
Please distance yourself from the narcissistic abuser..doesn't matter who he is..nothing is more important than your mental health. It happened to me..getting rid of him as quickly as I could was the best thing to ever happen to me, at the same time I don't wish it didn't happen to me. It was a brilliant learning curve
John 14
27Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
I have been in the same situation.
The lists of reasons why I will never find love or have children is ever-growing, but this has been on them since the beginning.
To anyone reading this. You can get through it and live a fulfilling and happy life. Beleive me, for years I was stuck in an un ending cycle of thoughts about my existence. What is death? What is life? Who am I? Is this real? And the worse : ocd thoughts about ocd. It was unberable and I became severly depressed and anxious as I also suffer from panic attacks. I took antidepressants and got a proper diagnosis and my psychologist told me I had « existencial ocd ». We began an exposure and reponse therapy to those thoughts. It took me a couple of months to get back on my feets and now I’ve been free for the last 4 years. The ocd response and thoughts still come back from time to time but it’s managable and don’t stick very long.
Omg I cannot express how fucking grateful I am I found this.. I've always thought I had some tendencies but also did not understand these aspects of the condition.. I've been losing my fucking mind recently thinking all of these exact thoughts and worrying myself into the ground.. This video, and a few others of yours I found now, feels like someone understands my brain 🥹😭 thank you so much for sharing your life/story with us, it's giving me so much hope to keep going!! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
THANK YOU!!!! I HATE hearing all the comments about people confusing OCD and perfectionism!!! I get all these same thoughts and it’s so comforting to see that others have these thoughts too!
So true. The OCD jokes are played out. For I it sucks even more though because tho I have the fuckery of ocd intrusive thoughts I also suffer from hand asking and other repetitive compulsions. Argh OCD sucks. But we all need to stay strong, it’s hard work but relief is there
Hand washing
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Being asleep is the only release if you can
I have ocd and that I have been tortured mentally for 10 months
And sleep helps but my thoughts are already appearing in my dreams
It makes me feel like I did something that I would never ever do. It convinces me that I did that thing and I always ruminate and it’s a constant vicious cycle. I really need a therapist so I can enjoy my one and only life.
Same.
@@KimberleyC. I’m so sorry it’s really rough
Did you start seeing a therapist? I'm at a point where I feel like I need one to move forward. I'm hoping a therapist can help.
Really loved the video. Jesus. The shame is unreal. Truly unreal. Always convincing myself I’m evil and don’t deserve to live. Fuck it will hit you so hard sometimes.
Hope you believe that OCD is ego dystonic. Gives you doubts for the qualities opposite of what you have.
Know and believe
I hope youre doing ok
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Stay strong bro. I’ve lived with OCD and by my standards I would call extreme OCD for most my life, since before I was 12 to present. I’m now 51 and it has been a lifetime of mental stuff. I’ve learned so much about OCD tho and I’ve worked very hard to control it as best I can do it doesn’t effect my everyday life. Bless up and Jah guidance , most of all stay strong
we're you able to overcome them? I'm still young I think my level is lower than extreme I'm 21 and now I'm just starting to learn how to control them I use my own strategies and it's working fine.
@@user-bz4jp6ek7h your situation sounds as though it may not be as extreme as mine , so even today I struggle on bad days. But like you I have learned self control and research a lot to overstand the condition better. I wish I could say it was totally gone but I can’t, I can say tho it’s gotten better in a sense that I’ve come to a better overstanding that I can’t let it interfere with my living a happy successful livity.
How many themes have you fought? Did your OCD change forms as you beat the previous ones? If you would answer i would appreciate it!
@@jimnewt2138 yes they have changed and sometimes ho back. I’ve been dealing with this for the better part of 40 years. Still hard days but most are better because all the worries or episodes are similar is some way. Ruminating only fuels it to grown and become worst. Yes they have changed but they are still kind of similar if you overstand what I mean. There’s always some kind of doubt that after so long starts to seem familiar even if situations seem different. Meditation helps too. Helps mellow the anxiety
@@jimnewt2138 too many different situations or themes in my life go count. OCD is definitely not what people joke about like numbers and washing hands and lining things up. That’s the stuff we do that is dumb nonsense, but the worries, rumination, and doubt that we feel inside is not a joke in any way that’s for sure. I wouldn’t wish OCD on my enemy. Stay strong
My thoughts come in images, my ruminations are mixed with images. I obsess over conveyng exactly what I mean or intend/ being truthful. I get stuck on a particular situation and worry (obsessively) that someone has got the wrong idea of my beliefs. I replay the situation over and over like a movie in my head. If I could go back and change my body language to let them know that I did not agree with the other person next to them I would feel comfortable again, but I can't. It is TORTURE!
I have the image thing too! Doesn't help it ties in with my violent and sexually repulsive thoughts.
Same here 😞
I long all day just to go to sleep so I don’t have to fight the mind games anymore. But as soon as I wake up, it starts immediately.
SAME
Yup😢
Same here, never ending cycle, ongoing war with my own brain. Its exhausting!
I feel that my theme changes all the time. Once I conquer one theme it changed to another theme. Real Event OCD is such a hard one to overcome as is all themes
@@thewarden8405 This is me to a T.
Don't give up hope, friends! With therapy, a little medication, and a lot of patience/prayer, it DOES get manageable, you can live a normal life! Just remember it takes time!
Took me a long time to get to a pretty normal state, and I still have moments, but I am still improving, and after considerable practice and professional help, I can say I'm generally more often happy or content rather than stressed!
You're not the only one. Your story and mine sound identical. I know it only helps a little to know that, but it's something.
Thank you, J.C.! We're not alone.
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I didn’t know that first one was because of OCD, I honestly thought that happened to everyone
My god it is hell. Most days I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I’m on edge 24/7.
Same ❤ makes you feel like youre not even a person
I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder and OCD recently. Somehow, it felt like a relief that now I know why I feel and think things a certain way. I felt seen in this video and now I know I'm not alone. I pray for healing to everyone, God bless.
Take care. Prayers! 🌷💕
Oh man it feels so good to see someone share this experience, its so hard but we need to keep fighting. Stay strong brother i love you
Love you too man it’s tough but I made it out and I’m very happy now I’m hoping the best for you
Me too bro.. harm relationship existential ocd..daily falling into a same circle of thoughts.. interesting how when one theme hit me other two doesn't exist..it makes me feel like I'm going crazy..
@@tysenconoboy-ti7gphii can you help mr
I suffer horribly from ocd, and I’ve never met anyone who can relate to me in person with it. Not the “cleaning ocd” the ocd rumination like this one. I would never wish this on anyone, but I don’t deserve it either.
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD but I do get the thoughts in the morning and honestly all thru out the day too
Exactly the same for me. I never asked for the thoughts, subject of the thoughts or the hours upon hours of anxiety and feelings of dread and being a horrible person. OCD has just shifted over the last 30 years of my life and in my early twenties kicked up just like you show in this video. You are not alone.
How many themes have you fought? Did your OCD changed forms as you won the previous ones? Thank you!
@@jimnewt2138 OCD has changed themes at least hundreds of times throughout my life. There is no limit to what uncertainty can make you fear or doubt. Usually the next scariest fear takes over from the previous one. Sometimes several at once. It feels like you can’t live your life in the moment no matter how hard you try. Your mind just worries and obsesses in the background at the same time you are trying to live and be you. No matter where you go who your with the OCD is active. Im Super thankful for therapy and meds.
@@will523 For me it started when i was 18 i had harm OCD for 4 years sometimes i wished i died or a car hit me so i could be free..then i won it! I felt grateful to god for giving me a second chance i was good for 2 years but it came back with a thematic content that disgusts me to my core and was always against who i am i would rather die than be what it told me i'll become! I won this also (not fully it is still there but i doesnt feel real anymore)! But now it attached itself to something else..i feel so tired man going from monster to monster it is like slaying dragon to dragon! And it is so creative this thing OCD like a parasite it knows you, what is important to you and it attacks it tries to twist it etc etc Even if it isnt active it is like it waits and when the chance presents itself it attacks! Something else i have noticed its because of OCD i am prone to manipulation from evil people! They try to manipulate me or gaslight me, i know they arent telling the truth but i have my OCD in the background and it attacks it makes itself known through their evil suggestions and it creates new themes based on them! I have two questions for you:
1) Have meds help you?
2) Can you recognize new OCD attacks or it may still fool you for sometime till you realize it is your OCD and when did you get so much experience with the illness that now you recognize it even if it finds something new to scare you with that isnt the common classic themes
This is very educational. I, like a lot of people, literally just thought OCD was like the obsessively cleaning or tap your toe 17 times because that's how media protrays OCD. This seems so much more horrible. Recently I've found out what it actually is, and I'm really disappointed such misconceptions are so prevalent. Thank you (and other OCD related channels on the internet) for educating me, someone who doesn't have OCD, on the subject better.
I feel you... mine starts the minute my brain wakes up, even before I've opened my eyes sometimes... its awful.. I almost considered not having children because of the thoughts I might get in response... I've had it since I was a little girl, I remember the thoughts of wishing my new born sister dead over and over and screaming and crying that I didn't mean it and then feeling that I was possessed by something because I couldn't control these bad thoughts... its still my number 1 trigger that I worry I am possessed by evil and that is why I think like I do... every day is such a struggle and a battle... I've tried to pray but my intrusive thoughts like to say that I'm praying to Satan and not God. I've heard exposure therapy but I really don't think I could do it with the possession thingy. Anyways thanks for posting and letting me know that I'm not completely alone in this ❤
I'm so so sorry. I promise you're not alone. It really is so hard but I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. ERP is awesome, and I have some book recommendations if you're interested.
@@phoenixhoule3125 yes please, very interested thank you 🥰🙏
Try having existential OCD and worry about everything you will never have an answer too 24/7 you have to be careful of what movies you watch certain phrases you here...... it's like a loop of terror.
I have ocd too I get bad intrusive thoughts
me too just know you’re not alone 🫶🏻
I hope youre doing ok
I too have ocd and intrusive thoughts 😢...
For me I’m an A student with ocd. From the second I wake up, I have to go through each one of my classes thinking if I have anything to do for hw or studying. Then I do that over and over. Probably 200 times a day. It’s exhausting, debilitating and it just takes over. And nobody understands it. I go to therapy but it can only do so much. I can’t focus on anything expect it, even when I’m trying to relax. It’s rough
I also have ocd . I knew I had it but got medically diagnosed recently. This is exactly what my day looks like and the thing that hurts the most is that my parents think its not that big of a deal but I still love them becoz they are getting me medical help
Thanks my friend. This video gives me a bit of a relief. I was aware of that I have OCD but never diagnosed. This is exactly what my day is. And as you mentioned everybody thinks it's about repetative actions and that always kept me believimg I have OCD. However even my job choice is because of OCD now I understand.
I’ve been thinking I have some onset of OCD for a while now because this is exactly me. I spend hours wondering if I’m secretly a horrible person who’s pretending to be good.
OCD is like autism in the sense it effects so much more than people realize. Its like the control center of your existence.
I thought everyone was like this until my sister suggested that i may have ocd lol What you described is how ive been thinking since i was a kid. I cant express how debilitating and ruinous it has been to my life/self worth. thanks for making this!
I have been living with severe OCD that’s debilitated me and cut me off from society for nearly 8 years. I’m only 23 and I feel like I’m never going to get better. I’ve been in countless meds, been in therapy for years. I have countless intrusive thoughts every single moment that I’m awake and also do mental compulsions to “deal” with those thoughts all day every day. I also suffer from depression and PTSD. I am exhausted and don’t know how much fight I have left in me.
This is so real. I’m tearing up because it feels like I’m in the pit of hell and have no peace when it’s all that I want
I don’t want to self diagnose because obviously that’s wrong and not healthy, but the more I look into this, the more I realize, I do a lot of these things. I’m constantly in a state of fear that I’ve done something wrong, I’m doing something wrong, am about to do something wrong. I feel constantly emotionally drained which makes me feel especially terrible around friends because I feel like I’m just faking my reactions when they tell me things and it makes it harder to relate to what they’re telling me. Even personally I feel this. Recently I lost both my childhood pets and I didn’t even cry or feel anything really. And realizing that scared me because I thought “I just lost a huge part of my life. Why do I not feel anything? Am I a bad person for not feeling upset? Am I crazy for not feeling anything?” I have diagnosed ADD and I thought maybe the thoughts just overlapped, but I’m kinda worried. Can anyone possibly tell me why I might feel this way?
I know nothing about ADD but OCD will sneak its ass into pretty much everything you do from home to school to work. The thoughts will appear in mainly everything, if left uncontrolled. I… can’t relate as much, since I was lucky enough to have a loving family, but even so I feel like some days I’m a horrible person. I won’t go to into detail, but the point is that no matter the situation, if you feel these thoughts, seek professional aid. I was stupid enough to not do so immediately and now I’m in this weird dilemma where if I tell my parents “hey I’ve had OCD for almost two years” I would never feel the same. Yea, it’s hard, it’s proven to be a side effect of the fucking disorder to want to do it yourself, and it’s so much easier to type than do, but please, do it for your own good before you kick yourself for it later.
i have diagnosed ocd and what you said gave me literal chills because its so similar to what i have. especially the "faking your reactions" part
This. Im so emotionally and mentally exhausted and in turn im always thinking "can they tell im interested? What if they don't think im listening? What if they think i dont care or im faking? How can i make sure i let them know i am listening and engaged in this convo" LIKE UGH @@meo-qx2sn
I was an OCD sufferer. My OCD may get started when I was 12 years old. I might had many kinds of OCD. I cured my OCD by myself completly. Believe me its possible. I have recently started a UA-cam channel and I am going to shere my personal experience and tips on how you can cure it by yourself without taking anyone's help. I promise u that it will be helpful you u. So stay tune with my channel because many useful content is yet to come. ❤
For me it gets worse with stress/depression. I had and still have (sometimes now) severe anxiety. Also when it's bad I usually get intrusive thoughts about doing bad things to people or having bad things done to me, and my worst enemy, extreme obsession with death. It cripples me and I always get anxiety attacks everytime I get the death obsessions. I'm glad I'm doing way better now. I'm medicated on GAD meds and SSRIs which definitely helps but it's still not 100%. When I'm off medication, I pretty much relapse into my anxiety/depression. I used to have such severe compulsions when I was younger I would literally spend every second I my day counting and recounting and not being able to stop doing things over and over because I would have anxiety. And over time now it's been way better, sometimes I still count things over and over, I would get severe intrusive thoughts and anxiety about doing bad things to others.
"What if I'm the only person alive and everyone else is fake." YES!!!!
I have OCD and insomnia and it feels unbearable a lot of the time like my brain is putting me through hell and not even letting me rest through it and the sleep deprivation makes it even worse
stay strong... i have faith in you :D
@@adsylvium5736 🫶🫶
I have opposite thing going on, the moment I fell asleep, I feel better but the moment I wake up, all the ocd thoughts stars acting up, its like they are waiting for me to just wake up.
How many times have I washed clothes unnecessarily, how many times have I thrown things out, and how many times have I ruminated and obsessed over some that bothers me. Ocd is truly hideous when it gets extreme
I feel for you, dude, I still struggle with this stuff all the time. Thankfully, I got some help through NOCD and it low key changed my life (my buddy’s too). I still deal with intrusive thoughts, but the way I deal with them is night and day now. I implore whoever’s reading this, and is struggling like I was, to give NOCD a shot. This shit doesn’t have to own you!
I’ve been having HORRIBLE ones. What if I’m a murderer and I forgot? What if I traumatized someone and didn’t know??? I have literally had all of these. My greatest fear is doing horrible heinous crimes, going to prison, or becoming one of the things he said in this video. It’s agony.
Do you experience this with your ocd? You see trigger words everywhere or watch a show and something in it triggers you or the show has a theme of something you obsess about and you just think hmm is it my ocd or is God telling me something? I go through this all day long. It’s a nightmare.
this helped me feel less alone during my very very lonely walk through this hell. You captured this perfectly, thank you so, so, so much. I would love to be friends with more people who have ocd
I have struggled with ocd. It’s very true. You’re bombarded with negative and debilitating thoughts and emotions, and the more you try to resolve them, the more panicked and anxious you get. This is truly from the devil. I pray that anyone who has struggled with this truly comes to their wits end and clings desperately to Jesus Christ. He literally HAS SAVED ME from my sins and an eternity in hell. And He has freed my mind. Not to say that I don’t still stumble and fall into those times. But He is my God, and He has dealt kindly and mercifully with me. I pray that all will be sold out for Him for their salvation from this sin-corrupted world. His kingdom is coming soon- praise GOD that He has made me a citizen if His kingdom. But while on this earth, I must choose His Way in everything- I thank Him for His Word, the Bible. His Holy Spirit dwells within me so that I can carry out His good works, WORRY FREE!
So yes, I pray that all will follow Christ, and that those who struggle with any sort of darkness will seek godly council!! Lord bless!
This video says so much about people who have OCD and have to live with obsessive intrusive thoughts. When I get the diagnost of OCD from my doctor, I felt like for the first time in my life I understood that the pain from those thoughts wasnt my fault, and it's has medical treatment that can make me live my life without feeling guilty or shame for things that aren't even real. I know it's in my mind but, It doesnt define who I am.
I didn't even know it was top 10.. I've been diagnosed with ocd and I can't catch a break at all.. im finally learning way more than ever and I still feel very shitty..
Thank you for making this. I want to show it to as many people as possible so that they can stop misunderstanding this disorder
The thoughts, all at once triggers me because I have the same problem
must have done somethings horrible in my past lives that I got this as a punishment. I have accepted it as my reality. I let it take over and believe what it says. At least with this it stops for 2 minutes . Accepting that yes , I'm indeed the person my thoughts tells me is satisfying. This is my truth.
That is a lying accusation from the devil, there’s no need to allow demons to torment us. Each person is appointed to die once. Faith in Christ sets us free from all guilt through the atoning sacrifice He made for mankind.
thank you for being so vulnerable about your hurt and your experiences. i hope that you are supported so honestly and wholly by loving and authentic souls
i don't think i will ever be able to view myself as a good person deserving of love. ocd has destroyed me
You are a worthy, beautiful and talented good person…I watched your video and your voice is lovely too by the way.❤@kejsida4921
i appreciate that thank you
I have spent years working on recovering from this, it does get better, you can beat it. I can tell when something is my pure o and know how to stop it from getting out of hand. You'll find your answers someday too. Dont be afraid to talk with other people and share your story talking helped me a lot
Even if some OCD haver isn't very or just not compulsive/do rituals at all like what people assume, having intrusive thoughts sure is still very disabling. Being temporarily freezed because of having to deal with things you never asked for but your brain insist on. It really is a genuine disorder.
Embracing whatever feelings your pushing off helps a lot. Your thoughts are connected to feelings so feel them even IF their weird. Then move on… hope this helps
as someone who suffers from specifically the contamination-based ocd thoughts, even that is so much more than simply "being a germaphobe"
Thank you for making this video.
My boyfriend mental health as been declining alot and we were both trying to look on what could be going on.
And this... this is spot on.
So glad I saw this.! It makes me feel not so alone 😢
Youre a legend mate god bless you.
As someone who suffers from OCD, I just wanna say hang in there, we will get out soon.
Why the hell is this so relatable? I wholeheartedly hate that fact.
I was diagnosed with ocd when I was nine years old. It’s gotten better since then but I still have intrusive thoughts every day of my life. Thank you for making the disorder more understood ❤️
Anyone on here that suffers from OCD ever get so obsessed about whatever your theme is like Real event ocd or whatever that you start seeing things everywhere that pertain to what your obsessing about and that just triggers you more and you start obsessing if it’s God telling you something or wonder if it’s just that you think about it so much that your mind just subconsciously recognizes the things you obsess about out in the world.
been going through this for the past few months. pretty disturbing and causes a lot of distress. put my trust in the Lord, I will keep getting better!
Feels exhausting because I feel like if I don’t refuse the thoughts n let them come then I’m agreeing with those thoughts.
When I was a child, I thought I was going insane. It took me until I was 22 to be brave enough to search up why I was having these intrusive thoughts. I still have never told anyone about it. Now I'm 31. It's mostly okay, but there are lapses and ups and downs.
Disturbingly relatable
OCD manifests in many forms. Unfortunately I found out the hard way, suffering years of traumatizing thoughts, where I thought there was something seriously wrong with me. I did not have the answer to anything and lived in this state for a very, very long time. Intrusive thoughts are esp. Disturbing and uncomfortable.
It's worse when your family doesn't take you it seriously. They just make fun it as If I am suffering willingly!
Everything feels like it's dirty and people around me don't understand.
This one short video explains mu life perfectly, especially the thoughts that come in your head all at once! I hate ocd, knowing I can never get rid of it, when I have it under control all I've got to do is relax just a tiny but, forget about it and all the tools to deal with it and boom it hits hard! OCD is debilitating at times and so tiring to deal with even when it's not the bad! It's a constant battle with your own mind!
Hi I have OCD too thanks for the encouragement ❤❤❤
What people need to understand is that just because someone's OCD theme revolves around whether they're a terrible person or not, that doesn't mean they should be reassured that they're not one. That fuels the OCD. All you have to do is accept the uncertainty.
Yeah people dont get our relief is always temporary, the thought will come up again at some point no matter how much reassurance you have.
Bro, tears... I've felt so bad for a long time thinking I'm horrible - the worst... I heavenly identify myself with the intrusive thoughts in the morning. Thank You! Thank you for making me feel like I'm not a freak.
this is the first time ive seen my exact feelings be worded by someone else.. thank you
Anyone here gets offended by people who say they are so OCD whwnever they try to align stuff or make things in order? I hate it when people say this to me. They dont have even the slightest clue on what we go through
the only sure thing about ocd is that everyday is a shitty day
Ive had ocd for as long as i can remember. It was always there for me
I have OCD, was diagnosed. I am a frequent hand washer (It is a ritual for me and I panic if I can't do it) but I also scratch until I bleed and have to go back and do things again if it wasn't even numbers (Like walking or cracking joints or bumping into things.) I also have these same type of thoughts every day and it is exhausting. I don't have the energy to be nice to people because I feel like I'm a horrible person, and then not being nice reinforces this belief and it hurts so much.
I have OCD and this thoughts feel like another person in my head just bullying me.
Dealing with ROCD
Thank you. A lot of people think it’s just cleaning etc but I do hope people soon see it differently
Ya, recently I’m really reflecting on whether I’ve traumatized some people. Since I’ve been traumatized myself (if not by my OCD at least)
I hate the thought that I might have traumatized others as well and they experience what I have experienced.
sending empathy and compassion
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but this pretty much sums up my life. I don’t know why but it makes life really hard and I convince myself that by “warning” myself 24/7 of all the bad things that I could do, it makes me “safer”? Even though it makes me live with constant guilt and stress. And I tell myself that all the intrusive thoughts could so easily become reality and it’s really scary and I become a monster in my eyes because by having all these what if scenarios in my head, I convince myself that they sum up what I am as a person and therefore I’m a horrible person. I try to write them down, (my therapist said that would work) but I physically couldn’t the words couldn’t be written. I don’t want to diagnose myself though as I’m not a medical professional but if I even think or suggest to myself that I could maybe have it, my head tells me I’m a horrible liar who only wants attention and is the worst person alive. Being the way I am (OCD or not) can be exhausting but I am grateful for my life and recently I’ve been having more good days than bad days so that’s good 🫶
yea i feel that i can never just tell myself itll be fine cus then my brain thinks well now it won’t be. so i just convince myself that it’s gonna happen.
My OCD had me convinced that I'm a terrible person for liking Fantasy and listening to songs about vikings. I sat in my room waiting for it to go away for months. I've just recently started to pick my hobbies back up, but the intrusive thoughts are making it hard to get back into it.
I listen to metal alot, and i fantasize battles to the music with my favorite characters of comics, anime, or characters in books. I instantly stop the moment someone walks by because im convinced they can read my mind and i often jump subjects when this happens. And i always think im fucking weird with these things like, its nothing even anything gross or that weird its just how my mind thinks and i fucking hate having to limit my own creativity (especially at work) because of it. I know its impossible for people to read minds its just i cant get over it, really annoying.
Thank you, this made me feel so much less alone.
I have OCD and it's 100% accurate
There is help. It's a living hell when OCD has full control of you, but you can overcome it.
My prayers to you m8
As somebody without OCD I made a Percy Jackson character who didn’t find either camps but rather ran away from people he cared about because Apollo accidentally referenced him to Zephyrs(killed Hyacinth, apollos boyfriend, out of jealousy in a myth) and said person became terrified he would eventually give his best friend the same fate. Ended up devoting himself to the gods but continuously started giving more and more after convincing himself it wasn’t enough and that he wasn’t doing enough for the gods and that he was messing up somehow. Still incredibly terrified of making new friends because of his powers and asking ‘what if I accidentally hurt them?’ Using the Greek myths of Heracles and other hero’s to convince himself these thoughts are rational
Then I come across these videos after a google search and realize I accidentally gave him OCD 💀
Brief description of ocd:Peace doesn't exist!!
I relate, it's awful. Thanks for sharing this and representing OCD much more accurately than what is often portrayed.
Oh wow, this was a major eye opener for me. I think I'm OCD. It explains so much. Thank you for all you do.
I believe I struggle w/ religious ocd the 4th one. I get inappropriate lustful thoughts, cussing in my head, saying mean things about people, even lustful thoughts towards God 😖 n tons of what ifs tons of im i sinning? It’s so stressful and depleting and it’s so hard not to focus on them the thoughts makes me feel sooo dirty. Jesus please save me.
I take medication and it helps but therapy is helping me the most
Very apt. I tried to end things in 2022 but i failed fortunately but Yeah...describes me. I found psych helped. I also moved house. I stopped functioning for year due to severe depression and drank to oblivion. All stopped now. Ocd still a pill at times though. I notice some of my intrusive thoughts repeat, call them spin cycles.
Trigger warning! :The thought about what if I’m the only one alive and everyone else is my imagination hit me close to home. Those thoughts of bigger than reality intrusive thoughts I’ve always struggled with but knowing it’d not just me helps. Thank you
I dont have that exact thought but some of my reality bending ones would be constantly feeling like invisible people are watching my every move and judging me, everyone able to read my thoughts including dead people up in heaven or hell 😂 like part of me laughs cause it sounds stupid outloud but in my head its like my worst fear
I have a fear sometimes when I'm in my room alone that everyone has disappeared there's a movie called the langoliers. Very scary. I do check that people are still there. I'm in care but I've mobility issues. I do feel a bit silly doing it but I do check.
@@soniczforever5470 what you gotta do is stop checking. when you check it reinforces the idea in your brain that you "need to check" that means your brain will start telling you to check more often. when you stop checking it will hurt for a bit but your brain will begin to realise it doesn't need to check anymore and you wont get reminded as much
I suffered from it, in my opinion we should stop saying stuff about brain not letting us live peacefully. Im almost fully recovered, i dont suffer from it at all already, just have thoughts popping up sometime. What I found myself it was me that wasn't letting me enjoy my life and just chill. I think it is some form of mental self harm to distract yourself from something internal, from some conflict inside of you.
It's just learned at some time in out luves and we forget that life is okay without control to begin with.
At least thats what its been in my case, and I'm fully recovered w/o medication and just with some introspection and minor help from psychologist.
I greatly relate to this. I'm sorry you have dealt with this.❤
I want us all to know one thing, our content of intrusive thoughts may differ greatly but the pattern of our compulsions remain the same - we have different triggers but we all either exhaustingly ruminate, clean, avoid/postpone things we love, problem solve, ask for assurance, repeat, redo, check, punish, etc THE CONTENT of our thoughts do not matter, the intervention point is at the compulsion. Getting lost on the content is the main trap we fall into, think of the compulsion, tolerate anxiety, let anxiety eat you up but you stay away from compulsions. Short term dread for long term benefits.