Life: Pre-Transition part 1

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  • Опубліковано 7 чер 2015
  • My life before I started transitioning, a brief taste of who I was before I felt brave enough to be me.

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  • @skepticalwanderer7891
    @skepticalwanderer7891 9 років тому

    Congrats sister! I could see it in your eyes how sincerely happy you are. I'm on my 7th month mark and happy as I can be. And your hair is giving me all the life that I need! Yaaas!

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      Jade Alombro hehehe yay congrats on 7 months :-) it is amazing isn it and for me everything really started happening after 6 months :-) im glad you love it :-D

  • @shaunc2583
    @shaunc2583 9 років тому

    Fascinating look at your fast,very surprised to be honest. Mine is not so bad just a lot of confusion,shame and a whole lot of denial and pain. I'm just starting out on my journey,doctor appointment next week.
    I am slowly watching all your videos, you have come a long way. I've started from your latest and working backwards, so I'm a little out of date.
    I hope you are well and life is good for you and your girlfriend. I still can't find out how to change my name,I'll have a go on my PC when I'm not at work. Just love your accent. Shorna x

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      Shaun C hehe thank you shorna for watching all my videos.. i hope they are not to boring hehe... and im so excited for you. i remember what that time of my life was like :-) so eeeek yay for you

  • @rosebriar6926
    @rosebriar6926 9 років тому

    i can´t stop watching your video... you are sooo beautiful...and you uploadet this video on my birthday..haha this has to be a sign!

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      Rose Briar hehehe definitely a sign :-) thank you so much for watching

  • @bohdannaanichka8825
    @bohdannaanichka8825 8 років тому

    awww... you are so awesome! I'm so glad you are you! You have such an awesome energy too... very beautiful spirit and although I don't put a lot of value on appearance I think you are so pretty!

  • @TheNeSparkey
    @TheNeSparkey 9 років тому

    What happened?? You were cut off. Where is part 2?? I have been watching your videos... Somehow I stumbled upon your videos. I'm a married heterosexual women, however I am a mother, with a son. I would like to chat sometime on a personal level. Just for information and you do seem to be the perfect person! I can see us being friends.. Kindred spirits! I know this world is changing and I have never been closed as other people are. I have always held an open mind. Had friends from all sorts of life. I even went one night to a transgender contest/dance with a friend of mine who was a lot like you.. He was a good looking male, but was so comfortable being a women instead... Actually, in my opinion, he was a hot babe too! Anyway, would love to see the rest of your story as the start and how you grew to today... Thanks, Trudi!

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      Trudi Tagart it would not upload and then the video got corrupted :-( i will have to re-film it :-( but i would love to chat to you.. you can add me on google plus if you would like and feel free to message me on there :-) you can never have enough friends :-) and i am so happy that your child has such an open minded mother for if he ever does have anything to say to you it will be so much easier for him knowing that you are not judgemental

  • @tammysnell9286
    @tammysnell9286 8 років тому

    I love to be a real friend to you hon!! I don't have any real friends it soooooo sucks! So even though you have great people in your life now! I will always be here if you someone to talk to lol no I'm a nut case just a nice person!!

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  8 років тому

      +Tammy Snell hehehehe i would never think you are a nut job :-) and we can always chat here if youd like :-) everyone needs friends

  • @2randomguys24
    @2randomguys24 9 років тому

    Hei, how do you deal with the broad shoulders and some muscular parts of your body?(I'm asking because I have the same problem) I mean, are you doing any exercises do reduce the muscular mass and to *reshape* your frame? (if it's possible ofc)

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому +1

      Follzie Mummzie hey hun, thank you for the question :-) i have cut down on the amount of protein that i eat as that contributes to the building of muscle and i try stay away from to much resistance training and focus more on running boxing and skipping (cardio) but the pills i am on definitely help aswel,, but it has taken a long time for me to lose the size i had,, but i think coming to terms that i am just a bigger built girl and that i will never be this tiny pixie, has helped :-) i only have one body and i am now happy with this one, no matter how it looks

    • @2randomguys24
      @2randomguys24 9 років тому

      Thanks for the reply, Im really trying to not get discouraged by my shoulders width ^^ good luck in everything you do

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому +1

      i know the feeling, i was disheartened for so long... but i promise, if you dont make a big deal of them no1 else will even notice them :-)

    • @BrookePage1992
      @BrookePage1992 9 років тому

      Follzie Mummzie I know the feeling my arms and shoulder are broud and even now being vegan they have not shrunk. joys of the body your delt.as niki says its one we have to deal with. so happy to see Im not alone either xo

  • @renferal3774
    @renferal3774 9 років тому

    You are just adorable :)

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      +Ren Feral aaah you really think so

    • @renferal3774
      @renferal3774 9 років тому

      I do!! I really like the person that you are. You're so real and honest.You are someone I can respect. And I really like your voice :)

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому

      Ren Feral
      aaah thank you ren!!!! that means the world to me

  • @luTheBrave
    @luTheBrave 9 років тому

    How can you or anyone say you new from age 4? I don't even remember myself at that age

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому +1

      leo i have memories about certain aspects of my life at the point. how can you say what i do or dont know just because you dont have that experience.... the thing is when a major psychological event happens in your life it tends to leave a mark.. me being told that who i thought i was at the age of 4 or 5, was a huge thing in the developmental stage of my life, as it is at that age when you start to develope your own personality and start to find out who and what you are be it at the most basic level

    • @luTheBrave
      @luTheBrave 9 років тому

      ho shit i didn't mean it in a bad way, i support you 100% ,and tnx for replying!

    • @NicoleLouwmodel
      @NicoleLouwmodel  9 років тому +1

      leo hehehe its ok :-) and thank you so so so much for your support. i really do appreciate it :-)

    • @CandysChannel
      @CandysChannel 9 років тому

      My earliest memory is in my crib laying on my stomach. I was upset and fussing a bit. I remember light streaming in from the other room. I have other memories of being a baby. One of my friends doesn't have memories really until she was 5 or so, so everyone is different obviously :)

    • @jessi3919
      @jessi3919 9 років тому

      +leo Maybe you can't remember yourself at that age, because you didn't have any negative things happening to you at that time that scarred your mind. I can assure you, I knew when I was at least 4 that I was different. I was very feminine and had more in common with the girls than the boys. I had an older brother (1 1/2 years older) and younger brother (1 year younger), but I would insist on playing with girls and doing girly things. I seriously thought I was a girl trapped in a boys body. Now that I look back on it, I don't know why I felt that way. Was it because I was always told boys don't act like that and I thought if I was a girl I could act like that, or was it my true feelings? Now that I'm much older and have had testosterone flowing through my veins for so long, it's difficult to make a definite decision about transitioning, but it has been coming up in my mind a lot lately.