Hi Friends! I'm being impersonated by a scam. I will never ask you for money, or information and I don't give out a whats app number. Please report any scams in the comments. Thanks Everyone.
You are not alone. These freaks populate the comment sections on many UA-cam channels. Hopefully most people see through them. Too bad there is no way to flush these cowards out. Your channel is amazingly helpful. Cheers.
I don't know where I would be without my Lord, I really was messed up without Him. I believe He was with me through it all even so because He loved me even though I wandered away from Him for many years. I love you Lord Jesus !!
Half way through the video I must comment…. What you are saying is very meaningful to me. 2 years ago I went through 18 months of encephalitis and brain injury. Since then, ( I’m still not fully recovered) I have felt that my brain has lost track of who I am. I’m not at all the same person I was before… optimistic, artistic/creative, curious, finding joy easily in simple things. Now I don’t recognize myself. My temperament, moods, perspectives have all changed. Coping is a constantly struggle. I feel so lost. When you mentioned losing the sense of your core self my eyes filled with tears. This is exactly what I have been struggling with. Feeling lost to myself in every way because my inner rudder is broken, sails ripped and feel constantly headed for the rocks. I not only feel lost, but I feel great loss. And stifled, deep grief, and profound vulnerability. There is nothing internal to ground and sustain me now. That “ thing” that grounded me seems to have died. I’ve sensed this condition/state is due to the brain injury but my research hasn’t addressed these particular feelings and conditions. Mostly it is about the fatigue and depression which I also experience. This sense of loss has felt like something impossible to explain or validate. Just an instinctual, therefore subjective thing. Hearing your words that so accurately and honestly describe my experience with brain injury has validated my instincts. You can’t imagine how blessed I feel to have randomly (?) come across your channel. I am so grateful. Thank you so much for sharing this. I hope I made sense… my brain is not always adept. Now to listen to to the second half of your video.
I have told my now adult children , for their whole lives, that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. When you realize this, it really does help you understand the path you are on. Do not get me wrong, I have days of doubt and fear but at 56 I realize that wasting a day on these things is only going to make the path harder. Things really do work out better than we can dream. We need to put in the effort and find joy and remember we have more power then we know. Loved this. 🙌🏻🍑🧡Lisa
Hi Lisa! Thank you so much for sharing you perspective. I completely agree, universe is working for our benefit. Thanks for being part of our mindful community!
Sorry but the Universe didn't work in favour for me 3 friends who all succumbed to early unexpected deaths. 1 died of a brain tumour and the other 2 with Cancers. It's been a difficult time and there is no plan...it is what it is....lucky or unlucky...life is unpredictable.
@@jesusisking3974 I am so sorry. My childhood was filled with fear and abuse and neglect. I never knew my father and I have also lost friends and family. However I remain hopeful and find joy in every day. I hope you accept my hug. 🍑🙌🏻🧡Liss
Hi Connie, So glad I found your channel. I too was in a serious car accident 3 years ago. I was on my way to, get this: my yoga class. It has turned my life upside down. I was diagnosed with PTSD and Post Concussion Syndrome. I am almost 61 and no longer work. I had to try really hard to slow down and not blame myself for the person I am now. I also find solace in the outdoors, doing lot's of gardening and walking at the state park by our house. My husband and I just returned from 5 weeks on the road in our RV. ( our first big post retirement trip) So good to be in the outdoors. We plan on becoming semi- nomadic and travelling. I have also embraced minimalism and am busy downsizing. I find it very freeing, less objects to care for and cloud my mind! Thank you for reminding us to care for ourselves.
This had a good feel to it. This was me 3 years ago. Nature, meditation and awareness are still a part of my daily life today. I learned sooo much about myself going thru "hard times" and wouldn't trade that for anything. I'm now living the life " I was meant to live" it looks very different than what I planned. Be open to change cause that's what's always goin on.
Connie you are an inspiration I will be 62 in August and have always been connected to nature when I go jogging and I hear the sound of a plane I look up at the sky and gaze at it till it disappears some think what is that you see in that I love the smell of the earth after the rain when I am in the countryside even the fragrance of a perfume is not close to this I believe this universe is loaned to us for a very short time and we should embrace it🇨🇦Markham
I keep coming back to this video again and again, especially about letting go, just going with the flow of life. Not fighting life or trying to shape it this is something I’m embracing from now on. Thank Connie for the guidance.
I too feel lost at the moment. My mind is too anxious to hear the answer from within. It's so frustrating . I want to cry every morning as I don't see the purpose of me getting up. I've been in this place before but this time I feel really stuck due to aging. It's been too long and I'm worried it has become a part of me forever . I don't want to be a grumpy old woman 🥶
I suffer from severe depression. It is hard to explain to others how I feel and why. I am retired, disabled, and trying to live in this very expensive time. I sometimes wonder what the point is of getting up and trying. Then I remember what I heard once - Jesus doesn't make mistakes in loving us just as we are. This thought keeps me going. Love your messages. They are quiet and calm but gets me to thinking.
Thank you for sharing your story. This is inspiring. I have not been through a life-altering experience such as yours, but I still struggle to find meaning and be at peace with the course my life has taken. I think it is natural to question and doubt many things in life as we gain experience and wisdom. I try to tell myself this when I start to feel down or disappointed in life. Expectations we set for life when we are young are often naive and unrealistic.
Thank you for this video Connie. You are beautiful, inside and out. I deal with depression, anxiety, OCD, and so many more mental illnesses. I have found the answer through, as you said, letting go and surrendering to the path that life has for you. Everything that happens in your life is as it should be. Life is painting the picture for you. By you trying to control it, youre making lines that dont belong in your life, making the sound of the picture seem off. Just let go, let yourself be free. Life is about experiencing, nothing else.
I’m lost now, don’t know where I’m going Im trying to find my self, getting help by talking about it’s helping in a way Thank you for sharing this, so glad to find you🌷
Thank you for sharing. I've definitely been thinking about this, this year. I don't think I've ever felt pulled towards a certain direction. When I think about my life, I thought I'd been looking for things or people to make me happy. But I'm coming to realise that I think I've been looking for me or my own self-acceptance all this time.
Hi Conny, thank you for sharing this experience! I am 44 years old now and was diagnosed with acute leukemia at the age of 27. One of the lessons i learnt during my treatments and in recovery (which took years) is that resignation is the best way forward in life: accept what you cannot change and positively act on the things you do have control over. I hope your health is better now or that you have found a way to live with it! All the best from the Netherlands
Hi Simini, Thank you so much for your heart felt, wise words. I agree that to find peace I first must let go of the things I can't control. I'm so glad you are part of our mindful community! You truly have so much wisdom to give to all of us. Sending you health & happiness my friend.
Dear Connie, you are such a wonderful person inside and outside... ❣️❣️❣️ When you are walking alone... I always have asked myself why don't you have a dog...they give you so much love. I'm severely traumatized...my little dog Krümmel helped me so much on the way back to live. Lots of love Tanja😗 Greetings from Germany 🐶🐶 PS: Everthing will be okay 🙏
Hi T.J, We love Germany, it's such a beautiful country! Our daughter is a ballerina in Munich. To answer your question, I LOVE animals. You are right. They do bring so much joy and healing. We move often and travel globally to visit our children in Costa Rica and Germany. We don't feel it is fair to the pet to move them so often. Great Questions!!!
Everything you said resonated so much. You are listening to YOUR innate intuition. It gets stronger the more we listen. I'm very careful what I allow to enter my ears. These messages have been very helpful, calming. I took a total mind dump this summer in my gardens. Stopped listening to all the "voices" and started listening to mine. Stopped listening to the chatter of society, well meaning friends, religious leaders, etc. It's been transformational getting to know me for once. Thanks for all the messages
Always so beautifully filmed and wonderful heartfelt messages. Don't you just love being among the shimmering aspens? I was out at Navajo Lake in So. Utah doing the same. Relaxing among the aspens and wildflowers. Have a wonderful weekend.
Thank you for this video. I did make peace with my self, despite i was ill again. That i am very often and most time i will be angry at my self. But now i try to make peace.
Phenomenal video with such meaningful messages! This really resonated with me, Connie. Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom, putting it into words & images that others can easily relate to. I've been feeling somewhat adrift myself lately, & this is just what I needed to hear! This video is going on my Favourites list, to listen to again & again, periodically.
Ps I always find nature extremely comforting and find consolation and great hapiness in it. Even though I am not religious I do feel the divine in its design. Every flower, plant, tree and animal is so perfect in itself! 🍀🌸🌺
Thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your lifestyle. It’s making me think about changes too. Thanks again as I could relate to so much of what you said.
16 I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his Spirit. 17 I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong in love and be built on love. 18 And I pray that you and all God’s holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ’s love-how wide and how long and how high and how deep that love is. 19 Christ’s love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:16-19
He is my Rock. A Shelter in a time of storm. He shows Himself alive and impacting my life in good and bad times. I thank Him for paying the penalty of my disobedience and I accepted that free gift humbly. Now the fear is gone.
Hi Connie just came across your channel and find you very interesting 🤔. Are you a fan of the late Dr Wayne Dyer? Also I love your voice it is very soothing. Stay well and have a nice and peaceful weekend.
Hello Connie, I just started to watched your videos and they are really interesting, but I have a question about makeup , I have a hard time finding a foundation that don't cause any harm specially for my daughter that have epilepsy. Any recommendation?
feeling lost is disconnection, surely ... and after traumas such as war, loss of homeland after 7 generations, formative society and friends, even family all still utterly toxic from our colonial vulnerability and hubris, now in a country i could never have foreseen living in half the hemisphere away from my roots, not speaking the language nor accepted here, i am entirely alone. yes, i am lost. disconnected. i only survive by swallowing my pain. 🙏
Hi Friends! I'm being impersonated by a scam. I will never ask you for money, or information and I don't give out a whats app number. Please report any scams in the comments. Thanks Everyone.
Sorry your having to go thru that, many UA-cam channels dealing with that. Pinning a heads ups is an effective way to counter,
Once you please come to India, listen to Sadhguru speech.
You are not alone. These freaks populate the comment sections on many UA-cam channels. Hopefully most people see through them. Too bad there is no way to flush these cowards out. Your channel is amazingly helpful. Cheers.
Thanks for sharing this video. Jesus loves you. He says ,’Come unto me all you who labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest’❤️
Amen and amen!! 🙏🙌😊. God bless you and yours!! 🙏😊
I don't know where I would be without my Lord, I really was messed up without Him. I believe He was with me through it all even so because He loved me even though I wandered away from Him for many years. I love you Lord Jesus !!
@@sandraatkinson3409 Amen and Amen!! He is so good to us!!! WE love you LORD 🙏🙌☺
intuition seems more like the Holy Spirit. I am still learning to listen/follow. Glad I found this. Subscribed.
Half way through the video I must comment….
What you are saying is very meaningful to me.
2 years ago I went through 18 months of encephalitis and brain injury. Since then, ( I’m still not fully recovered) I have felt that my brain has lost track of who I am. I’m not at all the same person I was before… optimistic, artistic/creative, curious, finding joy easily in simple things. Now I don’t recognize myself. My temperament, moods, perspectives have all changed. Coping is a constantly struggle.
I feel so lost.
When you mentioned losing the sense of your core self my eyes filled with tears. This is exactly what I have been struggling with. Feeling lost to myself in every way because my inner rudder is broken, sails ripped and feel constantly headed for the rocks.
I not only feel lost, but I feel great loss. And stifled, deep grief, and profound vulnerability. There is nothing internal to ground and sustain me now. That “ thing” that grounded me seems to have died.
I’ve sensed this condition/state is due to the brain injury but my research hasn’t addressed these particular feelings and conditions. Mostly it is about the fatigue and depression which I also experience.
This sense of loss has felt like something impossible to explain or validate. Just an instinctual, therefore subjective thing.
Hearing your words that so accurately and honestly describe my experience with brain injury has validated my instincts.
You can’t imagine how blessed I feel to have randomly (?) come across your channel.
I am so grateful. Thank you so much for sharing this. I hope I made sense… my brain is not always adept.
Now to listen to to the second half of your video.
Lots of love from Tanja Greetings from Germany 🙏
I have told my now adult children , for their whole lives, that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. When you realize this, it really does help you understand the path you are on.
Do not get me wrong, I have days of doubt and fear but at 56 I realize that wasting a day on these things is only going to make the path harder. Things really do work out better than we can dream. We need to put in the effort and find joy and remember we have more power then we know. Loved this. 🙌🏻🍑🧡Lisa
Hi Lisa! Thank you so much for sharing you perspective. I completely agree, universe is working for our benefit. Thanks for being part of our mindful community!
@@ConnieRiet 🙌🏻🍑🧡
Sorry but the Universe didn't work in favour for me 3 friends who all succumbed to early unexpected deaths.
1 died of a brain tumour and the other 2 with Cancers.
It's been a difficult time and there is no plan...it is what it is....lucky or unlucky...life is unpredictable.
@@jesusisking3974 I am so sorry. My childhood was filled with fear and abuse and neglect. I never knew my father and I have also lost friends and family. However I remain hopeful and find joy in every day. I hope you accept my hug.
🍑🙌🏻🧡Liss
@@PeachesSkinCare
Thank you 🤗🙏
Hi Connie,
So glad I found your channel. I too was in a serious car accident 3 years ago. I was on my way to, get this: my yoga class. It has turned my life upside down. I was diagnosed with PTSD and Post Concussion Syndrome. I am almost 61 and no longer work. I had to try really hard to
slow down and not blame myself for the person I am now.
I also find solace in the outdoors, doing lot's of gardening and walking at the state park by our house. My husband and I just returned from 5 weeks on the road in our RV. ( our first big post retirement trip) So good to be in the outdoors. We plan on becoming semi- nomadic and travelling.
I have also embraced minimalism and am busy downsizing. I find it very freeing, less objects to care for and cloud my mind! Thank you for reminding us to care for ourselves.
Praying for Deidre.
Jesus is the answer
I can empathize.
This had a good feel to it. This was me 3 years ago. Nature, meditation and awareness are still a part of my daily life today. I learned sooo much about myself going thru "hard times" and wouldn't trade that for anything. I'm now living the life " I was meant to live" it looks very different than what I planned. Be open to change cause that's what's always goin on.
“It’s alright to not be okay” I love your sweet and honest spirit. 🌸🌸
Thank you!
Connie you are an inspiration I will be 62 in August and have always been connected to nature when I go jogging and I hear the sound of a plane I look up at the sky and gaze at it till it disappears some think what is that you see in that I love the smell of the earth after the rain when I am in the countryside even the fragrance of a perfume is not close to this I believe this universe is loaned to us for a very short time and we should embrace it🇨🇦Markham
I keep coming back to this video again and again, especially about letting go, just going with the flow of life. Not fighting life or trying to shape it this is something I’m embracing from now on. Thank Connie for the guidance.
I too feel lost at the moment. My mind is too anxious to hear the answer from within. It's so frustrating . I want to cry every morning as I don't see the purpose of me getting up. I've been in this place before but this time I feel really stuck due to aging. It's been too long and I'm worried it has become a part of me forever . I don't want to be a grumpy old woman 🥶
The darkest hour is just before dawn.
I suffer from severe depression. It is hard to explain to others how I feel and why. I am retired, disabled, and trying to live in this very expensive time. I sometimes wonder what the point is of getting up and trying. Then I remember what I heard once - Jesus doesn't make mistakes in loving us just as we are. This thought keeps me going. Love your messages. They are quiet and calm but gets me to thinking.
How scary, please have faith and know you will overcome this. I also love Nature also, I constantly say how awesome God is.💕💕
Thank you
No words other than we love you!!!
AWE! thanks so much. Amy.
I understand you. Lost.
Thank you for your honesty
that was such a beautiful message and what I needed to hear today .. i need to stop trying to force and fix a situation!! Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your story. This is inspiring. I have not been through a life-altering experience such as yours, but I still struggle to find meaning and be at peace with the course my life has taken. I think it is natural to question and doubt many things in life as we gain experience and wisdom. I try to tell myself this when I start to feel down or disappointed in life. Expectations we set for life when we are young are often naive and unrealistic.
Thank you so much for sharing this video. It touched my ways in so many ways. ♥️
This made me get the biggest lump in my throat. I feel your hear and soul and the tremendous connection we have to nature. Thank you for sharing.
So very true, Connie, that even as we grow older, we realise we are still learning. It never stops. Thank you for sharing. 😊💐
That’s very true, I find when I try to fix something it’s draining and takes away my mental energy. I’m going to change this and let things go. Thanks
Thank you for this video Connie. You are beautiful, inside and out. I deal with depression, anxiety, OCD, and so many more mental illnesses. I have found the answer through, as you said, letting go and surrendering to the path that life has for you. Everything that happens in your life is as it should be. Life is painting the picture for you. By you trying to control it, youre making lines that dont belong in your life, making the sound of the picture seem off. Just let go, let yourself be free. Life is about experiencing, nothing else.
Thank you for sharing your story and thoughts with us! I'm so glad you are part of our mindful community.
I’m lost now, don’t know where I’m going
Im trying to find my self, getting help by talking about it’s helping in a way
Thank you for sharing this, so glad to find you🌷
So wonderful. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing. I've definitely been thinking about this, this year. I don't think I've ever felt pulled towards a certain direction. When I think about my life, I thought I'd been looking for things or people to make me happy. But I'm coming to realise that I think I've been looking for me or my own self-acceptance all this time.
The empty space can only be filled by Jesus.
Very profound! I love how you said, "I''ve been looking for me and my own self acceptance.' Very powerful!
Hi Conny, thank you for sharing this experience! I am 44 years old now and was diagnosed with acute leukemia at the age of 27. One of the lessons i learnt during my treatments and in recovery (which took years) is that resignation is the best way forward in life: accept what you cannot change and positively act on the things you do have control over. I hope your health is better now or that you have found a way to live with it! All the best from the Netherlands
Hi Simini,
Thank you so much for your heart felt, wise words. I agree that to find peace I first must let go of the things I can't control.
I'm so glad you are part of our mindful community! You truly have so much wisdom to give to all of us.
Sending you health & happiness my friend.
@@ConnieRiet thank you!
Such a beautiful video, and so very true. Thank you for sharing your heart and insight 😍🌷🌻🦋
Hello 👋 Gena how are you doing?
I know how you feel!
God is my only constant 🙏 .
God bless you and thanks for sharing.
I don't know what to do with my blessings God has given me
Dear Connie,
you are such a wonderful person inside and outside... ❣️❣️❣️
When you are walking alone... I always have asked myself why don't you have a dog...they give you so much love. I'm severely traumatized...my little dog Krümmel helped me so much on the way back to live.
Lots of love Tanja😗
Greetings from Germany 🐶🐶
PS:
Everthing will be okay 🙏
Hi T.J, We love Germany, it's such a beautiful country! Our daughter is a ballerina in Munich.
To answer your question, I LOVE animals. You are right. They do bring so much joy and healing. We move often and travel globally to visit our children in Costa Rica and Germany. We don't feel it is fair to the pet to move them so often.
Great Questions!!!
@@ConnieRiet 😘
Wonderful.
So beautiful!
Everything you said resonated so much. You are listening to YOUR innate intuition. It gets stronger the more we listen.
I'm very careful what I allow to enter my ears. These messages have been very helpful, calming.
I took a total mind dump this summer in my gardens. Stopped listening to all the "voices" and started listening to mine. Stopped listening to the chatter of society, well meaning friends, religious leaders, etc.
It's been transformational getting to know me for once.
Thanks for all the messages
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of reconnecting to your authentic self.
Always so beautifully filmed and wonderful heartfelt messages. Don't you just love being among the shimmering aspens? I was out at Navajo Lake in So. Utah doing the same. Relaxing among the aspens and wildflowers. Have a wonderful weekend.
I needed to hear this, thank you Connie 🙏
Thank you for this video. I did make peace with my self, despite i was ill again. That i am very often and most time i will be angry at my self. But now i try to make peace.
Phenomenal video with such meaningful messages! This really resonated with me, Connie. Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom, putting it into words & images that others can easily relate to. I've been feeling somewhat adrift myself lately, & this is just what I needed to hear! This video is going on my Favourites list, to listen to again & again, periodically.
I'm so thrilled that this video resonated with your heart. We all have times when we feel lost.
Sending you happiness & peace my friend
You are not alone. God is always there for us.
BEAUTIFUL, Connie. ♥️
What a lovely person you are. And what a blessing this channel is.
AWE! Thank you so much!
@@ConnieRiet
🥰
Your videos have been helping me so much! Thank you for this ❤
I too got a message. I did not reply.. I knew it was a fraud. Thanks for the inspiring video. ❤❤❤
Спасибо большое за видео! Как всегда очень интересно!
Your always a comfort & inspiration..Thank you SO, SO MUCH !
Ps I always find nature extremely comforting and find consolation and great hapiness in it. Even though I am not religious I do feel the divine in its design. Every flower, plant, tree and animal is so perfect in itself! 🍀🌸🌺
glad i found you
Thanks for this. Perfect timing
This was beautiful! Thankful for you sharing your journey
If I was you I would be so grateful to God for saving my life
Beautiful video and so true. Let go, let God!
Yes! Thank you!
Beautiful platform. Thank you.
Helpful to see that I am not alone.
Feeling lost its ok.
This was a true poem to Life and Self Love ❤️
Wow! thank you for the lovely compliment.
Beautiful message🙏
Thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your lifestyle. It’s making me think about changes too. Thanks again as I could relate to so much of what you said.
Thank you for your wisdom and your inspiration 😢
Praying for Connie
Jesus loves you!
So beautiful ❤️ Thank you.!
We're all right where we're meant to be 😊
One of my favorite videos of yours yet! I feel like I’ll come back and watch it again and again ❤️ thank you 😊
OH! I'm so glad
Lol, we are all such control freaks, even just over our own lives. "Let go"- some of the best advice i ever received.
I'm so glad that "letting go" resonated with you. Letting go is a tough thing to do but incredibly impactful.
you're on top of everything 👏👏💕💖
Thank you
I really needed to hear this today. Thank you.
I'm so glad!
Thank you for a very inspiring message
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Thank you I ❤️ y videos
Wow❤
16 I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his Spirit. 17 I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong in love and be built on love. 18 And I pray that you and all God’s holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ’s love-how wide and how long and how high and how deep that love is. 19 Christ’s love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:16-19
He is my Rock. A Shelter in a time of storm. He shows Himself alive and impacting my life in good and bad times. I thank Him for paying the penalty of my disobedience and I accepted that free gift humbly. Now the fear is gone.
Amen
Hi Connie just came across your channel and find you very interesting 🤔. Are you a fan of the late Dr Wayne Dyer? Also I love your voice it is very soothing. Stay well and have a nice and peaceful weekend.
All the best to you
I can't relate
Ive always known
Exactly what I want
Life is too short to be so
Self indulgence
❤
I love your videos!!
I'm so glad!!
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Where did you purchase your back pack?
Hello Connie, I just started to watched your videos and they are really interesting, but I have a question about makeup , I have a hard time finding a foundation that don't cause any harm specially for my daughter that have epilepsy. Any recommendation?
I am trying to find a job and nothing seems to be going right...I am losing hope and feeling defeated
Same here.
@@DebOnTheWebb Hello 👋 how are you doing?
feeling lost is disconnection, surely ... and after traumas such as war, loss of homeland after 7 generations, formative society and friends, even family all still utterly toxic from our colonial vulnerability and hubris, now in a country i could never have foreseen living in half the hemisphere away from my roots, not speaking the language nor accepted here, i am entirely alone. yes, i am lost. disconnected. i only survive by swallowing my pain. 🙏
I been feeling that way when I had my car accident living with out a car and not know we’re am I going to do 😔?✋
where do i live??its so pretty out there!
Do you realise that all you love and get inspiration from was created by God?
Follow
Satvic moment
Bk shivani
Sadhuruji
Gopal das
I love Mayapur
Mahatria
Thanks for the suggestions. I follow Sadhuruji, and Bk Shivani.
Don’t forget the nature was created by God
Absolutely!
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Hi Margaret, Thanks for letting me know, I'll look into it.