This song hit different than any other. While suicide and other awful things have been around in my life. I've never put thought to them. But the concept of walking my path alone has been extremely prevalent. Thank you for making this song. Continue the work you guys
Remember, people are afraid of things that they dont understand, or are too big for them, i was 90kg and 1.65 in fifth grade. Children teied to beat me., they succeded 7 years later. Cause i lost fuel to fight
The lines "fake smiles are holding me together" and "I've been through things that you can't see, a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice" is how it feels to have Epilepsy. 💜🎗 It's also how it feels to have other things like depression. But honestly, I've never felt the first line or been depressed, but that's just me. 🤷🏻♀️
"Fake smiles are holding me together". Everytime I leave my apartment. Don't let them see, don't let them know. Great song. You're really creating art ❤
my boyfriend has autism and he has already tried to take his life but the rope has to let go and now he has only one goal to share his story and give hope to people like him that despite their autism they can go far in life and this song explain exactly what he’s been trought
This is a year old comment, but I do hope both of you are alive and well. The world is an extremely cruel place for the kind, intelligent and loving people
I have autism too. Sometimes I get mentally attacked with insults by my dad, and it causes emotional overload. That's the worst feeling in the world. And he sees I'm going insane, and he keeps doing it anyway
I have autism as well, and it's made socializing with others a struggle, but I still keep going because I want to get better and I know my family isn't going to be there to help me through it because they have their own lives to deal with. I hope you and your BF keep pushing forward in life and live the best lives you can
Thank God for you all, Citizen Soldier! This is another song that I relate to and that reminds me that I am not alone. I have been struggling with mental health struggles and abuse for the majority of my life, and I was introduced to your band about a year ago. I never found any "therapeutic techniques" that work as much as listening to your music. Thank you!
One thing I love about this song is, you can feel the pain, the exhaustion, the frustration every second I hear this song, and the scream at 2:03, really something to be taken note on. It sounds really personal from that scream itself. Really a masterpiece
"I should feel strong But I just feel sad So just let me grieve - what I never had" Much love! ❤️ Counting down the days until I see you in concert!👀🤞🏻❤️🎶
*I've walked a path that would kill most* I have said this many times in my life! Thank you guys for this. I didn't know I would be crying about a song today, but these lyrics really hit home. Please keep them coming, these new songs are so powerful! 🖤🖤
love the empowerment. it's often hardest to love ourselves, especially when it feels like no one else around us does, like no one cares enough to help. But sometimes we CAN be the miracle we need.
I've been battling mental illness for 18 years and ended up adding post concussion syndrome to that concoction 3 1/2 years ago. I haven’t had that many people in my corner throughout this battle, so I had (and still do) to fight for myself. It's been 18 years, and here I am, a walking miracle of my own design. 💜 Thank you for yet another powerful and relatable track, CS. Much love.
I'm a DV survivor. I suffer from PTSD DEPRESSION ANZIETY. This hit home the second I heard it... my family never helped me I had to save myself once I did I had nowhere to go but to my family's house and all they did was trigger my ptsd and I was so on edge I responded with anger... this song is 💯 me
Unfortunately this song resounds way hard for me. However I'm on the road to recovery which will be a very long one but I've NEVER heard music that has hit every aspect I've been going thru. Also music that has helped me heal as much as Citizen Soldier! I have to thank you guys for it because I express everything thru music when regular talking just doesn't cut it. Thank you and may everything in your lives and careers continue to shine as bright as the sun.
Long ago, there was a boy. This boy was a special child, able to wear magical masks that changed who he was. One day, when changing a mask, his face came with it, and became a mask in itself. As he looked over his own face, he wondered how this may have come to be, and considered the possibilities that came with it. As he continued on, he learned many tricks and techniques of rapidly changing his masks... but one day.. the mask of his own face went missing. He began to wear one of the masks to hide the revealed flesh and bone. As time went on, he kept looking, but to no avail... and people began to see that something was wrong. After a while, he tried just going without any mask at all, only to be met with horror and shock, people seeing the disfigurement and treating him as dangerous. Then came one, someone approached one day, as the boy sat in despair. She looked at him, and sat beside him. Gently, she lifted the mask off his face and smiled. With no terror or horror, the boy was confused, lost even. And she handed him his own face, which had been lost to him for so long
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Every bit as amazing as Afterlife and Would Anyone Care I'm glad I could get to listen to these notices hopefully you still recognize me after the account name change XD
I love this song and it made me cry in public the first time I heard it. I had to hide in the bathroom so no one would see me. (But as a funny aside, the part at 1:39 where the lyrics read "Are you okay?" always makes me smile amidst the tears just because it reminds me of the one used in The Office!)
For me it was my mother who kept me from going to far every single time I've been in that much of a darkness, suicidal ideation is not a fun thing to have on a daily basis but when i didn't have her to help me, I had to be "my own miracle". Amazing song again guys. love it.
"Are you okey? You need to chat? The questions i was never askt " It hits hard. Becuse thats what i feel. You guys are so talented i wich i culd do songs like this one day!
I was blessed with the chance of meeting you in Chicago where I told you "I'm sure you get this all the time, but your music saved my life." And this song is just another perfect example of that. Songs that put words to the thoughts and feelings I've had for most of my life, that I didn't know how to express. Now you're coming to my home of Green Bay at the end of next month and I've got a group of friends wanting to come to the concert with me to see the band that saved my life and show their support of me as well. I'm gonna do my best to get right in the front row singing along as loud as I can ❤❤
The song simply makes Tseli feel better about the period I went through in the last year and the difficulty of getting out of it, the part: I don't know how to love cause I try to trust but then How does the self-abuse her and leave you in place) A great song that connects to many of your songs, thank you
This song is just what I needed. I'm suffering from PTSD from a situation with my ex fiance and how he was abusive.. I recently got out.. This is truly how I can put my words into.. Well, words. Thank you, so much. Truly, your music has saved me on so many occasions. Please, keep doing what your doing.❤ Remember to hydrate and rest too!!
I have no words Update: I found some I never thought someone would be able to hit that specific spot, "a heart closed and it left a temper" The moment when your grief and pain turns into unreasonable anger and annoyance, such a painful moment because you can come across so offstandish from your pain You're just so hurt and scared that seeing others around, the slightest thing, hurts, you're so defensive, and you know nothing but to fight and defend yourself
Truth, nothing but the truth. It's how I felt after my family stopped proving that they loved me, and treated me with dismissal and pettiness instead of love. At first I was sad, then I got ANGRY, and I'm still dealing with it...
@@balanc-joy9187 it's something I've taken years to heal from, it's a hard process and a bit painful, it takes time, and honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the same, but I'm better, I'm working on it and, hey, I've learned so much, I just need to find a middle ground, it takes time to deal with, but it's worth it It's OK to feel this way and it's not your fault, you were wronged, and it's normal to be so bitter when something like that happens, it's not an instant easy heal, I believe in you though
3 years ago I was told that I was misdiagnosed for the things going on in my life. So for 18 years instead of having a support group I had people telling me I was being fake just to get attention. So now I have to retrain myself to live with my real diagnosis of D.I.D. ( Dissociative Identity Disorder) better known as Multiple Personality Disorder. I never thought anyone out there could understand what was IN MY HEAD. I want thank you guys for saving my life and helping me move forward and working toward releasing some of my childhood/young adult trauma. 💜💜💜💜💜
The way these guys can sing about what people go through when a topic thats as hard to talk about like this one, and these guys express those feelings through songs perfectly, amazing work as always Jake and the crew, absolutely love it 💙
This was a great song and as someone who suffers from deep depression I constantly felt like no one was there for me so thank you for making this song and for making me feel like I am not alone
I wish this song was out sooner, I’ve been in a very dark place once again. Everything keeps getting worse and as a teenager with PTSD and depression, it is really hard for me. Especially because I deal with other disorders too. A very great song, It’s going into my important song playlist❤😊
It's so hard to explain how deeply the lines from this song touch me... how it touches the deepest scars on my heart... At school, I was regularly bullied every day until the 9th grade. It was very difficult for me to socialize, but despite this, I tried my best to be a good person, tried to find friends, love... In general, ordinary human happiness. All thanks to the instructions of my grandpa - the only family member who somehow cared about me. But at some point in my life, something seemed to break. First my grandfather passed away, and then I was betrayed by two people whom I considered close friends. In a row... I was left all alone, I was covered with thorns. Everything that I had to go through at school (and not only) began to seem so meaningless to me... I didn't have any friends anymore, and other members of my family always didn't care about me because I was a loser and a complete disappointment to them. I had incredible trust issues, I didn't let anyone into my life all this time, I was afraid of getting even more pain. Everything was so bad that at times I could walk home from work and just cry on the way for no apparent reason, while no one sees. All that occupied my thoughts in the most difficult moments was "how I want it all to end," but I didn't have the courage to finish it all myself... And ofcourse, nobody showed up. I was completely alone, fighting for my mind and life for several years. And when I was at my darkest, I came across the songs of Citizen Soldier. The songs Would Anyone Care and Wanted made me cry, but at the same time gave me more strength to cling to hope. But this song.... It describes so well all the thoughts that tormented me all that period. I hated myself, but I had to love me. I was desperate, but I had to have hope. It was only recently that I let a person into my life again. A person who really loves me, who cares about me. Just recently I was able to look in the mirror for the first time without feeling disgusted. Just recently I stopped crying convulsively in my bed at night. But all the time until I met her, I was fighting in absolute solitude. All my life. I was my own savior, my own miracle. The only person I had by my side. This is an experience that I never want anyone to go through. Thank you Citizen Soldier, thank you Jake, really... I cried again when I recalled this experience during the song. But I remember very well how your songs helped me feel that I was not alone, that a happy outcome was waiting for me in the end. That my life is worth fighting for. I was fighting for my life. I'm still alive. And right now I finally see the light. Thank you
I'm glad these songs helped you, and I know what it's like to be alone, though I never felt the kind of pain you have. I'm glad you have someone in your life to be your miracle now, you deserve that and all the good fortune in the world!
Пусть твоя жизнь наладится. Для меня Let it burn стала знакомством с Citizen Soldier, это сложно принять, но прошлое это действительно лишь выученные уроки и опыт. Мы никому не обязаны тащить дальше как обузу эти травмы, мы и так пережили из-за этого боль в прошлом, незачем травить ими настоящее и будущее. Удачи тебе, пусть всё теперь будет лучше прежнего!
I'm going through the trust issues part right now but i let a couple people in my life and everything changed but still have issues trusting even the people that u love so i want y and everyone to know that there not alone in this big world cuz so many people are struggling
1 year ago, I left the mental hospital. My life has been turned around in such an amazing way. I am my own miracle. Thank you, everyone in Citizen Soldier. This song is my anthem.
@@frankiewestwood Yep, I’m doing amazing right now. Every aspect of my life is significantly better than it once was, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
[Verse 1] Fake smiles are holding me together For worse or for better Cause I've never had anyone To stay long enough to see the weather The pain and the pressure I carry like a loaded gun [Pre-Chorus] I've been through things that you can't see A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice I'd rather hide when I'm hurting Than be a burden 'cause all I've known is [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle [Verse 2] Worked twice as hard through the diseases To make up for the weakness And vices not visible No friends to pick up all the pieces No sympathy or sweetness No wonedr I'm cynical [Pre-Chorus] I've walked a path that would kill most Where a heart closed and it left a temper I don't know how to love, cause I try to trust, but then I remember [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle [Bridge] "Are you okay? You need to chat?" The questions I was never asked I should feel strong, but I just feel sad So just let me grieve what I never had [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle
NOW THIS IS WHAT I WAITED FOR! l love this so much this song I relate to so much i'm always having to put on a fake smile to hide my pain from others and lately my anxiety been through the roof because i'm always mostly alone so my thoughts get worse thank you guys for making all of us music we can relate to you guys will always be the number one band! ❤️
This song literally hits so hard. Especially when it's so related to my situations. Your songs actually speaks the feelings that I don't say out loud. The part "are you ok? You need to chat? The questions I was never asked" just revealed my feelings of how I feel whenever I need someone to talk to but they're not there for me. The feeling of loneliness and that I can't rely on anyone but myself 💔 Great song. I love it 💙💙💙💙💙💙
Hi Citizen Soldier! Big fan here. I just wanted to tell you how much your music means to me. It always helps me get through the toughest of times. I found you at my worst, and you helped getting me back to my best! Also, this song means a lot to me. I have OSDD which means my brain developed a coping mechanism to deal with childhood trauma, splitting my personality in many parts. And this song is EXACTLY what it feels like. "I had to be the family that never was there". We are a family in one body to protect one another. "I had to be my own miracle". We can support each other at pur worst and can get our spirit up again. Thank you for expressing that in words. We think more people, and especially more systems should hear this song. Your music is the best therapy one could find. Thank you for saving me!
I try to trust but then remember" I can't describe how the line touch me. But what I can definitely say is that I think the song is super great! I've already added it to my playlist. I hope that the song gives everyone as much power and strength (can't really put it into words) as it gives me. Thank you Citizen Soldier for all your songs!🖤
You know, I don’t think I could be in the good place I am now without this band. Feeling heard and understood through music made a whole lot of difference. And when I get down again, there’s a song here I can listen to. I feel this song. Trying to be strong and optimistic feels forced tbh. I’ll continue to persevere, but I want to thank you guys for writing this music because I’m sure there are others who need it. You guys are super heroes with music as your power.
Another amazing song from my most favorite band! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being my comfort blanket and for always being there when I needed you the most. ❤❤❤
Your songs always come out in perfect timing. I'm healing, and your music is to thank because ot helped me keep going in the darkest days. Keep up the good work and all blessings go your way, you are very talented and are a beacon of light for so many people with your music❤
I adore your music. This song especially hits home for me. I've always been my own miracle as it was the only way to survive my extended family who are so toxic that they are like festering wounds on my body. I've cut them out of my life, but the scars they've left are still there.
I wish this song was out sooner, like 6-8 years ago... I'm currently going through times where I'm just not happy, my relationship with my family is terrible just because they weren't there when I needed them most. These songs have really been helping me recover slowly. Thank you Citizen Soldier.
I’ve been waiting for this song to come out since December honestly I want to say this is my favorite citizen soldier song. My comment can’t cover how much I needed this song you wouldn’t believe how excited I got seeing this. No one has stayed when I witnessed loss and grief you have to tell them your fine so they just move on so quickly I seriously thank you guys for putting this one. I actually teared up after playing the full song I love you guys
All I can say is thank you. This song is like every other. It touches so many people and their personal experiences. Citizen Soilder, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much.💙
This song speaks VOLUMES! After losing an uncle, best friend of 25 years, and grandfather to suicide in an 8 year span, there were more times than not I was fending for myself and had to rely on myself to get through it.
this song immortalyzes my very reasoning.. I could have become one of the enemies, the dying proof of my trauma, the distrust of every single word spoken; and yet as guarded as I was - I knew the suffering I saw and fought back to be what no one had done for me. -family to the abandoned, -be the person to stand side by side, -ever genuine without a mask, -defender against those who cause pain, -hearing the silent in understanding. As to you, Citizen Soldier, I will continue sharing your songs in defiance of the evils that plague the world. Each phrase you make calls out to at least one of many that I have shown thus far. Proof that existance is possible, someone cares, there will be someone to stand against the issues, as rare and far between these people may be. -Thank you for making all of these, and being some of them we can trust
I've been through things that you can't see a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice I've walked a path that would kill most Those two lines struck me like a baseball bat to the head. Love you guys 💔
I've been so stressed out for the past week, that I actually forgot to listen to this song until now. It's spoken to me on such a deep level, I think there was a reason more than just my forgetfulness that I didn't hear this until now. It's reached me so deeply and close to home, I needed to hear this. Thank you.💜
As an auDHD person who's now physically disabled due to the damage it did to have to be my own miracle through the trauma, & as a member of a D.I.D. system, this....this song hits really hard. This hits us really hard. 🥺💜 ~Nico
This describes me so much right now. Recently I have admitted myself into a ward after having really bad thoughts and almost going along with them. As a long time fan since the very first song, your music means a lot. Thank you for simply existing to provide such gems ❤
This has been the greatest Birthday week I had... just turned 28 on Monday and wasn't expecting anything, but I was congratulated by so many people that I even got surprised hahahaha 😂 and this song accurately defines the last 6 birthdays and proofa that Citizen Soldier will always be a part of my history and many people more!!! Thanks for another awesome song guys ❤ You rock and hope you continue your awesome tours... Hope to see you in Mexico eventually cause you deserve to comfort the world with your art
I've been on the streets, through war causing PTSD and injuries, had a drug addiction, habe immune deficiency, had girlfriend and friends who used and abused me and was raised by a very distant family who hated each other this song hits, but life can get better. I've found my soulmate and realize life can he beautiful. Stay strong and remember you are worthwhile not worthless. Much love all. Be safe and remember you do matter.
There are already so many comments, so I don’t think anyone will see this, but I want to say thank you for making the music that you make. All of your songs put into words a lot of things I’ve never been able to say, but this one hits a little closer to home than usual. My home life is so much better than so many people get and I know this, so I don’t know if my feelings are valid or not, but this song voices all of them much better than I ever could. It makes me feel seen and understood. I’ve listened to this song multiple times per day since it’s coming out (as well as many others before this) and it gives me hope that some people know what I’m going through and that I can make it to the other side too. So thank you for making this song, and I hope you keep making this music for as long as you possibly can.
We all feel the exact same way as you do. Citizen Soldier has told our stories for us, without even knowing them. We love their music, and always will. And as for you, don't ever lose hope, and I wish you all the best for whatever you are going through ❤
I just wanted to let you know that I've read your post. Your feelings are always valid. You don't have to beat everyone else at the Olimpics of suffering to be allowed to feel bad. If you relate to this song you probably have good reason to. Regardless, I wish you the best and hope you'll feel better soon :)
This song hits hard for me. I had no one for years and I had to struggle on my own. I somehow managed to hold on long enough to find my loving husband. I love all your songs!
Im grateful for your music as it's not only helped me, but it's helped and saved millions of people probably without them realizing it. That's something amazing and beautiful in itself. ❤
(1 куплет) Поддельные улыбки позволяют мне держаться К худшему или к лудшему, потому что у меня никогда никого не было Кто остался бы достаточно на долго что бы увидеть погоду Боль и тяготы которые я несу как заряженное оружие Я прошел через то, что ты не сможешь увидеть Те страдания что не заметить глазами Я лучше спрячусь когда мне больно, чем буду обузой Ведь я точно знаю... (Припев) Никто не пришел, никто не остановился Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле (6 футов под землей - глубина на которую закапывают гроб) Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом. (2 куплет) Работал вдвое усерднее преодолевая болезни Что бы компенсировать свои слабости и пороки что не видны Нет друзей что соберут все осколки, нет симпатии или нежности Не удивительно что я циничен Я прошел путь, который убил бы большинство Где сердце закрылось, и оно оставило характер Я не знаю, как любить, потому что Я пытаюсь доверять, но потом вспоминаю... (Припев) Никто не пришел, никто не остановился Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом. Ты в порядке? Тебе нужно поболтать? Вопросы, которые мне никогда не задавали Я должен чувствовать себя сильным, но мне просто грустно Так что позволь мне оплакать то, чего у меня никогда не было. (и еще раз припев)
Oh yes! I've been waiting for this track for so long and its finally out, and its so relatable. I've been internally and externally screaming ,,Help me!" and no one gave a flipping check on me. My dad, my ex gf and my ex bff was the trifecta that broke me to pieces, and now im just trying to pick up the pieces as i move along, and this song resembles me 100%. Thank you, Citizen Soldier! ❤ My mother and you are what hold me together!
Honestly this song fits the story of my life unbelievably well. This is exactly how my life has gone from childhood to adulthood. We are the few who survived that path we were forced to walk.
I don't usually leave comments, but I've been listening to all of your songs for the past couple of hours (found you while following the music trail on YT), and I just have to say, as someone with C-PTSD, anxiety, and depression, and as someone who stood on that threshold, alone, your music is a lifeline to those of us who are fighting to keep our heads above water. I commend you for shedding light on what it feels like to have suicidal ideation, and reminding us that we are not alone. This song is probably my favorite. ❤
Wow, I know you guys not very long, but your sound and massages are amazing, I’m a big fan of your heavy songs and I think this is your best so far, keep going 💪🏼💪🏼🔥
Wow💜... the perfect words to describe exactly the things I've never been able to put into words.. "I don't know how to love cause, I try to trust but then I remember nobody showed up...ect" That explains exactly why I don't know how to love and why I feel I'm only capable of loving my cat.. he showed up when I needed him most and saved my life.
These lyrics really hit home for me. I feel like I’m at a point in my life where I’m constantly reaching out to God and looking for my purpose in life and what legacy I’ll leave behind
These guys can never miss. The fact they don't stray away from what makes these songs so special is so amazing. We truly are blessed to have them.
Agreed.
I will absolutely second that if I so may!!
I agree
I agree ❤
I agree
This is my new favorite song. Shout out to all those like me who stood alone in their darkest times.
shout out to them and you! 🫀
And shout out to all who came through hell and came out singing
Right. I asked so desperately for help and all I got was people telling me to kill myself
AND SPECIAL OVATION TO THOSE WHO WON AND WENT THROUGH HELL, AND STILL CAN BE KIND AND HUMOROUS
This song hit different than any other. While suicide and other awful things have been around in my life. I've never put thought to them. But the concept of walking my path alone has been extremely prevalent. Thank you for making this song. Continue the work you guys
We hear you 🫀
Remember, people are afraid of things that they dont understand, or are too big for them, i was 90kg and 1.65 in fifth grade. Children teied to beat me., they succeded 7 years later. Cause i lost fuel to fight
"I don't know how to love cause I try to trust but then I remember "
I'm in tears because this has been my life struggle. Thank you for this song.
Same! Lost count as to how many times this song made me tear up/cry because of how much I can relate to it!
As someone who suffers from ptsd, anxiety, and depression… this song is nothing but facts. Good job as always. Keep up the awesome work.
glad the music helps 🫀
@the jay guy I'm the same
I'm diagnosed with those 3 things too and I totally agree with what you've said.
@@CitizenSoldier
Can you do the song about "standing up to your abuser", please?
We got the same issues
The lines
"fake smiles are holding me together"
and
"I've been through things that you can't see, a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice"
is how it feels to have Epilepsy. 💜🎗
It's also how it feels to have other things like depression. But honestly, I've never felt the first line or been depressed, but that's just me. 🤷🏻♀️
Yep and other things
"fake smiles are holding me together" is like definition of what I do every day
Depression can be here too. 12years and keep going. Keep going too fremns :*
"Fake smiles are holding me together". Everytime I leave my apartment. Don't let them see, don't let them know. Great song. You're really creating art ❤
This! Fake a smile. Nobody will know. Nobody will know......
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my boyfriend has autism and he has already tried to take his life but the rope has to let go and now he has only one goal to share his story and give hope to people like him that despite their autism they can go far in life and this song explain exactly what he’s been trought
This is a year old comment, but I do hope both of you are alive and well.
The world is an extremely cruel place for the kind, intelligent and loving people
I have autism too. Sometimes I get mentally attacked with insults by my dad, and it causes emotional overload. That's the worst feeling in the world. And he sees I'm going insane, and he keeps doing it anyway
I have autism as well, and it's made socializing with others a struggle, but I still keep going because I want to get better and I know my family isn't going to be there to help me through it because they have their own lives to deal with. I hope you and your BF keep pushing forward in life and live the best lives you can
I have autism as well the opposite happened to me tho my girlfriend killed herself 😞
@@hyperdrive9456
I'm so sorry to hear that!
That hurts my heart and I don't even know her😭💔
Thank God for you all, Citizen Soldier! This is another song that I relate to and that reminds me that I am not alone. I have been struggling with mental health struggles and abuse for the majority of my life, and I was introduced to your band about a year ago. I never found any "therapeutic techniques" that work as much as listening to your music. Thank you!
glad the music helps Emily 🫀 much love
@@CitizenSoldier Y'all are like therapy to me too, and I don't know where I'd be right now if I never found your music!
"And be the family that never was there" Hits so hard, struck every cord in my body. Love it so much 🥴
One thing I love about this song is, you can feel the pain, the exhaustion, the frustration every second I hear this song, and the scream at 2:03, really something to be taken note on. It sounds really personal from that scream itself. Really a masterpiece
"I should feel strong
But I just feel sad
So just let me grieve - what I never had"
Much love! ❤️ Counting down the days until I see you in concert!👀🤞🏻❤️🎶
*I've walked a path that would kill most*
I have said this many times in my life! Thank you guys for this. I didn't know I would be crying about a song today, but these lyrics really hit home. Please keep them coming, these new songs are so powerful! 🖤🖤
Dont walk a mile in my shoes. That would be boring. Go 30 seconds in my head instead and you would come out crying
@@darkmagicbeta5574 Same here. :( Hope ur doing oki
more on the way! 🫀
@@michaeltinkham6894 Hehe... could do better
love the empowerment. it's often hardest to love ourselves, especially when it feels like no one else around us does, like no one cares enough to help. But sometimes we CAN be the miracle we need.
I've been battling mental illness for 18 years and ended up adding post concussion syndrome to that concoction 3 1/2 years ago. I haven’t had that many people in my corner throughout this battle, so I had (and still do) to fight for myself.
It's been 18 years, and here I am, a walking miracle of my own design. 💜 Thank you for yet another powerful and relatable track, CS. Much love.
0:53 seconds in and I feel like I'm just like this. "HOPE IS A HOLE" for me
I'm a DV survivor. I suffer from PTSD DEPRESSION ANZIETY. This hit home the second I heard it... my family never helped me I had to save myself once I did I had nowhere to go but to my family's house and all they did was trigger my ptsd and I was so on edge I responded with anger... this song is 💯 me
This one cuts me open 💔
"I should feel strong but I just feel sad"
Thanks for putting my station to music
I'll be blasting this one all day 🎧❤️🩹
Unfortunately this song resounds way hard for me. However I'm on the road to recovery which will be a very long one but I've NEVER heard music that has hit every aspect I've been going thru. Also music that has helped me heal as much as Citizen Soldier! I have to thank you guys for it because I express everything thru music when regular talking just doesn't cut it. Thank you and may everything in your lives and careers continue to shine as bright as the sun.
Long ago, there was a boy. This boy was a special child, able to wear magical masks that changed who he was. One day, when changing a mask, his face came with it, and became a mask in itself. As he looked over his own face, he wondered how this may have come to be, and considered the possibilities that came with it. As he continued on, he learned many tricks and techniques of rapidly changing his masks... but one day.. the mask of his own face went missing. He began to wear one of the masks to hide the revealed flesh and bone. As time went on, he kept looking, but to no avail... and people began to see that something was wrong. After a while, he tried just going without any mask at all, only to be met with horror and shock, people seeing the disfigurement and treating him as dangerous. Then came one, someone approached one day, as the boy sat in despair. She looked at him, and sat beside him. Gently, she lifted the mask off his face and smiled. With no terror or horror, the boy was confused, lost even. And she handed him his own face, which had been lost to him for so long
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And I love this so much!!!!
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Every bit as amazing as Afterlife and Would Anyone Care I'm glad I could get to listen to these notices hopefully you still recognize me after the account name change XD
Love it 😊👍❤ hey how long make you make a new video ???
@Citizen Soldier
You used to release songs after every week or so, I see from shorts that u have many songs, plz release them 💙
I love this song and it made me cry in public the first time I heard it. I had to hide in the bathroom so no one would see me.
(But as a funny aside, the part at 1:39 where the lyrics read "Are you okay?" always makes me smile amidst the tears just because it reminds me of the one used in The Office!)
This was me in 2018-2019... And I became my own miracle with one word from a stranger who has since become the greatest person in my life.
For me it was my mother who kept me from going to far every single time I've been in that much of a darkness, suicidal ideation is not a fun thing to have on a daily basis but when i didn't have her to help me, I had to be "my own miracle". Amazing song again guys. love it.
"Are you okey? You need to chat? The questions i was never askt " It hits hard. Becuse thats what i feel. You guys are so talented i wich i culd do songs like this one day!
I was blessed with the chance of meeting you in Chicago where I told you "I'm sure you get this all the time, but your music saved my life." And this song is just another perfect example of that. Songs that put words to the thoughts and feelings I've had for most of my life, that I didn't know how to express. Now you're coming to my home of Green Bay at the end of next month and I've got a group of friends wanting to come to the concert with me to see the band that saved my life and show their support of me as well. I'm gonna do my best to get right in the front row singing along as loud as I can ❤❤
The song simply makes Tseli feel better about the period I went through in the last year and the difficulty of getting out of it, the part: I don't know how to love cause I try to trust but then How does the self-abuse her and leave you in place) A great song that connects to many of your songs, thank you
And the wailing just simply feels to me that you are accurate in the emotion and the rhyming is simply an art
thank you...
for showing me that someone understands...
for showing me that I'm not alone...
and for giving me the strength to be my own miracle...
Thanks for the new song citizen soldier much love
This song is just what I needed. I'm suffering from PTSD from a situation with my ex fiance and how he was abusive.. I recently got out.. This is truly how I can put my words into.. Well, words. Thank you, so much. Truly, your music has saved me on so many occasions. Please, keep doing what your doing.❤ Remember to hydrate and rest too!!
glad the music helps, and yes hydrate! 🫀
I have no words
Update: I found some
I never thought someone would be able to hit that specific spot,
"a heart closed and it left a temper"
The moment when your grief and pain turns into unreasonable anger and annoyance, such a painful moment because you can come across so offstandish from your pain
You're just so hurt and scared that seeing others around, the slightest thing, hurts, you're so defensive, and you know nothing but to fight and defend yourself
That's a pretty good way to sum that up
This be how I felt when my mom passed away
Truth, nothing but the truth. It's how I felt after my family stopped proving that they loved me, and treated me with dismissal and pettiness instead of love. At first I was sad, then I got ANGRY, and I'm still dealing with it...
we hear you 🫀
@@balanc-joy9187 it's something I've taken years to heal from, it's a hard process and a bit painful, it takes time, and honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the same, but I'm better, I'm working on it and, hey, I've learned so much, I just need to find a middle ground, it takes time to deal with, but it's worth it
It's OK to feel this way and it's not your fault, you were wronged, and it's normal to be so bitter when something like that happens, it's not an instant easy heal, I believe in you though
3 years ago I was told that I was misdiagnosed for the things going on in my life. So for 18 years instead of having a support group I had people telling me I was being fake just to get attention. So now I have to retrain myself to live with my real diagnosis of D.I.D. ( Dissociative Identity Disorder) better known as Multiple Personality Disorder. I never thought anyone out there could understand what was IN MY HEAD. I want thank you guys for saving my life and helping me move forward and working toward releasing some of my childhood/young adult trauma. 💜💜💜💜💜
The way these guys can sing about what people go through when a topic thats as hard to talk about like this one, and these guys express those feelings through songs perfectly, amazing work as always Jake and the crew, absolutely love it 💙
appreciate that Jacob 🫀
Очередной отличный трек, спасибо!!!
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@@respect3817 💯💯💯
This was a great song and as someone who suffers from deep depression I constantly felt like no one was there for me so thank you for making this song and for making me feel like I am not alone
we hear you friend 🫀
I wish this song was out sooner, I’ve been in a very dark place once again. Everything keeps getting worse and as a teenager with PTSD and depression, it is really hard for me. Especially because I deal with other disorders too. A very great song, It’s going into my important song playlist❤😊
hope things are better now friend 🫀
I feel the same way. Hope things get better.
@Dit. I know you're pain
If you need to talk I’m here for you❤️
It's so hard to explain how deeply the lines from this song touch me... how it touches the deepest scars on my heart...
At school, I was regularly bullied every day until the 9th grade. It was very difficult for me to socialize, but despite this, I tried my best to be a good person, tried to find friends, love... In general, ordinary human happiness. All thanks to the instructions of my grandpa - the only family member who somehow cared about me. But at some point in my life, something seemed to break. First my grandfather passed away, and then I was betrayed by two people whom I considered close friends. In a row...
I was left all alone, I was covered with thorns. Everything that I had to go through at school (and not only) began to seem so meaningless to me... I didn't have any friends anymore, and other members of my family always didn't care about me because I was a loser and a complete disappointment to them. I had incredible trust issues, I didn't let anyone into my life all this time, I was afraid of getting even more pain. Everything was so bad that at times I could walk home from work and just cry on the way for no apparent reason, while no one sees. All that occupied my thoughts in the most difficult moments was "how I want it all to end," but I didn't have the courage to finish it all myself...
And ofcourse, nobody showed up. I was completely alone, fighting for my mind and life for several years. And when I was at my darkest, I came across the songs of Citizen Soldier. The songs Would Anyone Care and Wanted made me cry, but at the same time gave me more strength to cling to hope. But this song.... It describes so well all the thoughts that tormented me all that period. I hated myself, but I had to love me. I was desperate, but I had to have hope.
It was only recently that I let a person into my life again. A person who really loves me, who cares about me. Just recently I was able to look in the mirror for the first time without feeling disgusted. Just recently I stopped crying convulsively in my bed at night. But all the time until I met her, I was fighting in absolute solitude. All my life. I was my own savior, my own miracle. The only person I had by my side. This is an experience that I never want anyone to go through.
Thank you Citizen Soldier, thank you Jake, really... I cried again when I recalled this experience during the song. But I remember very well how your songs helped me feel that I was not alone, that a happy outcome was waiting for me in the end. That my life is worth fighting for. I was fighting for my life. I'm still alive. And right now I finally see the light. Thank you
I'm glad these songs helped you, and I know what it's like to be alone, though I never felt the kind of pain you have. I'm glad you have someone in your life to be your miracle now, you deserve that and all the good fortune in the world!
wow. thanks for sharing. glad to hear you're doing better. much love🫀
Пусть твоя жизнь наладится. Для меня Let it burn стала знакомством с Citizen Soldier, это сложно принять, но прошлое это действительно лишь выученные уроки и опыт. Мы никому не обязаны тащить дальше как обузу эти травмы, мы и так пережили из-за этого боль в прошлом, незачем травить ими настоящее и будущее. Удачи тебе, пусть всё теперь будет лучше прежнего!
I'm going through the trust issues part right now but i let a couple people in my life and everything changed but still have issues trusting even the people that u love so i want y and everyone to know that there not alone in this big world cuz so many people are struggling
Same Here, and cause pain to others that haven't done anything wrong my only regret was never being strong enough
Been neglected most of my life this song is very relatable....
1 year ago, I left the mental hospital. My life has been turned around in such an amazing way. I am my own miracle. Thank you, everyone in Citizen Soldier. This song is my anthem.
Well done for your own miracle hope u are ok now
@@frankiewestwood Yep, I’m doing amazing right now. Every aspect of my life is significantly better than it once was, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
@@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 that's is great news glad for u
How have i never found these guys till now each song i listen to i feel like they've lived my life
[Verse 1]
Fake smiles are holding me together
For worse or for better
Cause I've never had anyone
To stay long enough to see the weather
The pain and the pressure
I carry like a loaded gun
[Pre-Chorus]
I've been through things that you can't see
A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
I'd rather hide when I'm hurting
Than be a burden 'cause all I've known is
[Chorus]
Nobody showed up
Nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf
I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith
I'd ever be found
Born into a hole
Six feet in the ground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle
[Verse 2]
Worked twice as hard through the diseases
To make up for the weakness
And vices not visible
No friends to pick up all the pieces
No sympathy or sweetness
No wonedr I'm cynical
[Pre-Chorus]
I've walked a path that would kill most
Where a heart closed and it left a temper
I don't know how to love, cause
I try to trust, but then I remember
[Chorus]
Nobody showed up
Nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf
I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith
I'd ever be found
Born into a hole
Six feet in the ground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle
[Bridge]
"Are you okay? You need to chat?"
The questions I was never asked
I should feel strong, but I just feel sad
So just let me grieve what I never had
[Chorus]
Nobody showed up
Nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf
I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith
I'd ever be found
Born into a hole
Six feet in the ground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle
Thanks
This song describes me perfectly. Nobody there hits me the hardest, but I'm keeping my head up and choosing to believe that will change one day
NOW THIS IS WHAT I WAITED FOR! l love this so much this song I relate to so much i'm always having to put on a fake smile to hide my pain from others and lately my anxiety been through the roof because i'm always mostly alone so my thoughts get worse thank you guys for making all of us music we can relate to you guys will always be the number one band! ❤️
appreciate those words Tyler 🫀
“They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud.”
This song literally hits so hard. Especially when it's so related to my situations. Your songs actually speaks the feelings that I don't say out loud.
The part "are you ok? You need to chat? The questions I was never asked" just revealed my feelings of how I feel whenever I need someone to talk to but they're not there for me. The feeling of loneliness and that I can't rely on anyone but myself 💔
Great song. I love it 💙💙💙💙💙💙
Hi Citizen Soldier!
Big fan here. I just wanted to tell you how much your music means to me. It always helps me get through the toughest of times. I found you at my worst, and you helped getting me back to my best!
Also, this song means a lot to me. I have OSDD which means my brain developed a coping mechanism to deal with childhood trauma, splitting my personality in many parts. And this song is EXACTLY what it feels like. "I had to be the family that never was there". We are a family in one body to protect one another. "I had to be my own miracle". We can support each other at pur worst and can get our spirit up again.
Thank you for expressing that in words. We think more people, and especially more systems should hear this song.
Your music is the best therapy one could find. Thank you for saving me!
I try to trust but then remember" I can't describe how the line touch me. But what I can definitely say is that I think the song is super great! I've already added it to my playlist. I hope that the song gives everyone as much power and strength (can't really put it into words) as it gives me. Thank you Citizen Soldier for all your songs!🖤
You know, I don’t think I could be in the good place I am now without this band. Feeling heard and understood through music made a whole lot of difference. And when I get down again, there’s a song here I can listen to. I feel this song. Trying to be strong and optimistic feels forced tbh. I’ll continue to persevere, but I want to thank you guys for writing this music because I’m sure there are others who need it. You guys are super heroes with music as your power.
Another amazing song from my most favorite band! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being my comfort blanket and for always being there when I needed you the most. ❤❤❤
Shout out to everyone who became their own miracle and those still fighting we are enough
Those lyrics hits hard. Such an amazing song❤💫
Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down... its amazing how in a world full of people one can feel so alone
I waited so long for this song and it was so worth it. Thank you for releasing a song I relate to so much.
glad it didn't disappoint 🫀
"Are you okay?" "You need to chat?"
Wow... I... Just wow... The twist in the knife was just... Wow
Another song that hits directly- genuinely impossible for these guys to produce anything less than amazing.
appreciate that 🫀
Your songs always come out in perfect timing. I'm healing, and your music is to thank because ot helped me keep going in the darkest days. Keep up the good work and all blessings go your way, you are very talented and are a beacon of light for so many people with your music❤
Just as I predicted, this song is fantastic and one that I will be listening to a lot on repeat. Thank you Citizen Soldier.
glad it didn't disappoint 🫀
@@CitizenSoldier I don't know how to express how much I appreciate you and your songs. Thank you for everything you do.
I adore your music.
This song especially hits home for me. I've always been my own miracle as it was the only way to survive my extended family who are so toxic that they are like festering wounds on my body. I've cut them out of my life, but the scars they've left are still there.
Это просто прекрасно. Вокал, лирика, все на высоте)
I wish this song was out sooner, like 6-8 years ago... I'm currently going through times where I'm just not happy, my relationship with my family is terrible just because they weren't there when I needed them most. These songs have really been helping me recover slowly. Thank you Citizen Soldier.
I’ve been waiting for this song to come out since December honestly I want to say this is my favorite citizen soldier song. My comment can’t cover how much I needed this song you wouldn’t believe how excited I got seeing this. No one has stayed when I witnessed loss and grief you have to tell them your fine so they just move on so quickly I seriously thank you guys for putting this one. I actually teared up after playing the full song
I love you guys
we know how it feels Alyssa 🫀 appreciate you. sending hugs
All I can say is thank you. This song is like every other. It touches so many people and their personal experiences. Citizen Soilder, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much.💙
This song speaks VOLUMES! After losing an uncle, best friend of 25 years, and grandfather to suicide in an 8 year span, there were more times than not I was fending for myself and had to rely on myself to get through it.
this song immortalyzes my very reasoning.. I could have become one of the enemies, the dying proof of my trauma, the distrust of every single word spoken; and yet as guarded as I was - I knew the suffering I saw and fought back to be what no one had done for me. -family to the abandoned, -be the person to stand side by side, -ever genuine without a mask, -defender against those who cause pain, -hearing the silent in understanding. As to you, Citizen Soldier, I will continue sharing your songs in defiance of the evils that plague the world. Each phrase you make calls out to at least one of many that I have shown thus far. Proof that existance is possible, someone cares, there will be someone to stand against the issues, as rare and far between these people may be. -Thank you for making all of these, and being some of them we can trust
I've been through things that you can't see a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
I've walked a path that would kill most
Those two lines struck me like a baseball bat to the head.
Love you guys 💔
I've been so stressed out for the past week, that I actually forgot to listen to this song until now. It's spoken to me on such a deep level, I think there was a reason more than just my forgetfulness that I didn't hear this until now. It's reached me so deeply and close to home, I needed to hear this. Thank you.💜
Увидел в шортсах, теперь уже встречаемся в моем в плейлисте)
Спасибо за отличные треки!
I'VE BEEN REPLAYING THIS ON TIKTOK FOR AGES NOW! I'M SO GLAD IT'S FINALLY A FULL SONG! Also my hope goes out to everyone
As an auDHD person who's now physically disabled due to the damage it did to have to be my own miracle through the trauma, & as a member of a D.I.D. system, this....this song hits really hard. This hits us really hard. 🥺💜 ~Nico
I was always there for others and when it came to me.
Only few stuck around.
I will move mountains for them few and I walked away from the rest
This describes me so much right now. Recently I have admitted myself into a ward after having really bad thoughts and almost going along with them. As a long time fan since the very first song, your music means a lot. Thank you for simply existing to provide such gems ❤
This has been the greatest Birthday week I had... just turned 28 on Monday and wasn't expecting anything, but I was congratulated by so many people that I even got surprised hahahaha 😂 and this song accurately defines the last 6 birthdays and proofa that Citizen Soldier will always be a part of my history and many people more!!!
Thanks for another awesome song guys ❤ You rock and hope you continue your awesome tours... Hope to see you in Mexico eventually cause you deserve to comfort the world with your art
Yeah, "i was screaming so loud" too. I still do...
I've been on the streets, through war causing PTSD and injuries, had a drug addiction, habe immune deficiency, had girlfriend and friends who used and abused me and was raised by a very distant family who hated each other this song hits, but life can get better. I've found my soulmate and realize life can he beautiful. Stay strong and remember you are worthwhile not worthless. Much love all. Be safe and remember you do matter.
I cannot describe the chills I got. Wow.
I swear this song hits so hard, I relate to the lyrics so much it makes me feel seen and understood. Thank you. You're an amazing artist
There are already so many comments, so I don’t think anyone will see this, but I want to say thank you for making the music that you make. All of your songs put into words a lot of things I’ve never been able to say, but this one hits a little closer to home than usual. My home life is so much better than so many people get and I know this, so I don’t know if my feelings are valid or not, but this song voices all of them much better than I ever could. It makes me feel seen and understood. I’ve listened to this song multiple times per day since it’s coming out (as well as many others before this) and it gives me hope that some people know what I’m going through and that I can make it to the other side too. So thank you for making this song, and I hope you keep making this music for as long as you possibly can.
We all feel the exact same way as you do. Citizen Soldier has told our stories for us, without even knowing them. We love their music, and always will. And as for you, don't ever lose hope, and I wish you all the best for whatever you are going through ❤
I just wanted to let you know that I've read your post. Your feelings are always valid. You don't have to beat everyone else at the Olimpics of suffering to be allowed to feel bad. If you relate to this song you probably have good reason to.
Regardless, I wish you the best and hope you'll feel better soon :)
@@Rey-2517 Much Love ❤
Congratulations, you gained another fan, great sound to hear, simply in love and looking forward to hearing your next album ❤
Always able to put what i am going through into words thank you for your hardwork
🫀
I relate to this song completely I hope no one else does ❤️
This song hits hard for me. I had no one for years and I had to struggle on my own. I somehow managed to hold on long enough to find my loving husband. I love all your songs!
glad you found him Cora 🫀 much love
I'm glad I listened to this song, my grandma passed away today
💔
Im grateful for your music as it's not only helped me, but it's helped and saved millions of people probably without them realizing it. That's something amazing and beautiful in itself. ❤
appreciate that Brittany 🫀
@@CitizenSoldier You're welcome. 😊 Keep doing what you love, keep saving lives. You're awesome.
Please never stop dropping these songs. I've loved every song you have released since 2018. Thank you for helping me through a lot.
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Поддельные улыбки позволяют мне держаться
К худшему или к лудшему, потому что у меня никогда никого не было
Кто остался бы достаточно на долго что бы увидеть погоду
Боль и тяготы которые я несу как заряженное оружие
Я прошел через то, что ты не сможешь увидеть
Те страдания что не заметить глазами
Я лучше спрячусь когда мне больно, чем буду обузой
Ведь я точно знаю...
(Припев)
Никто не пришел, никто не остановился
Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал
Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь
Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле (6 футов под землей - глубина на которую закапывают гроб)
Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать
Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом
Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным
Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом.
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Работал вдвое усерднее преодолевая болезни
Что бы компенсировать свои слабости и пороки что не видны
Нет друзей что соберут все осколки, нет симпатии или нежности
Не удивительно что я циничен
Я прошел путь, который убил бы большинство
Где сердце закрылось, и оно оставило характер
Я не знаю, как любить, потому что
Я пытаюсь доверять, но потом вспоминаю...
(Припев)
Никто не пришел, никто не остановился
Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал
Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь
Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле
Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать
Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом
Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным
Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом.
Ты в порядке? Тебе нужно поболтать?
Вопросы, которые мне никогда не задавали
Я должен чувствовать себя сильным, но мне просто грустно
Так что позволь мне оплакать то, чего у меня никогда не было.
(и еще раз припев)
спасибо бро
Thank you for sharing the lyrics ❤
Your music is a medicine that helps us lonely people feel heard. 🖤
This would've been my anthem before September 2022. 100000/10
Oh yes! I've been waiting for this track for so long and its finally out, and its so relatable. I've been internally and externally screaming ,,Help me!" and no one gave a flipping check on me. My dad, my ex gf and my ex bff was the trifecta that broke me to pieces, and now im just trying to pick up the pieces as i move along, and this song resembles me 100%. Thank you, Citizen Soldier! ❤ My mother and you are what hold me together!
I have never related to a song more. Its gonna be on repeat for a while.
Honestly this song fits the story of my life unbelievably well. This is exactly how my life has gone from childhood to adulthood. We are the few who survived that path we were forced to walk.
Yess amazing song this song hits deep 🥺🔥🎸🎧
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I don't usually leave comments, but I've been listening to all of your songs for the past couple of hours (found you while following the music trail on YT), and I just have to say, as someone with C-PTSD, anxiety, and depression, and as someone who stood on that threshold, alone, your music is a lifeline to those of us who are fighting to keep our heads above water. I commend you for shedding light on what it feels like to have suicidal ideation, and reminding us that we are not alone.
This song is probably my favorite. ❤
Wow, I know you guys not very long, but your sound and massages are amazing, I’m a big fan of your heavy songs and I think this is your best so far, keep going 💪🏼💪🏼🔥
Wow💜... the perfect words to describe exactly the things I've never been able to put into words.. "I don't know how to love cause, I try to trust but then I remember nobody showed up...ect" That explains exactly why I don't know how to love and why I feel I'm only capable of loving my cat.. he showed up when I needed him most and saved my life.
This is fantastic as always ❤ I'm determined you couldn't make a bad song even if you tried!
haha thanks for the compliment Brianna 🫀
These lyrics really hit home for me. I feel like I’m at a point in my life where I’m constantly reaching out to God and looking for my purpose in life and what legacy I’ll leave behind
I am big Fan of your Songs. Another Best masterpiece
“I don’t know how to love… I try to trust but, then I remember…” Every day man. This is me
Let's gooo, love ya stuff. Been listening since 2019!
thanks for your support 🫀
@@CitizenSoldier Thanks for saving my life ❤
every one of these songs are so relatable.