@@SeanDarmal i second this comment, i dont have the evidence but i feel that most of the medical youtubers are people with super high academic capabilities and ambitions, was gunners since undergrad, charmed the right people for good speciality residencies, became surgeons, and just flipped a switch magically and now are the fun uncles of medicine., telling people to not study 24/7. This is my first vid of yours ive seen , but i like your approach and will sub to get more content like this cause my other med content , i love/hate because its informative but im a low stat prospective med school candidate who cant go 24/7 study even if you held me at gunpoint.
Holy shit, thank you for the honesty, finally someone who isn’t sugarcoating this whole medschool to 1st year doctor. I am in my first month of residency now and I cannot fully comprehend the amount of incompetence I am feeling. And exactly what you said about «how are all these people able to keep track of all this information». I’m using computer programs I have never seen or touched before. Yet still feel like it’s expected that I can navigate all of it without any training whatsoever. And as I am reading up on patients admitted to the ER, I get calls from out of hospital or the ward with questions I know I should be able to answer on some level, but I have no clue. And then I forget what I just read up on the patient I am about to admit. But others seem to be just cruising through. What am I missing here, why am I so incompetent comparatively.. And seniors ask me «well so what will you do with this patient? What is the plan? Medications? Dosing? Labs? And what if..? Hellooo?!» I know I should be able to spit out something good, but 9 out of 10 times I have no fucking clue. And that’s when I wonder if I am actually cut out for this. Currently taking it one day at a time, but idk for how long until I throw in the towel.
Thank You for your transparency and wisdom Dr. Darmal, means a lot to a burnt out SGU student. Hope to pay it forward, just as you have, and as that senior did for you.
ayyyee. I feel your pain. hope things aren't getting too down for you. you've made it this far, don't give up. thanks for telling me this video helped you, that helps me out too. follow up with me, let me know how things are going in the future.
I feel this and Im just a student.. its particularly hard too when you were once so eager to pursue a career that has essentially become toxic to your well-being. not to mention the boat load of debt making it the point of no return
Hey. Good to hear from you again. You’re absolutely right. Sometimes it’s hard to keep that balance, and it’s easy to tip too far over to one side. I hope things are getting better.
Really appreciate the self-disclosure. I still have several semesters before I reach your point, but I already feel a forthcoming nugget of serenity amidst the hustle and bustle of residency
I don't know how I came across this video, but I'm glad I did. Whenever I see medical content online it's usually always the dandy stuff that's put in videos, which subconsciously makes you feel that you're always a huge step behind. The reality of the matter is most doctors go through the fake it till you make it life throughout the first few months of residency because of the lack of clinical experience, and I hope more light gets shed on this.
This guy is very impressive. He is honest yet still highly confident with excellent communication skills. His content even for an audience who has no interest in medical school is of very high value.
@@SeanDarmal actually my daughter is on the medical school route. Since I am paying for it I want to make sure she is making the right decision. Your videos have been a tremendous resource. So thank you!
Im at SGU and taking step 1 in 1 week and starting clinicals in august. Hearing all this early on is extremely valuable. Appreciate all your insight man. Thanks for making these videos.
THIS. This right here? You seein this? I needed to hear this. Father of two girls, but I find myself crying just as much as them if not more as I prep for Step 2, thinking how can I ever take care of another human being? How? When I'm this incompetent, who could possibly benefit from me? You put some of that to ease today. I've got my exam in 2 days. Glad I stumbled upon this.
wowww mad respect. I cant imagine having two children and going through all the trials and tribulations of med school. you are definitely a much stronger person than me. You will be resilient when its your turn to take care of your patients. so proud of you for making it this far. aint no way youre stopping today. keep going my friend. give it your best shot on step 2, please let me know how it goes.
Entering my 4th year of nursing school and some of what you speak is very relatable to me. Your part about asking nurses what they usually do is too true. The experienced nurses who have the confidence and knowledge to just ask the residents for what they want astonishes me.
I don't know how youtube knew I'm starting residency in July and that I'm panicking majorly about it, but this was probably the video I needed to see most right now (more than any of the numerous how-to-prepare-for-intern-year videos/tweets threads I've seen, all of which actually added to my baseline nervousness even more). Thank you for this video!! Will probably keep coming back to it.
I'm still a 3rd year med student and I'm panicking all the time thinking about how in few years I'll be a certified physician and I'm clueless about everything; I feel like I don't belong to this field. This is exactly what I needed to hear to tune down the crippling anxiety and I'd like to hear more of your personal experiences. Thank you so much and you earned a sub
Wow that’s means a lot to me. I feel you! Thanks for telling me this made a difference. I appreciate you. Much love. One day at a time for sure. It seems like that feeling will never go away, but you just get used to it. Keep fighting, stay strong.
This was exactly what I needed to hear before starting up in a couple of weeks. You perfectly expressed all that I’m feeling. Appreciate you big time for putting this out there, Sean!
I don't know why or how youtube knows I'm graduating, I'm honestly not even panicked but this was an amazing conversation regardless. Its remarkable how much like a natural convo this video felt
ayyye thank you so much. thats pretty cool, i rewatched the video just now and i am like "yeah this is like a conversation" hahaha much appreciated . good confidence, keep that foundation strong
Did my residency 30 years ago in big bad busy NYC hospitals with no work hours protection. Unlimited work hours, no sleep was the rule. Relatively speaking you people nowadays don't know how good you have it. Anyway it is normal to feel behind the eight ball at times. Good idea to arrive early as you are free to catch up before daily responsibilities start. Since many of the cases and workups will be the same or similar you will learn how to organize and be efficient. Organization and efficiency are crucial regardless how smart you may be. As a PGY2 I always arrived early on the start of a new service and reviewed the patient charts as I was responsible for the PGY1's under me. It becomes challenging and fun.
Hey nice to see you back here. You hit it right on the head. That organization and efficiency both really helped me out. after that i started leaving for home a bit more on time. but you guys had it so tough back then, i cant even imagine. Yeah im a little nervous to be a pgy2 now, i got to be the one with the answers now. Thanks for stopping by again. thanks for the insight
You seem grounded. You are becoming a better version of yourself. July 1st is around the corner. I don't even know what to do. I will reassess and the end of December, so help me God.
I worked at a major inter city hospital in Detroit as a floor secretary. I always felt bad for the new residents as they began their first round in July. It was amazing to hear their stories of medical school and watch them looking a little lost and fearful of their senior. Fast forward a few years, they would be back on our floor as a senior resident full of confidence and leading the new residents. New doctors be kind to all around you, especially your nursing staff. All will be well.
I absolutely agree. Nurses are the foundation of the hospital. They keep the entire hospital running. They’ve saved my life countless times. I would be lost without them. I completely agree. Thanks for your insight. That was definitely me in the first few months
On March 14th 2022, I received my second Unmatched letter from ERAS. Depressed that this was the second time going through the cycle, I believed that I was not going to achieve my dream of becoming a psychiatrist (which is what I entered med school for day one). Then, after two weeks of applying post-match-writing cover letters, getting rejected numerous times in SOAP and after-all while going through the depressed state-of-mind of feeling like a failure, I finally got it: an offer to interview at a new psychiatry program. After an hour of interviewing, they told me they would reach out soon if I got the job. A week later, on March 31st 2022, I got offered a position as a psychiatry resident. After this whole ordeal, as well as numerous failures during medical school, it is super easy for me to have imposter syndrome. And from what I heard residency can be like, I’m both excited because I finally achieved my dream, but also nervous because I don’t want to continue feeling like I’m behind everyone else, like I did for four straight years in medical school. With all this said, I definitely needed to watch this and am glad it was in my recommended videos. It reminded me that I’m going through what everyone else around me will go through, so I don’t feel as alone entering this profession as people start referring to me as “doctor.” So thank you :)
WOWWWWWWWWWWWW. I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!! thats so amazing. You have made it, youve worked for it and you deserve it. You will be great. Don't think different for a second. it will be super tough, but it will also be super tough for the person who scored a 265, you know what i mean. either way, put that stuff in the past, dont let that baggage hold you back. dont doubt yourself, just keep working hard as you have been. youll be good. congratulations. well deserved celebration is in order!
Probably one of the most genuine med influencer youtube video I have ever seen. Perfect as I am about to start my intern year. Sounds like you went through the crucible and left a better person. Congratulations and good luck!
ahhaah dude thanks so much for the kind words. means a lot man. i try to keep it real. yeah man that sounds just about right, the crucible. haha. much appreciated man. duuuude congrats on making it. thats awesome. hope things go well bro.
I don't know how I ended up here but I'm glad I did. Late night UA-cam clicking. I've just started school again. History degree. I am a little worried about juggling school and work but your videos have calmed me down.
you’re an inspiration, your gift is your sincerity, no arrogance and your humanity, keep being that difference, medicine needs more people like you, honest, humble and admirable… you’ll fly high my friend
Victor!! I am at a loss for words. Dang man. Almost cried reading this thing. 😭 thank you for the kind words. That means the world to me. Bout to frame this comment on my wall or something. Much love man
Brother. I know you're doing just fine. Especially when you showed the short clip of you in the hospital and your were speaking to the other guy. When you did this 🤌.....I said...yep....Dr. Darmal knows exactly what's going on. Keep working hard brother. 🤝🏿
Hahahahaha my brother Joel. My favorite part of making a new video is waiting for your comment. Hahah every time you crack me up. My love brother. Thanks for always having my back
You said all the quiet stuff out loud and I needed to hear every word of it! Im a rising second year med student and have no idea how I made it this far and how I can remember any of this in time for my board exams next year.
Isaiah thanks for telling me man. That means a lot. yeah that material just slips out your brain so easily. i hate it. i believe in you man. go kill it out there. keep me updated fam
4:40 - the most relatable thing ever as an r1 😂 things get better Even after 6 months, there are days where I'm like "when are they going to ask me to hand my stethoscope in 🫠", but it does get better. Great video!
Just came across your channel. As a recently retired internist everything you said resonated with me. Just subscribed. I know you have a bright future as an excellent caring doc.
@@SeanDarmal The main thing I noticed was the absence of daily stress. Taught briefly 1st and 2nd year med students physical dx. Unfortunately my wife was dx w stage 4 NSCLC 11/2020. She is now in hospice at home. Not the retirement we planned. Enjoy life as you go. Don’t depend on delayed gratification. Be well.
Hey man, I just really wanted to say I appreciate this video. I’ve been doing orientation for my residency this past week, but my actual first day of seeing patients is Monday. I’m starting on inpatient and I’ve been very anxious and stressed. It’s nice to hear reassurance that it’s okay to feel this way, to hear that others before have felt the same and have gotten through this, and that we’ll get this as well. Thanks a bunch!
Bro Bro... the feeling...I can't even describe it but thanks for sharing it with me. I should have came in at 4 am but I didn't. My first week on IM attending said to me, "Why do you make rounds so painful. Why do you come in last minute". My heart just sank.I wish I came in last minute. I came in two hours before everyone. heheh. The entire month was hell. One of the other rounds I almost just told him, may be it's because I don't belong here and just walk off... but I somehow stayed on the struggle train.... and just cried at home. Luckily, I am old enough to know that nothing remains the same.
Hey brother. Exactly what I needed to hear. Here comes July 1st, I’m scared of not knowing enough, but it’s seniors like you who keep people like me going. Have an awesome day brother. 😂😂😂my biggest fear too is that my attendings realising how clueless I am.
Fake it til you make it, JESUS, that's so true. Idk how I'm way more comfortable than when I first entered my internship two years ago, it's amazing (a lot of things I'm still clueless at but at least I know I just gotta study the topic and integrate it and make sense of it). I'm not sure the terminology is the same as here in Chile, though. Here, an intern is someone who isn't a Dr yet, but has more responsibilities than a med student. Esentially, an intern is a med student in his 2 last years of medical school. After that, you become a Dr, and then you can go on and get into a specialty, or you can just go and start working as a general practitioner. And as any of those two, you can work as a resident. I'd love to hear how it is there.
Keep 'em coming! Your videos are inspiring me, Dr. Sean. The pandemic made me consider finishing nursing school and not continuing to pursue medicine, but your videos brought back the hype of the aspiring doctor in me. Thank you and more power to you!
ohhh my gaaawd. thats awesome. thanks so much by the way, i try to keep it real as much as possible. good luck. fingers crossed. let me know how it goes
@@SeanDarmal will do! Also went to the Islands for school, so can appreciate a lot of what you say in your videos. Keep up the great work! Your voice, your experience and perspective on life is needed here. Much success to you
Thank you for this! Starting EM residency soon and already having anxiety making me want to leave medicine due to worrying about not being able to cut it. Trying to reframe my thoughts so it doesn't seem as daunting.
Wow EM that’s so cool. No I don’t even go there in your head. You made it this far. You made it past step 1… you can definitely do this😂😂. You got used to it, it’s weird. Still hard but you just become used to the hard. I believe in you good luck
I just wanted to thank you for this video, as a newly grad med student or doctor lol, I always have this sense of dread and doubtfulness when I go in to work but your video put me at ease. It might not seem much to you but this is just what I needed to hear right now, so thank you again!
I’m starting my clinical years in 3 months from now, somehow yt recommended me your channel.It’s what I wanted to hear plus Damn I really like your vibes. Can’t wait for more from you!!
Ayyee real recognize real. Glad you checked the video out. Means a lot. I’ll keep going as long as you keep stopping by. Good luck on clinicals. Tough time. But you can do it
Ayyee. Hey I appreciate it. Thank you. I’m getting back into it. I totally agree too, quality first. thanks for checking out the videos whenever i do. I hope they’ve helped in some way
I’m just a graduated premed now with a few months left before my MCAT. Thanks for the words of wisdom! I really like how relatable and assuring your story is 👍🏼
Currently in my final year of medschool in a foreign country. Struggling to pass the clerkships with grace, so Imposter syndrome has been hitting me hard. Your message was really enlightening and uplifting. Thank you my brother.
Woww thanks for telling me man. Of course i am happy this hit home. Clerkships sucked too because you have to study non stop on top of working full time. you are not alone. you are capable of amazing things man keep going
That’s just about exactly what I need to hear as I in about 2 years will make that transition from student to doctor. You verbalised my exact fears but gave some solace and some reassurance. Thank you for making this video.
hahaha ayyye thanks man. i actually use that cheap old cannon m50. but i think its the lens that makes it look nice. its the sigma 16 mm f1.8 and the microphone is a rode ntg5 i believe
Wow, needed that. Didn‘t know but perfect timing.. My seniors once told me to make a promise to yourself, dont quit in the first six months. No matter how much you feel like a mistake (imposter syndrome much) - it‘ll get better. So, let‘s hope in a couple months, when im drowning, I‘m going to remember your words 🤞Thank you 😄
Wow that’s a good senior. Congratulations by the way that’s awesome to be starting. It will go by in a flash but also feel like a distant Memory. At the same time.. it’s weird. But absolutely please don’t forget thanks for watching by the way and good luck
dont worry man. your whole team adjusts their expectations for the first week or two . you should go in today, find the team you will be on, and start adding your patients to your list, read up on them, and prep for presenting your patients tomorrow. if its the same attending on the team, then just keep your history to a 1 liner, and present the updates to the patients care. try it out, i dont think you would regret it .
@@SeanDarmal I wasn’t able to go the day before since I just moved into a new place and was still busy with online onboarding. But The first day was actually very chill. I got a great senior and the attending was nice too. They know it’s a new EMR for all Of us
Glad I came across this video. I think I'm exhibiting the same feelings you described you felt with this sense of dread as July 1st approaches. I hope things come to be where I want them in six months as well. Thank you bro, this is something I needed to hear too.
Just discovered your channel and subbed! I'm about to be a first year radiology student (crazy excited and nervous) and I find your videos inspiring even though I am not a doctor. Keep it up.
Ayyee thank you so much, thats awesome, i'm really happy for you. I hope everything goes well. thanks for checking out my videos anyway. im sure a lot of it can still apply to your side too. thanks for watching
Ayyeee congratulations. That’s so cool. What specialty? Oh the camera is a super cheap cannon m50. But I think it’s the lens that makes it look nice. Sigma 16mm. Such a good lens
I was just scrolling through UA-cam and found this video of yours. Everything you've said is so relatable, and I felt exactly the same way as I graduated and was finally a Doctor, working at emergencies and everything. But what I loved the most was the paiting behind you. It feels SO good to find people in medicine that are somehow just normal and like the same stuff that we do. And I would like to know: do this paiting (of Sasuke and Itachi) has some special meaning for you?
Omg. Yes it does. It’s a memento for me. My brother passed away a few years ago. But it still seems recent at times. Either way. The head flick he did to sasuke, and suddenly he understood everything itachi did was for his little brother. It reminded me of my brother, that he loved us/me more than anything, no matter how hard life got. Something like that Thanks for asking. Much love
I'm not pursuing anything medicine related but this was a very encouraging video nonetheless. Thank you for serving in the way that you do. Hope you're getting enough rest.
Yo bro you made me laugh I had to subscribe lmao but I’m currently going into my senior year of undergrad. I’m taking the MCAT in September. I don’t want to waste time getting med school. Should I wait or just get in SGU?
Loved this video! Subbed :) I'd find it really helpful to know your thoughts on how to figure out choosing residency when one feels like they could do more than one? Thanks!
Though I am only a 2nd year med student. I find myself questioning this all the time. I think the most important thing you could do is to shadow different types of doctors and ask them this question. What residency/specialties are you considering?
@@JasonKrastein hey Jason! So I'm currently working as a medical intern(MBBS-Y6) at my university's hospital, and seem to be fine with every one of them except General surgery and OBGYN haha. Since year 3 I recognised I wanted to pursue an integration of cosmetology and psychiatry. That opens- dermatology, plastics and psychiatry(secondary). On one hand, my passion for cosmetology and mental health related to it has made me put it in my prime area of interests, yet lately it makes me feel like I could better contribute to the society if I choose a more "medical" branch. Sadly my psyche seems to be succumbing to how derm is viewed by most of my peers and consultants(smirks when they see a derm aspirant). I've talked to some residents in derm at my uni and everyone said they chose it for the money, and working hours. No kidding, 2 out of the 4 female residents expressed they wanted to pursue other fields but were "nudged" towards derm by their families. I know its a personal experience and I recognise there are many passionate dermatologists out there, but sadly I am yet to meet one irl, and I work in a top university in my country. A professor of pediatrics asked me to not waste my potential on "creams and lasers" and use it in "real" medicine. And it went right through my heart hahah :') lol sorry for the rant.
@@thebipedCentaur I think people definitely look down on term bc of their lifestyle. But there is so much you can do with Derm and combing psych. Especially if you go to an academic center, you can be at the forefront of research. One thing I would consider is going into oncology focus of derm. You will be making a big difference in patients lives. Have you ever considered oncology ?
Nah don’t trip on what people think. Don’t let others deter you from What you’re passionate about. You’re gonna have to be the one for the next 30+ years. Just because they smirk just means they don’t value it as much as you do.
You’re awesome. I love your honesty because I’m starting orientation next week and feel like I forgot everything 😅. Also, where did you get that itachi poster 😁. Thanks
Hey thank you so much I appreciate that. Good luck. It’s super nerve-racking but everyone else is feeling the same exact way. Dude isn’t it sick. This was a custom painting made by @onlymy2cents. Check him out he’s dope
Ohh woww congrats!!!! I know what you mean. Things will be rough in the beginning. For all of us, but you’ll be good in a flash. A very long blurry flash. I an in the middle of making another video about this but if I could go back in time a year. I would force myself to read and skim first aid, rewatch sketchy pharm, and just know how to give a nice presentation
Your honesty is refreshing. You present a much more grounded picture of Medicine compared to the "influencers" who try to glamorise their medical school journey. "Going from a useless medical student to a doctor" hits way too hard 😅
It's refreshing to finally see a med youtuber who's relatable and not a super gunner. Much respect your videos are nice to watch.
Ohhh Woww thanks for saying so. Yeah I try not to glamorize anything. Keepin it real. Thanks for checking out the video man. Respect
@@SeanDarmal i second this comment, i dont have the evidence but i feel that most of the medical youtubers are people with super high academic capabilities and ambitions, was gunners since undergrad, charmed the right people for good speciality residencies, became surgeons, and just flipped a switch magically and now are the fun uncles of medicine., telling people to not study 24/7. This is my first vid of yours ive seen , but i like your approach and will sub to get more content like this cause my other med content , i love/hate because its informative but im a low stat prospective med school candidate who cant go 24/7 study even if you held me at gunpoint.
Holy shit, thank you for the honesty, finally someone who isn’t sugarcoating this whole medschool to 1st year doctor. I am in my first month of residency now and I cannot fully comprehend the amount of incompetence I am feeling. And exactly what you said about «how are all these people able to keep track of all this information». I’m using computer programs I have never seen or touched before. Yet still feel like it’s expected that I can navigate all of it without any training whatsoever. And as I am reading up on patients admitted to the ER, I get calls from out of hospital or the ward with questions I know I should be able to answer on some level, but I have no clue. And then I forget what I just read up on the patient I am about to admit. But others seem to be just cruising through. What am I missing here, why am I so incompetent comparatively.. And seniors ask me «well so what will you do with this patient? What is the plan? Medications? Dosing? Labs? And what if..? Hellooo?!» I know I should be able to spit out something good, but 9 out of 10 times I have no fucking clue. And that’s when I wonder if I am actually cut out for this. Currently taking it one day at a time, but idk for how long until I throw in the towel.
Thank You for your transparency and wisdom Dr. Darmal, means a lot to a burnt out SGU student. Hope to pay it forward, just as you have, and as that senior did for you.
ayyyee. I feel your pain. hope things aren't getting too down for you. you've made it this far, don't give up. thanks for telling me this video helped you, that helps me out too. follow up with me, let me know how things are going in the future.
I feel this and Im just a student.. its particularly hard too when you were once so eager to pursue a career that has essentially become toxic to your well-being. not to mention the boat load of debt making it the point of no return
Hey. Good to hear from you again. You’re absolutely right. Sometimes it’s hard to keep that balance, and it’s easy to tip too far over to one side. I hope things are getting better.
Really appreciate the self-disclosure. I still have several semesters before I reach your point, but I already feel a forthcoming nugget of serenity amidst the hustle and bustle of residency
Ayyye much respect. Thanks for always coming back to the vids. Those semesters are gonna fly by.
I don't know how I came across this video, but I'm glad I did. Whenever I see medical content online it's usually always the dandy stuff that's put in videos, which subconsciously makes you feel that you're always a huge step behind. The reality of the matter is most doctors go through the fake it till you make it life throughout the first few months of residency because of the lack of clinical experience, and I hope more light gets shed on this.
Yeah no doubt. I totally agree with you.
And yea the whole glamorizing thing I really hate. Thanks for watching
Thank you for this... the youtube algorithm knows I'm a) starting residency, and b) scared shitless
Hahahaha. Both Of course I’m glad this helped out. Good luck and congratulations
This guy is very impressive. He is honest yet still highly confident with excellent communication skills. His content even for an audience who has no interest in medical school is of very high value.
dang David thanks so much, thats so kind of you to say. this means a lot man. thanks for checking out the video. hope to see you around some more
@@SeanDarmal actually my daughter is on the medical school route. Since I am paying for it I want to make sure she is making the right decision. Your videos have been a tremendous resource. So thank you!
Im at SGU and taking step 1 in 1 week and starting clinicals in august. Hearing all this early on is extremely valuable. Appreciate all your insight man. Thanks for making these videos.
Good luck man! Rooting for you. I appreciate you checking out the video. Now get that damn test done and out of the way
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Thank you for being so transparent with the struggles of residency. I appreciate this so much.
THIS. This right here? You seein this? I needed to hear this. Father of two girls, but I find myself crying just as much as them if not more as I prep for Step 2, thinking how can I ever take care of another human being? How? When I'm this incompetent, who could possibly benefit from me? You put some of that to ease today. I've got my exam in 2 days. Glad I stumbled upon this.
wowww mad respect. I cant imagine having two children and going through all the trials and tribulations of med school. you are definitely a much stronger person than me. You will be resilient when its your turn to take care of your patients. so proud of you for making it this far. aint no way youre stopping today. keep going my friend. give it your best shot on step 2, please let me know how it goes.
@@SeanDarmal thank you so much for your kind words! Love from Florida!
Entering my 4th year of nursing school and some of what you speak is very relatable to me. Your part about asking nurses what they usually do is too true. The experienced nurses who have the confidence and knowledge to just ask the residents for what they want astonishes me.
I don't know how youtube knew I'm starting residency in July and that I'm panicking majorly about it, but this was probably the video I needed to see most right now (more than any of the numerous how-to-prepare-for-intern-year videos/tweets threads I've seen, all of which actually added to my baseline nervousness even more). Thank you for this video!! Will probably keep coming back to it.
Wow thanks for telling me. I’m really happy that this could help out in any way. Mean a lot. Let me know how things go. I wish you the best
I'm still a 3rd year med student and I'm panicking all the time thinking about how in few years I'll be a certified physician and I'm clueless about everything; I feel like I don't belong to this field. This is exactly what I needed to hear to tune down the crippling anxiety and I'd like to hear more of your personal experiences. Thank you so much and you earned a sub
Wow that’s means a lot to me. I feel you! Thanks for telling me this made a difference. I appreciate you. Much love. One day at a time for sure. It seems like that feeling will never go away, but you just get used to it. Keep fighting, stay strong.
I absolutely needed to hear this today! Thank you for putting yourself “out there” and making this video!
You are welcome. thank you for letting me know. stay strong, dont give up, it will get better
This was exactly what I needed to hear before starting up in a couple of weeks. You perfectly expressed all that I’m feeling. Appreciate you big time for putting this out there, Sean!
Damn Sean, i must say, you have an amazingly good name. haha i appreciate you brother. hope things go well. gald this vid helped
@@SeanDarmal haha and spelled correctly, too! Glad you appreciated :)
I don't know why or how youtube knows I'm graduating, I'm honestly not even panicked but this was an amazing conversation regardless. Its remarkable how much like a natural convo this video felt
ayyye thank you so much. thats pretty cool, i rewatched the video just now and i am like "yeah this is like a conversation" hahaha much appreciated . good confidence, keep that foundation strong
Did my residency 30 years ago in big bad busy NYC hospitals with no work hours protection. Unlimited work hours, no sleep was the rule. Relatively speaking you people nowadays don't know how good you have it. Anyway it is normal to feel behind the eight ball at times. Good idea to arrive early as you are free to catch up before daily responsibilities start. Since many of the cases and workups will be the same or similar you will learn how to organize and be efficient. Organization and efficiency are crucial regardless how smart you may be. As a PGY2 I always arrived early on the start of a new service and reviewed the patient charts as I was responsible for the PGY1's under me. It becomes challenging and fun.
Hey nice to see you back here. You hit it right on the head. That organization and efficiency both really helped me out. after that i started leaving for home a bit more on time. but you guys had it so tough back then, i cant even imagine. Yeah im a little nervous to be a pgy2 now, i got to be the one with the answers now. Thanks for stopping by again. thanks for the insight
You seem grounded. You are becoming a better version of yourself. July 1st is around the corner. I don't even know what to do. I will reassess and the end of December, so help me God.
Ayyeee congratulations man!! It will go by in a flash, after you get past the hump, but after that you good. Wish you the best man
Starting Intern year in July and this was very calming to watch! Thank you
Wow!! congratulations, thats amazing. Im glad this helped a bit. i appreciate you watching the video. let me know how it goes
I worked at a major inter city hospital in Detroit as a floor secretary. I always felt bad for the new residents as they began their first round in July.
It was amazing to hear their stories of medical school and watch them looking a little lost and fearful of their senior. Fast forward a few years, they would be back on our floor as a senior resident full of confidence and leading the new residents. New doctors be kind to all around you, especially your nursing staff. All will be well.
I absolutely agree. Nurses are the foundation of the hospital. They keep the entire hospital running. They’ve saved my life countless times. I would be lost without them. I completely agree. Thanks for your insight. That was definitely me in the first few months
You sound like a great doctor!!
On March 14th 2022, I received my second Unmatched letter from ERAS. Depressed that this was the second time going through the cycle, I believed that I was not going to achieve my dream of becoming a psychiatrist (which is what I entered med school for day one). Then, after two weeks of applying post-match-writing cover letters, getting rejected numerous times in SOAP and after-all while going through the depressed state-of-mind of feeling like a failure, I finally got it: an offer to interview at a new psychiatry program. After an hour of interviewing, they told me they would reach out soon if I got the job. A week later, on March 31st 2022, I got offered a position as a psychiatry resident.
After this whole ordeal, as well as numerous failures during medical school, it is super easy for me to have imposter syndrome. And from what I heard residency can be like, I’m both excited because I finally achieved my dream, but also nervous because I don’t want to continue feeling like I’m behind everyone else, like I did for four straight years in medical school.
With all this said, I definitely needed to watch this and am glad it was in my recommended videos. It reminded me that I’m going through what everyone else around me will go through, so I don’t feel as alone entering this profession as people start referring to me as “doctor.” So thank you :)
WOWWWWWWWWWWWW. I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!! thats so amazing. You have made it, youve worked for it and you deserve it. You will be great. Don't think different for a second. it will be super tough, but it will also be super tough for the person who scored a 265, you know what i mean. either way, put that stuff in the past, dont let that baggage hold you back. dont doubt yourself, just keep working hard as you have been. youll be good. congratulations. well deserved celebration is in order!
Aww you're making me cry
qestion whats your age? Not trying to mean.
Probably one of the most genuine med influencer youtube video I have ever seen. Perfect as I am about to start my intern year. Sounds like you went through the crucible and left a better person. Congratulations and good luck!
ahhaah dude thanks so much for the kind words. means a lot man. i try to keep it real. yeah man that sounds just about right, the crucible. haha. much appreciated man. duuuude congrats on making it. thats awesome. hope things go well bro.
I don't know how I ended up here but I'm glad I did. Late night UA-cam clicking. I've just started school again. History degree. I am a little worried about juggling school and work but your videos have calmed me down.
Oh man that’s scary , I’m glad you are keeping a good mindset. Thanks for this real talk
you’re an inspiration, your gift is your sincerity, no arrogance and your humanity, keep being that difference, medicine needs more people like you, honest, humble and admirable… you’ll fly high my friend
Victor!! I am at a loss for words. Dang man. Almost cried reading this thing. 😭 thank you for the kind words. That means the world to me. Bout to frame this comment on my wall or something. Much love man
@@SeanDarmal Nice that you responded man, I’m serious, best of luck brother!
Thank you for this. I’m keeping this video bookmarked to listen to whenever I start to doubt myself.
Of course. I’m glad it hit home for you. Means a lot that I could help in some way. Best of luck my friend
Brother. I know you're doing just fine. Especially when you showed the short clip of you in the hospital and your were speaking to the other guy. When you did this 🤌.....I said...yep....Dr. Darmal knows exactly what's going on. Keep working hard brother. 🤝🏿
Hahahahaha my brother Joel. My favorite part of making a new video is waiting for your comment. Hahah every time you crack me up. My love brother. Thanks for always having my back
@@SeanDarmal you already know bro. I was excited to get this notification man. Thanks for another classic!!!
You said all the quiet stuff out loud and I needed to hear every word of it! Im a rising second year med student and have no idea how I made it this far and how I can remember any of this in time for my board exams next year.
Isaiah thanks for telling me man. That means a lot. yeah that material just slips out your brain so easily. i hate it. i believe in you man. go kill it out there. keep me updated fam
4:40 - the most relatable thing ever as an r1 😂 things get better
Even after 6 months, there are days where I'm like "when are they going to ask me to hand my stethoscope in 🫠", but it does get better.
Great video!
Just came across your channel. As a recently retired internist everything you said resonated with me. Just subscribed. I know you have a bright future as an excellent caring doc.
Wow. I’m honored. Thank you so much. This means the world. How is the retired life? Staying busy?
@@SeanDarmal The main thing I noticed was the absence of daily stress. Taught briefly 1st and 2nd year med students physical dx. Unfortunately my wife was dx w stage 4 NSCLC 11/2020. She is now in hospice at home. Not the retirement we planned. Enjoy life as you go. Don’t depend on delayed gratification. Be well.
DURING MY SUB-I I WAS SWEATING NONSTOP. Cant wait for my first months coming up as an intern hahah
Hey man, I just really wanted to say I appreciate this video. I’ve been doing orientation for my residency this past week, but my actual first day of seeing patients is Monday. I’m starting on inpatient and I’ve been very anxious and stressed. It’s nice to hear reassurance that it’s okay to feel this way, to hear that others before have felt the same and have gotten through this, and that we’ll get this as well.
Thanks a bunch!
Bro Bro... the feeling...I can't even describe it but thanks for sharing it with me. I should have came in at 4 am but I didn't. My first week on IM attending said to me, "Why do you make rounds so painful. Why do you come in last minute". My heart just sank.I wish I came in last minute. I came in two hours before everyone. heheh. The entire month was hell. One of the other rounds I almost just told him, may be it's because I don't belong here and just walk off... but I somehow stayed on the struggle train.... and just cried at home. Luckily, I am old enough to know that nothing remains the same.
Hey brother. Exactly what I needed to hear. Here comes July 1st, I’m scared of not knowing enough, but it’s seniors like you who keep people like me going. Have an awesome day brother.
😂😂😂my biggest fear too is that my attendings realising how clueless I am.
You are so relatable, it’s so refreshing. I love this
Fake it til you make it, JESUS, that's so true. Idk how I'm way more comfortable than when I first entered my internship two years ago, it's amazing (a lot of things I'm still clueless at but at least I know I just gotta study the topic and integrate it and make sense of it). I'm not sure the terminology is the same as here in Chile, though. Here, an intern is someone who isn't a Dr yet, but has more responsibilities than a med student. Esentially, an intern is a med student in his 2 last years of medical school. After that, you become a Dr, and then you can go on and get into a specialty, or you can just go and start working as a general practitioner. And as any of those two, you can work as a resident. I'd love to hear how it is there.
Keep 'em coming! Your videos are inspiring me, Dr. Sean. The pandemic made me consider finishing nursing school and not continuing to pursue medicine, but your videos brought back the hype of the aspiring doctor in me. Thank you and more power to you!
Wowww thank you so much. That’s incredible. I had no idea it could have an effect like that. You’re the best. Thanks for watching 🙏🏽
Great advice. Helped me on my first few weeks. I started my own channel to follow your lead
Nice bro. Glad to help in some way. Wish you the best bro. You got a new subscriber
So freaking relatable. Pls keep making honest vids like this. Legend
You got it homie. Thanks for watching
ur vids helping motivate me for this mcat Saturday.. just gotta keep pushing
ayyyyyyeee no way, good luck, get that damn test out of the way and move on. i made a video baggin' on the mcat, check it out. let me know how it goes
@@SeanDarmal came here from that vid haha
I love your realness! This is so good, about to start in less than 2 weeks!
ohhh my gaaawd. thats awesome. thanks so much by the way, i try to keep it real as much as possible.
good luck. fingers crossed. let me know how it goes
@@SeanDarmal will do! Also went to the Islands for school, so can appreciate a lot of what you say in your videos. Keep up the great work! Your voice, your experience and perspective on life is needed here. Much success to you
Don’t worry amigo ! You will be an Intern they don’t expect much :). Your nurses are your friends. Stay safe all ! ER doc here passing by.
Nurses save my life every single day. I would be lost without them. Thank you for stopping by. Means a lot.
Amen. Yesterday I had a busy/crazy critical care ER shift for fathers day and nursing was great. You go this !!!!!!
The video we all need but dont deserve.
hahahahah i am dead. thats super cool of you to say. thank you :) hope this helped.
Thank you for this! Starting EM residency soon and already having anxiety making me want to leave medicine due to worrying about not being able to cut it. Trying to reframe my thoughts so it doesn't seem as daunting.
Wow EM that’s so cool. No I don’t even go there in your head. You made it this far. You made it past step 1… you can definitely do this😂😂. You got used to it, it’s weird. Still hard but you just become used to the hard. I believe in you good luck
This is so incredibly refreshing.
I just wanted to thank you for this video, as a newly grad med student or doctor lol, I always have this sense of dread and doubtfulness when I go in to work but your video put me at ease. It might not seem much to you but this is just what I needed to hear right now, so thank you again!
Hey Seraj. Thank you so much. I had no idea this could help out so much. That means a lot. Thank you for telling me. Good luck my bro
holy sh** this video was fantastic and you know it
thank you so much for this
Of course bro. Thanks so much. PCMR for life my guy
I’m starting my clinical years in 3 months from now, somehow yt recommended me your channel.It’s what I wanted to hear plus Damn I really like your vibes. Can’t wait for more from you!!
Ayyee real recognize real. Glad you checked the video out. Means a lot. I’ll keep going as long as you keep stopping by. Good luck on clinicals. Tough time. But you can do it
@@SeanDarmal much appreciation!
You might not upload a lot, but I enjoy your videos every time! Thanks for keeping it real! Quality > Quantity
Ayyee. Hey I appreciate it. Thank you. I’m getting back into it. I totally agree too, quality first. thanks for checking out the videos whenever i do. I hope they’ve helped in some way
I’m just a graduated premed now with a few months left before my MCAT. Thanks for the words of wisdom! I really like how relatable and assuring your story is 👍🏼
Thank you for speaking the truth and being sincere. I had exactly the same feelings as you my friend! Greetings from Poland
Wowwwwww from Poland!!!! Poland!!??? That’s insane. Much love. Thanks for checking it out. And thank you for the kind words. ❤️
Can’t tell you how helpful this is. I’m an MS2 and I’m already worried about it
ayyyee. i am so happy this helped. OMG good luck on step 1, that test broke me in half. thanks for watching
Damn bro! Your channel is a breath of fresh air. Really appreciate your content brotha, thank you!
Much appreciate my bro. Thanks for saying so. Appreciate you coming back
Currently in my final year of medschool in a foreign country. Struggling to pass the clerkships with grace, so Imposter syndrome has been hitting me hard.
Your message was really enlightening and uplifting. Thank you my brother.
Woww thanks for telling me man. Of course i am happy this hit home. Clerkships sucked too because you have to study non stop on top of working full time. you are not alone. you are capable of amazing things man keep going
This was exactly the pep talk I needed. Love from a med student in Iceland.
woww all the way in Iceland!!>?!?! thats crazy. much love!! right back at you. good luck Kari. rooting for you
That’s just about exactly what I need to hear as I in about 2 years will make that transition from student to doctor. You verbalised my exact fears but gave some solace and some reassurance. Thank you for making this video.
wow much love, thanks for telling me. of course, and thank you for watching the video. im glad this helped. you can do it !!
Thanks for posting this! I start residency in a few days and I needed to hear this!
Wow congrats man. That’s amazing. Of course. Thanks for checking it out. Good luck man
Your video look soooo crisp!!!! What camera/lens /microphone are you using?
hahaha ayyye thanks man. i actually use that cheap old cannon m50. but i think its the lens that makes it look nice. its the sigma 16 mm f1.8
and the microphone is a rode ntg5 i believe
Thank you so much for your gift of honesty.
Wow, needed that. Didn‘t know but perfect timing.. My seniors once told me to make a promise to yourself, dont quit in the first six months. No matter how much you feel like a mistake (imposter syndrome much) - it‘ll get better. So, let‘s hope in a couple months, when im drowning, I‘m going to remember your words 🤞Thank you 😄
Wow that’s a good senior. Congratulations by the way that’s awesome to be starting. It will go by in a flash but also feel like a distant Memory. At the same time.. it’s weird. But absolutely please don’t forget thanks for watching by the way and good luck
This hit home. Can't thank you enough.
Yessss means a lot. Thanks for saying so ❤️
Starting tomorrow. I don’t know the EMR but I have 8 patients an attending and a senior expecting me.
dont worry man. your whole team adjusts their expectations for the first week or two . you should go in today, find the team you will be on, and start adding your patients to your list, read up on them, and prep for presenting your patients tomorrow. if its the same attending on the team, then just keep your history to a 1 liner, and present the updates to the patients care. try it out, i dont think you would regret it .
@@SeanDarmal I wasn’t able to go the day before since I just moved into a new place and was still busy with online onboarding. But The first day was actually very chill. I got a great senior and the attending was nice too. They know it’s a new EMR for all Of us
LOL “You being there is extra work for people.”
hahahah forreall though
I am trying to be like you, doc :) When I start residency iA, I'll go back to this video.
Aye Bryan. I wish you the best of luck bro. Be even better than me. I believe in you g
Glad I came across this video. I think I'm exhibiting the same feelings you described you felt with this sense of dread as July 1st approaches. I hope things come to be where I want them in six months as well. Thank you bro, this is something I needed to hear too.
ayyyeee wow man. congratulations, i hope you kill it. thanks for letting me know. means a lot. let me know how things go bro
I am a second year resident and I still feel this way
Will this feeling ever go away!? 😂😂
Just discovered your channel and subbed! I'm about to be a first year radiology student (crazy excited and nervous) and I find your videos inspiring even though I am not a doctor. Keep it up.
Ayyee thank you so much, thats awesome, i'm really happy for you. I hope everything goes well. thanks for checking out my videos anyway. im sure a lot of it can still apply to your side too. thanks for watching
Just thank you sean this just made me feel better
Reema!! Thanks for coming back. Of course. Tryna keep it as real as possible
Wow! I NEEDED to hear this
I swear this what I felt yesterday first day of R1 in Internal Medicine
Omg !! I needed to watch this so much !!!!!! Thank you 🙏🏻
Starting in July . I loved this. Segway what camera do you use to film ? It’s so crisp
Ayyeee congratulations. That’s so cool. What specialty?
Oh the camera is a super cheap cannon m50. But I think it’s the lens that makes it look nice. Sigma 16mm. Such a good lens
This was so real.
I hope it helped in some way
I was just scrolling through UA-cam and found this video of yours. Everything you've said is so relatable, and I felt exactly the same way as I graduated and was finally a Doctor, working at emergencies and everything. But what I loved the most was the paiting behind you. It feels SO good to find people in medicine that are somehow just normal and like the same stuff that we do. And I would like to know: do this paiting (of Sasuke and Itachi) has some special meaning for you?
Omg. Yes it does. It’s a memento for me. My brother passed away a few years ago. But it still seems recent at times. Either way. The head flick he did to sasuke, and suddenly he understood everything itachi did was for his little brother. It reminded me of my brother, that he loved us/me more than anything, no matter how hard life got.
Something like that
Thanks for asking. Much love
I'm not pursuing anything medicine related but this was a very encouraging video nonetheless. Thank you for serving in the way that you do. Hope you're getting enough rest.
Dang Jay I appreciate you watching. That’s cool That it still helped. Means a lot man.
Badly needed to hear that
Stay strong my friend
This guy's a legend
Respect. Haha thank you
Loved your video!
Thanks for coming back. Much love.
Incoming 4th year. Thank you for this.
absolutely, congratulations!! good luck with applications and everything.. so stressful
Thank you. This really helps. :)
Also I couldnt help but notice Itaachi and sasuke, T~T and ofc inosuke ^^
Hahahah yeah it’s my favorite possession. Holds a lot of value to me. Thanks for noticing :))
Yo bro you made me laugh I had to subscribe lmao but I’m currently going into my senior year of undergrad. I’m taking the MCAT in September. I don’t want to waste time getting med school. Should I wait or just get in SGU?
hey man. I dont know, i would think by now sgu is requiring an MCAT.. or is it still not required these days? how old are you btw?
Loved this video! Subbed :)
I'd find it really helpful to know your thoughts on how to figure out choosing residency when one feels like they could do more than one? Thanks!
Though I am only a 2nd year med student. I find myself questioning this all the time. I think the most important thing you could do is to shadow different types of doctors and ask them this question. What residency/specialties are you considering?
@@JasonKrastein hey Jason! So I'm currently working as a medical intern(MBBS-Y6) at my university's hospital, and seem to be fine with every one of them except General surgery and OBGYN haha.
Since year 3 I recognised I wanted to pursue an integration of cosmetology and psychiatry. That opens- dermatology, plastics and psychiatry(secondary).
On one hand, my passion for cosmetology and mental health related to it has made me put it in my prime area of interests, yet lately it makes me feel like I could better contribute to the society if I choose a more "medical" branch.
Sadly my psyche seems to be succumbing to how derm is viewed by most of my peers and consultants(smirks when they see a derm aspirant).
I've talked to some residents in derm at my uni and everyone said they chose it for the money, and working hours. No kidding, 2 out of the 4 female residents expressed they wanted to pursue other fields but were "nudged" towards derm by their families.
I know its a personal experience and I recognise there are many passionate dermatologists out there, but sadly I am yet to meet one irl, and I work in a top university in my country.
A professor of pediatrics asked me to not waste my potential on "creams and lasers" and use it in "real" medicine. And it went right through my heart hahah :')
lol sorry for the rant.
@@thebipedCentaur I think people definitely look down on term bc of their lifestyle. But there is so much you can do with Derm and combing psych. Especially if you go to an academic center, you can be at the forefront of research. One thing I would consider is going into oncology focus of derm. You will be making a big difference in patients lives. Have you ever considered oncology ?
Nah don’t trip on what people think. Don’t let others deter you from What you’re passionate about. You’re gonna have to be the one for the next 30+ years. Just because they smirk just means they don’t value it as much as you do.
I love your videos man!
I love you man! Thanks for checking them out. I appreciate your support
Good luck.
Thank you so much:)
Great video
its hard to mess up when you have a senior and attending looking over your shoulder, you all will do fine/great lol
Most definitely
Thank you I needed this today. Starting next week ♥️
Ayee thanks for watching. Thats so cool. I hope everything goes well. it will be tough, ups and downs, but you get a little better every single day
Hope you’re doing better man…Love your vidoes!
ayye thank you so much. everything is much better these days. Thanks for checking out the vid . much love
I laughed a lot watching this. Thank you!
You’re awesome. I love your honesty because I’m starting orientation next week and feel like I forgot everything 😅. Also, where did you get that itachi poster 😁. Thanks
Hey thank you so much I appreciate that. Good luck. It’s super nerve-racking but everyone else is feeling the same exact way. Dude isn’t it sick. This was a custom painting made by @onlymy2cents. Check him out he’s dope
@@SeanDarmal thank you so much!
Perfect
Thank you, and thanks for watching
Brother can you please make a video about what to do after graduating from medical school because honestly I have no idea.
Hey, DMS here. I was wondering if there's any chance you ll visit Australia. Thanks
You’re all the way in Australia!! You’re seeing this in Australia!? That’s crazy. Maybe one day. But no plans anytime soon
Thanks for this video. I think med students need to work at the bedside as a nurse
I guarantee healthcare would change for the better
What an interesting point. I think that’s a great idea actually. Like a small rotation. Really would give great perspective actually
thnk u bro this was really inspirational
of course g. i hope this helped man. thanks for walking
Thank you for sharing this! I’m an incoming PGY-1 and I am so nervous. Trying to review or something in these last couple of weeks 😩
Ohh woww congrats!!!! I know what you mean. Things will be rough in the beginning. For all of us, but you’ll be good in a flash. A very long blurry flash. I an in the middle of making another video about this but if I could go back in time a year. I would force myself to read and skim first aid, rewatch sketchy pharm, and just know how to give a nice presentation
Your honesty is refreshing. You present a much more grounded picture of Medicine compared to the "influencers" who try to glamorise their medical school journey.
"Going from a useless medical student to a doctor" hits way too hard 😅
Hahahaha Ayye thanks so much. Yeah I try to keep it real. Much appreciated.
Dude it’s facts. Hahaha we are useless
Thanks for sharing your story
Much love. Thanks for taking the time to listen in the first place :)