2 Years on Testosterone! FTX Transition Q&A! [CC] | ChandlerNWilson

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  • Опубліковано 30 тра 2024
  • This is a transition video reflecting on my experiences over the past two years taking testosterone as a nonbinary person!
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  • @ChandlerNWilson
    @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +61

    Didn't get an answer to your burning question? Make sure to join me over on YouNow THIS Wednesday, the 27th, at 5pm Eastern Time where I'll be hanging out and chatting with folks and answering questions!! 💗💗💗
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  • @casserole1877
    @casserole1877 5 років тому +150

    Fetus Chandler in the thumbnail had me shook

  • @fantasygamer1769
    @fantasygamer1769 5 років тому +178

    "It's weird being straight...*awkward* bu dum tss" -Chandler 2019

  • @transmissionqueer6910
    @transmissionqueer6910 5 років тому +100

    This is such an important video to me. I'm non-binary and my transition is so uncertain for me, so seeing a video about a non-binary person taking hormones and discussing the changes is so so important for me. You're a massive inspiration for me and this just gives me a lot of hope.
    Also, congratulations on going back to college and good luck!! 💙💙

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +12

      I'm so happy to hear that my video had a positive impact on you!! Sending lots of love your way, friend 💗 And thank you for the good luck wishes! It seems to be going well so far haha!

    • @transmissionqueer6910
      @transmissionqueer6910 5 років тому +1

      Thank you so much!! I'm glad it's going well so far and I can only hope it gets even better!! I can't wait for more content 💖

    • @Dexter-nr5hb
      @Dexter-nr5hb 5 років тому

      The changes are the same as a binary person I don’t get it. Don’t forget your anatomy.

    • @behindzerosp
      @behindzerosp 4 роки тому

      @@Dexter-nr5hb Yes but what you want to change and the speed of the change is mostly nb people problem . Binary trans person as they said will be ok if all 5 years on t just apear now also there is the whole topic of all ops that can be done

  • @DumandsONE
    @DumandsONE 5 років тому +61

    That shirt is giving me those Rocko's modern life vibes.

  • @jamiehawkins3387
    @jamiehawkins3387 5 років тому +45

    It's been about a year since I've watched you.. Lemme tell you, you're looking great 💗

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +3

      You are so sweet, thank you! Happy that you're back!! 💗

    • @jamiehawkins3387
      @jamiehawkins3387 5 років тому +1

      Im back and here to stay.💗 looking forward to all the videos to come.😁

  • @aesaphyr
    @aesaphyr 4 роки тому +6

    I want to say thank you to you for this video. I am in the UK, I am afab and trans but hesitate on giving myself more of a label for many of the reasons you've described in your videos... I know deep down I want a more masculine appearance but I have been terrified of "what if it's the wrong thing for me" about testosterone because of how other people would feel about me changing so much... and also I didn't want to change too much. I don't want to be super buff and hairy and manly. I just want to be me and I know the real me is a softer version of masculinity than that. Before seeing you talk about how non-binary people sometimes take lower doses of testosterone than trans men, I didn't even think this was an option. You've given me a hope I hadn't known I needed.

    • @neondaixus3456
      @neondaixus3456 11 місяців тому +1

      Hey, I know this comment is 3 years old, but I just wanted to say I feel very similar to this. I'm also trans and see myself as non-binary, yet I've been very hesitant with testosterone because I never wanted to be super masculine and was afraid that would happen once I took T. Now through a lot of self reflection and seeing all kinds of different people both online and in person I am confident in wanting to go on T after all. I've realized that a lot of how you are perceived comes down to things like how you dress and present. This means to a degree that without T I would never "pass" as a guy (I'm afab) but it also means just because I go on T I doesn't mean I'll be masculine or look super masculine in style. Basically you can change how you are perceived a lot but some things that would change on T I will never be able to change on my own without hormones.
      TL;DR I'm transmasculine non-binary (afab) and willl be going on testosterone soon because I am very dysphoric about being perceived as a woman and have realized that going on T will not make me some super buff hairy manly guy and it will not change who I am as a person :D

  • @dammitoliver6282
    @dammitoliver6282 5 років тому +6

    wow when i started questioning my gender i spent a loooot of time watching your videos, they made me feel a lot of hope and comfort. this was about 3 years ago, it was a very hard and dark period for me, and now i am starting testosterone next month and am in such a happy moment in life, i wish my past self could know that is gonna be okay

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +3

      I'm so so happy for you and your growth!!! You're never alone!!

  • @genusobscura9553
    @genusobscura9553 5 років тому +18

    Please please please could yoi talk more about the way your body dysphoria was amplified by the way people perceived you? I'm debating whether to start T and this is something that I've been thinking about a lot

  • @pashley2135
    @pashley2135 5 років тому +12

    Omg...I stopped watching you like when you started T and I ran across you again and I'm like..WOAH

  • @Metrok9detroit
    @Metrok9detroit 4 роки тому +4

    Hey Chandler my name is Dustin I’m 18 and I’ve been subscribed to your channel since you came out with your coming out video of identifying as Agender. I have watched your journey and you have grown so much and I have been growing with you! Just today I got my first Testosterone shot and you were one of the people that really helped me discover who I am today. You answered a lot of my questions and helped me through a lot of hard times by sharing your story so I just wanted to say thank you. I might even start a channel of my own to vlog my journey! I know I’m late but congratulations on your 2 years of T ❤️

  • @__elly__
    @__elly__ 5 років тому +19

    Looking good! I’m digging the lime green background!!

  • @ashfox3552
    @ashfox3552 5 років тому +5

    I’m sorry but you’re one of the most gorgeous beautiful, genuine humans ever 😊 I’m so proud of you and I wish I had the courage to come out too.

  • @abisr2761
    @abisr2761 4 роки тому +14

    Is anyone noticing how he looks a lot like shaggy from the scooby doo films

  • @hads5279
    @hads5279 5 років тому +4

    You/your instagram and UA-cam channel helped me realise that I’m agender in March 2018 (I was almost 28 years old). And you/your instagram and UA-cam channel has also been helping me realise that I want to start a low dose of T. I had decided a few months ago that I want to be on T, then I got really scared of the unknown (things like, “what if I look comical because I’ll look like a 5 foot tall dude?” “What if I start to think I’m really ugly?” “What if I can’t sing well anymore?”) and i decided against it. But I’m back to wanting to start a low dose. One of my close friends is intersex/trans man and has been on T for years. He helps me understand any fears that I have of the unknown. And I’m also in therapy.
    The thing is, I really do like things like makeup and nail polish, but I feel like when I experiment with those things I just look like a cis girl and then it’s assumed that I’m hetero (which often attracts gross, bigoted cis het men). So I tend to hide in my oversized hoodies and settle with people just assuming I’m a butch lesbian. But I’m so tired of that. Even then, people still assume I’m a girl. I just turned 29 years old and I’m ready to love my body and who i am!

    • @behindzerosp
      @behindzerosp 4 роки тому

      Omg the singing part is so me. I am not even out but I think about T because I want some of the things but I love to sing and I am affraid that my voice will sound bad If I start T

  • @eduardoubanell
    @eduardoubanell 5 років тому +1

    Welcome back Chandler!! Awesome to see you uploading again ❤️😝

  • @ashlynflourre3275
    @ashlynflourre3275 5 років тому +5

    So glad to see that you are happy with the changes you are making. Love you so much!

  • @remy5228
    @remy5228 5 років тому

    Hey, I’m glad you’re back. Hope life is going well for you ❤️

  • @aaronginsberg1872
    @aaronginsberg1872 5 років тому +2

    Omg I've been waiting for you to be back!!!! 😁

  • @LP-vw7rp
    @LP-vw7rp 5 років тому +1

    Congrats!!!! That's a huge milestone!!

  • @hi-kd8vd
    @hi-kd8vd 5 років тому +2

    I actually love your hair so much

  • @flynn3104
    @flynn3104 5 років тому

    missed you a lot!! One of my best friends is starting this whole process and you've really helped me understand more about what it means to be trans and what its like to go through it so hopefully i can support her in more ways because of you. Thank you

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +1

      That's so lovely!!! I'm so happy to hear that my videos have helped you! We need more lovely allies like you! 💗

  • @georgiegonzales9524
    @georgiegonzales9524 5 років тому +1

    CHANDLER!! the cutest! purest! ever! I missed you! and I’m so happy for you! please make more videos )’: I need your channel!

  • @simplyhappy4858
    @simplyhappy4858 5 років тому +2

    It's so lovely to see you so happy! I've been watching you for about 3 years now and it's so nice to be part of your change! Go Chandler!!😊😀😀

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому

      You are an absolute sweetheart oh my gosh!! Happy to have you here for so long 💗💗💗

  • @noachai
    @noachai 5 років тому +8

    Your voice! So lovely. I'm so proud of you.

  • @widgeniajean7208
    @widgeniajean7208 3 роки тому

    Omgg I started watching you when you first started making videos and a thought came in my head remembering you so I came to check up on you and holy crap you’re so grown now I’m so happy for you

  • @alexdowie7404
    @alexdowie7404 5 років тому

    Yay your back

  • @SuperNerdKid
    @SuperNerdKid 5 років тому +1

    Glad to hear you're doing well. I remember when you started t, I was a long way from being able to start t and I recall crying and just stopping the video because I couldn't see that ever happening for me. But I did start T and was on it for about 6 months (I'm also non-binary). I've noticed that oing to hrt helped me to feel more calm in my presentation, like I don't have to try so hard all the time to be read as male, so I feel more free to express myself (I sometimes call this "gender chill" in my head lol). It helped me feel more in control of my body and life. I don't know what my point is here, but I hope it's helped you similarly. Good luck with school!!

  • @BlaiddGoch
    @BlaiddGoch 5 років тому +8

    Yay Chandler's back :D

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +3

      YOU ARE SO NICE wtf thank you, friend!! It's good to be back :')

    • @BlaiddGoch
      @BlaiddGoch 5 років тому +2

      hope you're feeling better today :D

  • @v4mpir397
    @v4mpir397 3 роки тому

    i used to watch you so long ago and i would always randomly remember you and today i decided to look you up again and i found uuu

  • @carolinewebber6016
    @carolinewebber6016 5 років тому

    Omg I remember watching ur little chapstick challenge video from years ago and you look so different from then!! I’m so proud of you!!

  • @micky2708
    @micky2708 5 років тому +3

    Great video chandler! I totally understand where you are coming from with the low body dysphoria and high social dysphoria. I actually pass mostly (not on T) as unreadable but sometimes I don’t and it’s really hurts even when it’s just a few times so if it continued to happen for me a ton I would definitely feel even more trapped by how others see me and my social dysphoria would be sky high/unmanageable. My body dysphoria is medium to mild and binding covers it for me mostly, however I’ve had really bad days when I can’t get up/don’t move because I get frustrated by my body being the way it is/having a visible chest that doesn’t match my own perception of who I am.
    AGAIN wonderful video Chandler and I can’t wait for your next one 💓💓💓

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +3

      Hang in there, friend! You are absolutely lovely and deserve to feel comfy in the body that you're in -- however that means for you!! I can definitely relate to quite a few things you said!! Sending lots of love your way!! 💗💗💗

    • @micky2708
      @micky2708 5 років тому

      ChandlerNWilson 💓💓 that’s means a lot. It’s hard sometimes for me to feel okay even when my dysphoria is mild to medium, just because idk it’s hard to deal with either way. But, im also happy that my super bad days don’t happen a lot, and I’m the end I know that I have people I can reach out to if I need to and I just take it a day at a time

  • @bobbywall9646
    @bobbywall9646 5 років тому +1

    Im so happy for you ❤

  • @MewWolf5
    @MewWolf5 5 років тому +1

    I love your hair!

  • @amiddend
    @amiddend 5 років тому +12

    So glad you're back. :) Congrats on being 2 yrs on T. Your transition is so inspiring.

  • @curiousnerdkitteh
    @curiousnerdkitteh 4 роки тому +3

    "It's weird being straight.... Ba dum tiss".

  • @makydenparreira5170
    @makydenparreira5170 5 років тому

    This is so cool!💗

  • @lorenzalaris3389
    @lorenzalaris3389 5 років тому

    So proud of you!!! ❤️❤️ I missed you BTW

  • @87654321j
    @87654321j 5 років тому

    Congratulations on going back to college Chandler hope all is going well :-)

  • @shelbydawson9052
    @shelbydawson9052 5 років тому

    Good to have you back in action. Love you, Chandler!!

  • @cutsiebear09
    @cutsiebear09 4 роки тому

    You have such a pretty smile! 😊

  • @sarahthebookdragon5666
    @sarahthebookdragon5666 5 років тому

    Yahhhhhhh your back

  • @keirastorm6563
    @keirastorm6563 5 років тому

    I am so proud of you!

  • @kaedemaciej
    @kaedemaciej 5 років тому

    wow! ive been watching your videos since before you were on T and i remember wishing i was.

  • @hellholevlogs889
    @hellholevlogs889 4 роки тому

    woah i used to watch you when you first started and i remembered you and came back and you're completely different now😂

  • @emilymckenzie9296
    @emilymckenzie9296 5 років тому +1

    Wow i have been watching you for 3 years

  • @jaden.phillips
    @jaden.phillips 5 років тому +4

    CONGRATS Chandler!!!!!!!!!! P.s. You are absolutely awesome! :D

  • @sallymustain6142
    @sallymustain6142 5 років тому

    I'm so happy 😁

  • @maria_blahova
    @maria_blahova 5 років тому +1

    It's already 2 years?? Congrats!

  • @mesuraion7919
    @mesuraion7919 5 років тому

    Can’t believe I started watching 3 years ago. It was nice seeing the transition over the years. Also, thanks for helping me figure out who I am ❤️

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +1

      Thank you for supporting me all this time :')

    • @mesuraion7919
      @mesuraion7919 5 років тому

      ChandlerNWilson any time pal ❤️

  • @deadboy5678
    @deadboy5678 5 років тому +1

    O fren, how i hav missed u so
    ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

  • @brighgeal8117
    @brighgeal8117 5 років тому

    Two years??! It feels like just water day you started!! I’m so proud of you.

  • @shaylamckinney1404
    @shaylamckinney1404 5 років тому +2

    Yay I’m so happy for you!!!!🤗🤗🤗🤗

  • @tristanholderness4223
    @tristanholderness4223 5 років тому +17

    your voice definitely does sound a fair bit lower and more masculine than last time I saw you but, like you say, that could be sickness

  • @xxslasher16xx
    @xxslasher16xx 5 років тому +6

    your hair looks nice!

  • @13gudadod
    @13gudadod 5 років тому

    new here👀i like your aesthetic

  • @Yulacupcake
    @Yulacupcake 5 років тому

    Your adorable and nothing can change my mind :0

  • @alexs2398
    @alexs2398 5 років тому +2

    You look so wonderful! I love you

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +2

      AHHH Thank you so much!! Sending love your way!! 💗💗💗

    • @alexs2398
      @alexs2398 5 років тому +1

      ChandlerNWilson you inspire me so much and seeing you reply to me means so much. You are an amazing person Chandler and I’m happy that you are doing well 💗

    • @caitlinhart304
      @caitlinhart304 5 років тому

      Hey I am Alex’s boyfriend and talks about how u inspire him all the time and u should have seen his reaction when he saw u had responded to his comment.people like Alex find enjoyment from what may seem small thing. Alex is the best boyfriend. Love u Alex. Xxxx

  • @Junebuggg
    @Junebuggg 5 років тому +1

    A legend! So glad we get to be a part of your journey💛

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +1

      You are too kind :') happy to have you by my side! 💗

  • @shaylamckinney1404
    @shaylamckinney1404 5 років тому +4

    I’ve been watching you since the wound you rather... which was like 5 years ago

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +2

      Thank you for sticking around for so long!!! I'm glad you're here!! 💗

  • @holdthatghost5642
    @holdthatghost5642 5 років тому

    You probably, like me, have a coarse hair texture. I have curly and wavy hair when it's long, but straight when it's short. The weight when it's long helps allow it to curl, but the coarseness keeps it straight when short.

  • @littlesailor1533
    @littlesailor1533 5 років тому +1

    FACIAL HAIR! :D it looks so good

  • @CadenLethgo
    @CadenLethgo 5 років тому +1

    Nice shirt!

  • @peachesandcream6665
    @peachesandcream6665 5 років тому +1

    I forgot your voice changed again; been awhile since you made a video.

  • @eileenwise5877
    @eileenwise5877 5 років тому +23

    What’s your major? You look so much more at peace

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +25

      I'm officially majoring in Spanish, but I'm also considering adding studies in Anthropology and LGBTQ Studies!

  • @Hunter2588
    @Hunter2588 5 років тому

    Hi there just subbed to you nice video!! New here :)

  • @shimmerwolfarts
    @shimmerwolfarts 5 років тому +1

    That's my biggest concern with T is all the physical changes i WOULDN'T want... my biggest cause for dysphoria that T would change is my voice and my very feminine/baby face. I wouldn't want a beard, i definitely wouldn't want my downstairs to start changing/getting amped up (mainly because of my sex repulsion)... so I'm pretty much calling it that i wouldn't want to go on T just bc of all the unwanted changes that come with it

    • @alex6027
      @alex6027 4 роки тому

      I can completely understand that. The thing putting me off possibly getting E in the future is fat redistribution and breasts. I feel that would make me more dysphoric. Everything other thing that happens on E, I'm either fine or would really prefer, but it's definetly not worth it due to the creation of more dysphoria

  • @user-vf7dd7ln9g
    @user-vf7dd7ln9g 5 років тому

    Upload more please

  • @aster3110
    @aster3110 5 років тому

    Random thing, do you know about ace rings? I’m considering getting one myself.

  • @koutashinji
    @koutashinji 5 років тому +2

    we stan a greasy boy 😂

  • @BodeRiis
    @BodeRiis 5 років тому

    I love your shirt! Where did you get it?

  • @annie5171
    @annie5171 5 років тому

    wowza.. 😍

  • @betsydewey357
    @betsydewey357 5 років тому

    you are so amazing

  • @carmellacastaldi6880
    @carmellacastaldi6880 4 роки тому

    Fetus Chandler in the thumbnail😭

  • @krudesh9337
    @krudesh9337 3 роки тому

    Hey man what are the tablets use got?

  • @perseasassimak6314
    @perseasassimak6314 3 роки тому

    May i ask you take the dose of testosterone that trans men take in order to have the levels of a cis man or as a non binary you chose a less dose ?

  • @Soaringkiwi1
    @Soaringkiwi1 5 років тому +3

    You sound like Linus tech tips 😩

  • @whatlol7013
    @whatlol7013 5 років тому +1

    You look so different it's is like from a 12 yearold to a 18 yearold , you don't look like the same person anymore

    • @ChandlerNWilson
      @ChandlerNWilson  5 років тому +1

      Hahaha thank you!! I know I looked very young ahaha

    • @whatlol7013
      @whatlol7013 5 років тому +1

      @@ChandlerNWilson oh np and thank you so much for replying to me 💕💕

  • @ClownGathering
    @ClownGathering 5 років тому

    h o n e s t l y ur so attractive I'm quaking

  • @whatlol7013
    @whatlol7013 5 років тому +1

    Oml your so attractive lol

  • @willsgaming1481
    @willsgaming1481 2 роки тому

    how much taller did you get on testosterone?

  • @sydneestoll1443
    @sydneestoll1443 5 років тому

    Are you and the girl in your chapstick challenge video still dating? Sorry I don’t know her name

  • @lisalegrand2186
    @lisalegrand2186 5 років тому +3

    Wait, if you're genderless, why would you take testasterone?

    • @danielsniderman2090
      @danielsniderman2090 5 років тому

      They have body dysphoria

    • @danielsniderman2090
      @danielsniderman2090 5 років тому

      Bonidee Lee not you again

    • @Sav22
      @Sav22 5 років тому

      Daniel Sniderman it's called body dysmphoria not dysphoria.

    • @Frog-tl6xn
      @Frog-tl6xn 3 роки тому +1

      @@Sav22 dysmorphia is a body image thing while dysphoria is what trans ppl experience

  • @shawnapowers4937
    @shawnapowers4937 5 років тому

    You still engaged?

  • @littlesailor1533
    @littlesailor1533 5 років тому +1

    500 USD/month that is a rip off!

  • @claudiadavies8786
    @claudiadavies8786 5 років тому

    You are you that😌 it

  • @JackieDaytonaBar
    @JackieDaytonaBar Рік тому

    amazing how female this person looks. You sure she isnt just a woman?

  • @sarahbourland1152
    @sarahbourland1152 4 роки тому

    Is that an interactive introverts hat or am I just phan trash?

  • @POWER._
    @POWER._ 5 років тому

    What the hell is testosterone

  • @danielsniderman2090
    @danielsniderman2090 5 років тому +1

    Please block Bonidee Lee she posted transphobic things on this video I have seen her on other trans videos and she is just awful.