All the signs were there with me as a toddler. I was acting out sexually, I was violent, I abused animals. I was groomed, abused, and neglected. I was tortured, and I sustained head trauma. My mother kept abandoning me, and emotionally abusing me. She'd abuse me mentally until I stood up to her, and she'd kick me out on the streets like garbage. The police and courts were weaponized against me. My brother sexually and physically abused me. My father abused, starved, neglected, and abandoned me. People in authoritive positions took advantage of me. I was manipulated, abused, and preyed on by grown men. In my adulthood, I always chose toxic and abusive relationships. I was abusive in one relationship, but quickly knew it was wrong. I was headed toward prison, because I was so angry and violent. Glad I saw past it all early on. I was self harming, suicidal, and was mentally unstable. My mother's side were racist, and never accepted me. Both my parents failed me. It's been a huge healing process, and for some reason today I've come to terms with my past. I've never looked into this sort of thing. Always been looking up my mother being a covert narcissist. I've been trying to get therapy/counciling for years and years. The mental health system is broken, and taking daily medication has never erased my pain or thoughts. It will continue to be torment and a spiritual battle until the day I die. God bless any poor or lost soul endearing this pain. It's like a nightmare you can't wake up from. God bless and take care.
I've never been abused nor abused anyone but my mother was abused by her mother. she told me she would beat her when she was little. If you obey the new testament and learn from the old testament through faith in jesus, please pray for her! She's going through a lot of witchcraft and people trying to murder her! Pray for her protection and life! I love you and God loves you!!!
"well done my 16 year old self for surviving. I am so proud of you". That hit me hard. Thank you for telling these people's stories and letting others know that they are not alone.
This video made me cry. I am 39 years old and have just finished a year of therapy due to Child abuse. It is the most horrific thing a person/child has to go through. My father abused me since the age of one years until i was physically bigger at 16 years old. I used to take a kitchen knife to bed with me when i was only 5 years because i was frightened of what was going to happen to me. It still scares me now and the damage is so serve its virtually kills you from the inside. I wish i had the support years ago when i was a child but i am glad Ive finally managed to open on my childhood now. If anybody has gone through the hell of child abuse, please don't ignore it or ever blame yourself in anyway form. Please seek help and talk to somebody because it won't go away. Much love x
Stewart, I am so proud of you! Thank You for your voice. I know it was hard. But you did it and now you are a WARRIOR and you are the voice that some can't find! 💚
I used to think that the memories of my father's cruelty and abuse were the worst things - until it went public on UA-cam. That's more hurtful than I could've ever imagined.
Doing this has been very important to me showing that you are not alone where ever you are through out the world, there will be someone knowing how you feel. Stronger together Stewart
It feels so out of reach for me to even understand how can these people be so open about what happened to them. As soon as first dude from Canada told about phone book I knew it immediately what was it for. I was in world of pain as I describe it now for quite some time (6yr-15yr) and it shaped me to man I am today. I still can't speak about it and only my closet friends and my wife knows about these things. Violence is a tricky thing and it instantly change you. Violence might become part of you and it could lash out on innocent people. I regret that I've lashed out many times and I understand where it all comes from. Stay strong brothers and sisters!
In my opinion, you have to be open about it. Especially if it fits in a situation where you have to speak about it. It makes you be more honest to yourself and given memories. The best thing is to come true to yourself. We all have to move on with our issues. To be honest, is the best way trough. One day it's just memories we look past. After we grown stronger passing on with our lives. Knowing why it is wrong, and to be definitive in our justice to ourselves.
Im glad some are given support, those who were not abuse count yourselves very lucky. The cycle of abuse must end with our generation. I was drowned by my father multiple times as a child and beaten for even the most trivial and petty things over the years, just to have an excuse to cause physical harm. He is a sadist, narcissist and has undiagnosed anti social personality disorder
I've never been abused but my mother was by her mother. she told me she would beat her when she was little. If you obey the new testament and learn from the old testament through faith in jesus, please pray for her! She's going through a lot of witchcraft and people trying to murder her! Pray for her protection and life! I love you and God loves you!!!
Hearing all the confessions made me think wow they had it still easy. I had monsters in the name of parents. I used to get beaten almost everyday, starved. Beaten by belt, steel, and other various items all over my body. They used to beat me so much till I pass out in pain and crying. Burned me ,threw hot water on me, still made me do all the housework. My brother was like king to them , even he do everything bad they still love him and made me do all his works too. Many times I had broken skull, they wouldn't let me play with others .Any kind of contact with girls has strictly prohibited even normal talking. If they even catch me talking with a normal girl ,they would have unlished hell on me that night.
@@saffiyahissoapy You don't have to be sorry, there was way more abuse I faced outside from other people, and friends, and even got molested by gay guys. Still alive, let's see how long can I keep it.
Yeah, im just scrolling through stories watching vids, trying to find ones that re close to my situation. I was thinking about taking into care by the youth welfare office and to file a report. But it's hard i feel like being sexually abused since the childhood till age of 14 wasnt that bad compared to other stories. And tried r@pe. And the alcoholism of my mom cant be compared to other ones. Sure she tried to kill herself, didnt come back for over 24h, came drunk from work.. but now she only drinks at night and the memories re a bad ghosts following me.. And what if it gets worse what if my anxiety wont let me Im 15 rn and have no clue what tf do
Thank you for sharing this question. For many survivors, the immediate family or those close to the family are the offenders. It is a devastating reality. Healing is possible. The Gatehouse helps survivors of childhood sexual abuse trauma in Canada. There are agencies across the globe that provide various support services for survivors.
I am a victim of child abuse, no not by my father, who is innocent and should be the one caring for me rn, but by my own mother, who has spread lies and manipulation
I love you and I want to be your friend and I think your special to all child violence and see abuse victims, also no matter how much time passes it affects your life everyday. But WHO gives me hope, this video gives me hope. I just wanted to honestly write this n how I feel.
As a man we will not receive any sort of sympathy and contempt form society and tell us to get on and deal with it ourselves. So most of us just can’t be open about it or we will be shamed
I was given the same thing, punched with object on my back. I have a lot of injuries on my spine and took years to heal. These were all done by my own family.
Ugh! Men! WTF! Men are supposed to be protectors. They are supposed to watch your back. They are not supposed to assault you and abuse you. Men what is wrong with your hearts? Why are you so wicked? Why have you made your organs a weapon?
I love you and God loves you! Believe in Jesus and be saved! I'm one of the good servants of god since childhood even till now! I've never been abused or abused someone thank God! I want others to make it to paradise please don't go to gehenna it's scary. Obey the new testament and learn from the old testament! God is love!!!
All the signs were there with me as a toddler. I was acting out sexually, I was violent, I abused animals. I was groomed, abused, and neglected. I was tortured, and I sustained head trauma. My mother kept abandoning me, and emotionally abusing me. She'd abuse me mentally until I stood up to her, and she'd kick me out on the streets like garbage. The police and courts were weaponized against me. My brother sexually and physically abused me. My father abused, starved, neglected, and abandoned me. People in authoritive positions took advantage of me. I was manipulated, abused, and preyed on by grown men. In my adulthood, I always chose toxic and abusive relationships. I was abusive in one relationship, but quickly knew it was wrong. I was headed toward prison, because I was so angry and violent. Glad I saw past it all early on. I was self harming, suicidal, and was mentally unstable. My mother's side were racist, and never accepted me. Both my parents failed me. It's been a huge healing process, and for some reason today I've come to terms with my past. I've never looked into this sort of thing. Always been looking up my mother being a covert narcissist. I've been trying to get therapy/counciling for years and years. The mental health system is broken, and taking daily medication has never erased my pain or thoughts. It will continue to be torment and a spiritual battle until the day I die. God bless any poor or lost soul endearing this pain. It's like a nightmare you can't wake up from. God bless and take care.
Thank you for sharing. You are not alone.
I've never been abused nor abused anyone but my mother was abused by her mother. she told me she would beat her when she was little. If you obey the new testament and learn from the old testament through faith in jesus, please pray for her! She's going through a lot of witchcraft and people trying to murder her! Pray for her protection and life!
I love you and God loves you!!!
Omg. We've lived the same life. You're my sister
"well done my 16 year old self for surviving. I am so proud of you". That hit me hard. Thank you for telling these people's stories and letting others know that they are not alone.
This video made me cry.
I am 39 years old and have just finished a year of therapy due to Child abuse. It is the most horrific thing a person/child has to go through. My father abused me since the age of one years until i was physically bigger at 16 years old. I used to take a kitchen knife to bed with me when i was only 5 years because i was frightened of what was going to happen to me. It still scares me now and the damage is so serve its virtually kills you from the inside.
I wish i had the support years ago when i was a child but i am glad Ive finally managed to open on my childhood now.
If anybody has gone through the hell of child abuse, please don't ignore it or ever blame yourself in anyway form. Please seek help and talk to somebody because it won't go away. Much love x
Does marriage help in the healing process? Asking this as a CSA victim.
Stewart, I am so proud of you! Thank You for your voice. I know it was hard. But you did it and now you are a WARRIOR and you are the voice that some can't find! 💚
I loved the honesty of these lovely people.
Some people don’t deserve to be parents.
It's so important that we start exposing this issue, thank you.
I used to think that the memories of my father's cruelty and abuse were the worst things - until it went public on UA-cam. That's more hurtful than I could've ever imagined.
Doing this has been very important to me showing that you are not alone where ever you are through out the world, there will be someone knowing how you feel.
Stronger together
Stewart
It feels so out of reach for me to even understand how can these people be so open about what happened to them. As soon as first dude from Canada told about phone book I knew it immediately what was it for. I was in world of pain as I describe it now for quite some time (6yr-15yr) and it shaped me to man I am today. I still can't speak about it and only my closet friends and my wife knows about these things. Violence is a tricky thing and it instantly change you. Violence might become part of you and it could lash out on innocent people. I regret that I've lashed out many times and I understand where it all comes from. Stay strong brothers and sisters!
In my opinion, you have to be open about it. Especially if it fits in a situation where you have to speak about it. It makes you be more honest to yourself and given memories. The best thing is to come true to yourself. We all have to move on with our issues. To be honest, is the best way trough. One day it's just memories we look past. After we grown stronger passing on with our lives. Knowing why it is wrong, and to be definitive in our justice to ourselves.
Thank you for sharing your stories ❤
Well done for making this video.
Im glad some are given support, those who were not abuse count yourselves very lucky. The cycle of abuse must end with our generation. I was drowned by my father multiple times as a child and beaten for even the most trivial and petty things over the years, just to have an excuse to cause physical harm. He is a sadist, narcissist and has undiagnosed anti social personality disorder
We have similar stories. Feel free to connect if you want to talk.
I hope for healing and relief for your pain. May we be sble to break the cycle ❤
I've never been abused but my mother was by her mother. she told me she would beat her when she was little. If you obey the new testament and learn from the old testament through faith in jesus, please pray for her! She's going through a lot of witchcraft and people trying to murder her! Pray for her protection and life!
I love you and God loves you!!!
I hate child abusers
Hearing all the confessions made me think wow they had it still easy. I had monsters in the name of parents. I used to get beaten almost everyday, starved. Beaten by belt, steel, and other various items all over my body. They used to beat me so much till I pass out in pain and crying. Burned me ,threw hot water on me, still made me do all the housework. My brother was like king to them , even he do everything bad they still love him and made me do all his works too. Many times I had broken skull, they wouldn't let me play with others .Any kind of contact with girls has strictly prohibited even normal talking. If they even catch me talking with a normal girl ,they would have unlished hell on me that night.
Im so sorry this happened to you 😢
@@saffiyahissoapy You don't have to be sorry, there was way more abuse I faced outside from other people, and friends, and even got molested by gay guys. Still alive, let's see how long can I keep it.
it's not a competition you know. any type of abuse is valid. i'm sorry that you had to go through this.
Yeah, im just scrolling through stories watching vids, trying to find ones that re close to my situation. I was thinking about taking into care by the youth welfare office and to file a report. But it's hard i feel like being sexually abused since the childhood till age of 14 wasnt that bad compared to other stories. And tried r@pe. And the alcoholism of my mom cant be compared to other ones. Sure she tried to kill herself, didnt come back for over 24h, came drunk from work.. but now she only drinks at night and the memories re a bad ghosts following me..
And what if it gets worse what if my anxiety wont let me
Im 15 rn and have no clue what tf do
What if your own parents are the perpetrators
Thank you for sharing this question. For many survivors, the immediate family or those close to the family are the offenders. It is a devastating reality. Healing is possible. The Gatehouse helps survivors of childhood sexual abuse trauma in Canada. There are agencies across the globe that provide various support services for survivors.
I am a victim of child abuse, no not by my father, who is innocent and should be the one caring for me rn, but by my own mother, who has spread lies and manipulation
So sad 😿
I love you and I want to be your friend and I think your special to all child violence and see abuse victims, also no matter how much time passes it affects your life everyday. But WHO gives me hope, this video gives me hope. I just wanted to honestly write this n how I feel.
As a man we will not receive any sort of sympathy and contempt form society and tell us to get on and deal with it ourselves. So most of us just can’t be open about it or we will be shamed
Men you have a voice...Blessings in healing...I see you....you matter...Dr. Kelli Palfy Author of: Men Too: Unspoken Truths About Male Sexual Abuse
I was given the same thing, punched with object on my back. I have a lot of injuries on my spine and took years to heal. These were all done by my own family.
Where can I share my story to get it off of my chest I've buried all my life
Ugh! Men! WTF! Men are supposed to be protectors. They are supposed to watch your back. They are not supposed to assault you and abuse you.
Men what is wrong with your hearts? Why are you so wicked? Why have you made your organs a weapon?
Women absue toooo
I feel so bad for him
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Would this be the violence perpetrated by the blue hats???
WHO credibility has been tainted in the world.
And don't forget when the WHO needlessly closed down the entire world all these type kids had no one to help and nowhere to go
I love you and God loves you! Believe in Jesus and be saved! I'm one of the good servants of god since childhood even till now! I've never been abused or abused someone thank God!
I want others to make it to paradise please don't go to gehenna it's scary. Obey the new testament and learn from the old testament!
God is love!!!
First guy looks a bit like brad pitt
Wuhan help organisation ....
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