@@HirosiYamazoe What if all these souls, known as hikikomori (around the world) are the souls, whom GOD have chosen to be set apart from this dark world, and to do the WILL OF GOD on earth: - KEEP -PREACH - WATCH - EXPOSE John 15:19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. Luke 6:22 Blessed are ye, when men shall hate you, and when they shall separate you from their company, and shall reproach you, and cast out your name as evil, for the Son of man's sake. Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; Sadly, few souls around the world reads and studies the bible, therefore the real reasons for events and ways to be are all unknown. Or is being hikikomori just a soul in depression - as the whole world sees it.?
The most infuriating part of this story is the complete lack of insight and inaction from parents and teachers. I refuse to believe nobody saw what those kids were doing. Dealing with bullying is a community effort and for sure society failed you when you were a kid. It's amazing that you recovered and became a very decent adult, I know a lot of people who suffer violence when they're kids become violent adults and the cycle continues, so it's hard to break from that.
Hello nefi, thanks for the comment! Yes, unfortunately, this is happening all over Japan. It is not uncommon in Japan for teachers and adults to neglect the bullying of children. In Japan, cases of suicides due to bullying are frequently reported in the news. In Japan, 300-400 people of high school age and younger commit suicide every year. And if I read the comments from people around the world who message me, it seems that this is happening not only in Japan but all over the world. If the community shares the common belief that people can help and support each other, I believe that such problems can be overcome. However, in the world today, it seems that the power of community has been lost in many places unfortunately. People are thinking only of their own interests in a competitive and capitalistic society.
@@HirosiYamazoe You have reached the core of our worldwide problem: extreme competition. Some empathy and co-operation would balance things out, but in a brutal society, kindness is seen as weakness. Sad. Hiroshi, you have made good use of your solitude to sort this out and that is to your credit. May you live long and flourish.
This world is insufferably cruel, but I'm so glad that you're still hopeful and progressing in life. Wishing you happiness, strength and love for the future.
Thank you for sharing. One thing in common with most murderers is small animal abuse, the rabbit story was so scary. I'm sad you had to face such evil, but I look forward to your future!
I am not sure, but I suspect that he, who is very sadistic and loves to physically attack who is in a weaker position, is the one who caused that crime. Perhaps there are people like him all over the world, and I'm sure there are people in the world who are bullied worse than that. I think bullying is a really difficult problem in the world. I will think more deeply about this issue. And someday I'll make another video that goes deeper into bullying issues.
In U.S, we have our own version of Hikikomori, and its called "Depression". Traveling and becoming an Expat is the only solution to overcome Hikikomori, Depression and Sadness.
In the US, it is impossible to be hikkikomori and finace this lifestyle. In the US, they are known as adult children and if they do not have a supportive family then they will be homeless.
So amazing to see you travelling the world now, you deserve to be here as much as anyone else . Youre not letting these psychos take anymore of your life away from you and thats so incredible considering what youve been through. Very inspiring.
Hi Hiroshi, so sorry to hear about the horrible and terrifying bullying you experienced as a child. I can only imagine the pain and the trauma of it all. I was glad to hear at the end of the video that you don’t despair now and have hope for the future. All you’re doing to encourage hikikomori is wonderful, and I’m so glad you’re experiencing healing of the past. You’re a role model and I think you’ll help many, many others open up about their past pains too
Hi Ben, thanks for watching. Yes, I am now living with hope for the future. I want to continue to move forward so that I can have a better life. But I know that I am not a great person to be a role model for people. I believe I am the exact opposite from such a great man. But if this video provided to people about some insight about bullying and trauma that is great. If my videos are helpful to anyone, I'm very happy. I will continue to post more videos about Hikikomori and other topics as well.
@@HirosiYamazoe There's gotta be a place you can move to and not experience this crap. This place will have what you need, kickass job hot girlfriend and everything. Believe it! How are online jobs over there?
@@crimzenwoffinden9973 Though I know you're only trying to help, I think you're completely missing the point. How are a job and a "hot girlfriend" ever helping anybody? That's the popular way of thinking: become active in society and live the capitalist dream. But society isn't the solution, it's the problem. Look around you. Do people in society look happy? It's always the people who give up on it who become happy and live in solitude. Doing whatever feels best for you and becoming a true authentic individual is always key. For anybody.
@@BalboaBaggins that's not the society I experience. Solitude is nice yes but its better with friends and family. Also free market is pretty awesome, too bad most folk only know crony capitalism. I think its better to win than to stop fighting. Either way we do what we love or are most familiar with, that is the law of our destiny.
Thank you open up and sharing your story. I can really feel your resentment that the world is unfair. You just a wrong person in wrong society but there's others people in the position like you and you give them motivation and inspiration that the world isn't just a bad place. I hope you can build a community that can make better society.
Hi Hiroshi! You are brave for telling your story. I think other people who are scared and hurt will be encouraged and strengthened by your video. Thank you for making the world a better place.
Thank you for your true story of how it all started. I was very shocked what happened in your childhood. But I can tell you one thing; you now have friends real friends all over the world who support you, who accept you as you are. You can and can tell everything to me, never but never should you be shy towards me, no matter how far we are from each other, our Belgian-Japanese friendship will last forever. Thank you Hiroshi
Hi Nico, thank you for watching my video. Yes, like you said, I am very blessed right now. As I said at the end of this video, I don't despair about anything. So there's nothing to worry about me. I have hope for the future and I'm going on my own way to have a better life. I think that is thanks to the power that my friends around the world, including you, have given me. I am very grateful to all of you. 👍
Thanks for sharing your deep insights on this.. nothing wrong w becoming a hikikomori bc i must admit that i am also on the same boat with you and i've been living somewhere down south from Japan *still within Asia
Wow, that is truly horrific. It's hard to have faith in humanity when adults stand idly by as a child is beaten and bullied, especially in a case so severe. I'm so sorry you had to go through that Hiroshi. I can only imagine how betrayed and broken-hearted you felt when your so-called friends did that to you, and the fear you felt as a result of that sadistic torture. I admire your strength. Wishing you peace, love, and happiness. I somewhat relate to that feeling of injustice, because my father who abused me for years is living a successful life like nothing happened, while I've been a Hikikomori for 8+ years due to my mental health.
Hello. I'm so sorry to hear that. Being abused by parents who are supposed to protect you is really tough to deal with psychologically. In my case, my father was a very harsh man who used to beat me. And when I was a Hikikomori in my parents house, I had a big fight with my father. However, after spending about 10 years in a state of severe Hikikomori with suicidal thoughts, I now live away from my parents and feel so liberated. And I'm living with hope for the future. I'm not despairing. This is an unbelievable change from the days when I was suicidal and a severe Hikikomori. I believe that such a revolution can happen to all people. We never know what kind of things will happen in life and when it will happen.
The adults who facilitated this torture are all responsible for it. They will have to stand before God some day and explain why they didn't help an innocent child and why they chose to reward the torturers. I am happy to see you now have hope and are experiencing healing.
My son also was bullied in school and it was in a slightly rural area. Maybe it is more common to physically bully in rural areas? And psychologically bullying in more urban areas? My son switched schools in Junior high school to a more urban area and doesn't experience bullying, but he had such a bad experience that he still has trouble speaking with other students and just wants to stay home and play Minecraft and use UA-cam. In my case I grew up in Florida in the U.S. and experience fighting several times in elementary and junior high school and they became quite violent. I remember once going fishing and almost being stabbed with a long knife because one of my friends was angry I didn't invite him. Another time I got into a fight and broke a bone in my hand from punching. But, it seemed normal to us growing up as part of life, which of course should not be. I remembered watching many t.v. shows at the time and in the shows the advice was always the same, "if you are bullied you must fight back." As society got more violent many children being bullied have gone so far as to kill their bullies and other students by bringing weapons to school. It is always a shock to the community and world, but if they had just taken steps to help the children being bullied before it got so bad they could have stopped it from happening.
I'm crying while watching this. The things you had to go through are just.. pff it's hard to find words. You must be a very strong soul to be able to endure all of that and not give up. Thank you for being with us. You are a Lightworker. I wish you all the best. If you ever want to visit me in the Netherlands you're very welcome. 🙏
Hi Balboa, thanks for watching. I've thought about killing myself many times before, but I'm glad I didn't do it. At the time, I didn't believe that my life would turn around, but now, like this, I am able to live with hope for the future. But I am not a complete person at all, not enough to deserve being called a Lightworker. I'm still a very flawed person in many aspects who is still in the process of learning. And yes, Netherlands is a wonderful and beautiful city. I hope to visit again when this pandemic is over. I've only been to Amsterdam and Roermond so far, so I'd like to visit other cities as well. 😊
I would recommend you watch this show called Welcome to NHK. It deals on the subject of hikikomori. This show was really relatable to me. It is an amazing anime. Hope you fight your demons my friend you are a true warrior. Love from Nepal :)
You have survived being let down so badly as a young person. Thank you for having the courage to be so vulnerable and share your story. You are much braver than all the callous people who think they are somehow superior. And your words can provide so much hope for so many. God bless you Hiroshi. Love from Australia.
I hope you're getting better. I think these stupid problem haunts the whole world. In some cases, the victims learn marcial arts and smack'em down, but it's not something happy or right to do, and it can cause big trouble. Bullying is a huge problem that should have more attention. On USA or even here in Brazil, crimes happens as a result of this sh*tty unfair behaviour. I wish all the best for you and your overcome. Greetings from Brazil. God bless you!
You are so brave to share a very traumatic event in your life, I can feel the sadness and pain in your voice,I hope for your continued process of healing .
I was also very shy. Then I decided to change myself. Practice, practice and more practice in communication with people. I MADE MYSELF do that again and again, though it was SO hard, hurting... Now I am married and have beautiful twins. 😊 I wish I could help you my dear. ❤❤❤ I would listen to all your pain , thoughts for hours and then would give you my loving hug. 😢
I feel so sad for you Hiroshisan. Kids can be so cruel. I endured severe bullying too for about 5-6 years in school and it was horrible. I stopped going to school and my notes decreased a lot. Also I endured severe domestic abuse physically and psychologically from my stephfamily . My real parents died as I was 3 years old. I often wanted to die, developed social anxiety, depression, eating disorders and self harm. I can better deal with it but my past formed me. One thing I realised is that kids who are bullying have problems too and try to cope with this problems to make a living hell for other kids. But one sentence from you hit me very hard: As you said they where in pleasure with the bullying. My bullying people where that too. It was there pleasure for the day, to bully me. They had much pleasure in their eyes. This was the hardest thing. 女です。
From UK. Hm yeah I've also had traumatic experiences such as physical abuse that gave me a huge loss of confidence and made me not trust people. At my secondary school there was someone who everybody feared. He was an extremely vile person. It's hard for me to go into details though. He punched,kicked me multiple times. Afterwards I couldn't trust people. But this man I watch said the need for violence is because of fear. Bullies are scared. They are jealous of us. If we have no fear, then we understand that it doesn't matter what we do. Since then, exercises that I did helped me go above it
Hello. Thank you for sharing your experience. And the same thing happened to me. After being bullied, I became very afraid of people, lost my confidence, and stopped trusting people. And I see that the bullies may be afraid of "something". Maybe they are trying to neutralize the target by bullying so that it won't happen. And I think jealousy has something to do with it. I think that there is definitely a lot of bullying going on in the world, in order to relieve their jealousy and fear. For example, in my case they may have been afraid that I would become an honor student at school and succeed in society. To prevent this from happening, they may have used bullying to neutralize me. Maybe, just maybe, that was the truth.🤔
@@HirosiYamazoe hm yeah... Just to let you know hiroshi, you are an inspiration to me. And its steamshunter03 here im just looking for suitable channel name again.
Thanks for watching. As I said at the end, I'm not despairing about anything and I have hope for the future now. So I'm fine now. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. 👍
I can relate to you so much. My case wasn't as intense as you but back then as a kid who still didn't develop any mind-resistance toward bad people. I started to feel isolated and disgusted toward my school society. Ignorance adults and (fake)friends also play a big roles too. They are part of the reason society become worse and I hate how they can live life so normally, even do so many harm. How can they sleep at night!
I was beaten up, pushed to the ground and stomped and kicked. When i was 8 . For absolutely no reason. Out of nowhere . I couldnt fight back because it was 2 students and it was sudden. I told the teacher and she just said ,"sorry about that" Starting my lifelong disdain for authority. This was basically the worst of it but more minoe shit was always happening. Lead me to believe i must be some freak who deserves it , since i was bullied more than anyone else. And i felt i didn't deserve help since when i told teachers they did nothing. I ended up not telling my parents cuz its like "well i guess this is normal"
I work at a pitbull rescue now. I don't interact with many people besides creative types and artists like me. People who get me. I have zero interest in the mainstream rise and grind finance stuff. Power and money are not the way to happiness and peace . I try to find fulfillment through helping animals and making art . Thanks for sharing your story sir
Im so sorry Hiroshi :( thats very unfortunate your past with bullying. As a teacher now, I do not tolerate that at all in my classroom. I remember in high school this guy beat me up, and throw me into the metal gates and I was bleeding from my head. All the parents, and bus drivers looked away and pretended like they saw nothing. After that I went to school in anxiety and eventually stopped going all together. I find it so shocking in comparison to being raised in the US about how apathetic parents seem to be out there with regards to bullying. Im so happy you made it out of those times though and your alive today. You bring a lot of courage for us - especially the discord group. Ive spoken to so many people on it and it feels nice to not feel like im alone. Wishing you the best 🙏
Thanks for the comment. You've been severely bullied, too. And your parents didn't help you. I feel very sad about that. But you are now a teacher. That's amazing and you are very strong person. In my case, I wouldn't want to have anything to do with the school in any way anymore. However, you became a teacher at the school and were in a position to deal with the bully problem. That's awesome. This time it became a dark story about my past. But I think that the "future" is the most important thing. We can't change the past, but we can change the future. So I would like to continue to move forward with hope for the future. And I'm so glad you are enjoying the Discord community. 🙂 Stay Healthy & Take Care
@@HirosiYamazoe As far as my parents were concerned, I never told them about it even to this day. When I stopped going to school, I just went to work. I always said though when I am a teacher, I would be that person students can go to if they are in trouble or need help - and that's what motivates me to go each day. I am an introvert by nature and hate being in front of a room. I have anxiety everyday I go in, but the moment they come in - I change for the better and they remind me that the future can be so much more hopeful. They are really kind and compassionate inside, just very misguided and Im in a position to help mold them which Im grateful for. You are also a teacher to Hiroshi, spreading awareness through your videos including the film you had released not to long ago. While you may not reach stardom like other UA-cam celebrities, you're helping and impacting others beyond your belief. Keeping hearing your ideas, thoughts, feelings, dreams - everything. We are all here cheering you on and wishing you the best! Have a wonderful day my friend 🙏
I believe that educating children is one of the most difficult and important jobs in the world. I think that you are doing this job with very high aspirations. I really admire you. And I'm honored that you are interested in my channel. I can't be a great person, but as a person who has had a unique experience and walks a unique path, I would like to continue to share my experiences. 🙂👍
Hiroshi...It took courage to tell your story, especially in english..I do not understand how you go home and your parents didnt say nothing or help you..Iam very glad you were able to pull out of this on your own..Good luck to you..Sincerely, Bruce from New Orleans, La.
Hello. Thanks for watching. It looks like you had a similar experience as me. No matter how hopeless you are now, please don't lose hope for the future because the situation can turn around. And I am sure that there are problems in this society. But you may find a way to live without being a part of this society someday.
Thank you for sharing your story, Hỉroshi-san. Bullying should never be acceptable or even rewarded. I wonder if your parents felt any concern when they saw your injuries or did they not notice? I was bullied a lot in school, even when I became an adult I was still an easy target. However, the major bully when I was a kid one day came to me many, many years later to profusely apologize to me for what he did. That was a very good thing and more bullies should take responsibility for what they do.
Here in America it's rewarded big time. Sorry it's as bad in Japan. Maybe it's just humans. I note school shootings are upon America. I know many times if I could have laid hands on a gun. 🤬😡
Hey Hiroshi, thank you so much for sharing another piece of your story. I have to say your experience feels close to home, since I've had my share of school trauma. One of the things in your story that stuck with me the most is when you question yourself about what could be the reason why those kids started bullying you. It's such a hopeless feeling not being able to make them stop, and you start to think that something has got to be wrong with you, otherwise they wouldn't attack you for no reason. Anyways, I want you to know that me and the rest of this awesome community are glad you're still with us, and I'm happy to know that your life is getting better and better with time. If I may add just one thing, I would love to hear you talking a bit more in detail about your experience with finding a job back in your early 20s, how did you approach it, if you had any trouble with anxiety coming from years spent in isolation, and so on. It's just an idea, but it would definitely help me a lot if you could talk about it in the future 🙏
Hello FAYL, thanks for your comment! Yes, as you say, it was a big question why they attacked me so much. Moreover, I even attacked people who used to be my friends before too. "Did I do something wrong to them?" I keep wondering that. But I can't find any explanation for it, and they don't say anything about it as well. So I still don't understand why I got into such a situation. It seems that people who have been bullied often face this question. Perhaps it is similar to the "witch hunt" that took place in Europe during the Middle Ages. People were punished and tortured based on incomprehensible nonsense concepts. And yes, I've talked about my time of being a Hikikomori and how I getting a job and about my parents, but I did not talk about these topics in detail. So I'd like to talk about those in more detail in another video someday. 👍
Hiroshi, I feel very sorry about your story. Im South Korean and I also experienced some discrimination and being ostracized because of weak physical features and shyness. Even though I graduated school, it will never end because our society also discriminates me by social status, money, etc. so the bullying is social phenomena and is everywhere on the planet. My internal realization is that bullying isn’t stoppable but we can solve it by more humane way like communicating and helping people who are in needs. And hi Kiki Miri or whoever feels discriminated should realize that weak is tragedy but should never be negotiable with our happiness
Your English is pretty good. I usually can't understand when Japanese people speak English, but I was able to understand you even without looking at the subtitles.
I am so sorry Hiroshi :( It was very difficult to listen to but everybody should do! You had to got a lot of courage to tell your story! I was bullied in middle school so I can relate :( I was sick all the time because I wanted to escape. My Mom knew I was bullied but I didn't let her to help me. I didn't want to be a burden, a problem so I suffered in silence. I am so sorry you couldn't turn to your parents :( Even a psychologist told me that maybe it is my fault. Maybe I behave strange or something. So I just wanted to survive, I didn't understant what have I done. I do not want to make it about me now, so I should stop. Thank you for sharing your story, you are very strong and even if you do not trust society, keep in mind: there are people out there who cares about others and worthy of trust! :) Telling this to other folks too: do not give up, you are all strong and beautiful souls and I am happy coz you live on this earth! :)
Hello! Thanks for your comment. And thanks for sharing your experience. When I hear about other people's experiences of being bullied, like you said, many of them can't tell their parents about it because they don't want to bother them. Especially in Japan, the concept of "Haji (shame)" makes it hard to depend on others. This is because it is a shame to depend on others for help in this concept. I think a little of this concept was instilled in me when I was a child. And you're right, there are a lot of reliable people in this world. That's what the friends I've met around the world have taught me. 😊 And I agree with you that there is no need for the people who are being bullied lose hope. In fact, when I was bullied, I wanted to die and was in complete despair, but now I am living with hope for the future. We never know what kind of revelation will happen in our lives, and when it will happen.
It takes alot of courage to shair your story. I myself went through bullying and a neglect from my parents. Ive been to many psychiatrists, but my mental health declined and I recieve a pension from the government. I found God in my twenties and now God is my reson for life. I am saved and born again christian. I urge you to read the Bible. I now have a relationship with Jesus. Life without God has no meaning to me. The Bible teaches that our soul live on forever. When we die we either go to heaven or hell. Only those who believe in Jesus will go to heaven. This life can be very hard and I applaud you for speaking up. God bless you
Thanks for telling us your story, Hiroshi. What they did to you was so horrible. It is understandable that it led to your long-term hikikomori period. Sometimes it's difficult to completely forget the past, but it's inspiring that all of your focus has been placed on the future. As you may recall, I also had to deal with bullies and it does feel like salt rubbed in the wound when they're living successfully with no repercussions You've come very far in the past couple of years. You have a large audience of people who are interested in your life and many of them have probably experienced the same difficulty. You've made many new friends and have overcome the hikikomori problem. I doubt the bullies have the same empathy that you do, which is a valuable ability. Somebody who has nothing to lose also has everything to gain. I look forward to seeing you continue gaining, friend. 👍
Hi Mantis, thanks for your comment. Yes, I remember your story. (I've read it so many times while editing the video that I have almost the whole story memorized.😅) You were also physically assaulted by bullies. And you later found out that the friends that you thought were good friends were saying bad things about you. I can relate to this very well. I think there is no bigger sadness than being attacked by someone you thought was your good friends. And I know it's torture to watch the people who used to bully me so hard get a better life without any remorse. It was as if being a Hikikomori did not end the torture of the bullies. And yes, it's a very amazing grace that many people are messaging me. But I am still in the process of learning. I will continue to keep going through trial and error to get a better life. And I will continue to share that process on this channel in the future. And I think the important thing is that you and I are both thinking about the "future". I believe that if we continue to move towards a better future, we will one day obtain it. 👍👍
It must have been hard to revisit this part of your life - do you feel a bit lighter after sharing it here with the community? I related to many parts of your story, having been badly bullied around that age when growing up in Canada in the early 90s. It’s inspiring to see how you’ve transcended such a traumatic experience and are now thriving, both through your travel and work with this channel and community 👍💛
Yes, I feel much lighter by talking about my past experiences. In the past, I couldn't talk about it because I couldn't trust people, and I couldn't look at my past experiences calmly and verbalize them. But now I am able to do so. I think it means that I have changed. And of course, I am influenced by all of you who are commenting here too. And I'm sorry. You were bullied, too. There are many people in this world who have been bullied. Bullying should disappear from this world, and there are only negative effects of it. However, if there is any value in the experience of being bullied, it may be that able to understanding the feelings of those who were bullied. And thank you for watching my channel. I'll be posting more and more videos in the future. This time it was a dark episode, but I'd like to provide some enjoyable stuff as well.👍
Take my word fighting back wouldn't have helped. When I beat back three they'd come back with five. When I beat five they'd bring seven. Almost always at school with the teachers watching. It didn't end till I walked away from school. Then I was the bad guy for quitting school. 🤭🤭🙄
Thanks for sharing such a private and difficult story, it can help to heal just talking and sharing traumas, its good not to keep those things for your self. All luck and happines to you
I'm sorry no one protected you! Did your parents not notice you were being bullied? Has any of the bullies try reaching out and apologizing? Thank you for sharing your story!
Thanks for watching. I don't think my parents knew I was being bullied at the time. Even if they knew, I thought they would not help me. My parents were very busy with their work and they were very harsh on me. And none of the bullies ever apologized for me. This time I talked about my trauma in detail, so it turned out to be a very dark story. 😅 But I am not desperate now, so I am fine now. I just will continue to move forward to get a better future. 👍
Please contact me. After watching this my heart was heavy. I am an African American living in the USA and can relate on SOME levels. I would love to collaborate with you on a music project
If I were you I would take up Kendo or any Japanese martial arts to release your negative emotions, pills are not a solution unless it's traditional medicine such as herbs/acupuncture. I hope this helps you.
Hi, thank you for sharing your experience. I too was bullied since I was young, and in highschool. But you know there is someone who loves truly and perfectly and that is the Lord Jesus Christ. I just want to share you that there is always love, hope, forgiveness of sins and eternal life in Jesus. If you come to Him with a sincere and humble repented heart, He can save you and forgive you and give you abundance of joy, love and peace and eternal life. Believe in Jesus: He is The Son of God, He died for our sins and He rose from the dead, Believe in Jesus. “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” -John 3:16 “That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.” -Romans 10:9 Repent and Believe in Jesus.
I think when children become traumatised (as you were) and they are unsupported, they come up with child level solutions, like hiding or running away. It makes good sense at the time. It's later on that the early solution becomes a prison and stops all forward motion. I think we have to give validation to our early traumas and rethink those early solutions, in order to move on with our lives. I've had a number of hikikomori episodes in my life and in every case I was dealing with trauma.
Hello. Thanks for your comment. My parents both were busy with their work everyday. And my father was a very harsh man, he was not the kind of person who would help me even if I was in trouble. I didn't see my parents much, and the only person I saw much of at home was my elderly grandmother. My grandfather had died in the war. I think you are right that some adult should have helped the such child early on, but in my case there was no one to rely on. However, it has taken a long time, but recently I think I am finally seeing the light. Now I have hope for the future and I am not despairing at all. 🙂
Hi Yamazoe san! You know why Japan has many Hikikomori? Because they dont have God in their lives. Because they dont believe in God. Please always pray and believe in our God Creator and tell him about all your problems 😄
Hmm.. maybe so. 🤔 But I do not sure the connection between them. There are not many Japanese who believe in "only one god = the creator of the world". But instead, there are many people who believe in pantheism, aminism, and spiritualism.
@@HirosiYamazoe I know that, but I have a question to you, what is Nature, the everyone’s spirituality etc came from? What is body, soul and your mind came from too? Many people nowadays are not believe in the God Creator because they not see God right? But if you start to pray everyday, you and only yourself who will feel the presence of our God Creator and you just need to prove by yourself. You just say that because you don’t want to believe first. God gave us freedom and will we are the only one who creates our destiny. So if do good then the good deeds will come to you. And also bad will come to you
@@HirosiYamazoe and also I know Japanese people are also believe in Money, material things, power, and they believe themselves alone but they did not know that there is more important than that and that is our God. Every things is this world has an end and only God has no limitation or an end. We need to believe and come to our God first or to come God voluntarily so we can proceed our lives continously. Please be more open minded not just only yourself so you can more understand the real meaning of life and His creation. 😄
@@HirosiYamazoe I already watched again your video and I am very sad what is happened in your past experience about bullying. You know I was bullied before many many many times but now I understand my past bad experience about bullying. I forgive them and pray for them. I prayed that God forgive them what they did to me. And now I prayed that God please take me away from all negatives and be more happy and now It really works! I have good friends and I become more happy! Because I forgive my past bad experience and then I forward my life right now. If you willing, I will introduce you to my Japanese friend who is missionary of Jesus Christ. So you can be more have friends 🤗
Hi! I just watched your video. This world is ruled by the devil that's why many evil things are happening. Those people who bullied you are used by the devil to destroy you. I am glad that you know that there is hope. God is our hope. Please seek God, inquire about Him. Read the Bible, accept the Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, receive the Holy Spirit. Let us always draw near to God, He will give us victory over all the enemies.
i hear u on abusers still somehow making it big in the world.. thanks for talking about your experience. i am a Hikikomori and have been for years now. i was a bully and basically i feel bad for it and i want to isolate so i dont hurt others and i can just die. so talking about thinking about hanging your self when u were 11. same tho for me 8-9 and basically i am still haunted by what i did to a friend and idk wanting to isolate. i have apologized and i dont think it will ever change how i see my self. tho most bullies like my friend james dont see anything wrong with what he did, and he is now successful and yeah just the injustice and the lack of seeing from society. u were their scapegoat. also subbed.
dont worry my friend, in some way those idiots will pay all the bad things they did to you in this world, is sad, but this society is full of fake people, thanks for share this with us Hiroshi☘️
Yes, there are many fake people in this society. As the history of crime in the United States reveals, it is often the case that socially accepted "admirable men" are committing heinous crimes. They are called "psychopaths", I hear. But I don't despair of this world. I have met so many kind people in my travels the world. 🙂
You basically raised yourself, you became your own teacher. That is an amazing accomplishment.
Hi Berzelmayr, thanks for the comment. But I haven't accomplished much yet. I'm still in the process of learning. I'll keep trying. 👍
@@HirosiYamazoe What if all these souls, known as hikikomori (around the world) are the souls, whom GOD have chosen to be set apart from this dark world, and to do the WILL OF GOD on earth:
- KEEP
-PREACH
- WATCH
- EXPOSE
John 15:19
If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.
Luke 6:22
Blessed are ye, when men shall hate you, and when they shall separate you from their company, and shall reproach you, and cast out your name as evil, for the Son of man's sake.
Matthew 5:44
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
Sadly, few souls around the world reads and studies the bible, therefore the real reasons for events and ways to be are all unknown.
Or is being hikikomori just a soul in depression - as the whole world sees it.?
Nessasery. I had much the same experience. My parents were too busy, and uninterested
@@richardscathouse Maybe your parents had to overwork ? They were too tired to pay attention to you.
The most infuriating part of this story is the complete lack of insight and inaction from parents and teachers. I refuse to believe nobody saw what those kids were doing. Dealing with bullying is a community effort and for sure society failed you when you were a kid. It's amazing that you recovered and became a very decent adult, I know a lot of people who suffer violence when they're kids become violent adults and the cycle continues, so it's hard to break from that.
Hello nefi, thanks for the comment! Yes, unfortunately, this is happening all over Japan. It is not uncommon in Japan for teachers and adults to neglect the bullying of children. In Japan, cases of suicides due to bullying are frequently reported in the news. In Japan, 300-400 people of high school age and younger commit suicide every year.
And if I read the comments from people around the world who message me, it seems that this is happening not only in Japan but all over the world.
If the community shares the common belief that people can help and support each other, I believe that such problems can be overcome. However, in the world today, it seems that the power of community has been lost in many places unfortunately. People are thinking only of their own interests in a competitive and capitalistic society.
@@HirosiYamazoe You have reached the core of our worldwide problem: extreme competition. Some empathy and co-operation would balance things out, but in a brutal society, kindness is seen as weakness. Sad.
Hiroshi, you have made good use of your solitude to sort this out and that is to your credit. May you live long and flourish.
This world is insufferably cruel, but I'm so glad that you're still hopeful and progressing in life. Wishing you happiness, strength and love for the future.
Thank you for sharing. One thing in common with most murderers is small animal abuse, the rabbit story was so scary. I'm sad you had to face such evil, but I look forward to your future!
I am not sure, but I suspect that he, who is very sadistic and loves to physically attack who is in a weaker position, is the one who caused that crime. Perhaps there are people like him all over the world, and I'm sure there are people in the world who are bullied worse than that. I think bullying is a really difficult problem in the world. I will think more deeply about this issue. And someday I'll make another video that goes deeper into bullying issues.
In U.S, we have our own version of Hikikomori, and its called "Depression". Traveling and becoming an Expat is the only solution to overcome Hikikomori, Depression and Sadness.
Expats are often lonely and sad too.
In the US, it is impossible to be hikkikomori and finace this lifestyle. In the US, they are known as adult children and if they do not have a supportive family then they will be homeless.
So amazing to see you travelling the world now, you deserve to be here as much as anyone else . Youre not letting these psychos take anymore of your life away from you and thats so incredible considering what youve been through. Very inspiring.
Hi Hiroshi, so sorry to hear about the horrible and terrifying bullying you experienced as a child. I can only imagine the pain and the trauma of it all. I was glad to hear at the end of the video that you don’t despair now and have hope for the future. All you’re doing to encourage hikikomori is wonderful, and I’m so glad you’re experiencing healing of the past. You’re a role model and I think you’ll help many, many others open up about their past pains too
Hi Ben, thanks for watching. Yes, I am now living with hope for the future. I want to continue to move forward so that I can have a better life. But I know that I am not a great person to be a role model for people. I believe I am the exact opposite from such a great man. But if this video provided to people about some insight about bullying and trauma that is great. If my videos are helpful to anyone, I'm very happy. I will continue to post more videos about Hikikomori and other topics as well.
@@HirosiYamazoe There's gotta be a place you can move to and not experience this crap. This place will have what you need, kickass job hot girlfriend and everything.
Believe it!
How are online jobs over there?
@@crimzenwoffinden9973 Though I know you're only trying to help, I think you're completely missing the point. How are a job and a "hot girlfriend" ever helping anybody? That's the popular way of thinking: become active in society and live the capitalist dream. But society isn't the solution, it's the problem. Look around you. Do people in society look happy? It's always the people who give up on it who become happy and live in solitude. Doing whatever feels best for you and becoming a true authentic individual is always key. For anybody.
@@BalboaBaggins that's not the society I experience. Solitude is nice yes but its better with friends and family. Also free market is pretty awesome, too bad most folk only know crony capitalism. I think its better to win than to stop fighting. Either way we do what we love or are most familiar with, that is the law of our destiny.
@@BalboaBaggins defeatism never helped anyone win.
Thank you open up and sharing your story. I can really feel your resentment that the world is unfair. You just a wrong person in wrong society but there's others people in the position like you and you give them motivation and inspiration that the world isn't just a bad place. I hope you can build a community that can make better society.
Thank you for sharing your traumatic story. You’re helping so many people by being honest and open 🙏
Hi Hiroshi! You are brave for telling your story. I think other people who are scared and hurt will be encouraged and strengthened by your video. Thank you for making the world a better place.
I’m so sorry to hear your story. You’ve come so far. God bless you
This story breaks my heart. Thank you so much for sharing this. It can help a lot of people. I send you love and positive vibes.
I am sorry that you suffered so much. You are a very brave and strong person and I hope you will have much happiness in the future.
Thank you for your true story of how it all started. I was very shocked what happened in your childhood. But I can tell you one thing; you now have friends real friends all over the world who support you, who accept you as you are. You can and can tell everything to me, never but never should you be shy towards me, no matter how far we are from each other, our Belgian-Japanese friendship will last forever. Thank you Hiroshi
Hi Nico, thank you for watching my video. Yes, like you said, I am very blessed right now. As I said at the end of this video, I don't despair about anything. So there's nothing to worry about me. I have hope for the future and I'm going on my own way to have a better life. I think that is thanks to the power that my friends around the world, including you, have given me. I am very grateful to all of you. 👍
Bull! Save your virtue-signaling BS 🤬
I hope you are doing good hiroshi💚
Thanks. Yes, I'm doing well. 🙂 And you?
@@HirosiYamazoe I am doing great hiroshi
Thanks for sharing your deep insights on this.. nothing wrong w becoming a hikikomori bc i must admit that i am also on the same boat with you and i've been living somewhere down south from Japan *still within Asia
This is horrible, I’m glad you are doing much better. Don’t let the past hold you back. May the Lord Jesus Christ bless you🙏
Wow, that is truly horrific. It's hard to have faith in humanity when adults stand idly by as a child is beaten and bullied, especially in a case so severe. I'm so sorry you had to go through that Hiroshi. I can only imagine how betrayed and broken-hearted you felt when your so-called friends did that to you, and the fear you felt as a result of that sadistic torture. I admire your strength. Wishing you peace, love, and happiness.
I somewhat relate to that feeling of injustice, because my father who abused me for years is living a successful life like nothing happened, while I've been a Hikikomori for 8+ years due to my mental health.
Hello. I'm so sorry to hear that. Being abused by parents who are supposed to protect you is really tough to deal with psychologically. In my case, my father was a very harsh man who used to beat me. And when I was a Hikikomori in my parents house, I had a big fight with my father. However, after spending about 10 years in a state of severe Hikikomori with suicidal thoughts, I now live away from my parents and feel so liberated. And I'm living with hope for the future. I'm not despairing. This is an unbelievable change from the days when I was suicidal and a severe Hikikomori. I believe that such a revolution can happen to all people. We never know what kind of things will happen in life and when it will happen.
The adults who facilitated this torture are all responsible for it. They will have to stand before God some day and explain why they didn't help an innocent child and why they chose to reward the torturers. I am happy to see you now have hope and are experiencing healing.
My son also was bullied in school and it was in a slightly rural area. Maybe it is more common to physically bully in rural areas? And psychologically bullying in more urban areas? My son switched schools in Junior high school to a more urban area and doesn't experience bullying, but he had such a bad experience that he still has trouble speaking with other students and just wants to stay home and play Minecraft and use UA-cam.
In my case I grew up in Florida in the U.S. and experience fighting several times in elementary and junior high school and they became quite violent. I remember once going fishing and almost being stabbed with a long knife because one of my friends was angry I didn't invite him. Another time I got into a fight and broke a bone in my hand from punching. But, it seemed normal to us growing up as part of life, which of course should not be. I remembered watching many t.v. shows at the time and in the shows the advice was always the same, "if you are bullied you must fight back."
As society got more violent many children being bullied have gone so far as to kill their bullies and other students by bringing weapons to school. It is always a shock to the community and world, but if they had just taken steps to help the children being bullied before it got so bad they could have stopped it from happening.
I'm crying while watching this. The things you had to go through are just.. pff it's hard to find words. You must be a very strong soul to be able to endure all of that and not give up. Thank you for being with us. You are a Lightworker. I wish you all the best. If you ever want to visit me in the Netherlands you're very welcome. 🙏
Hi Balboa, thanks for watching. I've thought about killing myself many times before, but I'm glad I didn't do it. At the time, I didn't believe that my life would turn around, but now, like this, I am able to live with hope for the future. But I am not a complete person at all, not enough to deserve being called a Lightworker. I'm still a very flawed person in many aspects who is still in the process of learning.
And yes, Netherlands is a wonderful and beautiful city. I hope to visit again when this pandemic is over. I've only been to Amsterdam and Roermond so far, so I'd like to visit other cities as well. 😊
You have learned a good thing by helping others. I believe those who hurt you will be punished. What goes around comes around.
Thank you for sharing Hiroshi ❤
I would recommend you watch this show called Welcome to NHK. It deals on the subject of hikikomori. This show was really relatable to me. It is an amazing anime. Hope you fight your demons my friend you are a true warrior. Love from Nepal :)
You have survived being let down so badly as a young person. Thank you for having the courage to be so vulnerable and share your story. You are much braver than all the callous people who think they are somehow superior. And your words can provide so much hope for so many. God bless you Hiroshi. Love from Australia.
I hope you're getting better. I think these stupid problem haunts the whole world. In some cases, the victims learn marcial arts and smack'em down, but it's not something happy or right to do, and it can cause big trouble. Bullying is a huge problem that should have more attention. On USA or even here in Brazil, crimes happens as a result of this sh*tty unfair behaviour. I wish all the best for you and your overcome. Greetings from Brazil. God bless you!
Glad you are doing better. Your English is great!
What a lovely your man wish I could give him a big hug ❤❤❤ I wish him well for the future
You are so brave to share a very traumatic event in your life, I can feel the sadness and pain in your voice,I hope for your continued process of healing .
We’re all cheering for you! 🔥
You are a very strong person
I was also very shy. Then I decided to change myself.
Practice, practice and more practice in communication with people.
I MADE MYSELF do that again and again, though it was SO hard, hurting...
Now I am married and have beautiful twins. 😊
I wish I could help you my dear. ❤❤❤
I would listen to all your pain , thoughts for hours and then would give you my loving hug. 😢
I feel so sad for you Hiroshisan. Kids can be so cruel.
I endured severe bullying too for about 5-6 years in school and it was horrible. I stopped going to school and my notes decreased a lot.
Also I endured severe domestic abuse physically and psychologically from my stephfamily . My real parents died as I was 3 years old.
I often wanted to die, developed social anxiety, depression, eating disorders and self harm.
I can better deal with it but my past formed me.
One thing I realised is that kids who are bullying have problems too and try to cope with this problems to make a living hell for other kids.
But one sentence from you hit me very hard: As you said they where in pleasure with the bullying.
My bullying people where that too. It was there pleasure for the day, to bully me. They had much pleasure in their eyes.
This was the hardest thing.
女です。
Thank you for sharing your story👍
From UK. Hm yeah I've also had traumatic experiences such as physical abuse that gave me a huge loss of confidence and made me not trust people. At my secondary school there was someone who everybody feared. He was an extremely vile person. It's hard for me to go into details though. He punched,kicked me multiple times. Afterwards I couldn't trust people.
But this man I watch said the need for violence is because of fear. Bullies are scared. They are jealous of us.
If we have no fear, then we understand that it doesn't matter what we do.
Since then, exercises that I did helped me go above it
Hello. Thank you for sharing your experience.
And the same thing happened to me. After being bullied, I became very afraid of people, lost my confidence, and stopped trusting people.
And I see that the bullies may be afraid of "something". Maybe they are trying to neutralize the target by bullying so that it won't happen. And I think jealousy has something to do with it.
I think that there is definitely a lot of bullying going on in the world, in order to relieve their jealousy and fear.
For example, in my case they may have been afraid that I would become an honor student at school and succeed in society. To prevent this from happening, they may have used bullying to neutralize me. Maybe, just maybe, that was the truth.🤔
@@HirosiYamazoe hm yeah...
Just to let you know hiroshi, you are an inspiration to me.
And its steamshunter03 here im just looking for suitable channel name again.
Tgank you man for sharing. You are a real man and wa brave one!!!
So sorry you went through that. Sounds terrible.
Thanks for watching. As I said at the end, I'm not despairing about anything and I have hope for the future now. So I'm fine now. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. 👍
Thank you for sharing such a personnel experience.
I can relate to you so much. My case wasn't as intense as you but back then as a kid who still didn't develop any mind-resistance toward bad people. I started to feel isolated and disgusted toward my school society. Ignorance adults and (fake)friends also play a big roles too. They are part of the reason society become worse and I hate how they can live life so normally, even do so many harm. How can they sleep at night!
I was beaten up, pushed to the ground and stomped and kicked. When i was 8 . For absolutely no reason. Out of nowhere . I couldnt fight back because it was 2 students and it was sudden. I told the teacher and she just said ,"sorry about that"
Starting my lifelong disdain for authority. This was basically the worst of it but more minoe shit was always happening. Lead me to believe i must be some freak who deserves it , since i was bullied more than anyone else. And i felt i didn't deserve help since when i told teachers they did nothing. I ended up not telling my parents cuz its like "well i guess this is normal"
I work at a pitbull rescue now. I don't interact with many people besides creative types and artists like me. People who get me.
I have zero interest in the mainstream rise and grind finance stuff. Power and money are not the way to happiness and peace . I try to find fulfillment through helping animals and making art .
Thanks for sharing your story sir
The only way of dealing with a childhood bully is to punch him in the face. His contempt will only grow until that happens.
Karma will get them in the end! You are doing the right thing! Keep sharing and trying to help others!
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Im so sorry Hiroshi :( thats very unfortunate your past with bullying. As a teacher now, I do not tolerate that at all in my classroom.
I remember in high school this guy beat me up, and throw me into the metal gates and I was bleeding from my head. All the parents, and bus drivers looked away and pretended like they saw nothing. After that I went to school in anxiety and eventually stopped going all together.
I find it so shocking in comparison to being raised in the US about how apathetic parents seem to be out there with regards to bullying.
Im so happy you made it out of those times though and your alive today. You bring a lot of courage for us - especially the discord group. Ive spoken to so many people on it and it feels nice to not feel like im alone.
Wishing you the best 🙏
Thanks for the comment. You've been severely bullied, too. And your parents didn't help you. I feel very sad about that. But you are now a teacher. That's amazing and you are very strong person. In my case, I wouldn't want to have anything to do with the school in any way anymore. However, you became a teacher at the school and were in a position to deal with the bully problem. That's awesome.
This time it became a dark story about my past. But I think that the "future" is the most important thing. We can't change the past, but we can change the future. So I would like to continue to move forward with hope for the future.
And I'm so glad you are enjoying the Discord community. 🙂
Stay Healthy & Take Care
@@HirosiYamazoe As far as my parents were concerned, I never told them about it even to this day. When I stopped going to school, I just went to work. I always said though when I am a teacher, I would be that person students can go to if they are in trouble or need help - and that's what motivates me to go each day.
I am an introvert by nature and hate being in front of a room. I have anxiety everyday I go in, but the moment they come in - I change for the better and they remind me that the future can be so much more hopeful. They are really kind and compassionate inside, just very misguided and Im in a position to help mold them which Im grateful for.
You are also a teacher to Hiroshi, spreading awareness through your videos including the film you had released not to long ago. While you may not reach stardom like other UA-cam celebrities, you're helping and impacting others beyond your belief. Keeping hearing your ideas, thoughts, feelings, dreams - everything. We are all here cheering you on and wishing you the best!
Have a wonderful day my friend 🙏
I believe that educating children is one of the most difficult and important jobs in the world. I think that you are doing this job with very high aspirations. I really admire you. And I'm honored that you are interested in my channel. I can't be a great person, but as a person who has had a unique experience and walks a unique path, I would like to continue to share my experiences. 🙂👍
Hiroshi...It took courage to tell your story, especially in english..I do not understand how you go home and your parents didnt say nothing or help you..Iam very glad you were able to pull out of this on your own..Good luck to you..Sincerely, Bruce from New Orleans, La.
I was shy and quiet and my friends bullied me. It has left a dead mark on me. Like a branch cut off a tree I do not want to be part of society
You're already aware that society is the problem, and not you. Bless you and take care.
Hello. Thanks for watching. It looks like you had a similar experience as me. No matter how hopeless you are now, please don't lose hope for the future because the situation can turn around. And I am sure that there are problems in this society. But you may find a way to live without being a part of this society someday.
Thank you for sharing your story, Hỉroshi-san. Bullying should never be acceptable or even rewarded. I wonder if your parents felt any concern when they saw your injuries or did they not notice? I was bullied a lot in school, even when I became an adult I was still an easy target. However, the major bully when I was a kid one day came to me many, many years later to profusely apologize to me for what he did. That was a very good thing and more bullies should take responsibility for what they do.
Here in America it's rewarded big time. Sorry it's as bad in Japan. Maybe it's just humans. I note school shootings are upon America. I know many times if I could have laid hands on a gun. 🤬😡
Hey Hiroshi, thank you so much for sharing another piece of your story. I have to say your experience feels close to home, since I've had my share of school trauma. One of the things in your story that stuck with me the most is when you question yourself about what could be the reason why those kids started bullying you. It's such a hopeless feeling not being able to make them stop, and you start to think that something has got to be wrong with you, otherwise they wouldn't attack you for no reason.
Anyways, I want you to know that me and the rest of this awesome community are glad you're still with us, and I'm happy to know that your life is getting better and better with time.
If I may add just one thing, I would love to hear you talking a bit more in detail about your experience with finding a job back in your early 20s, how did you approach it, if you had any trouble with anxiety coming from years spent in isolation, and so on. It's just an idea, but it would definitely help me a lot if you could talk about it in the future 🙏
Hello FAYL, thanks for your comment! Yes, as you say, it was a big question why they attacked me so much. Moreover, I even attacked people who used to be my friends before too.
"Did I do something wrong to them?" I keep wondering that. But I can't find any explanation for it, and they don't say anything about it as well. So I still don't understand why I got into such a situation.
It seems that people who have been bullied often face this question. Perhaps it is similar to the "witch hunt" that took place in Europe during the Middle Ages. People were punished and tortured based on incomprehensible nonsense concepts.
And yes, I've talked about my time of being a Hikikomori and how I getting a job and about my parents, but I did not talk about these topics in detail. So I'd like to talk about those in more detail in another video someday. 👍
i thank you for sharing your harrowing experience!! im very proud of you
Hello P4uLy, Thanks for watching. I will continue to share my experiences.
Thank you.
Hiroshi, I feel very sorry about your story. Im South Korean and I also experienced some discrimination and being ostracized because of weak physical features and shyness. Even though I graduated school, it will never end because our society also discriminates me by social status, money, etc. so the bullying is social phenomena and is everywhere on the planet. My internal realization is that bullying isn’t stoppable but we can solve it by more humane way like communicating and helping people who are in needs. And hi Kiki Miri or whoever feels discriminated should realize that weak is tragedy but should never be negotiable with our happiness
Your English is pretty good. I usually can't understand when Japanese people speak English, but I was able to understand you even without looking at the subtitles.
I am so sorry Hiroshi :( It was very difficult to listen to but everybody should do! You had to got a lot of courage to tell your story! I was bullied in middle school so I can relate :( I was sick all the time because I wanted to escape. My Mom knew I was bullied but I didn't let her to help me. I didn't want to be a burden, a problem so I suffered in silence. I am so sorry you couldn't turn to your parents :( Even a psychologist told me that maybe it is my fault. Maybe I behave strange or something. So I just wanted to survive, I didn't understant what have I done. I do not want to make it about me now, so I should stop. Thank you for sharing your story, you are very strong and even if you do not trust society, keep in mind: there are people out there who cares about others and worthy of trust! :) Telling this to other folks too: do not give up, you are all strong and beautiful souls and I am happy coz you live on this earth! :)
Hello! Thanks for your comment. And thanks for sharing your experience. When I hear about other people's experiences of being bullied, like you said, many of them can't tell their parents about it because they don't want to bother them. Especially in Japan, the concept of "Haji (shame)" makes it hard to depend on others. This is because it is a shame to depend on others for help in this concept. I think a little of this concept was instilled in me when I was a child.
And you're right, there are a lot of reliable people in this world. That's what the friends I've met around the world have taught me. 😊
And I agree with you that there is no need for the people who are being bullied lose hope. In fact, when I was bullied, I wanted to die and was in complete despair, but now I am living with hope for the future. We never know what kind of revelation will happen in our lives, and when it will happen.
I'm your big fan😍
It takes alot of courage to shair your story. I myself went through bullying and a neglect from my parents. Ive been to many psychiatrists, but my mental health declined and I recieve a pension from the government. I found God in my twenties and now God is my reson for life. I am saved and born again christian. I urge you to read the Bible. I now have a relationship with Jesus. Life without God has no meaning to me. The Bible teaches that our soul live on forever. When we die we either go to heaven or hell. Only those who believe in Jesus will go to heaven. This life can be very hard and I applaud you for speaking up. God bless you
i am rooting for you :D
Thanks for telling us your story, Hiroshi. What they did to you was so horrible. It is understandable that it led to your long-term hikikomori period. Sometimes it's difficult to completely forget the past, but it's inspiring that all of your focus has been placed on the future. As you may recall, I also had to deal with bullies and it does feel like salt rubbed in the wound when they're living successfully with no repercussions
You've come very far in the past couple of years. You have a large audience of people who are interested in your life and many of them have probably experienced the same difficulty. You've made many new friends and have overcome the hikikomori problem. I doubt the bullies have the same empathy that you do, which is a valuable ability.
Somebody who has nothing to lose also has everything to gain. I look forward to seeing you continue gaining, friend. 👍
Hi Mantis, thanks for your comment. Yes, I remember your story. (I've read it so many times while editing the video that I have almost the whole story memorized.😅) You were also physically assaulted by bullies. And you later found out that the friends that you thought were good friends were saying bad things about you. I can relate to this very well. I think there is no bigger sadness than being attacked by someone you thought was your good friends.
And I know it's torture to watch the people who used to bully me so hard get a better life without any remorse. It was as if being a Hikikomori did not end the torture of the bullies.
And yes, it's a very amazing grace that many people are messaging me. But I am still in the process of learning. I will continue to keep going through trial and error to get a better life. And I will continue to share that process on this channel in the future.
And I think the important thing is that you and I are both thinking about the "future". I believe that if we continue to move towards a better future, we will one day obtain it. 👍👍
It must have been hard to revisit this part of your life - do you feel a bit lighter after sharing it here with the community?
I related to many parts of your story, having been badly bullied around that age when growing up in Canada in the early 90s. It’s inspiring to see how you’ve transcended such a traumatic experience and are now thriving, both through your travel and work with this channel and community 👍💛
Yes, I feel much lighter by talking about my past experiences. In the past, I couldn't talk about it because I couldn't trust people, and I couldn't look at my past experiences calmly and verbalize them. But now I am able to do so. I think it means that I have changed. And of course, I am influenced by all of you who are commenting here too.
And I'm sorry. You were bullied, too. There are many people in this world who have been bullied. Bullying should disappear from this world, and there are only negative effects of it. However, if there is any value in the experience of being bullied, it may be that able to understanding the feelings of those who were bullied.
And thank you for watching my channel. I'll be posting more and more videos in the future. This time it was a dark episode, but I'd like to provide some enjoyable stuff as well.👍
Dont worry you have more truly life even if you clean the streets and that are bilioners.Your life is more truely.😍😘
Take my word fighting back wouldn't have helped. When I beat back three they'd come back with five. When I beat five they'd bring seven. Almost always at school with the teachers watching. It didn't end till I walked away from school. Then I was the bad guy for quitting school. 🤭🤭🙄
Thanks for sharing such a private and difficult story, it can help to heal just talking and sharing traumas, its good not to keep those things for your self. All luck and happines to you
I'm sorry no one protected you!
Did your parents not notice you were being bullied?
Has any of the bullies try reaching out and apologizing?
Thank you for sharing your story!
Thanks for watching. I don't think my parents knew I was being bullied at the time. Even if they knew, I thought they would not help me. My parents were very busy with their work and they were very harsh on me.
And none of the bullies ever apologized for me.
This time I talked about my trauma in detail, so it turned out to be a very dark story. 😅 But I am not desperate now, so I am fine now. I just will continue to move forward to get a better future. 👍
Please contact me. After watching this my heart was heavy. I am an African American living in the USA and can relate on SOME levels. I would love to collaborate with you on a music project
I'm curious if it's difficult to discuss about personal inner feelings with Japanese people. Even you yourself are Japanese
I think Japanese people have a tendency to hide their true feelings. A video talking about this might be a good idea. Thanks for the good idea!
Absolute gigachad
If I were you I would take up Kendo or any Japanese martial arts to release your negative emotions, pills are not a solution unless it's traditional medicine such as herbs/acupuncture.
I hope this helps you.
Hi, thank you for sharing your experience. I too was bullied since I was young, and in highschool. But you know there is someone who loves truly and perfectly and that is the Lord Jesus Christ.
I just want to share you that there is always love, hope, forgiveness of sins and eternal life in Jesus. If you come to Him with a sincere and humble repented heart, He can save you and forgive you and give you abundance of joy, love and peace and eternal life. Believe in Jesus: He is The Son of God, He died for our sins and He rose from the dead, Believe in Jesus.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” -John 3:16
“That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.” -Romans 10:9 Repent and Believe in Jesus.
Why did your parents not protect you?
I think when children become traumatised (as you were) and they are unsupported, they come up with child level solutions, like hiding or running away. It makes good sense at the time. It's later on that the early solution becomes a prison and stops all forward motion. I think we have to give validation to our early traumas and rethink those early solutions, in order to move on with our lives. I've had a number of hikikomori episodes in my life and in every case I was dealing with trauma.
Hello. Thanks for your comment. My parents both were busy with their work everyday. And my father was a very harsh man, he was not the kind of person who would help me even if I was in trouble. I didn't see my parents much, and the only person I saw much of at home was my elderly grandmother. My grandfather had died in the war. I think you are right that some adult should have helped the such child early on, but in my case there was no one to rely on. However, it has taken a long time, but recently I think I am finally seeing the light. Now I have hope for the future and I am not despairing at all. 🙂
@@HirosiYamazoe I think your honest sharing about your traumas is a great sign of courageous healing, and I honour you for that.
Because they were human. Basically self interested and evil in nature as humans are.
Hi Yamazoe san! You know why Japan has many Hikikomori? Because they dont have God in their lives. Because they dont believe in God. Please always pray and believe in our God Creator and tell him about all your problems 😄
Hmm.. maybe so. 🤔 But I do not sure the connection between them. There are not many Japanese who believe in "only one god = the creator of the world". But instead, there are many people who believe in pantheism, aminism, and spiritualism.
@@HirosiYamazoe I know that, but I have a question to you, what is Nature, the everyone’s spirituality etc came from? What is body, soul and your mind came from too? Many people nowadays are not believe in the God Creator because they not see God right? But if you start to pray everyday, you and only yourself who will feel the presence of our God Creator and you just need to prove by yourself. You just say that because you don’t want to believe first. God gave us freedom and will we are the only one who creates our destiny. So if do good then the good deeds will come to you. And also bad will come to you
@@HirosiYamazoe and also I know Japanese people are also believe in Money, material things, power, and they believe themselves alone but they did not know that there is more important than that and that is our God. Every things is this world has an end and only God has no limitation or an end. We need to believe and come to our God first or to come God voluntarily so we can proceed our lives continously. Please be more open minded not just only yourself so you can more understand the real meaning of life and His creation. 😄
@@HirosiYamazoe I already watched again your video and I am very sad what is happened in your past experience about bullying. You know I was bullied before many many many times but now I understand my past bad experience about bullying. I forgive them and pray for them. I prayed that God forgive them what they did to me. And now I prayed that God please take me away from all negatives and be more happy and now It really works! I have good friends and I become more happy! Because I forgive my past bad experience and then I forward my life right now. If you willing, I will introduce you to my Japanese friend who is missionary of Jesus Christ. So you can be more have friends 🤗
Hi! I just watched your video. This world is ruled by the devil that's why many evil things are happening. Those people who bullied you are used by the devil to destroy you. I am glad that you know that there is hope. God is our hope. Please seek God, inquire about Him. Read the Bible, accept the Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, receive the Holy Spirit. Let us always draw near to God, He will give us victory over all the enemies.
but don't fall to false churches out there.. there are so many.. seek true relationship with God, and pray to God to lead you to the right church
i hear u on abusers still somehow making it big in the world.. thanks for talking about your experience. i am a Hikikomori and have been for years now. i was a bully and basically i feel bad for it and i want to isolate so i dont hurt others and i can just die. so talking about thinking about hanging your self when u were 11. same tho for me 8-9 and basically i am still haunted by what i did to a friend and idk wanting to isolate. i have apologized and i dont think it will ever change how i see my self. tho most bullies like my friend james dont see anything wrong with what he did, and he is now successful and yeah just the injustice and the lack of seeing from society. u were their scapegoat.
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dont worry my friend, in some way those idiots will pay all the bad things they did to you in this world, is sad, but this society is full of fake people, thanks for share this with us Hiroshi☘️
Yes, there are many fake people in this society. As the history of crime in the United States reveals, it is often the case that socially accepted "admirable men" are committing heinous crimes. They are called "psychopaths", I hear. But I don't despair of this world. I have met so many kind people in my travels the world. 🙂
Thank you.