I'm dead inside; my mind's a flawed author, Writing tales of my own dark slaughter. Bury me deep with my regrets and lies, With secrets and sins that never die.Sorry, mother, for being a bad son, But every action I took was my own burden. Loneliness has always been my only friend, Depression isn't something I could amend.I'm lost in shadows, can't find the light, Caught in the web of endless night. Every breath feels like a mistake, A twisted fate I can't escape.These scars on my soul, they won't heal, A broken heart that can no longer feel. I'm just a ghost of who I used to be, Lost in this abyss, set me free.
@@user-nr9mn7um7z To your earlier reply that disappeared: You have already made music, as seen from the above comment. I too try to express my pain through words and melodies that mostly stay in my own head. But even just leaving subtle comments here, can reach the right person who needs to see their own pain expressed beyond their seemingly isolated world. Every place where humans can connect, even here, is a chance for change and a ground for creation. You have created. This is the living proof of your voice, and it is healing :) to me as well. And to be honest, having been in a similar place as you once, you will not truly get your old self back. Because you have gone through a stage of suffering, a time of deep tribulation, you have experienced new levels of your humanity. You have acquired the knowledge and experience of what it’s like to feel like a broken spirit, and even though it can be incredibly difficult to see through this lens: you have been given a chance to become your most resilient self, a version of you your old self did not reach, a version that slowly learns to create your own balance, stability, and eventually true joy. All of what you had before, except with the added wisdom of hardship and the ability to become more and more unshakable over time. I promise you, that is the actual version of you that you must wish for. And though it may seem a grand task, it really is all in the little steps every single day. Have faith. Continue to express all that you feel, and you’ll also notice how you start to find your voice in songwriting the more you put it to practice (I used to suck at it lol but over time built up something that deeply satisfies me). That songwriting voice, will expand into other aspects of yourself that will grow you into a newer and even fuller you. Find the little things that bring meaning everyday, and try to just live day by day if the future seems overwhelming. You have helped me, stranger. You reminded me of the things I just typed out, and I needed to be reminded of them. Thank you! And keep writing. I got you brother/sister 👊 in spirit. YOU got this. Check in once in a while if you want :)
@@chopin7788 thanks alot fot your kind words and motivation... It means alot to me... To be honest I'm so lonely, I've social anxiety, it's hard for me to be Myself around people, I'm a people pleaser (which i hate about me) cuz i have a broken self image, zero confidence, but i know that I've got something in me.... Can we plz be friends... I know i have a lot of issues which doesn't let me keep my friends around, but please can we be friends?? Please, I've been suffering from gynophobia my whole life as i was addicted to porn because of my broken home, constant bullying in school, loneliness, anger issues...i isolated myself thinking if i work hard I'll become a great EDM music producer , but my vices yook over me....I'm 34 yo... With zero social skill, no friends, (the only friend i had for several years betrayed me, and took my only girlfriend i made in this lifetime, which turned out to be a fake relationship, she used me emotionally, she pushed me to the deepest corner of hell, knowing i was already in it..... Can we be friends plz?? I know rn i habe lost all previous quality.. I used to have a ton of friends.... I lost my soul trying to gain the whole world.... Can be friends please?? I'm too sensitive, I'm too naive for this world, i suck at keeping friends now.. But would you give me a chance??
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I'm dead inside; my mind's a flawed author,
Writing tales of my own dark slaughter.
Bury me deep with my regrets and lies,
With secrets and sins that never die.Sorry, mother, for being a bad son,
But every action I took was my own burden.
Loneliness has always been my only friend,
Depression isn't something I could amend.I'm lost in shadows, can't find the light,
Caught in the web of endless night.
Every breath feels like a mistake,
A twisted fate I can't escape.These scars on my soul, they won't heal,
A broken heart that can no longer feel.
I'm just a ghost of who I used to be,
Lost in this abyss, set me free.
Your words have the power to heal :) keep making these
@@user-nr9mn7um7z To your earlier reply that disappeared:
You have already made music, as seen from the above comment. I too try to express my pain through words and melodies that mostly stay in my own head. But even just leaving subtle comments here, can reach the right person who needs to see their own pain expressed beyond their seemingly isolated world. Every place where humans can connect, even here, is a chance for change and a ground for creation. You have created. This is the living proof of your voice, and it is healing :) to me as well. And to be honest, having been in a similar place as you once, you will not truly get your old self back. Because you have gone through a stage of suffering, a time of deep tribulation, you have experienced new levels of your humanity. You have acquired the knowledge and experience of what it’s like to feel like a broken spirit, and even though it can be incredibly difficult to see through this lens: you have been given a chance to become your most resilient self, a version of you your old self did not reach, a version that slowly learns to create your own balance, stability, and eventually true joy. All of what you had before, except with the added wisdom of hardship and the ability to become more and more unshakable over time. I promise you, that is the actual version of you that you must wish for. And though it may seem a grand task, it really is all in the little steps every single day. Have faith. Continue to express all that you feel, and you’ll also notice how you start to find your voice in songwriting the more you put it to practice (I used to suck at it lol but over time built up something that deeply satisfies me). That songwriting voice, will expand into other aspects of yourself that will grow you into a newer and even fuller you. Find the little things that bring meaning everyday, and try to just live day by day if the future seems overwhelming. You have helped me, stranger. You reminded me of the things I just typed out, and I needed to be reminded of them. Thank you! And keep writing. I got you brother/sister 👊 in spirit. YOU got this. Check in once in a while if you want :)
@@chopin7788 thanks alot fot your kind words and motivation... It means alot to me... To be honest I'm so lonely, I've social anxiety, it's hard for me to be Myself around people, I'm a people pleaser (which i hate about me) cuz i have a broken self image, zero confidence, but i know that I've got something in me.... Can we plz be friends... I know i have a lot of issues which doesn't let me keep my friends around, but please can we be friends?? Please, I've been suffering from gynophobia my whole life as i was addicted to porn because of my broken home, constant bullying in school, loneliness, anger issues...i isolated myself thinking if i work hard I'll become a great EDM music producer , but my vices yook over me....I'm 34 yo... With zero social skill, no friends, (the only friend i had for several years betrayed me, and took my only girlfriend i made in this lifetime, which turned out to be a fake relationship, she used me emotionally, she pushed me to the deepest corner of hell, knowing i was already in it.....
Can we be friends plz?? I know rn i habe lost all previous quality.. I used to have a ton of friends....
I lost my soul trying to gain the whole world.... Can be friends please?? I'm too sensitive, I'm too naive for this world, i suck at keeping friends now.. But would you give me a chance??
@@chopin7788 thanks alot for your kind words..appreciate it