Court has such a different energy nowadays than she did on early Smosh, more so than other cast members I think. It’s like she’s the pokemon evolved version of herself now, much more confident.
i think back when she joined she was super young (19 or something?) and had been a big fan of ian and anthony so i can't even imagine how intimidating it all was! she was great back then but she's definitely grown so much
I’ve gone back recently and watched some of the really early videos which I hadn’t seen and I noticed that too. So much more confident and self-assured. It’s so cool to see that difference.
I remember when I first started watching Smosh a few years ago, Courtney was my least favourite because she always felt so forced, especially on TNTL where everything just fell flat. They're one of my favourites now. Just shows how much difference confidence and living your truth makes. :)
I’m crying 😭. Amanda proceeding to say her crushes are all over the place: Vin Diesel, Ashton Kutcher and Leonardo DiCaprio 😂😂😅. And then proceeds to say don’t be a poser! Good one babe.
I feel Amanda so much in this episode! I was a freshman (14) in 2004-2005 and omg SONG LYRICS… The used and all other depressing bands!! And no I was NOT Emo (that was in 8th grade) 🤣
I want a skit with two people playing Amanda at the same time. One calm Amanda, one pissed off Amanda, reading the same journal entry, going back and forth
@@marydsci really hope they post simple episodes like these some day. like how they did back in the defy era (courtney doing her boys' makeup). it was just plain simple and fun.
@@delaneyrussell4867 "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around - nobody big. I mean - except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be." - J.D. Salinger And, in so many ways, isn't that what Shayne and the rest of the Smosh team do, along with all the other wholesome UA-camrs who take time out of their lives to bring meaning to ours? Aren't we all, in so many ways, just little kids playing a game in a big field that none of us really understand? Thanks for being our catchers in the rye, Smosh. And Shayne in particular - I very much love the genuine advice given on the Reddit videos. I'm grateful for you all.
Why was the clip of Courtney saying “Shayne, you brought one too!?” Then cutting to Shayne making that face with his wittle journal was oddly so cute and wholesome 🥹 it’s the little things that make me happy people 😆😅
Speaking as someone who kept a diary pretty consistently since 2nd grade until the past couple years, probably reaching about ten ish if they were composition books and she stopped around college (I think I might have eight, I can't remember now)
57:10 Courtney: "I pictured you liking girls with darker hair and darker features" *Jackie pops up from behind the set* : "Have you ever been with a black woman?"
Ideas: Reading diaries but it’s completely fake and you have to guess who wrote it Have Lisa and Zoe on the podcast to talk about how the company works
knowing that they were more than likely freshly engaged before this makes the joke “we haven’t talked…. i havent talked to her at all” SO much funnier 🤣🤣🤣
I also had that diary project in high school. I remember once writing about what animal each student looked like and my teacher cackling while reading it.
As a queer person who was raised in a household where religion excused abuse, I didn't admit to myself that I was not straight until I was 18 and on my own... and learned not to have internalized misogyny and self-hatred. Courtney's journal entry thinking they had sinned for kissing a girl made me tear up. It's been amazing to see them out and proud and sharing their journey. She has grown and blossomed so much in the time I've watched smosh--personality, humor, etc. I wish all my fellow gaybies the best 🥹
Awh! Always know you’re worthwhile and I’m glad you have smosh to rely on in that way but my thoughts and heart go to you and I believe you’re worth is so much more than you think!
Shayne's journal entries that he shared are truly reflective of his desire to understand the world/people around him and to be a positive/loving influence to others. These are pieces of what matters most to Shayne... I'm very impressed and honored to have gotten that glimpse into this internet funny-man's innermost being. "The Chosen" is a silly, exaggerated character, but at the same time has an innocent sincerity that is pleaseant to the audience. Just like Shayne is silly and exaggerated on camera, but also has these deeper elements that are a peak into his inner world. A humanizing and healing experience watching the podcast today. All three have done a fantastic job of delving into the human experience of growing up and experiencing awareness of the Self and reality. This podcast is beneficial for those who seek validation and desire deeper introspection. :)
I hope Shayne writes for himself now. Teenage him must've been exhausted LMAO. Rooting for you guy. Amanda's journal entries were so all over the place, I LOVED THEM. Super fun, especially with the added context of HER TEACHER READING IT.
God, our teenage years were so ruthless to us: we felt everything and thought too much or philosophized everything. But also, we didn't know and understand anything.
Looking back and seeing how Shayne says "We haven't talked" and Amanda says "That's weird because even I've talked to Courtney" is a better joke now that we know they're married
The sheer excitement Courtney had when Shayne brought his journal out? That's healing, baby, Shayne must really not share much of himself in that way for Courtney to get so excited despite them being so close
Amanda’s boob troubles brought back lots of bad memories for me. I had a B cup in 7th grade that grew to be a D cup by Freshman year. I was 5’ 2” and 125 lbs, but all boobs. I wanted to be seen for me, not my boobs, but I got nothing but creeps after me because of it. I have a wonderful man now (30 years together) who sees ME and loves ME. He’s actually a leg man. 😂😂😂
48:20 - "people rarely give it much thought" as he describes literally *the oldest philosophical question in the world* 🤣🤣 and then goes on to outline Aristotle's entire "eudamonia" argument 😂 he really is The Chosen.
I had to journal in an English class in hs, I opened up about hating my perfectionist tendencies and my teacher gave me advice that I still use to this day. Some people are just meant to be mentors
Amanda's journal entry about people not seeing her and only caring about her body hit so hard. Teen her is so genuinely frustrated and horrified. It's such a crystallisation of the moment every girl has where they come to terms with being pretty much constantly objectified in some way as just the way shit is in society.
it's so funny to me how Shayne was talking about his diary and then Courtney and Amanda did not process that until he showed the journal and they were like "woah what's this" and proceed to have him basically re-explain
Omg Courtney telling her "I heard you date everyone" story really resonated with me. I was that girl, the so-called "easy" one, and it for sure messed me up growing up. More than 15 years later I still feel the sting of those words. Thanks for sharing ❤🩹
The random "Aaaaaa" and "oh my god oh my god" in Amanda's journal entries are so real. I know from experience that my entries when I was younger were just me realizing stuff as I was writing and desperately trying to capture the emotion I was feeling even though my hand would be cramping up like crazy.
i imagine he wrote every entry like some kind of soliloquy lol. but i do hope he's finding it easier to be actually vulnerable in his writing bc i was the SAME way journaling as a kid/teenager where I always felt like someone was going to find my work and read it so i needed to be all formal and stuff without ever actually putting down how i was feeling.
45:13 - Shayne don't cringe too hard, what you said was on point - and especially for someone of your age at the time, it - particularly about hateful people acting out of the same "need" for attention as those who act nice (or out of genuine kindness) - is a pretty damn deep insight into the "human condition" that is unfortunately lost on many who are even twice, three times that age. It tracks then that you pursued your degree in psychology.
Aww shayne.. i cant help but feel bad for his younger self. he was put under a lot of pressure, so much so that he could barely be a kid. That seemed to have really had an impact on his confidence and self image growing up. I'm glad he was able to grow from that, having the weight of your career on your shoulders at such a young age was definitely not easy. I'm glad he was able to grow into the amazing, capable adult that he is today. We luv u shayne
Amanda talking about how her Portuguese side was more open is so true. both sides of my family are super portuguese and i basically know everything thats happening and it's all super unfiltered. love this episode
amanda reading her journal and going "everyone in my class is so... i'm not gonna say that, i'll just say dumb" LMAOOO we all know what that word was 😭😭😭
absolutely love courtney. she’s a huge inspiration to me when it comes to confidence and my gender identity journey! so proud of her ❤ their energy with shayne and amanda is unmatched.
I kept a journal until my mom read it - it was so much personal stuff that I never trusted writing my feelings out again. Even now at 32 I will type out on notes app then delete it just to get the feelings out.
Former teacher, the "journal every day" or "write every day" kind of assignment is pretty common in a lot of middle-to-high school English classes because it's often REALLY effective at improving kids' writing skills. Getting that daily practice in, even if you write incoherent bullshit, ends up being valuable. And Amanda is right, a lot of kids start off writing lies, but eventually they start writing more truthful stuff because it plays against kids' attention spans. After a while, you'll get tired of writing the same kinds of lies and start writing what you really think just to feel something different.
I remember writing journal entries for class and one thing I really liked from a class is the teacher would give specific guide prompts that led away from the typical "today I studied!" style of expectations for the entries. I thought he did a good job of allowing all of us to go into it without feeling like we have to fake it to please his expectations.
As a 17 year old Amanda stories made me feel so seen and gave me a little hope there’s a little rainbow at the end of all my emotional turmoil. Shayne’s “no one‘s thinking about this“ entries are so real. All in all it inspired me to pick up my journal.
It's a bit odd how the content we watch ends up impacting us in these little ways. I have also thought of "oh my god, X" with Chanse's voice in my head. Or Angela's "it's crazy to see your heroes at work".
"well you have a bunch of people figuring out life at the exact same time" "they're all just bullying each other on what they think is okay, and what they think is normal and so everyone is battling on like what's normal and what's not" this definitely extends well into adulthood. Nobody fully understands life and existence and humanity as a whole or even themselves and everyone just fights about what they believe to be right putting down people who disagree with them instead of actually trying to reach an agreement that works for all parties, for everyone's unique differences. It's the same problems just in different forms
So cool to hear that Courtney is a Pit director now. Idk about everyone else but I’m so fascinated by the inner workings of Smosh as a business and wish they talked about it more. Kiana is still a Pit director too right?
The way Shayne explained how he wrote in journals was my main reason I stopped journaling. (Especially with the entries he read, that's literally how I wrote and I cringed hard at myself.) I self-edited a lot and I was always on guard because I was being watched or that anything I did or in this case, wrote, should matter. And that never felt right with me because I wasn't being true to myself. So I stopped writing which is a shame because I had so many memories I wanted to keep and reminisce on and I just slowly forgot them over time. Hopefully, after being inspired by this episode, I could get back to journaling and try to express myself in the most candid and genuine ways possible like Amanda and Courtney did in their diaries.
The thing with the journal thing too is that teachers can be able to potentially tell if the student is going through something and be able to help or bring concerns to parents.
In sophomore year, Mrs. Meyers- teacher extraordinaire, had us do the journal thing. She wouldn’t write back but she WOULD talk to you individually about allllll of it. It was amazing. I wish I still had my copy. My husband was in that class with me (bestie at the time lol) and still has his! I still get annoyed to see he had a crush on me and never said anything sooner lmfao 😂😂
Oh my goodness the beginning of this video where is Shayne's all like "what have you been up to since we were last here?...we haven't talked" (biggest lie ever ) 😂😭💝 and then Amanda being like "weird I've talked to Courtney" 😂😂 all the awkwardness makes so much sense now 😭 😊
I was the same way when I was a teenager. The character of The Chosen feels like a superiority complex mask a lot of people take on when they feel insecure, small, or unimportant but have the capacity for self-awareness, something that can "feel" special. It feels like the mask is an attempt to rationalize those feelings of inferiority , but by taking on that character we isolate ourselves from so many other people who ALSO can be self-aware and feel insecure, small, and unimportant, thus most of us realize it's an unhealthy coping mechanism(though not all). It was great to hear that the character of The Chosen came from Shayne's past, very relatable.
For anyone that doesn't know, MCAS (pronounced "em-cass", but I'm not sure what it actually stands for) is the standardized testing that kids in public school in Massachusetts have to do from 3rd-11th grade and must pass to graduate high school. I think the testing was what Amanda's teacher was talking about in that response to her journal, not an actual person being codenamed "MCAS"
As someone who's 19 who's had a unique and pretty rough teens experience, and is about to move out of my tiny home town for the first time, it is so reassuring and comforting to hear these stories, and be reminded that so many other people feel or have felt the same ways that I have been. I really appreciate how transparent and supportive they are talking about these kinds of things. I think I needed this today
Honestly even though Shayne’s journal is so guarded, I could never write stuff like that and I’m around that age lol. It’s guarded, but you do need to have some confidence to write like that and not feel self-conscious.
AHH it’s so important to have those genuine connections with teachers through writing assignments like that! My freshman year a very unfortunate situation happened with a student and it deeply impacted the school, but instead of ignoring it like every other teacher, my English teacher let us vent via writing how we felt about the situation and wrote us back validating our feelings and offering resources for counseling ❤️ As kids we are so in our heads about things that a responsible and respectful adult can help us navigate. Love y’all!
This episode was wicked deep, I can't believe Shayne invented philosophy
You could say it was...impressive
@@clairevamp had to read it in chosen voice 🤣. You don't need to imagine it, you hear it instinctively.
Another Banger by Shayne Topp from iCarly
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Impressive
What do they mean last ep with chanse?
Courtney reading the teacher's note: Dear Amanda...
Amanda: Keep in mind he looked like Professor Snape
Courtney: _Dear Amanda..._
That was hilarious
31:07
I was doing dishes when that part happened and I literally doubled over laughing 💀
How do you do italics? 😂
@@Aveeguides If you haven't found the answer yet, you just use this character "_" at the beginning and end of the sentence. _like this._
Court has such a different energy nowadays than she did on early Smosh, more so than other cast members I think. It’s like she’s the pokemon evolved version of herself now, much more confident.
i think back when she joined she was super young (19 or something?) and had been a big fan of ian and anthony so i can't even imagine how intimidating it all was! she was great back then but she's definitely grown so much
Their confidence is amazing. They seemed a little needy all those years ago but that's kinda normal when you're young. Their growth is so beautiful.
I’ve gone back recently and watched some of the really early videos which I hadn’t seen and I noticed that too. So much more confident and self-assured. It’s so cool to see that difference.
I remember when I first started watching Smosh a few years ago, Courtney was my least favourite because she always felt so forced, especially on TNTL where everything just fell flat. They're one of my favourites now. Just shows how much difference confidence and living your truth makes. :)
And she didnt lose her spark
She learned how to share it
Amanda FULLY talking shit about all of her classmates in her journal to her teacher is INSANE😭😭😭 I cannot breathe she is braver than the marines
LMAOOOOOO😂😂
I’m crying 😭. Amanda proceeding to say her crushes are all over the place: Vin Diesel, Ashton Kutcher and Leonardo DiCaprio 😂😂😅. And then proceeds to say don’t be a poser! Good one babe.
I NEED MORE OF AMANDAS DIARY,LIKE IF WE HAD A VIDEO WITH JUST AMANDA READING HER JOURNAL WITH LIKE ANIMATION I WOULD DIE
I feel Amanda so much in this episode! I was a freshman (14) in 2004-2005 and omg SONG LYRICS… The used and all other depressing bands!! And no I was NOT Emo (that was in 8th grade) 🤣
Smoshmouth is lowkey highkey therapy
Very lowkey highkey
Highkey, such a Lowkey comment
Shayne using that degree 👏
@@michaelbateman2563Always!
100% 👌
I want a skit with two people playing Amanda at the same time. One calm Amanda, one pissed off Amanda, reading the same journal entry, going back and forth
Yes! This!
I love this idea!
Chanse as calm Amanda and Angela as pissed off Amanda
@@joaopedroathayde757 No I want Amanda as both, spliced together in editing
Lindsay Lohan Parent Trap style!
If this doesn't get followed by a Smosh Pit Theatre episode of the entries they didn't include here I WILL be throwing a tantrum like a 5 year old
I'll just be having a full on adult tantrum. More powerful than a 5 year old tantrum because I can explain why I'm tantruming.
smosh pit theatre my beloved
I also want to see Shayne try to do Amanda's makeup!!
@@marydsci really hope they post simple episodes like these some day. like how they did back in the defy era (courtney doing her boys' makeup). it was just plain simple and fun.
You can’t be here, they only make giggles for 8 year olds
0:30 dying rn "we havent talked" " I've been up to alot"👀 her little smirk 😭❤ im so happy for them❤
I wonder what the I have been up to alot? The mustache a clue lol😊
fr I just found this episode and it is so obvious that they had recently gotten engaged at this point and its adorable
I don't know whether I love Amanda's totally typical teenage girl problems or Shayne channeling Holden Caulfield more. Priceless.
Not Holden Caulfield🫢😭
@@delaneyrussell4867 "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around - nobody big. I mean - except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be." - J.D. Salinger
And, in so many ways, isn't that what Shayne and the rest of the Smosh team do, along with all the other wholesome UA-camrs who take time out of their lives to bring meaning to ours? Aren't we all, in so many ways, just little kids playing a game in a big field that none of us really understand?
Thanks for being our catchers in the rye, Smosh. And Shayne in particular - I very much love the genuine advice given on the Reddit videos. I'm grateful for you all.
Omg teen Shane is SOOOO catcher in the rye coded
Why was the clip of Courtney saying “Shayne, you brought one too!?” Then cutting to Shayne making that face with his wittle journal was oddly so cute and wholesome 🥹 it’s the little things that make me happy people 😆😅
BECAUSE THEY WERE ENGAGE❤😂😂
I love how Courtney recorded every moment of her childhood in journals, like giiirl how many you got? 😂😂
Heck, she still might write! I have journals from middle school to yesterday.
Speaking as someone who kept a diary pretty consistently since 2nd grade until the past couple years, probably reaching about ten ish if they were composition books and she stopped around college (I think I might have eight, I can't remember now)
Yeah and Amanda has wayyyy more lmao
57:10 Courtney: "I pictured you liking girls with darker hair and darker features"
*Jackie pops up from behind the set* : "Have you ever been with a black woman?"
😂
Very this!@@Blocksbuster
Courtney has never been more excited than when Shayne pulled out his journal
Courtney's giddy energy, when Shayne opens up his journal, is adorable.
Ideas:
Reading diaries but it’s completely fake and you have to guess who wrote it
Have Lisa and Zoe on the podcast to talk about how the company works
Genius ideas !!!!!!!!!!
That'd be fun!
I would love the Lisa and Zoe one!
Okay that would be so iconic
Great idea. This podcast would be a great opportunity to highlight crew members if they'd allow it.
After this episode, I learned the greatest psyop was Shayne convincing everyone The Chosen was based on Spencer
Crazy how amanda had a crush on DiCaprio 20 years ago and now she's the one who's too old for him 🥶
That's WILD 💀💀💀
I was looking for this comment
on god when she brought up the 14 year age difference, i was like yeah i dont think leo woulda cared
that means they are meant to be in the end
That’s what I was thinking too lmao 💀
knowing that they were more than likely freshly engaged before this makes the joke “we haven’t talked…. i havent talked to her at all” SO much funnier 🤣🤣🤣
Well, perhap they've been busy with other things...
I see myself out.
My mom on 09/26/02: holding her newborn baby girl who she just birthed into existence
Amanda on 09/26/02: George bush’s head is weird??? hahaha
Shayne: What's this about George Bush's head?
Courtney, matter of factly: It looks like a lemon. Anyways-
Shayne: 👁👄👁??????
I could not picture George Bush's head if my life depended on it.
I also had that diary project in high school. I remember once writing about what animal each student looked like and my teacher cackling while reading it.
this is so funny omggg
As a queer person who was raised in a household where religion excused abuse, I didn't admit to myself that I was not straight until I was 18 and on my own... and learned not to have internalized misogyny and self-hatred. Courtney's journal entry thinking they had sinned for kissing a girl made me tear up. It's been amazing to see them out and proud and sharing their journey. She has grown and blossomed so much in the time I've watched smosh--personality, humor, etc. I wish all my fellow gaybies the best 🥹
Did you really just misgender courtney? You misogynist bigot!!
Yeah i feel the same wayyyy 😭 that part really got me
@@cooperharris7583? 💀 Courtney uses both she and they pronouns
this might sound sad but at the moment smosh is one of the only things I look forward to. I'm so grateful for you guys
Same
Hugs from afar!
same
Awh! Always know you’re worthwhile and I’m glad you have smosh to rely on in that way but my thoughts and heart go to you and I believe you’re worth is so much more than you think!
not sad at all, that’s why they make the content! i’m in the same boat rn, anything keeping you afloat is worthwhile 💞
Honestly, this ep should have been our biggest shartney clue, the way she looks at him when he reads his journal is absolute adoration
This shade of green always looks soooo good on Courtney 💚 gurlie looks FRESH AF
They always look fresh
@@pamelah1220Right??? They are actually always always on point
Shayne's journal entries that he shared are truly reflective of his desire to understand the world/people around him and to be a positive/loving influence to others. These are pieces of what matters most to Shayne... I'm very impressed and honored to have gotten that glimpse into this internet funny-man's innermost being. "The Chosen" is a silly, exaggerated character, but at the same time has an innocent sincerity that is pleaseant to the audience. Just like Shayne is silly and exaggerated on camera, but also has these deeper elements that are a peak into his inner world. A humanizing and healing experience watching the podcast today. All three have done a fantastic job of delving into the human experience of growing up and experiencing awareness of the Self and reality. This podcast is beneficial for those who seek validation and desire deeper introspection. :)
So well said 👏🏻
It was absolutely a delight hearing his journal entries, especially as someone who felt so alone in these feelings growing up!
I hope Shayne writes for himself now. Teenage him must've been exhausted LMAO. Rooting for you guy.
Amanda's journal entries were so all over the place, I LOVED THEM. Super fun, especially with the added context of HER TEACHER READING IT.
You know the parasocial relationship is strong when you can name Shayne’s favorite tv show before Amanda and Court 😭😭😭
God, our teenage years were so ruthless to us: we felt everything and thought too much or philosophized everything. But also, we didn't know and understand anything.
Dudeeeee when Courtney was saying “I pictured you liking girls with darker hair and darker features” but she’s the complete opposite 😭😭
Amanda on dating Leo DiCaprio : "it's only a 14 year difference"
Still too old for him, sorry Amanda.
Looking back and seeing how Shayne says "We haven't talked" and Amanda says "That's weird because even I've talked to Courtney" is a better joke now that we know they're married
'It looks like a lemon, can i read one' i love courtney so much
The clues where there. So happy for them
The sheer excitement Courtney had when Shayne brought his journal out? That's healing, baby, Shayne must really not share much of himself in that way for Courtney to get so excited despite them being so close
Lol
Hearing Amanda's childhood rage and rapid jumps between topics was honestly healing for me hahaha
Amanda’s boob troubles brought back lots of bad memories for me. I had a B cup in 7th grade that grew to be a D cup by Freshman year. I was 5’ 2” and 125 lbs, but all boobs. I wanted to be seen for me, not my boobs, but I got nothing but creeps after me because of it. I have a wonderful man now (30 years together) who sees ME and loves ME. He’s actually a leg man. 😂😂😂
That last line had me 💀
peg leg man
@@trevors7646pegged, leg man
relate to this sooo hard (4'8, E cup) it was hell
LEG MAN DEAD hope to find this for myself too 😂
48:20 - "people rarely give it much thought" as he describes literally *the oldest philosophical question in the world* 🤣🤣 and then goes on to outline Aristotle's entire "eudamonia" argument 😂 he really is The Chosen.
I had to journal in an English class in hs, I opened up about hating my perfectionist tendencies and my teacher gave me advice that I still use to this day. Some people are just meant to be mentors
What was the advice?
Amanda's journal entry about people not seeing her and only caring about her body hit so hard. Teen her is so genuinely frustrated and horrified. It's such a crystallisation of the moment every girl has where they come to terms with being pretty much constantly objectified in some way as just the way shit is in society.
These two would make a great couple
This a joke right lmao
I ship Courtney and Amanda❤️
I love how compassionate Courtney is...
it's so funny to me how Shayne was talking about his diary and then Courtney and Amanda did not process that until he showed the journal and they were like "woah what's this" and proceed to have him basically re-explain
Omg Courtney telling her "I heard you date everyone" story really resonated with me. I was that girl, the so-called "easy" one, and it for sure messed me up growing up. More than 15 years later I still feel the sting of those words. Thanks for sharing ❤🩹
The random "Aaaaaa" and "oh my god oh my god" in Amanda's journal entries are so real. I know from experience that my entries when I was younger were just me realizing stuff as I was writing and desperately trying to capture the emotion I was feeling even though my hand would be cramping up like crazy.
“I don’t speak to her that much” while they were literally engaged
Shayne knowing what he's bringing to the table when Courtney is sad that no one brought anything 😆
Now that I know they were engaged during this time and Shayne saying I haven’t talked to Courtney and Amanda laughing at that is even more hilarious
Two of these people are now married to each other and the fact that that is now a fact is both wonderful and absolutely nuts.
I really wanted to give Amanda such a big hug when she was reading her entry about "See me for me"
I would die to read Shayne's journal, the inside of this man's brain is so fascinating to me, I love him so much
i imagine he wrote every entry like some kind of soliloquy lol.
but i do hope he's finding it easier to be actually vulnerable in his writing bc i was the SAME way journaling as a kid/teenager where I always felt like someone was going to find my work and read it so i needed to be all formal and stuff without ever actually putting down how i was feeling.
It is so brave of them to be this open. I was cringing so hard over Shayne's diary, because that is exactly how I was as a teen too ^^"
There's no need to cringe about it. It's honestly not even embarrassing.
Ummm... we need a redo of the makeup video! We saw courtney do shayne's makeup, now I wanna see shayne genuinely do someone's makeup!!!!
45:13 - Shayne don't cringe too hard, what you said was on point - and especially for someone of your age at the time, it - particularly about hateful people acting out of the same "need" for attention as those who act nice (or out of genuine kindness) - is a pretty damn deep insight into the "human condition" that is unfortunately lost on many who are even twice, three times that age. It tracks then that you pursued your degree in psychology.
I was thinking the same thing about him doing a psych degree. It tracks
Aww shayne.. i cant help but feel bad for his younger self. he was put under a lot of pressure, so much so that he could barely be a kid. That seemed to have really had an impact on his confidence and self image growing up. I'm glad he was able to grow from that, having the weight of your career on your shoulders at such a young age was definitely not easy. I'm glad he was able to grow into the amazing, capable adult that he is today. We luv u shayne
i think that’s what’s so good about smosh for him because he has freedom to be silly and childish
I feel like Amandas diaries are an example of how diaries can be theraupetic when you recognize your own emotions
Amanda talking about how her Portuguese side was more open is so true. both sides of my family are super portuguese and i basically know everything thats happening and it's all super unfiltered. love this episode
46:42
STOPPPPPPP
her face when he talks about love😭😭😭
No wonder!
I always wondered why Courtney looked SOOOO enamored/adoring at that speech but now it makes sense. So sweet 🥹
you guys should have Kimmy on, so she and Amanda can regale Shayne with stories of their time at the restaurant.
They should do it 100%. Would be a missed opportunity.
I’ve been waiting for that one every single week 😭
amanda reading her journal and going "everyone in my class is so... i'm not gonna say that, i'll just say dumb" LMAOOO we all know what that word was 😭😭😭
absolutely love courtney. she’s a huge inspiration to me when it comes to confidence and my gender identity journey! so proud of her ❤ their energy with shayne and amanda is unmatched.
I kept a journal until my mom read it - it was so much personal stuff that I never trusted writing my feelings out again. Even now at 32 I will type out on notes app then delete it just to get the feelings out.
Omg. I just commented something similar. It is such a deep betrayal. Hopefully one day we'll learn how to write fearlessly again
Courtney’s response to Shayne pulling out his own diary is so sweet and lovely
Anyone here bc they’re skimming through all the Shayne Courtney videos after the wedding post
yup
Casually tho Casually
The Courtney and Shayne Post-Wedding video tour through the channels
Im just drinking a beer and binge watching smosh vids.
wish they would add captions to the work wife vs work husband quiz tho
Shaynes journal is just what i think Fearnies inner monolouge is 24/7
Former teacher, the "journal every day" or "write every day" kind of assignment is pretty common in a lot of middle-to-high school English classes because it's often REALLY effective at improving kids' writing skills. Getting that daily practice in, even if you write incoherent bullshit, ends up being valuable. And Amanda is right, a lot of kids start off writing lies, but eventually they start writing more truthful stuff because it plays against kids' attention spans. After a while, you'll get tired of writing the same kinds of lies and start writing what you really think just to feel something different.
courtney’s childhood sounds so interesting and a bit devastating. they’re so funny but so deep and vulnerable. i love court
Courtney is SUCH a good and genuine friend to Shayne, it’s so wholesome to see
shane repeatedly trying to bring the conversation back to george bush's head and being brushed off every time is so funny
I love that Shayne started reading as the chosen because it’s uncomfortable and vulnerable and then started to transition to himself. ❤
It was a very sweet transition. This was such a vulnerable podcast for all of them, but I'm grateful
Same!!
I remember writing journal entries for class and one thing I really liked from a class is the teacher would give specific guide prompts that led away from the typical "today I studied!" style of expectations for the entries. I thought he did a good job of allowing all of us to go into it without feeling like we have to fake it to please his expectations.
Okay but why did I cry at shaynes first entry?? That was incredibly insightful and thoughtful for a teenager and so well written. Virgos 😭
YES MORE OF COURTNEY’S CHILDHOOD JOURNALS!
As a 17 year old Amanda stories made me feel so seen and gave me a little hope there’s a little rainbow at the end of all my emotional turmoil. Shayne’s “no one‘s thinking about this“ entries are so real. All in all it inspired me to pick up my journal.
First thing that happened when I saw this: I smiled and said “oh my god, Courtney” the same way Chanse says “Oh my god, Angela”
It's a bit odd how the content we watch ends up impacting us in these little ways. I have also thought of "oh my god, X" with Chanse's voice in my head. Or Angela's "it's crazy to see your heroes at work".
Wake up
I love shayne saying he hasnt talked to court when they were only a few months away from their wedding.
Amanda finally able to tell her journal stories lmao
"well you have a bunch of people figuring out life at the exact same time" "they're all just bullying each other on what they think is okay, and what they think is normal and so everyone is battling on like what's normal and what's not" this definitely extends well into adulthood. Nobody fully understands life and existence and humanity as a whole or even themselves and everyone just fights about what they believe to be right putting down people who disagree with them instead of actually trying to reach an agreement that works for all parties, for everyone's unique differences. It's the same problems just in different forms
"I just figured out that I have no friends."
Same. 😅😂
I felt bad for laughing when she read that
So cool to hear that Courtney is a Pit director now. Idk about everyone else but I’m so fascinated by the inner workings of Smosh as a business and wish they talked about it more. Kiana is still a Pit director too right?
The intro was so soft and delicate! Like coming in to a warm hug. 😊
This made me gag
@@00piumooThat’s what she said
The way Shayne explained how he wrote in journals was my main reason I stopped journaling. (Especially with the entries he read, that's literally how I wrote and I cringed hard at myself.)
I self-edited a lot and I was always on guard because I was being watched or that anything I did or in this case, wrote, should matter. And that never felt right with me because I wasn't being true to myself. So I stopped writing which is a shame because I had so many memories I wanted to keep and reminisce on and I just slowly forgot them over time.
Hopefully, after being inspired by this episode, I could get back to journaling and try to express myself in the most candid and genuine ways possible like Amanda and Courtney did in their diaries.
Shane trying to read Amanda's handwriting is a whole rollercoaster
Courtney has grown so much, they're glowing, I love this trio
The thing with the journal thing too is that teachers can be able to potentially tell if the student is going through something and be able to help or bring concerns to parents.
In sophomore year, Mrs. Meyers- teacher extraordinaire, had us do the journal thing. She wouldn’t write back but she WOULD talk to you individually about allllll of it. It was amazing. I wish I still had my copy. My husband was in that class with me (bestie at the time lol) and still has his! I still get annoyed to see he had a crush on me and never said anything sooner lmfao 😂😂
Oh that’s so cuteeeee
@@oriole3702 I hear she still does this in her classroom ❤️❤️
@@oriole3702 I hear she still does this in her classroom ❤️❤️
“Wuthering Heights in 2000s Boston” is such a mood. 🙌
Oh my goodness the beginning of this video where is Shayne's all like "what have you been up to since we were last here?...we haven't talked" (biggest lie ever ) 😂😭💝 and then Amanda being like "weird I've talked to Courtney" 😂😂 all the awkwardness makes so much sense now 😭 😊
Y'all don't understand the joy I get from listening/watching this podcast.
Courtney’s reactions to Amanda and Shayne reading their journals is so precious. They just are so proud
Would love to see Shayne try to do Amanda’s makeup!!
I was the same way when I was a teenager. The character of The Chosen feels like a superiority complex mask a lot of people take on when they feel insecure, small, or unimportant but have the capacity for self-awareness, something that can "feel" special. It feels like the mask is an attempt to rationalize those feelings of inferiority , but by taking on that character we isolate ourselves from so many other people who ALSO can be self-aware and feel insecure, small, and unimportant, thus most of us realize it's an unhealthy coping mechanism(though not all). It was great to hear that the character of The Chosen came from Shayne's past, very relatable.
Amanda's journals are so giving Tina from Bob's burgers and it's soooo good
I’d love a podcast talking about the inner workings of each persons responsibilities. Like what kimmy, Alex, Damien do behind the scenes and so on!
For anyone that doesn't know, MCAS (pronounced "em-cass", but I'm not sure what it actually stands for) is the standardized testing that kids in public school in Massachusetts have to do from 3rd-11th grade and must pass to graduate high school. I think the testing was what Amanda's teacher was talking about in that response to her journal, not an actual person being codenamed "MCAS"
As someone who's 19 who's had a unique and pretty rough teens experience, and is about to move out of my tiny home town for the first time,
it is so reassuring and comforting to hear these stories, and be reminded that so many other people feel or have felt the same ways that I have been.
I really appreciate how transparent and supportive they are talking about these kinds of things. I think I needed this today
Courtney’s laugh is so adorable everytime
Honestly even though Shayne’s journal is so guarded, I could never write stuff like that and I’m around that age lol. It’s guarded, but you do need to have some confidence to write like that and not feel self-conscious.
AHH it’s so important to have those genuine connections with teachers through writing assignments like that! My freshman year a very unfortunate situation happened with a student and it deeply impacted the school, but instead of ignoring it like every other teacher, my English teacher let us vent via writing how we felt about the situation and wrote us back validating our feelings and offering resources for counseling ❤️
As kids we are so in our heads about things that a responsible and respectful adult can help us navigate.
Love y’all!
For real, Shayne would make such a good counsellor. He's good at listening and has high emotional intelligence.