i’ve been trying to be something/someone I’m not… finally coming clean about everything
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- Опубліковано 3 жов 2024
- Isimeme Edeko opens up about mental health and suffering from imposter syndrome.
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Birthday: September 2, 1994
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Name: Isimeme (E-C-May-May) Edeko (E-Deck-Co)
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Honestly ISI I think everybody is feeling like this wether they want to admit it or not. I feel like ever since the pandemic life just been weird af. The energy, the vibes of the whole planet is just so sad and dark & sometimes it can be hard to stay afloat. I think We’re all in a state of grieving the life we once had before. I think I’m just now starting to navigate through this “new life.”
This is EXACTLY how I feel. I feel like I have no clear purpose and I'm just going through the motions every day
Wow you really hit the nail on head. I have been experiencing the same feelings.
You are correct. Especially at grieving the life we once had. On top of that we've all spent time seeing how others live and it makes us question where we are in life. Now that we are "going back to normal" it's hard trying to get back to a regular routine. Covid showed people that the rug can get pulled from under you at anytime and it made younger people less excited about life bc we think more about financial security and self-reliance,. But hey, we had many recessions and world issues before that we power though so we'll be alright!
You worded this soooooo perfectly! like this is EXAXTLY how Ive been feeling.Sending love & good vibes to all.We are going to get through this sheeit lol
@@TenaeMichelle YES WE WILL 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾
Everyone has to change and evolve. Don't mind what people say. They not on camera exposing themselves, instead hiding behind comments and not evolving with you. It's just entertainment for them
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Couldn’t have said it better. Wishing her nothing but happiness and peace 💛
Exactly!!!
But then again, some people may actually be on camera, etc. Can't assume it's all just keyboard bums.
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Today, I was reflecting and realized that I have been so stressed because I’m operating from worldly things and what society deems as best, but I need to start living my life from my soul, which is connected to God. I feel like I’m going through something similar to you in this season.
THIS COMMENT IS EVERYTHING! This is toooo relatable, it’s almost as if I wanna disconnect myself from the imaginary expectations of the world 😩
Amen 👏🏾 Keep that wisdom forever
I found that when I took a social media cleanse/break, I was able to really connect with God ( I started the break a week ago and plan to go for a bit). I listen to sermons more and have been spending time developing my self. Social media was the one really draining me because I found that I procrastinated less and have more time.
@@willydumervil6308 So true. I've been wanting to take a long social media break but it's a bit difficult for me because I'm a small skin care business owner and y'all know IG is where it's at when it come on to marketing. Sigh
Beautifully said.
This video made me cry. I'm here at 2am in london feeling so miserable because I'm trying to live life to make others happy and they're never satisfied.
You will never please everyone, our main goal is to please God. God understands that we are still figuring life out , and we have to depend on Him for wisdom and acceptance!!
Put you first suga! I know it’s earlier said than done but you can’t please everyone!! CHOOSE YOU! CHOOSE PEACE CHOOSE HAPPINESS. Sending love from Chicago ❤️❤️ If you need to vent or anything I’m here with you and for you!!
Snap also on London but 1 hour later. Why am I up?
Thank you ladies. I dunno why people love to rip others appart and bring them even lower than they already are. People are wicked
Do what literally makes you feel good. Brings joy to your heart and be confident and content with not pleasing others. You’re living your life not others. Keep your head up…you got this!
Just a reflective question I’m asking as someone that has watched for a long time and loves your channel … do you think that you’re limiting yourself ? There’s more to life than social media and being a UA-camr. It sounds like you’re true purpose/passion isn’t just being a UA-camr. Find your why. Find your purpose. And being a UA-camr can be part of it, but it doesn’t have to be all of it. 💕
You are right....I was feeling the same way listening to her.
Yeah I feel like UA-camrs feel so guilty making career changes. People usually don’t stay at the same job for more than a decade
I was thinking the same thing. If I had a degree I’d try to get a job in the real world bc social media full time sounds like hell 😩
I think so too. I think UA-cam is a platform for something greater. I think God may be making her uncomfortable and preparing her to step into something a bit larger and less superficial. I think that she could leverage her audience, education, and content creation skills in another way.
I was thinking that too maybe she should try something completely different it’s cool she has a degree so she shouldn’t feel stuck but she has so many possibilities
Girl, I’m 37 and still trying to figure it out. I come from an era and family that didn’t give you the tools for success. So now here I am pushing 40 just now getting it together and fixing my previous fuck ups🤦🏾♀️. But I definitely empathize with you. There’s a light at the end of the tunnel…but no one said it would be easy. Stay strong Queen.
& you stay strong queen 👑
I’m right there with you sis at 38. Stay strong and stay royal!
Okay it's still get rough in your 30s
I highly agree, I’m 29 and literally trying to figure everything out. when I say Everything, I mean everything . Keep Pushing Queens we’ve got this❤️
Just be your self, I got booed off stage in 2011, I lost too family members before the week of my graduation. It still traumatizes me but when I got with my fiancé he told me to just be myself and I’m still learning who that part of me is
Girl who booed you off stage the audacity 😒
@@Grace-pv9in everybody that was graduating with me at graduation
i'm so sorry to hear that girl
@@laearth0330 that's so low I can smell their jealousy after all this time ⏲️ 😅
@@Grace-pv9in yeah they were all fake
your transparency and honesty is so inspiring
Agreed 💛
Me tooo😁💛🙏🏿
This is so true
Girl, it is quite alright to evolve! I’m 37 with a husband and two whole kids. So I get all of what you were saying. You can not stay in the mindset of a 21 year old and those who are expecting you to can politely and quietly unsubscribe! You are entitled to grow and be human unapologetically.
And BTW, I’m here for the fitness content so whenever you’re ready to crank that out I’ll be watching!
During this last year I had to stop being so active on social media and completely stopped posting UA-cam videos because it wasn’t fulfilling me, if was actually hindering me. I compare myself to others a lot and coming on social media and seeing all of the lavish life and glam made me feel less than. I had to take a step back and figure out what truly makes me happy which is being more present in life rather than on social media. 💕 always do what’s best for you.
Take a solo trip away from everything. Sometimes we get lost and we just need time to find ourselves again. Take care of Isi first. Also don't ever be afraid to cry, it's our way of asking others for care. I wish you the very best.
It’s okay Isi , there’s a season for everything and you shouldn’t feel bad about transitioning into a different season. It’s your life, live it authentically. You’ve done an amazing job with your UA-cam platform, if it’s no longer serving you it just isn’t. Mental health comes first
This is so true and I feel like it’s all hitting me at once so fast and I wasn’t ready for it on top of trying to figure out my mental health more
I totally agree.This season of our lives we are evolving into our AUTHENTIC SELF...
With respect to Josh and ISI the brand it’s not that we don’t understand or respect your decision. However, given your general audience the majority of us are probably in our early-mid 20s trying to hustle same as you but we’ve been supporting from day ONE but might not necessarily be able to transition to this paid platform at all or right away and that’s totally okay. So, I understand why some would feel hurt that we’ve followed so long on this journey with you guys and aren’t able to basically experience this big step or big DAY with you in FULL. Love same way and we appreciate your authenticity in this video, we’re all going through growing pains and that’s totally okay. Give yourself grace 🫶🏾 we all here to make mistakes and grow. Keep showing up in the ways that YOU CAN because you never know who you’re helping and the impact you’re leaving. 🙏🏾
This was well written. Both feelings should be able to co-exist. How can we grow as beings without allowing the space for others to feel, as well. It appears that a decent percentage of the audience is saying the same thing. This social media space can be weird and looks uncomfortable sometimes, so more power to them for riding with it and continuing to be impactful, especially because the audience only sees what they allow. Let’s also acknowledge that at the end of the day, it is a business. It may start off as solely inspirational or passionate but it’s also understandable that this is their livelihood and a source of income.
Life is a constant learning curve, particularly in the times we are living in today. Everyone’s trying to figure it out. We adapt and overcome as we go. We can all use more grace.
Very well said
agree
Well said!
I can totally relate to this video. Although I’m not an influencer, there is this constant pressure from the social media world that makes you believe you’re not doing enough or you’re not living up to a certain standard. But when you finally start to live like that, it causes you to slowly lose your way because you’re trying to be “that girl” or “material girl” just to adapt to that lifestyle… and it can make you feel inferior and make you constantly beat down on your self because it’s almost as if you will do anything just to fit in. We need to take back control of our lives and stop allowing external factors to dictate how we live it. This “that girl” life is not for everyone (and I’m not saying you don’t deserve good things in life) but make sure whatever you’re doing, the driving force behind it brings out the authenticity in you. ❤️
THISSSS!!!! ain’t nun wrong with being yourself, basic, and HAPPY than constantly in competition with the next girl about having more expensive things and drowning in meaningless vanity that i feel FORCED to care about anyways
You hear the phrase "chasing the bag". They're getting soulless chasing the bag. It will overwhelm you. I'm not chasing no money and I'll live within my means. I don't need all this material stuff. It does nothing for my soul.
Your authenticity is why we keep coming back. Just document…we’ll be down for the journey 💕
Isi… I have to be transparent. I was definitely one of those people who felt slighted by y’all’s move to Patreon, but unlike most people on the internet, I am not a troll and I always try to remember that there’s a person on the other side. So, I chose to fall back and think and decide whether I wanted to pay or not. While I can’t afford it now, I DO plan to pay in the future. I had to realize that I wasn’t mad at y’all, I was mad that I no longer had access to yall. While I don’t fully understand the decision because I am not yall nor am I in your situation, I’m still going to support where and when I can because I love you both like family. I say all this to say, some people lack compassion and empathy and they’re saying hurtful things because they are either a) broke or b) mad that they no longer have access to yall. Much love from a beaute gang member and beaute & beau supporter from the beginning of both channels. Keep grinding and I’ll be praying for you!♥️♥️♥️
Yea I was sad more cause I couldn't afford that rn , and I really wanted to ride that journey with them . really mad at UA-cam. But, when I finally get over my unemploymentness , im def paying for it.
This!!!
I agree too. I really can’t afford it right now, but I was actually thinking about getting it anyway bc I love their content so much. They are truly my favorite UA-camrs
@@bbbryne893 same 😭 i miss them dearly I’m so glad she posts here
@@bbbryne893 Im planning on binging all their videos for a month and just paying for 1 month
I feel you, and it is understandable. I am 21 and haven’t even get my credit card out, no license literally nothing, feel so stuck in life. But be yourself it sounds easy but is not just keep trying finding yourself
I’m in the same boat! Isi being so authentic with her struggles really spoke to me. I’m turning 21 this year and even before I turned 18 I felt/feel soo behind. Now I’m trying to learn not to compare the pace of my life to others. Growing up is tough but we got this 💜
Dude I’m 49 and don’t know how to try . But this year I’ll prove to my parents that I can be a big boy !
If it helps, I didn’t get my license until I was 25. And my first credit card until I was 26. I’m 27 now. Things are starting to make a bit more sense but I’m still figuring out what I actually want out of life. You’ll be fine ❤️
You’ll be fine. I didn’t get my first credit card until my 30s. What worked for me was making short term and long term goals, writing them down, and sticking with them as closely as possible.
Hey lol coming from
Someone whose been there I started driving at 25 got my car and license at 25. I got my first car last October. A 2020 year as well. Be patient with yourself I waited till I felt like I was ready.
I'm in South Africa and I don't think I would have known what it feels like to truly fall in love with myself had it been for you and your content. You do it for me girlfriend, much love 😘
Amen to that! Isi helped me to really embrace my type 4 natural hair and all that comes with being a black woman👏🏿
SA clock in! Isi's content gave me a sound mind and really applies that pressure on myself to remember not to settle. Maintain the grind and maintain the chase, of one's dreams and being the highest version of one's self 🌻. I love and appreciate your transparency always Isi and watching you become such a phenomenal catalyst of change in so many people's lives - sensational🙌🏾😍❤️you're doing better than you think you are, can't wait for the come back! ❤️❤️❤️
Whenever I feel down about myself and life, I binge Isi/Josh/Isi & Josh videos. This came at the perfect time 💕
Same. Hope you’re doing okay 💛
Same
Your perfectionist ways are hindering you. Your not alone a lot of people watching are going through or feeling the same way you feel. Be yourself be transparent we support you! If your counting rice piece by piece I’m gonna watch lol.
I am a few minutes into your video, and I can definitely AGREE that living in your 20s is not easy 😭! There is so much social pressure and it’s so easy to get trapped in the matrix. Just remember, none of us are perfect. We have to figure things out along the way. It’s so VITAL to forgive ourselves and give ourselves grace. You got this girl 🙌🏾!
Omg my heart, I feel you so much on just this topic period. I’m only 19 but I’m a over-thinker and appreciate fellow over-thinkers like yourself sharing something so personal . It helps me not feel so alone about these growing pains
me too sis...
I would love a “Finding myself” series from you!
I relate to feeling insecure around flashy people. I come from Walmart shoes and noodles so coming into a new life , a new place where that is very prevalent and important in todays society is a cultural shock
The mask is symbolic to the mask you been wearing unseen. The tears showed the cracks that’s we couldn’t see.
You are right we as viewers we can dehumanizing the person behind the screen. Becoming entitled and selfish and feel as if you owe us. ( When you surround your self with social media constantly in your phone you get trapped in this space and your perception to reality change) when boundaries or step backs are created anger and disrespect is gave and I’m truly sorry for all that you had to deal with, sorry that we forget you hurt like we hurt, you bleed like we bleed, etc..… I’m happy that you and Josh as doing what y’all need to do for your mental, your sanity, and y’all’s livelyhood. You can not perform if you are not here, if your not healthy, happy etc. You are not worth the risk for the wants of others( something I tell myself often). Thank you for sharing this intimate moment with us.
Also the time we live in is crazy and just a world I don’t care to show up in or be apart of. I’m content being on the back burner I’m content being “ rare”.
You attract genuine rare people.
ISI I love the “old you” the “lost in the sauce” isi and the isi you are now 🥹 I know you’re just figuring life out and we are all doing the same thing you are brave to do it on camera ! and girl you do NOT owe anyone an explanation or apology . You’re the realest on any platform EVER !!!! just do what makes you happy boo!! That’s when you shine the most ✨💫 I love any and all the content you provide !!
Hey Isi you’re not lazy for doing a lot of self care content. It’s something you enjoy so keep enjoying it ok without letting other peoples comments get to you. You are such an amazing human being and don’t let anyone in your comments affect you negatively. Easier said than done I know 😅
Thank you for making this video. Hopefully more people will be understanding and will appreciate the things you do all the more.
Mental health is really important so continue to nurture, protect and grow it 🤎
i’m 24 and am going through this right now, months and years of being a disconnected version of myself now trying to “heal my inner child” and remember that NOW you’re safe. It’s always great to hear your self reflection, and I cannot imagine the pressure that comes with this lifestyle as well as it being your JOB. Be gracious to yourself, we love you soooo much. Your journey is just as important as the destination💗💗💗💗
Girl, let them tears out! We all going through life on our own paths it’s okay Isi. We love and appreciate you!!! 💗💗💗💗🌸
BRO IM LITERALLY CRYING. I’m fresh outta highschool with tons of talents and interest but it’s overwhelming and idk which direction to go in . I do art and makeup well and I’m a good writer etc but I can’t make a decision to save my life . I everyone else is going to college and I’m stuck . I hope I can figure it out soon . I love you sm and I relate alot -18:30
Try your hands at everything u do well and see which brings u the most passion and go from there best of luck🥰
Same with me just graduate high school just pray to God and just give it all to him
I feel exactly the same 😫. Sometimes I feel like a failure like I'm not doing anything with my life, because I want to do everything. Watching all my peers go to school and live their lives and have jobs and stuff just feels awful.
Not “a lot” there’s NO ONE like Josh & Isi. Nobody’s doing it like y’all doing it. Some people (especially the haters) don’t deserve y’all. Y’all content should ABSOLUTELY NOT be free. Even the amount it is on patreon. You guys are VALUABLE. Know your worth AND ADD TAX. I don’t care how much it is , I’m gonna always support y’all . Y’all are my favs forever and y’all inspire so many people . Those who get it , get it. Those who doesn’t , don’t. 🤷🏾♀️ & if the purpose was to “fund y’all lifestyle” it certainly would be a lot more . Bye.
Say it louder sis‼️
“Facts”💯
Say it again for the people in the back! People acting like Josh and Isi owe us their lives🤦🏿♀️
Yesss sis!🔥🔥
YES!! I saw a comment in the “save the date” vid saying it feels like ISI is “milking” her audience for money and I’m like WHAT!! They don’t owe us SHIT and have given us SO much free entertainment. People are getting too entitled nowadays
I would love a getting in shape for the wedding series. I feel like it would open up another avenue for you to come back stronger and better than ever. Take your time! Everyone should allow themselves the space to grow. Life has been messy lately, so we’re all a little scattered. You’re just on camera, so people can see it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to keep going to see it. ❤️❤️❤️
1. As a 27 year old chocolate black woman I relate to this on so many levels. With everything going on in the world right now as well as in my personal life, I'm in a state of where I feel stuck and not truly like my full productive self because I'm so overwhelmed. I have this great job and still feel like I can't fully show up like I want to. Regardless of what your career is, you definitely feel the weight of today. I appreciate you giving what you give because it helps more than you know.
2. For the people who actually fuck with y'all for who y'all are and not just wanting to take take take, they understand the move to Patreon and support you 100%. It was a very good move and Patreon definitely feels more like a family.
3. These vent sessions are definitely therapy. It's nice to be vulnerable and talk about things that most of us aren't saying out loud. This kind of content as well as Josh & Isi is like you said, rare. But it's very important.
4. Girl a low pony with 4C hair is whole arm work out in itself especially trying to smooth it out so watching you do it was HELLA relatable 😂.
I love you Isi. You truly are my beat friend in my head. You got an OG here for life sis ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Isi I really think seeing a therapist can help a lot with your personal growth. And I also think, as you find yourself, you should set a goal for yourself that is just about you not about your relationship, marriage, labels, roles etc… just something you want in life for you. And document your journey and life as you live it.
I agree! I’m working on that right now. Something just for ME 💛
Im crying because EVERYTHING you said im going though. I understand why you switched platforms, I would've. Mental health is first out of everything. If your brain is sick how are you going to function? I really appreciate this video, i appreciate you being real and raw with us. It means so fucking much to me ❤️
I really appreciate how truthful and transparent she is in this video. Please keep staying true to yourself that’s what we like about you.
Most of the real UA-camrs actually the majority of y’all have said the same thing and we appreciate how real you are! You’ve shown me so much and how to do things a different way that works for me! I’ve learned a lot from you….I don’t think you should ever compare yourself to these other UA-camrs your unique and we love you the way you are!
But....we like your self care/hygiene haul videos! They're the reason I subscribed!
Anyway, I'll support whatever direction you go in. Lots of love xxx
The empty feeling is because focusing on social media is forgetting GOD'S purposes for U. Blessings, prayers and love
I just had a talk with my bestie last week and she said the exact same thing “forgetting God’s purposes for me “ and me not trusting God 100%.
That is so true...speaking from experience
Yes 🙌🏽
Amen 🙏 we all have to Stay focus on God and not forget are first love
Live in your truth! Your authenticity is what makes you sooooo relatable! Comparison is the thief of joy. When 9 times out of 10 they envy your realness. If you have to take a break from viewing other people's content and live in your truth. Because as a woman of the same age group (26) I'm trying to figure adulting out too. Seeing someone of your stature figuring it out too gives me hope! Love you!
Whew this is why I stay to myself things are very weird now! But social media really have these ppl really living a life and not their own. Continue being you.. imagine trying to do this without parents and just navigating the world by yourself and tryna stay authentic in a world full of copies! Please never change! If there is no growth and change what exactly are we really doing! Fellow Virgo here and I love watching and learning from you 🫶🏾
I love how open and honest you can be about something so relatable. It truly makes us appreciate you more. Just know we love you just the way you are 💛
Yasssss because you don’t get a lot of content creators that will allow us in like this
The fact that you you FEEL that these things didn’t serve a purpose is ACTUALLY the purpose. Living and learning is a real thing and that’s exactly what you are doing. Continue to always recognize your feelings and sort through them but not be too hard on yourself because it’s all part of the process. I’m 30 and just learned this at age 28. Keep shining 🌟
As a Virgo, I suggest u take sometime to focus on what the "new you" looks like and embrace her. Everytime I hear u speak on being a wedding planner, you light up! Because you're a vigo, EVERYTHING you put your hands on, you take pride in- & usually comes out fire! Planning is what fuels u, right? focus on decorating, wedding planning for clients ect and bring us along! What's for you, is for you & what's not...their loss! God got you...believe in yourself a little more 🤎
As another Virgo I needed to hear this ✨ this is a huge time for Virgos & transformation! It's time for us to show up for ourselves and do better for US. Staying focused on the long term will get us to where we need to be a lot sooner! Thank you for your message, it definitely motivated me!
She could even turn that into a UA-cam venture if she wanted to. Take us with her along the planning processes. That way she’s doing both things that she loves
Girl we needed this cry, this is sooooo felt , being in your late twenties and in America , stretching yourself thin while trying to maintain “self care” ugh…. We needed this cry . You are my sister ❤
And plus we as human change all of the time. We will never stay the same. Growth is elevation. ❤️
People will complain if you change and they’ll complain if you stay the same. You really can’t win with everybody so just follow your heart and make content that is genuine. I love it all. I’m with you wherever you want to take us boo. 💜💜💜💜
I will be 56 in a in a week or so, and been watching you and your fiance for only a short period and I enjoy all of your videos. I'm amazed at your maturity and wisdom and a beauty inside in and out. This video inparticular is raw and authentic!!!! You are an inspiration to so many young ladies and "yes"myself as well ... as of a mature age. You have done great work.
I wish you and Josh a blessed successful loving marriage. 💙❤💙❤💙
I needed to hear this. I’m sitting here struggling trying to figure out what interests me and what to post on social media and you put it into the BEST words possible. This is exactly how I feel. The experiences, growing pains, trauma, and insecurities changed me and I can’t be that person I was when I first started on UA-cam. You explained it so well that I started to cry with you. This social media stuff is no joke it takes a strong person to display your life online. Keep it up Isi! 💕
I won’t mind seeing a wedding planner Isi. Even if it’s Isi helping brides cope with planning or helping them find their true style. I’ll pay to watch that!
YOU (the world, current circumstances, the past, etc.) WON’T BREAK MY SOUL! Just remember that Isi. You got this! 💕
The first video I ever saw from you was a self care hygiene video. You were shopping for products and educating us with what works and what doesn’t. It was that content that actually made me subscribe to your channel.
I truly love your Chanel and I think it was very smart of you to have a variety in content that you put out. There truly is something for everyone.
I knew this what happening. I keep watching and supporting. We appreciate your explanation but in reality if your bills are paid You don’t owe us a damn thing. 👏🏾❤️
i can honestly say you are one of the few people i watch that i always enjoy and NEVER skip thru!!! I love you Isi, keep being YOU and shining YOUR light!
Whoever said said your content is lazy because they’re self care videos is a fluke. Self care is expensive and time consuming. I’m glad you do those videos because I like to know what products work well for our skin. I use some of the references you put us on. This is your content and the perk of working for yourself is YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT!!! AND YES BEAUTY GANG IS STILL LIT!!! Thank you for learning how to be beautiful with us!!!
Girl.Be strong,your family loves you, your true supporters love you, and remember who you are
Isimeme Edeko! you are fearfully and wonderfully made! You are such an amazing person your growth is coming just how God wants it to. Thank you for sharing your life with us, thank you for letting us see how life can be for others. Please write this verse on your heart and let it be a reminder for your life. "This is my command-Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you whereever you go" -Joshua 1:9. Your life is a light to so many remeber to breath and know that the Lord has you, your family has you! everything else is a bonus.💕
I respect your growth and I don’t expect you to have the same material from when you ran track in college. We all are growing and growing through what we’re growing through. I love your beauty and your authenticity. You stand out!!! 👑💐
My fav Chicago UA-camr, we are here for you sis always and we love your content and love what you do you are an inspiration girl❤️☺️
I’m so sorry that you receive that negativity. You don’t deserve any of that. Life in general is hard at times. It can be a constant wave of learning things, figuring them out, and then making adjustments to expand what happiness looks like for you. I could only imagine how difficult it can be navigating social media space too. Thank you for sharing openly what experiences you’ve had and how you’re continuing to be the beautiful woman that you are and growing to be even more of the woman you want to be for yourself. That’s truly what’s most important. I think you’re doing amazing and inspiring so many people on your journey! Sending big hugs and so much love and light ✨♥️
Honestly I feel like you do so much! You’ve had so many things going on in your career and life! And you are giving us content we love and is useful! My mom never told me what I need to do to pamper myself or take care of myself to look taken care of and feel taken care of! I appreciate you!
People don't share enough of there 20's experiences.
There is a side of you that knows it's a good thing to change , grow and gain new experience but it's not easy.
Thank you for sharing.
My condolences on the lost of your aunt.
May her spirit rest in peace. 🕊️
i just watched this while taking out my braids and girl I appreciate you for being so open with us and showing us that "that lifestyle" isnt perfect. I just freaking Love you girl everything and Josh stand for. You guys are dope. you guys will be just fine enjoy the ride hun. BUMPS AND ALL.
You are NOT alone sis!! I truly understand where you’re coming from- trying to reinvent yourself and learn who you are as a late 20s woman. On the other hand, I think it’s hard to watch others practice “self care” when you aren’t practicing it for yourself honestly. Or at least, that’s how it was for me. I was lowkey getting a little jealous of watching so many people do all this relaxing looking stuff, when I couldn’t afford to- financially and literally, even though it’s exactly what I needed. As another beautegang member said in the comments, we are all in some way grieving our old lives while trying to navigate a new one. Comparison truly is the thief of joy though unfortunately, and especially with the rise of entrepreneurship and social media content creators, it’s easy to compare and lose ourselves and get swallowed by the jealousy and comparison. I really pray for our generation and just learning how to give ourselves grace in growing into who God wants us to be instead of trying to be like “everyone else”.
I was a little disappointed the couple channel moved to Patreon, but I really understand why it was necessary for y'all. Life has definitely been a roller coaster lately and have definitely had to adjust and adapt. Would be nice to see the fitness workouts I need to get back on track and stop being lazy.
you know its real when Isi says the word "shit" , no matter what no one can take away how genuine and hard working you are , I am in that transition in my life and being an over thinker does not help at all but sis, WE GOT THIS!!!
We love you Isi. Through all of growth, pain, and victories. Please don't sacrifice your authenticity and what feels true to you. No matter what, what's for YOU will always be for YOU.
we love you still no matter who u are💕💕
Grief is a normal part of someone passing away. Condolences for your loss. Allow yourself to grieve. Praying for you.
Isi Babygirl, PLEASEEEE PLEASEEEE PLEASEEEE .
TAKE ALL THESE THINGS TO GOD IN PRAYER!! PLEASE PUT GOD FIRST IN YOUR LIFE HUN! .. WHEN WE DO NOT KEEP GOD FIRST IN EVERYTHING IN OUR LIVES, WE END UP MAKING BAD DECISIONS!! ..
I love you Isi, and know that I am keeping ya'll in my prayers! ..
I feel you, especially when you said you kept looking back at who you were and wanted to recreate that version of yourself. There is a song by Jonathan Reynolds called ‘Movin on’, I listen to this when I feel like I keep forcing on my rear view rather than what’s ahead/directly in front of me. I would recommend the song because it’s just a reminder to look ahead (although it’s so hard at times) because what’s to come is even greater!
Also thanks for your transparency, I know it’s not easy talking about your inner feelings on social media 🤎
I commented before when you mentioned this in one of your previous videos saying in short don’t worry about people who don’t appreciate what you bring. They aren’t for you. You get so much love , it out weighs the bad exponentially. You can’t let little things get to you or have a place in your life. We love you and are here for any content you put out. If it work for you & you like it , we love it (your true supporters)! Ps I’m a Virgo & I totally get it all , I can relate and relay 💖💖💖💖💖
At age 58 and a black woman.. I can so relate to your story….stay true to you and protect your peace… God bless you always🙏🏾💕
As your faith internet cousin I say that the fact that you are so self aware is half the battle. I have always loved your and Josh’s content and over the years I have definitely seen your growth. Josh is right love, keep moving forward, and don’t be afraid to live out loud as your authentic self. You’ve got this…I truly believe that your well on your way to so much bigger because of you been faithful and true to YOU! Gods about to blow your mind❤️
Isi you are a real one. What you are doing in your “lane” and the messages you share through your channel is unmatched. Thank you for your consistent transparency. You are appreciated and such a blessing. Love you girl and may God continue guiding you on this journey 🤎.
Wow.. I don’t think you understand how I needed this video 🥺 I believed it was just me going through this. I’m a Virgo, born in the south, raised by a single mother, and also a pageant queen. The sense of PERFECTION has been the demon I’ve been dealing with for as long as I can remember. The idea of me being authentic would make me feel weak, simply because I’d been through things people around me didn’t even know about. It’s hard and it’s a lot, if you get it, you get it.
I turn 20 next month and I’m still navigating through the journey of knowing who I am, and what I am becoming.
I’ve believe I’ve watched 2 of your videos in the past, but listen I’m a new subscriber today. Thank you for this, I need this bad.
It’s crazy because I subscribed to u years ago because u were SO DIFFERENT. To finally see someone on this platform that looked like me, just having fun, was truly themselves, and had REAL conversations. U have a good heart, so u can only go up from here. Ur in my prayers❤️
(btw, these r the videos I love, u got me crying with u😂)
Isi I understand how you feel. Don't let the hate get to you. You are in a transitioning period rn. We all are going thru shit and you shouldn't feel like you are disappointing us ,nothing stays the same and just do for what is healthy for you mental health. Its truly a rough time for the world and feeling overwhelmed and having anxiety or what ever emotions you are feeling are normal and very valid.
The hater are always gonna say some rude ish. We love you and are gonna support you and I thank you for being real and yourself.
Hey, I am a 44 year old married woman with a child. You are going through growing pains of life and it is perfectly OK to feel that way. I go through them all the time. Sometimes you do have to hit the reset button and start over. You guys are a true inspiration to me!
I just found your channel earlier this year. I love the real rawness of your channel. The reminder of GLORIA do your self love care. No one will say that WE are ALL trying to figure it out. I will be the first to say it. I AM TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT. We all look like we have IT together but when we get back to our home we have to deal with OURSELVES. Outside of the EVERYTHING. You are an amazing person. Stop listening to the voices of others. YOU GOT THIS!!!! LOVE YOU!!!!
I'm over 50 & just want to say a loving older woman thing... Life will throw you off at least once every decade, but it's really a way to curve your path for expansion. Best thing you can do is go with it & be gentle about your fumbles. You will always eventually get the hang of things. This was an awesome video, keep growing and So Many wishes of Blessings on your marriage. 🌺❤🌺
Thank you for this. Thanks for speaking to me.
I don't usually comment much but when you started talking about your Aunty and you family and how close you guys are that really hit home for me. Me and my family are the exact same way. Like my mom is SO close to her sisters that my cousins feel like my sisters and brother. We recently lost my Aunt who was the oldest of the 3. So trust me when I say I feel your pain. I want to thank you for sharing because I know this can't be easy for you. Trust me when I say ppl like me search for ppl like YOU. Someone who they can relate to authentically and you truly do that for me sis. NEVER would have dreamed that I'd be this in love with my natural hair until I watched your videos. Did my 1st EVER wash and go following your instructions step by step and it was a complete success amongst other natural styles and wigs and I just discovered you last year. So once again THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR JOURNEY.....Whatever that may look like at this time I'm all the way here for it sis❤️
I started watching your videos because I wanted to learn more about my hair. I didn’t see many women making videos with my same hair texture. And with your content, I made a bond with you, not personally but to see you excel from your early twenties as a track star just like I am today, you have been a great influence. You nor I are perfect people but I can say you have gotten me through so harsh times. I have been low and decide to watch videos of you and Josh, they lift my spirits and I am brought back to my reality. You are not at fault, you are living, exploring the moments of life in which you tend to balance so well. You are not lazy, you are balancing, and with you understanding your current state and questioning how to move forward, you are displaying your growth. And honestly, your vulnerability on camera, you are becoming a role model to so many young women who can now see that they to can grow too.
I think a lot of UA-cam creators are in the same space. As a viewer, it really seems like once the money starts flowing, and creators reach a certain point it does make us question whether you genuinely like to put out content for your supporters, or if they’re just doing it for the money. In my opinion, the best vloggers are the ones that do just that. Just film day to day and engage. No theatrics, no reading lines, just authentic day to day that allows us to feel like we’ve spent time with you today. It doesn’t have to be a production. Do what’s true to you.
I love how honest you are with us. And there’s nothing wrong with finding evolving and trying to figure life out. It’s all about the journey. The topics you talked about especially comparing I would recommend Mike Todd’s Cuffing Season sermons on UA-cam. It really helped me. But I love you Issi! 💕
Please do not stop making self-care content, I am new to your channel and the self-care is what I need in my life right now, so I write down all of your tips etc. I appreciate all of your information, people need to understand that the contect changes as the creator changes.
I totally understand.I think it’s safe to say that you have to go through a series of identity crisis in other to evolve. It’s all a part of growth 💯❤️.Don’t ever doubt the impact you have and inspiration you are for younger ladies like myself. Love you Isi🌹
What you and Josh are doing is great! Make that money and do what’s best for y’all. You both are role models, college graduates, and a beautiful black couple that are about to get married. Your mental health is everything!💜💜
I heavily resonate with this a lot actually when you were talking about how you feel you lost yourself 2/3 years ago into ur UA-cam journey due to keeping up w a certain image, UA-cam black, or materialistic things and that u lost the light in ur eyes I DEEPLY can relate, not in the sense of being an influencer but in a general sense personally, I look back at myself a few years ago and mind u I’m only 22 and I remember how free spirited and so happy I looked and didn’t hyper focus on my appearance or materialistic things, and I often get so upset because I just ask myself like where did life go wrong and obviously I have my reasons as to why it happened, but when u brought up the rearview mirror analogy that put A LOT in perspective for me because I am *always* looking back and not forward, so thank you for this video because and your consistent authenticity, this talk really helped me a lot
Growth is a process. Its not linear. Its supposed to have its ups and downs. But im so happy you/your platform is a place for vulnerability and self love. Those of us who are true supporters, LOVE YOU and APPRECIATE YOU so much. I’m 21(going on 22) and I can relate so hard to everything you’re saying. Life is hard. Figuring out our identities seems impossible. Especially when social media gets involved.
Love you always Isi. It's a race with you and yourself. No one else🤎
New to your channel but I want to say your a great role model to women of all ages. Your real and transparent which makes you feel more relatable. Life is a journey so give yourself grace and compassion. Just like we show up for our friends and family. Everything requires balance create what feels right for you. Why because people always have an opinion. Black girl magic, many blessings to you ✨️
Much love to you sister....when you have haters;; it means you're doing something right. You're so talented and awesome keep doing what you're doing.
Issi GOD LOVES YOU UNCONDITIONALLY
Isi I would love to recommend you and even Josh get into a series called Cuffing Season by Pastor Mike Todd from Transformation Church. It is getting into the netty gritty and it is really helping to bless my spirit and it is teaching me how to uncuff from many things. I pray it bless you all too! 😘😘
AMEN
Thanks for the recommendation!! I’m looking at the video names and already found one that I’ve lately been frustratingly dealing with (the one about being cuffed to constant & that rest is his weapon). Been feeling like cussing folks out over being mad I’m not endlessly available lately… I need time to my mfn self to recharge n my family act like I’m asking too much (mind u they’re all adult siblings & I’m the baby, why they’re so overly dependent on my energy idk). So, thanks for sharing!!!!!
yessssss
This entire series was Fire!!!!😭
I just watched that series and it was so good. I try to tune in every Sunday
I completely understand how you feel. Life and the world is just insane right now. You are not alone. You create the content you like and what you're comfortable with. You are not obligated to share with us and we appreciate it. Those with negative comments are lacking in their lives and want to drag others down. True supporters will follow wherever you go especially since you explained your reasons why. Anyone who cares at all will want you to do what's best for your mental health, and life goals. Patreon was a good move and I support it.
Sometimes people forget that creators are in the ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY and that is separate from the actual life you go through! Being in our late 20s in a world and life that feels so far from what anyone promised and anticipated is so hard. Let alone being an entertainer that has to show up positively for your livelihood through all the bullshit. It’s tough. It’s hard. You’re doing an amazing job. ♥️ I can relate to a lot of what you’re going through
I’ve discovered your platform and couples channel around 2018 and I honestly can say y’all have helped me grow in so many ways. I’m also 27 now and I’m feeling exactly what you are feeling. I’m now learning to not be as hard on myself as before, but to let everything play out, but we will get through this together and I pray God Shows us all our purpose and guide us in our growth🙏🏾💪🏾❤️ I love you Isi ❤️❤️❤️
Isi... life is full of transitions. Give yourself GRACE!!! Growth and LIFE IS A JOURNEY!!! BE ENCOURAGED. BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF...You've got this 👍🏾.
Girl I truly feel you. Loosing yourself, business responsibilities and then loosing family. I'm slightly older than you, so my count of loss has been a bit much to handle as of late. So I truly feel you. Good thing is you have a good mate for support as I do, as long as you two continue to back each other up, you're going to make it. All these things will change you, but do your best to focus on what is important for your life. Take your time and do what you need to do for ISI and Josh. You're doing good, hang in there.
We’re living similar lives. We are more alike than we think. The journey of finding yourself especially after feeling like you’ve lost yourself can be tough and beautiful at the same time. You’re transparency is appreciated. Even talking through the tears, many influencers shy away from that on camera. Sending peace and love your way!