Bianca Phipps - Almosts

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КОМЕНТАРІ • 379

  • @joannahp7223
    @joannahp7223 7 років тому +1336

    I always wondered why she ended the poem the way she did. And then I realized, "Te Amo, Daniel. Sleep well" is made up of 5 words. Those are her 5 farewell words to him.

    • @heshayousaf9702
      @heshayousaf9702 6 років тому +6

      i could worship you

    • @kiananombrefia1597
      @kiananombrefia1597 6 років тому +19

      I hate you for making me cry because of this poem once again

    • @shylight9109
      @shylight9109 6 років тому +50

      I noticed that 5 is a common theme is this poem. 'Even now 5 years later' '5 easy words that would have shattered our worlds' and then her 5 word goodbye.

    • @fairycars
      @fairycars 5 років тому +34

      and she was also talking about the english language often, and how it would fail sometimes. so ending it with a phrase that’s only 5 words in spanish is genius.

    • @armanioakley9909
      @armanioakley9909 3 роки тому

      I dont mean to be offtopic but does someone know a method to log back into an Instagram account..?
      I was stupid forgot the password. I appreciate any help you can give me

  • @atomicate
    @atomicate 10 років тому +716

    my heart dropped when she said "you never told me you were dying" and the fact that this is about a personal experience makes it more heartbreaking.

    • @silverfritzreah5598
      @silverfritzreah5598 2 роки тому

      Does she mention it was from personal experience? Ive always wanted to know

  • @Ravengal101
    @Ravengal101 10 років тому +735

    'Words can only help you if you speak them.'

  • @sylviamarie9170
    @sylviamarie9170 8 років тому +502

    "And I am sorry, but I only ALMOST found it." is where I absolutely lost it.

  • @princesscoco4109
    @princesscoco4109 8 років тому +762

    "Malignant is the cause of almost. Because you were in the brink of something beautiful...but you fell too far. I am so sorry..I wasn't there to catch you." I'm not crying.

  • @brandoncella2043
    @brandoncella2043 10 років тому +357

    "Almost tells failed potential" The power beneath these words are unreal.

  • @ariamortenson3463
    @ariamortenson3463 8 років тому +938

    I have never felt so at ease as the day you called me "precocious." I
    have never feared big words, only those who refuse to use them, and the
    syllables rolled off your tongue like honey. I was hooked. Language
    became our vein of communication, and I know everyone uses language to
    communicate, but ours was different, as if between the letters and the
    syllables there was a secret message only we could decipher. My days
    were filled with the sound of your voice, and your nights were littered
    with the loops of my handwriting. We exchanged out favourite words; mine
    being "illuminated" and yours being "caddywhompus."; and our least
    favourites, mine "moist," and yours "almost." And when I asked you why,
    you said that almost held failed potential. That it represented our
    ability to be just not good enough. That we had come to the brink of
    something beautiful, but fell short so many times, we crafted a word for
    it. But even we, with our supposed mastery of the English language,
    were not immune to the shortcomings of our vocabularies. Words can only
    help you if you speak them. I never told you that I loved you. You never
    told me you were dying. Five easy words that would have shattered our
    worlds: "I love you, I think." "I have a brain tumour." You know, still,
    to this day, I don't know all the details, because medical jargon has
    never fit right in my mouth, and even now, five years later, it still
    feels like an invasion of your privacy, but I do know I have pored over
    our conversations, searching for the secret message you certainly tried
    to send me, and I'm sorry, but I only ALMOST found it. Salt water is not
    good for paper and my tears warped your words. After some serious
    consideration, I decided to change my least favourite words, because
    while "moist" is gross, "malignant" is malicious. Malignant is
    uncontrollable , means a phone call and the phrase, "He didn't wake up."
    Malignant is messy, and unfair, and a thief. Malignant means I never
    got to say goodbye. Malignant is the cause of almost. Because you WERE
    on the brink of something beautiful, but you couldn't quite reach it,
    and you fell too far. I am so sorry I wasn't there to catch you. I hope
    your heaven is a library, and I hope it is void of almosts. Te amo,
    Daniel. Sleep well.

  • @kyleiq1912
    @kyleiq1912 9 років тому +182

    i got chills when she said "you never told me you were dying"

  • @bethanybrazier2128
    @bethanybrazier2128 8 років тому +372

    This poem is so underrated, I am so in love with the way Bianca presents this.
    My absolute favourite line is "salt water is not good for paper and my tears warped your words" 😍

    • @leo77748
      @leo77748 8 років тому +1

      That's what I say. This is one of my faves and that line stuck out to me a lot.

    • @fluffypuppy0
      @fluffypuppy0 8 років тому +1

      +Bethany Brazier Same. it's amazing.

    • @cheyenne9682
      @cheyenne9682 7 років тому +18

      My favourite line is, "I hope your Heaven is a library and that it's void of almosts."

    • @bethanybrazier2128
      @bethanybrazier2128 7 років тому +2

      Ah, it's just so so beautiful. I just couldn't love another poem any more.

  • @TheKaseyfelker01
    @TheKaseyfelker01 9 місяців тому +3

    Nine years later and I am still in awe of this ❤️

  • @fedelynbeltran28
    @fedelynbeltran28 9 років тому +598

    I have never felt so at ease as the day you called me precocious. I have never feared big words, only those that refuse to use them and the syllables rolled off your tongue like honey. I was hooked. Language became our vein of communication, and I know that everybody uses language to communicate, but ours was different. As if in between the letters and the syllables there is a secret message only we could decipher. My days were filled with the sound of your voice and your nights were littered with the loops of my handwriting.
    We exchanged our favorite words. Mine being illuminated and yours being catawampus. And our least favorites; mine: moist and yours: almost. And when I asked you why, you said it was because almost held failed potential; that it represented our ability to be just not good enough; that we had come to the brink of something beautiful but fell short so many times we crafted a word for it.
    But even we, with our supposed mastery of the English language were not immune to the shortcomings of our vocabularies. Words can only help you if you speak them. I never told you that I loved you. You never told me that you were dying. Five easy words that would've shattered our worlds: I love you I think, I have a brain tumor.
    You know, still to this day I don't know all the details because medical jargons never fit right in my mouth and even now, five years later it feels like an invasion of your privacy. But I do know, I have pored over our conversations, searching for the secret message you certainly tried to send me and I am sorry. But I only almost found it. Salt water is not good for paper and my tears warped your words.
    After some serious consideration, I've decided to change my least favorite word. Because while moist is gross, malignant is malicious. Malignant is uncontrollable, means a phone call in a phrase that he didn't wake up. Malignant is messy and unfair and a thief. Malignant means I never got to say goodbye, malignant is the cause of almost. Because you were on the brink of something beautiful but you couldn't quite reach it and you fell too far. I am so sorry I wasn't there to catch you.
    I hope your heaven is a library and I hope it is void of almosts. Te amo, Daniel. Sleep well.

    • @faseehariaz7640
      @faseehariaz7640 8 років тому +1

      thank you

    • @faseehariaz7640
      @faseehariaz7640 8 років тому +1

      thank you

    • @melnjada2
      @melnjada2 7 років тому +4

      I have a question (and excuse me for my ignorance): what is the difference between a poem like this and a prose? I mean, it looks like a prose just structured in verses. I sincerely want to know :)

    • @flyfree6401
      @flyfree6401 7 років тому +14

      The verse structure and the rhythm is what makes it poetry- Taking a glance at Shakespeare's monologues might give some of the same hints, only a little less modernized. If you listen, it all kind of has a beat to it, and it doesn't sound the same if you just read it in the way you might speak normally.
      Prose is almost the opposite. Prose has no structure, it's just ordinary language, it's speaking the way people speak.

  • @morelikeomega
    @morelikeomega 8 років тому +130

    This is my favorite slam poem. I come back to this poem every time I need inspiration. I'm performing for the first time today and this is my piece. Thank you Bianca for creating work as wonderful as this.

  • @dreamer_of_hiraeth
    @dreamer_of_hiraeth Рік тому +2

    I come back to this poem regularly, and after all this time it still strikes my heart and makes me cry. Your words are so very beautiful, even if the experience you speak of broke your heart. I hope you are doing well, Bianca.

  • @shylight9109
    @shylight9109 6 років тому +11

    I sent this to my boyfriend, and he said in response, "I love this, it tells a story of how an i love you is never too early, and always too late."

  • @Aizzan96
    @Aizzan96 2 роки тому +2

    I come to this video , every so often and it always gets me every single time

  • @c0rnybread
    @c0rnybread 10 років тому +18

    When she says "malignant is malicious", gives me goose gimps every time. So good!

  • @Jamie-yo9wn
    @Jamie-yo9wn 10 років тому +63

    There are only a few slam poems that I can listen to over and over again and still get chills every single time, but this is one of them. The way she speaks is beautiful and she's honestly one of my favorite slam poets even though there's only a few that I can find.

  • @heudithmolina8966
    @heudithmolina8966 8 років тому +199

    "I am so sorry I wasn't there to catch you."

  • @b33pxb00p
    @b33pxb00p 10 років тому +47

    So touching. I'm in tears watching this.

  • @Unwickedly
    @Unwickedly 8 років тому +22

    I was not prepared for that absolute cesspool of emotion that brought through.

  • @FookinMadFerIt
    @FookinMadFerIt 8 років тому +27

    God, I try not to cry every time I watch this but I always lose it at "words can only help you if you speak them. I never told you that I loved you. You never told me you were dying." :(

  • @echoeddra8on
    @echoeddra8on 10 років тому +470

    My eyes are moist now....

  • @SneakyRaccoons
    @SneakyRaccoons 9 років тому +21

    Seriously, Bianca is my favorite poet; Everything she does is a masterpiece.

  • @banani7807
    @banani7807 10 років тому +110

    Just cutting some onions, dont mind me!

  • @andy-bm1kt
    @andy-bm1kt 7 років тому +41

    when she said "te amo, Daniel", I literally started crying. seriously, tears are coming out of my eyes right now. I wish I were kidding.

  • @MayaTheBeeeeee
    @MayaTheBeeeeee 10 років тому +610

    I'm not crying
    nu-uh, not crying at all

    • @ghanteaa
      @ghanteaa 10 років тому +11

      i think there is some dust in my eyes!

    • @Hugh.devereuxmack
      @Hugh.devereuxmack 10 років тому +15

      My eyes are just sweaty from like... working out and stuff.

    • @lyly656
      @lyly656 10 років тому +5

      I have a twig in my eye.

    • @MayaTheBeeeeee
      @MayaTheBeeeeee 10 років тому +5

      lyly656 Or a branch

    • @ktomko2
      @ktomko2 10 років тому +14

      Khaleesi OR THE WHOLE FREAKING TREE.

  • @agustinamagpie
    @agustinamagpie 8 років тому +31

    Dear GOD, I swear I can hear my heart breaking.

  • @IveGotaTheory
    @IveGotaTheory 10 років тому +10

    she was one of my favorite poets from the whole competition!

  • @beadenise
    @beadenise 9 років тому +52

    "I love you, I think."

  • @HungwanaBossCollective
    @HungwanaBossCollective 8 років тому +65

    I have always loved your poem it really made my life at the time more full. I loved the way you make a person really feel connected to you. You are a beautiful.

  • @madisonrene8248
    @madisonrene8248 7 років тому +1

    As if "almost" wasn't painful enough - I will never hear these words the same again. And I believe ultimately, this is what I love about poetry the most.
    Thank you.

  • @huntermeek7450
    @huntermeek7450 8 років тому +17

    I think this is the world's most amazing poem

  • @adrianvt
    @adrianvt 6 років тому +10

    i have listened to this poem so many times and it never fails to make me cry

    • @adrianvt
      @adrianvt 6 років тому +1

      “i never told you that i loved you. you never told me that you were dying.” I SOB

  • @nikkiminton12
    @nikkiminton12 10 років тому +9

    My absolute favorite spoken word ever. Thank you to the insanely talented writer.

  • @linkdude64
    @linkdude64 10 років тому +15

    So incredible...what a love they shared. Language can be such an intimate cerebral experience.

  • @renzerika1014
    @renzerika1014 9 років тому +12

    That crack on her voice when she said "Sleep well"

  • @callmequestion
    @callmequestion 7 років тому +10

    I will never get bored of this poem, just perfect and powerful.

  • @chelseygaskins1219
    @chelseygaskins1219 10 років тому +4

    I'll admit it. I am definitely crying, and this poem is worth ever tear. Beautiful, so so beautiful.

  • @CDLatin
    @CDLatin 9 років тому +6

    One of the best poems of all time regardless of how sad it is

  • @poesraven9296
    @poesraven9296 8 років тому +6

    i have no words for how much i love this.

  • @kaleyelizabethhutter9029
    @kaleyelizabethhutter9029 7 років тому +1

    Chills and tears and chills and tears wow all the snaps

  • @salynknowlton9
    @salynknowlton9 3 роки тому +3

    Six years later and I still filter back to these gems...🙏🏻💗

  • @riot2405
    @riot2405 7 років тому +1

    "I only ALMOST found it."
    I'm so in love with this poem.

  • @leonibam2502
    @leonibam2502 7 років тому +3

    Watching it every day,
    still can't hold back the tears.
    This means so much to me
    I know every single word
    Thank you for changing my life into a better and helping me getting through rough times

  • @SFighter
    @SFighter 10 років тому +2

    What. the fuck.
    This was incredible.
    I got chills.
    I've been listening to poems now on youtube for almost two hours straight, and the emotions felt through this one were... brutally honest.

  • @vmgsalinas
    @vmgsalinas 8 років тому +2

    I have heard this so many times the past year since I stumbled upon it and it never fails to get a tear out of me. She delivers it so beautifully

  • @jelliebabies12
    @jelliebabies12 8 років тому +5

    This is my all time favourite poem!!! It is flawless!!!!

  • @Kindabizzare
    @Kindabizzare 7 років тому +1

    How could you not love this poem !!!! Omg

  • @rish9373
    @rish9373 10 років тому +6

    I can't fathom then depth of her pain but a great extent of it is extremely tangible, to the point that it made me shed a tear or two.

  • @ananyasrikkant318
    @ananyasrikkant318 2 роки тому

    there is something in this poem that moves me every single time i hear it

  • @ouertaniahmed560
    @ouertaniahmed560 6 років тому +1

    The most beautiful farewell letter ever...

  • @IsaacDavis69
    @IsaacDavis69 10 років тому +3

    you done made me cry

  • @dimitrijenkins2689
    @dimitrijenkins2689 7 років тому +1

    This brought tears to my eyes.

  • @carinat7040
    @carinat7040 10 років тому

    I have watched this piece over and over again. And everytime it manages to touch something. Her way with words is brilliant.

  • @alyssahumphres1082
    @alyssahumphres1082 2 роки тому +1

    I've watched this countless times, over the last five years. And it still brings me to tears nearly every fucking time. Beautiful

  • @alyssastewartt
    @alyssastewartt 8 років тому +1

    In tears

  • @Max-vo3uv
    @Max-vo3uv 9 років тому +7

    "I never got to say goodbye."
    I understand that. I wish I had gotten the chance to say goodbye. R.I.P Blaze. I miss you.

  • @beatricecouser2908
    @beatricecouser2908 9 років тому +10

    "Words can only help you if you speak them" OOOHHH

  • @maryantoneth6714
    @maryantoneth6714 3 роки тому +1

    i remembered discovering this when I was just 17, which was 4 years ago. it still hurts

  • @makaelawilcox2355
    @makaelawilcox2355 8 років тому +1

    I cry every time. every . time

  • @prestonh.2771
    @prestonh.2771 10 років тому

    I ALMOST held in the tears... Beautiful and heart wrenching.

  • @GloomyFish
    @GloomyFish 8 років тому

    I cry every time I watch this... and I have watched this quite a lot...

  • @ivanspoetry
    @ivanspoetry 8 років тому

    My God that was... I have no word for it. I am definitely not almost in tears right now.

  • @sijdah82
    @sijdah82 2 роки тому

    Goosebumps!

  • @soapboxproductions1491
    @soapboxproductions1491 10 років тому +2

    Give love. Accept love. We love you Bianca!!

  • @kaka_y_donas9129
    @kaka_y_donas9129 3 роки тому +1

    How is she so strong and not crying:(

  • @deeee_veeen
    @deeee_veeen 4 роки тому +3

    "words can only help of you speak them" that hit

  • @amberjuarez3254
    @amberjuarez3254 7 років тому

    I found myself rewatching this performance for the hundredth time and crying for the hundredth time. One of my favorite poems😭😭

  • @bennytoe
    @bennytoe 7 років тому

    UGHHHHHHH...... RIGHT AT THE END. TEARS.. FLOWING. everywhere!

  • @brittneyzastrow3624
    @brittneyzastrow3624 9 років тому +1

    this is one of my favorite poems on this channel

  • @pandalover1238
    @pandalover1238 7 років тому

    My heart shattered.

  • @leetcodesolved
    @leetcodesolved 2 роки тому

    “Because you were on the brink of something beautiful ,but you couldn’t quite reach it” oh gawd ,it’s splendid 😍😍😍

  • @juliastarr2235
    @juliastarr2235 7 років тому +2

    This is the most amazing, beautiful well written and spoke poem. I really feel bad for saying I loved it so much. It is just so amazing.

  • @isinBohemianRhapsody
    @isinBohemianRhapsody 10 років тому +8

    This was incredible

  • @BriANNaBabii1125
    @BriANNaBabii1125 7 років тому

    DAMN. It's been awhile since a poem brought me to tears but this one did. Chills everywhere.

  • @TheAvbtll
    @TheAvbtll 10 років тому +30

    ''Te amo Daniel, sleep well'' .. HELL YEAH :)

  • @dot_bellam
    @dot_bellam 10 років тому +1

    gosh that was so sad and beautiful, i have tears in my eyes

  • @busdix
    @busdix 8 років тому +1

    I cried !!

  • @alyssaortega9222
    @alyssaortega9222 10 років тому

    I watch this every so often. I love this poem too much.

  • @DJKJ0512
    @DJKJ0512 8 років тому +2

    This is really nice and one of my favorites, it's meaning just makes you tear up... The way it's presented is so good and just wow

  • @leticiay.r.4970
    @leticiay.r.4970 8 років тому +3

    I think this is the most lovely thing I've ever seen. I started watching these videos to practice my English and never really expected that I would fall in love with poetry. Simply amazing!

  • @naveli12
    @naveli12 5 років тому

    okay okay I was slightly crying throughout this but when she said "AND I'M SORRY" I just burst into tears.

  • @brighidcampbell491
    @brighidcampbell491 9 місяців тому

    Been trying to find this poem. It still sticks in my brain. Beautiful

  • @kaylieyu
    @kaylieyu 2 роки тому

    Will always be my favorite

  • @Loveable344
    @Loveable344 10 років тому +3

    Right in the feels

  • @Nickiaconetti
    @Nickiaconetti 10 років тому +5

    This is phenomenal, Bianca. Wow.

  • @happylaughingjack1923
    @happylaughingjack1923 8 років тому +1

    This made me teary-eyed. Oh god, malignant.

  • @benzooor
    @benzooor 6 років тому

    Wonderfully written, beautifully performed. A haunting modern elegy. I love this. I've watched it so many times over the last few years and it never fails to shake me.

  • @Healthyrunningworld
    @Healthyrunningworld 6 років тому

    I almost didn't cry....but these ninja onions are making my eyes moist...

  • @juliea8925
    @juliea8925 8 років тому

    when she said ,,malignant is malicious" is when i started crying. still haven't stopped.

  • @Abi-il7cm
    @Abi-il7cm 8 років тому

    I literally just got chills throughout my entire body.

  • @mashruba8587
    @mashruba8587 7 років тому +2

    I've lost count of how many times I watched this

  • @autumgonzales6570
    @autumgonzales6570 4 роки тому

    a poem has never made me cry, but this one hit a spot i didn't know i even had

  • @jessikahann4930
    @jessikahann4930 6 років тому +1

    "Words can only help you if you speak them."
    I'm not crying, you're crying.

  • @plzakman
    @plzakman 10 років тому +2

    Im not crying. My eyes are sweaty

  • @alexandra7528
    @alexandra7528 10 років тому +19

    "on the brink of something beautiful" "void of almosts"

  • @bethanybrazier2128
    @bethanybrazier2128 8 років тому

    I first watched this 2 years ago and I just cannot explain how much I love this poem. Such an amazing and powerful piece 😍

  • @ephemeralumbra
    @ephemeralumbra 10 років тому

    i literally cry every time.

  • @georginahowarth3433
    @georginahowarth3433 10 років тому

    This is an amazing poem, full of pure emotion and eloquent words. I am near tears.

  • @miladiyah
    @miladiyah 3 роки тому

    I, wholeheartedly, adore this piece