Let's go in the garden. You'll find something waiting. Right there where you left it, lying upside down. When you finally find it, You'll see how it's faded. The underside is lighter when you turn it around. Everything stays, right where you left it. Everything stays, but it still changes. Ever so slightly. Daily and nightly. In little ways. When everything stays. You may not be the same Rainy you were yesterday or yesteryear, but you're always going to be the first one and only one. You're special, loved and important. Take care of yourself ❤
I'll probably remember where as soon as I hit "comment" but recently I read (in a book? a tumblr post? I read it multiple times) about this person who was on a tour of a Japanese shrine. The guide commented that the building was super old (let's say 2000 years old) and it had recently been rebuilt 20 years ago. The person telling the story couldn't wrap their head around the fact that the building had been burned multiple times, rebuilt, torn down, rebuilt, etc but it was still considered the original building. The tour guide explained that it's not the materials that matter, it's the intention of the thing that makes it original. The intention of the building never changes even if the physicality of it does. I believe that in every moment of our lives, we are operating from the best of intentions. No one ever sets out to be the @sshole. Even if our behaviors are interpreted as something other than what we intended, where we were coming from can't ever be changed. And of course, like you said, the more the grow and change the more our intentions change. We do the best with the information we have. Our hearts don't change. I do feel like how we love is pretty consistent, even if fear covers it up. This is mildly on-topic, but from time to time, usually as a trick to fall asleep, I will start with my current age and count backwards, thanking who I was at that age (So I'll say "Thank you, 23...thank you 22...thank you 21). It really viscerally brings up how much I've changed and I can see who I was even back when I was 2 or 3. I could talk about this more but I wanted to relay that shrine story. Very similar to yours!
I've been writing a diary for 4 years (I've just realised that and it's blowing my mind I did not realise how long it's been). This audio reminds me of a diary entry I wrote on the 6th of October 2019: "When it comes to mental health there is no such thing as a "happy ending". There is only a slightly better ending, and then relapse, and then another slightly better ending, and then a new beginning. You can't trust the brain to work consistently and people need to understand that you will never be the same person you were the day before. There is no such thing a an "identity", there is only a pattern of behaviour. Stop trusting your brain and stop trusting your perception" Now, I wrote that when I was very depressed so it doesn't sound very nice or positive but I'm glad to know that I wasn't completely losing my mind. This audio was a nicer version of what I thought and I'm glad you made it because it's very reassuring. I think I just wish sometimes that my brain didn't change so quickly as it can be painful. Thanks for making an audio despite going through issues btw. I appreciate it.
I'm glad it resonated with you. It sort of sounds like you were exploring concepts related to recovery-oriented care: www1.health.gov.au/internet/publications/publishing.nsf/Content/mental-pubs-i-nongov-toc~mental-pubs-i-nongov-pri From the perspective of the individual with mental illness, recovery means gaining and retaining hope, understanding of one's abilities and disabilities, engagement in an active life, personal autonomy, social identity, meaning and purpose in life, and a positive sense of self. It is important to remember that recovery is not synonymous with cure. Recovery refers to both internal conditions experienced by persons who describe themselves as being in recovery - hope, healing, empowerment and connection - and external conditions that facilitate recovery - implementation of human rights, a positive culture of healing, and recovery-oriented services.
@@rainydayaudios7754 I think at the time what I was so bitter about was the fact that there was no cure for my mental illness. Maybe because recovery takes a lot more effort than a cure and I was not prepared at all for the work I'd have to put in. It's actually one of the reasons I was discharged from my last therapy service. They told me I wasn't "ready to change" which confused me a lot. This article was very helpful though in illustrating what recovery means.
Another positive video Rainy. I am glad that you identified that identity is subjective and constantly changing. I remember learning that aspect when I was in my first year at University years ago.
as always you make good thought-provoking points! you tackle a lot of topics which are difficult to explain or convince and break it down into reasoning and analogies that make it so simple and easy to just say "yeah, that makes more sense than my immediate irrational thoughts"
This was exactly what I needed to hear today. It's got me considering my self-loathing and re-evaluating it as a ship with planks. Thank you so very much for brightening my day!
Great to hear from you. I have similar struggles, but something recently caught my eye, which is a mantra which sort of calms me is this - - the only thing certain is uncertainty.... Never an easy thing to reconcile in life, but developing an acceptance of this fact makes any bumps seem a little less bumpy. I wish you the very best. X
It is a great hope of mine that as we each learn this lesson with respect to ourselves, we will then also start to better recognize how it applies to others-from our friends and family all the way to people who have committed criminal offenses and are now trying to find a better path.
I'm late... but I love this. That made me thiiiiink and it kinda shifted my perspective on things a bit and I love it. Thank you for making this! And in case it wasn't clear enough already, I loved that and I needed to hear that. God, I loved it! Okay, okay, I'm done! Thank you!! >.
Identity is such a tricky thing. Often, I feel as though my life is just identity crisis, after identity crisis. Who am I? How can I change? What do I want from my future? How different would I be if certain things in my past changed? Could I ever be that person, or is it too late? It's shown itself in the many different hairstyles I've had over the years, how my fashion sense has changed, how I carry myself, and what books I read. I've come to learn I am never the same person I was yesterday. The ability to change is one of my favorite things about humanity. Change used to be something I feared, now it's something I crave. I used to want so badly to just start over. New me, clean slate. Then I realized I was the only one stopping myself from having that. So every once in a while, I wipe my slate. I'm different. I'm new. That girl you talked to yesterday? Who's she? The past versions of me are still me, just as I am me, and all future versions will be me. We're just different, and all doing our best. No matter how much I change there will always be one or two things that stay the same. Not because they can't, but because they are an integral part of who I am, and I like them. There are so many versions of me. I'll never be able to become them again, even the ones I wish I could. The wonderful thing about always being a new me is that I have that hindsight. I know who I am. I know who I want to be. I know who I have been. I'm still figuring things out, I have a rough idea of what I want from my future, I know what I don't want for sure. Tomorrow I'll be a new ship. Year's from now. I have no clue who I'll be. That's the fun part though. Identity. Changing who are is about the journey, not the end. Maybe the ship isn't the Ship of Thesius, but it's a ship. A strong, beautiful ship who although is reminiscent of its past self, is capable of starting new adventures (if it ever left the Museum that is). Building a new ship out of old planks, well it won't quite be the ship of Thesius either. It will be a new ship, one who has those past memories to hold on to, but is itself, new. I've struggled with identity for a long time. The current me is about 9 hours old I would say. I'm still getting to know her, but I love meeting new people so I don't mind. I hope that somewhere in my veritable novel of rambling I've managed to say something helpful. If not...well I tried, and that's what matters. Something I almost forgot: sometimes life events (death of a loved one, moving, abuse, etc) can change us without our wanting to. The best thing is to just take time to heal, and love yourself no matter what. Whatever is going on right now, I'm here, I care, and so do a LOT of other people. You aren't the same rainy who started this channel, but regardless, I love you all the same. I hope that you are doing well. Love, Raincloud
I haven't made it very far in the video, but my stubborn brain immediately believes that if Theseus owns and operates the ship, no matter what it looks like-it's his ship! Now, I'll sigh, attempt to realize the meaning of the video, but ultimately just be calmed by Rainy's voice!
Theseus is long dead, the ship is in a museum and is on display as The Ship of Theseus. It is a memento of sorts, an historical artefact but is no longer being used by Theseus.
@@rainydayaudios7754 It looks like I'll have to do some more research, I just thought it was apart of mythology or something, but thank you for the clarification! I hope you're doing well, and feeling better!
Hah, no, it's an old thought experiment and philosophical paradox (though it does use a historical figure) but there's been plenty of philosophical debates over the years about it. I'm not really attempting to solve or even discuss the thought experiment that much, I'm mostly just piggybacking off of it so I can talk about how we change and grow and shouldn't punish ourselves for past mistakes.
@@rainydayaudios7754 If work would stop interrupting, I could finish the video, but I've always been extremely self-aware and reflective, but since I completed my Psychology classes a few years ago, I haven't participated in any educational discussions. I am however an expert in blaming myself and over analyzing every decision I make, so like almost every other video of yours, I'm sure it'll be helpful for me!
I’m sorry for this being unrelated. Lately, I’ve been dealing with all sorts of aches and pains and I was wondering if you’d be interested in making an ASMR comfort for pain video? Preferably M4M but I’m genderfluid so any gender will be fine. Thank you for your time. Edit: this audio was really good 🤍
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Let's go in the garden.
You'll find something waiting.
Right there where you left it, lying upside down.
When you finally find it,
You'll see how it's faded.
The underside is lighter when you turn it around.
Everything stays, right where you left it.
Everything stays, but it still changes.
Ever so slightly.
Daily and nightly.
In little ways.
When everything stays.
You may not be the same Rainy you were yesterday or yesteryear, but you're always going to be the first one and only one. You're special, loved and important.
Take care of yourself ❤
I'll probably remember where as soon as I hit "comment" but recently I read (in a book? a tumblr post? I read it multiple times) about this person who was on a tour of a Japanese shrine. The guide commented that the building was super old (let's say 2000 years old) and it had recently been rebuilt 20 years ago. The person telling the story couldn't wrap their head around the fact that the building had been burned multiple times, rebuilt, torn down, rebuilt, etc but it was still considered the original building. The tour guide explained that it's not the materials that matter, it's the intention of the thing that makes it original. The intention of the building never changes even if the physicality of it does.
I believe that in every moment of our lives, we are operating from the best of intentions. No one ever sets out to be the @sshole. Even if our behaviors are interpreted as something other than what we intended, where we were coming from can't ever be changed. And of course, like you said, the more the grow and change the more our intentions change. We do the best with the information we have. Our hearts don't change. I do feel like how we love is pretty consistent, even if fear covers it up.
This is mildly on-topic, but from time to time, usually as a trick to fall asleep, I will start with my current age and count backwards, thanking who I was at that age (So I'll say "Thank you, 23...thank you 22...thank you 21). It really viscerally brings up how much I've changed and I can see who I was even back when I was 2 or 3.
I could talk about this more but I wanted to relay that shrine story. Very similar to yours!
Welcome home, Theseus.
please only upload if it makes you feel better. Don't if it is too stressful/bad for you.
Going to listen now, keep safe, hope you feel better.
I've been writing a diary for 4 years (I've just realised that and it's blowing my mind I did not realise how long it's been). This audio reminds me of a diary entry I wrote on the 6th of October 2019:
"When it comes to mental health there is no such thing as a "happy ending". There is only a slightly better ending, and then relapse, and then another slightly better ending, and then a new beginning. You can't trust the brain to work consistently and people need to understand that you will never be the same person you were the day before. There is no such thing a an "identity", there is only a pattern of behaviour. Stop trusting your brain and stop trusting your perception"
Now, I wrote that when I was very depressed so it doesn't sound very nice or positive but I'm glad to know that I wasn't completely losing my mind. This audio was a nicer version of what I thought and I'm glad you made it because it's very reassuring. I think I just wish sometimes that my brain didn't change so quickly as it can be painful.
Thanks for making an audio despite going through issues btw. I appreciate it.
I'm glad it resonated with you. It sort of sounds like you were exploring concepts related to recovery-oriented care: www1.health.gov.au/internet/publications/publishing.nsf/Content/mental-pubs-i-nongov-toc~mental-pubs-i-nongov-pri
From the perspective of the individual with mental illness, recovery means gaining and retaining hope, understanding of one's abilities and disabilities, engagement in an active life, personal autonomy, social identity, meaning and purpose in life, and a positive sense of self.
It is important to remember that recovery is not synonymous with cure. Recovery refers to both internal conditions experienced by persons who describe themselves as being in recovery - hope, healing, empowerment and connection - and external conditions that facilitate recovery - implementation of human rights, a positive culture of healing, and recovery-oriented services.
@@rainydayaudios7754 I think at the time what I was so bitter about was the fact that there was no cure for my mental illness. Maybe because recovery takes a lot more effort than a cure and I was not prepared at all for the work I'd have to put in. It's actually one of the reasons I was discharged from my last therapy service. They told me I wasn't "ready to change" which confused me a lot. This article was very helpful though in illustrating what recovery means.
Another positive video Rainy. I am glad that you identified that identity is subjective and constantly changing. I remember learning that aspect when I was in my first year at University years ago.
As someone with plenty of cringey moments under her belt, this audio is very relatable. Thanks, Rainy. Hope you're doing a bit better 💜
I liked this. We are all works in progress. It reminds me of a quote I like:
“When I knew better, I did better.” -Maya Angelou
I really, really, really hope you're feeling a little better. Appreciate that you're doing this now.
as always you make good thought-provoking points! you tackle a lot of topics which are difficult to explain or convince and break it down into reasoning and analogies that make it so simple and easy to just say "yeah, that makes more sense than my immediate irrational thoughts"
Aw, thank you sydney, I really appreciate that
This was exactly what I needed to hear today. It's got me considering my self-loathing and re-evaluating it as a ship with planks. Thank you so very much for brightening my day!
Aw, that's so wonderful! That makes me happy. I'm proud of you.
What a wonderful video ❤ Might have to start journaling in patch note format!
Great to hear from you. I have similar struggles, but something recently caught my eye, which is a mantra which sort of calms me is this - - the only thing certain is uncertainty.... Never an easy thing to reconcile in life, but developing an acceptance of this fact makes any bumps seem a little less bumpy. I wish you the very best. X
This helped a ton thanks!
It is a great hope of mine that as we each learn this lesson with respect to ourselves, we will then also start to better recognize how it applies to others-from our friends and family all the way to people who have committed criminal offenses and are now trying to find a better path.
I'm late... but I love this. That made me thiiiiink and it kinda shifted my perspective on things a bit and I love it. Thank you for making this!
And in case it wasn't clear enough already, I loved that and I needed to hear that. God, I loved it! Okay, okay, I'm done! Thank you!! >.
Identity is such a tricky thing. Often, I feel as though my life is just identity crisis, after identity crisis. Who am I? How can I change? What do I want from my future? How different would I be if certain things in my past changed? Could I ever be that person, or is it too late?
It's shown itself in the many different hairstyles I've had over the years, how my fashion sense has changed, how I carry myself, and what books I read. I've come to learn I am never the same person I was yesterday. The ability to change is one of my favorite things about humanity. Change used to be something I feared, now it's something I crave. I used to want so badly to just start over. New me, clean slate. Then I realized I was the only one stopping myself from having that. So every once in a while, I wipe my slate. I'm different. I'm new. That girl you talked to yesterday? Who's she? The past versions of me are still me, just as I am me, and all future versions will be me. We're just different, and all doing our best. No matter how much I change there will always be one or two things that stay the same. Not because they can't, but because they are an integral part of who I am, and I like them. There are so many versions of me. I'll never be able to become them again, even the ones I wish I could. The wonderful thing about always being a new me is that I have that hindsight. I know who I am. I know who I want to be. I know who I have been. I'm still figuring things out, I have a rough idea of what I want from my future, I know what I don't want for sure. Tomorrow I'll be a new ship. Year's from now. I have no clue who I'll be. That's the fun part though. Identity. Changing who are is about the journey, not the end. Maybe the ship isn't the Ship of Thesius, but it's a ship. A strong, beautiful ship who although is reminiscent of its past self, is capable of starting new adventures (if it ever left the Museum that is). Building a new ship out of old planks, well it won't quite be the ship of Thesius either. It will be a new ship, one who has those past memories to hold on to, but is itself, new. I've struggled with identity for a long time. The current me is about 9 hours old I would say. I'm still getting to know her, but I love meeting new people so I don't mind.
I hope that somewhere in my veritable novel of rambling I've managed to say something helpful. If not...well I tried, and that's what matters. Something I almost forgot: sometimes life events (death of a loved one, moving, abuse, etc) can change us without our wanting to. The best thing is to just take time to heal, and love yourself no matter what. Whatever is going on right now, I'm here, I care, and so do a LOT of other people. You aren't the same rainy who started this channel, but regardless, I love you all the same. I hope that you are doing well.
Love,
Raincloud
Helpful as always
Hope you’re doing fine💕
This was very good. Thank you
This was made on my birthday. That is all I have to say
I haven't made it very far in the video, but my stubborn brain immediately believes that if Theseus owns and operates the ship, no matter what it looks like-it's his ship!
Now, I'll sigh, attempt to realize the meaning of the video, but ultimately just be calmed by Rainy's voice!
Theseus is long dead, the ship is in a museum and is on display as The Ship of Theseus. It is a memento of sorts, an historical artefact but is no longer being used by Theseus.
@@rainydayaudios7754
It looks like I'll have to do some more research, I just thought it was apart of mythology or something, but thank you for the clarification! I hope you're doing well, and feeling better!
Hah, no, it's an old thought experiment and philosophical paradox (though it does use a historical figure) but there's been plenty of philosophical debates over the years about it. I'm not really attempting to solve or even discuss the thought experiment that much, I'm mostly just piggybacking off of it so I can talk about how we change and grow and shouldn't punish ourselves for past mistakes.
@@rainydayaudios7754
If work would stop interrupting, I could finish the video, but I've always been extremely self-aware and reflective, but since I completed my Psychology classes a few years ago, I haven't participated in any educational discussions. I am however an expert in blaming myself and over analyzing every decision I make, so like almost every other video of yours, I'm sure it'll be helpful for me!
Thinking about Ghostbur vs afterlife Wilbursoot
Hi dad! Am i first?? Great audio as always.
I think you are. Congratulations!
I’m sorry for this being unrelated.
Lately, I’ve been dealing with all sorts of aches and pains and I was wondering if you’d be interested in making an ASMR comfort for pain video? Preferably M4M but I’m genderfluid so any gender will be fine. Thank you for your time.
Edit: this audio was really good 🤍
I only know Theseus from Technoblade :)
WELCOME HOME THESEUS
Anybody hear listen to distractible with mark, bob and wade 😂