you fall in love with souls, not faces [ dark academia playlist ]

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КОМЕНТАРІ • 390

  • @helderboutens
    @helderboutens  18 днів тому +2

    Just made a Discord server for the channel!
    Feel free to join here: discord.gg/JgwuB25sUE

  • @I_Luv_DILFS
    @I_Luv_DILFS 4 місяці тому +1717

    “I spent half my time loving her and the other half hiding how much I loved her.”

    • @blakeskelton
      @blakeskelton 4 місяці тому +68

      I felt that throughout my whole body, mind and soul... People like us love hard. Sometimes it wrecks us and burns us. Don't let it take your light.

    • @gerbertela
      @gerbertela 3 місяці тому +16

      MY HEART

    • @lisx.x
      @lisx.x 3 місяці тому +16

      Where is this quote from😭 you've bewitched me mind body and soul vibes here

    • @I_Luv_DILFS
      @I_Luv_DILFS 3 місяці тому +26

      @@lisx.x It's from "The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo" It's one of the only books I have actually cried at lol

    • @I_Luv_DILFS
      @I_Luv_DILFS 3 місяці тому +5

      @@lisx.x and it's from Evelyn to Celia. Their love story is so tragic to me.

  • @alleycat1217
    @alleycat1217 Місяць тому +144

    sometimes i think the only thing i will ever feel completely safe loving is my own imagination

    • @warmusic863
      @warmusic863 Місяць тому

      That's an addiction

    • @rwipvanwinkle
      @rwipvanwinkle 26 днів тому

      @@warmusic863 how? fr

    • @thenamelessme
      @thenamelessme 15 днів тому

      I mean its quite depressing but understandable

    • @ruosu3654
      @ruosu3654 15 днів тому +2

      @@rwipvanwinklemmmm maybe you will get too comfortable with how perfect your imaginations can be that you start to find the imperfections of reality increasingly intolerable…you become addicted to the perfection of your mind, so to speak.

  • @thejabberwock5971
    @thejabberwock5971 3 місяці тому +546

    The first thing he ever said to me was what I wanted to talk about ( note: it was megalodons ). We talked about anything and everything for weeks, then one night he asked me if I’d like to go on a date with him to a museum and I said yes. Little did he know that going to a museum was my ideal date. We talked more than anything else, we talked about all kinds of things from our favorite books to our beliefs about the universe. We had a four-hour conversation on our first date, it was nearly past midnight when he brought me back to my house. That was two months ago. My life is all the better for having him in it, he gave me the courage to finally get treated for my anxiety and quit a job that I hated. He is patient, kind and so incredibly smart ( something I find to be VERY attractive ); he makes me laugh and at times he’s the only one who can. I feel more than just loved I feel cherished and wanted. This man healed something inside of me that had been hurting for a long time; he loves me in more than just words alone, he loves me in the everyday things he does for me. I got sick a few weeks ago and yesterday afternoon he had to help me walk up the stairs, I needed compression socks as they help, and before I could even try to put them on myself he grabbed them from me and did it for me. I love him more than words can say, and I don't know what I’d do without him.

    • @ye_skz_cb5610
      @ye_skz_cb5610 2 місяці тому +22

      I'm so happy for you, your love story is beautiful I hope the better for your and your love 💖💖 You deserve all this love

    • @stephanieramirez7653
      @stephanieramirez7653 2 місяці тому +5

      Awww this story is such a beautiful love story❤❤ I wish you both the best and may this strong love you both have and cherish lasts a lifetime ❤

    • @gabehowe2778
      @gabehowe2778 2 місяці тому +15

      I love when people write things like this. It’s a great way for me to live vicariously. To experience a fraction of what I want, knowing I’ll never come close to anything like it. True love does exist, it just doesn’t for me.

    • @audi9725
      @audi9725 2 місяці тому +1

      That is love not lust not hate just pure unconditional forever lasting LOVE.

    • @makro477
      @makro477 2 місяці тому +3

      @dgabehowe2778 u dont walk this path alone my friend

  • @adleighstrickland2952
    @adleighstrickland2952 4 місяці тому +520

    Falling into love with the lovely soul within someone's eyes is the most beautiful form of love someone can experience.
    Whether it be a lover or friend, loving someone's true soul is the most incredible connection a person can have.

    • @Lamont_Smythe
      @Lamont_Smythe 4 місяці тому +11

      I'm truly envious.

    • @mabyonedayicanbehappy
      @mabyonedayicanbehappy 3 місяці тому +2

      The other half of our soul

    • @daniellerostaing1467
      @daniellerostaing1467 3 місяці тому +5

      i agree with you. the heart knows what it,s want or need- it is called love. i found a love for the past 43 years together,yes we are both women! and we never looked back!

    • @loveinthematrix
      @loveinthematrix 2 місяці тому

      @@Lamont_Smythewhy?

    • @loveinthematrix
      @loveinthematrix 2 місяці тому

      @@Lamont_SmytheI mean why aren’t u looking

  • @johnysharki5694
    @johnysharki5694 3 місяці тому +203

    I am in love with someone that no longer exists.I like to think they are still alive to keep myself going and motivated but then after a while I wake up to the heart wrenching reality that this person is beneath the ground now and their heart is not beating anymore. There will never be "us", neither will we ever have a future. I dress nicely and try to look good with them in mind even though that person will never be there to look at me. What's worse is that I only started developing these feelings after they passed. I feel drained and confused, I don't want to be with anyone else.

    • @thetanz8111
      @thetanz8111 2 місяці тому +18

      I'm very sorry for the loss of your person. I hope in time it doesn't hurt you so much.

    • @SillyLittlePookie
      @SillyLittlePookie 2 місяці тому +7

      im so sorry my love. know that they will never be forgotten, and they still think of you wherever they are now. i hope you find healing and peace

    • @8teein
      @8teein 2 місяці тому +2

      Is this like some sort of celebrity or something

    • @michellejansma165
      @michellejansma165 2 місяці тому +9

      Remember if you had this connection, it's not TRULY gone. Your love for them keeps their energy near. Energy is never gone. Love is a pure energy that you sense and feel. They ARE with you. You can't see with physical senses. Just feel with the energy of their love and connection. I promise this will help. 💞

    • @michellejansma165
      @michellejansma165 2 місяці тому +6

      And their body was their shell. The shell is left behind to be eternally their truest self.

  • @livafridrihsone6683
    @livafridrihsone6683 2 місяці тому +50

    Everyone who is listening to this and reading this, may your life and soul be envolopped and covered in eternal love ❤

  • @lumina_sounds
    @lumina_sounds 3 місяці тому +57

    “Soul connections are not often found and are worth every bit of fight left in you to keep.”

  • @KI.DDO1
    @KI.DDO1 4 місяці тому +303

    Will we ever come back? I don't think so. I really loved spending time with you. You removed the feeling of loneliness and negative thinking from me when no one could do this, but nothing stays the same. I wish all my time, my day, and my years with you. I'll be fine. I don't think I can be with someone else. Other than you

    • @christopherpuleo5650
      @christopherpuleo5650 4 місяці тому +1

      Thank you if you meant me, I hate my family hearing me feminine. I know its you Kurt Schneider coming to me in a time of Keilbasa and rummy. I don't want pep talk from my Encanto family and I don't like them and I want advice.

    • @Jay-bassy
      @Jay-bassy 4 місяці тому +2

      I’m in a bad spot rn and this is what I truly want her to know but I’m to weat to send her that quote

    • @christopherpuleo5650
      @christopherpuleo5650 4 місяці тому

      @@Jay-bassy Are you Louis Xiv or reincarnated?

    • @christopherpuleo5650
      @christopherpuleo5650 4 місяці тому

      @Jay-bassy Well then he best go back there!

    • @user-xz3rg9sz3p
      @user-xz3rg9sz3p 4 місяці тому +1

      My heart aches for your simple embrace. A kiss 💋 breaking through the barriers of time and reality, that only you might come to find one love inside your mind once again. The not so distant memory cradles out synchronicity let us propel again into the continuum of love everlasting and create our own happy ending inside the ebbing pulse of a new beginning. Eternally up yours. 😅to infinity ♾️ and beyond. Seleneamberwolf

  • @user-dp1zq8ib3i
    @user-dp1zq8ib3i 3 місяці тому +65

    Hurts when they don't know your name, age, face, don't even know your existence. Yet you know all about theirs. Now that.. hurts

    • @nolim1tzzz136
      @nolim1tzzz136 2 місяці тому +19

      That's called stalking my friend

    • @x2bbutBj
      @x2bbutBj Місяць тому

      Tell him/her

    • @rwipvanwinkle
      @rwipvanwinkle 26 днів тому

      @@nolim1tzzz136 stalkings weird-what bro meant would be just simple observing my friend

  • @kate.el77
    @kate.el77 4 місяці тому +193

    As a writer, these dark academia playlists inspire me so much. I love writing short little romantic stories, not to share with anyone, but just for me, and this type of music is always perfect for those! Thank you for creating such beautiful arrangements.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +14

      Thank you so much for the kind words! I’ll definitely continue to try and create the highest quality of playlists possible :)

    • @husaynholmirziy6912
      @husaynholmirziy6912 2 місяці тому +10

      Wow, you're a writer of romantic stories? Let's share with us, with me

    • @karlinemiller
      @karlinemiller Місяць тому +1

      I know you said you wouldn't share but, i'm kind of curious, if you ever plan on sharing it with few people, let me know! i would love to support you.

    • @husaynholmirziy6912
      @husaynholmirziy6912 Місяць тому +2

      @@karlinemiller really??

    • @karlinemiller
      @karlinemiller Місяць тому

      @@husaynholmirziy6912 yeah! why not read what the other person has to say? i would love to read your work too

  • @tomamyx3980
    @tomamyx3980 3 місяці тому +15

    Ten thousand times I've seen her... ten thousand times she takes my breath away (married 54 years)

  • @AlyssaLuthy
    @AlyssaLuthy 4 місяці тому +77

    We loved, we laughed, we left. It’s been a year and I don’t miss him anymore, but sometimes I still hear his laughter, still see his smile, still feel his kiss. I don’t miss him but I do miss the memories.
    They said In time it will heal, but it feels like an eternity won’t fix the empty spot where he used to take up so much room.

    • @SpyKid527
      @SpyKid527 3 місяці тому +4

      this line goes so hard 🥲

  • @drasolth9802
    @drasolth9802 2 місяці тому +21

    "Every soul has its dark" -John Darksoul

  • @andrastetriformis6241
    @andrastetriformis6241 4 місяці тому +221

    "Those who do soul work, who want the searing truth more than solace or applause, know each other right away. Those who want something else turn and take a seat in another room. Soul-makers find each other's company." ~ Rumi

    • @user-ze3gy8fn8k
      @user-ze3gy8fn8k 4 місяці тому +6

      Soul maker must has a lonely destiny

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому +4

      I hear you. Tough times, but we'll get through this. Stay strong.

  • @in_the_building1
    @in_the_building1 3 місяці тому +37

    love how a story can be told without words..

  • @axelle7549
    @axelle7549 4 місяці тому +104

    I can't explain how much i love listen to this during writing poetry.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +6

      Really glad to be of some kind of help then!

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому +2

      You fall in love with souls, not faces. Stay strong through these tough times.

  • @hellomew
    @hellomew 2 місяці тому +11

    i see beauty in absolutely everyone. i have never met a person i didn’t think was beautiful. but as soon as someone hurts me, or someone else, in a way that can’t be taken back, i see ugliness infect their face. it’s so visceral, so instant. their actions contort their face into something repulsive.

  • @xMissVix
    @xMissVix Місяць тому +56

    these comments along with the playlist... perfection. i hope every single one of us finds our soulmate(s), and live beautifully imperfect lives together

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  Місяць тому +4

      I hope the same for you!!

    • @estelaa.6737
      @estelaa.6737 Місяць тому

      Thank you and I hope so too for all of us here 🥹❤️‍🔥🙏🏼✨

  • @ZozoTheWriter-gs7un
    @ZozoTheWriter-gs7un 3 місяці тому +16

    We were not strangers - we were lovers. Not in this lifetime and maybe not in the last ones but if not, in some form and place we will be together . . in love . . . in peace . . . . . . in another life

  • @daniellerostaing1467
    @daniellerostaing1467 3 місяці тому +39

    i fell in love with her soul,not her looks- but after 43 years of being with her, i'm in love!

  • @She_Shorts
    @She_Shorts 2 місяці тому +19

    We had a friendship for 5 weeks and I didn't know I was falling for him until we had an argument and it ended everything. He never knew how I felt about him and I never knew you could fall for someone that fast. It was all long distance as he lived in Cali and me in NY. Saw his face maybe twice. Good looking, sure but the way he made me feel I'll never forget. If it's meant to be it'll happen. If not, I hope the next one comes pretty close to him. The smile and laughs he put on my face I'll never forget.

  • @dianejenkins6159
    @dianejenkins6159 2 місяці тому +10

    Those of you who found true love and your soul mate are the most fortunate of all.

  • @denisa_tom
    @denisa_tom Місяць тому +6

    Mereu melodiile triste pe mine m-a ajutat să scriu din inimă tot felu de povesti despre iubire și tristețe. Iubirea este cel mai frumos sentiment si cel mai pur dar mereu v-a exista suferința mai multă sau mai puțină.
    Dorința de a iubi pe cineva nu se poate îndeplini oricui,acest lucru se întâmplă rar.
    Noi oamenii trebuie să acceptăm oricât de greu ne-ar fi să renunțăm la omul pe care îl iubim ca sa nu suferim indiferent cine este el/ea, pentru binele noastru….

  • @reallyshykat7492
    @reallyshykat7492 4 місяці тому +40

    As I sit here, trying to write anything. Anything that will make me immortal, all I think of is ways to immortalize you. Capture not just your raw beauty but your soul, your essence. The energy you give off the second one lays eyes upon you. Maybe to make sure my name is never forgotten is to make sure the world feels you as I do.
    You are my muse darling, let me create something that only wishes to be you. Let me make the pages full of you, canvases beautiful.

    • @kristiepalmer9460
      @kristiepalmer9460 4 місяці тому +2

      Very beautiful indeed ❤️

    • @estelaa.6737
      @estelaa.6737 Місяць тому

      Those first two lines got me hooked, beautiful writing !! 👏❤️⚡️

  • @loveinthematrix
    @loveinthematrix 2 місяці тому +16

    I pray someone loves me for my soul because I am not beautiful. People only seem to see what’s on the surface. I feel no one will ever love me again but I hope I’m wrong. If it’s pure, I will love wholeheartedly. I just don’t know what kind of person could see something beautiful in my face because there’s so much wrong with it. I try to be loving to everyone but I am called ugly often. It seems like a curse to have a beautiful heart but to be called ugly. I don’t know what I’m supposed to learn from it - except to me at least, pure souls and pure hearts are incredibly rare. It seems like almost everyone is shallow - so to those who truly aren’t, thank you. ❤

    • @blackeneddove
      @blackeneddove 2 місяці тому +3

      There is someone for everyone. Even for you. If it is meant to be, it will be.

    • @originaleslie
      @originaleslie 2 місяці тому +2

      i feel this way as well, its so rare to find pure souls nowadays

    • @latinawomen1632
      @latinawomen1632 Місяць тому

      You touch me with your words… I want to say that you are own kind of beauty.

    • @empanda.123o
      @empanda.123o Місяць тому +1

      You are an angel and very unique. You might be ugly to society but to me, your one of the most beautiful angels I've met

    • @loveinthematrix
      @loveinthematrix Місяць тому

      @@empanda.123o You are amazing!

  • @khadasinged
    @khadasinged Місяць тому +3

    I remember the way her hair parts, the way her eyes light up when she’s happy, I remember hugging her when we were lying next to eachother. I can’t get the sound of her breathing out of my mind; her existence was an orchestra for my very soul. May one day we reunite again Peach; when we do, may we both be healed, and be the best version of ourselves.

  • @bl0odtea
    @bl0odtea 2 місяці тому +15

    i’m listening to this as i paint a renaissance-style painting 🤍

  • @somemydayy
    @somemydayy 3 місяці тому +24

    I fell in love with his soul, even before I could touch his skin. His heart is far and wide, as is the current distance between us. I dread being alone with my thoughts because me being alone on my thoughts leads me to believe he has decided to love another; and to part from my heart, mind and body. How could I express such thoughts and emotions without drowning in my own sorrow and grief? It’s as I have loved for the very first time, once anew. The memories of such heartbreak come flooding like a rain shower at the end of summer, sudden, but not entirely unexpected. Will I remember to carry an umbrella on hand to weather the storm, or will I be drenched in rain? Will he say he loves the rain, but then change his mind and decide he preferred the umbrella’s company instead? I wish to be the rainbow after the storm has past, but I’m solely the rain that he shields himself away from each passing day.

    • @maryyou556
      @maryyou556 3 місяці тому +2

      Ur words ..how can smn not be mesmerized by u when u write like that?It's just Poetically Beautiful !!

    • @saakshisalian77
      @saakshisalian77 3 місяці тому +2

      Beautiful..

  • @_momo_o.
    @_momo_o. 2 місяці тому +14

    He was so lovely, how could i even not fall for him? Wherever, he is I hope he is happy and doing good in life. I won't ask for anymore, wouldn't look onto him anymore but I'm forever so grateful for all those times we spent together and I couldn't help but smile now, somewhere in my happiness, he was there and that just all alone made me feel loved.

  • @Mememaid
    @Mememaid 4 місяці тому +29

    I loved and love him like none other before. He was my happiness, my guiding light and my own darkness dimmed his light too far so that he had to go and find it by himself again without telling me it was dying. Now I am left here wondering if I can ever find him again, maybe change his mind, make him see that it all wasn't as bad as it got painted by the dark and long January evenings. I never had so much joy in life, it was all his doing, he made my chest feel lighter and my days brighter, my colors more vivid and every time he spoke it was like a new melody that I will never forget. Yet now I sit here, all alone, crying, unable to eat or even drink, I barely get by, simply hoping I can grace death soon and tell him all about this man that I love, I will tell death to keep off him because he deserves the world and I will find his soul again in another life. It has to be him, maybe the curcimstances weren't right in this timeline so I will find him in the next and make him king of the world. I love him with all that I am and no matter what, it will always be him.

    • @user-gi3rc4md8v
      @user-gi3rc4md8v 2 місяці тому

      I'm hoping this is not my same fate...have i been here before?

    • @blackeneddove
      @blackeneddove 2 місяці тому +2

      “I will find him in the next and make him king of the world.”
      This brought the water forth from my eyes as they swelled with tears.

  • @hogsanmele2617
    @hogsanmele2617 4 місяці тому +34

    I love to burn with your love. Though it leaves me breathless and renders me speechless often. I still do love so much to burn with this enormous love i carry inside my chest for you. I think about the impossibility of it. Not even the unrequitedness of it. Merely the impossibility of it. It is so wild, so, so wild. How a person's heart could fill itself so full with something only designed to burn it out and turn it into ashes. I have no idea what my random words are trying to say here. And my head is spinning a little. But my heart is burning still. God i havent the slightest idea as to whichever things in life are real and genuine and earnest and true. But i think of this enormous fire in my heart that erupts whenever your soft face flashes in my mind or before my eyes and i swear, i swear to whoever it is i ought to swear to, to make myself believed, that my love for you is real. And it is realer than anything i have ever felt in my entire life. It is realer than any kind of fear ive felt. We both know at this point how i dislike my life, how i view it as simply so devoid of any meaning, how i wish for it to cease. But i think about how i love you and i have to reconsider everything. If there was ever a way for me to lead this life with your shoulders brushing mine, me basking in the sunlight spilling from this softness on your face, losing myself completely in your company, then id pray to the gods for my life and yours to never end.
    What does a 20 year old girl whos never even held anyone's hand romantically know about love and other things? But i swear you make me feel as if i were the inventor of love myself. As if my heart beats only to scream your name. As if i was brought to this world only to love you. And i am completely aware of the fact that this love in me will never have a meaningful result, nor will it take me anywhere. And i sometimes think, with such lightness and ease in my heart, that maybe i had been wrong all along. You were nothing but another of my silly obsessions to keep me distracted from the boredom of my life. But then again your face and this expression on it flashes before my mind and i am rendered speechless and breathtaken once again. I dont even know and i know i never will. But how i wish to write your name out here. How i wish to hold your face in my palms and will you to look into my eyes, giving you no chance to look away. How i wish to make you understand how unbearable it becomes at times. How unbearable you and your love and your everything feels over me. And maybe someday, inevitably, this love in my heart for you will rot my heart completely. Who knows. Or even who knows i will meet some other flower-faced people that wont be impossible to love. And i will love with my everything once again. But i promise you and swear to all the gods that have put this love in me for you inside and are bearing witness as i lay here writing these words, that i will never love anyone as much as i love or like the way i love you. I shan't and i cant. And i cant write anything anymore. No, i think. No.

  • @missfanari
    @missfanari 3 місяці тому +12

    this playlist brought back my sad thoughts, but not the heartbreaking ones, those that are somewhat beautiful and poetic

  • @user-lt7mv2ui2p
    @user-lt7mv2ui2p 4 місяці тому +12

    I live in Las Vegas and its cold man, I'm talking i watched a guy ask for a quarter and they looked at the guy like he pulled out a crack pipe, so comnections are hard out here. I meet this girl at a hotel bar and we chilled for two days, she bought most my drinks and was so funny and people say I'm funny but we were electric those two nights and she shared a kiss, nothing gross but there was a moment we both got silent and you feel the energy, just good vibes with no words it was almost magic. Those two nights were more special than any relationship or any girl I've shared my bed with, my world didn't feel black and white anymore she added some color to it, we were truly kindred spirits. I still go to that bar and i think about her, i know she's long since forgotten about me and to her it was just another night but to me? One of the most sincere and special nights i spent with a woman. I hopes shes doing well.

  • @konstantinagiakisikli
    @konstantinagiakisikli 2 місяці тому +6

    Always the poet, never the poem. Isn't it strange? The one who love never the one to be loved...quite paradoxical

  • @athenafromgreece707
    @athenafromgreece707 4 місяці тому +49

    I feel like I was born to hear this music. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever listened to. Keep working my friend

  • @anikajoyce-hu9oz
    @anikajoyce-hu9oz Місяць тому +3

    it's been almost 2 years since she left, and i think of her still. some mornings i wake up and reach for her across the bedsheets and then i remember. sometimes i make my coffee the way she liked hers, and mistakenly fix her a cup out of habit. there are even days where i want to ask her what i should cook for dinner, or if she'd prefer to order out. but eventually i remember. i remember that some ghosts are alive, and are forever beyond our grasp. if the span of all that i've ever loved is a map, then it has been stripped of its biggest continent. i still remember how she'd look at me when our love was young, how she'd call my name in a thousand glowing tones that now echo in my head at night. it is not sadness anymore. no, those days have passed. 2 years is a long time and a person can change in so many ways. but i think of her still. it's been 2 years, and i know now that i will always think of her xx

  • @deedee7457
    @deedee7457 2 місяці тому +4

    I met him in 2009. We were in the same school, and I used to wait for him to arrive at the bus in the morning every day just to see him. When he didn’t show up, I used to cry, even though he didn’t even notice me back then. I just loved his presence, vibe, and energy. I became his sister’s best friend, and she knew that I had feelings for him without even telling her. After several years, we saw each other. I don’t remember how it happened, but I was a completely different person. I worked on myself and lost 50 kilos. But in that era of time, I wasn’t interested in him. This time he was the one who was in love. He tried to approach me, but I rejected him because I was talking to another guy. He even talked to my older sister, telling her to watch out for the guy that I used to date back then, because he wanted to be with me. I didn’t continue with the new guy, and yes, Rami was right, he was an asshole. After a year, he reached out to me. We saw each other, but it was super weird. I wasn’t myself because I didn’t feel okay at that time, we were both young and on a journey to self-discovery. I last saw him in 2018, and he moved to Germany. Last month by accident, I passed by his neighborhood, and I noticed that my love for him is real. I just felt his presence and felt nostalgic. I got back home and talked to him. I instantly followed his Instagram account and sent him "I miss you." He replied after an hour, telling me that he misses me and if I could come to Germany. But I didn’t know if he was serious about it, so we continued talking that day and then I knew that he is the love of my life. I wish that I had accepted and kissed him back when he tried, and I wish he knows how much I love him.
    After 15 years, I still love him. With his flaws, insecurities, everything… even the things that he is embarrassed about, I love it.

    • @Sonalsharma2016
      @Sonalsharma2016 18 днів тому

      I really want to ask, are you guys together?

  • @plaguedocta817
    @plaguedocta817 4 місяці тому +25

    i still love you, so much. it hurts so goddamn bad. our memories feel like the best dreams, i miss your voice, u, us. i’m secretly hoping ur still in love with me. please tell me u want me, plz give me your love again. i miss u much lp

  • @georgiaspeer-remes3669
    @georgiaspeer-remes3669 4 місяці тому +14

    Space dust by me
    Just some dust floating through space,
    Brushing into many others on their endless journey
    In this moment stars align,
    two meet and this time, they don't let go.
    We are two of trillions upon trillions of specs in the universe,
    but here we are, you and I, holding onto one another
    And I don't want to let go
    There's this gravitational force pulling me towards you,
    as though the universe said "yeah, it's time"

  • @AbhayRajan
    @AbhayRajan 27 днів тому +1

    I love how simple piano music can hit someone so much that they start expressing what they are feeling through words which is so truthful and beautiful. Music truly is magical.

  • @mikalaholmos6962
    @mikalaholmos6962 4 місяці тому +37

    She walks by herself down the long corridor. The bright marble floor reflects her image back to her. She doesn't appear to notice this fascination though she is entranced by the painting displayed at the far end of the corridor.
    It was intricately made and clearly a prized possession of the collection as it was given its own spotlight. Its wide canvas covers the wall leaving only slivers of blue from the wall left to be seen at the edges. It is clearly worn with age as the paint is faded and slightly cracked. Although rife with age the beauty of the painting shines through.
    It showcases the image of a woman in a bright yellow sundress lying underneath a swaying willow. The paint seems to leap off the canvas as beams of sunlight shining through the willow’s branches come to life. Besides the lying woman is a young man, youthful-looking with a small smirk dancing playfully across his lips. The woman’s eyes meet the man’s and with it the evident love they felt for each other with soft looks of affection shared between them.
    The girl reaches the end of the corridor. She stares at the painting captivated by it for a mysterious reason even she did not know of, be it beauty or perhaps something else. Silently she looks to her left. A boy appears beside her sharing the same captivating interest in the painting. They eerily look similar to the image displayed on the canvas. They both left the museum that day feeling as if they had found something dearly loved and lost. That day at the museum was as if those two lovers in the painting had found each other in this life if only to say “I knew I would find you again my love”.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому +1

      Hey there, appreciate the beauty within, not just the external. You've got this! Stay strong through these tough times, and let your inner strength shine through the twists and turns of challenges.

  • @mynameisfelisiaa3667
    @mynameisfelisiaa3667 2 місяці тому +6

    " and as i sed tears for the one that forgot me the ones by my side kept me company , compelling of freedom non wiser than i was i kept waiting for the one who left me behind thinking he shall return, at least one of both thought the other was its destiny in gods will "

  • @gabrielavaz9919
    @gabrielavaz9919 3 місяці тому +5

    I dated for 4 months, in the start it didn't seem right but the time made me think that we could work. Has 3 weeks that we broke up but I can't feel that sad, because I know that I have a lot of love to give, if in an odd relationship I tried my best, in the right one I know that I can do my best and one of the prettiest things in life it is to know we can love and be loved

  • @val.daffodils
    @val.daffodils 4 місяці тому +9

    [Dark academia episode]
    Charlie was right in front of me, and in the heat of the classroom at the end of april, it was almost as out sweats were melting together. I approched a finger to touch his back and immediately retrieved it. I couldn't. He made me promise to never speak to him again.
    "The Picture of Dorian Gray became a classic because of the universal human experience that is portrayed. Which one?" , asked Miss Lovelace, our teacher of Classic English Literature.
    I always loved her, because she spoke endlessly, passionetely. It often consumed me, the way she held our glances, longer then we ever could.
    "Well, beauty.", suggested Ava.
    "Beauty is a pretext, it's the train to bring the reader to experience self-loathing.", argued Thomas.
    This class was a seminar, so we were only six. We weren't afraid to contradict each other, even insult each other when there was the opportunity. But don't be fooled, we were all in love with each other, in a harrowing, hurtful way. I couldn't remember the last time I went outside our dorm and spoke to another human being. They were all I knew.
    "Clarisse, do you have something to add?", smirked Miss Lovelace.
    I had always been her favorite.
    And of course, I knew what that book was about, but saying it would only tense the room.
    "It's about- "
    Everyone turned to face me, except for Charlie, who seemed to retrieve even further in himself.
    "It's about obsession."
    Someone -I don't know who- gasped. I think everybody else just laughed.
    "Well she would know , that's for sure." , Evie let out.
    She hadn't mean it in a bad way, as she was quite fascinated by my methods, but it still stung.
    "She surely writes in an obsessive way, Evie, but isn't that wonderful? As Donna Tart says, «I'm nothing in my soul if not obsessive»" , said the teacher, kindly.
    "Yeah I mean, it's cool and mysterious to be obsessive, but when the police gets involved for stalking, maybe that's too far, you know.", said Charlie, not meeting my eyes.
    Miss Lovelace walked slowly toward him and took a minute before answering.
    "Oh no, I think she's the only one that truly has the heart of a novelist. Relentless, heartless, methodic. That's why what she writes is better than all of you."
    At this moment, everyone took out their notebook and started taking notes. I stood up a little to see what they were writing ; "Relentless." "Be crazy when you write" "Even if it involves the police"
    Just like that, I went from the crazy one to the successful one. I smirked at Miss Lovelace and she winked in response.

  • @LDgaming-jesss
    @LDgaming-jesss 4 місяці тому +9

    Though I do not possess any real talent like any other real writers, I write out of pure interest and love for reading stories or reading a beautiful poem that speak of love, I have enjoyed reading all of the lovely comments while listening to the music. ❤

  • @Crackleyoutube
    @Crackleyoutube 3 місяці тому +5

    You kept my heart aflutter. Drifting through the vast ocean unmarred.
    Now I am but a shell. Exposed, marbled inner surface anchored in the sand.
    Around me pieces of others past, pulverized but swaying with the current.
    Rocking back and forth tersely, I clutch a piece of the old you. How tight should I squeeze this?
    The ocean is louder now. I can't focus. Where is my other half?
    The sun reaches down but never seems to stay still. Is it not for me?
    I dream of being like you. But I don't know you anymore, and the same sand surrounds me.
    You and me have seen everything. But now everything is yours and yours alone. You can have it.
    I will never be the same after you, and we can never be together again. But why is it that you get to shape me and move on?
    Was I always this brittle? How can I ever change again? What is left but to watch these crumbs of me flake off and drift on.

  • @kcpauz
    @kcpauz 2 місяці тому +1

    thank you this is gold.

  • @pudim520
    @pudim520 4 місяці тому +9

    Thanks for that, love your work ❤

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +1

      Thank you!! Really appreciate it❤

  • @simpyweebus4622
    @simpyweebus4622 4 місяці тому +5

    Listening to this while writing a literature essay is just perfect.

  • @AidaBozorgzade-rr9om
    @AidaBozorgzade-rr9om 4 місяці тому +32

    damn, I've always wanted a playlist with this title

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +3

      Thank you! I hope you enjoyed listening/watching ❤️

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому +1

      Embrace the essence of souls, not mere visages. Find resilience amid these challenging moments. Let your strength endure through the intricacies of adversity.

  • @recidischiabrasivi7960
    @recidischiabrasivi7960 2 місяці тому +1

    Il fruscio e' quello del ricordo ; il rumore della meccanica del pianoforte e' , per me il rimpianto ..
    Magnifica anche questa !
    Complimenti !😊

  • @GenZBro
    @GenZBro 25 днів тому +3

    When she was with me. It was lust. But when she left me, only then I fell in love with her.

  • @thedandylion1696
    @thedandylion1696 4 місяці тому +9

    cannot wait for someone i like to be into souls cause my face is lopsided af (joke)

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +1

      That’s one of the funniest comments I read all day 😭

  • @Tardigradient
    @Tardigradient 4 місяці тому +5

    The human experience can be equally euphoric as it is devastating. In an appropriately horrific milieu, perhaps the cruelest of all Animalia-istic fates is to be aware of what all other animals would naturally be exempt - having been fortunate enough to lack the cerebral capacity

  • @konstantinagiakisikli
    @konstantinagiakisikli 2 місяці тому +2

    I was looking at his eyes now realizing that's what the stars were inspired of, the flames danced around his amber eyes an eternal tango. I was doomed to remember this day forever, his eyes every time I would look in his eyes, those beautiful planets. For the first time in my life I figured what a total eclipse of a heart means.

  • @snatasa5992
    @snatasa5992 3 місяці тому +3

    Why everything has to feel so empty? Is it the fear of the grief of losing you or the unending wish to involve you in all my happiness and sorrow? What's this happiness for? Is it because u are close or because u are happy too... What is it that i have got to lose? Nothing..But losing you frightens me ... I may have lived all alone all this long but the rest i cant imagine without u...

  • @petradjordjevic8173
    @petradjordjevic8173 4 місяці тому +11

    Thanks for this playlist, it really helps me calm my mind while reading❤

  • @alligator64
    @alligator64 4 місяці тому +5

    Tysm yt recommendations :'3

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +1

      Thank you so much for listening/watching! :)

  • @RonaldNixiux
    @RonaldNixiux Місяць тому +1

    I’ve been in my own share of romantic situations, nothing felt like she did, nothing spoke to my soul like her, nothing went through me and stayed so profoundly, so rooted as she did, a bond of two souls, I never asked her to stay either, the moment she wanted to leave, even though it obliterated me from within, I let her, I hope she finds what her soul requires, even if it’s got nothing to do with me

  • @juliaemarin
    @juliaemarin 4 місяці тому +10

    what a beautiful playlist!
    thanks for creating them :)

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому

      Really honoured and glad you like them!! ❤️

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому

      Love a person's soul. Like the playlist! Check my channel for music and cool stuff. I enjoy sharing that vibe!

  • @DenDenChini
    @DenDenChini 2 місяці тому +1

    I'm listening to your mix while writing a story with my comfort character and gosh, it's so inspiring...! Thanks for existing!

  • @ropesanddragoneggs8494
    @ropesanddragoneggs8494 2 місяці тому +3

    I love someone I have memories of, but haven’t met them in this life. I keep living my life and want to date. I just can’t help but think if I look behind me, they’ll just appear. I wonder what kind of person they’ve become? I know their soul, but as we’re both living and breathing now, I have no idea who they really are. It’s an abstract thought, but I just want them to be happy. I hope he’s happy. I needed to write this down to get it out of my system.

  • @3ivrp
    @3ivrp 2 місяці тому +4

    I am looking for you in myself
    Searching unknown streets
    Its paths are lost beneath my feet
    I breathe in its suspicious fog
    Search for what I don't remember
    I saw him somewhere
    Long ago, out of reach
    He gave me a gift
    In a light and extended blue
    Lean on your wing
    Your eyes only watch the cold worlds pass by
    Glitter in the dust........

  • @MegaLostintime
    @MegaLostintime 4 місяці тому +4

    I love your channel❤❤❤

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +1

      Thank you!! I really appreciate it ❤️

  • @rustam900
    @rustam900 4 місяці тому +5

    Very beautiful and peaceful. I subscribed

  • @barronbarr
    @barronbarr Місяць тому +2

    I have everything……Im abundant in family, friends, romance and even money…..yet Im alone. Im tremendously lonely because Im misunderstood. How does one live life knowing everyone you meet is thinking you're someone else……They think I am human…..when In actuality I am a monster……….

  • @user-wq1ux4os7o
    @user-wq1ux4os7o 3 місяці тому +1

    how beautiful a painting and portrait of

  • @kazumiishen
    @kazumiishen 4 місяці тому +5

    yaaay new wonderful playlist)) thanks for the hard work 💌💘

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +1

      Thank you for your continued support as always!! Hope you had a lovely new year btw :)

    • @kazumiishen
      @kazumiishen 4 місяці тому

      @@helderboutensI hope your new year was a hundred times better than mine:))

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому

      Embrace the soulful connection. Digging the playlist! Explore my channel for awesome music and more. Confidently spreading those good vibes!

  • @cynblack
    @cynblack Місяць тому

    I listen to this every night. Thank you so much :)

  • @retroreceptionist7571
    @retroreceptionist7571 3 місяці тому +4

    One day, this will all just be a story someone tells. Make it a love story .

  • @ink_nightjar
    @ink_nightjar 4 місяці тому +24

    I feel this thing will be listened by me on repeat.
    Wonderful playlist, thank you very much for your work!
    It gives a feeling of lightness and joy. It's much easier to work, I feel my depression is being supressed by it.
    Thank you a lot!)

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому +2

      Thank you, I hope you enjoyed and will enjoy listening to the playlist in the future!

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 4 місяці тому

      Thanks for another fantastic playlist! These songs have me daydreaming about slow-dancing with someone who hasn't even crossed my path yet, lol. 😄

    • @SleepyAlien-qe2ov
      @SleepyAlien-qe2ov 4 місяці тому

      X2

  • @CoffeeKillersClub
    @CoffeeKillersClub 4 місяці тому +9

    I came upon you like a drunkard stumbles on a pile of rocks. I stepped all over you, twisted my ankle and fell hard. It was only then, looking up that I saw a mess of delicateness strewn with shattered glass hearts. I was torn in so many ways, but none so beautifully as you.

  • @Ni.colleO18
    @Ni.colleO18 3 місяці тому +3

    " i was the fool who loved him so much that the words stuck in my throath and choked in feelings "

  • @abrambadalyan965
    @abrambadalyan965 2 місяці тому +1

    As we get older in life we learn the most valuable thing to cherish is time our time is the most valuable thing.. if we had one more day on this Earth what would we do would we spend it all day holding our loved one in our arms just looking at their face

  • @GoodDay-hd3iv
    @GoodDay-hd3iv 4 місяці тому +4

    아름다운음악과 그에맞는 아름다운 배경화면까지!!너무 멋집니다❤❤ 채널구독하고갑니다😊😊

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому

      Thank you so much for the kind words!!

  • @alexandrusirb4636
    @alexandrusirb4636 Місяць тому +1

    "Rieux, thought it too: that a loveless world is a dead world, and always there comes an hour when one is weary of prisons, of one's work, and of devotion of duty, and all one craves for is a loved face, the warmth and wonder of a loving heart."

  • @indigokids88
    @indigokids88 Місяць тому

    Beautiful ❤❤❤

  • @Lamont_Smythe
    @Lamont_Smythe 4 місяці тому +6

    That's a problem for me. My face is fine, but my soul is broken.

    • @zanbudd
      @zanbudd 4 місяці тому +1

      This music is a healing balm for a broken soul- I sense hearts opening, refreshed and strengthened. There’s an old song line - don’t mind if I fall apart, there’s more room in a broken heart 💔

  • @resa8903
    @resa8903 4 місяці тому +6

    Peacefully precious moments😌🕊️🍁🪐✨☀️💗

  • @porcelainchocolat1259
    @porcelainchocolat1259 4 місяці тому +15

    "I know that's you, love." she said, exasperated fondess warming her voice.
    He groaned and smiled lovingly.
    "How could you tell? My guises are always so perfect and yet you manage find me every single time."
    A tiny grin tugged at her lips.
    "Don't you know, my love?"
    He leaned forward expectingly.
    "Know what?"
    "My soul would yearn for yours even if you wore the face of the grimmest monster to ever be. It would love ever scrap of that creature and bring me to my knees should I ever know the notion of leaving it. You could never trick souls, dear. Don't you know that?"
    A shocked laughter rose from his lips.
    "I know now, love." He smiled, soft as downy. "I know now."

  • @princessladylyea2466
    @princessladylyea2466 3 місяці тому

    I still love him million times even he made me miserable. I cannot forget for what he had done bad things to me but my heart cannot stop loving him

  • @khujistasadat2655
    @khujistasadat2655 2 місяці тому +3

    I don't know why I'm afraid of losing you, even after i know that you will never be mine , you never meant to be mine , i will never show you my actual feelings just because i don't wanna ruin our friendship, but in deep of my heart I'm in love with your soul and i will always love you from far away ,, lots of love Y♡

    • @latinawomen1632
      @latinawomen1632 Місяць тому

      Wow this is how I feel about a friend who I started catching feelings for. To Remus , you changed me forever and I will never forget how happy you made me feel. I miss you and will never forget you

  • @thatonesimmer4631
    @thatonesimmer4631 4 місяці тому +5

    another hit ❤ I’d also recommend “Princess” by Wayne Bamba. It’s very similar to the kinda of songs u curate 💭

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  4 місяці тому

      Thank you! I'll definitely check it out and consider it for future videos :)

  • @giusy3858
    @giusy3858 Місяць тому +1

    Non ho mai avuto una connessione d'anima cosi' potente come con lui Era la mia "casa", eravamo il posto dove il mio e il suo cuore erano al sicuro.Con lui mi sentivo intera e felice quando la mia mano stringeva la sua..non erano le cose materiali che volevo e che riuscivano a farmi star bene ma era , l'energia,la luce,la forza interiore che insieme sprigionavamo,Come una formula magica, insieme creavamo e sentivamo al di la' dei nostri corpi connessioni incredibili ,rare. Per me ,anche se e' finita,non e' mai finita, vive in me tutto l'amore che ho provato e ho per lui..ma la vita ci ha separati e io ogni giorno ,non posso far altro che dedicargli tutti i miei piu' teneri pensieri e soprattutto, quando ascolto la musica,alla quale lui mi ha appassionata, augurargli tutto il bene che l'universo puo' inviare a un uomo cosi' speciale..Mi manchi Pas!
    Grazie Luminoso per aver pubblicato ,queste note dolcissime capaci di far aprire il mio cuore.

  • @Linlins06
    @Linlins06 3 місяці тому +7

    Your playlists are perfect for when wanting to escape reality and live in a fantasy world :)). Do you know the exact piece which starts at 8:20???

  • @Skywohka
    @Skywohka 4 місяці тому +5

    thank you

  • @reginaiacomelli6902
    @reginaiacomelli6902 Місяць тому

    ❤❤❤fantastico 😢

  • @GetsemaniNeri-eh6zc
    @GetsemaniNeri-eh6zc 3 місяці тому +1

    Jem Carstairs...someone i love the most, someone that doesnt exist...his and mine, both souls were made for each other...maybe not here, but in somewhere

  • @darkbrokenangel21
    @darkbrokenangel21 День тому

    When I first met him, I knew we were old souls. It felt safe to be next to him, to open up to him, because I knew he once had been mine from a past life. But he was already spoken for, and I knew that our connection would only last for so long before one of us would disappear. Who knew it would have been me to leave first and so unexpectedly? I miss him dearly, but I knew that our time was limited. Maybe we'll meet again in the next life?

  • @zebleckDAMM
    @zebleckDAMM 2 місяці тому +1

    I was here and I loved.

  • @suuudawg3069
    @suuudawg3069 Місяць тому +2

    Ive had several romances, but nothing pains me more than the one girl who got away. Unfortunate circumstances, but it is wasn't even lust, it was love and neither of us knew it. Months of build up and witty flirting. Then we hang out and heavy passionate romance, everything but all the way. Then her best friend had a crush on me and said she was goin to end their friendship since she went behind her friends back even though I never liked her friend to begin with. So at the end of the day of hanging out, I went to drop her off, and about 150 feet from her house I pulled over to the side of the road. I went in for one more kiss. She puts all her weight into my shoulder with her head, and we intensely kiss for a couple of minutes. I drop her off, and right before I'm about to leave she runs back out, takes her hand and lifts my chin, then kisses me again.
    That was the last time we were ever a thing.

  • @iEthanhunt
    @iEthanhunt Місяць тому

    This music gives me a vibe of meeting a complete stranger in a foreign land. Spending time together until we go our own way and never see each other again, only to have that person in my memories for the rest of my life.

  • @nnanov2417
    @nnanov2417 4 місяці тому +2

    Thank you.

  • @user-tt8sr3er8l
    @user-tt8sr3er8l 4 місяці тому +3

    Beautiful. 🌹❤

  • @alinga_me
    @alinga_me 3 місяці тому +1

    «Спасибо за то время, которое мы провели с тобой. Сейчас у каждого другая жизнь. Надеюсь, ты так же, как и я, вспоминаешь эти моменты нашей весны и лета с легкой приятной грустью».
    М.

  • @Ellistro
    @Ellistro 4 місяці тому +23

    People are listening to this writing poetry or painting. Doing something really inspiring.
    Meanwhile, I’m over here romanticising my D&D character and boyfriends NPC together while listening to this… 🥴

    • @CoffeeKillersClub
      @CoffeeKillersClub 4 місяці тому +1

      Maybe we started that way, too. Eventually you find that you can express the fantasy in ways other's can experience it as well. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy, so that when it is gone you can continue to enjoy it.

  • @romanticatdusk
    @romanticatdusk 4 місяці тому +1

    wow, this is absolutely amazing!! what is the software/website you used to make the video? ❤❤

  • @abrambadalyan965
    @abrambadalyan965 2 місяці тому +1

    I like the message😢 but when you have a daughter and she looks just like her mom.. not only do you love the soul , put you fall in love with the face too and you just can't get that face out of your mind... Especially if you lost them

  • @user-rh1vv3jg1g
    @user-rh1vv3jg1g 2 дні тому

    "Love is the most twisted curse of all". - Kitkat