you're falling in love with someone that doesn't exist [ dark academia playlist ]

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  • @helderboutens
    @helderboutens  2 дні тому

    Just made a Discord server for the channel!
    Feel free to join here: discord.gg/JgwuB25sUE

  • @anna-mariyablue8580
    @anna-mariyablue8580 5 місяців тому +4063

    The title is funny because it doesn't even have to be someone fiction. We so often fall in love with who we think people are - just a product of our own imagination, who we mistake for the real person, only to slowly come to our senses and realize we've been imagining what was never there to start with.

    • @deedeescrystalblueclassics3973
      @deedeescrystalblueclassics3973 5 місяців тому +32

      So true..been there

    • @lindsaygenisehernandezarro7092
      @lindsaygenisehernandezarro7092 5 місяців тому +1

      😢🎉🎉

    • @Grey114
      @Grey114 4 місяці тому +21

      I have a person like that where I built up this beautiful lady I would like to be closer to but honestly I just feel alone next to her

    • @robertapascal6962
      @robertapascal6962 4 місяці тому +21

      Limerence

    • @cielthefangirl2876
      @cielthefangirl2876 4 місяці тому +8

      they just lead me on, as if pet names mean anything. just cause someone says the love you, do they really? :c

  • @basilbaby7678
    @basilbaby7678 6 місяців тому +1985

    We’re always falling in love with someone that doesn’t exist…
    every. single. time.

    • @hayden464
      @hayden464 5 місяців тому +4

      Yep.

    • @flagal519
      @flagal519 5 місяців тому +4

      Great wisdom in those words.

    • @phoebehill953
      @phoebehill953 5 місяців тому +8

      Or falling OUT of love with someone we now wish didn’t exist!

    • @davidirwin4067
      @davidirwin4067 4 місяці тому +3

      Hopefully there are exceptions.

    • @amosuzumaki5757
      @amosuzumaki5757 4 місяці тому +4

      IK. This nonextistant love thing's gotta stop man, my heart can't take it lmaoooooo

  • @likliksnek
    @likliksnek 5 місяців тому +383

    "Do not mourn me when I sleep, for I am keeping our dreams alive."
    All the best to you all. I hope you are safe.

    • @Walkingoutthedoor-withyourbags
      @Walkingoutthedoor-withyourbags 2 місяці тому +2

      shit it hit hard

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      Wow, I absolutely love this. I have copied it over to my journal, will think on it all day, and might paint it to hang on the wall. It so very applicable here, thank you so much.

    • @likliksnek
      @likliksnek Місяць тому +1

      @@FG-ie7cu Oh my, thank you for your kind reply. I'm so happy I could inspire you! 😊

    • @lastart5301
      @lastart5301 21 день тому +1

      I see you in my dreams, what is, is make belive, everytime I see you i feel my body heat, glance at me I stare at my feet, we've never met yet it feels like I've known you for years, peer through my mind I see beauty carved through years of honing,
      Not once have we spoke yet we converse all the time, our words dance a line, every time I'm around you I step on landmines, to see you frown is numbing, your smile lights the darkness coming,
      It feels like the time has come, let us speak as my heart beats the drums, your hair on your shoulders, the eyes shining, holds more than stars exploding,
      We speak and converse, the understanding turns to a hearse, despair comes and burns the image i yearned, even after the talk I feel my stomach churn, death gripped my appetite for my yearn, I feel cheated out of you, catfished by my views, your actions were the loudest words, I feel my soul turn, my body in pain, life gripping my veins, hope struggling in vain, vigor down the drains,
      All these thoughts have driven me insane,
      Is sanity my lane, were these dreams the by product of fate, wounded with hate i chase my own claims;

  • @JunethSnowdrop
    @JunethSnowdrop 3 місяці тому +362

    Feels like artists falling in love with their creation is quite common

    • @ciaclark1111
      @ciaclark1111 3 місяці тому +5

      Such a beautiful way to word loves creation.🥀🥂💗

    • @deancorso6693
      @deancorso6693 3 місяці тому +3

      Indeed

    • @whiterabbit75
      @whiterabbit75 3 місяці тому +10

      Artist and writer here, and I can tell you from personal experience, that it does happen, *_ALL. THE. FREAKING. TIME._* Just ask Pygmalion.

    • @K.Yumeno_
      @K.Yumeno_ 2 місяці тому +5

      BASIL AND DORIAN

    • @88Zero
      @88Zero 2 місяці тому +2

      An artist falling in love with their creation happens far less than an artist hating their creation.

  • @thelittlemoonling
    @thelittlemoonling 5 місяців тому +621

    “The love that you seek is already inside you”.

    • @gabrielnunes2146
      @gabrielnunes2146 4 місяці тому +1

      Thanks for this.

    • @mariermarie
      @mariermarie 3 місяці тому +16

      Yeah, but isn't it the saddest thing to never ever meet the embodiment of this in someone and hug them as tight as you can?..

    • @Poncha56
      @Poncha56 3 місяці тому +1

      Source?

    • @mariermarie
      @mariermarie 3 місяці тому +1

      @@Poncha56 just thought so

    • @Percival-kl9yy
      @Percival-kl9yy 3 місяці тому +1

      @thelittlemoonling
      *No - it's not.*
      *Humans are born soul-wise in halves - we need one other person to complete us.*
      *The problem is that most Humans are unfortunately dumb animals that don't know what love is, and many don't care about truly finding their soul mate and marrying them - one big reason why the divorce rate is 60%.*

  • @darkaca
    @darkaca 5 місяців тому +141

    "The most Painful Thing in Life isn't a Cut or a Burn. It's Seeing People You have made Memories with turn into Memories."

    • @aaroncybelle8107
      @aaroncybelle8107 3 місяці тому

      😢

    • @jennifervanammel495
      @jennifervanammel495 2 місяці тому

      that's so beautiful! Thank you for this. All the best for you!!

    • @dimitarivanov7249
      @dimitarivanov7249 Місяць тому

      Tell that to someone with third degree burns

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      Keep them with you in spirit as much as you can and they will never be mere memories. They must be kept present. We cannot bear for them to be mere memories.

    • @litiviousspartus4611
      @litiviousspartus4611 Місяць тому +1

      We all become memories.

  • @andrewburson1215
    @andrewburson1215 5 місяців тому +390

    My girlfriend does this super cute thing where she doesn't exist

    • @jordchien
      @jordchien 5 місяців тому +10

      No way. Mine does that too!

    • @andrewburson1215
      @andrewburson1215 5 місяців тому +4

      @@jordchien lol

    • @lilwitchlexi
      @lilwitchlexi 4 місяці тому +14

      I have been scrolling through these comments, getting immersed in the mystery, and yours made me laugh out loud. xD Well done.

    • @Poncha56
      @Poncha56 3 місяці тому +2

      I'm sure its serene

    • @andrewburson1215
      @andrewburson1215 3 місяці тому +1

      @@Poncha56 lol

  • @AestheticMusic124
    @AestheticMusic124 9 місяців тому +1803

    To the person reading this. I know you're tired with all of this, but you should know. You did a good job. You are great. You deserve to be happy

    • @rezah.shakib1047
      @rezah.shakib1047 9 місяців тому +16

      There is no happiness around...

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +46

      Thank you for sharing this with everyone, I hope the same for you ❤️

    • @mango.witcher
      @mango.witcher 9 місяців тому +5

      ❤❤❤

    • @shr00m66
      @shr00m66 8 місяців тому +13

      @@rezah.shakib1047 i know this is cheesy, but you will find happiness. all you have to do it look for the light switch. There is good in the rain, beauty in the whispers of the wind, and even in the most violent storms there is the gentle hum of the mother who cares for us all.

    • @FocusSomething
      @FocusSomething 8 місяців тому

      @@rezah.shakib1047 I'm struggling too, just like me. Don't give up, we can get through this ♡

  • @sn0wy180
    @sn0wy180 3 місяці тому +111

    hands down the best comment section I have ever read

    • @MJyoung35
      @MJyoung35 27 днів тому +1

      i was thinking the same thing

  • @YuriHoshi-lr2bz
    @YuriHoshi-lr2bz 6 місяців тому +782

    Ever since I was 11, a boy named Luke has visited me every other month in my dreams. I found him on a tree. He had blue-brown eyes and a perfect smile. We grew up together and went on adventures in the mountains and played in the ocean. He was so kind and gentle that I found myself falling in love with him, waking up, and realising it was all just a dream. He told me that he had another name, but couldn't say it because it would spoil my future.
    I came to believe that "Luke" was my soulmate visiting me in my dreams. The older I got, the less I believed in soulmates. I have met many wonderful gentlemen in my life, and I have come to realise that there are many opportunities that the universe provides us, and that Luke was just simply my standard for dating, and someday, marriage.

    • @Kayla-Butterfly
      @Kayla-Butterfly 5 місяців тому +54

      I hope someday you find "Luke" because we all deserve a Luke in life. ❤🙏

    • @novasaturn5180
      @novasaturn5180 5 місяців тому +30

      I hope you find them, I'm a Dream walker which means it's a possibility I can visit others dreams..funny enough at one time I believed I was Trans, my name at that time was Lucas..another time it was Lee my middle name. At this point I'm pretty sure I'm just gender fluid, at the very least I remember a girl I met in a wheat field she was wear a Midvale white/cream night dress. She was very nice tho I can't remember her name and another time I was walking to a bench on cliff ledge, we just sat and talked and at one point she said "I wish you were real" and I responded " I am? Aren't I dreaming?" We both kinda look at each other in a funny way, then bursted out in laughter the only problem is anytime I tried introducing myself by my birth name...u woke up. I hope you find whom ever was in your dream, I really do❤

    • @lukedavis5727
      @lukedavis5727 5 місяців тому +16

      My name happens to be Luke, although I doubt I am your soupmate as I am a gay man.

    • @nooraseer
      @nooraseer 4 місяці тому

      @@lukedavis5727 wow way to make everything about yourself

    • @Bluebirdie442
      @Bluebirdie442 4 місяці тому +8

      thats so wholesome yet bittersweet, I hope someday you find your Luke🫂

  • @TheRealValus
    @TheRealValus 4 місяці тому +126

    'He who does not fill his world
    with phantoms, remains alone.'
    ~ Antonio Porchia

  • @joaquincarbajo8441
    @joaquincarbajo8441 5 місяців тому +839

    100 reasons to stay alive:
    1. to make your parents proud
    2. to conquer your fears
    3. to see your family again
    4. to see your favourite artist live
    5. to listen to music again
    6. to experience a new culture
    7. to make new friends
    8. to inspire
    9. to have your own children
    10. to adopt your own pet
    11. to make yourself proud
    12. to meet your idols
    13. to laugh until you cry
    14. to feel tears of happiness
    15. to eat your favorite food
    16. to see your siblings grow
    17. to pass school
    18. to get tattoo
    19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
    20. to meet your internet friends
    21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
    22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
    23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
    24. to see untouched snow in the morning
    25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
    26. to see stars light up the sky
    27. to read a book that changes your life
    28. to see the flowers in the spring
    29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
    30. to travel abroad
    31. to learn a new language
    32. to learn to draw
    33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
    34. Puppy kisses.
    35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
    36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
    37. Trampolines.
    38. Ice cream.
    39. Stargazing.
    40. Cloud watching.
    41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
    42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
    43. “I saw this and thought of you."
    44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
    45. The relief you feel after crying.
    46. Sunshine.
    47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
    48. Your future wedding.
    49. Your favorite candy bar.
    50. New clothes.
    51. Witty puns.
    52. Really good bread.
    53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
    54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
    55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
    56. The smell before and after it rains
    57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
    58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
    59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
    60. Trying out new recipes.
    61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
    62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
    63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
    64.Breakfast in bed.
    65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
    66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
    67. Pray (if you are religious)
    68. Forgiveness.
    69. Water balloon fights.
    70. New books by your favorite authors.
    71. Fireflies.
    72. Birthdays.
    73. Realizing that someone loves you.
    74. Spending the day with someone you
    75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships.
    76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person.
    77. Joy and happiness in the little things.
    78. The power to inspire others.
    79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression.
    80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life.
    81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet.
    82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family.
    83. Learn new things and develop new skills.
    84. Create a legacy that will outlive you.
    85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
    86. Cuddles
    87. Holding hands.
    88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
    89. Singing off key with your best friends.
    90. Road trips.
    91. Spontaneous adventures.
    92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
    93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
    94. Thunderstorms.
    95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
    96. The taste of your favorite food.
    97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
    98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
    99. Compliments and praise.
    100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
    Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, l love you

  • @WIGEEMAN99
    @WIGEEMAN99 4 місяці тому +312

    I fell in love with a fictional character long ago. The best part is that we'll never risk breaking up.

    • @meaganburton588
      @meaganburton588 3 місяці тому +6

      Me too. Since the age of 14.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому +1

      pathetic.

    • @nakeyjakey62
      @nakeyjakey62 3 місяці тому +6

      I love that

    • @yuiko7834
      @yuiko7834 3 місяці тому +27

      ​​​​@@TheForgottenOddKingyeah, that's the point. Unreal love can be pathetic, sad, halarious, stupid or even nonsense, but in the end is just a lonely person in need of love that searchs from scratch to at least have some of it, even if it means to only give and not having back, only knowing it isnt real but holding into it like reality itself, only daydreaming about that one way love, about how would it feel to be loved and cherished, to have someone by they're side, to not just give and expect nothing. To handle back the tears when they realize that love isnt real but they have nothing else to hold onto, that they're alone in this life path.
      So yeah, it's pathetic, but i think that what it makes it beautiful. Love is unreal in eany other way, love is a chemistry that I will never understand since in itself it is for the purpose of forming a family, so i find beautiful to love something you can't have nothing whit, were you can only stare, a state where you can only crave for that unreal love and hope that maybe one day, one day it might be reciprocated and it makes such a delightfull story out of it.
      So from that, tou can underdteand i find very upseting using that word or definition whit such s mean demeanor, when, maybe it is the right word but i must insist is not whit the right intencions.
      But yeah, you're right, lovely stranger, it is pathetic.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому +1

      @@yuiko7834 not reading all of that. Its pathetic. Nothing more. Nothing else.

  • @doberman3402
    @doberman3402 8 місяців тому +1434

    Love isnt a feeling anymore, it is a desire. It's not wanting to love a person anymore, it is wanting a person to love you.
    Edit: tysm for so many likes, reminder that this is just how I feel, if you feel different that is wonderful ofc! This doesn't mean give up on love, or you'll never be loved cause the world seems different. You will find that person, and you will be loved correctly and you will love others correctly much love and hope for anyone who agrees and disagrees with me. Even if you are as hopeless as me...you will find someone. Good comes to those who wait, but not for those who wait too late. As Bill Withers had said 💕🩷

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  8 місяців тому +60

      I do hope that eventually you will find love my friend, thank you for supporting ❤️

    • @doberman3402
      @doberman3402 6 місяців тому +32

      @helderboutens Sorry I saw this so late but tysm for your support as well! I believe I must work on myself before love finds me but I'm sure it will once I'm ready.

    • @user-fu4iw5dx3f
      @user-fu4iw5dx3f 6 місяців тому +22

      Love isnt selfish

    • @doberman3402
      @doberman3402 6 місяців тому

      @@user-fu4iw5dx3f It depends on who wants it or needs it. It can be.

    • @robertapascal6962
      @robertapascal6962 4 місяці тому +6

      For some but not all

  • @stela1315
    @stela1315 3 місяці тому +12

    I feel bad knowing I'm not interesting enough. I just wish from all my heart to love and be loved.
    It feels like an unreal dream.

  • @Rehan.b16
    @Rehan.b16 5 місяців тому +161

    I fell in love with ink on paper.. That's the saddest thing for me..

    • @user-gw8mv6jc2v
      @user-gw8mv6jc2v 4 місяці тому

      ASPECTS, Come from realizations the more we remeber we neutrally are subjected towards a control or function by specific part or concept that belongs in nature according to physics what we desire comes from the spirit the body provides as we are raised this creates our abilities resolving the idea we come up with from the confirmations directed by the way we had been taught from rhe moment we had viewed the specifics which captured our first moments in life.

    • @user-gw8mv6jc2v
      @user-gw8mv6jc2v 4 місяці тому

      Wanting something we see in someone or because of the appearance in something just may be clothes that enhances our senses allowing us to be in control of more in acceptance to others needs being able to come together as loving people not separated because of sin and evil being in way of love.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      correct. it is truly sad. and so hilariously pathetic.

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому +1

      Anime ruined this generation.

    • @nadiarey4196
      @nadiarey4196 3 місяці тому

      @@mywifesboyfriend5558 Not gonna deny that. Also, why not? It's sign of a working empathy to feel for people you only know about from learning of their story. And some fictional characters are better constructed than actual human beings...
      So long as you don't actually think they are real or actually dating you, it's just another fantasy to indulge in. (Lol People have no sense of romanticism, I swear...)

  • @JollyJaro
    @JollyJaro 3 місяці тому +18

    The worst thing about falling in love with people from your dreams is waking up knowing you won't ever see them again. 💔

    • @RexAnguis888
      @RexAnguis888 6 днів тому

      ...unless you make them into an AI 👍🏾

  • @10thHellJumper
    @10thHellJumper 4 місяці тому +50

    [0] Days Without Accidentally Falling in Love With a Fictional Character

  • @RicePotsu
    @RicePotsu 3 місяці тому +153

    And what if
    Buried within these comments
    Are two souls yearning;
    One writes of a boy
    The other writes of a girl
    Both of whom they had only ever met in their dreams
    Not realizing that
    All along
    They were writing about each other

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  3 місяці тому +6

      Beautiful thought!!

    • @vicm.823
      @vicm.823 3 місяці тому +12

      Reading through these comments, I think you may be right. This thought gave me chills. I hope they find each other

    • @shorty94ism
      @shorty94ism 2 місяці тому +1

      I also hope they find each other. How lucky and blessed it must be to be passionate about each other so fiercely❤️

    • @veronika9279
      @veronika9279 2 місяці тому +1

      This comment made me tear up

    • @YuiAllura
      @YuiAllura Місяць тому

      If only

  • @mxlia-17
    @mxlia-17 3 місяці тому +70

    There's something horribly cruel in love. You can fall in love with everything and everyone. I fell for someone that doesn't exist, that I have created. Because he's just who I always dreamt to be loved by. I look for him in everyone, but nobody is him. I don't know how, or why, but I just need to stop that. It's killing me. And more I write about him, more I break myself.

    • @miraspaho5562
      @miraspaho5562 3 місяці тому +1

      I understand you well. Me I think I founded him just he don't me.

    • @Therealcloudyy
      @Therealcloudyy 19 днів тому

      I hope your doing well

  • @MuslimahX79
    @MuslimahX79 8 місяців тому +233

    Dreams are far more beautiful than any reality.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  8 місяців тому +9

      Sadly that’s indeed how it works… I hope you enjoyed the playlist ❤️

    • @MuslimahX79
      @MuslimahX79 8 місяців тому +3

      @@helderboutens Very much so, thank you for uploading it

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      thats your garbage opinion tho which is not true whatso ever.

    • @rookiedriver6672
      @rookiedriver6672 3 місяці тому

      @@TheForgottenOddKing begone kid

    • @AAAAAA-cd4ux
      @AAAAAA-cd4ux 3 місяці тому +5

      ​@@TheForgottenOddKing Okay but why would you come here just to shit on people? Do you truly not have anything else to do?

  • @ruby2manyfandoms
    @ruby2manyfandoms 2 місяці тому +8

    It’s also like falling in love with the idea of a person instead of the person themself. you think you know them, but you don’t

  • @jackfrostsx_x761
    @jackfrostsx_x761 5 місяців тому +102

    Could you imagine being with your significant other fir your whole lifetime then at the end you kiss and they say "im glad i saw you grow into who you are" and you blink then they're gone. You were alone the whole time

    • @Eroticmelancholia
      @Eroticmelancholia 5 місяців тому +5

      Do not make me cry early in the morning😭😭😭

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому

      Yep. I've watched it happen.

    • @thefinecolumbian
      @thefinecolumbian 3 місяці тому +2

      Maikin' me cry. I have had a dream like that a few times and left with such a deep emptiness when it is over.

    • @annannya1356
      @annannya1356 2 години тому

      sounds like that one man who conjured a entire lifetime in his mind, in reality it was a millisecond, and he was flying from impact during an accident

  • @nikkasubliminal
    @nikkasubliminal 4 місяці тому +56

    I'm crying so much because is my truth, I know I will never know him, he just lives in my thoughts.

    • @miraspaho5562
      @miraspaho5562 3 місяці тому +1

      Even if you know him.if he don't loves you back what sense have it.

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому +1

      Plenty of decent men out there, just stop looking for Henry Cavill everywhere you go.

  • @crikch
    @crikch 2 місяці тому +14

    its not about whether they exist or not, but its about them not realizing your love exist for them.

  • @yupyeah6991
    @yupyeah6991 4 місяці тому +175

    It’s weird when you accept being alone and given up trying with people. It gives you an odd comfort and only really sucks when you start to feel lonely but once you learn to get past that it’s peaceful. You can be a decent person and make people around you smile and laugh and yet realize none of those people ever care once your out or sight. Get screwed over and used. Yet knowing people out there genuinely have love and real connections is beautiful. I wouldn’t say I have hope or anything anymore but you learn to appreciate things even if you don’t have them. For all those out there in a similar boat just know in your own way you’re amazing and no matter how rough it gets as long as you don’t give up you’ll move forward, we’re all going to die eventually and all be forgotten so for now appreciate the moment you’re in and the short life you have. It’s full of so many ups and downs and once you learn to appreciate how bad things get and can be, everytime things start getting even a little better it’ll always be even more appreciated and cherished. Kinda hard to explain but you’re good and you’ll make it.

    • @Percival-kl9yy
      @Percival-kl9yy 3 місяці тому +2

      @yupyeah6991
      *Just find an intelligent woman to be with you - they're out there.*

    • @yupyeah6991
      @yupyeah6991 3 місяці тому +6

      @@Percival-kl9yy I’ve personally given up. I mean I’m only 25 so I’m sure I’ll find someone eventually but I work 60 plus hours a week and on my days off I’m still busy working and the hobbies I have don’t usually have women in them. Plus after a pretty bad long term relationship I ended up also stopped using social media so in order to find someone I’d really have to put myself out there and go out of my way to find someone and at this point.

    • @yuiko7834
      @yuiko7834 3 місяці тому

      ​@@yupyeah6991if it wasnt for the age gap i would ask yiu out for a date. I really hope you can find someone who really apriciates you.

    • @daniellerostaing1467
      @daniellerostaing1467 3 місяці тому +6

      when i stopped looking to be with someone- the universe came to me! 43 years strong! please don't give up. we are here to fall in love!

    • @laruebokampiter9613
      @laruebokampiter9613 3 місяці тому +7

      You can give up on the rest of them just don’t give up on yourself. You are a valuable asset and if they don’t see it then that’s their loss.

  • @juliiscarlata400
    @juliiscarlata400 3 місяці тому +44

    I started writing a novel. It was unoriginal and uninteresting. Ended up being really disappointed in myself. But one night, my main characters visited me in my dreams. They hugged me and thanked me for creating them. They said they were parts of me, so as long as they love me, I know love myself. It may sound silly, but it really helped me to stop being so hard on myself. I'm in love with my characters. They are only mine. It hurts that they are not real, but it hurts in a good way.

    • @user-yr7cg8hd1l
      @user-yr7cg8hd1l 3 місяці тому +1

      sounds like your writing was therapeutic.

    • @dachiop677
      @dachiop677 2 місяці тому +1

      There's a way to read your novel?

    • @juliiscarlata400
      @juliiscarlata400 2 місяці тому +3

      @@dachiop677 I really appreciate you wanting to check it out, but it's not ready yet! I'm sorry to disappoint, but I just have a few chapters in actual process and the rest is just drafts. But thank you so much, it means a lot to me that you'd ask!💕

    • @user-yr7cg8hd1l
      @user-yr7cg8hd1l 2 місяці тому +1

      @@juliiscarlata400 mucha suerte con tu novela; escribir puede ser algo duro. Saludos!

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      @@juliiscarlata400 Yes, if you love your characters, other people with tender feelings would love them, too. But if you have to hug them just to yourself, because you need them and fear to lose them, I totally understand that, too. It is always that choosing between "cast your bread on the waters" versus "do not throw your pearls to swine; do not give dogs what is sacred."

  • @calebwaterz2867
    @calebwaterz2867 4 місяці тому +67

    I fell in love once. I only saw him when my eyes were closed. He was gentle, he was kind. He made me smile. He wasnt the most handsome man in the world and i loved that, because it felt real.
    One day i stopped dreaming.
    And i never saw him again.

  • @louiselisse7022
    @louiselisse7022 4 місяці тому +75

    I love someone who doesn't exist. I sit down, close my eyes and think of him, and we have the best time ever. Sometimes dreams are so much better than reality. This world is not for dreamers or idealists, it is too vulgar and disappointing. But the Sublime lives in our hearts. This is where, I think, we find true, divine Love.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      You should definitely read The Blue Castle by Lucy Maud Montgomery if you have not already.

    • @UnveilingTruth811
      @UnveilingTruth811 13 днів тому

      You need to accept that you’ve been deceived on what love really is. Love is just a sexual desire! Do you ever wonder why adults refer to sex as “love making?”
      In the end love is just a feeling of sexual desire, nothing more.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu 13 днів тому +1

      @@UnveilingTruth811 On the contrary, the term "love-making" is generally a misnomer.

    • @DreamsOfLennox
      @DreamsOfLennox 12 днів тому +1

      @@UnveilingTruth811 objectively, scientifically, entirely untrue

  • @Itsgoofygrape
    @Itsgoofygrape 2 місяці тому +9

    My soul mourns for something I’ve never known.

  • @samiatabssum
    @samiatabssum 5 місяців тому +140

    I swear I felt you
    I swear I felt your warm
    I swear I saw you smiling at me
    I swear I saw you laughing at my silly jokes
    Even I stood up on your shoes while laughing
    Instead of being annoyed you smiled at me and hugged me tightly
    We laughed together
    We cried together
    I want to see you again ,my celestial love

  • @sm71485
    @sm71485 4 місяці тому +131

    Fell in love with a girl, but I don't know if she exists or not. I've seen her once in a dream. She's a wealthy man's daughter, ran home because her parents were mad at her. She was nice, and more polite than most rich kids. I met her randomly on the street. She wanted to get some rest somewhere. Seemed nice so I took her in. In my dream, I knew her but she didn't know me. Her parents were well known. She took a shower, I gave her my clothes to wear. Nothing stupid happened but, we just talked for a long time. The dream was short but it felt like hours. She knew how to cook and made me a meal. The moment when she was calling me to come to the table, then I woke up.
    She didn't look like a model or something but, she was beautiful. Her smile, her expressions, her eyes, everything.
    Recently when I was sick, I got obsessed with a friend of mine. Didn't know her that well but at that time suddenly it felt like she was the girl from my dream. But as I got well, the obsession quickly diminished. I came to my senses that we weren't meant for each other. Now this playlist brought back the memories of that dream. I suddenly remember her face. My friend doesn't look like her at all. Those thick eyebrows, puffy cheeks, piercing brown eyes, smooth soft black hair, that red checker shirt, I remember it all.
    Yet I can't find her anywhere. Maybe she doesn't live in my country, maybe she doesn't exist at all. But somehow she messed me up pretty badly.
    That one dream, I still remember the details vividly. As if I had just seen it a few minutes ago. Till now no woman ever feels romantical to me. I feel no connection, I can't match with anyone. No crushes, no female friends, nothing. I feel lost, searching for that perfect girl of my dreams knowing that she has indeed never existed at all...

    • @yell09999
      @yell09999 3 місяці тому +2

      This reminded me of a dream that I had I was married to this guy we are arrange to be together but I still fell for him we had 12 kids 5 are adopted we had a happy life then I wake up.

    • @Poncha56
      @Poncha56 3 місяці тому +8

      write a novel, I was captivated.

    • @pandoranight3483
      @pandoranight3483 3 місяці тому +6

      It's ok if you don't believe in it, i know not everyone does, but it sounds like reality shifting to me! She exists, in another world she's there. She'll always be somewhere, and you can certainly return to her, if you so choose. You already know so much about this reality that you must've accidently gone to, that if you know you can get there again, you will. I believe in you! I hope you see her again soon!

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      beta

    • @Percival-kl9yy
      @Percival-kl9yy 3 місяці тому +1

      @TheForgottenOddKing
      *Why would you call him a beta?*

  • @johnl163
    @johnl163 4 місяці тому +67

    When I was six or seven, my family went to a park with a bunch of nooks and crannies, and we would always try to get lost in the labyrinth. One day, I hurt myself playing and I snuck into a corner to cry. A small girl approached me and to my surprise, she comforted me.
    To this day, I still don't know if she was an angel or a friend. I never saw her again, but it is a treasured memory.

  • @StormiHere
    @StormiHere 3 місяці тому +38

    I fell in love with the idea of someone. The one person who reflected it all is now out of my reach. A downfall of my own making, a grave made for and by me. Bittersweet misery.

  • @gissellest333
    @gissellest333 9 місяців тому +22

    He did exist but he’s now been dead for a little over twenty years. I sometimes see him in dreams. ❤💔

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому

      I hope that eventually you two may be together again, for eternity. Thank you for sharing ❤️

  • @RainandDreams25
    @RainandDreams25 9 місяців тому +153

    To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +6

      Thank you so much for spreading the positivity ❤

    • @Aniusu
      @Aniusu 8 місяців тому +3

      gracias lo necesitaba en estos momentos tan difíciles y más cuando no cuento con el apoyo de nadie. Te agradezco demasiado.

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому

      Sorry, but no. Just...no.

    • @user-iq7zn2tf5m
      @user-iq7zn2tf5m 3 місяці тому

      It's been a battle 🌞❤️🌟🫂🌺 Thank you, my friend with kind words, I have needed all day🌞

  • @ArcFallOrder1919
    @ArcFallOrder1919 4 місяці тому +70

    I fell in love with my favorite fictional characters that are not real but they are real in my heart. In my mind I wanted to tell him/her that they're loved.
    Cause I'm tired of being alone, hurt, lied, expectations, etc.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      depressingly pathetic. get a life.

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому

      Perhaps they aren't the problem.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      It is far better to love fictional characters than to love no one at all, because in this way you keep a loving heart, you keep love in the environment in which you live. I love people in history. They are not gone: their spirits are very much alive in their works. And they've shared their highest values in their works, so we know who they really are in their hearts.

  • @SKYZO4
    @SKYZO4 3 місяці тому +7

    i'm not falling in love with someone who doesn't exist, i'm in love with someone who isn't who i knew anymore.

    • @LateNightRewrites
      @LateNightRewrites 3 місяці тому +3

      God I know that pain. The cruelest charade of life is to connect with someone that way, then, slowly or all at once realize the face you kissed, the body you held, the laugh you lived for,all of it now belongs to an impostor, a mask-wearing facsimile of the best thing to ever happen to you. A husk of a reminder that your perfect person existed once but now does not

  • @itwasntriggedyourejustaloser73
    @itwasntriggedyourejustaloser73 3 місяці тому +6

    Im in love with an imaginary character. I will never lose him, but never really have him either. Life sucks 😅💔

  • @Leila77784
    @Leila77784 3 місяці тому +26

    To the person I fell in love but doesn’t exist anymore because passed away,
    I loved you so much. I couldn’t tell you when you were alive. I couldn’t tell this to myself too. But when you died, I died in 2016 too. The life never ever became that colourful again… Whenever I come to visit you, I cry a lot. I cry because I miss you a lot. I cry because we never had a beautiful memory and we will never ever have it. So I’ve been crying for you and myself. You don’t come to visit my dreams anymore… You cannot imagine how it hurts me. I miss you 😢 💔

  • @joshuaflackua
    @joshuaflackua 4 місяці тому +41

    "The young girl who does not know hatred reads the word on the page, and in her mind a man who understands her forms. She loves the man, needs him, but he does not exist. So she turns to the grizzled, scarred face of the author and imagines that the character lives within him. She imagines that if she can come to truly know the old man she will find the one she loves. Their bodies touch, and the world grows darker."

    • @arthurmeric6512
      @arthurmeric6512 4 місяці тому

      Beautiful.
      We all crave for someone who truly understands us, so that we may not be so desperately alone anymore in this madness called Life.

    • @LateNightRewrites
      @LateNightRewrites 3 місяці тому

      What is this from? It's so eloquently put that it conveys such a melancholy beauty

    • @joshuaflackua
      @joshuaflackua 3 місяці тому +1

      @@LateNightRewrites thank you. it is from my head.

    • @kamelzyadeh490
      @kamelzyadeh490 Місяць тому +1

      ​@@joshuaflackuathen you my friend should think about being an author. Because that was truly touching, not anyone can stitch a story in a few words. Especially not one that conveys a message so deep or dark. Bravo.

  • @psyducktective
    @psyducktective 21 день тому +13

    POV you are in love with Shadow the Hedgehog who has died and isn't real

  • @joannaoliva9388
    @joannaoliva9388 3 місяці тому +7

    It's better to embrace the cold than seek warmth that will cease when it's fire dies.

    • @michaelwolfe80
      @michaelwolfe80 15 днів тому

      its better to tend the fire alone then surrender to darkness because others couldn't see the light.

  • @haraldisdead
    @haraldisdead 4 місяці тому +50

    The best part of accepting lonliness is knowing these dreams are just dreams when you're having them, so you don't wake up heartbroken.

    • @LateNightRewrites
      @LateNightRewrites 3 місяці тому +1

      Yet the emotions they bring are real and connect you to something deeper

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому +1

      Nah, Morrissey said it best.

    • @elizaj4431
      @elizaj4431 2 місяці тому

      Yet it does break my heart they don't actually exist. But my heart breaks too easy. ☺️ My heart breaks too if I think of people dying and not existing anymore. The idea of never seeing them and they're being gone forever. Reread LOTR recently and sobbed again over Aragorn dying and leaving Arwen and then over all the heroes' deaths one by one in the end. 😝🥴

  • @liss3s
    @liss3s 4 місяці тому +16

    I reached a point where love isn't a feeling, it's a desire, i just want someone who i can love, someone new, sadly i'm not the kind of person that find it.

  • @dilaraIale
    @dilaraIale 4 місяці тому +11

    We know that the person we are in love with is an imagination, but it still seems real to us. We fall in love with someone who does not get angry at us when we make mistakes, someone who always knows more than us, someone who congratulates us when we do something good-even if it is small- someone who watches us from moment to moment, someone who knows us better than we know ourselves. Sometimes we think that it is a product of our subconscious, sometimes we feel as if that person would know us before if we met in real life. It's as if our souls meet in our dreams but are too far apart to find each other in real life.

  • @K.A.Noires
    @K.A.Noires Місяць тому +4

    The shattering pain of dreaming about a person that doesn't even exist and falling ever more in love with them after each passing dream is an unknowable heartache.
    A heartbreak few experience, and even fewer understand.
    Knowing that you'll never get to embrace them, you'll never say "I love you," and they'll never say it back, and that you'll never know the little details about them, or the goings on of their lives...
    Because they don't have one.
    Because they don't exist.
    I love you, Bill...

  • @LoreleiFirefly
    @LoreleiFirefly 2 місяці тому +7

    I feel I've fallen in love with someone my mind made up. I can see him so clearly in my mind, hear him and feel him. I see him in my dreams. We talk and it feels so real... But when i wake up, i have to realize he is not here... He is not real. I wish this comment was fake. But it's not. It breaks my heart because I feel so much emotion when i look into his brown eyes. In my dreams, his eyes are so soulful and full of light. It's like he's an angel. His voice is so deep and soft, it's soothing. He has beautiful hands, like they were meant to create beautiful things. He is a vintage soul, vibrant, funny, genuine. When he smiles, his mouth is the shape of a heart. The image i have of him is so specific, so real. I told my therapist but she said as long as he's not telling me harmful or bad things, it's fine. But i don't feel fine. My heart breaks everyday. I'm 28, will be 29 this year and I've never been in a relationship with anyone. I tried but it just never felt right. It felt like i was still waiting for someone, even when I tried liking someone else. Im still waiting. All i want to do is make this world better than when i found it. And i will, it is my purpose... My mission. But, this heartbreak i feel has always been in the background, like I'm missing someone I've never met. No matter how much good i do, im always harboring this depression deep within me. Maybe I'm meant to be alone, but it doesn't feel like it. I just wish I knew who this man was, if he is real. Even if I can never be with him, i just wish I could know him and share life with him. Just be in his golden presence in person. If i could, i feel it would heal some part deep within me. Dear God, or universe or whatever.... I'm just a soul here to experience. I don't know what I'm doing. Help me.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      We are never alone.

    • @artemisnymph8259
      @artemisnymph8259 29 днів тому +1

      After reading this, I picture an older woman sitting on the porch with a mug of tea. Just staring at the open field of wildflowers. Neighborhood kids asking about why she never got married and all she says is “I see him when I fall asleep. I see his eyes and his smile and I am content. He has been with me since the start and he will be here by my side when I end” and then I blink and it’s just the tea on an old wooden table. Still hot as the empty rocking chair sways in the wind. ( I feel for you. I do. I’ve found myself crying countless times over someone I know doesn’t exist. I have found beauty and love for life through them. Then I open my eyes and go to work so I can come home to “the bed we share” I may fall asleep alone. But in my dreams he is there. ❤

  • @invisiblelifeoftaryn
    @invisiblelifeoftaryn 3 місяці тому +9

    the times i spent with you in my dreams were not enough, i weep for you when i am awake and i weep when im wishing you were the person i dreamt of, instead of who you are in reality

  • @elsaaforges
    @elsaaforges 9 місяців тому +53

    Whenever you fall in love it's always with someone that doesn't exist. If we always could see reality as it is nobody would ever fall in love with anyone.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +9

      Humans just love escapism. We can always find our feelings better in art, music, literature and anything creative we make that is not real life

    • @Iamthepossum
      @Iamthepossum 5 місяців тому +5

      That’s not true, my dear. It’s simply your self-hatred talking. Because if that statement were true; you would be inherently unloveable, and this likely is the very reason that you pine away in limerence, spending down all the days of your life in some vestige of escapism; be it work, intellectualism or fantasy; rather then go out confidently into the world, knowing in the depth of your heart of hearts that you are a wondrous and beautiful creation, and deserve to receive in full measure every ounce of the blissful and perfect love written into each atom assembling itself now into your lovely body ❤ take care my sweet one and know that you are loved, even as deeply as you love ❤️

    • @pinkcolds9191
      @pinkcolds9191 4 місяці тому +1

      Well, you don't need to fall in love to love someone, even deeper than when you fall in love.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      how dumb are you?

  • @georgemarino434
    @georgemarino434 Місяць тому +3

    After all these years I never got love. But I hope I will never stop loving

  • @Quillancrow
    @Quillancrow 4 місяці тому +28

    I’ve been dreaming of the same boy since I was very young and I still remember the first time we met. We sat in a courtyard with our backs against a statue. We leaned into each other as we read a book he held in his hand while the other held me. I remember his dark curly hair-he wore a sweater that I can still remember the warmth of. He made me feel comfortable. Safe.
    I have never felt the same with anyone else.
    So, dream love, I hope we find each other someday-however long it takes.

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 3 місяці тому

      lies. attention seeking much?

    • @Quillancrow
      @Quillancrow 3 місяці тому +5

      @@TheForgottenOddKing what the hell?

    • @diamerald39
      @diamerald39 2 місяці тому

      That's such a sweet moment! Does he continue to visit you in your dreams? I sincerely hope you find him someday

    • @TheForgottenOddKing
      @TheForgottenOddKing 2 місяці тому

      @@diamerald39 wake up to reality. if you believe this pathetic nonesense and you are nothing but a em0 cuc yourself. deku is straight. head cannon should stay in your head. lgbt bs doesnt exist in anime.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      This gave me such a vision of the Unseen Real. Thank you. In the Unseen, people have hearts.

  • @laissateixeiralazarini914
    @laissateixeiralazarini914 9 місяців тому +42

    "I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
    I lift my lids and all is born again.
    (I think I made you up inside my head.)
    The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
    And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
    I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
    I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
    And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
    (I think I made you up inside my head.)
    God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
    Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
    I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
    I fancied you'd return the way you said,
    But I grow old and I forget your name.
    (I think I made you up inside my head.)
    I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
    At least when spring comes they roar back again.
    I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
    (I think I made you up inside my head.)"
    Mad Girl's Love Song, Sylvia Plath

    • @m-its-ok
      @m-its-ok 5 місяців тому +1

      Thank you! Now I fall in love with song Fig Tree - Mad Girl's Love Song (poem by Sylvia Plath) 💔💔

  • @xXanxmeXx
    @xXanxmeXx 8 місяців тому +72

    I noticed that you aren’t very popular which is a surprise bc this playlist makes me feel things. I’m in a bit of a tough place right now but this playlist makes me feel whimsical thank you for sharing. For anyone out there. I’m proud of you for not giving up and still being here and reading this comment. You’ve gotten this far and you can go sm farther, keep going I believe.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  8 місяців тому +3

      Thank you so much for the kind words, I’m truly honoured that you enjoyed the playlist so much and that it could convey certain emotions ❤️

    • @user-iq7zn2tf5m
      @user-iq7zn2tf5m 3 місяці тому

      ❤️🌟🫂🌺🌞

  • @maryannrussum1796
    @maryannrussum1796 4 місяці тому +24

    I fell in love with a man I met in South Padre, TX who I only knew for about 5 days. He and his brother were from Cape Province, S. Africa travelling around the states. When he told me hunted poachers in S. Africa, I fell hard. He was one of the most fascinating humans I've ever met and the connection was instant. I'll never forget you, Nick, wherever you might be.

  • @user-zo2vn8sh3s
    @user-zo2vn8sh3s 4 місяці тому +22

    "What if the reason we get so attatched to fictional characters is because they were supposed to be our soul mates , but we were born in different universes..."

    • @Ray-The-Wolf
      @Ray-The-Wolf 4 місяці тому +3

      That really hurted me cuz I'd like to think that... wondering if he secretly does actually miss me... even tho he's in a relationship with someone else, I will never stop loving him... sometimes I just gotta accept that, if I truly love him... but deep in my heart, I'll always be his and he'll always be mine...

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому +1

      No such thing as souls or soul mates. Just other lost creatures some spend a fleeting moment with, then drift painfully into oblivion.
      No replies will be seen

    • @YuiAllura
      @YuiAllura Місяць тому +1

      What if we love fictional characters because they're someone who just wants to be loved too. What if the fictional character is our person just in another universe or world. What if they're real just not with us.

  • @zbynekzapletal5514
    @zbynekzapletal5514 9 місяців тому +71

    I'll join the others and chime in as well. You may feel like you're hard to love, or that you're unlovable even. You however are not bad, you're just hurt. Give yourself time to think about what you want in love. You do deserve to be loved, and anyone who says otherwise hasn't seen you at your worst, they haven't seen what you went through. Once that wound heals up just enough for you to take another step, then take it. No matter what life throws at you, you will take that step forward. Because even if it's just one step at a time, you will one day look behind yourself and see the distance you travelled. It might not look like much now, but one day you will be able to see how far you've come from that painful chapter in your life and say to yourself "I made it."

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +1

      Thank you for this beautiful comment❤️

    • @mywifesboyfriend5558
      @mywifesboyfriend5558 3 місяці тому

      Too bad it isn't true. Most don't make it.
      We can't all be kings and queens.
      SOMEONE has to scrub the toilets.
      No replies will be seen

    • @chlorgexidin
      @chlorgexidin 3 місяці тому

      Спасибо за поддержку. Мне сейчас трудно.

  • @mango.witcher
    @mango.witcher 9 місяців тому +27

    I've fallen into a bit of a slump lately. Been difficult getting up, feeling motivated, or feeling content. Books and fiction really help me, I enjoy immersing myself into imagination. But it's so bittersweet. I wake everyday in a reality that seems so hard to change. I try my best to stay hopeful, remind myself that life is a wonderful thing to be lived. I love my worlds of fiction but it hurts that it's fiction. It kinda hurts that I'm here. Anywayyyyy...

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +1

      I hope the playlist could make you feel a little more comfort, thank you for supporting ❤️

    • @shr00m66
      @shr00m66 9 місяців тому +6

      Remember that even though i don't know you, it upsets me to know you're feeling this way. Keep going. I have your back from the comment section.

    • @Aniusu
      @Aniusu 8 місяців тому +3

      te entiendo perfectamente

    • @Eroticmelancholia
      @Eroticmelancholia 5 місяців тому +1

      Hi just know you are not alone in this i feel exactly the same🥺but also know it will pass you will find a reason to be happy♥️

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      I heard once: "Do not let the seen drown out the Unseen, child. For I myself am Unseen, and I stand strong with them." God Himself is Unseen, so you just keep hanging onto the Unseen.

  • @AVGVSTVS777
    @AVGVSTVS777 21 день тому +4

    she's very real to me.

  • @andreag2073
    @andreag2073 5 місяців тому +58

    Well, I fell in love with someone who pretended to be someone who really existed, in the end I don't know who I fell in love with. I only know that I gave my heart like I had never done before.
    and I always had the feeling of having fallen in love with someone's "ghost."
    It hurts me a lot not to have seen who I fell in love with 🤷🏻‍♀️

    • @sylphium
      @sylphium 5 місяців тому +6

      Same thing happened to me. Was very hard to realize I was mourning the loss of someone who technically never existed to begin with, but the idea of someone a twisted person made for me to manipulate me with. Things get easier, I promise

    • @ruthawie
      @ruthawie 4 місяці тому +1

      me too. it hurts to admit or accept the true reality when you thought it was true.... the only way is to mourn it until it stops.

    • @AshtonScripts
      @AshtonScripts 4 місяці тому

      im confused how do you fall in love with someone who pretended to exist who didnt

    • @turgutusumez9481
      @turgutusumez9481 3 місяці тому

      ua-cam.com/video/2czP3RoVOgw/v-deo.html

    • @fennecfox2
      @fennecfox2 3 місяці тому +1

      I once fell in love with someone who played the same online video game I did. We had so much fun together, but as time went on I realized...I had no idea who this person even was. I just saw their avatar everyday. It was a weird feeling, that I didn't even know who I fell in love with. I talked to them everyday but really knew nothing about them. Like literally nothing. Yet I smiled and thought of them all the time. I still have a screenshot of us playing together, and my mind still considers it a real love I had. But....
      It's like they arn't even real outside of my mind. I never told them I loved them either because...I really had nothing to base that off of, other than our fantasy world together and the person I molded in my mind.
      I tried to move on after but it was hard to do.

  • @Stefan-me7ww
    @Stefan-me7ww 4 місяці тому +11

    If you think about it, we love a person and we percept their existence with our own mind, but they might be a diffrent type of human from what our mind wanted us to think of it. And that is how we start to love a person that does not exist... That is why we remain devastated if someone refuses us..

  • @serballista
    @serballista 4 місяці тому +13

    What I once thought was a dream, in turn revealed itself to be a nightmare. Nothing could’ve prepared me to meet the one behind the face you wore. You spoke eloquently, your cadence clear & your intent strong. I failed to see through it. Now I sit & I ponder, wondering if I’d made a single good choice since the revelation. Nothing will ever be as good or real to me, as I was for you.

  • @iplayeddsharpminor
    @iplayeddsharpminor 4 місяці тому +7

    Very weird how I have had such dreams and yet dreams are supposed to purely consist of faces you’ve known from the past. Sometimes that’s the case, others definitely not.

  • @jheriking5585
    @jheriking5585 3 місяці тому +5

    To fall in love with the idea of a person. The thoughts of who they could be. The dreams of who you wish they were. Seeing beyond what a person sees in themselves and loving that person but not the one in front of you.

  • @NobodyAtAll56
    @NobodyAtAll56 2 місяці тому +3

    I’m in love with someone I have never seen or heard of. I stopped living for myself and changed my behavior to become a person capable of loving and being loved by that person. The things I’m doing now are things she will appreciate and be proud of when we finally meet. I often think of how I will court her and what our married life will be like. I hope with all my heart she exists, but if not, at least I can be proud I changed.

  • @ScummyScumScum
    @ScummyScumScum 4 місяці тому +14

    I have the full dream written down on my phone and but don't feel like typing all details right now. I'll keep this short as possible, I had a dream of being in a girl's bedroom of an apartment. It was this beautiful woman with brown hair and as she walked in she sat down and started playing with my hair and just being intimate, never have I ever felt such comfort that I can rmr crying at that very moment in the dream. Next all I can remember is her roommate barging in shouting in panic and next there was an explosion. I then began to drift away into a darkness as if being pulled by a force but as I was being pulled I saw the whole building being set ablaze and watching both of them burn. I woke up after that but as I was waking up I was in between being asleep and awake I heard a voice clearly saying "Your soul mate you long for may very well be dead" and then I was awake with tears coming out my eyes. I left out unnecessary details but I remember ever single thing that happened in that dream which is weird bcuz I never remember half of my dreams.

    • @kikithepupper6774
      @kikithepupper6774 4 місяці тому

      This comment got me emotional and a bit heartbroken but that username and picture of Eddy Murphy got me giggling when I noticed

    • @ScummyScumScum
      @ScummyScumScum 4 місяці тому

      @@kikithepupper6774 😂 what can I say it's one of my favorite movie's

    • @chillout8320
      @chillout8320 3 місяці тому

      Bro you need to research some shit like that. This could’ve been some alt reality shit

  • @AavaMakela-vd9vi
    @AavaMakela-vd9vi 9 місяців тому +24

    When it is someone real but you construct this ideal image of them in your mind.
    They begin to seem impeccable and you expect them to meet perfection, yet its not them actually.
    Only then you realise that they were just a daydream born of fantasy.
    Then is the true heartbreak, but how can feelings shatter when there was nothing real in the first place…

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому

      Beautifully written, thank you❤

    • @Nina.23
      @Nina.23 9 місяців тому +1

      this is exactly what happened to me some time ago. building a perfect, imaginary version of the person you're in love with is the ultimate heart break. aknowledging, at some point, that they're just like the rest of them.

    • @Eroticmelancholia
      @Eroticmelancholia 5 місяців тому

      @@Nina.23i am so sorry to hear that but please know he was not your person your person will come and you will know you will know that he is the one and how great love is♥️♥️♥️

  • @Lucifer__Morningstar_
    @Lucifer__Morningstar_ 5 місяців тому +18

    I don't believe dreams are what they tell us. I can't believe they're just generated by our own heads. I believe you enter a different realm when dreaming, so that person most of us had in our dream, the one everyone of us fell in love with and that got our hearts broken, the moment we woke up...that person has to exist somewhere in the universe and that person misses you❤

    • @ciaclark1111
      @ciaclark1111 3 місяці тому +1

      The eternal love realm, perhaps?

    • @diamerald39
      @diamerald39 2 місяці тому +1

      That's such a lovely thought. I really need to work on remembering more of my dreams again, it would be fun to explore dreams with this way of thinking!

    • @Lucifer__Morningstar_
      @Lucifer__Morningstar_ 2 місяці тому +2

      @@diamerald39 "She shall look on him with forgiveness, and everybody will forgive and love. He will be loved."
      It just has to be that way, there HAS to be love somewhere out there, even for me. Do you know that feeling? There are dreams and then there are DREAMS. The ones that feel different. The ones, you remember. The ones that make you feel like you're standing at the edge of the universe, experiencing all at once. I've had a dream where I went to a giant forest. The trees were huge and they were of silver wood and the leafes were purple red. It felt...important. I still remember it to this day. And from time to time there are dreams, that feel similar. Dreams where you dive deeper, you know? And sometimes you meet a person in your dream, a person, you've never seen before. They can't tell me, that my head created that person, oh no. That person must be diving deeper, too. Tha problem with diving is, though, you must get back to the surface from time to time😅

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      @@Lucifer__Morningstar_ These are the key words that you wrote so eloquently: "It felt...important." That feeling, even in the simplest dreams, that "This means something, I just know it." I always keep paper and pen bedside to write down the feeling before it fades away.

  • @ninidemoniaca
    @ninidemoniaca 4 місяці тому +5

    Why does it hurts? The truth about not knowing my beloved one, hurts. A lot. Knowing that he isn't real, it hurts inside of me, and I can't get over, I will never leave it away, he will be living inside of me like a disease, I am always feeling sick, sick of a memory that I can't move on, I will be on the pass of my life for the rest of it, I just wonder if in after life, I would be able to meet him, I'm not talking about religiously things but I'm going insane every minute that I think about him it's like a knife on my lungs, and I can't breathe, being forever in this eternal looping.

  • @bradchadley1261
    @bradchadley1261 4 місяці тому +18

    I'm such a sucker for these playlists. I will listen to all of them and no one can stop me.

  • @goodxvxbes6679
    @goodxvxbes6679 9 місяців тому +26

    I once fell in love with someone in my dream and it turned he was never real and for like 2 days after that i tried to dream about him but turned out it would be impossible because he wasn't real

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  9 місяців тому +1

      I hope that someday you’ll meet someone like him, he might actually be out there somewhere. Thank you for supporting ❤️

    • @yipyip5962
      @yipyip5962 5 місяців тому

      @@helderboutens who might be me

  • @Shieldbasch
    @Shieldbasch 3 місяці тому +5

    For all it brightens, love casts deep, dark shadows.

  • @x.selena.qp.x
    @x.selena.qp.x 2 місяці тому +5

    Correction, you're falling in love with someone that doesn't exist anymore.

  • @dawnjack3126
    @dawnjack3126 3 місяці тому +4

    Can u believe that you still love somebody from another life time, another time long ago? You see them in your dreams and remember everything about them see passages & moments memories that haven’t happened in this life I do.some souls are drawn together that go past space & time…

  • @Legende-cx1lm
    @Legende-cx1lm 27 днів тому +2

    ~You fall in love with the idea of someone, but you only love with a person you truely know~ -Random Dude

  • @eventuell_eva
    @eventuell_eva 6 місяців тому +27

    i dont know how to describe it but i fell in love with the marauders fandom. espacially with james,remus and sirius. its difficult to describe but they are my safeplace and always when i feel bad or im sad i read something about them or watch a tiktok. i love them with my full heart and i think nobody can relate this. but without them my life would be so boring

    • @madisonmirabella9646
      @madisonmirabella9646 5 місяців тому +2

      You’re not alone :)) I’m the same exact way about the marauders and I love them with my whole heart

    • @jaynej2884
      @jaynej2884 4 місяці тому +1

      I was in love with Danny phantom lol.
      Then jack sparrow.
      Then Selene from underworld lol.
      I get it.

  • @silverchariot1570
    @silverchariot1570 4 місяці тому +9

    Who would have thought that after all this time, i would have started to love myself.

    • @Percival-kl9yy
      @Percival-kl9yy 3 місяці тому

      🙄

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +1

      Sometimes that is the only way to have love and affection in your life. Plus, you are the only one who will ever really know you all the way through. And love you still.

  • @user-jq9po4pc9l
    @user-jq9po4pc9l 2 місяці тому +3

    At some point for me, I just sit there and close my eyes in silence, imagining every happy moment ever, getting engrossed by my dreams and just opening my eyes to a dark and hollow room.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      These are called Safe Sensations by Emma at Therapy in a Nutshell, and can strengthen you in real ways: ua-cam.com/video/ih2dUfxa4As/v-deo.html

  • @hellomew
    @hellomew 2 місяці тому +3

    i met a man in my dreams some months ago and i couldn’t speak his language and he couldn’t speak mine. but we had a wonderful time exploring a building full of futuristic technology together, then i woke up.
    a few days ago, in my dreams i was inside a train carriage. a man pointed at me. i immediately recognised his face and ran to him. full of excitement, i asked him “parlez-vous français?” and he replied “oui! oui!” laughing as he hugged and spun me around. this time we explored the city, while speaking in sentences i barely understand.
    i hope he visits me again soon.

  • @kazuyukihi1208
    @kazuyukihi1208 3 місяці тому +6

    自分の望んだ愛が欲しい

  • @gregorybaziremathias3038
    @gregorybaziremathias3038 4 місяці тому +6

    I fell in love once, in my Dreams.
    I don't remember anything of her, even her face or hair color
    Just that she was Kind and we cuddled
    That's a pretty weird sensation
    You were finally good with someone, but, she isn't real

  • @yunademond
    @yunademond 5 місяців тому +12

    I always fall in love but i want to be loved

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому

      The Franciscan idea that we should only want to love and not to be loved in return ("Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted, to understand, than to be understood, to love, than to be loved…") sounds beautiful and selfless, but the fact is, God Himself wants to be loved in return, and we are made in His image. (so please do not ever feel guilty about wanting to be loved.)

  • @robelly126
    @robelly126 4 місяці тому +14

    Sometime I just wish I never wake from my dreams because you are there.

  • @ql27
    @ql27 3 місяці тому +6

    Arrghhh i click the video because of the title and this is hits critically

  • @sirconrad8328
    @sirconrad8328 4 місяці тому +4

    There was a woman in my dreams, I don’t know what she looked like, I don’t know what she sounded like. But the gentle caresses and the look in her eyes made me fall for her. A fleeting moment in a dream. I woke up crying, because reality is cold and cruel and I will never attain that happiness in life.

  • @nathanilsaenz8178
    @nathanilsaenz8178 3 місяці тому +4

    When i was little i used to dream of a brown haired girl with lightish brown hazel eyes. She would always save me, many times id be in some sort of trouble and she would step in to save me from danger, in some dreams she would hold me and keep me warm, i remember one dream we kissed, and she cried and told me not to wake up and not to leave her. I remember waking up with a tear rolling down my cheek. I thought finally i had someone to love, but she was just a dream. Years passed and i still haven't ever been in a relationship or found a girl friend. It gets very lonely at times because i watch my friends and cousins be in relationships get out of them and find new ones easily and see ppl take relationships for granted. But i never had the luxury to be in one, never got to taste a real kiss or hold hands or go on the first date or have experiences. People don't understand how lonely it gets when you never had a romantic relationship, to be the only one whos never had a valentines. The girl in my childhood dreams was the closest i ever had...as a kid i hoped to oneday feel the tenderness of a hug and a kiss, to belong to somebody but never did. You grow old seing ppl in love and them having someone else to be with and you feel left out like you are on the outside looking in...i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy..sometimes you get distracted with other things you enjoy, but when things get tough you have nobody to really vent to. I just wish i can feel love just like i did with the girl in childhood dreams but for reals. But i come to accept that not every is loveable or handsome 😢 on the outside i make ppl laugh, ppl who know me think i am carefree and a funny guy...but i just try to make ppl happy because i don't want ppl around me to know how much i am suffering and i don't want ppl to feel sadness or the same kind of pain and loneliness i feel.

    • @FG-ie7cu
      @FG-ie7cu Місяць тому +2

      I am sorry for your pain, but thankful that you have your dream, which can be far better than everyone else's reality. Say to her: Part of you is better than all of anyone else.

  • @0o0o0oboi5
    @0o0o0oboi5 8 місяців тому +18

    I always have this dream with this man. It will always start about us being happy together living together enjoying the scenery together, but then something or someone will always separate us and no matter what we do we cant be together we fight and fight, but we never succeed and i will always wake up wit a tear in my eyes, one time we were so close of being together again, i just have to open the gate and we will be together again, i was so happy i looked at him with love, though i cant see his face i know he's happy too because finally after all this time we can be together again, but then something happens someone shot him and i ran to him hold him in my arm, he held my face with his warm hand and said something but i cant hear it, then i woke up, i lay in my bed in daze remember what just happened i was so stunned by what i just witness i just lay there staring in the ceiling. Days passed, night passed i never get to see him again i miss him, sometimes i cry when i remember him, it hurts, im slowly forgetting what hes face shapes like, how his voice sounds like. I want him to hold me again,i want him to cares my face while saying how much he care and love me. I want him back.

    • @helderboutens
      @helderboutens  8 місяців тому +3

      Thank you so much for sharing this story ❤️

    • @haruna-chan9412
      @haruna-chan9412 5 місяців тому +3

      I totally get what you mean. Back during my highschool years, there was a guy whose hair is as white as a sheet with golden eyes who'd appear behind me whenever I'm struggling. He'd caress and support me emotionally plus reassuring me that everything is okay but sadly as I got better mentally, he just disappeared one day and then I never saw him appear again. I remember the time where he'd hug me in my sleep when I'm lonely. But now that he disappeared and won't appear no matter how much I ask him to, it makes me sad that he was nothing but an illusion my mind made up.

    • @Deepthi9885
      @Deepthi9885 5 місяців тому +5

      @@haruna-chan9412everything in this world is an illusion. Everything happens in a mind. If you see and feel the person, that is reality for you. We all live in our own world. Your world have this beautiful human being who cared for you. If he loved you, he will be back and never leave you. This is true love.

    • @haruna-chan9412
      @haruna-chan9412 5 місяців тому +1

      @@Deepthi9885 Thank you for saying that. I do hope he'll come back one day. I think of him as family but not exactly lover But I really hope I can at least express my gratitude if we ever meet again.

    • @zaynropene
      @zaynropene 4 місяці тому

      @@haruna-chan9412 so we all live the same life or what lol

  • @smollathunderphucc6070
    @smollathunderphucc6070 3 місяці тому +5

    In middle school i fell in love with this new girl. She was so pretty I immediately developed a crush on her. Even my friends and teachers used to ship her and me, we even became dance partners. But i was too shy and awkward around her. One year passed and she left the school.
    Its been 11 plus years. I'm 21 now and i still see her in my dreams. I regret not talking to her more when we were so close. I tried to find her on social media and through old classmates but no luck.
    Sometimes i wonder, what if she never really existed in the first place? What if she was just an imaginary friend my brain created? Don't know if its love or what... i wish i could meet her again and tell her about the feelings i've had for her. Wherever she is i hope she's healthy and doing great.

  • @jaqueadriano7230
    @jaqueadriano7230 6 місяців тому +30

    When you fall in love with a character and you know it's not happening 😶

  • @jimbobhk2009
    @jimbobhk2009 5 місяців тому +6

    What a terribly sad concept. Captured perfectly in the melancholic opening track.

  • @Phoniexwolf209
    @Phoniexwolf209 3 місяці тому +3

    Don’t fall in love with someone that will belittle you, won’t help you, or won’t listen to what you have to say. Love is supposed to be an even give and take, it is a two way street and most often people jump to quickly into a relationship with out thinking of the effects it will have or what troubles they may be carrying with them. If you are not emotionally and physically ready to take on someone else’s situation/ problems, don’t chase something that will only end in more pain or misery.

  • @CraZyJSpades
    @CraZyJSpades 3 місяці тому +10

    Ill never forget this one. 15 years ago i dreamt of this remarkable woman whose face i cant remember but her graciousness alone was the beauty she holds. Everything about her especially her voice was incredibly familiar. So I know i've dreamt of her before. She made me feel safe, wanted, and like i had purpose. I remember holding both her hands, asking her who she was. She wanted to tell me but says "You're about to wake up, so i can't tell you now" suddenly she looks up to the sound of my alarm Coming out of the sky she looks back at me, smirks, then i awake. I Don't think I ever saw her again. Im going strong with the woman im with now, but ill never forget whoever this person was or what she was suppose to mean. Just sucks that Something as simple as the kindness she made me feel can only exist in my dreams.

  • @shintaro797
    @shintaro797 4 місяці тому +10

    Reminds me of a dream I had sometime ago. The details are a bit vague but I can remember something’s crystal clear. For context I’m born and raised in the. North but spent childhood summers in the South.
    In the dream I can remember I was outside. Surrounded by a group of people, I think we’re friends. Among them a cute southern girl, red hair, and a smile that would melt any guys heart no matter how strong he was. We were just sitting outside on a table in a park or woodland area. The air was calm, the lake was crystal blue and the sky clear. Don’t remember the girls name but what I do remember was that our relationship was great. Bordering romance. We were talking and laughing, and out of nowhere she mentioned marriage. ❤ I’ll never forget the pounding in my chest when I heard that word.
    But as this playlist may suggest, sadly she isn’t real.

  • @Mari-bl4lh
    @Mari-bl4lh 2 місяці тому +2

    She was a girl, he was just a boy, he didn't knew that her nights would be way greater with him by her side, his consciousness never told him that he could walk away. She never met him, because he was in her dreams, the perfect, not real, boy, but in her dreams, he was so real that she could feel the goosebumps behind every touch, behind every laugh, behind every emotion. The worst moment was the one she needed to wake, wake up from this failure and do the things she was supposed to, work, study, live, love... Her mind was calm, but her desires were different from everybody, her ultimate desire was to meet him, at least one time, to meet him and listen to his soft or harsh voice, to feel his fragrance of wood or rain, to sense his lips and to experiment living a true love. It was december 23 when she jumped from the building she worked in, she was just a girl in her 20's, with a simple desire to be loved, and while she was falling she felt, for the first time this emotion, she could be happy for the first time, because when no one loved her, she loved herself. It's too late, she discovered this when her life ended, she could never met a lover and his face is now buried in her memories. But... you don't need to take the same path, you know, people's that desire to die are the ones that most love the life, don't take this turn, love yourself and I swear, someone will find this beautifull. If no one find, he will do it, even if it's just in your dreams. Stay safe.

  • @staliniosifvissarionovich5588
    @staliniosifvissarionovich5588 4 місяці тому +5

    Damn. I fell in love with a certain girl in my dream. I dreamed I met her at a train station, then I asked for her phone number and she agreed. (In real life I certainly wouldn't have the courage to do that to a stranger). After that we went on various dates, went to a few coffee shops, each door was a different coffee shop (Dreams are always strange). Then she took me home, I didn't understand why that house looked like Nobita's house. Then we ate together, just rice, and I kept coughing because I choked on the rice, and had to cover my mouth all the time, and then a bunch of other things happened that I can't remember. And then I woke up. That happened about 6 months ago and there's no way I still miss and love her. This is better than a few people falling in love with an AI, and being delusional.

  • @jolyrue
    @jolyrue 4 місяці тому +4

    I fell in love with a young man, but he is not a fantasy, he is real, but nothing happened between us, just eye contacts, but I feel something warm towards him. I feel that he is mine. I feel that he will save me from me...

  • @AdamAhmed-sm3qr
    @AdamAhmed-sm3qr 3 місяці тому +3

    I fell in love with a woman that was loving, and kind. She truly cared for me as much as I did, it was genuine how much we enjoyed each other’s company. I woke up so sad that she wasn’t real and most days I yearn for her, just to spend time together.

  • @kayday6598
    @kayday6598 Місяць тому +2

    The sereness of the piano as you comes to terms with your own insanity is terrifying.

  • @5Demona5
    @5Demona5 4 місяці тому +9

    Where are all the Astarion girls, that know we cannot have him after clicking Quit Game?

    • @KanieSoul
      @KanieSoul 3 місяці тому +2

      I have deeply cried over some of the comments here and this one, being a fan of Astarion, was the best one I came across. Thanks so much, I feel a hundred times better lol ❤

    • @5Demona5
      @5Demona5 2 місяці тому

      @@KanieSoul you may be another stranger on the internet
      But, wanna sit together and cry over our pixel vampire?