My mom was an addict and so my sister, brother and myself were taken from her. Her drugs were more important (I always thought). I remember sitting at a window watching her walk away. My sister was the youngest, adopted first. My brother and I endured great pain at the hands of different adults. We were finally adopted. I never forgot. I found out she died years back from a drug overdose. I still think of her to this day.
broken apart hang in there man sorry I’m late to this trust me this song makes me cry every time my mom left me when I was young I didn’t even get to grow up with you I was adopted and have a loving family now and I know how all of you feel trust me if any of you need a friend don’t be afraid to message me on Snapchat my snap is mkozloski6
You know I lost my mom when I was just a kid to the same thing and this song really hit me hard😢 this song for sure needs the views people need to see this so they know what's on the line every time they wanna take that pill. A drug high is only temporary but family is for life❤
My mom didnt took pills but she was so deep in drugs. I went thru alot with her. I was 6 and homeless, leaving with different strangers all the time and one of them abused me sexually. This was until i turned 8 that my sister took me. But now that i have my kids. Never will put them thru all that. I cant say im as perfect mom but i always try my best.
I wish you the best, I’m going thru my mom in jail. I’m 11 and already know all about drugs. if im ever a parent i’d never do that to my kids or anything. But you’re probably a perfect mom. I wish you and your kids the best🤍❗️
This song hits my soul hard... my brother and I lost our mother to suicide with pills... when she tried to throw them up, she had nothing else on her stomach; she was pronounced dead on arrival. I was three; my brother was one... Thank you NF... for an outlet for our loss.
good to know you have a perfect family. meanwhile the rest of us out here, we're suffering from loss of mothers and fathers. even if they haven't passed, it feels like they did.
@@exoticz2266 so does mine, she actually died from it. You don't always have to assume people are lying about it. I could say that you are lying about it, but I'm not going to because I don't have any proof. Please kindly shut up, we have no reason to believe that they are lying, but if they are that's messed up.
I relate to this song but instead of my mom it's my father... My father didn't did do pils but he was an alcohol, and though he did die he was an absentee father...
I came across this song in a restaurant bathroom... I was having a tough night... this is me..my daughter went through this as a kid...we have gone through hell for years.. ALL on me...my addiction couldn't see why she would stop talking to me..NF...is the ONLY station I listen to on Pandora... powerful lyrics in EVERY song..
Honestly same. Both parents of mine are/were addicts. My dad died when I was 8 due to drugs, my mom is still an addict. At my graduation, she was nodding off, and could hardly stay away. I don’t want her like that at my brothers graduation which is slowly approaching.
My father is addicted, I just get away from him, and when I tell him he starts to get angry.. it fits so well with this song, thank you NF. - Life is hard, you can't deny it.
After being sober from heroin and ice for 5 years now and I was talking to my youngest of 3 sons about how I used to b and he told me to listen to this song!! Wow the tears r streaming ....it’s fucking heavy!!
i tried to take my life last night overdosing because i lost my mom to overdosing. but right before i did it i heard this song and it saved me. i realized what it’d do to my sister and brothers.
yup and your lucky that happened to you he saved you from editing and thinking about your siblings so good job think before you do don't do before you think
I'm so sorry to hear this but your not alone as you see you have a entire comment section to support you, not to mention the lovely song writer himself. ❤
Each time I listen to this song, I always think about my mom poppin pills when I was a baby. Her mom (my nunna) basically adopted me and my sister. She takes care of us to this very day because my mother was (is) a drug addict. My father too. So everytime I listen to this song, I want to cry. She left us when we were babies, and never cared to love us.
This explains my life so well I lost my mother to drugs. All I can remeber is begging her to stop for us me and my siblings still to this day I wonder if I could’ve done something to save her. 💔this song deserves way more attention.
I didn't lose my mom but she is an addict and was completely absent in my life and my siblings that I ended up having to raise. I understand these lyrics and can relate.
Same but it was my father and i had to take care of myself every other weekend but my mom takes good care of me. My father was absent, pops in and out of life at times. Sorry for what you went through with this as well.
My mother struggled with drug addiction her whole life. She had me and my siblings when she was very young , and she raised us on her own. She never had her own full childhood and she dealt with the worst kind of abuse The drugs eventually bled into our family life and for her it got worse. She was in and out of rehab and other situations a lot. My little brother got involved in drugs too. My mother moved to New York , and I thought she had finally gotten sober , but she got involved with the wrong kind of people again and overdosed in late July 2020. My little brother, whose mental state was all but destroyed , hooked on drugs , and didn't make talking to him very easy , he followed my mother's footsteps and overdosed 6 months later in January 2021. Not too long before his birthday. I lost both of them snd I'm still not over it. Needless to say this song gets to me a lot.
Listening to this really makes me look back through life to how my father was, always focused on drugs not really around to take care of his kids, in the end drugs took him away from my family and I....I wished he did better but it's hard to have helped someone who didn't want help. I wish he was still here, I talk to his urn everyday for awhile......missing his voice even tho I didn't hear it often
YOU JUST OPENED MY EYES ANDADE ME REALIZE I DO THE SAME THING SOMETIMES KNOWING THAT I LOST MY MOTHER TO POPPING PILLS HER ENTIRE LIFE.THANK YOU FOR OPENING MY EYES. I PRAY YOUR PAIN SUBSIDES AND THINGS GET BETTER FOR YOU...
My mother overdosed July 4th 2021.. this song speaks everything i wish i had said. ❤ rest in peace while im in pieces. Ill always pray for an addict.. ive watched it change my twin, my other half. And now i dont know half of me because shes not here to walk me through it. May God be with you all. Save your children by saving yourselves. 🩵
I was a drug addicted baby when I was born I got taken from my mom when I was abt 6 the worst 4 years of my life ... and then I turned 10 and my dad was back with my mom she was abt 3 1/2 years sober now I’m 12 and January 28th it was my mom and dads 3 year anniversary ,she’s been sober for about 5 years now and I’m happy as I could ever be !! Love you mom thanks for loving me back
i wish my dad would stop. he is the reason i cut every day, he is the reason i cry myself to sleep at night (if i sleep that night) he is the reason i wanna commit, Hi. i am myranda i am 12 years old i hav depression, anxiety, i get clingy to new people cuz i have abadonment issues ect.
@@myrandastaten6291 I'm so sorry, ive cut myself before as well, but it's not worth it, I know it seems like the only way out or maybe a safe support, but it's not. I really hurt my friends bad when they found out about it and I've never felt worse, maybe you can't go to anyone, but what I do is cut clay or slime with a toothpick and even a pencil, But I also use stress toys. I hope I've helped you and I hope you have a better life ahead of yourself
i feel every word in this song, my mom isn’t dead tho. but i remember watching her take pills, and then blame me for taking them.. i don’t know what else to do other than miss her.
This song hits diffrent because im going thru the same thing with my dad and i listen to this song and read the comments just so i know that its not just me stuck here, i hope that everyone can get thru this. Stay strong!
I haven't found a song in my years that represents mine and my siblings life. Thank you. I grew up in care from the age of 11, split up from 7 of my younger siblings. I dropped out of school at the age of 7 to raise my siblings as my mum and step dad were to addicted to drugs and alcohol since I could remember. My mum eventually bailed across the country and has now made a new life for herself with the same old patterns just 2 new siblings that I now can't protect from her as I did years ago with my other siblings. It gets hard at times. Im now 24 with a 2 year old daughter that I would do anything in this world for, I will give her the love I never had. I'm happy now, iv learnt to be open and trust again but it took a lot to get here and I still have my days, but kow those days just remind me of how strong I really am. I haven't seen my mum in 13 years and I don't think I ever will. My dad... well that's another whole story in itself. life is life and all I can do is grow from my past, move forward and live each day awake and thankful for the lessons. 💕
This song is so sad to me bc my closet aunt who was like a mother to me and she died 3 years ago I never got to say goodbye and I lost my grandma this year im in tears when this song is on bc my grandma had lung cancer and aunt got in a bad car crash or passed out and fell on a wire this song really reminds me of them im so sad I was gonna send santa a note seeing if he could do anything I couldnt
Can't relate much but my dad never wanted me or my brother. He was never their for us. And even when my mom went through incurable cancer he still wasn't their for us. And ya know what, if your parents don't want you at your worst. Then they truly don't deserve you at your best, if any kids or teens are going through this or worse. You got a whole entire comment section standing with ya, your not alone never were, never will be.
Ok. Tears in my eyes as I listen to this song. I don't listen this often I only listen when I feel sad or depressed. My mom. She is alcoholic. Even right now i m watching my mom's face, she is totally gone in her own world and I m here alone thinking about taking my life away. But I don't have a guts to do it. I don't know what to do. I even threw my hand on her out of anger which I didn't wanted. I'm depressed for that. This song really got me 💔.
I have listened to this song so many times n time n time again I cry along with u. My heart goes out to u n to the many people who have gone through something like this or who is still going through this. Blessings to all... Love, Peace n Aloha from someone in Hawaii 🌈🙏🏼❤️
I took pills. They were given to me by a caregiver who was supposed to take care of me but abused me instead. Got addicted at 13. Took them until I was 19. I stopped because I was pregnant. Dr gave more when baby was born and i relapsed for about a month. I’m almost 6 years clean. I listen to this when I feel the need for them. Reminds me of what I’d put my daughters through if I did it again. So I haven’t. They numb the pain in your mind. But I’d rather deal with the pain in my head then put my children through this. I lost my dad and watched him die 6 years ago a month before my daughter was born. I struggle still. So I come here to this song. If you’re sober you’re doing awesome. Don’t give up!! And I’m sorry to anyone who has lost someone over drugs.
This hits hard. My mom is an alcoholic. She was never there for me and my little sis. I was only four and I had to grow up so fast just so my sister would have someone to protect her. Even after she hit my sister and nearly killed me in a car accident. It took her ten years to quit,but I will always remember all the time I had to pour the the whiskey down the drain after I found her pass out form one of her relapse. I will always love her but I will never ever respect her.
I heard this song for the first time a couple years back when I was on in patient treatment after years of various types of outpatient therapy and medication had failed absolutely. Another female brought this song to class because her teenage son found and showed her this song because it exhibited his feelings regarding her pervasive heroin addiction. I loved her and thanked her. We met again in 2020 in max security, but she had no recollection of me, this song or my Boo, my 9 yr old olest son. Surreal
I’m playing this because from young girl I grew up with my sons father . 15 years old . 17 came around had a child together . 18 hit and he starts doing drugs . Taking pills and leaving with friends more often . I watched him go from a young loving humble soul to a dark broken man. Right now he’s out with his friends while I’m here with our son. He just made one two days ago.
This song helps me heal from loosing my mom to addiction. I know I lost her long before then but it still hurts that that’s what took her from my world for good.
My nephew showed me this song because at the time I was dealing with my kids dad which was an opiate addict smoking them nasty blue pills ...he never really stopped and I just pray he does before it kills him ..this song never fails to make me cry ..every time I play it ..I pray everyone that has an addiction can see that drugs don't love u
This makes me think of my dad so much.. he died from drug overdose this past October and I wish I could forgive him but I can’t I love him so much that I hate him for leaving💔
idk if youll see this man and i know it might make you feel better for a minute man but also it makes what you do so much harder but dude my mom died in 2017 from a heroin overdose i was 17 and its fucked me up ever since and this was actually like one of the first songs i heard from you and i really liked you and still do and i think your music helped me and still does i actually have just started getting back into my life and i quit listening to you for a long ass time because we think so much alike and i feel so much of what you say in your music but i guess what i wanna say is thank you cause youve probably made a difference in so many peoples lives
This reminds me of my aunt she had an addiction to drugs and every time I remember her I cry and Every time I listen to the song it reminds me of her and I love it
So true. Lost my best friend a few years ago to drug abuse and till this day it hurts so bad. Everytime I hear this song I start crying like a little kid
Both, my mom and my dad, left me and my 2 sisters for drugs and this song perfectly relates to my life and my sisters, except my mom or dad didn't die (yet) they say their gonna take us to a movie, and meet up with us for Thanksgiving but they never show up, so I stoped believing they'll ever show up, yes they still see us but they only come to ask for money then they leave for another two months like they never existed, I wanna believe that they'll never overdose or get hurt but every day that their away my hope goes down, I dont talk to anyone about my problems, and I really dont want anyone feeling bad for me or my sisters, but I just wanted to say is dont stop believing things will change, even if it feels like it wont, just keep holding on, you really are loved and you'll see it eventually, just remember hope is the only thing that you can have that wont cause any pain.....have a nice day/night, bye💜😞
My father left at a very young age, on every drug I could think of. Some I've probably never heard of. I hated that I loved him for years. Now he has congested heart failure and we fear the time is coming. My hatred has faded into fear, fear of losing a man I don't know but that my heart loves. He tells me he'll do better but I know he won't. I know he won't overcome this. So I'll love him until he's gone. The man brings me nothing but pain but I'll love him because God knows that the world's given up hope. I love you dad.
My fathers an alcoholic and my moms a smoker. He neglected and emotinally abused me, even went as far as to use physical force once. My moms not a bad person but I never got to have a bond with her growing up. All I wanted as a kid was for both my parents to be happy and spend more time with me. It’s because of my father than I was taken away by child services at a young age, it’s been hard growing up but I’m doing alr now, I’m living my life without them
He must of lived it to be able to get the message across, I am watching my children going through drug addiction, I pray for all that are addicted and please get help,believe in yourself ,u can do it
I mean, idk how to feel about my mom leaving my older brother and I. I was 5 years old, I don't have many memories of her, some but it's just a few. My brother was real shaken up about it. 9 years old, he was in so much denial that he thought she died and nobody wanted to tell him. I can see that tho, how could a woman that says she loves you everyday just get up one day and leave. We didn't know she had a drug problem. I don't know how to feel about it man, I really don't miss her and I grew up with a really awesome step mom so that's that.
the worst thing about it all is that you can hear the pain in him voice, just knowing pills could cut so deap makes me feel so bad for nf. especially cause it was his mom who he lost, poor guy. he dezerves sm better.
I remember me and my other friends listening to this song our camp leader played and he said that his mom left him but that nomatter what God was still with him. We all cried that night
I haven't cried for almost a year now and listening to this song just made me cry out everything that I kept bottled up. My dad is addicted to alchohol amd left when I was young. Sometimes I feel like a dissapointment to my mom. I can't express my true emotions to anybody because they won't understand or care. Not like anybody cares now. I actually started cutting a few months ago but I stopped to let them heal. From: a 12 year old girl with tears streaming down her face as she realises that nobody cares for her.
My dad died over mental health and drugs this song got I heard it and burst out in tears I'm only 13 I have gone through alot I thought my life was gonna be ok
Never had my mom either it's what makes the book feel so real. Really is like the story of my life. Wish I could put as easy as you man I just like the pain I guess
This song does kinda relate to me a little Back when I was a bit more younger after my father passed awya my mom became an alcoholic and got drunk so many times and survived many medical issues, and I saved her from a stroke by telling my older sister to get help since it was early in the morning and I was the only one awake, she kept drinking up until she met my step dad, she stopped drinking now and is more happier and my step dad is cool and chill, but I still can’t forget all the times I saw my mom drunk and leaving me to go party and get drunk at dancehalls, sometimes she wouldn’t come home and stay somewhere else while my sister took care of me, it hurt me seeing my mom like this I couldn’t do anything but watch this happen to my mom, but I’m so glad she’s getting better ❤️🩹 ❤
"yeah I know those drugs got you held captive, I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured" that line got me balling in the bathroom trying my damn best not to scream it
I lost my mother in May of this year. She struggled with a heroin addiction my entire life. And eventually I followed into her footsteps. She finally got clean in 2017 after multiple prison stays, failed attempts at getting clean. Her and my stepdad (20yrs together) both got clean. Hallelujah right? Should be a happy ending. Unfortunately, when they both got clean...due to years of neglect, my stepdad(50 yrs old) had chronic hep c which caused cirrhosis of his liver. He passed away in April of 2019 and it fucking killed me. It still kills me everyday. A year before he died (2018) my momma was diagnosed with Her2+ breast cancer at under 50 years old. 😭 I watched what should be a happy time finally having my parents back turn into a nightmare I'm still trying to wake up from. The grief is unbearable. I lost my stepdad in April of 2019, my best friend of 18 years my pitbull Rio I had since I was 7 and he was 7wks old died in June of 2019, in November of 21 I gave birth to my 1st son who was still born at 8 months pregnant, then this year I suddenly lost my Chihuahua I rescued 7 years ago to cancer(January 23), my other family pet Zoey who we had for 13 years(Rios mate) in March of 23, then my mother passed away in May of 23, my beloved cat Nosey which was the last animal I had from my mother got out and the neighbors dog killed him in July 23, and then my 3 year old pitbull Junie was put to sleep in September due to bad breeding which caused her cancer 😭 and as if I wasn't done, my significant other was in an almost fatal car accident at the beginning of October which left him with a broken femur, pelvis, 5 fractures in his spine, broke all his ribs on his right side, broke both shoulder blades & has a constricted blood vessel in his brain. 💔 If you've read this far....thank you! Idk what made me feel like sharing all this to complete strangers but this song really touched me. And through everything that I've been through these past few years I am still sober! I started using Meth & heroin at 15 years old. I'm 28 and have almost 8 years clean with a couple lapses in between. Pray for me y'all 😩 Also, If anyone would like to share or even donate to our gofundme it is greatly appreciated 🥺 gofund.me/3732b13a
My lil sis died as a baby, nd I miss her like crazy and I couldn’t bury her with our mom and 2 older brothers bc I was a new born baby myself. I could only relate to the chorus
My mom was an addict and so my sister, brother and myself were taken from her. Her drugs were more important (I always thought). I remember sitting at a window watching her walk away. My sister was the youngest, adopted first. My brother and I endured great pain at the hands of different adults. We were finally adopted. I never forgot. I found out she died years back from a drug overdose. I still think of her to this day.
Yeah I know you feel it sucks
I’m sorry to hear that , I wish you a better life ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear this, but just know your better, life goes on and you can look back at this and use it as motivation, to be someone better.
i’m so sorry :(
Yes my mom did the same thing
Theres nothing like loving an addict. There’s no pain like that in the world.
Hope ur doing okay. Stay strong youve got this💞
I loved a narcissist. Her drug was attention. And I was the victim. I wish you luck.
@NinZilla66 I have loved both and it sucks loving both.
it feels like he is actully crying thro the whole song...wich makes it even better
he is actually crying towards the end, they decided to keep that in the recording
True but at the other hand that sounds wrong when ya said “it feels like he is actually crying thro the whole song…which makes it better”
You can really hear the emotion when he says "then" in "if you really cared for me then where you at then?"
He was just watch the music vid and you'll see
He is crying
God this song explains my life so well no my mom didnt die but she left me for drugs I miss her but I am fine..
Sorry to hear, glad to hear your OK though, stay strong
same this is still happening to me now she has cancer
Ashley Phillips I’m so sorry for you
@@tomkierce784 it's not your fault but thanks
broken apart hang in there man sorry I’m late to this trust me this song makes me cry every time my mom left me when I was young I didn’t even get to grow up with you I was adopted and have a loving family now and I know how all of you feel trust me if any of you need a friend don’t be afraid to message me on Snapchat my snap is mkozloski6
It's sad that this doesn't have millions of veiws
It does
Anthony Buda no
no that it’s not on spotify
It had 38M views on youtube
AmPeD Up it’s sad that’s what comes to your mind
You know I lost my mom when I was just a kid to the same thing and this song really hit me hard😢 this song for sure needs the views people need to see this so they know what's on the line every time they wanna take that pill. A drug high is only temporary but family is for life❤
My mom left too
We all got problems. My mom did pcp when I was in her womb. Now I'm adopted and I miss her like he'll 😢
My mom didnt took pills but she was so deep in drugs. I went thru alot with her. I was 6 and homeless, leaving with different strangers all the time and one of them abused me sexually. This was until i turned 8 that my sister took me. But now that i have my kids. Never will put them thru all that. I cant say im as perfect mom but i always try my best.
I wish you the best, I’m going thru my mom in jail. I’m 11 and already know all about drugs. if im ever a parent i’d never do that to my kids or anything. But you’re probably a perfect mom. I wish you and your kids the best🤍❗️
You can hear the pain in his voice his songs are not fake thats what makes him my fav :)
This song hits my soul hard... my brother and I lost our mother to suicide with pills... when she tried to throw them up, she had nothing else on her stomach; she was pronounced dead on arrival. I was three; my brother was one... Thank you NF... for an outlet for our loss.
Dad: Son, stop playing that song
Son: why?
Dad: *We have bigger speakers downstairs*
ok one this is copied and isnt funny no more
and two this is about his dead mom so stop
@Harlee Maddox 1. They weren't being rude also jokes about these aren't funny.
@@jaydon4407 how do you know maybe nfs mom is. Alive ma be
@Harlee Maddox Foh you make no sense
We say that for legends and he definitely deserves this
It is literally relatable to everyone but me and I cried
Andrea Martinez don’t say that you might jinx yourself
Sorry if I can’t spell
Init same
good to know you have a perfect family. meanwhile the rest of us out here, we're suffering from loss of mothers and fathers. even if they haven't passed, it feels like they did.
I never cried on or been deeply touched by a song like I have with this one.
I recently lost my mom to drugs and never had her growing up as a kid . This song really hit home
I hope you are doing okay. Youve got this keep fighting💪
I’m playing this in the same room as my mom who keeps drinking and taking pills
krine astronimous yeah right
@@exoticz2266 .-. It could be true
@@exoticz2266 do live with him or her it could be true
Jadah April people lie about that stuff all the time lmao my mom actually takes pills and drinks
@@exoticz2266 so does mine, she actually died from it. You don't always have to assume people are lying about it. I could say that you are lying about it, but I'm not going to because I don't have any proof. Please kindly shut up, we have no reason to believe that they are lying, but if they are that's messed up.
I relate to this song but instead of my mom it's my father... My father didn't did do pils but he was an alcohol, and though he did die he was an absentee father...
same
I came across this song in a restaurant bathroom... I was having a tough night... this is me..my daughter went through this as a kid...we have gone through hell for years.. ALL on me...my addiction couldn't see why she would stop talking to me..NF...is the ONLY station I listen to on Pandora... powerful lyrics in EVERY song..
Same..
Honestly same. Both parents of mine are/were addicts. My dad died when I was 8 due to drugs, my mom is still an addict. At my graduation, she was nodding off, and could hardly stay away. I don’t want her like that at my brothers graduation which is slowly approaching.
samee :(
That first verse is poetry
My father is addicted, I just get away from him, and when I tell him he starts to get angry..
it fits so well with this song, thank you NF.
- Life is hard, you can't deny it.
Ye my dad shot my ear when he got drunk with a shotgun
After being sober from heroin and ice for 5 years now and I was talking to my youngest of 3 sons about how I used to b and he told me to listen to this song!! Wow the tears r streaming ....it’s fucking heavy!!
you have the chance to be there now mama take it we can’t get time back but we can put the pieces back together. much love❤
@bianca
i tried to take my life last night overdosing because i lost my mom to overdosing. but right before i did it i heard this song and it saved me. i realized what it’d do to my sister and brothers.
yup and your lucky that happened to you he saved you from editing and thinking about your siblings so good job think before you do don't do before you think
I hope you're okay today
My mother was an addict. She committed suicide when I was eight years old. This song is so incredibly painful for me...
I'm so sorry to hear this but your not alone as you see you have a entire comment section to support you, not to mention the lovely song writer himself. ❤
I'm so sorry. I know what it feels like on both sides the fence.
my body was shaking man its so emotional
Each time I listen to this song, I always think about my mom poppin pills when I was a baby. Her mom (my nunna) basically adopted me and my sister. She takes care of us to this very day because my mother was (is) a drug addict. My father too. So everytime I listen to this song, I want to cry. She left us when we were babies, and never cared to love us.
This explains my life so well I lost my mother to drugs. All I can remeber is begging her to stop for us me and my siblings still to this day I wonder if I could’ve done something to save her. 💔this song deserves way more attention.
I didn't lose my mom but she is an addict and was completely absent in my life and my siblings that I ended up having to raise. I understand these lyrics and can relate.
Same but it was my father and i had to take care of myself every other weekend but my mom takes good care of me. My father was absent, pops in and out of life at times. Sorry for what you went through with this as well.
You can feel the pain as he remembers the days.
My mother struggled with drug addiction her whole life. She had me and my siblings when she was very young , and she raised us on her own. She never had her own full childhood and she dealt with the worst kind of abuse The drugs eventually bled into our family life and for her it got worse. She was in and out of rehab and other situations a lot. My little brother got involved in drugs too. My mother moved to New York , and I thought she had finally gotten sober , but she got involved with the wrong kind of people again and overdosed in late July 2020. My little brother, whose mental state was all but destroyed , hooked on drugs , and didn't make talking to him very easy , he followed my mother's footsteps and overdosed 6 months later in January 2021. Not too long before his birthday. I lost both of them snd I'm still not over it. Needless to say this song gets to me a lot.
This song always makes me cry 🥺
Samw
Listening to this really makes me look back through life to how my father was, always focused on drugs not really around to take care of his kids, in the end drugs took him away from my family and I....I wished he did better but it's hard to have helped someone who didn't want help. I wish he was still here, I talk to his urn everyday for awhile......missing his voice even tho I didn't hear it often
YOU JUST OPENED MY EYES ANDADE ME REALIZE I DO THE SAME THING SOMETIMES KNOWING THAT I LOST MY MOTHER TO POPPING PILLS HER ENTIRE LIFE.THANK YOU FOR OPENING MY EYES.
I PRAY YOUR PAIN SUBSIDES AND THINGS GET BETTER FOR YOU...
My mother overdosed July 4th 2021.. this song speaks everything i wish i had said. ❤ rest in peace while im in pieces. Ill always pray for an addict.. ive watched it change my twin, my other half. And now i dont know half of me because shes not here to walk me through it. May God be with you all. Save your children by saving yourselves. 🩵
😭😭this song Is my life story
This song hits me so hard😭😭
Kylie Armstrong same I can relate so much
This is exactly me
the pain in his voice 💔.....
I cried watching this
ᑕOᑕO ᗷᗴᗩᑎ same
I was a drug addicted baby when I was born I got taken from my mom when I was abt 6 the worst 4 years of my life ... and then I turned 10 and my dad was back with my mom she was abt 3 1/2 years sober now I’m 12 and January 28th it was my mom and dads 3 year anniversary ,she’s been sober for about 5 years now and I’m happy as I could ever be !! Love you mom thanks for loving me back
Your so lucky. I'm so happy she's clean for you. Hopefully one day I can write a comment like yours
i wish my dad would stop. he is the reason i cut every day, he is the reason i cry myself to sleep at night (if i sleep that night) he is the reason i wanna commit, Hi. i am myranda i am 12 years old i hav depression, anxiety, i get clingy to new people cuz i have abadonment issues ect.
@@myrandastaten6291 I'm so sorry, ive cut myself before as well, but it's not worth it, I know it seems like the only way out or maybe a safe support, but it's not. I really hurt my friends bad when they found out about it and I've never felt worse, maybe you can't go to anyone, but what I do is cut clay or slime with a toothpick and even a pencil,
But I also use stress toys. I hope I've helped you and I hope you have a better life ahead of yourself
me and my older sisters can relate to this with our mom and we wish she was there for us when we needed her
i feel every word in this song, my mom isn’t dead tho. but i remember watching her take pills, and then blame me for taking them.. i don’t know what else to do other than miss her.
This song describes my child hood, I am about to be 14 but this is so reliable
This song hits diffrent because im going thru the same thing with my dad and i listen to this song and read the comments just so i know that its not just me stuck here, i hope that everyone can get thru this. Stay strong!
his evolution as a person and a musician is wild
The amount of pain in that song is tremendous 💔
I haven't found a song in my years that represents mine and my siblings life. Thank you. I grew up in care from the age of 11, split up from 7 of my younger siblings. I dropped out of school at the age of 7 to raise my siblings as my mum and step dad were to addicted to drugs and alcohol since I could remember. My mum eventually bailed across the country and has now made a new life for herself with the same old patterns just 2 new siblings that I now can't protect from her as I did years ago with my other siblings. It gets hard at times. Im now 24 with a 2 year old daughter that I would do anything in this world for, I will give her the love I never had. I'm happy now, iv learnt to be open and trust again but it took a lot to get here and I still have my days, but kow those days just remind me of how strong I really am. I haven't seen my mum in 13 years and I don't think I ever will. My dad... well that's another whole story in itself.
life is life and all I can do is grow from my past, move forward and live each day awake and thankful for the lessons. 💕
This means so much to me. ALL of NF's songs do. I can't explain.
This is so sad I cry every night looking at the comment and the songs lyrics
Helpp...I'm letterially Crying Nf was basically my theripist with his music..and now hearing him cry hurts like a million knives Im so sorry Nf...
I can’t even cry to this. Why can’t I just express my sadness
Bro his songs is so addictive bro music is HIS THERAPY 💔🗣️.
I love this song 😢 relatable
This song is so sad to me bc my closet aunt who was like a mother to me and she died 3 years ago I never got to say goodbye and I lost my grandma this year im in tears when this song is on bc my grandma had lung cancer and aunt got in a bad car crash or passed out and fell on a wire this song really reminds me of them im so sad I was gonna send santa a note seeing if he could do anything I couldnt
Can't relate much but my dad never wanted me or my brother. He was never their for us. And even when my mom went through incurable cancer he still wasn't their for us. And ya know what, if your parents don't want you at your worst. Then they truly don't deserve you at your best, if any kids or teens are going through this or worse. You got a whole entire comment section standing with ya, your not alone never were, never will be.
I hope things get better for you ❤️
@@faithlucarelli7996 thank you
Felt every single line in this song bro !
Ok. Tears in my eyes as I listen to this song. I don't listen this often I only listen when I feel sad or depressed. My mom. She is alcoholic. Even right now i m watching my mom's face, she is totally gone in her own world and I m here alone thinking about taking my life away. But I don't have a guts to do it. I don't know what to do. I even threw my hand on her out of anger which I didn't wanted. I'm depressed for that. This song really got me 💔.
Nf is best for so many reasons but the top is cuz it’s always so relatable and so true the emotions that must go in to his songs is just insane
I have listened to this song so many times n time n time again I cry along with u. My heart goes out to u n to the many people who have gone through something like this or who is still going through this. Blessings to all...
Love, Peace n Aloha from someone in Hawaii 🌈🙏🏼❤️
I took pills. They were given to me by a caregiver who was supposed to take care of me but abused me instead.
Got addicted at 13. Took them until I was 19. I stopped because I was pregnant. Dr gave more when baby was born and i relapsed for about a month. I’m almost 6 years clean.
I listen to this when I feel the need for them. Reminds me of what I’d put my daughters through if I did it again. So I haven’t.
They numb the pain in your mind. But I’d rather deal with the pain in my head then put my children through this. I lost my dad and watched him die 6 years ago a month before my daughter was born. I struggle still. So I come here to this song.
If you’re sober you’re doing awesome. Don’t give up!! And I’m sorry to anyone who has lost someone over drugs.
you are incredibly strong, to listen to this, to do what you do everyday, to do what you do for your daughters. I have faith in you
NF is one of my favorite artists in the music world. I don't give a fuck what other people say about him. These topics he sings about are amazing.
This hits hard. My mom is an alcoholic. She was never there for me and my little sis. I was only four and I had to grow up so fast just so my sister would have someone to protect her. Even after she hit my sister and nearly killed me in a car accident. It took her ten years to quit,but I will always remember all the time I had to pour the the whiskey down the drain after I found her pass out form one of her relapse. I will always love her but I will never ever respect her.
hard helping someone who dosen't want to be helped
I heard this song for the first time a couple years back when I was on in patient treatment after years of various types of outpatient therapy and medication had failed absolutely. Another female brought this song to class because her teenage son found and showed her this song because it exhibited his feelings regarding her pervasive heroin addiction. I loved her and thanked her. We met again in 2020 in max security, but she had no recollection of me, this song or my Boo, my 9 yr old olest son. Surreal
This is raw and I love it! I pray he heals.
I’m playing this because from young girl I grew up with my sons father . 15 years old . 17 came around had a child together . 18 hit and he starts doing drugs . Taking pills and leaving with friends more often . I watched him go from a young loving humble soul to a dark broken man. Right now he’s out with his friends while I’m here with our son. He just made one two days ago.
This song helps me heal from loosing my mom to addiction. I know I lost her long before then but it still hurts that that’s what took her from my world for good.
The song is literally sad 😔😔
My nephew showed me this song because at the time I was dealing with my kids dad which was an opiate addict smoking them nasty blue pills ...he never really stopped and I just pray he does before it kills him ..this song never fails to make me cry ..every time I play it ..I pray everyone that has an addiction can see that drugs don't love u
I hope you are doing okay. If not keep fighting you will be alright honey💞
This makes me think of my dad so much.. he died from drug overdose this past October and I wish I could forgive him but I can’t I love him so much that I hate him for leaving💔
idk if youll see this man and i know it might make you feel better for a minute man but also it makes what you do so much harder but dude my mom died in 2017 from a heroin overdose i was 17 and its fucked me up ever since and this was actually like one of the first songs i heard from you and i really liked you and still do and i think your music helped me and still does i actually have just started getting back into my life and i quit listening to you for a long ass time because we think so much alike and i feel so much of what you say in your music but i guess what i wanna say is thank you cause youve probably made a difference in so many peoples lives
My mo. Wasn't an addict. But she took her own life....and this song helps. So thank you
This reminds me of my aunt she had an addiction to drugs and every time I remember her I cry and Every time I listen to the song it reminds me of her and I love it
The way he is crying is so relatable and hard to when your so mad but sad and disappointed
still hits everytime
my heart goes out to all of you- some of us have an idea of each other's pain in this sense.. sadly.
Close friend was a recovering dope addict.. N got clean..died from a relapse 💔...
When dealing with loss this song just... Hits different
So true. Lost my best friend a few years ago to drug abuse and till this day it hurts so bad. Everytime I hear this song I start crying like a little kid
Both, my mom and my dad, left me and my 2 sisters for drugs and this song perfectly relates to my life and my sisters, except my mom or dad didn't die (yet) they say their gonna take us to a movie, and meet up with us for Thanksgiving but they never show up, so I stoped believing they'll ever show up, yes they still see us but they only come to ask for money then they leave for another two months like they never existed, I wanna believe that they'll never overdose or get hurt but every day that their away my hope goes down, I dont talk to anyone about my problems, and I really dont want anyone feeling bad for me or my sisters, but I just wanted to say is dont stop believing things will change, even if it feels like it wont, just keep holding on, you really are loved and you'll see it eventually, just remember hope is the only thing that you can have that wont cause any pain.....have a nice day/night, bye💜😞
My father left at a very young age, on every drug I could think of. Some I've probably never heard of. I hated that I loved him for years. Now he has congested heart failure and we fear the time is coming. My hatred has faded into fear, fear of losing a man I don't know but that my heart loves. He tells me he'll do better but I know he won't. I know he won't overcome this. So I'll love him until he's gone. The man brings me nothing but pain but I'll love him because God knows that the world's given up hope. I love you dad.
This song got me the chills its so good but such a sad story..
the raw emotion on this song is unmatched
This song touches me differently personally...❤️❤️
This song hits in so many ways. My gosh 😟
My fathers an alcoholic and my moms a smoker. He neglected and emotinally abused me, even went as far as to use physical force once. My moms not a bad person but I never got to have a bond with her growing up. All I wanted as a kid was for both my parents to be happy and spend more time with me.
It’s because of my father than I was taken away by child services at a young age, it’s been hard growing up but I’m doing alr now, I’m living my life without them
He must of lived it to be able to get the message across, I am watching my children going through drug addiction, I pray for all that are addicted and please get help,believe in yourself ,u can do it
I mean, idk how to feel about my mom leaving my older brother and I. I was 5 years old, I don't have many memories of her, some but it's just a few. My brother was real shaken up about it. 9 years old, he was in so much denial that he thought she died and nobody wanted to tell him. I can see that tho, how could a woman that says she loves you everyday just get up one day and leave. We didn't know she had a drug problem. I don't know how to feel about it man, I really don't miss her and I grew up with a really awesome step mom so that's that.
KEEP EMO MUSIC ALIVE WHATEVER GENRE IT IS.
the worst thing about it all is that you can hear the pain in him voice, just knowing pills could cut so deap makes me feel so bad for nf. especially cause it was his mom who he lost, poor guy. he dezerves sm better.
AT The End Part He Told Everyone In The Studio To Get Out He Needed Time Alone To Basically Say Goodbye I Fucking Love NF Every Song Has a Meaning
I remember me and my other friends listening to this song our camp leader played and he said that his mom left him but that nomatter what God was still with him. We all cried that night
U can hear the pain in his voice 😢
I can relate 😔
I haven't cried for almost a year now and listening to this song just made me cry out everything that I kept bottled up. My dad is addicted to alchohol amd left when I was young. Sometimes I feel like a dissapointment to my mom. I can't express my true emotions to anybody because they won't understand or care. Not like anybody cares now. I actually started cutting a few months ago but I stopped to let them heal.
From: a 12 year old girl with tears streaming down her face as she realises that nobody cares for her.
The first time I listened to this song it made me cry I listen to this song every time I think about my mom who has never been there
Currently crying.
My dad died over mental health and drugs this song got I heard it and burst out in tears I'm only 13 I have gone through alot I thought my life was gonna be ok
This is goosebumps 👏❤❤
Never had my mom either it's what makes the book feel so real. Really is like the story of my life. Wish I could put as easy as you man I just like the pain I guess
This point (easier to be in agony) is mentioned in the most recent song he released on youtube "Happy"
This song does kinda relate to me a little Back when I was a bit more younger after my father passed awya my mom became an alcoholic and got drunk so many times and survived many medical issues, and I saved her from a stroke by telling my older sister to get help since it was early in the morning and I was the only one awake, she kept drinking up until she met my step dad, she stopped drinking now and is more happier and my step dad is cool and chill, but I still can’t forget all the times I saw my mom drunk and leaving me to go party and get drunk at dancehalls, sometimes she wouldn’t come home and stay somewhere else while my sister took care of me, it hurt me seeing my mom like this I couldn’t do anything but watch this happen to my mom, but I’m so glad she’s getting better ❤️🩹 ❤
"yeah I know those drugs got you held captive, I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured" that line got me balling in the bathroom trying my damn best not to scream it
Real music is an understatement. Real movement
Oh my god !! I just listened to this song for the first time and I am crying my heart out ..
I lost my mother in May of this year. She struggled with a heroin addiction my entire life. And eventually I followed into her footsteps. She finally got clean in 2017 after multiple prison stays, failed attempts at getting clean. Her and my stepdad (20yrs together) both got clean. Hallelujah right? Should be a happy ending. Unfortunately, when they both got clean...due to years of neglect, my stepdad(50 yrs old) had chronic hep c which caused cirrhosis of his liver. He passed away in April of 2019 and it fucking killed me. It still kills me everyday. A year before he died (2018) my momma was diagnosed with Her2+ breast cancer at under 50 years old. 😭 I watched what should be a happy time finally having my parents back turn into a nightmare I'm still trying to wake up from. The grief is unbearable. I lost my stepdad in April of 2019, my best friend of 18 years my pitbull Rio I had since I was 7 and he was 7wks old died in June of 2019, in November of 21 I gave birth to my 1st son who was still born at 8 months pregnant, then this year I suddenly lost my Chihuahua I rescued 7 years ago to cancer(January 23), my other family pet Zoey who we had for 13 years(Rios mate) in March of 23, then my mother passed away in May of 23, my beloved cat Nosey which was the last animal I had from my mother got out and the neighbors dog killed him in July 23, and then my 3 year old pitbull Junie was put to sleep in September due to bad breeding which caused her cancer 😭 and as if I wasn't done, my significant other was in an almost fatal car accident at the beginning of October which left him with a broken femur, pelvis, 5 fractures in his spine, broke all his ribs on his right side, broke both shoulder blades & has a constricted blood vessel in his brain. 💔 If you've read this far....thank you! Idk what made me feel like sharing all this to complete strangers but this song really touched me. And through everything that I've been through these past few years I am still sober! I started using Meth & heroin at 15 years old. I'm 28 and have almost 8 years clean with a couple lapses in between. Pray for me y'all 😩 Also, If anyone would like to share or even donate to our gofundme it is greatly appreciated 🥺 gofund.me/3732b13a
Wow this song is exactly what happened to me it's like they made a song just about my life
My lil sis died as a baby, nd I miss her like crazy and I couldn’t bury her with our mom and 2 older brothers bc I was a new born baby myself. I could only relate to the chorus