just hit 90 days clean off heroin earlier this week. so grateful the physical battle is over but the mental/spiritual battle really never ends. so grateful tho. learning this song and Glory and playing then ad nauseam really kept me sane at many points.
I used alcohol and drugs for years to stuff the trauma in my life. I got sober 14 years ago. I recall how much this song resonated with me, I still felt so empty and there is comfort in music like this. 3 years ago I read the bible and got saved. I dont go to church. but Jesus made it make sense, the most sense. I am 43 and affliction is just stamped on my life. But my faith has taught me the blessing in suffering. Praying, always Hayden too finds the only thing that can give you peace in the storm, and it is not of this world. This world has no real peace to offer. Contrary to belief, Jesus would not change Haydens gifts, only male them better, I am a far better writer now than I ever was. ❤
I love you, my friend. I am proud of who you've become! I hope to be where you are one day. I hope we find our way past Jesus. Past oblivion. I hope there's somewhere on this earth that we belong. Heavy burden and all. Hayden is a miracle in himself :)
It'd inspiring to hear that the struggle is indeed real, to other people besides myself. I was a teenage fuckup who decided to grow up faster than I was capable. I got my gf pregnant when I was 19 and she was 16. Just like that , my life forever changed for the more difficult . My own fault was the only culprit but drugs and alcohol were my only consistent companions, as everyone eventually disappeared because of me or in spite of my demons in me. In the end it is always the same .
I said that line to my head shrinker, she asked where it was from - now she uses it with other patients to explain why it's so easy to fall back into bad habits. Hayden is a damn treasure, just like Ben and Matt.
This song gave me the courage to get sober when everyone I knew was getting high and dropping dead. Clean for over a year now. Still playing music and realizing how powerful music can be. Thank you hill country devil.
Listened to this , coming off the herron In San Bernardino alone in a hotel room, crowd like a baby Been clean 6 months and haven't looked back Thanks for the song
I clear my throat as I hold the phone And I've got so much to say, but my courage fails and I'm silent anyway. And I've been giving in to old mistakes, there's comfort in familiar pain, oh it's the new kind of lonely that will drive my mind insane. oh it's the new kind of lonely that will drive my mind insane. I attempt to sleep through the fever dreams, but never quite win that fight. So I compensate with nicotine and China white. And as the moonlight shines upon my tired eyes, I marvel before the view. And I wonder if the light is shining on you too. Yeah, I wonder if the light is shining on you too. They say you just have to wait it out It'll fade away like everything else. But it's no easier now. No, it's no easier now. It's no easier now. And you'd think after all this I'd have settled down. I'm carrying on the best I can, but that ain't saying much, As most of my weight's still leaning on a crutch. So I beg myself to just be brave, though it seems I'll never start. 'Cause it's the new kind of lonely that weighs heavy on my heart. Oh, it's the new kind of lonely that weighs heavy on my heart. They say that time really ought to help, and I'll forget in spite of myself But it's no easier now No, it's no easier now. It's no easier now. And you'd think after all this time I'd have settled down.
I have listened to this song for years, taking on the meaning that fit so well each time. Used to be my brother being homeless and addicted but now its my partner who has been having memory issues. No one wants to be a part of that. And he says he so lonely. Won’t dare leave him this way. Just can not. Love most all the hill devil music! It rings across boarders large real tall small all. Good job friend: now easy does it.
I'm loving this. Major case of the feels here. I love your voice. So many feelings right now. I'm So happy to have discovered this. Listening to everything i can find now. New fan here and Oh how I miss ATX And Canyon Lake Tx and much better times. This touched my broken heart. Keep making great music. Wishing you all the best. Thank you for sharing your gifts. Beautiful... just beautiful .
Hey Casey, as I am replying to you 2 months after you posted your comment I am hoping that the 5 months clean is now 7 months clean. If by chance my reply finds you and you have not been able to maintain your clean state of sobriety, I would like to impres upon you that lapses, or relapses, need not be something to be disheartened by. Don't see them a a failure, but instead, see them as a reconnaissance mission in which you have been able to observe the path you need to tread.. This has now provided you with the opportunity to develop an improved strategy to overcome the challenges ahead. My father wrote a saying on my wall, one that has stayed with me for many decades now. It certainly helped me through some challenging moments. "All life is cyclic. be not disheartened when feelings of intensity or purpose wane." All the best wishes Casey.
Ahh still can't get this life without killing my pain to co exist just right. I wonder if you did. Don't stop playing this honest ballads we are starving to feed off your soul sir
Hayden we spoke in the past I bought sheet lyrics off ya. Keep your head up I know sometimes times get hard but you got ppl you don’t even know about rooting for you. Be well bud your musics forever changed me and I’ll always be a fan amigo
Just brilliant. Carry on brother. I discovered your music in the darkest point of my life, I'm amazed something this beautiful could cut so deep. Your music saves people.
I watch this and like to imagine that this is his grandmother's house, and she won't let him in until he sings her a song about why he's been away so long...😍
i thought something about he'S living in the streets, it's cold outside and he just rang up at a house , playing a song for getting a little warmth and a hot tee or smth.
If you want to see what you described in real life, Tim Harden at his Grandma's house singing Hang on to a dream and Reason to Believe and the heart scorcher "Black sheep boy" about his heroin addiction which killed him weeks later. ua-cam.com/video/_OG779JbYpU/v-deo.html
Nothing but heart break when I hear this. Rip Steven Minnis. I miss you so deeply sorry think my soul is shook. I still haven’t got over losing you brother. Always in my heart and forever implanted in my memory..
19 days clean and just started fucking full blown withdrawals this music is the only thing keeping me here with this pain in my entire being.. Thank you I don't know if I could do it without your words
This song makes my body ache so bad, I miss my best-friend so much, it’s been almost 4 years brother and it hasn’t gotten easier, I miss you so much it literally hurts, this lump in my throat has just gotten bigger and I want to scream your fucking name so loud and so long the world hears it, your life is still priceless brother and I’ll always make sure no one forgets your name.
This dude is amazing awesome songs love the new album too and actually takes the time out to reply to fans if you send him a message Hayden is an awesome dude
Jesus age christ. Ive heard a mountain of these solo acoustic sad songs and this one here got me. Wow well done. Ya took every scab i had and tore it off. Hahaha Incredible
+Austin McGehee there's comfort in familiar pain... so relatable god dammit this song hits me right in the feels. getting sober is just the start you lose your sense of purpose it gets boring until you break and go back to Newark or any other forgotten ghetto in america expecting a different outcome at first. it progresses to the point where you realize there is no way out so addicts cling to the comfort of familiar pain because its better then 8 days off a month and binge watching Netflix, hell its even jaded my love of performing live to the point I stopped playing shows. anyway here's to 4 months clean and not so serene cheers comrades...
This song brings so many memories back but also love this song to Death I remember when I tried to take my life when me and my ex ended things and this was the only song I could listen to ♥️
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just hit 90 days clean off heroin earlier this week. so grateful the physical battle is over but the mental/spiritual battle really never ends. so grateful tho. learning this song and Glory and playing then ad nauseam really kept me sane at many points.
Prayin for you!
"Terrible and True" by the Lost Dog Street Band is absolutely kin to this song and comes from same dark and familiar place..
The head trip lessens over time but sadly never goes away...I gave it to Jesus
Don't let the darkness take you away from Gods precious gift of life. He loves you
18 months off of Oxy and Fent. That was a 7 year habbit for me after breaking both my legs and back. I feel great, it gets better.
Its a shame how pain makes for the best songs. Even more so that so many people relate to them.
Too true brother. Thanks for listening.
What's the story on this guy? Dare I ask what happened??
Johnny Muskrat bad stuff mate, real bad.
well gauging by that song,,, perhaps i don't wanna know.. Tho I'd love to hear more from him...
thx dude.... bought it.
Hayden’s music makes me feel validated. The pain is all too familiar. He’s a voice for all of us who suffered as he has. Stay strong peeps!
Comfort in familiar pain
Check out early morning goodbye but pay close attention to his expressions he feels every word in his music a true artist
I used alcohol and drugs for years to stuff the trauma in my life. I got sober 14 years ago. I recall how much this song resonated with me, I still felt so empty and there is comfort in music like this. 3 years ago I read the bible and got saved. I dont go to church. but Jesus made it make sense, the most sense. I am 43 and affliction is just stamped on my life. But my faith has taught me the blessing in suffering. Praying, always Hayden too finds the only thing that can give you peace in the storm, and it is not of this world. This world has no real peace to offer. Contrary to belief, Jesus would not change Haydens gifts, only male them better, I am a far better writer now than I ever was. ❤
I love you, my friend. I am proud of who you've become!
I hope to be where you are one day. I hope we find our way past Jesus. Past oblivion. I hope there's somewhere on this earth that we belong. Heavy burden and all.
Hayden is a miracle in himself :)
It'd inspiring to hear that the struggle is indeed real, to other people besides myself.
I was a teenage fuckup who decided to grow up faster than I was capable. I got my gf pregnant when I was 19 and she was 16. Just like that , my life forever changed for the more difficult . My own fault was the only culprit but drugs and alcohol were my only consistent companions, as everyone eventually disappeared because of me or in spite of my demons in me. In the end it is always the same .
"There's comfort in familiar pain," hits pretty close to home. Thank you for your music and what you pour into it.
I said that line to my head shrinker, she asked where it was from - now she uses it with other patients to explain why it's so easy to fall back into bad habits. Hayden is a damn treasure, just like Ben and Matt.
The most beautiful song I've ever heard.. I'm still alive partly because of this song. I can't thank you enough for your music..
Best channel on UA-cam. Don't understand why you don't have millions of subscribers.
that's alright mate its quality not quantity here. thank you!!
This is the type of music that should be played on the radio.
There's comfort in familiar pain....
He got that RIGHT... Awesome song
Subconscious self mutilation for the masses
nicotine and china white....
It's no easier now.
This song gave me the courage to get sober when everyone I knew was getting high and dropping dead. Clean for over a year now. Still playing music and realizing how powerful music can be. Thank you hill country devil.
Listened to this , coming off the herron In San Bernardino alone in a hotel room, crowd like a baby
Been clean 6 months and haven't looked back
Thanks for the song
Ain't it crazy how great minds always fight this internal battle..
Been coming back to this song so often. It gets better everytime. This is a special song with a special voice. So simple yet so good.
He started singing and I started crying.
Check out his old CD on bandcamp.
Never fails to make me tear up every time I hear it. Addiction is a sick mistress.
Thanks gemsonvhs for always presenting great artists. And thank you Hayden for making music that touches my soul
I clear my throat as I hold the phone
And I've got so much to say,
but my courage fails and I'm silent anyway.
And I've been giving in to old mistakes,
there's comfort in familiar pain,
oh it's the new kind of lonely that will drive my mind insane.
oh it's the new kind of lonely that will drive my mind insane.
I attempt to sleep through the fever dreams,
but never quite win that fight.
So I compensate with nicotine and China white.
And as the moonlight shines upon my tired eyes,
I marvel before the view.
And I wonder if the light is shining on you too.
Yeah, I wonder if the light is shining on you too.
They say you just have to wait it out
It'll fade away like everything else.
But it's no easier now.
No, it's no easier now.
It's no easier now.
And you'd think after all this I'd have settled down.
I'm carrying on the best I can,
but that ain't saying much,
As most of my weight's still leaning on a crutch.
So I beg myself to just be brave,
though it seems I'll never start.
'Cause it's the new kind of lonely that weighs heavy on my heart.
Oh, it's the new kind of lonely that weighs heavy on my heart.
They say that time really ought to help,
and I'll forget in spite of myself
But it's no easier now
No, it's no easier now.
It's no easier now.
And you'd think after all this time I'd have settled down.
its the new kinda lonely that will drive my mind insane
I hope that you ALL are ok ❤
🐺😕
@@scarrysherry67 i hope the same for you to 🙂. I am the walrus.
Addiction everyday hurt eventually goes away but the mental pain has to be dealt with after the rattles shakes and sweats disappear or we relapse..
I have listened to this song for years, taking on the meaning that fit so well each time. Used to be my brother being homeless and addicted but now its my partner who has been having memory issues. No one wants to be a part of that. And he says he so lonely. Won’t dare leave him this way. Just can not. Love most all the hill devil music! It rings across boarders large real tall small all. Good job friend: now easy does it.
His ability with words astounds me, gives me goose bumps everytime.
"I'm carrying on the best I can,
but that ain't saying much,
As most of my weight's still leaning on a crutch."
Shit hits me every time.
So much emotion in his face when he sings. Beautiful music
Hope you doin' ok, and starting to feel stronger Hayden. Keep making those little steps forward mate.
I keep coming back trying to hit like again and again. HAYDEN, you are doing amazing things for us. Keep going my brother. I love you for it
I'm loving this. Major case of the feels here. I love your voice. So many feelings right now. I'm So happy to have discovered this. Listening to everything i can find now. New fan here and Oh how I miss ATX And Canyon Lake Tx and much better times. This touched my broken heart. Keep making great music. Wishing you all the best. Thank you for sharing your gifts. Beautiful... just beautiful .
Love the beauty that comes from the darkest days !! Almost 5 months clean today ! Thanks for this !
Hey Casey, as I am replying to you 2 months after you posted your comment I am hoping that the 5 months clean is now 7 months clean.
If by chance my reply finds you and you have not been able to maintain your clean state of sobriety, I would like to impres upon you that lapses, or relapses, need not be something to be disheartened by. Don't see them a a failure, but instead, see them as a reconnaissance mission in which you have been able to observe the path you need to tread.. This has now provided you with the opportunity to develop an improved strategy to overcome the challenges ahead.
My father wrote a saying on my wall, one that has stayed with me for many decades now. It certainly helped me through some challenging moments.
"All life is cyclic. be not disheartened when feelings of intensity or purpose wane."
All the best wishes Casey.
your lyrics say it so well... simply, yet encompassing. "there's comfort in familiar pain... it's the new kind of lonely..."
This describes what makes me keep going back to drugs and jail and treatment. The new kinda lonely is too much... Rather live in my familiar pain
It's easier than make yourself susceptible to new pain
It gets easier
Favourite singer/songwriter right now. Really relate to his stuff.
Disappearlikethemorning same but I've only found this and glory, where did you find the rest of his music?
haydenallenkarchmer.bandcamp.com/
No matter how lonely I get I listen to this song and I know I'm not the only one who feels like this. I feel alot less alone somehow.
Thanks gemsonvhs for giving us amazing music i would probably never hear otherwise you earned the subscription
thanks friend.
Shared this one with a friend crawling up outta the pit.
I saw you dallas! I was the only one who screamed when you made a comment about exchanging favors in san Antonio. Thank you for your honesty.
is he playing live?
@@RobDementia he was with lost street dog band and Matt heckler in Dallas 4 years ago.
Ahh still can't get this life without killing my pain to co exist just right. I wonder if you did. Don't stop playing this honest ballads we are starving to feed off your soul sir
@@margaretpennington5026 would of been awesome :)
well that emotional storm was difficult to weather
I honestly felt like I was staring at a mirror, thank you for providing the words I can’t seem to spit out. All love, for better days! 💖
Thank you for always posting his songs. He really is an amazing songwriter battling demons. I know the struggle.
Staggeringly beautiful price of work. Thank you for sharing it.
hope it's all good now a lovely song and a great voice great artist fair play keep it going
Hayden we spoke in the past I bought sheet lyrics off ya. Keep your head up I know sometimes times get hard but you got ppl you don’t even know about rooting for you. Be well bud your musics forever changed me and I’ll always be a fan amigo
Just brilliant. Carry on brother.
I discovered your music in the darkest point of my life, I'm amazed something this beautiful could cut so deep. Your music saves people.
This guy is so damn good. And I can absolutely relate to him and his songs... Heavy hitters man, damn
Yea I wonder if the light is shining on me☀️
yes, because i'm outside your window, and it is really hard to see into your room without it.
The lyrics are so powerful
I watch this and like to imagine that this is his grandmother's house, and she won't let him in until he sings her a song about why he's been away so long...😍
i thought something about he'S living in the streets, it's cold outside and he just rang up at a house , playing a song for getting a little warmth and a hot tee or smth.
If you want to see what you described in real life, Tim Harden at his Grandma's house singing Hang on to a dream and Reason to Believe and the heart scorcher "Black sheep boy" about his heroin addiction which killed him weeks later. ua-cam.com/video/_OG779JbYpU/v-deo.html
Nothing but heart break when I hear this. Rip Steven Minnis. I miss you so deeply sorry think my soul is shook. I still haven’t got over losing you brother. Always in my heart and forever implanted in my memory..
What a beautiful song here. Thank you for playing it for us.
So beautiful
Thank you man. You have no idea how much this means to me.
Definitely can relate.this song is heavy on the heart.great talent
19 days clean and just started fucking full blown withdrawals this music is the only thing keeping me here with this pain in my entire being.. Thank you I don't know if I could do it without your words
Amazing! Couldn’t possibly relate more...
This song is perfect for Now
I wonder how many pawn shops that guitar has been in.. better yet... all the pain it HAS witnessed. Recently had a relapse, back to day 14. Much love!
3 weeks here after a bad fall
Lovin the rasp in this guys voice.great song along with glry.keepy up kid.your doin fine
It's as simple and as pure as music gets.
That was awesome....!
Right there with ya.
Now listening from hospitabl best
I'm homeless right now..and this hits me hard everytime I listen to it
I can feel that. Great song.
This song makes my body ache so bad, I miss my best-friend so much, it’s been almost 4 years brother and it hasn’t gotten easier, I miss you so much it literally hurts, this lump in my throat has just gotten bigger and I want to scream your fucking name so loud and so long the world hears it, your life is still priceless brother and I’ll always make sure no one forgets your name.
This dude is amazing awesome songs love the new album too and actually takes the time out to reply to fans if you send him a message Hayden is an awesome dude
hell yeah bud hes the real deal.
I could watch him sing all day !!!
This is one of the few songs that take the pain for the while
love this song
Thank you..
Awesome
I can relate to these words. Really they call out like and old tune in my head.
Yea we all can relate to pain the most dominant emotion it seems.This kinda musics really making a comeback
Jesus age christ. Ive heard a mountain of these solo acoustic sad songs and this one here got me. Wow well done. Ya took every scab i had and tore it off. Hahaha Incredible
Soon this song will be in a movie!!!!
Amazing...not enough of what we need 🎨👌👌👌
People don't typically understand me... "they say you just have to wait it out"
love the voice! great song
I cant breathe, I wanna die.. But this made me sing. This one and kerr county dope blues on repeat!
Just can't fucking breathe.
it took about 3 listens before i caught that china white line, this is heart breaking but beautiful. hope life is treating you well man.
Steven Woods caught that line the first time. Some of us know that fight too well. Miss you bro keep up the good work
+Austin McGehee there's comfort in familiar pain... so relatable god dammit this song hits me right in the feels. getting sober is just the start you lose your sense of purpose it gets boring until you break and go back to Newark or any other forgotten ghetto in america expecting a different outcome at first. it progresses to the point where you realize there is no way out so addicts cling to the comfort of familiar pain because its better then 8 days off a month and binge watching Netflix, hell its even jaded my love of performing live to the point I stopped playing shows. anyway here's to 4 months clean and not so serene cheers comrades...
about 17 here.
Tyler Grillo can I use your first line in a song ?
It's a line from a song.
hauntingly beautiful....
Beautifully dark thanx for sharing..
Wow. This is wonderful.
30 days away from being a drug amnesty bin. Hopefully this time I figure it out.
I think he saw the future and the past for all of us.
This song brings so many memories back but also love this song to Death I remember when I tried to take my life when me and my ex ended things and this was the only song I could listen to ♥️
Amazing, loved it :)
Great tune!
This guy is for sure a ramblin' soul.
Back again. And again. And again. Fuck yeah.
Jesus loves you ALL..He died for EACH AND EVERYONE HERE !
I've seen deliverance,... it's there for you
Guys. We can not this level of talent die..give this dude some money
amazing voice
omg the few seconds where he looks into the camera could've just stole my soul..
keep making music man.. you inspire
Can't make out all the words, however, can feel the soul.
beautiful man
You do wonders for our souls
miss you momma. im staying clean for you and above all me....R.I.P Amy Burleson
This song became my anthem.
Wow.
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fuck yeah
if your lonely when you're by yourself. you're in bad company
Truth
I stay in bad company then
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