the month behind a song I wrote
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- Опубліковано 31 січ 2022
- the song: • hot mess - original so...
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also just mentioning bc they're gd friends of mine but if you would like to add some strings on your songs / parallaxorchestra do string quartet sessions recorded at Middle Farm ! They have some slots on the 10th and 11th march I believe. Get in touch!
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Didn't realise how much I'd missed seeing dodie living life as messily and emotionally as it is, but turns out I really did. Can't wait for this project x
same! ;(
Same :') I was glad that she stopped sharing because I thought it was a healthy decision but I kinda missed her and glad she's back again!
i’ve missed hearing about your life, feels like hearing from an old friend
exactly how i felt !
literally omg !!
yep
"turns out I'm not fully cooked as a person" is just a good quote, but, is anyone really fully cooked?
Probably not a lot of fully cooked people, but definitely several who are fully baked. :)
I think society expects us to be more or less "fully cooked" and basially figured out by 25 or something. But sometimes it doesn't work like that, and it's scary and stressful, but also natural and normal. I hope everyone gets the support they need, and take their time to cook :)
welp I'm in my mid-thirties and I'm still only half-baked at best lol
brains don't even finish fully develop until about?? 25?? or smthn
Fifty years in. Not yet.
legit lying here crying because it’s been the shittiest month and it brings some comfort knowing that i’m not the only one having a shit time :’)
I hope your February is a better month than the last! You are definitely not alone :)
same here haha! hope our following weeks get better :') ❤️
I heard this thing recently "you're living in the soup." Basically it's just a means to say that we try to view chunks of our life as these neat little things with beginnings and ends, little stories. Because it's helps us "learn a lesson" or move on to the next thing. But life is messy and complicated every day, every month, and every year. We're living in the soup. Always learning and being, and messing up and growing.
I'm very excited about this project, and about navigating the messiness of the soup of life in your late 20s with you, with this project.
good soup.
@@300_live_rats *sometimes mediocre soup
I like it :) bathe in the soup, drown in the soup, be the 🍲
i love this very much. we are all just living in soup. woohoo.
I fucking love this! Thank you, for this.
as an older sister, dods feels like my long lost older sibling. like how older siblings are always a hot mess but look at the younger sibling and tell them a little life lesson to contextualize their own life and hope the younger will have it a little better
YES. i was about to comment something really similar.💕
omg same !!!!
LITERALLY
I love it when you just sit there and talk about some things it's actually amazing
Whenever you make videos like these it really inspires me to work harder to self reflect. It’s not something I do often, maybe never at all to be honest. Perhaps because it’s a painful process but it’s a needed one. I have a terrible memory and terrible sense of self so perhaps documenting like you do may help me in some way. I don’t know, just thank you for sharing with us. It’s always appreciated that you feel comfortable enough to do so. Much love dodie, I hope February is better.
♥ i recommend documenting, even if it's just for you. A great way to remember and self reflect! good luck with everything pal x
@@doddleoddle thank you, love! You have no idea how much it means to me that you’ve replied. Means the world
My New Years Eve was also kind of rubbish this year and the thing you said about the celebration sounding like bombs is so true
i agree and i like ur pfp ;)
I've noticed that your recent videos have been incredibly well edited - I really think you have a knack for film-making that you can add to your already impressive roster!
The juxtaposition of last New Year's countdown with the quiet intro (which is then contrasted with this New Year's countdown which I presume was filmed from covid-isolation); the moment where you look into the camera at 3:45 while reading a book called "how to relax"; the big close-up at 6:07 after so many mid-shots for probably the most vulnerable part of the video (and with the ambulance in the background, seamlessly ringing out even across jump-cuts). You're the queen of the hard cut!
This genuinely felt like watching a short film. Great work. Very emotionally resonate!
thank you for watching so attentively !!
@@doddleoddle thank you for creating so authentically.
Build a Problem has kept me alive over the past few months…. Thank you for ‘Before the Line’.
♥
same. my most played song of 2021 lol. hang in there buddy
oh sweet dodie,, this is such an interesting idea wow :’) everything you create is so so so wonderful and i appreciate you more than you will ever ever know. thank you so much for all you do
+18 🤙🏽 ua-cam.com/video/xg1DoKekbEU/v-deo.html
This is exactly why I love dodie so much: finally a human being who is actually transparent and REAL on social media platforms. She is so relatable because she doesn't only show the "good" and the "pretty". It is SOOO refreshing and I believe all influencers of every kind should learn from her vulnerability and courage to share the REAL. Love you dodie! Thanks for being you.
So glad youre back, however please dont think that you have to overshare or do anything because of your fans / audience. take your time
dodie's videos feel so comforting and healing to me. i've been here since i was 16 and now, with almost 22, she still feels like a friend - like someone u rarely talk to, but when u do, it feels like no time has passed between u at all.
Your ability to talk so openly about how life is not always the colourful stuff we see online makes me always feel so much more comforted in my own struggles. Just listening to you talk feels like chatting to a friend. These are always some of my favourite videos of yours
Honestly, some parts of me just immensely relate to this. Over the past few years, it's been really weird. I mean, I'm a teenager, it's supposed to be weird, but covid took a lot of things away from me. It took away the first ever friend I'd made who actually wanted to spend time with me, and we'd become friends because of ME. Not because it was some playdate with our parents, because of ME. When we went back she wasn't really the same. Honestly, over the past few years I've not been the same. My limbs feel heavy, I'm worrying about every single damn thing even more than I used to. It feels like the world is ending but everyone else is staring at the light display giggling and you want to laugh too but it comes out too high pitched and everyone blames you and then you realise that you're not even laughing, you're crying. It's been a hard time. But I am glad to say that Dodie has definitely helped me through. "Hate Myself" forced me to confront a lot of difficult feelings when nobody was willing to listen to me, "6/10" made me cry after weeks of suppressing my emotions, which is a truly liberating feeling. And "If I'm Being Honest" will never fail to make me feel... If not happy, it makes me feel something. Thank you Dodie. I hope you're OK.
Im 24 and i cant imagine how its been for every teenager and highschooler during these years. But i can promise that you will be able to make other real friends trought your life. Stay strong! Hopefully this pandemic is over soon and we are all in the same boat ❤
hey, hope this isn't weird to say, but i think u should consider writing (as a job or a hobby :]) if u haven't already, you seem extremely well-spoken. "everyone else is staring at the light display giggling and you want to laugh too but it comes out high pitched and everyone blames you and then you realize that you're not even laughing, you're crying" god that's so.....!!!!!!
Love your metaphors as well! I'm sorry you're having a tough time, which is so understandable given the shit storm. It's been hard for me too even as a 27yr old and I concur, being in school during the pandemic seems incredibly hard. This might not be the most helpful to hear, but when you're in high school and college you think that life is high school and college. I felt like it was so important to get good grades, go to the best college, and get the best job. And I didn't take the time to enjoy it as much as I wish. I guess don't take it for granted and also it will get better and know you're not alone
we all die in the end, don't take life too seriously.
I turned 18 early this month, I lost all my remaining childhood to covid because it ruined my mental health and made my anxiety even more debilitating, I’m so rotten over it and I don’t think I’m going to enjoy life again, yknow? I can’t imagine a truely joyful me existing again jumping around and screeching and laughing, i hope that me comes back but they just feel dead, I really need to shove myself up and see a therapist 💀
The album “Build A Problem” has helped me so much as a social anxious person who recently graduated college and has no clue what comes next. Thank you Dodie. 💕💕💕 Your concert in 2019 is still the best one I’ve ever been to even though I’m not as close to the girl I went with.
this made me feel so much less alone in my own january turmoils.
"How did I get all of this shit on my ass?" is a great way to sum up my january... hang in there dodie!!!!
dodie, i remember being much younger and watching you talk about your life and feeling seen, finally understood. i understand now that it was unhealthy but it really had an impact on me when i was younger. i’m glad you can share your life in a healthier way now. things are hot messes and you show that not everything is perfect. there’s a sort of comfort in knowing someone else is out there struggling with those same things, going through life just like you. you only need to share what you feel comfortable with, but thank you for sharing what you have. 💗
i also know it’s unhealthy but i never understood why so i am ASKING YOU wise youtube commenter
Your friend groups always seem to radiate so much positivity and love and appreciation for life and love and friendship. Greta crying because the ride was so good was just the epitome of this.
:”)
Listening to you try to speak while not trying to burst into tears was hard to watch 😭
god a monthly diary of honesty and vulnerability is SO what i need right now. just got out of a 3 year long relationship and i'm pretty devastated. it's really nice to feel like i'm "going thru it" with someone else. even if the reasons might be totally different.
The part of Dodie’s music that makes us all fuckin SOB is that we’re all around her age and she’s just as messy and human as we are. no one is fully cooked at this age. It’s so rough and messy and that’s life and your music not only helps you but brings beauty and catharsis to millions. So much love for you.
i didn’t sneeze but thank you for blessing me
the new year's 2019-2020 flashbacks gave me such visceral sadness - grief, even. i just watched a video of the countdown at my own party that night, it's so bittersweet.
2 videos at once - WHERE DO I START!!!
Oh my god *I NEED TO DO THIS TOO*. Things like this are right up my alley and doing this sort of "challenge" (not really, but you know what I mean) could motivate me to actually write music, not just think about it.
I know the video ended on a quite somber note, but for what it's worth, you have the power to inspire.
this feels like the start of a little docu-series and i love it
Those are some deep realisations, I'm really proud of you for the work and reflection you did to reach them.
You say you wish someone had told you, but I'm not sure you would have been in the right mental state to confront that reality back then. There's a right time for everything and knowing now beats knowing 10 years from now.
It's not trivial to face your inner demons like that, pat yourself on the back and be proud of where you've come!
♥
Wow, I'm sitting in this room with covid, and just got tears in my eyes watching this. Looking forward to seeing more.
UNOPENED YOGA MAT GANG… also this has such Arms Unfolding project vibes!!!! I love Dodie’s mind more than anything :’) my January has been SO MUCHHHHHH so this is comforting
This is probably just the liking you because I’m a fan of you talking, but I love hearing you talk about your life, like genuinely I do. I love being reminded that at 25 my whole life won’t be figured out. I love to look at you having fun with your friends and traveling and making beautiful art and sharing it with the world, while still having internal struggles you’re working through that deeply impact you. It’s good to be reminded that my life will constantly be a mix of loving where I am but also wishing things were different, and I for some reason find peace in that. I watch you online and wish so badly I was where you are right now and have to remind myself life will take me where it takes me in its own time. Anyways, blah blah blah poetic bs, I can’t wait to see you on tour in Nashville!!
this is so genuinely comforting
dodie makes me feel so seen. i think that’s the best way to put it??
her way of articulating things is so relieving to me? like YES THATS IT YOU DESCRIBED IT SO WRLL FUCKING THANK YOU THANK YOU
i love how this is half "all the nice stuff we've seen on instagram" and half nervous breakdowns - just very real and sadly kinda relatable
haha yes
i missed you
I forget where exactly I heard it, but I heard somewhere that mental illness (particularly depression) is a club that let's anyone join, but the only rule is that you have to believe you're the only one capable of feeling a certain way.
No matter how many times I've reminded myself over the years that others feel just as deeply as I do, if not more, I always seem to find one of your videos (making pasta whilst drunk and sad sticks out in particular) just at the right time I am able to reflect and meditate on your experiences in relation to my own. We're both the same age, but we've lead incredibly different lives - but also do similar things like pushing away, or isolating, or just that soundproof ceiling of a new experience that just doesn't feel quite right.
I have no idea why I'm saying any of this, because saying that you're not alone to someone who is feeling alone and ashamed of everything they have and have not done is about as effective as pissing in the wind. But even so, you're not alone. I am eternally grateful that even though we will likely never meet, that you've been able to be vulnerable about the human experience in a way that makes sense to me.
So. Thank you.
I love you dearly, Dodes. Seeing you in my sub feed makes me so happy.
This sounds like such an interesting idea! Good luck I can't wait to see all of it 💖
That shit on my ass song tho. A certified bop
Thank you dodie for letting us all watch you in the cooking process.
I can surely smell something good in the hot mess it looks like rn.
Just give it a proper time :)
Thanks for being so open to us, stranger people.
:')
I appreciate how real you are. Thank you.
Juxtaposition of the final monologue and end song is *chef's kiss*.
oof, wow. going through a rough time after some tough feelings have happened and the part at around 6 minutes in is hitting even harder
I love seeing your life and how you navigate it, it's always made me feel less alone in the mess
this is going to be so interesting! if it lasts the whole year imagine the overview at the end of 2022!
this vlog makes me think we're getting an 'A Day in the Life' type string crescendo at the end of the Hot Mess studio version and it's all I have to look forward to in life at the moment
💚💚💚 ty for being you i appreciate it OMG THE SONG AT THE END lmfao
In a super non pushy way, I missed hearing from you. I was glad you weren’t here all the time because I’m content with knowing you’re living your life and not spending it documenting what is passing by all the time. But being able to see what you create and how you do it and being aware of how reassuring it feels to know you’re sharing this with us.. it’s really nice. You’re really nice. No person is fully cooked and living life is realizing that we’ve outgrown a lot of unhealthy patterns. The only thing important for us humans, sooner or later, is to find those things and work on them. That’s already a lot. I hope Febuary treats you better. Thank you again for this video and for the beautiful song
SO GOOD TO SEE U HERE!!!
I am very excited for this project (whether or not you actually end up doing every single month). I hope February is better for you and I can’t wait to see you on tour!!
thank u for sharing your thoughts dodie, its really great to reach our to all the other ant people who feel a lot like you do just embrace the chaos luv we appreciate ur existence you are a very special ant 🦋
Are you eating enough bb? We all care about you ❤️ I'm so sorry your January gave you so much grief, and I'm glad you had what seems to be a wonderful group of friends around you! I hope February is happier
it’s really soothing to see the people who’s work you love speak on the why & how and how it has changed them.
Cool girl is my favorite song. Like. I know the context of why you wrote it and what it means to are definitely very different, but how it’s helped me is unmeasurable
seing you back on here feels like coming home
my cat passed away a few days ago, and this gave me so much comfort
I think dodie is extremely brave for uploading this. I'm really grateful for her honesty and vulnerability. I'm sure she'll work it out just fine, and I wish her all the best luck in the world
i love this so much and i love you, i hope i get to see more of you
Love you Dodie!!
I adore this !!
thank you for making this dodie, thank you so much. i’ve been going through my first serious heartbreak, and i have been an unstable, barely functional mess, and it’s just nice seeing you express your emotions freely. i feel like i shouldn’t still be crying over a boy nearly 2 months after the fact, despite already suffering from severe anxiety and depression. it has pulled me into a deep dark hole. i have cried every single day since early december - pretty much all i do lately is just feel, cry, long, heal, and try to get through my days, hours really.
this has been the most turbulent and dark past few months of my life in my nearly 22 years of life, and what i’m trying to say is: while it’s horrible that we’re all feeling low as a collective it seems, it’s good to know i’m not alone. the “acceptance” paper in your shower and the conveniently placed “grief” graffiti on the wall in LA really encapsulates my life currently. just a tug of war of missing someone who no longer wants you in their life but also wanting to and knowing you need to move on and get on with your life.
i don’t really have many people to talk to lately, most of my close friends are busy working their adult jobs and living their lives with their partners/families, and i guess i just feel extra isolated. the world is really weird right now, but i do have hope. even if that hope dwindles from time to time, even when i’m having my 5th daily breakdown, that sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe one day, hopefully soon, things will be alright and i will be able to truly enjoy life again without this nagging feeling of darkness that permeates my subconscious on a day to day basis.
i’ve been watching you since 2012 and boy what a journey this has been. a whole decade !! even though you don’t know me, i love and adore you and am so proud of you. good luck on tour, you got this dodie!! i believe in you, much love xx ❤️☀️🌈✨
Thank you, dodie, that was so heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time. I'm 20 years older than you, and I wish I had the freedom to publicly be a "hot mess" and have people sympathize (or smile benevolently) and empathize. Just the thought of doing something remotely similar to this video makes me aware of how many layers of pretense I would have to peel off. I know you also feel societal pressure to be "mature" (settled, sober, whatever), but, unfortunately, it doesn't get less. Please ensure you cultivate the niches in which you can be a mess without shame (it probably won't be as public). See you in 20 years!
currently heartbroken because the Toronto show was cancelled but so happy to have a new dodie video
Love the new editing style dodie!!!!!
Love you dodie ❤
I love this video format! thank you dodie for sharing your life with us and including us in it 💛
and just like that, im looking forward to next month
thank you for sharing. can’t wait to see you in march x
I’m so excited for the months of touring!! I can’t wait to see you😎
You are an amazing person! Thank you for sharing.
i love u so much im barely into this video and i already love it
Your songwriting is so inspirational!!! Thank you so much for sharing stuff like this
Thank you for sharing this with all of us. It’s absolutely refreshing to see someone who shares good times they’re having, but also the hardships that still exist behind them.
Personally I’m looking forward to seeing these songs each month, much love Dodie!
god, I've missed you so horribly. thank you for this. it's so good to see you.
i’m glad that your doing this,, it helps to know that it’s not just me that’s not having a good first month :,)
Always lovely to hear the history and conception behind a song 🥰
this sounds so good, looking forward to see what happens
dodie this is wonderful
As someone who has been around since ye olde days, you have come so far Dodie. We're never fully cooked, but we do grow, and you have grown a lot - even if you don't see it that well.
Much love
Thank you for sharing what you can of your life with us! Your videos have meant so much to me growing up, and it’s nice to hear from you again. Take your time! Do your best! Good luck!
It's reassuring to hear that other people have to learn these lessons the hard way, too. Makes me feel less alone.
it's been a rough january, you are not alone, love. as a newly 40 yr old, i would like u to know that even i am not fully cooked. it's always just learning learning learning, and sometimes it's v cool bc you're like "oooooo i get it now!" but sometimes it still hurts bc ...life. anyway, i can't wait to dance and cry with you in atlanta soon! happy cooking, lil duck. xx
That was beautiful to watch. Thank you dodie
also thank you for always being so honest and reflective and creative
I love how real and honest this feels while still maintaining your boundaries. So interested to see where this project will go. Loved the song and the accompaniment video!
I can't wait for this project and watching anything you're comfortable sharing. Also those harmonies in Shit On My Ass are actually beautiful
I’ve been binging your doddlevloggle videos for a few days now so thanks for the new content! Hope you’re doing okay and looking after yourself x please try not to feel pressure to continue with this project if it gets too much we will all understand and it will have been a nice treat to hear a new song and have a talky video to go with it! You’re gonna be touring for the next few months and the EU tour after that! Share and create as much as you want to xxx
So excited to see you in Brooklyn Dodie!!💓
Oh Dodie, thank you for sharing your experiences this month! I hope that things are happier and you have a low stress happy February! Sending you lots of love
OMG DODIE POSTIG A VIDEO! It suddenly feels like Christmas🤩
i missed hearing from u sm dodes and im really excited for the project mwa
Thank you, I missed this, and luv you!
lovely! way to go, girlie. see you in vancouver! i'm bringing tons of friends!!
You are a beautiful musician dodie i love your music doidie love you dodie you look like such a fun person to hang out the people in your life are lucky to have an amazing friend in you
hi dodie thank you so much for sharing this :”) my January wasn’t great either, I spent a lot of time inside my head,, and it sucks, but it’s comforting to know I’m not the only one, and hearing you talk about this is also very comforting. thank you for being willing to share. hoping this next month is better for you, so excited about this project and I’ll see you on tour soon
That idea is brilliant! Horrifying but brilliant. Wishing you all the best and strength throughout it! :)
dodie you beautiful angel, this broke my heart. I hope February brings you happiness and flowers and presence. I cannot wait to sob along to the beauty that is your music in just a few weeks (Detroit show woot!). There is nothing more freeing and painful than a dodie show cry.
we love you dodie, thank you for sharing and hope February treats you better!