Sally, you're recovering from surgery and cancer. It's okay to slow down. It's not fair to expect your peek performance. And maybe (much later on) you can use this experience to connect with your patients. You got this! ♥
mourning the lost of your normal baseline is so tough. it took me so long to realize that being disabled means i do not have the energy for the things i love. i really appreciate you sharing the hard parts of this process. this is just as important as the videos of you smiling through all of it. thank you.
….I relate……and I don’t know if you ever get used to that feeling of disappointment…you know you can’t do it…but you still crave it….every time I tell myself it is not possible anymore…a shed a silent tear…and I go on with what is possible…illness almost decides everything for me…
Sweet Sally. Adrenaline has probably carried you through this far to get you through surgery and recovery with your spirits high. The crash can be so overwhelming. You’re going to be an amazing doctor.
@@nicholasfry4253Yeah, they get stuff wrong all the time, and I'd still take a bad doctor from today over pretty much any other medical professional in almost all of human history, lol
I'm so sorry about your ex not letting you have time with your dog. It's not okay and I can only imagine how hard it must be emotionally on top of still being recovering from surgery and cancer and being in med school. I hope you two can come to a better agreement in the close future.
Echoing this comment - I don’t see anyone else highlighting this, but I know if that happened to me with my dog it would *BREAK* me, even without all the additional stress she is going through. So awful and my heart hurts for her. It’s really unethical for her partner to have done that and I really hope a solution can be found.
Hi Sally❤ I had half of my thyroid removed because of a tumor and I can really relate to the struggle of not feeling like yourself, and not being able to do all the things you want to do. For me it’s been two years of trying to get my thyroid levels back to normal, it’s frustrating as hell. Just try to take it a day at a time, it’s not easy but we got this💕 Thanks for sharing your experience and your feelings, you’re helping so many people☺️
As someone with a chronic illness I recommend looking into spoon theory if you haven’t heard of it before. It’s a really hard/shitty to have to adjust to less energy. But it is do able, it is adaptable, you will get it down and do better, it will get better. You have to relearn how to live life prioritizing what needs to be done and what can wait to save energy. But as you adapt it will get better, and you’ll be an even better doctor for having lived this ❤, you are doing great, take each day as it comes ❤
This! Christine Miserandino. You'll have good days and bad days post op - not to mention you're trying to regulate your hormones along with the post op energy deficit. Hang in there, Sally. Anyone who has been through surgery knows what you're going through. Sending hugs from Florida.
Fellow chronically ill medical student here. We do not pay enough mind to how we reenter society after cancer or a major life change. You’re doing your best, and you’re dealing with so much uncertainty. I’m so happy your school/family/care team are supportive. Hang in there, Sally!
Hi Sally - I know many people who have taken a leave of absence from medical school for one reason or another, including cancer related reasons. I am in medical school as well. Taking a leave of absence to make sure that you heal properly can actually be a huge investment in your career. The reason for that is that you can leave, do research part-time or even less often (or not at all), and take time to just slowly maintain medical knowledge topics through things like sketchy, osmosis, and beyond, etc at a very gentle pace. On a leave of absence, you can do everything that you do in medical school, but at the pace that works for you. The people I know who go on leave and come back are often better students because they took care of whatever they needed to take care of in the first place. the people who come back are ready and more prepared. Although I personally cannot say that I have experienced exactly what you're going through, I can say what I said through the words and experiences of my friends who have or have gone through similar situations. Love and prayers to you! You are so strong, and all the doctors I know who have been through something like yourself are the best doctors because of it! This extremely difficult time will prepare you to be an incredible healer for the rest of your life - I just want to affirm that for you ❤❤❤❤
And by the way, if you are on federal loans, there are exceptions to the payback policy for cancer related diagnosis, so I would ask your financial aid office about options for halting student loans for however long you need since there may be good exceptions that go beyond taking a leave of absence so that you don't have to worry about the costs. I cannot recall the details, but when I read the master promissory note and loan policy, I remember it mentioning something about that. Something to ask financial aid for sure.
^ Yes couldn't agree with this comment more! Hi Sally, I'm a third-year med student. I'm so sorry that your medical school journey is not what you expected. However, I believe that people are faced with challenges only to the degree that they are capable of overcoming. You are already doing the right things by acknowledging and verbalizing your feelings and asking others for help. These times will pass and you will come out of it stronger than ever before. Taking a leave of absence may sound scary and may seem like a loss short term, but may be a worthwhile investment in the long term. Allowing your body plenty of time to recover physically and emotionally is so critical especially as your metabolic state is striving to achieve a new homeostasis. As you already know, medical school puts a person in a constant state of stress and alert mode, likely raising levels of various hormones like cortisol and catecholamines. My intention is not to scare you but to let you know that you have more than sufficient reason to take a LOA and should not feel bad about doing so. One year gap in medical school will not impact the rest of your life. In fact, there is a section on the ERAS residency app about adversity and you can write about this experience, and will only make you a stronger applicant. Like this comment says, if you do take a LOA and your body and mind recover a few weeks or months into your LOA, you can use that time to get ahead in research, volunteer, and work to build your CV for residency. You can even study ahead for step 1- just doing sketchy micro, pharm (and the respective anki cards on the anking deck) and pathoma (and its anking cards) will be super helpful and allow you to make a smooth transition back to school next year. Whatever decision you make, you are so strong and everything will be fine! There is no right or wrong decision, just listen to your gut feelings. Health always comes before school/finances!
I battled Graves Disease and had radioactive iodine at age 23. Be gentle with yourself and do what’s best for you. People pick up their lives after whatever they have to face. And not to be trite but money is only money. I’ll be 70 soon, living proof. Let yourself feel grace. Put yourself first, no matter what. 💜
Speaking from the perspective of a former med student with thyroid issues - it can be unbelievably difficult to function under fatigue caused by thyroid malfunction - the fatigue, brain fog, muscle cramps... I used to be so tired I couldn't get myself a glass of water or make a meal (thus I ate once in 3 days). I couldn't remember my friends' names, let alone study things for school. And I thought my world would fall apart if I take a break, that everything I invested in myself would be a waste of time and money. I forced myself to push through (or so i thought), eventually getting myself into a mentally really poor state, causing me to eventually fail a year in med school. Looking at that from this perspective, my failing that year was the best thing that ever happened to me. I got time to heal, physically and mentally, to take some time off and focus on myself. It was incredibly difficult, but it made me a better doctor in the long run. Now I am a resident in my field of choice, and I wouldn't take it any other way. Just focus on yourself and your healing, and everything else will fall back into place, one way or another. Effort always pays off! ❤
I know this time is tough for you, recovering from thyroid cancer surgery and dealing with all the work. Please remember that your health comes first, and it's completely okay to take things at your own pace. Give yourself the time to heal, both physically and emotionally. You're strong, and I believe in your ability to overcome this challenge.Take each day step by step, and know that brighter days are ahead. You've got this!
Hi ! Physical Therapist here 👋🏻 I had to take a medical LOA between my 2nd and 3rd year of PT school which was a tremendously tough decision to make but I wound up doing it and if I hadn’t I don’t know how things would have gone otherwise. Now going on 7 years out of PT school it’s something that never crosses my mind despite how all consuming it was at the time. I know it’s a tough decision to make but I wish you clarity and strength in choosing which path is best for you at this time, no matter what that may be, and I wish you peace in knowing that whatever decision you do make was made with sound reasoning and intentions with the knowledge you had at the time.
As a disabled person this really hit me. You kind of have to mourn the life you thought you would have. Things are forever changed. Don’t be so hard on yourself, give yourself time to become the new person you are. Maybe a break to get to terms with you new body before jumping back at things full swing. You have the vibe of someone who will pull through, allow yourself have have tough moments. My biggest lesson was not feeling guilty about being or feeling sick and just let myself be I’ll. I wish you all the best and I hope my comment made sense to anyone reading. You are never alone.
i had to take a LOA because of my illness for a year, then i went back and am now on another one. stress is KILLER please be careful, you aren't ruining anything those are intrusive thoughts. setting yourself up for success IS taking care of yourself. i am always silently rooting for you whenever i see your videos because i identify with them so much. im so happy that your school is helping you manage your stress about everything, its so important to have a solid support system. also i am so so so so sorry about your dog, your ex sounds like they are callous and inconsiderate and i feel for you. cheering for you!!
Oh Love. I haven't finished your video yet but I just want to offer you a hug. Is it possible to get an advocate to help with your meetings and paperwork? In the long run taking care of yourself and your health will support your goals. You will course correct no matter what happens. You've had a life altering experience and it may take some time to find your new normal. Sending you so much love ❤️
Pediatric resident here. Dont worry, I also took a break when I felt I needed it. Your health comes First. You have so much time and life left to live, take care of yourself and remember that as long as you are well, you can accomplish anything.❤
i wish someone had told me in med school i could rest and put school on hold if i needed it, resting now will allow you to do better in school or whatever endeavor you choose to do after
im so so so sorry :(( it will ALL work out. you are so strong and inspiring, and you WILL bounce back. you did it before and you'll do it again. it will all work out, and i really really hope u will get approved for ur LOA. please, be easy on urself and acknowledge how much you've been through.
i havent finished the video yet, and im watching it right now and i just feel you so much. you have done so much and you have the capability to still achieve all ur goals. if it takes a LOA or time off you can STILL achieve everything you aimed to
It must take so much bravery to be so real in front of people. I really applaud you for being this honest, I would be terrified to record that, nevermind even considering uploading it. Thank you for showing people the reality and making us feel that it's okay to cry. This channel is such a beautiful part of UA-cam and it feels separate from the void that is the rest of the internet. I really have so much faith in you and I think that everything will turn out, you'll figure it out.
Sending you so much love right now. I remember this feeling of exhaustion and overwhelm so well. If it is any consolation, you will look back one day and say to yourself…”look at me…I got through all that and I’m so much stronger”. Whatever decision you make will be the right one, because you made the right decision for you in this moment at this time. Whilst losing a year of med school might feel like the end of the world to you now (as well as having a financial impact), with time it will seem like a drop in the ocean! In my opinion, down the line, prioritising your health will not be something you regret. Healing vibes to you :)
I dropped out of college due to health issues years ago. I say do what's best for you. College will still be there if you decide to take a break. Also realistically think about if physically you think that will still be an option in your future that was one aspect that helped me to decide. I had half my thyroid removed & waiting on results to see if it's cancer. Mine was 10cm touching my aortic valve & moved my trachea out of place. Unfortunately left only with a whisper & a bad allergic reaction from the tape. So watching your videos through this has been helpful during this wild journey.
Feel your feelings. You have been through so much, everyone has moments where they feel overwhelmed by life and it is so VALID. It's always helpful to remind yourself of how far you've come and that everything will work out. One by one, things will work out and you will be in such a better place a month from now. You can do it
Hey, I had a similar situation in Law school but instead of dealing with cancer, it was a financial burden that drained me and made me feel like this. My biological father was supposed to pay for my accommodation and he disappeared. I had no loan options and struggled to find jobs. Ended up having to work at three places simultaneously while studying (80 hours work weeks sometimes). I was burnt out and I kept on going instead of taking a year out because I was so afraid of the financial implications and I didn’t know if I would be able to come back. Ultimately, grinding through and not listening to my body when I burnt out was the wrong choice. It lead to panic attacks and other issues I am still dealing with 8 years on. If I could say one thing to my younger self, it would be, it’s okay to take a step back. Money will come. Everything would be okay, it would not make you a failure if you can’t do it all at the same time. Taking time out is okay. Listening to your body is important. That’s my take anyway, hope this helps. Stay strong! ♥️
Hi Sally 🥺🤍 I’m really sorry that you’re going through this. I just wanted to say that honor your body, and take the time you need to rest when you need to. Every single feeling you’ve explained is valid, and thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I’m really glad that your school is being supportive. Give yourself grace, you’ve got this! I wish you all the best in your recovery journey 🤍 you’re in my thoughts 🥺🤍
I am so sorry :( this must be so overwhelming and I can see it portrayed in the expressions in your eyes. Its a specific kind of overwhelm... one that can lead to complete burn out and collapse of the senses. You gotta look out for #1 though and that's you. It is so reasonable to not be at 100% capacity right after going through something as difficult as thyroid cancer. If you need to take time away for a while to get yourself at the base line you want to be at... you gotta do that. You can take a break, and you can go back when you find your base line again. You got this.
I just wanna say, the difference in affect and attitude from the beginning to end of the video is both amazing and incredibly helpful for others to see. I’m in the field of clinical psychology (fellow grad student!) and this is what we LOVE about our job! I commend you and your support system for getting you to that place. It’s extremely hard to do but these things are often best dealt with day by day. Grad school, as it is, is incredibly expensive, and these decisions you are forced to make impact so many factors of your life and, although they shouldn’t be, finances often come up as priority #1. Your health and well-being should be the top priority and this is often not feasible with the way the current grad infrastructure is built. You are not setting yourself back, you are not ruining your life, you are taking it day by day, and currently the way things are for you day by day is unbearable. That, in and of itself, should be enough reason for graduate programs and financial aid departments to step in and be there for their students. I’m incredibly impressed by the way you have handled this situation and continue to do so, it is so inspiring and refreshing to see. Best of luck with today, tomorrow, and the rest, you got this 😊
2:21 Was relieved to hear you say that, I thought all these things I was feeling were me going insane, but I think it’s the feeling of being an out of state student 😂. School is stressful and expensive these days. On top of that I can’t imagine doing it all with what you’re going through. Sending my best wishes towards your health and success 🙏🏻!
Im about to take a LOA for chronic Lyme and me-cfs from grad school at MIT and it’s been the saddest and hardest thing ever had to do. Not performing at my baseline is so frustrating and I totally feel you on how draining the meetings with school admin can be. I think what is most frustrating is that it’s not like I can work anywhere else because I’m so sick, so it’s just a strange position where I’m stuck not performing (and bringing in an income) at all. Thank you so much for sharing, this has really helped me with everything and how I process my own journey. Thank you. Hope you’re feeling better.
it's okay Sally. it's OKAY, try to take it one day at a time. at the end of the day, it's about prioritizing your health. you went through all that surgery and recovery so you're definitely strong. it must be overwhelming so you don't have to make all the decisions right now. talk to a few friends, your parents, and maybe some of your teachers/guidance counselors. taking a break doesn't have to be a bad thing. sleep over it, perspective is good. sending you lots of love and support🤍 it's brave being scared and still doing it anyway ♥ i'm so proud of you.
As a grad student who is dealing with chronic health issues, I relate with so many of the things you said! It can be so so hard to realize that the things you were able to do before you can no longer do in your overwhelmed/sick state and that is totally okay. Take the LOA if you need it. There is no need to rush through your program, especially at the cost of your physical and/or mental health. I’m hoping that good health is on the horizon for you!
I can only imagine the set of challenges that you are going through. It broke my heart to see you cry. I think you are the type of person to suffer internally before you open up and let others know. I’m so happy that your school has your back and that you felt comfortable enough to approach a facility member. Remember there isn’t a time line for any healing process. You’ll make it through this nonetheless. I like how you are using your platform on UA-cam as a diary. I hope you know there’s people in this comment section who care about you and we see more than a medical student, we see a bright, loving and charismatic person, whose rarity captivates people. We tend to compliment people with attributes that benefit others. Take the time to write stuff that you’ve done well each day. Leave the judgement to others show yourself grace and compassion. There’s a lot of trauma associated with health emergencies, especially when life won’t pause for you in particular. You are not a victim, you are a victor. Sally just so happens to be the one crying for help today, ik unfiltered vids like this will be the hero of someone going through something similar in the future. Thank you for sharing this and get well on your own time.
Sally, I am trying to find the best words but I am at a loss. I know that you are in a very difficult situation, but through watching your videos I have come to know you are a very strong woman! I know that whatever choice you make will be in your best interest. As cliche as it sounds there is light at the end of the tunnel! Your health trumps everything. Keeping you in my prayers ❤!
Oh Sally I feel for you. As someone who also has a huge amount of expectations and puts huge pressure on myself I can tell you, you need to be way, way easier on yourself. I’d suggest you ask your professors directly for an incomplete and take your time to finish your classes. After that I’d suggest you take the summer and see how you feel. Then decide if you want to try again in the fall or take a semester or 2 off. I’m pulling for you! ❤❤❤❤
Although I am far from understanding your unique and deeply personal situation, I do understand the sudden feeling like you’ve lost control of your strength or feel like you’re no longer feeling as great as you did when you were first suddenly faced with this. For me, it’s kind of like the sheer effect of something sudden or traumatic doesn’t sink in until some time later. Just know that everyone and everything in your life should be ENTIRELY supportive and accommodating to you. You will still be able to finish school and be an amazing professional even if you take a small break to catch your breath. If anything, taking some time to stop and breathe is key to maintaining your health and mental strength. You are amazing and providing so much to others in similar situations through these videos
I'm sorry that you are going through this, Sally. But this is what life is like. It is scary the first time but after the n-th time, you will know what's up. The best thing you can do now, is manage things one day at a time.
Hey Sally! I am genuinely sorry to hear that you are going through the hardship. I want you to know that LOA can be really good option too you never know what other amazing year is prepared for you during LOA. Sometimes , keeping it simple really helps for decision making. I will pray for you! You are strong, beautiful, and brave woman. Thanks for sharing this with us :)
Man :/ I really hope for nothing but the best for you moving forward. I haven’t seen much of your content, but it seems like you’re pretty badass and capable of taking care of almost anything thrown your way so I’m hoping the same goes for kicking cancers ass. I’m sorry for the additional stress you must be going through on top of school and a break up. I recently got dumped by my ex of 6 and a half years so I know how tough that can be alone. The fact that you’re juggling all this stuff and still making it work as best as you can says a lot about you and how strong you are. I hope it gets easier for you soon, and I’ll be keeping an eye on your page to see the updates as they come through! Thank you for being you!!
I developed epilepsy suddenly and lost my ability to drive and (therefore go to work and school and afford rent) and so I understand what you are going through. Something i learned since stress is a big seizure trigger is that any change, even for the best, will register as a trauma/stress to your body and its normal to take weeks to months to adapt to a new baseline. Be gentle with yourself and know that most important thing is you, and if you have to take some time off you can use that time to learn more about what you feel passionate about outside of medicine or just how you prefer to relax
I felt so connected to the video honestly. I'm going through a tough period of my life as well right now but the positivity you bring to the table makes me want to be more positive towards my own life and honestly you are an amazing person. I also have a thyroid problem, I have been dealing w it for months and I can understand the feeling tired all the time and not having the energy to focus on school which is what I feel as well as a student nurse so just know you're not alone on that. We could use more people like you in the world w a more positive outlook on everything, and honestly I'm going to try and be more like you in that way. Thank you for sharing this tough period of your life, you are honestly a v strong person and you have helped a lot of people by putting yourself and your story out there 🫂
Man, I can absolutely relate to this video. I was also in an educational situation once (in January of 2012, studying to be a teacher, not a doctor), and it wasn't necessarily that the demands on my time were greater than they had been before, it was that my capability to meet them was less. And it was very disorienting - I wasn't used to feeling that way. All I wanted to do was sleep. Moreover, I was incredibly frustrated by the whole thing, because it was literally my last academic semester...I had done most of the work, and was close to graduating. And then my brain betrayed me. The situations may be different, the causes are different, the health issues complicating matters are absolutely different (my main issue is debilitating chronic pain from a serious injury I suffered as a teenager), but *depression is depression when viewed from the brain's perspective.* I think a lot of people imagine depression to be just...things not working out in your life, so you're sad and anxious and exhausted. But that's putting the cart before the horse (inverting cause and effect). Things aren't working out BECAUSE you feel sad and anxious and exhausted. Situational factors can exacerbate depression, but it is a biochemical phenomenon at its root, and a poorly-understood one at that (I was on anti-depressants for years and they never made a lick of difference to how I felt...which is pretty common, as I understand it). What I learned during that time period was simple - give yourself a break. It's extremely difficult to be a high-achieving individual who suddenly can't perform at a level that you're used to, and trust me, a lot of people are going to minimize what you're going through, and try to "solve" your problem with a pep talk, or whatever, so you almost have to over-compensate in the other direction. Celebrate the small victories, even if they would've been insignificant to you a few years ago. Talk to someone who won't judge you (be that a teacher or therapist or friend...just make sure you have someone like that). Most people have some sort of support network, and now's the time to lean on yours. And seek medical help. Because even though both pharmaceutical and non-pharmaceutical methods of dealing with depression failed for me, you could be luckier than I am - things like cognitive behavioral therapy do work for some people, as do SSRIs or other medications. But the most important thing to do is to give yourself a break. I did, and gradually I got better on my own. I had a really crappy experience with the university I was studying with at the time (they were not accommodating at all of my mental health issues), so I ditched that degree entirely, and went off in an entirely different direction, career-wise. I started an x-ray technology program back in the fall of 2020 (I started taking the few prerequisites I lacked in 2017, but there was a long waiting list to get in), and just finished my last clinical placement last month (so I'm officially graduated, although the ceremony isn't until May). Yeah, it took a long time to really get back on my feet, but I never gave up (and there were plenty of times, even after I started this new educational pathway, where I could have - for example, *_I failed a clinical practicum, which set me back a whole YEAR_* ...but I pushed through). As Emily Dickenson said, "Hope is the thing with feathers." It somehow keeps you going even when you feel absolutely defeated. And if I had been judging myself and feeling embarrassed about my state of mind and lack of accomplishments in the years that I had these issues, I would never have been able to get to where I am today...fear of more failure would've prevented me from even trying. So again - give yourself a break. Accept that your fate is not (and never has been) entirely within your control, and do the things that are most likely to benefit you now, trusting that once you escape this particular mental prison, you will be able to find a path forward again.
Sending all the hugs 🩷💞🩵 That is a lot to process and a lot to be upset about. You're grieving the life you thought you'd have in so many ways, even one last straw that broke the camel's back maybe with the life you thought you'd have with your dog abruptly ending. Life for you right now is very unfair and hard.
Being sick, far from home, and dealing with logistics you don't have the energy for is awful. I am so sorry. This is the time to reach out to your support system. Don't be afraid to let your friends and family be there for you in any way they can. Be kind to yourself. Try and make yourself laugh at least once a day. I am praying for you. I hope you get the time to recover that you need ❤
I felt the same way when I was doing school and chemotherapy. It is absolutely EXHAUSTING to always have your energy up and juggle two things and the time. I remember crying and feeling frustrated how my body could not keep up with everything I wanted to accomplish. The best thing I had to do is to take time for myself, heal and come back to do work. I know its hard, and it is challenging, but giving yourself some grace and time to recover will help you out so much! In 10 years when you are a doctor, you are going to realize how this leave of absence helped you out! Sending so much love and support to you Sally!
Hey Sally, dont sweat needing time, or a break. Everybody needs it sometimes even without the added stress of surgery and cancer diagnosis. Go easy on yourself - its okay to slow down. Hope everything chills out for you soon
Oh my goodness baby girl, you are being put through so much right now. The only thing I can say is that you've done hard stuff, you've been doing hard stuff and here you are! I wanted to say take small steps and try to separate eveything into different levels so that it doesn't seem overwhelming and YES ask for help where you need it. I am so glad you were able to get help from your school and your headspace in a better place. And you have time, and you have options and you have us! I hope you come to a decision that is right for you and ultimately brings you peace and clarity. ❤❤❤❤❤
Love, you're so young, take the time you need. There's nothing wrong with taking a leave of absence even if you think you may be able to push through. That time can still be productive if you want it to be, but it can be entirely at your pace. I took a year leave for mental health/abuse reasons and even though the financial aid was a bit of a mess because I was halfway through the semester, I don't regret it at all. It meant fitting more into my last couple years and some summer courses but looking back, I'm really glad I took that time to let myself slow down. I'm so sorry about your dog, that must be so heartbreaking especially on top of everything else. I'm glad your school is being supportive of you though and that you have people around you to lean on. I hope things get easier for you soon and I hope you can begin healing more. Wishing you the absolute best!
Oh goodness, I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been dealing with lately!! I’m so glad that things turned around in a positive way so quickly and that your options are all looking more hopeful. In the grand scheme of things, 1 year is a very short time to press pause on your med school journey, if that’s what you choose to do. The time will go by so fast, and it’s honestly negligible regarding when you would be out in independent practice. Please take care of yourself!!! 💕
I came back to your channel after watching your first video about this a while ago because your poise, bravery, and kindness in this situation stuck with me. It will be okay. You will be okay.
Sally, I know we haven’t been close but if you ever want to vent or sit and have tea or do anything to relax amidst all of this craziness I’m here if you need a friend. You are not alone. I’ve made connections at our school and had venting sessions that showed me we are all struggling through med school with unique challenges and doing our best through it all. I’m incredibly proud of you and in awe of how you’ve preserved through everything but I cannot understate how important your physical and mental health is and prioritizing it is never a bad thing
Thank you for showing something so real, personal and raw. I feel less alone. As a thyroid cancer patient, I feel like I am expected to be positive and happy because the prognosis is good... but it is OK to be frustrated and sad when you just don't have the same level of energy that you had before. Losing our thyroid is a massive deal and our quality of life can be impacted just as much as other cancer patients. Be kind to yourself and remember that life is a journey, not a race. Do what you need to do now to get better and you will be back to doing everything else when you can. ❤ I am so sorry about your dog though, that is absolutely devastating and mean of him to do that. 😢
Thank you so much for sharing! I have been going through a similar situation and it has caused such a toll on my mental health. I am going to try and push through as this is my last semester, but the 12 credits with my internship (which is much less work than I am used to) takes everything out of me. It is nice to hear that I am not alone, but I sincerely hope you are able to take the time you need to heal and accomplish your dreams!
Sweet girl. In my opinion, it's not going to get better by continuing to push through it while you're already so exhausted. You'll get back to where you want to be, but I think you deserve some time to rest, heal, and just do some things that make you happy. At the end of the day, YOU are what is most important. Finances, school, everything else can sort itself out later. Lean on your support system as much as you can. You're going through so, so much and you deserve to give yourself grace. I'm also so so sorry about your dog. Wishing you the very best. You are an absolute fucking warrior.
I understand how overwhelmed and terrified you are feeling right now. When your energy is depleted, you are simply not able to make decisions properly. I've struggled with the same fear after a severe neck injury that has crippled my mental health. Try to carve out as much healing time and space as you can. It won't feel comfortable and it will not stop being scary. But when you start to recover, it will be easier to see a way forward than it is now. I know that you aren't yet able to see past it, but what you are going through is shaping you into a magnificent, empathetic healer. Sending all the love and positive vibes!
I'm so sorry you're going thru this, I've had similar situations as an undergrad and never felt like my schools were helping me so I super happy for you that your school is being so supportive and helpful, you are a strong person and I'm so proud of you for being so honest.
Dealing with red tape can be exasperating and exhausting let alone your studies and your body healing and adjusting. I am glad the school set up a team to try help you figure things out.
this hit me like a truck i am so sorry you have to deal with this but genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for sharing this you put into words what I have been feeling for the past three years and only recently have started to recover from. i had a myriad of medical issues, many of which are still unknown, but as a human, and as a patient, i am very grateful to know that there are doctors who can sympathize with these fears and experiences. thank you, and i hope you know you will be a wonderful doctor one day i wish you the very best of luck thank you for sharing this with all of us. please know that you have the right to take your time with this recovery. it will be okay one day thank you
I'm so glad you aren't alone going through this! Wishing you the best!! 💖💖💖 Keep some protein bars or snack packs in the house so you have something more convenient to eat for days like these. Staying hydrated is so important too!! You're stronger than you know and you're gonna look back on these times thinking "WOW I did that!! " You got this queen! 🙏👑
Thank you for sharing such difficult parts of your life online. And I agree with the last part, don't go through this alone ❤ Sending you my biggest wishes, this will pass
That urgent feeling that tells us that we shouldn't take the time we need is helpful sometimes when burning the midnight oil, however, it's also smoke and mirrors in the end because the reality is that there is likely no harm if you pace yourself, you'll net out with the same result if school waits a little and you will do it without burning yourself out so much that you will harm your sense of well-being and stability. I wish you well, be safe.
Praying for you sweetheart! Wish I could hug you rn!!! Listen, it's going to ALL be okay. Please give yourself grace. ☺️🙏🏽 You aren't going to ruin your life dear. I'm proud of you for taking care of you. It's okay to take a step back. I am a Doctor of Pharmacy that graduated in 2023 when I was on track to graduate in 2022 but I took a little less than a year break for the sake of my mental health. I am now a Doctor of Pharmacy resident and have a job lined up for the surgical ICU. I've had so many breakdowns in school and residency too. I just want to remind you that these hiccups don't define you. 💛🥰 Also, you are so so beautiful INSIDE and out. THANK YOU for being willing to be so vulnerable and to take us on this journey with you!
I'm going through something similar, and I'm sorry because it sucks. I think just try to remember the bigger picture. This is just a blip that when compared to the rest of your life, is just a chapter. So, it doesn't matter how fast you go as long as you get it done, in time. And the best way for you to do that is to be kind to what your current self needs which is rest. I really support you taking some time off and going back to it when you have the energy to give your best without scarifying your health or peace. (And I think it's absolutely beautiful that even through this difficult time, you said you'll come back with what you found out to help others. I really hope you give yourself the kindness you deserve, and I'm glad to hear that the people around you are giving you that. ❣)
Hey, found your channel by chance. Just wanted to say that I had to take a year out from med school for medical reasons and it probably saved my life. I am still chronically ill and being back has been tiring but it was so worth it to take some time to let my mind and my body recover and find a new baseline of functioning.
I’m not sure but from what she said it sounds like it wasn’t a private or public loan but likely covered by the school itself, and since she won’t be enrolled this semester it has to be returned bc that won’t check out otherwise
Oh Sally, my love, this is so so normal. You are in an abnormal situation so it is completely understandable that you’re not able to work at the capacity as before surgery. As a hypothyroidism girly I feel the exhaustion so so much!!! Before I was diagnosed I had to take a leave of absence from uni. There were no other options, my uni couldn’t do anything for me, and I remember crying like you just did for so many nights. Crying myself to sleep because I was going through it alone and had to make all of these decisions I didn’t feel qualified to make. When I got diagnosed and started meds, it still took 6+ months to get back to ‘normal’. And now a year after being diagnosed, I’m still not back to what my baseline was a couple years ago. Whatever happens in the future, know that you are capable, you are loved, you are resourceful. Keep communicating with the people around you and keep asking for help whenever you need it. You will get through this. Yes this is a hard road. But you are made of strong stuff.
You should be so proud of yourself. To reach out for help is hard, and to share it on the internet is even harder. The amount of people you are helping (including me) with your videos and your strength throughout this whole process is beautiful. You are always amazing, even when your best doesn’t feel like it’s your best. Keep being you Sally! ❤️
It’s okay to take time off. You are going through so much. I’m currently taking a mental health withdrawal from video game college right now because I got COVID back in November and my mental health took a huge dive. I almost died last month and have still been out. I am starting to feel better and hope to get back in soon. I understand how you feel, but it will get better!
I know struggles really aren't meant to be compared, but I remember the stressful meetings with financial aid and the moving parts of taking time off, how hard those things were on me, and I wasn't even going through half of what you are right now. Then to see you bounce back the very same day in the second half of the video with smiles and laughs, that is really inspiring stuff. I especially appreciate your immense self-awareness in times when basic human maintenance like food and rest are already huge tasks.
This is so very relatable for me. I have two medical emergencies with hospitalizations and a chronic diagnosis during my first two years. My school luckily had a way for me to slow down and split my second year up into two years. But I have cried this exact cry (minus the dog stealing omg I’m so sorry!). I’m only one year ahead of you so I’m still in it. It’s a fight every day. You’re not alone. ♥️
Your school sounds amazing though! I was quite literally bullied by a professor over email while I was immobile in a hospital bed lol so seriously shout out to your program! That’s amazing!
Girl im going through the same thing. Just diagnosis with some immunology isssues and trying to figure whether or not to take an LOA from business school and masters in international affairs. Have to start new medication and its hard. Its all hard
It’s really good to be so mindful about the rest of your life. But, it’s the NOW, and the you in the now really needs rest! Not only physically, but emotionally from the overwhelming last months. Support from family. Please let yourself rest from this period, otherwise it will just kinda hang around in your body I had mono and I didn’t know how to cope with the tiredness I still had from it so I just battled through, but after a few years I had a burnout. It’s not that that’s a given for you but girlie, I just want to hug you and say you have the time, you really need to prioritise self-care♥️ if you heal now, take time to create your new baseline, to reflect, it will pay off so much in the future! ♥️ And dang your ex is cold hearted
I am so happy to hear you found help! ❤ It sounds to me you were feeling trapped in a loop where you know you have to perform but at the same time you are feeling tired/sick and need a break but feel like you can't due to the financial side of things, which adds up to the general stress. Recently, I have gone through a similiar trap, less intense than yours though; really, take care of yourself, you went through the surgery and probably emotional rollercoaster. I feel like you have mentioned all the important good things that I've heard from friends, doctors, therapist. Hopefully you are feeling better and more energetic now. The extra fatigue can be psychosomatic due to the stress and desperation of feeling trapped - your body and mind are connected. I went on a stress leave and the moment I was relieved the fatigue, low energy and dizziness passed away. It's great that your school helped you too to figure out your situation and take a break. It's also common people feel alone at these times, and that they are hard on themselves, feeling like a failure if they can't perform at their usual level, or feeling like they are letting down someone, so sharing your feelings, talking about your situation and reaching out for help is necessary. Things like these may happen in life. Your life will never be ruined, even if you had to or decided to leave the medical school. Some of us tend to fall into the trap of perfectionism. Don't be so hard on yourself, we are all just human. You don't always have to perform, maximize your potential, you don't have to do or be anything to be loved and to love yourself, and for your life to be beautiful, perfectly imperfect. Be kind and compassionate to yourself. You are a beautiful person, I wish you only the best!
Aw, girl.. sending hugs. Haven’t watched yet, this is just based on the thumbnail and my own experience being vastly overwhelmed in school. Breathe and prioritize your health! You will figure out what that looks like. It might be lower grades or full on taking a step back- whatever it is, you will find it. Your health and healing are what matter most. School will be there when you’re well. Sending love ❤️
I am sending so many hugs, I can't imagine what you are going through, let alone the courage it must take to share your experiences online for the benefit of others. You come across as such a kind and empathetic person, and so I hope that kindness will come back to you in the support and help that you may need. All the best, T.
Hey there, I took a LOA from my Graduate program in 2023. I felt like you did a week into Spring 2023 and I made the choice to not continue the semester. I didn't have the additional burden of loan complications, but it felt like everything was collapsing around me and I knew I wouldn't be able to catch up without putting forth energy that I didn't have. I ended up taking 2 semesters off to learn how to function at my new normal. It hurt so much to take time off and be part of a different Cohort. But taking the time off meant I could heal and actually give my attention to my school work. I still feel like I'm behind, but now I'm moving forward again and I will eventually get to where I want. The most important rule for me has been to meet myself wherever I am each day. Your school should be able to accommodate your new energy levels by offering you extended deadlines at the very least. But it is also OK to take time off. The version of you that pushes through will not be as happy as the one who takes off for a time. That was the realization I had that made me decide to take that time.
As someone 5 years on from dropping out for a year, from an "elite" university (uni of oxford) due to mental health with no idea if I would be able to even complete my degree ( I did, I went back, got a 1st) - let me tell you how much it was the right decision to give myself that space. 1 extra year, so little impact in the long term. I'm loving life, still experience challenges, but meeting them stronger and stronger - and enjoying my work and where I am living now; in a much better place! Easier said than done in the moment - but ultimately the baseline most important thing is how you *feel*. Your health, wellbeing and happiness. Why not prioritise your wellbeing as best you can, if that option is there? Everything else, success, future options, etc - all that will follow more easily from a place of care
You are awesome, your health and happiness are the most important thing, you have been through a lot and you expect so much from yourself. Pace yourself, the world will still be waiting for you when you are ready to get back in the saddle, concentrate on your recovery.😊
Although I have never been sick, I felt the same way after a certain period during my law school. I was convinced that this is what I want to do, I didn't give up and finished, although it was very difficult for me - mentally and physically. Now, 13 years later, I don't practice law. I have another profession that I'm happy with and how far I've come in it. What I want to say is, no one can guarantee you what awaits you in 10-15 years. But you can't pour from an empty cup.
Hun, please take a break from medical school. It is totally okay, many people take it, I took it, I just finished couple of classes during the student-vacation year, to have it easier next year. And I came back, and it was just okay. LOA is a normal thing, you have right to fully rest, i think your nervous system is overwhelmed by all what happened and if you will take a break now - you will be stronger later. If you will just push through you will get into trouble with your body and mind, and it will affect your mental abilities. Take a LOA and if you like - chose some classes to attend to - to be somehow connected with that med school, or just read some books from your program while being on LOA. It is easier than you think, don't make it too complicated. I was studying during my 30s as well and I realized how hard I was on myself while in my 20s and it costs me mental health problems till today. Be gentle and kind to yourself and you will accomplish much more with that attitude, and your body/mind would be grateful. Esp. if you would like to be a doctor, being kind to yourself will probably make your practice more humane and deep. Everything will be okay!
Sally .... I understand you are overwhelmed,Scared and stuck ..don't know what to do ...but let's just see how far you've come .. just slowing down is okay ..it's okayyyyy to just be on your own pace of time... I hope you feel better sweety 🤍
I always love watching your videos Sally, smiles or tears!!!!! This is a process and you are so incredibly brave and strong for going through this journey of yours. Your videos always show how your lighthearted spirit and your sunshine-y personality help you get through these tough moments and encourage others to do the same! And of course... sister calls help immensely!!! Stay well
Sally, I'm genuinely so sorry for what you're going through, and wanted to express my gratitude to you for sharing the hard stuff. I hope that all of your cancer treatments go well, and wish you success with your cancer and balancing your academic journey. You got this!
When you said that you feel so young right now, I fully understand what you’re going through. I’ve always been lucky enough to be very successful and able to get things done and move through life, but since September my partner and I have had 5 people pass away that were important to us. I don’t think I’ve ever felt as young as when we get those calls. It’s easy to be an adult get it all done and feel great when everything is okay. So please, allow yourself to be young when the going gets tough. If you need an LOA, you need an LOA. There’s always the chance you’ll be too tired to heal, or you’ll be too tired to pass your classes and you’ll be worse off in the long term than if you step back now. It’s something that’s really hard to learn, and I hope the best for you.
Hey, I'm really sorry to hear you're going through this! I'm also in college and had to deal with suddenly having a chronic illness and having WAY less energy and different capabilities! I believe in you and your capability to move forward thru this situation, since I've been through it and I am way less strong than you. I definitely think it's really important to start bringing snacks and drinks with you places, especially on busy days because I've noticed that when I forget or am too busy to eat, I'm way less able to think and process things. I hope things continue to get more manageable for you, and I'm glad that you posted this, cause it makes me feel less alone
Sally, you're recovering from surgery and cancer. It's okay to slow down. It's not fair to expect your peek performance. And maybe (much later on) you can use this experience to connect with your patients. You got this! ♥
mourning the lost of your normal baseline is so tough. it took me so long to realize that being disabled means i do not have the energy for the things i love. i really appreciate you sharing the hard parts of this process. this is just as important as the videos of you smiling through all of it. thank you.
This was beautifully said. Many blessings to you.
….I relate……and I don’t know if you ever get used to that feeling of disappointment…you know you can’t do it…but you still crave it….every time I tell myself it is not possible anymore…a shed a silent tear…and I go on with what is possible…illness almost decides everything for me…
Sending you so so much love 🩷🩷💕💕💕
The exact same thing for me. The wall of being disable is so depressing to me at this point and I understood the implications too late
Sweet Sally. Adrenaline has probably carried you through this far to get you through surgery and recovery with your spirits high. The crash can be so overwhelming. You’re going to be an amazing doctor.
Most doctors aren't that good at their jobs so I wouldn't bet on it to be fair.
@@nicholasfry4253Yeah, they get stuff wrong all the time, and I'd still take a bad doctor from today over pretty much any other medical professional in almost all of human history, lol
I'm so sorry about your ex not letting you have time with your dog. It's not okay and I can only imagine how hard it must be emotionally on top of still being recovering from surgery and cancer and being in med school. I hope you two can come to a better agreement in the close future.
Echoing this comment - I don’t see anyone else highlighting this, but I know if that happened to me with my dog it would *BREAK* me, even without all the additional stress she is going through. So awful and my heart hurts for her. It’s really unethical for her partner to have done that and I really hope a solution can be found.
Hi Sally❤ I had half of my thyroid removed because of a tumor and I can really relate to the struggle of not feeling like yourself, and not being able to do all the things you want to do. For me it’s been two years of trying to get my thyroid levels back to normal, it’s frustrating as hell. Just try to take it a day at a time, it’s not easy but we got this💕 Thanks for sharing your experience and your feelings, you’re helping so many people☺️
As someone with a chronic illness I recommend looking into spoon theory if you haven’t heard of it before. It’s a really hard/shitty to have to adjust to less energy. But it is do able, it is adaptable, you will get it down and do better, it will get better. You have to relearn how to live life prioritizing what needs to be done and what can wait to save energy. But as you adapt it will get better, and you’ll be an even better doctor for having lived this ❤, you are doing great, take each day as it comes ❤
This! Christine Miserandino. You'll have good days and bad days post op - not to mention you're trying to regulate your hormones along with the post op energy deficit.
Hang in there, Sally. Anyone who has been through surgery knows what you're going through. Sending hugs from Florida.
Fellow chronically ill medical student here. We do not pay enough mind to how we reenter society after cancer or a major life change. You’re doing your best, and you’re dealing with so much uncertainty. I’m so happy your school/family/care team are supportive. Hang in there, Sally!
Hi Sally - I know many people who have taken a leave of absence from medical school for one reason or another, including cancer related reasons. I am in medical school as well. Taking a leave of absence to make sure that you heal properly can actually be a huge investment in your career. The reason for that is that you can leave, do research part-time or even less often (or not at all), and take time to just slowly maintain medical knowledge topics through things like sketchy, osmosis, and beyond, etc at a very gentle pace. On a leave of absence, you can do everything that you do in medical school, but at the pace that works for you. The people I know who go on leave and come back are often better students because they took care of whatever they needed to take care of in the first place. the people who come back are ready and more prepared. Although I personally cannot say that I have experienced exactly what you're going through, I can say what I said through the words and experiences of my friends who have or have gone through similar situations. Love and prayers to you! You are so strong, and all the doctors I know who have been through something like yourself are the best doctors because of it! This extremely difficult time will prepare you to be an incredible healer for the rest of your life - I just want to affirm that for you ❤❤❤❤
And by the way, if you are on federal loans, there are exceptions to the payback policy for cancer related diagnosis, so I would ask your financial aid office about options for halting student loans for however long you need since there may be good exceptions that go beyond taking a leave of absence so that you don't have to worry about the costs. I cannot recall the details, but when I read the master promissory note and loan policy, I remember it mentioning something about that. Something to ask financial aid for sure.
^ Yes couldn't agree with this comment more! Hi Sally, I'm a third-year med student. I'm so sorry that your medical school journey is not what you expected. However, I believe that people are faced with challenges only to the degree that they are capable of overcoming. You are already doing the right things by acknowledging and verbalizing your feelings and asking others for help. These times will pass and you will come out of it stronger than ever before. Taking a leave of absence may sound scary and may seem like a loss short term, but may be a worthwhile investment in the long term. Allowing your body plenty of time to recover physically and emotionally is so critical especially as your metabolic state is striving to achieve a new homeostasis. As you already know, medical school puts a person in a constant state of stress and alert mode, likely raising levels of various hormones like cortisol and catecholamines. My intention is not to scare you but to let you know that you have more than sufficient reason to take a LOA and should not feel bad about doing so. One year gap in medical school will not impact the rest of your life. In fact, there is a section on the ERAS residency app about adversity and you can write about this experience, and will only make you a stronger applicant. Like this comment says, if you do take a LOA and your body and mind recover a few weeks or months into your LOA, you can use that time to get ahead in research, volunteer, and work to build your CV for residency. You can even study ahead for step 1- just doing sketchy micro, pharm (and the respective anki cards on the anking deck) and pathoma (and its anking cards) will be super helpful and allow you to make a smooth transition back to school next year. Whatever decision you make, you are so strong and everything will be fine! There is no right or wrong decision, just listen to your gut feelings. Health always comes before school/finances!
I battled Graves Disease and had radioactive iodine at age 23. Be gentle with yourself and do what’s best for you. People pick up their lives after whatever they have to face. And not to be trite but money is only money. I’ll be 70 soon, living proof. Let yourself feel grace. Put yourself first, no matter what. 💜
Speaking from the perspective of a former med student with thyroid issues - it can be unbelievably difficult to function under fatigue caused by thyroid malfunction - the fatigue, brain fog, muscle cramps... I used to be so tired I couldn't get myself a glass of water or make a meal (thus I ate once in 3 days). I couldn't remember my friends' names, let alone study things for school. And I thought my world would fall apart if I take a break, that everything I invested in myself would be a waste of time and money. I forced myself to push through (or so i thought), eventually getting myself into a mentally really poor state, causing me to eventually fail a year in med school. Looking at that from this perspective, my failing that year was the best thing that ever happened to me. I got time to heal, physically and mentally, to take some time off and focus on myself. It was incredibly difficult, but it made me a better doctor in the long run. Now I am a resident in my field of choice, and I wouldn't take it any other way. Just focus on yourself and your healing, and everything else will fall back into place, one way or another. Effort always pays off! ❤
I know this time is tough for you, recovering from thyroid cancer surgery and dealing with all the work. Please remember that your health comes first, and it's completely okay to take things at your own pace. Give yourself the time to heal, both physically and emotionally. You're strong, and I believe in your ability to overcome this challenge.Take each day step by step, and know that brighter days are ahead. You've got this!
Hi ! Physical Therapist here 👋🏻 I had to take a medical LOA between my 2nd and 3rd year of PT school which was a tremendously tough decision to make but I wound up doing it and if I hadn’t I don’t know how things would have gone otherwise. Now going on 7 years out of PT school it’s something that never crosses my mind despite how all consuming it was at the time. I know it’s a tough decision to make but I wish you clarity and strength in choosing which path is best for you at this time, no matter what that may be, and I wish you peace in knowing that whatever decision you do make was made with sound reasoning and intentions with the knowledge you had at the time.
As a disabled person this really hit me. You kind of have to mourn the life you thought you would have. Things are forever changed. Don’t be so hard on yourself, give yourself time to become the new person you are. Maybe a break to get to terms with you new body before jumping back at things full swing. You have the vibe of someone who will pull through, allow yourself have have tough moments. My biggest lesson was not feeling guilty about being or feeling sick and just let myself be I’ll. I wish you all the best and I hope my comment made sense to anyone reading. You are never alone.
Stay strong Sally. Take one day at a time. God bless you!
i had to take a LOA because of my illness for a year, then i went back and am now on another one. stress is KILLER please be careful, you aren't ruining anything those are intrusive thoughts. setting yourself up for success IS taking care of yourself. i am always silently rooting for you whenever i see your videos because i identify with them so much. im so happy that your school is helping you manage your stress about everything, its so important to have a solid support system. also i am so so so so sorry about your dog, your ex sounds like they are callous and inconsiderate and i feel for you. cheering for you!!
Oh Love. I haven't finished your video yet but I just want to offer you a hug. Is it possible to get an advocate to help with your meetings and paperwork?
In the long run taking care of yourself and your health will support your goals. You will course correct no matter what happens. You've had a life altering experience and it may take some time to find your new normal. Sending you so much love ❤️
Pediatric resident here. Dont worry, I also took a break when I felt I needed it. Your health comes First. You have so much time and life left to live, take care of yourself and remember that as long as you are well, you can accomplish anything.❤
i wish someone had told me in med school i could rest and put school on hold if i needed it, resting now will allow you to do better in school or whatever endeavor you choose to do after
im so so so sorry :(( it will ALL work out. you are so strong and inspiring, and you WILL bounce back. you did it before and you'll do it again. it will all work out, and i really really hope u will get approved for ur LOA. please, be easy on urself and acknowledge how much you've been through.
i havent finished the video yet, and im watching it right now and i just feel you so much. you have done so much and you have the capability to still achieve all ur goals. if it takes a LOA or time off you can STILL achieve everything you aimed to
It must take so much bravery to be so real in front of people. I really applaud you for being this honest, I would be terrified to record that, nevermind even considering uploading it. Thank you for showing people the reality and making us feel that it's okay to cry. This channel is such a beautiful part of UA-cam and it feels separate from the void that is the rest of the internet. I really have so much faith in you and I think that everything will turn out, you'll figure it out.
Sending you so much love right now.
I remember this feeling of exhaustion and overwhelm so well. If it is any consolation, you will look back one day and say to yourself…”look at me…I got through all that and I’m so much stronger”.
Whatever decision you make will be the right one, because you made the right decision for you in this moment at this time. Whilst losing a year of med school might feel like the end of the world to you now (as well as having a financial impact), with time it will seem like a drop in the ocean! In my opinion, down the line, prioritising your health will not be something you regret.
Healing vibes to you :)
I dropped out of college due to health issues years ago. I say do what's best for you. College will still be there if you decide to take a break. Also realistically think about if physically you think that will still be an option in your future that was one aspect that helped me to decide. I had half my thyroid removed & waiting on results to see if it's cancer. Mine was 10cm touching my aortic valve & moved my trachea out of place. Unfortunately left only with a whisper & a bad allergic reaction from the tape. So watching your videos through this has been helpful during this wild journey.
You are not alone. What you’re going through is very hard. Listen to everyone’s advice, but then do what feels right in your heart. ❤
Feel your feelings. You have been through so much, everyone has moments where they feel overwhelmed by life and it is so VALID. It's always helpful to remind yourself of how far you've come and that everything will work out. One by one, things will work out and you will be in such a better place a month from now. You can do it
Hey, I had a similar situation in Law school but instead of dealing with cancer, it was a financial burden that drained me and made me feel like this. My biological father was supposed to pay for my accommodation and he disappeared. I had no loan options and struggled to find jobs. Ended up having to work at three places simultaneously while studying (80 hours work weeks sometimes). I was burnt out and I kept on going instead of taking a year out because I was so afraid of the financial implications and I didn’t know if I would be able to come back. Ultimately, grinding through and not listening to my body when I burnt out was the wrong choice. It lead to panic attacks and other issues I am still dealing with 8 years on. If I could say one thing to my younger self, it would be, it’s okay to take a step back. Money will come. Everything would be okay, it would not make you a failure if you can’t do it all at the same time. Taking time out is okay. Listening to your body is important. That’s my take anyway, hope this helps. Stay strong! ♥️
Hi Sally 🥺🤍 I’m really sorry that you’re going through this.
I just wanted to say that honor your body, and take the time you need to rest when you need to. Every single feeling you’ve explained is valid, and thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I’m really glad that your school is being supportive. Give yourself grace, you’ve got this!
I wish you all the best in your recovery journey 🤍 you’re in my thoughts 🥺🤍
I am so sorry :( this must be so overwhelming and I can see it portrayed in the expressions in your eyes. Its a specific kind of overwhelm... one that can lead to complete burn out and collapse of the senses. You gotta look out for #1 though and that's you. It is so reasonable to not be at 100% capacity right after going through something as difficult as thyroid cancer. If you need to take time away for a while to get yourself at the base line you want to be at... you gotta do that. You can take a break, and you can go back when you find your base line again. You got this.
I just wanna say, the difference in affect and attitude from the beginning to end of the video is both amazing and incredibly helpful for others to see. I’m in the field of clinical psychology (fellow grad student!) and this is what we LOVE about our job! I commend you and your support system for getting you to that place. It’s extremely hard to do but these things are often best dealt with day by day. Grad school, as it is, is incredibly expensive, and these decisions you are forced to make impact so many factors of your life and, although they shouldn’t be, finances often come up as priority #1. Your health and well-being should be the top priority and this is often not feasible with the way the current grad infrastructure is built. You are not setting yourself back, you are not ruining your life, you are taking it day by day, and currently the way things are for you day by day is unbearable. That, in and of itself, should be enough reason for graduate programs and financial aid departments to step in and be there for their students. I’m incredibly impressed by the way you have handled this situation and continue to do so, it is so inspiring and refreshing to see. Best of luck with today, tomorrow, and the rest, you got this 😊
2:21 Was relieved to hear you say that, I thought all these things I was feeling were me going insane, but I think it’s the feeling of being an out of state student 😂. School is stressful and expensive these days. On top of that I can’t imagine doing it all with what you’re going through. Sending my best wishes towards your health and success 🙏🏻!
Sally you are loved and supported! Take one step at a time, you will be okay. You are okay and taking care of your health comes first. You got this ❤
Im about to take a LOA for chronic Lyme and me-cfs from grad school at MIT and it’s been the saddest and hardest thing ever had to do. Not performing at my baseline is so frustrating and I totally feel you on how draining the meetings with school admin can be. I think what is most frustrating is that it’s not like I can work anywhere else because I’m so sick, so it’s just a strange position where I’m stuck not performing (and bringing in an income) at all. Thank you so much for sharing, this has really helped me with everything and how I process my own journey. Thank you. Hope you’re feeling better.
it's okay Sally. it's OKAY, try to take it one day at a time. at the end of the day, it's about prioritizing your health. you went through all that surgery and recovery so you're definitely strong. it must be overwhelming so you don't have to make all the decisions right now. talk to a few friends, your parents, and maybe some of your teachers/guidance counselors. taking a break doesn't have to be a bad thing. sleep over it, perspective is good. sending you lots of love and support🤍
it's brave being scared and still doing it anyway ♥
i'm so proud of you.
As a grad student who is dealing with chronic health issues, I relate with so many of the things you said! It can be so so hard to realize that the things you were able to do before you can no longer do in your overwhelmed/sick state and that is totally okay. Take the LOA if you need it. There is no need to rush through your program, especially at the cost of your physical and/or mental health. I’m hoping that good health is on the horizon for you!
I can only imagine the set of challenges that you are going through. It broke my heart to see you cry. I think you are the type of person to suffer internally before you open up and let others know. I’m so happy that your school has your back and that you felt comfortable enough to approach a facility member. Remember there isn’t a time line for any healing process. You’ll make it through this nonetheless. I like how you are using your platform on UA-cam as a diary. I hope you know there’s people in this comment section who care about you and we see more than a medical student, we see a bright, loving and charismatic person, whose rarity captivates people. We tend to compliment people with attributes that benefit others. Take the time to write stuff that you’ve done well each day. Leave the judgement to others show yourself grace and compassion. There’s a lot of trauma associated with health emergencies, especially when life won’t pause for you in particular. You are not a victim, you are a victor. Sally just so happens to be the one crying for help today, ik unfiltered vids like this will be the hero of someone going through something similar in the future. Thank you for sharing this and get well on your own time.
Be kind to yourself
Sally, I am trying to find the best words but I am at a loss. I know that you are in a very difficult situation, but through watching your videos I have come to know you are a very strong woman! I know that whatever choice you make will be in your best interest. As cliche as it sounds there is light at the end of the tunnel! Your health trumps everything. Keeping you in my prayers ❤!
Oh Sally I feel for you. As someone who also has a huge amount of expectations and puts huge pressure on myself I can tell you, you need to be way, way easier on yourself. I’d suggest you ask your professors directly for an incomplete and take your time to finish your classes. After that I’d suggest you take the summer and see how you feel. Then decide if you want to try again in the fall or take a semester or 2 off. I’m pulling for you! ❤❤❤❤
Although I am far from understanding your unique and deeply personal situation, I do understand the sudden feeling like you’ve lost control of your strength or feel like you’re no longer feeling as great as you did when you were first suddenly faced with this. For me, it’s kind of like the sheer effect of something sudden or traumatic doesn’t sink in until some time later. Just know that everyone and everything in your life should be ENTIRELY supportive and accommodating to you. You will still be able to finish school and be an amazing professional even if you take a small break to catch your breath. If anything, taking some time to stop and breathe is key to maintaining your health and mental strength. You are amazing and providing so much to others in similar situations through these videos
I'm sorry that you are going through this, Sally. But this is what life is like. It is scary the first time but after the n-th time, you will know what's up. The best thing you can do now, is manage things one day at a time.
Thank you for being so real and vulnerable with us 💕 wishing you rest and recovery 💞
Hey Sally! I am genuinely sorry to hear that you are going through the hardship. I want you to know that LOA can be really good option too you never know what other amazing year is prepared for you during LOA.
Sometimes , keeping it simple really helps for decision making.
I will pray for you! You are strong, beautiful, and brave woman.
Thanks for sharing this with us :)
Man :/ I really hope for nothing but the best for you moving forward. I haven’t seen much of your content, but it seems like you’re pretty badass and capable of taking care of almost anything thrown your way so I’m hoping the same goes for kicking cancers ass. I’m sorry for the additional stress you must be going through on top of school and a break up. I recently got dumped by my ex of 6 and a half years so I know how tough that can be alone. The fact that you’re juggling all this stuff and still making it work as best as you can says a lot about you and how strong you are. I hope it gets easier for you soon, and I’ll be keeping an eye on your page to see the updates as they come through! Thank you for being you!!
I developed epilepsy suddenly and lost my ability to drive and (therefore go to work
and school and afford rent) and so I understand what you are going through. Something i learned since stress is a big seizure trigger is that any change, even for the best, will register as a trauma/stress to your body and its normal to take weeks to months to adapt to a new baseline. Be gentle with yourself and know that most important thing is you, and if you have to take some time off you can use that time to learn more about what you feel passionate about outside of medicine or just how you prefer to relax
I felt so connected to the video honestly. I'm going through a tough period of my life as well right now but the positivity you bring to the table makes me want to be more positive towards my own life and honestly you are an amazing person. I also have a thyroid problem, I have been dealing w it for months and I can understand the feeling tired all the time and not having the energy to focus on school which is what I feel as well as a student nurse so just know you're not alone on that. We could use more people like you in the world w a more positive outlook on everything, and honestly I'm going to try and be more like you in that way. Thank you for sharing this tough period of your life, you are honestly a v strong person and you have helped a lot of people by putting yourself and your story out there 🫂
Man, I can absolutely relate to this video. I was also in an educational situation once (in January of 2012, studying to be a teacher, not a doctor), and it wasn't necessarily that the demands on my time were greater than they had been before, it was that my capability to meet them was less. And it was very disorienting - I wasn't used to feeling that way. All I wanted to do was sleep. Moreover, I was incredibly frustrated by the whole thing, because it was literally my last academic semester...I had done most of the work, and was close to graduating. And then my brain betrayed me.
The situations may be different, the causes are different, the health issues complicating matters are absolutely different (my main issue is debilitating chronic pain from a serious injury I suffered as a teenager), but *depression is depression when viewed from the brain's perspective.* I think a lot of people imagine depression to be just...things not working out in your life, so you're sad and anxious and exhausted. But that's putting the cart before the horse (inverting cause and effect). Things aren't working out BECAUSE you feel sad and anxious and exhausted. Situational factors can exacerbate depression, but it is a biochemical phenomenon at its root, and a poorly-understood one at that (I was on anti-depressants for years and they never made a lick of difference to how I felt...which is pretty common, as I understand it).
What I learned during that time period was simple - give yourself a break. It's extremely difficult to be a high-achieving individual who suddenly can't perform at a level that you're used to, and trust me, a lot of people are going to minimize what you're going through, and try to "solve" your problem with a pep talk, or whatever, so you almost have to over-compensate in the other direction. Celebrate the small victories, even if they would've been insignificant to you a few years ago. Talk to someone who won't judge you (be that a teacher or therapist or friend...just make sure you have someone like that). Most people have some sort of support network, and now's the time to lean on yours. And seek medical help. Because even though both pharmaceutical and non-pharmaceutical methods of dealing with depression failed for me, you could be luckier than I am - things like cognitive behavioral therapy do work for some people, as do SSRIs or other medications. But the most important thing to do is to give yourself a break.
I did, and gradually I got better on my own. I had a really crappy experience with the university I was studying with at the time (they were not accommodating at all of my mental health issues), so I ditched that degree entirely, and went off in an entirely different direction, career-wise. I started an x-ray technology program back in the fall of 2020 (I started taking the few prerequisites I lacked in 2017, but there was a long waiting list to get in), and just finished my last clinical placement last month (so I'm officially graduated, although the ceremony isn't until May). Yeah, it took a long time to really get back on my feet, but I never gave up (and there were plenty of times, even after I started this new educational pathway, where I could have - for example, *_I failed a clinical practicum, which set me back a whole YEAR_* ...but I pushed through). As Emily Dickenson said, "Hope is the thing with feathers." It somehow keeps you going even when you feel absolutely defeated. And if I had been judging myself and feeling embarrassed about my state of mind and lack of accomplishments in the years that I had these issues, I would never have been able to get to where I am today...fear of more failure would've prevented me from even trying. So again - give yourself a break. Accept that your fate is not (and never has been) entirely within your control, and do the things that are most likely to benefit you now, trusting that once you escape this particular mental prison, you will be able to find a path forward again.
Sending all the hugs 🩷💞🩵 That is a lot to process and a lot to be upset about. You're grieving the life you thought you'd have in so many ways, even one last straw that broke the camel's back maybe with the life you thought you'd have with your dog abruptly ending. Life for you right now is very unfair and hard.
Being sick, far from home, and dealing with logistics you don't have the energy for is awful. I am so sorry. This is the time to reach out to your support system. Don't be afraid to let your friends and family be there for you in any way they can. Be kind to yourself. Try and make yourself laugh at least once a day. I am praying for you. I hope you get the time to recover that you need ❤
I felt the same way when I was doing school and chemotherapy. It is absolutely EXHAUSTING to always have your energy up and juggle two things and the time. I remember crying and feeling frustrated how my body could not keep up with everything I wanted to accomplish. The best thing I had to do is to take time for myself, heal and come back to do work. I know its hard, and it is challenging, but giving yourself some grace and time to recover will help you out so much! In 10 years when you are a doctor, you are going to realize how this leave of absence helped you out! Sending so much love and support to you Sally!
Hey Sally, dont sweat needing time, or a break. Everybody needs it sometimes even without the added stress of surgery and cancer diagnosis. Go easy on yourself - its okay to slow down. Hope everything chills out for you soon
Many prayers and much love! This too shall pass🙏❤️
Oh my goodness baby girl, you are being put through so much right now. The only thing I can say is that you've done hard stuff, you've been doing hard stuff and here you are! I wanted to say take small steps and try to separate eveything into different levels so that it doesn't seem overwhelming and YES ask for help where you need it. I am so glad you were able to get help from your school and your headspace in a better place. And you have time, and you have options and you have us! I hope you come to a decision that is right for you and ultimately brings you peace and clarity. ❤❤❤❤❤
Love, you're so young, take the time you need. There's nothing wrong with taking a leave of absence even if you think you may be able to push through. That time can still be productive if you want it to be, but it can be entirely at your pace. I took a year leave for mental health/abuse reasons and even though the financial aid was a bit of a mess because I was halfway through the semester, I don't regret it at all. It meant fitting more into my last couple years and some summer courses but looking back, I'm really glad I took that time to let myself slow down. I'm so sorry about your dog, that must be so heartbreaking especially on top of everything else. I'm glad your school is being supportive of you though and that you have people around you to lean on. I hope things get easier for you soon and I hope you can begin healing more. Wishing you the absolute best!
Oh goodness, I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been dealing with lately!! I’m so glad that things turned around in a positive way so quickly and that your options are all looking more hopeful. In the grand scheme of things, 1 year is a very short time to press pause on your med school journey, if that’s what you choose to do. The time will go by so fast, and it’s honestly negligible regarding when you would be out in independent practice. Please take care of yourself!!! 💕
I came back to your channel after watching your first video about this a while ago because your poise, bravery, and kindness in this situation stuck with me. It will be okay. You will be okay.
Sally, I know we haven’t been close but if you ever want to vent or sit and have tea or do anything to relax amidst all of this craziness I’m here if you need a friend. You are not alone. I’ve made connections at our school and had venting sessions that showed me we are all struggling through med school with unique challenges and doing our best through it all. I’m incredibly proud of you and in awe of how you’ve preserved through everything but I cannot understate how important your physical and mental health is and prioritizing it is never a bad thing
Thank you for showing something so real, personal and raw. I feel less alone. As a thyroid cancer patient, I feel like I am expected to be positive and happy because the prognosis is good... but it is OK to be frustrated and sad when you just don't have the same level of energy that you had before. Losing our thyroid is a massive deal and our quality of life can be impacted just as much as other cancer patients. Be kind to yourself and remember that life is a journey, not a race. Do what you need to do now to get better and you will be back to doing everything else when you can. ❤ I am so sorry about your dog though, that is absolutely devastating and mean of him to do that. 😢
Thank you so much for sharing! I have been going through a similar situation and it has caused such a toll on my mental health. I am going to try and push through as this is my last semester, but the 12 credits with my internship (which is much less work than I am used to) takes everything out of me. It is nice to hear that I am not alone, but I sincerely hope you are able to take the time you need to heal and accomplish your dreams!
Sweet girl. In my opinion, it's not going to get better by continuing to push through it while you're already so exhausted. You'll get back to where you want to be, but I think you deserve some time to rest, heal, and just do some things that make you happy. At the end of the day, YOU are what is most important. Finances, school, everything else can sort itself out later. Lean on your support system as much as you can. You're going through so, so much and you deserve to give yourself grace. I'm also so so sorry about your dog.
Wishing you the very best. You are an absolute fucking warrior.
I understand how overwhelmed and terrified you are feeling right now. When your energy is depleted, you are simply not able to make decisions properly. I've struggled with the same fear after a severe neck injury that has crippled my mental health. Try to carve out as much healing time and space as you can. It won't feel comfortable and it will not stop being scary. But when you start to recover, it will be easier to see a way forward than it is now. I know that you aren't yet able to see past it, but what you are going through is shaping you into a magnificent, empathetic healer. Sending all the love and positive vibes!
I'm so sorry you're going thru this, I've had similar situations as an undergrad and never felt like my schools were helping me so I super happy for you that your school is being so supportive and helpful, you are a strong person and I'm so proud of you for being so honest.
Dealing with red tape can be exasperating and exhausting let alone your studies and your body healing and adjusting. I am glad the school set up a team to try help you figure things out.
this hit me like a truck
i am so sorry you have to deal with this but genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for sharing this
you put into words what I have been feeling for the past three years and only recently have started to recover from. i had a myriad of medical issues, many of which are still unknown, but as a human, and as a patient, i am very grateful to know that there are doctors who can sympathize with these fears and experiences. thank you, and i hope you know you will be a wonderful doctor one day
i wish you the very best of luck
thank you for sharing this with all of us. please know that you have the right to take your time with this recovery. it will be okay one day
thank you
I'm so glad you aren't alone going through this! Wishing you the best!! 💖💖💖
Keep some protein bars or snack packs in the house so you have something more convenient to eat for days like these. Staying hydrated is so important too!!
You're stronger than you know and you're gonna look back on these times thinking "WOW I did that!! "
You got this queen! 🙏👑
Thank you for sharing such difficult parts of your life online. And I agree with the last part, don't go through this alone ❤ Sending you my biggest wishes, this will pass
That urgent feeling that tells us that we shouldn't take the time we need is helpful sometimes when burning the midnight oil, however, it's also smoke and mirrors in the end because the reality is that there is likely no harm if you pace yourself, you'll net out with the same result if school waits a little and you will do it without burning yourself out so much that you will harm your sense of well-being and stability. I wish you well, be safe.
Praying for you sweetheart! Wish I could hug you rn!!! Listen, it's going to ALL be okay. Please give yourself grace. ☺️🙏🏽 You aren't going to ruin your life dear. I'm proud of you for taking care of you. It's okay to take a step back. I am a Doctor of Pharmacy that graduated in 2023 when I was on track to graduate in 2022 but I took a little less than a year break for the sake of my mental health. I am now a Doctor of Pharmacy resident and have a job lined up for the surgical ICU. I've had so many breakdowns in school and residency too. I just want to remind you that these hiccups don't define you. 💛🥰 Also, you are so so beautiful INSIDE and out. THANK YOU for being willing to be so vulnerable and to take us on this journey with you!
You are a brave fighter and all tough times WILL PASS. Don't lose HOPE. You will be okay.
I'm going through something similar, and I'm sorry because it sucks.
I think just try to remember the bigger picture. This is just a blip that when compared to the rest of your life, is just a chapter. So, it doesn't matter how fast you go as long as you get it done, in time. And the best way for you to do that is to be kind to what your current self needs which is rest. I really support you taking some time off and going back to it when you have the energy to give your best without scarifying your health or peace.
(And I think it's absolutely beautiful that even through this difficult time, you said you'll come back with what you found out to help others. I really hope you give yourself the kindness you deserve, and I'm glad to hear that the people around you are giving you that. ❣)
Hey, found your channel by chance. Just wanted to say that I had to take a year out from med school for medical reasons and it probably saved my life. I am still chronically ill and being back has been tiring but it was so worth it to take some time to let my mind and my body recover and find a new baseline of functioning.
I want to give you a hug. You will be fine, you are a warrior.
Crazy how there’s no laws for forgiveness of loans in these types of situations. It’s just pure evil.
I’m not sure but from what she said it sounds like it wasn’t a private or public loan but likely covered by the school itself, and since she won’t be enrolled this semester it has to be returned bc that won’t check out otherwise
you do you. there is no happily ever after it there is no after.. BIG ❤ from Norway
the bravery of documenting all of this is really impressive! huge motivation to become a better student/cherish the luck I have
Oh Sally, my love, this is so so normal. You are in an abnormal situation so it is completely understandable that you’re not able to work at the capacity as before surgery. As a hypothyroidism girly I feel the exhaustion so so much!!! Before I was diagnosed I had to take a leave of absence from uni. There were no other options, my uni couldn’t do anything for me, and I remember crying like you just did for so many nights. Crying myself to sleep because I was going through it alone and had to make all of these decisions I didn’t feel qualified to make. When I got diagnosed and started meds, it still took 6+ months to get back to ‘normal’. And now a year after being diagnosed, I’m still not back to what my baseline was a couple years ago. Whatever happens in the future, know that you are capable, you are loved, you are resourceful. Keep communicating with the people around you and keep asking for help whenever you need it. You will get through this. Yes this is a hard road. But you are made of strong stuff.
You should be so proud of yourself. To reach out for help is hard, and to share it on the internet is even harder. The amount of people you are helping (including me) with your videos and your strength throughout this whole process is beautiful. You are always amazing, even when your best doesn’t feel like it’s your best. Keep being you Sally! ❤️
Your attitude sets you up for success, no matter how long it takes. You have such a good attitude. You're gunna get through this.
It’s okay to take time off. You are going through so much. I’m currently taking a mental health withdrawal from video game college right now because I got COVID back in November and my mental health took a huge dive. I almost died last month and have still been out. I am starting to feel better and hope to get back in soon. I understand how you feel, but it will get better!
I know struggles really aren't meant to be compared, but I remember the stressful meetings with financial aid and the moving parts of taking time off, how hard those things were on me, and I wasn't even going through half of what you are right now. Then to see you bounce back the very same day in the second half of the video with smiles and laughs, that is really inspiring stuff. I especially appreciate your immense self-awareness in times when basic human maintenance like food and rest are already huge tasks.
This is so very relatable for me. I have two medical emergencies with hospitalizations and a chronic diagnosis during my first two years. My school luckily had a way for me to slow down and split my second year up into two years. But I have cried this exact cry (minus the dog stealing omg I’m so sorry!). I’m only one year ahead of you so I’m still in it. It’s a fight every day. You’re not alone. ♥️
Your school sounds amazing though! I was quite literally bullied by a professor over email while I was immobile in a hospital bed lol so seriously shout out to your program! That’s amazing!
Girl im going through the same thing. Just diagnosis with some immunology isssues and trying to figure whether or not to take an LOA from business school and masters in international affairs. Have to start new medication and its hard. Its all hard
It’s really good to be so mindful about the rest of your life. But, it’s the NOW, and the you in the now really needs rest! Not only physically, but emotionally from the overwhelming last months. Support from family. Please let yourself rest from this period, otherwise it will just kinda hang around in your body
I had mono and I didn’t know how to cope with the tiredness I still had from it so I just battled through, but after a few years I had a burnout. It’s not that that’s a given for you but girlie, I just want to hug you and say you have the time, you really need to prioritise self-care♥️ if you heal now, take time to create your new baseline, to reflect, it will pay off so much in the future! ♥️
And dang your ex is cold hearted
I am so happy to hear you found help! ❤ It sounds to me you were feeling trapped in a loop where you know you have to perform but at the same time you are feeling tired/sick and need a break but feel like you can't due to the financial side of things, which adds up to the general stress. Recently, I have gone through a similiar trap, less intense than yours though; really, take care of yourself, you went through the surgery and probably emotional rollercoaster. I feel like you have mentioned all the important good things that I've heard from friends, doctors, therapist. Hopefully you are feeling better and more energetic now. The extra fatigue can be psychosomatic due to the stress and desperation of feeling trapped - your body and mind are connected. I went on a stress leave and the moment I was relieved the fatigue, low energy and dizziness passed away. It's great that your school helped you too to figure out your situation and take a break. It's also common people feel alone at these times, and that they are hard on themselves, feeling like a failure if they can't perform at their usual level, or feeling like they are letting down someone, so sharing your feelings, talking about your situation and reaching out for help is necessary. Things like these may happen in life. Your life will never be ruined, even if you had to or decided to leave the medical school. Some of us tend to fall into the trap of perfectionism. Don't be so hard on yourself, we are all just human. You don't always have to perform, maximize your potential, you don't have to do or be anything to be loved and to love yourself, and for your life to be beautiful, perfectly imperfect. Be kind and compassionate to yourself. You are a beautiful person, I wish you only the best!
Aw, girl.. sending hugs.
Haven’t watched yet, this is just based on the thumbnail and my own experience being vastly overwhelmed in school.
Breathe and prioritize your health! You will figure out what that looks like. It might be lower grades or full on taking a step back- whatever it is, you will find it. Your health and healing are what matter most. School will be there when you’re well.
Sending love ❤️
stay strong sally you are incredibly resilient , battling cancer isnt easy
i'm not going through the same thing as you, but you really made me feel less alone today. thanks for being so real.
I am sending so many hugs, I can't imagine what you are going through, let alone the courage it must take to share your experiences online for the benefit of others. You come across as such a kind and empathetic person, and so I hope that kindness will come back to you in the support and help that you may need. All the best, T.
Hey there, I took a LOA from my Graduate program in 2023. I felt like you did a week into Spring 2023 and I made the choice to not continue the semester. I didn't have the additional burden of loan complications, but it felt like everything was collapsing around me and I knew I wouldn't be able to catch up without putting forth energy that I didn't have. I ended up taking 2 semesters off to learn how to function at my new normal. It hurt so much to take time off and be part of a different Cohort. But taking the time off meant I could heal and actually give my attention to my school work.
I still feel like I'm behind, but now I'm moving forward again and I will eventually get to where I want.
The most important rule for me has been to meet myself wherever I am each day. Your school should be able to accommodate your new energy levels by offering you extended deadlines at the very least. But it is also OK to take time off. The version of you that pushes through will not be as happy as the one who takes off for a time. That was the realization I had that made me decide to take that time.
you are so strong and I look up to you so much, take AS MUCH rest as you need!!!
As someone 5 years on from dropping out for a year, from an "elite" university (uni of oxford) due to mental health with no idea if I would be able to even complete my degree ( I did, I went back, got a 1st) - let me tell you how much it was the right decision to give myself that space. 1 extra year, so little impact in the long term. I'm loving life, still experience challenges, but meeting them stronger and stronger - and enjoying my work and where I am living now; in a much better place!
Easier said than done in the moment - but ultimately the baseline most important thing is how you *feel*. Your health, wellbeing and happiness. Why not prioritise your wellbeing as best you can, if that option is there? Everything else, success, future options, etc - all that will follow more easily from a place of care
You are awesome, your health and happiness are the most important thing, you have been through a lot and you expect so much from yourself. Pace yourself, the world will still be waiting for you when you are ready to get back in the saddle, concentrate on your recovery.😊
Although I have never been sick, I felt the same way after a certain period during my law school. I was convinced that this is what I want to do, I didn't give up and finished, although it was very difficult for me - mentally and physically. Now, 13 years later, I don't practice law. I have another profession that I'm happy with and how far I've come in it. What I want to say is, no one can guarantee you what awaits you in 10-15 years. But you can't pour from an empty cup.
That’s good the school is helping! I hope you find the things you want.
You are brave for sharing your story Sally, I hope everything works out to your favor!
Hun, please take a break from medical school. It is totally okay, many people take it, I took it, I just finished couple of classes during the student-vacation year, to have it easier next year. And I came back, and it was just okay. LOA is a normal thing, you have right to fully rest, i think your nervous system is overwhelmed by all what happened and if you will take a break now - you will be stronger later. If you will just push through you will get into trouble with your body and mind, and it will affect your mental abilities. Take a LOA and if you like - chose some classes to attend to - to be somehow connected with that med school, or just read some books from your program while being on LOA. It is easier than you think, don't make it too complicated. I was studying during my 30s as well and I realized how hard I was on myself while in my 20s and it costs me mental health problems till today. Be gentle and kind to yourself and you will accomplish much more with that attitude, and your body/mind would be grateful. Esp. if you would like to be a doctor, being kind to yourself will probably make your practice more humane and deep. Everything will be okay!
Sally .... I understand you are overwhelmed,Scared and stuck ..don't know what to do ...but let's just see how far you've come .. just slowing down is okay ..it's okayyyyy to just be on your own pace of time... I hope you feel better sweety 🤍
I always love watching your videos Sally, smiles or tears!!!!! This is a process and you are so incredibly brave and strong for going through this journey of yours. Your videos always show how your lighthearted spirit and your sunshine-y personality help you get through these tough moments and encourage others to do the same! And of course... sister calls help immensely!!! Stay well
So sorry, this is a hard time for you. Just try to take it step by step. I wish you all the best. Stay strong.
Sally, I'm genuinely so sorry for what you're going through, and wanted to express my gratitude to you for sharing the hard stuff. I hope that all of your cancer treatments go well, and wish you success with your cancer and balancing your academic journey. You got this!
When you said that you feel so young right now, I fully understand what you’re going through. I’ve always been lucky enough to be very successful and able to get things done and move through life, but since September my partner and I have had 5 people pass away that were important to us. I don’t think I’ve ever felt as young as when we get those calls. It’s easy to be an adult get it all done and feel great when everything is okay.
So please, allow yourself to be young when the going gets tough. If you need an LOA, you need an LOA. There’s always the chance you’ll be too tired to heal, or you’ll be too tired to pass your classes and you’ll be worse off in the long term than if you step back now. It’s something that’s really hard to learn, and I hope the best for you.
Hey, I'm really sorry to hear you're going through this! I'm also in college and had to deal with suddenly having a chronic illness and having WAY less energy and different capabilities! I believe in you and your capability to move forward thru this situation, since I've been through it and I am way less strong than you. I definitely think it's really important to start bringing snacks and drinks with you places, especially on busy days because I've noticed that when I forget or am too busy to eat, I'm way less able to think and process things.
I hope things continue to get more manageable for you, and I'm glad that you posted this, cause it makes me feel less alone