“Confusion so thick you forget forgetting” “Place in the world fades away” They become an empty shell, more of vegetative state than alive. Thought doesn’t exist anymore. You don’t know what time is.
There's a reason it's called "Post Awareness" and why it is without description. A person who reaches this stage before passing on becomes a human vegetable. They forget how to do basic human functions
It isn't even terrifying anymore, you'll just forget every memory in your life and you just wait till you, well... Die. But you don't even know what's happening anymore, you don't know how to think and all you do is forget. You forgot so much that you forget forgetting.
i think i read in the comments of the original album someone said it was the favorite song of the person with dementia. could be completely off, but its neat to think about
@@noahmiller6193 Perhaps you are right, but as i also heard, music is the most clear memory of a person with dementia, so i think this is the musical description of a memory, rather than a favorite song of a person with dementia.
I feel like I was the exact opposite, I could tell it was the same song. I could tell it was fading or decaying as the stages went on and by the end as you said it was hauntingly unfamiliar, but I could still tell it was supposed to be the first song.
The short and spontaneous returns of the original melody on stage 6 got me so excited when I caught them, and that's probably what a dementia patient feels when they get a clear memory, only for it to never have existed in a matter of seconds.
I find myself getting visibly frustrated at 4. It's like you KNOW what the original song sounds like, and you KNOW you can hear it here and there...but to try and remember what it sounded like with all that confusing nonsense flowing around you, stopping you from fully being able to re-create the song because the intensity of the confusion is too much... what a genius, unsettling, horrifying, beautiful work of art.
Imagine you’re on the 6th stage of dementia, your life has been torn to shreds by this disease, then a needle is plunged into you and you remember everything
@@cringyyyfriends8272 that would be such a weird feeling?? like not being able to remember anything for the longest time and being in the state of misery and confusion and then suddenly everything just..comes back to you
The only way (atleast for me) to make this music happy, is to play it backward. Play stage 6 first and stage 0 last. What I get is like you got cured from dementia. The music at first is bad, but then the music gets better over time.
I tried that after listening to it forwards and it fucked me up even more. Like a final look back to when times where better before we pass into the silence of death
Most people think of retirement as a time for relaxing and looking back at fond memories of the good ol' days. Sadly, that's a luxury a lot of old people are missing out on.
@@mikadosannoji553 Immortal implies we cannot die of old age, therefore we wouldn't age. A lot of diseases would cease to exist because of that, actually. Including dementia as it is primarily caused by the brain essentially "dying" from age.
after hearing the song in its original key and tempo. I cannot stress this enough when I say it makes the first song off of stage one WAY MORE haunting than when i first heard it
Right at the end of the last track, there's only but a single glimpse of the original track. It's like the gasp right before you say "I remember this", but then it fades away. As do you. C'est fini.
I've cracked the code as to why the Caretaker's music is so unsettling for me it's all in the soundscape, the reverb tells you that the music is being playing in a large echo-y space, one that is unoccupied by people or furnishings to absorb the sound, it just bounces off the empty walls it's a musical liminal space
basically its just like the speaker(you) and a empty room(your brain) and you just keep screaming for help but no one hear or responds to it, its a good concept really and it terrifies me
Truthfully, stage 3 has to be my favorite. The speed being increased due to the panic of forgetting memories you held close, followed by the few pauses in the tune, as if the person in question needs a moment to remember how the tune goes. I just can't keep myself away from it.
Good god "Back there Benjamin" makes my skin crawl, I can tune out the radio static and ambience but I will not forget the first time listening to stage 3.
...until you learn it, that is. I've been back here enough to be able to hum along quite happily to S1&2, but 3 still gets my nerves up and S4-6 still mostly gives me run-down planetarium vibes... 😕
stage four is so scary to listen to, you try your hardest to piece together the tune but its impossible except for a few distorted notes. it probably reflects on how hard it is to remember complete things from the past - i couldn't imagine how terrifying that would be
I was thinking about the exact same thing. In stage 4 I was getting frustrated trying to piece together the tune but in stage 5 I just accepted defeat and was like "I guess this is life now"
You just gotta relax yourself and know that the melody is there but its backwards, upside down, distorted, out of time, and out of key. That’s not really the point but I found it kind of relaxing to know even when everything is different its still the same kind of. Stage 5 took that
My sweet step grandpa had dementia, and I had become obsessed with EATEOT. I listened to parts of the album on a daily basis, not only because it was good, but because I wanted to try and understand what my grandpa was going through, to get a glimpse of his reality. He passed away three days ago, and yet it feels like an eternity. Grandpa... I miss you so much, and I have always missed you through out the last six years through out your battle with dementia...
sorry for your loss... my grandpa also suffered from dimentia and died around 7 years ago but luckily i was too young so i didnt really had time to know him.
The change from the original Heartaches to Stage 1 is staggering. It's definitely still recognisable, but sounds much more sinister, and it's clear that something terrible will come soon. I actually heard the Stage 1 version before the original and it didn't sound particularly off, but that "voice instrument"... That sounds so eerie to me now I know what it used to be.
its the added reverb and static effect like a record. I think the music we listen to is of someone sleeping, dreaming of their music they listened to on their record player.
Stage 6 is very unsettling It almost feels like your trapped in a loop of terror and frustration. Slowly forgetting who you are and what life is. Making you feel nothing
This is more of a stage 4 or 5 description, actually. By stage 6, you’ll have already been so desensitized by the extreme horrors and frustrations through stage 4 and 5. Which is why stage 5 says that the extreme repitition and rupture of your fluid memories can give away to calmer moments, and why the unfamiliar may sound and feel familiar instead. In stage 6, you’re introduced with the first track that reads “a confusion so thick that you forget forgetting.” Which means that you had forgotten what it was like to lose your memories since you’ve descended so far into the severe stages of Dementia. Stage 6 is mostly just white noises, as if your mind has been aching for the release of death for a while, and the droning sounds of what’s left of the neurons in your brain is all you can hear, signaling that death is very near.
stage 5 feels so calming and horrifying at the same time. idk when i listen to it i feel like im alone in space and i just found out something big that makes our lives seem small.
I resonate with stage 5 the strongest. It feels like I'm somewhat grounded and "here" but at the same time my mind is at the edge of the abyss, and about to fall soon.
70 YO Me: Oh damn! This video is creepy. I can't imagine the pain of memory loss... Also 70 YO me : *Scrolls down and finds a comment I wrote several years ago.* *...* *Stage 3 Starts Playing*
I think the Stage 2 track is the more eerie and depressing to me. Just overwhelming sadness takes over when I hear it. It resembles the artwork so perfectly, almost familiar and yet not right.
Yeah it’s slowed down so much too, that level of grief that feels so overwhelming you can’t help but move slowly. And yes it does resemble deep sorrowful wails. Even stage 3 and heartaches doesn’t feel this sad.
Stage 2 freaked me out the most. The small distortions, and the anticipation in knowing that it's going to get worse, more disturbing, and horrific. It was also the only one I teared up during. I hear most people cry at the end, but Stage 2 is the only one that made me really emotional.
@@John-X stage 2 reminds me of the feeling you get seeing a loved one with a recent cancer diagnosis. The obvious fear and denial that it will get better, we can overcome this.
But then the deeper you go into the songs, the more you forget about freetime 1st stage: Ok, I have 18 minutes, lets do this 2nd stage: Now I have 14-15 minutes left 3rd: I have around 10 minutes I think 4th: 10 minutes? Of what? 5th: Why am I listening to this? 6th:
I think this might be the best way to "abridge" Everywhere at the End of Time. I've seen versions that mix the six stages together, getting the most important pieces (such as the final track in stage 6, where an angel choir gives way to sixty seconds of silence as the Caretaker's soul ascends into the afterlife), but none achieve the "effect" of the album like this one. Finding the same sample across all six stages really drives home the deterioration of the mind for someone looking to experience the full album but is unable or unwilling to. It's worth noting that the official credit on the album reads "Audio remembered, disfigured and forgotten by The Caretaker."
In stage 6 of dementia, a person may start forgetting the names of close loved ones and have little memory of recent events. Communication is severely disabled and delusions, compulsions, anxiety, and agitation may occur.
@@boblobgobstopper13214 After listening to stage 6, I know why it is without description. There isn't much left to describe. Yes there were some weird sounds, but not much else. The last 6 minutes though, I could definitely describe that
@@izzyint you'll be okay. It's hard, but we're left with the memories we have of them before, and we can only hope they go with us for our time. Don't fear the reaper too much, as fast or slow as he may come, because no matter what we have what time we have. And we can at least try and make the best of it.
I feel like the scariest part about this album and dementia, is that you can't really blame anyone You could be poor and blame the rich You could be sick and blame the person who gave the flu to you You could get hurt and blame the person who hurt you But with this, there's no entity attached to the horrors you're facing, you can't blame anyone for you losing your memory, you probably can't even think of anyone as your mind slowly falls apart and you lose everything you hold dear. Everything that made you, you, is being torn away by something that nearly impossible to control, and you don't even notice it That's what scares me the most, the lack of control and understanding
Some words shouldn't be conveyed because those scar you for the rest of the day. I've been thinking about this comment, and it's a horrifing thought. Especially the "lack of control" ends up giving me the shivers.
I believe that if you don’t want to listen to everywhere at the end of time fully this is the perfect video for that, this entire experience feels like when you’re thinking of a song but cant remember the melody.
"The worst thing about time passing is that everyone around you gets old and eventually forgets, the greatest fear everyone has even if they are not willing to admit it is losing themselves" ---- R 2021
tbh I dont usually get scared of things that are fictional that are intended to scare you, like monsters and spirits and things like that. but this LITERALLY makes me genuinely like. horrified. my heart is racing. it's so upsetting and emotional, but that's what makes it an amazing project. Edit: oh god, the ending.
It’s because it’s not just some fake thing, it’s made about something real that could happen to anyone: dementia. And that’s more terrifying than any Hollywood monster or creepypasta could ever be.
it literally made me cry, because some people in my family had it i dont want my parents to have it. i dont want my other family members to have it. i dont want me to have it.
Finishing this album is one hell of a challenge. It's like you forget even the horror you went through, and it's just unimportant garbled noise. Everything disappears and it rips you apart. I'm proud I braved it through. What a haunting experience.
I really appreciate this bite sized version of Everywhere at the End of Time. It displays the concept really well for the people who don’t have 6 hours to listen to the whole piece
This whole album just feels so... oddly familiar. I feel as if I’m 60 years old and recalling the old days, but as the memories fade I’m losing my mind. Really, no words can help me explain this feeling of hidden nostalgia
Same, a burst of emotional crying just happened in the middle of stage 2, I don’t know why but it felt like I pent up all of this emotion, just to let it out once it escalates
I think the artist nailed stage 5! There is this hypnotic hum that plays with jumbles of other sounds. It encapsulates how you are in a state of bliss and numbness and it gives you an odd sense of serenity because the droll of humanity is behind you. Yet, those odd chimes that echo remind you that there are still things that tether you to this plane, but they are so distant that you can’t give it form.
Stage 3 is the one that gets to me especially. The way the violin is played like at 8:28 is just so recognisable and haunting unlike the rest of the stages mostly. The first two stages seemed more relaxed and toned down like a person laying in bed just thinking they're okay and forget a few things like any old geezer would but this one feels like as if that same person that was in bed relaxed and sometimes confused now can't handle this issue and now out of their bed crying and begging for help because they has assured something is terribly wrong. I've been to nursing homes a few times in my life and in a few instances I heard an old man or woman screaming in some disturbed manner. Stage 3 to me is really that feeling.
Stage 5 is so depressing. It shows that the person cant recollect the memory other than a few bits and pieces which just leads to a overlap of pure calming ambience. The ambience represents the fact that mentally there is almost nothing there and they've accepted the fact and have succumbed to a mental void.
@@josephsullivan5830 I know. My point was that people with stage 5 dementia aren't able to accept that they are demented because they don't remember having dementia
This song would fit perfectly in a mystery game where you try to unravel your death by reliving your memories forgotten by dementia and in the end with the music completely distorted you realizing your tragic end and accepting whatever comes
Everything after the former half of Stage 5 just becomes ambience. You could literally sleep through Stage 6. That tells you what Alzheimer’s has in store for you... if you survive that long...
The deed is done. I was doing schoolwork when the album went from resembling music to barely resembling static. When I got to that point I was focused back to the album and realized again how alien everything had become. Then stage 6 rolled around and it was just so empty I had to take breaks in between and then that ending. I'm not sure if I ever want to re experience that.
I didn’t recognize this song at all in stage 4 and beyond. I literally didn’t realize that it was anything I had heard before and I’m so thrown by that right now. I can’t believe I didn’t recognize it. But then I guess that’s what it would be like. That’s terrifying.
@@Schnort i don't think it was you being the big stupid. that was the whole point of the album. songs that you've heard before but broken and unrecognizable.
whenever I hear the "it's just a burning memory" anywhere beyond Stage 3, Im thinking that the person that is having dementia still thinks "it's just a burning memory", they are confused after all. And also hearing it in Stage 6 atleast the horns just makes my heart hurt, they still think that it's just a burning memory.
this album made me fear dementia over anything else. the fear of being trapped in an empty mind grasping for anything but only grabbing at air i can only imagine what that feels like. this album does a beautiful job with expressing the horror that is living with nothing. no thoughts. no memories. not knowing who you are or where you are i fear that one day i could be stuck with this illness.
It's not really that bad for the person afflicted with the disease. At least during the later stages. They lack the awareness of pretty much everything - including their disease.
The fact that my grandad, such a caring and kind man, had to go through this is the most terrible injustice I've seen, at least with my own two eyes. I hope with all my heart and soul he is happy and at peace wherever he is. Rest In Peace Grandad ❤
Before it starts: Heartaches, heartaches My loving you meant only heartaches Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me I can't believe it's just a burning memory Heartaches, heartaches What does it matter how my heart breaks I should be happy with someone new But my heart aches for you. Stage 1: Hertches, hertches My loving you meant only heartahes Your kiss was such a sacrd thing to m I can't believe it's just a burning memory eartaces, eartaces What does t matter how my heart breaks I shoud be happy with someone new But y heart aches for you. Stage 2: Hetches, hetches My loving you meant only heartahe Your kiss was such a sacrd hing to m I can't believe it's jst a brning memory eartace, eartace hat does t matter how my heart breaks shou b happ wit someon ne But heart aches for ou. Stage 3: Etches, Etches y oving ou eant nly eartahe our iss as uch acrd ing to m an't elieve t's st a rning emory artace, artace at oes atter ow y eart reaks hou app it omeon ne ut eart ches or u. Stage 4: tche, tche vin an i artah u s c cr n n liev nin mor rtac, rtac e tte ar eak o p omeo ar he. Stage 5: ch, ch i rta ie i o ta, ta t a me Stage 6: ache
2:37 The repeating of that one note genuinely caught me off guard. 😯 If you wanted to frighten me, good job! Now It's just a burning memory sounds even more haunting. 👍
@@TheFallenHuman53 Don't get me wrong, it *is* a smooth transition, I just didn't expect it, having heard the original, unedited Al Bowlly version now quite many times. :D Let's say the startling effect is an added bonus that makes the progression even more foreboding.
Stage 6: the recognizable and unrecognizable no longer function as separate things, but go hand in hand together as they make their way through your conscience. There is nothing there to be familiar with, because it too is unfamiliar. Once it’s over you feel as though nothing has changed, because it hasn’t. You don’t feel horror, you don’t feel confused, horror and confusion have already felt each other, and you’ve felt them too, but still can’t bring yourself to say that you know horror and that you know what it is to not know. You have already been, and you know that, but you have a sense of furthering something even after everything has been developed to its fullest. Something is in front of you, within reach, in fact you have it and are developing it now, but the more it develops, the more grip on the goal at hand is lost. And before you know it, you realize you weren’t doing anything with it to begin with. The description is that there is no description, and that is everything there is to know. No interpretations, no hidden meaning or secrets, nothing. Actually there’s not even nothing. There is not. That’s it. Blank. There is no description is an overstatement. And that overstatement is what was being attempted on for developing, or rather the idea of its development being brought further out and at some point into reality and into true meaning. There is nothing at the end of time. There are all things everywhere. We are attempting to look at an idea of all things nonexistent. We can only ponder the true essence of what stage 6 stands for, but that’s all we can do, and all the creator intended we do, think about it. Think about what is not, and remember forgetfulness.
Listening to this and thinking about what I didn't notice when I listened to the full album... It's making me sick to my stomach. I think this is part of the genius of Everywhere at the end of time: it's so long and disorienting that I couldn't recognize the repeating songs at all. Nothing but a vague, misplaced familiarity that grows more and more distant as you progress through the stages. How did that song go? Have I heard that phrase before? Are these instruments?
It's insane how well crafted the album was. How well it makes you question reality. Of course, it probably helped that the artist actually had dementia...rip.
@@AlecNormalThe Caretaker is a fictional character portrayed by musician Leyland Kirby. The character had dementia and died shortly after the release of Everywhere at the End of Time.
Yes! When stage 4 started and the version to this song played I sounded so damn familiar and I thought of this sample but it's so unrecognizable that something told me it was just my imagination
Currently obsessed with EATEOT but I can't handle listening to the full album a third time so thank you for this! It's so cool hearing this one song progress and distort
ive listened to the full version like over five times now and and the entirety of stages 4 to 6 like over ten times and as a result at times when i hear something that produces white noise like a fan or a running faucet it sounds like its making faint distorted music for a bit shortly after listening to the post awareness stages
@@gambe96 i lost my grandpa to coronavirus a few months ago and he had been showing memory loss signs and alzheimer's symptoms for the last couple years. my family and I were seeing it every day. today i discovered this album and now I'm convinced that he probably was at stage 2 already when he passed out. this has made me a bit relieved that he died before it could have gotten any worse. at least he lived aware all of his time here.
@@alexis-zm6tx I haven't experienced losing one to dementia but he is lucky to not have to go through forgetting everything, himself and everyone he cares about.
My grandfather is showing early signs of dementia and I’m scared for him to lose the memories he has of his past. The stories he always tells us are really interesting. I don’t want to lose that, something so precious. Memory is what makes relationships, and without them we have nothing...
There’s actually another progression you missed that’s halfway through stage one. It’s B1. It’s slower than A1 but still more coherent than the one in stage 2.
Nah, the B1 is used the song "It look like rain in cherry blossom lane" Here's the link: ua-cam.com/video/eneqGi4u5H0/v-deo.html And actually, A1 & B1 do sounds like each other at some parts tho...
I just realised that several of the song titles across the albums that feature this song, have lyrics from the song. "It's just a burning memory" - a line directly from the song "What does it matter how my heart breaks" - another line from the song "And heart breaks" - same line as previous, but some of it is missing... perhaps symbolizing how the person is forgetting the lyrics... "Burning despair does ache" - contains the words "burning" and "ache" which are part of the lyrics... but just single words, and from different sentences, all jumbled up... if you weren't specifically thinking of this song, you wouldn't recognize these words from it at all. After this, there are no real semblances to the lyrics anymore. However, if you want to go into a bit of "over-analyzing" territory... "Mournful cameraderie" - The original song is about being sad about someone you used to love. I think the title is the person desperately trying to remember what the song was about. And the closest thing he or she could get, was that it was about something sad, and something having to do with the company of another person, or "mournful camaraderie". It's also worth pointing out that the word camaraderie is misspelled, perhaps another symbol of them forgetting words and losing touch. Also... "mournful cameraderie" rhymes with "it's just a burning memory"... could also be a sign of them trying really hard to remember the words, and can only come up with a sentence that has the same rhyme. "C'est fini" or "it's over" in french - I think they have given up trying to remember it. Their memories are not coming back. It's over. (C'est fini also rhymes with "memory" by the way... perhaps, after everything... that one rhyming syllable never truly was forgotten.) I also want to add. I have listened to the original Heartaches song several times by now. (It's just really good.) The part where he sings "I can't believe it's just a burning memory" is by far the most memorable part of the song. I don't know why, I just think the melody of that sentence is really enjoyable. Leyland Kirby is a genius. Edit: I just wanted to appreciate the detail you added on the last one where there is ash flowing over the screen. Almost like... it's just a burning memory.
Damn, I never thought of that these song titles are so meaningful behind their names. Surprisingly, your "over-analyzing" make so much sense, you really amazed me. Leyland Kirby sure do have a great, wonderfully genius mind. Thank you.
This is so well made. One thing that shocked me (and I noticed others have said the same thing) is how spooky and "off" the song for Stage 1 ("Just a Burning Memory") sounds, juxtaposed against the original song "Heartache." In Kirby's album, you think the Stage 1 song sounds normal, because of how weird and off Stage 2 sounds, but with nothing coming before it. Having never heard "Heartache" before, I had no idea just how eerie and sinister Stage 1 actually is. Stage 2 seriously creeps me out. Listening to it makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable, even paranoid and jumpy. I tried to analyze why. Compared to Stage 1 (and the original), it's slowed down and the horns and violins have a sour, sliding quality. The mood is one of great mourning, grief, and dread, which I'm sure Kirby was trying to convey. Somehow the music also sounds both as if it's both very far away and coming from inside a person's head at the same time. The same can be said of Stage 3, which sounds even more distant and also begins to introduce a lot of reverb and dissonant notes that just don't seem to belong. Stage 4 through 6 are utterly terrifying.
Just finished EATEOT in entirety then went to this. This feels like an accurate abridged version of that album. Personal note: The transition from Heartaches to Stage 1 shocked me; it sounds similar when listened separately, but when back to back it sounds eerie. At least there's you can recall the joyful memories of youth. Stage 2 sounds really sombre, the moment you reached learned helplessness holding that cherished memories, especially paired with previous piece (A losing battle is arising). Stage 3 is like you're trying to embrace the memories as long as you possibly could, before it starts to crumble in Stage 4. Stage 4 is you still remember the face of that memories, but you start to forget why you cherished them in the first place, nor why does it feel familiar. Stage 5: the face of your family and friends are nothing but shapes; shapes that you know but you can no longer recall. There is no stage 6 but you, six feet under the ruins of rememberance. Nothing matters but to wait for Death to play the memory montage one last time before s/he takes your heart, finally letting your body to follow suit.
What are the odds though...that in some major motion picture or Netflix series soon, one of the few million who heard this set of albums uses Heartaches unaltered in a rather romantic, historical, or even wistful, memory loss related fashion in an important scene, and it causes a not-insignificant backlash from viewers after it comes out, either those who know where it's from, accusing the show of being exploitative and potentially because those informed ones watching have sudden mental health attacks, or even causing similar effects to those who don't have _any_ prior context? I imagine if they _actually_ straight up used tracks _from the Caretaker himself,_ then the odds of all that I just described happened increase exponentially since it would actually be distorted to a significant extent, even 1, though beyond that sample and stage would have to be a pretty horror based context already, even 2 and 3, because I imagine that wouldn't be very subtle at all once the audio gets _that_ distorted.
Al Bowlly's music was already featured to that effect in 'The Shining', and it actually was a huge inspiration for Kirby to start producing this form of music.
It's such an interesting way to compile it. It's so.... brutal. I've seen many elderly people die with dementia, and it is heartbreaking to watch these shells of people to fade away into nothing. It puts a comprehension to something I have already seen many times. I understand a horror I've never understood before now.
Alright, tracking my reactions as it goes along. Stage 0-3 I’m ALREADY highly unsettled. I’m kind of depending on this comment writing to keep me down to earth haha, this puts a pit in my stomach. Stage 4: the transition didn’t startle me as much this time, but I feel worse each time. It feels like I’m losing the music. It’s like I’m getting so much older. It makes me scared Stage 5: this is still creepy, but as the description says, I feel it’s a little more calming. This feels like a nice break tbh. Still scares me that I can barely remember the original tune now, though. It feels kinda empty... Stage 6: finally. Not as horrible as I thought it would be, but almost. There’s almost nothing left here. Every time I here bare, scratched remnants of the original song, my eyes water a bit. It feels like I’m in a back room of sorts; everything is still and in reverse at the same time. I can’t recognize anything but the static of the record. WOW OMG THAT WAS A JOURNEY 😭😭 I’m gonna be sick
to me, its much easier to understand this than the actual album, since with this is simply listening to the deterioration of one song, rather than the equilivant of ones many memories.
The fact that it goes from happy with the vocals and happy music to just....empty and broken melodies with distorted sounds makes this one of the most saddest pieces of music I've heard.
My Grandma has dementia and when I talk to her, I just really feel like there is something missing. Like a soul crushing emptiness that isn’t noticeable at first glance (that’s the best way I can put it.) She sometimes has moments where she gets really upset and tries to “go back home to her family” but her children grew up. Luckily, my Grandpa is there by her side to help her during these times, but the feeling of her just being so confused and angry, her mind trapped in a time that is already long gone is really scary for me to think about. I could never imagine forgetting everything that happened around me, but this really put into perspective what she’s been going through in a way.
I am in the exact same boat as you, my grandma also has dementia and she's sadly in her late stages of it, this album really speaks to me because it is almost exactly like what she's going through and what my family is going through it's devastating, and the worst part is, it never gets better, and it only gets worse. The best thing to do is to remember the good days and to cherish the small things that she can remember.
I'm in the same situation as you, I feel frustrated because I can't help my grandmother. When I go to talk to her, she repeats things from 50 YEARS ago, which drives me crazy. I feel guilty and sad, because I know that it is getting closer to the end with each passing day. And i cant even do anything. I feel sad. I cant accept the fact that someday she will forget about me, and my parents, my grandfather, etc..
Burning Despair Does Ache and Mournful Camaraderie feel like the same moment from two points of view. The first the Caretaker clearly suffering and seeing everything from his damaged POV. Mournful camaraderie feel like that same moment from the families perspective. Watching their loved one slip away into post awareness.
*lyrics* Heart aches, Heart aches, by loving you, there's only heart aches- your kiss was such a sacred thing to me.. I can't believe it's just a burning memory! Heart aches,Heart aches What dose it mater?! oh my heart brakes. I should be happy with someone new.. but my heart aches for you *ur welcome (;*
Some notes for people who haven't actually heard EATEOT: 1. The parts representing "stage 4" and "stage 5" are actually from stage 3. "And heart breaks", "Burning despair does ache", and "Mournful camaraderie" are all on the same stage. 2. The stage 2 piece as well as the latter two stage 3 pieces are from a different recording of "Heartaches", done by Seger Ellis, with different instrumentation. 2. The "stage 6" piece sounds like an original composition in the style of a track from stage 4, I don't remember anything like this from EATEOT (the latter stages of EATEOT usually have many different songs playing at once, this is clearly entirely made up of samples from both versions of "Heartaches")
And these are the most coherent part of Everywhere at the End of Time. Let that sink in. When I heard the leitmotif show up, it was a breath of fresh air. Then I remembered how fleeting it was. Back to
You can actually listen "Heartaches" in stage 4, it's on the first song and it starts to sound like it at 15:38, I think it starts a little before that minute mark but i don't "remember" quite well ;)
thIs is the strongest memory in the caretaker i think, because even in stage 5 you can occasionaly hear it, even when all else is lost to chaos, heartaches still flares back for a few seconds here and there. maybe they fell in love listening to this song, maybe they were friends with the guy who created it. whatever it is, it caused this to be the longest memory.
The scary thing is that even people born in the 1910's to 1900's grew up with this music and they will be long gone by now, someone who was born in that time would be 110 - 20 now. That is a 1 in 500,000 chance of someone from then surviving for 110 years.
I don't know how I got here. I was just looking up the fact that all of a sudden a bunch of Old Songs that were Recorded and made a Hundred Years ago are Public Domain Now and then I found this project that remixes a bunch of them to show the fate of pretty much everybody who was alive who listened to those songs back then. It's kind messed up if you think about it.
I can't believe I did this whole album today... I feel disturbed.. uneasy.. and haunted. That was the wildest 6 1/2 hours I've ever listened to. It's one thing to have a connection with a song when you're going through some kind of heartache like the end of a relationship or the death of someone close to you... But it's an entirely different feeling to have a connection with a song for no reason and feel that connection quite literally deteriorate and fade away over the course of several hours to the point of having your brain believe that you forgot the song. This album takes you on an experience like no other piece of music will. 6 1/2 hours is a lot to ask a listener to sit down and experience, but for those brave enough, it's completely worth it. I promise you, you won't ever find and feel something like this from another piece of music.
Here’s the thing: I listened to it in chunks, for example, I listened to the first stage one day, the second stage the next day, and so on. It gives more of a realistic feeling, like checking up on the dementia patient. I decided to listen to stages five and six on the same day though, I felt like I was in too deep at that point and I just wanted to finish it. Another thing I highly recommend is that before listening to eateot, listen to an empty bliss beyond this world (made by the same composer of eateot), and once you’re done with eateot, listen to everywhere an empty bliss, as that album feels like a final send off to the caretaker. Kind of like the caretakers funeral, rather than him being in heaven.
Ahh, yes quite. 🙂 The days of my youth. Spent thinking of you. It's just a burning memory... crackling, and burning... smoldering... flickering... still... warm? Yes... something here... glows faintly... faint... fainter still... f-f-feign? feu... remains... rubble... f... f... fwuh? such haze... can't... see...m to. . .? som- s- sm- _smoke..._ could that... bebright? Ashesh... ashess the damnage dun... ash I re c a ll l.. . .
@@ss_flopz I don't see how you could've seen this somewhere else. This was an original work, based on language devolution and how I felt as I listened to the music. The only line I even remotely recognize as having been lifted from somewhere is "the days of my youth." Like the fresh scent of lemon, you see... ua-cam.com/video/_uZe06XuwRM/v-deo.html
hearing the lyrics to Heartaches really makes the titles of the tracks off the album feel like gut punches :( "it's just a burning memory" "how does it matter how my heart breaks?"
Everyone gangsta listening to this at around 1am till they accidentally fall asleep and have a dream where the songs are still playing on a burnt radio
listening to the whole album then listening to heartaches normally feels so strange... Like you had a near-death experience and returned to normalcy a moment after
What is that man in the mirror? Staring at me with those eyes. He scares me more when he smiles. The more I look, the more I get scared. Familiar feeling, like the creature who follows me. Always following, always staring, always moving. He lurks in the dark, doesn't say a word. The more I look, the more I get scared.
Who are the people inside this house? What is this house? The more I look, the more I get scared. They scare me more with their words. "Please, remember" What does that mean? Wait, what is that man in the mirror?
A, b, d... Wait, it wasn't like... What I was say... What? O never... I... I... What is h.. Help m... What?... O never... Hello? Anyone h... Where am... What?
my great grandmother died last year. she was 97. she started to get dementia when i was very young, probably around 5 (im 12 now) but it started to get serious when i was about nine or ten. that was a couple of years ago. she was sent to a care home for her last year. my grandma (her daughter and only remaining close relative) visited her twice a week. but she died. R.I.P nanna. 1923 - 2020
Listening to them back to back makes me so sad like the music is trying its hardest to play the melody but it just can't Just like someone with dementia trying their hardest to remember something...I get it
"Stage 6 is without description"
Even words can't express or even describe how terrifying this stage is...
“Confusion so thick you forget forgetting”
“Place in the world fades away”
They become an empty shell, more of vegetative state than alive. Thought doesn’t exist anymore. You don’t know what time is.
You forget what forgetting is like
There's a reason it's called "Post Awareness" and why it is without description. A person who reaches this stage before passing on becomes a human vegetable. They forget how to do basic human functions
It isn't even terrifying anymore, you'll just forget every memory in your life and you just wait till you, well... Die. But you don't even know what's happening anymore, you don't know how to think and all you do is forget. You forgot so much that you forget forgetting.
Its much terrifiying than cancer
I never realized the same song was used this deep into the experience. It becomes so hauntingly unfamiliar.
Yeah, same dude. I think it was intended
. You know, Dementia, and other things
i think i read in the comments of the original album someone said it was the favorite song of the person with dementia. could be completely off, but its neat to think about
@@noahmiller6193 Perhaps you are right, but as i also heard, music is the most clear memory of a person with dementia, so i think this is the musical description of a memory, rather than a favorite song of a person with dementia.
I feel like I was the exact opposite, I could tell it was the same song. I could tell it was fading or decaying as the stages went on and by the end as you said it was hauntingly unfamiliar, but I could still tell it was supposed to be the first song.
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nice
Imagine in 80 years, they’re gonna sample Travis Scott, Kanye West, and some other artist from today and make some depressing album.
Great idea. My vote is Crank That by Souljaboy
there is one for minecraft music and it hit me harder than the original album
"grandpa, why are u crying to gucci gang"
@@n0wsinn lmao
@@n0wsinn LMAOOOOOOOO
The short and spontaneous returns of the original melody on stage 6 got me so excited when I caught them, and that's probably what a dementia patient feels when they get a clear memory, only for it to never have existed in a matter of seconds.
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@@rosy-goldmoth yes
Yeah probably I believe that to be true amazing, and exciting discover
Most likely terminal lucidity
but they were with you the whole time
I find myself getting visibly frustrated at 4. It's like you KNOW what the original song sounds like, and you KNOW you can hear it here and there...but to try and remember what it sounded like with all that confusing nonsense flowing around you, stopping you from fully being able to re-create the song because the intensity of the confusion is too much...
what a genius, unsettling, horrifying, beautiful work of art.
i personally agree with you.
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Tbh same
My grandmother had dementia. You really lose them before their actually gone.
They’re*
@@philswift9705 you really think it's a good time to correct somebody?
@@sdsdsdsdsa yes, helps them learn for later. Didn’t mean to be offensive in any way.
@@sdsdsdsdsa Jesus Christ I’m stupid I didn’t read the word “time”. Yeah that was probably not appropriate. I’m sorry
Is it bad to snicker at this conversation?
everybody gangsta until post-awareness stage 6 is without description
What game is it from when you day stage 6
@@cynicalyz what
@@cynicalyz what do you mean
@@swagbossdemon1273 i think they didnt watch the video
Huh...
God I pray someone someday soon cures this cruel terrible illness
Someday someday
@@buddy5196 How's the experiment going?
Imagine you’re on the 6th stage of dementia, your life has been torn to shreds by this disease, then a needle is plunged into you and you remember everything
@@cringyyyfriends8272 nice
@@cringyyyfriends8272 that would be such a weird feeling?? like not being able to remember anything for the longest time and being in the state of misery and confusion and then suddenly everything just..comes back to you
The only way (atleast for me) to make this music happy, is to play it backward. Play stage 6 first and stage 0 last. What I get is like you got cured from dementia. The music at first is bad, but then the music gets better over time.
Look what I found!
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@@TheFallenHuman53 Thanks bro, now I don't feel a little sad anymore
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I tried that after listening to it forwards and it fucked me up even more. Like a final look back to when times where better before we pass into the silence of death
that could also be terminal lucidity
Most people think of retirement as a time for relaxing and looking back at fond memories of the good ol' days.
Sadly, that's a luxury a lot of old people are missing out on.
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Stage 3 just makes want to break down and cry, the person going through this stage is realizing they won't be the same person soon.
it will happen to everyone, we just die due to other things, if humans were immortal every single one would get dementia
nice word play alt acc of me.
@@mikadosannoji553 Immortal implies we cannot die of old age, therefore we wouldn't age. A lot of diseases would cease to exist because of that, actually. Including dementia as it is primarily caused by the brain essentially "dying" from age.
Everybody gangsta till they realize the likes are 911
@@Cl4tch gah gah uhh
after hearing the song in its original key and tempo. I cannot stress this enough when I say it makes the first song off of stage one WAY MORE haunting than when i first heard it
What is your xbox name?
@@tsukuyomi835 why do you want it lol
@@linguiniindiscuise1268 he’s trying to game, linguini
@@blitzthespittah3712 I only game on google stadia
@@linguiniindiscuise1268 how dare you remind me that Google Stadia exists
Right at the end of the last track, there's only but a single glimpse of the original track. It's like the gasp right before you say "I remember this", but then it fades away. As do you. C'est fini.
Wait, “C’est fini” is the name of the last 6 minutes right ?
@@aergh4292 I do know that, I’m french myself, but I can’t remember where exactly it is, it’s not any of the time codes in the original video
@@gambe96 yea it's the name of the stage 6 song
oh shit your right that's fucking sad oh my god
Worse than not remembering anything at all...
I've cracked the code as to why the Caretaker's music is so unsettling for me
it's all in the soundscape, the reverb tells you that the music is being playing in a large echo-y space, one that is unoccupied by people or furnishings to absorb the sound, it just bounces off the empty walls
it's a musical liminal space
basically its just like the speaker(you) and a empty room(your brain) and you just keep screaming for help but no one hear or responds to it, its a good concept really and it terrifies me
Truthfully, stage 3 has to be my favorite. The speed being increased due to the panic of forgetting memories you held close, followed by the few pauses in the tune, as if the person in question needs a moment to remember how the tune goes. I just can't keep myself away from it.
Good god "Back there Benjamin" makes my skin crawl, I can tune out the radio static and ambience but I will not forget the first time listening to stage 3.
Hearing fragments of the melody in later stages, so frustrated that it never becomes complete. Such a brilliant concept.
Almost thought it was 666
what took me so long to do was think about my own good personal memories being torn apart just like the ones in the song, that's what made me tear up
@@mikadosannoji553 i have seen you before... but when... where?
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Its satisfying when they remember any part of it, and just feels hopeless otherwise
you get to a point where you don’t even remember the first song anymore
...until you learn it, that is.
I've been back here enough to be able to hum along quite happily to S1&2, but 3 still gets my nerves up and S4-6 still mostly gives me run-down planetarium vibes... 😕
It’s heartaches
@@normanclatcher 5 is scary to me
@@Shadow-wu4lg Yeah... same. 😔
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stage four is so scary to listen to, you try your hardest to piece together the tune but its impossible except for a few distorted notes. it probably reflects on how hard it is to remember complete things from the past - i couldn't imagine how terrifying that would be
I was thinking about the exact same thing. In stage 4 I was getting frustrated trying to piece together the tune but in stage 5 I just accepted defeat and was like "I guess this is life now"
The transition of phase 1 to 2 is exactly gave me the horrors, eeries, and horrid feelings, cus thats exactly the road that led you till phase 6
You just gotta relax yourself and know that the melody is there but its backwards, upside down, distorted, out of time, and out of key. That’s not really the point but I found it kind of relaxing to know even when everything is different its still the same kind of.
Stage 5 took that
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@@rosy-goldmoth ur the peak of comedy my guy
My sweet step grandpa had dementia, and I had become obsessed with EATEOT. I listened to parts of the album on a daily basis, not only because it was good, but because I wanted to try and understand what my grandpa was going through, to get a glimpse of his reality. He passed away three days ago, and yet it feels like an eternity. Grandpa... I miss you so much, and I have always missed you through out the last six years through out your battle with dementia...
My condolences... no one should ever experience this terrible disease... Wish you all the best.
@@TheFallenHuman53 Fun fact: Burning despair does ache and Mornful Cameraderie are stage 3 songs. Just wanted to let ya know. Adios for now!
sorry for your loss... my grandpa also suffered from dimentia and died around 7 years ago but luckily i was too young so i didnt really had time to know him.
me: *enters stage four*
ad: *cuts to funky jazz beat to someone pouring cheese on some mac and cheese noodles*
"Enters stage 4" is horrifying without context
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Well, that's stage 4 for you.
at el poyo loco we have freshly cut cheeses
The change from the original Heartaches to Stage 1 is staggering. It's definitely still recognisable, but sounds much more sinister, and it's clear that something terrible will come soon. I actually heard the Stage 1 version before the original and it didn't sound particularly off, but that "voice instrument"... That sounds so eerie to me now I know what it used to be.
With dementia what you remember turns into the instrumental edition.
@@evenrik_2214 lmfao
its the added reverb and static effect like a record. I think the music we listen to is of someone sleeping, dreaming of their music they listened to on their record player.
What “voice instrument?”
@@igneousorgan6435 the instrument used in place of the vocals
after listening to the caretaker's version, the original feels sped up, almost hectic
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Like as if it were 1930s nightcore lol
@@rosy-goldmoth no lo mire pero debe ser un Rick roll
Stage 6 is very unsettling It almost feels like your trapped in a loop of terror and frustration. Slowly forgetting who you are and what life is. Making you feel nothing
You’re*
@@philswift9705 bruh
THAT’S A LOT OF DAMAGE
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This is more of a stage 4 or 5 description, actually. By stage 6, you’ll have already been so desensitized by the extreme horrors and frustrations through stage 4 and 5. Which is why stage 5 says that the extreme repitition and rupture of your fluid memories can give away to calmer moments, and why the unfamiliar may sound and feel familiar instead. In stage 6, you’re introduced with the first track that reads “a confusion so thick that you forget forgetting.” Which means that you had forgotten what it was like to lose your memories since you’ve descended so far into the severe stages of Dementia. Stage 6 is mostly just white noises, as if your mind has been aching for the release of death for a while, and the droning sounds of what’s left of the neurons in your brain is all you can hear, signaling that death is very near.
stage 5 feels so calming and horrifying at the same time. idk when i listen to it i feel like im alone in space and i just found out something big that makes our lives seem small.
I resonate with stage 5 the strongest. It feels like I'm somewhat grounded and "here" but at the same time my mind is at the edge of the abyss, and about to fall soon.
It's like you're trapped in some kind of dark void, where you can see nothing but glimpses of your memories...
70 YO Me: Oh damn! This video is creepy. I can't imagine the pain of memory loss...
Also 70 YO me : *Scrolls down and finds a comment I wrote several years ago.*
*...*
*Stage 3 Starts Playing*
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@@rosy-goldmoth did you go into literally every comment posting links...
@@justinnelson9905 just report that bot
ye done
@@justinnelson9905 father?
Never realized, but at the beginning of stage one, you can hear the *same* void as in Stage six, for just a little time, maybe half a second
Actually, the Stage 6 is a mix of every track that used the sample - Heartaches - which is included in-video Stages 1 to 5.
@@TheFallenHuman53 Holy shit
@@TheFallenHuman53 I mean “The Void” from “Place in the world fades away” in the last moments before Terminal Lucidity
@RaptureAuscultation The singing only lasts about 5 minutes. What I’m talking about is The Death Organ, the 8 minutes before the singing.
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I think the Stage 2 track is the more eerie and depressing to me. Just overwhelming sadness takes over when I hear it. It resembles the artwork so perfectly, almost familiar and yet not right.
I think it's the musical interpretation of someone sobbing from despair. The strings and the brass sound so wailing.
Yeah it’s slowed down so much too, that level of grief that feels so overwhelming you can’t help but move slowly. And yes it does resemble deep sorrowful wails. Even stage 3 and heartaches doesn’t feel this sad.
Stage 2 freaked me out the most. The small distortions, and the anticipation in knowing that it's going to get worse, more disturbing, and horrific. It was also the only one I teared up during. I hear most people cry at the end, but Stage 2 is the only one that made me really emotional.
And then hearing that same track in the glitchy mess that is Burning Despair Does Ache was just honestly terrifying
@@John-X stage 2 reminds me of the feeling you get seeing a loved one with a recent cancer diagnosis. The obvious fear and denial that it will get better, we can overcome this.
When you want to listen to everywhere at the end of time but you only have 18 minutes of free time
But then the deeper you go into the songs, the more you forget about freetime
1st stage: Ok, I have 18 minutes, lets do this
2nd stage: Now I have 14-15 minutes left
3rd: I have around 10 minutes I think
4th: 10 minutes? Of what?
5th: Why am I listening to this?
6th:
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And you think Mournful Camaraderie Is distorted as Advanced plague Entanglements
im not the only one who deeply fears this entire album basically right
right
Why are you fearing about the album, not the disease that it's pointing to or is about?
Right. Holy cat, that's my worst trigger ever.
I think this might be the best way to "abridge" Everywhere at the End of Time. I've seen versions that mix the six stages together, getting the most important pieces (such as the final track in stage 6, where an angel choir gives way to sixty seconds of silence as the Caretaker's soul ascends into the afterlife), but none achieve the "effect" of the album like this one. Finding the same sample across all six stages really drives home the deterioration of the mind for someone looking to experience the full album but is unable or unwilling to.
It's worth noting that the official credit on the album reads "Audio remembered, disfigured and forgotten by The Caretaker."
In stage 6 of dementia, a person may start forgetting the names of close loved ones and have little memory of recent events. Communication is severely disabled and delusions, compulsions, anxiety, and agitation may occur.
Finally
Post-Awareness Stage 6 is now with description
@@boblobgobstopper13214 After listening to stage 6, I know why it is without description. There isn't much left to describe. Yes there were some weird sounds, but not much else.
The last 6 minutes though, I could definitely describe that
“A confusion so thick you forget forgetting” Memories last only seconds before they’re taken away
This terrifies me
my greatgrandma has dementia i cant type i just feel pain now.
@@izzyint you'll be okay. It's hard, but we're left with the memories we have of them before, and we can only hope they go with us for our time. Don't fear the reaper too much, as fast or slow as he may come, because no matter what we have what time we have. And we can at least try and make the best of it.
Stage 4 is my favourite here. The distortion here is especially horrific, it has transformed into a different song.
daaaaaaa
.................deeee
________________Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhh
While the song does appear in stage 4, the version in this video is just another song from the 3rd stage
@@kattman4605 IT DAAARRRREEEE
Stage 4 honestly caught be my surprise because of the distortion.
This is stage 3 actually.
I feel like the scariest part about this album and dementia, is that you can't really blame anyone
You could be poor and blame the rich
You could be sick and blame the person who gave the flu to you
You could get hurt and blame the person who hurt you
But with this, there's no entity attached to the horrors you're facing, you can't blame anyone for you losing your memory, you probably can't even think of anyone as your mind slowly falls apart and you lose everything you hold dear. Everything that made you, you, is being torn away by something that nearly impossible to control, and you don't even notice it
That's what scares me the most, the lack of control and understanding
Indeed, but its more terrifying when its happening to you and yet you're still blissfully unaware of its presence.
Leo
@ㅤ dementia can be caused by the decay of the brain, even without any disease you can still get it
Holy shit, you're right...
Some words shouldn't be conveyed because those scar you for the rest of the day.
I've been thinking about this comment, and it's a horrifing thought. Especially the "lack of control" ends up giving me the shivers.
@@higherquality you wont even remember that you have dementia so no worries
I believe that if you don’t want to listen to everywhere at the end of time fully this is the perfect video for that, this entire experience feels like when you’re thinking of a song but cant remember the melody.
"The worst thing about time passing is that everyone around you gets old and eventually forgets, the greatest fear everyone has even if they are not willing to admit it is losing themselves"
---- R 2021
“Music is a universal language, when one forgets their inner songbird they forget oneself.”
---H 2021
I was going to say I didn’t understand why this album freaked people out so much, and then I started listening to Stage 3
It’s so sad cause you soon know that everything you had will soon go to waste
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The old TV style makes it better;
15938902590589052908905908590th tek comment good to see you bro :)
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tbh I dont usually get scared of things that are fictional that are intended to scare you, like monsters and spirits and things like that.
but this LITERALLY makes me genuinely like. horrified. my heart is racing. it's so upsetting and emotional, but that's what makes it an amazing project.
Edit: oh god, the ending.
It’s because it’s not just some fake thing, it’s made about something real that could happen to anyone: dementia. And that’s more terrifying than any Hollywood monster or creepypasta could ever be.
This is terrifying in such a real way it’s genuinely unsettling to my core
It's the psychological horror that gets me
I skipped directly to stage six and it’s extremely distressing
it literally made me cry, because some people in my family had it
i dont want my parents to have it.
i dont want my other family members to have it.
i dont want me to have it.
Finishing this album is one hell of a challenge. It's like you forget even the horror you went through, and it's just unimportant garbled noise. Everything disappears and it rips you apart. I'm proud I braved it through. What a haunting experience.
I really appreciate this bite sized version of Everywhere at the End of Time. It displays the concept really well for the people who don’t have 6 hours to listen to the whole piece
This whole album just feels so... oddly familiar. I feel as if I’m 60 years old and recalling the old days, but as the memories fade I’m losing my mind. Really, no words can help me explain this feeling of hidden nostalgia
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You had Dementia in a previous lifetime
empathy
The images could be like liminal spaces in a way
I don’t know why but as the stages progress I get teary eyed and then eventually start crying
It's just started playing to stage 6 while typing this, and I got the same feelings.
I was crying and I couldn't stop for hours
Same, a burst of emotional crying just happened in the middle of stage 2, I don’t know why but it felt like I pent up all of this emotion, just to let it out once it escalates
I felt sad when it turned into stage 3
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If you need a mood booster, look in the suggested videos for "DIMENTIA BUT EPIC"
Oh. That ' 'reminds' ' me.
There's a "nightcore" version of the song.
@@normanclatcher oh lord..
@@normanclatcher oh god why
@Adhi Wicaksono i have no respect for nightcore
@@penners7046 I've heard about that one.
Winner gets a plaque, I think.
I think the artist nailed stage 5! There is this hypnotic hum that plays with jumbles of other sounds. It encapsulates how you are in a state of bliss and numbness and it gives you an odd sense of serenity because the droll of humanity is behind you. Yet, those odd chimes that echo remind you that there are still things that tether you to this plane, but they are so distant that you can’t give it form.
That hypnotic hum was what stood out to me.
Its called a drone
Stage 3 is the one that gets to me especially. The way the violin is played like at 8:28 is just so recognisable and haunting unlike the rest of the stages mostly. The first two stages seemed more relaxed and toned down like a person laying in bed just thinking they're okay and forget a few things like any old geezer would but this one feels like as if that same person that was in bed relaxed and sometimes confused now can't handle this issue and now out of their bed crying and begging for help because they has assured something is terribly wrong. I've been to nursing homes a few times in my life and in a few instances I heard an old man or woman screaming in some disturbed manner. Stage 3 to me is really that feeling.
Me: No, you can't just decay and make everything I see and hear weird and creepy
My brain: haha burning despair does ache
Me: I’m having a great day.
Everywhere at the end of time: (Confusion intensifies)
Me: Still having a great day.
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@@rosy-goldmoth Minecraft is better than roblox little kid.
@@HelloRasupuBegasu they both are good games doe
@@rosy-goldmoth cring
To me the visual representation of stage 5 is like a decaing and rotting brain.
The picture which represents the song in visual form...
strangely familiar, yet undistinguishable in any detail it has...
@@Crazylom Theres a shoe around the shoulder? Am I the only one who notices?
I find Stage 3’s particularly... disturbing. It shows no end, but makes you think of Stage 2’s, but no, different, yet the same...
I see a 19 century dressed woman posing with a cane on a set of stairs...
Alzheimer's literally eats away brain tissue. Look up before and after pictures.
Stage 5 is so depressing. It shows that the person cant recollect the memory other than a few bits and pieces which just leads to a overlap of pure calming ambience. The ambience represents the fact that mentally there is almost nothing there and they've accepted the fact and have succumbed to a mental void.
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They haven't accepted the fact, they forgot it. They don't remember that they can't remember anything.
@@florianvelling6427 stage 5 is snippits. 100s of them.
@@josephsullivan5830 I know. My point was that people with stage 5 dementia aren't able to accept that they are demented because they don't remember having dementia
This song would fit perfectly in a mystery game where you try to unravel your death by reliving your memories forgotten by dementia and in the end with the music completely distorted you realizing your tragic end and accepting whatever comes
As a game dev, i noted that, its a really good concept of a game.
That transition from the original song to “It’s just a burning memory” honestly scared the crap out of me.
This video gives me more encouragement to finish listening to the album
Take care, it'll be a rough trip.
Everything after the former half of Stage 5 just becomes ambience. You could literally sleep through Stage 6. That tells you what Alzheimer’s has in store for you... if you survive that long...
The deed is done. I was doing schoolwork when the album went from resembling music to barely resembling static. When I got to that point I was focused back to the album and realized again how alien everything had become. Then stage 6 rolled around and it was just so empty I had to take breaks in between and then that ending. I'm not sure if I ever want to re experience that.
Great job! Even I didn't fully experience with it. Yes, the last 3 stages was too hard to hear... but I would surely re-experience the first 3 tho. 🎵
@@TheFallenHuman53 Take care, it's a desert out there...
I didn’t recognize this song at all in stage 4 and beyond. I literally didn’t realize that it was anything I had heard before and I’m so thrown by that right now. I can’t believe I didn’t recognize it. But then I guess that’s what it would be like. That’s terrifying.
I have the big stupid and did not recognize that I had heard this song before in previous stages.
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i don't think it was you being the big stupid. that was the whole point of the album.
songs that you've heard before but broken and unrecognizable.
It looks like Jojo siwa
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@@rosy-goldmoth bro stop promoting cringe roblox channel. Its not related to this video
whenever I hear the "it's just a burning memory" anywhere beyond Stage 3, Im thinking that the person that is having dementia still thinks "it's just a burning memory", they are confused after all. And also hearing it in Stage 6 atleast the horns just makes my heart hurt, they still think that it's just a burning memory.
it's just a burning memory. kind of like fire, it will soon die out.
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This album breaks my heart... but I cant stop listening to it.
Same
this album made me fear dementia over anything else. the fear of being trapped in an empty mind grasping for anything but only grabbing at air
i can only imagine what that feels like. this album does a beautiful job with expressing the horror that is living with nothing. no thoughts. no memories. not knowing who you are or where you are
i fear that one day i could be stuck with this illness.
It's not really that bad for the person afflicted with the disease. At least during the later stages. They lack the awareness of pretty much everything - including their disease.
The fact that my grandad, such a caring and kind man, had to go through this is the most terrible injustice I've seen, at least with my own two eyes. I hope with all my heart and soul he is happy and at peace wherever he is.
Rest In Peace Grandad ❤
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@@rosy-goldmoth lmao what
My condolences my grandad went through this too
Before it starts:
Heartaches, heartaches
My loving you meant only heartaches
Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me
I can't believe it's just a burning memory
Heartaches, heartaches
What does it matter how my heart breaks
I should be happy with someone new
But my heart aches for you.
Stage 1:
Hertches, hertches
My loving you meant only heartahes
Your kiss was such a sacrd thing to m
I can't believe it's just a burning memory
eartaces, eartaces
What does t matter how my heart breaks
I shoud be happy with someone new
But y heart aches for you.
Stage 2:
Hetches, hetches
My loving you meant only heartahe
Your kiss was such a sacrd hing to m
I can't believe it's jst a brning memory
eartace, eartace
hat does t matter how my heart breaks
shou b happ wit someon ne
But heart aches for ou.
Stage 3:
Etches, Etches
y oving ou eant nly eartahe
our iss as uch acrd ing to m
an't elieve t's st a rning emory
artace, artace
at oes atter ow y eart reaks
hou app it omeon ne
ut eart ches or u.
Stage 4:
tche, tche
vin an i artah
u s c cr n
n liev nin mor
rtac, rtac
e tte ar eak
o p omeo
ar he.
Stage 5:
ch, ch
i rta
ie i o
ta, ta
t a
me
Stage 6:
ache
A C H E
Æ Ć H Ę
Ä̵̺̤́̚ ̸̜̈́͗C̴̲̟̀͗ ̷͔̆H̶͎̅ ̷̞͛E̷̔͊ͅ
Ą̴̨̨̨̡̨̡̢̢̧̧̧̡̧̨̡̧̨̧̛̛̛̛̛͕̞̮̣̲̣̗͎͉̘͉̰̱̤͎̮̲͕̞̯͙̩̫̻̣͇̤̬̟̭̗̮̪̙̞̲̲̞̖̖̮̩̭̗̳͈̳̯͍̝̥͍̫͇̦̩̖̤̼̱͎͇̺̲̯̫͎̻̦̻̳̞̗͇̮͍̪̗̬̬̳̻̪̬͕͖̲̥̝̬̖͈̼̖͚̪̘̠̯̲̱͙̯͍̘̼̭̠̤̜̦̳̼̭̳̱͓͕͖̯̦͍̞͎̩̮̺͙̺̳̯̱͍̬̖͇̰͚̱͈̩͉̣̼͖̝̤̜̫̗͇̞̺̜͕͇̖̟̮͎̼̣̜̖͍͎̥̠̯̰̦͚̼͎͎͔̬̜̘̯̺͖̗͎̗̼̜̼̹͇͔̞̣̻̱͕̱̫̩͚̲̯͔̯͕̘̬̦͙̪̻̘̪͖͍̯̭͖̲͎̬͓̬̘̺̘̞͈̲̭̻̣̰̻̰̗̏̌̌̈̏͐̀̂͐̔̑͋̇͊̀̆͂̂̓̅̒̄̂̈̅̾̑̊̎̊̋̂̎̔̅̎͌̌̀̓̈́̋̑̾͗̒͆̍̈́̑͂̒̌̐͑͐̓̈̐̓̃̾̉̈̈̑̂͒̆̊́͗͋͛̒̂̋̅͐̏̈́̍́̊̂͋̔̒̔̇̐̈́̃͋̾̉͋͒͛̔́̓̀̑͑̂͑̎̌́͆͛̅̌̓̋͊̃̑͐̇̒͆͑̃͑̾̌͆͑͂̾̑̋̃̊̌̄̏͑̀͌͒̎͑͊̐͋͛́͗̓̿́̊̆̄͒̂͗̇̏̄̍̄̓̊͐̈́̉̏̂͐̑̊̀̂̈́̈̂̍͌̀͆̈̃͛́̄̌͗̽̇̅͒̀͋̓͊͒̀̋̾͒̐̆̾͑̑̍̊̑͌͒͆͗̿̀̾̎͂̈́͊̀͘̚͘͘͘̚̚͘̚͘̕̚̚̚͘̚̕͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͠͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͠͝͠͝͝͝͝ͅͅͅͅͅ ̷̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̱̘̤̖̬̮̤̮̠͍̩͇̘̪̎͒̋̾̑̒͛̈́͋̄̀̈́̈́̉̃̀͑́̐͒́̿̊͒͊͋̏̀̐̿̔́͐́̂̓̃͌͐͌̅̍̆̆̇̈́̀̿͐͋́͋̿̈̅̾̏͗̾͆̑̄̍̒͛̃̃͑̐̈͛̉́͆̿́̿͆̿͗̒͑̽̊̍́̈͛̈́̌̍̈̈̎̿̑̇̈͂̄̔̄̎́́͗͆̌͐̋̎̂̓̒̂͂̈̉̑͗͌̽̀̔̔͒̒̍̒̍͌̐͌̀͋̒̐̏̂̀̓͋̌̔̄̋͋͆̉͛̏͋̎͛͂̒͆́͒̈͗̒̑̂̊̃͑̾̈́̿̿̄̉̌͛͐͒̓̆͐͊̈̋́̽̌͌̀̓͌̀͌̎̀̉̈́̒̿͊̓̍͂̑͐͐̈̄̆̾̍͛͗̀̌̑́̒̽̈́̊̋͂̽̿̈̾͂́̆̉̂̓̓̓͊̈́̚̕̚͘͘͘̚̕̕͘̕͘̕͠͝͠͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝͝͠͝C̷̢̨̧̧̧̧̧̡̢̨̢̨̨̨̡̧̧̡̧̧̡̬̼̫̘̳͎̳͈͕̪̖͔͇͇̺̺̺̠͉̝̩̤̯̗̠͇̼̭̤͔̖̻̳̣̮̗̝̜͉̖̬̗̦͔͕̗͈̮͔͎͎̱̥̺̻̼̝̼̦̤̬̱̞̤̻͓͙͓̰̰̱̼̲̥̲̪̟̳̖̬͈̦͕̫͔̭͚̜̰͎̣̘̭͈͎̫̳̲͉̥̩̹͎̮̟͕̼̯̦̫̩̭̰̲̮͎̰͕̝̠̦̙̤͉̠̲͉̪͖̼͚̦̜̹̹̺̮̥͓̰̯̹̮̰̳͉̦̐̉̊̐̓͆́͆̈́̿̂͘̚͜͜͜͝͠ͅ ̸̢̢̧̧̨̡̨̛̛̛̛̺̫͇̗̯͍̞͚̜̬̝͎̬̻̟̞̥̠͔̯̪͎͉̥̩̪̰̣̹͔̙͓͈͉̬͇̪͈͚͖̻̖̘̬̗̯̼̬̠͎̪̝̟̗̬̠̠̣̗͖̟̳̻̲̬͔͓̳̥̥͙̣̠̫̪̩̖̫͖̀̽̂̅̔͊̆̒̽̍͊̈́̌͋̓̏͑̄̇̇̊̔̎́͒̅̏͋̒̔͗͆͒̈́̒̔̄́́̆̐̏̇̉̓͊̐͆̒͆̄̍̍̓̉͋̿̅̃̍͆̒̀̌͌͑̈́̄́̇͐͗̈́́̐̑̌̏̉̔̽̓̾͊̈́̍́̅͆̿̒̀̓̈͑́̆͆͛͆̒̆̈́̽̀̈̿̀͊͂̽̆͗̋̍̆̓́̍͌͗̔͌́̇̃̃̏͛̽̇̈̍̌̎͊͐̓̏̐̅̽̊̃̓͊́͛͆́̈́͆̽̉͋̏̎̋̆̈́̂͗͗̑̎̊͒̄̆̓̂͆͋͛̿̽͛͗̀͒͂̃̔͑̆̈̏̍̂͂̔̃̌̀̌̏͛͊͒̀̏̄͗̊́̾̏͆͆̀͛̉̍͂̋̓̀̀̇̎͒̂͐̌̈̎̈̄͋̕̕̚̕̕͘͘̚͘̚̕̚̚͘̕͘̕̚̕̕͘͘̕͠͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͝͝͠͠͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝͠͝ͅͅͅḨ̴̡̡̨̛̛̛̛̛̛̙͎̫͙̘̝̳̲̞̹͙͇̪̺̮̫͍̘̥̜͉̹͙̬̫͖͇̱̥̈̌́̽̋̅̊̃͆͑̍̈́̇̿͂̆̔̃̓͌́̄͌̂̎̈́̎͋̓̃͆́̔̀̋͛̈́̍̌̏̅̑̀̀̋̅̐̉̊̓̓̍̑̎͌͒̽̽̇̈́̎̑̋̆͊͋̉̃̐̀̉͛̂̓̋͗̂̍̾̓͌̈́̍͗̆̈́́̓́͗̏̐̎͋̉̈͋̆́̌̆͋̂̀͋̇͂̑̾͊͊̐̾͑̔̀͋̇̒̂̇̉̌̎̋͊̐̌͂̽͒́͂́̎̒̎̂̋̉̆̄̔͑̏̅͒̊͂̈̈́̒̈́̍̐̓͑̓͑̇͒̃̓́͐̈͌̏̋̈́̑̅͆̀̍͑̽̇͒̊͒̏̓̂̊̈́̅̽̽̑͒͊̊̐́͂̓̀̈́̀̃̂̇̈̐̋̊́̈̈̄̆̓̋̌̒̃̊͑̿̄̓̇̈̓́̃̃͋̐̍͛̀̐͆̒̋͗͗̇̔̌̈́̈́̓̾́̍̃̍͐̾͗̽̈́̕͘̚͘͘̕͘͘̕͘̚̕̚̚͘̚̚͘͘̕͠͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͝ ̴̨̨̢̢̨̛̛̛̛̛̗̠̞̺̖̰̥̬̩̫͇̞͓̩̟̞̪̱͔̲̠͉̭̺̣͔͚̟̫̰͔̣̗͎̮̦̮͇̗̘̖̗͓̮̝͎͈̤͖͈͍͓̗͉͖̰̤̝̫̼̦̺̰͎͓̹͚̯̥͇͕̻̯̘̪̥̪͈͇͇͚̩̤̮̬͍͍̱̩͈̼̜̰̘̹͈͈̘̰̟͇̬̮̝̙̼̼̻͈̗͙͔͚̹̮̯̘͓̙͈͕̞̉̊̆̉̈̐̑̎̔̎̔̎͐̍̈́͆̈́͐͛͂̂̀̈́̃͐̎̑̈́̈̈́͛̊̄̈̈́̿̑̀̈͊̒̉̂͆͋̂̀̎́̓̎̈̐̔͆̀̍̋͐͋̍̓̾͐̃̓͑̈́̽̋̊̾̋̃̑̌̄̆͒̆́̍̈͐̋́̆͑̂͛́̾̎͒̉̂̈̾̂̃̈̃͛͂̑̄̀͋͒͛͑͂̋́͑̏̒̎͊̄̇̀̔̊͂̏̈́̏̉̀͋̔͛̇̎́͒̎̂̓̀̾͗̽̽͂̄̔̂͋̑̑͐̇̉̓̽̊̆̋͆̓̏́̀̈̒̅̐̒͌̆̊̉́͋̂̍̽͂̎̃̏̈́͒̊̓͛͐̃̿̀̕̚̕̚̚̕̕̕̚͘̕͘͘̕̚͘͘͘̕͜͜͜͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͠ͅͅͅḘ̸̢̧̢̢̢̡̡̨̨̡̢̨̧̨̧̢̨̢̛̛̛̱̯̥̤̝̠͙̭̞̪͔̼͙̭͕͉̺͍̻̼̬͉͎̥͖͍̭̮͍̻̗͓̠̗̖̩͕͔̤͇̘̳͚̰͍͈͚̤̱̠͉͍̦̻̹̞̱̗̹͍͉̻͖̘̥̪̮̘̱̠̗̞͎̗͓̻̩̗͙͓͎̗̬̦̭̮̹̼̥͙̰̼͔̼̫̹̠̻͚͇͓͕̠̻̹͔̗͖̭͍͚̼̦̘̱̥̗̬̗̰̤̲͓̟̰̯̤̥̺̦̼̪̫̟̹̻̼͙̯͉̫̺͓̳̙̺͚̳̹̜̹̘̣͚͇̲̺͍̬͙̲̮̗̖̍̄̌͗̌̏̾̓̀̈͑̋͊̆̃͐̾̀͌̑̂̑̔͋̄͋̎̓̏͂͐͆́̇̃̔̑͆͑͆̉̎̉͂̽͗̔̏̅̐́́̆̆̇̑́̆̔͊̀̊̆̾̎̓̈́̽͆̐̽̀̐̓̓͑͘̕͜͜͠͝͝͝͝͝ͅͅ
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2:37 The repeating of that one note genuinely caught me off guard. 😯 If you wanted to frighten me, good job! Now It's just a burning memory sounds even more haunting. 👍
Was thinking about making a 'smooth' transition, so I...
@@TheFallenHuman53 Don't get me wrong, it *is* a smooth transition, I just didn't expect it, having heard the original, unedited Al Bowlly version now quite many times. :D Let's say the startling effect is an added bonus that makes the progression even more foreboding.
Same, I just got spooked really hard
@@irispaiva frrr. Shit like that makes me jump
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Stage 6: the recognizable and unrecognizable no longer function as separate things, but go hand in hand together as they make their way through your conscience. There is nothing there to be familiar with, because it too is unfamiliar. Once it’s over you feel as though nothing has changed, because it hasn’t. You don’t feel horror, you don’t feel confused, horror and confusion have already felt each other, and you’ve felt them too, but still can’t bring yourself to say that you know horror and that you know what it is to not know. You have already been, and you know that, but you have a sense of furthering something even after everything has been developed to its fullest. Something is in front of you, within reach, in fact you have it and are developing it now, but the more it develops, the more grip on the goal at hand is lost. And before you know it, you realize you weren’t doing anything with it to begin with. The description is that there is no description, and that is everything there is to know. No interpretations, no hidden meaning or secrets, nothing. Actually there’s not even nothing. There is not. That’s it. Blank. There is no description is an overstatement. And that overstatement is what was being attempted on for developing, or rather the idea of its development being brought further out and at some point into reality and into true meaning. There is nothing at the end of time. There are all things everywhere. We are attempting to look at an idea of all things nonexistent. We can only ponder the true essence of what stage 6 stands for, but that’s all we can do, and all the creator intended we do, think about it. Think about what is not, and remember forgetfulness.
Bro, this is some deep shit, I’m very impressed! 😨
same
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Playing this at 3am alone in an RV in the middle of nowhere hits different. I had to stop at stage 4 and pray.
Listening to this and thinking about what I didn't notice when I listened to the full album... It's making me sick to my stomach. I think this is part of the genius of Everywhere at the end of time: it's so long and disorienting that I couldn't recognize the repeating songs at all. Nothing but a vague, misplaced familiarity that grows more and more distant as you progress through the stages. How did that song go? Have I heard that phrase before? Are these instruments?
It's insane how well crafted the album was. How well it makes you question reality. Of course, it probably helped that the artist actually had dementia...rip.
John Doe The Caretaker?? He actually has dementia??
@@AlecNormalThe Caretaker is a fictional character portrayed by musician Leyland Kirby. The character had dementia and died shortly after the release of Everywhere at the End of Time.
Quinn Wolf Ooooh. I see, I thought “The Caretaker” was the name he went by as an artist
Yes! When stage 4 started and the version to this song played I sounded so damn familiar and I thought of this sample but it's so unrecognizable that something told me it was just my imagination
Currently obsessed with EATEOT but I can't handle listening to the full album a third time so thank you for this! It's so cool hearing this one song progress and distort
ive listened to the full version like over five times now and and the entirety of stages 4 to 6 like over ten times and as a result at times when i hear something that produces white noise like a fan or a running faucet it sounds like its making faint distorted music for a bit shortly after listening to the post awareness stages
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why, grandma, you must be ill! we just did that yesterday, did we not?
:(
Fucking
Terrifying...
My own grandmother has begun to show signs of memory loss and I fear intensely she’s at stage one...
@@gambe96 i lost my grandpa to coronavirus a few months ago and he had been showing memory loss signs and alzheimer's symptoms for the last couple years. my family and I were seeing it every day.
today i discovered this album and now I'm convinced that he probably was at stage 2 already when he passed out. this has made me a bit relieved that he died before it could have gotten any worse. at least he lived aware all of his time here.
@@alexis-zm6tx I haven't experienced losing one to dementia but he is lucky to not have to go through forgetting everything, himself and everyone he cares about.
@@alexis-zm6tx Wow that's horrifying to think about... sorry about your lose
I love how you added a stage 0 and condensed it down to 18 minutes. Most people don't have six and a half hours to listen to this masterpiece.
My grandfather is showing early signs of dementia and I’m scared for him to lose the memories he has of his past. The stories he always tells us are really interesting. I don’t want to lose that, something so precious. Memory is what makes relationships, and without them we have nothing...
Dang, I am really sorry to hear that... Hope you two spent some more precious time toghether, cherish what it still last.
Is he okay still??
@@Pagglet he’s currently in a facility for physical recovery due to him neglecting his own health, but yes he’s doing well!
There’s actually another progression you missed that’s halfway through stage one. It’s B1. It’s slower than A1 but still more coherent than the one in stage 2.
Nah, the B1 is used the song "It look like rain in cherry blossom lane"
Here's the link: ua-cam.com/video/eneqGi4u5H0/v-deo.html
And actually, A1 & B1 do sounds like each other at some parts tho...
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@@TheFallenHuman53 Thats the joke.
I just realised that several of the song titles across the albums that feature this song, have lyrics from the song.
"It's just a burning memory" - a line directly from the song
"What does it matter how my heart breaks" - another line from the song
"And heart breaks" - same line as previous, but some of it is missing... perhaps symbolizing how the person is forgetting the lyrics...
"Burning despair does ache" - contains the words "burning" and "ache" which are part of the lyrics... but just single words, and from different sentences, all jumbled up... if you weren't specifically thinking of this song, you wouldn't recognize these words from it at all.
After this, there are no real semblances to the lyrics anymore. However, if you want to go into a bit of "over-analyzing" territory...
"Mournful cameraderie" - The original song is about being sad about someone you used to love. I think the title is the person desperately trying to remember what the song was about. And the closest thing he or she could get, was that it was about something sad, and something having to do with the company of another person, or "mournful camaraderie". It's also worth pointing out that the word camaraderie is misspelled, perhaps another symbol of them forgetting words and losing touch. Also... "mournful cameraderie" rhymes with "it's just a burning memory"... could also be a sign of them trying really hard to remember the words, and can only come up with a sentence that has the same rhyme.
"C'est fini" or "it's over" in french - I think they have given up trying to remember it. Their memories are not coming back. It's over.
(C'est fini also rhymes with "memory" by the way... perhaps, after everything... that one rhyming syllable never truly was forgotten.)
I also want to add. I have listened to the original Heartaches song several times by now. (It's just really good.)
The part where he sings "I can't believe it's just a burning memory" is by far the most memorable part of the song. I don't know why, I just think the melody of that sentence is really enjoyable.
Leyland Kirby is a genius.
Edit: I just wanted to appreciate the detail you added on the last one where there is ash flowing over the screen. Almost like... it's just a burning memory.
Damn, I never thought of that these song titles are so meaningful behind their names. Surprisingly, your "over-analyzing" make so much sense, you really amazed me.
Leyland Kirby sure do have a great, wonderfully genius mind.
Thank you.
Stage two's name is missing matter from the name so there's a little confusion there.
@@TheFallenHuman53 stage 4 looks like JoJo’s siwa
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@@rosy-goldmoth Comedy, you belong to the circus my guy.
Stage 6:
*Post-Awareness Stage 6 is without description.*
*OH NO.*
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This is so well made. One thing that shocked me (and I noticed others have said the same thing) is how spooky and "off" the song for Stage 1 ("Just a Burning Memory") sounds, juxtaposed against the original song "Heartache." In Kirby's album, you think the Stage 1 song sounds normal, because of how weird and off Stage 2 sounds, but with nothing coming before it. Having never heard "Heartache" before, I had no idea just how eerie and sinister Stage 1 actually is.
Stage 2 seriously creeps me out. Listening to it makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable, even paranoid and jumpy. I tried to analyze why. Compared to Stage 1 (and the original), it's slowed down and the horns and violins have a sour, sliding quality. The mood is one of great mourning, grief, and dread, which I'm sure Kirby was trying to convey. Somehow the music also sounds both as if it's both very far away and coming from inside a person's head at the same time. The same can be said of Stage 3, which sounds even more distant and also begins to introduce a lot of reverb and dissonant notes that just don't seem to belong.
Stage 4 through 6 are utterly terrifying.
I like how we hear the actual song at first and as it continues the song becomes so distorted that we can barely even recognize it anymore.
Just finished EATEOT in entirety then went to this. This feels like an accurate abridged version of that album.
Personal note:
The transition from Heartaches to Stage 1 shocked me; it sounds similar when listened separately, but when back to back it sounds eerie. At least there's you can recall the joyful memories of youth.
Stage 2 sounds really sombre, the moment you reached learned helplessness holding that cherished memories, especially paired with previous piece (A losing battle is arising).
Stage 3 is like you're trying to embrace the memories as long as you possibly could, before it starts to crumble in Stage 4.
Stage 4 is you still remember the face of that memories, but you start to forget why you cherished them in the first place, nor why does it feel familiar.
Stage 5: the face of your family and friends are nothing but shapes; shapes that you know but you can no longer recall.
There is no stage 6 but you, six feet under the ruins of rememberance. Nothing matters but to wait for Death to play the memory montage one last time before s/he takes your heart, finally letting your body to follow suit.
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@@rosy-goldmoth you are literally the worst what are you doing with your life where you think this is appropriate get out of here you creep
What are the odds though...that in some major motion picture or Netflix series soon, one of the few million who heard this set of albums uses Heartaches unaltered in a rather romantic, historical, or even wistful, memory loss related fashion in an important scene, and it causes a not-insignificant backlash from viewers after it comes out, either those who know where it's from, accusing the show of being exploitative and potentially because those informed ones watching have sudden mental health attacks, or even causing similar effects to those who don't have _any_ prior context? I imagine if they _actually_ straight up used tracks _from the Caretaker himself,_ then the odds of all that I just described happened increase exponentially since it would actually be distorted to a significant extent, even 1, though beyond that sample and stage would have to be a pretty horror based context already, even 2 and 3, because I imagine that wouldn't be very subtle at all once the audio gets _that_ distorted.
Al Bowlly's music was already featured to that effect in 'The Shining', and it actually was a huge inspiration for Kirby to start producing this form of music.
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i think this album has exceeded my mental capacity
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God the last minute is terrifying. For a second you can definitely hear it, but immediately after you’re uncertain again
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It's such an interesting way to compile it. It's so.... brutal. I've seen many elderly people die with dementia, and it is heartbreaking to watch these shells of people to fade away into nothing. It puts a comprehension to something I have already seen many times. I understand a horror I've never understood before now.
Let’s play 6 at my sleepover
@cool it's my sleepover and I choose the Dementia music!
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@@abuckarooboyo7104 Wait, I was at a sleepover again? Whos house is this?
Alright, tracking my reactions as it goes along.
Stage 0-3 I’m ALREADY highly unsettled. I’m kind of depending on this comment writing to keep me down to earth haha, this puts a pit in my stomach.
Stage 4: the transition didn’t startle me as much this time, but I feel worse each time. It feels like I’m losing the music. It’s like I’m getting so much older. It makes me scared
Stage 5: this is still creepy, but as the description says, I feel it’s a little more calming. This feels like a nice break tbh. Still scares me that I can barely remember the original tune now, though. It feels kinda empty...
Stage 6: finally. Not as horrible as I thought it would be, but almost. There’s almost nothing left here. Every time I here bare, scratched remnants of the original song, my eyes water a bit. It feels like I’m in a back room of sorts; everything is still and in reverse at the same time. I can’t recognize anything but the static of the record.
WOW OMG THAT WAS A JOURNEY 😭😭 I’m gonna be sick
In the original, the best parts of stage 5 and 6 are these ones
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god, stage 5 has me desperately trying to grip onto and find the parts i remember
im in stage 5 right now and im going fucking insane
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to me, its much easier to understand this than the actual album, since with this is simply listening to the deterioration of one song, rather than the equilivant of ones many memories.
The fact that it goes from happy with the vocals and happy music to just....empty and broken melodies with distorted sounds makes this one of the most saddest pieces of music I've heard.
My Grandma has dementia and when I talk to her, I just really feel like there is something missing. Like a soul crushing emptiness that isn’t noticeable at first glance (that’s the best way I can put it.) She sometimes has moments where she gets really upset and tries to “go back home to her family” but her children grew up. Luckily, my Grandpa is there by her side to help her during these times, but the feeling of her just being so confused and angry, her mind trapped in a time that is already long gone is really scary for me to think about. I could never imagine forgetting everything that happened around me, but this really put into perspective what she’s been going through in a way.
This is so heartbreaking to hear. I am sorry for your grandma's illness. Wish the best for you and your grandma.
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I am in the exact same boat as you, my grandma also has dementia and she's sadly in her late stages of it, this album really speaks to me because it is almost exactly like what she's going through and what my family is going through it's devastating, and the worst part is, it never gets better, and it only gets worse. The best thing to do is to remember the good days and to cherish the small things that she can remember.
I'm in the same situation as you, I feel frustrated because I can't help my grandmother. When I go to talk to her, she repeats things from 50 YEARS ago, which drives me crazy. I feel guilty and sad, because I know that it is getting closer to the end with each passing day.
And i cant even do anything. I feel sad. I cant accept the fact that someday she will forget about me, and my parents, my grandfather, etc..
Burning Despair Does Ache and Mournful Camaraderie feel like the same moment from two points of view. The first the Caretaker clearly suffering and seeing everything from his damaged POV. Mournful camaraderie feel like that same moment from the families perspective. Watching their loved one slip away into post awareness.
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*lyrics*
Heart aches, Heart aches, by loving you, there's only heart aches- your kiss was such a sacred thing to me..
I can't believe it's just a burning memory!
Heart aches,Heart aches
What dose it mater?! oh my heart brakes.
I should be happy with someone new.. but my heart aches for you
*ur welcome (;*
sacred not secret
Does* breaks*
How my heart breaks*
What does it matter how my heart breaks.
They're all wrong. I think you completely misremembered the lyrics.
.........
Wait...
Some notes for people who haven't actually heard EATEOT:
1. The parts representing "stage 4" and "stage 5" are actually from stage 3. "And heart breaks", "Burning despair does ache", and "Mournful camaraderie" are all on the same stage.
2. The stage 2 piece as well as the latter two stage 3 pieces are from a different recording of "Heartaches", done by Seger Ellis, with different instrumentation.
2. The "stage 6" piece sounds like an original composition in the style of a track from stage 4, I don't remember anything like this from EATEOT (the latter stages of EATEOT usually have many different songs playing at once, this is clearly entirely made up of samples from both versions of "Heartaches")
And these are the most coherent part of Everywhere at the End of Time. Let that sink in.
When I heard the leitmotif show up, it was a breath of fresh air. Then I remembered how fleeting it was. Back to
Oh my god I didn't even notice that the titles of the song are heartaches but described in different ways until it doesn't make sense
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You can actually listen "Heartaches" in stage 4, it's on the first song and it starts to sound like it at 15:38, I think it starts a little before that minute mark but i don't "remember" quite well ;)
There’s also B1 in the middle of stage 1.
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Why does my brain hurt when listening to this
I could ask the same
I had a huge headache when I started to listen to this
HEADACHES
HEADACHES
WHAT DOES IT MATTER HOW MY MIND BREAKS?
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If it’s at the beginning it’s because the music boring.
Don't worry about it, dude. Everything's gonna be F I N E. 🙂
thIs is the strongest memory in the caretaker i think, because even in stage 5 you can occasionaly hear it, even when all else is lost to chaos, heartaches still flares back for a few seconds here and there. maybe they fell in love listening to this song, maybe they were friends with the guy who created it. whatever it is, it caused this to be the longest memory.
The scary thing is that even people born in the 1910's to 1900's grew up with this music and they will be long gone by now, someone who was born in that time would be 110 - 20 now. That is a 1 in 500,000 chance of someone from then surviving for 110 years.
I don't know how I got here. I was just looking up the fact that all of a sudden a bunch of Old Songs that were Recorded and made a Hundred Years ago are Public Domain Now and then I found this project that remixes a bunch of them to show the fate of pretty much everybody who was alive who listened to those songs back then.
It's kind messed up if you think about it.
I can't believe I did this whole album today... I feel disturbed.. uneasy.. and haunted. That was the wildest 6 1/2 hours I've ever listened to. It's one thing to have a connection with a song when you're going through some kind of heartache like the end of a relationship or the death of someone close to you... But it's an entirely different feeling to have a connection with a song for no reason and feel that connection quite literally deteriorate and fade away over the course of several hours to the point of having your brain believe that you forgot the song. This album takes you on an experience like no other piece of music will. 6 1/2 hours is a lot to ask a listener to sit down and experience, but for those brave enough, it's completely worth it. I promise you, you won't ever find and feel something like this from another piece of music.
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Here’s the thing: I listened to it in chunks, for example, I listened to the first stage one day, the second stage the next day, and so on. It gives more of a realistic feeling, like checking up on the dementia patient. I decided to listen to stages five and six on the same day though, I felt like I was in too deep at that point and I just wanted to finish it. Another thing I highly recommend is that before listening to eateot, listen to an empty bliss beyond this world (made by the same composer of eateot), and once you’re done with eateot, listen to everywhere an empty bliss, as that album feels like a final send off to the caretaker. Kind of like the caretakers funeral, rather than him being in heaven.
I would definitely do it if i was patient
Ahh, yes quite. 🙂
The days of my youth.
Spent thinking of you.
It's just a burning memory...
crackling, and burning...
smoldering... flickering...
still... warm? Yes... something here...
glows faintly... faint... fainter still...
f-f-feign? feu... remains... rubble...
f... f... fwuh? such haze... can't... see...m to. . .?
som- s- sm- _smoke..._ could that... bebright?
Ashesh... ashess the damnage dun... ash I re c a ll l.. . .
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This comment scares me-
-never forget- nothing is scarier -
Terrifying.
I’ve seen this before what is it from?
@@ss_flopz I don't see how you could've seen this somewhere else. This was an original work, based on language devolution and how I felt as I listened to the music.
The only line I even remotely recognize as having been lifted from somewhere is "the days of my youth."
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hearing the lyrics to Heartaches really makes the titles of the tracks off the album feel like gut punches :(
"it's just a burning memory"
"how does it matter how my heart breaks?"
The phrase "it's just a burning memory" actually gives me chills now
Everyone gangsta listening to this at around 1am till they accidentally fall asleep and have a dream where the songs are still playing on a burnt radio
gonna tell my grandchildren mournful cameraderie was ambient music back in my day
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listening to the whole album then listening to heartaches normally feels so strange... Like you had a near-death experience and returned to normalcy a moment after
terminal lucidity
Thx, this helped
@@Arhidilius terminal lucidity?
@@aquarius5264lol, no. Listening to heartaches helped me to bring myself back to normal mood after this album
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What is that man in the mirror?
Staring at me with those eyes.
He scares me more when he smiles.
The more I look, the more I get scared.
Familiar feeling, like the creature who follows me.
Always following, always staring, always moving.
He lurks in the dark, doesn't say a word.
The more I look, the more I get scared.
Who are the people inside this house?
What is this house?
The more I look, the more I get scared.
They scare me more with their words.
"Please, remember"
What does that mean?
Wait, what is that man in the mirror?
What... house
Man- irror
Who?
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h..
home.
wher-where am..
who... where...
Wh-..
W....
Ple-
Who-
Re-
Ahz....
Gahvc.....
Who are you people?
A, b, d... Wait, it wasn't like... What I was say... What? O never... I... I... What is h.. Help m... What?... O never... Hello? Anyone h... Where am... What?
my great grandmother died last year. she was 97. she started to get dementia when i was very young, probably around 5 (im 12 now) but it started to get serious when i was about nine or ten. that was a couple of years ago.
she was sent to a care home for her last year. my grandma (her daughter and only remaining close relative) visited her twice a week.
but she died.
R.I.P nanna.
1923 - 2020
Sorry for your loss :^(
Listening to them back to back makes me so sad like the music is trying its hardest to play the melody but it just can't
Just like someone with dementia trying their hardest to remember something...I get it
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