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As a teenager with PTSD, this hits me hard. I’ve been listening to you for years and it’s always helped me through my hardest times. I’ve had so many people tell me I’m wrong for having PTSD because I’m “too young”, or never been in war. But this illness is caused by more than war and any age can have it. Thank you Citizen Soldier for being with me, this song will always be one of my favorites.
Your emotions are absolutely valid and real, people trying to invalidate that are wrong, plain and simple. I hope you can manage not to let words like that affect you too much and perhaps find some further help through therapy. All the best
I’m 22 and I have had ptsd since I was 8 so I understand your pain @Rei I hope you get better and find the best ways to cope with it, mine is listening to music or punching a punching bag
I got PTSD at 13 and just found their songs when this one released. I definitely agree that music helps disorders and nobody is to young for it. And yeah..it helps other disorders as well
Honestly the fact you say if he's on the trauma of what used to be just hit my hard too hard it makes me think of my trauma and I want it to just go and leave me alone
This describes exactly what I feel. My dad was very physically abusive and my mom was very emotionally manipulative. All I remember is the memories and it causes me panic attacks. All night and everyday all I do is replay the memories. It’s like I’m alive but trapped in the memories. Amazing job capturing what people feel when memories haunt them.
I related to "Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy" It's how I feel a lot of the time. I feel like my memories are keeping me awake, and ashamed of what I remember in the past, it's like a monster on my shoulders that was made of things I wished to forget. You guys are truly amazing, and I hope you keep doing what you are doing. And don't forget to look after yourself too! Since you do so much for us! So many songs in one week is crazy! I loved them all!
This is exactly what i needed at this point in my life. I'm currently in therapy for PTSD and in my last session, we talked about this very topic. Thank you citizen soldier, you deserve so much more credit than you are getting.
My life has been okay lately, but my thoughts are making me so afraid that I'll be the reason it gets bad. You guys always release music at the perfect time. Stay gold 💙
Holy Heck, you guys are on a grind this week! Or at least posting wise! You guys are amazing and I hope you guys are taking breaks! These songs are helping me through my dark days and I wanna let you guys know how must h your songs mean!
To all those who need to hear this. You are loved. You are wanted. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. “No pain, no gain.” You are all living proof of these quotes. Your abuse hurts and will probably continue hurting but this will make you a stronger person. Your bravery and strength to hold on will be rewarded in the future. Don’t give up now because there is so much out there worth living. If you die, you’ll never experience the joy and happiness of life. You’re your own jury, your own judge. Don’t look at others. Only look at yourselves because you matter. You always have, ever since you were born, and you always will. “Every child deserves a parent but not every parent deserves a child.” You aren’t the monster. Whoever is torturing you is. Love yourself and others will love you. Respect yourself and other will respect you. “Your abuse is your glory” as Citizen Soldier has said in one of his songs. Your abuse is your glory and the story you will write in your future. No one is like you. God makes everyone different and if you die. Your uniqueness dies with you. No one wants that. If your loved ones can’t see that then they are not truly your loved ones. There is no one else like you. Don’t think you are inferior. Everyone is the same. What matters is what’s in your heart, nothing else. Remember that and live your life to the fullest so one day, you can look back and say “I really did it all.” Live life with no regrets and leave this world happily knowing you experienced everything you’ve ever wanted. Karma will punish those who’ve hurt you and Karma will reward you for your glorious bravery. You’re the next generation and the warriors of this world. You’re special. One day this world will see that. Everyone who’s ever doubted you will see that. You don’t need anyone’s approval other than your own. Never forget that and live a life full of love, happiness and fulfilment. We’re all with you :) Sorry if I started rambling but seeing all these comments about how people have suffered just made me want to say this to everyone who needs it. I hope you don’t mind if you’ve read all the way to here and sorry if I wasted your time but I’ll always be here for anyone who needs to vent.
My friend, I’m so sorry but I don’t have facebook. I don’t really know what discord is but if it can be accessed on ipad without the app then I’d be happy to help :)
It's the weight of things that gets a person and many many years of no happiness, even when a person has tried very hard for happy times, but awesome rant, alot of people need to hear that
"But I know the devil, and he told me I'm fine What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger That's what everyone keeps tellin' me I'd rather capsize than chase an old horizon" -5fdp
Thank you, Citizen Solider. You have saved my life, and many, many others. We all hope y’all are doing okay and enjoying where you’re at in life rn. Have a great day ☺️💙
My mental health has been in the toilet as of late and these songs seriously help me cope. Hell, I used I'm Not Okay to convey to my husband just what exactly is going on in my head. I appreciate you guys so freaking much. You have no idea.
This will be blasting on my phone for a long while. As someone who do have traumas, this is on point. Many nights I stay awake or have nightmares about these. Sometimes waking up with tears in my eyes. It's not always easy to live with this. Being paranoid that it can happen again... But I keep my head up and try to keep going forward. Kicking my ass to move on 💙
Amazing, powerful song!! The simple line, "Of what used to be" made my cry. I wish it was all in the past, but more of these "memories" that are killing me are being made every day.
This is bringing tears to my eyes. I've never heard anyone say exactly what I feel like this before. I don't sleep at night cause my brain is going through every bad part of my past even stupid little moments that no one else would remember like embarrassing myself in front of a friend etc. Thank you so so much I needed this song more than anyone will ever know.
This song hits hard in all of the right ways. There's a lot of misconception when it comes to mental health, such as the outside perspective of "they looked fine to me" Probably the toughest misconception though is that getting help makes it all go away. It doesn't make everything just magically disappear... just makes it easier to live with it.
I had never even heard music that was specifically about trauma.. This is amazing.. For those who have a traumatic experience (like me) this is a very in-depth music because of the lyrics... The memories are controlling my mind... everyday is a huge battle.. I'm sick of the bad, terrifying experiemces, memories.. I wish I could forget them...
God damn you guys are on a grind with these new songs, you’d expect the quality to be lower with the amount of songs you guys are posting but it just keeps getting better
Not even 30seconds in and I know it's yet another masterpiece. New song from Citizen Soldier first thing in the morning is something awesome to wake up to
these lyrics hit hard "every thought is like a Hurricane,Destrorying everything but it leaves no trace " four walls made of skin feeling paper then dont know if they can take what they're holding in" " ashamed like im sleeping with the ememy" "it's alive like a parasite inside of me and it feeds on the trauma of what we used to be" AND ALL THE REST NGL like i cant even explain how much i relate to this damn song and most of the rest for that matter i just CANT
This will always and forever be my number one favorite song by y'all. I love all of y'all's music but this one helps keeps some thoughts in check and keep me on a balanced level. Thank you for y'all's music. Since I've become clean from my addiction y'all's music has helped me so Damm much over these past 6 months.
God, is there anything better than a song with deep lyrics in a clean vocal but with some screamo additions? Please I want more of it. Even if these times are already over I still want to listen to this kind of music. This is meant to make us, the listeners, scream out of our lungs everything we keep inside. I'm so sad I didn't discover you like 2 years ago
This is exactly the song I wanted to hear. my emotions cannot be put into words. but I will say one thing, Thank you for such a wonderful song. this song is soothing to me.
I love every song y'all do... I've been in such a depressed state lately and unsure how to get out of it.. the mental hospital tried giving me antidepressants which made me wanna die even more.. been told my whole life that it's just a phase and suck it up because no one needs to hear what you have to say.. it's hard to open up to people without having those memories.. thank you for the songs, they are the only thing that's keeping me alive
This song is just the best definition of PTSD I ever was blesed to see. I love your songs, they always have so much true and energy that makes people feel like there is someone who really understands and wants to help. THAT is one of the best ways that song can hit. Really good job
For me, this song corresponds in a manner likely not that which Citizen Soldier intends. For me, the unwanted event and memories of and around it are *separate* from the "monster". My "monster" is my friend - one of the few I have - embracing me to fight against the unspeakable, the latter of which is like a deceitful young man, not a 'monster' at all.
Random thought but this line always reminds me of one of the songs in Willie Wanka and the chocolate factory sorry just ignore this comment I just had to say it
Every song you guys put out is written in such a profound and deep way. Honestly every song you make hits hard and I hope you guys get more recognition for it
It seems like every single time the monsters born of the memories of trauma show themselves, you put out a song (or two) that hits me right in the soul. You guys rock, and I can't thank you enough for making music that has such a heavy yet positive impact on my life. ❤️
Im 37 and most of your songs represent me.... a byproduct of inhumane cruel blood family. I paid for my fathers sins before i was born until i turned 17. I left my family and signed up to die in the army. I was convinced noone will ever care about me. That was until my kids were born, they are the only reason i still live. Great music thank you
When I found you guys a year or so ago I loved your messages. Face to Face absolutely hit home for me as far as my past traumas. I think this one has just dethroned Face to Face in my mind with You are Not Your Past sharing the throne. I have chills and goosebumps from how close to home this feels to what I went through (and partially still am) ❤ Please keep making music that can touch troubled souls like me and help us heal
Absolute goosebumps every time I listen. This song is amazing and captures the trauma, the triggers… everything. Thank you once again for this amazing music!! I can’t wait to re-listen with headphones and bass!!!
All of your songs help me through my depression and keeps me from ending it all reminding me that this is only temporary. God bless you all and may you have long and happy lives. Thank you.
Woke up again in the pouring rain I feel the windows shake, thunder in my brain Every thought is like a hurricane Destroying everything but it leaves no trace Four walls made of skin feeling paper thin Don't know if they can take what they're holding in It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again It's out for blood again (it's out for blood again) I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep It's a monster made of memories It's alive, like a parasite inside of me And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed From this monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh) Monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh) Monster made of memories My darkest own made a creature That feeds on the fear of everything I can't forget It walks beside me, gun against my head So I look terrified 'til I've paid the debt Four walls made of skin, feeling paper thin And I know they can't take what they're holding in It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again It's out for blood again (it's out for blood) I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy And no one believes me, but I'm six feet deep With a monster made of memories It's alive, like a parasite inside of me And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed From this monster made of memories Up all night 'cause I can't sleep With a monster made of memories Keeps me scared, so it can feed It's a monster made of memories Up all night 'cause we can't sleep With a monster made of memories Keeps us scared, so we won't speak It's a monster made of memories I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep With a monster made of memories It's alive, like a parasite inside of me And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed From this monster made of memories Up all night 'cause we can't sleep With a monster made of memories Keeps us scared, so we won't speak It's a monster made of memories
This song hit me hard as my son is struggling. Please keep doing what you do and thank you for touching lives and making a difference through your music.
Hope everyone could find peace within. I know it's hard to believe things are gonna be okay sometimes cause you feel hopeless. But do not worry. It's okay to feel sad,angry, hopeless.. Take a deep breath Healing is not a straight line. It takes time and foot back. And everyone has his own pace. You'll make it! For now, juste be proud of you to be here today. You did amazing just being alive! And don't forget, no matter what they say you're enough and you deserve to be loved. ❤️
This came out while I was going through a bad period, my mind stuck on the years I spent being bullied. Life's better, but this song sums up the PTSD really well, which is actually nice when you consider how lonely it can feel. It's ond thing to know in your head that others feel like you do, but having an anthem for the feeling really drives that knowledge into your bones.
These songs never fail to draw me in and give words to feelings that have never been spoken. Thank you for what you do, Citizen Soldier. As always, stay safe and keep making your amazing music~ 🧡
I don't think you understand, I am OBSESSED with this song. It's scratching an itch I've had front and center for a solid couple years and I can't stop playing it.
"It's alive, like a parasite inside of me. And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be" I felt that, since it's how I feel. Your songs really helps me with what I'm going through, thank you!
I don't know what to say, I'm speechless, I'm just impressed it's a work of art I love that low tone that the song has for a moment AND THEN THE STRONG PART COMES, how I love this song you are the best band I've ever met.
All your songs are wonderful. They make me feel such deep emotions. Not many bands can make me feel this much. Keep making these amazing meaningful songs that help people get through a hard time because you truly make a difference.
I live your songs so much, not only are they relatable, but you are a lyrical genius and your voice is so beautiful. You need more appreciation and more fans
Please release the full version of this song when I first heard it it tugged on my heartstrings and I felt like something in me mended itself back together. You’ve made amazing music and the world needs to hear this song so those struggling with any adversity in their lives know they don’t have to burn the books of their stories untold. Thank you for showing this portion of this great song.
It's amazing how much your music describes the life's of so many of us!! Almost like you feel the pain so many of us live every day!! Thank you so much 💙💔💙💔💙
I've been listening to this song on repeat! You guys did an amazing job on this one, it's such a head-banger. Keep up the good work, I can't wait to hear what's next! 🧡🧡🧡
This is by far one of my favorite songs EVER! It’s relatable, heavy, and the vocal work is otherworldly. I wasn’t expecting to be awake for a release though lol.
I can't express how glad I am to have songs like yours in this world. Knowing there are songs out there that I can relate to really helps with the daily struggles
Y’all are so awesome y’all help people that are down and out and y’all hold y’alls hand down and help them Up and tell them to never give up y’all are true legends and hero’s keep up the good work🙏
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I wish I had money to get all your merch
You guys are awesome and should be supported
I fckng love it!!!! Begging record it angrier. ❤
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As a teenager with PTSD, this hits me hard. I’ve been listening to you for years and it’s always helped me through my hardest times. I’ve had so many people tell me I’m wrong for having PTSD because I’m “too young”, or never been in war. But this illness is caused by more than war and any age can have it. Thank you Citizen Soldier for being with me, this song will always be one of my favorites.
Your emotions are absolutely valid and real, people trying to invalidate that are wrong, plain and simple. I hope you can manage not to let words like that affect you too much and perhaps find some further help through therapy. All the best
I totally agree with what you have said.... I also have PTSD and have had it pretty much all of my life.
I’m 22 and I have had ptsd since I was 8 so I understand your pain @Rei I hope you get better and find the best ways to cope with it, mine is listening to music or punching a punching bag
I got PTSD at 13 and just found their songs when this one released. I definitely agree that music helps disorders and nobody is to young for it. And yeah..it helps other disorders as well
Same here. Im a bit older and can tell you it never gets easier for most of us but you'll learn to live with it. Just keep going young buddy
"It's alive like a parasite inside of me, and it feeds on the trauma of what used to be" - is a lyric that speaks to my soul
И от которого не избавится. Забудешь но он придёт в твоем сне ........
My anger and thinking
This song Just is a story of my own battle with trauma that all this is
Same here
Yes
"I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees"
That hits deep
You guys are so great
You seriously need more listeners and fans ❤️
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Honestly the fact you say if he's on the trauma of what used to be just hit my hard too hard it makes me think of my trauma and I want it to just go and leave me alone
This describes exactly what I feel. My dad was very physically abusive and my mom was very emotionally manipulative. All I remember is the memories and it causes me panic attacks. All night and everyday all I do is replay the memories. It’s like I’m alive but trapped in the memories. Amazing job capturing what people feel when memories haunt them.
We hear you 🧡 Hope the music helps
I hope everyone who's having a hard time sees this and knows that they are not alone, and you're stronger than you think ❤
Well said 🧡
Thank you. I needed to read this.
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I related to "Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy" It's how I feel a lot of the time. I feel like my memories are keeping me awake, and ashamed of what I remember in the past, it's like a monster on my shoulders that was made of things I wished to forget. You guys are truly amazing, and I hope you keep doing what you are doing. And don't forget to look after yourself too! Since you do so much for us! So many songs in one week is crazy! I loved them all!
me too
This is exactly what i needed at this point in my life. I'm currently in therapy for PTSD and in my last session, we talked about this very topic. Thank you citizen soldier, you deserve so much more credit than you are getting.
My life has been okay lately, but my thoughts are making me so afraid that I'll be the reason it gets bad. You guys always release music at the perfect time. Stay gold 💙
Glad the music helps 🧡
Holy Heck, you guys are on a grind this week! Or at least posting wise! You guys are amazing and I hope you guys are taking breaks! These songs are helping me through my dark days and I wanna let you guys know how must h your songs mean!
Appreciate that 🧡
I’m pretty sure they have had the songs released, but they have just been releasing the lyric videos all at once
I think they're about to drop an album
@@dameonlamb5368 this is the first song of new album
Same I'm going through to and there songs are so amazing
To all those who need to hear this. You are loved. You are wanted. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. “No pain, no gain.” You are all living proof of these quotes. Your abuse hurts and will probably continue hurting but this will make you a stronger person. Your bravery and strength to hold on will be rewarded in the future. Don’t give up now because there is so much out there worth living. If you die, you’ll never experience the joy and happiness of life. You’re your own jury, your own judge. Don’t look at others. Only look at yourselves because you matter. You always have, ever since you were born, and you always will. “Every child deserves a parent but not every parent deserves a child.” You aren’t the monster. Whoever is torturing you is. Love yourself and others will love you. Respect yourself and other will respect you. “Your abuse is your glory” as Citizen Soldier has said in one of his songs. Your abuse is your glory and the story you will write in your future. No one is like you. God makes everyone different and if you die. Your uniqueness dies with you. No one wants that. If your loved ones can’t see that then they are not truly your loved ones. There is no one else like you. Don’t think you are inferior. Everyone is the same. What matters is what’s in your heart, nothing else. Remember that and live your life to the fullest so one day, you can look back and say “I really did it all.” Live life with no regrets and leave this world happily knowing you experienced everything you’ve ever wanted. Karma will punish those who’ve hurt you and Karma will reward you for your glorious bravery. You’re the next generation and the warriors of this world. You’re special. One day this world will see that. Everyone who’s ever doubted you will see that. You don’t need anyone’s approval other than your own. Never forget that and live a life full of love, happiness and fulfilment. We’re all with you :)
Sorry if I started rambling but seeing all these comments about how people have suffered just made me want to say this to everyone who needs it. I hope you don’t mind if you’ve read all the way to here and sorry if I wasted your time but I’ll always be here for anyone who needs to vent.
Can I give you my Facebook or discord? I don't feel comfortable venting on here
My friend, I’m so sorry but I don’t have facebook. I don’t really know what discord is but if it can be accessed on ipad without the app then I’d be happy to help :)
It's the weight of things that gets a person and many many years of no happiness, even when a person has tried very hard for happy times, but awesome rant, alot of people need to hear that
"But I know the devil, and he told me I'm fine
What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger
That's what everyone keeps tellin' me
I'd rather capsize than chase an old horizon" -5fdp
Thank you, Citizen Solider. You have saved my life, and many, many others. We all hope y’all are doing okay and enjoying where you’re at in life rn. Have a great day ☺️💙
You have a great day too 🧡
My mental health has been in the toilet as of late and these songs seriously help me cope. Hell, I used I'm Not Okay to convey to my husband just what exactly is going on in my head. I appreciate you guys so freaking much. You have no idea.
You might also need my little secret sorry if I wrote the name wrong I'm still new to these amazing artists.
They play to my soul
Btw I hope your doing better. Be strong 💪🌟
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Saw the notification and clicked immediately! All your songs are great, keep up the good work. 💙
Appreciate the support 🧡
This will be blasting on my phone for a long while. As someone who do have traumas, this is on point. Many nights I stay awake or have nightmares about these. Sometimes waking up with tears in my eyes. It's not always easy to live with this. Being paranoid that it can happen again... But I keep my head up and try to keep going forward. Kicking my ass to move on 💙
Stay strong friend 🧡 Much love
''And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be'' hit me real hard
Amazing, powerful song!!
The simple line, "Of what used to be" made my cry. I wish it was all in the past, but more of these "memories" that are killing me are being made every day.
Absolutely love this song!!!🧡 it’s like you guys are always able to read my mind. Can’t wait for the rest of the album!!🧡😆
More on the way Jaimie 🧡
This is my all time favorite song. As a person with PTSD, I relate so much. Thank you Citizen Soldier!
I love your songs
Thanks Lyra 🧡!
This is bringing tears to my eyes. I've never heard anyone say exactly what I feel like this before. I don't sleep at night cause my brain is going through every bad part of my past even stupid little moments that no one else would remember like embarrassing myself in front of a friend etc. Thank you so so much I needed this song more than anyone will ever know.
This has been blasting all day! 🧡 you guys are amazing 👏
Appreciate you Heather 🧡
This song hits hard in all of the right ways. There's a lot of misconception when it comes to mental health, such as the outside perspective of "they looked fine to me"
Probably the toughest misconception though is that getting help makes it all go away. It doesn't make everything just magically disappear... just makes it easier to live with it.
Just told my mom I have depression and it went good I suppose and now this is just pure amazement you guys are the best thank you
Glad the music helps 🧡
I had never even heard music that was specifically about trauma.. This is amazing..
For those who have a traumatic experience (like me) this is a very in-depth music because of the lyrics... The memories are controlling my mind... everyday is a huge battle.. I'm sick of the bad, terrifying experiemces, memories.. I wish I could forget them...
We hear you Sofi 🧡 Much love to you
God damn you guys are on a grind with these new songs, you’d expect the quality to be lower with the amount of songs you guys are posting but it just keeps getting better
Happy to hear that 🧡
Gotta say this describes ptsd perfectly. It really puts into perspective what we go through on a daily basis. Thanks for another amazing song
Not even 30seconds in and I know it's yet another masterpiece. New song from Citizen Soldier first thing in the morning is something awesome to wake up to
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these lyrics hit hard
"every thought is like a Hurricane,Destrorying everything but it leaves no trace
" four walls made of skin feeling paper then dont know if they can take what they're holding in"
" ashamed like im sleeping with the ememy"
"it's alive like a parasite inside of me and it feeds on the trauma of what we used to be"
AND ALL THE REST NGL like i cant even explain how much i relate to this damn song and most of the rest for that matter i just CANT
Thank you guys! I battle with anxiety, depression.. but you are helping me. ❤️
Glad the music helps 🧡
This will always and forever be my number one favorite song by y'all. I love all of y'all's music but this one helps keeps some thoughts in check and keep me on a balanced level. Thank you for y'all's music. Since I've become clean from my addiction y'all's music has helped me so Damm much over these past 6 months.
Your music always helps me with my darkest days and moments. You have saved my life in many ways even my relationship.
"with a monster made of memories"
This one got me
And again a brilliant song that speaks out of the soul!! Music takes over where words stop
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Dear Citizen Soldier, you are like a friend who understands. Thank you for all the comfort, I need it
God, is there anything better than a song with deep lyrics in a clean vocal but with some screamo additions? Please I want more of it. Even if these times are already over I still want to listen to this kind of music. This is meant to make us, the listeners, scream out of our lungs everything we keep inside. I'm so sad I didn't discover you like 2 years ago
This is exactly the song I wanted to hear. my emotions cannot be put into words. but I will say one thing, Thank you for such a wonderful song. this song is soothing to me.
Your songs are special, they are speaking out the real pain, what I feel, what many feel. Bless you. You are my favorite.
Much love 🧡
I love every song y'all do... I've been in such a depressed state lately and unsure how to get out of it.. the mental hospital tried giving me antidepressants which made me wanna die even more.. been told my whole life that it's just a phase and suck it up because no one needs to hear what you have to say.. it's hard to open up to people without having those memories.. thank you for the songs, they are the only thing that's keeping me alive
10 out of 10, the greatest song of 2022 forever!
Totally agree! Personally I can't stop headbanging!
it's a good day when there's new Citizen Soldier music
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This song is just the best definition of PTSD I ever was blesed to see. I love your songs, they always have so much true and energy that makes people feel like there is someone who really understands and wants to help. THAT is one of the best ways that song can hit. Really good job
Never seen you guys push so much music out at once, love the songs. Don’t wear yourselves out too much ❤️
For me, this song corresponds in a manner likely not that which Citizen Soldier intends.
For me, the unwanted event and memories of and around it are *separate* from the "monster".
My "monster" is my friend - one of the few I have - embracing me to fight against the unspeakable, the latter of which is like a deceitful young man, not a 'monster' at all.
Once again youve dropped another song that hits home for me at just the right time! Love what yall do! Keep it up!
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I couldn't have said it better. I have had PTSD for about 26-27 years now. It has been one hell of a ride, though it has gotten better
First day of summer vacation and one of the hardest-hitting songs I've ever heard drops. Well done!
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Dont like how the song starts at 0:00 instantly but the rest is just pure art.
“Up all night cause we can’t sleep
With a monster made of memories”
Bro I’ve never heard more relatable lyrics in my life😎
Random thought but this line always reminds me of one of the songs in Willie Wanka and the chocolate factory sorry just ignore this comment I just had to say it
Every song you guys put out is written in such a profound and deep way. Honestly every song you make hits hard and I hope you guys get more recognition for it
Another great song. Thank you guys for always being awesome. This has helped me when I needed it.
Glad the music helps Logan 🧡
It seems like every single time the monsters born of the memories of trauma show themselves, you put out a song (or two) that hits me right in the soul.
You guys rock, and I can't thank you enough for making music that has such a heavy yet positive impact on my life. ❤️
Im 37 and most of your songs represent me.... a byproduct of inhumane cruel blood family. I paid for my fathers sins before i was born until i turned 17. I left my family and signed up to die in the army. I was convinced noone will ever care about me. That was until my kids were born, they are the only reason i still live. Great music thank you
Same here 😢
When I found you guys a year or so ago I loved your messages. Face to Face absolutely hit home for me as far as my past traumas. I think this one has just dethroned Face to Face in my mind with You are Not Your Past sharing the throne. I have chills and goosebumps from how close to home this feels to what I went through (and partially still am) ❤ Please keep making music that can touch troubled souls like me and help us heal
Thank you for all the songs you make!! They are amazing!! Each one is a masterpiece 💜💜
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"It walks beside me, gun against my head
So I live terrified 'til I've paid the debt"
Much love!
Absolute goosebumps every time I listen. This song is amazing and captures the trauma, the triggers… everything. Thank you once again for this amazing music!! I can’t wait to re-listen with headphones and bass!!!
Glad the music helps 🧡
All of your songs help me through my depression and keeps me from ending it all reminding me that this is only temporary.
God bless you all and may you have long and happy lives. Thank you.
HELL YEAH! Been waiting all day for this and it’s spectacular! Can’t wait for the rest!
More on the way 🧡
Anyone in the middle of 2022 who listens to this great band?
Woke up again in the pouring rain
I feel the windows shake, thunder in my brain
Every thought is like a hurricane
Destroying everything but it leaves no trace
Four walls made of skin feeling paper thin
Don't know if they can take what they're holding in
It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again
It's out for blood again (it's out for blood again)
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
It's a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh)
Monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh)
Monster made of memories
My darkest own made a creature
That feeds on the fear of everything I can't forget
It walks beside me, gun against my head
So I look terrified 'til I've paid the debt
Four walls made of skin, feeling paper thin
And I know they can't take what they're holding in
It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again
It's out for blood again (it's out for blood)
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
And no one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
With a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause I can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps me scared, so it can feed
It's a monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause we can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps us scared, so we won't speak
It's a monster made of memories
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
With a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause we can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps us scared, so we won't speak
It's a monster made of memories
Thank you for giving me music that I need.
The chorus gives me literal chills! Absolutely in love with your consistent often releases! Keeping me hooked to you on loop forever!
Glad to hear that 🧡
This song hit me hard as my son is struggling. Please keep doing what you do and thank you for touching lives and making a difference through your music.
This song is so catchy, I just know it's going to be playing in my head for years to come
Hope everyone could find peace within. I know it's hard to believe things are gonna be okay sometimes cause you feel hopeless. But do not worry. It's okay to feel sad,angry, hopeless..
Take a deep breath
Healing is not a straight line. It takes time and foot back. And everyone has his own pace. You'll make it!
For now, juste be proud of you to be here today. You did amazing just being alive!
And don't forget, no matter what they say you're enough and you deserve to be loved. ❤️
Another masterpiece that speaks from both mind and soul. You guys are awesome 💜
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This came out while I was going through a bad period, my mind stuck on the years I spent being bullied. Life's better, but this song sums up the PTSD really well, which is actually nice when you consider how lonely it can feel. It's ond thing to know in your head that others feel like you do, but having an anthem for the feeling really drives that knowledge into your bones.
This song has got to be my next theme song! I love your music! It's helped me through so much. Thank you 💚
Glad the music helps 🧡
I've made several OCs just based on individual songs by one of citizen soldiers, all of their works speak deeply to my heart
These songs never fail to draw me in and give words to feelings that have never been spoken. Thank you for what you do, Citizen Soldier. As always, stay safe and keep making your amazing music~ 🧡
You guys keep releasing bangers! You're definitely becoming one of my favorite bands! 🤟🧡🧡🤟
That's my absolute jam.I am going crazy over this song and it's on repeat on Spotify.Every band member goes hard and gives their 100% talent.
Whenever I feel the worst you release a new song as if you know about it lol.. Just thank you for every single masterpiece 💕
I don't think you understand, I am OBSESSED with this song. It's scratching an itch I've had front and center for a solid couple years and I can't stop playing it.
Wooooow En cada cancion mejoran mucho, esto deberia inspirar a muchos, muchas felicidades y sigan haciendo grandes canciones :D
Gracias 🧡
"It's alive, like a parasite inside of me. And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be"
I felt that, since it's how I feel. Your songs really helps me with what I'm going through, thank you!
I love all the work y'all put into these amazing songs, keep it up I love y'all 💙
Thanks Alasia 🧡
I don't know what to say, I'm speechless, I'm just impressed it's a work of art I love that low tone that the song has for a moment AND THEN THE STRONG PART COMES, how I love this song you are the best band I've ever met.
Even when I was little, I've felt my body was a cage for what's inside that is actually me. I want out.
Dear God, this, this is the one. You guys always make relatable music, but holy hell it’s gotten real lately.
Thank you, truly thank you.
Love these songs that keep coming out keep fighting the good fight guys and have a good day
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I needed this song when it got posted
Thank you...
Gave me chills!
Epic song cant wait for more♥️
More on the way 🧡
All your songs are wonderful. They make me feel such deep emotions. Not many bands can make me feel this much. Keep making these amazing meaningful songs that help people get through a hard time because you truly make a difference.
I live your songs so much, not only are they relatable, but you are a lyrical genius and your voice is so beautiful. You need more appreciation and more fans
Please release the full version of this song when I first heard it it tugged on my heartstrings and I felt like something in me mended itself back together. You’ve made amazing music and the world needs to hear this song so those struggling with any adversity in their lives know they don’t have to burn the books of their stories untold. Thank you for showing this portion of this great song.
Hooold up you guys, I feel like a spoiled kid now after getting so many songs :DD thank you so much for making me feel like it is Christmas already!
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You're songs are so deep and emotional. Thanks for being there for me.❤❤❤
I love your songs! thank you guys for existing and for giving us the pleasure to be able to listen to your songs ♡♡
No, thank you for listening 🧡
I am always grateful that the process of breaking the stigma of PTSD is still pushing forward.
Totally what it's like to live with PTSD that's always hunting you.
Amazing song ❤
It's amazing how much your music describes the life's of so many of us!! Almost like you feel the pain so many of us live every day!! Thank you so much 💙💔💙💔💙
I've been listening to this song on repeat! You guys did an amazing job on this one, it's such a head-banger. Keep up the good work, I can't wait to hear what's next! 🧡🧡🧡
This is by far one of my favorite songs EVER! It’s relatable, heavy, and the vocal work is otherworldly. I wasn’t expecting to be awake for a release though lol.
listened for 2 hours straight last night, so excited for this new era 🧡🧡
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I am too
Jake , who needs diamonds...you guys are the gift that keeps giving!
Thank you for this song 🙏
I recently used this song to explain my PTSD to friends (as I went radio silent) this song explains it perfectly.
I can't express how glad I am to have songs like yours in this world. Knowing there are songs out there that I can relate to really helps with the daily struggles
Каждый трек - хит! Так держать ребята! Обожаю вашу музыку!
Y’all are so awesome y’all help people that are down and out and y’all hold y’alls hand down and help them Up and tell them to never give up y’all are true legends and hero’s keep up the good work🙏