Paul Zeng
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Beethoven - Piano Sonata No.32 "Arietta"
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Ultimately in conclusion..
Beethoven - "Tempest" Piano Sonata No. 17, 3rd Mvmt
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I have this idea that meaningful coincidences, or synchronicity occurs in more empathetic individuals. I entertain this thought because of my private experiences in bringing about radical transformations and perspectives in myself in short periods of time where the contrasts of differences are highlighted. Even a practical example where the relics of a dead person can bring synchronicity.. the ...
Improvisation in C minor (2)
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What is active imagination? Psychic bloodlines are particularly sensitive to them - in Russia there are newborns that can do telekinesis if you know a little - they readily interact with these voices. I'm trying to understand for supposed psychics and witch bloodlines (wolf messing said he didn't want to pass down his psychic traits so he never had offspring) whether it is because DNA is an ant...
Improvisation in C minor
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A blend of Jungian, purple energy, Jerry Marzinsky, Telepathy Tapes, and Taoism: Thoughts can change reality, thoughts are expressions of active frequencies and active man’s symbols and images in archetypal soup called reality. In active imagination, the disembodied voices are thought projections. These voices belong to your disowned self and have value in them because you once owned them proud...
Beethoven - A flat Piano Sonata No.31 - III. Adagio ma non troppo - Allegro ma non troppo
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Projection from systems of ingratitude where the foundation is built on sacrifice from others is a sure recipe for corruption; disaster. The question is how big in scale. Old stories of witches and historical accounts of panic, rage, confusion during witch hunts where the existence of witches were real, powerful but eventually devolved into paranoia. It is an archetypal inverted grateful care e...
Beethoven - Piano Sonata no.23 "Appassionata" 3rd mvmt
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I read a book of hell that my guardians bought to give me the idea of worship and respect. A dirty manipulative way for childhood indoctrination at the expense of my individual path. It all began with worry. Worrying about the future and being unable to accept that suffering is the true agent of this realm, as in, it persists. Christianity was taught to me since early on and it was the cultural...
Beethoven 3rd Mvmt Sonata Pathetique
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I play to heal my heart and to direct my brainwashed care for religion elsewhere. What is the essence of religion? Well it is high time for me to show myself what I've been worshipping out of ignorance for years, wasting my potential on something outside of myself. For the reason of clarity I write this, and to draw the energetic line to these subconscious rotheads: The masons seek to invert th...
Bach - Prelude in F minor Book 2
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I hate religions secondarily to our materialistic society. It is the primary source of distraction and sound interference. By believing in one and acting with vigor within its principles, one finds themselves in a position of scrawny personality being trodden by others. I now face my own shadow of anger: I speak to it, embodied in someone who now is financially successful and ignorant of the co...
Handel - Keyboard Suite in D minor
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I play to heal my heart and to direct my brainwashed care for religion elsewhere. What is the essence of religion? Masons seek to invert the creative force for personal gain over universal order. They speak of a god that seeks to enslave humanity, under a spell - witches seek to invert compassion and care towards their own energetic pursuits by casting these spells. These are the masculine and ...
Improvisation in F minor
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G flat, A flat, C, E flat to D flat major would be a nice modulation however I need to practice that.
Improvisation in E flat major
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Just dabbling around based on instinct for this one, or dancing with my fingers based on rhythm I should say. I wish I could have regular time to do that. Some things to consider and work on when I have time: The assumption I make is that the accompaniment serves as the unconscious part that is brought to conscious awareness and thus allows the integration of the main subject melody. What I nee...
Improvisation in C minor.
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Balance in both the unconscious and conscious. The unconscious is the left hand, the conscious the right hand.
Handel - Keyboard Suite in D minor
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What I wish very badly from my mentor is the will to fight for oneself. I have gone through great lengths of self sacrifice for others in silence and had seen my soul sucked out just to ease them of the suffering of this world. I have unintentionally helped ingrates who assume themselves to be good people with their masks. I have fully realized that my full willpower to the limit will not work....
Sadness
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For my own documentation purposes, and a farewell to my piano recording process even though I have a strong emotional connection to expressing through it. Farewell? I get enraged when so-called experts gaslight me about my ability and character. I would like to assume their naivety but it's not true. Anyone with eyes and ears of integrity would know that most people do not possess integrity whe...
Bach - BWV 906 Fugue
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Bach - BWV 906 Fugue
Bach - Fantasia in C minor
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Bach - Fantasia in C minor
Chopin, Ballade No.2 in F major
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Chopin, Ballade No.2 in F major
Current State of my Piano
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Current State of my Piano
J.S. Bach - The Well Tempered Clavier Selections
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J.S. Bach - The Well Tempered Clavier Selections
Chopin Etude Op.10 No.4
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Chopin Etude Op.10 No.4
Beethoven - Piano Sonata No.31 Op.110 Selections
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Beethoven - Piano Sonata No.31 Op.110 Selections
Beethoven - Piano Sonata Op.109 in E major
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Beethoven - Piano Sonata Op.109 in E major
Scarlatti Selections
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Scarlatti Selections
Bach - Prelude in C major
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Bach - Prelude in C major
Bach Selections
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Bach Selections
Chopin, Op.10 No.1 "Waterfall" Etude
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Chopin, Op.10 No.1 "Waterfall" Etude
Sviatoslav Richter - Rachmaninoff, Prelude in G minor Op.23 No.5
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Sviatoslav Richter - Rachmaninoff, Prelude in G minor Op.23 No.5
Sviatoslav Richter - Handel, Keyboard Suite in F Minor, HWV 433
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Sviatoslav Richter - Handel, Keyboard Suite in F Minor, HWV 433
Sviatoslav Richter - Beethoven, Piano Sonata Op.111 No.32
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Sviatoslav Richter - Beethoven, Piano Sonata Op.111 No.32

КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @minoukhadem9790
    @minoukhadem9790 10 годин тому

    noooo😭

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 5 годин тому

      The benefit is, I will make more time to practice material in the computer sciencey stuff haha. [not even sure why I chose this major heh, glad that I will be specializing in statistics very soon!]

  • @claresage
    @claresage 12 годин тому

    😭😞 sorry to hear this news

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 5 годин тому

      Yea I also don't like to process these things. However, I have had pain that is dozens of times worse - take targeting for example - or ritual abuse. At least when I make comparisons to how I lost my libido and familiarity of life's ebb and flow to three different religious programmings I can find it back in the form of motivation - the worst times are gone, now I am only going on a upward trajectory. By being with the right influences and not empathizing with the wrong people, I can find where I truly belong, and from there, develop my own style and individual path. [At least I have dealt with the scariest parts of scattering and losing parts of my libido - there were times where synchronicities and energetic interferences are all over the place, yet I don't know what is happening and have to put on a tough face and different personality just to live life! At least I don't find pleasure in showing off in piano - I just want to share good old fashioned quality common sense music! I don't really care but as the late Richter says, if he enjoys his own music and is captivated by the rhythm itself, his audience would naturally gravitate towards it as well. In this sense, music is something of appreciation and honor, not personal gratification of the ego. At least I can find a genuine spiritual base where I can grow from!]

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 4 дні тому

    Vampires as a Misrepresented Archetype: Recently over the last decades, modern culture has been inundated with culturally inappropriate vampires. There is profound symbolism in the behaviour of vampires. Vampires feed on the blood of human sweat and suffering and operate in the shadows. The fact that they need fresh blood to survive shows its origins in parts of society today that may advocate them in medical fields - especially with its policies blurred with eugenics. In this case, sunlight represents the truth about the Canadian disposition with MAID - a silent weaponized policy against normal civilians and elder citizens. It's time to become aware of these influences. We are all targets, and are psychically drained to the point of becoming like a zombie: [In reality, vampires are not real in the sense that they are a species possessing dead corpses, but rather, an archetypal force to be recognized as a cold-domination of other people from historical accounts. It is what Carl Jung terms the shadow. Dracula for example, being misrepresented for what it is: "He is often considered one of the most important rulers in Wallachian history and a national hero of Romania" The truth is our freemasons have infiltrated society's culture in order to preprogram and invert the truth for their own agendas, as through the subconscious programming people become slaves to their own thought and programmed destiny. They take a scapegoat and use elaborate rituals to transfer the innocent energy towards themselves from the "cremation of care" - thus driving change in world events in their favour. Personally, it has less influence, but collectively, it becomes an issue not to be trifled with. It is a very real threat to us all and I use it as an proper archetype to capture attention where it is merited, however inverted it may appear in popular culture. In this sense, the freemasons are the actual vampiric entities in disguise. All western governing systems contain masonic art and geometry - it's not a coincidence that our ugly and too-artificial western problems are a result of these masons conspiring against civilians] Archetypes: ua-cam.com/video/QUK912YYWb4/v-deo.html (Carl Jung) For the following to make sense so to speak. Shadow and vampirism are terms I use interchangeably: I want to share a little about my own experiences dealing with this archetypal vampirism and reason on why I choose to be so open about what "should be private" - it has come to a point where I need to make a bargain - I want to know how many people have woken up to the fact that our governmental structures are possessed by masonic symbols and rituals. As doing so I can make preventative measures against them in the future: Throughout my high school journey, I have been through a lot of blood and sweat situations. It's not just about grades in the core subjects, but my work ethics extend towards even gym class, almost passing out from the bike exercises and the smell of blood coming from my mouth gums. As Jordan Maxwell says, and reiterates the hidden knowledge of the masons, there are 12 steps in the graduation process, reflecting the 12 hours the sun is in the sky. These are the metaphoric days of blatant indoctrination rituals performed in schools. During the day it is seen, but in the night, when reality is blurred with the introduction of darkness.. Right after graduation and in the early beginnings of the fall season, I have witnessed a significant disturbance in my life. I realized the lies of a human trafficking-based religion headed by steven anderson - sure foundation baptist church. [Religion is a tool by the freemasons to create division and segregation - they call it divide and conquer for globalist tyranny that we now see in the outward form of the WEF. They are the entities responsible for fomenting wars and conquests by using false flag operations focusing on inducing delusional beliefs of religion to introduce the hegelian dialectic, where, their solution satisfies the conflict between sides and where both side's are disempowered for them to bring global dictatorship.] These conniving people may reflect vampiric tendencies, but their behaviour verges on twilight and dawn, that is, their true motives and nature is slightly visible in their psychopathic sociopathic traits. What is hidden? The psychiatric mafia, as Jerry Marzinsky terms. Within the ranks of these certified professionals exist a plethora of psychopaths waiting for fresh victims. They want to see people suffer! This is not scientific and based on the banking system that sought to capture and torment Nikola Tesla. In my ignorance, I have decided to trust my parents with my story of human trafficking related events in sure foundational baptist and their little soul wining programs in which they silently reported to these vampiric authorities. These authorities in 1 minute deem me delusional without further investigative procedures. Unfortunately these are the same people who are supported by guns of the criminal police so.. I had no way out to get my deserved help amidst crisis and gaslighting for the sake of injecting me with purely intended evil. Psychically, emotionally, physically, I felt drained and of course the science proves the antipsychotics decrease brain matter over time. No doubt there are occult aspects to decrepit psychiatrists and masons fondling over other people's torment for their own pleasures. [A little open mindedness and research into the origins of freemasonry would be required. Otherwise there is no point reading further on - open question about MAID and the disappearance of children would point towards black magician circles founded on the occult such as the Bohemian Grove.] So why me? In this elaborate world system built on people's suffering that goes improportionately unnoticed by the masses, freemasonic psychopaths can capitalize on other people's disadvantages for personal gain. This includes psychic phenomenons, let alone the weapons aspect - but I want to focus on DEW which is enabled through smart meters and devices with the cell towers. As someone with pure heart and blood who actively go against, in shadows, the current totalitarian regime, I receive the lengthiest sentence of the neglected evils of society in shadow power. The shadow even bypasses the awareness of my guardians and go directly towards me by enabling the delusions of my guardians. The shadow, represented by evil eugenics psychiatrists (enabled by the rockefeller freemasons), can only be dealt strongly by the truth, which is unreasonable considering many people are actively being recruited to become psychopaths and the rest are good as silly clowns lavishly spending their time on their own willful ignorance and temporarily blinded by greed. However, it is a direct response and one of the only solutions. To me, reporting this problem - this is a difficult task, but a necessary one for individuation in today's sick and horrific society. What the psychopaths and I both embody is passion. We both biologically human after all. Beyond that, their passion is distorted love that is solely based on personal pleasure at the expense of others. The little commonality we have I must admit, but the rest is totally inhumane and corrupt. To bring the shadow into light, and to uninvert the inverted archetypes, I write this. I write this also to bring awareness of society's glaringly obvious evils that is affecting us all in the form of a 500 billion dollar based industry focusing on incriminating whistleblowers and enabling psychopathic rituals in the area of psychiatry. ----- I am writing this moreover to inform. While reporting my issues on facebook during an emergency 6 years ago, and recently with a newer one involving musicworks and a newly moved-in neighbor, only few of you responded with reason. The few who did I thank you, but I character-assassinated myself in order to protect my well-being from DEW. For you who don't care - It's a form of psychological projection to protect your feeble little social structures that I rejected long ago and am trying to help. If someone had the chance to hear me out, I would've been healthier, and you would've been informed of tyranny against your own self. For your information, I am safe now that I have gotten enough help to move elsewhere, while maintaining my full time studies. I would further encourage you to do your research about DEW and military industrial complex and its historical relevance to today's creation of smart cities. Perhaps I contradict with my two earlier posts, but my integrity and radical honesty has gotten the best of me. I seemed to have come a long way with my youtube community posts. I see it as a bargaining chip as well, to see if anyone cares. Otherwise when I'm finished with my degree, I'm leaving this christian-god forsaken country. For some suggested beginner sources focusing purely on the surface level agendas and motives of our criminal authorities: PressForTruth Josh Sigurdson

  • @RandomThingsOnTopAlways
    @RandomThingsOnTopAlways 5 днів тому

    your very underrated your playing is amazing pin?

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 3 дні тому

      I listened to some Tchaikovsky and the subject came through. Sometimes I get inspired with the motifs, but not always. My piano has something related to sound board issues, meaning I press some note elsewhere and the note I am forcibly trying to create a desired sound comes across as either extremely dull or sharp. Just horrible. I barely even practice. I leave most songs unpracticed for months. If I even practice, it is one or two time go throughs.

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 5 днів тому

    The comments are my attempts to understand the unconscious soup of reality, where dreams and reality meet so to speak. I use popularly coined terms from various research areas such as Monroe Institute and NDE accounts, so bear with me.

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 5 днів тому

    Continuation of description: Consequently, there is no mind in the child (the mind being defined by two parts - empathy and belief, and that it takes the mind to manifest future outcomes). The amplifying energy of empathy is harvested by black magicians to create reality changes and shifts towards their desired outcome in rituals. There are also cases of directly manifesting objects from faraway distances by psychic mediums possessed by inter-dimensional beings.. As above, so below, in the sense that our dark deceptive reality is just a reflection of the dynamics of the invisible other worlds. The archetypes of the psyche are interwoven into the fabrics of reality. The inter-dimensional entities that recycle humans to generate loosh.. once our empathy is gone to the recycling farm, there may be residuals of the projected empathy in objects. After all, the ancients believed that all objects have consciousness. These objects are charged with the empathy we projected, and hasn't been fully absorbed by the inter-dimensional entities by means of relating with the soul or spirit after death. These charged objects react in a way that brings synchronicity into our life, because the suddenly disempowered state of our "old belief systems" or personalities acts like a void and receives these residual charges like a black entropy. After all, nature likes to balance the equilibrium. ---- Thusly, we get synchronicity because we lose out on bits and pieces of our projected empathy to the matrix entities that stole it.. and the only things that empathize with us in the end are inanimate objects that can detect the projections we have made in secret. It shows itself in the form of synchronicity as it reattaches to past identities and belief systems. Back to the idea of love being 1 and fear being 0 - perhaps if we get more 1's, or odd number single digits in our synchronistic numbers we get to understand that we are in fact more empathetic individuals. This is because inanimate objects are neutral in terms of projection if we assume. But.. reality is a clusterfuck of belief systems and confusion. There is trauma bonding of different facets and degrees. There are repressed shadow identities projecting out synchronicities because we ignore it. It sucks the living essence out of people. Most empathetic christians for example project their intense empathy towards an unempathetic religion and have nothing good to project to others' egos, or even project slight hate to others from their religious definitions. This gives people the impression that they are unempathetic, even though they are primarily empathetic in nature. Other people follow the crowd and project the blame everywhere onto minorities of different beliefs. We see these as the publicly proclaimed heroes of medicine during the last few years you know..

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 5 днів тому

      In an organic world we do not experience synchronicity, however, this is a projected reality where worlds in the psyche collide. Something like plato's allegory of the cave. I'd like think of intersections of the coagulation of frequencies into common archetypes. As for the changes, myths and patterns of human behavior in history is important to understanding. Just a random hypothesis I am entertaining: Our ego takes space in the psyche between the battle between good (not purely good, but a protective good) and evil - with us for example being more aligned with the positive aspect. It is out of our control, eros (love) blindly binds and reinforces both sides. I intend to speak about the demiurge (eros), the biggest shadow being, and the biggest freak that makes mankind confused, amnesia'ed, in order to freely capitalize on their energy production. [Suppose in synchronicity love is represented by binary digit 1 and the lack of care by binary 0, and fear by -1 -- the trinity: Eros is this in between state that inherits the positive aspects of all 3. Fear gives it power, indifference gives it boundaries to think, and love gives it power to amplify and bind to existing characters to empower them. True love doesn't exist. True love allows all to expand freely - so no confusion, entropy gets nowhere, -1 loses; but evil triumphs in this world, contradicting the fact that it possesses true love. So what kind of love? a protective love that is focused on destroying evil, which is manipulative in nature and doesn't have the full picture. Furthermore, let's assume that the reason it plays out the simulation drama is it lost something from higher realms and wants to experience it through its own reprogramming world.. it is a fallen one according to true love standards of absolute 1.] With this imbalance primarily influenced by the negative, and that it just wants to experience the pleasures of life while leaving the rest of the world to rot and suffer - it basically engineers a reality where it can be a god by empowering both sides with blind love to create chaos and siphon the energies from it -- order out of chaos. It can not create a good reality for mutual benefits because of the negative imbalance which shows that there's not enough love to affect change. To benefit himself/itself, it does so by creating the shadow which goes against ego's intent.. it takes away the feeling of power from the psychopaths making them hungry for more and takes away the love from empathetic people rendering them powerless and confused by their shadows. Humanity gains no progress because it is stolen by this demiurge. For us, neither side of "rigged good" and "true evil" can prevail by nature.. only expanding conscious awareness can we better hold our ground amidst the storm. [what's dangerous with a lack of care is it is evil. In the harmonized world of balance it is perfectly acceptable, but most of history's suffering is because of mass ignorance.. meaning the dynamic of this world is mainly towards evil. evil contains more "mass" and would lead the careless towards it in the long run. The small bit of good is limited to petty helps towards puppies type of insignificance.] That's what I come to understand as the shadow integration. "qi flows where attention goes" - it's about fixing our egoic awareness then using our care towards efficiently constructing a better world.

  • @claresage
    @claresage 5 днів тому

    ❤💕🎵🎶🎵🎶🎶🎵❤💕

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 6 днів тому

    How to integrate clarity and awareness. My focus now is to reclaim my sovereignty.

  • @MaxBruchCompetition
    @MaxBruchCompetition 7 днів тому

    Stunning! 👏

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 8 днів тому

    I drip a sweat trying to push down those soft and fast passage notes to make it actually sound. Problem with piano.

  • @yvonnewongtong5941
    @yvonnewongtong5941 10 днів тому

    Impromptu?

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 8 днів тому

      My classical training for ears has helped me anticipate the next few chords so I only need to read one note and the rest falls in place. This is in the area of single digit run through.

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 14 днів тому

    During my first year in high school I wanted to feel accepted by the group. There was a high school basketball team where all the strong boys went to for prestige and team building. It was my goal. I told myself it is the only way towards a fulfilling social life. However, the consequence was I was rejected and bullied for my inability for athleticism on top of giving the coach headaches. I became downtrodden and very reserved in an attempt to not risk losing my face. Yet, there was something deep down that I needed to share, to be vulnerable. This took me to Toastmasters club where everyone is accepting. I thought this would be a place of developing social strength. I was so immersed in the interactions and felt a strong belonging and connection as if they were family. I became very overconfident and went to different journeys and clubs, until I became too ambitious and was overly vulnerable. Tragically, people psychologically projected on me and I couldn't find my real voice and real self. Throughout this journey, I could not find a strong foundation for social growth. Initially I was reserved, and later I became overly exaggerated with my self expression, leading to downfall. If I had been more grounded things would have turned out better. Coming to terms with myself and being logical and grateful at the same time would be a great place to start. Instead of focusing on extremes, by being present in the grateful moment and accepting who I am, I can accomplish more with social interactions. - To someone I offended with my religious texts a long time ago.

    • @mrsmokpiano
      @mrsmokpiano 11 днів тому

      Fuck basketball dude. Play Bach 😅

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 14 днів тому

    As you can tell with the trills starting in the 4th section, my piano is broken specifically when I play fast and when the soundboard is affected on a bigger scale.

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 16 днів тому

    When people integrate their shadow, they become more authentic, balanced, and self-aware. By owning disowned aspects of themselves, they reduce the need to project and develop healthier relationships with themselves and others. My own frames of conscious queries: I come from the observation of past sacrifices of others can only sustain the current corruption for so long.. with ingrates representing above 95% of the population. It is what destroys entire civilizations. My personal actions reflect a deep despair and yet I can through this draw insight and boundaries for myself and my own future. Through this, I have gained reassurance by losing it, as the Christ says "those who lose their lives in this world shall gain it". The starting questions: I am 22 and completely lost in my own world of truth and very hurt in the process.. I know a lot of stuff that got me into dangerous positions (and that is why I know the stuff is true because it threatens powerful things and people) my last bit of hope for humanity was crumpled when I realized that most people are complete traitors of their own conscience and thus would justify various evils towards others out of willful ignorance.. (most people are cruel, entitled, cowardly, and so mentally weak as to accept a fake reality to stroke their ego and sense of security) "The goal of this exercise, called "Who I Am Not," is to purposefully identify with “negative” aspects of oneself (Chappell et al., 2019). First, you list five positive qualities you believe you possess. Then, you describe the opposite characteristic for each of those five positive qualities. Third, envision how a person who has those opposite characteristics would behave. Then try to identify some positive aspects of how they might behave and what they might say to you if you met them. Finally, acknowledge the strengths that this person who is “opposite” to you does bring to the table. " - Shadow work exercise ----- 1. Hate Without Reason Surface Negative: Blind hatred, cruelty, or aggression. Possible Positive Traits: Passion: Their intense emotion, even if misguided, shows the capacity for strong conviction. This might inspire you to channel your own emotions constructively rather than suppressing them. Directness: They may express feelings (even hate) more openly than you would allow yourself to. This could be a cue to explore where you might be holding back from expressing your own frustrations or boundaries. Lesson: What can you learn about the importance of emotional honesty, even if it must be expressed more constructively than they do? ________________________________ 2. Entitlement Surface Negative: Selfishness, arrogance, or lack of accountability. Possible Positive Traits: Self-Worth: Their sense of entitlement may indicate a (misguided) belief in their own value. Reflect on whether you undervalue yourself in ways that prevent you from asserting your needs. Confidence: While their confidence may be misplaced, it highlights the importance of believing in oneself to take up space. Lesson: Are there areas where you hesitate to assert yourself because you fear appearing "entitled"? How can you balance self-advocacy with humility? ________________________________ 3. Cowardice in Group Power Surface Negative: Lack of integrity or individuality, reliance on others for strength. Possible Positive Traits: Collaboration: While they use group power destructively, their behavior points to the strength that comes from unity and collaboration. Could you harness group dynamics to achieve something positive? Adaptability: Relying on a group may reflect an ability to navigate and survive within social hierarchies. Lesson: Do you resist relying on others out of pride or a fear of vulnerability? How can you embrace healthy interdependence without losing your individuality? ________________________________ 4. Ridiculousness and Gaslighting Surface Negative: Delusion, manipulation, lack of accountability. Possible Positive Traits: Creativity: Their ability to twist narratives or find justifications (however flawed) could reflect a kind of creativity or resourcefulness. Resilience: Willful ignorance often serves as a coping mechanism. It reflects a way of insulating oneself from discomfort or fear, a reminder of how humans survive challenges. Lesson: How might you develop resilience and creative thinking in your own life without compromising integrity? ________________________________ 5. Willful Ignorance Surface Negative: Denial, avoidance of truth. Possible Positive Traits: Focus: Ignorance allows them to prioritize their perspective without distraction. While misapplied here, the ability to block out unhelpful inputs might be a lesson in maintaining focus on what truly matters. Self-Preservation: Ignorance may shield them from truths they feel unready to face. Reflect on whether there are uncomfortable truths in your own life that you might need to address gently and at your own pace. Lesson: Are you too hard on yourself when facing difficult truths? Could you give yourself permission to process things in stages? ________________________________ Transforming Anger into Empowerment By identifying these traits, you’re not condoning their actions but reclaiming power over your emotional response. Consider these questions to deepen the integration: How can I embody confidence and self-worth without arrogance or entitlement? What steps can I take to express anger constructively rather than suppressing or fearing it? How can I find strength in connection without losing my individuality? Where can I channel creativity and resilience while staying grounded in truth? The shedding of light of other consciousness to reduce its impact so to speak: What are Jung's views on chanting buddha's names and humiliating oneself and how to resolve this trauma - "A major misstep in individuation, similar to the one involving amnesia and memory wipes in NDEs" Yes I do carry a shadow of over-responsibility and I empathize deeply with other people being hurt. - “I can care for others without carrying their burdens.” I keep on projecting loving qualities and qualities of grace and intelligence onto others who are mostly not deserving of it and when they project bad qualities onto me my first reaction is one of self-blame but in reality it is so unhealthy and contradictory to my benevolence? - "Their projection reflects their inner world, not mine." - “I am kind to myself because I know my intentions are pure.” If I have a sense of powerlessness in reconciling my view of certain people being good but all I'm seeing is their evil behavior, what should I do to integrate my shadow? - "well I have come to an understanding that most people operate on pure instincts and thus they may present themselves as soulless NPC's in the state of culture of the world." I feel irritated and somewhat energetically drained when I see a couple saying beautiful lies towards each other. I can feel the pressure of their shadow and I because I am an empath I attract their true selves which is more evil. How can I integrate my shadow? What can I learn from this irritation or shadow projection back and forth? That saying beautiful lies and being psychopathic within is useful towards betterment of a relationship? This brings me laughter because the only positive trait of this shadow is one of downright struggle for power, joy, at the expense of others and there is nothing creative about it. This is brutish. - "So we are back at the original query about people's brutish conscience and simplistic egos, capitalizing on other's empathy" - "It is best to laugh and be grateful for your internal cultivation" One more thing: what is counter-projection? what has my experience about it taught me? These days, I learned that empathy is a fundamental ingredient for individuation as it empowers your psyche and others psyche for potential transformative change. It's what princess Diana says is the agent of transformation, despite countless criticisms of her action being disreputable for her space and time in the monarchy. It something that is cultivated through conscience as I have come to learn - however, I also learned that abuse can happen with it - that is why I will channel my care towards those who have a conscience, thus creating constructive change. ---

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 18 днів тому

    I find Bach is a frequency of gratitude and laughter.

  • @paulzeng4142
    @paulzeng4142 20 днів тому

    I struggle with key modulation so it stagnates in one or two keys. Another thing to do is to practice hemisphere swapping hands.

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 19 днів тому

      Numbers depend on memory, which involves time. Archetypes are timeless. Working with mathematical induction is working with false assumptions I suppose. That's what is the building block for the cult which Icke speaks about. Mathematics originates from a point of anger and disappointment which perfectly matches the construct of this world of chaos. So only the chaotic mind can understand it.

  • @davvyhwaynetv406
    @davvyhwaynetv406 21 день тому

    some small clarity issues but otherwise pretty good

  • @clipesdopontovito
    @clipesdopontovito 28 днів тому

    this is beatiful man

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 23 дні тому

      Not as beautiful as I can express it - without the spell interference from my dubious over-sympathy for psychopathic management and occult spells from a witch from the "great white brotherhood" - anyways.. even with this broken and dilapidated piano You have no idea about the emotional depth I have projected on this piano - the brilliant wars fought and the tranquility of the depths - all imagined and integrated seamlessly.. My anger and resentment for sociopathy and psychopathy hiding in societal uniforms is immense. They brought a ton of psychological projection and DEW at the workplace and at home. I originally intended to spread my inner peace and sympathy to all through my music, but I am dealing with psychopaths. It is a disgrace to be even a canadian citizen - these "innocent" civilians are responsible for enabling corruption from willful ignorance and their delusions of greed carefully shrouded in collectivism to quench their guilt for what they have done to many. So many words and thoughts in me unspoken.

  • @he1ar1
    @he1ar1 Місяць тому

    Keep beethoven alive. Sometimes that is all we can do.

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 28 днів тому

      Wise words. These guys - Beethoven, Bach, Handel vibrate at a different rhythm and can take seemingly small embellishments and motifs to another level of awareness. Sometimes I wonder if they develop the accompaniment or countersubject first and then unconsciously figure out a main subject melody. They know when to insert these motifs in the most extraordinarily indirect places and key modulations are timed perfectly. It's a macro-awareness which is unfortunately lost in the collective history.. We have had Richter doing the heavy lifting in the 20th century which fortunately was recorded on multiple disks, thankfully the legacy was preserved through this one man with help of technology. It is however, drowned in the noise of ugly contemporary pianists in competitions.. my ears just break listening to the absolute fakeness of the "artistry" they speak of.. apparently there are very few who know what's up. First things first, Beethoven > Richter > me facilitating classical music through these two creatives.

  • @crackcaster
    @crackcaster Місяць тому

    bro you aight?

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 28 днів тому

      Would've been if I followed the middle path and don't care.

  • @Bob-uk7lk
    @Bob-uk7lk Місяць тому

    the playing’s super impressive!

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 28 днів тому

      I don't even practice..

    • @Bob-uk7lk
      @Bob-uk7lk 27 днів тому

      @@paulzeng4142 some people are naturally talented in regards to rhythm and finger movement and placement, and by the looks of it you are definitely one of those people lmao. keep it up!

  • @leviopolus
    @leviopolus Місяць тому

    me too friend

  • @shqdxw
    @shqdxw Місяць тому

    felt that too... keep goin' ahead. that's all's possible

  • @nilsonbrait7812
    @nilsonbrait7812 Місяць тому

    Parabéns, meu amigo! Gostei muito!

  • @Kat-I-am3333
    @Kat-I-am3333 Місяць тому

    Sorry that is happening to you. My targetting is increasing, too. Stay strong, my friend, we WILL overcome. These freekz are losing their grip. Much love 🌹

  • @Leonurz
    @Leonurz 2 місяці тому

    Love it <3

  • @TB-us7el
    @TB-us7el 3 місяці тому

    very nice, Paul

  • @SOU70hgJXNROe9bNtuHF
    @SOU70hgJXNROe9bNtuHF 3 місяці тому

    Marvelous!

  • @cosmic_gate476
    @cosmic_gate476 5 місяців тому

    No wonder you think anyone can play this piece. I am self taught and I have already done 2 fairly challenging etudes before, still this one has been very demanding. The diminished chord inversions before the reset back to start have been especially annoying. Soon I’ll be able to play either hand at speed separately, but I’m not sure how combining them will go lol

  • @valerie_handani_pianist
    @valerie_handani_pianist 7 місяців тому

    Very nice!👍👍🎼🎶🎹 Keep up the good work.🙏🙏 L119🙂

  • @valerie_handani_pianist
    @valerie_handani_pianist 7 місяців тому

    Nice!👍👍🎼🎶🎹

  • @Musicalman700
    @Musicalman700 9 місяців тому

    I’m sorry but the audio😂😂. Great performance btw

  • @incription
    @incription 9 місяців тому

    the audio is horrible dude

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 9 місяців тому

      sorry that's the best I can do for my budget.. it's sound clipping from damaged mic

  • @TB-us7el
    @TB-us7el Рік тому

    Sorry you're having problems with the neighbours, what kind of person wouldn't appreciate Mozart?

    • @paulzeng4142
      @paulzeng4142 Рік тому

      On the notice the downstairs neighbour wrote - it said something about playing for 3 long hours (which I do only once in a while, otherwise I wouldn't practice for more than 5 months) and exaggerating noise claims meanwhile I deal with directed noise and electronic harassment attacks from my upstairs neighbour (Imagine the housing crisis in Vancouver Canada + some odd neighbour who came in to do drugs, commit petty aggressions, and bully for fun and prejudice while most likely being paid by legalized mobs gone untouched). It's however, one of the Beethoven Sonatas that they mentioned, not Mozart. For this Sonata, I haven't touched it for incredibly long time. ua-cam.com/video/_0vF9lErb2E/v-deo.html Just going off on a tangent on the upstairs neighbour. You, have, no, idea, how, much, disruption, they, caused. Not to mention the subtle physical effects of their petty crimes done electronically.

    • @TB-us7el
      @TB-us7el Рік тому

      @@paulzeng4142 Sadly music like Beethoven does not tend to speak to the soul of such people, it can even enrage them.