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new earth. new human.

i love u all so much.
0:00-2:00 intro. a new earth.
2:00-4:44 timeline split
4:44-7:13 accountability
7:13-9:00 change is the way
9:00-11:03 intuition is your guide
11:03-13:00 becoming a new human
13:00-15:50 you are your own guru
15:50-20:00 through embodiment we set ourselves free
20:00-28:00 we are all one. sky guides.
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costa rica 𖤓 visual diary
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diary of my recent trip to costa rica, as well as an update of where i've been mentally. thank you for your constant love. it is deeply felt and reciprocated. ☉ 1:15 life update intentions 3:50 risings in costa rica 4:39 break-fast 6:40 adventures 10:00 heart chakra land 14:22 psychedelic trip experience 17:17 adventures pt.2 22:30 the ocean is my home 24:36 risings in costa rica 26:00 waterfal...
karmic debt & habitual spirals
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☉ hello reflections ☉ thank you for being here. I am making this video with the intention of sharing what I am currently reminding myself of. be gentle with yourself and give yourself grace in the process of shedding and be-coming. allow yourself to flow with direction. you are the path, and the portal of opportunity lies within you. I love you deeply. ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • carl...
rising ritual - how i start my days
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you are a being of light dressed in matter. ✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺✺ contact: carlavargasbookings@gmail.com find me fluid.img carlavargas yoga practice from this video: ua-cam.com/video/hJbRpHZr_d0/v-deo.html dr. joe dispenza lecture from this video: ua-cam.com/video/lAnWhIl2qY8/v-deo.html
a conversation in nature. on shrooms.
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thank u for joining me in this conversation. sending whoever reads this love, abundance & clarity. this video is NOT condoning the use of any type of herbal medicine / psychedelic. i am very cautious about my usage of herbal medicine and have been using it responsibly and moderately for the past 4 years. thank u (: timeline split video: ua-cam.com/video/s-2YBblXmPc/v-deo.htmlsi=REVIfw2KOE3lLMee...
visual diary ॐ。༶❀ atl, tattoos, friends
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healing my relationship with money
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you deserve to be rich and abundant in every aspect of your life, including finances and money. i hope this video reaches those who have subconscious or conscious blockages with money and finances. i love you all so much! frequencies to deprogram your subconscious- listen to this when you are going to sleep • ua-cam.com/video/22MwjVbOO2w/v-deo.htmlsi=GRX2giM777UIradH • ua-cam.com/video/tMtdtIdW...
q&a | religion, psychedelics, spirituality
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☉ hello reflections ☉ thank you for being here. this is a Q&A video of me answering some of my most frequently asked questions. i hope you enjoy this elongated video. xx ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • carlavargas • fluid.img time stamps 0:00-2:13 intro 2:13-6:08 how to stay elevated within the matrix 6:08-11:45 veganism journey. why i transitioned. 11:45-16:30 reincarnati...
returning back to ritual and routine
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☉ hello reflections ☉ thank you for being here. this is a video diary of me getting back into my rituals after feeling out of my element for a little period of time. i hope this video resonates with anyone who might be going through a similar experience. thank you for your constant support, i truly feel the love you all pour into me. stay pure. stay blessed. ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • instagram.co...
duality.
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finding balance in the duality, is going to aid in our ascension. i love you all. thank you for being here! ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • carlavargas • fluid.img links on christ consciousness: The TRUE meaning of christ consciousness ua-cam.com/video/x9f1bsrBTXU/v-deo.htmlsi=p-ew1-06yybmUR5x Christ consciousness explained ua-cam.com/video/0cCkUsBOeLE/v-deo.htmlsi=kY7Z9_m...
i am a reflection of you
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☉ hello reflections ☉ thank you for being here. may we all ascend together. may we all return to oneness through our daily actions. may we aid in the ascension of earth’s consciousness. asé love. always. ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • carlavargas • fluid.img
as within, so without
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hello beautiful souls ૐ in this video i talk about recent realizations i have experienced. and information i have felt called to share based on my recent adventures and travels in nature. my intention is for this to be a place where you feel safe, and in someway learn a new way of thinking. take what resonates. leave what does not. thank you for being here. love. always. ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ •...
(S)acred (E)nergy (X)change
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hello beautiful souls ૐ in this video i talk about topics such as; body count, intentional sex, sex indoctrination, generational curses, and energetic sexual hygiene. my intention is for this to be a place where you feel safe, and in someway learn a new perspective about sex as its a topic I feel like lacks discussion on. thank you for being here. love. always. ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽ find me ☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ • instagram...
you can always return 🪐
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however far you feel away from those things that feed you, know you can always return. they will always be there waiting for you, with open arms. i love you! 🌳 find me // instagram: • carlavargas • fluid.img
practicing non-attachment | to my physical body, vices, & death
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practicing non-attachment | to my physical body, vices, & death
moving to austin | aparment tour + decorating
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moving to austin | aparment tour decorating
Come Get Tattoos With Me
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  • @YAGY303
    @YAGY303 3 дні тому

    Super late to this video but I’m glad I found it when I did, the shift has been monumental to me I feel more connected to my feelings I’ve been abusing alcohol but I’m getting better at letting it go. Been extremely focused on getting my money up and being in my bag which is always good but mostly I just haven’t been giving af about being perfect anymore I’m a musician so I feel I’m always gonna be a perfectionist but lately I just been saying fuck it and putting things out for how they’re because that’s what it’s meant to be. I hope this wasn’t too much but this video was definitely needed to watch thank you!!!! Carla you’re always the best <3 love you 1000x over

  • @credobabah3637
    @credobabah3637 3 дні тому

    You Look Beautiful than Before and it's Loving. I Love it. You like that Energy Hanh! You have a lot to learn... I Encourage you.. I accept the fact that the only thing good for the new me now is the Fruits and Vegetables. I like my new Animal.. It's better.. Loving Light 🕯️ powerful ❤️. I keep Learning and Learning and Learning, because Learning never Finish.. I'm hungry of knowledge, that's the Beauty of that new me. Is a Blessings and I embrace it. Your Light shining 🌟 Brighter and Brighter. You have to share it with others, just Blessed Them. When you share Love with others the same ❤️ come back to us. Feel Free, be free. Stay TRUE to yourself. Be yourself. Remember the " TRUTH " IS INSIDE YOU. PROTECT YOUR HEART. PROTECT YOUR HEART. PROTECT YOUR HEART ❤️. IT'S IMPORTANT. PROVERBS 4 V 23 BLESSED UP Y'ALL🙏 * INSTAGRAM : " @BAH.CREDO " FROM AFRICA.

  • @444taysta
    @444taysta 4 дні тому

    i hate the teslas they look like theyre from Ready Player 1… like we have world hunger and people choose to buy that AND on top of that ITS UGLY.

  • @JaylynAreizaga
    @JaylynAreizaga 4 дні тому

    earth is shifting for the greater good of all

  • @JaylynAreizaga
    @JaylynAreizaga 4 дні тому

    💟🧚🌸🧿♾

  • @DazGodBody
    @DazGodBody 5 днів тому

    Here’s a metaphor… we are like self aware computers. A part of being self aware means we have a DUTY to Learn as much as we can about our (body/ spirit mind) “Hardware and Software” and take note of how and what software works for you and what software works against ya and overwrite /delete accordingly

  • @sweet_mudd
    @sweet_mudd 6 днів тому

    Thank you for openly and honestly sharing your journey. I have been struggling with loving myself for a while now, and you always inspired me to let go of what is holding me back and embrace the new me moving forward.

  • @bibistar1111
    @bibistar1111 6 днів тому

    I love the stars too. The Pleiades star system has always called to me too. The past few nights I’ve been seeing very small lights moving. So much so that I’m gonna invest on a pair of infrared night binoculars because I want to record what I see. Love that earth is changing. It’s not easy but it’s so worth it. 🙏🏼🫶🏼

  • @Leahabraham10
    @Leahabraham10 6 днів тому

    love luv lurvv

  • @jjennayu
    @jjennayu 7 днів тому

    you're so cuteee

  • @elimike1202
    @elimike1202 10 днів тому

    This shift has made me focus more on me stand setting my boundaries

  • @Kittimoomoo
    @Kittimoomoo 10 днів тому

    this shift helped me realize so much, I feel more empowered in my self concept but I definitely had times in the last months that have been bringing up A LOT of fears and limiting beliefs that I had sub - consciously. everyday I feel very supported by myself and my guides!!!! True love is Infinite!!!!!

  • @dh4rms
    @dh4rms 11 днів тому

    Life is a dance be sure to smile be joyful and blissful

  • @Onlygirlrage
    @Onlygirlrage 11 днів тому

    For me its been so good lately like its so fulfilling to me as soon as oct started everyday has been nice but still at the end of the day i m reminded that i m quite attached to my previous self so im working on that and accepting the new change these days i m doing things that i never did and i recently just told my friend that the old me and this new me have huge and i mean huge difference its like things i dreamt of are finally happening my inner child finally feels like its living the life i dreamt of sometimes i feel the past fear coming to me but i remind myself that everything happens for my best only and its been going good I feel so proud and grateful right now and also i been feeling confident in myself more like things are finally aligning for me the way i wanted ut to thank u universe 💕

  • @nelsonj.655
    @nelsonj.655 11 днів тому

    Anything is Possible!

  • @avalond3691
    @avalond3691 11 днів тому

    Even behind my shadows, I still shine.✨💯 7:22

  • @novasubliminals111
    @novasubliminals111 11 днів тому

    you have such an impact and notice how all the souls in these comments are old, we’ve reached you, you are a leader of souls here on earth, were here to unleash the soul and heal and experience ❤

  • @kiaramcfarlane3709
    @kiaramcfarlane3709 12 днів тому

    felt, the past few months have been forcing me to shift into a new version of myself & the more i resist it, the more i feel so far away from myself. been struggling heavyyyy this year, but i just told myself this weekend im no longer fighting the necessary evolution of self & then came across your video! divine timing at best

  • @iulia-ioanavoica6347
    @iulia-ioanavoica6347 12 днів тому

    Where is your hoodie from? I love it

  • @raihtan
    @raihtan 12 днів тому

    You are on point about the new identity. I think that it requires more of a proactive approach. The new you and the new earth are not set in stone. We have to create it as we go. 💯

  • @raihtan
    @raihtan 12 днів тому

    The old and new reality is playing out at the same time. When you said the Tesla truck was high tech, the new reality but yet, poverty exists, the old reality. The shift from the old to aligning to the new frequency… The transition phase is not the end so things will level out once the mutation is over. Stay strong, stay focus

  • @iulia-ioanavoica6347
    @iulia-ioanavoica6347 12 днів тому

    Taking a moment to write how this time has been affecting me, because I have been feeling soooo many things, so many uncomfortable feelings. I realized that I have an all or nothing personality, and while it can be a good thing, it has been affecting me a lot. I have a tendency to want to escape reality and avoid it, I used to binge watch shows hours on end, then I stopped, then I replaced shows with UA-cam and social media, and taking a break now too. And noow, I replaced those with books. I do not know my limits at times and I have been on the verge of a breakdown lately, feeling like I want to cry but nothing is coming out and it feels so uncomfortable, but I know this is just a transition into the new version of myself. The one that knows how to protect her mental peace and one that knows how to "be", and not tries to escape her reality. But yes, I have been feeling a lot for the world and humanity, and it has been very heavy on my heart. It brings me comfort knowing that others are feelings this too, of course we all are. We are all One!☮

  • @tashoywynter
    @tashoywynter 13 днів тому

    currently going through a break up that was well needed realizing it was an attachment is the hardest part yet I’m so curious on learning who I am now. ❤ love your videos

  • @opnhrt
    @opnhrt 13 днів тому

    its like im goin back to old habits, im feeling the past traumatic cycles, like cycles that i want to send to death, to rebirth as what my soul's deepest desire is: for love. im feeling that the mistakes im making now are to feel what is really right to do moving forward, the opposite of all the shit ive done wrong recently. to liberate me greater when i choose to do so. which is now, taking my power back. thank you for reminding me of this power i hold, every moment, right now. i love u<3

  • @nocappery7469
    @nocappery7469 13 днів тому

    Bro it’s like EVERY video you address the exact situations I’m going through in my own life. The universe works so beautifully❤️

  • @Cresnr
    @Cresnr 13 днів тому

    I have been taking steps in becoming this new human and the past two weeks have been so liberating and rewarding. Moving with ease and presence. Synchronicities and guidance continue to pop up for me day to day. I’m two weeks sober (no trees) and my creativity is flowing and effortless. I also made a journal entry a couple weeks ago, “Setbacks are more like step backs so you can build enough momentum to quantum leap over the puddles in life”. Thank you for your stream of reflections. Your perspective is much appreciated 🙏🏾💫

  • @lolwhothis
    @lolwhothis 14 днів тому

    this shift has brought me to face the hatred that i have had towards myself and my past/present behaviours, for the longest time. even though i honestly thought i had escaped from such deep/negative emotions, it feels as if its serving as a reminder to stop relying on my feelings to determine my next course of action. i believe that sticking to priorities, goals, and routine will allow me to experience less of these spirals, since they do occur every few weeks or so. but at the same time, im scared because i know ill be able to achieve anything and there'll be no excuses i can limit myself to.

  • @J-MEEB
    @J-MEEB 14 днів тому

    Dope videos. I feel everything you talk about 💯🙏🏾

  • @freeespiritu13
    @freeespiritu13 15 днів тому

    For me this energy has been feeing like a call to be still but something of a Active Stillness, where we begin to acknowledge the blessings we see for ourselves but from a place of knowing that they are coming hut also recognizing that we have them now by way of looking at the simple things. And rather than rushing to have it come so quickly we can be still and honor the practices that got us to a certain spiritual sense of oneness but still keep it active by way of scripting, visualizing, really getting specific with what it is that we see for ourselves and how our practices can be implemented seemlessly from & into that reality. 🤔🏔🦅🌸🪖🎖🕊🧞🧜🏽‍♀️💃🏿🐝🐞🐡🐋🦇🐸🦁🍄🐚🥥 thank you for sharing!

  • @iaminfinitymartinez
    @iaminfinitymartinez 15 днів тому

    This shift has been CRUCIAL!! oh my goodness ive felt so out of body and in my body so intensely. I just woke up one day and felt different. My dreams especially speak to me about everything lately and im starting figure out who i am and what i want. This uncomfortableness is beautiful.

  • @astroflame1111
    @astroflame1111 15 днів тому

    I think my shift started when I quit my full-time job of 2yrs 3 months ago, and I’ve been unemployed ever since. Within these 3 months I’ve been doing things that make me happy, reading more books, getting back into art, did more outdoor activities with my loved ones, and finally started to go to the gym. I also quit smoking 🍃daily, which was really hard but since then I’ve been able to dream vividly. I’ve also had more time to be isolated in order to work through and innerstand my traumas/limiting-beliefs, which was quite difficult on my ego as well. However, it’s been quite peaceful for the most part. I’ve also found ways to ground myself and started looking at life in general in a more optimistic pov. Life’s been good, I hope everyone feels the same way as well. Sending you and everyone else lots of love and positivity 💜

  • @kingmike0232
    @kingmike0232 15 днів тому

    This is mad off topic but yo that cardigan is hard asf bro 🔥 do you mind linking I’m lowkey tryna cop

  • @lifeofbogdie
    @lifeofbogdie 15 днів тому

    The shift has been really scary and daunting and brought up a lot of feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness and I kinda had to see beyond that and realize that I am not those feelings and I'm just who's experiencing them. I have been battling loneliness a lot and recently I started viewing it as a blessing and I've been leaning into it to spend time by myself and really get to the bottom of how I wanna do things from now on. I really resonate with what you said about feeling guilt and shame over how your past self handled things and it definitely isn't pretty. It all comes in waves and it takes a while to get out of the automatic response mechanisms of our ego and just allow ourselves to feel whatever is coming up and do self inquiry. I really like your videos and you're one of the few people I watch on this platform, I deliberately type in the search box FLUID to see if you've uploaded anything in case I missed the notification. Much love <3

  • @n1ck1nd1go
    @n1ck1nd1go 15 днів тому

    tht song by teo and jaden was on repeat for the LONGEST on 2022-23 for me , love your vids. inspires me to keep going on days i feel iffy ❤

  • @Trell369
    @Trell369 15 днів тому

    New relationssss🙏🏾🗣️

  • @realabdulshakir
    @realabdulshakir 15 днів тому

    My shifts be so unpredictable sometimes I catch myself wanting to go into a season of solidarity and isolation but then there’s times where it’s like alright this is your sign to keep pushing yourself into the spotlight cause it’s working out and it’s a constant back n fourth for wanting to be on the frontlines of being my highest self then I have moments of just being alone and in peace cause that’s where I feel I learn best and can observe myself the best. But Yeahh I’m trying to understand my balance.

  • @thembz3464
    @thembz3464 16 днів тому

    The shifts are potent right now.

  • @savrajnijjer8904
    @savrajnijjer8904 16 днів тому

    I've definitely felt something in the last few days. Shedding my identity and integrating my shadow just as you described, can be really challenging. To face parts of yourself that you've avoided. Best we can all do is not operate of our fear and trust. I've felt isolated, but I try to focus on the macro as much as I can. Love your vids, really resonate. I highly recommend you check out Bobby Hemmit if you haven't already and anyone generally. Peace and Love!

  • @Arielannee
    @Arielannee 16 днів тому

    Woow this is sooo on time!

  • @eye4ivee
    @eye4ivee 16 днів тому

    heavy on the fear of showing up in the world; taking up space & honouring what feels true. i find myself in several different uncomfortable situations im forced to take to the face. still, i rmbr to keep my chin up. i have gratitude for closed chapters and new ones :>

  • @ascendingmonet
    @ascendingmonet 16 днів тому

    I have days where I am waking up with sadness wondering what my next step in life will be and making the necessary adjustments and decisions in my life that will benefit my growth and I feel that uncomfortableness where I want to throw away everything I’ve attained physically n mentally. Remaining grounded in the habits that keep me centered daily n tuning into love with myself and my reflections. You expressing yourself is inspirational n I’m grateful to be able to have someone to resonate with 🫂 ur words flow so perfectly💫 sending love <<33

    • @elvisdumervill8328
      @elvisdumervill8328 16 днів тому

      That's all great but remember not to get caught up in spiritual narcissism. The most effective way to grow is charity. The problem with most of us is we put too much focus on ourselves to the point we start self sabotaging. The only way to counter that is to put that energy into other people and as a result what we want will naturally come

    • @ascendingmonet
      @ascendingmonet 16 днів тому

      @@elvisdumervill8328 most definitely

  • @Alexa-ke5ov
    @Alexa-ke5ov 16 днів тому

    This all resonated so deeply. watching your videos and the way you authentically show up makes me feel so seen, like we are on FaceTime together. Also you are so beautiful.

  • @oliviia.maeeee
    @oliviia.maeeee 16 днів тому

    I agree I think this shift has been very isolating. I graduated this year and have outgrown all my old friendships. Currently learning how to be satisfied with just myself

  • @melodyhansen1507
    @melodyhansen1507 16 днів тому

    Thank you for putting into words what I have been feeling and dealing with outwardly. A bunch of old stuff/habits and events are coming to the surface out of nowhere and yet in perfect timing for me to reflect on my life patterns and like you said, to choose to act differently now. I love how u said, we can't afford to repeat those same mistakes. I am definitely feeling that!

  • @loveinflow
    @loveinflow 16 днів тому

    This resonated hard as fuck. lmaooo. I committed to a fruit fast last week and decided to eat wingstop to congratulate myself on the weekend and now that it is teusday I feel such a big difference in my body after a weekend of consuming complex foods such as meat and breads. so Fruit and water for the win for sure. I’ve come to terms with big shadow aspects of mine. In essence I’m learning to call my power back. Using my sensitvity as a guide rather than being so defensive. Throwing out the victim complex and just implementing more discipline in my life. More action toward my desires of how I want to show up in the world. What you said about being free has been a big theme for me as well. It’s a reoccuring desire that I’m realizing more and more everyday is not even fucking real. We are always free. The freedom is in being here now. Calling in more connections that can innerstand this too!! all i want is to build a safe supportive like-minded community.

  • @oliviabrynes5894
    @oliviabrynes5894 16 днів тому

    ive been feeling wild but this video resonated too well. Tonight i was struggling and your words are perfect. Ive been very intuitive and caught myself saying "dont think just feel". i completely get you with the having no choice but to just surrender. Ive caught myslef in low old frequencies and energies i know i have guidance right now because i am not paralyzed like before i have the capability to perceive things from higher perspective eventually after feeling these extremely uncomfortable emotions out. i feel i am purging. for sure my old selves. ive caught myself for the past couple months feeling like i dont identify with my self and that now eventually after a really uncomfortable still uncertain period i can start to discover this version of i. its perfect everything u say. watching your video calms me knowing everything is nothing and this complex pain is nothing but an illusion. i tend to be anxious and catch myself worrying alot if i am going against my souls calling but theres too many synchronicity around me. right now my internal is projecting rapid into my external anyone else?!! Its like you say, we get to make the choice. i was going to go straight to netflix when my soul was calling i am neglecting my community my connection it can be found through videos like yours. thankyou, truly my small branch of complex life finds alot of connection depth peace and creativity from yours. love and light

  • @Lynxjourney
    @Lynxjourney 16 днів тому

    It’s been crazy these past 2 weeks. Cut off a lot of my family for my own sanity. I’m the black sheep of the family & I’ve never fit in because I was always seen as “sensitive”. Left my moms house since I was 15 because they wanted to control me & I’ve always been such a free spirit, I would rather die then to be stuck in a box I don’t fit into. Becoming an adult & finding my person has made me realize my body is just in survival mode so I wanted to put in effort into building relationships and I really wanted to be close to my family but they are always in a state of fear of having deep conversations & me opening up made them uncomfortable and they pushed me away. I’ve been so anxious to go out into the world but I’m slowly getting my peace back now that I’ve started cutting off people and things that don’t serve me. I think one of the biggest things that I want in my life to change is to have friends that I can have conversations like this with & help each other grow. We are not meant to do this alone.

    • @jadealexis13
      @jadealexis13 5 днів тому

      I wholeheartedly agree with everything you’ve said. You are not alone ❤ Been in survival mode since 17. No more. We will be thriving instead.

  • @stellabrass9597
    @stellabrass9597 16 днів тому

    I have been feeling a constant feeling of being stuck or not moving forward. Even though this is the time of things changing and I think while everything around has been moving so fast I have perceived myself as being left behind. Though this is not the case. It is a challenge to embrace and understand all the emotions that come and go but the practice of being present and breathing get me through my days. I truly appreciate the content you make.

  • @groovymac5927
    @groovymac5927 16 днів тому

    9:08 so true! Wow specially during these times your inner guide is so important for navigating through this realm ✨🙏🏽

  • @iradescent888
    @iradescent888 16 днів тому

    Yo so funny about the Tesla trucks. I live in Albuquerque NM which it’s considered not the most privileged city in the state yet the amount of Tesla trucks that I’ve seen everywhere in the past few months I’ve been like ???? They also look fucking ridiculous to me.