Відео

yap sound

The only thing that I wish from the beginning of my damn life is freaking peace Just peace nothing more nothing less but instead of gaining peace i lost emotions

Anyone is hearing this in 2025

yk when you did it, you can't change it anymore. It just stays.

I’ve been Depressed since 2018 and this Beat just became a theme to my Sad Life,Thank you ❤

if i may vent a little over a year ago, i became friends with my best friend. we were really happy together and they vented to me a lot. however, since i refrain from venting to my friends because i do not wish to burden them, they got mad at me and demanded for me to tell them what my problems were, because they could tell something was wrong with me. i told them i was su1c1dal and feeling depressed and all that shit, and they comforted me so much i genuinely felt more loved than i had ever felt up until that point in my life. at that moment i thought we would be inseperable forever -- we already talked around 10 hours straight every day, even if we were at school, we'd contact each other digitally. now i am having doubts. my friend has anger issues, and they reckon they have undiagnosed BPD and other disorders. this isn't inheriently a bad thing. but i've noticed that they are getting much worse in terms of mental health, and some of those negative traits from those disorders, they are pushing out on me. for example, sometimes they get so mad at me that they tell me to off myself. however moments later, they tell me they appreciate me and that i'm a good friend. when they do that, i consider su1ci1de heavily, and the only thing that stops me is my physical incapability to do anything drastic. after attempting one day, i planned to keep it a secret as i had done so in the past, but after a long argument they somehow managed to make me tell them what i had done the night prior. they started crying on call to me which is something i had not even realised they could do as they are somewhat of a stoic person. that is when i realised; even if their intention is to hurt me, in reality they have no idea how much damage they are actually causing. they did not realise that i tried to disappear because of them. since that day (which was around a month ago) i've noticed somewhat of a change. they try to be nicer to me. yes, they still get mad quite frequently, but they're trying to calm themselves down, because i think we both know what will happen if i am pushed too much. i think they are really worried about loosing me now -- which for a bit, i thought it was because they value me as a friend, but i'm wondering if it's because if i'm gone, they won't have a human punching bag to spew all their anger and vents out onto. a few months ago, i asked them why they stay friends with me at all, if i make them mad a lot. they said, "because you're not like the others. my other friends would leave me as soon as i started being as mean as i was to you, to them." so i really don't know if they actually like me or are just using me or both. i don't know if i want to be friends with them anymore. they make my mental health significantly worse. i still like them though. they understand me like no one else -- mainly because i have never actually told anyone how i feel, but still, there is something about them that i cannot find in anyone else i have met. i don't know what it is, but it keeps me with them. also, if i leave, they'll probably get even MORE mad at me, and it'll be. really awkward. at school. i know no one is going to read allat, which is probably a good thing, i just really wanted to type that out somewhere.

I've school today but i didn't go, because ik if i did I'ma be all alone there. Whenever i sit alone i look at others to find them talking to their friends, laughing. Even my bench mates talks about things idk. I've no chance to catch on to their convo. Even if i try making a convo with them they're like "are you finished?" "do you want to know everything" "stop talking" or just give me a weird look like I'm some alien when I'm clearly their bench mate. Like atleast include me in one convo, im here too... This makes me more insecure so i just sit there alone plus i feel speechless whenever someone scolds me and i start panicking. So i think it's better to just not talk. One day i got a friend she was nice at first and takes me with her wherever she goes now it turns out that she only needed someone to accompany her for her journey to the teachers office/ bathroom. And she sometimes lashes at me with her rude words whenever i try talking to her. She replies like "stop yapping im trying to concentrate" but the next moment she's laughing with her friend. It hurts, but I didn't care much cuz it's atleast better to have one friend than having none. She barely comes to school. So I'll be back to my normal lonely self. Sometimes it's humiliating and awkward having to sit there alone. Feels like all are staring daggers at me saying "look at her she's always alone lol" when i know they're minding their own business. Sometimes ppl even comes to me and asks "aw why are you alone do you need to come to our bench?" Idk what to do then. One day i was eating lunch with 2 of my bench mates they were facing eachother and i was just sitting a lil bit away from them and eating and this one girl from nowhere came in and said to my two bench mates "why are you two sitting face to face while she(me) is sitting there alone. Include her also. I feel very bad for her." Those two replied "she's fine on her own, aren't you sweetie" they looked at me like they're mocking me. They sometimes bully me and say things like "Take my bag and put it there" "move your ass that's my favourite place" when clearly i sat there first but her friends have her back also and they make me get up from there. Whenever im early to the class i see ppl talking with their friend, so i just sit there and act I'm doing work. When i was in my old school, i was like that one bubbly friend you all had. I had 2 besties i studied well and had full A+ the teachers loved me. But in my new school this school no one knows me. I've tried to make friends and they left me when their main friends(my bench mates) came. I've never felt this much worthless in my whole life. My mom scolds me for not going to school cuz I've very low attendence percentage. Idk why i should go anymore to a place that gives me trauma and loneliness.

Do you need to calm down your thoughts? Listen to this.

So good. But as much as I like this song and Japan, the hyōshigi (wooden clappers 拍子木) sound level is a bit high for my taste. Still amazing

What's in my head when I rarely get up from my chair and my head starts spinning

this song makes me want to be in there to just sit there with my pet but my pet is gone so if i was there i would have cried and feel like im somwere thats dark

This song is a ripoff of the Replacements. ua-cam.com/video/0cjVMOvJywk/v-deo.htmlsi=H8Fo1MTx6BpqI9sU

Who giving u live? Yes JESUS so stop that comment @looloo0!!, and if u sick who gonna giving u the pills?, who gonna protect u?, who gonna love u?, and one if u dont read holy bible? U will get the karma, so stop hate u life and enjoy it! Two, if u not school u dont get anything and u now like crazy people and d4mb people. Last one, who get money for u? Who love u so much, its dad and mom..ENJOY UR LIVE OF ALL THE COST!!!

How we doing so far?

This has been my go-to sound to help me sleep. It keeps unwanted thoughts at bay and feels soothing for my brain. Help me feel relaxed, peaceful.

Sitting here wondering why I always question my self worth like am I even worth it fr will I ever be.

When bro dies but you dont have a single picture of you and bro together so you cant prove your friendship:

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yeah... its like this. I don't feel like doing anything... I just can't get my memories straight... so many good times... i can't. i just... i don't know... i sometimes just decide to look at what ive done, it's so fast, time doesn't stop... except you want it to... and you can't... but yet... I w a n t t o g o b a c k . . . Thank you for sharing this moment with me... thank you.

hope you are doing well, we miss you

I love this loop, I listen to it every night because it gives me a feeling of peace and tranquility, I love it

I love when a comment section is my kind of people,makes me feel less...alone.🙂

This song gives me the feeling when I see other people with their best friends…but mine resides in another place far away. I miss them.

❤

POV: it’s Christmas morning at 5 am. You think to yourself that you start to realize your becoming what you’ve hated all your life. The constant backlash and abuse turnt you into a man with nothing but regrets and pain. You still have family yes, but sometimes you wonder if your family is fake. But you feel like all you can do is just stand in front of the Christmas tree and wonder. This is how christmases go for some people. Be grateful for what your christmas feels like and the gifts that you get. Because it could’ve been a whole lot worse…

the hardest enemy is your mind

戻りたい過去はとても綺麗で笑顔で楽しく過ごせてたような気がする戻らせてくれ

When im in bed, i just.. stare at the ceiling thinking, like.. about how im living my life.. what im doing wrong.. why i did it wrong.. covering my fake personality, i just wish i could show my real personality to other poeple, but im scared. Scared that ill be alone, scared that everybody is gonna leave me. I do this everyday, act like a love everything. But im getting sick of acting, the way i behave is expected of me. Theres no going back. I just wish i could reverse the mirage shrowding my face. My life. Everything. I just.. i just wsnt someone to love me for who i am, not for someone im expected to be. I hate my life.

something crazy to think about is that by the time a 15 year old listening to this song becomes 25 this song technically becomes "vintage"

Slo quería leer los comentarios y terminé con un dolor en el corazón y lloro en silencio es lo peor po re so no me gusta que llegue la noche por que me acuerdo de toda mi vida y de toda la gente que me hizo tanto daño que y quisiera descansar no puedo mas dios dame fuerzas 😢

It also reminds me of my grandma, who died when i was 4. I hope you are resing in peace grandma.

I think of my old cat and lizard, both died because of my own forgetfulness and stupidity. Godzilla (lizard) died from the cold after i forgot to leave his light on. Robert (cat) died because he jumped out of my grip while walking down the stairs. I can't believe i couldbt hold onto him. godzilla and robert, if you can see and understand this, i am sorry.

I really hate my life, every night i spent a lot of time listening this song...

Today, my betta fish of 3 years passed away. Now I may sound childish or it may not sound very important to any of you… but I loved him with all my love, I never had a woman, or anything else to vent to, or put my love into, he was my therapy fish… and I love him… not any of that “loved” shit, I still love him… even in the condition he is in. No, he is not down the toilet like any other fish, he has had a proper burial. R.I.P. You will be missed in my heart.

I keep thinking about my niece because she always says she wants to grow up and become an adult. The reason she says this is because she believes she can do anything when she becomes an adult. Little does she know, she might regret it in the future. Here I am, just sitting and listening to this music while thinking about it.

Ever think about the people that stood behide then besides then the minute the got in front they were just different?...

161/bouquet

POV: you find one of those plastic yellow chairs with the metal legs🫤

It's feels like death and peace.

~ ☆ Blank space ☆ ~ . . . .

2024..i miss that year i was happy but ever SINCE 2025 hit life ain’t working out for me man….this song didnt help me feel better its just sad and disgraceful you just get a feeling your pathetic and sometimes it feels good.

2025 anyone?

i lost everyone...but i cant blame anyone other then myself

💔💔

I used to love myself, but the old me is now dead and i cant handle this anymore, Love u guys from Italy ❤

I am hearing this in last day of 2024…

close your eyes...and fall asleep...and sweet dreams...

Honestly, I can't believe it. Just nothing. I've never met myself, I've only ever changed what I had before for every new person I met. Now, I've lost all I was uniquely, and my will to fight back. Life is tough, hell, it's the toughest. I wish I could lay down in the rain, clear my head, and spend forever there with my thoughts. I've figured out from people around me that I don't matter here, and that I won't ever feel the love I yearn for, in the arms of a genuine lover. It's a vicious cycle, a snake eating it's tail. I wish I was wanted, at least by the embrace of a peaceful disappearance. I wish you all a happy, love-full life, and I guess, this is forever.

You know, I used to be very happy with some cousins back there in 2017-2021, we would talk, play and make some little adventures from time to time, now one of them is 17 and the other is 18, they are not the same people I remembered, man I miss them so so so so fucking much, now here I am, 14 years old trying to ignore the fear of time, trying to ignore the fact that I know I will never find "the love of your life", trying to igniore my mind, oh man I wish I was even youger again, at least for 1 day because I know this will become worst and worst

I hate school I just want to be free. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep thinking about how badly I want to stay. I also miss my elementary school I miss everyone I miss my old friends. I Hate people I hate all teachers I hate learning I hate everything I just want to be free. Every day is like the same thing over and over again nonstop I can't live past it I hate it. I just hate everything. I have no personality I'm empty I feel weird whenever I see happy emotions I feel depressed but at the same time I am not I been hiding this for so long now I cannot do it. I want to live and I'm scared of death I dont wanna die but I'm afraid of losing people I love.