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You might only switch with co consciousness half of a dozen times over a lifetime, and only have half a dozen distinct episodes of prolonged dissociative amnesia (lasting several hours to over a week) that you might think are switches. That happens. But at the other extent you might have past/future periods (as a current) of not even being around most of the time.

You might only switch with co consciousness half of a dozen times over a lifetime, and only have half a dozen distinct episodes of prolonged dissociative amnesia (lasting several hours to over a week) that you might think are switches. That happens. But at the other extent you might have past/future periods (as a current) of not even being around most of the time.

Yes, it’s terrible. It happens daily.

Yes they overreact when their emotions could be checked better to have a Grinch Face than to overreact

Crying…. This broke my heart. So glad you are safe.

You are truly a beautiful soul ❤ these vids help so much. Couldn’t agree more. You need a guide through this . Our T has been a life saver, mean that literally

This was super helpful. We have DID. The way you described needing to pour kindness in the world because you were not able to give it to. Yourself …. I deeply felt this , those are my feelings, it was very empowering hearing you say how we feel. Love your videos. Please know what a kind and beautiful and selfless act it is to share your journey in such an authentic way. ❤

Omgi love u ❤

I don’t know, I’ve been questioning for only a couple months (technically more but that was over two years ago and I forgot) and I don’t know what I would do if I knew I wouldn’t remember- maybe write something down, but that doesn’t always guarantee memory. I guess I’d just go with it. I tend to at least trust myself a decent a amount.

we know were late but youre big help :D

Thanks for sharing with us!

Fusion can be complex because multiplicity and our minds are complex! We hope these confusions with your identity and your life eventually resolve 🥰🤟❤‍🩹

This is so out of touch with actual issues that ppl who are diagnosed struggle with. Dog licking, minor anxiety while shopping....pronouns!?! and you're framing it like 'it's a hard process to fuse maybe ppl don't want it' so alternative is : be in constant pain, dissociated and out of touch, s* ideation and so many more symptoms that are absolute hell because....dog lickings.....and minor anxiety. This isn't a damn joke, what are you even talking about at this point. You miss dissociation cuz of checking out?? Where the nausea and the diziness and amnesia hell that comes with it what are you on about Gianu? I'm sick of this anti-healing rethroic all these 'online DiD systems' promote. Stop it.

Thank you so much for sharing ❤

I just realized it's another way of the perpetrator getting away with absolute ZERO accountability again. It's the "passive voice". There are exceptions like natural disasters, but a lot of the time people seem to be excusing another human being's actions. Like yeah, it did happen for a reason... because a person chose to do those harmful behaviours. F* the passive voice. Appreciate this video.

Good to hear some perspectives.

Oh my geez, this is such a complicated topic. I'm polyfragmented so I end up splitting and fusing quite frequently in my functional multiplicity and you're not always the same as before. You can't always get back to where you were because something changed that caused that split. You just have play it by ear. Regarding fusions, when you try to rapid process and fuse to get back to where you used to be, sometimes it doesn't hold and you can feel it coming apart and you just try again later after you rapid process again. Sometimes you need to process memories in a certain order and also repeat Our biggest frustration with being polyfragmented is that if a split happens, it takes like a month or two to readjust to any new dynamics that have changed after re-integrating.

Wishing you all the best for the process. Fusion is so complicated. ❤❤❤

So relieved it was a good change. Subscribed ❤

I truly respect you for helping to inform people on this disorder.

Make a cool build on minecraft, apparently

Wasn't able to finish the video, but have you looked into dermatillomania? We have it and it's an obsessive Compulsive skin picking condition that can be set off by negative emotions or triggers. It isn't self harm even tho it appears that way sometimes

Your videos are fab! I'm enjoying this one, your switches are like mine hahahaha

I relate to the high trigger season bit! 😭❤️❤️ I have a calm place thing I do that helps, and so does the compartmentalizing box acticity 😅

Im gonna have to look into this, cause I already have what feels like dissasociative non epileptic seizures....and it mimics this a bit? It makes me think there is DEFINITELY hope here, cause sometimes I feel like even then as scary as those are I get the sense something can be utilized there? I am now filled with mych more hope, cause EMDR is so hard, but its on the right track. Tai chi for example feels very helpful....so I think my body is storing the stuff physically, which is the worst parts for me. Thanks!

This is very Cate in our system 😂 I swear, people assume that middle alters are automatically more immature or incapable of speaking for themselves. Its not always the case. Cate is very blunt and direct, and doesn't cut corners. She will say what others will not, and it helps us tremendously.

"the inescapability of it" OH. OH OKAY. WOW. THAT MAKES A LOT MORE SENSE NOW. WOW.

Im pretty sure that we have osdd 1b, but its the thoughts that we didnt go through enough trauma, or that it wasnt often enough, or other people had it worse, etc, which have been making us feel so invalid

My answer is idk, chores, survive? Lay low. If there are consequences, then even "good" things like socilizing comes at a cost... because then there's an established bond on their part that I'm expected to uphold and develop on my end and I don’t know how. I don’t know them but they know me, and expect me to continue a conversation that I never had. I suspect I've destroyed a lot of potential connections this way. So that's what we end up doing most of the time. Hiding out.

No idea if I'm onto anything here, but idea for reading numbers out on the phone - if the number's on a computer (rather than paper), you could copy it, then paste it into a google doc, then set the font size to be so big that only one number can fit on each page. And then you could just read one number/page at a time?

Thank youu. My therapist said "it's rare and controversial, so that right there is a reason to think you don't have it." I would like to find someone informed enough to give me a better answer.

I remember when my scab picking started, i was about 6. We have also struggled with hair pulling and nail picking, along with (if i can be real, excessive) intentional SH that was aided by multiple alters who had stuff to work through including myself. Im some 8 months clean from that now because we agreed its time to start finding other ways to be angry, yet we still pick and pull all the time so clearly there is more to address

Thank you for making this video, it's very validating for me. Your voice is very calming.

"I'm not the me who was here a minute ago - I'm still ME" Holy shit... I recently became aware of my DID/OSDD in therapy [also because of a screaming teenage part, but she was mad at the quiet zoned-out part in the driver's seat]. But this quote of yours is... Really breaking through my denial. I thought I was faking because everyone still feels like _me_ - regardless of who's around, I've still lived my life & share most of the same events/experiences. But people online seem like they're so distinct that I didn't count. But, wow... Thank you so much for your content! 💕

The scariest part of this for me is that I have no idea I was traumatized… by who or what? where? when? I don’t remember entire chunks of my childhood, but I always thought it was because I was in a bubble… like I was having such a great childhood that I was too busy looking at the clouds or a ladybug to pay attention to other things like street signs and what was going on around me. And then a strong part of me keeps saying “why not just go through life not remembering ‘the bad things,’ if they even do exist,” but another part says “because it’s going to manifest in other ways, it’s going to bubble up in your relationships, like it always has.” And then I know that’s true… but some days, I don’t want to listen. It’s such a rollercoaster.

I know this is an old video, and the possibility of someone seeing this is low... but I need to tell someone and maybe get some answers. I think I may have DID or OSDD. But I don’t know! I feel like I’m losing my mind. My sister has schizophrenia, and while I keep trying to see if it might be that, but all the answers I’m finding keep leading back to DID or OSDD. I can’t remember any trauma, but I get flashes... and I’m just so scared. I keep trying to tell my therapist but it’s like I physically can’t get any words out. And then I just forget about what I wanted to say. I keep forgetting, but it’s weird. Anyway, thank you for being here to listen to my worries..

i just realized i was a system today, and it’s very hard for me because ikeep thinking im not traumatized enough to have it. hilarious that this video was made when my very first alter developed according to her. (i split during the pandemic but i was in denial and saw her as simply a voice)

I've been researching ways to communicate with headmates better as a system who rarely switches fronters (could be front stuck) but its really annoying because idk if I'm gaslighting myself 😭

Thank you so much for this. It makes me cry. I hope one day all members our system can have this inclusive experience. So many think they are all alone. Even if we don't get to where you are, I’m so happy you shared how it feels. ❤️🌈💫🌎☀️🌺🧩

Really well said

Im now aware that i am a system. but im fighting tooth and nail against that, this is the worst denial ive ever had about something and its tearing me apart. i wanted to leave a long comment about my experiences- - but im choosing not to.

why am i crying rn??

We find it interesting that you consider the inner world exists in the subconscious. This couldn't be further from true by our lights. If it were not a construct of the conscious mind, we would not be able to have conscious interactions within it. Nor could conscious effort by any of our alters affect or change it. Our IW is a sprawling garden maze or labyrinth, like an endless botanical garden with winding paths inticately woven throughout. For us we generally leave the basic layout and structure to our gatekeeper Babd, and other individuals can add their own touches to the areas they typically prefer to stay in. We've been doing daily meditation for decades and regularly engaging with our IW, even though we are only recently (sort of) aware of our plurality. At least only recently aware of it for what it truly is. There are alters we've always known about and interacted with, but we drastically misunderstood their nature and significance.

You had me so scared with this title, but now I'm feeling hopeful. I'm just starting with this and my wife is my best source of support, and it's so hopeful to see you talking about how you two are growing together instead of growing apart. Mind if I steal the idea for Self-Care Sunday? It sounds amazing, and I think my wife and I would really benefit from it.

good acting

Questioning system. I've had 3 periods of awareness of my headmates, but because of denial I forced them back 2 times. This is my third time and I'm 2 months into discovery. I'm not hiding it anymore because I want to learn. Even now I'm thinking that I'm faking because of the lack of embarrassment and discovering nearly 6 of them in the span of a single week.

Literally us with the inner world memory librarians! Slightly inconvenienced by our day being thrown off? That entire section in our memory library is now ✨️ off-limits ✨️

Bro is leaking her shower conversations.

i wouldn't do anything differently. when i switch i get embarrassed but usually people tell me im still ok, sometimes even nice or fun, if they even notice at all. but it's still scary cause i don't want to do anything that ill forget at all, it can be so scary even though i trust us not to do anything extreme at this point. well, one of my states can be a bit cold n mean seeming, but he's just very tired and doing his best. he mostly does chores and has difficult conversations anyway... says things i deny myself the right to say. he's really helpful and i love him. anyway yeah probably not hurt anyone lol shoutout to my grumpy part who does our chores sometimes and takes care of everyone 🥺

yeah... not a play thing... but o guess you are human, just forced to bbe human... terrible how they are. rly sad. really gross. they really disgust me.