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i’m turning 17 soon & i’ve been playing on & off since 2019 .. and even now, when i queue up for hunter rank my body feels like tingly and weak LOL …. right after this season reset i had to go camping & couldn’t rank, & its genuinely the most stressed i’ve ever been ??? seeing this video feels like a sign for me to chillax… 😭 but anyway excellent video, thank you for giving me a sign LOL 🎉 keep up the good work!^_^

I definitely agree with how toxic the community is, I’ve been friends with a lot of people within the game and outside of the game and they are so open to hate on others within the game, saying how bad they are over a failed save, bashing a hunter for just playing, and openly telling other players to @ff themselves. And yes the people that I have met were below the age of 18 so I personally think the problem stems within the underaged players. Everyone’s experience is different but from what I’ve seen it’s just almost everyone being open to hate on each other over a coralline looking game 😭

first of all ur laugh is goofy, secondly if u think this is toxic then u haven't seen dead by daylight

The one thing I do to make playing experience a little better is pay compliments to survivors or a hunter. If something went wrong and we (as survivors) lost a game - it's okay, everyone did their best. If I was playing as a hunter and survivors succesfully escaped - I will compliment them for a good teamwork. If hunter is doing great - I will tell him\her\them they're doing a great job. We all are trying to get better in this game and it can be stressful. So please, let's be kinder to one another. It's not that hard.

i constantly shake while playing hunter and its so exhausting. performance anxiety is real and im too afraid to turn off post match

No because the thing about being anxious and legit shaking when playing hunter is SO TRUE, I thought I was the only one in that situation, I've been playing for 4 years and I still can't get over it 🥲 Aside from that I agree with you so much, I started the game at the same age as you, it became a real coping mechanism and the only thing I could even think about for a while and today I realise I'm so much more chill about it, wether it was because I was young and immature when I started so it affected me more like you said or because I let myself take a break, also the game feels so much better when you limit your interaction with the community, turning off post match was the best decision of my life fr

I'm growing up with online games with an extremely toxic community, every slight wrong and people says you're worthless and somewhat. So I decided to steer clear from those games growing up. Fortunately I found out about Team Fortress 2, probably the most silliest game every created by man. Playing tf2 give me a really fresh breath of air since everyone doesn't really care on how good you're to the team, they just want to murderize the opposing faction in a cool or funny ways (there's still some bad eggs, but I digress). Adapting "fun first" mentality to other games, especially IDV is a surefire way for me to enjoy games and staying. And to this day, 2 years playing idv, I avoid lots of stress by ignoring the more 'competitive' side and being the "but it's funny though" Guy. (Ping and lags still gets me though)

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Been playing idv somewhat competitively. I was about 13-14 when I first started playing the game and this game is absolutely insane. Playing idv that young is one of my biggest regrets due to how badly it affected me mentally 😭 It has caused some serious mental health issues, but I can't deny that idv is one of the very few games I play this much. Yes, idv has given me some of my closet friends. As time has passed I've gotten used to the toxicity. I've been harassed on idv so many times for simply messing up (the same group of people insulting/sending death threats to in-game friends add system/throwing my matches whenever they had the chance). I don't know if it's simply saying something of my mental state or what, but at the beginning of the season the first hunter rank match I had I got told to 3 letter word myself 😀 I simply laughed at it and took it as a compliment. I can imagine how much it affects those who haven't gotten used to the community. I honestly can't go a week without seeing something negative in post-match, be it about me or one of the survivors in the match(The season started like a week ago and I've already seen so much negativity in post-match, 1 death threat and 1 insult to me, 2 times have been insults to other survivors for messing up). People who play idv need to understand that there's a point where they NEED to take a break from the game due to how agitated they can get over ONE mistakes someone made. Yea, it might have cost the match, but yelling at people in post-match due to that is INSANE to me. Tell them calmly what they did wrong so they can learn from the mistake,,, You never know what mental state the other person is in and spreading negativity is just not it. Also, 10:18 part. I see this topic a lot on global chats. I'm an eng1 regular and my god have I seen people who are usually higher than griffin tell and elk that their opinion is wrong due to being on such a low rank compared to them. TO WRAP THIS ALL UP, Idv does indeed have an effect on our mental state and emotions in general. Most idv players are on the younger side and do not know how to handle their emotions well and lash out. Some adults also lack the awareness of what they do is wrong, but overall, I think the main issue is due to how normalized the toxicity is that ultimately leads to our mental health being screwed. "others do it, so why can't I?" type of mentality seems to be the most common amongst the players

I play this game with my wife and sometimes with my sister in law and we all agreed to stop playing rank since it was so stressful and we only play duo now or SOMETIMES quick match. I used to be toxic to people in game but now they put me on antidepressants and playing isnt so tiring now. I've decided to switch up a little and now instead of complaining after loosing I try to compliment hunters or my teammates. Feels 1000 times better. Dont take this game so seriously everyone, focus on having fun! Also I must admit that your voice is very lovely and hearing you talk isnt annoying (Im autistic and find it hard to watch voiced videos). Love your content!

As a veteran player I relate so much.. bc I feel that as a 2018 player I should be ranking all the time and I should have gotten tons of badges and etc. I feel like I have to prove myself.. it sucks!! Especially because I’m 18 so I started playing around 12-13 I basically grew up on this game which makes it more stressful because I feel as if I have nothing to show for it

many people in this game are comfortable in ruining someone's day as if their actions have no consequences and this is scary af. i've been playing this since 2020 and i had to take a break because thinking about the players made me panic (mind you i only played qm around the time.) your actions do affect others, regardless of whether it is on the internet or not! ^_^

I understand the anxiety of ranking tbh. I’ve been playing since 2020-2021 but taken kinda long breaks in between but back then I NEVER RANKED it’s was solely qms and duos and I had a lot of fun tbh and I never met that many toxic people myself. Recently though I’ve been ranking to get a badge for barmaid but it’s just. When you have a losing streak it truly just gets you mad and stressed. Tbh I feel like staying to qms and playing with friends cuase that’s where I’m finding joy on idv yk

as a new player, it scares me so much that half the things i hear about this game are complaints of other players making mistakes and these same people talking about how toxic the community is... i obviously don't play rank yet so i dont have the experience of wanting to tier up, but just the thought of it all is so stressful from everything i've heard and seen from other ppl that's been players for a longer time. anyways, i stick with the fun of the lore and characters that is what interests me the most, and when i don't feel like playing a match or something stresses me out (even in quick matches with players that are also not veterans) i just log out - which i think is something essential while playing any type of online game really, to be self-aware, know your limits and when to stop so it doesn't affect your own (and others) mental health. great video!

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i remember one time an s badge insulted me for having a b badge on the same character for no reason and everyone in the public chat was on the s badge's side and that really made me feel shitty and made the rank experience even more stressful than it already was for me cuz the voice in the back of my mind saying stuff like "i have to get better" "im not good enough" was even louder after that and made me quit hunter rank altogether:,)

Hello, honestly this video was recommended to me and I understand a few years ago I had too much anger issues playing this game. I wouldn't type anything in chat because I hate bringing people down or trying to say they are bad, so I knew it was time for a change. After I stopped playing it for 2 years, I came back to play it again and now I play to have fun, not to be so serious when competing in rank. I will still admit when I do bad or when my teammates do bad but I don't get mad and honestly am proud of the big maturity development. I think everyone needs to take a break and go outside and balance out their life and make this game just a hobby, it will help your mental state out. For people who have anxiety like me, I think it's good to have time management of your life with this game. I ain't no therapist, but this is what worked for me, I hope everyone here gets better on their mental state. ( Also I want to say thank you for making this video, it's honestly not talked about enough, and some people just love bringing people down or being rude or no reason.

This is how I felt midway through idv. I think the most blissful thing is starting out because everything is fresh, and a wonder to you, and people are not mean in bee rank. It was when I got to mammoth where it started (personally) and then I got my first ever S badge. There was this pressure to maintain or to do good every time and I did get called bad or people were just dissatisfied with my performance lol. Any time I did do terribly I just wanted to disappear and express how sorry I was. Letting go of that badge felt like a relief. Even being A badge felt relieving, but now it's completely gone and a symbol of good, and bad times :) I also relate to the part about shaking from playing hunter, it still happens but less. I recently obtained my first ever hunter S badge too and for a character I had picked up on a whim. Honestly that time around I had a youtuber who played that character to watch, and it really helped me improve as well as remember to HAVE FUN playing that character. Its a mindset, its just a game, losing does not make you any less good. Don't feel pressured to maintain anything ever, especially now with past badges. Get to where you wanna be, and just know itll be a part of your memories now. Don't stress yourself over it. Be glad it happened.

bro, even the event mini games are causing me stress 😂

I started playing idv during freshman year and I just graduated high school. IVE BEEN THROUGH IT. I don’t rank cuz rank makes me so mad, I just play quick matches and tarot n shit. I DO NOT take this game seriously and I never will. A badge does not matter at the end of the end cuz like, you’ll not rank for like a week, go from top s badge player, to b badge. It’s just not worth it, games aren’t suppose to make you this heated, it’s so unhealthy.!!!!

I turned into hunter faction because the survivor faction was way too toxic, i hated recieving friend requests of randoms telling me to kms and showing my mistakes as like if i just shot someone. But even as hunter; i do get anxious every now and then, i did have a hunter grind for a month and then i got busy and ranked down. Even if you get badges people wont remember and they dont know who you are, i want to get the badges for myself, not for others. Hunter anxiety is real, even whenever you get toxic survivors. I did play Fool's Gold in this one ranked match against full stunners and i lost.. they emoted me at the gate and bragged their win on my face; but i thought it like this: the screen goes black at the end of the day. If i lose or win it wont give me anything irl, i wont get hurt irl, if i do see myself struggling in rank sessions i just stop playing for the day, tomorrow ill have another opportunity to do better. Playing w friends is honestly such a stress-relief. Whenever i play hunter rank i stream to my friends and we just laugh at my mistakes and they enjoy my reactions, like whenever i miss a hit i audibly gasp or say random words, i even start singing. 😭😭 If you lose a match it doesnt mean youre bad, comparing yourself to others will just steal your joy and youre not letting yourself enjoy the game at all. We all lose, even high tiers, even the ppl in COA, even streamers, everyone makes mistakes because we ARE HUMAN. Its okay to lose, you need to lose to learn. Ty for this video Gumball❤

In 2021-2022, i dealt with the worst overreactions and self deprecation from ranks matches as joseph. It was so bad 😭 i would add other josephs mains, begging for help and and tips on *anything*, despite being an A badge and knowing everything already. I never took people’s advice on taking short breaks, even if pings were bad. There was a time where I was at a hotel with my family and I was worried sick because I couldnt rank as joseph - and if I did, I would lose because of the ping. This would cause me to unknowingly vent and rant to said-joseph mains i had added and it was just so bad. Eventually, I took a break from IDV because of loss of interest. Then, I came back a couple months later because I just genuinely loved playing Joseph, so I did. In 2023, I had an on and off relationship with IDV where I would only play for a couple months and take breaks in between. I naturally stopped getting so worked up over ranks and controlled my emotions. Recently, I found myself goinf back into the habit again, but I think I can ease it up - especially after watching this video. So, thank you, Gumball!

idv has been pulling me away from the art and writing projects i've been procrastinating on - because it's easy, because art requires effort and concentration, because i'm not the artist i want to be yet and it makes practicing miserable sometimes. it's a lot easier to come back from a bad losing streak than it is to work on something you care about when you're not at the skill level you'd like to be at. even though the art and writing projects are what i really care about (not idv and it's ranks and badges). thanks for the video, made me realize i was using idv as a coping mechanism again.

this video was posted at such a perfect time for me. i'm the same age, started playing around the same time as well and like.. recently i've just been so out of love with the game that i so strongly fixated on for years because i feel like the performance anxiety, the community, and the toxicity are just too much for me right now. i really appreciate you verbalizing an issue that a lot of people are unfortunately too self conscious to talk about. like you said, even if it IS "just a game," even if it's "not that serious," the feelings are very much real. they absolutely can and do bleed into your regular life when said game is your source of happiness and validation, especially as someone with mental illness. honestly going to take this as a sign to take a break lmao, i really can't say how much i appreciate this video. lots of respect for putting this out there, thank you 🤍

11:25 I agree! I made a choice a while back that I’ve stuck to that if I do 3 ranked games and none of them go well, I take a break until I feel better, and see if I actually WANT to rank more that day, instead of just getting more and more frustrated

I started playing idv for fun when I was 12 because I just needed a new game to play and another youtuber had found Identity v on their viewer’s search history. I was curious and downloaded it on Dec 1, 2021. And just like I said, I was playing it for fun, then quit because I got bored, came back when I was 14, started to play a lot then slowly took the game more seriously. im 15 now and still addicted to it 😭 I wish I never watched that one video because now this stupid game made my mental health worse 💀💀💀 It made me waste money on it and I would’ve payed $100+ on smth else. I also lost my old account and made a new one late 2023 and that broke me because I was dumb to trade. I was literally soo sad but that wasn’t enough to make me quit 😭 That one video I found changed my life 💀 I also don’t like to be toxic because I know damn well how bad it is for hunter, I don’t wanna be that kind person. Like once I had lost a match, and was stressing really hard, played another and it did NOT GO WELL. I ended up walking into a corner in the game and spammed the hit button and literally cried. This happened like a month ago, almost two 😭

Sooo true. I literally take a whole 2 YEARS break bc the player of this game is SERIOUSLY allergic to bath and grass. Started on 2021 but stop playing at mid 2022 bc all of the threats that I got on a QM. Seriously someone add friend me just to tell me to kms (like lmao what??) I just recently picking up the game cuz the community seems to have calmed down on big 2024. Even though the toxicity have lessen a lot, I still think of taking a long break again bc no matter what faction u play, u just cant seem to be winning. Play surv= rude teammates. Play hunter= toxic surv and the cycles just continued on and on till u finally becomes afraid and anxious about a damn fashion doll game and it sucks so much honestly. Side note: the community can tolerate toxicity but cant stand fun and whimsy 😒

I have 6 years playing this thing and I still don't know how to kite more than 20 secs, idgaf about character points or rank badges 😭 People in this community can't tolerate the idea that casual gamers exist, you have to be a pro that hits 120 secs kite or they will ask you to uninstall and hit u a death threat on post match 💀 I even stopped maining Minds Eye cuz everyone saying it was a useless character and I compared myself too much with pro players. You can't even ship certain characters without a 15-year-old girl dedicating a thread to you on Twitter frrr what the hell is this comunity 💀😭 Btw this is a super interesting vídeo bro, good job!

I remember how I had my duo mate for ranked and they were always (and I MEAN IT), ALWAYS were badmouthing everyone playing either in post match chat or to me. Those were some real nasty words coming from their mouth. One time they were doing this in some chat and got muted for like 6 hours or so. And after that they wrote to me saying "idv muted me for nothing((" and showing them how they were shitting on other player. What the hell was happening in their head is still a riddle to me

Thank you for saying that, i’m a person with OCPD (not ocd btw) and GAD, i have been a fan for this game since it was made ig mainly for the characters, i have not played it until month ago, and i CANT play it without my friend cuz my anxiety and the fear of making a mistake, sometimes just the thought of me playing with real people scares me a lot. I dont play rank, i just play (sometimes, not a lot) with my friend, sometimes we just play with bots cuz we wanna have some fun, not being made fun of. Thanks again for this vid :)! U have said all the things that have been crossing my mind from the start of me being a fan of this game. (Sorry if my English is broken, its not my first language)

This video comforted me in an odd way bro I really agree with this and me myself has been taking a little break and I don't force myself to play when I dont want to

This coming out as I’m taking a break is crazy I lost my rank matches so I logged off and haven’t played for weeks I’m so happy I’ve started to like drawing more

I used to be a high-ranking hunter main, and in the last seasons, I decided to stop ranking. And honestly, I feel much more relaxed and ok with myself when I lose.

Nowadays I don't play it as much as I used to and honestly?... It made such good impact on my live. Like remember that meme? "1v4 game players when someone says they are leaving the game: Good, leave trash. IdV players when someone says they are leaving idv: that's self care, you go sister". Like yeah it's a meme but it's honestly truthful. And I used to be like that too, to the point I ACTUALLY was crying because I upset of how horrible I was at the game, but nowadays... Nah, I don't care to be good anymore. I'm bad at the game idc, I'm here to have fun and I stopped playing the game when I noticed that it's getting to me (SPECIALLY when the ping is garbage). But nowadays, I'm feeling so much better towards not just my life but IdV. I'm not approaching it as something I HAVE to do well, I just need to have fun. Also I stopped playing rank cause I got tired from the rank experience (and I mean not just rank itself but the HORRIBLE waiting times) and now I just play whenever I feel like. I don't anymore cause I HAVE to. I just play whenever I feel like. But IdV stress is REAL, and people shouldn't feel ashamed about it, but remember to take a step back if you're feeling overwhelmed with stress

the only reason i even play rank is because the bot matches are terrible and unfun, once you get to mammoth you don’t get them anymore

I've always liked playing as hunter most but honestly it's been so stressful playing it lately like if I lose a survivor match i'd still be the happiest person ever but if i lose a hunter match i just wanna end it all lmao , now I turned off post match chat thank you for speaking about this issue ppl in idv srsly take this game too seriously sometimes it makes the experience horrible

I used to get a little stressed and anxious when playing rank that my hands could kinda tremble but then I taught myself how to take deep breaths and ways to calm myself... which was useful when I took exams or were in IRL stressful situations lol.

The game can already drive you nuts but the commmunity of needlessly rude, sexual, selfish people doesn't make it better. You can be having a an annoying match and if you do a bit too well as a hunter, you'll get told to kys in the post match. Do bad though? You'll have 4 survs emoting, going out of their way to stun you when it helps no one and just being a pain for no reason. I had a match not even 6 hours ago on luchi where a barmaid was getting straight up verbally abused because I downed her quickly when, instead of rescuing her, all 3 of the other survs came to the chair to emote. This game is stressful as hell but I really think it's the in built toxicity that's rarely addressed by the terrible report system that makes it that much worse for a lot of people.

Emil looks like he just gave birth to Ada’s babies in the thumbnail

this video was really needed. the amount of times i got told "it's just a game" when i had a panic attack when i got told by everyone in post match how bad and awful i was or when i lost due to my ping being over 600 is wild and it felt invalidating to me, cause as much as it's just a game the way i feel is pretty much real.

ive never touched rank personally but im a very anxious individual and hearing about the way some people act in post made me super paranoid to even play quick matches,, i couldnt play the game for a while because i was so nervous i would be doxxed or degraded in post chat for being bad at the game, so i didnt play unless it was with at least one of my friends </3 turning off post match helped a ton but i'm still hesitant to play alone, and the general concept of the game is already mildly stressful (at least to me) + as a rescuer main (gravekeeper and aeroplanist) ive had to get off because i felt so sickeningly guilty for leaving someone on a chair to escape i felt like i was going to throw up (which is probably more of a personal issue) but the community defijitely adds to that, anyway i digress i think i went in circles im so sorry

So there is a thing that’s come into recent studies but you are most likely a tech addict and you tried to use video games to cope with things. It’s not as widely talked about as people don’t consider it like the other addictions but it still is. I’m glad you’re doing ok now and I’m not going to outright say you are a tech addict but it is highly possible.

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I’ve been playing non-stop for a year, and I think my last straw was last week, when some survivors for NO REASON AT ALL started to insult me in pm. They first cornered the random, and I asked what did she do in-game (I didn’t notice any weird behaviour imo) and without answering me, three people started to tell me to end myself, to leave the game, maybe I shouldn’t play if I will be so bad (I was practising a hunter I don’t main) And I got so... disappointed, and without me answering obvs they started to mock my wr% as if it wasn’t good (51% it’s good, and it doesn’t matter, everyone has bad matches?) And saying that this game wasn’t for me and such. I love this game, truly, but not only the game itself is stressful, the community doesn’t help, even when I told them “Okay, good night” they still answered with insults… So I decided to take a short break and return after some, but what you said about anxiety is SO true, and I really think it’s highly related to how this community behaves. Sometimes I just wanna play to have fun, but there’s so much smurfs who like to bully hunters, the sui harassers teams, and toxic survivors that make the game difficult to enjoy. And to not say last the survivors who tryhard and won’t let you enjoy the gameplay, I was fine with low-tier but as soon as I got to middle-high tier the survivors became unbearable almost draining, and it was impossible to me to win and to even enjoy playing hunter; it’s so easy to lose that it’s frustrating and the way they mock EVEN when you win (like I have survs who were toxic because I didn’t went friendly) it’s just… Tiring, feels like I’m playing with 12 years old bullies all the time. I hope I can come back soon with full energy, and I will be taking count of what you said in the video and some comments.❤

hello again gumball.... i've already talked about some of my experiences w the game and how bad it can be at times, but i think especially on a personal level, that introspection is really important. i've noticed that, at least for me, if my life is boring, or i have other very negative things going on, i'll start playing idv competitively again. once those times pass, usually i take like a 6 month break LOL. i say this bcs i've noticed idv is a crutch for me, and i didn't really see it as a bad thing because well, i could always be doing something worse!!! esp recently, i think i let my wants to become a better player overall kinda drive me to a point where i get rude, and i've left some of my other hobbies behind. i blame a lot of that on that like 6 month period where i had to move back in w my parents and put my life on pause. it's difficult to get out of that mindset once you're already so deep in. it's not like i've ever been peak tier, but i can say when i did have like... triple a badge and s badge gk and had 700 rank matches on record, i was pretty damn miserable LMAOO and i do need to say that it doesn't mean everyone who's like that is miserable, that was just my experience. i used it to cover up how badly i felt about genuinely not having a life LOL as i've gotten through that time though, i've kinda realized that it really is just a game. that doesn't mean i cant care or have goals i want to reach within the game but that is to say, there's better things out there. recently i've been picking up a lot of my old hobbies again. i started playing guitar and doing art again. i set up lunch w some lady to discuss ways for me to get into professional writing, and i've considered trying college again. i think playing rank for fun, and to become a better player, before work or yk if im awake at 2 bcs i can never sleep well LOL has been a lot better for me. i don't feel obligated to anymore, and i genuinely feel bad bcs i know there are so many people out there that are trapped in their own heads over it and are missing out on life bcs of it. anywya i yapped enoygh good video gumball also i really need to look behind myself more when i kite wow LMAOO

I’ve always dreamed of participating in tournaments and getting to a peak tier as survivor. But I didn’t realize that many cons came with it. When I was in mammoth I found a team and we were doing quite well. I eventually got to griffin with the (three of us because at that time we never had a fourth person). I was full of joy because I loved griffin, I loved spawn points, I loved challenging hunters, I loved winning. But it seemed like as our team played more and more our sessions started ending in losses after losses. I was frustrated, and sometimes mad. I pushed myself, I watched so many videos, spent so much time searching for how to get better, to teach my team, I think they never took it seriously as me and was never on the same level of passion like I was. This led to a lot of frustration and self-criticism, I felt foolish because they were carefree and I was so anxious about things. I often got mad at myself after every loss and I wanted to figure out how to get better and better and better, and so I kept pushing and pushing and pushing. So close to the point I almost lost my love for identity v. At that time, I was obsessed with badges, ranks, and maintaining my position. I prioritized the game over my health and well-being. But now I’m not as serious as I used to be. I stopped caring for my badge, I don’t worry about needing to rank every time it opens, I didn’t get frustrated when I lost, I reminded myself that even the best of players had to go a few steps back to get where they were. I look back at myself and realize how much I’ve changed for the better. I found the things that made me feel negative, and I worked on myself. I started art again, I started writing again, I started doing things that I previously sacrificed for a silly game. And I didn’t quit Identity v, I started playing more game mode such as tarot & duo hunters, discovering there’s so much more to the game than just ranking. I’m genuinely happy now, and I’m grateful for the time I took to think about myself and find balance. Time is always there, and it’s never too late to find joy in what you love, even if it means stepping back for a while.. I’m happy. And I’m glad you’re pointing this out gumball, sometimes we just need time to think. Time is still there, it forever will be.

I used to play this game a lot when I was younger, but I've definitely taken a break from it for a while. There's definitely a lot of toxic players in the game and it's super normalized which I think is crazy in a way. It's almost as if people have forgotten other people are also human and just think no one else has feelings. I have met some fairly nice people on the game even though I don't talk to anyone from there anymore, so I think the game can be worth it if you find good friends to have fun with and just enjoy your time on the game, it makes it a lot more enjoyable.

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It’s hard to think of the words I need, but as a season 1 player, it really comes and goes in waves. I mainly hunter rank since a lot of my friends can’t rank at the same times as me. The thing with high tier hunter rank though, I typically end up anywhere between cyclops and hydra, but whenever I go to play hunter rank I physically get cold. Idk what it is, but like I’m focused on winning and like I get shivers. Or I used to bite my fingers from the anxiety which really sucked. I enjoy playing and I enjoy winning. I mainly play for fun, but also to represent my main and to carve a name for myself as a respected expert. Some matches I just am stupid and play really badly and it makes me really frustrated. But all in all, I still love the game at the end of the day

aaah! the winwrate issue! i remember avoiding rank because i kept losing and it was making me cry nearly EACH match, now I just focus on myself and try to realise that even if I do well, i can't control how my teammates play or what other people do and there is no reason to let it affect me much as it did. I try my best to be positive now to make sure it doesn't get to me, sending gg's even if we didn't win! not responding rudely to rude comments and just... not taking it seriously is so much more helpful. games are meant to be fun! and mercs dance emote when i get ts as him on full health makes it much more fun >P<