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The Schizophrenic Photographer
Canada
Приєднався 26 кві 2007
My name is Scott. This is my channel on my photography, going out taking pictures, and showing the results. Basically having fun with cameras and photography. I also run a small photography side business on weekends doing outdoor portraits. I may show some videos here related to that. I also talk about and blog about my schizophrenia and how it affects my life, as well as other health concerns. This is not a review channel per say , but just to show my images from the day which will show the film and digital cameras I use. I may occasionally comment about films, cameras, and their qualities, but it wont be an in depth review of them. And for most of my videos I post them in 8K rez, to future proof the channel. So- lets have some fun! What kind of mini adventures could I get into? What places could I go?
Please note: If you are going to give me a thumbs down on my videos, be prepared to state why in the comments section. I dislike drive by actions like that.
Please note: If you are going to give me a thumbs down on my videos, be prepared to state why in the comments section. I dislike drive by actions like that.
Braxus Photography Fun: Summer Of 2001 Video Clips - 8K Uprezz
This is the first in a series of several travel videos Im showing here, over the last 23 years. This video here was shot in and around my home town.
This summer I was able to purchase my first Mini DV camcorder, which was my first video camera at the time. All shot in SD video, that was uprezzed and cropped via Topaz Video AI. This was a bunch of clips shot at Cultus Lake, Harrison Lake, and around home for me. Harrison includes the then Sand Castle contest which they held there for several years. Even though this video was uprezzed to 8K, the best the image looks detail wise is around 720P. AI artifacts are shown here in flaws of the uprezz. Take a look.
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This summer I was able to purchase my first Mini DV camcorder, which was my first video camera at the time. All shot in SD video, that was uprezzed and cropped via Topaz Video AI. This was a bunch of clips shot at Cultus Lake, Harrison Lake, and around home for me. Harrison includes the then Sand Castle contest which they held there for several years. Even though this video was uprezzed to 8K, the best the image looks detail wise is around 720P. AI artifacts are shown here in flaws of the uprezz. Take a look.
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 15 - A Few Thoughts on Cecelia McGough - 8K
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Here is a part 15 of my continued journey living with this condition. I pray this video gives one hope you can live a life with this condition. I am continuing to try and get to know myself more and my conditions, and to better my life as a result. Its not an easy life, but hopefully a more fulfilling life. Im owning I have this condition, but trying to not let it own me. Today is the focus on ...
Braxus Photography Fun: Innovative Audio's 2024 Garage Sale - Surrey BC / My Home Audio Hobby
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I've been interested in home audio (Stereo systems) since I was a child. When I was very young I learned how to use my parents stereo system and wanted my own system some years later. Fast forward to my teens where I got introduced to better audio gear from a local mom and pop stereo store (Unruh's TV and Stereo Chilliwack). Elliot Cohen was instrumental in teaching me about good gear and what ...
Braxus Photography Fun: Al Parker's Old Time Collection- Chilliwack BC Canada- 8k
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Here is a business in Chilliwack in an old building where he has a huge collection of old items, etc. Dates back to the first half of the 20th Century. Take a look. Shot on Tri-X 400 in both 35mm and 120 (645 and 6x7), Ilford HP5 in 35mm shot at 800 ISO, and finally on a Fuji GFX 50SII digital camera. Songs used are : "Funky Element" and "Hip Jazz" by Bensound. Royalty Free Music: www.bensound....
Braxus Photography Fun: Sign of the Times: Chilliwack United Church Demolition- End Times Talk. - 8K
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Warning: Religious talk in this video. The United Church in Chilliwack was the first church I went to, to actually be in the service itself. It initiated me in what going to church was all about. I only went there so many times before we stopped going. It took me 20 more years before I started going to church once again. This is a farewell video to the church itself, plus a commentary on the si...
Braxus Photography Fun: Hannah Shoot #1 At Canada Place BC
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Technically this is the second time I did pictures of Hannah, as the first time was at the Fuji event last November 2023. But this is the first real shoot I did with her as an actual photo shoot. It was 3/4s of a year in the making, but we finally got to do this shoot. It was a lot of fun with her, and her being a model, made getting the shots so much easier. Thanks Hannah! Anyway take a look a...
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 14 - New Generation Of Medication - 8K
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Here is a part 14 of my continued journey living with this condition. I pray this video gives one hope you can live a life with this condition. I am continuing to try and get to know myself more and my conditions, and to better my life as a result. Its not an easy life, but hopefully a more fulfilling life. Im owning I have this condition, but trying to not let it own me. Today is a video on th...
Braxus Photography Fun: Tulip Festivals 2024
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I go to the local tulip festival every year for the last 2 decades. This year there was two of them locally, so I went to both on the same day. Showing some video here, plus some still images. A few shots on 35mm film (Adox Color Mission 200) at the end of the video as well. It was a good turnout for this year, as it has been for previous years. Take a look!
Braxus Photography Fun: Out In Public Photography - Bad?
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Being how sensitive many people are getting today, and constantly trying to shut people down if the person doesnt agree with their views or actions, photography now is no exception. Responding to a video that another channel has recently put out, about shooting pictures in public and others trying to stop that. Its known that shooting pictures in public spaces is not illegal, yet there are some...
Braxus Photography Fun: My 3rd Super 8 Movie - "Getaway 2" 1997-98. - 8K
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Here is a series of videos focusing on my Super 8 movies I made in the past. This one is the third and final of 3 Super 8 movies I have made in total. This film was produced in 1997-98. This film (as were all 3 movies I did) were made in collaboration with my ex brother in law Jeff Bain. All editing and sound was done by myself at the time. This was the longest film out of the 3 I did. Some sug...
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 13 - Autism, High IQ, & Marijuana - Part B - 8K
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Here is a part 13 of my continued journey living with this condition. This video is a Part B of a 2 part look at these topics. I pray this video gives one hope you can live a life with this condition. I am continuing to try and get to know myself more and my conditions, and to better my life as a result. Its not an easy life, but hopefully a more fulfilling life. Im owning I have this condition...
Braxus Photography Fun: My 2nd Super 8 Movie - "Getaway" 1988. - 8K
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Here is a series of videos focusing on my Super 8 movies I made in the past. This one is the second of 3 Super 8 movies I have made in total. This film was produced in 1988. This film (as were all 3 movies I did) were made in collaboration with my ex brother in law Jeff Bain. All editing and sound was done by myself at the time. I feel this was the best of the 3 films we did. Take a look! This ...
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 12 - Autism, High IQ, & Marijuana - Part A - 8K
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Here is a part 12 of my continued journey living with this condition. This video is a Part A of a 2 part look at these topics. I pray this video gives one hope you can live a life with this condition. I am continuing to try and get to know myself more and my conditions, and to better my life as a result. Its not an easy life, but hopefully a more fulfilling life. Im owning I have this condition...
Braxus Photography Fun: My 1st Super 8 Movie - "One Of Those Days" 1986. - 8K
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Here is a series of videos focusing on my Super 8 movies I made in the past. This one is the first of 3 Super 8 movies I have made in total. This film was produced between 1985 and 1986. This film (as were all 3 movies I did) were made in collaboration with my ex brother in law Jeff Bain. All editing and sound was done by myself at the time. Of course the quality was not there for this first fi...
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 11 - Loneliness And Isolation - Part B - 8K
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Here is a part 11 of my continued journey living with this condition. This video is a Part B of a 2 part look at this topic. I pray this video gives one hope you can live a life with this condition. I am continuing to try and get to know myself more and my conditions, and to better my life as a result. Its not an easy life, but hopefully a more fulfilling life. Im owning I have this condition, ...
Braxus Photography Fun: Happy Canada Day 2024! 157 Years As A Nation! - 8K
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Braxus Photography Fun: Happy Canada Day 2024! 157 Years As A Nation! - 8K
Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 2&3 Audio Projects - 8K
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Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 2&3 Audio Projects - 8K
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 10 - Loneliness And Isolation - Part A - 8K
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 10 - Loneliness And Isolation - Part A - 8K
Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 3 Projects - 8K
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Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 3 Projects - 8K
Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 2 Projects - 8K
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Capilano College 1993 - Media Resources Program- Term 2 Projects - 8K
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 9 - Suicide
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 9 - Suicide
Capilano College 1992 - Media Resources Program- Term 1 Projects - 8K
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Capilano College 1992 - Media Resources Program- Term 1 Projects - 8K
Capilano College Media Resources Program- Audio Commercial - 8K
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Capilano College Media Resources Program- Audio Commercial - 8K
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 8 - Faith Heals
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 8 - Faith Heals
Capilano College Media Resources Program Audio Interview: "Life In the Fast Lane" - 8K
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Capilano College Media Resources Program Audio Interview: "Life In the Fast Lane" - 8K
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 7
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 7
Capilano College Media Resources Program - IMAX 'Streeter' - CN IMAX Vancouver BC 1992
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Capilano College Media Resources Program - IMAX 'Streeter' - CN IMAX Vancouver BC 1992
Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 6
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Living Life As A Schizophrenic Today For Me - Part 6
A Tour Around Capilano College North Vancouver BC, and the Media Resources Program 1992 - Term 1
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A Tour Around Capilano College North Vancouver BC, and the Media Resources Program 1992 - Term 1
Capilano College Media Resources Program- 1993 Video: "Vigorously Calm" Vancouver Dragon Boat Team
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Capilano College Media Resources Program- 1993 Video: "Vigorously Calm" Vancouver Dragon Boat Team
That information was very helpful. Thank you!
Awesomeness! I viewed her TedTalk a few years ago. She's gorgeous! Is it o.k. for me to say that as a heterosexual schizoaffective Woman. I really wish I had my old Mental Health Community to reach out to and forward your videos. I need my peeps! God Bless You. You're in my prayers. I need prayer too! Stacy : )
Thanks again Stacy. How shall I pray for you?
Well just that God's Awesome Power is with me while I'm trying to navigate through the confusion of being avoided en mass by my community for whatever reasons. And that I stop saying mean things to people like my Mom and boyfriend who I assume like everyone else in my life before heaven will abandon me. I'm tired of being avoided like the plague and being treated like a 3rd class citizen with no rights. Too many people on earth with control issues. Anyways....
Great video!
Thank you!
Isent the best treatment no medication
If you can get away with no medication. Alternative methods of treatment can help someone down that path, but there are no guarantees that way. For some they're only working option is to take meds, how ever a bandaid that way is. I'd love to go off meds right now if I could.
Great work in compliing and editing this video, Scott. See you again, soon. Nando.
Thanks Nando. It took some time to go live after I pulled it from TH.
Try Abilifly, or Latudazone, low in side effects. these are really good drugs.
Im going to hold out for Kar XT if Im going to change drugs. The current stuff all basically do the same thing really, with minor differences. I will wait.
your co workers are picking on you for educating people on what schizophrenia is like ,,they are a- holes. get rid of credit cards
As mentioned some of my coworkers can be toxic at times, and yes they aren't mature enough to handle someone like myself. That's assuming what I noticed was actually taking place. It is always possible it was all in my head.
So sad to see. I am blessed by viewing your video as I am a Christian also diagnosed with Schizoeffective Disorder. I come under a lot of spiritual attack and have no Christian support around me, to the best of my knowledge. I'm actually quite isolated here, so videos like yours are very helpful. I've been homeless for 2-3 years a long while ago, even while having earned a B.A. in Mass Communications. Sad to see your Church be demolished. So sad. But it's good news that low-income, homeless people will eventually have a place to live. That is a blessing. Keep doing what you do. God sees your work, and so do others who need your testimony and fearless honesty. Thank you, and God Bless You. Stacy in Colorado
Something isn't right if fellow Christians aren't helping you, especially if you've asked for help, or it being obvious. I'm sorry your situation hasn't seem to have improved. Yes the new low income housing in the old church location will help many. I'm low income myself, so I might even need to use that facility. Let me pray for you Stacy. I appreciate your consistent comments on my videos, and I'm thankful you feel my videos are helping. Stay strong Stacy. Jesus especially came for people like you and I. As for the old church, I have a new one I've been going to for the last 21 years now. I haven't been to the one which was demo'd since early mid 80s. God bless.
As a recovered schizophrenic (dealt with it from about 1989 to about 1992), I would say it is a spiritual battle and/or a shamanic journey involving non-corporeal entities, some of which are malevolent and adversarial. There is no definitive chemical imbalance, genetic marker or biological cause and the prescribed pharmaceuticals only tranquilize…they do not address the underlying symptoms. Schizophrenia is treatable, curable and not a life sentence but it does take internal work to address one’s soul and to regain one’s persona. Search for videos with Jerry Marzinsky…he’s a retired psychiatrist with many stories to tell. The MACE Energy method has show positive results at diminishing the negative voices. Cheers and be well!
I agree its a spiritial battle and demonic forces are at work with the condition. I alluded to this in previous videos. Some wont believe that, but its up to them to find out for themselves. My friend Andrew also was cured of his schizophrenia and I have been talking to him the last couple months. He was saved as well.
Very helpful…….yes, this is so promising….and offers great reason for HOPE…..wow……I’ll have to watch this again to make certain I understand the complex chemistries at work. Peace and blessings…..💜☮✝☮💜
There is hope for many who normal medication isnt effective. I still think Jesus is the best answer for healing, but those who wont accept him, there is this medication coming. Thank you for your comments!
Thank you for this video. I look forward to potentially trying these meds eventually. I'll take relief wherever I can get it.
Depending on when it comes available in Canada after trials of being available in the USA, I plan on switching to this med too, assuming it works that way.
YOU BE WILLING TO TAKE HEALING FROM SOMEONE WHO IS GUIDED BY THE MESSIAH, AND/OR HOLY SPIRIT TO DELIVER YOU AND/OR HEAL YOU? I AM NOT BEING DIFFICULT, BUT TO THE CONTRARY. I SINCERELY KNOW PEOPLE CAN GET RELIEF. I WAS DELIVERED AND HEALED OF TWO (2) SEPARATE ISSUES WITH NO RETURN OF SYMPTOMS. PRAY ABOUT THIS. ASK LOCAL BELIEVERS IN MESSIAH IF THEY KNOW OF SOMEONE(s) WHO HAS THE GIFT(s) OF DELIVERANCE AND/OR HEALING. PRAY FOR ALMIGHTY GOD TO HAVE YOU CROSS PATHS WITH EACH OTHER. MAY YOU BE BLESSED. BELIEVE IN ALL THINGS BEING POSSIBLE.
Yes Im hoping one day Jesus will heal me of my afflictions, including Schizophrenia. I prayed about this back in 2003 with my fellow Christian friend, and went slowly off my meds. The result was I wasn't healed at that time, and my schizophrenia flared back up to the point I had to be hospitalized. I chalk that up to it wasnt my time for that, and there is a reason why I wasnt healed. Partly because maybe the right person didnt do the prayer. Im looking into deliverance, but not sure who to contact for that yet. Deliverance not just for my schizo, but other factors as well. I talk to Andrew in Britian who WAS healed by Jesus from schizophrenia, so Im still working towards all this.
You have lovely, soothing background music in your films. How wonderful that you have developed a strong faith foundation. It is such a gift of comfort and strength to know that there is an all-loving God and a legion of angels helping us in our darkest moments. God bless you.💜☮✝☮💜
Thank you. Some of my viewers actually dont like the low volume music while Im speaking, because they find it hard to follow. But I feel it adds something to the video, which is why I put it in. My faith is there, but I still struggle with that. Im far from being a good follower. Backsliding, double minded, hypocritical are examples of my walk. I am trying to get closer to Jesus, but its a hard walk for me.
Thank you so much for sharing. It’s very helpful that you share. It takes courage to be so honest - especially with regard to our weaknesses and vulnerabilities. You are not alone with anything you experience and/or feel. God bless you.💜☮✝☮💜
Thank you so much for that. God bless you as well. The last couple decades Im less scared to be open and honest about stuff. Even if it seems embarrassing at some point. I feel its better to just say it so people know where you are coming from. And it builds trust.
There are many like you that benefit from cutting out gluten and dairy. See various UA-cam channels. Especially gluten. Please try this. It could make your life so much better. Unless you like having schizo episodes.
Id think I'd try the Ketogenic diet if I was to modify what I eat. That seems to be the better option to helping reduce the condition and its effects.
What do you think about trying a gluten-free diet for symptom reduction? I've seen it mentioned as helpful for individual cases but I wonder about any studies
no empirical or correlational/causal studies linking the two.
Sounds like some California mom gobeldygook to me
I have watched Laurens video on the Keto diet being effective, so diet is a part of this whole condition. Other studies have suggested its inflamation in the brain caused by a poor diet, which helps spur on the symtoms. All this info is just recent, so we have learned quite a bit in the last few years. Only concern is will big Pharma allow alternative treatments to co-exist instead of being stuck taking a medication. That was my only concern posting this video, was it seemed I was pushing medications instead of other treatments that dont require that.
I do the Carnivore ,keto diet .It really improves mental health .
She is a very special talented woman!
Good that you are trying to expand your portfolio. When out and about you will need to develop an awareness of surroundings which include other people. As soon as you have a person modelling for you I suggest having an assistant. They will keep watch over your equipment bag ( robbers), warn people who get too close and may spoil the shot, or invade personal space becoming a potential physical threat. I read many examples of bags with models clothes being stolen while the shoot was in progress. Unless you know your model via family its good to have a chaperone /assistant. They act as witness because some people will make unfounded claims about how you behaved with them in an attempt at blackmail. As for comments from the public, do not have a conversation with them. Its clear that you are taking photos ,openly which is legal there is no need to waste your time. In public places people shout nonsense for several reasons, drunk, drugged and mentally affected you have to develop a " thick skin".
Some really good considerations here. Shooting video of the two of us at the end of the shoot was risky we both knew. She told me her mom was nearby watching us and the camera gear sitting there. There was a guy who hovered around my video camera at the end, but we both saw him and that is when I went over to the camera to make sure nothing happened. Luckily our shoot was done at that point. As for an assistant, I don't know anyone I could bring with me at times.
Great topic, and I bet Hannah enjoyed her photo shoot. Just a note...I get distracted by the background music you insert in your videos. Other than that I really enjoy both of your platforms on youtube. From Stacy, the Schizoaffective Targeted Individual. Have a great day!
Thank you Stacy! It was a fun shoot and both of us enjoyed the time together. I understand the music may bother you, but it's really low level and my voice is easily heard. I find music cuts through the dead air while talking and elevates the mood. Music is a must in dramatic movies too, so I would never not include it. But thank you for letting me know.
@@braxus351W of course!
A lovely movie! Thanks
Thank you. Glad you enjoyed it. It really is the best of the 3 we did.
Sadly, a few bad people have ruined it for us. A female photographer does not have this problem.
Women are starting to get the favoritism these days. It's a double standard really. Guy bad, woman good is the way of things these days.
I might still have that jacket...
Curious, which part of the film was it in?
Very nice! It was a most memorable experience, too! The hike was wonderful. Those are the most memorable parts.
I did that hike again for my 3rd film, which you can now also view on the channel. Thank you for your comments.
Awesome man!
Glad you liked it!
I enjoyed that, Scott. Particularly the streets of the "wak" back in the 80's, shopping at Save On, hiking up to Bridal Falls, and then the view of the valley. Life is tough. Many of us have our struggles, and I can relate to your video.
Thank you Andy. I consider this one the best of the 3 we did back when.
great video bro
Thank you Andrew!
Very enjoyable! Lots of giggles! Even the bad parts were good!
Thank you for that. It's a silly film. Just depends on your sense of humor if you'll like it.
I think your best photo was at 9:35 😉
You mean of my friend in the hat? It's a good Pic if not slightly out of focus. He's a great guy!
@braxus351W 😄 That is so nice of you to say! I appreciate the compliment! It's me, buddy 😆! I really like the channel. Keep up the good work! PS: You're pretty darn cool yourself
@craigstreet6553 shucks Craig. Haha I didn't know it was you, but the tip off was Craig in your name. I'll see you maybe this Saturday.
Did you go off to shave during the video clips? 😁
Yup. I thought of something after and already trimmed off the beard at that point.
@@braxus351W the beard suits you...
@analogueandy8x10 maybe, but after a couple weeks it gets itchy and I have to shave it off. Keeps it from getting too bushy too.
Have you watched Jerry Marzinsky's interviews? He's cured many people from schizophrenia. He was a doctor treating people suffering with schizophrenia. Big pharma and the medical industry hate that he found the cure.
No haven't heard about him. Looks like I need to look him up. Is he online here?
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I am 57 and dont even have family - no one wants a schizophrenic and so sick that the news is always blaming the world problems on us and alway trying to create laws to prevent us from being a equal in society - state constitution and federal constitution states there will be no noble class or anyone became a 2nd class citizen yet everday I hear the congress or state leg wants to limit my life - I DO NOT DO ANYTHING TO ANYONE - I MIND MY OWN BUSINESS - I REALIZE YOU DONT WANT ME IN SOCIETY SO I STAY TO MYSELF. So sicj especially that Christians always calling me DEMONIC POSSESSED WHERE IS GOD'S LOVE AND MERCY NOT FROM THE DEVIL, BUT FROM THESE CHRISTIANS WHO JUDGE ME DAILY AND TRY TO DESTROY ME BECAUSE THEY THINK THE DEVIL LIVES INSIDE OF ME. SO SICK OF IGNORANT CHRISTIANS - WHO WANTS GOD WHEN HIS CHOOSEN ONES ARE TOTAL JUDGMENTAL A-HOLES. - I dont smoke, nor drink to get drunk - I BEG god to take my life yet it wont do it. I hear God and angels and ancestors and voices saying DONT GIVE UP I am doing this for a reason and to HANG IN THERE it is almost over, you are LOVED and You make me proud I hear my ancestors say and a God say to me. They keep telling me my life is fixing to get so much better that I will not believe how good it is going to get to hang in there. Yet I am so tired I dont care what it is going to do - MY LIFE BEEN DESTROYED - no amount of reward or gifts will ever bring my spirit back to life - YALL KILLED MY SPIRIT at age 11. I dont want anything but to nnever existed - I dont want HELL nor do I want HEAVEN - who wants to be with a god who allows such hardships. He judges the priest and kings in bible yet HE SEES ALL and has DONE NOTHING. I DONT WANT ANYONE ANYMORE. So sick everytime I get upset over someone bad behavior it is all because I am mentally ill - NO YOUR BEING A A-HOLE and using my mental illness to treat me bad and then blame me for getting upset how you treated me. Like I am not allow emotions. So I demand God to give me a house over the water where i live with all the supplies for the rest of my life to become a HERMIT. NO God sticks me in place where I am so judged I cant even walk outside - people gangstalk me to try to harm me because they dont like I exist. WHAT IN THE HECK DID I DO TO THEM - I WAS BORN WITH GENES I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER.- I dont even know why I got out of bed today - I rarely leave the house. I might go to the beach once a week - yet beyod that I stay to myself because of the BS I have to deal with with the public - the true mentally ill people are ALL OF YAH - YAH ARE SICK IN THE HEAD TO TREAT SOMEONE WITH SUCH DISTASTE BECAUSE THEY EXIST. Yes I suffer from mental illness - yet YOU ALL ARE PSYCHOTIC and PSYCHOPATHS for treating people so wrong because they were born with illness - AND YOURE GOD'S CHOOSEN PEOPLE? OH GO FUK YOURSELF - YOU ARE NOT GOD'S CHOOSEN AND IF YOU TRULY ARE - YOU ARE THE REASON I DONT WANT GOD IN YOUR FORM - WHO WANTS TO BE IN HEAVEN FORVER WITH A-HOLES LIKE YOU ALL. The Eastern world sees us as Yogi or Mystics and the ancient Jews saw us as Tzadkim, the ancent Celts and Germanic and Sami saw us as Shamans. Yet I had to be born in a country who sees me DEMONIC and filled with demons to be mistreated all my life just because I am different - I NEVER HARM A SOUL yet blamed for all your issues - TAKE RESPONBILITY for your own actions and STOP BLAMING SCHIZOPHERNICS - WE DONT BOTHER ANYONE.
Im so sorry you are going through this. No its not fair. I can feel your anger on this side of the screen. I pray things do get better at some point. Yes schizophrenics often isolate because of the people around us view us negatively. We really do live in an evil world. I try not to judge others, especially people like myself with a condition like this. Im not sure what really else to say without sounding crass or insensitive. As per Christians, keep in mind no one is perfect, and we too are often under attack. So we may act badly at times. Again no one has the market on being perfect and often say the right/wrong thing in situations. I mess up a lot myself. I hope some of your comments weren't directed towards me, as I dont really know you. That said Im here to keep the discussion open.
@@braxus351W I wasn’t directing anything towards you. I try to let it go with Christians but where is God’s love from most of them. All they speak about is demons and devils and everything they don’t understand is demons demons demons - they speak about devil more than about Jesus makes me think that is who they truly worship. I realize people are not critical thinkers - yet they have treated me the worst in life. I don’t care what people believe - but why attack people so much with Christian values that are not even biblical. Maybe my illness like the blind man wasn’t that he is evil or his parents sinned like Christ said but maybe my illness is like the blind man to show the glory of God. Your message was kind, and in no way was talking about you
@nyxnoch ok. Thank you for that. Yes as a Christian we are taught to love others, but often fail at that. Me included. Jesus came for the sick, which includes people like me and others who really need him. Don't look at Christians as the example of perfection, as we may be far from that. It's why we need Jesus in the first place. I'll apologize for Christians treating you badly, as I don't think they intended to do that to you. Or maybe some messages got crossed between you and them, like misunderstandings somewhere. Hang in there if you can. Ending a life is not what people want to see others do. Again I'm still here if you want to talk more.
I wish I had friends. Schizo is a hard thing
Sometimes even when you do have friends, whether you are really still connected with them is in question. I have quite a few friends, but I rarely see them, other than the ones I work with. Isolation seems to be a real thing for our condition, either by choice or not.
Zyprexa prints. good video
What do you mean by “prints”?
@@kylebb1901 just a pun 'picture print' eluding to photo's. sorry for the word play
I'm still confused. What does Zyprexa mean in this context?
@@braxus351W I'm sorry. I was prescribed Zyprexa for my condition and assume that we all take the same medication., i see now that my pun was inappropriate. Again, I apologize.
@@Mr.Blister1960 I kinda figured it was a medication, but I'm missing the connection between a medication and pictures.
Bro look into Jerry Marzinsky's work on schizophrenia. He's credentialed and says the voices are from entities and not the client hallucinating. Why else would a hallucinations hate things like the 23rd Psalm? Absolutely mindblowing stuff. Even if you're not religious, I'd recommend looking into it.
I just checked him out after a suggestion from another commenter. Demonic spirits indeed. I alluded to this in a previous video I posted. Jerry's book looks interesting. I'll have to check it out. And yes I call myself a Christian, however a not very good one, so I have belief yes.
@@braxus351W MY MAN
Hi u. This is the first vid of yours I come across and not done reading the transcript. I feel I don’t know much about schizophrenia. I want to ask you what kind of hallucinations you’ve had but maybe that’s in another vid. I also want to ask you if you ever went philosophical on it. Anyway, I feel I’ll be back. Take care❤
Hi Sofia. I did mention my hallucinations in my previous schizo series videos, yes. But to break it down, I basically had audio hallucinations. People commenting on what I do, or at worst, saying really nasty negative stuff about me. I havent had any hallucinations for a long time now, though a couple years ago, my symptoms flared up and I thought my neighbor was watching me and commenting. Typically I rarely hear anything like a hallucination, as my medication works well enough to keep me somewhat controlled. Thank you for watching.
Thank you for documenting your struggles
Thanks Sylvia. Documenting part of my struggles is partly why I do these videos, but I do them more-so to help others. Both people wanting to learn about the condition, and to give more hope to those with the condition
Thank you for sharing your life with us!
Thank you for the comment as well!
Hi from Argentina!!! Me encanta el fondo con las camaras, se nota la dedicación. Espero que sigas subiendo videos! Saludos 😊
¡Muchas gracias! Trato de hacer buenos videos, ya que es un esfuerzo continuo.
Yo i was just thinking about how would i ever tell someone n a psychosis or with schizophrenia about jesus. I was in an emergency clinic when I woke up one day and I was totally lost in this world I was going crazy. Psychosis and I didnt trust anything. Now im christian and im doing so well. I wish you the best and i hopw you get healed in gods will we never know what is best for us only god knows. And god can use is for the good of others too. With your story for example. Otherwise I hope you keep the faith and keep trusting god and its more dureable for you. I really dont know what to say actually because when I was in psychosis i didnt even trust anyting my mother said. But brother i know jesus is the way i hops you will never leave him and in heaven you will get everything back and there will me no torture nor sickness❤ wish you all the best my friend. May jesus help you and stand by you
Thank you for your thoughts. Jesus really is the way. Even I have to learn that for myself.
Have you seen Living well with schizophrenia and how she was able to put her illness into remission with a medical keto diet? She stressed that you must work with a healthcare practitioner
Yes I reference her channel and her keto update was to be in my next video, but was unable to finish the video due to a computer failure. I should have it up next Tuesday though.
@@braxus351W I wish you all the best. God bless you.
@@revelation1215 thank you! God bless.
God bless you for sharing. Some of my close family members had schizophrenia! I witnessed them constantly being tortured by negative voices. They would cry, and other times laugh too! But it's definitely more negative than positive Your faith is so encouraging, not walking away from God! And for praying for the woman who walked away from God! Some heal, and some don't heal! We don't know why, but we are called to carry the cross! Simon helped jesus carry his cross, and i hope we help jesus carry his cross by carrying each others crosses I hope if not in this life, that jesus himself envelope you in his love that exceeds what the human heart can receive! Thank you , and thank you for being brave and vulnerable Im so sorry that some people weren't kind in their comments! God forgive them for they don't know!
Haven't really seen much negative comments yet, unless I'm being blocked from seeing them. I'll check when I get access to my UA-cam account again.
Mother was schizophrenic. Middle brother is. Dad was a sociopath. My sister and youngest brother are. Its a mix of those schizophrenics who cant help themselves and dont mean harm and the sociopaths who canth help it and do mean harm. Ive been depressed over it for years.
Sorry to hear that. That's really a tough break with all that in your family. Mental illness is the least understood of all medical issues, but it's slowly getting better. I'll pray for you and your family.
❤ Phew! I'm just a bum telling other bums on seats where to get bread and meat and greet!😂😊
Tetelestai😊
This pilgrim's still processing his progress. Circumspectly. Rejoice in the LORD All ways.
Complete in Christ. Reading Galatians to remind myself to keep my nerve. . . Father God, please heal my adopted family members from to much introspection. . . For your Namesake!
Greetings 😂 Scottish Vernacular. Count Down. (9 letters). My Mam couldn't pronounce schizophrenic. Twentieth Century Schiziod Man ELP. Or Was it in the Court Of The Crimson King? . . . Suffering flashbacks in the Abraxas of Samba Pa Ti ? In the 1970' of Aladdin Sane. Brain Drain. Seriously. Doing just what is a young man's fancy. ( How can a young man keep his conscience Heart aka super ego. Clean as a whistle- blower?) 1984 Oh Well . I can't help about the shape I'm Inn. I can't sing I ain't pretty and my legs are thin. . . But if I ask you what you want me to do . .I might not give the answer that you want me to! Repent! Jonah, did he have Tourette's Syndrome? 😮 3 days in the belly of a mammal . Spamalot Camelot National Lotteries Prince Harry Potteries Scratch Card Schools Ship of Fools? As it was in the days of Noah . . . . Testify! Thanks for American Pie G I Joe! Jefferson Starship Witchcraft is E T coming back on? Vicar of Christ? . . Though suffering comes and evil crouches near still our Living God. He is reigning here . . . .
I'll pray for you brother. May God give you peace and a clear mind.
I think there is a spiritual connection as well. I’m sorry this has happened to you.🙏
Sometimes things can be a blessing in disguise, even if one doesn't realize it. Who knows what kind of person I'd be if I never got schizophrenia? Would I be a decent human being if I wasn't? More obnoxious maybe? Who knows.
Without judgement I pray for totall freedom for you
Thank you. Im talking with Andrew today, as you may know in the video, was saved and cured from Schizophrenia. I hope for the same result for myself, in God's timing of course.
I pray that you find a godly woman to share your life with! In the name of Jesus!
Thank you for that. I really don't have much luck with women to be honest. Finding a single one at my age that is a good match for me is very much rare here.
I agree with you about the spiritual side of the illness
I take as spiritual warfare and some of us have more of a connection with that world most don't see. Thank you for your comment.
@@braxus351W i think that's true. In recent times ive begun to think of it in that manner. But what about my schizophrenic family members? Is it warfare for them? Or me?
@FredPena-rd5cf I think the only thing you can really do is pray for them. God willing, hopefully he answers your prayer with change. Don't be upset if he doesn't answer, as there is always a reason or time for it.
@@braxus351W well its too late for mother. She has passed. A lifetime of manic behavior and suicide attempts. Father passed also. Had brain damage from a car wreck when he was 16. Liftime alcoholic. Middle brother is schizophrenic like mother. Had a stroke a few years back. Often hostile and manic. Sister is becoming like father and is an alcoholic. Little brother is a deviant. Ive lost them all in some way or another. I'd say im depressed. Dont really share in addiction or a mental illness. But the wreck of a family we were has been youthful anger now turned into less anger and more resignation to the hopeless reality. Thanks for the advice.
@@FredPena-rd5cf That all sounds so tragic. So sorry your life went that way. Faith helps in situations like this. Sometimes its all people have left. My father died by suicide (also schizophrenic like myself), so I can relate a little. I hope things do get better for you though. Stay strong.