So sad. Hard to imagine how many men have to face this situation on a daily basis and for so many years in their lives. As a former counselor, I cannot tell you how many of this cases actually still happen nowadays.
How many thousands of years has this gone on. And it will never end because everyone wants love and searches for it - and are attracted to whomever they are attracted to - then to find out the person one is attracted has a different sexuality makes people hurt = then angry -= then judgemental. I feel so sorry for women who marry gay men because they have achieved one of the greatest goal of humans - to find somebody to love - and be loved back. And slowly they find in the end that the person is incapable of truly satisfying them.
The focus is the grief of losing someone you care about. No matter what his sexual preference is, he experienced loss of someone he loved. Lets not get caught up on sexuality. That is not the overarching thing. In our lives when we lose people we vibe with, that transcends any labels. Anyone can relate to such tragedies.
I think the narrative was we'll thought out. It was simple, and the message was well clear. It is about loss, judgement about whom we are, the pain we all go thorough. Our action's matter, and so do our words to each other.
Finally….a "Gay Short" on UA-cam.....that kept my attention.....that was well written.....was well acted.....and had an interesting storyline. And without Self-Loathing main characters.....!!!! THANK YOU !!!!!!!
It’s about the guy having feelings towards he’s friend in a sexual way and I think he’s life would of been better with him and they both knew there was feelings between each other! But as soon as he died! He couldn’t express how he really felt! And feels a deep loss! Of what could have been!! 😢
I was too afraid to admit how I felt about my best friend, especially when he died. I spent years pursing men, confusing how I felt about him with sexual desire. It took an act of God, through a near death experience to realize who I truly was, and what I lost the day he died. I am much better now, remaining celibate, knowing that he is waiting for me when I leave this world and go Home.
@My Own Private Idaho I'm almost 50. At my age, guys only want one thing: S E X. I not going to be vulnerable just so some guy can get his rocks off and never speak to me again. Been there, done that.
@My Own Private Idaho It will be sixteen years for me in September. I will be fifty by then. My first grandchild will be born next month. I had the privileged of being a father to three kids. My exwife didn't see this as a privileged and split 19 months ago, leaving to raise the kids.
@My Own Private Idaho It was unspoken between the two of us, but I believe that he did. While we never had sex, we spent the night with each other undressed many times.
@My Own Private Idaho Yeah, it wasn't about physical lust (although I have no doubt in my mind it would have turned into sex). It was rather about emotional need for each other. I still miss him.
A tough, complicated but important subject - the issue of shame, self-loathing v self-acceptance, and how they play out in males with either loving or violent outcomes. But I’m not sure the non-dialogue screenplay, the ambient piano soundtrack and the fantasied v actual memory ending worked.
@@MrMigueldelaO I had a different take away: I thought the dark haired bearded guy was the driver of the car that hit & killed his friend/love interest. The 'hero' initially sought violent revenge for his loss and imagined assaulting the driver in his home, but instead was, I believe, overcome with grief for the loss of love that his sexual confusion prevented him from fulfilling.
I am going to have to watch this later tonight when I get home. Definitely sad but as a gay man who came out 28 years go at the age of 18, I am still baffled at stuff like this.
Damn..i feel his pain..great acting..i was all in at the waterfront scene..that desperate scream! Omg..opened back up barely healing wounds...why am I watching these vids??? Ugggh
I enjoyed this realistic short film. It is a glimpse of a life that is completely different than mine. I had to watch it a second time to truly get the understand everything. The raw emotions make this movie special. The cast was perfect, great locations and good script. Thank you for making it.
The agony of being unable to tell the world whom you love is equal or more than The agony of losing your loved ones.....only the person who ls in love...knows!!!
A good film and focused on identity. The setting, suggest insurmountable currcumstance and an inability for this guy to deal with emotion, feeling toward his same sex. I had to watch twice to understand the story. Type of self destruct. The clip in the bathroom, express humiliation and suggest an inner crisses. Very clever the film maker put together all the events to make this work. The guy in the road (bloody) is the same guy he played snooker/pool. There seems to be a more serious ploy. Very complex
Well, not really. We don't really know the struggling of being afraid to being gay, it's more the struggling of loosing someone you love before anything could happen because you are afraid. But in couple or not the pooler guy would have died the same, and he could be a girl too. I don't see the shave as an express humiliation (wtf?) I just thought it was for make him looks more dangerous and assimilated his revenge to neonazi crime instead of "gay struggled revenge" crime.
@@avatarlhamo3063 the guy he beat up with a bat was the guy that accidentally killed him. No it not on sexual identity it's more on awakening he had those feelings.
@@avatarlhamo3063 yes but guy in the road had blood on him. So the other guy must have done something. The plot gets more sinister. A shame this movie ain't a hour
I struggled a lot when I was home I can't shown to people who really me because I am afraid of shameful comments. But when I got of the box and a went abroad I started to felt free and indulge a lot of serious relationship with same sex. I am very much happy now.
I have struggled this way a lot suffered lot of insecurity pangs and still do My only question is why can't those who don't accept this also is true and question Mother Nature ? It exists in all kinds of living things It is not one's choice but the way we are born Nice picturization! Love from India to all of for who we are💞💖❤️
Es injusto que solamente se pueda poner un solo "me gusta". Por mi son como cinco veces. Corto, conciso, manteniendo el suspenso del "por qué?" hasta el final, sin traducciones, universal, precioso, romántico, por si no quedo claro ME ENCANTÓ.
Stunning work. Beautiful photography, beautiful actor, beautiful acting, intensely powerful close-ups and editing, heart-in-mouth storytelling ... Even contemporary London, breathing down its neck here, lends its weight to the punches. The struggle gets no easier, does it, nor the tale less harrowing? Congratulations all round, truly - from the screenwriter of 'Maurice' ... 35 years ago now.
This short could not keep my interest but I'm glad/sad/angry that I kept watching anyways, the end hit so close to home. I lost someone I was in a semi secret relationship with in a roll over. The emotions were so real. Losing him was like my world stopping. I don't think I've still really accepted it, 7 years later.
When the stigma associated with being different, lessens, particularly for men, with this ideal of the masculine man, then men might just find it easier to accept who they are and be prepared to ditch the stereotype. But film makers continue to be obsessed with the idea of the tragic man who cannot accept he is gay or bisexual? It’s a recurring theme. It actually doesn’t do justice to the notion of the challenged man. There are also stories to be told of men reconciling their sexuality and finding joy happiness and release in that fact.
Julian Coulden Exactly. Sexual identity is a broad spectrum. The sooner both straight and gay people understand that, the sooner they’ll stop passing judgement on others who do not fall into their categories.
Thank you so much for commenting and watching our little film. Means a lot. And we totally agree with what you are saying there are other stories to be told, and other versions of how this can play out. This story is based on true events so it would not do it justice to change it to fit a narrative that others want to see. We had to film the story for what it was.
Before i watched this short feature, I thought only Paul Greengrass who could pull off a well-crafted artwork of handheld camera in this world...but apparently, there is another guy who can get away with it too
This is so sad, i wished for a happy ending so bad i cried, no matter how many times i watch it, is still the same... The agony he must be in... Oh my gosh... 😥😥😭
what a great, professional looking short film... bravo!! Excellent lighting, acting and music... really beautifully done... so happy to have seen it...
Been there... it's a horrible feeling, I almost didn't survive...The guilty seems to eat you alive, it hurts deeply inside the soul... It divides you... One day I left them... my daughter and wife...I love them but I left the both them... I left a note. I run away as far as I could go. But I survived. I chose life. If I stayed I am pretty sure I'd have died. I'm OK now it's been so many years... decades. I have a relationship with my daughter, she understands me now... Sometimes it felt like a curse... My daughter went through the same...with the difference that this time... I was there for her. She didn't have run away or go through it alone. I am a happy grandfather now.
Identity dsyphoria is real I am a living testimony of still finding myself as a gay Black man and having no one you can trust in confidence and be reclaimed
La he visto cantidad de veces y me sigue conmoviendo igual que la primera vez que la vi. La guardo en la memoria como algo muy preciado... GRACIAS por este bello film
Didn’t go where I was expecting it to go. I thought it was the tired “Man-Has-Gay-Encounter-And-Now-Wrestles-With-Sexuality” instead it’s (spoilers) . . . . . . . it’s about his anger at losing someone (probably mixed with regret at lost opportunities) and whether he should take out that anger on the person responsible The film also plays on our expectations and assumptions thinking that the tortured young man has only one reason for his anger and grief Well-played
Doesn't seem like he was struggling with his sexual identity more like struggling with whether or not he should seek vengeance on the death of his friend who he clearly was in love with. He probably accepted the fact he was bi.
This feels more like he's grieving about the guy's death than it is a film about struggling with sexual identity. I feel like he already knows his sexuality and he's just closeted.
The head shaving bit kind of reminds me of britney in 2007, she wasn't insane, she just had enough, filled with adrenaline and heartache made a conscious decision, these days its no big deal and even trendy
@@davidspensberger7862 shes not nuts though is she ..anyone with half a brain can see that she's been through hell and yet still comes off smiling..her story is inspirational, they've literally just did a documentary defending her so fck off!
Brittney was/is struggling with demons both eternally and externally, Hollywood is rife with satanic rituals and Brittney is one of them, she might not even know it, but you do not get in high places in Hollywood without selling your soul to this satanic culture., you think the arrest of Harvey Weinstein is a coincidence? do you think maybe Weinstein is or was being used as a sacrificial lamb? what about Jeffery Epstein and his sick demented satanic stuff, him and Weinstein are connected at the hips. Wait until the rest of it is espoused and it will be, it's happening now and Hollywood is dead, it will never return to its glory days it started out to be, there are many good people in Hollywood who are great artist who often get destroyed because they don't understand that their way over the head, yeah, this is all being brought out to the surface and its going to freak out a lot of people when it is. wait for it, trust me, it gets really, really bad, you have not seen anything yet so prepare yourselves now. it's going to get ugly, If you think I'm some how full of shit, then just wait and be aware, its all coming like a fright train and their isn't any stopping it. BTW, did you watch the half time show at last Sundays Football game??? go back and watch, what do you see??? think logically. it's all connected. some sick ass shit is what it is.
omg people are so afraid of what other people might say to them, grow up, be a man and accept for who you are, for all you know most of the people nowadays don't really care who you are as long as you are nice person.
That is true, happened to almost all gay guys, but then: why be violent? In this movie it was not clear to me what was fantasy, real past and what was the cause for change.
@@nalandatendar4212 I dont think any was fantasy, more memory. He was in a bad relationship with the girl (mayb she suspected re the argument), while playing pool, as a group, he very clearly was thirsty for the ginger guy (mayb a friend? of his? of hers?, or just a regular guy in the poolroom) and the guy clearly was checking him out too. Someone he 'loved'/desired (and felt was 'his' secret') was taken from him by the killer (though it appears to be a road accident), so in his moment of madness he seeks revenge. The guy has lost his secret love and will be stuck with the girl. - Though the attack with the bat, I think was a dream - he went with the intent, but after the shown attack, we are shown he doesn't actually ring the bell, but walks away - so the only bit of fantasy (mayb) was his revenge attack. He was stuck in a space intime where he knew he fancied men, but was very deeply in a relationship with a fiesty girl - he had a secret desire.. but at that space in time could't tell anyone - as someone else said "all gay men go through this" - we have no idea of his family/his support group/friends - it could be a HUGE leap for him 'to make the change' in his life - one thing is clear, the girl wont be accepting... hope you do a sequel (no death please), recently watched the 2018 Boys movie and 2017 Mario - both need sequels - (& happy endings) - Im done with Floating Skyscrapers and Land of Storms and the like. Thank you for this short. x
Interesting concept, but the story is very unclear. You sense that they guy is struggling with his sexual identity, but mostly because that's stated in the title. What he going to murder the black guy because he had had sex with him? Did the black guy see him kiss the dying friend on the street so that's why he wanted bash him with the baseball bat? How did the guy on the street get injured. Too many questions.
You make a good point. The problem with so many modern films is that they are trying to be less obvious by making people think. The thing is, they should make people think by posing existential, or philosophical questions, not by leaving so many plot-holes that you have no idea what actually happened!!! It's just lazy creativity.
The story is actually pretty clear: Guy is in a hetero relationship. Meets a guy who causes him to question his sexuality and he falls for him, but isn't able to express it yet. This conflict causes the protagonist to detach from his girlfriend (hence his vacant looks when she's yelling at him and the actress did a fantastic job of mouthing "LOOK AT ME!"). While he's still sorting all this out, the black guy is a negligent driver who hits and kills the male love interest. The death causes the protagonist so much grief because he never told the person how he felt or finished processing his sexuality.
cactaceae123 no he didn't. Him beating the black guy to death was a fantasy when he was on front of the door, we clearly see him renounce to push the doorbell. It never happen, he just leaved to go to the port
@@JrsProperty1601 Almost what I thought. But there is a twist. The black guy might not have been the guilty part in the accident. The two guys were coming out of the pub, dead drunk, and one wandered to the street. He gets hit by a car. The main character started blaming the black guy for it and decided to go skinhead. At the point when he nearly presses the doorbell, he realises that it wasn't the drivers fault.
You have to watch the entire of the film to know who the players and their roles are. Main character has a real internal struggle and probably the only person he felt true and authentic with he can no longer be with. I'm sure this is a tragic love story that we all can relate at one point in time. Aside from that, couple of questions: 1. What do those tattoos symbolize on his fingers? 2. Is it wrong that I'm watching this short film while eating a bowl of ramen and humming to Paula Abdul's Vibeology song with emphasis on the lyrics "Vibeology. Now You ask. What does it mean? Why, its the study of the chemistry between you and me" and thinking he don't got any chemistry with the woman in this film but on the side doing the funky way with the handsome friend? 3. More of a random tip: Don't shave your head in a sink and let the hair get clogged in the drainage - no good!! Thanks.
ryanlester1980 I am so sorry to hear that. I am single and keep to myself. I am out. But don’t really hang out with many gay people. Very hard at times.
Funny how they always choose mighty attractive men who struggle ! I think the real struggle is for people who don't even need to struggle with their sexual identity because even accepting it won't make it any easier . I know countless men who feel completely isolated in the gay "community" and though they accept their sexuality, the "community" doesn't accept them, just because they do not fit the mold . The mold being , being attractive, wealthy, popular, healthy, masculine (though with the drag queen phenomenon now things are changing, but it won't last) . I even know many who went back to women because they were rejected by the so called gay community and felt that life was even harder for them trying to belong .
@@avatarlhamo3063 There are a lot of gay men who after years and years of rejection by the gay community . decide to settle with a woman, often women who are just as much rejected in the straight community or sometimes lesbians , and the numbers are increasing due to this day and age obsession with appearance and social status . So maybe sex is not on the menu of these couples, but partnership and true friendship is . I have a few couple friends like this, and they are usually remarkable people and often terrific parents, as many of them decide to adopt kids or have them via medical support . I also know the type of mighty attractive gay couples and those are the very definition of what i do not want to be associated with . Their idea of a relationship is Kim K and Kanye and is all about the way they are perceived , which is so shallow i don't even want to be around them . I am happily married to another man myself, we have been married for nearly 10 years and together for 20 . We have 5 kids most of them being already adults and i am glad i do not base anything on appearance . My husband is tremendously good looking by objective standards , but i married him because he is a veterinarian like me , because he dedicates his life to helping animals and rescuing them, because he speaks 7 languages and comes from a family of traditional artists , his mother is actually the one who introduced us as she was a friend of mine for years when i lived in Japan and he was still on animalitarian missions around the world. This video is so phony for me , because of the use of attractive men struggling. I find it actually laughable . So exactly what is the BS you are referring to ?
@@morganolfursson2560 so basically you're saying boohoo only people who dont look good have it bad, attractive people all live great lives and arent supposed to be feel bad ?
@@lape Well, attractive people have it A LOT easier than unattractive ones . The only difference is maybe health issues, but good looking people also tend to have stronger genes and healthier metabolism too, which is part of what makes them attractive not only in the eye but also the subconscious brain of the beholder . So, yes , good looking people have a far easier life . I was a model in the late 80s and especially the 90s , while modeling i did other jobs, and i was never rejected after the interview . I was also never rejected in bars, clubs, my romantic and sex life was extremely easy , i was always surrounded with people and money was extremely easy to make or have access to . I could actually write a thesis on how easy my life was just because of some genetic coincidence . I never struggled in my life, never had to really fight for anything, never suffered from discrimination, even as a gay man . I went to school, studied hard and started working, that's the only struggle i ever faced and that's not even a real struggle . Even in third world nations , (and i have lived or worked in many) attractive people have it easier than unattractive ones given the same circumstances . Be honest with yourself a second . If you could choose for your kids or yourself to be either extremely attractive (and i mean supermodel material( or relatively smart , in this day and age , what would you choose ? I'm a veterinarian and ethologist , and with three PhD , i believe not to be the dumbest or most uneducated person out there but i made more money at 22 as a model than i made as a vet and ethologist combined later on . And it required zero skill and zero effort to go to photo shoots and walk on runways . I have 5 kids today and i am glad they are all good looking, because i know it is going to make their life a lot easier . So from their early age i could solely focus on making sure they get smart too, instead of also trying to build up their self esteem in order to prepare them for a very unforgiving, discriminatory and particularly cruel world toward people deemed unattractive. The world is getting more and more shallow and Kim K has a net worth of 350 million dollars. A doctor working full time, saving life on a daily basis, will never make that amount of money in his life . But a plastic surgeon , might . A heart transplant costs less than a facial and dental plastic surgery . There are two things which rule the world today for the commoners, beauty and money , three things if you add , fame to the list. The list usually goes "Money, Beauty, Love, Fame, Health", Intelligence is not even in the top 5 of what people want for themselves or their kids or what is required to have a happy and easy life. Meaning that people do not even believe in using their brain and hard work anymore, they just want beauty and instant fame bringing instant cash . So if you are not attractive even a good brain , might not save you , because at the interview, chances are they will hire the blond bombshell or the Adonis or Apollo . I was lucky to be given one of the three from birth ( i am not bragging i never expected to use it , i was scouted on the street, and saw it as an opportunity to put myself through med school without depending on my parents or working as a waiter), and used it to easily earn money. I was never interested in fame , as i believe anonymity is a sine-qua-none condition to happiness . Today, i couldn't care less about my looks , because i am almost 45, well established professionally, happily married and surrounded by smart friends and co-workers, but i am not naive and i know that good looks helped me getting established, it helped me meeting my partner , and it opened many MANY doors that hard work alone wouldn't have made it possible to open .
You are right Morgan, it would actually make a very good film too about what you just described. Its sad how shallow people in general are. Im pretty lucky to at least be average looking and im glad my daughter is such a beautiful girl because looks really matter, even if i wish it didnt to this extent. Makes me sad thinking about all the people that barely want to go outside because they are so concious about how people look at them etc.
So the guy was secretly in love with his best friend but could not tell him about his true feelings?.. not only he’s struggling with the feeling of not having his friend anymore but also he lost the love of his life, the guy probably didn’t tell anything to his friends about his true feeling towards him, which is already sad but even more sad is that he’s now thinking if he should take revenge or not (but if he does he’ll be in trouble losing all what he have left... his freedom of starting again but this time, true to yourself).
I don't see the struggling with sexual identity either, at least not as the main argument of the story. I see the suffering for losing someone you love.
Beautifully paced. Cinematography was excellent and lead held the screen captured with a beautiful impactful performance. But the screenplay seemed to race to a conclusion, that wasnt a conclusion, and the soundtrack was just glib and unhelpful in subsituting for dialogue.
It Truly pains my heart this ,to see.. Förnekelse ,Hämd (eller stark önskan till) Va fan! .,att göra . Rädsla för andra ,va dom tycka .,o såå .. One actually feel s the Guy’s Dispare ,Hoplesness/desperation a Risin.. Seen this a cup times now and this .,This Painful 💔. Incredibly Well made though ♥️♥️
He was struggling with the feeling of missing his best friend, his brother or someone who was close to him. I can’t see anything about his sexuality. Not at all.
Seb Misica well not a brother but yeah it could be the same for an hetero actually. But the fact the guy have some kickass finger tattoo in the dream of him beating the black guy, and more "queer" tatoos when he's next to the body of his friend (and I'm sure now it's an other dream), that thing is making me...thoughfull... I don't know how to explain... It's not about homosexuality it's about loss clearly, but they probably want to show us the pain of your love die before you could be with him, and THAT, because of toxic masculinity stuff and sexual identity struggling... But yeah even if he was openly gay or bi his boyfriend could have die same way.
In the billiards scene, the main actor touches the other guy frequently in places more reserved for love interests/crushes (inner shoulder/neck) and the girlfriend breaks them apart with a jealous look on her face. This is further emphasized by the scene of her yelling at him where she's obviously mouthing "look at me" but he can't bring himself to look at her.
@@darkspectrum4772 exactly, the eye contact and body language suggests flirting and open communication around what he/they both want but don't verbalise it
I liked this film but I don’t fully understand what it means. I know that the main guy struggles with his sexuality, but who are the other two men and why did he want to beat the black guy with a bat? Why was the other guy on the ground and bleeding at the end? What did I miss? Can anyone fill me in?
George David yeah the film is pretty vague and a lot of people understand very different things. So. The black guy was the driver of the car which caused the love interest of the protagonist. The love interest is the pooler guy the protagonist looked like he was really liking him, making Mister P's girlfriend jealous. We don't know if the two guys were long time friends or if they just meet at the pooler but clearly they seems attracted by each other. Mister P' has fantasy were he beats the black guy (driver) to the death. But he can't do it, he renonces and leave.
I feel so bad for the guy. I am a man and gay, but I have to pretend to be straight even though I've never slept with a woman. This is so difficult. I was outed at work by a female, and she told me that I'm not a man now all the men at work don't speak to me.
People would not need to go through this if more were taught the truth about sexuality. Religous far right conservatives can believe whatever they want. Teaching the truth based on studies and real science ( same is true for global) sets everyone on a healthy path.
Am a gay Asian Muslim. I went through hell and back. Being married to a woman who was then later found out and outed and made an outcast by them but luckily my close friends parents and family supported me and still oves me. I may now lost the man of my life and given up on finding true love with a man coz i believe its not gonna happen for me in my destiny. But I am happy and comfortable in life ans have my close one who love me.
This film did nothing to help us understand the issue the young man was dealing with. I have seen much better films on this subject than this film. I would agree with commentor Wade below.
So sad. Hard to imagine how many men have to face this situation on a daily basis and for so many years in their lives. As a former counselor, I cannot tell you how many of this cases actually still happen nowadays.
How many thousands of years has this gone on. And it will never end because everyone wants love and searches for it - and are attracted to whomever they are attracted to - then to find out the person one is attracted has a different sexuality makes people hurt = then angry -= then judgemental. I feel so sorry for women who marry gay men because they have achieved one of the greatest goal of humans - to find somebody to love - and be loved back. And slowly they find in the end that the person is incapable of truly satisfying them.
Yes it is true, and you dont know how much it hurts in your souls, spirit and body. I wish i could have had the guts to come out and be happy 😔😔😔
@@openbookblue9857it is soul crushing to be where you are...
You should write a book.
Well i was pretty gay when i was a kid but i grew out of it.
The focus is the grief of losing someone you care about. No matter what his sexual preference is, he experienced loss of someone he loved. Lets not get caught up on sexuality. That is not the overarching thing. In our lives when we lose people we vibe with, that transcends any labels. Anyone can relate to such tragedies.
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I liked it. Very emotional losing somebody you love but can't tell anybody else that you love. Mourning the loss of on your own
Thank you so much for watching Phillip.
Wow! So very real for me! So deep!
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It is a perfect short film that describes the real situation of a person that suffers from a sexual identity crisis . Very nice but sad.
I don't think he had a sexual identity crisis, he knew who he was but didn't want to be that. Been there done that..
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In the words of Quentin Crisp "Some roughs are really queer and some queers are really rough!" I bow to his wisdom.
Truly moving. You know it's a work of art when you're experiencing the emotions right along with the actors. Bravo 👏
Thank you so much for your lovely comment. Can’t believe only just seeing it. So sorry. X
I think the narrative was we'll thought out. It was simple, and the message was well clear. It is about loss, judgement about whom we are, the pain we all go thorough. Our action's matter, and so do our words to each other.
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Be with the one who make you happy who make you feel like you are alive!!!
I wish I can hug him . I want to comfort him and listen to whatever things that he will say.
Ahhhhhh that’s cause he’s attractive....
If he is an ugly, 200Ib guy, I don’t think you have that thoughts.
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Finally….a "Gay Short" on UA-cam.....that kept my attention.....that was well written.....was well acted.....and had an interesting storyline. And without Self-Loathing main characters.....!!!! THANK YOU !!!!!!!
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It’s about the guy having feelings towards he’s friend in a sexual way and I think he’s life would of been better with him and they both knew there was feelings between each other! But as soon as he died! He couldn’t express how he really felt! And feels a deep loss! Of what could have been!! 😢
I was too afraid to admit how I felt about my best friend, especially when he died. I spent years pursing men, confusing how I felt about him with sexual desire. It took an act of God, through a near death experience to realize who I truly was, and what I lost the day he died. I am much better now, remaining celibate, knowing that he is waiting for me when I leave this world and go Home.
@My Own Private Idaho I'm almost 50. At my age, guys only want one thing: S E X. I not going to be vulnerable just so some guy can get his rocks off and never speak to me again. Been there, done that.
@My Own Private Idaho It will be sixteen years for me in September. I will be fifty by then. My first grandchild will be born next month. I had the privileged of being a father to three kids. My exwife didn't see this as a privileged and split 19 months ago, leaving to raise the kids.
@My Own Private Idaho It was unspoken between the two of us, but I believe that he did. While we never had sex, we spent the night with each other undressed many times.
@My Own Private Idaho Yeah, it wasn't about physical lust (although I have no doubt in my mind it would have turned into sex). It was rather about emotional need for each other. I still miss him.
A tough, complicated but important subject - the issue of shame, self-loathing v self-acceptance, and how they play out in males with either loving or violent outcomes. But I’m not sure the non-dialogue screenplay, the ambient piano soundtrack and the fantasied v actual memory ending worked.
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@@MrMigueldelaO I had a different take away: I thought the dark haired bearded guy was the driver of the car that hit & killed his friend/love interest. The 'hero' initially sought violent revenge for his loss and imagined assaulting the driver in his home, but instead was, I believe, overcome with grief for the loss of love that his sexual confusion prevented him from fulfilling.
he love his friend, and.then he loose him. this is sad...
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to lose him before he could come to terms with his love and his sexuality, I think that was the crux of the short.
@@sanjaynirmal3785 ok
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I knew what the movie was about from the description, but it unfolded in an entirely unexpected way. Terrific film!
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Life is short. Sometimes shortened even more. No time to waste.
I am going to have to watch this later tonight when I get home. Definitely sad but as a gay man who came out 28 years go at the age of 18, I am still baffled at stuff like this.
greg morris lol I am 18 and came out a few weeks ago :)
Damn..i feel his pain..great acting..i was all in at the waterfront scene..that desperate scream! Omg..opened back up barely healing wounds...why am I watching these vids???
Ugggh
Thank you so much for watching Tony. X
@@BrownBoyProductions You're Welcome! Great work.
A deeply moving and sad tale well portrayed. So few people are able or allowed to fulle express their loss and grief. Thank you for sharing!
Wow. Thank you for supporting our film x
I enjoyed this realistic short film. It is a glimpse of a life that is completely different than mine. I had to watch it a second time to truly get the understand everything. The raw emotions make this movie special. The cast was perfect, great locations and good script. Thank you for making it.
Wow. Thank you so so much for watching. And what a really special comment. Really appreciate it ❤️
The agony of being unable to tell the world whom you love is equal or more than The agony of losing your loved ones.....only the person who ls in love...knows!!!
Well that was very dark and depressing. I did love the commitment of that actor to the role. He did A LOT. Kudos to him!
You are super kind for all of your comments today x
Very greatly done I was not expecting that but love to see more ! Wish it was a series so I can know how this story come to being quite interesting!
same here - sequel... and no Floating Skyscrapers or Land of Storms please
Thank you so much xxx
10 minutes and I drown in tears. Well done, really touching.
Wow. Thank you so much. And thank you for watching x
It's going to be hell getting that drain unclogged.
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kbck884 ur the worst... lol
LMAO!!!!
I thought this too!
A good film and focused on identity. The setting, suggest insurmountable currcumstance and an inability for this guy to deal with emotion, feeling toward his same sex. I had to watch twice to understand the story. Type of self destruct. The clip in the bathroom, express humiliation and suggest an inner crisses. Very clever the film maker put together all the events to make this work. The guy in the road (bloody) is the same guy he played snooker/pool. There seems to be a more serious ploy. Very complex
Thank you for watching. And thank you for your kind comment x
Well, not really. We don't really know the struggling of being afraid to being gay, it's more the struggling of loosing someone you love before anything could happen because you are afraid. But in couple or not the pooler guy would have died the same, and he could be a girl too.
I don't see the shave as an express humiliation (wtf?) I just thought it was for make him looks more dangerous and assimilated his revenge to neonazi crime instead of "gay struggled revenge" crime.
@@avatarlhamo3063 the guy he beat up with a bat was the guy that accidentally killed him. No it not on sexual identity it's more on awakening he had those feelings.
@@christopherwinstanley1348 he didn't beat up the black guy. He just wanted to. He didnt push on the doorbell he just leaved.
@@avatarlhamo3063 yes but guy in the road had blood on him. So the other guy must have done something. The plot gets more sinister. A shame this movie ain't a hour
Heartbreaking. No one knows how we process loss, whatever that loss is. It helps to have people to talk to, but it is still deeply personal.
I didn't understand a single moment...this is beautiful
I struggled a lot when I was home I can't shown to people who really me because I am afraid of shameful comments. But when I got of the box and a went abroad I started to felt free and indulge a lot of serious relationship with same sex. I am very much happy now.
I am happy for you :)
I have struggled this way a lot suffered lot of insecurity pangs and still do
My only question is why can't those who don't accept this also is true and question Mother Nature ?
It exists in all kinds of living things
It is not one's choice but the way we are born
Nice picturization!
Love from India to all of for who we are💞💖❤️
Nice short film without dialogue and still delivers a lot of emotions. Good job.
WOW!!! Talk about making a powerful film. VERY WELL DONE
Perhaps you've transposed letters in your surname? it's Rovira? yes? beautiful powerful film, needs no words
Why are all the great shorts, regrettably, too short?
He protecc
He attacc
But most importantly he need to grow his hair back
I agree, he looked so cute with his hair
Es injusto que solamente se pueda poner un solo "me gusta". Por mi son como cinco veces. Corto, conciso, manteniendo el suspenso del "por qué?" hasta el final, sin traducciones, universal, precioso, romántico, por si no quedo claro ME ENCANTÓ.
Stunning work. Beautiful photography, beautiful actor, beautiful acting, intensely powerful close-ups and editing, heart-in-mouth storytelling ... Even contemporary London, breathing down its neck here, lends its weight to the punches. The struggle gets no easier, does it, nor the tale less harrowing? Congratulations all round, truly - from the screenwriter of 'Maurice' ... 35 years ago now.
Wow. Thank you so much. Thank you for watching and thank you for your kind comment. Really appreciate. ❤️
This short could not keep my interest but I'm glad/sad/angry that I kept watching anyways, the end hit so close to home. I lost someone I was in a semi secret relationship with in a roll over. The emotions were so real. Losing him was like my world stopping. I don't think I've still really accepted it, 7 years later.
When the stigma associated with being different, lessens, particularly for men, with this ideal of the masculine man, then men might just find it easier to accept who they are and be prepared to ditch the stereotype.
But film makers continue to be obsessed with the idea of the tragic man who cannot accept he is gay or bisexual? It’s a recurring theme. It actually doesn’t do justice to the notion of the challenged man. There are also stories to be told of men reconciling their sexuality and finding joy happiness and release in that fact.
Julian Coulden Exactly. Sexual identity is a broad spectrum. The sooner both straight and gay people understand that, the sooner they’ll stop passing judgement on others who do not fall into their categories.
Julian, OMG, you’re a wise man. I was thinking the same thing.
Thank goodness for some common sense!! Thank you!
Thank you so much for commenting and watching our little film. Means a lot. And we totally agree with what you are saying there are other stories to be told, and other versions of how this can play out. This story is based on true events so it would not do it justice to change it to fit a narrative that others want to see. We had to film the story for what it was.
It's easier said than done. If you could only imagine how hard it is for us ...
Before i watched this short feature, I thought only Paul Greengrass who could pull off a well-crafted artwork of handheld camera in this world...but apparently, there is another guy who can get away with it too
Wow. Thank you!
@@BrownBoyProductions You're welcome! Keep it up! And i can't wait to watch more of your films 😊
I proud being my self as im gay, no one can change me
This is so sad, i wished for a happy ending so bad i cried, no matter how many times i watch it, is still the same... The agony he must be in... Oh my gosh... 😥😥😭
what a great, professional looking short film... bravo!! Excellent lighting, acting and music... really beautifully done... so happy to have seen it...
Been there... it's a horrible feeling, I almost didn't survive...The guilty seems to eat you alive, it hurts deeply inside the soul... It divides you... One day I left them... my daughter and wife...I love them but I left the both them... I left a note. I run away as far as I could go. But I survived. I chose life. If I stayed I am pretty sure I'd have died. I'm OK now it's been so many years... decades. I have a relationship with my daughter, she understands me now... Sometimes it felt like a curse... My daughter went through the same...with the difference that this time... I was there for her. She didn't have run away or go through it alone. I am a happy grandfather now.
Identity dsyphoria is real I am a living testimony of still finding myself as a gay Black man and having no one you can trust in confidence and be reclaimed
Keep in it man
you will meet gay friends, that you can be yourself around. it takes time. just hang in there Jason Chisholm
I love being a man, I love being a spiritual man, I love being a gay man, I love. BFM
I didnt línea the story. Did you?
Is that u in ur profile?
cledwyn stafford I have to use this quote...
What's BFM?
For sure I just little confused with the story line and I wonder...what mean BFM?
@ a young age, I knew my orientation but I also played the role society expected. In all honesty, I'm still confused but I do like myself.
hugglescake You can like yourself, cause you‘re an attractive guy!
you're naughty gay.
Mark Shao Better than being a naughty human! 😉
TH. Aries ok honey. You win
Mark Shao Thanks, Sweety 😘
La he visto cantidad de veces y me sigue conmoviendo igual que la primera vez que la vi. La guardo en la memoria como algo muy preciado... GRACIAS por este bello film
shouldnt the title say sexual orientation instead of sexual identity ?
Didn’t go where I was expecting it to go. I thought it was the tired “Man-Has-Gay-Encounter-And-Now-Wrestles-With-Sexuality” instead it’s (spoilers)
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it’s about his anger at losing someone (probably mixed with regret at lost opportunities) and whether he should take out that anger on the person responsible
The film also plays on our expectations and assumptions thinking that the tortured young man has only one reason for his anger and grief
Well-played
Thank you so much. And thank you for wschjt.
Watching x
Doesn't seem like he was struggling with his sexual identity more like struggling with whether or not he should seek vengeance on the death of his friend who he clearly was in love with. He probably accepted the fact he was bi.
This feels more like he's grieving about the guy's death than it is a film about struggling with sexual identity. I feel like he already knows his sexuality and he's just closeted.
Maybe.
The head shaving bit kind of reminds me of britney in 2007, she wasn't insane, she just had enough, filled with adrenaline and heartache made a conscious decision, these days its no big deal and even trendy
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oh she's nuts
@@davidspensberger7862 shut up
@@davidspensberger7862 shes not nuts though is she ..anyone with half a brain can see that she's been through hell and yet still comes off smiling..her story is inspirational, they've literally just did a documentary defending her so fck off!
Brittney was/is struggling with demons both eternally and externally, Hollywood is rife with satanic rituals and Brittney is one of them, she might not even know it, but you do not get in high places in Hollywood without selling your soul to this satanic culture., you think the arrest of Harvey Weinstein is a coincidence? do you think maybe Weinstein is or was being used as a sacrificial lamb? what about Jeffery Epstein and his sick demented satanic stuff, him and Weinstein are connected at the hips.
Wait until the rest of it is espoused and it will be, it's happening now and Hollywood is dead, it will never return to its glory days it started out to be, there are many good people in Hollywood who are great artist who often get destroyed because they don't understand that their way over the head, yeah, this is all being brought out to the surface and its going to freak out a lot of people when it is. wait for it, trust me, it gets really, really bad, you have not seen anything yet so prepare yourselves now. it's going to get ugly,
If you think I'm some how full of shit, then just wait and be aware, its all coming like a fright train and their isn't any stopping it.
BTW, did you watch the half time show at last Sundays Football game??? go back and watch, what do you see??? think logically. it's all connected. some sick ass shit is what it is.
Not gonna lie he looks good with bald hair👍🏻 I guess?
Wonderful film.
The hell we face sometimes.
Lobsters need to go under a rock to shed their shells. Only when they feel uncomfortable v
Beautifully done
The struggle is real!
omg people are so afraid of what other people might say to them, grow up, be a man and accept for who you are, for all you know most of the people nowadays don't really care who you are as long as you are nice person.
Agreed! How does what someone else thinks hold more weight then what you think about YOU!
His crying tells it all conclusion of short film and the piano...
too unclear ..........you cannot resolve 10 minutes of random images in one last frame ,which should explain it all...
Amo vivir en esta era en la que un Kibo (bailarín, actor, escritor...) existe
I went through this with someone. He. Just didn't know what to do with him self. It was hard. And scary at times
I hope his hair grows back!
I loved him with the shaved head!!!
Oh my goodness he looked like a thug!
@@juliancoulden1753 lol, calm down princess... He looks more masculine with shaved head ; )/
He can't accept his real identity because he was afraid of criticism or judgmental people around him.
Thank you so much for watching and your comment
@@BrownBoyProductions welcome
Saludos cordiales desde Panamá City 😘😎👍🇵🇦
That is true, happened to almost all gay guys, but then: why be violent? In this movie it was not clear to me what was fantasy, real past and what was the cause for change.
@@nalandatendar4212 I dont think any was fantasy, more memory. He was in a bad relationship with the girl (mayb she suspected re the argument), while playing pool, as a group, he very clearly was thirsty for the ginger guy (mayb a friend? of his? of hers?, or just a regular guy in the poolroom) and the guy clearly was checking him out too. Someone he 'loved'/desired (and felt was 'his' secret') was taken from him by the killer (though it appears to be a road accident), so in his moment of madness he seeks revenge. The guy has lost his secret love and will be stuck with the girl. - Though the attack with the bat, I think was a dream - he went with the intent, but after the shown attack, we are shown he doesn't actually ring the bell, but walks away - so the only bit of fantasy (mayb) was his revenge attack. He was stuck in a space intime where he knew he fancied men, but was very deeply in a relationship with a fiesty girl - he had a secret desire.. but at that space in time could't tell anyone - as someone else said "all gay men go through this" - we have no idea of his family/his support group/friends - it could be a HUGE leap for him 'to make the change' in his life - one thing is clear, the girl wont be accepting... hope you do a sequel (no death please), recently watched the 2018 Boys movie and 2017 Mario - both need sequels - (& happy endings) - Im done with Floating Skyscrapers and Land of Storms and the like. Thank you for this short. x
Wow! Just...wow! I felt your loss bro. I felt your loss.
Interesting concept, but the story is very unclear. You sense that they guy is struggling with his sexual identity, but mostly because that's stated in the title. What he going to murder the black guy because he had had sex with him? Did the black guy see him kiss the dying friend on the street so that's why he wanted bash him with the baseball bat? How did the guy on the street get injured. Too many questions.
You make a good point. The problem with so many modern films is that they are trying to be less obvious by making people think. The thing is, they should make people think by posing existential, or philosophical questions, not by leaving so many plot-holes that you have no idea what actually happened!!! It's just lazy creativity.
The story is actually pretty clear: Guy is in a hetero relationship. Meets a guy who causes him to question his sexuality and he falls for him, but isn't able to express it yet. This conflict causes the protagonist to detach from his girlfriend (hence his vacant looks when she's yelling at him and the actress did a fantastic job of mouthing "LOOK AT ME!"). While he's still sorting all this out, the black guy is a negligent driver who hits and kills the male love interest. The death causes the protagonist so much grief because he never told the person how he felt or finished processing his sexuality.
cactaceae123 no he didn't. Him beating the black guy to death was a fantasy when he was on front of the door, we clearly see him renounce to push the doorbell. It never happen, he just leaved to go to the port
@@JrsProperty1601Well, the story wasn't clear until you wrote this comment and made it clear. Thanks for making sense of a film that to me , didn't.
@@JrsProperty1601 Almost what I thought. But there is a twist. The black guy might not have been the guilty part in the accident. The two guys were coming out of the pub, dead drunk, and one wandered to the street. He gets hit by a car. The main character started blaming the black guy for it and decided to go skinhead. At the point when he nearly presses the doorbell, he realises that it wasn't the drivers fault.
You have to watch the entire of the film to know who the players and their roles are. Main character has a real internal struggle and probably the only person he felt true and authentic with he can no longer be with. I'm sure this is a tragic love story that we all can relate at one point in time.
Aside from that, couple of questions:
1. What do those tattoos symbolize on his fingers?
2. Is it wrong that I'm watching this short film while eating a bowl of ramen and humming to Paula Abdul's Vibeology song with emphasis on the lyrics "Vibeology. Now You ask. What does it mean? Why, its the study of the chemistry between you and me" and thinking he don't got any chemistry with the woman in this film but on the side doing the funky way with the handsome friend?
3. More of a random tip: Don't shave your head in a sink and let the hair get clogged in the drainage - no good!! Thanks.
damn I love the score!!!!!
I struggle in silence every day. I have girlfriends but the loneliness is always there. I Hope to find a friend who understands my struggle.
ryanlester1980 I Hope you have a good friend to listen to you
@@jasondavis91 no man...i just take things one day at a time.
ryanlester1980 I am so sorry to hear that. I am single and keep to myself. I am out. But don’t really hang out with many gay people. Very hard at times.
@@jasondavis91 oh ok...cool
ryanlester1980 if you like email me at davis.j73@gmail.com. Always cool to chat with someone
Kibo was the OT2017 dancer and Ricky's ex... I didn't knew he's actor
Es verdad!. Ya de cía yo que me sonaba de algo su cara pero no sabía de que
Ricky? Ricky who?
It's better to have loved and lost, then to have not loved at all 😍😭
@John Kimber no way dude can't think like that seriously? 🙏🤞
@John Kimber I'm sorry to hear that and my apologies I didn't mean it the way it came across
@John Kimber I'm still looking well not looking I hope to be found! 🤔 The time I hope will come for me? Before my time has come! Hopefully cheers 😁🤞🙏
This was so deep. Thanks for making this
Funny how they always choose mighty attractive men who struggle !
I think the real struggle is for people who don't even need to struggle with their sexual identity because even accepting it won't make it any easier .
I know countless men who feel completely isolated in the gay "community" and though they accept their sexuality, the "community" doesn't accept them, just because they do not fit the mold . The mold being , being attractive, wealthy, popular, healthy, masculine (though with the drag queen phenomenon now things are changing, but it won't last) . I even know many who went back to women because they were rejected by the so called gay community and felt that life was even harder for them trying to belong .
Morgan Olfursson bullshit. People don't "go back" to women it's not to opposite camp it's a spectrum.
@@avatarlhamo3063 There are a lot of gay men who after years and years of rejection by the gay community . decide to settle with a woman, often women who are just as much rejected in the straight community or sometimes lesbians , and the numbers are increasing due to this day and age obsession with appearance and social status . So maybe sex is not on the menu of these couples, but partnership and true friendship is . I have a few couple friends like this, and they are usually remarkable people and often terrific parents, as many of them decide to adopt kids or have them via medical support .
I also know the type of mighty attractive gay couples and those are the very definition of what i do not want to be associated with . Their idea of a relationship is Kim K and Kanye and is all about the way they are perceived , which is so shallow i don't even want to be around them .
I am happily married to another man myself, we have been married for nearly 10 years and together for 20 . We have 5 kids most of them being already adults and i am glad i do not base anything on appearance . My husband is tremendously good looking by objective standards , but i married him because he is a veterinarian like me , because he dedicates his life to helping animals and rescuing them, because he speaks 7 languages and comes from a family of traditional artists , his mother is actually the one who introduced us as she was a friend of mine for years when i lived in Japan and he was still on animalitarian missions around the world.
This video is so phony for me , because of the use of attractive men struggling. I find it actually laughable .
So exactly what is the BS you are referring to ?
@@morganolfursson2560 so basically you're saying boohoo only people who dont look good have it bad, attractive people all live great lives and arent supposed to be feel bad ?
@@lape Well, attractive people have it A LOT easier than unattractive ones . The only difference is maybe health issues, but good looking people also tend to have stronger genes and healthier metabolism too, which is part of what makes them attractive not only in the eye but also the subconscious brain of the beholder .
So, yes , good looking people have a far easier life . I was a model in the late 80s and especially the 90s , while modeling i did other jobs, and i was never rejected after the interview . I was also never rejected in bars, clubs, my romantic and sex life was extremely easy , i was always surrounded with people and money was extremely easy to make or have access to . I could actually write a thesis on how easy my life was just because of some genetic coincidence . I never struggled in my life, never had to really fight for anything, never suffered from discrimination, even as a gay man . I went to school, studied hard and started working, that's the only struggle i ever faced and that's not even a real struggle .
Even in third world nations , (and i have lived or worked in many) attractive people have it easier than unattractive ones given the same circumstances .
Be honest with yourself a second . If you could choose for your kids or yourself to be either extremely attractive (and i mean supermodel material( or relatively smart , in this day and age , what would you choose ?
I'm a veterinarian and ethologist , and with three PhD , i believe not to be the dumbest or most uneducated person out there but i made more money at 22 as a model than i made as a vet and ethologist combined later on . And it required zero skill and zero effort to go to photo shoots and walk on runways .
I have 5 kids today and i am glad they are all good looking, because i know it is going to make their life a lot easier . So from their early age i could solely focus on making sure they get smart too, instead of also trying to build up their self esteem in order to prepare them for a very unforgiving, discriminatory and particularly cruel world toward people deemed unattractive. The world is getting more and more shallow and Kim K has a net worth of 350 million dollars. A doctor working full time, saving life on a daily basis, will never make that amount of money in his life . But a plastic surgeon , might . A heart transplant costs less than a facial and dental plastic surgery .
There are two things which rule the world today for the commoners, beauty and money , three things if you add , fame to the list. The list usually goes "Money, Beauty, Love, Fame, Health", Intelligence is not even in the top 5 of what people want for themselves or their kids or what is required to have a happy and easy life. Meaning that people do not even believe in using their brain and hard work anymore, they just want beauty and instant fame bringing instant cash . So if you are not attractive even a good brain , might not save you , because at the interview, chances are they will hire the blond bombshell or the Adonis or Apollo .
I was lucky to be given one of the three from birth ( i am not bragging i never expected to use it , i was scouted on the street, and saw it as an opportunity to put myself through med school without depending on my parents or working as a waiter), and used it to easily earn money. I was never interested in fame , as i believe anonymity is a sine-qua-none condition to happiness .
Today, i couldn't care less about my looks , because i am almost 45, well established professionally, happily married and surrounded by smart friends and co-workers, but i am not naive and i know that good looks helped me getting established, it helped me meeting my partner , and it opened many MANY doors that hard work alone wouldn't have made it possible to open .
You are right Morgan, it would actually make a very good film too about what you just described. Its sad how shallow people in general are. Im pretty lucky to at least be average looking and im glad my daughter is such a beautiful girl because looks really matter, even if i wish it didnt to this extent. Makes me sad thinking about all the people that barely want to go outside because they are so concious about how people look at them etc.
So the guy was secretly in love with his best friend but could not tell him about his true feelings?.. not only he’s struggling with the feeling of not having his friend anymore but also he lost the love of his life, the guy probably didn’t tell anything to his friends about his true feeling towards him, which is already sad but even more sad is that he’s now thinking if he should take revenge or not (but if he does he’ll be in trouble losing all what he have left... his freedom of starting again but this time, true to yourself).
Beautiful, thanks .
A wonderful film
Self hate is totally controllable - You and only You have the power to Stop it!
I don't see the struggling with sexual identity either, at least not as the main argument of the story. I see the suffering for losing someone you love.
Fernando LG , u urself told he lose his love that means he was gay, sexually attracted to another men not a platonic bromance...
it so sad .. i am a cry see that ...
Thanks for posting!
Thank you for watching x
Beautifully paced. Cinematography was excellent and lead held the screen captured with a beautiful impactful performance. But the screenplay seemed to race to a conclusion, that wasnt a conclusion, and the soundtrack was just glib and unhelpful in subsituting for dialogue.
It Truly pains my heart this ,to see.. Förnekelse ,Hämd (eller stark önskan till) Va fan! .,att göra . Rädsla för andra ,va dom tycka .,o såå .. One actually feel s the Guy’s Dispare ,Hoplesness/desperation a Risin.. Seen this a cup times now and this .,This Painful 💔. Incredibly Well made though ♥️♥️
Thank you so so much x
And again then friend . For Exquisite works **.. Thank Uu :) ♥️
If you set the speed at 2, it gest more interesting.
The anger.. the lonesome.. the confused of the situation happened..
And back to square one
The fridge is empty...and the brotha was overdue on getting his nails trimmed....
He was struggling with the feeling of missing his best friend, his brother or someone who was close to him. I can’t see anything about his sexuality. Not at all.
Seb Misica well not a brother but yeah it could be the same for an hetero actually. But the fact the guy have some kickass finger tattoo in the dream of him beating the black guy, and more "queer" tatoos when he's next to the body of his friend (and I'm sure now it's an other dream), that thing is making me...thoughfull... I don't know how to explain... It's not about homosexuality it's about loss clearly, but they probably want to show us the pain of your love die before you could be with him, and THAT, because of toxic masculinity stuff and sexual identity struggling...
But yeah even if he was openly gay or bi his boyfriend could have die same way.
In the billiards scene, the main actor touches the other guy frequently in places more reserved for love interests/crushes (inner shoulder/neck) and the girlfriend breaks them apart with a jealous look on her face. This is further emphasized by the scene of her yelling at him where she's obviously mouthing "look at me" but he can't bring himself to look at her.
@@darkspectrum4772 exactly, the eye contact and body language suggests flirting and open communication around what he/they both want but don't verbalise it
The crying ADR doesn't seem to sync up and kinda ruins the emotional peak of the film, unfortunately.
Hermoso gran actor magistral su actuación 💖💖💖💖💖💖
Thank you so much for watching. Xxx
@@BrownBoyProductions his name is mispelled in the description. It's Marc Rovira not Mark Rivora.
I liked this film but I don’t fully understand what it means. I know that the main guy struggles with his sexuality, but who are the other two men and why did he want to beat the black guy with a bat? Why was the other guy on the ground and bleeding at the end? What did I miss? Can anyone fill me in?
George David yeah the film is pretty vague and a lot of people understand very different things.
So. The black guy was the driver of the car which caused the love interest of the protagonist. The love interest is the pooler guy the protagonist looked like he was really liking him, making Mister P's girlfriend jealous. We don't know if the two guys were long time friends or if they just meet at the pooler but clearly they seems attracted by each other.
Mister P' has fantasy were he beats the black guy (driver) to the death. But he can't do it, he renonces and leave.
This is tragic and deep. I am wondering if you guys accept stories from amateurs like me?
I feel so bad for the guy. I am a man and gay, but I have to pretend to be straight even though I've never slept with a woman. This is so difficult. I was outed at work by a female, and she told me that I'm not a man now all the men at work don't speak to me.
People would not need to go through this if more were taught the truth about sexuality. Religous far right conservatives can believe whatever they want. Teaching the truth based on studies and real science ( same is true for global) sets everyone on a healthy path.
Am a gay Asian Muslim. I went through hell and back. Being married to a woman who was then later found out and outed and made an outcast by them but luckily my close friends parents and family supported me and still oves me. I may now lost the man of my life and given up on finding true love with a man coz i believe its not gonna happen for me in my destiny. But I am happy and comfortable in life ans have my close one who love me.
He would have been better off spending his time replacing that grout in the bathroom. It looks a bloody mess.
when i tell you that i cried. i mean it bro
Thank you so much for watching x
When is someone going to do a film about people struggling in the opposite direction?
Why can't you?
A gay guy that is attracted to woman but society will condemn him for not being gay ?????
@@xadam2dudex it also works the other way around but in a hell of a lot more societies and frequency.
@@korisx what everyone is gay and oppressing str8 people ? What planet are you from ?
@@xadam2dudex Your sentence is an Oxymoron.
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It is found that it's not the sexual identity.It is a feelings felt by him that need to be drained.
This film did nothing to help us understand the issue the young man was dealing with. I have seen much better films on this subject than this film. I would agree with commentor Wade below.