I know how terrifying it is to let people in and to have them know you aren’t okay but people love you and if nobody knows nobody can help you. Please please let people in, let people help you.
I had a plan, but somehow someone found out and reported me to the school. Everything got so fucked up. Opening up to my mom, my psychiatrist, and my therapist, hasn’t done anything for me yet. But, my psychiatrist always tells me that this is a marathon that can’t be finished in one day.
You don't think you only wants to forcibly give someone the happiness you have imagined that she or he needs when mabey they has some different definitions. If they don't want you just wish them to reach everything they know of happiness.
I like to tell myself that One day I'll find a place to scream my feelings. Because right now, I have nowhere. I wish I could let it out.. That's the only thing I ask Please.
I usually silent cry, alot more than i should. Screaming a silence, and feeling my chest clutch... I wish i could sail out, to somewhere, anyway, feel... Happy :))
im not scared of suicide..... im scared of the pain i will give others, they will think that im too young to die but in my head ive been alive for to long
You never know . Your struggle very well may be someone's guide. You may not see it yet but I promise you are here for a great purpose . Yes you. And while things are happening we do not yet understand why but you never know who's life you save one day. Imagine a young girl or boy too young to know what suidcide even is imagine they want to die because things are so bad. Maybe 5 years old. If you noticed that kid would you just ignore their pain or would you do everything in your power to show them life is worth fighting for. You can be a reason . A reason to live. Because if you hang on during life's darkest moments I promise you can do anything you imagine anything you want your life to be. I know the feeling of feeling like it is harder to stay alive then it would be to just end it and it's a lonely dark place where monsters hide and no one knows how to find their way out but there IS a way out you don't have to do it alone even though it feels like there is no other way. Some of us are here to shine a light in the dark for those who are still in it because that is the only way that we found our way out to be honest. You can be a light in someone else dark . You already are -and you just don't know it yet. Words often fail to capture just how real pain can be but sometimes it's not the words being said but the reason someone is saying them. And it no one has ever told you that your experience will one day save a life of a kid who otherwise would have given up , a kid just like you who just needs to have a light shine on them so they know they are not invisible and that they are actually very very important because they are going to not just change lives but save them. And what greater gift could there be than the gift of being able to save a kid who was once just like you and that kid will no doubt save lives too. It's🤍 a snowball effect . Sometimes someone just seeing our pain and identifying it is a small comfort. It seems a lot of times no one notices when we really need someone to just see us for who we are and wesilently pray for someone to give us a reason to stay. This message is for everyone who is in pain in this life and if anyone reading it is planning or wanting to end their life and it feels too messed up to talk about please PLEASE think of this message and how you are not reading it by accident - that you are here for a reason and that reason is someone telling you that I want you to live. That you are not invisible. That you may not see another way out but I promise there is always a way. Do not end your life. You deserve to be protected and loved and seen and I am so sorry that you are in so much pain and that I know it feels like it will never stop but it WILL . The pain will transform into something else. And you are going to have a moment in your life someday where you stop and say to yourself that this is the moment that random person on UA-cam comments was telling me I would have. It will be a moment to live for. You will discover over time reasons to live . And in turn you will become someone else's reason to decide to live. How cool is that that your already a literal life savor and I bet you didn't even know it. 🤍🌹I am proud of you for living because I know how hard it can feel when you just want to die. There is always another way . Death is not supposed to welcome innocence there is like a universal unwritten law that some things just aren't natural and a kid dying when that kid was supposed to live is one of them. There is no reason that kids would be thinking about ending their own lives at such young ages unless they have been impacted greatly by people or experience or something happening to them and these are things that we SHOULD be talking about because no one deserves to die for being in pain that was inflicted on them . I know the feeling though I tried to end my life the first time when I was just 5 years old .I just didn't know it had a name yet I just wanted to escape my situation and what it was doing to my mind and I knew that getting hurt could help me leave my life and looking back I don't think anyone even knew that's what I was doing. I only just recently told someone because I realized I am not the only one who wanted to escape as a kid and actually try to die. I don't know why I thought there was something wrong with me that my mind was turning to suicide at such a innocent age but there was nothing wrong with me there was something wrong with people who were supposed to protect me and instead hurt me and when your a kid you just think the way things are is just how they are always going to be and you don't yet realize that no one has the right to harm you and that's not normal and that you don't deserve to pay and carry the consequences of someone else's terrible choices. The ones who harm us when we are innocent especially when they were supposed to keep us safe they are the ones who need to pay the consequences of corrupting innocence because innocence is not something to be harmed and when it is when things like little kids ending their life are happening we need to be paying closer attention to what is going on around them because a kid is supposed to be safe and free not have the weight of the world crushing them silently until they can't stand it anymore. I know what it feels like to be that kid and to anyone seeing this just like I realized I wasn't alone one day my only hope is for you to see that there are many of us all around and just like you we try to hide our pain so no one would ever know what's really happening but that's how you know that you never know who you are inspiring by letting others see your courage and bravery to live. Your life could be someone's anchor and you don't even know it because people don't really tell you. For Raw pain words that capture the truth in you that your pain recognizes is proof that you are not invisible or alone because we don't feel connected to something or someone unless there is something to connect with and keeping pain hidden for so long is one of the lonliest feelings sometimes we even go numb so we are shut off to true connection of any kind so we find it in music and books and we create the connection of we can't find one by writing or drawing skateboarding singing dancing designing building coordinating highlighting instruments . loving& protecting the kids used to be us. Because we know that if we don't no one will and this is basically the story in the making of how you became a hero. You don't see it yet. But I do. Saving a life has a truth to it that speaks volumes without saying a word because you have to have your own life saved to know how to save a life. And if no one comes to the rescue you just get ready to be a badass because that means the hero is YOU. And THIS is how you are becoming a warrior a legend a hero. This is how heros are created. This is a glimpse of who you are meant to be. Heros always survive things that others don't. It's in those very moments that they are being shaped those moments that they are being forced to endure pain and life and abuse that turn a regular kid into a hero. You kids are my heros because you kids fight a war that should have never been yours to fight and when one of my heros ends their life because they are in so much pain at such a young age then best believe I am going to investigate and figure out what the hell happened because people don't just kill themselves for no reason. And a kid? I want to know how many people just ignored that kid who ended their life. I want to know who should have SEEN that kid and just looked the other way. I want to know how many adults could have saved that kids life by just a simple word that proved someone noticed their struggle and recognized their pain. I want to know why a kid thought dying was the only way out of whatever hell they were living and I want to know why that kid didn't have a teacher a friend a random person online to grab them away from the edge they were about to fall off. I want to know these things because these things accumulate into saving a life overtime vs lack of these things accumulate into a kid thinking about suicide to actually ending their own life. And I want to know why no one noticed or cared because they assume that there is nothing they can do or they don't know how to help so they avoid helping all together assume someone else will say something but we don't realize that we are always the someone else why would we ever assume that if we aren't going to intervene that someone else would. Someone else doesn't exist on the line between life and death. You either notice a struggling kid and you let them know you see them or you notice a struggling kid and you ignore them because you don't have time to care. How can our children be ending their lives? And how is this not one of the most wrong things in the world? And how can adults not be paying attention and prevent a literal tragedy from happening by merely paying attention or simply noticing something isn't right and make it a priority to try to help in whatever ways we know how. I am also writing this for every innocent life that felt so trapped by this life that they thought dying was the way out. I am so mad at those who could have saved their life but looked the other way. I want to know who should have saved them and didn't. And I want to know why more people aren't wondering these things. Innocent lives cut short because of their own personal hell and I want to know who contributed to their living hell by intent or out of negligence. Because if we're not building a world for our children thenwhat exactly are we doing. I won't look the other way when kids are killing themselves.
Sometimes, I want to go to sleep. Forever. Never having to see the thing our world has come to. I want to give up. I want to give in to the pain. I want to just... Just leave. But I know I can't. I have loving friends, supporting me every second of their life. When I cry, they cry. When I'm happy, they're happy. We are connected. If I die, it's not going to help anything. It's just going to pass on the pain to someone else. It won't make things better, it will make things worse. And to all of you people out there, suffering, I want you to know, though you may not have found them yet, just know, there will come a day when this perfect person walks into your life. They'll stand by your side, never turning their back to you. They'll be there in a split second when you need someone to comfort you. They won't let the world get to you. They'll hug you and kiss you, and tell you that they love you, and that you can't go. Not yet. You aren't alone just yet. Fulfill your life to the fullest, until your last breath. Then, only then, can you feel the sweet nothingness of death.
I thought I had those people for every year of my life Turns out I was wrong these new people I've met don't care for me I try to be funny they gang up on me and say rude shit and the don't care what I have to say I've helped them through all of my life and when I said that I need help they said 'yeah with that look' and I cried on my way home I've kepted everything inside now and at school and online I'm just bullied and robbed of my happiness and I don't wanna go back to therapy and I don't wanna tell anyone nd I just don't care anymore but I don't wanna die and I don't wanna live I cry when I go to bed and I laugh when I wake up at how stupid and retarded I am to think they would care and that they would even help me I don't wanna die is when my mind tells me I do is what my depression tells me My anxiety questions it before I sleep And all together they tell me to fake it It's life.
Haha u know what’s super funny to me we are all just suicidal people telling others suicide isn’t the answer and that just makes laugh because of how stupid it is and how cruel it is because people relate to it hell I’ve been there.....
Yeah after years of pain and tears all thats left is the pain but you have cried all the tears you have so now you are just in pain that's all that's left
I can’t do it anymore. I’m to the point where I don’t cry at all. All I do is lay in bed and wish for happiness. And I feel it’s my fault for not having it…I can’t do this
One time... I tried to be ok. I deleted all the depressing stuff in my camera roll. I CONVINCED myself that I WAS ok. Well, everything got worse and I just kinda gave up on feelings. I still feel but I don’t care how I feel. Oh I’m sad ig I’ll be sad. Oh I’m happy ig I’ll be happy. I just don’t really care. I know I’m not ok. My family thinks I am and wants me to be. But I’m not and that really crushes me. I wanna be better but I don’t care enough to try. I just simply give up man.
This one got to me i feel the same way im just fucking done being me and being sad so im fucking done feeling im not ok and everyones blind and cant see it
To take a break is ok but never give up! You are brave enough, you are strong enough to start the fight again. Write 3 things down what makes you really happy in your childhood. Memories that my you smile for a short moment. Keep this paper always with you. Everytime when you remember what gives you joy and make you happy write it on it. When you are feeling sad or low, take that paper read it mybe you will feel little better. Try it! please.
I can relate to this. Even though my mom has told me she loved me, and hugged me, she yells at me and makes me feel like trash. Ever since we left her I’ve felt way more safe, but now everyone’s saying we’ll go back to her soon. I don’t want to.
I can’t speak my mind, without getting lectured. I can’t be me, because people would worry. I have to be the rock, so other people can lean on me. I have take people’s pain, so they don’t have to be broken like me.
The one person that I thought cared about me left when shit hit the fan with my family and honestly I almost lost my mind trying to find something worth living for. One person saved me from ending it all but she will never know what she did because my pride won't let me tell her.
My one person who I thought I died without left when she started dating the guy I liked I’ve been alone since that day I remember it was exactly January 8th I feel like I havnt been happy without her but if I let her know she’s gonna think I’m week and that I needed her even though I do I don’t want her to know how brokden I am without her
I always asking myself why people aren't grateful sometimes? the thing I did for them. is It not enough or something? what you want me to be? Not even a word "thank you" have been told to me But..My mom did it so..I am happy. But my parents say I am completely normal but HOW IS THAT NORMAL?! I 've been crying in my bed having nightmare everyday, How is that normal?! welp.
6A-Isabel Honey Chrysantnania I never said it to you but I was always grateful for what you did. It took a hard lesson to see just how much I was but then you were gone so I never got to tell you
The people that tried to break me couldn't, It was the thoseI loved the most that broke me. I want go to sleep now, I am done. Tough times don't last, tough people do. When all is lost, Ithink about the amazing parents I had.
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS. Us teenagers go through heart break and it leaves us empty inside. Then we decide no one else loves us so we want to be gone. But truth of the matter is that we have so many people that love us. Stay strong and dont let that one person keep you from living a life better then the one you had with them...
The worst feeling you can have is when the person you trusted most with your pain the person that could relate most with you that knew all your problems and flaws and thoughts just leaves you hurting you But it hurts worst when they do it more than other people because they actually helped with your pain they just leave like your nothing.
You know your broken when you’ve been watching these for a year watching people go past you, leaving you, replacing you and you still come back to these but this time… you have no feeling but silently lay there.. knowing things have changed
"You don't know what it's like to feel worthless! Like nothing you do matters! I feel that everyday in my life, every d##m day!" "I just want a way out of loneliness." Dang, those hit me on a personal level.
I’m at a point where nothing more bad can happen to me, if something even worse happened to me I would be pushed off the edge. And I know that day is approaching, and there is nothing I can do. I HATE MYSELF, I have never felt more alone, I’ve never felt so far gone. And I’ll want is to run.
What I want is a moment. Give me a moment for me to talk, to let all of the things that’s I’ve been through, what made me happy, what made me sad and went into depression and no matter what you are thinking just plz listen to me and hug me after I finished, tell me that it's going to be ok......
My greatest wish is that in the near future if i ever have children i would pour them with love and care. Make them see the bright side of the world so that maybe they won't be in the same situation as i am.
I just want my parents to hug me and tell me they are here with me never got the chance to grow up with a father figure at home ... my brother and sisters really think that I’m too little to understand but They don’t even know how hard it was back then for me
I want to hug you! Im so sorry and i get it. The same happened to me. Im the oldest sibling and i try my best to fill that void for my younger siblings, even when i cant get it for myself. Be strong
DEPRESSION (DARKNESS) RETURNED. ..A POEM Darker, Then Darkness....... Depression (Darkness) Has Returned! Darkness utters a timeless refrain:- 'HANG' around with me! Together let's 'DROWN' your sorrow! I'll 'CUT' out your pain for free! Your life is a bitter 'PILL TO SWALLOW'! "The ones you love, don't give a care! Come with me, & I'll take you there!.... .....To the dark abyss!" Is this how I am to be remembered? Taking the easy way out - hurting those I love? What awaits me in that dark abyss? Not a lifetime of memories, that's for sure! A crossroads beckons ahead of me. My future signposted, a choice to make? Do I turn back to the safety of Darkness? Or summon my strength for the journey ahead? In the distance, I see a light! Is that my family & friends awaiting me? Beside me a new friend approaches, He takes my hand, I ask his name? Wellness, he says!, My name & destination is Wellness! We have a difficult journey ahead of us! Together, we will make it as one! A poem by David Williams. The Charities Below Give Help & Support If You Think You Might Be Suffering From Cliniical Depression:- www.childline.org.uk & www.youngminds.org.uk & www.themix.org.uk IMPORTANT!!!!!!! If you are looking for help with your mental health outside of the UK. I suggest you enter into your search engine (google) Free mental health advice charities for teenagers ( or similar wording) then enter your own country. The words FREE, CHARITIES, & TEENAGERS are important, I have had a positive result using this method. If you find a suitable contact in your country, please share it with others! Let me know if you found this helpful. David ❤️
2:40 am: your still in my mind 3:50 am: did you ever loved me? 4:39 am: wasn’t I enough for you? 5:50 am: you were everything to me 6:30 am: why did you leave? 7:40 am: I miss you.. so much
@@snoopyw6589 And when the person isn't Christian? Then what? Then what do we have? I'm atheist, so I don't have "God" I've lost myself as well. And I know I'm not the only one feeling this way, so what else do we have.
@@al4tus314well you can always believe in the person who loves you. And grow from there. Maybe you’ll find yourself in this person. Believe in them and they’ll show you where your lost
My number one rule for my self, was too always stay me. Cos then if i was just too be hated, or loved. Then it means something, Be that inspiration tok someone's life who needs it most. Kids as well, if you have a good mum or dad.. make the world too them , make your own life's support feel important. We sometimes need it too remember ✨
i lost my dad feb 1st 2020. died by heart attack. i just miss him a lot. when i was a child i wished he could see me graduate. i'm learning to not be scared of death because soon there will be an end, i just want a peaceful one. suicide isn't peaceful.
Guys I may not know how hard things are going for you but at some point you have to pull your shit together and strive for whatever it is that will make you happy because it all comes down to two paths and that is death and life if you give up now its all over but if you stay here a little longer there's a chance no matter how thin the light, you will find what it is you are looking for
My dad left when I was a baby...he didn't want me. He never comes to visit. I cut and cry and blame myself. In 3rd grade I was sexually harrassed by a 5th grade. For two years I couldnt escape.... I dont have many friends and I live in fear because of the harrassment. I cant handle life but I stay for my closest friend. My whole entire family doesn't understand the pain I go through. I want to kill myself but I stay for my friend. So instead if suicide, I fill my arms with cuts and just blame it on a cat😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
This probably doesn't mean anything since you posted this 4 months ago but sometimes life is like a garden, the prettiest flowers get picked first. Someday things are gonna get better and your gonna think "wow, I can't imagine living a life any different than the one I'm living now" and your gonna be happy. The road to get there is just gonna get tougher but when the road comes to a stop it'll be worth the trip. Sorry if this wasted your time.
When you feel no Strange inside of you, when you are tired to fight, take a break, rest for a while, is ok but never give up! You are brave enough, you are strong enough to start the fight again. Write 3 things down what makes you really happy in your childhood. Memories that make you smile for a short moment. Keep this paper always with you. Everytime when you remember what gives you joy and make you happy write it on it. When you are feeling sad or low, take that paper read it mybe you will feel little better. Try it! please.thx.
You are all special and never give up you are warriors to the fullest and future generation to live better an remember you are loved already and I know the feeling so be strong an always know you are a good person friend buddy.
Every night I tell myself that I did good, I did the best i can and yet that doesn’t change the fact that I’m not good enough for people to see me, I’m afraid of hurting the people around me if I tell them the truth. It’s sad to be so numb that you can’t cry anymore
What not many others knows is that because of all monsters in this world. I have lost 8 of my own children. For verus reasons. And also because of those reasons all of my female parts had to be removed. Estrogen is a major factor in keeping a women’s body healthy. Do to my ex being so cheap he refused to buy what I needed. So please before you judge someone on their appearance. Get to know them and understand their hidden disabilities.
I dont know who you are or if you need to hear this, but don't give up. There are so many people that love and cherish you. I know what everyone hear is going through, because im going through something right now. I clicked like and it went from 9.4k to 9.5k ⊙-⊙
All I want is for my dad to love me and support me but he doesn’t care about me he only cares about himself I miss my mom it’s been 2 years since she passed away
This reminds me of all the times my parents argued together. Or all the times the all told me I’d never find anyone, that I was unlovable Bc of my attitude or Bc no guy would want to be with someone who looks and acts like me, at least not one worth being with.
I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until everything’s okay again..
Hey wake up
It's ok
You're safe
Same
Hehe don’t we all
i want to go to sleep and never wake up
anni i feel u
I'm not afraid of suicide, I'm afraid of failing and people thinking I'm not okay anymore....
I know how terrifying it is to let people in and to have them know you aren’t okay but people love you and if nobody knows nobody can help you. Please please let people in, let people help you.
I had a plan, but somehow someone found out and reported me to the school. Everything got so fucked up. Opening up to my mom, my psychiatrist, and my therapist, hasn’t done anything for me yet. But, my psychiatrist always tells me that this is a marathon that can’t be finished in one day.
@@sophiaburd4754 tried that... People dont seem to give a damn lol
Here to help. Always.
And here I was thinking I was the only one who thought this way
*All us kids want is to be loved.*
Itz Your girl Melody yea but no body wants me as a friend so I’ll never have that
Trust me, I bet loads of people love you, you just don’t know it
Itz Your girl Melody imagine losing everyone and everything in just a second
@@legendgamerxz1833 I'll be your friend
jjsjogreen taylor ?
-You love him?
-*yes*
-How much?
-*Enough for him to be happy with another*
My pain is unbearable.im done
@Amber Vriend - But if he's truly happy with someone else, sometimes it's best to accept that.
You don't think you only wants to forcibly give someone the happiness you have imagined that she or he needs when mabey they has some different definitions. If they don't want you just wish them to reach everything they know of happiness.
@@jeremiahmorgan7959 lo
But, isn't it good if he is happy?
i just want someone to hold me and tell me its going to be okay
Anfinity Warframe I wish I was there just to do that for you... I’m so sorry
Me too..
I can’t hold u bro but it will be ok maybe not now but soon🙂
Will it though...? I sure hope so
Jimm probably not, but i’m sure it would make people feel better..
I like to tell myself that
One day
I'll find a place to scream my feelings.
Because right now, I have nowhere.
I wish I could let it out..
That's the only thing I ask
Please.
I usually silent cry, alot more than i should. Screaming a silence, and feeling my chest clutch... I wish i could sail out, to somewhere, anyway, feel... Happy :))
A lot of people feel that way i think
But i think you don't need to sail out or find a hideout to do that
Close your eyes imagine you are in the biggest tower and then scream and cry it always work for me
I got a pillow, it works nicely.
@@endme5062 yeah, you're right, but it would be fun, and relaxing. You could explore and just have an adventure and feel relieved for those moments :)
im not scared of suicide..... im scared of the pain i will give others, they will think that im too young to die but in my head ive been alive for to long
it’s gonna get better luvs,don’t give up now🥺🤍.
We feel the same
You never know . Your struggle very well may be someone's guide. You may not see it yet but I promise you are here for a great purpose . Yes you. And while things are happening we do not yet understand why but you never know who's life you save one day. Imagine a young girl or boy too young to know what suidcide even is imagine they want to die because things are so bad. Maybe 5 years old. If you noticed that kid would you just ignore their pain or would you do everything in your power to show them life is worth fighting for. You can be a reason . A reason to live. Because if you hang on during life's darkest moments I promise you can do anything you imagine anything you want your life to be. I know the feeling of feeling like it is harder to stay alive then it would be to just end it and it's a lonely dark place where monsters hide and no one knows how to find their way out but there IS a way out you don't have to do it alone even though it feels like there is no other way. Some of us are here to shine a light in the dark for those who are still in it because that is the only way that we found our way out to be honest. You can be a light in someone else dark . You already are -and you just don't know it yet. Words often fail to capture just how real pain can be but sometimes it's not the words being said but the reason someone is saying them. And it no one has ever told you that your experience will one day save a life of a kid who otherwise would have given up , a kid just like you who just needs to have a light shine on them so they know they are not invisible and that they are actually very very important because they are going to not just change lives but save them. And what greater gift could there be than the gift of being able to save a kid who was once just like you and that kid will no doubt save lives too. It's🤍 a snowball effect . Sometimes someone just seeing our pain and identifying it is a small comfort. It seems a lot of times no one notices when we really need someone to just see us for who we are and wesilently pray for someone to give us a reason to stay. This message is for everyone who is in pain in this life and if anyone reading it is planning or wanting to end their life and it feels too messed up to talk about please PLEASE think of this message and how you are not reading it by accident - that you are here for a reason and that reason is someone telling you that I want you to live. That you are not invisible. That you may not see another way out but I promise there is always a way. Do not end your life. You deserve to be protected and loved and seen and I am so sorry that you are in so much pain and that I know it feels like it will never stop but it WILL . The pain will transform into something else. And you are going to have a moment in your life someday where you stop and say to yourself that this is the moment that random person on UA-cam comments was telling me I would have. It will be a moment to live for. You will discover over time reasons to live . And in turn you will become someone else's reason to decide to live. How cool is that that your already a literal life savor and I bet you didn't even know it. 🤍🌹I am proud of you for living because I know how hard it can feel when you just want to die. There is always another way . Death is not supposed to welcome innocence there is like a universal unwritten law that some things just aren't natural and a kid dying when that kid was supposed to live is one of them. There is no reason that kids would be thinking about ending their own lives at such young ages unless they have been impacted greatly by people or experience or something happening to them and these are things that we SHOULD be talking about because no one deserves to die for being in pain that was inflicted on them . I know the feeling though I tried to end my life the first time when I was just 5 years old .I just didn't know it had a name yet I just wanted to escape my situation and what it was doing to my mind and I knew that getting hurt could help me leave my life and looking back I don't think anyone even knew that's what I was doing. I only just recently told someone because I realized I am not the only one who wanted to escape as a kid and actually try to die. I don't know why I thought there was something wrong with me that my mind was turning to suicide at such a innocent age but there was nothing wrong with me there was something wrong with people who were supposed to protect me and instead hurt me and when your a kid you just think the way things are is just how they are always going to be and you don't yet realize that no one has the right to harm you and that's not normal and that you don't deserve to pay and carry the consequences of someone else's terrible choices. The ones who harm us when we are innocent especially when they were supposed to keep us safe they are the ones who need to pay the consequences of corrupting innocence because innocence is not something to be harmed and when it is when things like little kids ending their life are happening we need to be paying closer attention to what is going on around them because a kid is supposed to be safe and free not have the weight of the world crushing them silently until they can't stand it anymore. I know what it feels like to be that kid and to anyone seeing this just like I realized I wasn't alone one day my only hope is for you to see that there are many of us all around and just like you we try to hide our pain so no one would ever know what's really happening but that's how you know that you never know who you are inspiring by letting others see your courage and bravery to live. Your life could be someone's anchor and you don't even know it because people don't really tell you. For Raw pain words that capture the truth in you that your pain recognizes is proof that you are not invisible or alone because we don't feel connected to something or someone unless there is something to connect with and keeping pain hidden for so long is one of the lonliest feelings sometimes we even go numb so we are shut off to true connection of any kind so we find it in music and books and we create the connection of we can't find one by writing or drawing skateboarding singing dancing designing building coordinating highlighting instruments . loving& protecting the kids used to be us. Because we know that if we don't no one will and this is basically the story in the making of how you became a hero. You don't see it yet. But I do. Saving a life has a truth to it that speaks volumes without saying a word because you have to have your own life saved to know how to save a life. And if no one comes to the rescue you just get ready to be a badass because that means the hero is YOU. And THIS is how you are becoming a warrior a legend a hero. This is how heros are created. This is a glimpse of who you are meant to be. Heros always survive things that others don't. It's in those very moments that they are being shaped those moments that they are being forced to endure pain and life and abuse that turn a regular kid into a hero. You kids are my heros because you kids fight a war that should have never been yours to fight and when one of my heros ends their life because they are in so much pain at such a young age then best believe I am going to investigate and figure out what the hell happened because people don't just kill themselves for no reason. And a kid? I want to know how many people just ignored that kid who ended their life. I want to know who should have SEEN that kid and just looked the other way. I want to know how many adults could have saved that kids life by just a simple word that proved someone noticed their struggle and recognized their pain. I want to know why a kid thought dying was the only way out of whatever hell they were living and I want to know why that kid didn't have a teacher a friend a random person online to grab them away from the edge they were about to fall off. I want to know these things because these things accumulate into saving a life overtime vs lack of these things accumulate into a kid thinking about suicide to actually ending their own life. And I want to know why no one noticed or cared because they assume that there is nothing they can do or they don't know how to help so they avoid helping all together assume someone else will say something but we don't realize that we are always the someone else why would we ever assume that if we aren't going to intervene that someone else would. Someone else doesn't exist on the line between life and death. You either notice a struggling kid and you let them know you see them or you notice a struggling kid and you ignore them because you don't have time to care. How can our children be ending their lives? And how is this not one of the most wrong things in the world? And how can adults not be paying attention and prevent a literal tragedy from happening by merely paying attention or simply noticing something isn't right and make it a priority to try to help in whatever ways we know how. I am also writing this for every innocent life that felt so trapped by this life that they thought dying was the way out. I am so mad at those who could have saved their life but looked the other way. I want to know who should have saved them and didn't. And I want to know why more people aren't wondering these things. Innocent lives cut short because of their own personal hell and I want to know who contributed to their living hell by intent or out of negligence. Because if we're not building a world for our children thenwhat exactly are we doing. I won't look the other way when kids are killing themselves.
Same here.. 🤍 we can't win with any of it..
Yeah understand it
Sometimes, I want to go to sleep. Forever. Never having to see the thing our world has come to. I want to give up. I want to give in to the pain. I want to just... Just leave. But I know I can't. I have loving friends, supporting me every second of their life. When I cry, they cry. When I'm happy, they're happy. We are connected. If I die, it's not going to help anything. It's just going to pass on the pain to someone else. It won't make things better, it will make things worse. And to all of you people out there, suffering, I want you to know, though you may not have found them yet, just know, there will come a day when this perfect person walks into your life. They'll stand by your side, never turning their back to you. They'll be there in a split second when you need someone to comfort you. They won't let the world get to you. They'll hug you and kiss you, and tell you that they love you, and that you can't go. Not yet.
You aren't alone just yet. Fulfill your life to the fullest, until your last breath. Then, only then, can you feel the sweet nothingness of death.
Some of us dont need just a split second of comfort...some dont have any1 at all...
I thought I had those people for every year of my life
Turns out I was wrong these new people I've met don't care for me I try to be funny they gang up on me and say rude shit and the don't care what I have to say I've helped them through all of my life and when I said that I need help they said 'yeah with that look' and I cried on my way home I've kepted everything inside now and at school and online I'm just bullied and robbed of my happiness and I don't wanna go back to therapy and I don't wanna tell anyone nd I just don't care anymore but I don't wanna die and I don't wanna live I cry when I go to bed and I laugh when I wake up at how stupid and retarded I am to think they would care and that they would even help me
I don't wanna die is when my mind tells me
I do is what my depression tells me
My anxiety questions it before I sleep
And all together they tell me to fake it
It's life.
Haha u know what’s super funny to me we are all just suicidal people telling others suicide isn’t the answer and that just makes laugh because of how stupid it is and how cruel it is because people relate to it hell I’ve been there.....
Ok why did this comment make me cry
@@honeytoxin6784 some of us get tricked into fake friendship.
You know your broken when you watch these all the time and don't cry anymore
Yeah after years of pain and tears all thats left is the pain but you have cried all the tears you have so now you are just in pain that's all that's left
This hit so hard
I have to confirm, I stopped to cry since my grandfather and grandmother died 4 months ago
Damn your right............wow
I can’t do it anymore. I’m to the point where I don’t cry at all. All I do is lay in bed and wish for happiness. And I feel it’s my fault for not having it…I can’t do this
One time... I tried to be ok. I deleted all the depressing stuff in my camera roll. I CONVINCED myself that I WAS ok. Well, everything got worse and I just kinda gave up on feelings. I still feel but I don’t care how I feel. Oh I’m sad ig I’ll be sad. Oh I’m happy ig I’ll be happy. I just don’t really care. I know I’m not ok. My family thinks I am and wants me to be. But I’m not and that really crushes me. I wanna be better but I don’t care enough to try. I just simply give up man.
It's ok to be sad
People try to fight it but it's ok
There is always another day
and there always will be
huggy Xx thank you
@@bridgett7292 ^-^
This one got to me i feel the same way im just fucking done being me and being sad so im fucking done feeling im not ok and everyones blind and cant see it
To take a break is ok but never give up!
You are brave enough, you are strong enough to start the fight again.
Write 3 things down what makes you really happy in your childhood.
Memories that my you smile for a short moment.
Keep this paper always with you. Everytime when you remember what gives you joy and make you happy write it on it. When you are feeling sad or low, take that paper read it mybe you will feel little better.
Try it! please.
"Sleep isn't JUST a sleep anymore it is an escape from reality"😁🖤
Not gonna lie that first scream scared the living soul out of me.
Same lmfao
I jumped like 10 feet
Glad im not the only one who got scared
Same!!!
🤣
I want to cry 😕,but no water left😞
Nafiz uddin I feel you
Same😢
Same
Why are we born with everything; just to lose it all as we grow older? It's got me feeling like maybe this life is all one big sick joke 😥😔💔
yeah it SUCKS
girl: I want to die.
Me: Im already dead inside
I just want my mum to hug me and tell me she loves me
Same
Oh god same
I can relate to this. Even though my mom has told me she loved me, and hugged me, she yells at me and makes me feel like trash. Ever since we left her I’ve felt way more safe, but now everyone’s saying we’ll go back to her soon. I don’t want to.
Me to, every time she comes down stairs she’s mad at me
@@snoopyw6589 I just saw this and omg I love you so much thank u my mom also told me the same thing and that she didn't mean it ,
Once upon a time. We were all children. Happy. No worries. Care free. I want to go back. To when I was happy. Please
:(
I can’t speak my mind, without getting lectured.
I can’t be me, because people would worry.
I have to be the rock, so other people can lean on me.
I have take people’s pain, so they don’t have to be broken like me.
Sorry man
The one person that I thought cared about me left when shit hit the fan with my family and honestly I almost lost my mind trying to find something worth living for. One person saved me from ending it all but she will never know what she did because my pride won't let me tell her.
Tell her...... ♥️
Tell her ❤️
Joseph Santos I love you. Just cause it’s that round rainbow rt now. There’s nothing to list when you let God’s love show you the way
My one person who I thought I died without left when she started dating the guy I liked I’ve been alone since that day I remember it was exactly January 8th I feel like I havnt been happy without her but if I let her know she’s gonna think I’m week and that I needed her even though I do I don’t want her to know how brokden I am without her
Im not suicidal or anything, but i just want to disappear into the ether... I think people around me would breath a sigh of relief 🤷♂️
Well sadly ppl won't sigh of relief
I'll miss you dude
If you dissappear
same, i wouldn't say im suicidal but i just want to go to sleep and never wake up
I always asking myself
why people aren't grateful sometimes? the thing I did for them. is It not enough or something? what you want me to be? Not even a word "thank you" have been told to me But..My mom did it so..I am happy. But my parents say I am completely normal but HOW IS THAT NORMAL?! I 've been crying in my bed having nightmare everyday, How is that normal?!
welp.
6A-Isabel Honey Chrysantnania I never said it to you but I was always grateful for what you did. It took a hard lesson to see just how much I was but then you were gone so I never got to tell you
Snoopy W really? ;v;
sadly so true
The people that tried to break me couldn't, It was the thoseI loved the most that broke me. I want go to sleep now, I am done. Tough times don't last, tough people do. When all is lost, Ithink about the amazing parents I had.
thanks for liking, little do you know how it unbreaks me :)
i miss my whole family.. i especially miss my dieing mom..
I lost my dad when I was six months stay strong you'll be o.k
it was a time that i try my best...
and this time has come to the end..to stop trying anymore..
because nothing really matters!!
You know it's back when you start listening to these again
~This isnt my comment, I found it from somewhere..~
I am done with everything
If you're done just start something else or just do it aggan
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS.
Us teenagers go through heart break and it leaves us empty inside. Then we decide no one else loves us so we want to be gone. But truth of the matter is that we have so many people that love us. Stay strong and dont let that one person keep you from living a life better then the one you had with them...
Oh gosh, the first sentences, that was Simon from Shadowhunters.
yess but which scene was that
@@inestrbusic9603 it was after he bit his sister, was visiting her in the hospital and had to incanto his mother to think he was dead
The 100 part hit me real bad all memories came back
Im done chasing after her
Sometimes it is time to move on :)
Me 2
We know when it's time
@@johnwirth4757 but we still don't want to go away
This video turns me really nostalgic, idk why it just makes me sad but I like it so much :/
The worst feeling you can have is when the person you trusted most with your pain the person that could relate most with you that knew all your problems and flaws and thoughts just leaves you hurting you
But it hurts worst when they do it more than other people because they actually helped with your pain
they just leave like your nothing.
“where did our happy kid go?” your the ones who took that kid away.
You know your broken when you’ve been watching these for a year watching people go past you, leaving you, replacing you and you still come back to these but this time… you have no feeling but silently lay there.. knowing things have changed
"You don't know what it's like to feel worthless! Like nothing you do matters! I feel that everyday in my life, every d##m day!"
"I just want a way out of loneliness."
Dang, those hit me on a personal level.
I’m at a point where nothing more bad can happen to me, if something even worse happened to me I would be pushed off the edge. And I know that day is approaching, and there is nothing I can do. I HATE MYSELF, I have never felt more alone, I’ve never felt so far gone. And I’ll want is to run.
If you get pushen down i'll catch you at the bottom ok? I'll wait here for you
What I want is a moment. Give me a moment for me to talk, to let all of the things that’s I’ve been through, what made me happy, what made me sad and went into depression and no matter what you are thinking just plz listen to me and hug me after I finished, tell me that it's going to be ok......
I want to go somewhere happy
Somewhere where no one knows my name
Where I can restart
How I miss my dad
:'(
Same
My greatest wish is that in the near future if i ever have children i would pour them with love and care. Make them see the bright side of the world so that maybe they won't be in the same situation as i am.
Maybe tomorrow we'll all find the Happiness we deserve.
“Thank you parents for this awful life I did not ask for that I did not ask to be apart of”
Wishing to have a dad by side is a one of impossible wish to be wishing.
you know that feeling of wanting to cry but you just can't 😢
I always thought that I was grown up but I'm still just a kid
some of us just want to be understood, we want to be loved, we want to be cared for.. and that’s all, is that too much to ask?
It's not at all everyone deseves it
I miss you dad every day
O plz calmdown don't lose yourself my sweetheart Angel KD
I just want my parents to hug me and tell me they are here with me never got the chance to grow up with a father figure at home ... my brother and sisters really think that I’m too little to understand but They don’t even know how hard it was back then for me
I want to hug you! Im so sorry and i get it. The same happened to me. Im the oldest sibling and i try my best to fill that void for my younger siblings, even when i cant get it for myself. Be strong
oh my god these types of videos always give me the shivers ~M~
I don't even wanna die. I wanna disappear like I was never born.
I get chills
imagine the lyrics as "you are, you are, you are, you are done" and it's 10x sadder
DEPRESSION (DARKNESS) RETURNED. ..A POEM
Darker, Then Darkness.......
Depression (Darkness) Has Returned!
Darkness utters a timeless refrain:-
'HANG' around with me!
Together let's 'DROWN' your sorrow!
I'll 'CUT' out your pain for free!
Your life is a bitter 'PILL TO SWALLOW'!
"The ones you love, don't give a care!
Come with me, & I'll take you there!....
.....To the dark abyss!"
Is this how I am to be remembered?
Taking the easy way out - hurting those I love?
What awaits me in that dark abyss?
Not a lifetime of memories, that's for sure!
A crossroads beckons ahead of me.
My future signposted, a choice to make?
Do I turn back to the safety of Darkness?
Or summon my strength for the journey ahead?
In the distance, I see a light!
Is that my family & friends awaiting me?
Beside me a new friend approaches,
He takes my hand, I ask his name?
Wellness, he says!, My name & destination is Wellness!
We have a difficult journey ahead of us!
Together, we will make it as one!
A poem by David Williams.
The Charities Below Give Help & Support If You Think You Might Be Suffering From Cliniical Depression:-
www.childline.org.uk & www.youngminds.org.uk
& www.themix.org.uk
IMPORTANT!!!!!!!
If you are looking for help with your mental health outside of the UK. I suggest you enter into your search engine (google)
Free mental health advice charities for teenagers ( or similar wording) then enter your own country. The words FREE, CHARITIES, & TEENAGERS are important, I have had a positive result using this method. If you find a suitable contact in your country, please share it with others!
Let me know if you found this helpful. David ❤️
2:40 am: your still in my mind
3:50 am: did you ever loved me?
4:39 am: wasn’t I enough for you?
5:50 am: you were everything to me
6:30 am: why did you leave?
7:40 am: I miss you.. so much
im done i lost eveything do you hear me i lost my mother i lost my father i lost my friends i got nothing left!!!!!!!! :crys:
You have God. And you have you. That’s all you need
Everyone has
something you just have to find it
@@snoopyw6589
And when the person isn't Christian? Then what? Then what do we have?
I'm atheist, so I don't have "God"
I've lost myself as well.
And I know I'm not the only one feeling this way, so what else do we have.
@@al4tus314 you have yourself first and foremost. And if you were in my life you have me. I’m never gonna leave your side as long as you want me
@@al4tus314well you can always believe in the person who loves you. And grow from there. Maybe you’ll find yourself in this person. Believe in them and they’ll show you where your lost
My number one rule for my self, was too always stay me. Cos then if i was just too be hated, or loved. Then it means something, Be that inspiration tok someone's life who needs it most. Kids as well, if you have a good mum or dad.. make the world too them , make your own life's support feel important. We sometimes need it too remember ✨
What is the name of this song and who sings it?
Dark by Luke Sital-Singh
i lost my dad feb 1st 2020. died by heart attack.
i just miss him a lot. when i was a child i wished he could see me graduate.
i'm learning to not be scared of death because soon there will be an end, i just want a peaceful one. suicide isn't peaceful.
I can feel the emotion in that scream😖
Why does just hit hard it's like this understands more than what parents do why is that..
You know when the pain is back when you can’t feel anything and can’t cry
I want to got to sleep and never wake up. So that all the people that hurt me will feel the pain I feel.
Guys I may not know how hard things are going for you but at some point you have to pull your shit together and strive for whatever it is that will make you happy because it all comes down to two paths and that is death and life if you give up now its all over but if you stay here a little longer there's a chance no matter how thin the light, you will find what it is you are looking for
I can’t stop crying
My dad left when I was a baby...he didn't want me. He never comes to visit. I cut and cry and blame myself. In 3rd grade I was sexually harrassed by a 5th grade. For two years I couldnt escape.... I dont have many friends and I live in fear because of the harrassment. I cant handle life but I stay for my closest friend. My whole entire family doesn't understand the pain I go through. I want to kill myself but I stay for my friend. So instead if suicide, I fill my arms with cuts and just blame it on a cat😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
You're very brave to tell your story. Please help yourself to a ❤️from my posting above . Wishing you good luck for your future.
@@theprehistoricpoet thanks😅
This probably doesn't mean anything since you posted this 4 months ago but sometimes life is like a garden, the prettiest flowers get picked first. Someday things are gonna get better and your gonna think "wow, I can't imagine living a life any different than the one I'm living now" and your gonna be happy. The road to get there is just gonna get tougher but when the road comes to a stop it'll be worth the trip. Sorry if this wasted your time.
Same, except the cuts and cat
Why can’t I leave this sadness 😢?
When you feel no Strange inside of you, when you are tired to fight, take a break, rest for a while, is ok but never give up!
You are brave enough, you are strong enough to start the fight again.
Write 3 things down what makes you really happy in your childhood.
Memories that make you smile for a short moment.
Keep this paper always with you. Everytime when you remember what gives you joy and make you happy write it on it. When you are feeling sad or low, take that paper read it mybe you will feel little better.
Try it! please.thx.
I can’t stop thinking about someone I can’t stop I’m crying im in pain ❤️ I love them sooo much
I just wanna him back to life.
this song is called Dark by Luke Sital-Singh
Let me sleep forever 🙂
stay strong bc if you do somthing to your self it will hurt people around you
Miss u dad 💔😢
All I want is to feel loved....
People **you are what you eat**
Me ** oh yea when did i eat depression... Anxiety... Pain... Lies... Silence... Scars... And stress...**
ME TOO. I LOVE YOU
the song is sad it makes me sad
You are all special and never give up you are warriors to the fullest and future generation to live better an remember you are loved already and I know the feeling so be strong an always know you are a good person friend buddy.
I feel so much pain, when I hear those voices, quotes, I realize that I'm just too tired of being alive
If one day you will trust again for then and only then, maybe you can share love again
u okay?🥺
Every night I tell myself that I did good, I did the best i can and yet that doesn’t change the fact that I’m not good enough for people to see me, I’m afraid of hurting the people around me if I tell them the truth. It’s sad to be so numb that you can’t cry anymore
What not many others knows is that because of all monsters in this world. I have lost 8 of my own children. For verus reasons. And also because of those reasons all of my female parts had to be removed.
Estrogen is a major factor in keeping a women’s body healthy. Do to my ex being so cheap he refused to buy what I needed.
So please before you judge someone on their appearance. Get to know them and understand their hidden disabilities.
You knew that was me all along? How? I didn't even know.
I feel empty
I dont know who you are or if you need to hear this, but don't give up. There are so many people that love and cherish you. I know what everyone hear is going through, because im going through something right now. I clicked like and it went from 9.4k to 9.5k ⊙-⊙
And watching these have become a daily routine now...
All I want is for my dad to love me and support me but he doesn’t care about me he only cares about himself I miss my mom it’s been 2 years since she passed away
It sucks being heartbroken from a relationship, and everyone around you think that you are "fine" because you have a smile on your face.
“How can this be gods plan for me I don’t understand”
😔 those words speak to me and hit me hard *kids suffer a lot* why is that?
I’m done feeling like this everyday
Life is full of ups and downs but for some people it’s mostly only downs ):
This reminds me of all the times my parents argued together. Or all the times the all told me I’d never find anyone, that I was unlovable Bc of my attitude or Bc no guy would want to be with someone who looks and acts like me, at least not one worth being with.
God is the answer I promise just give him a chance please for me🙇🏻♀️
No one knows how I feel until my tower has been knocked and I let everything that I've built up out. But even then, they never care.
If you were to replace all the water in the ocean with all the tears I’ve cried in my life there would be no difference
All I need to do is sleep forever
I didn't cry today after listening it all felt empty nothing to lose anything anymore it's all empty and numb
i a m t o o y o u n g t o b e s a d
suicide is for the strong and living is for the weak because you think about ending everyday but never do it but some people do
this hurts my heart