ASMR Voice: Bandaid [M4A] [Comfort for self-harm] [Trigger warning: Self-harm]

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  • @rottingmang0
    @rottingmang0 5 років тому +2142

    Cardlin: *starts crying*
    Me: *covers scars* nO

    • @trinityw3169
      @trinityw3169 4 роки тому +13

      Kami? What u doin here boi

    • @ada5564
      @ada5564 4 роки тому +102

      sCaRs? hUh? sCarS gO bYe bYe

    • @jocelynk591
      @jocelynk591 4 роки тому +18

      tomura shigaraki !! Hi.... You might be a villain but, I have some extra location and chapstick..... do you want some???

    • @jocelynk591
      @jocelynk591 4 роки тому +10

      *lotion

    • @ada5564
      @ada5564 4 роки тому +10

      Shoto Todoroki can i eat it?

  • @tooth_ache
    @tooth_ache 4 роки тому +863

    "I'm pretty sure you didn't mean for me to see that" Hit like a damn truck

    • @amiekko
      @amiekko 4 роки тому +49

      him: 👁️💧👄💧👁️
      me: 👁️👄👁️💧💪🪒🩸

    • @Ace-br2yb
      @Ace-br2yb 3 роки тому +35

      My boyfriend has said the same thing to me... I cried for 4 hours in his arms

    • @ccraigtuckerr
      @ccraigtuckerr 3 роки тому +7

      @@amiekko bruh same

    • @windchotic7659
      @windchotic7659 2 роки тому +4

      Yep definitely hits like truck

    • @ningguang1469
      @ningguang1469 2 роки тому +7

      when you are caught red handed *(with real red hand.. yk)* and then you just start thinking about a good reason and end up giving a stupid one which doesn't even makes sense-

  • @Den1seQu0ta
    @Den1seQu0ta 5 років тому +3531

    "Do you want me to...stop the bleeding?"
    *chokes on a potato chip*

    • @midopima436
      @midopima436 5 років тому +229

      •Den1se Qu0ta• "Are you choking? Are you choking?"

    • @reidwill6604
      @reidwill6604 5 років тому +158

      ARE YOU CHOKING

    • @roomy.lolsies
      @roomy.lolsies 5 років тому +155

      *ARE YOU CHOKING, CHILD?*

    • @Den1seQu0ta
      @Den1seQu0ta 5 років тому +142

      *Still choking*

    • @roomy.lolsies
      @roomy.lolsies 5 років тому +147

      @@Den1seQu0ta i think she needs some *MILK*

  • @pame-3157
    @pame-3157 4 роки тому +487

    You know what the sad part of all of this is?
    When the audio is over and you open your eyes just to realize that you're still alone in your room.

    • @alive.hostage
      @alive.hostage 2 роки тому +33

      Dont..I ain't ready to accept reality
      But fr it hurts and I honestly hope not everybody feels this way

    • @dissmeyoullgetmurked
      @dissmeyoullgetmurked 13 днів тому

      Relatable

  • @MichixEdits
    @MichixEdits 5 років тому +5250

    _Five years clean_ I’m -trying- *GOING* to keep it going 👌🏻👌🏻
    Edit: Thanks guys for the support! If you’re any type of clean, good job! Keep it going!!! I have to tell you guys I almost relapsed so many times throughout the years but I kept it going. It’s not easy I know but you got this okay? We got this!!! 💖💖💖
    2021 Update: Hey! I’m still clean! Seven years and counting. Any type of clean is amazing!! I love you all

    • @meganambers199
      @meganambers199 5 років тому +83

      michelle martinez WOOOOOOOOOO ❤️❤️

    • @losersrule6933
      @losersrule6933 5 років тому +74

      michelle martinez I’m proud of you 😊💕

    • @MichixEdits
      @MichixEdits 5 років тому +29

      Megan Crawford ♥️♥️

    • @MichixEdits
      @MichixEdits 5 років тому +27

      Losers Rule! Thank you ♥️♥️♥️♥️

    • @losersrule6933
      @losersrule6933 5 років тому +19

      michelle martinez no problem 😊💕

  • @tonigrace3877
    @tonigrace3877 5 років тому +2557

    “i really really don’t want you to hurt yourself”
    me: i’m not crying, my eyes are sweating.

  • @savannahrobinson9662
    @savannahrobinson9662 5 років тому +2839

    I started to cry when he said "I really really don't want you to hurt yourself".. The cracks in his voice.. My god..
    edit: I forgot I posted this comment but because people are liking it now it's come up again and I wanna thank you guys because I've been struggling a lot recently and needed to rehear this, I love you ❤️

    • @tipzyrose3712
      @tipzyrose3712 5 років тому +32

      I read this as he was saying it. My heart is gonna explode! 😭

    • @annaartsy5224
      @annaartsy5224 5 років тому +8

      T I M E S T A M P ?

    • @Conradvspro
      @Conradvspro 4 роки тому +8

      My gosh I cried mostly during this entire video omfg

    • @lustinureyez
      @lustinureyez 4 роки тому +8

      i teared up jesus ..

    • @_lucy_playz_25
      @_lucy_playz_25 4 роки тому +27

      3:30 thank me later

  • @potterhead9.3.45
    @potterhead9.3.45 5 років тому +3188

    Well- about 5hrs clean. I know, that doesn't sound much, but it is.

    • @eviethereader
      @eviethereader 4 роки тому +227

      Any victory is good. I wish you luck and speed on your road to recovery! I hope that many good things soon come your way! 🤍🤍🤍

    • @Ava-nx2jy
      @Ava-nx2jy 3 роки тому +110

      I agree- im late... Sorry,
      Edit: tanks for the 3 likes!
      1 day clean

    • @ShadowAngel850
      @ShadowAngel850 3 роки тому +69

      Good job sweetie

    • @piaisabella5508
      @piaisabella5508 3 роки тому +58

      YAYAYAYAYAYAYYY THATS BIG!!!!!!!!! im so proud

    • @leena_isnt_ok
      @leena_isnt_ok 3 роки тому +44

      Hey, fellow potterhead here! Just checking in I’m sorry I’m late but I still wanted to say that I’m so incredibly proud of you and your gonna be ok.💞

  • @sydm5237
    @sydm5237 5 років тому +2194

    YOU ARE ALL VALUED AND LOVED HUMAN BEINGS WHO DESERVE ALL GOOD THINGS IN THE WORLD GIVE YOURSELF A HUG BECAUSE YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

    • @harbirsingingdancing
      @harbirsingingdancing 5 років тому +9

      Extreme Otaku thank you

    • @ardenmurray9217
      @ardenmurray9217 5 років тому +7

      Extreme Otaku aww. Thanks! I needed that! 💞

    • @Zaacats
      @Zaacats 5 років тому +4

      Thanks boo.
      Same goes for you. ❤️

    • @michellebradford7070
      @michellebradford7070 5 років тому +5

      May you know the meaning of the world happiness and may you make an impact in this world 🤟🏻

    • @Lillian_Bugs
      @Lillian_Bugs 5 років тому +6

      No ur wrong I'm useless, ugly, a mistake, and the reason my parents divorced. Don't respond but try to make others happy make ur self happy, life happier don't worry about me

  • @winterwp6730
    @winterwp6730 5 років тому +923

    6 months without cutting and whenever I feel like cutting again, I'll remind myself to listen to this.

  • @sorcharudden961
    @sorcharudden961 5 років тому +1525

    While I know this can't replace my therapist . You saved me tonight Cardlin. I was feeling really shit and the thought of suicide was on my mind . I got a notification and thought if there's one voice I wanna hear before I go it would probably be yours. You helped me. On many occasions I harmed by burning myself and slitting my wrists,leg, stomach, thighs and even slit across my chest. there are three marks across my chest from where I was going to stab. Myself. Cardlin your doing this for a purpose and I love you for that. So thank you for letting me see another day.
    Edit: Four years later dear god. Anyways I got a borderline personality disorder diagnosis around 6 months ago now. understanding what is actually happening has helped alot but its been tough, These comments make me cry tears of joy though knowing not everyone on the internet are complete arse holes. Anyways Im doing much better for everyone asking

    • @trincx9122
      @trincx9122 5 років тому +69

      Stay strong, hun.

    • @aperson2822
      @aperson2822 5 років тому +74

      You’ll make it through this, please fight. Everyone deserves a place on this earth (apart from maybe Donald trump) and you are a included in that.
      You can do this. It may seem impossible right now, but it will be okay. Not immediately, we don’t have a magic wand to wave away all the pain, it will take time. You can do it. It will be worth it, I promise.

    • @insyirahkhairi2004
      @insyirahkhairi2004 5 років тому +35

      I hope you’re still here, fighting❤️

    • @ajax9215
      @ajax9215 4 роки тому +20

      It's ok things will get better and I hope your still here fighting

    • @robagnew9719
      @robagnew9719 4 роки тому +22

      I have not met you yet but you do the entire world a favour just by staying alive .so don't stop!

  • @sealmydoom7870
    @sealmydoom7870 5 років тому +2334

    "No. No no no nonono. I think, you've been hurt enough. You deserve to be loved. You deserve kindness, gentleness. Maybe I could show you that. Can I try? Please?"
    This is beautiful. And hits hard.
    Could that be in more of your scripts, so you say it more often?
    Often enough, that someone like me could start to believe it?

    • @maicey_t.
      @maicey_t. 5 років тому +22

      Have you heard "Emmylou" by Vance Joy? I think maybe you should go take a listen if you haven't heard it.
      You are loved.

    • @BlueJayPaints
      @BlueJayPaints 5 років тому +9

      Check out 1-800 by Logic. It helped me out, maybe it can help you too

    • @Sad_nuggie
      @Sad_nuggie 5 років тому +8

      What’s the time stamp for that? Lol I keep zoning out as he talks in my own mind imagining it happening for real... and missing it lmao

    • @sealmydoom7870
      @sealmydoom7870 5 років тому +19

      @@Sad_nuggie 10:20 for it to play out fully, 11:00 straight to the quote

    • @canofsodapop9474
      @canofsodapop9474 4 роки тому +1

      I know same

  • @stephaniem4027
    @stephaniem4027 5 років тому +3692

    Self-harm is an addiction and so misunderstood. Most people think it’s cutting or other big things. But look out for the people who pick open scabs and things too. They likely have the same struggles.
    To everyone who struggles with this, I’m praying for you. You can stop. It’s a choice. Talk to someone. But please, please know that you are loved and cared for.

    • @mrsteelyourgirl7628
      @mrsteelyourgirl7628 5 років тому +93

      I would sctatch on my shoulders and neck untill they start to blled my school new but they thought it was because of my exma since i was 12 im 13 now a d still do it im trying to stop but i literly cant because of school and stress but stil trying !!!😁😢

    • @celeste1291
      @celeste1291 5 років тому +63

      finally someone said it!!!!

    • @roxxraluu8327
      @roxxraluu8327 5 років тому +90

      Dude you just said it's an addiction,it's hard to stop, and it's not a choice
      Ita choice when you start after that, worse then heroin

    • @bibi69420
      @bibi69420 5 років тому +23

      3 months clean thank u for delivering this message to others

    • @Junie_tunes
      @Junie_tunes 5 років тому +15

      Thanks man, Its nice that you understand

  • @hxxxneycomb9523
    @hxxxneycomb9523 5 років тому +178

    he sounded so heartbroken and hurt and it personally made my heart hurt. its hard to do that to me. thank you man.

  • @ashypants556
    @ashypants556 5 років тому +1270

    Two days clean! This helps a lot of people including me so thank you

    • @bethanyfield6035
      @bethanyfield6035 5 років тому +40

      Well done! That's a great achievement :) we love you!

    • @honeylopez6833
      @honeylopez6833 4 роки тому +13

      Yay!!!!

    • @jaezagarcia7779
      @jaezagarcia7779 4 роки тому +26

      0 days clean ....

    • @unknwn6013
      @unknwn6013 4 роки тому +26

      @@jaezagarcia7779 Keep on trying! Just remember you're not alone....and please try to find happy memories whilst the bad things are going on around you! I love you!
      And also remember that things will get better!

    • @jsxnozoaobxkzpancnzy6915
      @jsxnozoaobxkzpancnzy6915 4 роки тому +5

      Ashy Pants I hope your still clean

  • @m055yuwu
    @m055yuwu 5 років тому +1466

    *sobs in gay*
    I needed this

  • @karis2298
    @karis2298 5 років тому +344

    the shake in your voice when you said “i really don’t want you to hurt yourself” made me feel very loved and i didn’t feel like it would but it did. so thanks i guess

  • @kameronw.3247
    @kameronw.3247 5 років тому +212

    this actually made me cry. when you said "I don't want you to hurt yourself" and sounded like you were crying, it just made me bawl. I had been 7 months clean but these last few weeks have been really really bad and I'd fallen into a hole of cutting again. luckily, I remembered that listening to your videos has always calmed me down so i figured I would come here and honestly? best decision I've made all week. thank you Cardlin. ❤️

  • @kaylahdavisofficial
    @kaylahdavisofficial 5 років тому +393

    Seeing the picture of Cardlin makes me all soft and warm inside.

  • @missannie343
    @missannie343 4 роки тому +70

    As soon as he said
    "im not angry with you"
    Made me literally start crying.
    When I told people they'd get frustrated at me.
    They meant well, but it hurt.

  • @elizal.4285
    @elizal.4285 4 роки тому +55

    More people need to react like this... it’s not making us feel better when someone says: OMG WHY ARE YOU CUTTING! STOP! ITS POINTLESS! YOU DONT HAVE A REASON TOO! YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE THO!..... it makes us feel like crap and hella ashamed... so this made me lowkey ugly cry

  • @rebeccaharrison2636
    @rebeccaharrison2636 5 років тому +412

    I needed this. A few months ago, i cut myself and my friend came in. She stayed with me and told me tats its natural to feel emotions but saying them can make it better. A few months later i am fully recovered from cutting but still have dark thoughts but shes always there to help me out. When i saw the video i was glad that people are starting to acknowledge that depression isnt a choice and cutting isnt a joke. Thanks Cardlin have a wonderful easter xxx

    • @cherryfairy1659
      @cherryfairy1659 5 років тому +9

      Bless you and bless your friend's souls. I hope you are better now 🖤

    • @lucerix6033
      @lucerix6033 5 років тому +4

      me too! im about 3 months clean and so proud of myself and im proud of you too!!!!

    • @ifantik2248
      @ifantik2248 4 роки тому +2

      One of my friends left me because of my habit

    • @lallalalalalala1094
      @lallalalalalala1094 3 роки тому +1

      my friend saw me and laughed and said same:|

  • @kelicibice219
    @kelicibice219 4 роки тому +45

    Him: *trying not to cry*
    Me: *smiley and happy that he cares*

  • @xyptil
    @xyptil 3 роки тому +172

    i really liked the “i cant stop you” part. i’ve dealt with accidentally blurting out that i self harmed or accidentally showing them my scars or cuts, i’ve been scolded and yelled at for hurting myself. and the stupid “u have so much to live for” instead of actually talking about it and comforting me, this video isn’t just towards me obviously but it still helps. thank u

  • @haisee2093
    @haisee2093 4 роки тому +437

    Nobody:
    Everybody:
    Me: don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry- okay I didn't cry.

    • @Coolcanny
      @Coolcanny 3 роки тому +2

      Don’t worry that’s me too

    • @lipsylol8465
      @lipsylol8465 3 роки тому +1

      No because S A M E

  • @crimsonrain800
    @crimsonrain800 5 років тому +436

    I've been suffering from self-harm for a year and a half, and it is very difficult to stop, but tomorrow I will finally be taken to a doctor, and I am very glad. And your video kinda encourages me to get help and don't give up. Thank u

    • @liv-sq8tz
      @liv-sq8tz 5 років тому +12

      OɴɪᴋᴀT i’ve been suffering for around 2 years and i have been going to the doctors for around half a year, it honestly helps so much and i’m almost 4 months clean :) i wish you the best of luck!

    • @crimsonrain800
      @crimsonrain800 5 років тому +5

      @@liv-sq8tz Ohhh, thank you so much! And i'm very proud of you. You did a great job)

    • @Sam-cy9tm
      @Sam-cy9tm 5 років тому +3

      I've done it since 10yrs old, I stopped early last year. (21yrs old) and I've been clean for a year. Its not worth it, I understand its addicting. Stay strong x

    • @arixandramontemayor109
      @arixandramontemayor109 5 років тому +3

      Pray to God and he will help you. 😊😊

    • @theanimalkeaper
      @theanimalkeaper 5 років тому +3

      I hope the doctor was nice to you at least was she/he

  • @laurenreese8909
    @laurenreese8909 5 років тому +237

    I've been self harming since I was 11...I think the longest I've gone without it since I started was maybe a month. Currently I am about a week and a half clean and I'm hoping I'll be able to beat my personal record. I am getting professional help, but these videos are very comforting.
    I started doing it because my friend had been doing it for a while. (It was in NO WAY her fault.) I had asked her why she did it and she said it just helped with her own emotions. I figured, if it helped her, maybe it will help me? I obviously deeply regret ever trying it, since it became an addiction. An addiction to self harm is just the same as beon addicted to anything else, like, drugs or alcohol.
    At first, I wasn't sure why I did it, or why I couldn't stop. All I knew was that it made me feel better, so I kept doing it. A part of me also felt like I deserved it. Anytime the pain became to much, I told myself 'it's okay, you deserve this.' It's pretty messed up, but that's how my brain works.
    As of right now, it is still a big problem. It feels like I just won't be able to live without it, like I dont even remember what life was like before I started. My brain still tells me that I'm not allowed to stop, that I deserve to feel this pain. Like I'm somehow paying for something that I did.
    Any small thing that I did wrong that had a possibility to make someone else feel bad, the depression would tell be that I would have to pay for that. And while I was doing it, I would go back to that moment and think, 'Keep going, you have to feel the same pain that they felt. It's your fault anyways. If you didn't want to do this, you shouldn't have done what you did to make them feel bad.'
    But the darkest thoughts I have tell me that I dont even deserve to live. That's a whole other story, but it gets pretty dark. Like, pitch black dark.
    It sounds stupid, I know. The comment section of a UA-cam video is probably not the best place to say all this shit, but I just need to vent and this was the easiest place.
    Anyways, I dont know why I wrote this comment, but I spent 10 minutes struggling to type on this small ass keyboard so...sorry for wasting your time. I didn't mean for this comment to turn into a novel.

    • @GeoGamerArtistVlogger
      @GeoGamerArtistVlogger 5 років тому +10

      Sometimes, just venting to a bunch of strangers is the best thing out there

    • @juliaconnolly5870
      @juliaconnolly5870 4 роки тому +5

      How are you doing now? How far clean are you? If it’s seconds, minutes, hours, anything. Every second counts and every second that you stay clean you get closer to a happier healthier life style. And if you ever want to do it I have a solution that might work. Work out or do push ups or sit ups but change it every time and do them until everything hurts so that it’s the same affect but your helping your body and eventually you get more self confidence and you can stop feeling like you deserve pain because you don’t you amazing beautiful person and you deserve nothing but happiness and love 💜

    • @laurenreese8909
      @laurenreese8909 4 роки тому +7

      @@juliaconnolly5870 I am doing much better now, thank you for asking! I'm not even sure how long it's been, but I can say I'm at least a few months clean at this point. I still get the urge to do it occasionally, but I will definitely try out what you said. Thank you for actually caring, you made me smile.

    • @juliaconnolly5870
      @juliaconnolly5870 4 роки тому +3

      emo trash That’s great and I’m glad I could help 😁

    • @opalwillow765
      @opalwillow765 4 роки тому +4

      Vishwa Vedantika I am sending you a gigantic hug. You are an amazingly-spectacular human being. You don’t deserve to be hurt. I hope you feel better at some point if not now.

  • @chntclive4338
    @chntclive4338 5 років тому +496

    Wow the title...
    This would be nice if i had you at my teen age ... 👏💕

  • @RedDeadRapunzel
    @RedDeadRapunzel 5 років тому +27

    *sitting in my room alone after a relapse making myself cry even more because no one would ever care enough to be this gentle with me*

    • @eijirokirishima9328
      @eijirokirishima9328 5 років тому +1

      same, if you ever need any one to talk to about stuff hmu on messenger (Alex Nangle) I will try to help you the best that I can

  • @S2MiaS2
    @S2MiaS2 5 років тому +65

    I felt so freaking relieved at the "I'm not mad" part... Thanks

  • @sammiewoods258
    @sammiewoods258 5 років тому +36

    Clean for about 5 months, and i will be clean from then on. This made me cry- i never had support like this. My mother would yell at me and tell me to do it more, my freinds would think it was a self depricating joke, and my dad wasnt there. To hear someone say these things.... these things that ive needed so long to hear... it helps.

  • @toniiix4647
    @toniiix4647 4 роки тому +75

    “i really really don’t want you to hurt yourself...”
    it sounded like he was crying and that hit different......
    actually tho, thank you cardlin... you’ve helped me thru some of the toughest times in my life...i’m appreciative...❤️

    • @canofsodapop9474
      @canofsodapop9474 4 роки тому

      Ya same

    • @centurn-l8i
      @centurn-l8i 3 роки тому

      I’m sorry but I thought he was yawning until I saw this comment.

  • @potatoprsk
    @potatoprsk 5 років тому +66

    The most important lesson i learned: don't compare yourself to other people and don't be upset cause you don't live up to society's standards. You are you, and they are themselves. You are special and unique. You don't need to impress others just to live a happy life. You just need to be *here* . That's what makes the ones close to you the happiest. That you're alive and well. No one deserves this cruelty.

  • @TheBookwormMeg
    @TheBookwormMeg 5 років тому +235

    If you are struggling please, please keep fighting. Remember this: it's okay to not be okay, but please don't give up. You are so, so loved

  • @deesbees9626
    @deesbees9626 5 років тому +91

    Two years clean from self-harm this month. And hopefully many more.

    • @YoYo-dj4th
      @YoYo-dj4th 5 років тому +7

      Good on you, bean!

    • @savannahh2326
      @savannahh2326 5 років тому +3

      teenie bean this made me very emotional, congrats! I’m proud of you 💗

    • @brooke6685
      @brooke6685 4 роки тому +2

      I'm two minutes..

  • @psidium_
    @psidium_ 5 років тому +251

    Woah that drawing of Cardlin made my heart flutter....got me all up in my feels 😍

    • @itsgameingtime6402
      @itsgameingtime6402 5 років тому +1

      Bro you where you were *hint hint* yandere------ your such a freak😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂jkjk

    • @KillingLonliness
      @KillingLonliness 4 роки тому +3

      @@itsgameingtime6402...What?

    • @choochoopicklepie8400
      @choochoopicklepie8400 4 роки тому +1

      Its gameing Time I just had to come back to this....what does it mean?!?

  • @veronicabray124
    @veronicabray124 4 роки тому +79

    Trigger Warning!!!
    I started to starve myself at 12, I felt uncomfortable in my own body. I started cutting at 13, starting on my fingers and slowly spreading. My last cut was on my neck. I wanted to die. I had to goto the emergency room. There is where I got professional help. Clean three years ✨

    • @nicorose5190
      @nicorose5190 3 роки тому +3

      I'm really proud of how far you've come, friend. 😊

    • @BooingYou
      @BooingYou 3 роки тому +3

      im so proud of you 🤧❤ i've been clean for about a month or two, almost three and it's hard but im trying <(^-^)>

  • @rawrxd2052
    @rawrxd2052 3 роки тому +29

    I'm 108 days clean!!
    To everyone who reads that. I'm so proud of yall!!
    I hope you all are doing good
    You will get through this
    I believe in you
    Don't be ashamed if it happnes again. Every next small step is a good one. Be proud of every minute, hour, day... etc that you are clean!
    Remember you all are loved and valid. Dont let ppl tell u otherwise
    I'm proud of all of you!

    • @its_gacha3361
      @its_gacha3361 3 роки тому

      Proud of you too

    • @kaelynn6557
      @kaelynn6557 Рік тому

      I’m proud of you!!!!! I’m very very proud of you!!!!!!! Keep up the good work!!!!!

  • @민지김-z4k
    @민지김-z4k 4 роки тому +142

    "this wasn't an attempt?"
    me, sitting here with hello kitty carved in my thigh: well, duh

    • @alipally4004
      @alipally4004 3 роки тому +8

      why do everyone's carvings look better than mine ✋

    • @calistakimball6911
      @calistakimball6911 3 роки тому +2

      @@otakusensei3549 stahp

    • @zoie9298
      @zoie9298 3 роки тому +1

      Omg😭 am I supposed to laugh? Is it ok to?

    • @emsonlife
      @emsonlife 3 роки тому +1

      @@alipally4004 please please please do not compare your scars to others, they’re beautiful and they’re who you are 🤍

  • @gizmogurlie41786
    @gizmogurlie41786 5 років тому +133

    Surviving cancer has taken such a toll on my body and mind. I'm 3 years clean but the urges have been SO bad. I listen to the other self harm audios you have done and I'm glad there is another one out. Thank you Cardlin ❤

  • @rickyjohnmartinez1403
    @rickyjohnmartinez1403 4 роки тому +10

    When he said, "No one deserves pain." That hit hard, 2 years clean too!!

  • @kofi3509
    @kofi3509 5 років тому +98

    that art is so adorable

    • @almostliv
      @almostliv 5 років тому +3

      Akil Baker i was about to comment this ! it is very adorable

    • @juliaconnolly5870
      @juliaconnolly5870 5 років тому +2

      *gay confusion*

  • @ashleszczynski7208
    @ashleszczynski7208 3 роки тому +16

    I’m about 5 minutes clean. I-I know it’s not much but it’s something. Thank you for making an audio like this it’s really comforting knowing that there are people that are out there that really do care. Again thank you

  • @marietaocasla
    @marietaocasla 3 роки тому +29

    "i didnt see you were hurting like this" its ok nobody does, now i go cry like a banshee🤠👍🏻

  • @gracesinger3491
    @gracesinger3491 5 років тому +49

    I swear cardlin you are a mind reader this is exactly what i needed right now

  • @iamconfusion2486
    @iamconfusion2486 3 роки тому +12

    Officially two years clean today!! My scars are never going to fade but it's now becoming a part of me and I'm learning to be proud of it one day at a time:)

  • @taleibainimarama5925
    @taleibainimarama5925 4 роки тому +11

    I started crying after this. I was 11 when I first started and as soon as my parents found out they actually got mad at and sent me off to a councillor and tried to forget about it. They said I should just stop but they didn't understand that you can't just stop. In my opinion, it's like an unhealthy addiction. Listening to this made me feel so supported and loved that I actually want to cry because I felt so supported. Thank you for making this audio :)

  • @venomcatva
    @venomcatva 3 роки тому +2

    this is making me cry so hard, because i get how he’s feeling. i wasn’t much different when i found out someone i loved a lot hurt themselves. i was so sad, and i just was so scared. but it’s just... i’ve been through self harm as well. i would lock myself in a room with a sharp object and just... it was extremely hard. and knowing someone i loved was going through that was harder. i get both sides of this video, the speaker and the listener. his acting is so good and it makes it seem so real. i love this. thank you.

  • @IGO15ERT
    @IGO15ERT 5 років тому +38

    You know. It's really nice to have someone.. I mean anyone to help you through tough times and Cardlin, thank you. I am a person who is very quiet and keeps to myself because I don't know how to talk about it. But something as calming as this reminds all of us that we are all still here, listening to this amazing person who does nothing but comfort us during the tough times. ( That was an ongoing sentence, sorry. ) But thank you Cardlin. Thank you. This was beyond amazing. 😁🥰💜💜 Can't wait for the next journey.

  • @potterhead9.3.45
    @potterhead9.3.45 5 років тому +91

    Eyo thanks man for uploading this
    Hope this will help me feeling a little more safe
    But heyy I've been clean for 2 hours now and even if it sounds ridiculous, I'm kinda proud

    • @christinawatkins1790
      @christinawatkins1790 5 років тому +8

      Potterhead 9.3.4 I hope you can get the help you need when you want it❤️

    • @nunyabusiness9177
      @nunyabusiness9177 5 років тому +7

      I’m proud of you. Clean for two hours is great. We all have to go at our own pace. If you need to talk I’m here. Help is out there. Hope things get better soon

    • @MichixEdits
      @MichixEdits 5 років тому +5

      Yes! Keep it going I’ve been clean for five years now and I can tell you that yes sometimes thing don’t go your way *BUT* It will get better and I try not to think about cutting myself again!!! If you wanna talk you have people who care about you here!

    • @potterhead9.3.45
      @potterhead9.3.45 5 років тому +4

      @@MichixEdits 5 years.. wow! Great job!
      I'm still clean, very glad I am

    • @potterhead9.3.45
      @potterhead9.3.45 5 років тому +3

      @@idilist yeah I'm proud - I'm not clean anymore, but next time it'll be 3 days..

  • @kay4354
    @kay4354 5 років тому +128

    11:30 don’t mind me just saving my spot
    Edit: Woah... the last time I self-harmed was before I wrote that comment. Yesterday, 10 months clean of cutting, down the drain.
    I’ve been clean since June 20th 2020, right now it is July 5th 2020
    Update: July 23rd 2020
    YESSSSS BITCH I DID IT HAHAHA ONE MONTH CLEAN
    ~Feb 28th 2021~
    YESSSS BITCH YES OMG IM 8 MONTHS CLEAN I THINK??
    it’s hard to stay clean but I just fight through and hope I can stay afloat. I can just try mr hardest and thats all I can do for now.
    ~November 18th 2021~
    AHHH hey y’all! I forgot about this comment but I randomly thought of it today in English, I wanted to come here and let y’all know I’ve been clean for 1 year, 4 months, and 26 days (513 days, since June 22 2020) and I have come so far. I still have a lot of struggles and a lot of stuff to over come. I couldn’t have done it if it weren’t for my friends and my uncle, who I lost in June. We lost him on June 9th 2021, we lost my Great-Grandmother on July 11th 2021, I lost my friend Michelle on August 23rd 2021, on October 26th I lost one of my idols, a wrestler who I looked up to dearly. His name was Ryan Pollard (aka Vinnie Valentine). He lost his battle to covid after fighting for over a month. And then 2 days later we lost my auntie. I didn’t talk to her much seeing as she lived in Georgia USA and I live in Alberta Canada. I’ve lost one person each month and I’m scared for what’s going to come next. I’m still going to keep pushing because they wouldn’t have wanted me to dwell on the past, although it may hurt, I have to learn to cope with their death. I won’t be able to do it without the support of the loved ones I still have.
    If yall ever need to rant to someone, reply to this comment and I’ll give you my snap

    • @noahtenzo3136
      @noahtenzo3136 4 роки тому +3

      remember relapse is a part of rehabilitation. When you're training your body to get over addiction, its normal for you to have strong urges again. please don't shame yourself or put yourself down for it. It shows you're on the correct path. It's less about how long youve gone without cutting and more with the fact that you want to make a change and are fighting to make a change. I believe in you and I hope that you can find some help along the way to continue your journey

    • @elizabethschuyler-hamilton7722
      @elizabethschuyler-hamilton7722 4 роки тому +1

      January 3rd 2019 was my last time

    • @lnnoch7186
      @lnnoch7186 4 роки тому

      Mine was October 9th 2019

    • @piaisabella5508
      @piaisabella5508 4 роки тому +2

      relapse is a part of recovery. i relapsed many times before being almost a year and a half clean and thats now:) you got this love

    • @piaisabella5508
      @piaisabella5508 4 роки тому +1

      @@lnnoch7186 mine was jan 25 2019

  • @cw5601
    @cw5601 5 років тому +18

    I wish I had this when I was still cutting. Instead I was hospitalized, forced to be doped up and ignored, they called that "curing" Now I have my own Cardy. I cry sometimes because my boyfriend is so patient and good to me. Sometimes I feel he is far to good for me. I love him so much.

    • @marikesl
      @marikesl 4 роки тому +1

      I'm so happy for you!!! Hoping to find my own Cardy someday!

  • @itspeter4507
    @itspeter4507 2 роки тому +2

    3:31 made me cry- the shaking of his voice and the genuine concern...
    I'm about 2 days clean and was about to cut again then I found this in my recommendations, thank you Cardlin.

  • @kayleigh1316
    @kayleigh1316 5 років тому +10

    Oh Cardlin don't cry.... You'll make me cry... I've been "clean" for about 3 weeks now. I have *ALWAYS* been so *grateful* for these audios you make. I struggle with self harm sometimes and I used to cut over healed scars and make them worse...
    But the softness of your voice and the sweetness behind your words remind me that there are *incredible people* out there like you and like other people on these comments that really show me how much they care. 🤗🤗🤗
    Thank you so much Cardlin for everything you do for me and for everyone else here ❤️❤️

  • @patty.5736
    @patty.5736 5 років тому +27

    This made me cry, it was what I needed, thank you Cardlin

  • @loveyouryarn
    @loveyouryarn 5 років тому +46

    this is so soothing that you make this type of stuff, i never get to relate to this type of stuff and be comfortable with talking to other people abt this. thank u for making this❤️

  • @CosmicAlliance03
    @CosmicAlliance03 5 років тому +3

    As a previous self-harmer this video really means a lot to me (1 year clean!). I was living with my dad when I it was at its worst and this is pretty much exactly how he found it. It was terrifying and embarrassing, but it was honestly probably one of the best things to happen to me at that time. He'd help me bandage up and make sure that I was okay.
    Thank you for this video so much.

  • @kenzlou8216
    @kenzlou8216 Рік тому +2

    This is the most realistic Asmr I’ve ever heard. Its gave me so much genuine comfort and made me cry. Wish there were more like this.

  • @discwar7379
    @discwar7379 5 років тому +44

    **looks at my scarred body**
    Pfff I'm fine

  • @Jungkook_Oppa97
    @Jungkook_Oppa97 5 років тому +91

    What perfect timing. I don't want to go into detail, but I was feeling this way again...I made a few cuts on my arms and the back of my hands...but my problem has eased up more then it used to be but from time-to-time I still feel I should do it. But I convince myself it's not worth it, there have only been a few times were I came so close. You have helped me through tough times, you have helped me through my depression, loneliness, anxiety and more issues that I have faced. I just can't imagine how God could have created an angel like you and sent you down here to be with us. But what ever he was thinking at that time, I am thankful in more ways than words can tell.
    Keep up your amazing work, and don't give up just keep moving forward. ❤️️ ya. Cheers!
    (BTW, is it just me or does that art of him look like he could be a BTS member? Just me...? Okay...this is awkward....)

    • @paradisedanger4142
      @paradisedanger4142 5 років тому +3

      Bunny Jungkookie he kinda looks like Jimin mixed with Jungkook and Jin 😂

    • @Melina.Gioconda
      @Melina.Gioconda 4 роки тому +1

      Hi Army❤️
      If this video wouldn't exist I wouldve turned my upper arm into minced meat even more than it is right now.... I hope you get better soon ❤️❤️❤️❤️🍀 sending lots of love

    • @juliaconnolly5870
      @juliaconnolly5870 4 роки тому

      Hey arrrrrmmmyyyyyyy 💜 remember that bts wants you to love yourself and be happy and I know it’s hard but what I found was that every time I felt the urge I watched army tweet videos or anything of them and it really helped. Keep going because your all stronger than you think I purple you all 💜 and he could especially be jungkook with his new haircut and he looks so good in it (jungkook)

  • @leannesaulsbury2314
    @leannesaulsbury2314 5 років тому +46

    I really admire your comfort videos the for helping everyone no matter who is watching your videos

  • @alexandramerritt5819
    @alexandramerritt5819 4 роки тому +12

    I cried through most of this. Having my boyfriend find out was one of the hardest things in the world for me and it was a really difficult thing for us to overcome together. It's been about 5 or 6 months since then and I'm happy to say that I'm two weeks strong.

    • @eli_._9271
      @eli_._9271 2 роки тому

      Ik im kinda late but I am proud of u

  • @emelyfml2184
    @emelyfml2184 3 роки тому +6

    “I wanna see yr scars heal” “you’ve been hurting for so long” I’m sorry but I just broke down into tears bc I knew deep down that’s what I wanted to hear. Thank you❤️ it’s been so rough lately where I just feel like ending it all or just tired of suffering in silence. But hearing this, I feel heard. Tysm :,)

  • @hahamars3696
    @hahamars3696 4 роки тому +9

    7 hours clean. Hope i can keep it up! You are all loved out there and please dont give up. Recovery starts somewhere, it doesn’t matter where but just know it’ll happen. I know im just a stranger from the internet but know that i love and care for you ❤️💖

    • @eli_._9271
      @eli_._9271 2 роки тому

      Ik im kinda late but im proud of u

  • @cinna_mini851
    @cinna_mini851 5 років тому +12

    I didn't realize how much I needed this.. going on three weeks and struggling... Binge listening to all the comfort audios and in tears but feeling better. Thank you..

  • @axehandle6836
    @axehandle6836 3 роки тому +4

    I've never cut but other forms of self harm as in bashing my head into walls and bars and scratching myself til I bleed is something I'm familiar with and I just want to let everyone know, no matter what type of self harm you do. you are important and loved. I love you, and so does everyone here. ❤❤❤

  • @lukasleepsalot
    @lukasleepsalot 3 роки тому +4

    I’m a 15 years old boy, almost 16, and I’ve been doing self h@rm since I was 12-13 years old. I feel like nobody should go through self h@rm this young. Please be safe, I love you and I’m proud of every human being.

    • @0nevena1
      @0nevena1 3 роки тому +1

      We are proud of u too! Don't forget to take breaks and breathe, hydrate and at least 2 meals a day! I hope u have a better day tomorrow ^^
      - from a fellow teenager that started young with sh and regrets it to this day (I'm almost 19 btw)

    • @lukasleepsalot
      @lukasleepsalot 3 роки тому +1

      @@0nevena1 Thank you, thank you so much

  • @biggiecheeze5158
    @biggiecheeze5158 5 років тому +44

    Cardlin got *shooketh*

    • @amiekko
      @amiekko 4 роки тому +1

      he rlly said: 👁️👄👁️💧

  • @qqqaramelricesheets2714
    @qqqaramelricesheets2714 4 роки тому +10

    i literally never cry but this had me sobbing like a baby. The last person I opened up to was my ex. He immediately called me disgusting so the gentleness in his voice literally has me weak

  • @yerawizardjimmeh809
    @yerawizardjimmeh809 Рік тому +3

    1 year clean from self harm as of June 21. I’m so proud of everyone’s victories on here. Whether you’re one year or one hour clean, a victory is a victory :) ❤

  • @rokthehoe6781
    @rokthehoe6781 4 роки тому +8

    Six months-ish~ clean from self harm, and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t have the urge to. But this made it a lot better, and I’m glad that I didn’t have the urge to today because of you. Thank you so much

  • @Kirbzzz67
    @Kirbzzz67 5 років тому +39

    Sees the send something address
    Me: I WAS JUST IN CALIFORNIA

  • @wisp5204
    @wisp5204 2 роки тому +2

    The fact that he's so careful not to overstep any boundaries, how he's really trying to understand the listener's struggles, the pure reassurance and affection
    I'm sobbing bro

  • @bbmansa
    @bbmansa 3 роки тому +2

    its crazy how i have to come to this channel to feel loved by someone. It really hurts because these audios are the only thing that comfort me and keep me from offing myself from time to time. If you have someone like this in your life, keep them by your side.

  • @so.over.kizzie
    @so.over.kizzie 5 років тому +6

    Almost 2 months clean, I’m trying my hardest and these are the type of things that actually get me through because I don’t have anyone else. Thank you 🙏🏻

  • @Devilzqupid
    @Devilzqupid 4 роки тому +5

    When he said he wasn’t angry it made me feel so much better like before he said that I was panicking and kept thinking he was disappointed. Fuck I didn’t think this would affect me this much

  • @serpentsun3485
    @serpentsun3485 4 роки тому +4

    I'm two years clean of self harm as of today, and I'm very grateful to everyone who was able to help me through it and continues to keep me away from it. Thank you everyone in this community who is so sweet and supportive, each and every one of you makes a huge difference in the lives of so many people!

    • @peachidoll8016
      @peachidoll8016 4 роки тому

      Congratulations! Stay strong, I believe in you!! 💗💗💗

    • @serpentsun3485
      @serpentsun3485 4 роки тому +1

      @@peachidoll8016 thank you!

  • @theelementalssystem2063
    @theelementalssystem2063 3 роки тому +2

    “I’m pretty sure I wasn’t meant to see this” made me cry, partly because of past trauma towards me and also me saying that once

  • @LeonardoSilva-ez7yq
    @LeonardoSilva-ez7yq 5 років тому +21

    Omg, I felt in all the time involved in the whole story 😭❤

  • @sadbean320
    @sadbean320 5 років тому +72

    I needed this right now, thank you!❤️

  • @CloveRheisyl
    @CloveRheisyl 5 років тому +17

    What a timing, i need it. Last night i have the urged to cut after almost 3 years clean. Thank you your audio is really helpful and heartwarming.

  • @ToASMRorToNotASMR
    @ToASMRorToNotASMR 4 роки тому +12

    I am 4 months clean and it's also been 4 months since I went to the hospital because I attempted to end my life... when I came out of the hospital I was getting better but now every time I wake up I have terrible anxiety I watch videos like these because it helps me calm down and because I feel lonely.
    Updated: my Anxiety is going away a little at a time :)

    • @peachidoll8016
      @peachidoll8016 4 роки тому +1

      Congratulations on 4 months! You're doing great! Stay strong 💗💗💗

    • @ToASMRorToNotASMR
      @ToASMRorToNotASMR 4 роки тому +1

      @@peachidoll8016 Thank you! ❤❤❤

  • @one_spaced_out_girl
    @one_spaced_out_girl Рік тому +2

    I really needed this audio it had been almost 3 months since the last time and I relapsed again. It's been so hard recently with everything going on in my life but cardlin just makes things so much better with audios like this

  • @matotry
    @matotry 4 роки тому +6

    I for the first time showed my scars to someone and his reaction was... heart breaking. He asked why? And when I couldn’t answer, he said he’d never see me the same why again. I asked for him to elaborate and he answered that “you seemed so happy and fun on the outside, you made a mask to hide your hurt. I see your hurt now. I see an actor. It’ll never be the same.”

  • @Mylo8328
    @Mylo8328 5 років тому +3

    I’ve been clean for almost four years now, for anyone struggling, please know that things can and will get better if you are willing to help yourself 💛💛💛 you’re stronger than you know !!

  • @mynameisasecret5320
    @mynameisasecret5320 4 роки тому +11

    Not even 30 seconds in and my heart just dropped. Nobodies ever seen me do it but I still felt so guilty-

  • @softcorelemon
    @softcorelemon 5 років тому +8

    im going through the recovery process with self harm and as someone whos been doing this for 5 years its been really hard to stop. Everything is weird and scary and unfamiliar right now but this audio really came at the right time and is definately a lovely way to cheer me up❤ thank u for doing what u do

    • @bethanyfield6035
      @bethanyfield6035 5 років тому +2

      Well done for starting your recovery journey! It is hard but is so worth it

    • @eviethereader
      @eviethereader 4 роки тому

      You are loved, you are beautiful, and you are stronger than you will ever realize. Please keep fighting for your recovery!

  • @shikhadahal9288
    @shikhadahal9288 Рік тому +2

    I was so proud of myself for being clean for 5 months but I relapsed. Thank you cardlin for being there when I felt so numb. I was contemplating ending things and my mum called my best friend when she realized what was happening and she sent me your audio cuz she knows how essential you were for my recovery last time. she just sent me your audio. thank you for getting me to stop feeling numb every time I listen to you. your happy and funny videos make me smile and feel things that I thought I stopped feeling. Thank you for being a support for me and many people who you may have saved.

  • @sanecatlady
    @sanecatlady 3 роки тому +1

    Really hit the nail on the head. I self harm because I feel like I deserve to be hurt because I hurt other people emotionally. I need the physical pain to distract me from the emotional one. It's really nice to listen to an audio that understands exactly how you feel.

  • @dracaves400
    @dracaves400 3 роки тому +7

    The “holy crap” really brought back some memories

    • @iskak.
      @iskak. 3 роки тому +1

      Same ouf

  • @-.-7675
    @-.-7675 5 років тому +140

    yess another self harm vid, I already watched the other ones a few times so yeahhh

    • @potterhead9.3.45
      @potterhead9.3.45 5 років тому +1

      Same here

    • @emapro4203
      @emapro4203 5 років тому +1

      same

    • @mcrfanboy4991
      @mcrfanboy4991 5 років тому +1

      ...I can't tell if this is a boast, and just like to all the people who brag about the fact that their life sucks
      weird flex but okay

    • @vexfnc
      @vexfnc 5 років тому

      No one cares

    • @-.-7675
      @-.-7675 5 років тому +3

      JordyjilianJus oh sweetie I don’t know what’s going on in your life but it sure doesn’t have a positive effect on you and your way with other people
      I really hope you get better and won’t feel the need anymore to bring other people down (or at least try) by being rude

  • @eddiemudson3724
    @eddiemudson3724 3 роки тому +4

    I just got finished doing u know and then looked up comfort and this is the first thing that popped up and I just started crying

  • @aslanjadecallenreese3486
    @aslanjadecallenreese3486 3 роки тому +2

    been clean for a few years, y'all.. it's really the best feeling, keep working towards recovery, you won't regret it

  • @Mars-e1v
    @Mars-e1v 4 роки тому +9

    Thank you for saving my life.
    Everytime I get the urge to self harm I watch one of your videos and for some reason they just help, thank you for making these types of videos xx❤️

    • @chloezaudiozz4382
      @chloezaudiozz4382 4 роки тому +1

      oh my, i hope you’re okay bby! stay strong love, sending good things ur way

  • @marjoleinvandermeulen9335
    @marjoleinvandermeulen9335 5 років тому +20

    holy moly, that was a solid hit in the first few seconds

  • @oliviaw6415
    @oliviaw6415 5 років тому +6

    Thank you for setting a good example for how people should treat this serious situation. Its honestly better to be gentle than to push for details. Love you ❤️❤️

  • @AnimeGirl4891
    @AnimeGirl4891 5 років тому +60

    Thank you for uploading this very emotional video on my birthday, Cardlin.

    • @Lisuzi
      @Lisuzi 5 років тому +1

      Happy Birthday 😇🎉

    • @crimsonrain800
      @crimsonrain800 5 років тому +1

      Happy Birthday! 🎉

    • @AnimeGirl4891
      @AnimeGirl4891 5 років тому +1

      @@crimsonrain800 Thank you

    • @AnimeGirl4891
      @AnimeGirl4891 5 років тому +1

      @@Lisuzi Thank you, Lisa

    • @oliviasenior2559
      @oliviasenior2559 5 років тому +1

      Happy Birthday!! Hope you have a lovely day!!!🎂🎂

  • @des3386
    @des3386 4 роки тому +9

    Cardlin: *starts crying*
    Me: no! Wait! Don’t cry I don’t know what to do-!

  • @Beautiful_and_tired
    @Beautiful_and_tired 8 місяців тому +1

    officially 12 weeks clean today❤ im so proud of myself. and to anyone currently struggling, i promise it'll gets better, lots of love

  • @imgonnagototheballoonhey8606
    @imgonnagototheballoonhey8606 5 років тому +22

    Ah my soul? hurts. My heart strings? Ripped out. My eyes? Watering.

    • @xokladix
      @xokladix 3 роки тому +3

      Hotel? Trivago