SORRY about me moving around in my chair- if its annoying/ distracting. I had some anxiety filming this video so I had to keep moving :( hope it doesn't bother anyone too bad
No need to apologize, we totally understand. You are an incredible person, and by far my favorite UA-camr. Keep doing what you love and we will all be here to support you no matter what
you making this video had to have been SO hard. I would have been doing waaaay more than just moving a little in my chair! thank you SO SO SOOOO much for sharing your story with us. Just confirms yet again that you're a Real person!!!!
KathleenLights don't be sorry girl!! Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us because from someone that had dealt with and continues continues to deal with anxiety and depression I know this was big of you to do and it is appreciated I can promise you that. I know this had to have been hard for you especially not knowing the kind of feedback you would get because there is so much negativity out there. You are such a sweet kind and caring person and I love you for that! You truly make me feel like I know you and we're friends by how honest and real you are on your channel it's insane so thank you so much. You gave great advice and I'm so sorry for the things you had to go through but they make you into the person you are today which in my opinion is an amazing one :) I'm happy that Danny was there for you and could shed light onto a tough time because that is so great. Girl you had me crying haha just because I can relate. Loving your Kat Chats and remember that we are all here for you xoxo
Anxiety can trigger serious depression. If you know someone or you are someone who is suffering from depression. Reach out. Get help. Therapy really helps! Depression is a sad and scary thing. Don't let it take over. Xoxo THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS, GUYS
I actually have depression, before I got anxiety. And reaching out, professionally and through friends and family, DOES help a lot. I would call emergency hotlines if I ever felt extremely depressed and alone. I would get bad thoughts during nighttime often, and it didn't do me any good. I finally reached out for help and sought medical attention. I'm going to start going to therapy appointments and continue my medication. Thank you again for your story!!
***** if you ever need someone to talk to please call the helpline 1-800-273-8255. They are available 24 hours and are very well trained. You can talk to them about anything and they will listen and help you.
I suffer from PTSD because my sister died when I was 9. She was 2. My parents basically died on the inside and they have never been the same. My dad became addicted to drugs and alcohol and my mother has extreme anxiety. My dad has been sober for 2 years but everything is different. I was bullied through middle school because of my anxiety and naturally that made it worse. I left for a semester and went to a high school in a different district. High school was good. But something was wrong with me. I would fight going to school everyday. I literally felt like I was going to die, it was completely irrational but I couldn't get rid of it. It wouldn't stop. By 11th grade my parents and I decided that independent study was the best thing for me. And honestly it was the best thing for me. I don't know what changed but I was able to get a job and now I'm volunteering on a regular basis. Something changed and I just try to remember what things used to be like so that I treasure the way I feel now. Thank you for this video
Thank you for sharing your story. It's so meaningful when successful people like you share such things that you go through, because it gives hope to us normal people that al though you might have anxiety or any other issues in life, it's not really the end of the world, you can always manage it wisely and still do good in life. I mean, in spite of all the trauma you had to go through, you managed to get help with it and now you're a successful UA-camr Who's inspiring many many women across the world in many ways! How awesome is that! Thank you so much.
Kim Ko I understand what you're going through. I am up still at 2 am. I have terrible thoughts at night that just keep me up, worried abd my mind races. It's unbearable.
You are the sky and anxiety/depression are just passing clouds. You are the sky, you will always be there. Anxiety will come and go, like clouds, but you will always be there. You've made it through before, and you will again!
Lauren I just want to Say you know anxiety is a mental illness it dosn't go away sometimes it goes for maybe day's but It will come back I understand you wanted to Say how strong she is and yes she is strong but I just hate people who say it just like a cloud or something
Sweet girl. I'm almost old enough to be your grandma and have grown fond of your happy go lucky manner. I will keep you in my prayers now that I know your heartache.
As I sit here, on season eight of charmed. When you said that, I started instantly crying. That is literally me. In my home, watching charmed, feeling afraid of stepping foot outside. I have no friends and no family to reach out to. The only thing that keeps me glued is actually youtube and the girls I follow. I follow such kind, inspiring, beautiful people that brighten my days. As sad as it sounds, its the only thing I have. You are one of those people Kathleen. Thank you for being strong enough to make this video and for reaching to me more than you know. I have been through everything you have been through and more, darker things. Im trying to over come them and I have no means to seek professional help right now, but I hope for better days. Im trying to build myself up to having faith in myself and not being so afraid of the world. It honestly feels like my anxiety and depression will keep down forever, but Im really trying to break free, to resurface. It's been two years of this struggle. Some days I see the light and others days I fall back into hell. Where I cry, I scream, and I fear I'll be trapped in my mind forever. Thank you for helping me see the light today. I am so happy you have Danny that helped take you away from all the negative. And honestly. this video touched me. You are so amazing! You truly are like my friend, even if you have no idea who I am.
Sasha, even though I'm a stranger, I truly hope better days come for you, that dealing with all those things gets easier and easier everyday and I'll pray that you find good people that will understand and help you! 😊👍
I got teary when you did. People that don't experience anxiety cannot comprehend it, but those of us who've had it do understand. The struggle is real, and you are so brave to share your story with us. Love you so much for doing this! You rock.
i hate having anxiety. I'm always over thinking always scaring myself. its so bad i can't drive. i feel like i can't breathe and i just wanna get on my knees and cry and scream. my heart beats so freaking fast i can't breathe. for no reason i have an anxiety attack. and nobody understands..
i have the too sometimes for no apparent reason, although there is surely a hidden one, othertimes it seems minor to other people but is so scary for me. you are not alone. sending encouragement and warm wishes and strength.
Kathleen, this video was so raw and you were so vulnerable I just KNOW you helped so many people who are struggling with the same thing. It must have been so hard for you to share such a personal struggle and story, but you did it so perfectly. Thank you for opening up and sharing, it is nice to hear a little more about you and also how you deal with anxiety.
i have so much respect for you being able to say all this out loud- especially to the internet. you are incredibly brave and such a beautiful person! love you
I suffer GAD (Generalized anxiety disorder) and depression. It is constantly a combination of fear, lack of motivation and sadness. All for NO REASON. Even though I am on medication and see a therapist I still have bad days, days that I don't want to get out of bed or make me wish I didn't exist (no, I am not interested in dying, more like ceasing. Like I was never there.) But remember, for every single bad day you have there are endless possibilities for a good one. We are also badass for dealing with this shit everyday! We are warriors who WILL over come. I hope that this encourages you guys
I tell myself that I will be able to enjoy drawing again, and eating and feeling longlasting happiness soon. Soon. That is not forever lasting, the numbness I experience. It's momentary
In my opinion, the older the kids are, the more they suffer just because like you said, we go on most of our lives with our parents being together and you grow up believing that your life is perfect and nothing could possibly go wrong and then it all just changes and it's so hard to let go and adjust. Not saying it's not hard for the little ones but I think it's much harder to have something for most of your life and have it taken away from you...
I think that each child suffers through a divorce in their own way (regardless of age). I was quite young when my parents got divorced and so I had no out from all the negativity, and had to deal with a lot of issues that felt so much bigger than me at a young age for several years. I personally believe that the younger the child is, the more alone they can feel in their struggle since they may be dealing with problems that kids their age do not understand. I don't mean to take away from anybody's experience or pain. I just think it's difficult to say that one age group suffers more than the other. But this is just my opinion!
I would like to kindly like to disagree with you Joanna, I was very young when my parents got divorced, and all they fought about was money, and after awhile of them fighting, I started to think that maybe if I hadn't asked for that pair of shoes last week, maybe they wouldn't be fighting. I didn't understand how they could love each other for one second and not the next, and when I was with my dad he would talk about how my mom was horrible, but wouldn't explain why, and my mom would do the same. When something traumatic happens when you are young, it feels like you are going to live your entire life with that sadness, and when something good happened, I would just remember how my life actually is.
this video has really helped me, i'm going through that month long of staying in my room waking up with and going to sleep with anxiety. it's been almost a month since this started and im in a really bad state. I used to feel so great and I would never overthink anything but everything has gone to shit. Thank you so much for this video it really helps knowing i'm not alone.
+KawaiiPotato You'll get through it! I know it may seem as it will never go away, but it will get easier and easier as time goes on. You are strong enough to conquer it! You're not alone!
Thank you everyone, i feel way better today than I did when I posted that comment. It truly did start to fade and get easier. I've never felt like that in my life it was hell.
Same I feel the same way about the anxiety thing I'm going through it too:( but everyone can get threw it if they think In a positive way and you can always change the way things are going..just remember the good:)
I'm watching this again a year later, and I certainly needed it. I've always had anxiety, but it never manifested itself this badly. Panic attacks are still pretty new to me, and the first time I had one, I didn't know what was going on. It wasn't triggered by anything. Sometimes I get them at work, and I don't know how to calm myself down. Thank you for opening up and talking about this.
You were triggered by something, you just don`t know what it was. I have it too, but after seeing a therapist I learned that it is always triggered by something, and you can learn what it is/was, and then learn to deal with it. Good luck:)
I had mines going to the store, I parked my car and bam out of no where I just felt scared, and I couldn't stay still, I just shat in the car, while my daughter went into the store, about 15 minutes later I was fine, than we headed off to the mall, and once I got inside the store I wanted to go to, I had another attack, but this time I felt dizzy, lightheaded, tunnel vision, I was scared, 3 months later I still get them, I don't know what triggered my attacks, now I avoid going to the store, I can't work as I had a few panic attack at work, and I don't leave my house to often.
Anxiety is my biggest fight since I was 16. That's when it developed. I get nausea, hyperventilating, crying, and that overall fight or flight feeling. It's horrendous as you know. I couldn't leave my house for over a month when I was diagnosed. Almost immediately after leaving my room I'd have a panic attack. Yeah good times. I can't go a far distance (like another state) from my home without having a panic attack. Like with you not being able to leave the house for fear of having an attack. ME TOO. I feel trapped. I take Paxil every day to balance out my chemical imbalance and I have pills for emergency attacks. I live with anxiety everyday and it sucks. I feel you and there are millions that understand you. 💜
There was usually no rhyme or reason for becoming so anxious in the beginning. And now, it's usually when I'm outside of my comfort zone or somewhere I can't easily get out of/away from (On a bus, at a place with large crowds of people, etc.)- It sounds horrible (and it is) but I live a normal life almost completely and I'm very positive/happy so it's all good ^_^
I developed anxiety because my dad cheated on my mum when I was 8 and then they divorced when i was 9. I developed an eating disorder too. This was all when I was 9. It went away for a while. Then, in 2013, my dad got engaged to the woman he had an affair with. Everything came back at 100 km an hour. I was 12. I went to his wedding in 2014 when I was 13. It was horrible. I hated it. Knowing that my parents could never get back together was tough. I couldn't eat. I was nervous all the time. I stopped seeing my dad for 2 and a 1/2 years. I missed a whole year of school. I saw a psychologist and went through this whole experience without medication. I'm now back to seeing my dad, eating a whole heap of Thai food, and I'm back at school in year 10 (in Australia). I'm 15 now. I have a job. I always keep this in my mind. 'When you're on a train and you go through a tunnel, you don't just jump off and throw away your ticket. You wait it out because you know that it'll end soon'. Xx
Izzy Leggett I'm so so sorry you have to go through that. I remember suspecting my dad having an affair and it was the worst feeling ever. turned out it was a false alarm but only suspecting made me feel SO anxious, I cant imagine it being true. HUGS
Izzy Leggett I know people who has panis attacks and they tried going dairy free and cutting out red meats and it helped. I find that everything I experience physically and mentally all goes back to diet.
My dad cheated on my mum too when I was 15, bad mood bad dreams all the time, luckily I don’t have anxiety, but I never want love somebody or get married. Hugs
I know this video is like super old now, but I just found it and couldn't help but comment. I just wanted to thank you for making this video. I can't imagine how much anxiety you must've had even thinking about making it. But i'm so glad that you did. I felt I could really relate to so many things in it. Like how you always had situational/social anxiety growing up but when the panic attacks started after a traumatic year it was like a whole other thing. That's how I was a few months ago with constant anxiety 24 hrs a day. For some reason it's just so comforting to know that you're not the only one. And it really does get better. Now i'm at this place where instead of focusing on wanting so bad to be anxiety free I realize I will always be an anxious person because that's who I am, but dealing with it each day and realizing having anxiety isn't the worst thing in the world and doesn't make me a flawed person. Or if it does, it doesn't matter because who isn't flawed? Also I liked your idea of having a positivity journal. I used to write in a journal but it was all negative things and it honestly just gave me more anxiety writing about everything that made me anxious or I wanted to change. Anyway, I don't know if you'll even see this because you get like a trillion comments, but in the event that you do. Just wanted to let you know any anxiety you had making this video was worth it, because obviously it touched and helped so many people. ....ok end of novel. xoxo
Your diet will also play a huge part on this. Check what you eat. Please see Dr Eric Berg videos for advice on diet related to mental health and best wishes.
You are an inspiration. Naturally, I'm an anxious person. My husband has said that I'm not happy unless I have something to worry about, , and it feels pretty much true for me. I've also been fighting cancer for nearly 3 1/2 years. This current chemo regimen has hit me so hard that I'm almost always afraid to leave the house -- I can definitely identify with you watching Charmed all day, except I focus on the ABC Family afternoon lineup AND, after avoiding driving for 9 months, this morning I am super pleased to have just moved the car from one parking spot to another. That little moment was huge for me.
Omg that's amazing. That's a step into the right direction. Moving that car is YOUR FUTURE. your happiness. Positive thoughts! You'll beat the shit out of cancer! Ok?
I watched this while on the verge of a panic attack, and it calmed me down almost immediately. This video helped me so much already as I feel one more step ahead to being anxiety free. Thank you so much.
I just had a panic attack and I though that maybe listening to someone else talk about their anxiety would make me calm down. I am so happy I came to youtube and found you. I didn't go through as much as you did but I still had to go through a lot (moving to another country, bullying etc.) I think those things caused my anxiety, it's a lot better now but I still get panic attacks once in a while. I understand how you feel and I agree with you on how people react,I hate when they look angry or wierd at you when you tell them how you feel or when they say that you are just making a big deal out of something when you tell them that you are not able to do a thing that is exremly easy and natural to them but causes you a lot of stress. But I feel a lot better now after watching this video. I wish you good luck.
Don't think that YOUR story or whatever isn't 'as bad' Hun. It's all relative, and it WAS bad, really bad, for YOU! No ones issues in life are any better or worse then yours because yours is all you know. YOUR stories ARE important. They DO matter. YOU MATTER, don't EVER think that you don't, K? Keep on, keeping on x
Tansey Kellard Thank you :) It's just that everytime I tell someone that something bad happened to me they usually say that a lot of way way worse things happened to other people and that I should just let it go.
I actually teared up because of your divorce story. It was like I listened to my own story. I never found someone who truly understood me, because my parents divorced when I was already an "adult" (18 years old, just like you). And people were always like: "aaah so sad, but you know what, you're 18 so it doesn't matter. You are going to live on your own anyways." And that angers me so much, because it does have an enormous effect on your life, no matter how old you are. Maybe it even has a bigger effect when you're in that "almost adult" stage, because you just grew up with both parents and now suddenly you're entire life is upside down. I don't have anxiety, like you have (I do have performance anxiety though and that worsened a lot after the divorce), but I just want to say thank you for sharing this story, cause it made me feel like i'm not alone and like you would understand me.
The fact that you did this video at all is a lot of help. Sometimes it feels like you're alone. But the fact that you shred your story and you shred your advice is so kind. Thank you! "This too shall pass."
This video made me feel okay like nothing is wrong with me I just have anxiety. Anxiety does not define me. I've been working everyday to get through my anxiety. When I get social anxiety I push myself to be a little more outgoing..go and do things with a group..things I would not normally do..and most of the time I feel good after. Anxiety is temporary..thanks Kathleen!
my sister once told me: "we often worry about our physical being (because it is what everyone sees), but hardly anyone takes care of their mental health...Mental health should be as important as physical health" I saw my mom go through anxiety and it was so awful. Much love Kat
You are SO brave to post thins and I admire you for doing so. I could relate to a lot of it. My parents divorced when I was 28 and I got the full force of the nastiness and it broke me down. My mother and brother gave me hell for spending any time with my father and I would hear all the bad things he had done from her. Then a year later I got a knock at the door and the police were there to tell me that my 11yr old son had passed away. My life went to hell and I stayed there for quite some time. So even though my son had passed away my mother still filled my head with stuff my father had done and it screwed me up and I ended up in a Psychiatric hospital having shock treatment. I was a mess for the longest time...I too got anxiety and my depression was very deep. I have come a LONG way since then so I too am proof that you can go to hell and come back from it with A LOT of work on yourself. I wish you well in life, you are a strong and brave woman.
I'm so sorry for your loss... My parents divorced when I was 4, I am now 36 so I was really confused when I was young and I blamed myself, I think a lot of kids do. I blamed myself because I was born with a deformed hip (amongst MANY other things) and it caused A LOT of stress on my parents relationship. My father was very 'old school' (as in a woman's place is barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen) and so my mother (who also had 3 other kids, one of whom was stillborn because my father had been drink driving and had a car accident in which my mother went into early labour and as a result I do not have a second older brother) had to do EVERYTHING. He wouldn't even teach her to drive so she had to take the bus everywhere with 3 kids in tow, one of whom was me who had full length plaster casts on both my legs at the same time for several years to try to correct the deformity, as well as being in and out of the hospital for a million and one (it felt like) surgeries to try to 'fix me.' So she basically had to carry me around 24/7 for years and years. So I thought it was my fault for causing so much stress and because he wouldn't help her with me and basically that having me ruining her life basically when her other stillborn (probably) would have been perfectly healthy had he been born closer to his due date. Kids over react a lot and dramatise stuff so I don't know if that's the actual reason they divorced or not. It's best not brought up because any SINGLE time you even mention their name to the other, all the he did this she did that crap starts. My siblings and my weddings were NOT fun occasions at all, neither were any births of any of the children we had. Funerals, yeah, you'd think that would be the ONE TIME where some respect would be paid and everyone on their best behaviours, but no, as if the death of a loved one isn't bad enough...it was made SO MUCH WORSE. It happened soooo long ago that I don't understand why or how it's still so bad, but it is...us kids, now grown ups deal with it with much more maturity then they EVER have. Parents don't seem to realise how much THEIR divorce, hurts and rips their children's life apart. It's not just happening to THEM. It happens to the whole family...FOREVER. I suffer from Anxiety and Depression. My self esteem has NEVER been good....having the word 'DEFORMED' as a way to describe you, or define you, or said about you, really doesn't bring on any kind of good feelings about yourself as a person. So you helped someone - ME! I'm seeing a new and apparently AMAZING doctor (recommended from MY amazing doctor) who apparently deals SPECIFICALLY with Anxiety Disorders and he's (I'm told) very kind, non-judgmental, he's VERY protective of his patients, he bulk bills (I live in Australia and that means 100% FREE!!!) he could be charging any ridiculous amount he wants as a specialist, but he actually WANTS to HELP PEOPLE!!! Very RARE in this day and age! So I'm excited, but of corse also EXTREMELY ANXIOUS!! Will he understand where I'm coming from? Will he think I'm crazy? Will he think I'm making it up? Will he take me seriously? Will he HELP me? Am I help able? I mean treatable! Or am I going to be put in the too hard basket? Will I be able to even get out of bed and leave me house without completely Psych-ing myself out? Can I really do this? Can I really dare to hope that there IS light at the end of the tunnel, instead of just a big black hole that I will never crawl out of? It's so darn SCARY putting yourself out there for someone to judge. I KNOW I NEED help, but it's HARD to reach out and grasp it, because you HAVE to put yourself out there, if you have ANY desire to 'be normal...' I'd be happy right now to just be 'ok.'
tarasvoice what the hell are you on about and who is famous? You are obviously a child so I won't waste my time on going back and fourth with you because you can't argue with stupid lol....
The best part about your video is that you explained the background of your life and how anxiety occurred.We all are together in this and trust me your explaining things can have medicinal effect for many people struggling with anxiety. More power to you girl!
Watching this video two years later but all the advice you give is just so accurate! All these things helped me through bad times with my anxiety and depression. And seeing this video after my bad times makes me feel so refreshed - I feel that this is such a helpful video, thank you for sharing your story Kathleen x
I'm sorry to hear about your "past". I'm happy to hear about your "present". I pray you have a blessed "future". Unfortunately I do understand 100%. I've been there to. Life is too short to waste on bad energy & negativity. We have a life & we shall live it! xo
Love the vulnerability. Acceptance is definitely the 1st step in moving forward. Anxiety sufferers are hard on themselves and have really high standards. Learn to trade expectations for appreciation. Appreciation flows from the heart. Anxiety naturally creates negative pictures of our experiences when hurt is involved. Turn any negative thought or belief into a positiver one do this overtime anxiety tries to paint a different picture and the dread will disappear. Good luck and keep up the good work. Lastly anxiety sufferers focus on the future and hate uncertainty. Learn to embrace your parents separation and don't blame yourself. Be grateful you still have 2 parents and be the kid and let them deal with the parent stuff.
ugh I feel this. I grew up with a bad tempered dad, who whenever I was a being a brat cause that's how 6 year old girls are, he would get so overwhelmed and tell me all this bs like that nobody liked me, or he was embarrassed about me, and that he wishes he never married my mom and had me, and wish I would leave. he still does this to me 10-11 years later. His constant bullshit had caused me to get psychotic depression, GAD, and panic disorder and it fucking sucks?? And he always tells me that "you know I have a bad temper, it's not my fault you make me crazy" and makes the situation so much worse. He likes to deny the fact that he's caused me to become someone who I would've never thought I'd become. This is a mess but I can't be the only one going through this type of shit :/
No, you're not alone. You can get through it, like Kathleen said; "delete the negative people" because people who are positive will soon rub off on you. When you have time, stop to pet a dog, or tell your friend a dumb joke. It takes baby steps, and the little things do matter. You will get through it.
Your dad seems to have a lot of problems himself. My mother had parents like this and it messed her up badly for a long time. But eventually she could look past it and not define her worth on whatever bad things she had to hear from her parents. Remember that your past is past and that the only thing you can do is learn from it and then let go. I hope that you can go through this and let your deressions behind. I hope you find amazing uplifting people. and maybe you should not be with your Dad any more if he does not see his fault and keeps on doing this.quit the toxic in your life.
Heather Rose Damn girl. Your dad sounds like he has NPD and is scapegoating and gaslighting you :/ I'm so sorry. When you can move out, don't stay in contact with him. People with NPD don't change. I moved out and stayed in contact with both my parents who have it. Things aren't as bad, but it's still painful and makes for unnecessary difficulties in life..not worth it.
noo, he's not narcisstic whatsoever. He has bipolar disorder, and so he has a very short temper and just everything I do sometimes gets him going. I just talked to my sister and she brought up how my dad treated her the exact same way he does me ever since she was growing up with him. Like, i dont know what it is, just him being around people pisses him off. And honestly, once i do move out I'd HAVE to stay in contact with my dad. My mom was neglected as a child and has been in 3 long physically/emotionally abusive relationships, so I'm guessing she doesn't get how to properly treat her kids. And im basically her last priority a majority of the time and I rarely talk to her, soo,,
I thank God for your courage in putting everything aside to help someone else's with a similar situation. I got watery eyed watching this . You are so strong and have come such a long way. If you ever have anxiety on the same situation just remember how far you have come and how much you have accomplished. You are awesome !
I suffer from anxiety as well ... I actually had an anxiety attack today. It started from traumatic experiences as well. You're very brave to post this, Kathleen! It's something very serious and this video helps me know I'm not the only one suffering and I know it can help so many people! I love you so much! ❤️
anybody have this type of anxiety that I have? When I get really nervous, my stomach gets queasy, I get dizzy, my throat tightens, and I vomit? Even though my anxiety is mental, it's very physical. I feel like everybody else who has anxiety attacks cry and breathe heavy.
Anxiety can manifest in many different ways. Please consider seeing a counselor or therapist as there are many ways you can begin to manage symptoms (especially without medications. CBT can be so helpful). Good luck and don't give up!
You've been my favorite youtuber for a while now and I've always thought that we had a lot in common and I love your personality, but this video really solidified that feeling. Thank you for making this video and being brave enough to post it. I don't read youtube comments, but I really hope that no one was mean to you for this video. I cried every time you did. I've struggled with anxiety for as long as I remember. My twin sister doesn't get it and sometimes gives me a really hard time about it, so I understand that feeling of no one getting it. But my mom is also my best friend and she has anxiety too. I really think there needs to be more mental health awareness and we need to get rid of the stigmas. I don't know where I wanted to go with this comment except to just say thank you!
respect your comment very much...and I agree with you, not much is said about mental awareness & it is something that many ppl suffer from but not spoken of often...
You're honestly goals. Strong. Independent. Determined. Thank you so much for being you @kathleenlights. Thank you for constantly reminding everyone of their beauty and strength
I admire you so much for having the courage to upload this video. I am sure many including myself can now truly see the beautiful strong women you are! You're amazing!
I'm so glad you shared your story because I am 12 years old and I have social anxiety and occasionally depression!! This video really helped me because I have anxiety and dark thoughts but, people who I thought were my friends and were supposed to support me and help me get through hard times, thought and continue to think I am over reacting and being too dramatic and trying to get attention for having anxiety. They don't understand me though, they don't even listen to how I am feeling but, I am so glad you and thousands or even millions of people understand what I'm feeling and will support me and not think bad about me and my anxiety. Love you Kathleen
I have severe anxiety and panic disorder and occasional depression. whenever I try to tell people they tell me I'm just attention seeking, I hate this as if I do have a panic attack then my friends and even my parents and family think I'm just overreacting.
***** I still have frequent panic attacks and haven't told my parents, only a couple of friends who also suffer. I have also started self harming but stopped and am now more confident. thanks for the support!:-)
kathleen, i watched this video months ago when i was in a deep depression. i also had some resultant anxiety. this video turned my life around and continues to inspire me day to day. i love your channel and youre such an inspiration. i love you so much and youve changed my life for the best
Your story was very touching and I hope you continue to be strong minded and healthy in life .I too suffered general anxiety that would trigger panic attacks and paranoia issues whenever I was socialising ,with family & friends to strangers..I now and then will feel anxious and nervously babble when I talk and fidget but I've improved alot :) fortunately without medication ,I got a tattoo that reads 'just breathe ' which helped and yess having people that make you feel good in your life helps so much I consider my partner to be my safe anchor.
WOW. I can so relate to this. My whole life i have lived with my parents arguing but they had always stayed together and i was so proud of that. Right when i started college(when i was 18) my parents separated. Soon after that a close family member attempted suicide. He is still alive but it is just so mentally draining having to go through that during such an important turning point in life. Now my mom (my best friend) lives in Europe, my parents are divorced, and i am living on my own. It is so crazy how something can happen so fast and change so much. Sorry if this was too long but I just wanted to say that I could 100% relate to your feelings. :)
Julie Fonseca You are so strong for going through all of this. It may be hard, but please try and look at these things in the most positive way possible, you can´t do anything about what has happened, all you can do is accept and move on. Everything happens for a reason and I am sure that even though these experiences have probably hurt you, they have made you grow and learn so many things. Stay stong hun and I hope you get to see your mom soon and that your family member (that attempted suicide) is doing well.
Julie Fonseca Since the last i suffered from anxiety. I felt that the worst thing will happen if you ask me. when i tried more to resist anxiety, the worse it got. After watching an interesting movie on google, i got a interesting and beneficial info. They give me a method that is simple will work whenever I prefer. search on google as Amazing Anxiety Perfecta Solution if you want to follow a simple method to overcome.
THERAPY IS SOOOO AMAZING!! Even if you don’t think anything is wrong but if you feel sad or anxious or stressed it’s so great to talk to an unbiased opinion and someone who gets it. they just get it
This video was so powerful and I just want to thank you SO much for sharing your story with us. I've had my troubles with anxiety in the past and I've always been so thankful because my mom always understood since she grew up with it as well. Trying to explain what we're feeling to someone who has never experienced a panic attack is the hardest thing. I just have to say that I've been binging on your videos recently and every time I watch your personality is contagious and you literally turn my day around! XOXOXO
I also struggle with anxiety and honestly it has consumed my life so much that it's normal for me. It's mostly when I have to present in front of people. My voice and body shakes, I feel nauseous and my heart is literally hammering out my chest. It's just the fear that I'm constantly being judged by my peers. I can hang out and be outgoing in front of others but when it's all eyes on me and I'm the center of attention, I just can't do it. I don't know how I can take it any longer at school when I can't even answer a question in class with out trying to control a panic attack from coming on. I really hope this stops soon
Gabrielle Nicole i feel the same exact way. one time the teacher told us a week ahead of time that we would present in front of the class and all i thought about was that and i was nauseous every day and i lost my appetite for a week from that one presentation. i ended up losing five lbs and not being able to eat was one of the worst feelings ive had. all because of one presentation that was 1 min 30 sec .
+Gabrielle Nicole I have the same problem. I left school because of it.. and I really would love to go to university and study and show people what I can do but my fear of talking in front of people closed so many doors in my life. It's depressing and annoying.. totally get you.
+Gabrielle Nicole Hi, i have the same problem and hope that this stops soon too. I go to university and every day it s a battle . I 'm from Argentina and the video caught my attention . I'm surprised to see how this somehow helps us and makes us realize that we are not alone . Now what happens to me happens to you too . I hope , really, we can have a normal life since I woke up until we go to sleep.
I hear you, i had to leave college after 1 year, in 2012 because i couldnt focus in the class room and relax. I was so consumed with anxiety, then getting depressed because i couldnt enjoy myself. i was shaking solely worrying about being surrounded by these unknown people and what they were thinking of me. I plan on going back next year and curing at least most of my symptoms by then no matter what is takes.
I watched your video because I'm in desperate need of help with anxiety. No one knows I have it. I try and stay calm and collected but when I'm alone i will cry until I have to stop or when my husband gets home. I have fear of change and I have undergone in my opinion quite a bit of change in my life in the past 3 years. Anxiety is horrible and like you said it feels like you're never going to get out of it. I loved listening to your advice about eating healthy, working out, and journaling. I'm going to try all three. Thank you for sharing your story! You're truly amazing and an inspiration! God bless!
Step one, is letting people you trust know of this. Sometimes when the ship is going through a storm there needs to be a captain to let the crew know it won't sink.
Watching this video in 2018 because I too suffer with anxiety & depression, but hearing your story definitely allowed me to see a lot of things in a different light✨thank you for your advice & thank your for sharing your story with us! Love you Kathleen!💛
Thank you for making and sharing this video. As someone who has anxiety too I know this must have been very challenging for you to do. These kinds of videos mean the world, because like you said, it's on the inside and a lot of people don't understand, but all of us with anxiety really do understand each other. I feel the same way you do about certain things, I had doctors just try to recommend all these pills like that was going to fix everything, but I decided that I could be stronger than that and do it on my own. Anxiety is a work in progress and it never goes away completely, but to anyone who is reading this, it will not always be a crushing weight that weighs you down every day, and over time you can learn to manage it more. Also it is SO IMPORTANT to surround yourself with understanding people. Only having 3 friends that truly get it is better than having 100 friends that don't.
Thank you for being brave enough to share so that people like me know we are not alone. Seeing you be so incredible and following your dreams gives me hope. 😍💞✨✨✨
I have severe anxiety too. I'm so glad you made this video! You have to be brave to be able to be so open and talk about it. :) Shew, you had me crying too, my parents got divorced when I was 14 and it was amazingly hard on my sister and I. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for sharing your story. I also have social anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. I love your videos and your honesty in everything you talk about. Keep on being you because you are an amazing person.
I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of that! I hope you don't mind, but I'm praying for you. I haven't been in your situation, but I've dealt with clinical depression and (actual diagnosed) OCD for the better part of my life. I'm a Christian, and even so, there were times it was so bad that I prayed God would take me from this world. Thankfully He didn't, so obviously there are still things I am meant to do here! Every day is a struggle. I know my triggers, stress being one of them, and I've lived through some very bad times in my life that made everything 100 times worse. (I'm in my early 30s, married 11 years.) All this to say, I'm still standing, though shakily at times, and I'm glad to see you're still standing too! I hope and pray that you continue to grow and heal, and that you are able to have a rich, full life. I thoroughly enjoy your channel, and I thank you for talking about this. It's a hard subject to broach, being so personal. You're brave for sharing your experiences with us. I will keep your entire family in my thoughts and prayers.
Forgot to mention, OCD is also an anxiety disorder. But it's defined by it's obsessions and compulsions. It's terrifying and frustrating, and for me it's a 24/7 battle. I have very bad days and better days. The winter months are the worst as I also have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). So, I understand the fear! Oh, and I also love Charmed. :)
My generalized anxiety disorder led to my depression. Which that lead me to find myself and ways to deal with my issues. I found psychology, which is my passion. Even though my issues have made my life harder, they have made me stronger, and they are a part of me. It's brought me to be happy. How ironic :)
"This too shall pass..." Love it. Thanks for sharing. I have OCD as well and this book saved my life: Brain Lock: Free Yourself from Obsessive-Compulsive Behavior It was great. Thought I would share it with ya.
I know this video is old, but I am so glad I found it. This video is so relatable and helped me so much. Thank you Kathleen for putting yourself out there like this to help others.
My anxiety started ever since my parents split up when I was 10. I am 16 now and i am failing highschool and have no friends because whenever I try to make friends I have anxiety attacks. Yippie.
I don't know if you believe in God but I do and I don't know you but I will keep you in my prayers. I know that you are strong because you have been going through it for 6 years. Stay strong❤️
+ForgotStyle I totally understand you I went through the same thing and i am 24 years old now and I have found that the only thing that works for me is strong faith in god and working on maintaining my relationship with god. I hope u get through this soon :)
Iv been goin through it sense high school. Im 21 years old now I still have times when days are tough but you know what really helps. Talking with some 1 helps. You will b very surprised how many people go through the same stuff or feel the same way. Talking to people makes me feel so much better. If you need some 1 to talk to you can talk to me or any 1. Hear is my email johnetteleslie@gmail.com . Trust me talk to some one itll make a difference of how u feel
Can we heart this instead of just liking it? 😩 I love you so much Kathleen 💞 I myself struggle with really bad anxiety, especially in school. My social anxiety multiplies while in school and it feels so good to know someone understands what it feels like. 🤕
I am so glad that your dad is doing so great now. That must have been so scary. I also have social anxiety. I am very much a loner. I pretty much avoid people at all costs. I completely relate to you in this video more than you know. I will pray for you.
Thank you so so much! But I'm okay. Let's all pray for the men and women out there who haven't found hope or help! Thank you for this comment. It was very sweet.
Thank you for sharing your story. ❤ I've had anxiety majority of my life but it was minimal until last year.. my anxiety has sky rocketed and I cannot pin point what is causing it. Watching your videos weather it's a Kat chat or make-up related video, just knowing that I'm not the only one out there with anxiety is helpful. Your videos give me a sense of calm. Thank you so much!
Hey Kathleen, I hope you are doing well. I have anxiety as well, my mom past away when I was 1 year old so my father raised me up. He was the person that I loved the most, when I was 13 he got diagnosted with cancer and I tried to understand that but I got so drepressed. But when I was 16 my dad past away I my anxiety got so bad. Now I am 18 and trust me, everything gets better, always surround yourself with the people that you love and just keep on going! I am a really happy person (You, Kathleen, for example make me really happy!) and I am after all my dreams and I decided I will never give up. Thanks for the video, I love you so much! (Sorry if my grammar is bad!)
Had my first anxiety attack a few weeks ago. Ive never had anxiety ever before. My mom left my dad & I mid October for another man & moved out. Our rent is expensive & my dad is retired. Our lease ends soon, my dad & I need to find a place to live. 1.5 weeks ago I had my first anxiety attack, it was at church they called 911 because my my heart started racing, i got dizzy, my hands feet & face all went numb, i was breathing heavy, i was shaky, & my hands went stiff. I almost went to the hospital. Then the next day my cat died. I cremated her last week. And this week is finals I'll be getting my bachelor's degree. I never thought anxiety was so debilitating or even real before that. I thought it was just people who worry a lot and need to just stop but it's a very real thing.
Thank you so much for speaking up for those who feel they have no voice. I suffer from depression, anxiety, OCD. I too stopped all the daily meds and try to cope in a natural way. Im so sorry to hear about your parents and the accident and the experiences you had ro go through. Our stories are similar and it hits home for me. I really enjoy all your videos. Thank you for all you do!
I also deal with anxiety and it was by far the worst feeling ever. I have been watching your videos for a couple of month now and you are my favorite youtuber. I know it must be very hard to talk about person problems on UA-cam but I just wanted to say that I really appreciate it. Have a wonderful day xoxo 😚
I know this is an old video but i totally understand you. I've had a depression, anxiety and self harm due to a eating disorder that i'm still fighting with. Its been 5 years since i got the disorder... Its so important to talk about this, GO YOU KAT!
I was trying not to cry the entire video, but the end made me cry. This video really helped me. I've been feeling terrible for 7ish years now but I finally feel like I'm getting better, and you've really helped me recently. "This too shall pass... Your pain will not last you forever." Thank you for this video
You know, I enjoyed watching this video because I can relate. I never had any of that terrible stuff like divorces, accidents, etc. happen to me, but I still deal with anxiety and I'm beginning to think also depression. I fight with my family a lot, but I don't know if it's the reason for my anxiety or if it's the aftermath of my anxiety. Last year, I faced a difficult final two months of middle school after my friend took something I said to her and twisted it to make it sound terrible. My whole group went against me and I was so alone for the rest of the year. I hyperventilate all of the time and a lot of times, I don't even know why. I also found out that I have maladaptive daydreaming which is also a sign of anxiety and depression. Sometimes I'm not sure what to do so I try to take my mind off of things by watching tv or trying to make conversation with someone. But thank you for this video. I normally don't cry, but I nearly cried with this one because I can relate.
Same with me, I wrote here about 4 comments in chain, I also hyperventilate and its so annoying, i stayed 6 hours in bed awake yesterday, today I stay up till midday when get operated, it's 4:39am here in belgium, and i didn't sleep in 3 days cause i had to stay in the car from scotland to belgium ( takes 14 hours if no traffic jams) it's hell, plus its my first operation at 16 and they gonna put a neddle/tube in my wrist vein, I suppose it'll hurt won't it?
I wrote a bunch above that can help you. There are alot of different natural tools out there, and it is just about finding what works for you. There is also Emdr and emt, that many good counselors do, but you can learn it, and do it yourself.
honestly, people who say that the younger you are, the less your parents divorce affects you, are wrong. i was 5 years old when my parents got divorced and i didn't even care at the time. only now, when i'm 14, i'm starting to think about how my life would go if they'd still be together. i think the older you get (from 17) the more you start to think about your parents, and how they are together, and what would you do without them and stuff... stay strong! i love you!
I agree. I was 4 when my parents got divorced. And while, at the time, I didnt care that much.. I was also very confused and kinda hated every people my parents dated (which is normal) hahaha. But it didn't affect me emotionally. Now that I think of it, i am glad that they did. I would probably be miserable living with both of my parents. I don't get along with my dad very much.
I came to watch this video after you mentioning it in your recent moving back closer to home video. Thank you for sharing this I can relate to you so much xoxox
Does anyone else have "SAD", seasonal anxiety disorder? I don't get it in winter, but once it becomes spring and my work gets busier, I get extreme anxiety. Constantly light headed, over thinking and panicky for literally no reason! I've tried justifying it to "maybe it's the heat, maybe I'm just a little stressed, maybe I have something wrong with me." Ugh! My anxiety came out of nowhere!
I get that and Seasonal Depressive Disorder during the winter. I have GAD and depression already and those seasonal disorders make them much worse. It really sucks. :/
Hello, i had similar problem so I went to a doctor and he told me I had such problems because of previous sunstroke incident. So think about if you had sun stroke or overheating in recent years, or had head injury (doesnt have to be severe), maybe even high temperature as kid can trigger sensitive vegetative system. Go to a doctor, a good one, to be sure of the diagnosis =) Good luck!
I work in a kitchen as a cook. Last year, I believe I had either a minor heatstroke or just simply got overheated. I came home and COULD NOT cool off. I laid in front of a fan with our central air running and just couldn't cool down...but that didn't throw me into a panic, just frustration!
Im sorry, i answer this late. You didn't have minor stroke, otherwise, believe me, you wouldn't be able to do anything. When I had my sunstroke first that didn't throw me into panic, i was just a little scared. The thing is when your body is overheated it creates chemical reactions in the brain that are similar to those when you have a head injury for example. That can cause feel of anxiety and even panic which is a symptom of a vegetative nervous system breakdown or vegetative dystonia. Go see a doctor and tell him everything you've been feeling. Getting a diagnosis for your nervous system is actually quite hard so find a very good doctor =) Good luck to everyone !
When I lived in upstate NY I got SAD really really bad. I was diagnosed with clinical depression as a teenager, but once I moved to Phoenix AZ two years ago I have not had a problem with depression at all. I love love love the sun!
Thank you so much for sharing your story and what you do to conquer your anxiety. I've had mild anxiety for a long time, and would occasionally have panic attacks. But just this past week some things have been going on making my anxiety so so bad and having small panic attacks. It helps to have someone who understands that you can talk to. I really appreciate your heart and your strength to share your struggles and your joys. I really needed to hear this!
I have both anxiety and depression and it's so difficult especially right now. Like I need to get a job to 1. make money 2. give me a reason to actually get out of bed But my social anxiety is so bad that i even have trouble asking for applications and it's just having both is so contradictory and it makes everything so hard ugh And I'm also avoiding going to a doctor bc I don't want to be on meds it's just shitty
Meds will help so much! Trust me and I am in the same position. I have anxiety and depression and meds helped me so much. I am also struggling with anxiety and am looking for a job too. It is a hard time looking for a job while having anxiety and depression, but you will make it so much easier for yourself if you get meds. They help the body recoup from the effects of depression and anxiety on the body and your mental state.
Meds will only mask the problem - If you want a long term fix and actually feel better forever you gotta look up neurofeedback therapy! I can't help but to spread the news! We are medication free and after the 6th session my wife stopped having severe panic attacks and after the 12th session it was like a light switch turned on! If you're in colorado then visit coloradoclearmind.com or you are welcome to check out some info their anyways - but seriously OH MY GOSH I can't say enough great things about the Clear Mind program and what neurofeedback will do for you!!
I have the same problem! Im 27 now and ive had it since I wS 12. Been on all kinds of medicines and it helps a tiny bit. Paxil is horrific fyi. Anyways, every day is different but Its still a struggle 😞
i watch your videos every time you upload them, but i don't think i've ever commented on one. i've been suffering from social phobia and severe depression for the past 7 years (?) due to a lot of very personal situations. i always enjoy listening to other people's stories that have to do with anxiety/depression because i'm too nervous to open up to people about my own situation. i like having that comfort of knowing i'm not crazy. if that makes sense, haha. thank you for uploading this! i know it must have been difficult.
I have a stutter, so i was anxiety quite a lot, I can not go to KFC or McDonald because i was nerve of stuttering when ordering my meal i also felt that the people in the cue may laugh or get angry while waiting , so i stay away from them fast food places, I got bullied in High school, during that time my mum and dad got a divorce and my mum left the house, so i was going down a hole and i could not find a way out of. I became so depressed that on weekends i would not even go out or answer the door or go out with friends or even pick up the phone if anyone rang. During this time suicide thoughts started to get into my head because i just had enough, but i have a dream on becoming a singer, so that changed my whole look on life, I had a dream, a focus in my life that i did not have before, Even though People have throw me down, I am always going to fly.
"I don't know what I will do if I wake up with anxiety for the rest of my life" aaaaaaaand tears. That spoke to the heart of my fear of my mental illness. Being in the middle of it makes it feel like it will never end, but the truth is it won't last forever. ❤️ Thank you for sharing this.
That is honestly what I do every single time. My prayer is always God please take this away. I leave this situation in your hands you are in control. And it works. It really does.
I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, panic disorder and bulimia about 2 years ago. I didn't graduate high school on time because of it (school was one of my biggest triggers), and I was put on a medication immediately to basically keep me somewhat functional. 3 months ago my prescription was tripled. In the midst of all of this, I lost close friends and my boyfriend of two and a half years left me because I was "crazy". He was scared of his reputation of being with someone who is mentally ill. With many attempts and self harm, Im surprised to even still be here. I have been in and out of therapy and counselling, hospital visits, medication changes, etc. I found life unbearable. But then in July I started youtube and I finally got my letter announcing that I graduated high school (better late than never right?? hahah). I may have lost nearly all my friends and the person who I thought I was in love with but now I feel like I am in such a better place. I don't know if Ill ever be fully ok, but I feel better at least. I have the most amazing supporting family and Ive met people on here that are truly genuine and caring people. So thank you for having the courage to upload this Kathleen. People like you make me feel like there is hope and that I will be strong enough to make it through this. You are such a beautiful person and I completely idolize you for everything you do
You are beyond strong and beautiful, and deserve nothing but pure happiness. I hope your future is as bright as you are, and that you find people who are lucky enough to be friends with such an amazing person! Xoxox❤️
honestly thank you for all of your kind words, i cried (in a good way) at each of your comments. People like you guys make me feel like I made the right decision to stay here and fight. Thank you so so much !!
I Love this So much. I suffer from moderate anxiety but deep depression and it SUCKS. I cried so much during this video but it's nice to see that Others can Relate and I am Truly not Alone. I Love how Real you are and how Down to Earth and just Genuine. thank you for being so open about this
Your so right about deleting. Negative people. And finding happy people but TBH it's hard to find people like that. In my hs I can barely find people like that. I hate to be alone and nobody is. I've enough to actually be close to. And those who are are still kinda hard to communicate. It's tough. Good people who are easy to talk to are very hard to find. It's depressing Journal writing is a habit but I write all the bad moments. It's usually happy moments I keep inside but let out the bad stuff and ya reading it is tough also
I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression and I'm on quite strong medication to help it. A few months ago I used to smoke everyday, do drugs, drink all the time till I passed out. It was a really horrible time. I did this stuff because it settled my anxiety down and I felt free.. I started cutting and was sent to hospital a lot of times for attempting. The sad thing was I was only 13-14 during this time.. No child should have to live life like that. Then one day I just wanted to stop living that way. I went to the doctors I got help, got on the right medication and I'm so proud of myself for doing it (leaving the house was a very big struggle for me). I've been drug and alcohol free for 5 ish months now and my life is 100x better! If anyone else is struggling please get help! You won't regret it.
Congrats on your clean time. I've self medicated and that lead me to a lifestyle of addiction. I'm very glad you got help early and hope you focus on recovery. You're doing great so keep it up. You may have heard this before, but take it one day( minute, hour, etching) at a time. Xo
Kathleen, Vulnerability is a sign of strength. You just showed strength in this video by sharing your story, and you are a hero by giving people the sense of comfort knowing they are not alone and they can have someone to relate to. You have encouraged so many people and helped so many. You are a beautiful person, and I have much respect for you! :)
and BTW, a really brilliant lesson that can be learned from having anxiety, is that, 'this too shall pass'. that nothing - no thing - lasts forever.. one of the greatest tools for me years ago, was to learn how to separate my mind from my body DURING an attack, and be more of a witness of what was happening to me and not emotionally engage IN the anxiety, and i could understand that this would pass, and that id be ok. xo
Well some things do last forever like some diseases. For example my boyfriend found out he has diabetes lika a month ago and he will have to live with that hes whole life unless they find a cure which sadly is pretty unlikely. Also diabetes is a really hard life-threatening disease that changes your whole everyday life which many people don't know or understand. When my bf got to the hospital they told him that if he would have stayed home for another two days hw would have been dead. And all this happened about a month ago after we had been dating for 3 weeks so yeah... Sorry I just had to complain a little 😅 hope you understand
Anxiety is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I've always had anxiety issues. I developed ptsd after an incident with a babysitter and still don't like being hugged or touched. I grew up in a very mentally abusive household, my parents fought all the time growing up and my dad had a horrible temper. i have horrible social skills due to the mental abuse I went through. In the year before I turned 18 I lost my aunt, a girl who was like my sister died from meningitis and another friend was shot which is crazy in a small town.They finally started the divorce process when I was 18. I got married at 19 and after moving in with my husband my anxiety went away a lot but when he deployed a few months ago it started coming back. I have an arrow on my ankle (I got it before the arrow craze) to remind me to keep moving forward even when it gets hard. No one I grew up with knows what I went through and why I was the way I was so most of them ended up being cut out of my life. they would tell me to stop complaining or acting like my life was so hard but they had no clue want I was dealing with.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I've been going through a lot of anxiety myself these past 2 weeks and this makes me feel like I'm not alone.
In reference to what you were saying about watching the foods that you eat: too much caffeine triggers mini panic attacks for me. which is a problem because I love coffee. So I monitor my caffeine intake now, and if my anxiety is acting up I reach for decaf.
this was indeed helpful, and you are a very strong person for going though all of that. truly inspirational. i also have anxiety and its very hard to explain to people why i'm suddenly upset or anxious because sometimes i don't even know. thank you for sharing this story of yours Kathleen xx
Kathleen, I know you may not think parents show young kids the ugliness of divorce but they do. I was like 12-13 and I saw everything. My parents fought at our camp, drunk, and drove home separately, angry at each other, and left us there overnight alone. My mom once downed a bottle of ibuprofen in front of everyone in the middle of an argument. And then when they did a trial separation my mom bought a house down the street. It was all bad. I didn't take it very well either. It's caused a ton of problems in my life now.. Years later. What a horrible story about your dad... I would totally break down too. I'm glad he is okay. Almost losing a parent isn't fun. This year my mom was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and had her esophagus removed. Did radiation and chemo. And her life is changed forever.. She can never lay flat, eat normally, bend over.. Ever again. My anxiety was so bad through her entire treatment and I bawled the entire night before her surgery. In 5 years they can declare her cancer free. I tried something like Xanax once and it made me worse. I hated it and got crazy withdrawals for months trying to come off of it. I also have always had social anxiety and a bit of health anxiety. I've been to the hospital for anxiety related stuff as well. It's not a great experience. I have had panic attacks since high school and when I saw a psychologist recently, she said she thinks it's complex PTSD. With some agoraphobia (which is the fear of leaving the house.. For me I can leave if I am with someone who makes me feel safe but I still am a bit panicky) I was also prescribed a pill for panic attacks. Clonazepam / Ativan or something. But I'm too afraid to take it. Maybe one day I will and it will really help me too. Thanks for sharing your story, it's sometimes hard to see the human in such a beautiful, composed and charismatic UA-camr such as yourself. It really sucks when it feels like people don't understand and think you are crazy. Especially when you are disabled by it and need all the help you can get. Wish I could continue seeing my psychologist.. It's stupid that healthcare is only for people with money .. Not working =no benefits = expensive medical care =prolonged illness :/ ugh. And yes anxiety and stress can make you physically sick and in pain if you aren't careful! "This too shall pass " is one of my favourite sayings. So cool you like it too. Take care.
SORRY about me moving around in my chair- if its annoying/ distracting. I had some anxiety filming this video so I had to keep moving :( hope it doesn't bother anyone too bad
No need to apologize, we totally understand. You are an incredible person, and by far my favorite UA-camr. Keep doing what you love and we will all be here to support you no matter what
you making this video had to have been SO hard. I would have been doing waaaay more than just moving a little in my chair! thank you SO SO SOOOO much for sharing your story with us. Just confirms yet again that you're a Real person!!!!
Honey, don't apologize!!! We all do things like that. You are totally fine! :-)
KathleenLights don't be sorry girl!! Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us because from someone that had dealt with and continues continues to deal with anxiety and depression I know this was big of you to do and it is appreciated I can promise you that. I know this had to have been hard for you especially not knowing the kind of feedback you would get because there is so much negativity out there. You are such a sweet kind and caring person and I love you for that! You truly make me feel like I know you and we're friends by how honest and real you are on your channel it's insane so thank you so much. You gave great advice and I'm so sorry for the things you had to go through but they make you into the person you are today which in my opinion is an amazing one :) I'm happy that Danny was there for you and could shed light onto a tough time because that is so great. Girl you had me crying haha just because I can relate. Loving your Kat Chats and remember that we are all here for you xoxo
I didn't even notice. You can do whatever you want! :)
Anxiety can trigger serious depression. If you know someone or you are someone who is suffering from depression. Reach out. Get help. Therapy really helps! Depression is a sad and scary thing. Don't let it take over. Xoxo THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS, GUYS
I actually have depression, before I got anxiety. And reaching out, professionally and through friends and family, DOES help a lot. I would call emergency hotlines if I ever felt extremely depressed and alone. I would get bad thoughts during nighttime often, and it didn't do me any good. I finally reached out for help and sought medical attention. I'm going to start going to therapy appointments and continue my medication. Thank you again for your story!!
***** if you ever need someone to talk to please call the helpline 1-800-273-8255. They are available 24 hours and are very well trained. You can talk to them about anything and they will listen and help you.
I suffer from PTSD because my sister died when I was 9. She was 2. My parents basically died on the inside and they have never been the same. My dad became addicted to drugs and alcohol and my mother has extreme anxiety. My dad has been sober for 2 years but everything is different. I was bullied through middle school because of my anxiety and naturally that made it worse. I left for a semester and went to a high school in a different district. High school was good. But something was wrong with me. I would fight going to school everyday. I literally felt like I was going to die, it was completely irrational but I couldn't get rid of it. It wouldn't stop. By 11th grade my parents and I decided that independent study was the best thing for me. And honestly it was the best thing for me. I don't know what changed but I was able to get a job and now I'm volunteering on a regular basis. Something changed and I just try to remember what things used to be like so that I treasure the way I feel now.
Thank you for this video
Thank you for sharing your story. It's so meaningful when successful people like you share such things that you go through, because it gives hope to us normal people that al though you might have anxiety or any other issues in life, it's not really the end of the world, you can always manage it wisely and still do good in life. I mean, in spite of all the trauma you had to go through, you managed to get help with it and now you're a successful UA-camr Who's inspiring many many women across the world in many ways! How awesome is that! Thank you so much.
Kim Ko I understand what you're going through. I am up still at 2 am. I have terrible thoughts at night that just keep me up, worried abd my mind races. It's unbearable.
You are the sky and anxiety/depression are just passing clouds. You are the sky, you will always be there. Anxiety will come and go, like clouds, but you will always be there. You've made it through before, and you will again!
Lauren I just want to Say you know anxiety is a mental illness it dosn't go away sometimes it goes for maybe day's but It will come back I understand you wanted to Say how strong she is and yes she is strong but I just hate people who say it just like a cloud or something
Damn, girl...that was poetic as hell. I loved this.
I wish I had such kind of positive people in my life.....
I love the sky/cloud analogy!
Sweet girl. I'm almost old enough to be your grandma and have grown fond of your happy go lucky manner. I will keep you in my prayers now that I know your heartache.
In Islam we pray 5 times a day...its a struggle at time, but for those few minutes...its like a meditation where I talk to God. Its really nice :)
Allahu Akbar!!!! High 5 from another tattooed revert~~ Love you Chelsey!
It was comforting to see a comment here from a fellow sister in Islam :)
Honey Bunny oh ya, I like Kat :)
ChelseyHijabLove Same :) I just recently got into her videos. Glad I did!
As I sit here, on season eight of charmed. When you said that, I started instantly crying. That is literally me. In my home, watching charmed, feeling afraid of stepping foot outside. I have no friends and no family to reach out to. The only thing that keeps me glued is actually youtube and the girls I follow. I follow such kind, inspiring, beautiful people that brighten my days. As sad as it sounds, its the only thing I have. You are one of those people Kathleen. Thank you for being strong enough to make this video and for reaching to me more than you know. I have been through everything you have been through and more, darker things. Im trying to over come them and I have no means to seek professional help right now, but I hope for better days. Im trying to build myself up to having faith in myself and not being so afraid of the world. It honestly feels like my anxiety and depression will keep down forever, but Im really trying to break free, to resurface. It's been two years of this struggle. Some days I see the light and others days I fall back into hell. Where I cry, I scream, and I fear I'll be trapped in my mind forever. Thank you for helping me see the light today. I am so happy you have Danny that helped take you away from all the negative. And honestly. this video touched me. You are so amazing! You truly are like my friend, even if you have no idea who I am.
Sasha, even though I'm a stranger, I truly hope better days come for you, that dealing with all those things gets easier and easier everyday and I'll pray that you find good people that will understand and help you! 😊👍
Stay strong lovely, and remember how beautiful you are
You're not alone I'm going through the same thing xoxo sending love your way.
You only get one life & you are worth living a beautiful and happy life. Sending love your way.
I have anxiety too, being aware of it is the best way to deal with it : ) x
I got teary when you did. People that don't experience anxiety cannot comprehend it, but those of us who've had it do understand. The struggle is real, and you are so brave to share your story with us. Love you so much for doing this! You rock.
i hate having anxiety. I'm always over thinking always scaring myself. its so bad i can't drive. i feel like i can't breathe and i just wanna get on my knees and cry and scream. my heart beats so freaking fast i can't breathe. for no reason i have an anxiety attack. and nobody understands..
I have the same thing and I told my mom but she doesn't get it😭
I relate to well
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same
stay strong girl
i have the too sometimes for no apparent reason, although there is surely a hidden one, othertimes it seems minor to other people but is so scary for me. you are not alone. sending encouragement and warm wishes and strength.
Kathleen, this video was so raw and you were so vulnerable I just KNOW you helped so many people who are struggling with the same thing. It must have been so hard for you to share such a personal struggle and story, but you did it so perfectly. Thank you for opening up and sharing, it is nice to hear a little more about you and also how you deal with anxiety.
Aww thank you so much girl!!!! That means a lot to me
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Trying not to cry while watching this
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I know so am I :/
I did cry
I'm crying because I'm having almost the same problem😢
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i have so much respect for you being able to say all this out loud- especially to the internet. you are incredibly brave and such a beautiful person! love you
I suffer GAD (Generalized anxiety disorder) and depression. It is constantly a combination of fear, lack of motivation and sadness. All for NO REASON. Even though I am on medication and see a therapist I still have bad days, days that I don't want to get out of bed or make me wish I didn't exist (no, I am not interested in dying, more like ceasing. Like I was never there.) But remember, for every single bad day you have there are endless possibilities for a good one. We are also badass for dealing with this shit everyday! We are warriors who WILL over come. I hope that this encourages you guys
I tell myself that I will be able to enjoy drawing again, and eating and feeling longlasting happiness soon. Soon. That is not forever lasting, the numbness I experience. It's momentary
In my opinion, the older the kids are, the more they suffer just because like you said, we go on most of our lives with our parents being together and you grow up believing that your life is perfect and nothing could possibly go wrong and then it all just changes and it's so hard to let go and adjust. Not saying it's not hard for the little ones but I think it's much harder to have something for most of your life and have it taken away from you...
I agree! When my parents split I was 17 and it was the hardest time of my life.
i'm with you!!
I think that each child suffers through a divorce in their own way (regardless of age). I was quite young when my parents got divorced and so I had no out from all the negativity, and had to deal with a lot of issues that felt so much bigger than me at a young age for several years. I personally believe that the younger the child is, the more alone they can feel in their struggle since they may be dealing with problems that kids their age do not understand. I don't mean to take away from anybody's experience or pain. I just think it's difficult to say that one age group suffers more than the other. But this is just my opinion!
LANAandZEI i never saw my parents together and i agree alot with what you said
I would like to kindly like to disagree with you Joanna, I was very young when my parents got divorced, and all they fought about was money, and after awhile of them fighting, I started to think that maybe if I hadn't asked for that pair of shoes last week, maybe they wouldn't be fighting. I didn't understand how they could love each other for one second and not the next, and when I was with my dad he would talk about how my mom was horrible, but wouldn't explain why, and my mom would do the same. When something traumatic happens when you are young, it feels like you are going to live your entire life with that sadness, and when something good happened, I would just remember how my life actually is.
A lot of people get anxiety from crowds, but I get anxiety from being alone, having someone with me makes me feel relaxed,
me too
U have separation anxiety
+Carlie Dunbar thanks! I didn't know it had a name 🙂
Rachel Isawesome i have that same anxiety !
Me too
this video has really helped me, i'm going through that month long of staying in my room waking up with and going to sleep with anxiety. it's been almost a month since this started and im in a really bad state. I used to feel so great and I would never overthink anything but everything has gone to shit. Thank you so much for this video it really helps knowing i'm not alone.
+KawaiiPotato You'll get through it! I know it may seem as it will never go away, but it will get easier and easier as time goes on. You are strong enough to conquer it! You're not alone!
Thank you everyone, i feel way better today than I did when I posted that comment. It truly did start to fade and get easier. I've never felt like that in my life it was hell.
Same I feel the same way about the anxiety thing I'm going through it too:( but everyone can get threw it if they think In a positive way and you can always change the way things are going..just remember the good:)
+Randall Antonson Why anxiety stops me from enjoying life, video
+Jasmin Trudeau Why anxiety stops me from enjoying life, video
I'm watching this again a year later, and I certainly needed it. I've always had anxiety, but it never manifested itself this badly. Panic attacks are still pretty new to me, and the first time I had one, I didn't know what was going on. It wasn't triggered by anything. Sometimes I get them at work, and I don't know how to calm myself down. Thank you for opening up and talking about this.
You can do this!! 😘
You were triggered by something, you just don`t know what it was. I have it too, but after seeing a therapist I learned that it is always triggered by something, and you can learn what it is/was, and then learn to deal with it. Good luck:)
same here. I started having panic attacks and didnt know what was going on. It felt like a heart attack
I had mines going to the store, I parked my car and bam out of no where I just felt scared, and I couldn't stay still, I just shat in the car, while my daughter went into the store, about 15 minutes later I was fine, than we headed off to the mall, and once I got inside the store I wanted to go to, I had another attack, but this time I felt dizzy, lightheaded, tunnel vision, I was scared, 3 months later I still get them, I don't know what triggered my attacks, now I avoid going to the store, I can't work as I had a few panic attack at work, and I don't leave my house to often.
Are u lying?
Anxiety is my biggest fight since I was 16. That's when it developed. I get nausea, hyperventilating, crying, and that overall fight or flight feeling. It's horrendous as you know. I couldn't leave my house for over a month when I was diagnosed. Almost immediately after leaving my room I'd have a panic attack. Yeah good times. I can't go a far distance (like another state) from my home without having a panic attack. Like with you not being able to leave the house for fear of having an attack. ME TOO. I feel trapped. I take Paxil every day to balance out my chemical imbalance and I have pills for emergency attacks. I live with anxiety everyday and it sucks. I feel you and there are millions that understand you. 💜
Mango Sprout Why were you so anxious? How did you feel when u were in sch? (btw jus curious)
+Mango Sprout damn your is worse then mine
There was usually no rhyme or reason for becoming so anxious in the beginning. And now, it's usually when I'm outside of my comfort zone or somewhere I can't easily get out of/away from (On a bus, at a place with large crowds of people, etc.)- It sounds horrible (and it is) but I live a normal life almost completely and I'm very positive/happy so it's all good ^_^
What is the name of the emergency tablet?
+Mango Sprout it's not a fucking chemical imbalance it's a brain wave dysregulation. google it. neurotherapy to.
I developed anxiety because my dad cheated on my mum when I was 8 and then they divorced when i was 9. I developed an eating disorder too. This was all when I was 9. It went away for a while. Then, in 2013, my dad got engaged to the woman he had an affair with. Everything came back at 100 km an hour. I was 12. I went to his wedding in 2014 when I was 13. It was horrible. I hated it. Knowing that my parents could never get back together was tough. I couldn't eat. I was nervous all the time. I stopped seeing my dad for 2 and a 1/2 years. I missed a whole year of school. I saw a psychologist and went through this whole experience without medication. I'm now back to seeing my dad, eating a whole heap of Thai food, and I'm back at school in year 10 (in Australia). I'm 15 now. I have a job. I always keep this in my mind. 'When you're on a train and you go through a tunnel, you don't just jump off and throw away your ticket. You wait it out because you know that it'll end soon'. Xx
Izzy Leggett I'm so so sorry you have to go through that. I remember suspecting my dad having an affair and it was the worst feeling ever. turned out it was a false alarm but only suspecting made me feel SO anxious, I cant imagine it being true. HUGS
Izzy Leggett I know people who has panis attacks and they tried going dairy free and cutting out red meats and it helped. I find that everything I experience physically and mentally all goes back to diet.
My dad cheated on my mum too when I was 15, bad mood bad dreams all the time, luckily I don’t have anxiety, but I never want love somebody or get married.
Hugs
I know this video is like super old now, but I just found it and couldn't help but comment. I just wanted to thank you for making this video. I can't imagine how much anxiety you must've had even thinking about making it. But i'm so glad that you did. I felt I could really relate to so many things in it. Like how you always had situational/social anxiety growing up but when the panic attacks started after a traumatic year it was like a whole other thing. That's how I was a few months ago with constant anxiety 24 hrs a day. For some reason it's just so comforting to know that you're not the only one. And it really does get better. Now i'm at this place where instead of focusing on wanting so bad to be anxiety free I realize I will always be an anxious person because that's who I am, but dealing with it each day and realizing having anxiety isn't the worst thing in the world and doesn't make me a flawed person. Or if it does, it doesn't matter because who isn't flawed? Also I liked your idea of having a positivity journal. I used to write in a journal but it was all negative things and it honestly just gave me more anxiety writing about everything that made me anxious or I wanted to change. Anyway, I don't know if you'll even see this because you get like a trillion comments, but in the event that you do. Just wanted to let you know any anxiety you had making this video was worth it, because obviously it touched and helped so many people. ....ok end of novel. xoxo
whenever I have anxiety,I just watch your videos and my anxiety goes away.
you're awesome
love you
My anxiety is terrible. Everyday I sit down in a corner and cry. I worry about everything, the littlest things.
Do you take any medication ??
I was just diagnosed this month and I need HELP bad
Your diet will also play a huge part on this. Check what you eat. Please see Dr Eric Berg videos for advice on diet related to mental health and best wishes.
You are an inspiration. Naturally, I'm an anxious person. My husband has said that I'm not happy unless I have something to worry about, , and it feels pretty much true for me. I've also been fighting cancer for nearly 3 1/2 years. This current chemo regimen has hit me so hard that I'm almost always afraid to leave the house -- I can definitely identify with you watching Charmed all day, except I focus on the ABC Family afternoon lineup AND, after avoiding driving for 9 months, this morning I am super pleased to have just moved the car from one parking spot to another. That little moment was huge for me.
Omg that's amazing. That's a step into the right direction. Moving that car is YOUR FUTURE. your happiness. Positive thoughts! You'll beat the shit out of cancer! Ok?
I watched this while on the verge of a panic attack, and it calmed me down almost immediately. This video helped me so much already as I feel one more step ahead to being anxiety free. Thank you so much.
I just had a panic attack and I though that maybe listening to someone else talk about their anxiety would make me calm down. I am so happy I came to youtube and found you. I didn't go through as much as you did but I still had to go through a lot (moving to another country, bullying etc.) I think those things caused my anxiety, it's a lot better now but I still get panic attacks once in a while. I understand how you feel and I agree with you on how people react,I hate when they look angry or wierd at you when you tell them how you feel or when they say that you are just making a big deal out of something when you tell them that you are not able to do a thing that is exremly easy and natural to them but causes you a lot of stress. But I feel a lot better now after watching this video. I wish you good luck.
Don't think that YOUR story or whatever isn't 'as bad' Hun. It's all relative, and it WAS bad, really bad, for YOU! No ones issues in life are any better or worse then yours because yours is all you know. YOUR stories ARE important. They DO matter. YOU MATTER, don't EVER think that you don't, K? Keep on, keeping on x
Tansey Kellard Thank you :) It's just that everytime I tell someone that something bad happened to me they usually say that a lot of way way worse things happened to other people and that I should just let it go.
I actually teared up because of your divorce story. It was like I listened to my own story. I never found someone who truly understood me, because my parents divorced when I was already an "adult" (18 years old, just like you). And people were always like: "aaah so sad, but you know what, you're 18 so it doesn't matter. You are going to live on your own anyways." And that angers me so much, because it does have an enormous effect on your life, no matter how old you are. Maybe it even has a bigger effect when you're in that "almost adult" stage, because you just grew up with both parents and now suddenly you're entire life is upside down. I don't have anxiety, like you have (I do have performance anxiety though and that worsened a lot after the divorce), but I just want to say thank you for sharing this story, cause it made me feel like i'm not alone and like you would understand me.
xxIrisx I so relate to this. My parents divorced when I had just turned 22 and I was coming out of a really abusive relationship.
The fact that you did this video at all is a lot of help. Sometimes it feels like you're alone. But the fact that you shred your story and you shred your advice is so kind. Thank you! "This too shall pass."
This video made me feel okay like nothing is wrong with me I just have anxiety. Anxiety does not define me. I've been working everyday to get through my anxiety. When I get social anxiety I push myself to be a little more outgoing..go and do things with a group..things I would not normally do..and most of the time I feel good after. Anxiety is temporary..thanks Kathleen!
my sister once told me: "we often worry about our physical being (because it is what everyone sees), but hardly anyone takes care of their mental health...Mental health should be as important as physical health"
I saw my mom go through anxiety and it was so awful. Much love Kat
You are SO brave to post thins and I admire you for doing so. I could relate to a lot of it. My parents divorced when I was 28 and I got the full force of the nastiness and it broke me down. My mother and brother gave me hell for spending any time with my father and I would hear all the bad things he had done from her. Then a year later I got a knock at the door and the police were there to tell me that my 11yr old son had passed away. My life went to hell and I stayed there for quite some time. So even though my son had passed away my mother still filled my head with stuff my father had done and it screwed me up and I ended up in a Psychiatric hospital having shock treatment. I was a mess for the longest time...I too got anxiety and my depression was very deep. I have come a LONG way since then so I too am proof that you can go to hell and come back from it with A LOT of work on yourself. I wish you well in life, you are a strong and brave woman.
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thank you...life is not easy for me but I still get up each day and start again. One day at a time
*****
awe bless you :)
I'm so sorry for your loss...
My parents divorced when I was 4, I am now 36 so I was really confused when I was young and I blamed myself, I think a lot of kids do. I blamed myself because I was born with a deformed hip (amongst MANY other things) and it caused A LOT of stress on my parents relationship. My father was very 'old school' (as in a woman's place is barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen) and so my mother (who also had 3 other kids, one of whom was stillborn because my father had been drink driving and had a car accident in which my mother went into early labour and as a result I do not have a second older brother) had to do EVERYTHING. He wouldn't even teach her to drive so she had to take the bus everywhere with 3 kids in tow, one of whom was me who had full length plaster casts on both my legs at the same time for several years to try to correct the deformity, as well as being in and out of the hospital for a million and one (it felt like) surgeries to try to 'fix me.' So she basically had to carry me around 24/7 for years and years.
So I thought it was my fault for causing so much stress and because he wouldn't help her with me and basically that having me ruining her life basically when her other stillborn (probably) would have been perfectly healthy had he been born closer to his due date. Kids over react a lot and dramatise stuff so I don't know if that's the actual reason they divorced or not. It's best not brought up because any SINGLE time you even mention their name to the other, all the he did this she did that crap starts. My siblings and my weddings were NOT fun occasions at all, neither were any births of any of the children we had. Funerals, yeah, you'd think that would be the ONE TIME where some respect would be paid and everyone on their best behaviours, but no, as if the death of a loved one isn't bad enough...it was made SO MUCH WORSE.
It happened soooo long ago that I don't understand why or how it's still so bad, but it is...us kids, now grown ups deal with it with much more maturity then they EVER have. Parents don't seem to realise how much THEIR divorce, hurts and rips their children's life apart. It's not just happening to THEM. It happens to the whole family...FOREVER.
I suffer from Anxiety and Depression. My self esteem has NEVER been good....having the word 'DEFORMED' as a way to describe you, or define you, or said about you, really doesn't bring on any kind of good feelings about yourself as a person.
So you helped someone - ME! I'm seeing a new and apparently AMAZING doctor (recommended from MY amazing doctor) who apparently deals SPECIFICALLY with Anxiety Disorders and he's (I'm told) very kind, non-judgmental, he's VERY protective of his patients, he bulk bills (I live in Australia and that means 100% FREE!!!) he could be charging any ridiculous amount he wants as a specialist, but he actually WANTS to HELP PEOPLE!!! Very RARE in this day and age!
So I'm excited, but of corse also EXTREMELY ANXIOUS!! Will he understand where I'm coming from? Will he think I'm crazy? Will he think I'm making it up? Will he take me seriously? Will he HELP me? Am I help able? I mean treatable! Or am I going to be put in the too hard basket? Will I be able to even get out of bed and leave me house without completely Psych-ing myself out? Can I really do this? Can I really dare to hope that there IS light at the end of the tunnel, instead of just a big black hole that I will never crawl out of?
It's so darn SCARY putting yourself out there for someone to judge. I KNOW I NEED help, but it's HARD to reach out and grasp it, because you HAVE to put yourself out there, if you have ANY desire to 'be normal...' I'd be happy right now to just be 'ok.'
kizzy McD Shut up you don't even know this for sure you are just kissing her asss cuz she is famous.
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what the hell are you on about and who is famous? You are obviously a child so I won't waste my time on going back and fourth with you because you can't argue with stupid lol....
The best part about your video is that you explained the background of your life and how anxiety occurred.We all are together in this and trust me your explaining things can have medicinal effect for many people struggling with anxiety. More power to you girl!
Watching this video two years later but all the advice you give is just so accurate! All these things helped me through bad times with my anxiety and depression. And seeing this video after my bad times makes me feel so refreshed - I feel that this is such a helpful video, thank you for sharing your story Kathleen x
I'm sorry to hear about your "past". I'm happy to hear about your "present". I pray you have a blessed "future". Unfortunately I do understand 100%. I've been there to.
Life is too short to waste on bad energy & negativity. We have a life & we shall live it!
xo
Yes!!!!!!!!!!! I love love love this comment. Happiness.
Love the vulnerability. Acceptance is definitely the 1st step in moving forward. Anxiety sufferers are hard on themselves and have really high standards. Learn to trade expectations for appreciation. Appreciation flows from the heart. Anxiety naturally creates negative pictures of our experiences when hurt is involved. Turn any negative thought or belief into a positiver one do this overtime anxiety tries to paint a different picture and the dread will disappear. Good luck and keep up the good work. Lastly anxiety sufferers focus on the future and hate uncertainty. Learn to embrace your parents separation and don't blame yourself. Be grateful you still have 2 parents and be the kid and let them deal with the parent stuff.
ugh I feel this. I grew up with a bad tempered dad, who whenever I was a being a brat cause that's how 6 year old girls are, he would get so overwhelmed and tell me all this bs like that nobody liked me, or he was embarrassed about me, and that he wishes he never married my mom and had me, and wish I would leave. he still does this to me 10-11 years later. His constant bullshit had caused me to get psychotic depression, GAD, and panic disorder and it fucking sucks?? And he always tells me that "you know I have a bad temper, it's not my fault you make me crazy" and makes the situation so much worse. He likes to deny the fact that he's caused me to become someone who I would've never thought I'd become. This is a mess but I can't be the only one going through this type of shit :/
No, you're not alone. You can get through it, like Kathleen said; "delete the negative people" because people who are positive will soon rub off on you. When you have time, stop to pet a dog, or tell your friend a dumb joke. It takes baby steps, and the little things do matter. You will get through it.
Your dad seems to have a lot of problems himself. My mother had parents like this and it messed her up badly for a long time. But eventually she could look past it and not define her worth on whatever bad things she had to hear from her parents. Remember that your past is past and that the only thing you can do is learn from it and then let go. I hope that you can go through this and let your deressions behind. I hope you find amazing uplifting people.
and maybe you should not be with your Dad any more if he does not see his fault and keeps on doing this.quit the toxic in your life.
Heather Rose same here 😔
Heather Rose Damn girl. Your dad sounds like he has NPD and is scapegoating and gaslighting you :/ I'm so sorry.
When you can move out, don't stay in contact with him. People with NPD don't change. I moved out and stayed in contact with both my parents who have it. Things aren't as bad, but it's still painful and makes for unnecessary difficulties in life..not worth it.
noo, he's not narcisstic whatsoever. He has bipolar disorder, and so he has a very short temper and just everything I do sometimes gets him going. I just talked to my sister and she brought up how my dad treated her the exact same way he does me ever since she was growing up with him. Like, i dont know what it is, just him being around people pisses him off. And honestly, once i do move out I'd HAVE to stay in contact with my dad. My mom was neglected as a child and has been in 3 long physically/emotionally abusive relationships, so I'm guessing she doesn't get how to properly treat her kids. And im basically her last priority a majority of the time and I rarely talk to her, soo,,
I thank God for your courage in putting everything aside to help someone else's with a similar situation. I got watery eyed watching this . You are so strong and have come such a long way. If you ever have anxiety on the same situation just remember how far you have come and how much you have accomplished. You are awesome !
I suffer from anxiety as well ... I actually had an anxiety attack today. It started from traumatic experiences as well. You're very brave to post this, Kathleen! It's something very serious and this video helps me know I'm not the only one suffering and I know it can help so many people! I love you so much! ❤️
anybody have this type of anxiety that I have? When I get really nervous, my stomach gets queasy, I get dizzy, my throat tightens, and I vomit? Even though my anxiety is mental, it's very physical. I feel like everybody else who has anxiety attacks cry and breathe heavy.
I get the same !
yes friend you're not alone.I couldn't go uni because of this shitty drama
Anxiety can manifest in many different ways. Please consider seeing a counselor or therapist as there are many ways you can begin to manage symptoms (especially without medications. CBT can be so helpful). Good luck and don't give up!
totally yes 🙄
Yes, but I don't vomit, I became a agoraphobia because of my dizziness, and lightheadedness.
You've been my favorite youtuber for a while now and I've always thought that we had a lot in common and I love your personality, but this video really solidified that feeling. Thank you for making this video and being brave enough to post it. I don't read youtube comments, but I really hope that no one was mean to you for this video. I cried every time you did. I've struggled with anxiety for as long as I remember. My twin sister doesn't get it and sometimes gives me a really hard time about it, so I understand that feeling of no one getting it. But my mom is also my best friend and she has anxiety too. I really think there needs to be more mental health awareness and we need to get rid of the stigmas. I don't know where I wanted to go with this comment except to just say thank you!
respect your comment very much...and I agree with you, not much is said about mental awareness & it is something that many ppl suffer from but not spoken of often...
+M Reyna I meant more "mental health awareness"
You're honestly goals. Strong. Independent. Determined. Thank you so much for being you @kathleenlights. Thank you for constantly reminding everyone of their beauty and strength
I admire you so much for having the courage to upload this video. I am sure many including myself can now truly see the beautiful strong women you are! You're amazing!
Thank you so much! Xoxo
It hurts me to see you cry. I have anxiety, but only to an extent. I haven't had it for months, and I am so happy and feel so free!
Everyone now at days has anxiety it is too normal and I dont know why some make such a drama for it. Cant they just move on ??
I'm so glad you shared your story because I am 12 years old and I have social anxiety and occasionally depression!! This video really helped me because I have anxiety and dark thoughts but, people who I thought were my friends and were supposed to support me and help me get through hard times, thought and continue to think I am over reacting and being too dramatic and trying to get attention for having anxiety. They don't understand me though, they don't even listen to how I am feeling but, I am so glad you and thousands or even millions of people understand what I'm feeling and will support me and not think bad about me and my anxiety. Love you Kathleen
I have severe anxiety and panic disorder and occasional depression. whenever I try to tell people they tell me I'm just attention seeking, I hate this as if I do have a panic attack then my friends and even my parents and family think I'm just overreacting.
***** I still have frequent panic attacks and haven't told my parents, only a couple of friends who also suffer. I have also started self harming but stopped and am now more confident. thanks for the support!:-)
maybe this can help you ! vanillagenius.weebly.com/blog-9825/dealing-with-anxiety
thanks that did actually help!! HelJay B.
Same I'm 12 and have anxiety and depression it's crap 👎
kathleen, i watched this video months ago when i was in a deep depression. i also had some resultant anxiety. this video turned my life around and continues to inspire me day to day. i love your channel and youre such an inspiration. i love you so much and youve changed my life for the best
it's great knowing someone with great success like you has anxiety too. we have the same anxiety, you're a huge inspiration. ❤️
Your story was very touching and I hope you continue to be strong minded and healthy in life .I too suffered general anxiety that would trigger panic attacks and paranoia issues whenever I was socialising ,with family & friends to strangers..I now and then will feel anxious and nervously babble when I talk and fidget but I've improved alot :) fortunately without medication ,I got a tattoo that reads 'just breathe ' which helped and yess having people that make you feel good in your life helps so much I consider my partner to be my safe anchor.
Meditation and trying to Smile as much as you can helps also x
WOW. I can so relate to this. My whole life i have lived with my parents arguing but they had always stayed together and i was so proud of that. Right when i started college(when i was 18) my parents separated. Soon after that a close family member attempted suicide. He is still alive but it is just so mentally draining having to go through that during such an important turning point in life. Now my mom (my best friend) lives in Europe, my parents are divorced, and i am living on my own. It is so crazy how something can happen so fast and change so much. Sorry if this was too long but I just wanted to say that I could 100% relate to your feelings. :)
and this all happened in Tampa too...crazy!
Julie Fonseca You are so strong for going through all of this. It may be hard, but please try and look at these things in the most positive way possible, you can´t do anything about what has happened, all you can do is accept and move on. Everything happens for a reason and I am sure that even though these experiences have probably hurt you, they have made you grow and learn so many things. Stay stong hun and I hope you get to see your mom soon and that your family member (that attempted suicide) is doing well.
Julie Fonseca Since the last i suffered from anxiety. I felt that the worst thing will happen if you ask me. when i tried more to resist anxiety, the worse it got. After watching an interesting movie on google, i got a interesting and beneficial info. They give me a method that is simple will work whenever I prefer. search on google as Amazing Anxiety Perfecta Solution if you want to follow a simple method to overcome.
THERAPY IS SOOOO AMAZING!! Even if you don’t think anything is wrong but if you feel sad or anxious or stressed it’s so great to talk to an unbiased opinion and someone who gets it. they just get it
This video was so powerful and I just want to thank you SO much for sharing your story with us. I've had my troubles with anxiety in the past and I've always been so thankful because my mom always understood since she grew up with it as well. Trying to explain what we're feeling to someone who has never experienced a panic attack is the hardest thing. I just have to say that I've been binging on your videos recently and every time I watch your personality is contagious and you literally turn my day around! XOXOXO
I also struggle with anxiety and honestly it has consumed my life so much that it's normal for me. It's mostly when I have to present in front of people. My voice and body shakes, I feel nauseous and my heart is literally hammering out my chest. It's just the fear that I'm constantly being judged by my peers. I can hang out and be outgoing in front of others but when it's all eyes on me and I'm the center of attention, I just can't do it. I don't know how I can take it any longer at school when I can't even answer a question in class with out trying to control a panic attack from coming on. I really hope this stops soon
Gabrielle Nicole i feel the same exact way. one time the teacher told us a week ahead of time that we would present in front of the class and all i thought about was that and i was nauseous every day and i lost my appetite for a week from that one presentation. i ended up losing five lbs and not being able to eat was one of the worst feelings ive had. all because of one presentation that was 1 min 30 sec .
Omg I feel like this too! I thought I was the only one. I feel sick at the thought of even answering a question
+Gabrielle Nicole I have the same problem. I left school because of it.. and I really would love to go to university and study and show people what I can do but my fear of talking in front of people closed so many doors in my life. It's depressing and annoying.. totally get you.
+Gabrielle Nicole Hi, i have the same problem and hope that this stops soon too. I go to university and every day it s a battle . I 'm from Argentina and the video caught my attention . I'm surprised to see how this somehow helps us and makes us realize that we are not alone . Now what happens to me happens to you too . I hope , really, we can have a normal life since I woke up until we go to sleep.
I hear you, i had to leave college after 1 year, in 2012 because i couldnt focus in the class room and relax. I was so consumed with anxiety, then getting depressed because i couldnt enjoy myself. i was shaking solely worrying about being surrounded by these unknown people and what they were thinking of me. I plan on going back next year and curing at least most of my symptoms by then no matter what is takes.
I watched your video because I'm in desperate need of help with anxiety. No one knows I have it. I try and stay calm and collected but when I'm alone i will cry until I have to stop or when my husband gets home. I have fear of change and I have undergone in my opinion quite a bit of change in my life in the past 3 years.
Anxiety is horrible and like you said it feels like you're never going to get out of it. I loved listening to your advice about eating healthy, working out, and journaling. I'm going to try all three. Thank you for sharing your story! You're truly amazing and an inspiration! God bless!
Step one, is letting people you trust know of this. Sometimes when the ship is going through a storm there needs to be a captain to let the crew know it won't sink.
Watching this video in 2018 because I too suffer with anxiety & depression, but hearing your story definitely allowed me to see a lot of things in a different light✨thank you for your advice & thank your for sharing your story with us! Love you Kathleen!💛
Thank you for making and sharing this video. As someone who has anxiety too I know this must have been very challenging for you to do. These kinds of videos mean the world, because like you said, it's on the inside and a lot of people don't understand, but all of us with anxiety really do understand each other. I feel the same way you do about certain things, I had doctors just try to recommend all these pills like that was going to fix everything, but I decided that I could be stronger than that and do it on my own. Anxiety is a work in progress and it never goes away completely, but to anyone who is reading this, it will not always be a crushing weight that weighs you down every day, and over time you can learn to manage it more. Also it is SO IMPORTANT to surround yourself with understanding people. Only having 3 friends that truly get it is better than having 100 friends that don't.
LOVE THIS COMMENT. Xoxo
Thank you for being brave enough to share so that people like me know we are not alone. Seeing you be so incredible and following your dreams gives me hope. 😍💞✨✨✨
I have severe anxiety too. I'm so glad you made this video! You have to be brave to be able to be so open and talk about it. :) Shew, you had me crying too, my parents got divorced when I was 14 and it was amazingly hard on my sister and I. Thanks for sharing!
No problem :) thanks for watching!
Thank you for sharing your story. I also have social anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. I love your videos and your honesty in everything you talk about. Keep on being you because you are an amazing person.
I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of that! I hope you don't mind, but I'm praying for you. I haven't been in your situation, but I've dealt with clinical depression and (actual diagnosed) OCD for the better part of my life. I'm a Christian, and even so, there were times it was so bad that I prayed God would take me from this world. Thankfully He didn't, so obviously there are still things I am meant to do here! Every day is a struggle. I know my triggers, stress being one of them, and I've lived through some very bad times in my life that made everything 100 times worse. (I'm in my early 30s, married 11 years.) All this to say, I'm still standing, though shakily at times, and I'm glad to see you're still standing too! I hope and pray that you continue to grow and heal, and that you are able to have a rich, full life. I thoroughly enjoy your channel, and I thank you for talking about this. It's a hard subject to broach, being so personal. You're brave for sharing your experiences with us. I will keep your entire family in my thoughts and prayers.
Forgot to mention, OCD is also an anxiety disorder. But it's defined by it's obsessions and compulsions. It's terrifying and frustrating, and for me it's a 24/7 battle. I have very bad days and better days. The winter months are the worst as I also have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). So, I understand the fear! Oh, and I also love Charmed. :)
My generalized anxiety disorder led to my depression. Which that lead me to find myself and ways to deal with my issues. I found psychology, which is my passion. Even though my issues have made my life harder, they have made me stronger, and they are a part of me. It's brought me to be happy. How ironic :)
"This too shall pass..."
Love it. Thanks for sharing. I have OCD as well and this book saved my life: Brain Lock: Free Yourself from Obsessive-Compulsive Behavior
It was great. Thought I would share it with ya.
I know this video is old, but I am so glad I found it. This video is so relatable and helped me so much. Thank you Kathleen for putting yourself out there like this to help others.
My anxiety started ever since my parents split up when I was 10. I am 16 now and i am failing highschool and have no friends because whenever I try to make friends I have anxiety attacks. Yippie.
If you need to talk, just to get stuff off your chest, pm me
I don't know if you believe in God but I do and I don't know you but I will keep you in my prayers. I know that you are strong because you have been going through it for 6 years. Stay strong❤️
+ForgotStyle PLEASE TELL SOMEONE!!! Let me tell you, getting help and talking to someone can change your life in a positive way.
+ForgotStyle I totally understand you I went through the same thing and i am 24 years old now and I have found that the only thing that works for me is strong faith in god and working on maintaining my relationship with god. I hope u get through this soon :)
Iv been goin through it sense high school. Im 21 years old now I still have times when days are tough but you know what really helps. Talking with some 1 helps. You will b very surprised how many people go through the same stuff or feel the same way. Talking to people makes me feel so much better. If you need some 1 to talk to you can talk to me or any 1. Hear is my email johnetteleslie@gmail.com . Trust me talk to some one itll make a difference of how u feel
Can we heart this instead of just liking it? 😩 I love you so much Kathleen 💞 I myself struggle with really bad anxiety, especially in school. My social anxiety multiplies while in school and it feels so good to know someone understands what it feels like. 🤕
I am so glad that your dad is doing so great now. That must have been so scary. I also have social anxiety. I am very much a loner. I pretty much avoid people at all costs. I completely relate to you in this video more than you know. I will pray for you.
Thank you so so much! But I'm okay. Let's all pray for the men and women out there who haven't found hope or help! Thank you for this comment. It was very sweet.
Thank you for sharing your story. ❤ I've had anxiety majority of my life but it was minimal until last year.. my anxiety has sky rocketed and I cannot pin point what is causing it. Watching your videos weather it's a Kat chat or make-up related video, just knowing that I'm not the only one out there with anxiety is helpful. Your videos give me a sense of calm. Thank you so much!
Hey Kathleen, I hope you are doing well.
I have anxiety as well, my mom past away when I was 1 year old so my father raised me up. He was the person that I loved the most, when I was 13 he got diagnosted with cancer and I tried to understand that but I got so drepressed. But when I was 16 my dad past away I my anxiety got so bad.
Now I am 18 and trust me, everything gets better, always surround yourself with the people that you love and just keep on going!
I am a really happy person (You, Kathleen, for example make me really happy!) and I am after all my dreams and I decided I will never give up. Thanks for the video, I love you so much!
(Sorry if my grammar is bad!)
Who else cried ? I love you so much Kathleen, stay strong ! ❤️
Had my first anxiety attack a few weeks ago. Ive never had anxiety ever before. My mom left my dad & I mid October for another man & moved out. Our rent is expensive & my dad is retired. Our lease ends soon, my dad & I need to find a place to live. 1.5 weeks ago I had my first anxiety attack, it was at church they called 911 because my my heart started racing, i got dizzy, my hands feet & face all went numb, i was breathing heavy, i was shaky, & my hands went stiff. I almost went to the hospital. Then the next day my cat died. I cremated her last week. And this week is finals I'll be getting my bachelor's degree. I never thought anxiety was so debilitating or even real before that. I thought it was just people who worry a lot and need to just stop but it's a very real thing.
Thank you so much for speaking up for those who feel they have no voice. I suffer from depression, anxiety, OCD. I too stopped all the daily meds and try to cope in a natural way. Im so sorry to hear about your parents and the accident and the experiences you had ro go through. Our stories are similar and it hits home for me. I really enjoy all your videos. Thank you for all you do!
As both a psychotherapist and someone who has suffered from PTSD in the past, thank you for this video. ❤️
I also deal with anxiety and it was by far the worst feeling ever. I have been watching your videos for a couple of month now and you are my favorite youtuber. I know it must be very hard to talk about person problems on UA-cam but I just wanted to say that I really appreciate it. Have a wonderful day xoxo 😚
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I know this is an old video but i totally understand you. I've had a depression, anxiety and self harm due to a eating disorder that i'm still fighting with. Its been 5 years since i got the disorder... Its so important to talk about this, GO YOU KAT!
I was also really suicidal...
Jennifer Samuelsson Stay strong honey, life gets better
Jennifer Samuelsson keep smiling, you can get through this!x
I was trying not to cry the entire video, but the end made me cry. This video really helped me. I've been feeling terrible for 7ish years now but I finally feel like I'm getting better, and you've really helped me recently. "This too shall pass... Your pain will not last you forever." Thank you for this video
You know, I enjoyed watching this video because I can relate. I never had any of that terrible stuff like divorces, accidents, etc. happen to me, but I still deal with anxiety and I'm beginning to think also depression. I fight with my family a lot, but I don't know if it's the reason for my anxiety or if it's the aftermath of my anxiety. Last year, I faced a difficult final two months of middle school after my friend took something I said to her and twisted it to make it sound terrible. My whole group went against me and I was so alone for the rest of the year. I hyperventilate all of the time and a lot of times, I don't even know why. I also found out that I have maladaptive daydreaming which is also a sign of anxiety and depression. Sometimes I'm not sure what to do so I try to take my mind off of things by watching tv or trying to make conversation with someone. But thank you for this video. I normally don't cry, but I nearly cried with this one because I can relate.
Same with me, I wrote here about 4 comments in chain, I also hyperventilate and its so annoying, i stayed 6 hours in bed awake yesterday, today I stay up till midday when get operated, it's 4:39am here in belgium, and i didn't sleep in 3 days cause i had to stay in the car from scotland to belgium ( takes 14 hours if no traffic jams) it's hell, plus its my first operation at 16 and they gonna put a neddle/tube in my wrist vein, I suppose it'll hurt won't it?
I never knew maladaptive daydreaming was a sign of anxiety and depression but I have had it since young and it always gets into the way of everything.
maybe this can help you ! vanillagenius.weebly.com/blog-9825/dealing-with-anxiety
I wrote a bunch above that can help you. There are alot of different natural tools out there, and it is just about finding what works for you. There is also Emdr and emt, that many good counselors do, but you can learn it, and do it yourself.
you are such a sweetheart, I wish you all the best and thank you for sharing such a personal part of your life
honestly, people who say that the younger you are, the less your parents divorce affects you, are wrong. i was 5 years old when my parents got divorced and i didn't even care at the time. only now, when i'm 14, i'm starting to think about how my life would go if they'd still be together. i think the older you get (from 17) the more you start to think about your parents, and how they are together, and what would you do without them and stuff... stay strong! i love you!
Ikr
I agree. I was 4 when my parents got divorced. And while, at the time, I didnt care that much.. I was also very confused and kinda hated every people my parents dated (which is normal) hahaha. But it didn't affect me emotionally. Now that I think of it, i am glad that they did. I would probably be miserable living with both of my parents. I don't get along with my dad very much.
True! I was 8 when mine got divorced, and I was pretty much ok with it. If anything, I was happy the fights would stop.
I was 8 when my parents divorced and it fucked me up really bad
Christina Pozolera but I was also a very aware and hypersensitive 8 year old
I truly admire people like you that publicly open up and help people like me. You're an inspiration. Thank you for this ❤️
I came to watch this video after you mentioning it in your recent moving back closer to home video. Thank you for sharing this I can relate to you so much xoxox
Thank you Kathleen...
Does anyone else have "SAD", seasonal anxiety disorder? I don't get it in winter, but once it becomes spring and my work gets busier, I get extreme anxiety. Constantly light headed, over thinking and panicky for literally no reason! I've tried justifying it to "maybe it's the heat, maybe I'm just a little stressed, maybe I have something wrong with me." Ugh! My anxiety came out of nowhere!
I get that and Seasonal Depressive Disorder during the winter. I have GAD and depression already and those seasonal disorders make them much worse. It really sucks. :/
Hello, i had similar problem so I went to a doctor and he told me I had such problems because of previous sunstroke incident. So think about if you had sun stroke or overheating in recent years, or had head injury (doesnt have to be severe), maybe even high temperature as kid can trigger sensitive vegetative system. Go to a doctor, a good one, to be sure of the diagnosis =) Good luck!
I work in a kitchen as a cook. Last year, I believe I had either a minor heatstroke or just simply got overheated. I came home and COULD NOT cool off. I laid in front of a fan with our central air running and just couldn't cool down...but that didn't throw me into a panic, just frustration!
Im sorry, i answer this late. You didn't have minor stroke, otherwise, believe me, you wouldn't be able to do anything. When I had my sunstroke first that didn't throw me into panic, i was just a little scared. The thing is when your body is overheated it creates chemical reactions in the brain that are similar to those when you have a head injury for example. That can cause feel of anxiety and even panic which is a symptom of a vegetative nervous system breakdown or vegetative dystonia. Go see a doctor and tell him everything you've been feeling. Getting a diagnosis for your nervous system is actually quite hard so find a very good doctor =) Good luck to everyone !
When I lived in upstate NY I got SAD really really bad. I was diagnosed with clinical depression as a teenager, but once I moved to Phoenix AZ two years ago I have not had a problem with depression at all. I love love love the sun!
Thank you so much for sharing your story and what you do to conquer your anxiety.
I've had mild anxiety for a long time, and would occasionally have panic attacks. But just this past week some things have been going on making my anxiety so so bad and having small panic attacks. It helps to have someone who understands that you can talk to. I really appreciate your heart and your strength to share your struggles and your joys. I really needed to hear this!
I have both anxiety and depression and it's so difficult especially right now. Like I need to get a job to 1. make money 2. give me a reason to actually get out of bed
But my social anxiety is so bad that i even have trouble asking for applications and it's just having both is so contradictory and it makes everything so hard ugh
And I'm also avoiding going to a doctor bc I don't want to be on meds it's just shitty
Meds will help so much! Trust me and I am in the same position. I have anxiety and depression and meds helped me so much. I am also struggling with anxiety and am looking for a job too. It is a hard time looking for a job while having anxiety and depression, but you will make it so much easier for yourself if you get meds. They help the body recoup from the effects of depression and anxiety on the body and your mental state.
Meds will only mask the problem - If you want a long term fix and actually feel better forever you gotta look up neurofeedback therapy! I can't help but to spread the news! We are medication free and after the 6th session my wife stopped having severe panic attacks and after the 12th session it was like a light switch turned on! If you're in colorado then visit coloradoclearmind.com or you are welcome to check out some info their anyways - but seriously OH MY GOSH I can't say enough great things about the Clear Mind program and what neurofeedback will do for you!!
:( i really wish you feel better soon!!
I have the same problem! Im 27 now and ive had it since I wS 12. Been on all kinds of medicines and it helps a tiny bit. Paxil is horrific fyi. Anyways, every day is different but Its still a struggle 😞
GlamKittyKat I hate Paxil!
i watch your videos every time you upload them, but i don't think i've ever commented on one.
i've been suffering from social phobia and severe depression for the past 7 years (?) due to a lot of very personal situations. i always enjoy listening to other people's stories that have to do with anxiety/depression because i'm too nervous to open up to people about my own situation. i like having that comfort of knowing i'm not crazy. if that makes sense, haha.
thank you for uploading this! i know it must have been difficult.
Pain doesn't last forever. There are good days just like there are bad days! Try and search for the good
I have a stutter, so i was anxiety quite a lot, I can not go to KFC or McDonald because i was nerve of stuttering when ordering my meal i also felt that the people in the cue may laugh or get angry while waiting , so i stay away from them fast food places, I got bullied in High school, during that time my mum and dad got a divorce and my mum left the house, so i was going down a hole and i could not find a way out of. I became so depressed that on weekends i would not even go out or answer the door or go out with friends or even pick up the phone if anyone rang. During this time suicide thoughts started to get into my head because i just had enough, but i have a dream on becoming a singer, so that changed my whole look on life, I had a dream, a focus in my life that i did not have before, Even though People have throw me down, I am always going to fly.
"I don't know what I will do if I wake up with anxiety for the rest of my life" aaaaaaaand tears. That spoke to the heart of my fear of my mental illness. Being in the middle of it makes it feel like it will never end, but the truth is it won't last forever. ❤️ Thank you for sharing this.
it's so weird i prayed to God to take away my Anxiety and it worked. I kinda don't want to believe it but in the same time I want too.
That is honestly what I do every single time. My prayer is always God please take this away. I leave this situation in your hands you are in control. And it works. It really does.
As long as it works who cares what it was/is.
I don't pray for God to take it away from me I just ask him to help me through it
PhoenixSOD if that worked for you then everyday i will pray for a beautiful girlfriend and maybe he will hear me
+Pokeflirt obviously its about how pure your intention is. There's a reason some prayers arent answered.
I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, panic disorder and bulimia about 2 years ago. I didn't graduate high school on time because of it (school was one of my biggest triggers), and I was put on a medication immediately to basically keep me somewhat functional. 3 months ago my prescription was tripled. In the midst of all of this, I lost close friends and my boyfriend of two and a half years left me because I was "crazy". He was scared of his reputation of being with someone who is mentally ill. With many attempts and self harm, Im surprised to even still be here. I have been in and out of therapy and counselling, hospital visits, medication changes, etc. I found life unbearable. But then in July I started youtube and I finally got my letter announcing that I graduated high school (better late than never right?? hahah). I may have lost nearly all my friends and the person who I thought I was in love with but now I feel like I am in such a better place. I don't know if Ill ever be fully ok, but I feel better at least. I have the most amazing supporting family and Ive met people on here that are truly genuine and caring people. So thank you for having the courage to upload this Kathleen. People like you make me feel like there is hope and that I will be strong enough to make it through this. You are such a beautiful person and I completely idolize you for everything you do
You are beyond strong and beautiful, and deserve nothing but pure happiness. I hope your future is as bright as you are, and that you find people who are lucky enough to be friends with such an amazing person! Xoxox❤️
honestly thank you for all of your kind words, i cried (in a good way) at each of your comments. People like you guys make me feel like I made the right decision to stay here and fight. Thank you so so much !!
I can't explain to you how much you made me feel better.
I Love this So much. I suffer from moderate anxiety but deep depression and it SUCKS. I cried so much during this video but it's nice to see that Others can Relate and I am Truly not Alone. I Love how Real you are and how Down to Earth and just Genuine. thank you for being so open about this
Your so right about deleting. Negative people. And finding happy people but TBH it's hard to find people like that. In my hs I can barely find people like that. I hate to be alone and nobody is. I've enough to actually be close to. And those who are are still kinda hard to communicate. It's tough. Good people who are easy to talk to are very hard to find. It's depressing
Journal writing is a habit but I write all the bad moments. It's usually happy moments I keep inside but let out the bad stuff and ya reading it is tough also
I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression and I'm on quite strong medication to help it.
A few months ago I used to smoke everyday, do drugs, drink all the time till I passed out. It was a really horrible time. I did this stuff because it settled my anxiety down and I felt free.. I started cutting and was sent to hospital a lot of times for attempting. The sad thing was I was only 13-14 during this time.. No child should have to live life like that.
Then one day I just wanted to stop living that way. I went to the doctors I got help, got on the right medication and I'm so proud of myself for doing it (leaving the house was a very big struggle for me).
I've been drug and alcohol free for 5 ish months now and my life is 100x better!
If anyone else is struggling please get help! You won't regret it.
That's truly amazing. Congratulations.
Congrats on your clean time. I've self medicated and that lead me to a lifestyle of addiction. I'm very glad you got help early and hope you focus on recovery. You're doing great so keep it up. You may have heard this before, but take it one day( minute, hour, etching) at a time. Xo
Thankyou Alli and Kathleen xx
Aww, I wish I could reach through my computer and give you a big hug. Thank you for sharing your story
Relaxation therapy really helped me.
Other things that help me is Tension Tamer Tea (it's the same brand as Sleepytime) or chamomile tea. And no caffeine or stimulant type things.
Lol I said the same thing!
About wanting to reach through and hug her.
Kathleen,
Vulnerability is a sign of strength. You just showed strength in this video by sharing your story, and you are a hero by giving people the sense of comfort knowing they are not alone and they can have someone to relate to. You have encouraged so many people and helped so many. You are a beautiful person, and I have much respect for you! :)
Thanks for sharing your anxiety story. I have anxiety too so I completely understand! Hugs!
and BTW, a really brilliant lesson that can be learned from having anxiety, is that, 'this too shall pass'. that nothing - no thing - lasts forever.. one of the greatest tools for me years ago, was to learn how to separate my mind from my body DURING an attack, and be more of a witness of what was happening to me and not emotionally engage IN the anxiety, and i could understand that this would pass, and that id be ok. xo
+Kerry Ford Except for true love, at least that's what I tell myself to have something to hold on to :)
+Kerry Ford eckhart tolle!
Well some things do last forever like some diseases. For example my boyfriend found out he has diabetes lika a month ago and he will have to live with that hes whole life unless they find a cure which sadly is pretty unlikely. Also diabetes is a really hard life-threatening disease that changes your whole everyday life which many people don't know or understand. When my bf got to the hospital they told him that if he would have stayed home for another two days hw would have been dead. And all this happened about a month ago after we had been dating for 3 weeks so yeah... Sorry I just had to complain a little 😅 hope you understand
+Kerry Ford How do practice/ learn to do that? My anxiety is just horrible. I feel like I've tried so many things and still can not get it together.
+Felicia Ybañez .....Reasearch ..CBD....for anxiety.
Anxiety is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I've always had anxiety issues. I developed ptsd after an incident with a babysitter and still don't like being hugged or touched. I grew up in a very mentally abusive household, my parents fought all the time growing up and my dad had a horrible temper. i have horrible social skills due to the mental abuse I went through. In the year before I turned 18 I lost my aunt, a girl who was like my sister died from meningitis and another friend was shot which is crazy in a small town.They finally started the divorce process when I was 18. I got married at 19 and after moving in with my husband my anxiety went away a lot but when he deployed a few months ago it started coming back. I have an arrow on my ankle (I got it before the arrow craze) to remind me to keep moving forward even when it gets hard. No one I grew up with knows what I went through and why I was the way I was so most of them ended up being cut out of my life. they would tell me to stop complaining or acting like my life was so hard but they had no clue want I was dealing with.
My husband has been my anchor and I can't imagine where I would be now if he hadn't come into my life when he did.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I've been going through a lot of anxiety myself these past 2 weeks and this makes me feel like I'm not alone.
Girl this was such an appreciated video for those of us who understand. ❤
In reference to what you were saying about watching the foods that you eat: too much caffeine triggers mini panic attacks for me. which is a problem because I love coffee. So I monitor my caffeine intake now, and if my anxiety is acting up I reach for decaf.
Elizabeth Solis Really? Caffeine is a trigger for you? It helps me with anxiety. The warmth and taste and even the caffeine settle my mind.
You've helped me so much thank you for posting this
this was indeed helpful, and you are a very strong person for going though all of that. truly inspirational. i also have anxiety and its very hard to explain to people why i'm suddenly upset or anxious because sometimes i don't even know. thank you for sharing this story of yours Kathleen xx
Kathleen, I know you may not think parents show young kids the ugliness of divorce but they do. I was like 12-13 and I saw everything. My parents fought at our camp, drunk, and drove home separately, angry at each other, and left us there overnight alone. My mom once downed a bottle of ibuprofen in front of everyone in the middle of an argument. And then when they did a trial separation my mom bought a house down the street. It was all bad. I didn't take it very well either. It's caused a ton of problems in my life now.. Years later.
What a horrible story about your dad... I would totally break down too. I'm glad he is okay. Almost losing a parent isn't fun. This year my mom was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and had her esophagus removed. Did radiation and chemo. And her life is changed forever.. She can never lay flat, eat normally, bend over.. Ever again. My anxiety was so bad through her entire treatment and I bawled the entire night before her surgery. In 5 years they can declare her cancer free.
I tried something like Xanax once and it made me worse. I hated it and got crazy withdrawals for months trying to come off of it.
I also have always had social anxiety and a bit of health anxiety. I've been to the hospital for anxiety related stuff as well. It's not a great experience. I have had panic attacks since high school and when I saw a psychologist recently, she said she thinks it's complex PTSD. With some agoraphobia (which is the fear of leaving the house.. For me I can leave if I am with someone who makes me feel safe but I still am a bit panicky)
I was also prescribed a pill for panic attacks. Clonazepam / Ativan or something. But I'm too afraid to take it. Maybe one day I will and it will really help me too. Thanks for sharing your story, it's sometimes hard to see the human in such a beautiful, composed and charismatic UA-camr such as yourself. It really sucks when it feels like people don't understand and think you are crazy. Especially when you are disabled by it and need all the help you can get. Wish I could continue seeing my psychologist.. It's stupid that healthcare is only for people with money .. Not working =no benefits = expensive medical care =prolonged illness :/ ugh. And yes anxiety and stress can make you physically sick and in pain if you aren't careful!
"This too shall pass " is one of my favourite sayings. So cool you like it too.
Take care.
Keyana Nicole thank you for sharing this ♡