[TM] The Man Inside You (dysphoria comfort for trans-men)

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  • Опубліковано 8 вер 2024
  • This audio is suitable for trans-men.
    This is a platonic dysphoria comfort audio that is hopefully appropriate for trans-men of all kinds, whether they've begun their transition or not. Be warned that it does address seeing a 'woman in the mirror' and this may be triggering for you. I've included the entire script below so you can decide whether this audio is right for you:
    Hey, I saw you were feeling dysphoric. I'm so sorry, I can see that you're hurting. I don't know what it's like, but I want to support you, okay? What you're feeling is valid, and it's okay to feel this way sometimes.
    This doesn't make you any less of a man, and we both know that. Sometimes you'll see the woman in the mirror and she'll be all you can see, but I promise you that one day she'll be gone. I know there's a man inside you, and I can see him shining through, but it must feel awful to feel trapped in your own body sometimes.
    It won't always be like that, I promise. I know sometimes it feels hopeless and the future feels a million miles away, but it's coming. Today sucks, and it's okay to feel that way. You've had bad days before and they didn't last forever. This day will pass, this feeling, it won't last forever. You'll get through it. Tomorrow will come. And the day after that. And you'll keep working to make your body more reflective of who you are inside. Day by day, you'll get a little closer to who you truly are. And one day you'll realise that you're there. You'll be you, a handsome, wonderful man, inside and out. That might seem hard to believe right now, in the pit of depression and dysphoria, but I can see it. I see that hope, that future. I see that person. Some days it's easier than others, but I see him. I see you. I can see him now, even if you can't, and I'm seeing him more and more often lately, which makes me so happy and proud.
    You're stronger than you think, and I know it's hard right now, but things are going to get better. You'll get there. I just wanted to say that you're doing really well and I'm proud of you.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 337

  • @vampurr1
    @vampurr1 7 років тому +654

    im a transgender man who's pre-everything and my family isn't the most supportive so hearing this helps alot thank you 💙

    • @Imnotallergictopeanuts
      @Imnotallergictopeanuts 6 років тому +14

      Dylan Alexander I’m pre everything too, I hope that your family will come around soon for your sake.

    • @vampurr1
      @vampurr1 6 років тому +6

      Jesus lived in A motel room thank you, I really hope so too.

    • @codsterbee
      @codsterbee 6 років тому +7

      Dylan Alexander I'm pre everything too and my family don't accept me sadly

    • @JoaoSantos-yl7cx
      @JoaoSantos-yl7cx 6 років тому +3

      Same here ;-;

    • @snowpiercer9111
      @snowpiercer9111 6 років тому +5

      万里Hyukoh How are you now?

  • @myersreal
    @myersreal 6 років тому +446

    *_i’m not crying i’m fine_*

  • @kotafortine3309
    @kotafortine3309 6 років тому +120

    Today I woke up shaking horribley. I took a shower, and I began to cry.. where's all my body hair? Why is my voice so high? I need to unzip this meat suit already. This isnt me..
    This video helped so much. Thank you..

  • @multiplefandoms3162
    @multiplefandoms3162 7 років тому +305

    I've listened to this like 10 times because it helps me with my dysphoria sooo much

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +37

      I'm so glad, thank you for letting me know, sweetheart.

    • @nickolas361
      @nickolas361 6 років тому +1

      Multiple Fandoms same

    • @Fly0nthefl00r
      @Fly0nthefl00r 5 років тому +12

      Same... I havent cried in so long... This past week ive been suicidal and tired of pretending to be a girl. Like an hour ago I was holding back from hurting myself.. This helped

    • @mushcowwtv
      @mushcowwtv 5 років тому

      This made me cry. Thank you

  • @ikianatrinidad5519
    @ikianatrinidad5519 6 років тому +142

    i simply breached the subject of FTM transgenders and my parents lost it😢 their not even Christian their just not suportive of it ive dropped some hints for them but they see them as jokes and they tell me its not funny... I've been feeling so choked or backed up into a corner that ive become so agrivated, moody, and have had a serious amount of lack of appetite. i at the very begining did not understand but i listend to you a while back for the first time... i didnt understand why i was tearing up... i watched this video at least a dozen times till i came to the realization that you were speaking to me not the me on the outside but the me thats been trying to get my attention for years. The man inside me that i have ignored to please my family while making myself miserable. i want to thank you for opening my eyes and making me come a step closer to understanding the me ive been trying to hide in vain... Thank You So Much💓

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  6 років тому +26

      Good boy. I'm proud of you. This was a lovely, heartfelt message to read. I'm really glad you're beginning to explore your gender and identity, and that you can find some comfort in this audio. Please listen to it and continue to explore. Talk to some of the other trans guys here, perhaps, and find communities of other people to learn from and talk with. You can absolutely do this!

    • @annexdagoose370
      @annexdagoose370 5 років тому +8

      I can feel your pain man. My family is hardcore Christians except for my cousin who accepts me as a man. (He is also an atheist) my family makes me feel bad by belittling LGBT+ people. My mom is trying to understand but the others don’t know I’m trans (FTM) and I’m scared to tell them because I know their against it. My stepdad doesn’t accept me and it’s very hard to deal with my dysforia. I do hope one day I can take my cousins offer to move in with him since he supports me. I want you to try to hang in there, and I’ll try too. I hope we both make it to a happy and healthy life in the future.😊

    • @annexdagoose370
      @annexdagoose370 5 років тому +4

      P.S
      Try to find people even one person who accepts you, I’ve learned that it helps a lot.

  • @beansbrother9604
    @beansbrother9604 6 років тому +92

    i don't wanna admit it, but i'm so close to crying because jesus christ it feels good to hear this

  • @allisynweisenberger1941
    @allisynweisenberger1941 5 років тому +43

    My mom doesn’t really understand trans people, so I can’t transition until I am 18. I am happy I found this video; it really helps. Thank you so much! I’m honestly crying right now.

  • @percybartelt6912
    @percybartelt6912 6 років тому +98

    I legit cried, but it was good tears. This video described how today was for me, and I thank you so much for this. You have no idea.

    • @mushcowwtv
      @mushcowwtv 5 років тому

      Same. This was comforting.

  • @bambina_monique1107
    @bambina_monique1107 7 років тому +118

    My friend is trans and would love this so much I'm going to send it to him right now🤗

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +23

      That's wonderful, I hope he enjoys it! You're a lovely friend to him.

    • @bambina_monique1107
      @bambina_monique1107 7 років тому +13

      Rainy Day Audios thanks that means a lot for you to say 😊🤗

    • @justinluke8308
      @justinluke8308 3 роки тому +5

      You're actually an amazing friend

    • @LDXReal
      @LDXReal 3 роки тому +3

      You're such a compassionate friend 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @ashv.8339
    @ashv.8339 7 років тому +266

    I'm literally tearing up right now! I am hoping to transition into becoming a man, but my parents want me to think about it for a loooong time, longer than I think I can wait. Thank you so much for this video and for being here for a wide variety of people. You are inclusive of everyone and don't discriminate against particular people. I can't thank you enough!

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +32

      It sounds like you're already a man, sweetheart, you'll just be making your body reflect that. Perhaps you can explore your gender in ways other than hormonally, such as the way you dress, the activities you try, or roleplaying male characters in games or fiction. Even if you end up identifying as something else, your gender is whatever you say it is. You might only feel like you're a man some of the time, or feel like another label fits you better. Regardless, you are valid and wonderful exactly as you are. I hope you find happiness and fulfillment in whatever form it takes. Thank you for listening and letting me know what this audio meant to you.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +4

      Amy Verdi my mate, you're a dude, and Rainy Audio is right there's other ways of expressing it and sometimes you can actually train your voice to be lower till you can medically transition, y'know how singers practice singing to make their voices better? You can do the same to make yours sound lower, plus wearing shirts a few sizes bigger helps sometimes. Plus having nicknames for some of the things that bother you might help. (Sorry if this is TMI or triggering, it's an example I like to use and it helps me out). Okay, for an example I call that time of the month a phantom, I call it that because... You know how sometimes when someone looses a limb and sometimes that part that is gone sometimes hurts or goes numb, well I think of it that way as it's my body trying to circulate to the missing part of my body (a dick), I hope that example can help you and I'm sorry if I weirded you out or triggered you.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +2

      And for the lower voice thing, hum to lower sounds keep go till you find you like and practice speaking in that voice around close friends or a tree if you want. That's what I been doing for the past 2-3 years, of course I have to go to my normal pitch around family, but by yourself or around people who'll support you try the trick it might help you a little, and I highly suggest to keep water around, you're gonna wind up with a sore throat other wise, but either way, much luck to you.

    • @ashv.8339
      @ashv.8339 7 років тому +1

      Gummi Yeah, I'm lucky because I have a naturally pretty low voice. I always sing in the lower range, as that's where I'm most comfortable. However, my old voice coach and my chorus teacher don't want me singing where I like to (pretty low) because it's bad for my voice in the long run. Even so, I still down there. I do dress like a man and basically all of my clothes are from the men's section. I also cut my hair short. Even so, I still look like a female. While I try to control it, I always get a bit annoyed when I get called a "she". I have been able to convince my parents to call me "Ash" (a nickname) along with my friends. However, they are not willing to call me a he. I have been thinking about transitioning for about 2 years, but as I said before, I will have to wait a while before I am allowed to make any medical changes to my body. Thanks for the advice!

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +2

      We're in a similar boat then, Ash, I mean I like my birth name (Fenlee), and I don't have a naturally low pitch, but as I said I practice making my voice sound lower than what it is, and most the time people (who don't know me) gender me correctly till I of course speak, but that's okay I guess, win some you'll lose some. I keep my hair short as well (sorta get by with it, since I'm in JROTC and no, I'm not planning to join the military, I'll sing up for the draft, but I'm not going into the military), and my family refused to call me he and when I first tried coming out... I almost died from it (not from out side forces, just me, I was gonna do it), so I decided to just wait till I'm on my own to come out again and medically transition. Even at that if you have to, just correct them mentally or read the "she" "her" or whatever word they use associated with females and read it with a male one instead... it's what I do. cx

  • @69bee69
    @69bee69 7 років тому +135

    ngl i teared up a bit😖 i get constantly misgendered because im pre-everything and im not the most masculine person but things like this are so so helpful to listen to when im feeling shitty💜💜 you're such a sweet person and we're so lucky to have people like you around!!!😁

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +17

      Thank you for letting me know, sweetheart. I really appreciate that. Masculinity and maleness are two different things, even though society often confuses them. You don't need to be masculine to be a man and you're valid exactly as you are, whether you transition or not. I've never been misgendered and can't know your pain, but I'm overjoyed to be able to help soothe it a bit. No matter what happens, this is a safe place and you're always welcome here, okay? These audios are always here for you and you'll always be seen as the man you are.

    • @69bee69
      @69bee69 7 років тому +6

      thank you so much you're so sweet we honestly need more people like you!!!!

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +7

      elliot Dude I know how you feel, people usually get confused on what I am, and for the moment I have to misgender myself for the sake of my mom, it sucks, but the bright side is that at the end of the day you know who you are, you're a guy I'm a guy and that's all the counts.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +5

      Also did you know there was a way to train your voice to sound lower, all you do is you practice humming at lower pitches while tilting your head back it sorta works, but sometimes slowly training your voice to be lower with the humming a lone can sometimes do the trick, don't make it obviously low, just at a different pitch (I say this because it will hurt your throat, so doing it gradually will help). Also if you can't get a binder try using a few sports bras and for packing if that's an issue of yours, get a bundled sock and tape it or tie it to your under wear, it'll make it look like you have something there. Another thing with underwear if your parents won't let you get boxers or briefs get female briefs they kinda look like guy ones and they're pretty comfortable.

  • @francineg2276
    @francineg2276 7 років тому +113

    **breaks down door** guESS WHO FOUND AN AUDIO FOR WHEN MY CLASSMATES ARE DICKS (ps sorry about the door)

  • @jamilstopleftsnake4900
    @jamilstopleftsnake4900 4 роки тому +8

    I heard man and started to cry- nobody ever calls me a man and it’s such a powerful feeling to be called one

  • @pastatango6339
    @pastatango6339 4 роки тому +8

    I was crying because how dysphoric my family was making me feel but now I’m crying because of how accepted I feel??? W hAt?! Thank you??

  • @troymihoyminoy3889
    @troymihoyminoy3889 4 роки тому +15

    I came out to my family and started hormones, and while they weren't totally opposed to it, they aren't supporting me either. It's a horrible limbo, I kind of wish they screamed and yelled at me rather than ignore everything of importance I said. I've been the most depressed I've been in years. I'm so deep in my sadness and frustration right now.

    • @xxcyber7216
      @xxcyber7216 Рік тому +2

      How are you doing now 2 years later?

    • @null5180
      @null5180 Рік тому +1

      I’m in this place rn, it’s literally hell. I hope you’re feeling a little better, we will both get through this

  • @mikhail2625
    @mikhail2625 5 років тому +10

    I've been feeling so dysphoric lately, everyday I keep having meltdowns and I feel like I can't take it. This week has been the worst so far, but I'm glad I came across this video. Today I wasn't crying bc of dysphoria, I had happy tears in my eyes because of what you said. Whenever I feel dysphoric, I'll be sure to come back to this video and remember what you said. Thank you so much ♡

  • @rightbehindyou.
    @rightbehindyou. 4 роки тому +12

    "I saw you were feeling dysphoric"
    Me: *peace signs in the mirror with dried tears* pff nah fam thanks to you

  • @Imnotallergictopeanuts
    @Imnotallergictopeanuts 6 років тому +44

    I’m luck to have supportive parents and friends, yeah biological I might be “female” but by nature I’m really not even my mum thinks so, I’m not in t until next year (because of my age) and luckily I pass socially and none of my friends can tell I’m that I’m not cis, but my god does dyphoria get aggravating, frustrating and overall depressing. I can’t sleep and I just wanted to say what the hell has the earth done to deserve such an understand and kind dude like you?

  • @fluffraptor1314
    @fluffraptor1314 6 років тому +12

    45 seconds into this audio and I'm already smiling really wide and tearing up. Thank you so much for this!

  • @fenleevolquooper4260
    @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +53

    Thank you for the video, it was really needed, I can't start right now because of me 1. not out 2. I can't come out due to parents, but I just keep in mind I only have two more years of highschool, and I'll beable to start one day.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +7

      I'm sorry you have to wait, but hopefully this will help to make it a little more bearable until then. You'll get there. Stay strong!

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +3

      Rainy Day Audios thank you, I only have two more years of highschool as I said, I'm just greatful my mom lets me do what I want with my hair and I'm not as big as some guys... Just gotta look on the brightside.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +2

      That's the spirit. Take small steps towards your goals and remember it isn't a race, it's a journey. You'll get there eventually, even if it isn't as quick as you'd like. There are always people who want to help, including loads of wonderful internet resources for trans kids struggling to cope with it. You're not alone.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +1

      Rainy Day Audios besides that, I have a friend who's also trans his name is Alecks, he gotten the school to agree to start a GSA (it's basically a club based on the LGBTQ+).

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +2

      Rainy Day Audios well even then I'm turning 18 in February so... Maybe I can secretly start then?

  • @comet8956
    @comet8956 6 років тому +10

    oof my dysphoria’s really bad right now, but thank you for this video

  • @amillionmilos9314
    @amillionmilos9314 7 років тому +30

    your voice is so calming, it really helps.

  • @chelseasmith2603
    @chelseasmith2603 6 років тому +10

    Rainy, can you get any better? Its like you're here with me, thankyou so much for this. Even my parents dont accept me for being trans so knowing that you're accepting makes me feel a little loved. Thankyou for being amazing ♡

  • @xxnoodle_armsxx6380
    @xxnoodle_armsxx6380 3 роки тому +6

    I'm here cuz my aunt has this "us girls gotta stick together" attitude she keeps directing towards me and this really made me so happy since I just spent the entire day constantly being called a girl by her, thank you

  • @athena3165
    @athena3165 7 років тому +33

    I've never clicked so fast on a notification before lol, even if this video doesn't really apply to me I still love it!
    Update: I have now fully accepted, I am genderfluid. Thank you for your videos.

  • @totallyoutofit6989
    @totallyoutofit6989 3 роки тому +6

    I often get dysphoric around my cis brothers, and it happened today. This made me feel better.

  • @elliotthemonster7574
    @elliotthemonster7574 7 років тому +12

    Oh my gosh thank you so much for making this I feel like there's no one to
    Comfort me when I feel dysphoria and this helped a lot amazing video thanks

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +4

      You're absolutely welcome. You're not alone here, there's actually quite a lot of trans folks here, and you might even like to reach out to some of them!

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +4

      I know how you feel man, but I got tips for ya'. (if you're in the closet like me and can't seem to find a way to come out and all that jazz, then let me tell ya' some tips), okay first one binding if you can't get a binder try to wear a couple (no more than two, you'll so sore you can't move your upper back if you do three or more). If you have disphoria with your lower half use a pair of balled up socks (Y'know that are folded to get in a bunny ear looking sort of thing) and tape or tie it down to your underwear. Underwear if you can't get men's, I highly suggest women's briefs they're comfortable and they don't look that different from male briefs. Voice (unless you have a naturally low pitch) humming at lower pitches to warm your voice up and then speak in the low hum (without humming of course). Here's to a TMI topic (sorry if I trigger you in any shape or form, but this it's how I cope with menstrual stuff) I call it a phantom or a phantom dick, I do this because you know when someone loses a limb, sometimes the body tries to send blood there forgetting it's gone and the feeling of losing it returns, well that how I feel about that, I feel like that part of me just didn't come and my body is freaking out trying to complete the circulation of blood (I know that's not the real reason, but it still helps to pretend that's why) and it seeps out for a week or whatever. Hair cuts, when looking for a hair cut look for what you want with a female picture (I know it sucks, but it''s how I sneak what I want passed my mom). Also with clothes sometimes I sneak guy shirts and tell my mom they're female or I sneakily pay for them myself when I can, but even then at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how mask or fem you look, because what matters is at the end of the day you know who you are. You're a man you're male don't let you or your mind say other wise I know it's hard, but it'll get better because one day you'll be independent on your own and you can do whatever (as long as it's legal) you want. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and if you need a shoulder I'm here. (If you want) My kik is SomethingGrmx and my Skype is Fenlee. (add the dot).

    • @elliotthemonster7574
      @elliotthemonster7574 7 років тому +2

      Gummi thanks for the tips

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +1

      Anytime.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому +4

      These are good tips, and I'm proud of you for supporting others. Just a word to the wise that binding can be *very* unsafe and can potentially cause massive physical damage if done improperly. Please check your facts and look up a variety of reputable guides for binding if that's something you're going to do. You do *not* want to permanently damage your ribs or any other area of your body. I might suggest this guide, though take it with a grain of salt and do your research: minus18.org.au/index.php/resources/sexuality-info/item/441-how-to-bind-your-chest

  • @SR-jj9si
    @SR-jj9si 7 років тому +3

    This made me cry, a few seconds into it. Thank you so much. I didn't know I needed this until I found it.

  • @IAmLifeDominant
    @IAmLifeDominant 5 років тому +5

    I just found this and I'm already lowkey crying. It almost gave me shivers because it felt like you were right there beside me. I'm a transman who's been off T for a while for several reasons, but I've been having some bad days lately. And that...that felt like words I've been wanting to hear from a partner for years. I'm sorry if that sounds weird, but it shook me. Thank you for this.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  5 років тому +1

      Not weird at all, man. You're in good company here, there are lots of transmen and transboys who find comfort in my audios. I've got a few specifically for trans guys and others just for guys in general, so whether you want some dysphoria comfort, romantic audios, rambles to pass the time or whatever else, you'll hopefully find some stuff that helps.

  • @seroberts
    @seroberts 3 роки тому +4

    I'm trans-masc and I haven't come out to my family bc I know they won't be very supportive, and I'm pre everything. The whole time I was listening to this I was saying "don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry"
    Absolutely amazing video, it truly inspires me to work through my bad days. Thank you so much. ❤
    Edit: I came out to my mom today and she wasn't very accepting of me. Felt like crap so I immediately came to this video. Very greatful for you channel dude. Thank you

  • @noface141
    @noface141 6 років тому +5

    Thank you so much for making this. Ive been listening to this all the time and it really boosts my spirits. Your videos just give me this feeling of security and safety and overall make me smile. Would you mind making more videos about trans boys that are pre-testosterone therapy? I would really appreciate it if you could.

  • @jaredlikesmusic
    @jaredlikesmusic 5 років тому +3

    I actually cried
    I have insanely bad anxiety on top of my dysphoria (hence why I watch way too much ASMR haha) but my god, this helped with everything. I’m pre-t and unable to get a binder of my own, so anything like this makes a world of difference when I’m struggling to even make it through the day. Thank you for existing and making wonderful videos like this. 🙏

  • @Anoniii
    @Anoniii 2 роки тому +3

    I accidentally tapped on this and I do not regret at all. This was amazing and honestly made me so f**kin happy.

  • @toxiigoop_
    @toxiigoop_ 3 роки тому +3

    Hey man I just came out to my mom and it did not go well. She told me I won’t be able to take hormones or have surgery until I’m 18. This video made me cry like a baby. Thank you for making this, and though it doesn’t change my situation, it makes it a little better

  • @sxckerpunched
    @sxckerpunched 5 років тому +2

    OMG my eyes are sweating thank you so much

  • @kawaiiqueen3292
    @kawaiiqueen3292 7 років тому +18

    I love this ❤

  • @dylanoliver4861
    @dylanoliver4861 6 років тому +1

    wow, i actually cried a bit haha. i think you said literally everything i needed to hear, and put it into a wording not many other people have managed to before. even little things, like mentioning that there's days where it's not that bad really helped, because a main worry of mine is i'm not valid when i lack dysphoria.
    so thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. you're an incredible person.

  • @frogboyo3186
    @frogboyo3186 5 років тому +10

    *cries in transgender*
    OOF MY HEART--

  • @williamlieske4503
    @williamlieske4503 5 років тому +3

    HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME CRY AGAIN >:(

  • @franciscus_2
    @franciscus_2 2 роки тому +1

    Found this video again when I was feeling really depressed and even suicidal. No one tells me these things, and man did I need to hear them. This helped calm me down. Thank you

  • @robindabare630
    @robindabare630 3 роки тому +1

    i was having a panic attack about top surgery and how i can’t afford it, i’m not crying or hyperventilating anymore- this calmed me down and make me feel comfortable, thank you so much

  • @fenleevolquooper4260
    @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому +19

    Y'know in a way, I never see "the woman in the mirror" just sometimes when I see myself I feel like a freaking... u pervert if that makes any sense, I know i"m not I'm very respectful of people's spaces and all that, but when i see my self I don't feel trapped, I just feel like I'm in someone else's body, y'know like those movies or shows when they have a mind / body swap. (I know I comment a lot on here, just saying my way of feeling for anyone else who feels this way).

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому

      Interesting, more voyeurism than being trapped in the wrong body. Some people might relate to that better. Thank you for sharing that.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому

      I mean it's not exactly the "right " body, it's just like I said, I feel like I some how swapped bodies with someone, I know it's mine, but it doesn't feel it's mine, if that makes it sound less creepy, also I didn't think of it as voyeurism, but thanks for that gave another perspective of it.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому

      Yeah, I can see what you mean by that, a Freaky Friday kind of thing. Interesting.

    • @fenleevolquooper4260
      @fenleevolquooper4260 7 років тому

      Yeah, except it's every day, but uh yeah I also have another side on my head the conflicts with me as well I was raised with religious parents so I have some internalized hate from that I still have to go Sunday and Wednesday so I get to hear what I already think in my head about myself over and over, I mean I don't hate the religion they're a nice group of people give you the shirt right off their backs, but it doesn't help to be told twice a week what I already think in my mind, I'm constantly mentally arguing with myself over this. Honestly this is why I am an atheist, at least I think I am, but like I said that piece of my brain with the 17 years of being told one thing and one thing only. I promise I'm fine though, I'm not crazy I just tend to argue with myself all the time, sometimes mentally or I say it out loud in a hushed tone.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  7 років тому

      That's understandable, internalised guilt and self-hatred from religion is common, unfortunately. None of that is actually in line with the true meaning behind religion, it's just people's misinterpretations and bigotry coming out. There's nothing wrong with you and if there is a God, they made you how they wanted you to be: trans.

  • @user-yf5oy7tk4n
    @user-yf5oy7tk4n 3 роки тому +1

    I was just having a breakdown because of my dysphoria and then this video popped up in my recommendations, thank you so very much, it's really helpful, I'm still crying, but it's the happiness tears now

  • @Horrorangell
    @Horrorangell 5 років тому +1

    thank you so much for making this video. i ended up crying and that's rare. i don't get validated in my everyday life, and so I dont really realize that i need the support and validation sometimes.

  • @gaylord_vinvin
    @gaylord_vinvin 5 років тому +1

    This made me cry. I'm pre everything, my parents are unsupportive. my mom found my binder and threw it way, this really helped me, thank you. This made me feel a lot better

  • @theroachfck
    @theroachfck Рік тому +1

    I am a trans male, and this made me feel so much better, I cannot express how happy this made me, even me cry a little thank you so much

  • @evries6396
    @evries6396 4 роки тому +1

    I find myself coming back to this video a lot, thank you for this

  • @dracodevilchildmalfoy366
    @dracodevilchildmalfoy366 4 роки тому +1

    I’m pre-everything and not passing at all and this helps so so much and I’m literally sobbing because I really needed to hear this

  • @Felix-ul3mu
    @Felix-ul3mu 5 років тому +1

    I have a lovely family and supportive friends, but my dysphoria is utterly crippling. It gets to a point where even when I’m feeling good I want to die. This helps. A lot. I just love it. Thank you.

  • @Alex-nr3yi
    @Alex-nr3yi 8 місяців тому +1

    This made me feel so much better I cried and smiled at the same time I can’t even I’m a fabulous boy he’s right

  • @AnoukhHellstream
    @AnoukhHellstream 5 років тому +1

    wow, this legit poked at all my feels. Insta tears on this. Im a pre-everything, still closeted, 30 year old FTM that has been repressing his feelings ever since early teens. I couldn't even go past halfway of this or i might have had a total collapse. So to all you out there, do not bottle up. Do not press down your feelings into a small box for later use. I cannot even watch anything that remotely reminds me of my dysphoria without having a complete depressive meltdown.

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  5 років тому

      I'm sorry you're going through that man, but it sounds like it might be what you need. Those feelings are telling you something pretty important about what you want and who you are. It sounds like accessing them and letting them out will be a difficult experience but ultimately a positive one. Once you've listened to those feelings and accepted yourself, you're likely to feel much better about yourself and recognise what you want in life so you can start to work towards that. I'd also highly recommend talking to a therapist or gender specialist about this, they can really help you sort it out.
      Best of luck

  • @Victorian_Femboy
    @Victorian_Femboy 2 роки тому

    PLEASE I'M CRYING AHHH I NEVER FELT SO EXCEPTED IN MY LIFE THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

  • @teamcharlisle9668
    @teamcharlisle9668 3 роки тому

    Ive listened to a bunch of audios for dysphoria and i think this has to be one of the best it’s so comforting:,)

  • @ohno6434
    @ohno6434 3 роки тому

    i dont know how to thank the people who made this video, this is genuinely exactly what i needed

  • @DpDepresso
    @DpDepresso 3 роки тому +1

    Came out to my family recently, didn’t go to well. It feels so comforting listening to this, even though I’m crying 😅 theyre good tears tho ❤️

  • @Ashlolz
    @Ashlolz 3 роки тому

    I've been having a lot of dysphoria this week and I just found this and I'm crying. I finally feel validated. Thank you so much.

  • @Fly0nthefl00r
    @Fly0nthefl00r 5 років тому +2

    This is the first time ive cried in months... OMG this relates so much to me.. Im crying so much right now.. Ive been suicidal all night and this is just I BROKE

  • @eliaaron.8852
    @eliaaron.8852 5 років тому

    Thank you so fucking much for this. I am in tears, just having that voice that “I support you, what your feeling is valid” really just made me so happy so much thank you so much

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  5 років тому

      You're very welcome! A lot of my listeners are trans guys, and I've got a fair few audios for them. Here's a playlist of them: ua-cam.com/play/PLGgw8pcV96_xdX17lkQdqhCOIdgdSUe7N.html

  • @godrock24
    @godrock24 3 роки тому +1

    I love your video it really helped me. Today was definitely a horrible day and I think it would only get worse. But seeing your video made my day way better! Thank you so much! 💙

  • @largefries3564
    @largefries3564 5 років тому

    I'm almost sobbing. This is great. This is more than comforting. It's giving me hope. Thank you.

  • @jujubeebles5079
    @jujubeebles5079 6 років тому +1

    This makes me feel way better aaa
    Update: I CAME OUT TO MY DAD LAST NIGHT!! HE WAS SUPER COOL ABOUT IT AND KNEW WAY BEFOREHAND THAT I WAS TRANS!! NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS TALK TO HIM ABOUT MY NAME, PRONOUNS AND MAYBE STARTING HORMONES INT THE NEXT YEAR

  • @drnecro1086
    @drnecro1086 5 років тому

    I just wanted to say thank you. I'm crying and I'm happy because you've helped me feel confident about the future, something that's been hard to feel lately. Thank you, Rainy💖

  • @isabellemiller1495
    @isabellemiller1495 6 років тому +1

    Why does this have a dislike?! This is awesome and helps so many people. It desverses more likes and no dislikes

  • @mushcowwtv
    @mushcowwtv 5 років тому

    This made me cry. This was so comforting. Thank you for making this😭😭😭😭

  • @MatheusH-iguess
    @MatheusH-iguess 5 років тому

    Thank you so much for doing this video you have no idea how many people you're helping with. Im in tears right now and feeling much better 'cause of the audio. Thanks again

  • @Kemonomi_mi
    @Kemonomi_mi 6 років тому

    Wow, this made me tear up, this helped me so much, it made me feel so loved since only my dad really seems to support me. I really needed this today, thank you so much

  • @Sacoglossa
    @Sacoglossa 3 роки тому

    I really didn't realize how badly I needed this but thank you so much, you made me feel a lot better.

  • @robinorbirdbrain
    @robinorbirdbrain 8 місяців тому

    there‘s just these moments where i‘m devoid of hope
    but we‘ll get there eventually

  • @meimai_0
    @meimai_0 3 роки тому +1

    I don’t think I’ve ever cried harder in my life. My mum keeps telling me I’m too young to know, Every year she tells me. I’m always wallowing in self doubt to the point it drives me crazy. Tonight I listened to this, calmed down, washed my face and drew some stubble at the bottom of my chin with some eyeliner. I reminded myself that I am a man. I am just as much of a man as any other. I am a man. It’s just taken me a long time to figure it out. Happy pride month, thank you so much for the beautiful affirmation to all young trans men. 🏳️‍⚧️

  • @emmettfatcheric9798
    @emmettfatcheric9798 6 років тому

    This is ABSOLUTELY STUNNING. THANKYOU SO MUCH. This helps me so much and I will listen to it whenever I'm down and am losing hope. Thankyou for giving me hope :)

  • @Luca-zd3qf
    @Luca-zd3qf 5 років тому

    I’m literally crying??? Thank you so much for this💙

  • @ashercanmakeapun4554
    @ashercanmakeapun4554 5 років тому

    It’s a national holiday today. My dys was worse yesterday because the day before I was passing so well while yesterday I had to wear something that accentuated my body. So I thought this holiday (4 of July) would suck but it’s midnight so technically it’s the holiday and I couldn’t have imagined a better start. I truly couldn’t. Thank you so much

  • @haydentrenton869
    @haydentrenton869 5 років тому

    😭 ok so I just found your account and holy crap I can’t thank you enough thank you so much this channel is helping me more than I can express but truly thank you for making these audios they help me tremendously ❤️

  • @joshpenguin6938
    @joshpenguin6938 6 років тому +1

    this made me tear up within 20 seconds oml.

  • @pissbaby6849
    @pissbaby6849 2 роки тому

    Thank you for making this!!!! My family is very unsupportive and reassurance was hard to come by for a long time. I feel a little bit more okay with myself :)

  • @elliotd7342
    @elliotd7342 2 роки тому

    Thank you so much for this, its exactly what I needed to hear and I was able to cry properly for the first time in months. Thank you

  • @ducklingdraws2920
    @ducklingdraws2920 5 років тому

    I listend to this in the beggining of my "realisation" of being trans, short after that I had a break down and started to denial the fact. I got out of that now.. Now I'm here to thank you, for actually helping me when I felt the worse

  • @Animefan-vz6mq
    @Animefan-vz6mq 6 років тому

    I love this thank you. It helps me with dealing with comments from others. On the why? I dislike it a lot and makes me sad. This comforts me.

  • @keariocabinet8836
    @keariocabinet8836 3 роки тому +1

    Three years later and I'm still crying

  • @theom6978
    @theom6978 6 років тому

    I just want to say thank you. I needed this and I'm going to need this later, I'm so glad you made this.

  • @sydneysoto6098
    @sydneysoto6098 6 років тому

    Oh my god I'm crying, this is just what I needed. Thank you so much this is so helpful. 😭🙂

  • @Sebastian-ch5ze
    @Sebastian-ch5ze 4 роки тому

    Thank you so much for this video! I really needed that. And I enjoyed the last words, “I’m proud of you”. It was a shock but it felt really nice. Thank you!

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  4 роки тому

      You're welcome, man. You might find this one helpful too, if you need to be told I'm proud of you: ua-cam.com/video/7wRCyIKNV58/v-deo.html

  • @vizx6032
    @vizx6032 6 років тому

    Wow. I really needed this today. I'm so happy to have found your channel because this is exactly what I needed. I may have teared up a little as well. 😊

  • @gaucher5188
    @gaucher5188 3 роки тому +3

    I spend the last night crying due to dysphoria and today I just find this and I’m crying at school

    • @godrock24
      @godrock24 3 роки тому +2

      Same kinda

    • @gaucher5188
      @gaucher5188 3 роки тому

      @@godrock24 courage take care of u ❤️

  • @Eddierot
    @Eddierot 5 років тому

    I live coming back to these videos because it helps me to stay good and positive even if I still don’t like my body

  • @TheSquonkOfPillingerForest
    @TheSquonkOfPillingerForest 6 років тому

    This made me smile. I was feeling kinda shitty. Then I found this channel and I didnt expect to, but I'm feeling better. Actually better. For the first time in at least two months, I genuinely don't feel like dirt. I know this audio was just made, and not made specifically for any one person but thank you. Genuinely. Thank you. I feel like I can actually face the world today. Ahh. Now. I'm gonna stop rambling. 😅 but thanks, dude. 😊

    • @rainydayaudios7754
      @rainydayaudios7754  6 років тому +1

      You're so welcome, this audio was made for people just like you, going through what you're going through, needing to hear what you needed to hear. The comments section is full of guys just like you who were feeling what you were feeling. You're not alone, and you're in good company. I've met a lot of fantastic guys like you who came here needing a little help. I'm really glad you found my channel and that it could help make you feel better.
      You're not rambling. Do me a favour and listen to another audio of mine, "Your Words Matter". That one's pretty important too. I really appreciate you letting me know how my audios helped you and what they made you feel. I value that. It isn't some bother or annoyance to me. Thank you for letting me know the value of my work. These audios, all of them, are here for you whenever you need them, however you need them. Whether it's company, comfort, a push in the right direction, some affirmation or encouragement, or just a pleasant distraction. Please let yourself use them and benefit from them. I make them to help people just like you, and that includes you.

  • @emochibis9266
    @emochibis9266 6 років тому

    Your voice is so soothing c: Ty for these kinds of videos! It helps me and so many others get through their day!

  • @ezrahills627
    @ezrahills627 5 років тому

    Okay so right now I just needed to listen to that, thank you so much, I'm a French trans man and I'm only 17 years old so it's quiet hard to me.. And only some friends know who I am but not my family so thank you for having written this helpful text

  • @weirdoparty1483
    @weirdoparty1483 6 років тому

    This made me tear up! Thank you so much for making this!

  • @inky5183
    @inky5183 3 роки тому +1

    omg thank you for this it helps so much 😭😭

  • @avenlmfao
    @avenlmfao 3 роки тому +1

    anyone else think he sounds kinda like Felix from Skz? But besides that, thank you for this. I feel so much better after listening to this.

  • @ichiroutadoll
    @ichiroutadoll 3 роки тому

    oh my god i actually cried
    thank you so much for this

  • @cheesecakevoid
    @cheesecakevoid 2 роки тому +1

    This is even more comforting due to my dad's voice sounds really similar

  • @antierkcer
    @antierkcer 3 роки тому

    This makes me happy.
    I'm a 20 year old intellectually disabled, who lives with his mom, and she misgendered me today when I already felt dysphoric because I don't have my binder on today. This helps a lot, I actually wanna cry.

  • @mk-ir2oz
    @mk-ir2oz 3 роки тому +2

    I’m a trans guy and I’m pre everything and my mom doesn’t respect my name and pronouns (I still live at home and I’m 17) this means a lot to me.. I feel seen and understood

  • @aetherwasfound4669
    @aetherwasfound4669 3 роки тому

    i won't cry over this again. i won't. i swear.

  • @user-gv6jl9qw9o
    @user-gv6jl9qw9o 2 роки тому

    This helped a lot it hit some places that needed to finally be hit I cried a lot but it’s good to finally get it out of my system thank you so much ❤️

  • @bakugoukatsuki9516
    @bakugoukatsuki9516 4 роки тому

    This is so good I’m crying cause I’m gender fluid and I always think I’m not worth anything and I will never be loved but I love this cause I know there is some one to say these words of gratitude and affection to people who listen to this and you are an amazing guy so keep doing what you do cause if I didn’t listen to you i would probably taken my life away it I didn’t because I know people love and care about me .

  • @LittlefemboyLevi
    @LittlefemboyLevi 4 роки тому

    Thank you so much for this. I really needed this right now 💕😢

  • @isabelvillalovos648
    @isabelvillalovos648 3 роки тому

    fully reduced me to tears. thank you.