Man I'm light weight going through this right now I need to slow down a bit I never drank until 3 years ago I always hated alcohol but the past few months I stopped smoking pot maybe 6 months ago and then I started drinking a bit and now I'm drinking at night a lot .
Get a handle on it before you can’t. Also, zoom meetings at aaguts. It’s world wide, gave me a lot of insight. 78 days today after nightly for 20 years.
It can creep up on you for sure. I'd suggest tapering off if you've been drinking heavy on any kind of a schedule routine - the withdraws can literally kill you - thats what happened to me - but your body will adjust if you ease off over the course of even just a week
@HOMIEHangout aight I'm doing about a 1/5 a night maybe a bit less but more then a pint I'll taper off , it's funny the same thing with coffee has happened with me I don't drink coffee in the morning anymore I stopped about 2 weeks ago appreciate you homie
I started with 1 tally n a shot it turned into 10 tally’s 211 n a pint of vodka 🤦🏻I’m clean now kicked slowly went to emergency 🚨 got meds n detoxed thank god
I was doing drugs and alcohol for 20 years. The last 2 years i did/sold ice everyday all day. Stayed up 9 days straight once. 6 years ago i quit everything except weed. Since i quit i am making more money than ever before, bought a house, my daughter is in college at 16, i bought her a car for her 16th birthday. I bought my girl an engagement ring( 20 years into our relationship) bought her a nice diamond ring for our 20th anniversary. Life just gets so much easier when you stop sabotaging yourself. I promise. I was 35 when i stopped. As long as youre still breathing it's not too late.
Mental health is so important and self care……I’ve had my battles with heroin addiction,I’m proud to say I’ve beat the hold it had on me…. Awesome video!
Great video, your channel covers a wide range of content! Keep the videos coming I appreciate the time and effort you put into your videos. I keep coming back for the re-up… thank you! 🙏
I needed this story. I've been a month sober and im taking it a day at a time. I know exactly how you feel.Ive Been drinking since the age of 15 and im 47 now.For a long time I thought that drinking only on the weekends was ok and i even accepted the fact that I was a functioning drunk. I know that at this age my body can't take it no more and I've had some scares so i decided that i want to live longer and make healthier choices when it comes to my health. Happy new years and keep up the good content.
Brother thank you for this. My wife is currently battling alcoholism, this helps me understand. My DOC was stimulants and dope but i was able to walk away cold trukey 9 yrs ago
I was an alcoholic for 20+ years. Although drugs also played a huge roll in my younger years ultimately, alcohol was my drug of choice. On Halloween 2024 I hit my 1 year anniversary of sobriety. If there’s a will, there’s a way. Stay strong brotha!
Great video Josh! I been in construction for the past 28 years and drank hard. All kinds of legal problems thru my 20’s, in and out of LA County more times than I can count. I put it down 6 years ago but never officially quit. Just took a “break” and I think that helps not tie any pressure to it. Old lady drinks and it doesn’t bother me at all
Bro that’s real. Whenever I touch on the hustling aspect of this story you’ll see - me selling ❄️ and drinking became very intertwined. And it was all a “poor me” trip internally .. look what you took from me, look what you’re forcing me to do, look what I’m sacrificing blah blah blah .. there was truth to it but I was also suddenly a teenager in a 40 yr old body selling powder, playing w/ my nose, running amok and that was 100% on me
@@HOMIEHangout The lines (no pun intended) get blurred quick when you start to associate one action with another, was half way through my bottle of whiskey before the Raider game and before I knew it I ordered up a bag to be delivered to the stadium parking lot like a dope fiend. Bit of shame getting out of bed this morning, but its a new day and we take it one step forward at a time.
@@HOMIEHangout I would love to see a video on your journey through education and the resources available through the California Community Colleges. Probably one of the most assessible and affordable tools available to people looking to refocus their lives and change the path they are on. Not sure how many views it would get but those who watch it will benefit.
I came from a good home and got introduced to heroin at 14. It teared my life apart for 25 years. 3 prison sentences but by the grace of gd today im clean and getting my life together. As u know I’m Australian and my city in the 90s was a heroin epidemic the culture was different than America back then all the dealers used. Anyways I just pray every addict can get clean one day and see what they are really missing out on
Very inspiring, we could outdrink anyone & still have a completly normal day/night..after using every substance under the sun- beer is definitely my crutch, hearing your story is helpful
I was an alcoholic for years it got so bad it cost me my career at DIA, I lost my ts clearance, and ended up homeless in SF. I was legit sleeping on the streets on the TL with a masters degree and 15 years of experience as a counter intelligence officer. I never once thought I had a problem. Only during the pandemic when I caught a battery and they offered me treatment did I even begin to recover. Thanks for sharing your story Josh it inspired me to share mine
@ it’s all good now brother. Been clean since 10/04/2020. I own my security company and do private intel work for PD’s. I helped gather intel for the fbi that ended up being used to raid Mayor Thao in Oakland
Thank you for sharing, and I respect your honesty. I have a little brother who has been battling alcoholism and has even been in treatment centers. He's put my parents and family thru a lot these laat few years. Currently, he's on he's trying to stay sober. As you pointed out, it's harder said then done nowadays as drinking is more acceptable than not. Take care and keep up the good content.
Respect Josh 🙏 someone needed to hear this today. We are never to young or old to start making the right choices. I was a junkie for 20 years man. Started at 13 and i turn 41 this month been clean almost 7 years now. God bless man looking forward to your Mondays keep it going. 🙏
19:10 lastly i was exactly the same way. i swore i’d never be a drug addicted alcohol like my father. i swore it was enough motivation. but it wasn’t one day at a time. i surrender every am ;) good day to be alive. thx for your videos man they truly help me
great idea on Mental Monday’s :) id love to share my story from growing up poor and with an incarcerated father to an Olympic champion. to rock bottom homeless lost everything divorced , remarried ( same woman rican 30 years ) addiction doesn’t discriminate. i think i sent u the link to me speaking at a venue called recovery Reinvented. i’ve never heard ur story but i know ur story perfectly !!! Alcohol withdrawal is so bad!!!! it’s amazing how bad it is and how quickly i forget ! great to hear this story id love to be on the program ;) 17:29 we all need a Billy in our lives !
You've spoken on Mental Health a lot before. I support Mental Health Mondays. I'd like to discuss things like- How do you act when you hear something you don't want to hear? Discussions on 'lashing out' or self medicating. Topics like that. Keep up the good work Homeboy.
Appreciate the suggestions - all good ones. Its a trip because when I went to make a playlist I realized how little I've covered it in recorded content lately - I weave it into other discussions of course and when I do a stand alone mental health video it usually doesn't hit views but the people who need to see it do. I want to start the Anger Management courses but it'll be a couple months probably. Trying to build a routine lil by lil. Another video coming in a few hours
This video might not get as many views as the Lefty video. But read all the great comments. I promise you homie this video touched and helped people out a lot more than the Lefty video. Your an inspiration and a great role model to a lot of us. Thanks homie.
Good video bro. You and the family are in my prayers. It's up to us to break the family cures we may have. We must lead our children by example. Stay focused brother in Christ Jesus Yeshua Messiah amen
Hey Josh, just subbed cause of that last vid about the government being involved… DEFOS HERE AND THE STATES HOMS BUT ALSO THIS ONE CLASS CAUSE ITS HONEST AND FROM THE HEART… keep it Homs I’ll be watching👍👍👍💯
I’m from East Palo Alto I remember you use to come talk to us in school or something like that I remember you from I use to kick it with tony sotelo and chon and them that’s crazy I instantly remembered you
Yessir thats me. Tap in w/ me offline homie I'd love to hear how you're doing and I'm still here to do what I can. Someone was just talking about the Skittles car the other day on a Live
Alcohol was my gateway! Every bad thing i did and all the narcotics i did the alcohol was the factor that opened up so many nasty doors and lead to other horrible addictions! My life would be so different if i never took that first drink
I been sober 2 n a half years. Never was a hard drug user like that, coke yea, meth nah. Weed, alcohol, xans. I wouldn't say i was addicted to them, but nore addicted to the feeling of being numb, and the same with being addicted to being a homeboy. It was 1st above everything.
Real Talk, not easy to self reflect like that. I did 3 tours in Iraq in the infantry in the early war years. I learned alcohol was a trigger and only caused me to spiral. Cut it all off I don’t drink at all now learned it’s not healthy and only destroys me personally. I’m glad you got to a spot where you identified and maneuvered on it.
Thank you for your service and for fighting your demons. I have a fair amount of friends and family that served. In fact in my interviews playlist I have a combo w/ my homeboy who is a combat vet - you might find it interesting.
@ will def check it out. We all got demons we are fighting. As I grow older I realize more and more people arnt to different we all are just trying to survive in this game and figure it out. Much love brother keep up the outstanding work.
Good words bruh. I think it's good that you haven't adopted this all-or-nothing viewpoint that's so common among users; proclaiming a sober days count from the town square is kinda goofy and unrealistic frankly. The pancreas barkin' at ya is a clear warning as you (now) know. It's a finicky organ, takes a lot of abuse in silence but when it gets pissed game time is over! Hang in, bro...your channel's awesome and we're gonna need ya around!
I appreciate you homie. Yeah once the pancreas waved the white flag it was Russian roulette .. I played a bit like a fool but, just like in the real game, if you keep playing you’re guaranteed to lose
Dealing with alcoholism for over 30 years and m feeling it...I'm just scared to stop cause my body might go into shock....don't know where to start unfortunately
Honestly that’s a legit concern - our bodies re-wires itself to accommodate the poison that is alcohol and as I’m sure you know going cold turkey can be fatal. I suggest starting to taper - you can look online and there are templates for schedules of how to do so based on how much you consume now. Best case scenario you have a Primary Care Dr you can get at but some don’t want that addiction on their medical record. I had to taper off tranquilizers when I came home from detoxing in the hospital and was in them a few weeks .. after being in the hospital a week. Of course all that’s just the first step but cutting back can build some confidence that helps us then start talking to someone. You can do this tho I’m sure if it and one day it will be too late to start, but it’s never too early.
I’m currently going through it rn. And it scares me because I’m seeing that I got to the point where I feel I can’t leave my pad unless I have a tall can or 2. May I ask how much a day you were drinking and what was your drink of choice?
Gil Scott heron- the bottle My whole family has had a problem with drinking and drugs. So much so that my father and grandfather and aunt pasted away in some way relating to drugs and drinking. I myself have recognized that if I don’t change certain habits I will go the same. It’s very easy to slip into the habit of drinking everyday. For me the biggest way to keep from drinking is to remember that it will ruin my plans to hit the gym and other hobbies and I care about that more because the accomplishment and endorphins I get from that is 100x what I get from drinking. Hobbies and outlets are super important to have a healthy recovery If your just chillin you gon say fuck it and have a beer
I quit drinking as well. It ruined a big part of my life, but im good now. I forgive myself even if others don't. You cant help others if you cant help yourself. What did you study at UC Berkeley? Go finish up that degree. Im almost done with mine hopefully it was worth the time.
Forgiving ourselves is *huge* and something I’ll cover in the future. I was a Sociology major and plan to go back even if it’s not Cal. I truly loved it going to school there and had amazing opportunities and support. When I go back I think I’ll switch to Social Welfare tho but idk. What’s your major? Are you at Cal or just mean you’re in school?
@@HOMIEHangout I wish it was Cal but no I'm at a CSU and studying poli sci. Yeah finish up your degree you got a lot of knowledge you can use to help others
What r your your thoughts on a person who is medically addicted to pills or is there even such athing i tried drugs when i was younger & come from a family of drinkers & heroine addicts but i was able to escape the pattern after seeing my homies dying from the drugs lost my close friend when i was 13 then watched them drop like Flys after that ,never did like alcohol watched it take out my dad decided that i didnt want to be like him so i just said no to drugs & booze at a young age crazy but here i am 69 years old addicted to pills that my Doctors put me on after i broke my neck believe you me its not what i want to be doing but it seems to me that i cant function normally like socially or work stuff like that without out the perks how does one stop when they fill justified because the Doctors give them to them(me) ?? I know about choice but feeling justified makes it hard to stop.
My condolences on your losses and yeah thats a rough spot. I think there s a difference between addiction and dependency. Sometimes we need to be on a medication long term and our body develops a dependency but our life has not become unmanageable from it and it is determined a legit medical necessity that we use as prescribed .. to me that is not the same as someone who should be off the pills and there is no longer a medical reason they're just hooked. Obviously I'm not in a position to judge for someone else thats between the person and their doctor but again, there is a difference
Most likely you need to taper off. I think sill do a video about that tomorrow because it’s coming up a lot. You absolutely can stop tho homie - may take a lil time and take a lot of work but you *can* do it because you can do *whatever* needs to be done homie 💯
Nah originally and officially San Francisco homie. I caught my case in Contra Costa Co and lived out there a couple years before that - and paroled back there for a year. I’ve been rooted in a few places throughout the Bay Area
*This is a long story, so don't trip on the length* , dawg. I'm not an alcoholic, compa, but when it comes to pisto, any alcohol in-general, I can't do it, don't wanna do it, doesn't interest me. Gotta have strong values and principles. Gotta be responsible, set an example, be a role model for those around you. Only socially I would drink brews with the Homies, I preferably bringing a water bottle, that's about it, and I hate heavy liquor, the Homies bring Vodka (cheap)... and I don't like Vodka one bit, nasty, hell no. And when it's like New Years, they got shot cups of some 40% Tequila, cases of brew, all sorts of liquor, and they're like "Otra! Otra!" back-to-back with the shots, like 2-4 shots in a row, and I have no tolerance to alcohol, since I don't even drink like that, real lightweight, heavy liquor when I drink it is straight up like poison to me, and my body is telling me I don't feel well, I feel sick, feel ill. They're trying to get me realll F'd up, right, but internally I'm like damn, since all the Homies been drinking since a teen. And later, everyone is blacked out, completely blacked out and snoring, but I'm the only one awake, I couldn't really sleep, took a while to sleep, finally slept... Haha. And later, the Homies want a ride... I usually sleep in the whip by myself for hours until I sober up, but this one time I would've caught a reallll bad DUI if I was stopped late at night. I was *completely* cross faded, lots of pisto, heavy liquor and sparked yesca from a big bong, the bowl was freshly packed, and completely filled up with loud AF top grade Califa pharmacy bud, hella mad THC, sparked the lighter for a good while, I took the first hits, took heavy hits, cleared the smoke for my hits and passed it... instantly faded, it was sooo loud and bud so strong, was coughing for a good while. Only socially I would do such things, but got real carried away, since you know kicking it with the Homies and rolas are blasting, talking about good times and whatnot, that time since my usual conscious was real F'd up, couldn't think straight with responsibility, straight up cross faded and seeing triplet of things, cross faded, right, and I have no tolerance to either, so it hit me extra raw hard, I was like "F it foo!!!" you know. No, can't be having that mindset, ain't a kid or juvenile anymore, ain't a youngster, I'm an adult. Can't be doing that ever again... Smh. That was irresponsible AF. I could've gotten a real bad DUI, could've hit somebody, and I have a Good Driver Discount, I don't get into accidents, never gotten pulled over. As an adult, I have a completely clean record, had to rehabilitate myself as a juvenile by the time I reached 18, and be the better man, a free man. I got a few dozens of beers in the garage, Modelo, Pacifico, Tecate, etc., they're all expired, once had like 10-15-year-old Coronas in the fridge, nobody drank them, to show you I don't really drink like that. Got heavy liquor in storage, it's all dusty, don't want to drink them, no interest. But here's the thing, dawg, I don't like drinking, because I see some of my Homies... Dude, they're grown AF adults, over 30-40+ years old, they got kids, like 2 daughters and whatnot, some of them legally gotten their kids taken away from them in court, not allowed to legally see their kids, paying child support, would have to go to court to if they want to see their kids. And I know many of them live on government assistance, some even got the actual Obama government free phones, so a Homie had like 10+ different Obama phones, cuz he keeps breaking them, $300 EBT / Snap, most are in severe poverty, a paisa at Home Depot makes more feria than them, the Homies are Americans, born and raised in the US, and some of them, they're obese like 300-400+ pounds, real unhealthy I would say. If it wasn't for their family, they'll be homeless. Dead serious. One of my homies as an example is just that all above, he had a jale, but he ONLY went once a week, barely made like $200 every paycheck, straight up lives on government assistance and living with his family in an apartment, I assume they pay all the bills for him, covered rent for him. All he does is spend his feria on pisto, he's always drunk, and when I drive the Homie around when we kick it, he's grown AF adult getting gray hair now btw, he never had a driver's license, never owned his own car, he's an American, ain't no paisa, and he tells me he wants to drive my whip... but I'm looking at him, his eyes are real bloodshot, cheeks are real flushed red and absolutely reeks of pisto, insanely strong smell, you could gag from the smell, it's that strong, that I gotta roll the windows down because he's like hotboxing the whip with insanely strong pisto reeking from him, all the pisto is sweating through his pores. And that particular Homie when I tell him no, he's trippin and mean AF when he's all pedo'd out, that I don't even want to kick with him anymore, because he's an a-hole, straight up the meanest person ever, so when he's 'sober' he's cool, that's the Homie, that's my Carnal, I try to look out for Homie, but when he's drunk or even tipsy, he's like a totally different person, he ain't even the same, even my other Homies said so, it's like a bipolar maniac episode or something, he's trippin, he'll insult you, disrespect you, shout aggressively at you, etc., he's drunk, right. And at this point, I think his livers are failing, because he gets insanely drunk just off a couple pistos, to the point he blacks out, he's a hardcore alcoholic, been drinking since he was a teen, blackout'd and straight snoring like Snorlax... he also has 2 daughters, his biological kids, I believe they'll never know him, because his hyna left him and they're being raised by another man, and my Homie tells me when that man sees him, he's mad dogging my Homie hella hard, but my Homie doesn't get it... and if you told him, he'll start trippin and getting angry, he doesn't take accountability, not even his Primos, his brothers and sisters, his jefita can help him, and the other Homies he knows from the varrio just want to drink in life. All he does is drink pisto every single day and every night, and strangely he plays a lot of video games on his brother's PS4, a lot of Call of Duty, GTA and whatnot. A Homie of mine told him, he started trippin, was punching the wall and all that... He even busted a beer run for a case at a liquor store, that case cost like $20... the HD camera caught him, and he told me he has a warrant from busting a mission for a beer run?!? So, you see how desperate he is to drink pisto at all cost. Other Homies tell me he's depressed, so he drinks a lot in life. I know this is getting real long, perro, and most foos wouldn't want to read this, but I type really fast (took keyboarding classes in school), but I wanted to share my experience on pisto and the hardcore alcoholics I know. So, my jefito, my pops, I don't know who he is, don't know his name, he abandoned me as a baby, he was never there in my life, there's no father name on my birth certificate, and when my relatives told me the stories about him, they pretty much told me he's a drug addict, pretty much a straight up tecato, and he lives in a homeless shelter. We could walk right by each other, and chances are we wouldn't even know that I'm his son, and that's my father. For real, that ain't no play. That's how it is. I don't want to be like him, and like my hardcore alcoholic Homies, who feel they always gotta drink to have a good time. That's why I don't like drugs or drink alcohol, don't even drink pisto like that, don't even spark yesca like that, I got yesca in storage and it's completely dried out, YEARS old, and definitely ain't NEVER touching no skante, no fentanyl, etc., because I first-hand seen what it does to people, heard plenty of stories of overdoses, lots of funerals, because they overdosed on fentanyl and destroyed a family's life. I rather be sober, drink water. Hope you continue staying sober, dawg. In the City of Santa Ana, in Orange County, Southern California, there's a lot of addicts, real smoked out people shouting at an invisible ghost, beefing with an invisible enemigo, a lot of tecatos, there's even Anglo-American White homeless people begging in the middle of the street in a heavily Chicano city, this city is like #2 after East LA in terms of Chicanos, and it trips me out, they even begged for money inside a taqueria, he was White, and all the customers were Raza and said no, shook their head.
And even if alcohol was prohibited in the US, like back in the early to mid-20th century, they'll be underground markets for the pisto and heavy liquor, Americans during the alcohol prohibition era even went to Tijuana to drink as much as they want.
Alcohol is the slow killer!!! I’d only smoke weed !! Kept me out of trouble for last 20 years!! When you drink you end up getting high on the real stuff. My experience
Man I'm light weight going through this right now I need to slow down a bit I never drank until 3 years ago I always hated alcohol but the past few months I stopped smoking pot maybe 6 months ago and then I started drinking a bit and now I'm drinking at night a lot .
Get a handle on it before you can’t. Also, zoom meetings at aaguts. It’s world wide, gave me a lot of insight.
78 days today after nightly for 20 years.
It can creep up on you for sure. I'd suggest tapering off if you've been drinking heavy on any kind of a schedule routine - the withdraws can literally kill you - thats what happened to me - but your body will adjust if you ease off over the course of even just a week
@HOMIEHangout aight I'm doing about a 1/5 a night maybe a bit less but more then a pint I'll taper off , it's funny the same thing with coffee has happened with me I don't drink coffee in the morning anymore I stopped about 2 weeks ago appreciate you homie
I stopped on Xmas if you’re hooked go to emergency they give you meds for the shakes
I started with 1 tally n a shot it turned into 10 tally’s 211 n a pint of vodka 🤦🏻I’m clean now kicked slowly went to emergency 🚨 got meds n detoxed thank god
I was doing drugs and alcohol for 20 years. The last 2 years i did/sold ice everyday all day. Stayed up 9 days straight once. 6 years ago i quit everything except weed. Since i quit i am making more money than ever before, bought a house, my daughter is in college at 16, i bought her a car for her 16th birthday. I bought my girl an engagement ring( 20 years into our relationship) bought her a nice diamond ring for our 20th anniversary. Life just gets so much easier when you stop sabotaging yourself. I promise. I was 35 when i stopped. As long as youre still breathing it's not too late.
I love this! As long as we’re living we have a choice - it’s that message that brought me to my faith. Props to you and thanks for the encouragement
@BoatGoatTv damn brother dem shadow people must of been righteously fierce
Mental health is so important and self care……I’ve had my battles with heroin addiction,I’m proud to say I’ve beat the hold it had on me….
Awesome video!
Great video, your channel covers a wide range of content! Keep the videos coming I appreciate the time and effort you put into your videos. I keep coming back for the re-up… thank you! 🙏
This channel is about to blow up bro you’re showing up on a lot of people’s radar the algo is showing you love rn keep up the good work sir.
I needed this story. I've been a month sober and im taking it a day at a time. I know exactly how you feel.Ive Been drinking since the age of 15 and im 47 now.For a long time I thought that drinking only on the weekends was ok and i even accepted the fact that I was a functioning drunk. I know that at this age my body can't take it no more and I've had some scares so i decided that i want to live longer and make healthier choices when it comes to my health. Happy new years and keep up the good content.
That’s amazing - the key is to take it one day at a time, you got this 🙏🏼.
Brother thank you for this. My wife is currently battling alcoholism, this helps me understand. My DOC was stimulants and dope but i was able to walk away cold trukey 9 yrs ago
I was an alcoholic for 20+ years. Although drugs also played a huge roll in my younger years ultimately, alcohol was my drug of choice. On Halloween 2024 I hit my 1 year anniversary of sobriety. If there’s a will, there’s a way. Stay strong brotha!
Great video Josh! I been in construction for the past 28 years and drank hard. All kinds of legal problems thru my 20’s, in and out of LA County more times than I can count. I put it down 6 years ago but never officially quit. Just took a “break” and I think that helps not tie any pressure to it. Old lady drinks and it doesn’t bother me at all
Great topic and video. I had a slip up yesterday with some blow and really wish I hadn’t, binge drinking can really be a slippery slope.
Bro that’s real. Whenever I touch on the hustling aspect of this story you’ll see - me selling ❄️ and drinking became very intertwined. And it was all a “poor me” trip internally .. look what you took from me, look what you’re forcing me to do, look what I’m sacrificing blah blah blah .. there was truth to it but I was also suddenly a teenager in a 40 yr old body selling powder, playing w/ my nose, running amok and that was 100% on me
@@HOMIEHangout The lines (no pun intended) get blurred quick when you start to associate one action with another, was half way through my bottle of whiskey before the Raider game and before I knew it I ordered up a bag to be delivered to the stadium parking lot like a dope fiend. Bit of shame getting out of bed this morning, but its a new day and we take it one step forward at a time.
@@HOMIEHangout I would love to see a video on your journey through education and the resources available through the California Community Colleges. Probably one of the most assessible and affordable tools available to people looking to refocus their lives and change the path they are on.
Not sure how many views it would get but those who watch it will benefit.
I came from a good home and got introduced to heroin at 14. It teared my life apart for 25 years. 3 prison sentences but by the grace of gd today im clean and getting my life together. As u know I’m Australian and my city in the 90s was a heroin epidemic the culture was different than America back then all the dealers used. Anyways I just pray every addict can get clean one day and see what they are really missing out on
Very inspiring, we could outdrink anyone & still have a completly normal day/night..after using every substance under the sun- beer is definitely my crutch, hearing your story is helpful
I was an alcoholic for years it got so bad it cost me my career at DIA, I lost my ts clearance, and ended up homeless in SF. I was legit sleeping on the streets on the TL with a masters degree and 15 years of experience as a counter intelligence officer. I never once thought I had a problem. Only during the pandemic when I caught a battery and they offered me treatment did I even begin to recover. Thanks for sharing your story Josh it inspired me to share mine
That’s intense. I hope life is looking up for you now 🙏🏼 Thank you for the transparency
@ it’s all good now brother. Been clean since 10/04/2020. I own my security company and do private intel work for PD’s. I helped gather intel for the fbi that ended up being used to raid Mayor Thao in Oakland
@@HOMIEHangoutyou shohld interview this guy. He had an interesting job counter intelligence wow that’s insane I dunno what dia is tho
@@HKRAQ we need an interview!
@ I’m down if Josh is down
Few, that was big.Josh, keep pushing and blessings will find you
Looking forward to Mental Health Monday's 💪
Man i really apperctte your honesty this channel is really grown on me your going to go far big thumbs up
Thanks for sharing and it was good to know more of your story I'm in the rooms myself and recovering addict and alcoholic
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Thank you for sharing, and I respect your honesty. I have a little brother who has been battling alcoholism and has even been in treatment centers. He's put my parents and family thru a lot these laat few years. Currently, he's on he's trying to stay sober. As you pointed out, it's harder said then done nowadays as drinking is more acceptable than not. Take care and keep up the good content.
I hope he finds his way 🙏🏼
Respect Josh 🙏 someone needed to hear this today. We are never to young or old to start making the right choices. I was a junkie for 20 years man. Started at 13 and i turn 41 this month been clean almost 7 years now. God bless man looking forward to your Mondays keep it going. 🙏
🙏🏼 appreciate you sharing your story bro - Monday’s for the win!
Good stuffff brothaaaa!!!
19:10 lastly i was exactly the same way. i swore i’d never be a drug addicted alcohol like my father. i swore it was enough motivation. but it wasn’t
one day at a time.
i surrender every am ;) good day to be alive. thx for your videos man
they truly help me
great idea on Mental Monday’s :)
id love to share my story from growing up poor and with an incarcerated father to an Olympic champion.
to rock bottom homeless lost everything divorced , remarried ( same woman rican 30 years )
addiction doesn’t discriminate.
i think i sent u the link to me speaking at a venue called recovery Reinvented. i’ve never heard ur story but i know ur story perfectly !!! Alcohol withdrawal is so bad!!!! it’s amazing how bad it is and how quickly i forget ! great to hear this story id love to be on the program ;) 17:29
we all need a Billy in our lives !
Addiction is a funny thing. Sneaky, conniving, always present.
I salute you for your honesty 🙏🏽
You've spoken on Mental Health a lot before. I support Mental Health Mondays.
I'd like to discuss things like- How do you act when you hear something you don't want to hear? Discussions on 'lashing out' or self medicating. Topics like that. Keep up the good work Homeboy.
Appreciate the suggestions - all good ones. Its a trip because when I went to make a playlist I realized how little I've covered it in recorded content lately - I weave it into other discussions of course and when I do a stand alone mental health video it usually doesn't hit views but the people who need to see it do. I want to start the Anger Management courses but it'll be a couple months probably. Trying to build a routine lil by lil. Another video coming in a few hours
This video might not get as many views as the Lefty video. But read all the great comments. I promise you homie this video touched and helped people out a lot more than the Lefty video. Your an inspiration and a great role model to a lot of us. Thanks homie.
I appreciate you saying that homie - I'm trying to touch on a range of topics and yes, the comments are 🏆
Thanks for the this video frfr we need more awareness like this , c/r
WOW !! crazy story the same as alot people!! "Thank you" for being honest 👍
Honest conversation. Real G (Man) shit. Much Respect.
Good video bro. You and the family are in my prayers. It's up to us to break the family cures we may have. We must lead our children by example. Stay focused brother in Christ Jesus Yeshua Messiah amen
Thank you for sharing this
Hey Josh, just subbed cause of that last vid about the government being involved… DEFOS HERE AND THE STATES HOMS BUT ALSO THIS ONE CLASS CAUSE ITS HONEST AND FROM THE HEART… keep it Homs I’ll be watching👍👍👍💯
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Good spiel thanks for sharing
Salute Homie Hangout 🫡
I’m from East Palo Alto I remember you use to come talk to us in school or something like that I remember you from I use to kick it with tony sotelo and chon and them that’s crazy I instantly remembered you
Yessir thats me. Tap in w/ me offline homie I'd love to hear how you're doing and I'm still here to do what I can. Someone was just talking about the Skittles car the other day on a Live
Alcohol was my gateway! Every bad thing i did and all the narcotics i did the alcohol was the factor that opened up so many nasty doors and lead to other horrible addictions! My life would be so different if i never took that first drink
Crazy thing is it is all in your head. One day at a time.
Nice video it's really helpful 👍
I been sober 2 n a half years. Never was a hard drug user like that, coke yea, meth nah. Weed, alcohol, xans. I wouldn't say i was addicted to them, but nore addicted to the feeling of being numb, and the same with being addicted to being a homeboy. It was 1st above everything.
Órale Great content Rascal keep it coming💯🫡
Real Talk, not easy to self reflect like that. I did 3 tours in Iraq in the infantry in the early war years. I learned alcohol was a trigger and only caused me to spiral. Cut it all off I don’t drink at all now learned it’s not healthy and only destroys me personally. I’m glad you got to a spot where you identified and maneuvered on it.
Thank you for your service and for fighting your demons. I have a fair amount of friends and family that served. In fact in my interviews playlist I have a combo w/ my homeboy who is a combat vet - you might find it interesting.
@ will def check it out. We all got demons we are fighting. As I grow older I realize more and more people arnt to different we all are just trying to survive in this game and figure it out. Much love brother keep up the outstanding work.
Checking in carnal
Good words bruh. I think it's good that you haven't adopted this all-or-nothing viewpoint that's so common among users; proclaiming a sober days count from the town square is kinda goofy and unrealistic frankly. The pancreas barkin' at ya is a clear warning as you (now) know. It's a finicky organ, takes a lot of abuse in silence but when it gets pissed game time is over!
Hang in, bro...your channel's awesome and we're gonna need ya around!
I appreciate you homie. Yeah once the pancreas waved the white flag it was Russian roulette .. I played a bit like a fool but, just like in the real game, if you keep playing you’re guaranteed to lose
Great topic 💯💯💯💯
Saludos. Hope. You. Have. A. Good. Recovery. Sincerely
Dealing with alcoholism for over 30 years and m feeling it...I'm just scared to stop cause my body might go into shock....don't know where to start unfortunately
Honestly that’s a legit concern - our bodies re-wires itself to accommodate the poison that is alcohol and as I’m sure you know going cold turkey can be fatal. I suggest starting to taper - you can look online and there are templates for schedules of how to do so based on how much you consume now. Best case scenario you have a Primary Care Dr you can get at but some don’t want that addiction on their medical record. I had to taper off tranquilizers when I came home from detoxing in the hospital and was in them a few weeks .. after being in the hospital a week. Of course all that’s just the first step but cutting back can build some confidence that helps us then start talking to someone. You can do this tho I’m sure if it and one day it will be too late to start, but it’s never too early.
@HOMIEHangout thank you man some really great advice...I'm gonna start with that.
REAL SPIL 💯
I’m currently going through it rn. And it scares me because I’m seeing that I got to the point where I feel I can’t leave my pad unless I have a tall can or 2. May I ask how much a day you were drinking and what was your drink of choice?
The truth!!
I also had a problem with alcohol
Yes Sir!!!
Yea i see what Mix3motions talking about...no numbers if you dont talk about the Sur 🔵🔵🔵
What up man it's been a minute
Clean & Sober 20 years🙏🏽
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Gil Scott heron- the bottle
My whole family has had a problem with drinking and drugs. So much so that my father and grandfather and aunt pasted away in some way relating to drugs and drinking.
I myself have recognized that if I don’t change certain habits I will go the same. It’s very easy to slip into the habit of drinking everyday.
For me the biggest way to keep from drinking is to remember that it will ruin my plans to hit the gym and other hobbies and I care about that more because the accomplishment and endorphins I get from that is 100x what I get from drinking.
Hobbies and outlets are super important to have a healthy recovery
If your just chillin you gon say fuck it and have a beer
Such a good point. Hobbies has always been a foreign subject to me but I’m working on it. That will be a future video for sure 💯
I quit drinking as well. It ruined a big part of my life, but im good now. I forgive myself even if others don't. You cant help others if you cant help yourself. What did you study at UC Berkeley? Go finish up that degree. Im almost done with mine hopefully it was worth the time.
Forgiving ourselves is *huge* and something I’ll cover in the future. I was a Sociology major and plan to go back even if it’s not Cal. I truly loved it going to school there and had amazing opportunities and support. When I go back I think I’ll switch to Social Welfare tho but idk. What’s your major? Are you at Cal or just mean you’re in school?
@@HOMIEHangout I wish it was Cal but no I'm at a CSU and studying poli sci. Yeah finish up your degree you got a lot of knowledge you can use to help others
How did you quit thou?
We called it smokin n pokin 😂
😂 that’s classic
14 months sober, please everyone study some psychology and A&P for yourself, need to know how you operate.
Agreed but I’m curious - what does A&P stand for? My guess is anatomy and physiology? Lmao.
What r your your thoughts on a person who is medically addicted to pills or is there even such athing i tried drugs when i was younger & come from a family of drinkers & heroine addicts but i was able to escape the pattern after seeing my homies dying from the drugs lost my close friend when i was 13 then watched them drop like Flys after that ,never did like alcohol watched it take out my dad decided that i didnt want to be like him so i just said no to drugs & booze at a young age crazy but here i am 69 years old addicted to pills that my Doctors put me on after i broke my neck believe you me its not what i want to be doing but it seems to me that i cant function normally like socially or work stuff like that without out the perks how does one stop when they fill justified because the Doctors give them to them(me) ?? I know about choice but feeling justified makes it hard to stop.
My condolences on your losses and yeah thats a rough spot. I think there s a difference between addiction and dependency. Sometimes we need to be on a medication long term and our body develops a dependency but our life has not become unmanageable from it and it is determined a legit medical necessity that we use as prescribed .. to me that is not the same as someone who should be off the pills and there is no longer a medical reason they're just hooked. Obviously I'm not in a position to judge for someone else thats between the person and their doctor but again, there is a difference
Hey josh how do i know if i can stop drinking .n not get with draws
Most likely you need to taper off. I think sill do a video about that tomorrow because it’s coming up a lot. You absolutely can stop tho homie - may take a lil time and take a lot of work but you *can* do it because you can do *whatever* needs to be done homie 💯
Will celebrate 29yrs Jan 15. Get a good Therapist find an AA or NA group near you and break the Cycle!!!!!!!!
Spoke it to existing
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Just by the title I can say the same
You from frisco I thought east bay
Nah originally and officially San Francisco homie. I caught my case in Contra Costa Co and lived out there a couple years before that - and paroled back there for a year. I’ve been rooted in a few places throughout the Bay Area
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Liquor hell of a drug…
Bro you gotta remake a video about why you went to prison for the new viewers
I will this week
I will this week
@@HOMIEHangoutayyy, I support this!
*This is a long story, so don't trip on the length* , dawg. I'm not an alcoholic, compa, but when it comes to pisto, any alcohol in-general, I can't do it, don't wanna do it, doesn't interest me. Gotta have strong values and principles. Gotta be responsible, set an example, be a role model for those around you.
Only socially I would drink brews with the Homies, I preferably bringing a water bottle, that's about it, and I hate heavy liquor, the Homies bring Vodka (cheap)... and I don't like Vodka one bit, nasty, hell no. And when it's like New Years, they got shot cups of some 40% Tequila, cases of brew, all sorts of liquor, and they're like "Otra! Otra!" back-to-back with the shots, like 2-4 shots in a row, and I have no tolerance to alcohol, since I don't even drink like that, real lightweight, heavy liquor when I drink it is straight up like poison to me, and my body is telling me I don't feel well, I feel sick, feel ill.
They're trying to get me realll F'd up, right, but internally I'm like damn, since all the Homies been drinking since a teen. And later, everyone is blacked out, completely blacked out and snoring, but I'm the only one awake, I couldn't really sleep, took a while to sleep, finally slept... Haha. And later, the Homies want a ride... I usually sleep in the whip by myself for hours until I sober up, but this one time I would've caught a reallll bad DUI if I was stopped late at night. I was *completely* cross faded, lots of pisto, heavy liquor and sparked yesca from a big bong, the bowl was freshly packed, and completely filled up with loud AF top grade Califa pharmacy bud, hella mad THC, sparked the lighter for a good while, I took the first hits, took heavy hits, cleared the smoke for my hits and passed it... instantly faded, it was sooo loud and bud so strong, was coughing for a good while.
Only socially I would do such things, but got real carried away, since you know kicking it with the Homies and rolas are blasting, talking about good times and whatnot, that time since my usual conscious was real F'd up, couldn't think straight with responsibility, straight up cross faded and seeing triplet of things, cross faded, right, and I have no tolerance to either, so it hit me extra raw hard, I was like "F it foo!!!" you know. No, can't be having that mindset, ain't a kid or juvenile anymore, ain't a youngster, I'm an adult. Can't be doing that ever again... Smh. That was irresponsible AF. I could've gotten a real bad DUI, could've hit somebody, and I have a Good Driver Discount, I don't get into accidents, never gotten pulled over. As an adult, I have a completely clean record, had to rehabilitate myself as a juvenile by the time I reached 18, and be the better man, a free man.
I got a few dozens of beers in the garage, Modelo, Pacifico, Tecate, etc., they're all expired, once had like 10-15-year-old Coronas in the fridge, nobody drank them, to show you I don't really drink like that. Got heavy liquor in storage, it's all dusty, don't want to drink them, no interest.
But here's the thing, dawg, I don't like drinking, because I see some of my Homies... Dude, they're grown AF adults, over 30-40+ years old, they got kids, like 2 daughters and whatnot, some of them legally gotten their kids taken away from them in court, not allowed to legally see their kids, paying child support, would have to go to court to if they want to see their kids. And I know many of them live on government assistance, some even got the actual Obama government free phones, so a Homie had like 10+ different Obama phones, cuz he keeps breaking them, $300 EBT / Snap, most are in severe poverty, a paisa at Home Depot makes more feria than them, the Homies are Americans, born and raised in the US, and some of them, they're obese like 300-400+ pounds, real unhealthy I would say. If it wasn't for their family, they'll be homeless. Dead serious.
One of my homies as an example is just that all above, he had a jale, but he ONLY went once a week, barely made like $200 every paycheck, straight up lives on government assistance and living with his family in an apartment, I assume they pay all the bills for him, covered rent for him. All he does is spend his feria on pisto, he's always drunk, and when I drive the Homie around when we kick it, he's grown AF adult getting gray hair now btw, he never had a driver's license, never owned his own car, he's an American, ain't no paisa, and he tells me he wants to drive my whip... but I'm looking at him, his eyes are real bloodshot, cheeks are real flushed red and absolutely reeks of pisto, insanely strong smell, you could gag from the smell, it's that strong, that I gotta roll the windows down because he's like hotboxing the whip with insanely strong pisto reeking from him, all the pisto is sweating through his pores.
And that particular Homie when I tell him no, he's trippin and mean AF when he's all pedo'd out, that I don't even want to kick with him anymore, because he's an a-hole, straight up the meanest person ever, so when he's 'sober' he's cool, that's the Homie, that's my Carnal, I try to look out for Homie, but when he's drunk or even tipsy, he's like a totally different person, he ain't even the same, even my other Homies said so, it's like a bipolar maniac episode or something, he's trippin, he'll insult you, disrespect you, shout aggressively at you, etc., he's drunk, right.
And at this point, I think his livers are failing, because he gets insanely drunk just off a couple pistos, to the point he blacks out, he's a hardcore alcoholic, been drinking since he was a teen, blackout'd and straight snoring like Snorlax... he also has 2 daughters, his biological kids, I believe they'll never know him, because his hyna left him and they're being raised by another man, and my Homie tells me when that man sees him, he's mad dogging my Homie hella hard, but my Homie doesn't get it... and if you told him, he'll start trippin and getting angry, he doesn't take accountability, not even his Primos, his brothers and sisters, his jefita can help him, and the other Homies he knows from the varrio just want to drink in life. All he does is drink pisto every single day and every night, and strangely he plays a lot of video games on his brother's PS4, a lot of Call of Duty, GTA and whatnot. A Homie of mine told him, he started trippin, was punching the wall and all that... He even busted a beer run for a case at a liquor store, that case cost like $20... the HD camera caught him, and he told me he has a warrant from busting a mission for a beer run?!? So, you see how desperate he is to drink pisto at all cost. Other Homies tell me he's depressed, so he drinks a lot in life.
I know this is getting real long, perro, and most foos wouldn't want to read this, but I type really fast (took keyboarding classes in school), but I wanted to share my experience on pisto and the hardcore alcoholics I know.
So, my jefito, my pops, I don't know who he is, don't know his name, he abandoned me as a baby, he was never there in my life, there's no father name on my birth certificate, and when my relatives told me the stories about him, they pretty much told me he's a drug addict, pretty much a straight up tecato, and he lives in a homeless shelter. We could walk right by each other, and chances are we wouldn't even know that I'm his son, and that's my father. For real, that ain't no play. That's how it is. I don't want to be like him, and like my hardcore alcoholic Homies, who feel they always gotta drink to have a good time.
That's why I don't like drugs or drink alcohol, don't even drink pisto like that, don't even spark yesca like that, I got yesca in storage and it's completely dried out, YEARS old, and definitely ain't NEVER touching no skante, no fentanyl, etc., because I first-hand seen what it does to people, heard plenty of stories of overdoses, lots of funerals, because they overdosed on fentanyl and destroyed a family's life.
I rather be sober, drink water. Hope you continue staying sober, dawg. In the City of Santa Ana, in Orange County, Southern California, there's a lot of addicts, real smoked out people shouting at an invisible ghost, beefing with an invisible enemigo, a lot of tecatos, there's even Anglo-American White homeless people begging in the middle of the street in a heavily Chicano city, this city is like #2 after East LA in terms of Chicanos, and it trips me out, they even begged for money inside a taqueria, he was White, and all the customers were Raza and said no, shook their head.
And even if alcohol was prohibited in the US, like back in the early to mid-20th century, they'll be underground markets for the pisto and heavy liquor, Americans during the alcohol prohibition era even went to Tijuana to drink as much as they want.
Damn homie that's deep. I feel you on wanting to be a role model for your fam and community. Keep it up 🙏
Can’t I believe I actually enjoyed reading this 😂
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Alcohol is the slow killer!!! I’d only smoke weed !! Kept me out of trouble for last 20 years!! When you drink you end up getting high on the real stuff. My experience